#anyways. i said im doing this and i did that. idk how many hours it took but i sure don't have time for much before sleep today

[kaiserouo]

<3

actually i made a calligraphy thing for him but its too distracting so i yeeted it out the window

[seventh-district]

i still can't believe no one ever made a gifset of that s4ep12 TWD scene where Daryl casually mentions how his dad would set stuff up on top of the TV and use it as target practice and Beth is like "he shot things inside your house??" and Daryl just shrugs it off like "it was just a bunch of junk anyway.."

[silenceofthewave]

( caught up on skybound!! head full. many thoughts. )

[gibbearish]

am finally back home and can say without a doubt that i am just fundamentally not built for long distance travel however the train was much nicer than planes

[enterstellars]

and with that i do believe that my run with interstellar in imax has come to an end.

[letusrollon]

Me since yesterday sometimes feeling like I'm on a hair trigger: everybody hates me, I hate everybody, everything and everyone is soooo annoying, why are they talking to me ughhh, I'm so alone, so fucking tired, nobody wants to be my friend, what am I even DOING??? Etc etc.

Me an hour ago: ...waaaait something feels a bit sus *checks app* ahhhh yeah lollllll it all makes sense now I don't REALLY feel like that *instant relief and huge reduction in overwhelming emotional BS* 🤷🏽‍♀️ like now that I'm reminded why....I'm suddenly way more fine

[7ouls]

daisuke x fem reader where they’re both super awkward and swansea is tired of them being oblivious to the way they feel for eachother that he makes both of his interns work on a project together

omg i totally loved writing this even tho i hcent written in a while so it might look weird? im really sorry its been a long time… (and its pretty short sorry abt that) also swansea is probably a bit ooc (i think u say it like that? idk) cause i have really bad memory so sorry abt that too…

this is set before the crash

No matter how many times the two interns tried to communicate it would always end up being awkward since everyone but them knew about their obvious crush on each other.

Nobody cares enough to help them realise that, except their boss Swansea.

That shortly explains how the three of them are now repeating the bases of engineering.

“So is that clear?” The older man looked at the young adults as they nodded.

“Great, i don’t have to repeat myself for once. Now to see how much you’ve understood try to fix this.”

He said taking an old radio that sat behind him and handed them the needed tools. He then proceeded to leave but not before giving a smirk to his interns that blushed as a reaction.

Daisuke was the first to speak up. “I didn’t actually understand all of it.”

Y/n giggled at the boy and he soon joined too. “Don’t worry… I barely managed to take some notes. Swansea isn’t really the best teacher…”

“But we don’t really have much of a choice”

“Right, so here. You can read some of my notes and umm… i guess start working.” She said handing him her notebook. He started quietly reading all of it as the girl got slowly closer and closer to read with him.

After a while Daisuke stopped and thanked her, then realised how close she’s gotten to him. Y/n panicking apologised as she didn’t notice the close distance between them.

He quickly straightened himself. “No need to apologise! We’re supposed to work together so that eventually would’ve happened, not that i mind anyways…” He muttered the last part.

Y/n raised an eyebrow at that but didn’t question it. “We should get the work started now.” She said as he nodded happily.

- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -

It has been around two hours when the two finally ended their work and were now chatting.

“Sooo… would you be free after dinner tonight?” Daisuke asked nervously, Y/n blushed at the question then smiled. “I mean… there’s not much else to do so yes. Why do you ask?”

The boy grinned and answered. “Well, i’ve been meaning to ask you this for a while now. Would you like to play on my gameboy with me? We can take turns! And then we can eat all the sweets that i have and stay up all night!” He exclaimed out of breath.

Y/n was surprised to hear the boy so excited and soon replied. “Sure, we can do that. We’ll just have to make sure to be quiet or else we’ll wake the captain up.” Daisuke happily nodded as he watched the girl get up and wave at him.

When she left he let put a puff of air he didn’t know he was holding. “Holy moly. She’s like super cool!”

i took the gameboy idea from a daisuke fanfic on here but i dont remember the tag. sorry this is kinda short as i said i have to get used to weiting it’s been like 2 years since i last did it. maybe i’ll write about that sleepover soemtime!! (i swear this looked longer whem i wrote it on my diary)

[lucimaaie]

ellie as spiderwoman hcs ✧.* au

a/n- honestly was just an excuse for me to watch spiderman again and i took it, kind of switch between would’ve and did idk babes im just having fun atp

playlist | spidey masterlist

she'd have lost her mom at a young age and been placed with joel, who she never gets along with at first, thinking he's just a bil ol meanie who wanted an extra check every month.

that was until he showed he cared, not through hugs and affection in the traditional sense, but making sure she did her homework, picking her up everyday, getting her out of her room, checking on her when she'd been too quiet. "you okay, kiddo?" and "i heard talking helps." he'd say as he leaned on the door frame. eventually, she couldn't help but love him.

absolutely a nerd. though, when she got teased, she didn't exactly back down as expected which landed her in the detention a few times and some talking-to's. but she won and defended herself. no one could be mad at her for that. still, she was smart. she was going to be an astronaut after all. though that dream died in middle school.

high school came and she tried to straighten up. no more fighting bullies, even if they deserved it. she was better than that. she would get an internship, the internship that would line everything up, get her a scholarship so she could study aerospace engineering, get rich and get joel out of the old house on a patch of land with however many sheep he wanted. the same internship that got her bitten by a radioactive spider and shooting webs out her wrists.

words could not describe how much she worried joel when she woke up the day after, crushing her alarm clock, breaking the sink, the shower rack, everything. she skipped that day, hanging out on the rooftop of the house while joel was away stuck between having a panic attack from the sensory overload and telling someone, anyone. she decided on testing them out which earned her quite a few bruises joel luckily chalked up to another fight. "we gotta talk about this fighting thing sometime." she'd roll her eyes, saying something snarky before limping up the stairs. "say what you want but i win," "i heard that!"

also sidebar: ellie as a new yorker...whew. honestly ellie as anything- anyway.

hours or research ensue on cross-species genetics, spiderbites, different types of spiders, everything that made her feel disgusting. she slammed her laptop closed, crushing the poor thing.

it felt like there were a million things to do with her newfound powers but the only two on her mind was impress dina and swing from the rooftops. c’mon, she was 16 with the powers of a freaking spider. who said saving people would the first thing on her mind? she felt powerful, even weirder than she already felt but still powerful.

it was terrible, watching joel get more and more disappointed in her as she got distracted. “i’m a good kid! i just got distracted, gimmie a break.” “i have given you plenty. more than i should’ve. and that’s on me. that's my mistake to make you think that coming home late and fighting and blowing me off is okay.”

“i can't help how i turned out! don't blame me for being a shitty dad.” she yelled before slamming the door and stalking off into who knows where. she didn't even mean it, she was just stressed, she never meant any of it. hours later, she’d wish those words never came out her mouth.

she'd hoped she was having some cruel nightmare when she saw joel laid out on the pavement. "some help me! c-call an ambulance. don't just fucking stand there-" her voice was raw as she screamed out. "c'mon, don't die on me. y-you can't. i'm sorry? is that what you wanna hear? i'm sorry."

she hated the looks of pity, everyone's soft voices. people who never once talked to her suddenly caring. it was all fake. they didn't know her and they sure and hell didn't know joel.

she became another person for a while. quieter, more closed off. sometimes snappy. laser focused on finding the low-life took joel from her. that's when she started wearing the mask. the basic concept of it anyway and it caught on with the people, more than she imagined. ellie scoffed at the name spider-woman at first, thinking it was ridiculous. she wasn't some circus performer, she was just trying to find the killer.

dina as her mj, reaching out to her after joel’s death, inviting her over for dinner, talking to her in class, all of it. it wasn’t the same disingenuous pity she hated, she could feel she cared. so she allowed her feelings to fester. being with her actually helped. it was one more thing to balance with school and the internship and her mission, but it was more person in her life. she needed that.

one day ellie went running towards the trouble. not because joel's killer was there or cause of some adrenaline rush, but because she needed to do something. to not be helpless for once. she wasn't helpless. she hadn't felt completely in control of her body as she webbed a whole bridge back together and pulled cars back onto the surface, but in the end it was a like a high. it still ached to see kids running to their parents and everyone running to their families, but they were all safe. she did that. and that felt better than getting revenge and letting it suck the life out of her. so she'd wear the spandex and the mask and go by the stupid name. only cause it meant something now.

thank you for reading!

[ironladders]

"I circled half the globe searching for him, but he was gone."

Starscream ;_;

RIGHT?? IT'S SO SAD .

and i have sooo many thoughts about this whole situation with skyfire/starscream that's been presented to me, if you dont mind anon im gonna use your ask to ramble a little

(disclaimer im sure nothing i have to say here is particularly new & has been said by those who've been deep into TF longer than myself but i need to get this out my system anyways. and also im still watching through g1 so if im horribly mistaken about anything #oops)

unless i missed something, i don't think it's specified in "fire in the sky" how long starscream looked for skyfire?? but just thinking about that line.... he obviously didn't immediately go back to cybertron, he didn't just give up on skyfire. starscream cared about skyfire enough to look for him, only leaving after (i assume) he realized he didn't have the resources to conduct a proper search for his companion. and i mean can you imagine being starscream in that situation???? your partner just disappears into a storm, and no matter how far and long you look you're unable to find them????????

i get starscream, man. i'd also become awful if that happened to me.

and here's the thing: i stumbled upon this post which posits that the decepticons happening to stumble across skyfire in the ice was no incident, but starscream's own doing, and i LOVE this theory/headcanon so much. when i first watched the episode yesterday i was thinking that it was funny they just happen to be mining right where skyfire was frozen so it's nice to see my suspicions affirmed LMAO

i honestly love that episode so much because as i learn more about starscream and transformers as a whole i think little tidbits like that offer a deeper look into who he is (or was, idk) beyond just megatron's second-in-command. he was a scientist, an explorer, a friend. "was" isn't even the proper word here, because he still is all of those things, he just...... applies them differently, i suppose. which is the real tragedy in who he is as a character.

beyond starscream and his search for skyfire, you wanna know what i've REALLY been thinking about a lot with these two? when skyfire becomes a decepticon (for like a day lol but still), starscream immediately declares that when he overthrows megatron, skyfire will become his second-in-command. not any of the other seekers, not either of the waves, not literally anyone else who's been a decepticon for more than an hour, but skyfire. his long-lost science partner. on starscream's end, virtually nothing about his relationship with skyfire has changed. he still trusts him as much as he did millions of years ago, to the point he'd be willing to have him at his side as leader of the decepticons.

but on skyfire's end... the starscream in front of him is different from the one he knew. war and being a decepticon changed starscream for the worst, something that unveils itself very quickly to skyfire. one of the first things he asks starscream after becoming a decepticon is if starscream is genuinely happy about being a decepticon warrior over the scientist he used to be. skyfire can't believe that the person standing in front of him could be the starscream he once knew before being frozen. still, it's starscream, so skyfire ends up going along with things up until he can't ignore his morals and deny that he's on the wrong side anymore.

that is where the second tragedy happens for starscream: betrayl, by the man he'd waited to get back for so long. he finally got skyfire back, only to lose him all over again.

if skyfire had never crashed that day -- if they'd never gone closer to explore the earth in the first place -- would starscream had gone down such a dark path? would he have taken countless lives, and become the ruthless decepticon he is now? does it eat at skyfire, knowing that in his absence starscream lost who he once was? or perhaps he'd still be the same starscream, but skyfire would be at his side serving the decepticon cause. maybe they both would've been so drastically changed by the years of cybertron's war together.

skyfire is a living, formerly frozen relic of the past before everything went wrong. starscream has aged far beyond that, to the point of no return. as much as they surely both want it, and regardless of what happens to them, their bond can never go back to what it once was.

god i just. i need more!!! i need to watch more transformers and read more of the comics and see more of these two!! i watched tfp + some of the live action movies as a kid but this is my first time learning about skyfire and this thing he's got going on with starscream and it's fascinating to me i can't believe i didn't know about this before!!!!! but it's also so fucked up oh my god!!!!!

ok yeah ive gotten the brainworms out my system. idk how to end this here's screenshots i took that i found funny

[yvesssssssss]

Hey!! Omg i really enjoyed your Bet story about Nagumo. It really had me waiting to see more. Idk if you do this but i wanted to see if you could make a parf 2? Im eager to see what Nagumo could possibly do after that

Bet(2)

That's great to hear, thanks for reading!!(⁠ ⁠◜⁠‿⁠◝⁠ ⁠)⁠♡

Part 1 part 3

It had been a year.

A full year since you walked away—eyes swollen, voice cold, his hoodie shoved into his chest like it burned you.

Nagumo remembered every detail.

The way your fingers trembled when you let go. How you didn’t scream, didn’t cry, didn’t beg. Just silence. Cold, cutting silence. That hurt more than anything else could’ve. You didn’t need to yell. You were done—and he knew it.

You disappeared after that.

You dropped his classes. Avoided the hallways he walked. Changed your routes, your routines, your everything—as if even sharing air with him was too much.

And maybe it was.

But you didn’t just vanish from his life. You stayed in his head. His skin. His bones.

He saw you in stupid places—in the library where you used to study with your hair tied up in that lazy bun, pencil tucked behind your ear. In the rows of vending machines where he used to steal your favorite snacks just to watch you pretend to be mad. In the back stairwell where you broke down that one time, and he just… held you.

Back then, it felt like he was allowed to.

Now?

You wouldn’t even look at him.

Everyone else moved on. Graduation came and went. People laughed, made memories, posted pictures. You didn’t show up to the afterparty. He stayed anyway, sitting on some guy’s porch, ignoring every drink and every question thrown his way.

Because you weren’t there.

You hadn’t been there for a long time.

He tried once. Messaged you a single word: hey.

Left on “delivered.” Not read. Not answered.

He deleted it an hour later.

He told himself you were better off. That maybe if he kept his distance, you could forget the way he’d humiliated you—made you fall, then let you hit the ground so hard, you shattered.

But some nights, when the guilt dug under his skin like splinters, he’d read through your old texts. The ones where you sent him dumb facts. Songs you thought he’d like. Long rants about books he’d never read, and little paragraphs that ended with goodnight and I hope you dream something nice.

He never replied to those the way he should have.

Now all he dreamed about was the sound of your voice when it broke.

Sometimes he saw you in the halls, now that university had started. You looked different—sharper. Your eyes colder. You didn’t hide behind sweaters anymore. You didn’t hide at all. But you never looked at him.

Not once.

It was like you had burned him from your memory entirely.

And he couldn’t even blame you.

He still remembered what you said before you left.

> “I was nothing to you. But you were everything to me.”

He’d replayed it so many times, it echoed even in silence.

You never gave him the chance to explain. But maybe that was mercy. Because there was no explanation good enough. No words that could undo what he did.

He turned you into a bet.

And lost the only person who ever saw him.

Not the jokes. Not the swagger. Him.

And maybe this was what he deserved.

Because you’d finally stopped being invisible.

But now he was the one no one saw.

Not even you.

It was raining when it happened.

Of course it was.

He was sitting beneath the outdoor staircase behind the cafeteria—old habits die hard. Hoodie over his head, headphones in, trying not to think. Trying not to feel.

Then he heard laughter.

Your laugh.

It cracked through him like lightning.

He looked up, just in time to see you round the corner—hood up, hair damp, a book clutched in one hand. And beside you?

Gaku.

His arm draped loosely over your shoulders. Comfortable. Easy. Like it had been there a hundred times before.

You said something that made Gaku grin, and he reached out to tuck your hair behind your ear.

Nagumo froze.

You didn’t see him—not right away. But Gaku did. His eyes met Nagumo’s with a look that wasn’t smug. It wasn’t cruel, either. Just knowing.

He nudged your shoulder. You turned.

Your eyes locked.

And for a second, the world stopped.

He opened his mouth.

“Hey.”

One word. A whisper. Pathetic.

You looked at him—really looked at him—for the first time in over a year.

And then?

You smiled.

But it wasn’t soft. It wasn’t warm.

It was distant. Civil. A smile reserved for strangers. For forgotten memories.

“Hi,” you said simply.

Then you turned back to Gaku. He offered you his jacket. You took it without hesitation.

And walked away.

Nagumo didn’t move.

He couldn’t.

Because that was the final nail. The last thread snapping.

You were gone.

Really gone.

Not invisible.

Just untouchable.

And Gaku?

He saw you now.

The way Nagumo never deserved to.

[your-local-acid-trip]

tpot 19 came out!!!

yippee!!!! what did i, some nerd artist and wannabe author on the internet think about it?

sorry, i have a lot more to say about tpot 19 because i watched ii4 a few hours ago and tpot about ten minutes ago. i cant be assed to do ii rn i'll do it in another post soon

holy shit if that wasn't the most harrowing episode in all of tpot. i mean that in the best possible way. my favourite episode will always be 15 but damn that was actually heartbreaking

i have always hated grassy, im gonna be so real. annoying voice, minimal personality and nothing in his little green head but damn i need to protect him now. like right now. one i'm calling child protective services what the fuck have you done

(insert traumadump of like abandonment issues or something to that effect here)

guys what the fuck are we doing. this poor kid. ok no that doesnt even put into proportion how goddamn awful this is. im sorry i called you annoying let me hug you now im SORRYYYYY

more seriously i am going to lose it if nobody is scarred by this, ESPECIALLY grassy. he is a kid, this is fairly common knowledge. he is gonna be so badly affected by this. he lost everyone and is probably going to be afraid of every single thing outside the vents. if the writers ignore how badly this is gonna fuck him up (which i don't think they will?) i'm gonna do. uh. something. that crying, too. jesus. it's so raw

idk why but this sent chills down my spine. everything looks so dead now. you can still see the expression and life in the poses but its just plain white. nothing. the life is gone. jesus christ

i voted for black hole and tennis ball by the way. was gonna vote for pen, but nnnno

side note i wrote an essay to my friend about how one said to pencil "we can be three" when in actuality she said "we can be free" and it took me far too long to realise the difference. im still in pain from that. there are some snippets i still think are worth nothing though. read if you want:

am i probably wrong? pfft yeah

if i see anyone defend pencil im gonna throw hands i fully condone pencil hate (to a reasonable degree obviously). i bet theres gonna be so many people still begging for a redemption arc. no, you can't fix her. she's scared and lonely and refuses to accept help. but that also annoys me because i know exactly what it's like. idk man i still hate her

also CAN THE WRITERS PLEASE LEAVE FANNY ALONE. LIKE SERIOUSLY. WHAT IS YOUR PROBLEM??? she gets shit from everyone, she always gets last place (if not close to that) in most challenges, was the One's first client if i remember correctly, dies MULTIPLE TIMES THIS EPISODE LIKE HRGEHEGRGEHRHRHRHRH WHAT IS YOUR PROBLEM what is their problem with death p.a.c.t anyways? i swear after their win streak in bfb theyve got it so SO bad in tpot. i'm definitely just biased because i love death p.a.c.t and they've always been my favourite team since pre-split.

happy thoughts acid happy good things i liked...

i love the divide between tpot fans over one. its either "GOD I HATE HER RAA" or "GOD I NEED HER RAA" and i'm not too sure what side i'm on. i mean i have the plushie and a One Corner on my first ever strawpage so uhhh maybe the latter seriously who drew these frames. cmon. step forward. i will personally break into your house on a fine sunny weekend just do give you the best lindt chocolate this world has ever seen, give you a "best one animator" medal and then go home. she's clearly losing it and i love that about her too. emily's delivery kills me every time (/pos), she plays One so well. the only thing is she cannot scream/yell. i know that sounds weird but she just can't. One, stop screaming please. it sounds bad.

COLOURS WEAVE INTO A SPIRE OF FLAMES—

can we all just take a moment to marvel at this screenshot. taco, flower, bubble, match and ruby all look terrified. gelatin looks really confused, blocky looks kinda suspicious and then just lollipop.

god i love her. she looks just mildly inconvenienced. literally nothing can shake her. pookie the world is ending and you're more concerned about what you're gonna have for dinner tomorrow are you doing good there

yeah i liked it.

[akaiitoru]

international zoie day is fast approaching!! 🥳 wahh how do you and your blorbos celebrate! are any of them the type to throw you a surprise party (if you enjoy them!)??? :o I AM CURIOUS WAHH and very excited to spend zoie day with you soon sobsob 🥹💗 love you always + i hopeeee your sunday has been kind to you!!!!

COCOLOCO THE COCO-EST OF MY HEART AND SOUL, THE ONE THAT IS CHERISHED IN THE DEPTHS OF MY BEING HEHEYELLO ILU

you know~ we truly are on the same wavelength, tuned to the same channel, for today I have been thinking about exactly that, and going on and off pinterest with ideas for my day with them >///< coco is truly inside my brain like a lil guy, sat comfortably reading my thoughts with a mini microscope !! I cant bring myself to mind~

So it's not fully sorta... fleshed out yet, it'll probably take me until then to have more of an idea, these things need to coook you see~ marinate. But I do have a few things I wanna share heheh ( ◡̀ ᴗ ◡́)و

SO i am not a party person, mmmh no, at least not in the traditional sense. If i had a lot of close friends I might, but even then it would be more private x low key yk, and in the blorbos worlds I dont, really, not that ive fleshed out anyway. so far I just have a few loose ideas of the lower key stuff we'll do. I know a few (aven > kaiser) would probably try to and enjoy doing some more fancy things as well, but i havent figured that out yet

Kaiser ~

uhm so idk what exactly we get up to during the day~ [placeholder] but ik that he gets me blue touched roses because :3

he knows i like them a lot~ and theyre super pretty, and he always gets way too many because he is go big or ... go home isnt an option its just go big shjdjhsd so theyre all over his (my) apartmentmhm

headcanon which is correct - kaiser suspiciously and surprisingly likes playing with legos. building specific things i mean, like the packs. we lay around and build them in the evening, probably drinking some obscure alcohol that I like because often i dont like the taste of it (he buys it without hesitation now, but he did roll his eyes and find it very amusing that im 'picky' at first~)

also idk the first pic wit cat is just...us, hehe. maybe we find a cat. maybe we adopt said stray cat after taking it to vets !! maybe i get cat for my birthday with kaiser wait mhm yes ✍️✍️

Aven ~

Aven is the one I've decided the least about, honestly. I think he'd probably wanna take me somewhere, to sort of celebrate me but in a public space, probably where he can play everyone out of their money with me on his side ~ lol, but i need to cook that up mhm - was thinking of cooking up outfits for each of them too ( like for me ) thatd be fun

think he'd probably get me flowers like this though, something with daisies in since thats sort of my/our flower kinda heh

and i have this really cute idea of us cooking / baking ?? just something like in the pic cute to snack on, i think hed be sooooo fuckin cute baking and making things with his fingers all messy dhjdsjhsdjh nyooo !! his hair over his face a bit as he concentrates ahh >///<

Dazai ~

the morning is like it was in the routine i told you about before, but with more >////< -ing jdsjkdsjks i end up on top again by the end, baby is a pillow princess fr, but he does do most of the work this time, just for me. honoured arent i ~ ( ◡̀ ᴗ ◡́)و I ASK WHERE MY BREAKFAST IN BED IS AND HE SAYS IDK BUT I KNOW WHERE MINE IS AND THEN **** ** *** **** ******* ****'[='./[][]23-32]#'4'34/'

soft morning sex is a given for all of them i sorry its mandatory in the agreement mhm

we definitely go somewhere after the day for the sunset. probably sitting on top of one of / the building(s) we've always sat at since we were kids, and stay there for hours. we probably have strawberries and chocolate (my fave >///<) and on the way he picks some random flower or plant and puts it in my hair/behind my ear in the place of a bouquet ~ he knows im not one for 'grand' or sort of empty traditional gestures that much anyway, and he'd definitely bring me cute n pretty things he knows i like and leave them around <3 especially at this time.

[thegreatnpowerfulspuukiiz]

clarence is soooo interesting to me bro i just wanna put him under a microscope and study him for hours i have soooo many questions.

like??? are his parents straight edge too or is it just him?? and if it’s just him what MADE be like “nahh.” and choose to become straight edge??

why doesn’t he have claws like kazu?? i get that they’re different types of vampires but what even IS a nosferatu??? google said it’s just another word for vampire 😭 do imps outrank nosferatu or vise versa??

he likes cooking things that can be enjoyed by all devils INCLUDING nosferatus and in any art we see of everyone eating, he’s usually just drinking a blood bag so does that mean he literally can’t eat/digest certain foods unless they’re made with his devil type in mind?? is bro not hungry??

bc we often we kazu eating loads of different things but once again they’re different devil types so ig i can’t keep comparing them i just idk RAH

it seems clarence’s biggest issue is having to take the blood straight from the source (hence why he’s always drinking from bags) and ik that both nosferatu blood and mandragora fruits are life forces but i wonder if clarence would’ve gotten the same effect from drinking yahgie’s blood since he’s not either of those devil types??

i think i recall yahgie saying some of his own blood was mixed into the ramen as well but it was the nosferatu/mandragora mix that made clarence go into blood rapture, yahgie’s blood likely just being an added strength bonus. i recall clarence mentioning that he's weaker than pandy bc of the type of blood he drinks, but when they went on the field trip he wasn't put in the group with weak devils like nemo and kazu.

and from the action panels of clarence vs kaiko, he seems to understand how to use these power ups. this plus the panel where he says “no one should have this power.” and talks about how it disgusts him, makes me guess that this isn’t the first time he’s gone into rapture.

i just wonder what he’s seen or heard or even DONE himself that made him so against utilizing his powers?? and if i’m remembering correctly, in the flashbacks/arts we’ve seen of baby clarence he didn’t have the straight edge tattoo and neither did his parents, one of which who can FLY (his mama), so i’m assuming that this was a recent decision he made when he was older??

also if he drank fresh devil blood would he be able to fly on the regular like his mom?? and do non-straight edge nosferatu vamps just go around biting folks for fresh food?? like I'D HAVE AN ISSUE WITH THAT TOO PROBABLY

HE’S JUST???? SO INTERESTING I WANNA KNOW mORE ABOUT HIMMMMMM I JUST???? I LOVE HIM SM ANSWER MY MANY QUERIES @devilscandycomic PLS IM BEGGING SOMEONE ANYONE

*collapses to my knees in anguish and sobs*

anyway all art/panels taken from the official devil’s candy site (where it can be read for free!!!!) or tsuala’s insta/twitter!!

also the next volume drops in july and my boy’s on the spine and front cover let’s heckin goooo 🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️

[my-castles-crumbling]

Anon Advice Asks - February 26

usaid anon, darling anon (new), runaway friend anon (new), hijabi anon, midnights anon

Usaid Anon

Hey cas its usaid anon.

So.. everyone in state just got an email to reply with 5 accomplishments they've made while working for state and i fthey don't reply it will be seen as a resignation.

I... what the fuck thats all im feeling right now

Okay as fucked up as this is, did you hear what people did? They completely spammed the e-mail. It's so funny.

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Darling anon

Thank you darling, for answering my asks, each time. I had too many anon names, and tried to solve a different problem with each. And you know, you never solved my problems, of course, you are just someone on screen. But whenever I write here, I seem to delay everything for a moment, and telling someone helps.

I'm glad I could help, even a little. Remember that you're safe to vent here, and I care about you. Also please think about asking for help irl. You deserve it.

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runaway friend anon

hey cas, I hope you’re doing well.

Yesterday I was over at a friend’s dad’s house (divorced parents on her part) and everything seemed fine. I don’t go over to her house a lot but it is that. (We’re both15-16) sk everything seemed normal but today at school she told me she is running away from home. I asked her why, she said she had a fight with her dad after i left and there were hitting involved. Thankfully I didn’t see ant noticeable bruise on her but that’s still real bad. Tonight she is at her mum’s house but tomorrow she’s supposed to be over at his again and she told me she’ll find a motel something and I told her she isn’t doing any such thing and if she needs to come sleep over at mine for sure.

I told her to talk to her mum, so she can sleep at her house instead and stuff but her mum won’t be home until 3am and when she goes to school probably asleep too. when I told her that and said her mum seemed nice she mumbled ‘she’s not’ but i know she’s better than her dad.

I want to help her but don’t know what to do

its also a really really busy week in terms of essays and tests and its shit she has that too now.

I don’t really know what to do.

I’m assuming you probably need to know me information about the situation but idk what to give. her parents fucked her over before but never physically that I know of but acknowledge I don’t know everything.

I’m also afraid its my fault because it happened in the few hours after i left

I don’t know what to do

I have been struggling with my own mental health lately a lot and honestly don’t feel stable enough to be a rock for her and feel like shit for that. I will hopefully see her and talk to her tomorrow.

I’m so sorry to bother you<3 have a nice day.

Hi <3

First of all, this absolutely isn't your fault. You did nothing wrong and you absolutely could not have prevented this. HOWEVER, I think you need to tell an adult about this now. I know it sounds scary, and I know you might be worried about betraying your friend's confidences, but if her did is hurting her and she's considering making a dangerous decision, you need to tell an adult who has the power to help. This isn't something you can control, and you've done everything right so far- being there for your friend, offering her a place to stay, etc. Bringing in an adult is the next right step <3

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junior anon

Hii it's junior anon

so I did try to talk to my friend about it but she was like "Didn't I do the same for you?"

... How is that even remotely the same. You do way more for her. A camera??? Just because of that??? One time?? It happened to me multiple times and you just sat back and pretended to NOT NOTICE!! HOW IS THAT EVEN FAIR?? I'm not trying to compare but how is it fair. If I'm closer to her as she claims shouldn't she care at least a bit more?? Am I just not doing enough? (the you in this paragraph isn't directedat you /clarification)

But hey at least she's one of the few still here :))

so that's fine :)))

anyways thank you for taking time to read this, have an amazing day ahead <33

I'm so sorry <3 It's frustrating to feel like like your friend isnt validating your feelings. I think it might be time to spend some time with some other/new friends, then. It doesn't mean you have to dump this friend at all, just take some space.

Remember that no matter what happens, you deserve love and respect!

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Midnights anon

Hi Cas! It’s midnights anon

I just wanted to share that I had a good day today!

I’m 17 days clean (no sharp objects, no punching, no scratching)

I cut my screen time down today and I had such a good time!! I had raspberry yogurt with granola (that I mixed and prepared myself) and a left over taco for breakfast, and I had some fried eggs and sausages for lunch (which I also cooked myself!)!!

I read some Thoreau and a book I really like called “Finger exercises for poets”, studied some drawing anatomy (I drew a couple of REALLY good drawings and I’m super proud of myself) and listened to some of my records.

I discovered a new song I like, did all my Duolingo lessons, did my Bio, History, English, Math, and Greek homework

And I’ve been brushing my teeth twice a day and taking all my pills, so now my anemia, iron deficiency, and vitamin C deficiency are all getting better!!

I organized my photos on my laptop, anddddd

Yeah! I’m pretty happy. And it feels weird, and good.

Thank you for reading!!! :]

Wow, that's amazing! I hope you continue to have many good days like this! Remember if you have an occasional bad day though, more days like this good one will come!

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HIjabi Anon

Hiiii, Hijabi Anon again (that name is perfectly fine, by the way!). I was also the person who said I was going to my first concert yesterday, and it was so fun! I saw Cavetown and Mother Mother live, and it was life-changing (I bawled during This Is Home, lol).

I’ve decided that being in the closet isn’t that bad, to be honest. This may sound bad, but I’m thankful that I’m bi and not a lesbian. At least I’m attracted to men, so if I ever want to get married and fall in love while still keeping my family, I can just try to fall in love with a man.

Also, if I had ever thought of coming out, my cousin kind of ruined it for me. He was driving me to the mall with his sisters, and we got to talking. His younger sister mentioned how some middle schoolers in her school had already started being intimate, and she thought it was weird. Somehow, that turned into him talking about how, back when he was in high school, he saw two guys kissing and took it upon himself to beat them up badly. I was appalled and started arguing with him (obviously), but I had to toe the line between defending a queer person just existing and defending queer rights. The moment there’s even a suspicion that I’m an ally, I’m kind of screwed. So, my argument was just that he had no right to beat someone up for doing something in private (which they were—he was the one who barged into a locked bathroom). And even with that, I couldn’t win because he’s convinced queer people aren’t worthy of basic human decency.

I’m thankful I wasn’t alone because his other sister (not the one who first brought up the middle schoolers) was helping me defend them. She also took me to see Cavetown!! I know she’s an ally and not like the rest of our family, but I’m not out to her either. That whole argument put me on edge, and it really makes me scared. I’m sure he would never hurt me if I came out, but the fear is still there.

Hi!

I'm so sorry about what your cousin said/did. That's absolutely terrifying and I can see why you're scared. It's truly awful that people like this still exist. I'm so glad to hear that his sister helped defend you and the people he hurt.

I'm glad that you're in a mental place where you're comfortable with where you're at right now. I'm always here if you need to talk, and it sounds like your cousin (the one who took you to Cavetown) might be an amazing ally as well.

Sending love <3

[w2soneshots]

im sry if you keep writing stuff about jj but you're literally the only one who is writing for him rn 😭😭

so yeahhh ignore this if you want but can you please write where the reader is a youtuber and is doing a series where she pranks jj (or they prank each other like prank-war type thing idk). so the reader decides on a cheating prank with third person (i dont really mind who, could be in sidemen or troops). the reader and the person pretend to do IT on their bed before jj walks and he sees them then he gets all sad and mad and u can decide what happens after that im not rly sure lmao. preferably happy ending, tyyy love ur fics 💕💕

Prank -KSI

words: 0.6k+

warnings: angst, fake cheating, argument, self doubt.

summary: you perform a prank on JJ with Calfreezy and it goes terribly wrong.

notes: thank you for requesting!! I literally wrote this within an hour of your request because I love the idea so much (I’m only posting it now because I already posted something yesterday). Anyway hope you enjoy🫶🏼🤍

I've known JJ since we were teenagers. We started off as friends, moved to London together, I lived in the sidemen house for a little while and during that time we began dating. He asked me to be his girlfriend and we've been together ever since. I've been doing YouTube for as long as I can remember, that's how me and JJ became friends since not many people did YouTube at that time. I'm also great friends with the rest of the sidemen, Callux and Freezy.

Recently I've been doing a series on my channel where I prank JJ and he started doing it back. It started with little ones like: drawing a beard on him while he slept (because he can't grow one), then he bought a confetti bomb and scared the shit out of me with it. It continued on like that for a few weeks, me and JJ thought it was absolutely hilarious. Recently my comments have been full of people asking me to do a "cheating prank" so I decided to deliver.

I asked Freezy to do it with me since we've always got along well, he thought it would be funny so said yes. I asked him to come round to our apartment just before JJ was due to return home from a sidemen shoot. To make it look "real" but not actually touch each other we decided when we heard JJ open the front door Cal would make it look like he was quickly putting his clothes back on. I set up the camera so it was hidden but faced the bedroom door so it would catch JJ's reaction. Then me and Cal explained what was going to happen for the viewers.

When we heard the door click I jumped under the covers so my head was just peaking out and Cal rushed to take his top off. "y/n?!" JJ shouted through the apartment. I didn't respond. "y/n?" JJ opened the door just as Cal pulled his shirt back over his head. His face went blank as his eyes flickered from me and then back to Cal. "What the fuck are you doing!" He said stepping forward and harshly pushing Cals shoulder so he stumbled back slightly. I actually wasn't expecting him to believe it. I leaped up from the bed. "Woah, JJ it's a prank!" I stammered. His brows furrowed angrily. "Stop lying, I caught you!" He shouted. "No seriously mate, it's a prank." Cal stated. "Look." I lept around the bed to grab the hidden camera and held it up for him to see. His face calmed.

JJ shot a quick apology at Cal then he left, leaving me and JJ alone. We sat on the bed. I gently cupped his face in my hands. "Do you seriously believe I'd ever cheat on you?" I asked calmly. His eyes dropped to his lap but I brought his head higher so he looked me in the eyes. "I just- you're so amazing and I-" he started. I nodded my head telling him to go on. "I still can't believe someone like you would want to be with someone like me." My heart sank. "I love you so much. I've never loved anyone as much as I love you, and I never will." I said quietly. He pulled me into a hug and held me tight. "I'm sorry for reacting like that." He said into the crook of my neck. "No, I shouldn't have done the prank. I didn't think about the fact you might believe it, that was stupid of me." He pulled away "I love you." I smiled "I love you too."

[jaegersed]

heyy!

man, u weren’t lying when u said this one was a journey (me throughout the chapter ☺️☹️🥰😛🤨😕🙁☹️😭🥹😕☹️☹️🥹😋🥰) but I BAWLED like crazy, bonus points for the songs, I just knew strangers was going to make an appearance eventually.

Also girl I just know the foreshadowing goes crazy, it makes me so excited to see how everything will fall into place (theorizing and analyzing and plotting rn hehe).

Can we talk about colt for a minute tho?? I know he’s been just introduced but the way you portrayed him is so??? I love how he’s so fragmented, from the way he couldn’t be brave enough throughout what was going on, him trying to justify his ways, him holding onto the shell of a person he could no longer recognize despite seeing the change happen in front of his eyes, loving her in a quiet way doing what he thought was good enough, to him doing something in the end bc better late than never (?). And again, ik we don’t know the full story but it’s just so interesting seeing everyone have their own perspective/choices, I feel like we — as humans — are continually experiencing a subjective reality and we often fail to remember that everyone is seeing things with different eyes, from different angles (that’s why empathy is so important but that’s not the point lmao), BUT YES what I was trying to say is that you unfold and expand characters so well (not letting anyone be stagnant and putting in the effort to convey bits and pieces of themselves).

I love mikasa (my wife omg), TYYY for writing her the way u did (also can we appreciate the contrast between submerged and bury the moon, I love how you managed to write something entirely different). Love love love armin (my baby) and annie is starting to grow on me idk, she’s fun.

Anyway, the scene at the gallery was so raw and emotional, I loved every single word of it, from the glimpses of her and colt’s backstory (😭😭😭)(was sleeping w the enemy foreshadowing…?) to the “internal monologue” she was having in one of the most vulnerable moments we have perceived so far. Then Eren not only helping but also sharing that moment quietly & selflessly, AND EVERYTHING THAT HAPPENED AFTER BRO I WAS BAWLING I LOVE THEM (WYM TY FOR NOT TAKING MORE THAN I WANT TO GIVE☹️☹️☹️☹️ ONG MY BABIES), and their bond growing quietly is so special. I have sm to say abt this I could yap for the next 3 hours.

Thank you for this, I’ll read it again and again and again hehe. Btw something I wanted to say is how I love (how many times did i type “love” in here) how you are just as happy/excited/proud of the story as we are, I adore how you adore your work, somehow it makes everything tenfold more special.

Love and appreciate u, see u next time🫂

i was listening to strangers randomly one night and half-dreamt the scene repeatedly for about an hour and just hadddd to add it 

colt is one of my favvv characters to write thus far! i think he’s portrayed as partially morally grey depending on how you interpret his character and it’s just so mmmph i love him. and yes—empathy, humanity, etc, is such a personal thing and is never black and white because reasoning for actions or feelings, again, is super personal. maybe colt had a reason for doing so, or maybe colt just viewed the situation different than let’s say y/n or even the reader, or maybe he is simply what he was described as: a coward. who knows!!!

& i was notttt gonna go down the bandwagon of portraying mikasa as a ‘villain��� again bc i hateddd that shit and knew for sure she had to come into this as a friend (also because btm y/n NEEDS her girlies (& we unfortunately have a shortage)) 

also can’t wait to write more of armin and annie!! 

sleeping w the enemy hmm… was it foreshadowing? me thinks so

ik im the writer (like girl be fr) but the juxtaposition between the gallery (beautiful, full of art, a place where creation is made) and her ‘moment’ (displacement, ugliness, fury, self-disgust) made me ache for my ho 💔

regarding eren: “quietly and selflessly”—mmhmmmm! a small snippet into eren’s mental which was pushed aside for her sake. we love to see it. good boy eren 🤍

i go back and forth w myself most days (if not daily… if not MULTIPLE times a day) with my love/hate relationship w not only my writing but this fic (it’s taking over my brain matter fr) but messages like this really clear my head for a bit and i go back to pushing through and making the scramble in my mind a tangible thing on a google doc, and for that i say thank you 

love u mwahhh 💋