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Why were you so disappointed by Rhythm of War?
This has been sitting in my askbox for years. I've taken several cracks at answering, only to get frustrated with the subject matter and burn myself out every time. I didn't like Rhythm of War. More than that, I didn't like it in a way that tainted my enjoyment of the entire series. And despite what it may seem, I don't actually enjoy discussing things which I don't like. I always want to talk from a place of good faith. Which is why now that my feelings towards the series are a little more positive, I think I can finally answer this.
I'm going to try to stay away from specific plotpoints and story beats for this post, because my goal isn't to nitpick (if for no other reason than it would take a week to write this post), I'm just looking to talk about my overall impressions. I think that might mean the only spoilers here will be structural? idk, if you haven't read Rhythm of War yourself then you should probably do that before looking for other people's opinions anyway.
I liked Way of Kings when I first read it. I didn't love it at the time, but I liked it. Certainly enough to keep reading once I'd finished. One thing that made me a bit uncomfy, however, was the war against the Parshendi. They were this unknowable enemy which the book was not interested in knowing. An inhuman army. Their main purpose was to kill Kaladin's friends, or else be killed by Dalinar's armies. And yet the Parshendi, and the parshmen in the form of Shen, did show hints of personhood. And so it bothered me how Dalinar spoke so casually about how the Alethi had decimated their numbers, how the others used the war as a means to amass wealth and power. (It didn't bother me in a "this is a bad book" way but in a "these characters are bad people" way.)
One of my foibles as a reader is that when a book is very clearly treating one side of a conflict with more humanity, I tend to be a bit predisposed towards the other to account for that. And with the Alethi clearly being the invading party and superior military force, there was also some underdog favoritism. I didn't really like how the book treated the Parshendi. This is to say that going forward, the singers would be more important to me than any other through line.
So imagine my delight at reading Words of Radiance and meeting Eshonai, one of the Parshendi, who even gets her own point of view sections! They were no longer being treated as a faceless mass, we were getting to see things from their perspective as well. And it became plain to see the damage the Alethi had done to them. I couldn't really bring myself to root for Dalinar or really any of the humans against the listeners. I couldn't even bring myself to like most of these characters. I still enjoyed the book but once it became clear there wouldn't be a peaceful conclusion, let's just say that I wouldn't have wept for Dalinar and Adolin if Szeth had managed to off them. Like everyone in the book, I assumed that going forward all the parshmen would be turned into evil voidbringers in the everstorm and that the listeners were mostly dead. Except for Rlain, and Eshonai because I'd read or been told that book 4 would be Eshonai's book and thus had assumed she was fine. (Oathbringer spoilers, she was not fine.) So ultimately it was still a bit of a downer way to end the book.
So imagine my delight at reading Oathbringer, where for the first time singers were being treated as people, full and real people, and where the human characters could no longer ignore or dismiss them. We met Khen and the others, common singers who were sympathetic and just wanted freedom from bondage. We see Venli grapple with the loss of her home. We see Leshwi and Moash connecting with and understanding one another. We learn of a history where singers were the original inhabitants of the planet. Parallel to this, Dalinar is having a truly excellent character arc about confronting one's past actions and acknowledging them to move forward and do better. I loved Oathbringer, for some years it was my favorite book, and I was excited as hell to see what came next. At the time, it seemed to me that there is a clear direction the story is going. Two books about needless war, and then a third where the main cast is forced to acknowledge the personhood of their enemies. This was so cool, all of my feelings from the previous installments were being validated, the characters were going to have to face what they've done in the past and outgrow their militaristic mindsets, I was so sure of that.
Imagine my disappointment when that does not even remotely resemble the direction the story went in Rhythm of War. RoW presented a clear, straightforward “us vs. them" narrative, where every character was totally fine with killing singers. Characters aligned with the singers were either flattened into wholly evil versions of themselves (Moash) or were expected to turn on their side in favor of the humans (Venli.) Because clearly there was no reason good people would be on the side that's all former slaves trying to stay free. Maybe there's some sort of accord or understanding between Navani and Raboniel that I might have found meaningful if the seeds of mutual understanding weren't already there in Oathbringer and then apparently ignored for a year by all the characters.
I have a lot of issues with how the listeners are handled in these books. (Here's some elaboration.) Following OB, I had thought that all my concerns were going to be addressed. Following RoW, I knew they never would be.
Which is my main complaint, because that's the thread that matters most to me in this series.
I have a lot of other Things as well. Gonna just talk about a few big ones.
One outsized source of disappointment that may seem a little petty, and which probably is, is that I felt mislead by the premise of the book. It had been announced that this book would center Venli and Eshonai, and I was unbelievably hyped for that. That did not really turn out to be the case. The purpose for their backstory chapters felt less about exploring them as people and contextualizing their arcs, and more about filling in gaps of world history. In the main plot, Venli was a POV character and she certainly played a role, but honestly not a very important one overall. To me she felt like a side character in her own book. I don't think it's controversial to say that the main character of RoW was Navani. A lot of people really like Navani and are happy about that. Unfortunately I'm not one of those people, and I found it all the more difficult to enjoy her when it felt like it was coming at the expense of some of my favorite characters.
This particular gripe somewhat comes down to preference, obviously everyone prefers to read about characters they like more than those they don't, and it can go both ways. (For instance, on a craft/technical level RoW is probably the superior book to W&T, but I liked the latter a lot more because of my stupidly outsized attachment to Szeth and Nale.) But I do think there's something of a real criticism in how the book would rather focus on the feelings of a queen rather than those of a genocide survivor, and how the former's are given significantly more weight and import. It ties in with my main criticism, I think.
And then there's how human/human racism had also been wholly cast aside as a plot point. Jasnah fixed slavery so that's resolved, and the only person who still cares about structural racism is the evil bad bad evil villain Moash/Vyre, who is now wholly irredeemable and who you're allowed to totally write off because he's sold his soul to Odium. I've already talked a lot about this. Other people have already talked about this, probably better than me. The writing was actually on the wall for me in OB, but again, RoW was when I fully accepted that this was never going to be addressed.
There's something else that probably deserves its own discussion rather than being quickly tacked on at the end here, but here we are. This book changed how the series approaches war.
In WoK, war was very clearly portrayed as a bad and inglorious thing. It was brutal, it was painful, those at the bottom died cruelly and unceremoniously and pointlessly while those at the top turned a profit. Every day was a new horror. The enemy were never evil, they were always just more people forced to go through the same thing. Through the next couple books, it felt to me that even if the characters had accepted war as necessary, there was still a tragedy to it. Conversely, in RoW (and W&T) war is basically a series of boss battles, in between which our protagonists can kill dozens of footsoldiers with barely a thought in the same way WoK had criticized.
Final note on all this, it sucks how we have no perspectives from the former-slaves-singers demographic. Those guys are really thrown under the bus, and seemingly get no self-determination now or ever. It was a glaring problem to me in RoW. Conscripted and enslaved humans and singers probably have just as much ground to form mutual understanding as a fused and a queen. (In fact they already had. In Oathbringer.)
In essence, RoW disappointed me because it left me with the distinct impression that none of the series's most important through lines (well, most important to me) were going to be resolved well. I liked W&T, but I haven't revised my opinion very much about the overall handling of these topics across the series. Maybe one of the reasons I was able to enjoy W&T so much more was because I no longer had such high expectations.
#sorry i sorta need to get this stuff off my chest to unpack my feelings about the series.#i hope posting this out of the blue doesn't come across as too mean spirited. my sensitivity reader DID sign off on it.#(that is a joke. although i do let my sister look over any 1000+ word posts ahead of time. and i would respect any disapproval from her.#but normally she just tells me i'm allowed to be more forceful in my opinions without qualifying them or apologizing all the time. pfff.#the reason i've been hesitant to write any especially spoilery w&t meta is mostly because she hasn't read it yet.)#discourse#asks#hey anon if you're still here after all these years. thank you.#at the time i was kinda fishing for an ask like this bc i wanted to vent but it felt mean to do so unprompted#of course this was still really hard to write. mostly because every time i tried i completely spiraled.#the version of this post that was sitting in my drafts was honestly a lot better than this one. in basically every way. except.#except it was nearly the same length and all i'd gotten to was the oathbringer paragraph#below which was a stupidly thorough outline of my itemized complaints#you KNOW i don't care about brevity but my god that would have taken forever to write and finish#and i did not want to spend that sort of time with a book i didn't like. which i would have had to do to get all my planned citations#sorry past self. you were clearly writing from a place of much more passion and that made your work better than mine. and yet.#so as i said. i'm only writing this bc i now like the series enough to talk about it again. sincerely not trying to be a hater.#side note: if any of you have thoughts/opinions about the shift in the way war is used in these books. i would love to hear them. lets chat
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pretty & cute witch men
#witch hat tag#orufrey#i'm not drawing as much or as well as i'd like to be doing. i'm trying to get through a comic i've been really wanting to do#but i'm just finding it so hard. disheartening. btw the 2nd one relates to some official art of qif wearing a dress like the girls#and the 4th one relates to how i've been drawing EXTREMELY SMALL for years. idk how to explain it but i always clicked 'fit to screen'#and so all my art EVER has looked bad when you zoom in bc it's already like size 1 zoomed in to the MAX pfhgguguhfpfhGHAHHHHH#i was so confused allll this time why brushes always look different for me than what they're supposed to#'wow this brush is so jaggedy..really rather jaggedy...calling it the Jagged Cai Special..bringing it out for those jaggedy moments..#really quite jaggedy i must say...' and it's literally not jaggedy#but now i have to get used to how all those brushes that i'd gotten used to indeed look how they're supposed to finally. Alarming#I have simply been working out absolutely everything by myself for years and that's why my technical progress is slow#ppl say my progress is fast and i certainly have improved much since i began doing all this but#like..it took me a year and half to start using a program where i could Colour In The Lines aka the..whatever it's called. whatever..#just on my lonely confused solemn journey to express gay love better than yesterday.. -_- *picks up my pack n continues through the snow*#btw thank you sm for people's kind words enjoying my narumitsu art & fic over the christmas & new year period <3
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Does anybody have pages 5-8 or 19-21 of pancaketiffy's Nautical Disaster anywhere? And does anyone know if the comic was ever continued past page 23? I wanna see if I can archive it somehow.
UPDATE: Did some more digging and found pages 19-21 (though two pages are labeled as page 21, which seems like an accident but they are two different pages, I'll have them listed in order,) as well as a 24th page. My guess is that that was the last page that was publicly released, but again, if anyone knows about pages past this point let me know.
So now all I need to find are pages 5-8, and any possible pages after 24.
UPDATE 2: Found page 7, so that leaves pages 5 and 8.
UPDATE 3: Alright, someone has graciously found the rest of the pages for me, I think this is it. Page 8 is under the Read More, couldn't find a specific reblog for it. I'll have another big update regarding some Pancaketiffy stuff later.
Pages I currently have:
Page 1 -- Page 2 -- Page 3 -- Page 4 -- Page 5 -- Page 6 -- Page 7 -- Page 8 (under Read More) -- Page 9 -- Page 10 -- Page 11 -- Page 12 -- Page 13 -- Page 14 -- Page 15 -- Page 16 -- Page 17 -- Page 18 -- Page 19 -- Page 20 -- Page 21 -- Page 21 (b) -- Page 22 -- Page 23 -- Page 24
Concept Art -- Sketches -- Cover Sketch -- Cover WIP

#spongebob squarepants#pancaketiffy#nautical disaster#pancaketiffy's nautical disaster#my post#Something recently reminded me of her spongebob comics#so I found a few of them and have been reading#it's nostagic and the work that went into these comics is admirable to say the least#Squidward's Birthday Gift is easy to find#Somebody uploaded Vacation to the Internet Archive#I actually found Tiki Ceremony on a site that... i think is meant for p/rn art 😅 and it's a site I've never heard of before#but the site seems active and safe and has no ads (with ublock on at least. i never turned off ublock to check lol but whatever)#anyway. the site also has Squidward's Birthday Gift and Vaction archived as well in both spanish and english#also it includes almost all of the n/s/f/w parts of Vacation (some censored some not) which was new to me lol#but as an adult i can appreciate the fact that those parts have been archived (as the internet archive version is without those pages since#-at some point tiffy had removed them herself) and I can read almost the entire thing now#Seriously thank god someone on that site was able to not only get the spanish-translated pages but to also translate them back into english#But anyway#There's also some miscellaneous stuff in a Onedrive folder somewhere (which I plan to read later)#but I've noticed that I can't find a chunk of pages from Nautical Disaster#which is a shame bc the pages I have found are really cool#and I'd like to at least know how far this comic had gotten before tiffy stopped working on it#and try to archive it somewhere so other people can easily read it too#I wanna try to do this with Tiki Ceremony as well (as in try to find all the original english pages and archive them for easy access)#but that's a much much longer comic and has been archived (in albeit low-ish quality and spanish) elsewhere#sorry for the ramble but this has been on my mind lately haha
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If anyone's like me out there and listening to the audio drama Last Dance, I finally found their transcripts! I'll link it here so no one else on Tumblr is like me and only finds it when they're nearly done with the series so far haha:
#Last Dance#Last Dance Podcast#Audio Drama#had half a mind to transcript it myself but then I decided to do a little searching#and didn't come away empty handed!#saved myself hours of work haha#I've gotten to episode 7 by now#and wow I love these characters a lot#expect designs here soon maybe but I might need to scrub back through transcripts for any design details I missed#Like I didn't like Cullen at first but now that he's part of our little squad I don't want anything to happen to him is that weird#Caelin still so awesome her accent is everything to me#the way she says words like now or through ough so unique voices are so cool#Raeke my boi gotta love 'im#Hearing him laugh sometimes is so cute bc he's like all gruff most of the time but then he laughs and it's like he's just a littol guy#'S only happened like three times or so though so few and far between#THE ENDING OF EP 6 GGGGRRRRRRRR SODRIN WHYYYYYYYYY#I shall shut up now before I spoil things. but y'all should listen to Last Dance
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Hello I wanted to know if there will be a sequel to the book you made on solo leveling with 17 chapters ?
eventually, theoretically. there's still more of come all ye mighty to go, and then i'll probably wrap it up and call it part 1 and make a sequel that delves more heavily into original content plot
#tbh its one of the things stalling me with the project a lot#bc its gotten so heavily into original territory that i now have to come up with a wholesale plot#which is sort of intimidating when i've been building up grand shit on the scale of like#ya know#wars between the gods and shit#anyway yeah#its a work in progress#i am going to come back to it but its slow going#te talks
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Two worlds collided and they could never, ever tear us apart
#Tumblr didn't want you to have this - i am literally toggling between Mobile browser and the app bc nothing works right 🤪#But she is nothing if not a stubborn bitch who spent an absurd amount of time taking screenshots so dammit this is getting posted#5sos#5 seconds of summer#ashton irwin#ai ig#ashton#ai cover songs#Instagram#Ryan Fleming 2024#kh4f post#But anyways look at himmmmm 🥰🥰🥰🥰#He is just so 😍🥹😩👩🏻❤️💋👨🏼🤸🏻♀️🥲👰🏻♀️🫶🏻💀🫂💋❤️🔥😭#You know?#And he has a proper garden now! I'll never be over it this is all I've ever wanted ohmygod 🤗#Ash baby sir i have been manifesting this for you for nearly 4 years you're welcome#I will accept thanks in the form of smooches 💋#Or more cover songs like this I guess#Or also purple shorts content 🤔#I fear I've gotten off track...#Look at him!#Why i no can kiss
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how do i ask my parents to send me a specific photo of me without them asking what it's for (dating app)
#to continue my trend of putting personal posts here bc it's essentially my priv now#i just posted fic on bsky i can't be acting like this immediately#anyway since sitting at home hoping that someone i meet on the internet will happen to live 3 miles away isn't working.....#i've never gotten so far as even setting up a profile because i don't have any pictures of myself#the one i'm thinking of (that my parents have) might not even be GOOD#but i don't imagine i will make it to that hurdle.
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The way you organize your WIPs is so very interesting to me, who just throws everything into one doc like a gremlin. But antarctfic-research-notes please please please
haha organize might be a bit of an overstatement there. I have notes and they're vaguely together, I think that's all I can say about it lol.
antarctfic-research-notes
so as I said here this doc is basically the result of me asking @geddyqueer a billion questions about antarctica and then compiling all the information. here's a tidbit:
Dorms & buildings Main building is just referred to as 155 [blue building]. It's where the kitchen and dining hall and laundry and a smaller dorm hall are. There's several other dorm buildings not too far away [brown buildings], numbered 200-210. They demolished 203 in 2019 to build a new one but covid delayed the rebuilding so it's still a work in progress. This means everyone has to share rooms now. Gallagher/Southern Exposure are the two lounges/bars, short walk from 155. There's the chalet which can be used for parties, and NSF staff stay in the nice building referred to as Hotel California. Tommy's work location would be down the hill a little past the science building (Crary), close to the pump house.
fun fact, the USAP website has a live feed of various places around McMurdo, amongst which is a feed of the lodging construction going on. It also lets you check out the current time & temperature (among other things).
(it is currently 2 AM there - that midnight sun is no joke)
[wip titles game]
#antarct-fic info#my notes#ask#trombonechurchill#has a fun little interest bloomed into a very big interest partially bc of this fic?#yes#tbf I've always lowkey wanted to work there for a summer season but now it's gotten worse#wip titles game
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Just a lil reminder for my current commissioners that I have a trello board for updates & backlog of requests in case you guys missed it :)
Also I still have 4 commission slots open if anyone's interested! (doesn't have to be pkmn - any kind of characters will do!)
#still working on the comms!#just realized how rusty i am w/ drawing ppl so i've been taking so much time redoing sketches bc i couldn't pin down the pose in one go ;_;#hope u guys can be patient enough w/ me!!#btw i've been stressing so hard abt the tablet for the last few weeks so i've decided to order it already#really bummed tho bc there was supposed to be a free keyboard included but it's out of stock now TT_TT#i was about to order it yesterday (when the keyboard was still available) but i kept having second thoughts!!!!!#augh..... this is what I get for being too indecisive.................#but there's still the free cover anyways so it's not so bad#i don't need the keyboard that much but still. i would've gotten one for free... 🥲#bam blabs
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can you guys look at my creature again. my little guy
#just me hi#my creature#it !!!!!!!#it has a new pot n stuff - well it has for a minute but i haven't mentioned it hfjshf#it's in the shape of a star my siblings n ma got it for me <3#my creature is doing well i think !! i mean i've gotta work on the lighting situation BUT. it's gotten much longer than it was before#i have its baby picture set as a pfp on some gardening app i'm using to keep track of the water operation and like its so biiiiig its gotte#bigger !!#used to be so tiny and fuzzy.. now it's lanky and still fuzzy hfjsh :3#/oh my parents got me a new plant today too ? ?? !!#i think they think i've gotten good at not killing this thing they're like Let's give them an even smaller even more pathetic looking plant#like this thing is Baby Sized. tiny thang#my mother's called it Dezzy (i think hfh) so i'm gonna call it Dizzy for simplicity's sake and also bc it just suits it lol :3#i think if it was an actual little guy it would be a bit of a klutz. i can feel it jfjshfj#//oh the picture above is just the editing from the camera app btw#i didn't do much else to it lol :)#/fond of my plant. my creaturrrrrrrre#//okay let me skedaddle now lmao#adiooooos 💥
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tdov was like a week ago already but I just wanna say when I came over to vacation slash help my sworn brother move flat he told me, "ever since you said you wanted to get top surgery I've been thinking about it. it's straight up number two on my bucket list"
#bakuspeech#number one is a house bc obviously. if u can own a house wouldnt u#he was very drunk at that time of the evening. I was not bc I have the constitution of a hot air balloon and any stimulant will blow me up#(relatively new development. france fucked me up big time turns out)#we held hand on his bed for like the whole evening. it was honestly very funny in hindsight but we were extremely earnest in the moment#and Im like. working on this thing as well. I dont got meds or therapy lmao Im bootstrappin here#but yeah early last year his bf offered to get me meds and I... turned it down... I think I was worried abt like. idk. something#but one year past looking back Im fully like that was a stupid move you shouldve gotten meds. youve once again fucked urself baku#but yeah with that kinda realization Ive also come to realized I've somewhat? accepted. that I'm just gonna be. like this#this in light of a number of likely chronic stuff too (hence my balloon-like constitution lmao) and#that's kinda bled into the rest of me without me really noticing#but him bringing that up fully unprompted... kinda jolted me out of it#its just. really incredibly sweet. that someone doesn't want me to settle for what I make do with#and like. preps for that work. just kinda held my hand and told me it's possible to do this actually#I didn't really express how I felt very well in that moment I think my brain is very bad and I process emotions with like a day of delay#but. well. Im thinking abt it Right Now. so yknow thats the kind of impact that had on me lol#not super sure why I wrote all this down here really. I think I just want a good n nice reminder that object permanence is real#and I exist in my friends' life even when Im going insane in a hole by myself#and with the power of friendship we can alter the universe's plan for ourselves and also kill god#that's that. anyways I eat lunch now and then pass out probably. last night was... eventful lmao#but!! very good things on the horizon hopefully. well manifestly we hold hammers and we use them#have a good day lads. let's go out and slay monsters under a highway
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🖤🖤🖤🖤Another one for The Education of a Lady 🖤🖤🖤🖤
used this Pin as a reference
#fantasticalleigh's art#fantasticalleighs art#dramione#dramione art#dramione fanart#dark dramione#draco malfoy#hermione granger#artists on tumblr#illustrators on tumblr#shoutout to that one shithead who once left a review on this fic saying my art is terrible and that i shouldn't bother sharing it#guess what bitch: the point is to keep doing it in order to get better that's how it works#i was proud of my work at the time just like i'm proud of this one now#i sincerely hope you don't go talking to other artists that way bc not everyone is going to be able to take a comment like that well#so fuck you and sorry for my followers who see this in the tags and go wtf?#but that's actually one of the comments that have really bothered me and i do actually think about it a lot#so whoever that anon was: i've gotten better (not that i need to prove it to anyone)#and i hope you go suck a wet fart out of your own asshole before you comment some shit like that ever again
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Welp, I have a sore throat & nose and congestion. All very mild, but def not normal, and a lot of my illnesses start out very mild. So I got some shit done at work and ditched. Had to ride the bus home bc my car is at the mechanic. (Of course.) But at least I'll get to catch up on sleep, and I'll avoid giving it to anyone else before I know if it's a bad one or not.
#not covid or strep. so that's good.#i KNOW it's because i keep staying up late and have been waking up early bc of the light changing and the v loud robins in the tree...#...right next to my window. and i've been not great about eating veggies lately. so my body wasn't able to kick it without giving me...#...symptoms. but at least i get the chance to catch up on sleep. i need to do better about that.#not EXACTLY another 3-day weekend bc i'm stuck at home most of the t8m#*time. but. it is what it is. at least it's mild right now. maybe it'll go away soon.#personal#illness tw#ALSO it forced me to wash my nasty water cup in case that was the culprit LMFAO so now my water cup is clean?#but i don't get to catch up on housework bc that's not resting >:( i could have gotten so much shit done at work today >:( i don't even...#...feel that bad >:( i hate being responsible. i should be at work getting outdoor stuff done that i couldn't do yesterday bc it was...#...too windy and all my shit would blow away.
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It sucks when you learn something new which might be the answer to a question you've had for a while but you don't even know where to start to see if it really is the answer.
#liv won't shut up#the context: i am a white & from the us. but i have dark hair eyes & skin. dark enough skin that i get asked a lot if i'm latina. usually#latina (which i think matches my appearance the most) but i've gotten native american pakistani (okay that one makes no sense but whatever)#& a few others. thing is i know a lot of my family history. my family has been in the us for quite a few generations but before that my#ancestors were from england & scandinavia mainly though due to history i can assume i have french & german ancestry as well. & um these#countries arent known for dark complexions. so then ppl are always surprised. convo usually goes like this#person: where are you from?#me: the us#person: & your parents? what is your ancestry?#me: my family has been here for generations but before that they were from england & scandinavia mainly.#person: really? because you don't look like it. you look latina. where did your complexion come from?#me: idk how would i know?#well i recently learned about a group in scandinavia called the sami. they're originally from siberia but many moved to scandinavia#centuries ago. & they have darker complexions. so now i'm wondering if at some point i had ancestors that were sami from scandinavia#& if there genes just kept getting passed down until me#but man i do not have the time to figure that out#like i dont *need* to know i'll be fine. but i've always been curious & it would give me an answer to tell ppl that ask#also btw it isnt just white americans asking if i'm poc. lots of poc ask too. i'm working at a mexican restaurant & i get asked all the tim#there if i'm latina bc “i look like everyone else there”#but it would be nice to have an answer besides “idk” when someone asks why i have my complexion#at least i know what line it comes from. my dad & grandpa look like me too#& also got asked a lot if they were latino. even more than me. my grandpa is from southern arizona. we have a white american as heck last#name so everyone thought his dad was american & his mom mexican (nope). then he moved when he married my grandma to my grandmas#home town so then all of them saw this guy from arizona moving in with darker skin & also assumed he was at the least biracial.#then ppl thought my dad was biracial too bc he's the son of the random arizonan with darker skin#so i know wherever i got this gene comes from came via my grandpa
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the Graduating of it all is really hitting me despite the fact i need to finish a lot more work in the next five hours/two days in order to graduate
#I'M DONE DOING CLASSICS I'M SORRY. I LOVE IT VERY MUCH BUT IT'S NOT MY CAREER.#and i would like to begin my career#there is so much that is terrifying about directing but i need to be doing it i need to be doing it#and the two new england apprenticeships i applied to said no so either maybe i go to seattle (haven't heard back) or i take the plunge and#- move here and i just start working#and they are both so so scary.#i think as of right now i'd take the seattle job if i got it and then i'd come back to new england after. that seems really acceptable#but like. i think i've gotten really attached to this theater community and i Want to keep working here#in a way i've never had with say pittsburgh. like i want to stay there bc it's my home home not bc it's my artistic home#despite all of the deep deep levels of fuckery going on like. this is my artistic home :( & i don't want to leave. & also i'm scared to sta#& fail here. but i'd rather fail here than somewhere else i think#ted talks
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Condense my point challenge 2k25 (impossible edition)
#god I feel like I've gotten so bad about redundant rambling but then again i never really wasn't#high school me was notorious for blowing essay max word counts completely out of the water#but yeah it's definitely not gotten Better so whether it's gotten worse isn't really the main problem lol#not to give like hemingway and such fucks too much credit but i do need to work on better succinctness#eapeciallyyy bc like commas and semicolons used to be my incomparably beautiful weed-smoking gfs but tumblr tags being my main form#of writing these days has wrecked me. commas being forbidden has normalized run-ons to the point the cadence feels genuinely wrong otherwis#so now it's not only that I'm overly wordy but also that it's all a grammatical clusterfuck too lol#anyways
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