#bc its 1:30 am and im tired

[khyrrn-v2]

What do you think happened to Hashirama’s sword.

I wonder if he ever used it again. No matter what timeline he’s in, what headcanon you have, that’s the blade that killed his best friend. Do you think he hung it on his mantle- a constant reminder? Or do you think he shoved it into his closet, never to be seen again. Maybe it was destroyed, just like any future with Madara he could’ve ever hoped for.

Do you think when he saw his brother wielding a blade, he would remember how he’d driven one into his best friend’s heart? Maybe he gave the hat up early, unable to bear such a title without his soulmate friend ally Madara at his side.

He was happy in Tsunade’s memories, but those belong to a younger self- one that couldn’t have known his inner workings.

I imagine that sword was left there, at The Valley, to sink down to the bottom of the river. Hashirama would have left it all behind, dropping his emotions and secrets and guilt down right next to that sword.

I imagine the change was noticeable- but only to those closest to him. Perhaps there was a steel in his eyes that hadn’t been there before. A cold resolve that could have never existed had Madara’s flame not been snuffed out.

He wasn’t lying, when he said he’d do anything, kill anyone, to protect his village. His. Maybe Madara wasn’t even a memory by the time he left, everything stuffed into a mental box that wouldn’t crack open until his dying day. There’s probably a similar box holding Itama and Kawarama.

[globodamorte]

I hate that my neighborhood is being gentrified and is so noisy, smelly, and expensive. I hate that my parents are growing older and more tired. I hate that everything's getting so expensive I can't take the subway anymore. I hate that I'm so tired and in so much pain all the time. I hate that everything's so hard. I want to die.

[ixxivvv]

lads boys w they find out u used to "side hustle"

aka night work, bar girl, hostess, etc

(a horribly self indulgent, semi-vent, written by me, a hostess club girl).

- xavier: i dont think he would immediately put the pieces together, but every small thing would make sense all the sudden.

- would notice bc you used to leave ur apartment at like 7:30 pm and come back in a car late at night.

- from the way you raise your hand in a restaurant, to intimacy struggles, pessimistic and sarcasm like you were so tired. to the clothes you liked or seemed to put him up.

- maybe he wouldn't even know what any of those kind of places are or do. he just fears its sexual, which, sure no judgement but.

- it makes him protective and possessive of you. which, you hated at first but you knew he meant well.

- zayne: he worries first about your mental health or development.

- he did see "alcohol: 1-6 at a time, not daily" on your records, or made sure your physical wellbeing was well.

- he still worrys about your mental health: but you assure him you feel safe with him. you are just ashamed or embarrassed for being you.

- he does see you different and you feared he might want time off after you tell him.

- instead, he treats you like something so fragile- feeding you sweets, asking if you need anything, making sure you "rest" at all times. it makes you feel ashamed- but you were lucky to be with him.

- rafayel: open to it, being an artist/model or so handsome.

- "really? given the way i dress.. i actually get asked a lot if i wanna be like, a host boy. i mean, same kind of tabloids."

- i think because he knows how fake those clubs can be, to you think you fake laughed or acted loud or fawned for some overrated moët chandon, he views you in a new light.

- but it adds to your strength or beauty. how hes all yours.

- suddenly asks your favorite kind of fancy drink. you surprise him that it is something cheap. but he wants to buy it and display the case out.

- relieved you weren't the "ig model! cash! yacht trips!" kind but just a girl that did it for money you needed at the time.

- makes sure you are never seen by tabloids.

- sylus: was forced or invited by other groups into a club- hated it but was popular with the ladies.

- he knows a few rival groups that organize clubs or bars for a source of income. but he dosen't allow it for omnicytus members out of respect, an industry of vulnerability, exploitation for a quick buck.

- so when he finds out, he isnt surprised- but he finds a new found confidence that you, someone so pretty yet out of reach, is all sweet and proper for his eyes only.

- no wonder you suit the dresses he bought you. no wonder you could style your hair up so pretty. no wonder you could walk in pin red bottoms. it just made sense.

- he wants to gift you all the gifts and drinks, but he also wants to see you with flowers or sweaters, all the plushies and most of all, he melts with your genuine smile.

- both of you being night owls, scheduling is easy or hard depending on each others work load.

- caleb: oh... as much as i am a caleb girl, hes the most messiest 😭

- he kept tabs on you, being obsessed at all. but all your pieces in your story and maturing attitude made sense all the sudden.

- but hes the messiest and possessive, im talking crazy texting when you go out now.

- mentally ill to mentally ill, licking each others wounds and dependency.

- his job demands him a lot- inconsistent schedule includes night patrols or sudden calls. he would still text you safe.

- hed honestly need some time off, but he pledges you to keep you safe no matter what. his jealousy intensifies, but he understands hes your safe space. your only safe space. if you need a hug, youd let him. he becomes more addictive after you tell him the truth.

- you deserved the whole world but the world is so cruel. his desire to shelter you and provide for you. his meals had more love, he looked into you more.

[adanaac]

CANADAS TOKYO TRIP PART 1 (day 1 to 4)

HIII i was originally going to post photos day by day but i was always tired every day so like. tehepero or something

this was my first time going to japan!! and first time going overseas without my family (but with 2 other friends still!)

very long and very many pics so everything under the cut

also theres 2 parts bc i have too many pics for tumblrs image limit. see part 2 here.

Day 1 - Meiji Jingu Shrine + Tokyo Metropolitan Government Building

was fairly tired on day 1 bc the plane landed at 8am and we immediately started running around

first meal in japan was hamburg steak, first time trying it

they had free flow rice and soup and water which is crazy to me and honestly might be the best thing about japan and japanese restaurants. in china and sg they would be counting every cup of water u asked for and have it on ur final bill at like $3 per. shit is crazy

also i intended to take way more pictures with the little standee of my oc but i didnt want to lose it LOL was already trying to keep track of my phone/wallet/etc the entire time

meiji jingu is a fairly cool shrine! nothing to write home about, but it IS a lot of trees in the center of tokyo, and the huge toriis are really fun to see

as is standard fare for all shrines, they sell omamoris (1000 yen) and omikujis (100 yen)

i was intending to get an omamori since before the trip (just for the Vibes lol) but i only ended up getting one near the end of the trip haha

but i AM addicted to getting omikujis. god i love omikujis. any silly little omikuji give it to me

the tokyo metropolitan government building is really tall and has viewing decks at the top that u can see the skytree and tokyo tower from. my friend who planned the trip had us go there to see the sunset but tbh i dont really get the craze about seeing sunsets or seeing buildings light up at night

obligatory review of all the things abt japan everyone always talks abt: 

- the bidet toilets: theyre kinda scary LMAO i only used them once or twice bc i dont like things making noise where i cant see. but the heated seat is cool as hell its so cold in japan im born and bred singaporean used to 30°C weather. also the water level in the toilet is far too high why doesnt anyone ever talk about that? ALSO ALL THE TOILET PAPER IS 1 PLY WHY HAS NOBODY EVER MENTIONED THIS??? IS ALL TOILET PAPER IN AMERICA 1 PLY ALSO OR SOMETHING??? WHO LIVES LIKE THIS. WHATS THE POINT. HEATED TOILET SEAT BIDET BUT 1 PLY TOILET PAPER????? THE HORROR

- vending machines: theyre every 2 steps yeah. UNTIL. until you actually need one and then theyre nowhere to be found its so mysterious. i might be haunted by some youkai it would be on brand. theyre kinda on the expensive-ish side to me but its nice that (at least in tokyo) vending machines/shops are roughly the same price no matter where you go, so theyre not crazy upcharged at the airport or tourist spots (stuff is probably cheaper in less touristy parts of japan but i wouldnt know)

- trains: guys i might be pampered by singapores public transport. public transport in tokyo is like just okay to me. i hear about the peak hour rush but its like fine. and at least the dinnertime peak hour rush is actually limited to about an hour unlike in sg where the trains are impossibly cramped from 6pm to 11pm. also its kind of comical the amount of salarymen in suits and ties. its like a clown car but in black and white. like they werent kidding the salarymen can salarymen

this is also a super stupid and cliche thought i keep having, but its "ohhhhh i see why pokemon/super mario odyssey looks the way it looks now" (and also *goes into subway station* omg just like exit 8!)

suburbs in tokyo really are built in that very square style that lends itself very well to pixel art (a lot of buildings in tokyo especially further from the metropolitan area are very brutalist. very cool) and theres a lot of businesses that have a very small footprint but go upstairs

and the specific angles that roads and junctions are placed in tokyo immediately weirded me out in the exact way new donk city road angles weirded me out. im sure new york roads probably look like this too but i havent seen

Day 2 - Fukagawa Edo Museum + Senso-ji + Tokyo Skytree

ok i think by day 2 i was more in the mindset to enjoy things bc i got sleep

the friend who planned the trip had us get up by 8 every day ("like army" my mom says)

fukagawa edo museum was pretty cool! life size replicas of edo period japanese houses, youre allowed to take your shoes off and go in. museums are more relaxed about letting you touch than reddit would have had me believe, its fairly common to see interactive contraption bits with a sign like "you can turn this crank 3 times max" beside it

also they simulated day/night/weather cycles by closing shutters in the roof, very fun

also we went to a ramen place and got IMMEDIATELY clocked as chinese and the waitress started speaking chinese to us omg so embarrassing

senso-ji, the shopping street leading to it and asakusa in general might be one of my favorite places i went to. i knew OF senso-ji and asakusa prior, but i didnt realise they used the same kanji

if you paid attention in class (read all my ramblings on youkaigakkou-tl) you'll know that places called -ji or -dera are buddhist temples, and places called -jinja are shinto shrines. although in meiji jingu's case, "jingu" is the suffix, and refers specifically to high-status and/or imperial shrines. (meiji jingu worships empror meiji, from the late 1800s/early 1900s)

the shopping street is a lot of fun, i do love crowds when its open air. feels like home. also a lot of funny little toys to look at. i got a fox mask hehe

senso-ji is sort of the just-right combination of cool buildings + park + crowds that i like. also i got to see kaminari gate with the big red lantern! also the pot of incense that tamao and mujina put their faces in

went around the mall under the tokyo skytree for a while (didnt actually go up it bc too expensive) as a singaporean, a nice shopping mall is my natural habitat. love to look at things hate buying things

("wow minolta like from markiplier camera lens hyperfixation?")

didnt fully explore this place bc i was tired but We Will Be Back.

Day 3 - Urayasu City Folk Museum + Tokyo Metro Museum

Urayasu might be my favorite neighbourhood from the trip, was a noticeably more comfortable humidity for me and its all very open and countrysidey from being more on the outskirts of tokyo

this museum's another one with recreations of traditional japanese houses! and its abt coastal japan and the land reclamation to create that area

the metro museum's a metro museum, yknow. i think this would be massive for the train autismers, but its just regular big to me. i think the most interesting things were the tunnel bore and tunnel cross section. 

also if ur going to tokyo: BRING A STAMP BOOK (stamp as in the thing u ink and press on paper) or A5 sized notebook (or A4 might be even better, if u dont mind lugging it around) a lot of touristy places have stamps, and each subway station has its own stamp too. theyre generally about the size of a cup coaster? so youre going to want that big of paper at least. some museums also sell dedicated stamp books for you to get all the stamps at their museum, and sometimes theres a reward for getting all of them (this is mostly a thing to incentivise kids)

Day 4 - Tokyo Dome?? + Imperial Palace?? + Sumida Aquarium

this was kinda a weird day bc the original plan was to go to the amusement park at tokyo dome but we got there and all the rides were kinda kiddy and there was just 1 kinda okay roller coaster so we decided nah and just ate crepes there

and then i felt crazy so we walked to the imperial palace bc we actually hadnt planned a day to go there

(but then it was closed bc its closed on fridays)

went back to the skytree to see the aquarium! lots of jellyfish and penguins! i feel like ive seen these penguin relationship charts floating around social media for a bit, and i finally have context for them and got to see some of the penguins on it!

also my legs died. badly

CONTINUED IN PART 2 BC 30 IMAGE LIMIT!!!! I HAVE TOO MANY PICTURES 😭😭😭

[antlered-lycanthrope]

TMJ vent - tw talk of non-intentional starvation, malnutrition, death, and insurance denials

I think the way I end up dying will be from malnutrition tbh.

My damned mouth doesn’t work anymore. I can’t eat. It hurts so bad. My left jaw joint is dislocated, my right jaw joint always hurts from compensating so much but now it’s starting to go too. All four of my wisdom teeth are impacted, insurance refuses to pay, and I am disabled & unemployed with $30 to my name. My wisdom teeth are making my other teeth unaligned, making my TMJ even worse. My mouth hurts so bad that it hurts my head & neck. My left TMJ is so dislocated it puts pressure on my left ear, and now I’m having trouble hearing in that ear from all the pressure and pain in my ear. And ofc ear pressure and sudden hearing loss makes people disoriented and dizzy, so that adds onto my existing dizziness and bad spatial awareness. So I’m falling more often now. Im absolutely covered in bruises and I hit my head on things several times a day, i literally cannot tell where my body is in the world bc there’s uneven pressure in my head.

So… all of that constant teeth, jaw, head, and ear pain plus the fact that when I open my mouth bc of the dislocation it’s bone scraping on bone… means I can’t eat anymore. I’m eating less than the amount of food a person my size would eat in one sitting in my entire day. Every day. I’m always hungry now. It makes my stomach hurt, it makes my head hurt, it makes me more dizzy, it adds to my pre existing anemia, it makes me even more malnourished.

I have to take breaks to cry while I’m eating. It hurts that bad. I think I might actually end up dying if this goes on for yet another year. I now look sick. I’m pale now (my natural skintone is the “olive” Mediterranean skin), I have dark bags under my eyes, i bruise so easily, I’m cold all the time, I’ve lost 1/3 of my body weight in just a year and I do not exercise at all - I mostly stay in bed all day bc I’m too tired to move, the only exercise I get is PT. I’m exhausted and malnourished. My body in failing me in a dozen different ways. I’m deficient in iron, magnesium, potassium, calcium, sodium, and vitamin D - there may be more that’s just what I remember.

I’m passing out so often. I’m apparently having seizures again. I haven’t had a migraine-free day in months. My heart races with the tiniest movements. Im shaking and shivering all the time. I’m so cold even if im sweating. I’m thirsty no matter how much water i drink. My vision is almost always blurry and/or spinning. My blood pressure is so low that if I put my hand over my head for less than a minute it loses its color and I lose all feeling in it. My feet get swollen & purple and the veins in my feet like they could pop when I stand up bc my body is too weak for my heart to pump my blood enough so it ends up just pooling in my legs & feet.

IM TIRED. IM HUNGRY. IM COLD. I NEED MY FUCKING TEETH REMOVED.

I can’t do any treatment for my TMJ until my wisdom teeth are removed, but fucking Medicaid refuses to pay for it bc it’s “not necessary” FUCK YOU IT IS NECESSARY I CANT EAT ANYMORE IVE LOST FIFTY FUCKING LBS JUST LAYING IN BED ALL DAY EVERY DAY

[fogbreo]

you aren't insane enough, now tell me your favorite chapter in slay the princess and your favorite princess and your favorite ship 💥🔫 /silly

YOURE DISTRACTING ME FROM MY STUDIES /J

okay so. oohh its so hard to choose!!! fav chapter is definitely princess and the dragon with wild and adversary!fury as close second/third. i remember feeling tired of playing the game while trying to 100% it when i stumbled upon princess and the dragon and i perked up like a cat who saw a mouse pass by. its just so AUGH i love how the princess's pov is inverse to tlq's and i love the tlq body reveal and i love how i kept guessing who the voices were (i am. unfortunately a bit face blind but for voices even though i was 30 hours into the game by then) and i love how much potential this chapter has for anguish. what once was one became two then one again. OUGH 😭😭😭😭 theres SO MUCH yearning 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥 you can never be whole again 😂😂😂 no matter how hard you try 😂😂😂 some wounds can never be mended 😂😂😂 (im so normal)

(this is getting long oops sorry!!)

as for favorite princess hehe

ngl its hard to choose. i have three princesses in my top 1 🥹 hea, wild, and thorn 🥹🥹🥹 hea was soo heartwrenching. i had a visceral reaction to her. she reminded me so much of myself ngl. i still wish i could be free without fear of disappointment or abandonment by those i care about.

i also saw myself in wild though i saw herAA so as as being similar to smitten in hea. i saw myself in her want for harmony and peace even at the cost of burying negative feelings. her outbursts when that peace was threatened was so. Me. admitting this feels so damning but i Get it. i almost cried when i had to stab her for the 100% ngl

thorn. god im starting to sound like a broken record but i saw myself in her too. tbh relatability seems to be the largest factor for my attachment to a character 😔 her trust issues, her potential for spite, her "if im going down, youre going down with me" attitude, her Sadness 🥹🥹🥹🥹 god i love her. she was my definite top 1 fave princess and chapter before pristine cut (tbf i didnt play beyond one playthrough before pristine cut bc i didnt wanna repeat everything for the expansion)

as for favorite ship. um 🥹👉👈 i like burned bridges 😋😋😋 (massive understatement. i love them im so insane haha HAHA) sometimes i wish i got into the fandom earlier bc idk. it feels like most of the stuff ive seen of them are from early-mid year ago and i was into stp even then!! so idk it feels like i missed a train i wouldve loved goinf on 😔

or Not.. i didnt really like cold until the new fury and cage (broken says "buried pain is still pain" here so i was like Huh. That Reminds Me Of Cold /projecting) so i probably wouldnt have cared. in fact, i didnt even realize the enemies to lovers potential they had in burned grey UNTIL i got attached to cold (i was already attached to smitten) 😭 which is crazy tbh i love enemies to lovers

OH AND OF COURSE SHIFTING QUIET. I LOVE THEM THEYRE SO HEHE I LOVE SHIFTY I LOVE TLQ MWAH MWAH!!!! THEYRE SO PEAK 😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍

ok yeah thats it 😊😊😊 i hope my word vomit made sense!!

[rhytmrocket]

hey hey hey all! happy halloween and happy birthday to me, aaand happy last day of punchtober!! i decided to dump the prompts i’ve done today instead of tomorrow like i usually do because 1, i have rehearsal tomorrow and im gonna be so so tired after, and 2, i thought it’d be better to do it day of bc of the holiday and my birthday, so it’s cool

here are the rest of the prompts, then!

19, hoy quarlow

i'll start with some of the ones i've missed. hoy! uh, i don't think too much of this guy, he's kinda just scrangly grampa idk

20, childhood

this is kinda just a doodle i pulled out of my ass. i think if heike and dragon and narcis were friends when they were kids they'd play like this.

25, kabuki

kabuki i also don't think about very much. but, i know well what it's like to like a character that at most 2 other people feel the same way about, so i shall feed the kabuki fan (and the hoy fan) that i am still certain exists

now for this week!

28, knock out (and also 18, vulnerability but i didn't wanna start with this one so)

so this one's a bit different. i wrote something! in french, so that my poor writing skills can just be chocked up to not knowing french too well! translations will be in parentheses

[gabby has just beat joe in a boxing match. joe lies on the mat, ko'd] joe: « bon travaille! tu me battes! » (good job! you beat me!) gabby: « t’es bien? » (you ok?) joe: « ouais, mais un peu blessé. » (yeah, but a bit injured.) [gabby helps joe get up] gabby: « je n’ai jamais gagné un match auparavant.. » (i've never won a match before..) joe: « maintenant, tu as! » (now, you have!) gabby: « t’as gagné des matchs auparavant, oui?— » (you've won matches before, right?) joe: « euh.. » gabby: « vraiment?! tu n’as jamais gagné?! » (really?! you've never won!?) joe: « non, pas un match vrai. vous élèves, je vous battes car je suis votre coach, mais dans le wvba… » (no, not a real match. you students, i beat you because i'm your coach, but in the wvba...) gabby: « tu n’as jamais gagné. » (you've never won.) joe: « encore! je n’ai pas encore gagné! je crois que je peux gagner! …éventuellement… » (yet! i haven't won yet! i believe that i can win! ... eventually...)

yeah, uh, sorry if the french isn't that great. still learning, yk

29, alice and ape iii (and technically 31, halloween but i have another one for 31)

theyre silly :3 they'd dress up as eachother i believe

30, frank jr

crying i didn't have much of an idea for him. but i do think it is a rare moment when he has a thought

and finally*, 31, halloween!

decided to go back to my roots and draw mahou again! and clown, cuz hes my silly :333 so, i drew them, my two blorbos, dressing up as each other because ermm its my birthday and i can do what i want

so that's it, right?

*oh, this asterisk. the only prompt i haven't done yet is 14, paparazzi. and that's because i want to do an edit for it. but, i haven't had the freetime and motivation this month to make it happen. so, that will come at a later date. can't guarantee when or how soon, but i swear that it'll be a thing. éventuellement.

[stupid-and-cute-are-enough]

it WAS 1:30 am and now i've got finals in mere hours so obviously this is how i should be spending my time. behold: screaming and crying publicly over @get-rammed's montgomery gator doodles

starting off STRONG with this beauty:

THE FULL-BODY HUG???? THE SKIN ON SKIN CONTACT??? one thing you MUST know about me is that i am WEAK for when the bigger partner wraps themselves around their s/o WEAK I SAY

(also monty's nose????? it's absolutely darling and so perfect for his lil face)

KEEPING ON THEME WITH WERE-MONTY

specifically the face................ he looks so dejected...................so tired................ so sad...................baby has had a ROUGH night and i desperately want them to be better 😭😭😭 (the HAND HOLD???? THE TEAR STAINS??? AUGHH)

we already KNOW how i feel about this one after all i'm that motherfucker who was so consumed by this doodle that i asked ram if i could clean it up and otherwise go insane over it we already KNOW that this doodle has me on my fucking KNEES

again THE FULL BODY HOLD??????? THE SAD EYES???? HE HOLDS ONTO THEM LIKE THEYRE SOMETHING PRECIOUS 😭 monty is trapped in a life he pretty much hates and they've gotta be one of his only sources of comfort 😭😭😭😭 i imagine the anon has to pull wayyy more hours once monty becomes a glamrock so they're constantly exhausted but desperately wants to be there for their struggling friend and vice versa for monty (and how pissed monty must get w/the virus bc why the fuck should he feel bad for them when it's HIS life that got screwed over?)

everything i just said applies to this one too except with more melancholy bc it feels like when you have to wait for your loved one to fall asleep so you can slip away quietly (but, of course, monty is holding on, so he'll be disappointed sooner rather than later)

:(

MOVING FUCKING ON TO THIS NEXT ONE OHHHH MY GOD YOU GUYS PREPARE YOURSELF

THE SNOOT RUBS???? THE HAND ON ANON'S CHEST???? THE BLUSH????? THE WAY HE RUFFLES HOW OWN HAIR 😭😭 GIVE IT BACK!!!!!!!!!!!! GIVE IT BACK RIGHT NOW!!!!!!!!!!!! I AM GOING TO BEAT UP MR. FAZBEAR ENTERTAINMENT HIMSELF GIVE MONTY HIS HAIR BACK!!!!!!

but seriously this one is just SO cute 😭 gator golf monty were such simpler times and it DESTROYS me knowing where they go from here :( ik both of them heal together in the end but they hurt so much between those two points AUGHH THEY DONT DESERVE IT 😭😭

GOING BACK TO WERE-MONTY

THE SHIRT??? THE SKIN-ON-SKIN CONTACT???? literally what else is there to say i rest my case moving on

THE CASUAL INTIMACY????? THE SKIN ON SKIN????? THE ANONS SILLY LIL SMILE AND ALL THE LOVE BITES?? look im down bad for monty as much as everyone else here but good LORD there's something so tender about non-sexual touch (esp with minimal clothing) 😭😭 its so special to me............. they're so happy to have each other i am ILL

iconic

SCREAMING AND CRYING THEY'RE SO SILLY TOGETHER!!!! LET THEM BE SILLY AGAIN THEY DESERVE IT!!!!

look at them they're up to MISCHIEF they're up to NO GOOD <3 and freddy is RAPIDLY APPROACHING (side note SWEETS??? 😭😭 i love all of monty's nicknames but something about "sweets" makes me AUGH................. it's so cute...............)

BONUS:

MORGAN <333333 WHAT A MASSIVE W TO TRANS-MASCS EVERYWHERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! wouldn't wanna be represented by ANYONE else

feddy <3

last but not least the comment i left (with my user and pfp blocked out bc you don't get to know me like that) on part one of project starlight that strikes fear into me to this very day. ignore my spelling mistakes i was going through it

i would've also grabbed a screenshot of the monty plush bc i feel special every time i look at one bc ram thought my comic was cool and it instantly became a core memory but this post has taken LONG ENOUGH!!! SLAP A SHIPPING LABEL ON THIS BITCH AND SEND IT OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[sugar-omi]

Can you imagine what partner/group projects would be like with the Cove and MC in school?? (Ignoring the indifferent route) At school Cove sticks to the MC’s side like glue so imagine whenever the teacher announces that the class has to partner up or choose group members to do a project Cove just SPRINTS to stand beside you and grabs your hand to ask if you can work together (In step 1 I can just see Cove side eyeing any other group members that he has to work with) But also if the teachers like “Oh but you can’t choose who you work with it’s assigned” poor Cove will just complain to you the entire time if you end up not being able to work together, he’s all pouty like >:(

well if its in step 2, you get things done

not without lots of joking and daydreaming, but it gets done eventually

whereas in step 3, dating or crush, there's lots of flirting n hushed giggles.... like nothing gets done LMAO

either way (although especially in step 3) teachers get tired of your shit and decide to assign partners just to get everyone to socialize with others n blah blah blah

(i can barely say this bc i hate it sm!!! i was and am very shy so teachers forcing me outta my bubble had me fucked.... yes im traumatized jus thinking abt it omg i hate teachers, they think they know what theyre doing but this is a lot more damaging than they think ANYWAY MOVING ON OKOK)

cove will fret abt it the whole day, is dreading doing the assignment bc they wanna do it with you and not some stranger or some mean/rowdy classmate

omg during step 1 he's so clingy too, starts moving towards you for any group or pair assignment

at some point snaps abt how its ridiculous they're forcing him to be friends with other kids bc he doesn't like them like that n they don't like him like that and why force a shy kid to do smth they dont want.....

yeah your parents have to keep going to school to talk w the teacher abt this, its tough

by step 3 he can put up with it, but he's texting you like the whole time or getting ready to see you and if his group mates complain its "i did my part of the assignment."

can't even complain bc he did it and he did it right

when you do work together it's the most coordinated shit ever

somehow, even between lots of goofing around and a bit of flirting it gets done on time and if you have to present its done right

you're coordinated, n like a oiled machine

like i said cove takes on whatever you can't

i saw a post, cant rmbr if it was a tweet or a tiktok but he's the type that can't speak up bc they got his order wrong but will go ask the waiter for sauce for you

if its for the same class n assignment, you'll go look for the books n stuff you need together at least

and if you can work on it at home, you will put your parts of the assignment for your group together before you turn it in

omg especially in step 3 he acts like its the end of the world istg he's so dramatic

afterwards will fall over you n is like "omg we barely made it"

like bro. you had to play *insert bullshit gym activity* with another person for like 30 mins more or less CALM DOWN

just comfort him a bit n play along w his exaggeration n its okay <3

[sleepyycapybara]

You guys forget that Jason was raised by wolves, and I absolutely love the idea that sometimes he forgets its weird to like, umm idk like bite people, wolf behavior in public.

Anyway story❤

Valgrace (Jason x leo)

Little bit of kissing

Swearing

Jason with wolfy behavior and its a little

weird sometimes

Hope you enjoy❤

Leo's pov

I was just cooking dinner for Jason and I when I cut my finger on a knife

"Ouch, fuck.."

Jason walks in

"What's wrong babe?"

"Oh I just cut my finger, that's all."

Jason comes up to see the cut and licks the wound

"I'm going to clean this its pretty deep." Jason mumbles

"Babe what are you doing?"

Jason snaps back into focus

"Oops sorry I forgot..."

I giggle while he leads me to the sink to wash my cut out, still embarrassed

"Your so cute when your flustered, its really no big deal im used to it now."

Jason rinsed out the cut with water while blushing a little he puts a bandaid on after he dries my hand

"Be more careful, love I don't want you hurt."

"I will be careful, my love."

Jason kisses my head before heading out into the living room

Jason's pov

(Ahh fuck, I did it again im so embarrassed)

"LOVE DINER IS READY!" Leo yells from the kitchen

"Im coming!" I shout back

I walk into the kitchen to see my favorite dinner, Leo's specialty, tacos.

"Baby this looks so good, you have to teach me how to make it sometime.'

"Maybe later im too tired rn."

We finish dinner talking about our day

"But my favorite part of the day has to be...you Jason, you made my day. Whenever you behave like a wolf its just so adorable.

"Aww baby your too sweet."

*time skip they are watching a movie

Leo's pov

"I love you Jason.."

"I love you too babe."

My eyes flicker down to his lips, before I even knew what was happening Jason kissed me

Jason after the kiss nuzzled my neck affectionately and we fell asleep on the couch.

The end im sorry was a bit rushed made this at like 1:30 am bc I couldn't sleep I hope you enjoyed❤❤❤

Btw if u saw a mistake, no u didn't👀

[shinnyshining]

Tomorrow is the first day of school hope it goes well here, Im kinda nervous with lots of things but, I think I will bury them inside my studies and when I feel tired from it, I want to just draw

it would br nice to make friends too but Im not in a mood to go outside and hangout after school since the place Im living is 1 and a half hour away with train

I would like to socialize more when I move out to an apartment closer to school IF I CAN FIND ONE ehem. This isnt about apart hunting rn

But heey if I pick a thing or two about learning japanese fast I’ll let yall know :3

My period is apparently 1:30 pm to 5:pm which timezone vise don’t change anything to anyone here but its pretty mid for me, on one hand Im happy bcs the ride to school is long and I can get my sleep

On the other I wanted to have some time to explore places since after 6 om it basically goes pitch black here and again my place is far away

But the again ,back to the initial side, I think a distraction to everything going on would be great for me esp the distraction being school work would be two birds with one stone since I am not the most hard working student ever

My resolution for October is to finish OCtober and Cosplay Soul on Halloween lol

Also finding an apartment and not screw up school

Also not spending all my money on trinkets and eat pasta for a month

MY BAG!!

[vermillionvillage]

sif or fret, any & all pronouns (it/its are my favorite). minor. this is my roblox sideblog where i will go roblox mode

i joined roblox in 2016 but had been playing as a guest for a year or 2 longer before then. spent like 99% of my early years on roblox roleplaying on various animal games, shoutout to warrior cats: forest territory, lion rp & like Every wolves life

games i play the most are:

block tales, regretevator, something evil will happen, loft tower 2, project: rusher, & pressure

i also tend to play forsaken, phighting, combat initiation, grace, etc. these i’m on less either bc im a more casual player or i don’t often play w/o one of my friends with me cause i get nervous in public servers

i love block tales so so much my favorite characters are kyoko, calypso, player & hatred i love seeing pictures of them and injecting them directly into my head . Thankyou. Yay

game stat and completionist bullshits under the cut

welcome to the part of the post where i am insane

block tales:

91 hours (81 main, 7 hard mode, 2 hell mode)

main file: caught up @ demo4 at lv. 18, 105/135 items, 73/73 cards, highest pit floor 48 (i hate you fear+guardian combo). both current secret bosses defeated.

…i have 62 defeats on hatred on this one . i fight it when im bored

hard mode: currently beginning of demo4 at lv. 12, 42/135 items, 30/73 cards, havent done pit nor secret bosses on this file yet.

hell mode: haven’t even defeated cruel king yet u_u, lv. 6, 16/135 items, 18/73 cards. you couldn’t pay me to do the pit or secret bosses on this file.

regretevator:

3,685 floors, 27/38 floppies, 84/96 badges.

i miss u mach

project: rusher:

rating of 1105! 100% on one way street & aeronautica. i have a 98% or 99% on like genuinely almost every other song but they call me the 1 good note wonder. i’m losing my fucking marbles.

more l8r im tired

[ninkanoskovic]

FAILURE - YET AGAIN or how I deserve the anger, you know what I mean?

so I was coming up with m glow up plan, right

was so into it that stayed up planning it until 2:30am.. maybe bit longer.

so already at that point the anger was growing in me. what the heck that is so counterproductive.

anyways, was so into it i jus HAD TO FINISH. I was thinking there is no point if crying over spilled milk now, is there?

i already knew in my head that I will be angry at myself because I wont be able to wake up at a reasonable hour.

I had had booked a seminar for 1pm. Eaaaasy.

Uhm, unless the sound travels ariund the house. and all the other parts/souls of the household were living their life from reasonable hour. 6:30-7ish am.

then again at 10am. i was so grumpy. so fricking upset i couldn’t sleep, my mind had already started functioning- imagining, thinking, planning…

i put on an eye mask, you know the sleep mask, so it had gotten dark again and woke up when?! 1PM!!!!

I was like, ok, I love myself, because that is what you’re supposed to do. (why am I making it so hard for myself is beyond me though).

I still can have a lovely and productive day, especially now, that my body doesn’t hurt as it did around 10am. I can go and be proud active citizen, attend an anti government gathering bc they(govnmt) are tying us to Russia, go to work to get things (move from one location to other) as I planned to do prior to the quiet protest.

Then finally post a first blog. Something. Anything.

the gf I was supposed to go with cancelled on me, and I found out only because I texted her around 3pm

At least I did some stretching and mobility. The one positive thing. And cleaned kitchen. Then all of a sudden it’s 4. I’d need to get the 4:12pm bus to get to the capital.

I stayed at home. Done nothing scrolling. I thought that maybe I didn’t go, but at least I’ll do some work. Exercise on the stationary bike, mask on the face, cold shower. But all of a sudden it was almost 6, I haven’t moved for the past hour, it was basically dark out and at this point it’s pointless to exercise, have a cold shower and eat because it would only awaken me more.

this is the trouble with how much we know, we know so much, we can predict consequences out of every breath we take.

Oh no, this will affect my sleep, then it affect my mood, that will affect the day, the productivity. This I can’t do because …and there goes list in my head.

I’m basically tired of knowing. I’m tired of trying. The more I try the more I am upset because I fuck up. Why I cant rely on myself.

I go to sleep and I am tired, but during falling asleep there is arose of energy from somewhere within me and all of a sudden its 2 am again. I cant break through circle.

So I went out, to take the walk I had planned on do at 3pm/4pm ish… and yesterday I watched the video of this girl: 

 https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=KtX10eOs6T4&list=WL&index=1&pp=gAQBiAQB

and the thoughts are great I believe in it but in this moment, of being filled with anger and regret I knew that I was supposed ti go sleep earlier, I knew what I should have done and then there is the knowledge. And the fact that breathe in and out, past is in the past you can’t change that. But the anger with myself oh I wanna be angry, I deserve the anger, you know what I mean?

When you as a kid were behaving badly yiu were punished or did not do what you were meant to do.

I was walking and I wanted to kick things and cry and scream, WHY AM I LIKE THIS

why i cant follow up on plans

“everything is happening for ny higher good and reason”

well fuck that!

in this society and current age I wanna be perfect! and now! I saw this videos, millions of them actually, and I know what I should or shouldn’t be doing to be successful and I planned it, so where’s the EXECUTION??!?!?!

I’m already scared of how Im going to be dissatisfied with myself tomorrow again.

How i wont be able to follow up on all my plans.

I need help😭

[violentdelightsandviolentends]

literally dropping in here to rant, so feel free to ignore!! omg girl, school is literally kicking my ass rn. its currently 1:20 am and i have my neuroscience final tmr at 4:30 and i've only gotten through reviewing two units bc theres just so much information. and when i was studying in the library earlier, there were so many people and everyone was talking SO LOUDLY! like please, its a library, do yall not have finals that you need to be studying for?? and that just stressed me out so much more, i was on the verge of tears. so then i went to this study thing w my friends, and one friend gets it bc shes also stressed out of her mind, but my other two friends arent really worried for their finals, so they were just kinda nonchalant about studying, which was kinda frustrating bc they kept asking me to go walk around with them. and im like queens, as much as i would love to, i literally cannot afford that right now. and then they were talking about what they were doing before my stressed friend and i were like hey can we leave we are so tired and need to go home, and they were like 'well yall couldve joined us' and atp i was getting pissed off bc we have had a long day and have done nothing but study and they didnt seem to get that. to me, the least they couldve done was be like fake sympathetic. anyway, i was like well actually we couldnt because some of us have hard classes that require a lot of review for finals. and they were like well, you still couldve taken a break. like girl i havent taken a break all day and im still nowhere near being done with studying. idk im just very frustrated and stressed out and needed to get this out before i actually blow up on them. hope you are doing well queen!! - from a very stressed, very tired, and starved 🏁 anon

omg hi babe. hope you’re looking after yourself!! remember, your brain needs food and water and sleep to function properly. that’s all part of preparing for an exam too!!

let me know how you think it went!! wishing you all the luck in the world. you’ll smash it <3

having friends who don’t have the same work ethic as you is really exhausting actually. I had the same situation when I was getting my degree, and it’s tough. it sometimes really does feel like you’re fighting an uphill battle, and sometimes like you’re the only one that actually cares to do well. you just have to get your head down and do what’s best for you. if that upsets people, so be it. it’s your future after all <3

you’re stressed and exhausted because you care so much about your education. and that is something to be very, very proud of. I promise you.

you know where I am if you need me. sending you all the luck and positive energy <3

[forgetful-storytellerr]

Also hi this is sky sideblog im here to ramble. Moght diapear for months at a time might reapear obsessively we shall see. I do draw so if i have any sky kids i will offer them up to the tumblr void. My sky kid doesnt rlly have a main look but i have several favorite items and i like bright colors. Its 1:30 am so i am going to go to bed bc im tired and i have to customer service tomorrow wish me luck in the abysssssssssssssssaas hisss snake noises

[hyenadon]

woke up at 2:30 yday sent an email to my managers wish I could fall back asleep but i'm thinking abt a few things

1) my mom (not my biomom, my real mom) realized she might be autistic and i'm like. yeah. yes. we've been telling you. Babe. No shit. I've known you since I was like 13 or 14 and you've been so deeply autistic that whole time. Babes. Hon. Being super good at masking doesn't make you not autistic. You're just good at masking. MOM YOU ARE SO AUTISTIC. MOM. YOU CRY AT NOISES. MOM. MOM. MUMMA. YOU ARE SO INCREDIBLY AUTISTIC. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH, MUMMA GIRAFFE. YOU ARE AUTISTIC. YA DUMMY. I LOVE YOU.

2) people tend to not believe me when I say I might be autistic or have adhd but I really have been doing the research. I've done my raads-r, ive done my cat-q. I've also talked to multiple liscened therapists and theyve said like "hmnnnn sounds like adhd or autism" And along with that it seems that I have a *lot* of the comorbidities that show up with autism. I have tummy issues, I have recently discovered that I have FUCKING GOD DAMN SEIZURES, maybe epilepsy, And my mom, who is a literal goddamn autism researcher, said "yeah that happens a lot with autism". And my biological parents have heard me describe how I feel about like, eye contact, and communication, and always feeling like i'm not communicating Good Enough, and my BIOLOGICAL PARENTS. the worst people on the earth. The folks that don't *listen* at all. Even they have said "are you sure you aren't autistic?" like. if even THEY can notice that I might be autistic, I feel like that's enough.

i'm tired of talking about how autistic I am but just like a reminder about how I genuinely might have epilepsy- in the past month both times i've felt this weird have been right when theres been a thunderstorm or a tornado and everyone I know who has migraines or seizures tells me that thunderstorms are a huge affector.

also I think i'm having super quick hallucinations. They are very easy to dismiss and toss away as not-real, but like. god I need to get to a doctor as soon as possible. i am seizing. i'm puking so hard my nose starts bleeding. i'm motherfucking hallucinating. thats not okay. (at least the hallucinations aren't super scary. Last one, a few minutes ago, was a gianr tarantula crawling across my windowsill, and I stared at it and thought to myself "that is not real".) but heres the thing. It's still scary even though I know its not real. it's scary *because* its not real.

and my dog can smell it too, i'm pretty sure. No, i'm very sure. Koda has done this a few times before, she starts chewing on my hands, nosing at my face, nipping at me, whining, yelping. And it's only been in the summer, during a storm, during a time of stress. All of the symptoms are there and Koda knows them.

it just uhm. fucking blows. bc Im p sure i fit every diagnostic criteria for epilepsy and then most criteria for autism or adhd. i can deal w the autism or adhd but the epilepsy....i feel so sick lately and I keep snapping in and out of concuousness wnd falling asleep in the middle of sentences its not ok i need to se doctor so soon anywau goodnnitut