#better for Athena to call and surprise Buck with his ex

[o0anapher0o]

I kinda want Athena to be the one who calls Tommy for help.

Mostly I just don't want Buck to be another person who only calls Tommy when they need something from him, especially while Buck is currently the one who needs to make the first step to reconciliation. I want Buck to be the exception in how he treats Tommy the same way Tommy has been the exception in how he treats Buck.

[apollabarnes]

part two

thanks to @beanarie and @fiyaerrigan for cheerleading for more — hopefully this scratches that itch!

tommy's not sure how it happens, but he and athena start grabbing food once a week. sometimes it's dinner, sometimes breakfast, rarely it's lunch. they're both shift workers, so the changing schedule doesn't bother him.

it means that he has to keep going to the meetings, but… it's not so bad. if he talks, he talks around evan, because athena is close to evan and there's some things that she probably doesn't want to know. it's not as if he doesn't have a whole lifetime's worth of bad relationships to talk about.

he doesn't mention abby by name, either — that's a whole confusing mess that he just doesn't want to get into it with a member of evan's extended family.

mostly he listens, remembers, tries to use some of the reframing that they suggest.

"my dad was a real shithead," tommy says one night when he's halfway through a stack of waffles. "joining the army was just a way to get away from him."

athena makes an understanding noise, snapping her bacon in half.

they've both learned that if she talks, tommy's likely to clam up and drop the subject.

"he wrapped the car around a tree three years into my deployment," tommy continues. there had been a whole thing involving bereavement leave and a hardship transfer stateside because his mom couldn't cope afterwards. he doesn't like remembering that part, either. "it's probably the best thing he ever did with his life." tommy's still not sure whether he means killing himself or doing it in a way that meant no one else got hurt. the damage was limited to tommy and his mother, but that's been a hell of a shadow to deal with.

"i've met a few of those," athena says, after a pause to make sure tommy didn't want to add anything else.

"i'm not surprised." tommy methodically cuts a waffle along every raised imprint, popping a square into his mouth.

it's kind of like having a sponsor, he guesses. if that was something the family groups actually did. athena tells tommy how may's classes are going, that harry wants to stick around for college after he graduates. she tells him about a fire at an animal shelter that bobby had dealt with, and that buck — evan — had fostered a dog for a few days.

tommy wonders how that worked. evan had told him about hoover one night over dinner.

athena pauses mid-sentence and tommy stops her from apologising. "i can hear his name, it's fine." he's not sure how to explain that he's managed to… silo off evan from buck. evan is his ex. buck is one of athena's coworkers. hearing about buck doesn't make tommy sad, because he never really spent time with buck.

she gives him what he's dubbed the maurice stare. (he saw it a lot in the six months between bobby arriving and transferring to harbour. sees it more now.) but tommy is unflappable and therefore not bothered by it.

the standoff is broken by her phone buzzing. "that's my ride," athena tells him. "my car's in for service."

"i could have given you a ride," tommy offers before he can think better of it. "you didn't have to call an uber."

"that's cute, but i called my husband."

tommy breathes in. doesn't react. can feel the tension coiling around the base of his spine. "tell bobby…"

"he's not coming in, tommy," athena reassures him. "i told him i was grabbing food with someone from work."

tommy thinks about that. they're not in front of the windows, and his back is towards the door. the chances of bobby seeing or recognizing him are definitely lower than they would be if tommy showed up in his truck to drop athena off. and if bobby looks around the parking lot, well, how many grey trucks are in los angeles?

he'd still prefer the drop-off option.

"it's not like you need to keep this a secret," tommy says instead, even though every fiber of his being is screaming that he doesn't want anyone to know. that he doesn't want bobby, specifically, to know, because once he knows it's only a matter of time before the rest of the firehouse finds out.

"of course i don't, tommy. same time next week."

part one // part three

[lyricfulloflight]

I am super nervous for the next season of 911. Like I don’t dislike Tommy but I also don’t like super love him either and I. Am. Nervous.

I agree with you about Tommy - I'm relatively neutral about him as a character.

I also don't tend to be someone who makes predictions much at all - I'd rather just be surprised.

I will say though, the fact that there has been little said about Tommy and little promotion of the Buck x Tommy pairing (it has been mentioned, but not as much as Buck and Eddie's friendship/relationship), makes me lean toward the belief that Buck x Tommy is likely short term.

But, as a Buddie shipper I am also aware that I could just be seeing what I'd really like to see in the promotional material we've had so far... shrugs.

I am excited about a lot of other things for this season though!

Seeing how the 118 manages with Gerrard (don't want him around for long, but interested to see how this affects all the characters and how they, hopefully, lean on each other to cope)

I want to see calls again! And the 118 working as a team during emergencies.

I want to see silly chatter in the fire engine and family meals!

I want ridiculous calls, and weird calls, and humorous calls!

They've been open about Eddie going on journey to discover himself, who he is without Chris, just as 'Eddie,' and I am so here for that!

I want some sweet moments between Hen and Karen and Chim and Maddie as the navigate the situation with Mara

I am honestly kind of thrilled with the whole 'bee-nado' situation because it is so implausible that it makes me giggle, but the fall out has so much potential for drama and action

Bobby as a technical advisor on 'Hot Shots' has so much comedy potential and I cannot wait to see it

That's a lot to be excited about I think!

One of the things I love about 911, is that yes, it brought me Buddie and I love them and I hope we are fortunate enough to get to watch them become canon. And that could possible happen this season.

But I don't love the show just because of Buddie.

I love all of the 118.

I love Chim and his devotion to Maddie and the power of their story, a story about finding a new love, building a better, stronger relationship with someone you truly love and trust and you loves and trusts and respect you back.

I love Hen and Karen and the endless pool of love they have for Denny, Mara and all the foster children who have come into their lives over the seasons. Those ladies have so much smarts between them they just knocked me over with it sometimes.

I love Bobby and his journey of redemption. The difficult path he has been walking to feel he actually deserves happiness in his life. I adore how he and Athena fell in love, and yet their past loves have never been dismissed, ignored or demeaned for their current love story.

(I will also miss the Bobby and Michael shenanigans -both the healthiest and yet most chaotic relationship between the 'new' husband and the ex-husband I have ever had the pleasure to witness).

Even though I don't always agree with Athena's choices, I would want her on my side, fighting beside be because that woman is fierce and she does not back down from a fight.

I love Eddie and his giant heart that he is always simultaneously giving freely to everyone and yet hiding away at every turn. As a fellow parent, I admire his amazing parenting skills and his trust and respect he has built with Christopher. If they aren't able to build back that trust in their relationship this season it will truly break my heart.

I left Buck for last, because he is my favourite. He has such a big heart and hardly any sense of self worth and all of that is wrapped up in this infectious energy that I simply cannot resist. I cannot wait to hear more Buck facts, his childlike energy about topics he's passionate about make me smile so much. I want the world for that man. (I also really enjoy him battered and bruised and covered in blood, but that says more about me that about Buck...)

In conclusion, I love 911!

Yes, I watch partly for Buddie, but I love the show as a whole. And I think we have a lot to look forward to, especially with a full season that, hopefully, won't feel rushed.

[littlerosetrove]

My initial Spoiler Thoughts for 8x11

Poor Ravi, no respect.  

So there has been a time jump. Maddie has a fresh scar, new hair color, and maybe longer hair too? Not sure how long a wound like that would take to scar, so idk I’m gonna guess 1-2 months time jump??

Oh look, Bobby and Athena not communicating about something. One thing never changes. 

“She’s your mother. Don’t you think it’s time you mended fences.” I know this is what 911 does, which is constantly have characters forgive or “mend fences” with shitty parents so this should not be surprising, but damn is it annoying. I’m tired of any media spouting this. Sometimes parents are shitty and kids are not bad people for not wanting them in their life. Granted, later, things do seem on better terms for Bobby and his mom, but honestly my point still stands. 

Oh look, we actually get to see the house being built. Finally, and damn it’s kinda big, and for what? It’s two people. 

Buck is SUCH an awkward turtle oh my god. Maddie says he needs to make friends, so he goes to Ravi who he’s basically ignored and overlooked for four years. Ravi keeps getting the short end of the stick. 

“Not you I trust.” WOOF. Ann deserves to have water splashed in her face for that one. What a low blow. 

TOMMY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Honestly, I’d pull the same move Ravi did if I were in his situation. “Is that Bucks ex boyfriend? Perfect! I can bail out of this kinda crappy hangout session.”

Not surprised Maddie is still feeling scared. I hope she goes to therapy or something, truly. 

AND THEN TOMMY AND BUCK FUCKED!!!!! 🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷 They’re so horny for each other.

Their chemistryyyy.

Buck has not been able to sleep at what is now his house that he rents until Tommy was there! Buck even slept really well AND the house didn’t feel like a home until Tommy was there. HELLO. 

Whaaat is up with Eddie. He was friends with Tommy before Buck and Tommy dated, so why the hell did Eddie just ghost Tommy. Saying Eddie didn’t want to betray idk some exes code or whatever is honestly bullshit. They were friends, and they’re both grown ass adults. Eddie could’ve absolutely remained friends with Tommy if he wanted to. 

Tommy clearly has missed Buck. He said he’s wanted to call over these past months and even drove by Bucks (old) apartment. Ahhhhhhh!!!

Tommy made Buck a wholeass breakfast. He just wants to take care of Buck. 🩷🩷🩷

Tommy and Buck still need to work on their communication. To me this is actually playing out as a standard romantic arc (now we’re all fully ignoring the bullshit “exit interviews”). They date, they break up literally because of some miscommunication and not communicating properly, now they’re in their pining era. Oh. These two will be working on getting back together - Buck wants to call - otherwise WHAT would have been the point of it all. I may have little to no faith in the writers, but I can’t see them doing all this just for them to not end up together. 

Tommy thought Eddie was competition? That would be fine if the show had set it up to look like that at all?? The only time this would’ve looked like “maybe Buck and Eddie could be a thing” in Tommy’s eyes was literally in 7x4, but nothing beyond that. Huh??

THANK YOU BUCK for outright saying “Eddie is straight, and no I’m not in love with him.” Oh that was for a very specific fanbase.  

Dude straight up tried to kill and bury his wife, only to turn around and die himself. KARMA!!

Aisha did such a great job directing this! No kidding, it all just felt and looked more lively and lived in?? I didn’t feel like any of the actors felt stiff or awkward at any time, which has been happening quite a bit in season 8. Please can she direct more episodes??? I did enjoy this one, thank goodness.

[justchillandshipit]

911 Summary/Thoughts Season 1 Episode 6- Heartbreaker

Caveat: I am up-to-date on all 911 episodes. For my reviews, I attempt to rewatch and remember my first impressions. I will occasionally, compare it to what I know now. I’ll try to warn of current spoilers when necessary.

Emergencies: The first emergency is a call for a woman who has a special thyroid condition that presents as a heart condition. She had her heart attack symptoms while in a Cessna. (The events triggering her attack started out as a surprise wedding proposal. The pilot faked plane trouble and put the proposal in the emergency landing instructions.

The second emergency, not including Buck, is a call from a man who believes he has broken his back. When they arrived, the owners were okay. The couple said they didn’t call. The woman was hiding something. She was cheating on her boyfriend with her ex-husband. He hurt himself jumping off the balcony to get away. It wasn't a broken back, and the call ended well.

Personal Stories/Getting to Know: Abby took the first emergency call and later helped the team from misdiagnosing her at the scene. It was a cute scene where she called Buck and passed information through him, and Buck gave her a play-by-play of how the wedding proposal ended. {The woman said yes and then slapped her new fiancé.} In this episode, the focus is on Valentine's Day and love. Abby is ready to move her relationship to the next level with Buck, but he is moving slowly because he’s afraid of ruining it. Buck also hates Valentine’s Day in general. He talks to Bobby about it, who admits that he usually loves the holiday. The conversation sparks memories of his wife whom he misses every day not just on Valentine's.

Chim also returns to the firehouse after recovering from the rebar through his skull. The gang gets him a creepy cake in the shape of his head with the rebar through it. At Chim’s welcome back party, Abby shows up at Buck’s invitation. It is the first time the rest of the gang meets her.

Athena does attend Chim’s party, but she works Valentine’s Day. She checks on a disturbance to find an unstable woman. At first, she doesn’t find anything amiss and feels sorry for the woman. She is kind to her, and the woman fixates on that kindness. Athena takes care of several disturbances as a police officer including a bad wreak. She ends up racing a transplant doctor to the hospital. She gets him there. He looks terrified the whole trip. Later, she is called back to the woman’s apartment. The woman’s behavior leads Athena to check the medicine cabinet to see if the woman might be taking something. She then spots blood in the shower. Before she can apprehend her, Athena finds the body of the boyfriend and the woman sneaks up on her with a gun. The woman is quite mad and believes that Athena has a good heart and that she can bring her boyfriend back to life as a better person by cutting out Athena’s heart and giving it to the man. Fortunately, Athena is able to distract and disarm her. Athena ends her night back home where the kids have left her Valentine’s Day cookies with a glass of wine and a note. It’s her first holiday without her husband.

Bobby ends his night by going to the hospital to check on Buck after he nearly choked to death during his date. Bobby and Abby meet again over his hospital bed and have a nice conversation. If I didn’t know how things worked out with Abby, I would have said that Abby and Bobby may have been a potential ship brewing.

Likes/Dislikes: The emergencies for this episode, not including Buck, were somewhat interesting. The first jump-started the episode so it was important, but overall, the emergencies were not exciting. I liked the interaction between the 118, Athena, and Abby. How the women came around Abby to get to know her and to subtly push Buck toward asking Abby out for Valentine’s Day. It was a nice, funny, and friendly scene.

I like Chim talking to Bobby at the party about how he got dumped after getting rebar through his skull and Buck ends up with ‘Abby.’ He asks, “What’s that kid got that I don’t” At the same time Buck bends over. He then says, “Forget I asked.”

I L.O.V.E.D. the Bobby and Buck scene where Bobby helps Buck with his tie and getting ready for his date. Buck continues to worry about ruining things with Abby and is afraid of having sex with her because he believes he is a sex addict. Bobby gives him advice about getting to know her before having sex. It is a serious conversation, but also fatherly, friendly, and caring. It was a great scene.

I loved the date night scene with Abby and Buck. She’s looking at him across the table and thinking how cute he is and then, as any self-respecting cougar would, she begins to panic. In her head, she’s thinking, “What if they ask for his I.D.? What if they ask for his and don’t ask for mine?” Bahahhahhaa. They spend a lot of the date thinking things in their heads. Buck thinks she looks pretty. He likes her hair. Then he tells himself to stop. He is not sleeping with her. She thinks she can see his muscles through his suit jacket. She says something to him and he gets choked on a piece of bread. She calls 9-1-1 but ends up doing a partial tracheotomy on him. (I loved that part a little less.)

Ships:

Hen/Karen Hen is in the episode, but Karen only gets a mention. Their ship didn’t sail much in this episode. They’re still in the dinghy.

Buck/Abby – Abby and Buck continue building on their ship. I’m starting to feel it. I believe their feelings are genuine, so I was surprised to get a little vibe between her and Bobby. *spoiler* That ship never sails. I’m glad of it.

Favorite quote from this episode:

No favorite quotes in this episode, but it was still a solid and fun episode.

[matan4il]

Buddie 510 meta

The first call starts with Buck and Eddie being their usual amazing battlefield boyfriends (and if I have contributed nothing else to the Buddie fandom, I contributed this term, I’m proud of it and love that others are using it, too), BUT what I particularly like in this case is that they pair up and start working together and in such perfect sync even before Bobby tells them to. It shows us that they’re truly meant to be partners! ~~~

The whole ep sets up the idea of personalized gift giving as a symbol of knowing people really well, or at least wanting to and being willing to make efforts to. It’s therefore also a symbol of closeness and emotional investment. And Buck? In that context, we see his intimacy with Taylor once again appearing somewhat off, since he says he finally understands his ex-roommate who would break up with girlfriends after Halloween (implying Buck has also felt, at least for a moment, a desire to break up with Taylor rather than shop for her). Then that’s followed by him hearing that Bobby got Athena an engagement ring for their first Xmas together, and Buck absolutely balks at the idea. Which, given the stage of their r/s, isn’t out of the ordinary, it’s the slightly too emphatic reaction that makes this moment feel like B/T are not even close to being the stuff that epic love stories, like Bathena’s, are made of.

And then we get this amazing contrast between Buck and Taylor on one hand, who clearly don’t know each other well enough and have no clue what to get their partner for Christmas, and the couple from the elevator call, who show their affection and their desire to be together by giving each other a gift for Xmas (this connection is emphasized by the fact it’s clear Buck is thinking of his own gift giving trouble during the call). What really stood out to me is that Melia paid so much attention to Marco even before getting together that she knew he’s constantly going to these concerts. And yeah, she missed the mark a bit because she didn’t know everything (i.e why he’s going to them), but it’s clear she was paying attention and wanted to get to know him, making B/T, as an established couple, pale in comparison. They both completely fail to find even one personalized idea for each other. Which is especially surprising given the ending of this mini arc: usually these stories show a partner being at a loss but then eventually pulling through and finding the perfect, most personalized gift imaginable, the one that shows they do know each other better than anyone else. Not in this case, since even at this story’s closure, Taylor still goes with the not-very-personal sweater, and while Buck’s gift is very much from the heart, it seems to be way more about him (as someone used to saving people) than about her. It’s still not a gift that shows a profound and intimate connection. Add the fact that this ep comes on the heels of 509, which in itself demonstrated that Buck doesn’t really know Taylor, so we witness they’ve not made any real progress as a couple, not even after her backstory was revealed. ~~~

Compare all that with Buddie in this ep: in the very next 118 scene we get after it’s made clear Buck is clueless when it comes to Taylor’s gift, he once again proves to be Eddie’s partner in real life as well as on the job, as they talk about Eddie’s concerns regarding Chris. The entire time, they’re framed by gifts (I just HAD to gif this), which were already established in connection to Buck as the symbol of knowing one’s partner (in fact, the scene starts with a close up shot on the gifts). This is highlighted by the fact that Buck proves to know Eddie and Chris’ life so intimately that he immediately offers an insight on why Xmas would be a time when Chris is struggling. In addition, clearly Eddie came to Buck right away and trusted him with the info about what he’s going through. In comparison, we see in this ep repeatedly how other people in Eddie’s life, even close ones, are kept in the dark until he has no choice but to share. Hen and Ravi didn’t know about Chris’ nightmares, Carla didn’t know about the kidnapping. The one person who knows everything Eddie’s going through, the one person Eddie CHOOSES repeatedly to confide in, is Buck. And to add to that, in this one brief scene he appears more willingly invested in his partner than in all the scenes where he’s trying to find a gift idea for his actual gf. ~~~

It’s a tiny moment, but when Hen doesn’t know where Eddie is, she asks Buck, just like how when the team didn’t know where Buck was, it was Eddie who had the answer. And I know it’s a split second moment, but given the ep’s theme of knowing your partner, I felt like it mattered that this is how they kicked off the closing sequence of the ep, with Eddie’s dramatic decision. ~~~

Which brings me to discuss the very structure of this ep. When it starts, it looks like Buck’s storyline for it will be all about Taylor and proving himself as a bf by choosing the right gift. So this should have been Buck’s emotional happy climax for the ep, but it wasn’t. Instead, we get him after that, still feeling somewhat melancholy when Hen asks him how he is (he says he’s fine, but we know what Buck sounds like when he’s actually happy and this ain’t it. Plus, remember his 403 confession to Maddie? He says he’s fine, he just wants to be… finer). That shows that his deeper emotional state is the one that caused him to cancel his and Taylor’s participation in Bathena’s Xmas party: he’s sad over a part of his family not being there and despite being in his first serious r/s during Xmas, that doesn’t quite fill the emotional pain he’s experiencing since Madney aren’t there. This perfectly leads to the real emotional climax of the ep: Eddie’s announcement that he’s leaving the 118. This is the one thing in Eddie’s life that Buck didn’t know about, pointing to its devastating effect that caused Eddie not to share about it until after he’s spoken to Bobby. After all, this ep starts with Buddie naturally gravitating to working together even before they’re instructed which (which they’ve done all along… Chim is still gone, the partnerships set up in 505 are still technically in effect, yet we’ve always seen Buddie together in all the following eps) and it ends with Buck hearing he’s losing his partner. It’s no coincidence that the first face the camera pans to right after Eddie speaks is Buck. This is another part of his family leaving and his most significant partnership being dissolved, this is the bigger story this ep is telling regarding Buck. I mean, we could have discovered Eddie's decision through Bobby’s POV, but by doing the reveal in this way, the show is telling us that that would not be as impactful as seeing it through Buck’s eyes. ~~~

Now I normally try to stay away from speculations, but we’re looking at maybe the biggest cliffhanger this fandom has known and 3 months of hiatus, so let me say: I absolutely don’t believe Eddie will be leaving the 118. Remember ep 505? Buck wanted to leave and Eddie was having none of that. That was a decision based on fears and so is Eddie’s. It feels bigger, because it’s the mid-season cliffhanger, but… remember 310’s cliffhanger with Michael’s tumor? That was arguably even more serious and could have had even more devastating repercussions for the firefam, but that’s not the direction the show took. It ended up being just one more challenge that needed to be faced, opening new opportunities (David), but not drastically changing the fate of the characters or their dynamics. A more likely possibility is Eddie turning into a paramedic, but… I also can’t see that TBH. Because in 506, when he was kidnapped, he was acting as Chim’s replacement, as a paramedic, meaning that role isn’t any safer than his current one. They could find Eddie a different first responder role, maybe something like dispatch, but that would separate him from the team completely, and I can’t see that happening, he’s too much of an integral part of the 118 team, which is the heart of the show. The most likely thing IMO is that this will be an opening for Eddie to talk more about what brought him to this decision, which the show IMO hinted at by having the shooting and the kidnapping both be brought up during Eddie’s talk with Carla. I can’t know any of this for sure, of course, but this is how I see things at the moment and why I’m not concerned…

The unbelievable @judsonryder​​, in addition to making all these amazing gifs for my meta (throughout all of season 3a, thank you SO MUCH!) also added to the poignancy of Buck’s heartache at the end of the ep with this incredible gifset, please check it out and give her some well deserved love! If you like my perspective on Buddie, you can find more of my meta and fics here. Thank you for any like, comment and of course reblog! These posts require a lot and it’s wonderful to see people enjoying them and sharing them with other! I will continue to post content during the hiatus, so please don’t hesitate to stop by and say hi! xoxox

[callmebrycelee]

9-1-1 REACTION

This reaction is for the season 6, eleventh episode "In Another Life" which originally aired March 13, 2023. This episode was written by Lyndsey Beaulieu and directed by Joaquín Sedillo & Jann Turner. Spoilers ahead!

***LAST TIME ON 9-1-1***Maddie and Chimney prepare for the arrival of Margaret and Phillip Buckley at their new home. Albert surprises Chimney when he brings their father all the way from Korea. Bobby investigates the death of his sponsor, Wendell, with the help of Athena and May. Buck gets struck by lightning while responding to an emergency. 

Now that we're all caught up, let's chat about episode eleven - IN ANOTHER LIFE.

We begin the episode at Maddie and Chimney's house. We see Maddie making tea and talking to her mother, Margaret Buckley (Dee Wallace). The latter offers to go shopping for flowers and plants with Maddie. It seems like she is really trying to have a better relationship with her daughter. Reading some of the comments on Reddit this evening, a lot of folks aren't into the whole parent redemption storyline. I don't mind it because it seems like Maddie and Chimney's primary motivation for bringing the families together is for their daughter to have grandparents. 

While Maddie goes to check on Jee-Yun. There's a knock at the door. Margaret goes to answer it and we don't immediately see who is there. Margaret calls out to Maddie and when Maddie comes to the door we see an officer. Maddie sheds her first tear of many in this episode when she asks him, "Which one?". Speaking of which one, we see the ambulance arrive at the hospital with Buck. Bobby, Chimney, Hen, and Eddie are working on Buck, trying to get a pulse which they get. Bobby tells the doctors that Buck is prone to having blood clots and that he has an allergy to naproxen. As they wheel Buck away, the rest of the 118 look beyond miserable. 

Title card (sort of)!

Buck wakes up in a hospital room. His doctor (Aaron Staton) tells him he fell off a ladder and hit his head even though Buck's memory tells him otherwise. Maddie arrives and she's sporting the cutest pigtails. She calls the doctor Daniel. Maddie is Buck's nurse? The doctor tells him he is free to go home. Maddie tells Buck about family dinner and he asks, "Whose family?"

Buck arrives home with Daniel (his doctor and also his older brother). Buck is fascinated to see his parents doting on him. We learn via Margaret and Phillip (Gregory Harrison) that Buck is a school teacher in this reality. It totally makes sense that someone like Buck, who has compassion for everyone, especially children (as evident through his relationship with Christopher Diaz). is a teacher. Buck, however, is shocked by this revelation. He then sees a toy ferris wheel which reminds him of the tsunami that hit the pier back in Season 3. We even hear Christopher's screams. Buck sits down to watch a game with his dad and older brother, Daniel. He seems content with his new reality.

In our next scene, Buck and Daniel arrive at Maddie's house. Buck sees a painting of a winterscape which reminds him of the time Maddie was abducted by her ex-husband and she ended up fighting for her life in Big Bear. We (and Buck) learn that in this reality Maddie has a daughter named Genevieve (Autumn James Hallisay) and Chimney is not the father. Turns out, even in this idyllic fantasy world, Maddie is married to Doug Kendall (Brian Hallisay). Buck, like me, is very confused. 

Back in the real world, Buck remains in critical condition and has been placed in a medically-induced coma. Maddie arrives at the hospital with Margaret and Phillip. Bobby tells them that the lightning strike sent Buck into cardiac arrest. Maddie sees Chimney and tells him she's worried about Buck. Chimney feels extremely guilty because it was supposed to be him on the ladder until Buck asked to swap places with him. 

Back in Buck's fantasy world, Doug is talking incessantly about being a surgeon. It appears that Doug Kendall is an asshole in any reality. Maddie seems annoyed and uncomfortable especially when Doug says her food was salty. Everyone goes into the living room to play cards giving Buck the opportunity to confront his sister. He asks her what she's doing with Doug and tells her that he's not a good guy. Maddie assures him everything is fine but Buck sees the bruises on her arms. She tells she had an accident but he's heard that line before. Maddie gets upset and walks away from him just as Daniel comes into the kitchen. When Buck asks him about Doug, Daniel seems oblivious although he encourages Buck to stay out of whatever's going on between Maddie and her husband. Buck asks Daniel if someone in a coma can have dreams but Daniel says he doesn't know. Bucks asks him if he can take him somewhere. 

Buck goes to see Chimney who doesn't recognize him. In this reality, Buck never became a firefighter so he never got to meet Chimney. Chimney shuts the door in Buck's face but decides to invite him inside when Buck says he knows the meaning behind his nickname. Naturally, we, the viewer, do not get to hear the meaning behind Howard Han's nickname. Well played, writers! Buck sees a toy firetruck which reminds him of being a firefighter. Chimney likens Buck's situation to the film It's a Wonderful Life which I should see at some point since it always seems to be in the cultural zeitgeist. Chimney believes that like the main character in the movie, Buck needs to learn a lesson in order to return to his real life. Buck thinks he needs to fix Maddie's issues and tells Chimney that Maddie is with him. Chimney asks him to leave and Buck decides he's going to go see Bobby. A dark look falls over Chimney's face. He tells Buck that Bobby died five years ago. Bobby Nash is dead. The news is enough to stop Buck's heart and he collapses on the floor. 

Back in the real world, Buck is having trouble breathing and Chimney calls for help.

In the next scene we see May talking with Athena. The former asks her mother about Bobby. Athena tells her that Bobby's not doing great and that he blames himself for what happened to Buck. May thinks that's ridiculous. It's not like Bobby has the power to control lightning. Athena reminds her that Bobby will always feel responsible for his team - especially Buck. May says she wishes there was something more she could do to help him. Athena believes that Bobby seeing her face will be enough. May worries that with Bobby dealing with the death of his sponsor, if something happens to Buck, it's gonna send him spiraling. I have the same worries, too, May. Buck's nurses and doctor (Ana Dela Cruz) arrive in his room. Back in the fantasy world, we meet Dream Hen who has been summoned by Dream Chimney to help Buck. In the real world, Chimney, Maragaret and Phillip watch as the doctors manage to stabilize Buck. Back in the fantasy world, Buck appears to be okay. 

In the hallway, Real Chimney talks to Albert and updates him on Buck. Chimney makes a comment about how it's easier handling your kid dying when you're a thousand miles away. This is clearly a dig at his father, Sang. Eddie and Real Hen arrive and the latter tells Chimney to go home and get some rest. Chimney points to Bobby who has been at Buck's bedside the entire time. 

Back in Buck's fantasy world, Dream Hen tells Buck about the plane crash (Season 1). Neither she nor Dream Chimney knew about Bobby's addiction prior to him dying. It makes sense. Back in Season 1, Buck tries to sneak a peek at Bobby's black book which causes the latter to lash out at Buck. It is Buck and Hen who head over to Bobby's apartment after he fails to show up for his shift at the firehouse. They find Bobby and this is where Bobby tells them about his drug and alcohol addiction. Bobby then asks them for help. Since Buck became a teacher, he never got to meet Bobby and therefore he never had a chance to intervene. Buck asks about Eddie and Chimney tells him that Eddie went off the deep end when he lost Christopher. It was at this moment that my heart stopped. Thankfully, Chimney quickly clarifies by saying that Christopher was taken by Eddie's parents. Because Bobby died, by the time Eddie showed up at the firehouse, there was a new captain. The new captain wasn't as accommodating as Bobby when it came to Eddie having a child with special needs. Oh, and because Buck never became a firefighter in this reality, he never met Abby (Connie Britton) which means he never met Carla Price which means he never got a chance to introduce Carla to Eddie and Christopher. 

Back in the real world, Carla (Cocoa Brown) brings Christopher to the ICU unit. While Carla distracts a nurse, Eddie sneaks Christopher in to see Buck. Poor Eddie looks so sad in this scene. Christopher tells Buck that he's going to be okay. He asks Buck to come back.

Meanwhile, Buck, Dream Hen, and Dream Chimney arrive at the hospital. Buck feels like he's running out of time. Dream Hen tells him that the hospital is connected to Buck.

We then see May bring Bobby food. She tells him to eat and Bobby teases her by saying she reminds him of a certain person. Bobby says there's no change in Buck. May says it must be hard not being able to do anything. She reminds him that her mom brought two kids to their marriage and Bobby brought one - Buck. May says that Buck is stubborn and that he will find his way back to them. She tells Bobby she loves him. I love their relationship so much. 

Buck's doctor tells the Buckleys they are gonna check to see if Buck can breathe on his own. They take him off the ventilator. Now it's up to Buck. Back in the fantasy world, Buck sees a toy plane. He has flashes of the plane crash from Season 1. Buck thinks he sees Bobby and goes after him. I thought it was cool how the hallway kept getting longer and longer. Buck finds Dream Bobby in a medical supply cabinet filled with drugs. Dream Bobby is serving some serious junkie realness. Buck thinks he's in purgatory. Dream Bobby tells him to relax and warns him that if things become too real in his dream world, he will end up getting stuck there. Dream Bobby sees the real Bobby in Buck's hospital room. Dream Bobby tells Buck he could be dying or he could be fighting for his life. He has to choose. Dream Bobby believes Buck can fix things. Buck says his parents never really saw him when he was growing up because they were too caught up in their grief over losing Daniel. For the first time, even if it isn't real, they are seeing him the way he has always wanted to be seen. 

Back in the real world, Bobby has his rosary in hand and is keeping a vigil over Buck. Athena arrives and tells him to take a break. Now that Athena is alone with Buck, she reminds him that he never gives up. She reminds him that Bobby has lost two children and won't survive losing him. She tells him to wake up.

Back in his fantasy world, Buck yells at Athena and tells her he's trying. I thought it was a nice Easter egg to show all of the pregnant women in this scene. It reminded me of the scene in Season 1 where a bunch of women in a yoga class all go into labor at the same time and Buck and Bobby have to deliver three babies. Dream Bobby reminds Buck that he can't fix everything. Buck tells him that he fixed the real Bobby. We get flashes of Buck and Bobby over the years. Dream Bobby reminds him that he is Buck and that's enough. He tells Buck to go and Buck starts running. He runs past Chimney and Christopher (who is looking for his dad) and his parents. When he gets to his room, he is stopped by Daniel who tells him he can't leave. Buck tells Daniel he loves him but he isn't real. Daniel blocks the door. Buck manages to get through the door but Daniel tells him it's too late. Buck sees himself in his hospital room being removed from the ventilator. His oxygen levels are dropping and if he doesn't take a breath, the doctors will have to reconnect him to the ventilator. Buck takes an axe and breaks the glass separating himself from the room. Daniel turns into Buck or as RuPaul would say, his inner-saboteur. Buck does manage to breathe on his own which releases him from his dream world. Buck regains consciousness and is told he needs to take two weeks off from doing any heavy lifting or rigorous work. The doctor tells him he has visitors and the entire 118 including so rando firefighters enter the room. Buck hugs Christopher.

We then see Buck relaying all of his dream to Bobby while they play cards. Bobby tells Buck that his parents do care about him. Buck tells Bobby that he saw him sitting next to his bed with his rosary beads and honestly, if I were Bobby I would've been so confused as to how Buck knew that. Buck tells Bobby that he is the one who helped him find his way home. 

In our penultimate scene, Myung-Soon (Jenny Baek) talks with Chimney. She tells him that his dad is sorry. She tells him that his father was ashamed and he felt like a failure. Everything about being in the United States reminded him of his failures. He couldn't save his business nor his marriage which is why he left the country. His ultimate failure was not being able to convince Chimney to come back to Korea after his mother died. Myung-Soon tells Chimney that he and his father have a lot in common. They're both prideful. Chimney sees his father, Sang (David Young Lee) playing with Jee-Yun. He asks if he and Myung-Soon can stay longer. I thought it was funny that even with Buck being in a coma, he was still helping his friends. 

In our final scene, Buck comes home to his apartment. He has so many flowers and cards and Maddie tells him there's even more at the firehouse. Margaret and Phillip offer to buy Buck a sofa since he no longer has one. While they go off in search of a tape measure, Maddie kisses Buck on the forehead and he hugs her back.

While others may disagree (I'm looking at all you bitter Redditors out there who are acting super pissy about there being no 'Buddie' in this episode, I think this is one of the best episodes of the show. I first binged this show back in 2020 when we were all in lockdown and I've rewatched every available season at least four times a piece. What makes this show so special to me is how well-written each of our main characters are. Buck is the heart of this show. At first glance he is a bit of a loose cannon who likes to go off half-cocked. But, upon deeper exception, he is also very loyal to those he calls a friend. He would move heaven and earth if it meant keeping his sister, his best friend, his teammates, his captain, and his mother figure (Athena) safe. I love how this episode was a celebration of the very thing we all love about Buck. 

I thought this episode was well done. I like the bouncing back and forth between the real world and Buck's fantasy. I love that we got to not only see Daniel, we got to see him as an adult. I thought they did a great job of casting someone who looked like he could be related to both Oliver Stark and Jennifer Love Hewitt. The biggest complaint I've seen about this episode is how little Eddie we got. It is pretty obvious what the writers are doing this season. There has been very little interaction between Eddie and Buck which is so funny considering they are best friends. I've been a fan of their friendship since Eddie's introduction in Season 2 and as a queer man, I never thought there was anything romantic about their relationship. I find it baffling, honestly, that this show has had multiple gay and lesbian characters, most of them POC, yet a very vocal part of the fandom would rather ship the two straight-coded characters. I get it though. Buck and Eddie are extremely attractive and their friendship is free of toxic masculinity which is a breath of fresh air. Plus it's very rare to see two men, two straight-coded men, co-parent a child on-screen. But at the end of the day, what I wish Buddie shippers would realize is that these two are not a couple and it would be way more revolutionary if they remained as is. Unfortunately, the writers, who are most likely as weary of these shippers as I am, have gone out of there way to ensure that Eddie and Buck never get together (which I'm perfectly okay with) but it's at the expense of not having them on screen together (without Christopher serving as a buffer) and that honestly sucks. This is the reason we can't have nice things. Sigh.

Anywho, as I mentioned before, this was a perfect conclusion to the events of last episode. I'm happy our beloved Buckeroo is safe and it won't be long before he's back in action with the rest of the 118. Until next time ...

[purpleorchid85]

Buddie Fanfic Rec List (Part 2)

Missing You Makes Me Angry

By MyShipSailsHere

Summary: After the Grocery store fight, Eddie isn't done yelling at Buck.

AO3: https://archiveofourown.org/works/21140348#main

 More Than You Know

By nilshki 

Summary: Eddie's forgiven Buck, and things are back to normal between them. By normal, we of course mean they are in love with each other but haven't confessed to anyone yet. After a bad call, Buck goes over to Eddie's to keep him some company. Except Eddie isn't home. And when Eddie does arrive, he bruised and bloody.

AO3: https://archiveofourown.org/works/21272087

 Morning Coffee

By shutupheather 

Summary: Being a good friend leads Maddie to find out something about her little brother.

AO3: https://archiveofourown.org/works/26985814

 Mug Speech

By deluweil

Summary: Eddie didn't notice the first time Buck handed him a mug full of coffee, that the mug had something to say but when he started noticing the mugs he was handed had meaning he'd go back to this moment and remember that this one said "Just be grateful I made it out of bed." To be fair Buck wasn't wrong.

AO3: https://archiveofourown.org/works/26225488

 Mr July

By DarkFairytale

Summary: Both Buck and Eddie are asked to take part in another charity fireman calendar.

AO3: https://archiveofourown.org/works/22297378

 More Than You Know

By nilshki

Summary:  Eddie's forgiven Buck, and things are back to normal between them. By normal, we of course mean they are in love with each other but haven't confessed to anyone yet. After a bad call, Buck goes over to Eddie's to keep him some company. Except Eddie isn't home. And when Eddie does arrive, he bruised and bloody.

AO3: https://archiveofourown.org/works/21272087

 My Fake Fiancé 

By RapunzelGirl13 

Summary: Buck’s ex-girlfriend Abby will be at the Christmas Party that he is attending. He’s been looking forward to it all month but now he knows he can’t go, as he’s still single while Abby is engaged to handsome a British guy. Rather than letting Buck stay home and mope, his best friend Eddie offers to pose as Buck’s fiancé.

AO3: https://archiveofourown.org/works/21863263

 My heart that pounds underneath my flesh

By kaitlia777

Summary: So, it started out as a little bet, but once Eddie saw Buck giving a lapdance, all bets were off....

AO3: https://archiveofourown.org/works/21662197

 Not So Much Sneaking As...

By mansikka

Summary: Buck and Eddie's relationship is new, which is why they are sneaking around. Nobody suspects a thing. Do they?

AO3: https://archiveofourown.org/works/28383837

 Operation Get Two Idiots Together Alone To Do Stuff

By damnedifyoudo

Summary: Hen is really tired of walking in on Buck and Eddie in the firehouse and so is everybody else, so she hatches a plan.

AO3: https://archiveofourown.org/works/20808980

 Pink Fluffy Handcuffs 

By EdithBlake

Summary:

AO3: https://archiveofourown.org/works/21578935

 Say the word and i'm yours

By quietuniverse 

https://archiveofourown.org/works/24873772

 Secret Santa Surprise 

By iwillgodownwithbuddie (rebeldawgspirategirl)

Summary: Buck has the best secret Santa.

AO3: https://archiveofourown.org/works/21811630

 Single Beds in San Diego

By firstdegreefangirl

Summary: Eddie and Buck take Chris on a weekend trip to San Diego. Buck books the hotel, and things go wrong. But it all works out in the end.

AO3: https://archiveofourown.org/works/26718106

 Six Different Ways To Mark Your Territory

By like_a_heartbeat_drives_you_mad

Summary: Or "5 times Eddie was a possessive bastard, and Buck (being the oblivious puppy he is) didn't notice. And the one time he couldn’t help but notice."

AO3:  https://archiveofourown.org/works/21459856

 Talk Dirty To Me

By Lopithecus 

Summary: Eddie talks dirty to Buck.

AO3: https://archiveofourown.org/works/26346721?view_adult=true

 The Education Of Eddie Diaz

By manskikka 

Summary: Buck and Eddie enter into a friends with Benefits relationship during one drunken night.

AO3: https://archiveofourown.org/works/22635607?view_full_work=true

 The Feeling’s  Mutal

By manskikka 

Summary: Buck and Eddie have been thinking about each other. And trying not to think about each other. Which of course means they're thinking even harder. Wouldn't it just be easier to do this face to face, and not have to do any thinking at all?

AO3: https://archiveofourown.org/works/29654472

 The Fire Truck Of Love

By Soph_Writes_118 

Summary: When Chimney decides to decorate the 118's truck with mistletoe for the holidays and spread a little love to the people of Los Angeles, festive chaos ensues. Will the magic of the mistletoe be enough to bring our two favourite clueless firefighters together at last?

AO3: https://archiveofourown.org/works/27842545

 Two Idiots Finally Get Their Shit Together (Finally...Hen and Athena win the Bet)

By Therealdeo 

Summary: What was supposed to be a routine day, didn't end up being one. But Buck and Eddie aren't really complaining.

AO3: https://archiveofourown.org/works/21643021

 Two Weeks Noticed

By minkcantsew 

Summary: With Christopher away at camp, Eddie finally has a chance to catch his breath after the hellish year he's had. Meanwhile Buck is still reeling from the sudden reappearance of Abby. On a routine night of movies and pizza, Eddie and Buck discuss some feelings and stumble into something that may just take some time to figure out. Good thing they have two weeks to get a handle on it.

AO3: https://archiveofourown.org/works/24385045

 We Aren't Married! (5 Times +1)

By Arsenal 

Summary:  5 times that people mistook Buck and Eddie as a couple and they had to correct them + The one time that they didn't.

AO3:  https://archiveofourown.org/works/21450499

 Who's The Best Kisser?

By Wolves_of_Innistrad 

Summary: Buck signs up for a YouTube video where he judges people's kissing skills while blindfolded. He has no idea who the contestsants are, and they have no idea who they're kissing until they arrive.

AO3: https://archiveofourown.org/works/21438991

 With(out) A First Date

By firstdegreefangirl

Summary: Buck and Eddie become boyfriends. Six months later, they start dating.

AO3: https://archiveofourown.org/works/24104269?view_full_work=true

 Words of "Affirmation"?

By firstdegreefangirl

Summary: Eddie tries to show Buck how much he loves him by leaving post-it love notes for him to find. It's cute ... until it isn't anymore.

AO3: https://archiveofourown.org/works/23515090#main

 Wrong address, right move

By crushingcryptid

Summary : Buck ordered some sex toys, but accidently sent them to Eddie's house. Eddie opens the package, and what ensues is an awkward conversation that becomes not so awkward.

AO3: https://archiveofourown.org/works/22135543

 You Spelled My Name Wrong...Again 

By buckiaz (orphan_account)

Summary: Buck is a barista who on purpose messed Eddie's name every time Eddie orders his coffee. It's a way for him to get Eddie's attention.

AO3: https://archiveofourown.org/works/23602951

 You Got Me Tripping (Oh, Stumbling)

By like_a_heartbeat_drives_you_mad 

Summary: Buck is a disaster bi and Eddie is not any better.

AO3:  https://archiveofourown.org/works/21676984

 Zoom Into My Heart

By Shanimar

Summary: Buck didn't know that Zoom shared your private chats at the end of the meeting, but he's about to find out.

AO3: https://archiveofourown.org/works/23432743

[eleventhdoctorsangel]

Can you hear me screaming please don’t leave me

Summary: Bobby Nash and his niece were always really close. But on one fateful day he and his team were called to her house after her suicide attempt. After saving her his niece decided to go in the same line as work. 

The summer went by fast. Within that time I have passed all of my tests to become an EMT. Only Uncle Bobby and Athena were there the day I passed my test and got my assignment to the 118 of course. Uncle Bobby made sure that I was put with the 118. Still no one beside him and Athena knows. I have also been spending time with Buck, Hen and Chimney. Just like Buck promise he and I went to a concert. We went to see Falling In Reverse (RIP Derek Jones I’m going to miss you.). When the mosh pits started Buck protected me as if life deepened on it. I just laugh my head off and Buck thought I lost my mind. I was used to mosh pits and I guess Buck wasn’t but he face was still priceless. Within all the time that I’ve spent with Buck so far he told me about his family, his sister Maddie, and his girlfriend or ex-girlfriend he wasn’t so sure about that situation. Anyways I’m currently on my way to the station to surprise everyone and tell them the news. I wasn’t the only new member that joining the 118. There’s a new guy named Eddie Diaz. I really only knew his name since that was all that Uncle Bobby told me.

When I got to the station the rest of the team was out on a call so there weren’t many people there. So I went upstairs and sat on one of the couch as I waited for everyone to get back. I texted Uncle Bobby to let me know when they come back so that I could hide if I needed to. I was playing on my phone when I could hear footsteps approaching me. “So you must be the Captain Niece.” A voice say. I look up from phone to see a very hot guy sitting on the table that was in front of the couch. I put my phone in my lap. “I’m guessing you are Eddie Diaz.” I said. “I am.” Eddie said. “Well I’m Y/n it’s nice to meet you.” I said holding out my hand. “Well it’s nice to meet you Y/n.” Eddie said as he shook my hand. “Eddie huh it that short for Eduardo or Edmundo?” I asked. Eddie looked kinda shocked. “How did you know?” Eddie asked. “I’m observant. So which is it?” I asked. “Edmundo.” Eddie said. “You look like an Edmundo.” I said smiling a little. “Why thank you. So Y/n what made you decided to do this? Because no offense you are really small.” Eddie said. “None taken but I can handle my own. As for why I chose to do this is a circumstance I went through I guess you can say.” I said. “Well I would like to hear all about it if you don’t mind telling me.” Eddie said. I shook my head. “No I don’t mind. It was a few months ago. I wasn’t exactly in the best mind space again. I’ve dealt with depression almost my whole life as with self harm. I tried to kill myself for the third time. I tried when I was thirteen and again when I was sixteen. I know that I can’t change what I’ve been through but I want to help people so they don’t have to feel or go through what I did.” I said as showed the scars that were on my wrist. Eddie took ahold of both of my wrist as he ran his thumbs over them then looked up at me. “I’m sorry that you had to go through that.” Eddie said. “Thank you Eddie that means a lot.” I said. “I guess that makes since now. The captain told me about a lot of people here are protective of you.” Eddie said. “Yeah that would make since. So I told you about myself some now why don’t you tell me about yourself.” I said taking my hands out of Eddies grip putting them in my lap.

Eddie told me about his life that he was in the army and that he has an extremely adorable boy name Christopher and that poor Christopher has cerebral palsy. Eddie even told me about the situation that was going on his wife and how didn’t know what he was going to do about it and how he was going to explain it to Christopher when he does. I told him that whatever he decides that Christopher would understand in time and that he might be the one who might take longer to get over it than Christopher. I made sure that Eddie knew that if he or Christopher needed someone to talk to that I will be all ears. Eddie seemed relieved when I said that. Uncle Bobby finally texted me saying that they were on their way. I smiled as I started jumping slightly in my seat. “Well someone seems excited.” Eddie said. “Well I asked my uncle to text me when they were on their way back because I want to surprise everyone.” I said. “So no one besides the captain knows?” Eddie asked. I shook my head. “Well I hope you have fun surprising them.” Eddie said as he got up. “Are you not going to say to see their reaction?” I asked. “I hope I’m still here. I have to get back home to Christopher.” Eddie said. “I understand that. I hope to meet that little cutie soon.” I said. “Christopher would really like that. So I guess I’ll be seeing you around.” Eddie said. “Yeah see you later.” I said giving him a little wave. 

I stay sat on the couch until uncle Bobby told me that it was safe to come down. When he finally I got up from my spot and made my way down the stairs. “Okay that is a beautiful man.” I heard chimney say. If I had to guess it was probably Eddie that were talking about. “Where’s the lie and I like girls.” Hen said.  “Who in the hell is that?” Buck said. “It’s Eddie Diaz a new recruit. Graduated top of his class just this week. Guy was working a station six for time and a half but I convinced him to join to join us.” Uncle bobby said. “What do we need him for?” Buck asked. Which made everyone laugh. “He severed multiple tours in Afghanistan and he’s an army medic he’s got a sliver star. It’s not like he’s wet behind the ears. Beside he’s not the only new face that going to be around here.” Uncle Bobby said. Taking that as my que I finished walking down the stairs and over to everyone. “Yeah now you guys are going to have to deal with me a lot more.” I said. “Wait are you serious?” Buck asked. “Yup I passed my test last week.” I said. Buck smiled as he hugged me. “Welcome to the team sweetie.” Hen said. “Thank momma Hen.” I said. “Come on I’ll introduce you to him. He likes to be called 8 pack.” Uncle Bobby said as Hen and Chimney went with him to go say hi to Eddie just leaving Buck and I. “Raw Sliver star.” Hen said. “Better drop some more pounds there butch.” Chimney said. Buck looked back towards the locker room and kinda glared at Eddie. “You know I can see the steam coming for your ears. What to share with the class.” I said. “We don’t need that guy around here.” Buck said. “I’m pretty sure they said the same thing when you came around. Just take some time and get to know him Buck. He’s a nice guy.” I said. “How can you be so sure about that?” Buck asked. “Because before everyone got here we talked. Just talk to him Buck who knows you two could become best friends.” I said. “Yeah but you’re my best friend. A best friends that should have told me about this.” Buck said. “I wanted it to be a surprise. Come on admit it you were surprised Bucky bear.” I said.  “Ok fine I was surprised. But you should have told me I would have been there when you took the final test.” Buck said. “I know but Uncle Bobby was there. I wasn’t alone. I have to go change but I’ll be right back.” I said as I left to go to the ladies locker room so I can quickly get change so I can get ready to start my first shift.

 Luckily I was able to get change before we had to go out in a call. “So what kind of experience is my first call going to be?” I asked. “A guy fell on to an air compression butt first.” Uncle Bobby said. “The million to one shot.” I said. I could hear people trying not to laugh even uncle Bobby was trying not to laugh. “Come on get in the rig.” Uncle Bobby said. I nodded and made my way inside the fire truck. Buck was sitting on one side of me and Chimney was sitting on the other side of me. I out the head set on and we made our way to the call. “So sliver star huh?” Chimney asked. “Yeah.” Eddie said. “Did you save a platoon of something?” Chimney asked. “No no. Nothing like that uh just a convoy.” Eddie said. “Eddie you heard about the hot firefighter calendar?” Hen asked. I look at Buck to see him glaring at Hen. I playfully nudge him. “I’m sorry the what” Eddie asked laughing at little. “For charity.” Hen said. “So is your full name Eduardo?” Buck asked. “No.” Eddie said. “People every call you Diaz?” Buck asked. “Not if they want me to repose.” Eddie said. “Something gotta give we got Cap, Hen, Chimney, Buck. We just can’t call you Eddie.” Buck said. “Can’t tell if he’s being serious or not.” Eddie said. “I like to always operate under the assumption that nothing he says is serious.” Chimney said. “Oh come on Bucky bear you know we love you.” I said nudging him. 

When we arrived at Hector’s Rim and Tire shop Uncle Bobby was the first to go talk with the worker while the rest of us got the Medical stuff that we were going to need. We were lead over to a like who had blew up like a balloon. “Okay Hector can you hear me? Alright hang in there buddy. Alright let’s get him on his side maintain pressure on the wound.” Uncle Bobby said as He, Eddie, Chimney, Buck and I helped with lifting Hector off of the air pressure. “It’s a hundred pounds per square inch pumped through his entire body.” Buck said. Hen started to check his heart rate with a stethoscope. “Breathing shallow. He’s heart is racing. Airs filled his stomach, his chest, even behind his eye lids. I’m more concerned about the space around his heart and lungs.” Hen said. “Ok Eddie start a nasal cannula. Chimney get him some morphine.” Uncle Bobby said. “On it.” Chimney said as he went over to Hector’s side grabbing his hand and tried to stick him. “It’s like trying to inject a needle into stone.” Chimney said. “The pressure is pushing everything out. I can’t even get any air through the nostril.” Eddie said trying to get the nasal cannula on. “Jugular venous distention, tachycardia, hypotension, diminished breath We’re looking at tension pneumothorax.” Hen said. “The air pressure is collapsing his organs. We need to get in there and drain the fluid. Buck I need you to get a 14-gauge angiocath. We need to start decompressing the pleural cavity. Y/n I need you to cut away his shirt.” Uncle Bobby said. I nodded as Chimney handed me a pair of scissors the I cut away at Hector’s shirt so it would be easier for Buck. I stood back up so Buck could have room to work. “Alright. Alright.” Buck said. “You want me to help?” Eddie asked him. “I got it.” Buck said. “Hang in there Hector.” Uncle bobby said. “I’d go lower.” Eddie said. “What? Um no. Second intercostal space. Midclavicular line.” Buck said. “The chest wall is thinner at the fifth intercostal at the anterior axillary line. It’s a decrease chance of injuring any vital organs. I’ve treated guys with collapses lungs in combat.” Eddie said. “Do it.” Uncle bobby said. “Please?” Eddie asked as he held his hand to Buck. Buck handed the syringe to Eddie. “Thank you.” Eddie said as he stuck the syringe parallel to Hector’s under arm then undid part of it as the air started to leave Hector’s body. Hector let out a breath as he opened his eyes. “That’s it Hector breathe. Nice and slow.” Uncle Bobby said. Then we got Hector on a gurney and I help Buck pick stuff up and take it back to the rig. 

A/n: I know that I have another way of watching season two. But I usually watch the stuff I need with subtitles and I can’t with the way I've been watching it. So I might have to be this story on hold until either it get back on Hulu or it comes out to DVD

Overall Taglist: @the-broken-halo-writer​

[troybarnesbucky]

I woke up and decided to analyze each 9-1-1 pairing with regards to timing and also buddie

I just woke up and all im gonna say right now is this: this is long-winded but basically it takes a look at all the relationships on 9-1-1 and compare the timing and level of intimacy to that of buck and eddie’s relationship. 

at the end of season 1 of 911 I remember watching and realizing they were gonna push the whole bobby and athena relationship, and I was surprised, because I didnt think there was any preamble or much hinting to it. but I guess it made sense to me - they were both single, both in the same social circle, they got along. sure, made sense. and then season 2 comes along and they’re smack dab in the middle of their relationship and we have zero time to adjust to it as an audience, but once again, we quickly did (mind you, I did not watch it live as intently as a fan would, but I do recall a lot of episodes because my mom watches the show and I remembered a lot when I was catching up myself). at this point bobby and athena are happily married and I really do love them together, genuinely.

then, maddie comes along and there’s a bit more to the story. she has a lot going on, a lot she’s been through and we spend much of her first season getting to know her and watching her confront her past and create her own present. chimney had a bit of a rough start with relationships (.... tatiana, sorry love, but you could’ve had it all sis). her and chimney start out as friends but it’s very clear from their blossoming friendship that the writers intend for us to want a relationship for them, and we DO. because theyre adorable together and genuinely have so much chemistry and they’re good for one another. it’s a bit of a slowburn but we get there eventually, so much so that in the season 3 finale, we find out maddie is pregnant! which yes, did make me cry shut up. 

hen and karen had a rough start. even if they did look happy, they went through a ton of shit in the first and second season, especially the first season. which is fair; hen cheated on karen, and a large part of her storyline revolved around her ex and having to fight for denny. but there’s so much love between them, and a heavy history that is palpable through the screen. by the time season 2 comes around, they are a bit more grounded, and more so by the time season 3, too. it was interesting to think about their relationship is comparison to the others, which we watched blossom in real time. especially in season 3, because we see their love and support of one another during their attempt to have another child, and yes I also did cry when they met nia for the first time and no I will not elaborate. hen also went through a lot of shit this season; karen, despite what she went through, was and continues to be super wonderful and supportive, if a bit wary (but its okay because drunk karen and chim was a gift and we were well fed) for a second. their relationship is everything and also karen carries the whole show’s sense of humor on her back, I said what I said. 

then we have three more main relationships: michael and athena’s, which is over in episode 1; buck and abby (im not counting ali because genuinely she was in three episodes, im only looking at the main relationships for each character), which starts and ends in season 1; and eddie and shannon, which technically starts before season 1 and kinda ends in season 2 but then she dies. 

personally I dont think there’s much to add about michael and athena’s relationship. firstly, michael is a doll and if they hurt him in season 4 I will riot. but more so, the show gave us a LOT to work with in terms of their past relationship. also, it was interesting as a viewer, to learn about them from the bottom up. we see the tail-end of their romantic relationship and watch it get replaced with a genuine love and care for each other and their family. it’s a stark contrast to what a lot of shows on television would go for; it has a bit of rough, bumpy start, but by midway through season 2, they’re both on steady ground in terms of personal family life, and it’s actually a breath of fresh air. their dynamic is heavily surrounded by love for family, and we love love love that. 

I think with abby and buck we all liked it a little, at the start. buck was sweet to her and we see a change in attitude and an effort from buck that is clear to have never been made before. abby is also a pretty admirable character; she takes care of her mother, is incredible at her job as a dispatcher, and she struggles with maintaining personal relationships but still gives it a go with buck. and buck, from the start to end of the season, grows a lot, both independently from and surrounding their relationship. as a viewer I watched the show way later on, so I knew abby was leaving and honestly, I really did like her and their chemistry. as we go into season 2, we have buck, who is still living in abby’s place, and then the introduction of eddie.

so here’s the thing; this is where I was trying to get to. the show (the writers) made and continue to make interesting character and relationship choices. with eddie and shannon, there is a very clear closeness and chemistry between them that yes, does get revamped for a little. there is also history, which is very important and can’t be disregarded. but more than anything, we are looking at timing in this meta. eddie comes along in season 2 and there are a lot of things happening: hen and karen are getting back to normal, athena and bobby are suddenly dating, buck and abby are - despite what buck thinks - very over, and chim is single and ready to pringle, plus maddie is new and freshly separated from d*ug. as we go through season 2, we see development with athena and bobby, very clearly on their way to a stable relationship and marriage. hen and karen are working through things, we don't really doubt their relationship either. both maddie and chimney are single, and they become friends, and we very quickly, as viewers, realize where the writers are taking us and what they want us to think. 

so now im gonna get on my clown shit when I talk about buck and eddie. specifically, regarding the writers and their timing and why I think they’re either really stupid or actually very smart.

listen, everyone loves slowburn. hell, I'm writing a buddie au that will probably end up being like, upwards of 80k words and it’s gonna be a slowburn. buck, at the beginning of season 2, is in denial. im not gonna go through details but I will say that like..... okay, he’s heartbroken and thats fair. eddie, through means of “what a man,” is introduced and within one fell swoop, buck is immediately jealous and then like, twenty four hours later, they’re besties. tea. totally fair. in terms of timing, especially regarding relationships, there really aren’t many things to note: buck goes through that weird thing with taylor kelly, eddie goes through his drama with shannon, and when shannon wants a divorce, it kinda all goes to shit. by the end of season 2, we have buck trying to move on (and also nearly dying by means of a firetruck but thats not my point but also writers wtf) and dating ali (guys how do you spell her name lol) while eddie deals with the aftermath of his (ex, technically but I don't know if its mean to say that) wife. there are more than a few moments between buck and eddie that hint to a potential romance and feelings, like the santa scene and multiple others. then, season 3 is very very interesting. 

buck and ally(? seriously I don't know) are broken up, eddie is focused on christopher and actually, also buck, and then the tsunami happens. there is also not much going on in terms of other relationships on the show; maddie and chim get their shit together while also having a crazy season starting and ending with talking about having kids with a brief intermission of “I cant say I love you” and nearly dying on both parts and albert appears lol (and then disappears, too?? wtf). athena and bobby are pretty cool, hen and karen are trying for kids and hen wants to be a doctor. we have some others, like josh, who go through too much shit for my liking and deserve better, and michael, who...... deserves the world. 

okay. cleared that up. but timing-wise, if we look at the writers and their regard for timing, then we see this: any time two characters are single and there’s an ounce of friendship even hinted, they end up together. fine, that’s fair to say because we’ve seen it, right? after the tsunami, which is a WHOLE OTHER thing im not getting into, we have the lawsuit, eddie fighting, lena bosko (yall can be mad but she was hella cool), hen killing that cello (I think) player, michael getting sick, wow this season was fucking insane holy shit.

but in terms of character relationships and timing, a lot goes on with buck and eddie. in this one season alone, we go from eddie being the first one to hug buck at his surprise party and christopher giving buck a card with “bff” on it, then buck almost dies (again) and eddie is, quite frankly, the only one who takes no crap from him after he quits and then the tsunami and buck literally tearing himself apart to find his best friend’s son and collapsing at the sight of them reunited and then “there’s no one I trust more with my son than you” (is that the quote, I don't know it by heart) and THEN heart eyes, and then the lawsuit and supermarket and “you’re exhausting” and “christopher misses you” and “I couldn't even call you to bail me outta jail” and then the “I’m hearing a lotta ‘I’s, buck” and “I forgive you” and then the Infamous Kitchen Scene and me endlessly screaming WHY WAS BUCK’S HAND ON HIS BELT LIKE THAT? but also very pointedly I will say eddie fighting specifically when he can’t talk to buck and then it stops around the time he can hmmmmm. and also “this is eddie’s house im not really a guest here” then the fuckaifajfgkjfglgakjdgag tunnel collapsing and buck literally, once again tearing himself and everything apart for a diaz, digging with his bare hands and the defeated look on his face and refusing to think about eddie dying and eddie very nearly dying but then recalling christopher, his family, buck, then christopher and buck, then christopher and buck again, then a rare shannon appears, and then it’s just-

okay. OKay. O K AY. ok. here’s what I think. either the writers are incredibly smart or just viciously stupid, or the third, lesser liked option, they know what they’re doing and don’t give two shits. they are sitting on, and quite frankly they have created, a fucking goldmine. but in terms of timing, and relationship choices, we have eddie and anna(?) as a brief thing that will either reappear in season 4 or never be touched again, then abby’s lame-ass apology that was just her attempting to justify her actions by claiming she simply just should’ve told buck sooner. but a lot of this season explores buck’s loneliness, and in a way, too, eddie’s. 

yes, eddie has christopher, and the others? they have families and significant others. buck has no one (except maddie but you get my point) to go home to. I think, in terms of timing and thematic elements, this season took the time to explore the loneliness of two men, but also by doing so, only high-lighted their need for one another, their love for one another. in the past, that has lead to two couples getting together: athena and bobby, and chimney and maddie. 

so, my point is, season 4 is the make it or break it point. we got (weak-ass) closure with abby, eddie’s anger and regret with shannon (and yes, christopher), an exploration of both of their loneliness, and a very, very clear rocket launch of their closeness and dependence on one another, in season 3. it started with a lot and ended with closure on all extraneous factors that could have possibly deterred the two of them from a potential relationship. more so, abby is getting married and buck has no choice but to move on; he may not have loved her anymore but he needed the closure (and no I do not think it was good enough and I think buck deserved more but that’s not my point).

this can’t be read that much into. it’s not subtle, it’s not subtext. it’s very clearly there on our screens, with every small or big line. they mean a lot to each other. anyone with eyes can say that, has to say that. the problem is, what’s the intention? like, are the writers actually doing what I've just said, setting up for a slowburn, taking it season by season. you can look at it that way, and it actually doesnt take a lot to get to that point of a thought process. there is a HUGE, fundamental shift in buck and eddie’s relationship in season 3. there is a perceived difference in their friendship versus both their relationship with others and the friendship between others. denny doesn’t call chimney his best friend, “his chimney.” athena has never once told hen she trusts her children with her more than anyone in the world. 

there are a lot of interesting choices that have been made over the course of three season, particularly this past season. there are also a lot of possibilities for the upcoming season. we may see a return of that teacher, we might see buck fall into other women, we may see eddie not fully over shannon, or (hopefully not) an abby return. it’s just a matter of waiting, but there’s no denying the way things were left off; buck and eddie were both single throughout the entirety of season 3, considerably closer and not guests at each other’s place, both very lonely in spite of the people around them, closer to each other than the rest of the 118, both have a family member (or more than one for eddie) to keep them anchored. buck is, yes, more lonely, but they are both left off in the same place. my question, more than anything, is whether it’s intentional after all that’s said and done. and if it’s not, then why, pray tell, are the writers following their OWN very clear and self-fulfilled pattern of timing and relationships to an even stronger extent than they ever have? 

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Can you hear me screaming please don't leave me

Summary: Bobby Nash and his niece were always really close. But on one fateful day he and his team were called to her house after her suicide attempt. After saving her his niece decided to go in the same line as work.

The 118 team returned to the station after taking Bobby's niece to the hospital after her suicide attempt. Bobby was struggling with the events that just happened and everyone could tell. But they didn't know if they should talk to him about it. Buck ended up going to talk to Bobby about it. Bobby was sitting alone on a bench in the locker room. "Hey cap you doing ok?" Buck asked as he walked up to bobby. "I'll get by buck." Bobby said as he looked up at buck. "I know you probably don't want to hear this right now cap. But she must not have wanted to die because she cut horizontal not vertical." Buck said as he sat down beside Bobby. Bobby just nodded sadly. "What's she like?" Buck asked in hope that it would make him feel better. "She is possibly the goofiest person you might ever meet. She is never afraid to be herself of that means getting weirdest looks in public. She loves to read. One of her all time favorite authors is Stephen King. She will always rant about how different the books are from the movie. Music is her life. She goes to to as many concerts as she can. She always has to be front row we she does. She goes out of her way to make other feel better because she never wants her people to feel the same was she has. Do you want to see some pictures and videos?" Bobby asked as he pulled out his phone. "Absolutely cap." Buck said. Buck smiled as Bobby started to show him picture of his niece. Some of them were from concerts or just random pictures. Then Bobby showed him some picture of her High School graduation. “She was so proud of herself that she made it through high school.” Bobby said. “Cap had she tried before?” Buck asked. “Yes she has tried twice before.” Bobby said. “I’m so sorry cap.” Buck said. “She getting the help that she needs.” Bobby said as he continued to show Buck pictures then videos. Buck couldn’t help but laugh at a video of her going on about a rant of the new IT movie. She was ranting about how she though they made Eddie and Richie gay in this one. Hoping that the ending would be different so Eddie and Richie could live happily ever after. If not Stephen King would be beating her with a broom wondering how the hell she got into his house and dangling from a chandelier. “ You’re right cap she is something else. If you go see her do you mind if I come too?” Buck said. “I’ll like that buck. I think she will too. Since moving here she hasn’t really made any friends.” Bobby said. “Well maybe after she gets better perhaps the three of us can go to a concert together.” Buck said. “I know she’ll definitely love that.” Bobby said. “Then it’s a plan then cap.” Buck said. “Thank you buck.” Bobby said. “No problem Cap.” Buck said as he gave Bobby a hug as the bell rang out. The team went out on a few more calls and hours later both Bobby’s and Buck’s shift had come to a end. Both men changed out of their uniform. “So I’ll just follow you back to the hospital cap.” Buck said. Bobby nodded and the two both got into their cars driving back to the hospital. But by the time that they got they visiting hours were over. Bobby was able to find a nurse and talk to her. “Excuse me ma'am I was wondering if it’s possible if my friend and I can see my niece?” Bobby asked her. “I’m afraid not sir I’m sorry sir visiting hour are over.” The nurse said. “We were the team who brought her in. Please we just came to check on her to see how she’s doing.” Buck said. “I can give you thirty minutes.”  The nurse said. “Thank you ma’am. Do you know if they are going to be committed again?” Bobby asked. “We’re keeping her over night just to be safe and then yes she is going to be committed.” The nurse said. “Um how bad was it?” Buck asked. “10 stitches on each wrist and she lost quite a bit of blood. We gave her a transfusion earlier. She was given an sedative when she got here and she still is sleeping it off so please be quite when entering her room.” The nurse said. Both males nodded as the nurse walked away. After getting her room number the two made sure to be quite when they walked into her room. Buck didn’t have to look at Bobby to know that seeing his niece in the state she’s in right now broke his heart. Each of them took a seat on either side of her. She started to look like she was getting some color back into her but she still looked really pale. Twenty minutes passed before she finally opened her eyes.  

After uncle Bobby and Buck left I was kept overnight then started I month long stay in a mental health hospital. Both uncle Bobby and Buck came to visit when they could. Sometimes when uncle Bobby came to visit Athena would come with him. There was a few times when just buck would come and visit me. He would tell me about some of the calls that the 118 went on and how he was waiting on his girlfriend or ex girlfriend to come back from the traveling she was doing. But he wasn’t sure if or when that was going to be. He also told me his nickname at the 118 is buckaroo. I thought it was a very cute nickname. I joked with him that my nickname for him should be buckybear. To my surprise buck liked the nickname and said only I'm allowed to call him that. I started to talk to uncle Bobby about become a first responder. He said he would help me once I get better. He even promised the talk to the chief of the 118 to let me becomes part of the team when I pass all of the tests. I told him not to let buck know about this all because I want it to be a surprise. I’m getting discharge today and uncle Bobby promised to pick me up so I can meet Captain Thomas the man runs the teacher for the class. I was packing my stuff getting ready to leave. “If I do say so myself it doesn’t seem like your happy at all to be leaving.” A voice said jokily. I looked over to see uncle Bobby standing in the doorway to my room. “Uncle Bobby.” I said rushing over to hug him. “Hey sweetie you ready to get out of here?” Uncle Bobby asked me hugging me back. “Yeah I’m so ready to leave. You haven’t told Buck anything have you.” I asked him as I pulled away from our hug and went to grab my suitcase. “No I haven’t sweetie. I made a promise that I won’t now didn’t I. I did let Athena know. She wishes you good luck. She knows that you can make it.” Uncle Bobby said. “I’m going have to go see her again.” I said. “She would like that. Come on sweetie lets go. I thought after we go talk with Captain Thomas stop by the 118 and surprise everyone I didn’t let anyone know that you were getting released today.” Uncle Bobby said. “I would love to surprise Buck.” I said smiling as uncle Bobby took my suitcase from me as we left the hospital.

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