#autism sweep basically

[dawnssummers]

willow knows she acts strange and tries hard to act "normal"; anya knows she acts strange and refuses to act "normal"; tara knows she acts strange and is just okay with it; faith has internalised the idea that there is something wrong with her; buffy needs to believe she is the most normal girl ever

[fishing-lesbian-catgirl]

I occasionally see people complain that stereotypes of trans women even in our own online communities are often about us being nerdy shut ins, and how they say that’s unfair and inaccurate. But besides the obvious selection bias that in online spaces people who are shut ins that spend most of their time online are going to be more prevalent than those who spend less time online, I feel like it takes a bit of willful ignorance to pretend that nerdy shut ins don’t make up a very large portion of transgender women for very material reasons. Most of the transgender women I know have a few things in common:

We grew up uncomfortable with our bodies

We spent most of our lives prior to transitioning feeling like something is very wrong and feeling like we don’t fit in with most of society

We frequently fantasized about a life that could be different

Again there is a very real amount of selection bias in this because basically every trans woman I know is also mentally ill and spends most of her time online. But again I feel that the material reality of being a person who feels uncomfortable with themselves, feels like they don’t belong, and often fantasizes about a life where they didn’t have those problems very much would cause said person to gravitate towards being nerdy and/or a shut in. And that is intensified if you consider the statistically higher percentage of trans women that are autistic (the autism-transgender connection is a whole different topic but there is a statistically significant overlap). To a person like that, video games, tabletop role playing, and online communities where you can present yourself how you’d like are all very attractive things. And if so many of us gravitated to those things before transitioning, existing in this world that is so deeply cruel and unaccepting of trans women only pushes us further into using those as our outlets.

I won’t pretend to have any statistical or other knowledge to make sweeping statements about that making up the majority of us or anything, and I also recognize there is selection bias inherent to this discussion and that my view is limited as an American white woman. But I will say that I don’t think it should be necessarily surprising or disappointing to anyone that online communities of transgender women tend to focus on talking about the types of transgender women that make up the majority of those communities: the ones who spend more time online

[obsessioncollector]

I think this article falls frustratingly into substack disease with both the all or nothing title and also the sweeping generalizations about the past, which is annoying because there is the seed of a good point here. And the idea that something not being pathologized in a medical sense means that it was accepted is obviously false ("you are shy and stare at your feet when people talk to you not because you are your mother’s child, not because you are gentle and sweet and blush the same way she does, but autism"—okay but adults absolutely tormented "shy" kids in the past and thought they were disrespectful of their elders or just stupid. Of course that happens with autism too but it is weird to set it up as a dichotomy rather than a continuum.) Also, psychological pathologization isn't as recent as the author is making it sound, but in decades past people with severe psych diagnoses would be institutionalized, so she doesn't realize (or remember?) that they existed. Out of sight out of mind

I broadly agree w these parts though

We can’t talk about character either. There are no generous people anymore, only people-pleasers. There are no men or women who wear their hearts on their sleeves, only the anxiously attached, or the co-dependent. There are no hard workers, only the traumatised, the insecure overachievers, the neurotically ambitious. We even classify people without their consent. Now our clumsy mothers have always had undiagnosed ADHD; our quiet dads don’t realise they are autistic; our stoic grandfathers are emotionally stunted. We even helpfully diagnose the dead. And I think this is why people get so defensive of these diagnoses, so insistent that they explain everything. They are trying to hold onto themselves; every piece of their personality is contained within them. .

And it’s not only personality traits we have lost. There are no experiences anymore, no phases or seasons of life, no wonders or mysteries, only clues about what could be wrong with us. Everything that happens can be explained away; nothing is exempt. We can’t accept that we love someone, madly and illogically; no, the enlightened way to think is to see through that, get down to what is really going on, find the hidden motives. Who we fall for is nothing but a trauma response. “You don’t have a crush; you have attachment issues”. Maybe he reminds you of an early caregiver who wounded you. In fact there are no feelings at all anymore; only dysregulated nervous systems. Every human experience we have is evidence, and the purpose of our lives is to piece it all perfectly together. This is the healthy way to think, that previous generations were so cruelly deprived of.

But then comes this insane sentence: "My grandma is a grandma, a mother, a wife; we are attachment disorders." Wow it's so cool that your grandma's entire identity is reducible to her role in your family. "She is selfless and takes things to heart" I mean maybe you should think MORE about why "selfless" is the first word that comes to your mind to describe her. And then the bit about her grandparents not being able to articulate why they married each other... modern dating sucks but it's absurd to valorize the stories of couples who just happened to get married and made it work when lots of peeople (especially women) lived miserable lives in unhappy or abusive relationships. Also why is the writer assuming that she has an objective view of her grandprents' relationship when she characterizes her grandmother as "a grandma, a mother, a wife" and "selfless." Of course she wants to think that they have a happy relationship! And maybe they do, but perhaps the writer should not swear off looking for explanations entirely

I have seen tweets about how vulgar marxism and vulgar psychoanalysis are still like basically true, which I think is accurate to an extent, but vulgar antipsych drives me crazy. Now I'm mad and it's not even 9 am and it's this article's fault

[tallymali]

(Read this with no hate, you seem like a good person and this isn't anything against you specifically)

The thing is that because you have a large following, you may have some kinda superiority complex where you think that your opinion is 100% fact and the way that 50 people will like your post just perpetuates it. I feel like you're at least smart enough to acknowledge that maybe there is some space for error in your judgement or that even though you strongly believe your own opinion of course, there is at least a percentage of a chance you may be incorrect? For example, if in a few years it becomes proven scientifically that vaccines have been causing autism or are the sole cause for some illness or disorder, would you admit to being wrong in the past? Would you stick to your original opinion? Would you just sweep it under the rug because people generally don't like to admit that they were wrong? Same goes with anything else that either the left or right believe. Like if someone believes in gay/trans rights, abortions, etc.. does that mean they also have to believe in everything else on the checklist of leftist beliefs for you to not completely disregard them? Just a thought, not accusing you of these things. It's just something I see in a lot of people.

i have a large following because i post lewds sometimes. half naked people get likes for anything, i promise im not mistaking my ass validation for intellectual validation.

to tell the truth, this is an 18+ blog. we are all adults here. you should not need a disclaimer that im not some fountain of wisdom. i am a person. a stranger. please do not ever take my word as gospel or think im stating it as fact. if your problem is that i sound too sure of myself then i cant help you. weirdly, this is something a lot of welsh people i know deal with online. i am not soft spoken, we are not a particularly soft spoken bunch. would you like me to couch everything in teeheehee idk tho lol uwu~~ so that i dont sound like i “think that my opinion is 100% fact” (a claim i never made)?

and i find it interesting that basically every time i mention the word science someone comes into my ask like this to say “but what if you’re wrong what if the science changes what thennnn?????” as some kind of gotcha. and well, thats the scientific method? it is always changing? i had BETTER be changing my mind! i have a disability that the vast majority of medical systems on the planet are dragging their feet to even acknowledge the existence of. you imply i dont know the importance of humility and adaptability in science? i live in physical pain from the lack of it.

i used to be a lot more timid about voicing my opinions and im actually very thankful ive overcome this a bit, not for validation, but for communication. most of my friends are in some kind of STEM field, and i love chatting with them and saying “hey so ive been thinking [thing relevant to your field], whats your verdict on that one?” and then i get to learn something and its really fun. maybe they tell me im completely wrong, and thats no less exciting because its not ABOUT me. its kind of the reddit theory that you get better answers when you make a wrong statement yourself, as opposed to asking an open-ended question.

i do get this on tumblr too. i love it when people reply and disagree in good faith. my mutuals have so many different kinds of experiences and professions and passions and i lovelovelove hearing from them. we have some great conversations in the DMs when i have it in me to find them in the sea of dick pics.

because of my current life conditions i dont have the ability to get back into formal education right now. and thats all i ever dream of. its the one thing i want to achieve before i kick the bucket. i try to do as much as i can to keep my brain stimulated despite the fact that some days all i can do is take codeine and stare at the wall. i really resent that i dont have the ability to approach any of this perfectly, and would never claim that i am. i guess im a little sorry for apparently not accurately representing how much of a mess of a person i know i am akdnfbjskssk

[whoishotteranimepolls]

Has anyone tried to cancel and ban Dungeon Meshi for the explicit racism present in the show? Not saying it should be, it was just a bit of a conflict I've seen from people thinking the characters being racist meant the series as a whole is, and I'm a bit surprised if it hasn't reached this blog lol

(Senshi especially he has a lot of bias he's yet to overcome LMAO)

Not specifically for racism. However, dungeon meshi characters have been targeted for a variety of other reasons including because they're blonde and someone sent me a very extensive list of blonde characters they think should be banned because that reinforces what European ethnic colonial beauty standards. I will be posting the full list sometime soon.

Basically all the female characters because it goes against the spirit of the manga to sexualize them in any way including in these polls.

Laios specifically for being a bad representation of autism. He's also blonde

Marcille and Falin for being bad representations of lesbians. Also blondes

Chimera Falin because when she becomes a chimera, she loses all bodily autonomy and can no longer consent to us, the viewer, sexualizing her. I wish I was making this up. That essay is a treat. It will be the subject of Fandoms vs Illiteracy very soon

Chilchuck for being a bad father.

Izutsumi for being 17 and a cat so she also can't consent to being sexualized. For some reason this is the character people throw tantrums about and will be the one that gets the fandom put in time out

No one has complained about Senshi other than the Senshi sweep meme is getting annoying. I guess right now he has pretty privilege

[pomefioredove]

Rook has 1000x more autism coding than Skully and bc of that that he will forever be a winner to me

Ppl like Skully because he kissed us on the hand or whatever but Rook's stalking is way more romantic OBVIOUSLY ¬_¬ /hj /lh

this but /srs I would let him collect information on me. I would make it a little game for him :) I love u autism

anyway by that logic vil should be sweeping he basically kissed yuu directly on the mouth (in my head at least) you guys can NOT be saying that king codependency, patron saint of emotional immaturity is better boyfriend material over the most thoughtful and caring and beautiful human to ever exist. that's insane. do you know how that sounds? insane. I love malleus, I do, I'm excited for his arc, but this is vil schoenheit we're talking about. vil schoenheit. you're going to say no to vil schoenheit over lord temper tantrum? also leona should have won in round one (op if you're reading this I love the lineups they're making me crazy)

that all said, rook my sweet angel. they may not want you but I do. *coughs so weakly and dies*

[mushroom-madness]

🍄 ROUND 6: THE FINALE 🍄

🍄 Which of our buggy bois will be crowned TUMBLRS MOST FAVORITE FUNGAL FUN GUY!! 🍄

🍄 Vote for your Favorite Fungi! 🍄

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Leif

"Leif is one of the protagonists of Bug Fables, they're a cordyceps fungus inside a moth host. They've been in some other tournaments (notably the graveyard gambit tourney, for zombie characters). There are other cordyceps in Bug Fables but since Leif is a protagonist they're the most qualified for polls in general. They're an ice wizard who uses plural pronouns (we/us/our), has Fungus Autism(m), and their favorite things are food, cute creatures, and card games. They had a wife and kids, they don't know what glasses are, and sometimes they speak in keysmashes. Not to be biased but they're the best character ever made” - Submission 46

“*slaps roof of moth* This mans is SO full of 'shroom (which is. A major spoiler for the game, but hey! He's a fungus (cordyceps) and I lobve himb)" - Submission 67

"He may not look like a fungus, but he's actually a moth zombie reanimated by Cordyceps fungus. He is both bug and mushroom:)” - Submission 104

"Lief sweep let's gooooo" - Submission 139

Caduceus

"He heals wounds with fungus and makes tea from dead people which is, like, basically what mushrooms do" - Submission 97

"my sweet son. my baby boy. love and cherish him" - Submission 136

[boy-gender]

Hi, hope you're doing ok

I have a genuine question. Should i be worried about getting taken away? I'm not out irl except to 2 (very trusted) people, but i do reblog a lot of lgbtqia+ (especially trans) stuff on here, so I'm wondering if they still may find me and come for me. I don't want to be taken away, I'm just scared. I saw a post about how the Annoying Orange wants to send trans (and othet queer) people to camps in other countries and it really freaked me out. They were talking about how everyone should leave now but i literally have no way of leaving, plus there's too much for me to leave behind. So i just want to how in danger i am. Like i said, I'm not out irl and don't "look" queer, but I'm still scared and worried.

Sorry about this

gonna be honest with you chief, I don't know how much danger we're all in. If the government can just ignore due process and send anyone they want to an international black site, and then refuse to return him even when the court intervenes, weve got nothing. No separation of powers. No constitutional rights.

And now with this thing about kennedy violating privacy law to figure out what meds youre on and suggesting people who use opiates (chronic pain) ssris (depression, anxiety) or things like ritalin for autism or adhd? Suggesting we all go to "work farms" until we're better?

Im not gonna lie. Im scared. Im white and in a deep blue state and im still scared. Ive watched Ice raids happen in known-queer cities near me. I just applied for disability benefits- every medicine, every diagnosis i have ever had, I neatly packaged it all and handed it over. The DID, the autism, the antipsychotics ive been on, the child abuse and the gender surgeries and the crippled fucking leg so I couldnt outrun someone even if they came for me. I look queer and am, and randos in public clock me. Ive put off getting married because of this, because my partner could maybe squeak by and pass as cishet if given the chance.

I dont know. I dont know what to tell you. Your tumblr is probably not a big deal, and if youre white and stealth in real life you might be safe in the closet. But without due process, none of us are really safe. It could be any of us at any time.

I expect it to roll out in phases, just like the poem. Theyll come for the immigrants- or anyone with any melanin- first, then people who are homeless, addicts, visibly disabled or high support needs people, then us fags. I expect ICE or ice like tactics will continue sweeping cities, from big cities to small towns, over a course of months until they get as many of us as they can. Sweep one is already happening, and nobody will- not that they cant, they *wont*- stop it.

The courts will tell him to stop and he'll ignore them. Activists will protest and he'll shoot them. States will sue and he'll defund them into being basically nonfunctional.

Until he pisses off the right rich person or military officer and they fucking kill him, he's going to continue doing whatever he wants. Force, or disease, are the only options. Force and hiding.

I cant leave either. I wont. I wont change who I am either- it's too late anyways in my case. Im not a big important target, im one of a million little fish, but when the minnows are whats left, thats who theyll come for.

I wish i had better news for you. I dont. But remember a few things. First, theyll never get us all. You and I as individuals may die or disappear but our people will live on. Second, he will eventually piss off the wrong people (my moneys on putin, but i think britain would be funnier). Third, dont comply in advance. The more of us who panic-kill ourselves ahead of time, the less work for them. Live and make them put in the fucking work.

[ask-spooky-manor]

Ben Headcanons Relating to Autism

I couldn’t come up for a silly title this time, but happy Autism Awareness Month!

- Like Tim, Ben was diagnosed fairly young, however their parents kind of tried to pretend it wasn’t true. They hoped they could sweep it under the rug and ignore it…obviously it didn’t work

- Ben’s parents never really tried to seek accommodations for them or tried to work with their autism. They continued to pretend like nothing was different, which led to Ben developing a lot of maladaptive behaviors.

- Their special interest is video games, duh, but it did expand into coding, computer engineering, and video game development.

- Ben is someone who gets overstimulated very easily hence why they are more or less a hermit. Unless it’s absolutely necessary, they will not leave the manor.

- Living in a manor with a lot of people is kind of hard on them. It’s loud, it feels crowded, there is always something going on, and it’s overwhelming. It’s something they have had to slowly grow accustomed as Jeff patiently nudged them into socializing more. It’s still a process, but they’re getting there and they’re kind of proud of the progress they have made.

- Ben has a strong case of a flat affect. They always sound bored, and they basically never smile or rarely express emotions in general. That is not to say they don’t feel emotions because they very much do. It’s just that expressing them is hard.

- Ben is on the opposite end of eye contact issues as Tim. While Tim will avoid is as much as possible, Ben will stare into your soul to an uncomfortable degree.

- Before they ascended, Ben had a lot of trouble socializing as a kid, which led to them heavily isolating themselves for most of their life. Really their only friend was their sister. Point is that their social skills aren’t really good because their default is avoiding interactions in general. It’s a habit that they’re trying really hard to shake off.

-However, things are completely different if someone is interacting with them through text. It’s like night and day. While Ben in person is blunt, sounds bored, and is finding every way to end a conversation as soon as possible; Ben through messages or even voice chats seems lively, funny, and someone who likes to have a chill time with their buddies.

[drifloonz]

I also wanna see hcs of Steven with an autistic reader (dating hcs ig, I'm also a Strangled Red simp and I'm autistic)

remember me. im alive . Im here to heal the drought . i am too tired mentally to do the whole format shebang maybe ill dress it up when i wake up ( it is currently 6:21 am for me and im not tired yet )

Actually i dont think i do anything that extra or fancy with my formatting other than the title which i added right now. so . Enjoy

steven x autistic reader!

♡ he's autistic as well ... like that "I hate people" type'a autism. at least nowadays! i think he used to have trouble with volume and tone before the incident and just generally get easily overwhelmed... and either freeze or start to go on a walk to take his mind off of things. stuff like that.

♡ He's also insanely autistic about battle strategies and its his special interest of sorts . like... not that much, he did ( in my interpretation and what is kind of implied? ) sweep everything with miki because she's a special charizard who just kind of. Is stronger in all ways.

♡ BUT! i think i mean this in the more pokeani style of battles - he's crafty and very observant of his surroundings and how to "Cheat" battles with it. wink

♡ anyways yeah autistic reader . hi . You came for dating hcs right .

♡ he tends to just live in his house, lurking, stalking, barely moving out of bed to eat - so you might have to help him with that. ... buuuut, if you're similar, then you two will simply just sit in bed staring at the ceiling all day . napstablook core

♡ he hasn't had much stimulation outside of taking care of his basic needs and like. i'unno. being alive in general. so if you have an interest he isn't too aware of, he's always very happy to listen.

♡ he's an extremely good listener- he'll be nodding and mostly silent, but he may ask questions once he's more comfortable with you. he is actively trying to engage with your interests, although his own autism makes his tone a little stagnant- if he sounds uninterested, it's not intentional. his voice just comes off like that.

♡ he particularly likes games and music although the interests and energy for them have wavered a lot for him personally - so if your interests align with those sorts of things, he'll definitely be on board. you being into something in a genre he used to like definitely gives him enough energy to try again.

♡ this eventually does end up with him having more energy to engage with things that used to give him joy in a similar way . mostly playing games... like, a pokemon stadium or battle revolution game if those existed in-universe? because he can't exactly uh. Battle for real anymore without hurting those around him. of course, he always has charizard on his teams front and center. it's not Her. but, it'll suffice as long as he distracts himself.

♡ truly, it's just like this. introduce things to him and he'll be eager to try or listen or talk to you about them.

♡ if you get overwhelmed anywhere, he is quick to move you out of the area and also maybe take away the overwhelming Element. if it's a person, well. he'll just basically glare at them. a silent 'Fuck Off'

♡ also he will personally appreciate it if you get him more clothes. having just a few sets is fine for his depression, but the more he realizes it, the fabric feels awful sometimes. mainly, his trainer outfit he usually goes outside with - it's very worn and torn and the material was always a little cheap... if you get him a replacement, he'll be all the happier for it.

♡ he'd also give the old one to you if you cared about that sort of thing, but he'd be tentative because. well. it's worn and torn...?

♡ unless you fix it up and sew it somehow. that'd be nice. Im getting offtrack

♡ if you draw, write, or do creative things - he's always happy to see them. he likes to simply wrap his arms around your waist, resting his head on your shoulder as he looks at what you're doing now and again... it's, calming? like, really calming. to be honest, he could do that forever and ever.

♡ until you two get hungry of course. but, until then.

♡ he does also of course engage and ask about things like your OCs ( if you have them ), worlds, writing, dynamics, headcanons - anything, everything.

♡ generally things like this are what he's happiest with . watching something with you or watching you do something as he lays back and relaxes. seeing you enjoy the things you like makes him feel a lot better even though its something so simple .

♡ ... S!3v3n is also similar, he's just much more quiet- basically nonverbal - about how he goes about it. those red eyes will always be watching intently though .

_____

sorry if these were barebones i didnt rlly know what to Go off of but yeah . he is autistic too !!!! the Tismry

[mermaidsirennikita]

Can you recommend some HR with disabled male leads? I read Romancing the Duke and fell in love with Ransom

Sure! I haven't read that one yet but it's very literally on my shelf so I wanna soon.

I'd recommend:

When the Earl Met His Match by Stacy Reid. My favorite Stacy Reid, the Scottish hero was born mute and (I think this is important) ends the story mute. He communicates by writing or with sign language, and he marries the heroine, who's pregnant by another man and on the run from her horrible parents, because they've basically been pen pals for a while and she'll be able to reintroduce his (scandalous) family back into high society. He claims her baby as his own. One of my favorite things in this book is that she learns sign, which I feel a lot of authors wouldn't see the need for her to do...? But it's lovely.

Flowers from the Storm by Laura Kinsale. The hero does not begin the story with a disability; his mistress's husband catches them together, and when he goes out to duel him he suffers what we can assume is a stroke, which leaves him unable to speak or communicate properly. The heroine, a Quaker, finds him in an asylum and begins to establish communication with him, which leads to this really sweeping, challenging, beautifully written romance. I looove it.

Surrender to the Devil by Lorraine Heath. Sterling is not blind when the book's plot happens, but he's losing his vision and knows he will eventually be completely blind. It informs a lot of his character arc, because he shows up in the first book of the series (lmao it's SOOOOO dramatic oh my god) like an absolute ASSHOLE. He's going through some shit everyone!!!! Anyway, he's a duke who sees the lower class Frannie and wants to make her his mistress, but she struggles with the belief that she's frigid due to sexual abuse she experienced as a child. So it's heavy. But it's suuuuper romantic and heartfelt.

Beauty Tempts the Beast by Lorraine Heath. It's hard for me to say what is happening with the hero because it's kind of a reveal...? But it doesn't have a huge physical effect, necessarily--I mean, it does and it doesn't. However, the impact it's had on his social experience growing up is huge and it BROKE my heart. Anyway, this is the one where he sort of accidentally owns a brothel, and he agrees to teach the heroine, who was upper class but lost everything, how to seduce rich men so that she can become a courtesan. In exchange, she'll help teach the women in the brothel how to be ladies so that they can get other jobs (and so that he doesn't have to own a brothel anymore lmao).

My Darling Duke by Stacy Reid. The heroine in this book pretends she's engaged to this reclusive duke so that she can help her sisters in society... then he shows up. He actually uses a wheelchair after an injury, which is why he's stayed away from society. This book is SO GOOD and SO HOT. The thing is that he also thinks he's impotent, and it's very quickly clear that he's actually not, he just has a mental block due to his shame about his disability. The book is super emotional and lovely.

When the Wallflower was Won by Eva Leigh. The hero in this book is a successful gambler who ends up in a marriage of convenience with a super nerdy heroine so that she can join this academic society that won't accept her as a single woman. This one is super hot. The hero is dyslexic, which led to a lot of issues in his childhood, etc, and I enjoyed the way the writer addressed this.

The Madness of Lord Ian Mackenzie by Jennifer Ashley has a hero on the autism spectrum; he spent time in an asylum, and at times his family (though they do love him) completely misunderstand him. It's a big part of the story, and I really love this book--he meets this widow, and they basically start a no strings situation that gets quite out of hand.

Rules for Engaging the Earl by Janna MacGregor. The heroine basically asks her childhood friend to marry her because she found out that her dead husband was a bigamist (and therefore their marriage was invalid), and she's pregnant, so she wants to avoid her child being born a bastard. The hero obliges, but is hesitant to get closer to her, in part because he was wounded in the war and now suffers from mobility issues. There's a scene where she takes care of his leg that's so emotional and hot; and I really liked that they had to accommodate his disability in their sex life, and it wasn't treated as this weird thing.

A Lady for a Duke by Alexis Hall. Another one where the hero was injured at war and now has chronic pain/mobility issues. This is also really unique in that the heroine is a trans woman; she and the hero were best friends, and she was presumed dead after the Battle of Waterloo and used that opportunity to make a new life as who she really is. The hero was DEVASTATED and that, plus his disability, lead to him developing some substance issues. The heroine is persuaded to go to his house with some friends to try to help him out, and at first he doesn't recognize her... But when he does... IT'S SO FUCKIN' ROMANTIC. Like, that scene was. INSPIRED. I don't wanna give it away but I'm always like "oh my god the scene where he realizes that [redacted]....." This book also incorporates accommodating the injury in their sex life, which again I like a lot.

The Queer Principles of Kit Webb by Cat Sebastian. This is an m/m historical in which a dandy basically asks Kit, a former highwayman who now runs a cafe, to help him rob his dad. Kit refuses, but agrees to TEACH him how to do it. Kit hurt his leg and now has pain/mobility issues, something that is a thing throughout the book and is done really well. Also, the book where Kit is afraid of face fucking Percy because it would be too rough~ and Percy rolls his eyes and grabs Kit's hands to make him do it, because Percy is a true throat goat.

Joanna Shupe also has one with a deaf hero that I haven't read yet: A Notorious Vow.

Edit: I should add that Grace Callaway's Never Say Never to an Earl has a hero with bipolar disorder, and I really liked how she wrote it. But I have bipolar disorder and sort of struggle with the classification of it as a disability (not that it's invalid at all, I just struggle personally with feeling like an imposter when I put those two things together) so if you see it that way, then that is there also.

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tagging guide & sideblogs !

#pory.txt — me talking about whatever i want, usually related to fandom stuff or just me getting autistically excited™️ — general posts tag

#porygon used sketch! — my art tag!

#poryblog — random life events, literally me just blogging :p

#pory gaming hours — usually me liveblogging my pokemon nuzlocke experiences or whenever i start a new game

#NAME (oc) — specific oc tags

#tw vent — me venting, block this tag if needed (i honestly just need to scream into the void— don't feel obligated to interact or anything)

#crystalmon — a steven universe x pokemon au i made, although i mostly stopped updating for now

#team crystal gem — a steven universe x pokemon mystery dungeon au (this one is slightly more active!! im working on it!!)

#cometclan — my current warrior cats oc clan !! ^^

#The Spatial Paradox — OC based ARG i'm working on!!

@pixelsgifs — gif and web resources blog, i also make stamps and userboxes there. sometimes. when i feel like it.

@comet-clan — warrior cats oc sideblog!!!!!

i also run 2 rotomblr / pkmn irl blogs but i havent posted in months bc of burnout, just putting them here so ppl can tell its me

@nells-universe • @team-ethereal-official

intrests !

Pokemon • Steven universe • Miitopia and Tomodachi life (and nintendo stuff in general) • Warrior cats • Pokemon mystery dungeon • Aliens and cryptids • Meow wolf (THoER and omega mart) • Petscop • Inanimate insanity • Objectified (webcomic) • Web graphics

(pokemon is my longtime special interest, steven universe and warrior cats are my current biggest fixations)

music !

will wood • jack stauber• radiohead • car seat headrest • alex g • phoebe bridgers / boygenius • mitski • roar

characters !

peridot is currently THE character that occupies my brain right now. she's my blorbo. my skrunkly. the creature EVER. my biggest most insane kin

other sillies include lapis (su), goosefeather (warrior cats), lucius selig (meow wolf), and basically all the pokemon s&m characters :)

BYF / boundaries !

i know people don’t really follow DNI’s, but it’s best to block me if you don’t like my stuff. there’s no benefits to hating on me!! i’m having fun, and if you don’t like it, you’re not worth my time!! :p

> i don't have a dni for fandoms or anything, im cool w you as long as you don't directly support problematic creators (as in buying merchandise, concert tickets, etc.) i honestly couldn't care less about what you enjoy. you are NOT a bad person for liking ""problematic"" media or ships or whatever. im just uncomfortable with certain things

> on another note: if you actively hate on people's intrests, this isn't the place for you lol

> this is entirely a personal comfort thing but i might filter out any ships w peridot, sorry ^_^; im sure youre very nice i just do not like them lol, just putting this here bc if i dont engage with some of your posts that's the reason. im particularly put off by the pairing of lapis / peridot, so pls dont tag any of my posts with them as ship

> im also in general v uncomfortable with shipping & romantic content in general (aro), so again its just 4 my own comfort!! shipping is great im just a weirdo!!

> i will post about medical related things and imagery!!! filter out #medical or #cw medical to avoid these!!!

> its a very weird trigger im aware but im also just hella uncomfortable with supernatural stuff (the TV show) due to a past abuser so just try n tag it :)

> youll also probably be blocked if youre weird abt peridot aroace discourse (which is a weird amount of people on here,,) or aspec discourse in general. aspec people are literally queer. sorry. end of story. if you're going to deny that you should just..... leave bc im not gonna argue abt it

> don't make any romantic or sexual remarks towards me, even if it's a joke. i also dislike sexual jokes in general (especially if you're a stranger, it's just really weird) so pls be mindful of that!!

> don't talk about anything existential or relating to human existence to me, it will literally cause me to go into a spiral. i’m also generally uncomfortable with topics about religion or the afterlife (due to personal traumas & general discomforts)

> i'm not intrested in contact with people outside of tumblr, so please don't ask for any of my socials or contact information. if we’re mutuals, i can give out my nintendo code, but ask first!! x3

> in general, just be a nice person. don't be discriminatory on here, this is a safe place

thank you for reading this long ass post!!!

[ask-the-bastard-boss]

“So, it's come down to this, eh? Fine. For once,I'm not running away. I am Scott Cawthon,your manager, and you employee are FIRED”

Ask are: Open! Ask away.

make sure to scroll down! below all the rules and small facts, there is a whole list on what kind of coding generation one/Steven has.

Some quick rules!

•Cross fandoms and oc are alright, if not highly encouraged.

•please only platonic asks. Hugs are alright. But that is all.

•Ocs/Rp is okay !! If not highly encouraged! Have fun with it ^^

•Please Don’t spam if I dont do your ask. I either missed it on accident or it wasn’t in lines with the rules

•Be nice to each other, please? Don’t get mad at each other about asks

•If I am uncomfortable with an ask I will be deleting it.

• Proshippers DNI.

•He is not same as the other version! This is a different version. If you were one of his kids? Simply explain it to him! He’d understand. Otherwise? He doesn’t remember much.

•Most importantly!! Have fun

Other information!

•Somewhat DSAF 1 canon! Though hes less of an ass. (Not by much.)

•He has three kids. (The two from DSAF 1. Though, they’ve long been dead. He still clings onto the thought of them.) (The third one is still alive!)

•Steven goes by he/him Sly/Slys or It/It’s

•I will admit. He can be rather egotistical! Especially when it comes to any mention of Fazbender’s

•He is taken! Yes, his bf is Jake. Though, could change any day now.

•Will also add on. He can/is VERY self centered.

•Steven has Autism.

•he has a fixation on flowers and fazbender’s as a whole.

•He is GAY. Man kisser.

•It has stickers all over his phone head, most are from kids the others are from employees.

•He is horrifyingly tall. 6’7~6’8

Added extra height for a stronger impact on his intimidation! This is mainly due to the fact in dayshift one, he basically looms over you after a bad joke !!! Just think it’s silly.

+ It has its model number engraved on the under side of the phone shell

+When the Colorado location burned down. He was still inside. However, he was able to escape at the price of his voice box becoming melted.

Extras!

(Also note; sometimes I forget stuff, so I may add some extra information. Though small details, its still thing I would wish to mention..)

Generation one coding:

- Though during the process of becoming a phone, the memory is wiped. However, not fully. If one were to act quick enough after one DID act quick enough, there is a small chance that they COULD regain some memories (Like what happened to Harry.)However, the longer you wait; the less use it is to try and regain their 'old personality' back.

- Most Generation one phoney's don't see themselves as real people. They see themselves as managers, even as going far as to say; they think they are Scott. While they may have it in their coding. Some will take it too far, while others may be calmer about it.

-With that, a follow up would be; Due to their faulty coding (due to the fact that they were 'rushed' into production. They are seen as strict, uncaring or cold by Employees and others.

Due to their reputation, most see them as 'Robotic.'

Some don't see them as real people, after all while they can express their emotions, they try not to show it much.

-With that in mind, they are rather protective of their said restaurant. Just like how he was in dayshift one. Willing to do anything and everything to make sure he doesn't get closed down. Even if it means throw people under the bus. after all! Sweep it under the rug , It’s probably fine!

As for the timeline, I am still working on it, but the biggest change is Steven survived dsaf1 due to Jack/Dave actually going to jail.

+the only way a phone guy can truly die is if the phone head hets badly damaged.

+Yes. If the layout looks familiar? It’s a way I’ve decided to revamp the account after such incidents on the og account.

[asteralis-01]

I hate that when you’re autistic you automatically have to be on the defense 24/7 just to ensure you still feel justifiably human. You have to put up your shields to preserve your sanity. When you’ve lived long enough- typically masked- you learn that every word and movement is a battle ground you tread and you need to brazen your sword to fight back against everyone who wants to change the way you exist because you are an eyesore and a nuisance.

“Why do you do drink water like that?” “Why don’t you sweep correctly?” “You walk weird” “stop making weird faces/noises (in the rude way not the ‘hey your doing fantastic but can you do it over there bc I’m going to rip my ears off / your body language is concerning me please enlighten me to your true mood so I may be at peace and assure myself you just have a different resting face’ autism problems way. But also on that note I have to defend my face and body and noises and presence in the real world every second to which I hate. Because apparently crossing my arms or holding my knees to my chest is a personal attack to everyone in the room) “*blank* doesn’t matter your just over reacting” “oh I think you just choose to starve yourself and only eat junk food for attention” “why can’t you do *insert blank task/life skill here, basic or not basic* you are going to fail” “you would never last a day in the real world”

Fuck you neurotypical society. If you don’t like me that much, then don’t look. You’re right I wouldn’t last in ‘the real world’ bc I’m barely fucking surviving here.

[roman-sunshine]

Hey so uh. I can't remember if I said, but I started seeing a psychiatrist for my ADHD and he said it was also very likely that I was autistic.

After a year of treatment, he revised his diagnosis. I definitely had ADHD, but once I had started treating and managing that effectively (and also allowing myself to work and live in a way that works for me instead of trying to force myself to be normal), it let me start treating my anxiety.

Once my anxiety got better, he was like "oh, yeah, so you actually don't fit the autistic criteria anymore?" Basically, my anxiety from growing up with unmanaged ADHD, feeling like I was inherently broken, constantly being overstimulated, and being cruel to myself, all made me behave in a way that appeared a lot like autism and develop self protective strategies that looked like autistic symptoms.

So. Yeah. I am not making any sweeping judgements here or saying anything really. It just so fucking wild. And it makes me think of that thing about how like, "we don't know what an untraumatised autistic person is like because every autistic person is traumatised from this world."

[nokingsonlyfooles]

Stupid Doctors. Stupid Eyes.

So, did two doctors in one day. Two separate issues, remarkably similar difficulty in communicating and getting healthcare. Part of it MUST be the autism, but that CAN'T be all.

Doctor #1 was following up on a previous phone appointment. I had asked for an in-person appointment to lay out my case, told him I had almost a clean sweep of hypothyroid symptoms, told him I need a doctor who can handle my thyroid and "female hormones" (no other polite way to say, Can you handle all my hormones or not, you are a hormone doctor) because they interact with each other and if I have to keep ping-ponging back and forth between two doctors to work on this, I will not get adequate care. He started to ask about what estrogen I'd been on before during that appointment, but he backed off and tried to get me to see another gynecologist when I mentioned Canada kept running out of the patches I'd been prescribed. I tried to reiterate that if I have to square my treatment up between two doctors, I may die, but he said I might prefer an "expert."

I heard "you can use this other doctor if you're more comfortable with them," which I wouldn't have been, so I ran off and got a referral that would OK him to handle the estrogen and progesterone. He meant, "Under no circumstances will I handle that for you, even though I could. It's too complicated for me."

This became clear over the course of a five minute phone appointment, which I only accepted because it was the soonest one available. I thought he'd follow up in the office. And, although he wanted more blood work, I reminded him he told me the numbers were unreliable and he would need to address the symptoms, and he agreed with me, he just wanted the numbers too. Yesterday, numbers in hand, he told me my thyroid levels looked too high, so he was decreasing my dose, and I could have another blood test in three months. Bye. No discussion of unaddressed symptoms that don't look ANYTHING like hyperthyroid.

Did he get the referral? Could he address my "female" hormones? Well, he'd told my family doctor to refer me to that gynecologist! WHAT family doctor? That's not my family doctor anymore, he was fucking with my thyroid treatment that YOU prescribed me, among other very bad things, AND I LEFT HIM. I swear, I told the guy that LAST TIME.

OK. So I need a new endocrinologist who will actually handle all of my hormones, and I need to do all the research and find this person for myself, then ask the clinic to refer me to them. I could've started on this weeks ago if the fucker had just expressed himself in clear language. I TRIED to tell him as many ways that I could, "If you can't do that for me, I NEED ANOTHER DOCTOR," but he didn't hear that.

Doctor #2 was the surgeon who "fixed" my eyes so I can't maintain focus or acuity. I had a fight with the tech, and then with him, trying to explain the difference between, "I can read this, even though it's blurry, because I can guess what the letters are based on their basic shapes and the other letters in the line," and "You can read that just fine!" I tried to verbalize my struggles and this confused them. "Stop trying to focus on the letters, just read them." DON'T FOCUS ON THE LETTERS, JUST READ THEM???

They also had difficulty understanding the nature of the visual distortions. "Is this better or worse?" "My eyes get tired and stop focusing. It's not consistent." "But is it better or worse?" "I've been focusing on details for multiple letters now, and my eyes are refusing to stay in focus. I don't know." "Your prescription isn't consistent." *a pause, while my verbal ability crashes and I try to reset* "Wh-Why would it be?"

The doctor didn't know what binocular vision dysfunction was. Last time I saw him, I swear, the nurse asked what it was, and he explained it to her. It was brief and light on the details, but he did. Now he doesn't know what it is. He forgot since last year?

Also, I should not call the thing where a faint double of the image or text appears above or below it "double vision." "Double vision" is some other specific thing, not seeing two things, one of which is fainter. It's confusing for them when I call that "double vision." Cool. That makes very little sense to me and makes it even harder for me to keep talking. Thanks.

Anyway, they put me in front of a couple machines to take images and this time, FINALLY, I coughed up numbers that say something is wrong. My lenses are supposed to let light through at a "10." The left one is at a "9," which the doctor thinks is "not bad" and then he never addresses the blurriness in that eye again. Because the right one is at ".89". There's a decimal in there. It's less than one. This is severe. I must have a cataract.

But I only had the surgery because they thought my lenses looked fine and I wouldn't have cataracts for a decade or more! All of a sudden I have a cataract? "Well, let's dilate your eye and have a look!"

No cataract. He can't see anything. Yet he is holding an image with a number that says YES cataract.

Well, okay, I can read, so my vision isn't that bad (Oh, dear god) but let's give it a month, come back and see if the machine says the invisible cataract has progressed any. If it's still there and still invisible, you can have a referral to a cataract specialist. Oh, this has gone on so long, all the techs are at lunch. Well, they'll call you to make an appointment when they get back.

They still haven't called me, I guess they've been at lunch since yesterday.

I want my money back. I really, really do. If I have early-onset cataracts they missed, I did not have the information I needed to consent to that surgery. I don't think it's going to happen, though. Cataract surgery would be covered, if I just got a regular lens. But if I'm letting them cut into my eyeball and risk more pain and severe dry eye after all I've been through, I want a better lens - if that would work for me. God alone knows how I'll find a doctor whose opinion I trust to ask about that.

I still have no idea why the left eye is blurry and THEY CAN'T SEE ANY CATARACTS. This doctor is painfully nonchalant about having no idea WTF is going on. Hey, the surgery was a success! I can read! According to him! I don't have the endurance to draw or the speed to drive, but that's cool. No big deal.

Bleh. This is probably poorly-worded, with typos, but this is what's going on with me. This is what I'm trying to accomplish while still telling stories and enjoying life as the world falls apart. I'm a little tired and distracted, that's all.