#anyway. ty for the ask <3< /div>
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i dont think ive asked you yet so what is ‘special mission: save the cat’ about? <3
this one is a deceptively silly doc title for a fic that is abt dealing with the aftermath of character death. basically post-plf arc, aizawa calls shinsou from the hospital and is like i need you to 1. check on eri and 2. get midnight’s cat from her apartment. and shinsou is like. hey why am i getting midnight’s cat. aizawa. aizawa why does someone need to go get midnight’s cat—
anyway have an excerpt:
“Shinsou-nii,” she mumbles. “Um. Why are we doing this?” He falters. There’s—really no good answer to that question. “Well,” he starts, searching for anything to say that isn’t the full truth, “no one is really sure how long some of the heroes are going to be at the hospital, so… Midnight-sensei might need someone to take care of her cat for a while.” He grimaces at his own words, because he knows they sounded too hopeful. But Aizawa didn’t want him to tell Eri the truth. She’ll have to find out eventually, though. “Is she going to be okay?” Eri asks, voice small. “I don’t know,” Hitoshi lies. Eri squeezes his hand tighter, bumping into him with her next step. She doesn’t say anything, but after another moment, Hitoshi hears a sniffle.
#BECAUSE WHO TOOK IN SUSHI AFTER MIDNIGHT’S DEATH!!!! HORIKOSHI SHE HAD A CAT!!!!!#SHE HAD A CAT WHO ALREADY LOST ONE PARENT!!! THIS ISNT FAIRRRRR#anyway. ty for the ask <3#lena tag#ask game#grace's writing tag#forgot i drafted this at like 3am so i could fix the formatting on desktop. oops#hi lena here u go. ily
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Tim and Dani, dressed as cheerleaders, cheering on Kon while he fights whoever his nemesis is.

Tim and Dani silently put down the pompoms but that’s when Kon stands back up and with the power of love, defeats his enemies. Afterwards, he gets cuddles and kisses. They still wear the cheerleading uniforms for him 😌 (delulu)
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Panel 1 is just Dani and Tim wearing a cheerleading outfit with pompoms. On their shirts, it says ‘Go Kon!’
Dani: C’mon, Superboy! Show ‘em who’s boss!
Tim: Don’t get distracted now, Superboy!
Panel 2 has Kon shouting at them, teary eyed and red faced, completely flustered.
Kon: YOU TWO ARE THE DISTRACTIONS!!
Panel 3 has Kon being punched in the face.
Then panel 4 has Kon in the Family Guy death pose while Tim and Dani stare at him in shock speechlessly.
Tim and Dani: ….
#dpxdc#dcxdp#dp x dc#danny phantom x dc#dc x dp#dp x dc crossover#ask#anon ask#dani fenton#dani phantom#tim drake#kon kent#kon el#tim x kon x dani#two for one ship#you didn’t ask for a drawing but you got one anyways!!#ty for the ask >:3
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hi uhm... can you draw Emily the Seraphim? I love her sooo much
Sure thing!! She is SUPER cute omg I love her too <3
#Maybe a little ooc but i super believe she would gossip tf outta that place#not in a malicious way or anything but she wants to know whats up so she can try fix things#maybe doesnt always work out for her idk lol#anyway ty for the request this one was fun!!!#asks#tribbleart#tribbletalks#emily the seraphim#hazbin hotel emily#emily hazbin hotel#hazbin hotel fanart#hazbin hotel#<3
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Tfa dratchcee… (drift/ratchet/arcee)
Old Married couple adopts local hippie
Sorry for being a month late anon ILY 💘🌸🎀👛
#ty for a req that has 3 of my top TFs of all time#dratchcee#ratchet#drift#arcee#dratchet#Ardrift?#guys they need a ship name too#i wanna draw IDW Drift and Arcee kissing too. leave me alone theyre both sword users#transformers#lloro#art#driftcee#thats better?#anyways Drift needs get ridden by arcee while ratchet is fucking him idk#welcome to the tags where i goon shamelessly#ask
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since we're pro gooner now can we get more art of egg pegging somebody?? anybody?????? posting this on main because I have no shame and nobody can stop me
shame is for losers anyways
no reddit render for once. might make one of it at some point but not soon i dont think (insert plink emoji)
#i was never anti-gooner the ppl in my askbox just dared not seek my boundries yet (eager)#to which i dont rlly have any other than the normal more extreme stuff#even then i'm not against ppl asking if im good w it or not#anyways ty for giving me an excuse to give Whitney the Whitney Treatment#also forgive me if Whitney's anatomy is off </3 still getting used to drawing super masculine guys again#which also goes for basically any human anatomy <- long-time animal & furry artist#egg the yolkster#dol whitney#whitney the bully#dol#degrees of lewdity#theaskofeggs
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hello hello! I think it would be cool too see WWII hangster (if that's something you're interested in!!)
homecoming :')
#ty for the ask <3#I hope this is wwII enough!!#yes I did research us navy uniforms for this#honestly so interesting#anyways I really like this pose so don't be surprised if I use it again#my art#gray answers#hangster#sereshaw#jake ‘hangman’ seresin#bradley ‘rooster’ bradshaw#tgm
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unfortunately i have reignited my hyperfixation with jjk and am reminded of how the manga ended so now i am planning a jjk fix-it fic canon divergence series with reader who regressed back to before everything started in your youth and make it your goal to change that reality and cry when seeing child!gojo for the first time again and is self-sacrificial and very selfless to achieve the happy ending where everyone lives while all the main cast (mainly the jjk adults bc who doesnt love them and also jujutsu high moments sobsob) lose years off their life worrying abt you and !!
#sophie talks : concepts <3#sighs#here we go again#now i have to actually watch s2 after avoiding it for so long bc i already read the manga and knew what was gonna happen#GDI JUST LET THEM ALL BE HAPPY WHY COULDNT THERE BE AN ALT ENDING FUCK U GEGE#<- /lh bc ty gege for creating the manga and finishing it im just permanently salty bc of how much ive cried over it 🧍♀️#i will make the happy ending... everyone will live......#anyway once again regression and time reversal aus my beloved haha lol#ALSO WILL ANSWER ASKS TMRW BC I AM CLACK CLACK CLACKING AWAY BEFORE I FORGET THESE PLOT POINTS#never thought i would go back to writing a jjk series yet here we are bc tell me why literally all my faves died and im still not over it
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Aha another question!
How would Shadow and Amy take care of each other when the other got sick?
I imagine that Shadow would be alerted because it would bring him back to when Maria was sick so he would not leave Amy’s side but maybe you have a different view on it.
yippee another question !!
going to chuck this all under the cut, because my answer is not as short as i thought it was going to be lmao (also be warned this regrettably is a veery shadow-centric yaparoo)
first of all, i'm absolutely on the same bandwagon as you. like,, you cannot tell me shadow would sit idle when someone else gets sick. you cannot tell me something like this scene in dark beginnings would never be repeated again in a future circumstance :




doesn't matter how, shadow's gonna fret. he's gonna be pedantic. not overbearing, but definitely more stern and watchful. shadow has known to make parallels between his current situation and that of an occurrence with maria (i mean, just look at those cutscenes in sa2 !). she is ingrained in his memory - linked to trauma or not - she is always in his mind and heart
shameful plug, but i wrote something in similar here in one of my shadamy fics, where shadow, in a moment of vulnerability, confesses his worry for amy's wellbeing (with the implication his past playing a factor in his instinctual response). contextually, not quiiite in the same ballpark, but close enough to say i definitely share your mindset
"Sorry, I don't mean to sound impertinent; seeing lethargy in you triggered a warning in me and I... I worry." — Sin and Sublimation
you're right though, shadow would remain by amy's side, whether she's come down with the common cold or something long-term. that scene in dark beginnings alone could say that not only does he care about maria, but he's a caretaker in general and therefore wouldn't likely leave amy to deteriorate while she's under the weather
i don't remember where the post is or who posted it, but someone had an awesome hc where they believe shadow serves a similar function to how a medical care animal would and i don't remember if this was part of the post, but i hc that shadow has an ability/sense to sniff out illness before symptoms even crop up. or if it's long-term, sense a flare-up before it hits. of course, it wouldn't help him any with prevention in most cases, but a part of him is always aware
point is, shadow's onto it. he's finding the best way to minimise suffering if it's within his power to do so. of course, he's not going to leave amy bedridden and miserable - and that applies both through inaction and being too controlling. he's going to look after her but won't hold amy back if she feels capable of doing something. anyway, all this allows for him to be able to step back into a role familiar to him. one he treats with utmost diligence
amy however, is so much harsher on shadow. and that's because he was under the belief he couldn't get sick (next stop : denial station ??). as a thought, he was possibly immune to every condition known at the time, but that's the thing, especially regarding airborne illnesses (iykyk) : they evolve. i think shadow in general probably has a rough as guts immune system, so it might fight whatever it is off before it becomes a problem, but if it did hit ? amy's going to make sure he doesn't do anything reckless and instead rests well. shadow probably has a hard time being cared for, all things considered, so that on top of being sick is all overwhelmingly new to him. i think amy likes to make chicken noodle soup and bring him a hot water bottle and watch movies with him - that kinda thing :) she herself is probably used to looking after cream or vanilla when they're sick so she knows just what to do to help someone through their sickness
regardless, they're a loyal team, your honour. i stand by this 'til my last breath, i do <33
#bee blabs#bee's box#tw illness#shadamy#amadow#shadow x amy#amy x shadow#shadow the hedgehog#amy rose#maria robotnik#ark siblings#headcanon#but also kind of an analysis ??#(also i didn't want to tag in case i came off as intrusive#but HoneyLicious on ao3 has a whole fic surrounding this concept called 'I Can't Breathe Without You'#which is defo a recommended read if ur into that sorta thing !!)#i was also going to make another point abt shadow's need for the air shoes and limiter/inhibitor rings and how that affects him#but this post is already too long and i talk way too much abt shadow as is ;-;#anyway ty again for the ask !!! <3
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I imagine Danny and Cass doing wholesome activities together: Cass teaching Danny ballet, Danny rambling on about space stuff while Cass listens, both of them playing video games. Normal human teenager things.


I love drawing domestic scenes <3 (even if I’m atrociously bad at drawing backgrounds)
#me the moment I get to use the free brushes: *spams the glow brush*#dc x dp#dp x dc#danny phantom x dc#dpxdc#dcxdp#dp x dc crossover#danny fenton#ask#anon ask#danny x cass#cassandra wayne#cassandra cain#you didn’t ask for a drawing but you got one anyways!!#ty for the ask <3#dead silent ship
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If you’re still taking requests can you draw some Legs? (/nf)

ABSOLUTELY!! Legs I love you so much Legs, coolest of all mobsters... I love the mob so much ♥
#the simpsons#max legman#legs simpsons#<- me when i have no clue what tag to use for this lad#my art#i have to say? massively funny ask out of context#'can you draw some legs' i sure can buddy!!#it's so funny LMAO#anyway yeah i love legs and it's awesome to see him be appreciated like this <3 cool username#the mob is everything to me man. legs and louie my children sniffff <33#i hope i did him justice for you!!#ty for the ask :]
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could i mayhaps have a little homestar... as a treat.. i haven't been feeling so good recently and seeing ur art makes me snile, grin a little even
OFC!!! Here he is!!! :]
#homestar runner#think im getting better at drawing him..#h*r#requests#asks#idk if hes actually said that or if im making it up#anyways--- hope u feel so much better :] !!!#AND TY FOR THE REQUEST!!<3
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Hi there!
My first time asking on your blog! Do you like SasuSaku? And if so why? This is a genuine question out of curiosity if you ship SasuSaku I am ok with that because a small part of me ships it as well!
AA HI HI!!!!! Nice to see you here ^^
Mm Sasusaku has got to be my favourite ship (besides SasuNeji ofc) but im not quite sure why,,,
Well, (Story time buckle up everyone) when I first watched the show at 7 I was a hard-core LeeSaku shipper, and when i got into the show again at maybe 12 I was actually disappointed to learn that SasuSaku was canon, I kinda hated Sasuke Xp I KNOW BETTER NOW THOO
When I got into the show again NaruHina was my favourite ship, but over time I started getting more and more obsessed with Sakura, she was like my ultimate favourite then,,, so along with her came my blooming fixation on SasuSaku. I've never actually read a NaruHina fanfic before but I've read... so so many SasuSaku ones.
It became my ultimate favourite tho after i started using tumblr last year, I started to learn more about Sasuke and look deep into his character and I realised how genuinely tragic he is. And then i got really fucking mad. Like??? I've never been so pissed at Kishimoto. Like they're the two most important side characters and he couldn't even do anything apart from some eye contact a thank you and a forehead poke??? (Altho im NOT mad about that poke it was cute as hell he may as well just have proposed) Oh and don't get me started on how they had a baby at NINETEEN. I mean it's Sasuke. There's such an immense amount of trauma there I cant imagine him being able to start a family so soon. Kishimoto when I catch you, how can one man write such a perfectly traumatised character like Tsunade and then create Sasuke. Like wtf bro made the most complex character he could and absolutely fumbled the finish line. Sorry but Sasuke is NOT getting over allat after a couple of years in a forest. Give him more time Like please 😭😭
All this is to say that as much as I absolutely adore SasuSaku i think its my green light at the end of the road typa ship. I love what it could be, rather than what it is. Not too big a fan of the canon because honestly what is there to be a fan of? Obv I love them canon and fanon but yk.
#I think they're a match made in heaven but Kishimoto didn't show us any of them so... we can only speculate I suppose#Also another reason I like SasuSaku is because I hate Sns with a BURNING passion and I live on spite and only spite#Unlike Ss I have genuinely zero reason to hate sns I just woke up one day and became a hater#Bro i have everything sns blocked you won't catch me looking at that shit#Sns is toxic yaoi at its worst bc its just naruto acting like he 'gets' Sasuke and Sasuke gets Manipulated into thinking he's the bad guy#No ur not bbg :c ur so right :c u wanna go kill some government officials :c#That's not what this post is abt tho my b chat#Also I like it cos someone said smth along the lines of “True Hinata fans hate SasuSaku”#And that pissed me off so bad i went and read a SasuSaku fanfic to prove them wrong#It wassss... wrong person on wattpad I believe?#It was rly fun I liked it at the time#Anyways sasusaku is at its peak when it's toxic yuri you gotta believe me#Sasuke#Sakura#haruno sakura#naruto#moldy-flowers#naruto shippuden#sakura haruno#Sasusaku#sakura x sasuke#Moldy-asks#Ty for the ask ml I love ur blog ur art is so fun I love it <3
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Prompt fill for @thedarkstrategist from this ask meme: [ 🛁 ] - running them a bath, Shadowzel.
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“She is in pain,” Lae’zel says, pacing back and forth before the bar on the Elfsong’s bottom floor. The ale Karlach purchased for her sits undrunk on the wood bartop; she seems to have forgotten its existence. “And it is a pain I do not know how to soothe,” she growls. “It is maddening.”
“Yeah,” Karlach says, watching Lae’zel’s quick, restless movements with an air of sympathy. “Fucking sucks, when someone you care about is hurting. And this kind of hurt… whoof.” She breathes out, rattling her lips heavily. “I lost my parents, back before the Hells, but at least they went… normally, y’know? Bad fever, overturned cart. Things like that happen to people. This, what she had to do… that’s a whole different ball game…”
“This is not helping,” Lae’zel says curtly.
“I’m commiserating,” Karlach says with a slight shrug. “I don’t really have an answer for you. ‘s not the sort of thing you fix.”
Lae’zel comes to an abrupt halt and turns to face Karlach directly. “There must be something,” she says. “I--” She breaks off abruptly and scowls down at the battered slats of the floor. “You know of these things,” she mutters. “I do not. I must have your help.”
“These things?” Karlach cocks her head slowly to one side.
A pause. Lae’zel flushes, her jaw working with frustration at the struggle to articulate her own feelings. “Romance,” she finally says carefully. Another pause, then suddenly rapid, “No. Not romance. Something more. The gentleness that comes with it. I feel the need for it, but do not know…” She falters, her ears flushing a deep olive. “I do not know what to do.”
“Oh.” Karlach would be tempted to smile, were it not for the fact that Lae’zel looks so terribly agitated. “Well, I’ll let you in on the first secret I know,” she says, “which is that we’re all making this the fuck up as we go along. I certainly am.” She nudges the barstool next to her with her boot toe. “C'mon, sit down."
Lae'zel sits abruptly, a soldier obeying orders. Karlach studies her for a moment thoughtfully. "Y'know," she says slowly after a little while, "sometimes when my engine's real bad, Hec'll just... do things for me. Just so I don't have to. Get my dinner served up, or clean out my armor, that sort of thing. And it helps." She rubs at her jaw. "I think, with this sort of shit... it's not about fixing. Not really. It's about... just being there, and holding some of the weight. Helping her keep living, while she sorts it all out."
Lae'zel considers this with narrowed eyes. "Yes," she says slowly.
Karlach's teeth flash in a cautious grin. "We've got a proper bathroom in our rooms upstairs now. You could draw her a bath, bring her dinner after... give her a night not having to think about anything."
Lae'zel nods. "Yes," she repeats. Her whole body is stock-still except for her fingertips which fidget almost imperceptibly against the floral-carved edge of the bar.
Karlach's smile softens. "The way Hec tells it - it'll make you feel better too," she says gently. "Maybe feel a little less like your head's eating itself alive." She claps Lae'zel on the shoulder. "Look. We're gonna make this happen," she says. "And I'll help. She likes night orchids, right? I'm gonna go right now over to Bonecloaks and shake that woman down for every blossom she's got, and then Jaheira and me'll take the boys off on an adventure for a while. Leave the rooms upstairs all yours till, say, ten o'clock?"
She doesn't expect thanks - the whole crew, by now, is well aware that Lae'zel doesn't tend to say it out loud. What she does get, though, is a sudden tight grip on her forearm from the gith's long-fingered hand; a gesture of camaraderie - or perhaps the clinging of a drowning woman to a driftwood life raft. "That is... generous," Lae'zel mutters.
"Just doing my part to make love bloom," Karlach says airily.
Lae’zel flinches, her color deepening again. “We have not spoken of love,” she says stiffly.
Karlach lifts her eyebrows innocently. “Oh, are we not saying that part out loud yet?” she asks.
“Kainyank…” Lae’zel grumbles, rolling her eyes - but Karlach notices she doesn’t argue the point.
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Shadowheart sits on the bed, leaning against the window, her knees drawn to her chest. She’s dimly aware that the others haven’t come back from dinner yet, but it’s hard to muster the energy to care. Ever since the House of Grief, she’s felt drained, empty, surrounded by the shattered pieces of a world she doesn’t know how to reconstruct yet. She feels broken.
There’s the soft sound of a footstep up the stairs. Rustling movement in the center of the shared floor of their lodgings. The sound of running water from the magical taps in the bathroom. Shadowheart ignores it all, focusing her eyes on the progress of a fly climbing up the outside of the window glass.
Then-- “Shadowheart?”
Something in her heart loosens just a little, hearing Lae’zel’s voice. It’s astonishing, given how they began, the way that Lae’zel has come to mean protection, and understanding, and calm. Lae’zel is safety in a way that none of the others are, because Lae’zel too has had her life taken apart, and the two of them have built a new one out of the ashes. “Yes,” she says softly, forcing herself to stir and lift her head. “I’m here.”
To her surprise, she finds that Lae’zel is standing watching her with a bundle of deep blue flowers in one hand. The gith shifts awkwardly and then sets the plants down on the nearby table. “I--” she says haltingly. A pause, and then she presses on doggedly as if expecting a burst of laughter from some corner at any moment. “All day you have sat here alone. I have drawn you a bath. Will you come?”
“A bath?” Shadowheart tips her head, mildly bemused.
“Yes.” Lae’zel shifts her weight slowly from one foot to the other. Then she adds, almost sheepishly, “Karlach said it would help.” A pause, then so low Shadowheart almost can’t hear it, “Let me help. Please.”
A sudden tight lump settles in Shadowheart’s throat, making it hard to speak. “Lae’zel--”
“I said I would protect you,” Lae’zel mutters. “But there is no enemy to strike. There is only this. These small things. It is not much, but…”
“No.” Shadowheart slowly uncurls herself from the tight ball in which she has spent the last few hours. The barest hint of a smile pulls at her lips for the first time in days. It’s not about the bath, not really - she didn’t need or even really want one. It’s the reminder that there is more around her than the impenetrable shadow Shar has draped over her world. That Lae’zel is driving it back with both fists, even when she doesn’t think she knows how.
“No,” she repeats softly. “That sounds perfect.”
#thedarkstrategist#ask meme#shadowzel#shadowheart#lae'zel#ty for the prompt friend <3 hope you like#tbh i'm not sure how i feel about this one - i think the first half with karlach might have turned out better than the actual couple part#but some cute/angst anyway c:#also backfilling shadowzel into hector's worldstate cos why not XD
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Imagine your mermaid Daryan being caught by a pirate Klavier and being held there against his will only not really because he’s not tied up or anything, they have him in a lil kiddie pool and he can jump out whenever but he’s still bitching as if he’s stuck. (I think you made the mermaid Daryan thing)
ive definitely made *a* mermaid daryan thing LMAOOO i think there has to be several of those around 😭HE'S ASKING FOR IT WITH HIS THEMING!!! One million sharkboys upon ye
the image is killing me though i KNOW he's so annoyed that he got caught up in some stupid fishing nets. he's been sulking for several days .. of course he has to stay because he's soft on the blonde guy he needs everyone to understand just how pissed off he is about this whole thing
#ace attorney#klavier gavin#daryan crescend#kind of. i guess. The upper half of his head anyway#i havent thought about mermaid daryan in a while... my god....#asks#ty for thinking of me though!!! :3
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Oh that conversation with Doe was so good. I don't think I've felt such real anger towards a fictional character for a long time. trying to refuse their deal and then having my MC taking the refuse their reality choice and the rage they felt, it was only when I reached the end of it that I realised my teeth were grinding and my eyes were legitimately prickling with anger.
Ahh tysm, this is so nice to hear. I mean--not that you were angry haha, but evoking emotion in my readers is always a big goal.
The Doe scene (and having no choice but to accept in the end)--at least, the scene where you try to refuse--is definitely a horror scene to me. Being powerless, physically or mentally changing in a way you don't understand, having this antagonistic force trying to push you and having no choice but to give in at the end...I definitely hoped it would affect the reader!!
#asks#interactive fiction#chapter 3 update#i know it's a little risky#because this IS a choice game#but I hope it'll pay off in the end#and that folks don't mind too much!!#anyway ty again for the ask!!
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I'm on that autistic Steve shit!!!! (sorry no hc of Eddie.... can only focus on Steve ❤️)..... my favorite favorite favorite autistic Steve hc is that he is so so charming so charismatic so cool but it's entirely an act..... like he learned it from books and movies and watching other people and like his emotional / social intelligence is thru the roof bc of that.... I think I saw it described in a fic once as "he knows exactly what people want to hear"..... and I think he does revel in being a chameleon and doing that but of course it's draining!!! my fav is him letting the mask down in front of Very Important people..... I'm writing a fic rn where when Steve tries to mask around hopper he's like "boy stop that you know you don't have to do that here"..... I get such such terminal Nothing Face after a long day and I like to think Steve does too and he's worried Eddie will find it off-putting the first time he shuts down and still wants to hang out with him..... but Eddie is so so endeared by it and is very gentle with him "you ran out of faces, huh baby? that's alright" .....
2jug2head “you ran out of faces, huh baby? That’s alright.” That honestly melted my heart. I had to curl up in a little ball to deal with that.
It’s !!!!! So !!!!!! Sweet !!!!!!!!!
and omg having Hopper be like that with Steve, letting him know in that blunt, simple Hopper way I'm !!!!!! thats so good !!!! I will love love love to read that fic when u finish it !!!! pls tag me if u post it !!!!
but yeah I really really hc Steve as being super high masking, very capable socially, very able to read people. he's used so much of his life to think about others and be what's best in any possible situation. he always wants to be perfect in his interactions with people, wants to 'win' at it. wants to be the best version of himself for every person that he meets. and he mostly does. he's good at it, he's smart and a lot of people follow the same sort of conversions, expect similar things. he’s been around enough people and been in enough situations to have scripts and reactions to most scenarios. he can recognise patterns well and so he does that, but with people, over and over and over. so much so that he doesn't even think about it now, doesn't really even realise what he doing.
he’s very capable, very good and smart socially, but it's to his detriment. it means no one really knows him. it means he doesn't really know himself.
it's like he's a little perfect puppet and when he's alone it feels like this freak monster comes out; with all these feelings and thoughts and emotions that he doesn't know what to do with, doesn't know if they're normal. and he doesn't know how to tell anyone about it either, how to express it or talk about in the right way.
because he's so so scared of being made fun of, or being alone; of being told off, or being weird. and sometimes it makes him so sad, because he doesn't always know how to stop - he's so quick to respond wth his scripts that he forgets to think about what he really thinks, really feels. and he can't stop.
to unmask, at times, most times, feels herculean - to show someone who you really are? that feels impossible. terrifying. to ask for time to think? to risk saying something wrong? being honest feels deeply unnatural somehow - to be honest about how he feels, what he thinks, what he needs. he just, he's never done that before...
so when he's navigating these people, these relationships he so so cares about. with Robin and Eddie and Dustin and Hopper, even.
this is the slew of feelings he has to wade through when trying to be close to them, to keep them, to do what they ask of him. this is what he has to work through. and sometimes, sometimes they act as if it's so easy. as if it is so easy to say the honest truth when asked 'what's up?' or 'what do you think?' or 'what do you want?'
that's not easy, its never been easy. and it makes him feel like a freak once he realises it should be.
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yeah idk that got kind of sad, sorry. but like. this is where I imagine him, when you get to the good, lovely, cozy, wonderful parts. I just, I think this is the thing, my lovely wonderful high high high masking Steve - this is what he's going through to get to the good. and its hard.
#uhmmmm#yeah anyway#sorry i dunno why this came out but#yeah#ty for the ask i really do love talking about autistic Steve#<3#autistic steve harrington#hotlunch#steddie#idk wether to tag people for this sorry sorry#high masking autism is a helluv a thing
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