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It makes me so irrationally irritated when people frame Spy as sympathetic in regards to his abandonment of Scout as a Father.

His lack of responsibility as a Father is PATHETIC like genuinely his reasoning is pathetic. In the comics he admits to being ‘scared’ to commit to the role as a Father, and whether this fear came from a deep-rooted, theoretical trauma or not is nooooot an excuse but would be a wonderful REASON to why he abandoned Scout in the first place. A reason I DONT SEE PEOPLE EXPLORING.

I need people to stop dumbing it down to being ‘Spy abandoned his family for the greater good’ because a) it lacks so much depth and b) it sanitises Spy’s character.

I’m not trying to be ‘elitist’ as I believe it’s impossible to have one conscious interpretation of any of the characters in TF2, so in any manner, all characterisation is in some form ‘canon’ to their characters BUT IT LITERALLY MAKES ME BREAK OUT IN HIVES.

Spy SHOULD be flawed, and you SHOULD allow him to make negatively charged decisions. I’m not saying he doesn’t REGRET abandoning his child and I’m not saying Spy is all-encompassing bad but I just wish people didn’t try to make his reasoning so ‘self-sacrificing’ and ‘heroic’ as a way to try and make his character seem more appealing and angelic.

The appeal from his character should come from his genuine desire to CHANGE. To be present for Scout, to be better, and in some way be ‘available’ in a way he didn’t manage to be in Scout’s childhood.

Maybe it’s projection (absent Father core) but Spy was selfish in his decision and you should allow yourself to frame it as so. This doesn’t make his character BAD, it makes him REALISTIC.

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Real Question: how much do we *actually* know about Scout’s mother? Specifically the type of relationship the two of them would have? I know in a lot of fanfiction and headcanons Scout is VERY MUCH a momma’s boy, which makes sense given he’s the youngest AND doesn’t have a Father.

But how Boymum do you think she is? In regards to Scout especially because I feel like having a mercenary as your Lover and then eventually a Mercenary as your SON!! Like she must have been Boymum enough to forgive her son for MURDERRRRRRRRR.

But I know in some people’s writings, Scout keeps his mercenary job hidden from his mother which also makes sense in a way because… i mean… like i’m pretty sure most parents would be disappointed to hear their kids a full-time murderer lowkey… But also she TOOK A MERCENARY AS HER *LOVER* like I’m sure she wouldn’t care too much if she learnt Scout was a Mercenary too??

And was she present at the end of the Comics? Because you had even Heavy’s Mother there and considering the event took place at HER SON’S HOUSE you’d expect her to be there??

Anyway, Open Discussion.

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Another point regarding Spy & Scout that I’ve been thinking about lately.

I’ve seen a lot of works in which Scout picks up the habit of smoking as a form of relaxation and stress relief whilst simultaneously paralleling Spy’s habit of smoking (like father like son).

Again, this might be projection, but given Spy’s absence in Scout’s childhood I do not see Scout picking up smoking as a habit ESPECIALLY when his job (RUNNING!!!!!) relies on having good lungs.

Reflecting myself in Scout’s character, my Mother smokes, and while I haven’t picked up smoking for myself (yet) I have had the desire arise in me as this is the environment I have been raised in. Projecting this onto Scout and applying it to HIS familial situation, I don’t think the desire to smoke would come to HIM given Spy’s absence.

Of course, I am in agreement that Scout would have tried smoking at some point. He has seven older brothers all of whom are like… gang members there is no chance NONE of them smoke. He would try it to fit in with his brothers and get their approval (younger sibling 😞) but at max he would’ve done it twice in my opinion.

INSTEAD!!! A parallel between Spy and Scout having addictive personalities is far more suitable in my opinion. If Scout has an addiction to adrenaline (and caffeine: BONK), then Spy’s is to nicotine. It’s a small change but I genuinely think it has more impact than having Scout directly copy Spy’s habit.

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I’m thinking about the TF2 Lovetress dating sim that we will never ever get but desperately are crying for and I’m just wondering what would the routes even look like??

Like, I can imagine for Scout if we look at his date with Miss Pauling it’d likely be something similar, but at the same time WOULD it??

Would it be dating sim in the sense that you go on a daaaaaate with the mercs or would you. just. meet them? and the way you make them NOT kill you would be by swooning them? LIKE IDK GUYS

Or would it be dating sim but in a we explore deeper into the character psyches rather than actually romance them sense??? I WANT THIS DATING SIM SO BAD 😭😭😭😭

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TF2 dating sim except it’s Friend Fortress 2 where you have to be friends with everyone as part of some punk anti-Administrator scheme and the game ends with enemies to lovers with the Administrator

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Genuinely thinking of making a video essay on Spy’s individual character but then I’d feel an obligation to do the same for the other eight meeeeeeeeeercs (and Pauling, and I don’t think I’d give the Administrator any justice if I tried analysing her character)

the main characters I’d want to video essay for would be Spy, Scout (because ofc), Demo (I love you one chance - the video would be soooo biased) and Heavy.

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Going into an exam period starting tomorrow so I won’t have my Ipad to draw since it has to stay on school grounds </3 THREE DAYS OF FIVE HOURS OF EXAMS pray for me it’s in silence and zero music even though it’s an art exam </3

Basically, just as an update I probably won’t work on anything the next few days. After May 1st I am free though

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Great news everyone! Absolute Territory part two is DONE but I am waiting for my proofreaders to RESPOND!!!! So, it will be released either TONIGHT or TOMORROW depending how much I care about it actually being proofread.

I hope you don’t grill me for how I present the characters 😁👍

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I feel like I need to apologise because I AM working on the second part of Absolute Territory but I have no trust in my writing skills and everything I put down is ‘horrible’ and 😭😭 I keep on cutting shit out and I’m trying to decide the importance of other parts. I have the entire framework put down but I feel like I’m yapping a lot???

It’s a lot of… world description on how I imagine the base looks, and while Soldier tours you he’s not as much of a focus par the first part. I’m trying to decide how much of *other* characters you’ll see and how much you’ll interact with them this chapter. Part of me thinks it’s important to establish the dynamics, another part is worried about word count (and if most of my descriptions are filler and boring 😭)

I think my issue is that I’m writing with the presumption that the reader knows NOTHING about TF2 and how the characters act and interact because… that’s just how I write…? I think I have a habit of using more words needed

Anyways, chapter two release tomorrow or sunday? Please? Begging?

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Update no one asked for I FINALLY got the cables for my xbox and it works BUT. They removed. The Orange Box. From store. So I had to buy TF2 separately as a physical copy and it won’t come until next WEDNESDAY 😭

Weekend plans ruined 😞 I just wanna play tf2 babyyyy

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WAAAAAAR IS OVERRRRRR!!!!!

Finished it just now guys. I’m going to SLEEEEEEEP SOOOOO GOOOOOD TONIGHT!!!! This is my last exam but i have practical to finish in another subject by the end of the month but none of that matters because I’m freeeeee 🥳

Going into an exam period starting tomorrow so I won’t have my Ipad to draw since it has to stay on school grounds </3 THREE DAYS OF FIVE HOURS OF EXAMS pray for me it’s in silence and zero music even though it’s an art exam </3

Basically, just as an update I probably won’t work on anything the next few days. After May 1st I am free though