#and maybe how to stop performing

[rat-rosemary]

tbh I think meeting irl now would not really fix their relationship, it'd be very uncomfortable like you said, but maybe would push tommy to re-think some stuff. Maybe seeing him right there could maybe make him consider talk to thim (something he might have considered before based on how he unblocked dream to qrt him and also let him anwser) but also think that it might make him spiral bc of the same reasons bc like you said he seesm insecure about his stance on their failling out and his position as a creator so seeing dream might make him spiral harder. Sadly dont think there's gonna be a fix to their relationship any time soon. I believe it could happen, but when both are on a better place, dream's getting there but tommy no really rn. I think tommy's mental healthy might improve if he took a break from social media, and talked even just casual short conversations with real people outside the streaming world but idk if he will

Thats the thing, my personal parasocial theory is that Tommy is already rethinking some stuff, and thats why he's going for aí for reassurance that he could easily get from his friends. Thats why the aí, which has no morality of its own and will just yes man everything you feed it because it has no idea what its saying, its giving him neutal/opposite responses.

I 100% think what he really needs is to take a long break from social media and from any entertainment plans he might have going and to step away from his friend group, because they genuinely are stuck in a feedback loop. Tubbo and Aimsey (who are the ones I know the most about) for example also show obvious signs of being influenced by this friend group (and their audiences) for the worst

(But this isn't a unique evil to them. There's a trend in the younger generation towards more conservative, puritan and aggressive ideals as an attempt to protect themselves in a quickly changing world. The idea is that if everyone just falls in line then they'll be safe, so it must be the fault of the Other for putting them in danger)

(It's not hard to see how they got there and it's an extremely hard ideology to break free from, since it usually comes from trauma and promises you an easy solution, and these people are young and scared. I'm not much older btw. Being young and scared can drive you absolutely crazy, and humans will do anything when terrified and looking for community)

I do think they could fix their relationship, or well, build a new one, Tommy just needs a more stable ground and to learn to respect others a little more

[art--harridan]

[Image description: A traditional drawing of Joe Schmo from the film Suburbia. It is drawn with a black brush pen, with gel pen colouring for his jacket and jeans - giving them a denim look. There's small details drawn with a white gel pen, and a red coloured pencil is used to draw Joe's blush, details on his jacket, and an outline around him. Joe is looking off to the side with his head tilted and his mouth open. He looks spaced out. His hair is medium length and messily teased up. He wears denim jeans and a denim jacket with lots of self-made embellishments, like the word "nuisance" on a blackened sleeve. Behind him, there's a rectangle of watercolour splotches, an array of yellows, oranges and greens. These colours peek through the drawing of him. Behind the colours, the background is the off-white of paper.]

Joe Schmo - Suburbia (Penelope Spheeris, 1983)

[honourablepranksinatra]

Maple Leafs discourse on their team social medias makes me lose brain cells because wdym they're first in their division and coming off a 5 game win streak & people are commenting that the top players are only in it for the money and have no drive, that particular players are useless and need to be traded asap, that they're a garbage team, that they'll never make it past the first round just because they lost one game.

Apparently because they are being payed handsomely the players must be mindless automatons who perform perfectly every night. It drives me absolutely nuts how quickly alleged fans will completely turn on their own team.

[gemini-queen42]

pspspspspsps

A little doodle for inbetween refs <3 lumibabsworth in intent technically but read as you will.

[petorahs]

what is it about avenday that makes me snap and go crazy with my art i wonder

[twpsyn-who]

People saying "Don't boycott Eurovision or Israel will win!!" - they already won the second they got past the semifinals. Israel is going to be the winner of this year, especially with the way things are going down at the moment.

You wanted Israel to not win? You guys should've made sure they didn't get to the finals to begin with- though I wouldn't doubt EBU would've changed some votes or pulled some bullshit to add Israel in the finals regardless of making it or not.

[moonchild-in-blue]

Bon Iver, Bon Iver Jagjauwar Session will save me 🖤

[bat-the-misfit]

sei não

[megatraven]

it's been so long since i rewatched the Unsaid Emily episode of JATP but holy, shit does it still hit so fucking hard

when luke's hiding in the bushes outside of his parents' house because he misses them- misses his mother- and regrets the way he ran off, but was too proud to apologize. and maybe too full of guilt and regret to come back before he did what he set out to do.

but he missed her and she missed him and he wrote an entire song about it and his band sang it together and im just 😭😭😭😭

maybe after his band played at the orpheum he would have gone back. maybe he could have gone back and said "look! i did it! im sorry for leaving but i did it! can i come home now?"

maybe that would have been enough to start mending the gap

maybe they would have had a chance to play more than one song, and maybe the second would have been Unsaid Emily, and maybe she would have known. maybe she would have been standing by the door waiting for him to come back.

but he dies, and the song is lost for twenty years, and his mother never knew that he was so sorry or that he even thought about her after running away, not until julie.

he gets the chance to finally say everything he always meant to say to her, he gets to see his mother read his old words and read the love in them.

im nearly sobbing from this scene again it's so fucking good. so powerful.

[offthewall1979]

if i were producing LIML i would've said Yes beg beg is good but also Don't be afraid to whine and be pathetic

[chryso-chryso]

好风起 / A Good Wind Rises 

(youtube / spotify)

singer: Zhou Shen 周深 lyrics: Tang Tian 唐恬 score, arrangement: Qian Lei 钱雷

tang tian where are your repeating stanzas

我信雨下得凶

i trust the rain falls hard 

也相信过了雨 总有好风

and that after each rain / is a good wind 

信白手 信它不负我

trust the hand / trust it won't fail me

我信人站着哭

i trust your crying image 

不知该往哪走 那种时刻

not knowing where to go / that one moment 

信哭完又 背包踏过路口

trust that after / you’ll walk even further

信那薪酬买得到的不心忧

trust that salary can buy a calm season

信入睡的枕头

trust the bed you sleep in 

信我白手起的 辛苦赚给我的

trust that my raising hand / was earned by me alone

值得更好的一个理由

earning an even better reason 

我信时代轰隆隆地来 不转弯

i trust the era will rumble towards us / without fight

我信没有比向前更美的姿态

i trust there's no greater view than ahead of us

信我每日清晨前往的车站

i trust every depot in the morning light 

好风来了 助我凭脚踝翻过山

a good wind’s come / helping me to overturn hills 

好风吹它一个白手起 才痛快

a good wind raises its good hand up / and then smiles

就凭我 无名闯繁城 盖梦中楼

lean on me / nameless in this city / letting dreams hatch

就凭我 徒手摘星辰 从无到有

lean on me / bare hands seizing the stars / starting from scratch 

我信我的渴望

i trust my desire 

它是从前的我 给我的光

is my past image gifting me fire

信它说 得你想要的

trust it says / work for what you want

我信城中诸位

i trust this city’s masse

虽乡音和过往 不尽相同

distinct accents and paths / still, we’re the same 

也举起杯 祝你乘风破浪

and raise a glass / may you go boldly on 

信那理想要比金子还难得 敢相信更难得

trust this ideal is even rarer than gold / to believe, even rarer 

信我白手起的 是我赚给我的

trust that my raising hand / was earned by me alone

值得更好的每个以后

earning an even better after 

我信时代轰隆隆地来 不转弯

i trust the era will rumble towards us / without fight

我信没有比向前更美的姿态

i trust there's no greater view than ahead of us

信我每日清晨前往的车站

i trust every depot in the morning light 

好风来了 助我凭脚踝翻过山

a good wind’s come / helping me to overturn hills 

好风吹它一个挥着旗扬我帆

a good wind blows, waving its hand, raising my sails

要去哪 要跨海行船 不胜不还

where’ll you go? across seas: set sail / don't stop, don't fail 

信那一年 我出站后

trust that one year / when i’ve set forth

第一眼 燃烧着的天空

right away / setting the sky alight

信旧背包 信绿灯走

trust this old pack / trust this green light

信倒映前方 的眼眸

trust the forward path / in these eyes 

我信人啊一 关关地过不简单

i trust people, oh, pulling through in spite 

我信你我在各自的山 迎着战

i trust you and i, at our own heights / facing fight

那片海有多蓝定要去看看

how blue’s the water like? oh, it’ll be a sight

好风来啊看我是怎样的世代

a good wind’s come, whatever may be this new dawn 

所追的梦指向那星河随我来

all dreams i chase point to those stars i smile upon

白手起 我手起繁城 过去未来

my hand lifts / lifting this city / and i go on 

要去哪 要跨海行船 不胜不还

where’ll you go? across seas: set sail / don't stop, don't fail

[e77y]

Hiiii trying to kill time til my second audition of the day

[rising-phnx]

there are benefits to being a teacher's pet

[unproduciblesmackdown]

Full Tech Day One pic today from kiko laureano (denizen of skid row / ensemble) & video (that's four seconds of "ya never know" playing over the static image) from & ft. marcia milgrom dodge (director / choreographer) double captioning "there might be puppets in this musical ;)" & "Well Shake my hand! Come see LITTLE SHOP OF HORRORS @guthrietheater featuring @actually_will_roland's hand!"

[strxnged]

cis women does presenting femme feel like a costume/pos to you

[clockworksheep2]

thought my hair was long enough to braid finally even if it was a little one but noooo the sides are not long enough to pull back into any sort of braid yet 😔 maaaaybe i can try a dutch braid or smth but auugghhh (also i am learning that braiding ur own hair is rly hard fbfkdl it would be easier to learn if i had longer hair but alas !!!)

im partially disappointed bc i just want to be able to braid it finally, but mostly i am disappointed bc i rly wanted to wear it in a braid for the concert 😭😭😭 OH WELLLL