#are my enemies

[keefechambers]

i think there's an interesting bit of alexei's psychology on display in the what if episode, and that's him telling bucky he comes from a "family of nobodies"

worrying about being a nobody really highlights a lot of his whole deal. dreykov leaves him to rot in obscurity in prison and this is the ultimate punishment. he hated the spying mission (despite handling it pretty well) not because he didn't like the girls and melina, but because he hates the anonymity of being a spy.

and in thunderbolts he tells yelena that fame and fortune is how you make friends. as if he genuinely doesn't see himself as worth being friends with otherwise, or just has a very cynical outlook on people.

my theory here is he always thought of "alexei shostakov" as a nobody and "red guardian" as a somebody, so of course that's who matters. most of this is ego; he's a hero, he's a super soldier, he's the baddest man in prison, etc. etc. but some of it does seem to be tinged with self hate, appropriate for thunderbolts and the overall themes in the movie.

additionally, both BW and thunderbolts have this tension between yelena and alexei, where she wants her dad (the guy who coached her soccer team and got her into mclean and followed her to dc and etc etc) so badly, but he can't help but put the red guardian bullshit first. he seemingly can't accept that anyone wants regular old alexei to give them advice or cheer them up after a shitty day at work, and so if there's no red guardian he just kind of disappears (hence "i'm not good at this" and "i thought you didn't want me")

anyway all that to say the tl;dr is the the funniest most sleep deprived man in the room has some deep seated self esteem issues to work out, i guess?

[theaftersundown]

the holy grail types of fanfic

[bigskycastle]

the old cistern beneath the flood control system

[inkskinned]

i love you vaccines i love you research i love you reading the book instead of having chatgpt summarize it i love you critically thinking rather than reacting to a headline i love you investigating the source material i love you science i love you math even though you are personally my enemy (math/yn slowburn) i love you writing even though you try to stab me a lot i love you Experts in Your Field i love you Using The Brain

[paintedcrows]

Whenever Bill sees KingOfNJ's fics through Stan's eyes he just thinks they have the same taste in fanfiction (disgusting. unthinkable) continued

[shinynewmemories]

No but the Hunger Games really said "what do you hate more- the atrocities or the people who commit them against you? Because like it or not there IS a difference. If you hate the people who commit acts of pure evil more than you hate the acts themselves, what will stop you from becoming just like your enemies in your pursuit of justice? What will keep you from commiting those very same acts against THEM when the opportunity arises? And what then? The cycle of pain and suffering will never stop. Round and round it'll go. Nothing will ever change. But. BUT. If you hate the atrocities. If you hate the vile, senseless acts MORE than you hate the people who did them to you. If you are able to see that evil is evil regardless of who does it... The cycle ends with you. No, you may never get justice. But you will never be responsible for making others, even your enemies, suffer the same crimes you have. The atrocities will never be committed by you, never by your hand. And that's the way you change the world. It's the ONLY way" and that's why I am sure it will never stop being one of the most relevant works of fiction ever created

[andstuffsketches]

they're a fun trio

[suzie-bee]

it must feel like a ghost town to him

[juunipupu]

Knight piercer, sword-breaker, and Dame

[nauseakills]

sometimes i will see a very funny post that i want to reblog but then some fucker has pointlessly added some masturbatory bullshit like 'you wouldn't get this on any other site' and it is ruined for me

[bamsara]

"youve already written that trope" yesss. i like it a lots. i will be writing it again. 1000 stories of the same trope over and over again for ten million years

[redzombie]

Mensis

[soulswordlesbian]

that david shrigley lino print made me feeel things

[mrevellss]

[jamjoob]

Batman's for Batman Day

[starryeyedstray]

hey if you're the type of writer that's like me where you tend to write specific scenes first that vaguely weave together into a plot, you might like using obsidian as a writing app.

my frustration with other writing applications is that i will write my scenes out of order and it's hard to move things around and rearrange them on a regular document.

but with obsidian there's this canvas feature where you can just write all your scenes and plot moments on these little cards that you can freely rearrange. you can color code them and connect them too.

here's the canvas i've created for my current multi-chapter fic: (if you zoom in you can see all the text in each card this what it looks like zoomed out)

as you can see, i color code them based off chapters and will group them next to a document card with the working title of the chapter. anything not color-coded are scenes that don't have a proper place quite yet or it's just world building references. this app can also be good for note-taking and collecting research!

best of all, it's FREE!!! the only downside is that if you want your stuff to sync across devices, you do have to pay for that. i constantly hop between my laptop and desktop so i pay for the syncing. but if you write on only one device it's completely free! EDIT: some reblogs have mentioned that you can apparently link your own personal cloud storage (dropbox, gdrive, icloud, etc.) to obsidian for free! that way you can access your obsidian vaults across multiple devices without the extra fee. i don't mind supporting the devs but just something to look into if costs is a concern.

i typically use it for organizing my thoughts for a first draft. once i get all the scenes arranged and mostly written out, i will copy and paste them into ellipsus (also free & highly recommended as a google doc alternative) so that they're all in one document that i can edit.