#disabled and confused

[unfilteredrealities]

Hey Google , where is the switch off button for the pain and suffering bcs I can’t find it and i slowly feel like this is chronic and not temporary 😭

[le-fruit-de-la-passion]

Perhaps a Hot Take: I don't have anything against JayVik as a ship, but the amount of people in the fandom who use it as an opportunity to be openly racist and misogynistic towards Mel and Sky, and to feminize/infantilize Viktor as a disabled man make it REALLY hard to enjoy

[taro-pdf]

Humans are Space Oddities: Foster Human

When humans went to space, they expected themselves to be one of the more advanced species, only to find that space was already very populated. To less advanced, they were predators, and to more advanced, savages. Space is vast, and eventually some humans were kept as novelties.

Guang was excited to foster a human. After all, it had read about how humans would fight anything, eat anything, and survive anything. And though Guang was not strong, it’s partner, Hei, was, and would keep it safe.

The human arrived disgruntled, but Guang was not perturbed. It had heard of their pack-bonding abilities, and was ready to be patient and gentle. It even made sure to pick one that knew the Universal Interplanetary Language, so they didn’t need to wait for translators to work. Guang moved and spoke slowly; they didn’t need anything to slow the communication process more. It bent down to eye level.

“Hello. My name is Guang, it/its, a light alien. I process slowly, so don’t speak too fast. I am glad that you arrived safely. You are called Fern, she/her, human, correct?”

The human flapped her hands, nervous, or maybe excited. “Human, correct?” she repeated, then spouted out, “Hei is a powerful space fae that was born on earth but left as its magic grew," she inhaled, obviously making an effort to slow her speech. Guang blinked. It appreciated her effort, but why was she telling it about its own partner? The human continued, “this is common for fae. Did you know space fae are understudied due to the fact that they are extremely powerful and hard to approach? It’s theorized their power comes from dark matter.”

“Right,” Guang replied, “well-”

“Light aliens are a species often used for service for the ultra wealthy,” the human interrupted. “They are treated as living lamps due to their ability to produce both bioluminescent and electrical light extremely efficiently, as well as their ability to stay still for long periods of time.” 

Humans did like to talk, but Guang was unsure if this is what they usually talked about. 

“That’s correct,” it replied. It sat down and held out its hand, which the human grabbed and studied. “I was also on a ship from hatching until Hei approached me and I was given to it as a gift. But it treated me as a being, and I learned to think of myself as a being as well.”

“I’m a being as well,” the human said, dropping Guang’s hand and turning to the door. Guang followed their line of sight to see Hei walking in. It had taken a smaller, humanoid form, as Guang had asked it to.

“Hello Fern,” it said, speaking its native tongue.

“Hello Fern,” Fern repeated in the same language, approaching Hei. It squinted at her.

“Pardon me, do you understand what I am saying?” it asked. The human didn’t reply. She gazed at Hei’s translucent wings, and it turned so she could touch them.

“She’s been repeating what I say as well,” Guang explained.

“Call the agency and ask. The human should have been told how to introduce itself.” Hei handed Guang a communicator. The human mumbled something about aerodynamics.

“In the broader universe, convergent evolution meant that wings…” Fern started to explain.

With the human telling bits of information in the background, Guang called the agency. It was referred to a specialist that told it that human neurology varied greatly. The human’s behavior was not worrisome, but it may socialize differently than typical humans. If that’s a problem, it could be returned. Guang assured them it was not a problem.

At the end of the fostering period, Hei and Guang had learned much about their visitor. They learned to avoid certain textures, loud noises, and flashing lights. They learned that the human could tell them about almost any alien they wished. They learned that not every human would fight anything, and definitely wouldn’t eat anything. 

“Fern,” Guang’s chest had been feeling tighter and tighter as the day to return her grew closer, “I was wondering if you would like to stay?”

Fern was outside tending to the various lower species that she had befriended during her time on Hei’s planet. She didn’t turn toward Guang, but she did repeat its words.

“Like to stay.”

“Right,” Guang agreed, “I don’t want to treat you as a belonging to borrow and return. Being once one myself, and knowing you so well… I want you to stay”

“Humans have a rich history on their planet. They fought each other in countless wars. Some wars were for resources, others were for freedom.”

“I didn’t know that.” Guang was silent for a bit.

“Humans want freedom. It’s in their DNA. I’d like to stay.” Fern smiled, and Guang smiled back. Humans were ferocious, tenacious, and violent, but they were also gentle. Fern was proof of that.

[toonheartz]

[ID: A reference image for a blue version of Mickey Mouse.

Their name is Mick, and they're wearing a black hoodie with the hood down, and a sleeveless denim jacket over it. The front of the jacket is covered in many pins, like the trans pride flag, the genderfluid flag, a black patch that says "the first pride was a riot", an ambiguous shape with a red crossed out symbol over it, a watermelon, the autism creature, and a small black patch that is cut off due to the angle, reading "eat the".

The back of the jacket has the Public Domain symbol, white a lower case C on a black background that is crossed out, with ears at the top to match Mick.

They are holding a dark blue offset cane, and have band aids on their leg, nose, and one finger.

Text around her says:

-any pronouns -soft spoken but stands up for their friends -fucks around and finds out -being of pure spite

Back patch should always be the public domain symbol with ears

Feel free to swap patches in the same theme or omit them for simplicity

Uses cane for balance, relieving pressure on his legs, and whacking people

Bandaids are optional and can be any color / placed anywhere (she's very clumsy)."

The very bottom of the page has the hashtag, "mickeysona".

End ID.]

lil something to celebrate the mouse entering the public domain :]

[dredgen-dumbass]

Also some disability pride ones tyvm

[freaky-flawless]

FUCK OFFFFFF

[vib-ri]

[chronicbitchsyndrome]

i am majorly not a fan of how a bunch of disability tumblr is retiring "abled" in favor of "able-bodied," especially in contexts where it makes no logical sense. "able-bodied people have no idea how miserable it is to rely on SSI" for example. you are directly implying something about the lives of intellectually disabled people, people with downs, nonverbal people, etc, and i don't like it.

[extreme-dyke-syndrome]

I was using my forearm crutches, and this person did the ridiculous "what happened??" thing. I absolutely blanked out on how to respond, so I just ended up going

"Nothing, I'm just built like this."

She asked no follow-up questions.

[thejudgingtrash]

As someone with a disability I’m puzzled when people say that Sukuna isn’t disabled.

Everything about him screams disabled. From obvious facial disfigurement and other anatomical disfigurement (like bones sticking out of his ears).

I’ve also come across the argument that him being evil means he can’t be disabled (because bad rep, which I get but there are other disabled characters even if they’re underused in the story), which… no??

Disabled people aren’t a monolith. And I don’t think Sukuna is meant to be seen as a role model. He’s clearly the antagonist in this.

Do you see Sukuna as disabled? Or not? And if not, why not?

[mr-payjay]

closes my eyes. why aren't normal working prosthetics Cool Enough for the osc. why do people have to "get creative" and draw prosthetics that clearly were made with No prosthetic references that work Impossibly and are a Perfect fix for the disability. why do people Refuse to look at even a SINGLE IMAGE of an actual prosthetic. what's so BAD about actual prosthetics??? why NOT draw them?? you CAN be creative with actual working prosthetics that DONT erase a disability, but people don't even TRY!!! it drives me Nuts

[unfilteredrealities]

Life Update

today is such a shitty day.

first i woke up confused what day it is and the second i realised i have a body i felt that today is a bad flare day...

then i stayed in bed for a while until i was able to get out of bed

my anxiety is crippling me since a week now and its like more than the baseline anxiety i experience, its to the point im on the verge of panic attacks but im glad im catching it in time to ground before it escalates but im sure i wont be able to catch all of them before

managed to put laundry to wash bcs i was postponing that for a while and i was running low on clean clothes and underwear and socks so it was needed.

lunch was ok i guess

then i was eepy from lunch and fell asleep

woke up in the afternoon and hung up the laundry but before that i tried to comfort my mom bcs she is currently sick and she was annoyed she cant be active and go to the farmers market to buy fresh veggies and all that and i told her this whole last week she was very active bcs her body working hard to heal her from the bronchitis she has and i guess she calmed down.

then she went back to bed , i hung the laundry , ended up having a pots episode and a meltdown and started to cry and dissociate for a while rocking on the 100 year old rocking chair we have until i snapped out and finished hanging up the laundry but the last 3 clothing pieces i just threw on the drying rack bcs i had zero spoons and fucks to give

went back to bed and cried

ordered food bcs mom asked me to order pizza for dinner so i did

all good, food was nomnom

then i played some fortnite idk how i am still decent even if i didnt play in a long while still managed to get to 4th place

now i am blasting music into my ears with my skullcandy headphones that have extra bass to decompress my silly brain.

missing my partner a lot but im counting the days down till vacation soon and me being able to see him for almost 2 weeks.

super worried tho bcs my chronic illnesses are cursed as fuck lately and i do not like that...idk how im gonna be able to walk lot, not have pots episodes, 24/7 pain, fatigue and stuff...

at least i have a collapsible walking cane to help me.

i realized im still not able to accept im fucked health wise and i cant function the way i used to in the past where i had no issues with walking, doing many things, no heart issues etc.

now i have to think if i have the spoons to go in my lunch break at work to the store or no

if i can take the bus back home or not bcs if too full i have to stand and i will faint if standing too long due to pots and feeling like im doing a plank but while standing

i feel ashamed im taking an uber to work and back home nowadays instead of walking 25-30min (like 1.5km which is not much at all and in the past i had no issues walking that distance) im daily scared that the drivers will judge me for taking an uber. Cab drivers would have filled an imaginary fridge with lots of swearing if i would have gotten one for that distance...

but alas im using uber since 3 years to get to work, 2 1/2 years i either walked partially or took the bus i guess..

today i feel like giving up bcs of my own hardships

bcs of life events and me hating how fucked the world is

bcs why am i even persisting staying alive

i noticed that at work im less talkative, only if its needed like talkative in the sense when we dont have calls bcs when clients call i unfortunately have to speak to them so yeah but besides of that im less haha hihi shenaningans...a coworker noticed im less talkative but i was like just tired all good (like i didnt lie im tired but its not the normal tired)

anyway idk where i wanted to go with this.

sorry for the long word vomiting

stay safe, ur loved and valid and im rooting for ya!!!!

[studying-roxas]

I don't want to overstep but I genuinely have a question about when neurodevelopmental disorders creep into physical disability.

I have dyspraxia. I was diagnosed with it 3 years before I even got my autism diagnosis. For those who don't know, dyspraxia, also known as childhood coordination disorder, affects one's coordination, proprioception, and fine motor skills.

Dyspraxics can often have difficulties with other things that people with motor disorders struggle with - walking, writing, buttoning clothes, driving, using cutlery, etc. All of these are physical manifestations of a neurodevelopmental disorder - dyspraxia is not considered a neurological disorder (which are often considered physical disabilities,) but a neurodevelopmental disorder. My coordination was clinically under where it was supposed to be. I was delayed in crawling, sucking on a straw, walking, and a few more missed milestones that I forget (oops). Usually these missed milestones are attributed to my asd, but they all are also common for dyspraxics.

From my understanding, a lot of autistics also experience these things even without the added dyspraxia diagnosis, which is where my question comes into play.

A lot of people will say that autistics do not have a physical disability, but if the majority of autistics meet the criteria of dyspraxia... does that mean the physical manifestations of dyspraxia are also not a physical disability? My dyspraxia affects my movement way more than my mild hypermobility does. It affects my movement way more than my knocked knees and duckfoot do. It affects my movement more than my scoliosis does. I always considered my dyspraxia to be my "main" physical disability.

Then I got into the disability community and had people telling me that my migraines and asthma counted as physical disabilities, but that my coordination disorder which affects my fine motor skills doesn't... despite it having a much greater affect on my physical ability to do things than my chronic migraines. I guess I'm just very confused as to how this is split.

My knocked knees + duckfoot is a physical disability because it's a malformation of my hips and legs that affects my gait, but my dyspraxia affects my gait just as much if not more than my knocked knees + duckfoot. It seems odd that one should be considered a valid physical disability and the other not just because it's how my brain developed as opposed to how my skeleton did.

I used to work with high support needs autistic people and knew some who used a wheelchair with no other diagnoses - just asd. I have met with other dyspraxics who need mobility aids due to severe coordination deficiencies (the person I'm thinking of specifically went back and forth between a cane and a walker). I used to work with many autistics who could not feed themselves due to motor control issues, or who would regularly aspirate on food and drink due to dysphagia.

I know this argument is tired, and I'm not asking to use the C slur or anything, I am just genuinely confused how we as a community are deciding what is a physical disability versus a neurodevelopmental disability that manifests with physical symptoms. If the accommodations i need for my fine motor difficulties are the same as any physical disability which causes fine motor difficulties, then what is the difference that makes discussing dyspraxia an intrusion on physical disability posts /gen

Edited to fix incomplete sentence. Sorry, sometimes my brain moves too fast for my hands

Edit 2: okay, I actually have more to add about how confusing this separation actually is. Catatonia is present in about 10% of psychiatric patients, including depression (with up to 20% of depression sufferers having catatonic depression). Recent studies into ADHD have shown that ADHD causes fine motor difficulties, on top of ADHD being one of the most common Dyspraxia comorbidities. Tic disorders don't count unless your tics affect your movement... even though all non-vocal and non-mental tics are physical tics. 80% of autistics have gait and movement differences. Schizophrenia spectrum disorders are particularly known for including catatonia. ALL of these are physical symptoms - more than that, they are symptoms that affect the ability to walk or access adequate fine motor control skills. These are also the disorders I see most commonly called out for claiming physical symptoms when "they don't have them." I am so confused on how you guys are classifying physical symptoms because these??? all of these symptoms??? very clearly physical and interrupt daily functioning.

I am just. Confused.

[taro-pdf]

HaSO: Not all humans are the same Humanity, neurodiversity, and connection in space

[Fern (human) walks through the break room of a spaceship. Two minutes later, she passes through again.] Egor [bromid]: what is the human doing? Vuna [bromid]: I do not know. We are just transporting her. Human Jeffery? Jeffery [human]: I don’t know either, Vuna; we call that pacing, but who knows why she’s doing it. 

V: but you’re a human. J [shrugs]: I’m not a human expert. [Fern enters the room] V: Fern? F [not stopping]: Vuna? V: Where are you walking? F [at the door]: Just walking. E: I’m going to join her! [F and E exit. Two minutes later, they walk through again, giggling together] V: Well, whatever floats their ship, to use the human phrase. J: Boat. But yeah, happy to see them happy.

[azztiph]

One thing that I love about my disabilities is that they have taught me to be slow and gentile

While I might not always want to be slow and gentle, I must

I need to treat my body with love and kindness

I need to treat her like a baby bird kicked from the nest for being too small

unable to keep up with those around her

I spent so much time hating my body

When she just needed to be loved

[thealienmoth]

Sometimes you go "nyah!" As a tic and people are like "aw that's adorable, I wish I had tourettes!".

And then you tic "I SHAT on your pillow!" with the deepest gravely voice your body can produce and suddenly everyone is uncomfortable.

Please decide if my disability is desirable or not, I need to know what the value is for pricing.