#by having brain too eepy to function

[moeblob]

And then his husband enters his life and is like "do you have toe beans as a dragon? is that a thing? do reptiles have toe beans?" and Sascha looks at him like "I do not know the meaning of those words in that order..."

edit: ...I forgot my own OCs scar (now included)

[avese23]

Gremlin hours and the creature inside wants to gaslight white people on the internet

[caliburn-not-calculator]

Shaking MR-SN, shaking him so much

We see so little of his characterisation but I am chewing on every bit there is

I’m like, really hung up on this one line of K-LB’s, ‘he never took no for an answer’. And like, MR-SN is so good and inspiring and kind and such a dreamer but that one thing… I know I’m probably overthinking it but it’s just

A flaw

I’m too tired for fancy words but I have him in a cocktail shaker clanging around

He’s so determined and such a dreamer that of course he’d see what he believes to be the the best, right and true choice and then refuse anything else. He doesn’t take no for an answer cause he’s an unrealistic idealist with a head full of dreams. What makes him so inspiring and such a good leader and someone people gather around to follow is the exact same quality that most taints him…

Anyway I think this might all be actually very surface level but I am eepy and brain is soup and agrhdhgrhrv

Love a double edged character traits

I love when you’re greatest strength is your greatest weakness

I’m now thinking of all other kinds of ways said flaw of not knowing when to back down or accept defeat or consider for once that maybe he cannot do the thing he wants to do could come into play

Fuuuck, the reason why DX-TR followed him being the reason he betrayed him. He followed him because of all the above traits and then betrayed him cause he wouldn’t make the pragmatic functional choice DX-TR thought was necessary… MR-SN always thinking he is right, that he knows the way, always so convicted (don’t even get me started on conviction as a theme with rwd) and then everything falling apart when he’s wrong about his closest and oldest friend and suddenly everything isn’t so ideal and maybe he pushed too far and maybe he should have seen all the nos the universe was telling him and then maybe he wouldn’t have died for it…

Idk guys

Anyway, Himb

[roseytoesy]

Nom-onaut headcanons pt. 1

I'm making this a part 1 cause over time I keep getting more ideas. From the octoagents to episodes and stuff I find elsewhere on the internet. This part covers shellington, inkling, tweek, and some other general ideas I've had.

anyway! everything else under the cut.

Recently tried to draw the crew and got alot of fun ideas from doing that.

Shellington being a sea otter means that he is not built for walking like at all. He has very large clumsy flat feet. This explains why he trips over himself so often.

His AuDHD makes him so book smart, but so stupid once out of his lab.

He and inkling hang out often in the library or lab depending on who is busier.

He and dashi get along great too!

He collects a bunch of little rocks and has used them like tools every once in a while. he keeps his most handy one in his book bag.

He also fidgets horrendously with anything nearby. usually a rock in his hand or the strap of his satchel.

Unfortunately Tweek has a bit of a cold shoulder to him due to how often he crashed her precious gups. But would happily reteach him some driving lessons. unfortunetly he is so scared of that florida girl.

The vegimals will have their own post + art i did of them to better capture their fish counterpart colors and bodies.

Professor inkling is likely in his late 50's. or so it seems to me

With his 8-9 brains as octopi have, he's incredibly smart, able to memorize most of a book in one sitting.

He can taste through his tentacles and keeps his suckers as lax as possible to not stick to too many things, though his gripping ability is quite strong.

This is shown in the rainforest above and beyond episode, he memorized that manual pretty fast even when under pressure.

anyway, Inkling is also very aware of his restrictions on land, and his chair has a little misting function to keep him wet.

there is a hidden tank in the library where he sleeps.

Thanks to being boneless, he has some fun around Halloween being contorted and jump scaring some of the others by hopping out of odd tiny spaces. having no bones is pretty fun.

though if he's particularly tired he kinda flattens when outside of water. eepy puddle.

Inkling has had many experiences being eaten by his larger cousins, he and his family do safe noms all the time.

So it was honestly fine that he was the first of any of the octonauts to be eaten. he was a bit confused but the whole experience was fairly familiar.

Inklings ears flap when he's happy, droop when sad, and flatten back when upset.

He can also change his colors but wasn't recognized so he tries to keep himself as his neutral pink.

Tweek Is a full on crazy Florida girl.

Marsh rabbits are amazing swimmers and apparently lack a tail.

her hearing is amazing and her ears twitch when she focuses on listening.

She is a night owl, staying up late working on tinkering, building, and planning.

Her forearms and hands are stained black due to how much oil and other mechanical grease she has had covering them.

She insists she doesn't have a favorite gup its the Gup X. but she is also very proud of the Gup V the vegimals made.

She has fun gaming nights with Kwazii, and they play fight often, sometimes even wrestle, she usually wins too but Kwazii will never admit it.

Her kicks are deadly, and if she's angry you can hear and feel her stomping through the entire octopod.

Though he is also an amazing swimmer and can easily navigate through dense roots and vegetation. Her ears are also very expressive.

Her fur isn't truly green. her fur is mostly a light brown, she's green due to an accident with an early dye machine she made. It was unfortunately permanent so she's green almost everywhere, except for the bottom of her feet.

Other headcannons:

The fish biscuits use a lot of kelp which is apparently rich in a lot of vitamins and minerals, they are flavored with fish oil to trick predators.

Kwazii, Barnacles, Peso, Shellington, and Inkling need a special added protein to satiate some more dangerous predatory instincts, especially when helping so many easily eaten little creatures. They also take some supplements for anything else they may be missing in their natural diet.

The octopod and the gups have a bit of a special AI that helps them help the octonauts. Its very minor, but it comes in handy when the gups are able to pull a bit harder despite supposedly giving it all it mechanically could.

There is a bit of truth to all of Kwazii's stories thanks to the mysterious forces that lurk in the ocean, there are also many mythological things, only one or two but still they are there.

Kwazii has a unique ability to sense any supernatural beings.

Each character likes to collect different things.

Shellington likes little rocks

Inkling likes old books, memorabilia, and other old artifacts and items.

Dashi loves old pictures, sea-glass, and anything unusual

Tweek loves old toys and metal scrap, she's made some tiny statues and tiny machines out of scraps.

the vegimals love to plant any mystery seeds they find floating around.

Kwazii loves anything pirate related, or anything like gold and precious items like goblets and jewelry.

Barnacles will appreciate anything given to him, but he especially loves little mementos from missions.

[fabrickind]

so how in the absolute fuck did Zettai Unmei Mokushiroku save your life

LMAO a couple people have been wondering this so I'll tell the story.

tl;dr: if you are having severe medication side effects, get off that med.

In fall of 2017 I came down with a nasty migraine(? probably?) that disabled me to the point of being pretty much non-functional. I had to quit my job, I could barely leave bed, was in too much pain 24/7 to sleep properly and when I did sleep it was nothing but dreams about being in pain, the works.

I went through a LOT of different medications and diagnostics (MRI, spinal tap, you name it) to try to fix this problem. It never fully went away, but Botox ended up getting me functional again.

One of the medications they put me on, Topamax, was very bad for me. I did the proper ramping up of dose, got to the correct dose, and everything was so much worse. I was having hallucinations, visual disturbances, overall a bad time.

Around this time I was also having issues with word recall. I would mean to say one thing but a totally different word would come out, or I couldn't think of a word at all. Usually this was when I was super tired, so I just chalked it up to my brain being mush due to pain and fatigue (my brain is often soup when I have a migraine, let alone one that severe for going on several months at that point) and mostly ignored it, since i had more pressing problems.

Around this time the neurologist I saw also saw my symptoms and side effects and the fact that the med wasn't helping up to that point and said "well all of that will get better with time" and wrote me a prescription for quadruple (!!) my dose (without ramping up either).

THANKFULLY, just before this happened, I was in the car, fully awake, having a relatively good day, and what comes on my iPod shuffle but our old friend Zettai Unmei Mokushiroku. I was singing along, well, trying to, but I would open my mouth and only gibberish would come out, and not even the correct gibberish. I thought "that's concerning" and tried again. More gibberish.

I had remembered that my now partner (this was just before we started dating) was briefly on Topamax for migraine prevention and had word recall issues, but that hers persisted for a long time after she stopped.

So I called up my GP and said "uhhh here's my side effects (including the aphasia issues, the neurologist knew about those) and the dose he wants me on, should I do this?" and she basically said "wtf no stop the med right away."

If I hadn't had the issues with very much the wrong sounds coming out of my mouth when singing, I probably would have believed the neurologist and suddenly started a quadruple dose of the med, which would have caused even worse side effects, and side effects that were permanent, or at least MUCH longer lasting than the maybe month or so of continued visual issues and mild word recall issues I ended up with. (Also my overall health improved and I had less of the extreme eepies I had on the med once I stopped.) Luckily I was only on it for maybe two weeks at that point?

So "ZUM saved my life" is probably an exaggeration, but "ZUM prevented continued and long-lasting neurological problems" is absolutely not. It seems like sometimes the cognitive impairments go away for people after stopping Topamax, but for people who have been on high doses and/or for a long time, it sometimes doesn't, even after years.

So thanks, Utena, for my life, literally this time.

[theredstargalaxy]

Eepy...

But also...

Prowling Tumblr seems more appealing...

But our Starscream agrees with me and that immediately makes me go 'fuck you were going to bed soon'. Affectionately ofc.

Star says hi btw. Same with Soundwave it's here too, curled up against my back like a cat. Means we should probably go to bed lolll

- 0/Bee

Yes, O/Bee, you should go to bed. It's unhealthy to deny yourself the rest you need to function. May I suggest giving the body chamomile tea, or warm milk? That usually helps me out pretty well during sleepless nights.

Also, hello, Starscream. You need sleep, too, you know. I know you have a lot to do, and I know your brain--er, processor-- may not want to be quiet, but please, at least close your eyes for a while, okay? Tumblr will be here when the sun comes up tomorrow.

~Kai

[laikiirnodel]

Oh so the sudden drop in executive function might be related to suddenly not having a regular martial arts class/community?

Because I've been missing Aikido (used to have weekly few-hour trainings, with an intensive weekend every month or two. Currently don't have a dojo or relevant class within walking distance, and don't have transportation or complementary schedule for the next closest one I know of)

Also last time I was around aikido folks (October) I was only able to do like half an hour before I had to stop and rest on the side. Felt weird.

On the other hand, I have gotten into paper doll type games, games like Stardew that require decisions and time management (your character gets eepy at midnight and passes out wherever they are at 2am. There are penalties for passing out not in your bed.), and trying to do more cooking.

I absolutely *cannot* do podcasts without a very specific activity level going on concurrently. If my other task is not engaging enough, then my brain will wander off on tangents. If the task is too engaging, it will take over my attention and I will lose track of the audio. Either way requires rewinding and hoping I can find what I missed.

By the way, you can improve your executive function. You can literally build it like a muscle.

Yes, even if you're neurodivergent. I don't have ADHD, but it is allegedly a thing with ADHD as well. And I am autistic, and after a bunch of nerve damage (severe enough that I was basically housebound for 6 months), I had to completely rebuild my ability to get my brain to Do Things from what felt like nearly scratch.

This is specifically from ADDitude magazine, so written specifically for ADHD (and while focused in large part on kids, also definitely includes adults and adult activities):

Here's a link on this for autism (though as an editor wow did that title need an editor lol):

Resources on this aren't great because they're mainly aimed at neurotypical therapists or parents of neurdivergent children. There's worksheets you can do that help a lot too or thought work you can do to sort of build the neuro-infrastructure for tasks.

But a lot of the stuff is just like. fun. Pulling from both the first article and my own experience:

Play games or video games where you have to make a lot of decisions. Literally go make a ton of picrews or do online dress-up dolls if you like. It helped me.

Art, especially forms of art that require patience, planning ahead, or in contrast improvisation

Listening to longform storytelling without visuals, e.g. just listening regularly to audiobooks or narrative podcasts, etc.

Meditation

Martial arts

Sports in general

Board games like chess or Catan (I actually found a big list of what board games are good for building what executive functioning skills here)

Woodworking

Cooking

If you're bad at time management play games or video games with a bunch of timers

Things can be easier. You might always have a disability around this (I certainly always will), but it can be easier. You do not have to be this stuck forever.

[unfilteredrealities]

Life Update

today is such a shitty day.

first i woke up confused what day it is and the second i realised i have a body i felt that today is a bad flare day...

then i stayed in bed for a while until i was able to get out of bed

my anxiety is crippling me since a week now and its like more than the baseline anxiety i experience, its to the point im on the verge of panic attacks but im glad im catching it in time to ground before it escalates but im sure i wont be able to catch all of them before

managed to put laundry to wash bcs i was postponing that for a while and i was running low on clean clothes and underwear and socks so it was needed.

lunch was ok i guess

then i was eepy from lunch and fell asleep

woke up in the afternoon and hung up the laundry but before that i tried to comfort my mom bcs she is currently sick and she was annoyed she cant be active and go to the farmers market to buy fresh veggies and all that and i told her this whole last week she was very active bcs her body working hard to heal her from the bronchitis she has and i guess she calmed down.

then she went back to bed , i hung the laundry , ended up having a pots episode and a meltdown and started to cry and dissociate for a while rocking on the 100 year old rocking chair we have until i snapped out and finished hanging up the laundry but the last 3 clothing pieces i just threw on the drying rack bcs i had zero spoons and fucks to give

went back to bed and cried

ordered food bcs mom asked me to order pizza for dinner so i did

all good, food was nomnom

then i played some fortnite idk how i am still decent even if i didnt play in a long while still managed to get to 4th place

now i am blasting music into my ears with my skullcandy headphones that have extra bass to decompress my silly brain.

missing my partner a lot but im counting the days down till vacation soon and me being able to see him for almost 2 weeks.

super worried tho bcs my chronic illnesses are cursed as fuck lately and i do not like that...idk how im gonna be able to walk lot, not have pots episodes, 24/7 pain, fatigue and stuff...

at least i have a collapsible walking cane to help me.

i realized im still not able to accept im fucked health wise and i cant function the way i used to in the past where i had no issues with walking, doing many things, no heart issues etc.

now i have to think if i have the spoons to go in my lunch break at work to the store or no

if i can take the bus back home or not bcs if too full i have to stand and i will faint if standing too long due to pots and feeling like im doing a plank but while standing

i feel ashamed im taking an uber to work and back home nowadays instead of walking 25-30min (like 1.5km which is not much at all and in the past i had no issues walking that distance) im daily scared that the drivers will judge me for taking an uber. Cab drivers would have filled an imaginary fridge with lots of swearing if i would have gotten one for that distance...

but alas im using uber since 3 years to get to work, 2 1/2 years i either walked partially or took the bus i guess..

today i feel like giving up bcs of my own hardships

bcs of life events and me hating how fucked the world is

bcs why am i even persisting staying alive

i noticed that at work im less talkative, only if its needed like talkative in the sense when we dont have calls bcs when clients call i unfortunately have to speak to them so yeah but besides of that im less haha hihi shenaningans...a coworker noticed im less talkative but i was like just tired all good (like i didnt lie im tired but its not the normal tired)

anyway idk where i wanted to go with this.

sorry for the long word vomiting

stay safe, ur loved and valid and im rooting for ya!!!!

[carbonausmoth]

resils are extremely strange creatures

they evolved from mushrooms into a humanoid lump.

they had no hair, no bones, they wwere very alien

then they were modified to be cuter, and more humanoid

they were given hair. and they seperately used it to convey magical element.

they have no separate sexes. only C R E A T U R E

despite that they need two individuals to reproduce

and also their reproductive organs double as chemical communication centers (?)

lets skip 25000 years into the future

they still have hair although it isnt always made of. hair. its sometimes made of leaves

well its similar to hair and leaves n stuff.

they have several sexes now. each subspecies has its own set. they can reproduce with any other and also interspecies.

interspecies relationships are frowned upon in most arms, unfortunately. i was abandoned as a mere larva because i was a mixed species.

some have fully-functional wings. if you want, you can have them too, you just need to pick exactly what you want and where, and let the medbay (built into most ships) print and attach them.

they arent born with exoskeletons (in rare cases where they do have exoskeletons, it results in injury later in life and is removed) but can map their body inside and out and most printer systems will be able to print the individual an exoskeleton. light, durable, and protective!

they have computers that are the size of radios and have enough power to simulate everything on a trip and chart a course.

they have slightly less intelligence of a human. but they have 5 brains

they only use 3 of the 5 brains at a time. the other 2 are basically harchives of the individual's memory. you know, in case their limb that stores memory gets chopped off.

most of all their insides are liquid. it flows. if you cut them open, they spill. like an egg

their limbs will regrow it'll just hurt really bad, and take a while. so usually they just print a new limb and attach it in the medbay.

(god fucking damnit leave me ALONE memories)

they have pet dragons!!! and the dragons are dragonflies!! and they are ADORABLE w

what has this post turned into. anyway

they can consume almost anything. including stones n stuff

except!!!!!! SOME substances

they dont have an end to their digestive track. well they do, but they have no waste. anything that would be waste gets thrown into a special organ that turns it all into maji crystals.

ummmmmm

they eat food for energy. BUT!!!! they ALSO photosynthesize! they can pick one or the other depending on the enviroment!

if they live in a particularly sunny planet and their family line has all lived on this planet, when they journey into space they can eat food that was canned centuries in the past

so um yeah. idk.

um... bai i am eepy i must eep and sleep because i am eepy and sleepy. uhm., i want to uh.be held. sqished. compressed. and i want to be squeezed by hot men forever . uhm men?! i dont like men at all totally. nuh uh

[jaxyscreams]

Have started on the enemy scripts B) but I’m so fucking eepy idk how much more work I can do

I need the Fly to follow the Player when it spots them and try to push the Player making it more difficult to jump around and paint the platform

And for the Spider to attack the player, doing damage & killing the player ofc if health hits 0.

And I need to add health code & a Die() function & stuff for the _isAlive bool

I, like, know what I need to do but brain going too slow to work on it so I’m at the very least taking a break.