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[angeltism]

post so funny it makes me want to sit up from my chair just so i can double over in psychic damage and laugh until i cry about it

[straws-and-sunflowers]

Do you think you'll ever remake the harpy au?

I’ll be so for real with you anon, probably not.

At least- not until I’ve burned it from my mind in terms of how little I liked it.

It’s hard to go back when I’ve already like- have a tag for it- and I could delete it all to hell and back- (I probably will) but the idea feels like it was beaten with a baseball bat. You know??

I don’t wanna be rude to the people who liked harpy- but I just- my eyes aren’t working rn when I look at it. (I just woke up)

It’s a weird thing- it’s like trying to fix a glass jar. But every time you touch it you risk getting hurt or rather (in this case at least) I end up feeling irritated and self conscious about it

I’ve had burnout that existed in the summer and then it lasted into the school year- and then I made it worse by forcing myself to make something that I didn’t want to make.

Like- I hate doing that to me.

I hate-trying to force myself..when there was nothing going on. Everything isn’t planned, I just draw and if I want it to be real I’ll make it real like TNTOAMB. I don’t wanna sound bitchy…blahhh….

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Me when I’m asked to make more content:

[firelord-frowny]

one of my favorite things about Maturing as a grownup person is definitelyyyyy Not Getting Mad/Frustrated/Annoyed at lil teens for going overboard with being preachy about ~social justicy~ things they don't fully understand.

like, i feel like being obnoxious and holier-than-thou is sort of a right of passage that most decent people gotta go through before they experience enough Life to realize that a lot of things are much too complicated to be condensed down into stark contrasts of Right and Wrong.

And then once you grow past the tendency to be judgy and preachy, you enter this new phase of young adulthood where you become judgy and preachy at younger people for being judgy and preachy! and you're so eager to lecture them about how they need to ~go outside~ and blah blah blah, and argue back and forth about performative allyship and toxicity and entitlement and blaaaahhhh blahhhhhhhhh blahhhhhhhhhhhhh

and then you get a lil older and you see all that drama going down and you just smile with delight at the phenomenon of The Youth figuring out what matters, why it matters, and what all to do about it.

growing up can be awkward and embarrassing. not just physically, and not just socially, but ideologically, too. and i think it's almost always best to let folks navigate those awkward stages with as little shame as possible.

[gaydivorcetual]

UGH blah blqh blahhhhhhhhh drawings like one of my only hobbies but I get into periods where I just CANT and even if I try it ends up shitty and I get mad at myself for fucking it up and ive been in thay for weeks !!!! ughhhhhhhhhh. I WANT to draw ! I want to draw OCs and to finished my angel drawing n make choujin fanart but I cant and its so annoyinggggggg. bleh i hope when it gets warmer out I get my motivation back

[zzyxwwxyzz]

I have been feverish for a while now. I haven’t forgotten about it, I have simply learned to sleep with only a sheet.

[scum-li]

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[miheartsays]

July 19, 2020

Men are so blahhhh. Especially men u don't like. Blah blahhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!! 🤢

[emohippie444]

Today was kinda cool I guess. I promised myself to go all out and look very masculine and pass as best as I could and I'm pretty sure I did so. It just wasn't enough. What the hell is it??? Jesus christ I fucking hate myself. This girl used she pronouns more than 6 times when talking about me to the class and I just completely shut down for the rest of the period.

I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myselfI hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself blah blah blahhhhhhhhh

[flauntpage]

Have We Learned Nothing? – A Sixers Column

Bitch, whine, moan.

Sob, fret, complain.

Gripe, grumble, cry.

That’s what I heard from MANY – not ALL – but MANY Sixers fans on Saturday night, the entirety of Sunday, and also Monday morning when I reluctantly opened Twitter.

I’m willing to bet that the loudest complainers were anti-Process types who just came back to the bandwagon this year, set unrealistic expectations for a squad featuring a rookie point guard, second-year center, and second-year power forward, then went off the deep end spitting nonsense after a team with zero playoff experience failed to meet the outrageous goals that THEY THEMSELVES set.

Take a breather.

The Sixers are down 3-0 to a better team with a better coach as of May 7th, 2018. Ben Simmons, Joel Embiid, and Brett Brown have disappointed under the brightest glow of the still-nascent spotlight. There’s no disputing that. I think everyone is in agreement that the coach and the two stars have underwhelmed, though I’d also extend that to Dario Saric and Robert Covington and a number of the veterans who have actually been here before. Nobody is blameless.

Does that mean that the players suck and the coach should be fired and the general manager should resign? No, of course not. It means that the more experienced team with the more experienced players (minus future superstar Jayson Tatum) simply took round one in what will inevitably become the Eastern Conference’s premier rivalry over the next half-decade.

That’s it. That’s the explanation. That is William of Ockham’s razor. 

Yet here we are, doing what Philadelphia always does, and proclaiming the franchise dead and buried and flattened to the point of no return.

“They’ve been EXPOSED!” is a local favorite.

Can we please stop using that word? He got “exposed.” She got “exposed.” We say it as if coaches and players and executives can never evolve or learn or adapt, as if once a flaw is exploited, it always remains.

There are a million examples of people who were once “exposed” but figured it out and turned it around. Doug Pederson and Nick Foles come to mind. How about LeBron James? Jared Goff? 2004 Drew Brees vs. 2003 Drew Brees? Even Sergio Garcia won The Masters.

Of course the counterpoint to that is Byron Maxwell, so I’ll give you that one, but let’s continue with the Eagles theme.

These knee-jerk, “fire everyone” types are the same fans who became so irrationally flustered when the Eagles hit the wall after starting 3-0 with a rookie quarterback and first-year head coach. That pair, Pederson and Carson Wentz, won the franchise its first Super Bowl the very next season. Same thing with the cross-section of fans who complained about Earl Thomas vs. Brandon Graham for YEARS. “Why did we draft THIS GUY when we should have drafted THAT GUY!” Blah blah blahhhhhhhhh! Well, the guy you loved to hate just secured the Lombardi trophy. Jason Kelce basically wrote this column for me when he highlighted every criticism of a championship squad.

Have we learned nothing?

It’s obvious that we as a group of media, fans, and Philly people in general lack the simple ability to evaluate recent history and apply it to likewise scenarios. It’s like a provincial version of “Batman Begins,” where instead of pouring that hallucinogen into the Gotham water supply, the villain instead creates a drug that forces all Philadelphia sports fans to grow up with advanced-stage nearsightedness.

Here’s the thing; the best trait of the Philadelphia sports fan – unconditional support and emotional attachment – is also the worst trait of the Philadelphia sports fan, because it results in a recurring and collective lack of critical thinking and temperance.

I said at the beginning of the season that I felt like 2017-18 was a developmental bridge. This was the campaign that was supposed to connect the end of “Process” era to the beginning of the competitive era. The goals were to establish Ben Simmons, Joel Embiid, and Markelle Fultz as cornerstone players, qualify for the postseason, and get that crucial April and May experience under your belt. They hit all but one of those goals (Fultz).

A final and related goal, in my opinion, was to head into this offseason with a full understanding of what you currently have and what you are also lacking, which I’d have to label as incomplete because of Fultz debacle. If Ben Simmons and Joel Embiid are known quantities now carrying crucial regular and postseason experience, then Fultz is still sitting on the basketball tarmac and waiting for takeoff.

I think one of the problems is what I mentioned earlier, the fact that people who are just returning to the Sixers are expecting immediate success. The contrast is that the Sam Hinkie/Process supporters are extra-patient by default, so it creates a large disparity, or maybe a wider spectrum I would say, that separates each respective end of the Sixers’ fan base. Lost and forsaken in the expansive middle is the calm and rational fan who says, “you know what, I’m disappointed right now, but they’ve taken a lot of steps forward this year.”

The Sixers have talked about adjusting expectations this year, the idea that their goals changed as they figured out that they were better than advertised. First it was playoffs, then it was home court, then it was 50 wins. I appreciated that from a competitive standpoint but didn’t find it to be healthy in regard to practicality. I’ll go to the grave believing that expectations must be set at the beginning of the season and can’t be placed on a sliding scale, because progress is best documented in larger chunks that incorporate a more robust sample size or body of work.

Look at the treasure trove of information Bryan Colangelo and Brett Brown now have, RE: what’s wrong and what needs to be fixed. This ass kicking is so valuable to the Sixers because it puts their glaring weaknesses on display for everyone to see. If they didn’t know it before, they now understand exactly what teams are going to do to slow them down and bottle up Ben Simmons. They know that they need players who can create their own shot on offense. They know what Embiid has to do to improve his low post game. There’s data and film on turnovers, rebounds, transition opportunities, dribble hand-offs, horns, SLOBs, and every play imaginable.

They’ve got the entire summer to figure out.

If Bryan Colangelo blows the offseason, or you see a lack of improvement next year, then you absolutely start thinking about the head coach and the strategy that’s currently in place. As far as I’m concerned, this was year number one for the coach and year number two for the GM, and the latter has much more on his shoulders than the former.

All of that said, this season was a wild success. You’ve got two young superstars, a couple of key supplemental pieces, and a road map for the future. To say otherwise is total horse shit, no matter whether you were pro-process, anti-process, somewhere between ambivalent and apathetic.

We all just need to be a bit more like Andy Reid. We need to “do a better job” of taking the erudite long view and suppressing our hereditary knee-jerk myopia, because it’s utterly rudimentary and pointless and makes us look like jabronies.

    Have We Learned Nothing? – A Sixers Column published first on https://footballhighlightseurope.tumblr.com/

[go-aboveandbeyond]

Sometimes I just find it so amazing how music can speak feelings. Regardless of the time or day. You seek those few songs which complete you and can literally speak to your soul. Then you replay them over and over, looping the same two songs for countless hours.

I tend to forget about the beauty of a song, and how much I could relate to it. Then I think about the artists who produced the track, and how they too know what I am feeling.

idk what I'd do without music. I wish I was gifted with a musical background, but for now all I can do is appreciate it and love what its done for me.

[backstreet-gurl]

Ok, here we go. Nicole talks Shameless 5x01.

(copying Josh and doing this by character)

Fiona - It was great to see Fiona so happy and stable. I surprisingly love her waitress friends and seeing her interacting with her coworkers was really fun. I'm also intrigued by the Angela thing because it's so not what I was expecting. When I heard she was keeping tabs on Fiona I assumed it would be behind JimmySteveJack's back and maybe out of jealousy or resentment. I like that she's actually there for Fiona's benefit, whether JimmySteveJack is behind it or not. 

As far as Fiona's men go, I'm not loving either of them. The band guy can definitely go. Hopefully he's just there to show that Fiona's finally resisting men who are most likely not good for her? One can hope. As for Sean, I wasn't too psyched about their dynamic. I kind of liked him in his first scene with the pool but at that point I assumed that they were somewhat together. The rest of the flirty banter scenes turned me off to him a bit and I WILL FOREVER BE ANGRY HE MADE HER PAY FOR THE PIE. We'll see where it goes, but I'm meh on Sean right now.

Lip - I like Lip. And I'm fine with him realizing that he wants more than the ghetto Southside life. I'm just worried that it's going to go less in the direction of Lip wanting more and more in the direction of Lip thinking he's better than everyone in the Southside. Not saying that was evident in this episode, just saying I really don't want them to take it there but I wouldn't be surprised. But for now, I'm good with Lip's storyline.

However, the druggie friends next door however were super random and out of place. Since when does Lip have friends?? That seemed unnecessary and was really weird to me. 

Amanda - I love Amanda. I've liked her from the beginning. I think she and Lip have a really interesting dynamic and I honestly think she has the type of personality that is perfect for him. Call me crazy, but I do. I love that she basically asked for a commitment from him by telling him he could live with her, asking if he was going to see other people, offering him her car, AND getting him a watch but still managed to keep her cool. Usually all that would seem pretty desperate but somehow Amanda doesn't really send out desperate vibes? I don't know, the way she works is really appealing to me. And I like that she didn't push Lip when he never gave her a straight answer about where they were. 

Kev & V - I'm torn on this one. This arc seems interesting and realistic but it's so disheartening. I hate seeing the two of them not getting along, they're such a strong power couple and I hope we get some happy moments for them too. I really feel for V but I also think Kev's such a sweetheart. Not looking forward to a season full of them having issues; I'd be super happy if it was all resolved by mid-season.

Frank - I just wasn't interested in Frank's story at all. I don't care that he's making beer. I don't care that- well that's really all he did in this episode, right? Then why did it seem like he was in it so much?

Sammi - I actually didn't mind Sammi last season so I was somewhat interested in seeing where they were going with her this season. This is not what I wanted to see. Her "daddy issues" aren't interesting and she didn't show any of her likability in this episode. Hopefully that storyline doesn't drag on throughout the season.

Chuckie - Chuckie is da bomb. His peeing scene was one of the highlights of the episode for me. That look he gave Frank after he started peeing again? Priceless.

Sheila - Last season's Native American children storyline sucked balls so it's not saying much that I'm already enjoying Sheila more this season. I can't give much of an opinion on her yet because she was mostly just there to react to Sammi's horrid antics but I will say that I laughed out loud at her reaction after smelling the couch.

Debbie & Carl - I can't believe how little screentime they had. Not much to say about them except I kind of saw the old Debbie when she said "I already accepted my lord and savior" or whatever. It reminded me of Debbie circa season one which was really nice. I don't want her to grow up :(

Liam - OMG Liam is the most adorable thing. I'm sooo excited that he's actually getting lines. When he said something about them being trapped in the pool I melted. Too precious.

Svetlana - I'm so glad that the Milkovich household is one big happy family but I have to echo a lot of other opinions I've seen saying I wish we'd have seen how they got there. Seeing Svetlana being BFFs with Ian and kssing both their cheeks (kill me now, how freaking glorious was that??) is such a 180 from where we ended last season so I feel like it's kind of a cop out. 

Ian - Ok, after stressing over the cheating spoilers for what felt like forever, I was acutally really really happy with how everything went down. I was pretty much expecting the worse and that was not it. Ian's inner struggle in the grocery store was so evident; it's not that he wanted to do it, he sooo didn't want to do it, but a part of his mind was telling him differently. I'm ecstatic that they made that obvious. At no point did he look happy or excited by the prospect of hooking up with the randoms. Plus, not a lot was actually shown AND there wasn't any full on sex. Silver lining, people. I was really content with it.

I was fully expecting Ian to be in denial but actually seeing it was hard. That, coupled with his inner struggles, made me realize just how tough this storyline is going to be (I mean obviously I knew it was going to be tough but now I'm really really realizing it). I'm really looking forward to the middle of the season for his arc.

Mickey - As always, I absolutely loved Mickey's storyline. I could talk about it for ages. Seeing him take Yev and be totally willing to change his diaper was, again, unexpected and I feel cheated of not getting to see that development, but it was still awesome. Being all boyfriendy in front of like nineteen people was positively delightful. He's clearly super happy with his life right now, finally, and ugh I do not want to see that taken away from him.

The moving truck scenes were really entertaining too and I love the "respectable" Milkoviches. Wonder if that scams gonna be a recurring thing or if it was just for this episode.

Mickey's scene with Fiona and Lip was what my dreams are made of. The fact that Lip and Fiona even went to Mickey warms my heart, and their sort of acceptance of Mickey is more than I could've ever asked for. That scene was perfectly balanced with the sad Ian talk and Mickey kicking the shit out of the dry cleaner guy. Scene's like that are why I love Shameless. 

Mickey being in denial really hurt, though. He's so happy and it would be easier if he knew that it wasn't going to last. I was kind of surprised that we didn't see a moment of realization on his face when he and Ian were in bed, like "oh shit, hypersexuality, Lip was right, everything's not ok." To me the fact that we didn't get that "oh shit" moment from him made everything worse, he's deep in denial and he's breaking my stupid heart.

Overall I really enjoyed this episode, mostly because I was expecting so much worse. It wasn't super captivating but it was a good way to set up the stories for the season. Can't wait for 5x02!

[d-a-r-k-arts]

26. The world scares me.

I can't wait to leave this shitful town, even this country, but I'm so scared that I'm not going to make it in the real world. I'm worried that I'm not even going to make it as a person and that life isn't going to be worth living. I just want to fast forward through this phase in my life and be 27 or something. I just want to have finished my degrees, to have a decent job or career and to have things to look forward to.  I'm sick of this transient stage; it feels like it's never going to end. 

No wonder I have trouble sleeping. 

[deansbunkbuddy]

concerts I wanna go to

foo fighters

aerosmith

adele

lady gaga

concerts I'm going to

Orion Festival (Metallica, Avenged Sevenfold, Artic Monkeys & more)

Pink Floyd

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Sometimes I look at my follower count and apart from wonder why the fuck people follow my dumb ass think 'wow look at all those potential friends, all ripe for the making' and then I remember I'm a fucking loser who can't into social interactions and that ends that train of thought :D