#and to anyone who submitted an ask

[p0ssywhippedcream]

sometimes i open my drafts and scroll a bit and remember to my horror and embarrassment that i have some asks from literally 2 years ago half-baked and those people probably thought i ignored them 🧍‍♀️

[will-bonna]

moar artispear plz,,

she doesn’t understand why spearm won’t eat it

[graveyard-galaxy]

You know I actually think Douglas Graves is more spineless than Andrew could ever be. Douglas seems to simply view himself as an extension of his wife, I do not think Andrew consistently views himself as an extension of Ashley.

This one’s interesting, because I do conceptually agree, but I also think I have a little more to say than just that.

Where Andrew and Ashley vs Douglas and Renee gets interesting to me is that Douglas isn’t necessarily portrayed as uncomfortable just doing what Renee wants in the same way that if nothing else, just the ____ in a box ending (Choosing Andy ending in episode 3) shows that Andrew is completely miserable just being Ashley’s plaything. It does get a little hard to say, because we are very deliberately shown very little of Douglas, typically, because the story is told from Andrew and Ashley’s perspectives, and he is completely absentee to both of them. (We don’t even get his portraits until we’re in a vision from Renee’s perspectives, for instance) I would say though, that whereas Andrew feels confined and consumed by being under Ashley’s thumb, Douglas seems to be comfortable under Renee’s direction, from what we see.

He won’t stand up to his abusive father, but Renee will do it for him. (They had a plan to kill his parents together, and though we have no idea how much Douglas really liked the idea of this, we know that he was perfectly prepared to go along with the plan before they discovered and decided to keep Renee’s pregnancy.) He doesn’t get the social mind games the surgeon plays with him, but Renee does, and he’s perfectly happy for her to just speak for him entirely in the opposite way to how the surgeon speaks to him for her. And even just in the car on the way to the grandparents! He tries to stammer out to the kids why they shouldn’t ruin the car, but they don’t respond, and then he’s perfectly happy to let Renee bark out the orders. (Only to Andrew, passing that chain of responsibility right along, as well….)

Andrew wouldn’t take this from Ashley. We’ve all known for a while that his ‘doormat extraordinaire’ descriptor is a good bit of unreliable narration, and is exactly what he wants us to think, but it’s still worth noting for that all he does give into Ashley and appear to be that doormat, it’s reluctantly. A lot of the time he’s only battered down into agreeing with her, which is part of why he’s so frustrated and often times verging on nihilistic in episode 3.

So whilst, yep, I do think Douglas would be happy to call himself an extension of Renee, because when he comes home from long hours of work, feeling tired and frustrated and perhaps verging on nihilistic (note, we do not know this, but considering he has to tell Andrew in an episode 2 flashback that he isn’t about to jump off the balcony, it’s not hard to see potential parallels to our very suicidal and nihilistic Shots and Such Andrew) she makes everything right again.

But it really is more complicated for Andrew. Just in this framework, Andrew is both happiest when he has Ashley right beside him, but also at his most miserable when he’s ‘forced’ to put up with her. When he’s apart from Ashley, he feels wrong. But when he’s with Ashley, they so frequently fight and he does things that he doesn’t like. If he thinks of himself as an extension of her, it’s in a very miserable sense; he wants to be more to her than just what she wants to be, and more than just Leyley’s Andy, and feels confined as just her plaything. He views her as fundamentally incapable of drawing any kind of lines between them, so when he is Ashley’s anything, for all that he claims to be happy to be her everything, it isn’t offering any kind of safety or fulfilment in the same way that being Renee’s husband offers something to Douglas.

To put it succinctly, Andrew yearns for an equal partnership; Douglas yearns to be with Renee in any capacity.

Or, well, it’s hard to say exactly how Douglas feels, because we never see his perspective, and because most of the thoughts we have on their relationship are from Renee’s perspective. But we know that they both feel as though they saved each other — it’s just that Renee’s words about this are a lot stronger. She very fervently insists that meeting Douglas is practically the only good thing to happen to her, in her time capsule letter, but Douglas’s is more… wishy-washy, I suppose? He says that being with Renee gives him a reason to stay alive, but practically everything else he says is along the lines of “I want to do this because you do”. Even in Renee’s vision in the vision room, mostly Douglas seems to just test the waters more saying anything concrete, so it’s hard to get his thoughts on things beyond just the obvious “I love my wife”.

What I will say is interesting about that vision is how he does take some actions without Renee’s direct input. He, at the very least, is in tune with her enough to act on her behalf sometimes, as here, he unplugs the phone for her, and is the first to tentatively bring up that they don’t have to do anything about Andrew and Ashley potentially being Nina’s killers. But I think more relevantly here, we also observe he easily he backpedals. He thinks out loud about how the punishment for Andrew and Ashley can’t be that bad if they killed Nina, because they’re both just kids – very apathetic to the situation as he’s apathetic towards the kids – but quickly changes his tune when Renee snaps about not wanting to be seen as the mother of two kids raised so badly they’re murderers. After that, that’s when he starts of his casual avoidance – the “We don’t know that it actually happened, so therefore it probably didn’t” type attitude. (Curiously, this is more of a parallel to Ashley’s line of thinking about Nina with her whole “If you don’t think about something for a really long time, it’ll be like it never happened” type mentality.)

We see Andrew test the waters in similar ways, especially in episode 1, where he lets Ashley dictate a lot of his behaviour for some kind of plausible deniability (“Do we, uhh… Do you want to go check on him?” about the neighbour once on his balcony, and the infamous “Wanna go take a peek?” “Nope. But I’ll come along if you do…” about going to see what the music is about the first time) but I think this comes from a bit of a different place. Douglas tests the waters with what he says because he fundamentally trusts his wife’s judgment over his own, seemingly, and because he doesn’t want to go against her. But Andrew speaks like this because his mask is still so far up in episode 1, especially when we don’t see him from his perspective, so he’s still very much shifting responsibility for what they do onto Ashley because he doesn’t want to accept it. It’s not that Andrew especially trusts Ashley’s judgment, clearly not, given how much he doubts and insults her plans and motives in later episodes, but if she makes the decisions, then it’s just not his fault if things go wrong.

Or once again, to summarise, Douglas lets Renee be responsible for his actions and opinions because he trusts her and because he wants his thoughts to align with hers, whereas Andrew lets Ashley be responsible for his actions and seemingly at fault for his opinions only when it’s both most convenient for him to have her to blame, and when he’s willing to entertain her as actually Ashley – when he’s having enough fun with her to actually want to hear her thoughts.

Because if there’s one big thing that stops Andrew from being an extension of Ashley, it’s that most of the time, he doesn’t see her as her own person. Most of the time, if anyone’s an extension of anyone, she’s just some extension of him, as he’s the stand-in mother, father, boyfriend, whatever the fuck she feels like that day to her, whilst he consistently dehumanises and infantilises her. He can’t be the extension of someone he views as never having grown out being a child at the best of times, and as simply an “it” – some kind of object that can’t be consistent because it doesn’t have its own thoughts – at the worst. And when she attempts to force him into that position – when she chains him up or puts him away in the toy box – he’s miserable, because he is only willing to be Ashley’s if it’s on his terms.

[blueskittlesart]

what do you think about zora design? about past and current designs? how would you change it? actually!!! what are the zora (and other races) like in your sword of fate au???

got distracted by the second question. look at my little guys:

these are some of the current (working) designs!! from left to right it's sheikah, zora, hylian, goron, and gerudo! these aren't necessarily the average builds/designs for each race but they're the most important character from each race lol. sword of fate takes place really early-on in the timeline, so the culture and separation of races is still kind of loose especially among the humanoid races. the current generation of zora is basically the first generation to call themselves zora and attempt to establish a government or hold any authority alongside the other races of hyrule, and because they're kind of a young race i imagine they're less fishy and more invertebrate-like in this stage, hence my jellyfish princess! (her dad is a giant squid lol.) the sheikah are descendants of the original surface humans, whereas the hylians and gerudo are two seperate sects that both originally came from skyloft. the hylians built a few villages which each have their own distinct vibe while the gerudo took a more nomadic approach and roam the desert in small independently governed groups. The gorons are the most well-established race at this point, having been on the surface a lot longer than basically everyone else, and so they have a much stronger culture and shared identity than a lot of the other races that are still kind of getting their footing.

[ego-osbourne]

How well can the masq siblings hold their alcohol?

From best to worst:

Serana — She is undead, and therefore is immune to poison, which includes alcohol effects. Don’t mistake her as the group babysitter though, she has other, sober ways of encouraging the intoxicated chaos of her siblings.

Ego — Though they were a lightweight at first, both having Sanguine’s boon and being wrapped up in Sanguinite party culture helped to boost their tolerance to alcohol. They can usually maintain a good amount of control even when intoxicated.

Miraak — His only tolerance comes form the fact that he is the biggest of the four of them, and therefore it takes a while for the alcohol to get to his head. Still, he is no match for Ego.

Ancano — He’s a lightweight despite his best intentions. It does not take much before he is face down and passed out.

//this one was super fun to draw, all the masq siblings interacting is something I realize I need to doodle more often

[pokemonbattletournament]

I just thought of some creatures NOW of all times 😭 is there any spectrobes in there or perhaps creatures from moon: remix RPG 🥺

There's a single Spectrobe in there, and nothing from moon: remix, sorry

[gomzdrawfr]

god i really am a tumblrina I read ur poll as Gaz and immediately clicked Price before I realized it said Gomz 😭 rip my piss reading comprehension 💀

Anon its ok though I wish I was even 10% of Price 😂

[magnusmodig]

ovo whispers menacingly abt his grandstanding .

[chaosduckies]

gosh i saw all the art submissions, how will you choose?!

The main thing that I will be choosing based off of is how creative it is and how you picture my ocs because well I just love seeing all the scenarios you guys make <3 (Some have actually given me ideas for one shots) if it comes down to a tie (which it probably will because wowie I can’t choose they’re all so good) then I’ll put it in a poll or a random wheel! And a special thanks to everyone who has participated y’all are amazing 🫶 ❤️

[otherkinpolls]

That fictionkin poll isn't inclusive of psychological fictionkin at all. Not all of us have canons or memories. We just are the character.

i'm aware of this ^_^ i'm psychological kin myself. i'm sorry if you felt excluded! i was more directing the question at people who do have memories if that wasn't clear, which is why i didn't explicitly include options for people that don't as it feels a little redundant to me when there are always see results options on the polls if i can fit them. i'll try to remember to add options like that or be more aware of my wording in the future if similar polls are submitted

[nothoughtsonlytrance]

question 06. How do you want to die?

Ohhh trick question! Um tbh I really don’t know lol i haven’t really given any thought to how I would like to die since I’m so focused on the present and how I wanna live life now haha so yeah, I’m not sure! Thanks for the question @ghoulish-art-tendencies!

[every-character-ever-poll]

um. saw South Park on the next list. heads up, another poll blog I followed got a ton of discourse and negativity after posting SP. should probably be cool here since we all seem chill but be warned.

I imagine it will be fine, though I appreciate the warning nonetheless. We've been through the problematic media loop already with Harry Potter in week two (?), and I trust anyone following me to either be chill about it and vote how they wish (or abstain), or block the tag or my blog if they don't wish to see it. That goes for anything I post here. Just be chill 👍

[incorrect-ikevamp-quotes]

Just a heads-up to everyone, I'm going through my ask box to try to answer everything I never got around to before. I apologize for the late replies, but hopefully better late than never!

[kabretoss]

laying on the ground and having a little scream about art

[kirk-spock-fics]

update

Hello, unfortunately due to unforeseen circumstances this blog will be on a hiatus indefinitely.

[steevejr]

always very interesting when people rush to say the ‘green skinned witches with pointy hats aren’t offensive actually and heres why!’ by saying the green only happened because of wizard of oz and also witch hats are silly and fun lol also witches aren’t real actually they’re just make-believe characters from fables so like who would this possibly be offensive to? while completely and totally ignoring the entire antisemitic core of every aspect of the witch caricature 🤨 who do you think they were persecuting then if witches aren’t real ?

let’s not think any deeper into why pointy hats and brooms and devil imagery is part of medieval European folklore, ok guys? 😌 it’s just silly folklore ❤️