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[the-masked-society]

I don't know what time it is, but the sun have yet to rise. It is cold, and there is darkness surrounding me. Staring silently. Witnessing.

I had a dream again.

I was flying so freely. A makeshift angel, flying in loops and spins, the wind licking at my back and my hair. I was floating upon clouds like a bird freed from its cage.

Like this greek boy from the tale, I was free. I was flying around like a bird, my wings spread wide, torn and battered by the winds, yet strong. Carrying tall. I flew.

I flew, the sun, a glowing orb at the edge of the horizon, growing nearer as I went. It was so warm to the touch, even from a distance.

Like whisps of fire, catching, grabbing, and burning down and away anything in its path. Like a burnt old tossed away good-for-nothing piece of wood.

It's hot now, warm and fuzzy. The sweat is gathering, sliding off my arms as I toss and turn.

Addictive. I got to touch what others cannot. I get to see what they do not– hear the whisper of the sun in my ears as it beckons me closer.

And closer.

Like the whisper of a snake. The snake in eden.

And I fall, rays of fire spreading across the sky. Layers of feathers that accompany me as I drop, layers and layers like a frightened nest.

And regret wash over me. It's cold. Like waves of waters. Unshed tears sting at my lashes.

Yet I smile, I proudly scream as I go to my death, the horizon stretching scarily real. Accurately realistic. And my screams are wild, they are as free as a bird's playful chirp. As a hawk's cry when it catches its prey.

Because I touched the sun. For a moment, it was my lover. It touched me, grazed me lightly and whispered in my ears until they melted.

I did the impossible.

The world crashes into me, mountains bend over and the sky fall into the earth. And I smell everything— the scent of the land after the rain, the smell of the smoke of burning wood in a bonfire, even the aroma of the flowers and the hum of the bees. And my eyes see far, from edge of the world to the other end. I hear the cries of babies and the color of the flames crackling softly.

And then I wake again.

It is cold again. My skin is clinging to my bones. My hands feel clammy, there is vomit in my throat, clinging to my teeth.

I am shaking again. I see double and triple and numbers that men can't yet count on its meek, feeble hands.

I had a dream again.

I learn to decipher when I was asleep and when not. It was becoming easy really– you only dream of things that are not real, not true.

I dreamt I was free.

(06/04/25 | 4:17 am)

[hinamie]

I could've been a better man, but I'm not

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[nanihirunkits]

THE HEART KILLERS | BEHIND THE SCENES

[arthur-lesters-topsurgeryscars]

arkayne in a nutshell. To me.

anyways I’m gonna go draw kayne’s toothy pseudo-top-surgery-scars now. No one look at me bye

(Insp below)

[icewindandboringhorror]

him as bapy... and him 17 years later (still bapy)

[cozylittleartblog]

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[foxesjostens]

twin sized mattress - the front bottoms / summer sons - lee mandelo

[itsclydebitches]

"[Fitzjames'] public demeanor, which was always an easy mix of self-effacing humor and firm command, remained the same, but in private with only Crozier in attendance, Fitzjames spoke less, smiled less frequently, and too often looked distracted and miserable. For a melancholy man like Crozier, the signs were obvious. At times it was like staring into a looking glass, except for the fact that the melancholy countenance staring back was a proper lisping English gentleman rather than an Irish nobody."

The Terror, Dan Simmons

[starlightsuncrow]

Memorize every curve, flaw, color and sentiment one last time, you don't know if you ever see him again.

Cantha started with a heartbreak !

[philcollinsenjoyer]

noel should be calling blur fags again on the way out of the gig even

[generic-enthusiast]

when steve gets angry he hits things, he screams, he loses control. but never towards the people he loves. he could never stoop that low, never feel himself becoming his father.

when soda gets angry he runs. he doesn't know how to express it, how to tell someone he's frustrated or annoyed or that the world has become too much, so he runs.

when darry gets angry he breaks. he lives building a dam around everything he doesn't want the world to know, everything he's ashamed of, and when something breaks that dam... anything can happen.

when dally gets angry he forces himself into indifference. emotions are weakness, no matter what kind, and if your opponent knows you're unstable, they can down you more easily. if you know him well enough, you might be able to see the storm building up in his eyes.

when johnny gets angry he takes it out on himself. he curls up and lets the anger curl inwards, tearing himself apart instead of whoever he wishes were on the receiving end. because it's all his fault really.

when two-bit gets angry he gets drunk. he can't make his dad come back, can't make his sister happy, can't make the social divide disappear. all he can do is try to forget about it.

when ponyboy gets angry he creates destructively. he writes about death and makes entire pages almost black. his pen scribbles so aggressively a hole appears in the paper and he'll always end up destroying whatever it is he's made.

[tfbquotes]

leaf pile // The Front Bottoms

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[outtawack]

You are the reason i'm smiling when there is nothing to smile about.

[moe-broey]

Okay, I was almost tempted to make a poll, but. As fun as it is as an idea (yay! Group participation!), I think I already made my choice and didn't wanna disappoint anyone if I didn't pick the winning option LMFAO

So, instead, I just wanna walk you through my thought process! Book 3 is approaching, for my quotes blogs specifically I mean. This means I have to set up the evil-alfonse-quotes -- I mean, Lif quotes blog. For the Bit.

For Alfonse and Sharena, I picked out some FEH comic illusts that I think represent them well. Both of them being silly and sweet w Kiran on the header, and the icons! I wanted to capture them each, on a few dif fronts.

Like! Those are my friends! I know them! Alfonse, with an award winning sincere smile, but also! Putting on a good face. Best foot forward. He has an appearance to keep. He's also very charming! As for Sharena! OH THERE ARE SO MANY GOOD SHARENAS TO PICK FROM. You can take that same angle -- award winning smile, best foot forward, to the MAX with her. But!!! Out of all of the choices I could go with... this icon feels like something she would pick herself. It's silly, it's playful, it's cute! Even the more chibi style suits her perfectly, esp in contrast to Alfonse's look.

Okay! So, back to Lif. I already have the idea of making what I lovingly call the Askr Extended Family Photo Comic the header. Where Lif is spotted shuffling behind Gustav, in the background. It is just. EXTREMELY funny, to me. He's a fucking cryptid, to me. Rare Lif Sighting. And APPARENTLY. YEAH. RARE LIF SIGHTING FOR FUCKING REAL. As far as I know, dude has only shown up in THREE Day in the Life comics, including that one. Damn. Okay!

I did not know how dire the situation was, going into this. So I'm scouring the website and also looking through an archive. I have the header, but I need an icon! I come out with a grand total of... three. Options.

I gravitate towards this option first. Rare Lif, so early on it's not on the site (I could be wrong, but also I did flip through all the way back til I couldn't anymore! Cuts off on a Ranulf and Lethe centric comic). Okay, so, what's the deal here? Should be simple? Easy, done? Well... while it's a very nice illustration of him. He looks cool, brooding, threatening. It's a little... stiff. Like, I might as well pull from his in-game art! Which is ALSO really good, but, not what I'm aiming for. It's hard to explain, but art created for specific purposes has different vibes. You know. In-game art is meant to showcase The Art, and the best features of the character. Comic illustrations can get sillier! Or can focus on more personality based things. And capturing the personality, is what I'm going for! Also... because it's a rare Lif, and bc of the way this illust is drawn... it's not immediately clear this is a FEH comic panel. It might not even be clear that it's official artwork. As an artist myself, I'd prefer to stick to clearly official work for this! I don't want any confusion or concerns about uncredited art!

NEXT. I literally only have one other comic to pull from, now. And... Okay, hear me out. I love silly-ifying this man. I love goofing on this absolute DRAMA queen of a man. I love poking fun at him at every opportunity. There is a Reason why I named the blog something stupid instead of being straightforward. HOWEVER. While this is a fun, silly moment..... it just doesn't capture him in his entirety, you know? In fact, I'd argue this is a rare moment where he's directly contradicting his dark, brooding and tortured persona he's so carefully crafted (and well, the natural bits of it too. That came with The Trauma). To me, esp in the full context of him and Thrasir saying "Our work here is Done" Tuxedo Mask style, dumping the rest of the workload (of which, to be fair, was not in their jurisdiction) onto ANNA. You know, Commander Anna? The woman, while not the exact one, but the woman he used to work so closely with? His boss, his co-worker, his friend? Oh he is ABSOLUTELY doing that on purpose to fuck with her. This is a Lif zoomies moment to me. This is a Lif DEEPLY INGRAINED NEED to be A Jackass moment. To me. The type of jackassery that comes with being an older brother. Old habits die hard.

All of that said... it's a very good moment. It's also a very cute illustration. But it's too cute. Too playful. Too silly. It's a real and true moment from him that just doesn't fit the same way anymore. And definitely doesn't capture him in his entirety. This is my opinion, my verdict, with great regret and sorrow. Next!

Out of the illusts from this comic, really only two are usable as an icon. This is the other one. And..... HEAR ME OUT. It goes back to my thoughts of picking that specific illust for the header. Catching a Glimpse of the local cryptid haunting the place. The Ghoul Himself, lurking and shambling about. AND GOING BACK to my thoughts on why I picked those specific Alfonse and Sharena icons!!!!! To capture their personalities, and the faces they put forward to the world! How they see themselves, or want to be seen! Oh, Lif does NOT want to be Seen. This is one of two candid shots you were able to snap of him while all other attempts he's like Big Foot. Some blurry, glowy spectre who is going to get SO FUCKING MAD AT YOU when he catches you trying to catch Him. And!!! And!!!!! POKING FUN AT HIM. The comedy of seeing This Fucking Guy in broad daylight is unparalleled. He looks SO out of place, on a nice, clear, sunny day. Not so scary now, running errands for Commander Anna, ARE you, buddy? Huh?? Huh??? Oh god wait don't reach for your cursed sword I'M SORRY I'M SORRRYYYYY --

It's funny! Ironic! That the third one was a "I'll do it if I Have To", in my mind. I didn't want to use it. I did, very much, want to pick something Cooler. But no... that's not the Route....... do not be swayed by his objectively very cool appearance and his dangerous demeanor. Rule number one to being a Lif enjoyer is you HAVE to make fun of him. Rule number two, is that you have to make fun of him in a Lif-honoring way. You cannot solely focus on what makes him cool, what makes him tragic, and what makes him endearing, those rare moments of softness. No. You need to Hone In. LOCK IN. On what would make him want to punt you across the battlefield, full fucking force.

That's just how I feel, though! Thank you for joining me on this little journey! ☺️☺️☺️😌💖💝💗💘💞💝💞💘💖💞💖💓💞💓💖💞💓💖💗💗💝💘💘💞💕💕💕

[shes-starshaped]

i failed to get tickets 😔

😭 YKNOW 😭 WHAT. 😭 I 😭 NEVER 😭 LIKED 😭 OASIS 😭 ANYWAY. 😭 WHO 😭 CARES 😭 ABOUT 😭 TWO 😭 LAME 😭 GUYS?? 😭 NOT 😭 ME?? 😭