#and that includes making sure theyre fed and stuff

[doubledudeski]

pics that make you go "oh I KNOW he eated a trash"

[flora-bigs]

DAMN this is truly forbidden...

MOTHER FUCKER. i might literally just have to post it as a tumbly post. under the readmore i guess

flower: been having small daydreams abt heathers slash fic queen robyn: heather? flower: heathers flower: the hit 1989 movie starring winona ryder and christian slater queen robyn: never heard of it flower: mean girls if mean girls was good + included murder queen robyn: oh fuck

flower: i wanna watch it as a family before we do the monsterhearts thing flower: it's a REALLY dark comedy queen robyn: pffffft ok but "watch it as a family" is legit queen robyn: the CUTEST thing you ever said flower: not as cute as my unwritten heathers slash fic flower: where heather chandler doesn't die but instead has a gay crisis involving veronica queen robyn: kill her with love flower: and heather macnamara and heather duke hook up on the side queen robyn: and maybe some casual feeding queen robyn: theres multiple heathers? queen robyn: well, i guess its in the name

flower: yeah they're all named heather flower: heather chandler, heather duke, heather macnamara and veronica sawyer flower: veronica gets to hang out with them mostly because she's really good at forging handwriting queen robyn: and theyre popular girls so im sure theyre all brats flower: of course they are flower: Veronica's not but she hangs out with them and like flower: is complacent in brattiness

flower: ive never seen jawbreaker but it has the same plot as heathers im p sure (accidental murder) but there's a line in it where the popular girls are gonna find someone, tie her to the flagpole and 'stuff her pretty face with pancakes' flower: so what if the heathers @ veronica queen robyn: SWEATS

flower: at some point veronica wrongs the heathers somehow bc she's not cool enough flower: and they threaten to undo her on monday queen robyn: omg…theyre ALL feeders flower: so over the weekend she makes a big deal of it and has sex w/ a school shooter and heather c dies because of it but what if she just waited until Monday and got tied up and fed to bursting and then one of the heathers (im not picky) had a weird gay crisis looking at her all stripped down and stuffed up queen robyn: she should have sex with the gay heather instead while shes tied and stuffed ideally flower: a) all heathers are gay b) tru

flower: MORE fuel for the fire: flower: in the musical (ambiguous in the movie) veronica is rly good friends w/ a girl named martha and martha is FAT queen robyn: omg….. flower: and unpopular because of it flower: and flower: in the heathers' big song there's a line flower: "keep on testing me, and end up like her"

flower: veronica and martha's friendship surviving is the happy ending and thats rly good queen robyn: awwww i like that flower: but like queen robyn: we can go gayer flower: i love the heathers flower: and at least one of the heathers is really into veronica and has no idea how to act about it

queen robyn: veronica let tied up in the gym at night, probably blindfolded, and gayest heather swings in without saying anything, just so she can kiss and stuff veronica more flower: omg flower: im gonna go with yes flower: MAN queen robyn: :33 you liked that huh? flower: i like my high school gays fucked up lowkey flower: brats -> bad rude arrogant teens queen robyn: define fucked up in this instance flower: like leaving your weird animosity-crush tied up in the gym overnight flower: cruel ? idk queen robyn: nice queen robyn: pretty cruel

flower: i love weird fucked up complicated lesbians flower: jealousy-power-crush flower: when you said swing i pictured literally like spiderman queen robyn: omfg queen robyn: i mean, if you want fucked up teens flower: heather duke the cheerleader just like trapiseing in to where veronica is tied up queen robyn: probably snapping pics too honestly flower: she's taunting and bragging about how everyone in the school is gonna see her like this flower: but she keeps them queen robyn: ok, so i havent seen the movie but what if all the heathers have real similar voices, so veronica cant tell which heather is tormenting her the most queen robyn: and this heather does more than tie her up like flower: biting flower: WEIRD head game shit queen robyn: maybe she positions veronica so shes like, almost face down and forced to eat a cake or fucking biting that shits fun af too flower: face down in a cake, bite ass queen robyn: fucking squeeze her boobs, call her a fat pig flower: veronica: squirm flower: heather: SQUIRM queen robyn: spanking even queen robyn: or hair pulling flower: tbh i bet the school has like flower: a paddle flower: for special cases queen robyn: …im gonna call you out on that part later queen robyn: but lets say theres a paddle flower: WHAT queen robyn: but heathers already bit the ass flower: it was the 80s they still did that queen robyn: oh, true

flower: bite ass, leave bruise queen robyn: bruises for sure queen robyn: maybe bruises from grabbing those thighs real hard too~ flower: those thighs w/ a little softness on them but nothing compared to what heather has in mind for her

flower: one heather dumps her another adopts her queen robyn: omg until they get to the queen who likes them huge flower: gay high school mental torture queen robyn: fucking love mental torture ngl flower: veronica messed up the power dynamic among the heathers and now theyre trying to rebalance and taking it out on veronica's figure queen robyn: omg yesssss! flower: but veronica is getting laid like EVERY NIGHT so shes not struggling a ton flower: like some for sure flower: its fucked up but flower: maybe she likes the attention queen robyn: omg yes. maybe people find out how much shes sleeping around (but never with WHO) so she gets this reputation for being a slut but really shes with these three heathers flower: i mean theyre all doing all these horribly humiliating things to her people are bound to find SOMETHING out queen robyn: i think finding her in the gym, tied up, covered in cake with her panties down her still tied legs would say enough flower: dont forget her grossly bloated belly queen robyn: the school probably TRIED to do something but veronica is like "no i have uh…a boyfriend. were kinky." and deflects any kind of charges queen robyn: oh that too! even though its the following morning flower: who knows what time a heather came to visit her queen robyn: 4 am queen robyn: just when veronica fell asleep and thought she was safe-ish flower: yeah like flower: ok im tied up in my underwear in the gym flower: this is pretty bad flower: i'll be found in the morning tho flower: hopefully not by a student queen robyn: better try to sleep to at least get some rest queen robyn: but nope flower: before dawn, someone creeps in flower: and all veronica can guess is 'heather?' before she gets her mouth stuffed fulla cake queen robyn: omg yes flower: the heather in question is bound to be talking nonstop just stream of consciousness flower: going between 'you fat pig' and 'you deserve this' to 'why am i doing this' and 'what is it about you' and 'this is your fault probably' queen robyn: ….omfg i fucking love it??? flower: weird insecure heather trying to justify the fact that shes just gay + mean queen robyn: with like, rough making out. very forceful, very toothy flower: biting in weird and painful spots flower: like flower: right where the butt meets the thigh queen robyn: omg yes queen robyn: or around the boobs queen robyn: not even on the boob like flower: sideboob bite queen robyn: veronicas given in, she wants some nippleplay at LEAST queen robyn: and heathers biting the underside of the boob

flower: veronica's diary mostly looks like "?????!!!!!!!??!!?!??!?!?!?!?!!??!!!?!" for a couple pages flower: so does heathers queen robyn: maybe thats why veronica keeps hanging out with the heathers like queen robyn: she doesnt know which one it is, so shes hanging out with all of them and get back with the mystery heather flower: and all the heathers lowkey can't get enough of her flower: heather duke has terrible gay urges but she cant make it REALLY bad for veronica because the other two heathers will come to veronica's defense queen robyn: her defense or to the defense to their claims on her? like they all want the right to say that veronica is THEIR bitch flower: what if veronica (she's savvy) starts picking up on some of this weird dynamic flower: and starts kinda stirring shit up passively flower: like queen robyn: like playing favorites whenever she helps them cheat flower: what if she wears like flower: a collar to school one day flower: and heather chandler just can't make eye contact w/ her queen robyn: I DIDNT WANT TO GO THERE BUT YOURE MAKING ME GO THERE HUH??? flower: hee hee flower: ok heather c is a hard domme you wanna hear her song flower: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BQOoTX1Nxx8 its a rly good song + its sung at veronica + i think the dance includes lots of hip thrusting

queen robyn: she sounds like the type to use her daddys (or even worse, her bf's) money on a dominatrix outfit just for veronica, who of course, cant see queen robyn: what if the candy store is also partly literal and they stuff veronica with so much candy flower: ice cream and chocolate syrup and cake and gummies until she can barely stand, even though shes tied to the flagpole queen robyn: theres a sign that says "FAT PIG" around her neck flower: previously-flat stomach swollen and tight and bulging against the ropes flower: maybe they just write it on her chest w/ lipstick flower: and they leave her there to get found basically but one heather sneaks back and gives her a rough kiss and then runs away w/o a word flower: and then shes just left tied to the flagpole on a saturday morning, cold, nauseous, bloated and kinda turned on queen robyn: stuff her all weekend long

flower: if you make heather c have gay thoughts she'll tie you up somewhere public and force-feed you carbs until you're about to puke/burst flower: but then she gets more gay thoughts flower: so who is the real loser here queen robyn: you are for wanting it even more

flower: hair pulling, force feeding, bondage, humiliation, flower: veronica that's a free gf

flower: honestly by punishing veronica like that heather's just exposing her weakness queen robyn: willing victims of fucked up sexy shenanigans? flower: which can only prompt veronica to dress gayer flower: and Veronica's not admitting she's into it (she is) shes trying to pull a power play by continuously turning heather on in front of her clique flower: not so bulletproof queen robyn: what if it blows up in veronicas face though and her gay dressing turns on ALL the heathers? flower: of course it does flower: in different ways flower: u KNOW that heather wants heather to step on her flower: so if Veronica's showing up in ripped jeans and belly shirts and collars all the heathers are gonna start getting ideas flower: heather c is too rattled to be the full icy bitch she usually is, heather d is jealous/attracted and heather m is trying not to accidentally call veronica 'mommy' flower: and that's how you power bottom queen robyn: …omfg flower: every time a heather loses control and does something fucked up to her she becomes more powerful flower: it's way worse if she can get a heather alone in public flower: cause then there's no heathers to back them up/reinforce the cruelty flower: Veronica's rep is already ruined she's ready to go full gay flower: and ruin the heathers with her

queen robyn: flower im too weak… queen robyn: this is too good flower: Ripped Clothes queen robyn: too weak D: flower: futch sawyer really gaying it up around the heathers and making them all quietly lose it

flower: veronica in a letterman jacket and a rly tight blouse underneath flower: pushing the heathers insecure, gay little buttons even tho when one of them snaps it's another ambush and force-feeding for her to look forward to queen robyn: its like a reward for unleashing their gay flower: the more she teases them, slowly, the softer and curvier she gets flower: and idk if you've ever seen a curvy girl who dresses boyishly but it's extremely hot flower: even though it's heather holding the stack of pancakes and shoveling them into Veronica's mouth and making her eat three days worth of calories in under an hour, flower: it's veronica who's really in control

[miserybegins]

mack!! do you have any concert tips?? i'm going to hella mega in august and i really want to get barricade but i have no idea how? i'm pretty sure you've camped out for shows before so i wanted to ask you!! thanks mack lov u

sooo ive actually only camped out once, for the mcr show. every other show that ive wanted to be barricade for ive had success showing up early that morning, but with a lineup as stacked as hella mega tour im thinking that people are gonna be camping out. i KNOW people camp for green day at least so i think you can expect it. the best thing to do is to try to keep tabs on what the line is like. if possible you’ll want to drive/walk by morning the day before and see if people are in line. if they’re not, you can either set up camp and be the first person in line or youll also probably be good to like chill out and not show up until later. it depends on your own personal anxiety levels. for the mcr show for me i was like crazy anxious knowing that there were already 50 people in line at noon the day before so i had to get there.

obviously you dont have to be the first person there to get barricade, if you’re in the top 40/50 youll get barricade depending on the size of the venue (which is probably pretty big since this is a stadium tour i believe?? so maybe even more than that. but it depends on where on the barricade you wanna be. the lower your number in line is, the closer to center barricade you will be, obviously.

since ive only actually camped once the best advice i can give is just to try and keep an eye on what the line is looking like and then make your best judgement as to when you want to arrive. far as waiting in line for shows, and this includes camping for days to just arriving morning of the show, people are usually alright with you leaving the line as long as you spend the majority of your time in the line. like if you arrive the day before you’re expected to stay the night but usually will be fine to go back to your house/hotel/airbnb in the morning to clean up and drop your stuff off etc. same goes for needing to get food and use the bathroom, just let the people around you know where you’re going and it should be all chill just make sure you have your number! someone usually will have a sharpie and be giving out numbers, the line tends to self regulate itself without too much issue.

as far as other advice for going to shows i will say dress comfortably, if you’re going to be in a pit do not wear your nicest outfit that you dont want to get covered in sweat, beer, bodily fluids. cause itll happen. sneakers. like that includes vans/converse/whatever you wear and docs etc are fine but for people who plan to crowdsurf do not wear big boots that are gonna knock someone out if you hit them in the head.

stay fed and hydrated throughout the day but pick a point at which to cut off your water consumption and get your last peeing done because the last thing you want is to get barricade and then have to pee and lose your spot. they will almost definitely be giving out water whether its cups or bottles at the barricade for you to drink and pass back, at which point it is fine to start drinking again cause youll sweat it out instead of having to pee.

and crowdsurfers are a thing. they are a fact of life. for people who are not on barricade you are expected to help them along, put your arms up and just keep them in the air. dont duck/move out of the way (they will fall and hurt either you, themselves, or both) dont PUNCH THEM (yes ive seen it and had it done to me) dont try to yank them down. the best thing to do is just do your part in pushing them along and no one will get hurt. if you are on barricade youll know a crowdsurfer is coming because security will come up right against the barricade, at which point the best thing for you to do is duck/curl down against the barricade with your hands over your head cause theyre gonna get dragged right over you and if you keep yourself out of the way it will be fine. ducking is only ok if you’re on barricade.

also backpacks are super annoying in the pit and you dont want a purse either, i recommend a fanny pack and thats not just cause i wear a fanny pack every day it is just the best option in a pit

hope this was somewhat helpful im sorry it got so long...

[citrinecoven]

I need to get some things off my chest...

For the last 2 months I have been in school taking a web dev course, i came from working in retail for 8 years straight and was hoping to change my “career path”. But all kinda sorts of weirdness are going on in my school... Before i start writing about the weird stuff that goes on in school, i want to say that I have realised on my own that web dev is not for me. I need something a bit more creative, a bit less technical... maybe web design? who knows... that’s not the point. I’m just saying this to preface that school didnt make me “give up”, it just helped. Right so... I go to a school for adults that teaches lots of techie stuff like web dev, app dev, ui/ux design, etc... They use a lot of more modern teaching styles, one of them being that they heavily rely on self-learning. They also focus a lot on the job market, meaning school work is done the way it actually should be done if you were a web dev in a company. 

The school also requires a 90% attendance rate in order for you to receive your certificate at the end of the course. The catch is tho if you are 30 mins+ late, you get written down as having missed a half day of class. if you are 1hr+ late, on paper,  you have missed a whole day of class. So if you have really bad luck with traffic/trains/busses a few times, you could essentially be f*cked... So first day we all agree that we should text our group chat when you’re running late, just a sign of respect towards your teachers and other student.  ✔️ -Cool, i definitely agree with that. This works wonderfully for the first 2 weeks, everyone is texting when they’re running a bit late and so is the teacher. Then one morning, my comrade students and i are waiting for our teacher but he’s already 10 mins late... no text... and he ended up being 2 hours late.  And the next day again... This keeps going on for a while... people pay a minimum of 10k for these courses and after i got a bit fed up i did the math and turns out for every hour we don’t have a teacher in, we each lose aprox. 50£. But hey, i have a friend who works at the school so i decide to talk to her about this issue. she’s very understanding of the issue and tells me she’ll bring it up during their next staff meeting. but she says she’s sure all they will answer is that “well this is a course that is heavy on self-learning, this is what they signed up for”. 🤷‍♀️ -Fair enough lads, but hey a text like we agreed upon couldnt hurt then maybe... Then things get a bit weirder, we are in a building that houses many different companies and there is common areas with a kitchen and seating, meeting rooms etc... suddenly all the admin staff, including my friend, are sitting in the common areas all the time and my friend lets me know the school will be moving theyre renting a new building. the admin staff will already be moving there in a week so they didnt renew the rent for their offices. The next week comes around and admin are still sitting in the common area, my friend complains because they promised theyd have the keys to the new building by now and could start moving their offices. - We’ll come back to this later it’s a few days after this or a week maybe? and we all receive an email where we get asked to rate our experience at the school so far. We get all the students togheter and we get told by one of our instructors “fill out the score email, oh btw you need to rate atleast a 9 if you’re having a good time, anything below that is not acceptable“ Another student and i look at each other and make a weird face, because why are you telling us how to rate our experience? Anyways i get petty, ask them if it’s anonymous (it was) and rate them a 5 and tell them i’m not impressed with (at this point) teachers being late everyday without letting us know and using self-learning as an excuse.💁‍♀️ From the next day on, i follow class from home via video call for about a week because my lumbago+sciatica had gotten rly bad. near the end of the week my friend texts me “hey, has someone come in and talked to the class yet?” and i’m like “oh hey, i havent been in this week bcause of health issues so i dunno?” and she tells me she doesnt work there anymore and my brain is just like “??!🤯?!?” She goes on to explain to me that she had been working so hard, hitting all her targets, so when the big bosses came in and called her into a meeting room she thought they were going to praise her but instead what she got was “you’re no longer needed” together with almost all of the other staff...🙃 So i get back to school, my back is a bit better, i ask students about those ppl that came and talked to them and so basically the school is calling it quits. Now i only have a front-end web dev course, one of my friends in school has a full-stack course and now they won’t be receiving the back-end (or second half) of their course and finding a back-end web dev course is not going to be easy and will be very expensive. And throughout the day i hear so many other students talking about this and freaking out over what theyre gonna do... so we’re the next week, monday was a bank holiday, tuesday morning i go in and i’m there all alone... so i text the group and apparently theres no class today because there’s no teachers available... so i text my usual teacher to see what the plan for the week is and basically he can’t find any guest teachers and we’re essentially off all week unless anything changes (it didnt) so at this point we haven’t had class for a week, this is a short course, a week of missing information is critical...  However in that week i’ve realised that this just isn’t for me, i don’t have the right way of thinking and problem-solving, it’s a bit sad but it’s fine. if it’s not for you, it just isnt.

and guess what... it’s monday and i’m in my bed writing this petty review of my school experience because there’s no class again... I have so much more to say but this is already so long...

[kisskissbanggang]

part1 ... as a female: honestly,,,sub yuta. has a mommy/noona kink. lets you do -mostly- whatever you want. tries to dom you but fails almost every time. and when he does dom is amazing at it and learned it from you being such a dom all the time. he likes to be fucked with a dildo or vibrator, being choked, being tied up. likes to watch porn with his dom as she fucks him out, as she rides his face or him. making him wait to cum till he gets so frustrated and wants to cry. but you stop if he asks

part 2 ... female: sub doyoung. like yuta but doesnt liked to be tied up. he absoluetly loves to be blindfolded as you pin his wrists so he cant touch you. loves when you ride him and stuff his face in your boobs. doesnt like face sitting and you respect that. reverse cowboy. oh god he gets so flustered. make him wait to cum and his loud ass groans and beggings comes out. does like to have his wrists tied in a chair as you suck him. hes not sure how but wants to dom. so he learns with your help

last one :) ... female: hard dom ten. spanking. rough doggystyle. i mean deep inside, ass slapping, hair pulling doggystyle. i kinda see him having a sir kink. not daddy but sir. makes you beg to come. i see jungwoo as a soft dom. soft doggystyle. likes to fuck on counters. shower sex. missionary & light choking. i see him making you beg to cum but giving in quickly. both: not into extreme bondage. but like using silk cloth to tie/blindfold you. gagging while giving head makes them groan so bad.

idk if those 3 fantasy asks went through or not ,,,, but if theyre not anon pls dont post it akxkdkfk or make a separate post not including my blog url. im just a kinky bitch but gotta hide in the corners to not be shamed. soRRY I FEEL BAD SODKDKLSLS

Anon! You fed me so well. 😍 You are kinky and that's awesome! You're so cute. 💕 You're giving me ideas about Yuta that I hadn't considered and I do have a request for him down the line 👀 And I love seeing differing opinions because I did just write Doyoung as being super into face-sitting lmao. I mean, who knows? That's why it's a fantasy. 😘

[jaku-the-askblog]

Aku Headcanon: Powers/Origin

((so im gunna geek out a little bit here about my personal ideas of Aku’s powers/what exactly he is and how that ties into the series, ok? Ok

Prepare for the long haul on this one guys

(Small disclaimer: this isnt a scientific/psychological thing, and im pretty sure this ain’t even close to what Genndy wanted to be canon. These are my ideas, pertaining to the askblog and a certain fic universe, based on canon, of my Aku. Lets move on)

I. So what is Aku according to Abby?

Firstly, despite whatever canonically or fanon-wise in my own series’ Jack and Aku himself (and others) call him, Aku isn’t a demon/wizard/etc. We already know, pretty much canonically, that Aku is one of a kind. Which means beings like Demongo, his minions, others, aren’t even close to what Aku is.

^A babby Aku leaves his nest to fend for himself in the harsh and unforgiving wild

Unless you wanna go on the theory that Aku’s minions are also him but lets not right now

I refuse to accept that Aku is “pure evil” unless you want to get into moral debate and the theories on what constitutes “evil,” because perhaps in the perspective of that universe he is the Worst Evil Ever but comparatively to our own world and especially my own perspective he really...isn’t. Which isn’t to say he’s done downright vile and awful and evil things, because he really has! He’s just not “pure evil.” I firmly believe that it’s just what we’re being fed, because all that we know about Aku is really from the perspective of other characters (ie, Jack’s father being the one that created Aku and immediately assuming that he’s something to be destroyed). And Aku seems to run with this because, realistically, it’s all he’s ever known/tried.

(I have additional input on Aku’s birth and his “starting” personality, but I will save that for another time)

(“But the gods said—” you start.

“FUCK the gods,” I spit back, punching Odin in his remaining eye, “Theyre fuckin useless as shit anyway”)

HOWEVER, I think Aku is something more like a conscious controlling what’s essentially pure magic from that universe in physical form, with magic being like a manipulatable energy source according to that universe’s rules. I think that, much like in the Avatar (the animated series not the atrocious live action one) series, the way this magic/energy can be used varies from person to person, from being to being. And a being like Aku, who’s made up of the stuff, is going to inherently be more powerful and more versatile than anyone else that just uses magic but wasn’t born from it. AND his magic is more wild and free and flexible than the contained/inherited forms of it that other mortals have.

And from there it only gets more fun.

You see, we never really hear/see Aku mention his time spent as the Black Goop, which likely infers he either couldn’t form into something that could speak/move around or he just doesn’t remember in the way a human might. Either way means he had no control over himself. Which only feeds my theory that Aku’s just a brain constantly controlling what are really just mindless drones with power to do his bidding much like his/the entity’s former shape.

I also theorize that, if he didn’t have the same kind of consciousness, the Black Goop was absorbing anyone/thing that came into contact because that was the only thing the mindless, physical manifest of magic knew to do. It can’t think to express itself! It can’t think to grow legs and walk around!

But on the other hand, if he was...some kind of mind in there, but couldn’t form into a shape, perhaps he was latching onto living things, trying to learn about them, trying to find some form of escape. I haven’t worked out which he was in the goop form as of yet, but either works really.

I do think that’s why the gods were trying to destroy the entity, because they knew that if it started wandering around the universe in a semi-tangible form, especially with the power it originally had, wild and free, then it would cause effortless and wide-spread chaos.

And somehow Jack’s father’s fire gave him/the magic the power to form a brain, buuuut it has its limitations from Aku.

Let’s take a closer look.

II. Aku’s Essence vs Aku Infection

In episodes like the Ultrabots, the final episode, and even in the comics, we see that when Aku has his essence control/power others, he retains some level of control over the individual to do his bidding. They also sometimes gain his powers, but I think that’s also under his control.

So what’s the difference between this and the Aku Infection?

I don’t think Aku knew about Jack getting infected. And instead, Jack was the one that made himself into Aku.

This really boils down to semantics and me wanting to go completely off my rocker here, so bear with me.

^Accurate depiction of abby now

First, though it is typical of Aku, we never see him attempt this again. If you want to include the IDW comics, he doesn’t even consider it in issue 10. Instead, he uses his time in Jack’s mind to eat his memories.

HOWEVER within the episode itself, we see an interesting progression of things:

Jack steals jewels from the explorers without realizing it

Argues with himself (!!) about rescuing a stranded sightseer and the reward if he does so (which he demands for money) yet doesn’t seem to notice the fact he’s doing so

Begins to feel irritated and twitchy as well as itchy (likely as his skin changes)

STILL SOMEHOW FAILS TO NOTICE HIS BODY CHANGING

Begins to speak/look more like Aku as time goes on

(Also, a minor, tiny detail but: no beard. Hmmmmm)

NOW let’s consider something here: normally Aku controls his essence to do as he wishes. In fact, he typically immediately controls his subjects. But Aku wasn’t in good shape when we see him first in this episode, nor is his state brought up again.

What (or shall I say who) is typically on the forefront of Jack’s mind, and he associates with darkness?

Thaaat’s right! Aku!

^This is what happens when you jack off too often kids

So I think, at this point, however subconsciously, Aku’s essence/that magic latched onto what Jack associated with that start of darkness and became what he thought it would be.

It became his idea of Aku. And it simply ran with it, because that is the first and most powerful thing Jack thought of. After all, Jack has no experience in controlling magic, and especially not one as powerful as Aku’s. And that magic, now detached from the main consciousness, is basically just trying to find it’s way out in him, so it was mindlessly searching for the easiest way to be “expressed.”

By examining Jack-Aku’s behavior and wording more closely, I’d like to point out something. Right after Jack FINALLY realizes what’s happening, we have this exchange:

Jack: “This cannot be happening!”

“Aku:” “Oh yes it can!”

Jack: “Must…keep…control!”

“Aku:” “Yeah! Gotta get a grip.”

Jack: “Need help. The monks—!”

“Aku:” “I got to find those accursed monks!”

Now, does this actually sound like something Aku would say, or like someone who’s imitating Aku would say?

Hm. Let’s look at another example.

It’s close, I’ll give Jack-Aku that! But it’s a little…too close. Again, like someone’s doing an impression of Aku.

It is close to things Aku has said before, but it still feels just off to me.

Jack-Aku certainly fights a little differently, but there’s still more touches of Jack than Aku in there. Sure his swings are more brutal, but then there’s stuff like this:

^SUPERHERO LANDING

That doesn’t look like an Aku pose to me. That’s a Jack one.

Now I do realize, as I said, most of this is just semantics and most of it could be explained away with “Aku was just fucking with Jack.” But I dunno, that just seems like it’s not what’s really going on, especially since we don’t see the original Aku trying to control Jack, much like how we got a hint of that in the Ultrabots and even in Mad Jack.

Interestingly, season 5 seems to support this!

You see, I think the priestess wanted to bear Aku’s children, so that’s what his magic did for her. There was probably something in her head that thought seven was a good number, so that’s what happened for her. As for why the essence didn’t overwhelm Ashi and her sisters before, I suspect that it became combined with their DNA in order to sustain them (as the priestess wished; at least until they “lived” until she was done with them) and became dormant until Aku “reactivated” it.

And then, Ashi is initially overwhelmed by Aku’s essence, but once she takes it for her own—

^THATS MY GIRL

It becomes her own. She’s owning Aku’s powers, Aku’s essence, Aku’s magic for her own use. It becomes what she wants it to be.

Jack never did that because he never took it. He allowed himself to be overwhelmed by it, letting it do it’s own thing inside him, and it nearly transformed him into his own Grand Theft Me nightmare.

III. Aku’s Powers (and the actual powers of the sword)

Ok ok, so what does this all have to do with Aku’s powers? Well, like I mentioned earlier, Aku is made up of pure energy that can be made into (almost) anything he wants to do with it.

“So why doesn’t he just do _ to kill Jack?!?!?!”

That’s actually quite simple: Because Aku has no idea what he is either.

^Aku voice: AWHUA

He has literally no frame of reference, no concept or comparison. All he’s ever really gotten is from others, who call him “evil,” “demon,” “wizard,” etc. He knows he’s more powerful than any being in the mortal world, but he doesn’t know how or why. He simply is.

(This feeds back into that linked post from the beginning about Aku being something of a narcissist, because he makes himself into whatever others think of him in order to be “accepted.” But I have more words on that idea at a later point when I can get all these thoughts about his powers out of the way, though I firmly emphasize that I’m not even close to a major in psychology so I’m not fit to diagnose him with anything, really. This is all just for funsies)

It’s how I explain his ability to pop random powers out without notice or mention of them again, ie creating a dark clone of Jack, encasing a living man in stone while also making him immortal?, telepathically manipulating objects from afar, RAISING THE FUCKING DEAD, etc etc. He knows he has tremendous powers, but does he explore their limits? Find out what all he can do? No! And why would he, if he’s already immortal and immune to everything? He only seeks out to use these powers like that when it conveniences him.

And yea, that would be his own fault. But it’s his life, and he’ll do as he pleases.

Now, let’s get to the sword.

It’s heavily implied (if not outright stated) that the sword is made from Jack’s father’s spirit/soul. The gods insist that only the strength of such a thing, combined with the virtue of “human righteousness” can destroy Aku. This is where they say he’s a “force of ultimate evil” and all that, but I already don’t like that the gods are entrusting this “duty,” which they started but didn’t finish, onto a mortal. Mighty suspicious.

So how exactly does the sword work if Aku isn’t made of evil, but instead pure magic? Easy. The sword destroys that magic from Aku’s physical form. It’s literally cutting away his control and his power, in a harsher and far worse way than if Aku were to be using his energy on his own. And the gods basically made a soul contract with Jack’s father to give it that power without there being serious repercussions on the wielder of the weapon. Because technically destroying a magic/energy like that should totally backfire and act more like splitting an atom than a cool firey-burning effect.

^( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

So Aku and his powers are in a constant state of decay-recovery, because he’s using his own body to do all these powers and abilities, but the sword speeds up the decay process faster than Aku can recover. And yes, Aku using massive amounts of magic quickly with little or no recovery period would do a similar thing, but the sword will always take longer and threaten to do more permanent damage for that than Aku using his magic himself, because it destroys instead of frees. And since magic is energy, Aku recovers through time and reabsorption of magic from…well, anything. Typically just the energy of the universe, I suppose.

So why couldn’t/didn’t Jack’s father destroy Aku the first time?

Because he didn’t make a final strike. Instead he allowed even the smallest sliver of Aku to persist. And if you do that, then you give Aku ability to reform.

(“But what about in season five when—“ you try again.

“It was bullshit and you know it,” I say as I firmly curb-stomp that “final fight” scene.)

So why did Aku get turned into a tree and was imprisoned?

….Yeah I haven’t worked that one out yet either, I’ll give you that. I’m thinking it may have something to do with cutting away so much of Aku that his mind is locked away and stripped of its power over his body, but I haven’t worked out all the fine points yet.

Aku makes his choices to do evil things, to follow his own will (whatever his will may be) but he’s still limited by his own mind and what he believes he’s capable of, due to mainly just being too lazy/unwilling to try anything else. Yes, of course like I said outside forces only contributed to this, effectively helping him make his own box to put himself in, but it only explains why he’s like that. It doesn’t excuse him, and ultimately his choices were still his own.

PHEW well I think that’s about all for now! Hope I made sense and you enjoyed reading! I’ve been stewing on this one for a long, long while, but only recently got half a mind to coherently jot it all down and explain it, so there’s probably a few holes here and there, forgive me... :,D

Thanks necessary for:

@strawberry-smilodon, for reading my draft!! and then i kept adding more...and more... and more.....

Obv @teacupballerina, for basically doing most of the theorizing waaaaay before i even got back into this fandom and inspiring my own mind to start thinking harder about Aku and canon :3

all my friends that tolerated me geeking out about this before i wrote it all down...i love yall 😙

And thank YOU for reading!!!

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I'm a new follower but I love this blog already! You guys do a really good job of avoiding whitewashed pictures, at least from what I've seen, and you post a good variety of the members rather than a ton of just one at a time. we just share the pictures the fansite masters post without editing as it isn't allowed and we respect them :) and thank you!

Thank you for always providing quick updates on the boys! I really enjoy this blog and I hope you guys have fun running it (: Fighting! thank you for your support!!! <3

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Translations of tweets would be convenient? But not necessary its a really nice blog already :) we’ll try to add translations on all of them!

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Maybe change the theme? I know it's too much work but yeah it's an suggestion i changed it again recently but I realised it has no search bar :/ I change the theme of the blog during sf9 comebacks 

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Maybe just be a little faster but the speed of updates is perfectly understandable. we will try our best in the midst of schedules and wild timezones :) 

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I would prefer it if the way preview photos were sourced was different, if you click on the gear button on the top right there’s a place where you can link the content source and you just put the fansites url in there!! the link to the source then comes up on the bottom left of the post. but that’s just my personal taste bc i run an fy blog too, feel free to post as you already do!! another thing would be what photos are put together in posts, like sometime i feel they don’t match ? but anyway thank you for running a great blog!! love you guys keep up the hard work!! we are now using that method! thank you for your suggestion and support! we will try our best to continue running the blog!

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I think it would be better if you guys posted previews before posting any hq of a certain day! bc it gets confusing when you go through a tag of a day and there are previews after hqs if that makes sense? i run an fy blog and if there are already hqs before i've posted all the previews i just save the hqs as drafts and then post them after posting all the previews! But i love that you guys work so hard with this blog and us fantasies appreciate it! Love you guys <3 we will try to!! thank you so much!! :D ❤

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This is just my opinion/preference but I think sometimes you post too many fantakens in one post, if it's more than 2-3 I usually won't want to reblog it. the most photos we group in a post is 4 and its standard, its hard and takes too much time to post one or two in a post :( and since there are 9 members we have to coordinate the blog well and all of us are busy too so we hope you understand! we respect you opinion too and we will try to do it! 

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[itacestians-unite]

I decided to post the smut I wrote over a year ago and never got around to finishing... I still MIGHT try and finish it but idk. I’m working on it rn though, but decided to post what I’ve gotten so far because it’s dom!feli and sub!lovi and most of my posts are gonna be sub!feli and dom!lovi, so i thought it’d be nice to post something that’s not -w-

Story is long so it’s under the cut! Nearly 4000 words and theyre not even doing the frick frack yet. I like my foreplay long and drawn out ok

Jealousy. It can range from slight anger to a sickening hatred. It's a feeling that surfaces when you care deeply  for someone, and when someone tries to compete with your affection towards said person. Whether it be them stealing a kiss from your special someone or simply a smile that seems a bit too friendly, it can make you think and do things completely out of character. Even when you know their intentions are innocent you can't help but be annoyed and consider kicking them  out within the next five minutes if they didn't stop touching your brother.

Jealousy was a bad thing. Veneziano knew this, but that didn't help, not at all.He allowed gaze to focus on the other two nations, his usual smile plastered on his face (except it was).  fake.Spain had came over unannounced, and he'd only been here for about twenty minutes but to Veneziano, it was twenty minutes too long. Romano would push him away, muttering a harsh insult everyone knew he didn't actually mean, and Spain would just hug him tighter and coo about how cute he was, as if he was still a young colony. This usually didn't bother Veneziano that much. Maybe it was because he was in their home, or maybe it was the way Romano was blushing and grumbling in that way that only Veneziano was supposed to be able to make him.

Another five minutes passed, Veneziano watching the two as they made no attempt of include him, and he was fed up. His first thought was to act, as he suddenly jumped out of his seat and let out a loud gasp. Spain looked away from Romano (for probably the first time during his entire quarter-hour visit) and made a confused face. "What's wrong, Italy?"

"I just remembered!" Veneziano said this in an innocent, worried tone. Romano looked at him just as confused as Spain, except with a more bitter look, as if saying, "Explain." And Veneziano felt his stomach twist slightly, taking that as an "Explain why you interrupted my shower of affection." Before either of the other two could say anything, he spoke. "Hey Spain, can you leave?"

Spain blinked in confusion and Romano snorted loudly next to him. Veneziano continued speaking, ignoring the way his heart fluttered when his brother finally acknowledged his existence once more, "Romano and I actually have some really important government stuff to do!" As he said this, he flashed his brother a sweet smile, hoping he'd play along with it.

Romano seemed to get the message and he sat up straight, crossing his arms. "Yeah, we were about to start before someone interrupted," he glared at Spain as he said this and Veneziano mentally thanked his brother for being nice for once.

For a second, Spain frowned, then he laughed. "I see," he began, standing up. "I'll make my way out then!" And before he walked away, he patted Romano's head. The other glared and swatted his hand away. Then he had opened the door, and just before stepping outside, he said, "It was nice to see you two, Italy, Romano!"

Then Spain was gone as quickly as he had came. Romano shut the door behind him, muttering under his breath, "Idiot." He locked the door and turned to face his brother, expecting an explanation. "Okay, what the hell wa-" What he didn't expect was to suddenly be cut off by a pair of lips against his own, while a warm body slammed him against the wall (more specifically, the door), pinning his arms to his sides of his head. The air nearly got knocked out of him and Romano let out a muffled squeak. He went to slam his foot up the potential murderer's ass, until he saw warm brown eyes and realized it was just Veneziano. Who else would it be? He really needed to work on his paranoia problem...

That still didn't make the action welcome though, and he went to push him away until hands clasped his own and the body pressed against him, effectively trapping Romano between the wall and his brother. He felt a leg slide between his own (what was Veneziano doing?), beginning to grind against his cock through the soft fabric of his clothes and he moaned at the sudden but definitely welcome friction. Then when he was about to relax and finally return the kiss, that fucker pulled away, looked at his brother with an angry little pout on his face. He let out a small sigh and Romano watched with fascination as a pink tongue darted out, gently running over soft lips and wetting them with saliva.

He swallowed and cleared his throat, averting his gaze to Veneziano's eyes that seemed to sparkle slightly in amusement. Then he began, in a mocking tone, "Important government stuff." His brother seemed to forget the fact that they were at home, during the afternoon, on their day off. "You sure convinced him." And Veneziano glared a bit, shifting his knee forward to rub up against the elder's crotch again, and he immediately went silent aside from a soft groan.

Veneziano squeezed Romano's hands gently and pecked his lips. "He wouldn't stop talking about you," he huffed, an adorable little glare still on his face, that one that Romano never got to see because his brother rarely got irritated. "If it wasn't about how cute you looked, it was about how cute you acted. If it wasn't about how cute you acted, it was about how cute you sounded." And by this point, Veneziano had let go of his brother's hands to flail his arms around in emphasis to his point.

Romano smirked a little, taking the opportunity to pull the younger closer so their faces were only centimeters apart, so they could feel each other's breath and practically taste each other's lips. "You sound jealous." Then they were kissing again and Veneziano reached up to run fingers through his brother's hair. He deepened the kiss and pressed himself against Romano more. chest to chest, and he rolled his hips forward a bit, causing both of them to shudder. He slid a hand down from his brother's hair and took his curl between two fingers, rubbing back and forth with his thumb, causing Romano to part his lips to groan. Veneziano traced his tongue over his brother's bottom lip before taking the opportunity to slip it into his mouth, slowly rubbing their tongues against each other.

He pulled away again, and Romano glared, panting softly. He wrapped his arms around the younger, tried to pull him back, but Veneziano wouldn't let him and just reached forward, beginning to unbutton his shirt with the pace of a snail. "You just sat there and let him suffocate you with hugs," he said with a sad, almost bitter undertone, and Romano was secretly amused.

"You do the same thing to me," He wanted to say, though he didn't, and Veneziano wasn't even halfway done with unbuttoning his shirt yet what the hell. "Spain's like family to me," he said instead, because despite how carefree his brother acted, he could see the tiniest bit of insecurity in his eyes. But over what? Spain? That man was like an annoying, clingy, older brother of sorts. The thought of him as anything more was just plain weird.

Veneziano visibly frowned, just then unbuttoning the fourth button on the elder's shirt. "But I'm your brother." This time Romano took the initiative to roll his hips, causing the other to let a moan to slip out.

"Idiot," he responded, in a lighthearted tone that showed he didn't actually mean the insult. "You're my lover." Then he snorted a little. Veneziano was fine with him flirting with random girls, but the second someone showed interest in him on their own, he'd find some excuse to interrupt, not that Romano was complaining. It was cute to see his normally relaxed brother get so worked up over something. Then there was the fact that he could sometimes get a bit possessive. Once he'd woken up the morning after with marks all over his neck, but again, he wasn't complaining.

Finally, Veneziano finished up with the last button and Romano shrugged the shirt off his shoulder; first the right, then the left, then it slid to the floor with ease. "Are you planning on doing me against the wall?" He (mostly) joked. "Not that I'd be surprised. You're into some pretty kinky shit."

Veneziano pretended to be offended, glaring at his brother playfully. He grabbed Romano's hand and began dragging him off, down the hall and to their bedroom. "You're the one who made love to a toaster," he said teasingly, an amused tone in his voice as he brought up that one thing he knew he wasn't supposed to.

Romano immediately began to blush and he pushed the younger away with an embarrassed little growl. "It was one time, Vene!"

Veneziano only laughed, opening the door to their bedroom and quickly pulling Romano inside. "And there won't be any other times," he said, his voice taking on a bit more of a seductive tone. Romano felt blood rush between his legs and he found himself watching his brother's lips move as he spoke. "I'll make you feel better than a toaster ever could." As silly as that sounded out of context, it was incredibly arousing otherwise.

The door was shut and locked behind them out of habit and Veneziano immediately shoved his brother onto their bed, capturing his lips in an increasingly heated kiss. He crawled on top of Romano to straddle him, letting hands explore the body he already knew so well. They ghosted over the other male's sides, dipped into the so very slight curves in his waist, before traveling up, up, up where fingers began to play with nipples; rolling one between thumb and index finger, circling over it slowly until hard, then gently scraping a nail over it. Romano shuddered beneath his brother and submitted to his skilled ministrations.

Veneziano hummed contently, but why was he doing this again? Right, because of Spain. The only thing the man was capable of doing was gushing over Romano. In reality, Veneziano knew that wasn't the truth, though at times, it still didn't seem very far from it. Romano would just shove Spain away and mumble some half-assed insult everybody in the entire world knew he didn't actually mean. Then he'd blush a bit, in the way that only Veneziano should have been able to make him, and the younger brother would glare at the one who caused it.

He had nothing against Spain, not as a nation or as a person. But sometimes... He'd get just a bit too close and friendly with his brother for comfort. Veneziano was an affectionate person himself, and it wasn't often that he got jealous either, though he couldn't help how he felt. Usually, he found that he didn't really care about what went on. This time, however, it was different, not his usual plans to simply smother Romano in kisses once Spain left, He wanted that, yes, but he wouldn't stop there.

He wanted to kiss him, over and over and over again. Sometimes soft and sweet and other times rough and forceful, but each one just as passionate as the last, ten times, twenty times, fifty times, until they couldn't forget each others' tastes. He'd touch him in every single one of those right ways, causing his brother to shudder and pant and moan until his throat got sore and raw. He'd make sure to leave hickeys and lovebites in as many places as he could, fully visible and impossible to hide, so nobody would forget that Romano was his, and he was Romano's, and they simply belonged to each other. Actually, that sounded like a heavenly idea.

Romano subconsciously arched into the warm hands that stroked his sides, sighing contently. His arms found their way around his brother, and he gently tugged on his shirt collar, silently suggesting that he take it off. Veneziano broke away from their kiss, a tiny smirk on his face. Romano just rolled his eyes and sat up, not so secretly watching his brother as he removed his own shirt at the pace of a turtle. Faster than a snail, but still slow as shit.

"Will you hurry up?" He snapped suddenly, swatting Veneziano's hands away and beginning to quickly unbutton the rest of his shirt for him. "We have sex so often, but it still takes you a damn hour to strip." His cock was twitching in his pants, which were starting to get too tight for comfort, and he was not in the mood for his brother's teasing. Every fucking time, he had to act like he was getting paid and put on a show. Not that Romano was complaining, but he definitely didn't like the idea of Veneziano as a stripper. Nobody else should get to see his precious brother that way.

"You're impatient," Veneziano said, followed by a soft giggle. He slipped off his shirt in one swift movement then crawled closer to his brother, looking him in the eye with an amused smile. "Don't pretend this isn't the best part." After all, what was sex without a bunch of teasing and foreplay?

He let himself switch into dominant mode, the one he knew that Romano was in love with even though he was too stubborn to admit it. He leaned in, but instead of going for the lips he went for the neck, kissing just under his brother's chin (plus a bit of sucking, too). A hand reached up to stroke through that soft, dark brown hair, taking no care in avoiding the curl. If there was one way to get a submissive Romano, it was to mess with his curl. At least if you're Veneziano. If you're anyone else, he'd probably just punch you.

Once there was a satisfying mark where he was kissing, he moved a bit lower, licking at Romano's neck slowly with an upwards flick of the tongue, teeth gently grazing over the soft flesh, taking in the way he shivered and twitched at every touch... Veneziano plopped himself down in the elder's lap, proudly noticing how hard he already was. But those tight pants must have been painful! Good thing they'd be gone soon.

He began gently bouncing up and down, creating just enough movement for there to be a delicious friction. Romano groaned and bucked his hips, lowkey wishing his brother would just get on with it already. He wrapped his arms around Veneziano's waist, and Veneziano just smirked down at him as he began to still himself. Then he leaned forward again, latched his teeth onto a collarbone, and softly nibbled the sensitive skin. A hand traveled back up and stroked the elder's hair, and Romano found himself lightly headbutting it. The fingers slowly running through each strand was endearing and, in a way, arousing.

Veneziano sucked on the bone through the skin, then licked a strip across the entire area. Another light, barely visible hickey made itself present. He wrapped his arms around Romano's neck and looked down at him. "Are you sure you don't love Spain?" He asked with a pout. A fake pout, Romano noted. A normal pout wouldn't have looked so damn sexy.

He proceeded to roll his eyes and he could feel his brother's gaze travel to his lips as he licked them. "I told you, you bastard. Not in that way." There was a playful glint in Veneziano's eyes and he was sure he knew exactly what was coming. And for the record, he was 100% okay with it.

Veneziano pursed his lips and gave his brother a skeptical look. A fake one, of course. He knew Spain was like a father figure to Romano. But he also knew how much Romano loved all of this teasing, even though he'd deny it any time it was brought up.

"I don't believe you,' he said, voice just barely above a whisper. He pressed himself down and rolled his hips in one slow, rough circle. Any retort Romano was going to say had been easily forgotten as he moaned lowly. His arms moved to Veneziano's hips and he tried to get him to keep moving, but the younger just grinned mischievously. "I want you to prove it," he purred.

Romano licked his dry lips once more, focusing on the lustful look in the other male's eyes and how completely turned on he was himself. "How do i prove it?" he said, a slight amusement in his voice. Veneziano gently rocked his hips back and forth with a soft moan, and Romano could feel his brother's own erection pressing up against his stomach with every move.

"By letting me make you feel good," Veneziano sang, with a visible twinkle in his eyes. He slowly pushed himself out of Romano's lap and back onto their bed, so there was a whole area for him to work with. Then he leaned forward and started by unbuttoning his brother's pants. Next he unzipped them, and the metal felt cool on his fingers. Seconds later, the pants were off and tossed somewhere across the room, not to be cleaned up until who knows when.

"I think I can manage that," said Romano softly, only slightly embarrassed to admit it. He shivered at the cool air on his legs, but barely even noticed the cold with all the warm, hot arousal swirling around in his lower regions. The best was yet to come and that thought only excited him more. Though again, he wouldn't admit it.

Then Romano felt a warm breath on his crotch, and hold on, what exactly was Veneziano planning on doing? It took all of his strength not to just thrust his hips up, right into the mouth that was surely there. Though that'd seem needy as hell and like he was going to give in that easy. But he could literally feel his brother's nose against his crotch, and if he shifted just a little, he'd finally get that friction he craved so bad.

Veneziano seemed to have had other ideas, though. He leaned even closer, mouth open slightly,  and planted a kiss right on the bulge in Romano's pants. Then without giving him enough time to even shudder or moan, he began sucking, hot, wet lips gently squeezing around Romano's cock through his underwear. The pressure caused it's soft fabric to shift a bit, slowly up and down, almost teasingly.

Romano's breath hitched audibly and he bit back a moan. It was embarrassing. He was already so painfully aroused and Veneziano had barely even done anything. The younger male seemed so thoroughly amused by this and Romano swore he could feel him gently grinning against his crotch. In the end, it didn't matter, because now Veneziano was slowly swirling his tongue around, with no real shape or rhythm, and all thoughts aside from how good it felt were lost from the elder's mind.

But it wasn't just good, it was also torture. That damp heat made sure to travel over every inch of his crotch, but it just wasn't enough. It was unbearably teasing, that potential heaven being held back through the stupid cotton fabric he wore. His cock was definitely awake now, so stubbornly straining against his underwear that felt as if they could rip in two at any given moment. He was panting softly, slowly, and his muscles were much more tense than one's should be when they're about to potentially get a blowjob.

It didn't take more than five seconds for Veneziano to notice this, and he pulled back a bit to look up at his brother in confusion. "Romano?" His voice was hushed, full of lust but also laced with concern, and he was clearly worried that he did something wrong. "Is this okay?" This was his way of asking if he'd fucked up or not, and Romano immediately felt guilty.

"S'fine," he muttered, blushing slightly as he admitted it out loud. Just to make sure Veneziano got the point (and also because he really wanted more), Romano bucked his hips a little, his clothed cock bumping against the younger's mouth. Veneziano looked surprised, then he smirked.

"Is big brother getting impatient?"

Romano pretended he wasn't helplessly turned on by those words (he totally fucking was, though, oh God), simply rolling his eyes in response.

"I think little Vene is impatient," he teased back."I bet he just can't wait to have my cock in his mouth."

Veneziano opened his mouth to respond, then shut it again. He blushed and looked away, visibly admitting defeat. Romano smiled in amusement. Ha! The bastard could never handle a taste of his own medicine. It was cute, actually. He'd tease and tease mercilessly, but the second Romano teased back, he'd get flustered and shut his trap.

Veneziano shifted back and forth, whining lowly at the distraction of his own arousal. He didn't say anything else, and for a second Romano was confused. Suddenly, soft, gentle hands grabbed the waistband of his darned undergarments, gently tugging down on them. Romano gasped in surprise. He lifted his hips, just a little, allowing his brother to slide his underwear down his thighs in one swift movement. They were slid over his knees, down his calves, over his ankles, then they were gone.

"Cute." Veneziano mused, eyeing his brother's exposed form. His eyes were clouded with lust.

This made Romano blush and squirm. God, acting submissive was so embarrassing... He felt the younger flip him over and he didn't even get a second to think before a sharp smack was delivered to his ass.

Romano gasped, hips jerking back, nails digging into the sheets.

"Ah!"

Pain turned into sweet pleasure as he shook slightly. The burning from skin hitting skin made heat flare up in his lower stomach, then go down, making his cock harden.

Another smack.

A whimper escaped the back of his throat. He rutted his hips against the mattress needily, eyes squeezed shut and mouth slightly agape.

Veneziano was silent aside from heavy breathing. His eyes flickered to Romano's hips, then back to his butt, then to his face, which he couldn't actually see from this angle, but Veneziano was sure his brother was making some wonderful faces~

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[2/27/2015 9:48:23 AM] Evan: sup [2/27/2015 11:23:51 AM] YV??~: (So I was not ignoring this i just only ever wake up around 12 and i never change my status because i dont plan when i go to sleep. just felt like i needed to explain i was not ignoring this) [2/27/2015 3:28:38 PM] Evan: I kinda figured. heh [2/27/2015 3:29:23 PM] YV??~: so you wanted something? [2/27/2015 3:30:49 PM] Evan: Haha not particularly. It's going to sound pretty random, but I actually wanted to ask you a question. [2/27/2015 3:31:01 PM] YV??~: Ok [2/27/2015 3:32:21 PM] Evan: Cause I'm curious, and I can't remember if I ever asked. [2/27/2015 3:32:30 PM] Evan: Heh. Sorry if this is too personal, but [2/27/2015 3:32:45 PM] Evan: Why do you consider yourself a terrible person? [2/27/2015 3:42:39 PM] YV??~: Oh. Well you are in luck because i accidentally did a lot of terribly depression introspection earlier this week and have just the answer for that. From what i can put together from my somewhat incoprehansible whining. I've gotten through a lot of my life manipulating people through lying and gaining their pity all for my own gain...and probably will continue to. I tend to not do ANYTHING in every situation that would be optimal for working. I am able to somehow make people angry just by expressing emotion. and even when i find things i could fix i never try to change anything. [2/27/2015 3:42:54 PM] YV??~: just a short list of some of the things [2/27/2015 3:43:57 PM] Evan: I see. [2/27/2015 3:44:13 PM] Evan: It sounds to me like you're a human. [2/27/2015 3:46:21 PM] YV??~: Ehhh. I mean im not gonna tell people what they can think but i dont have to share anyone opinion [2/27/2015 3:47:23 PM] Evan: Haha, fair enough. I'll spare you the optimistic bullshit. [2/27/2015 3:47:28 PM] Evan: Why don't you change anything? [2/27/2015 3:48:51 PM] YV??~: That takes time. and effort im too lazy to put out. Ive tried to fix some things but i forget like a week later and stop trying [2/27/2015 3:49:40 PM] Evan: Do you not actually want to? [2/27/2015 3:52:05 PM] YV??~: Honestly, hell if I care anymore. I'm trash and thats that, Im not really worth the time or effort. [2/27/2015 3:52:29 PM] Evan: Not even your own? [2/27/2015 3:54:23 PM] YV??~: Im not really worth pretty much anything for anyone. Even thinking deeper about myself makes me feel like that was just a waste of time. [2/27/2015 3:54:49 PM] Evan: What do you do, then? [2/27/2015 3:55:50 PM] YV??~: Weh, theres a reason I have so many OCs and roughly 12 titles to my name with 6 running congruently at various stages of development. [2/27/2015 3:56:27 PM] Evan: Why do you make art and tell stories? [2/27/2015 4:01:07 PM] YV??~: I dont really have any other people around, and I dont really move from one spot like 22+ hours of the day so I gotta have somewhere to go, and someone to be. Even before I ended up like i am now barely leaving the house, I didnt have more than like 1 friend ever so those were my friends. I ended up picking up drawing from my sister seeing her do it because i thought itd be a good way to be able to really see these characters [2/27/2015 4:03:03 PM] Evan: Why do you animate them? [2/27/2015 4:06:56 PM] YV??~: Ive always been able to make up stories but when i create them i dont think of it as words, as a story would be if i wrote it down, I actually see the story's progression moving. When I create a story and characters I see them move and create the story themselves with small things i put in, and I hear them actually say what they have to say. out of all mediums of visual story-telling, animation is the closest to the original "being" of the story. [2/27/2015 4:07:38 PM] Evan: Why do you share them? [2/27/2015 4:10:20 PM] YV??~: I do that with pretty much any work i finish. Like "here i made this, heres proof it exists." Basically so i have something to show for myself, that i do have the ability to make things. [2/27/2015 4:12:29 PM] Evan: Does it make you proud? [2/27/2015 4:15:32 PM] YV??~: euuhhh...Proud? No. Satisfied with actually being able to have a finished product of some kind, even if its less than the original plan, is a little more like it. Even if I hate it later because there are things that could have been done better if given the time, its still better than nothing. And even then usually the ones i hate the most give other people the most enjoyment. [2/27/2015 4:17:22 PM] Evan: Do you make things that you hate? [2/27/2015 4:20:59 PM] YV??~: Oh yeah. Serious things that just went wrong early on and i was unable to fix, and joke things that ive put too much effort into that got too big compared to real work. I usually dont hate projects though. Even when I feel like theyre going no where and i retire the idea completely i dont usually hate those. Mostly art and animations, actual stories are different. [2/27/2015 4:28:05 PM] Evan: Does art make you happy? [2/27/2015 4:32:56 PM] YV??~: Not usually while im in the process of making it, im mostly just mind set on what it SHOULD look like. But stepping back to look at everything come together and finally become something finished usually is satisfying at the least. Some i never look at after that final moment of its creation, but some im really happy with the way it came out and end up looking at it over and over. So I suppose once the peice is made it does, in a way. [2/27/2015 4:34:34 PM] Evan: Are you proud when your art makes others happy? [2/27/2015 4:36:44 PM] YV??~: Well, i mean, i guess its nice when other people can find enjoyment out of something ive done. [2/27/2015 4:37:13 PM] Evan: Do you like making people happy? [2/27/2015 4:39:21 PM] YV??~: depends, usually i try not to sacrifice too much for other people, but sometimes i can be generous with somethings. really it depends on how I feel pretty much. [2/27/2015 4:41:55 PM] Evan: What makes you happy? [2/27/2015 4:47:07 PM] YV??~: I dont know, I tend to spend most of the day in a neutral 'emotionless' state, and most of the time any emotions I do have are very miniscule that I dont usually remember them. Though I enjoy being in the presence of other people, even without participating, people tend to ignore me 90% of the time. Thats a question that im not sure has a real answer [2/27/2015 4:50:26 PM] Evan: Do you have a dream? [2/27/2015 4:53:07 PM] YV??~: I try not to make solid plans more than 3 years in advance, so im not really sure. There's not a whole lot, at this point, that I could really accomplish by 2018, who can even say I'll still be alive by then. [2/27/2015 4:54:04 PM] Evan: But is there something you would want to do? [2/27/2015 4:58:05 PM] YV??~: Usually I just put goals on my characters, and I just exist to help them get there. I dont really see it so much as my life and things I want to do. Really the only thing id regret in dying is not that im stuck nowhere and im not going anywhere, but my characters not fufilling their roles and reaching THEIR closure. [2/27/2015 4:59:23 PM] Evan: Is there anything else that you do? [2/27/2015 5:02:50 PM] YV??~: All of my hobbies relate with art and story-telling in someway. Voice acting, singing, creating costumes and clothing. pretty much all of it is art and in some way has a story behind it. [2/27/2015 5:06:28 PM] Evan: What do you want to be better at? [2/27/2015 5:09:51 PM] YV??~: wehh..I dont know, theres a lot of things i could be better at and somethings i should be, but...im not really sure. [2/27/2015 5:22:15 PM] Evan: What do you think you're best at? [2/27/2015 5:28:41 PM] YV??~: Ive practiced various methods of drawing for years but, even though i just picked up sewing as a craft 3 years ago im better at that than i was with drawing early on. Everything else has taken since around middle school to get to a good level where i can still do it comparatively quickly, where sewing only took a year to get to that point. Overall for me it went from a beginner level to at least moderately experienced much faster than everything else. [2/27/2015 5:38:07 PM] Evan: What's your favorite thing to do? [2/27/2015 5:41:19 PM] YV??~: I dont know. Usually if im bored, and not too fed up with holding a pencil, i end up idly drawing....Its really like the only thing I do. [2/27/2015 5:50:40 PM] Evan: What inspires you? [2/27/2015 5:53:13 PM] YV??~: Usually things just pop into mind on their own. Sometimes they happen while im listening to, or watching something. [2/27/2015 5:53:40 PM] Evan: What sorts of things do you watch and listen to? [2/27/2015 5:57:06 PM] YV??~: Usually I put on miscellaneous gameplay footage or lets plays, and i pretty much switch between that and music. [2/27/2015 5:57:49 PM] Evan: What kind of music? [2/27/2015 6:00:23 PM] YV??~: It usually depends what i feel like. somedays its lighter faster stuff, somedays its heavier stuff. Somedays a combination of both, sometimes i just let my music shuffle and play in whatever order. [2/27/2015 6:02:12 PM] Evan:  Is music important to you? [2/27/2015 6:05:52 PM] YV??~: I guess....I mean some ideas wouldnt have happened without certain songs, and some projects probably wouldnt exist. [2/27/2015 6:07:53 PM] Evan: What's your favorite project? [2/27/2015 6:10:21 PM] YV??~: Honestly, there isnt a lot of public information on Mahito but ive been working with it for 2 years, and it was actually the first thing I envisioned myself actually animating. [2/27/2015 6:11:00 PM] Evan: What's Mahito? [2/27/2015 6:22:17 PM] YV??~: Its something I came up with one day, I guess the best way to describe its themes in short would be Madoka-esque even though i came up with the basics including designs before i even watched it. I guess one could say its very "magical girl" though it is not a straight female cast. It follows a team of 6 highschool students, their leader being a socially withdrawn, sucidal girl whos only real support are her brother and his best friend. These 6 people are given powers and forced into a battle thats been going on for centuries, for supremacy within a group of supernatural beings known to the humans involved as "gods." Many of these gods have no regard for the people they force to fight so long as they are able to take surpremacy in someway, since they are unable to kill each other or be killed. The team has to fight both other human fighters and "monsters", that are the remains of humans who tried to rebel against their "god", which live beyond a barrier and can threaten to destroy inncent human life. At first they look at it as their chance to help people, but eventually their powers become a burden. [2/27/2015 6:24:26 PM] Evan: That sounds really interesting. How much have you done with it? [2/27/2015 6:29:45 PM] YV??~: So far I have designs and short biographies for the main cast. As well as designs for a few of the mosters they will face, and bios for a few minor characters that still have some influence on a part of the plot. A lot of what i have written besides characters is mostly world building, information on the roles and powers each member of a 6 man team can have. Descriptions of the basic behaviors of monsters on different intelligence levels. I plan to have all the designs done at the end of this year, and the timeline for the plot fully written in detail at the end of 2016. [2/27/2015 6:33:31 PM] Evan: Cool. O: I assume it's also going to be an animation? When do you think you'll start making it? [2/27/2015 6:38:45 PM] YV??~: Ive been saying since around last year or so itll come out in 2018. It was the first thing I considered animating seriously, things before that where like that would be cool, or this scene could be animated. But this, i decided, this was going to be fully animated, i tried to start it out in a static format just to get things laid out to be adapted into an animation, but it never worked. While 2018 may be a little too ambitious, this is going to be nothing but animated [2/27/2015 6:44:46 PM] Evan: I see. [2/27/2015 6:46:57 PM] YV??~: yeh

[viralhottopics]

Happiness Hack: This One Ritual Made Me Much Happier

When my wife and I moved to New York City in 2001, recently graduated from college and newlywed, we were eager to find friends. We knew nearly no one but were sure wed soon find a fun-loving group like the 20- and 30-something New Yorkers who spontaneously dropped in on one another on

We hatched a plan. After moving into our Midtown Manhattan apartment, we invited all the neighbors over for drinks by placing Kinkos-printed quarter-sheets into everyones mailboxes. Then, we waited for our versions of Chandler, Kramer, and Elaine to show up. But they didnt. In fact, no one did. As the ice in the cooler melted and the guacamole browned, not a single person among 100 apartments stopped by. Not. One. Person.

Recalling that episode now, we sound embarrassingly nave. We didnt realize friendships in the real world worked nothing like the ones we had forged in our dormitories, let alone those we saw on television. Yet as it turns out, our desire to belong to a tight community was far from foolish.

Recent studies have shown a dearth of social interaction with people you care about and who care about you not only leads to loneliness, but is also linked to a range of harmful physical effects. In other words: A lack of close friendships may be hazardous to your health.

Dying for Friends

A 2010 meta-analysis reviewed 148 studies involving over 300,000 participants and concluded that having weak social ties was as harmful to health as being an alcoholic and twice as harmful as obesity. Julianne Holt-Lunstad, co-author of the analysis, told Reuters, A lack of social relationships was equivalent to smoking up to 15 cigarettes a day.

A more recent study, published in the , found a biological response to loneliness that triggers disease. According to the researchers, social isolation sets off a cellular chain reaction that increases inflammation and suppresses the bodys immune response.

Perhaps the most compelling evidence that friendships affect longevity comes from the ongoing Harvard Study of Adult Development. Since 1938, researchers have been following 724 men, tracking their physical health as well as social habits. Robert Waldinger, the studys current director, said in his recent TED Talk, The clearest message that we get from this 75-year study is this: Good relationships keep us happier and healthier. Period. Socially disconnected people are, according to Waldinger, less happy, their health declines earlier in midlife, their brain functioning declines sooner, and they live shorter lives than people who are not lonely.

Lest we think having 500 Facebook friends might offer some protection, Waldinger warns, Its not just the number of friends you have its the quality of your close relationships that matters.

So what makes for a quality friendship? William Rawlins, a professor of interpersonal communications at Ohio University who studies the way people interact over the course of their lives, told The Atlantic that satisfying friendships need three things: Somebody to talk to, someone to depend on, and someone to enjoy.

Finding someone to talk to, depend on, and enjoy comes naturally when were young. In college, for example, we build strong bonds when nearly everyone around us is also searching for connection. But as we grow into adulthood, the model for how to maintain our friendships isnt clear. We graduate and go our separate ways, pursuing careers and starting lives miles apart from our best friends.

Suddenly work obligations and ambitions trump buddies and brewskis. It becomes impossible to be spontaneous without planning for weeks, if not months, in advance. Once children enter the picture, exhilarating nights on the town become exhausted nights on the couch.

Friendships Starve to Death

Unfortunately, the less time we invest in people, the easier it is to make do without them until one day it becomes too awkward to reconnect. Since we havent spoken for so long, we think, where would we even begin? If we were still close friends wouldnt we have spoken more by now?

This is how friendships die they starve to death. But as the research reveals, by allowing those friendships to starve, were also mal nourishing our bodies.

Case in point: Several months ago, I found myself in a funk. I now live in San Francisco and whenever someone asked, How are you? my reply was the standard Silicon Valley yuppie salute: Good! Super busy! Yet this wasnt exactly true. I wasnt good.

To put things in perspective, I wasnt bad, either. Things were fine. By all measures, more than fine I had a healthy family, a growing business, and interesting clients to work with. Id recently published a book that became a Wall Street Journal bestseller, and if my social media stats were to be believed, I had plenty of friends and followers.

And yet, the funk. I soon identified the problem: The more professional opportunities came my way, the more time I spent away from my real-life friends the people I truly cared about. Maintaining friendships with people to talk to, depend on, and enjoy takes time.

As an undergraduate, I first heard the term residual benefactor in an economics class. A residual benefactor is the chump who gets whatever is left over when a company is liquidated typically, not much. When were not careful, the people we care about often become residual benefactors: We leave them for last, giving them whatever bits of time are left over after weve attended to everything else.

The Solution, the Kibbutz

If the food of friendship is time together, how do we make the time to ensure were all fed? My friends and I have recently come across a way to keep each other close. It fits into our lifestyles despite busy schedules and a surfeit of children. We call it the kibbutz.

In Hebrew, the word means gathering, and for our gathering, four couples meet every two weeks to talk about one question sort of like an interactive TED Talk over a picnic lunch. The question might range from a deep inquiry, like Whats one thing your parents taught you that you want to pass on to your children? to a lighter, more practical question, like How do you disconnect from your iPhone on weekends?

Having a topic helps in two ways. For one, it gets us past the small talk of sports and weather, and helps us open up about stuff that actually matters. Second, it prevents the gender split that happens when couples convene in groups men in one corner, women in another. The question of the day gets us all talking together.

Consistency and Stiff-Arming the Kids

Every other week, rain or shine, the kibbutz is on our calendars consistency is key. Theres no back-and-forth emailing to find a time. We always meet at the same place, and each couple brings their own food so theres no prep or cleanup. If one couple cant make it, no biggie, the others carry on the conversation.

What about the kids? In our group, kids are welcome, but they dont run the show. Typically they play on their own, but if they interject, theyre given a stern response that sounds something like: Im having a conversation with my friends because my friends are important to me. Youre welcome to listen or join the conversation, but please dont interrupt unless its an emergency.

For our childrens sake, we want them to know that adult friendships matter. We dont want them to have to rely on TV to figure out how adults interact. By watching us, our children see that being a good friend means listening when others have something to share, and not being distracted by anything else including our cellphones, the football game, or even our own children (unless someone is bleeding). The entire affair lasts about two hours, and I always leave the kibbutz with new ideas and insights.

Most important, I feel closer to my friends. No, our group isnt as funny or spontaneous as the pseudo-New Yorkers I grew up watching on TV. But it turns out that fun wasnt what I was missing it was authentic, caring friendships. Making time to invest in my most important relationships finally snapped me out of my funk and provided the psychological nourishment I didnt know I was missing.

Not only that, it turns out the time I spend with my friends is also an investment in my future health. Forget diets and the latest workout routines. The best medicine may be to gather your favorite people around a table and make a toast: To friendship, and your health.

Heres the Gist:

Studies show adult friendships have a significant impact on our happiness and well-being.

Committing to my kibbutz has had the biggest impact on my happiness over the past year. Heres how our group works, but the lessons can apply to any adult friendship:

Book the time Reserve time on your calendar for the foreseeable future so there’s no guesswork or scheduling headaches about when well see each other again. Our group meets every two weeks.

Go deep Talking about a meaningful topic strengthens your bonds. Get past the shallow small talk. In our group, a different member brings the question of the day to each meeting.

Dont let kids derail you Children benefit from seeing you model a healthy adult friendship. Tell the kids they can listen or participate, but they cant interrupt unless its an emergency.

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from Happiness Hack: This One Ritual Made Me Much Happier

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(me rambling about my theory about i need u/run/the prologue which i wrote back in march and never got around to posting)

so i just watched the prologue, which i didnt even know existed and rewatched i need u and now the parallels between run and i need u are so glaringly obvious how did i not pick up on them first of all, i haven’t read any other peoples theories yet, except for that everyone thinks that jin is dead and one person who said that there is no timeline and that its all jin’s dreams/memories etc and that he has peter pan syndrome and is scared of growing up (which relates to dope). im not sure if i agree entirely, especially with the timeline part. so im gonna take this way too seriously and im going to rewatch all of the videos in order of the release date and see what i think after that right now i just think its mainly about becoming an adult and letting go and growing apart from the people you were close to, brotherly love, mental health and guilt and its repercussions and how it can isolate you, even from the people you thought you would be with forever side note that i added later: ive also rewatched the japanese versions and planned on including them and even though there are some parallels like the lilies and butterflies, which are really cool and i love all the subtly connections man. they dont really add anything to the story, theyre more about the dance, i think, which is cool too and those 2 videos are basically my aesthetic. theyre kind of the mv i would have expected for i need u and run, so even though i think theyre good, its interesting that they decided to do something a little more unexpected. i did see a comment that pointed out that it says “goodbye jin on the wall in the japanese version of run but 1) that just makes me feel even more like jin is the first one that decided to accept that he has to grow up and leave his childhood behind through removing himself from his friendship group, which represents his “youth” or childhood. i think its jin because he’s the oldest in the group and also kind of explains why jungkook, the youngest was the one who stood behind everyone else in the last shot and looked into the camera?? kind of?? idek 2) i still dont think jin is dead i think it just looks like “goodbye jin” thats like how it also sounds like rapmon is saying “fall, fall, fall, im naruto” in the beginning of the japanese version of i need u ya feel 

i need u

the only thing i dont really dont get about this video is that the lyrics are about a romantic relationship. the video works, and the lyrics basically do too, except for “I need you girl Why am I in love alone, why am I hurting alone I need you girl Why do I keep needing you when I know I’ll get hurt?I need you girl, you’re beautiful I need you girl, you’re so cold I need you girl I need you girl I need you girl I need you girl Girl, just tell me you wanna break up Girl, just tell me it wasn’t love” and the other times when they mention “girl”. everything else, like all the other songs aren’t inherently romantic except for this one. maybe it represents v’s thing with that girl and that other guy, though, so i guess it works. or it could show that obsessing over a girl and crushes and falling head over heels for someone is part of growing up or something. jin already stands out in this one. there’s something very different about him. i think the story is told from his perspective.   i think the way he carefully places the lilies (are the petals he puts on the floor lilies?) shows that this is something he cherishes, but then he sets it on fire because he knows he has to let go of it and move on. im not sure what exactly that is but i think its either his childhood, a romantic relationship, codependency or his friendship group. the parts on the train tracks and the campfire show that theyre only really happy when theyre together (like when j hope burns his pills) and that spending time with each other is kind of a safe haven where they remember the “good old days” from the prologue. the styling and the suspenders and cardigans and springerstiefel and stuff that theyre wearing is basically the exact kind of clothing they wore then. i think jimin burning those polaroids will be more important later. im still unsure about the part right at the end where theyre all asleep, though. maybe it just reinforces the idea of a safe haven and that as long as they are united, they dont need meds and dont feel the need to be violent. i need u (original version)

yeah, i think what i said about the other version applies to this one too, its just more graphic. i think i like this version more, it feels like the other one just didnt tell the whole truth. i think its good that there are two versions though, so people who are triggered by blood and that kind of thing can still watch it.

the only thing that seems like its worth mentioning is the lily thats projected onto jin’s heart, which also works perfectly with what i said before.

i also like the part where jimin is leaning onto the side of the bathtub, it seems to me like that kind of shows that even if you have the strength to “get out of the bathtub” and deal with whatever it is that is making you suffer, it doesnt end there. you still have to deal with the repercussions. alternatively, the bathtub is his other ‘safe haven’ and his way of blocking out his problems/the real world/etc. idek prologue

the first minute where v is sitting on the floor seems like it happens right after i need u, but then the rest is a memory.

the polaroid and the video camera and the suspenders and the lack of modern technology give off this vibe that its in the past, and more of a childhood memory, whereas he’s using an iphone in the first minute. it shows that whenever he’s had a problem before (like something with his family because of the polaroid he is crumpling), he knew he could rely on his friends to be there for him in no time. it seems like jin is kind of shy, almost purposely distancing himself from the group because he doesnt want to interrupt, he’s definitely a part of the group but this just gives off the vibe that those are his memories, that he is narrating but im not sure why i feel like it is. at first the memories are childhood memories, because of the way they tackle each other, rock paper scissors, pretend sword fights, jungkook trying to balance on the fence thing… after the first blackout when rapmon writes on the mirror (you need to survive - again, providing emotional support and stuff), theyre older (inbetween the childhood memories and v killing the other guy) and definitely less light hearted. jin’s polaroid either shows some sort of old memory they shared (seems more likely because its a polaroid) or a perfect place they created together to escape reality.  they have a phone instead of the more old fashioned cameras, so that confirms the time period its set in. the gas station feels like it shows that rapmon is kind of stuck in his home town, and didnt really end up where he wanted to be i can’t put it into words i just feel like it is the end, where v jumps off the thing feels like he’s starting to change or do something different and everyone else isn’t quite sure how to deal with it, but they encourage him, i think, and it just seems like the first step to them drifting apart a little bit. after the end credits, i think time has passed and jin has decided to come back to that place where they were so happy alone, but its not the same and the polaroid shows that he’s alone and that everything has changed run

this is the one where im going to start sounding really pretentious i think v right at the beginning is related to him jumping of the thing, but for some reason it just feels like it represents his anger and guilt after doing whatever he did to that guy. it came out of nowhere but it completely engulfed him and now he’s completely alone and he’s “surrounded” by it, like his mental state and feelings are inescapable and he has to deal with them alone. then rapmons ice cube and coke are kind of mimetic of that and maybe rapmon wiping the coke into his shirt and seemingly being put off by it represents him not being as willing to help v anymore, almost being fed up because they’ve just grown apart. i think this isn’t real. this is just memories and them desperately wishing that their friendship could still help them escape like it used to. 

“You are my only sun, one and only in the world I bloomed for you, but I’m still getting thirsty It’s too late, too late, I can’t live without you Though my branch runs dry, I reach for you with all my strength”

their friendship is the only reason they “bloomed”, why they were happy, or even alive. i think thats why j-hope’s mental health has worsened (since he’s now in what seems like a hospital) and why he uses their friendship almost like a coping mechanism. they “bloomed” for each other and now they “can’t live without” each other. “No matter how far I reach for you, It is just an empty dream dream dream” i think thats also why there’s that one scene where kookie is sitting on the floor while everyone is partying but then when the camera zooms out, he’s alone. “Let me run more Please let me run more Even though my feet are full of scars I smile whenever I see you” “Don’t tell me bye bye” “Only thing I can do is love you” “Everybody say it is over but I can’t stop this” “Curse me, this foolish destiny!” i think all of this shows how they desperately cling to this friendship, which is almost like their “youth” but it’s “destiny”, its predetermined and they can’t do anything about it. kookie and suga’s fight seems like it represents that they just dont understand each other in the same way they used to. “Like chasing butterfly or wondering in dreams I follow your traces Please guide me please stop me Please let me breathe” I think the butterfly relates to “butterfly” playing while v was jumping off the thing and the “Please guide me/Please let me breathe” is mimetic of him falling into the water at the beginning of run, feeling like he’s being suffocated by his feelings and problems and guilt and that he needs the others to help him get through it. but id like to believe that him coming out of the water at the end, by himself, shows that he didnt give up and that he manage to do it by himself and that he’s learnt to live without the others. // 

in short, i think that i need u is real life, the prologue is their childhood and run is what they wish for. the last scene with jimin feels like its showing how painful reliving those memories is or that his friendships could have “rescued him from the bathtub”. they could have even turned this awful thing he is experiencing into something enjoyable, and at the end of the video he also decides to let go and stop living vicariously through the memories by burning the polaroid. and i think jin disappears from the polaroid because he doesn’t feel like he’s part of the group anymore, its like his past life, and all he has are memories that are ultimately just causing him pain and he needs to forget. “Memories are crumbling like dried flower leaves” i think that references the lilies that jin burnt in i need u. he’s letting go of the memories. epilogue: forever young

addition from 19th april 2016 the epilogue just came out and wow i was not prepared for that 23th april: ok now im ready to talk about it properly what i really, really like about this one is that it seems more autobiographical. it’s the fear of not being relevant forever, disappointing the people that support and look up to them. i think that this video was such a lovely way to end (i think its the end?) this era because it supports my “interpretation”or “belief” that ultimately, there was a “happy ending” and that no one is dead. its always seemed strange to me to have this whole era about youth and growing up and then bringing death into it, and i think this video just supports that further. while i was watching the video i kept thinking “The only way out of the labyrinth of suffering is to forgive.” (because i am trash) they’re escaping the “labyrinth of suffering”, which seems like the the fear of growing up, changing, that the “applause can’t be [theirs] forever”, by accepting and continuing to “run towards [their] dream”. thats what leaving the maze, the running and the airplane represent. i think theres a difference between deciding to let go of something (thats what run was) and actually having moved on and starting over. this is the new beginning. and id like to believe that they can still be together, despite everything. they dont need each other anymore, but they still stick together and got through run. maybe its not a happy ending but its a new beginning.

blood sweat and tears - japanese version 

addition from 9/10th of march bc bts will never fuckign let me live:

I THOUGHT I WAS DONE WITH THIS THEORY I WAS SO HAPPY WITH IT BUT HERE THEY GO AND RELEASE THE JAPANESE VERSION OF BST 

my initial thoughts r that i don’t really like it??? dont get me wrong all of the shot individually are cool, but im not sure how well they work together tbh. ive only watched the mv once, and it was a lot to take in, so maybe it'll grow on me. this is v strange bc as i said, i usually just ignore the japanese versions?? theyre pretty (usually lol) but they dont say much??? or at least thats what i thought. ok. after watching it once, here’s some thought vomit: the whole storyline of these boys might be a literal ‘riches to rags’ story? maybe the luxury doesnt just represent ageing, but actual wealth and this whole thing is more autobiographical than i thought at first. they brought the fukign truck and the gas station and the cigarettes back. i mean,, i still dont think anyone is dead. i think the jin-lighter thing happened bc like. okay. in run? inu? rapmon had a lollipop, not cigarettes. those are a pg/cheaper version of cigarettes (bear with me here) and jin giving him the lighter shows that he knows how rapmon has changed, and is willing to support it? maybe to show that they still know each other well? that they support each others growth??? maybe its another temptation thing??? but like, in australia smoking is super super expensive so maybe its just another class thing? well i looked up the price of cigarettes in korea, and they did rise the price in 2017 as far as i can tell but it still doesnt seem expensive enough to make sense? plus, the story was obviously started waaaaaay back... ok im gonna rewatch the mv but i wont properly theorise until i have the time to rewatch all mvs, i feel like i cant have a valid opinion until then anyway. more rambley thoughts: jin’s illusion shattering right at the end? maybe? the apple is an obvious symbol for temptation, jk being the youngest and also being the one semi forced to drink the thing, possibly related? also, rm getting him to drink it? related to him being tempted by jin later on in the mv but earlier on in the story, showing how it spreads????? maybe the japanese version shows the downsides, everything bad that the korean version omitted? showing the glamours/good side/facade, japanese mv more realistic??? r there literal drugs involved? after these special effects, no one can be certain. also before he drinks it he's wearing a hoodie and more inu era stuff but then it cuts to his korean bst version whose all fancy so it shows like, his transformation? at first he's forced to drink whatever the thing is, then he licks it off his finger bc he's embracing it and it like, shows the cost? and the addictiveness? that the destructive thing comes with a price but he/they do it anyway. wtf is going on with jimin inu era clothing seeing jimin bst era and then just exploding??? maybe like, how shocked his old version would be by what he has become?? why was jin sleeping in the truck in inu era clothes tho. is that why he came back?? j hope bow and arrow seems real in the korean version but it seems more like an illusion in the japanese mv so maybe its all a goddamned illusion who even fuckign knows at this point i need to get my thoughts sorted out before i actually write anything.