#cass rambles

[cass-iter-ite]

you

yes

you

you are allowed to be therian/otherkin/alterhuman

it's okay if you're not, but if you're questioning and waiting for permission, this is it. you're allowed.

[heckblade]

the one-two punch of “eat your young” and “damage gets done” is so fucking underrated btw. this really raunchy, visceral callout of war profiteering and the people in power who sold out future generations for the sake of capital, followed immediately by this soaring coming-of-age anthem about waking up into the harsh reality of the world we were handed, being expected to bear both the consequences AND the blame, the feeling of powerlessness and the deep, aching nostalgia for a time when we didn’t have to constantly reckon with such a bleak existence

[somanywords]

Steve finds Bucky in the kitchen, doing nothing but standing at the sink sipping tea, and he's learned a little more these days about the kind of baggage he's carrying, but he's still taken by surprise by the magnitude of the feelings that hit him all at once.

That's him, he thinks. Bucky. I know him.

It's not the pleased excitement of gaining a new friend. It's not the shaking jubilation of finding a long lost one. It's something deeper inside of him, something so good it almost hurts, something that cries out that's him. He's mine. I love him.

Steve can't help but wonder if Bucky ever feels the same, feels that deep swamping otherworldly gravity. Steve wonders if maybe it's just a him-thing. An eccentricity. He always did fall hard and fast, in over his head.

He says none of this out loud, just moves close enough to steal Bucky's tea mug. The tea tastes blueberry-ish. It's warm.

"Thief," Bucky says, his voice low and amused, sending shivers of recognition down Steve's spine.

He's known Bucky since he's known breathing, loving, living. He knows Bucky still.

"If you only knew," he replies lightly. If Bucky only knew which of them is the real thief, who's pocketed Steve's heart and lungs and bone marrow without seeming to realize it.

Bucky laughs a little, a sound deeply familiar.

"Do you ever," Steve tries, and then peters out. He can't put it into words, he can't. He tries to show Bucky what he means.

Steve sets the mug down on the counter and steps into Bucky's space, slowing down his own breaths to sync with Bucky's. He looks his fill - he's allowed to do that nowadays and that's another miracle - soaks up an expanse of Bucky. His hands find the warmth of Bucky's shoulder, the side of his neck. His hands fit there perfectly, because they remember how to. Bucky just watches him.

Steve breathes. Their breathing fills the space between them, a conversation without words. It's there, thrumming all around them. Do you feel it, do you feel it.

Bucky tilts his head just a little, and kisses him. Yes, Bucky means.

"I love you," Steve says, and he thought the words would be inadequate after all that, but they're not. Funnily enough. They're all he ever needs to say.

Bucky's hand finds his heart. Bucky's eyes are soft and searching.

"I love you," Steve says, and he means it in all the ways, in the way at the center of the world where the most familiar thing in the universe is the boy he grew up loving. "I love mmph -"

Bucky means, I love you too.

The tea grows cold on the counter.

[cpunkwitch]

Do you need to use a mobility aid to be cripple punk? or just disabled? Is there like criteria or anything?

Cripple punk is very interesting to me and I really feel like I need to find more disability community but I think it kind of incites some kind of insecurity that I don't count or I'm not 'disabled enough'

/gen

Cripple punk is for anyone of any physical disability, theres no dictating if you're "disabled enough" because there is no "enough" it's just simply if you're physically disabled regardless of how severe it is or isnt. Mobility aids arent a requirement, not everyone can afford one or is in an environment that let's them have one.

If your condition is in anyway debilitating then you are disabled, imposter syndrome is an ass and we all deal with it, but you are welcome.

The only people not welcome are able bodied people

The founder made it clear.

I will eventually have a post out talking more on cpunk and the slur itself

[pixiedustandpetrichor]

With all the ‘don’t idolize celebrities’ posts going around (very valid), i just want to point out that you don’t have to idolize someone to expect them to be a decent fucking person.

[dearpyramus]

if we don’t get a syd centric ep, more ebra and sweeps, less of the faks, and uncle carmy moments i will riot

[no-white-dress]

Every time I see a headline or post talking about how badly Elio flopped and they blame the story, the marketing or the artstyle, I'm like. Sure Jan. That’s totally it. Definitely did not have anything to do with the major world events that happened the week it dropped, the weeks before that, and the weeks after that. Absolutely insane to think that people may have to put their money somewhere else given the current state of the world.

[oh-no-another-idea]

Hiiiii guys! I'm alive and hanging in there, but currently quite offline and getting noooo writing done due to just making it through tech week into opening night for a musical production I'm involved with! Going to see what tags have been left for me, and then probably disappear again :)

[tea-and-antlers]

I have the drawings my friend made me for Christmas in 2017. I took the cactus they knitted me to college; I have the knitted bisexual pride bunny too, and the felted dragon, the embroidery hoops and the fanart.

I have a knitted sock with a message in Morse code on it hanging on my door; I wear a dress they knitted me with reverence for how it feels on my skin. I have a box of stickers they have sent me in letters.

I have the paper cranes my friend made while waiting to drive me home from my IUD appointment. I have the the wristbands from concerts my lover took me to, that bumped his as we held hands and sang along. I have photo boxes full of letters friends have sent me.

I have a million little trinkets and doodles and mementos. They hold spots on shelves and dressers and the fridge and they turn my home into an altar for the small moments of care that pass between us.

Minimalizam is bullshit; I keep all the things that forever physically remind me that I am fiercly and unapologetically loved.

[cass-iter-ite]

i run into so many people who are like "i'm not sure if i'm therian/otherkin but [describes the exact feeling of being nonhuman]" i wish i could squeeze them all and convince them that if they want the term it's for people just like them

[somanywords]

it's been how long? yeah no, yeah i'm fine. totally fine and normal about it, just going about my day. (kiss me once and kiss me twice and kiss me once again) yeah it's cool. (shared life experience) totally normal! (i'm with you till the end of the--) OH MY GOD I'M INSANE I'M INSANE I AM RIPPING AND BITTING WITH MY TEETH I AM THROWING THINGS

[cpunkwitch]

My visa limit is 2500 and if I can pay it off I'll probably lose my card.

I need to pay this off as well as pay for medication and food at the very least.

Any help would be appreciated be it donations, commissions, buying from my store or what have you.

It's stressing me out to the point its making me physically ill which is only triggering more flares in my conditions that I really don't need.

If I'm accepted into uni I'd like to not have so much credit card debt let alone only being able to use that by the upcoming fall semester. I'd like to be able to go to my classes instead of rotting in bed but without medication and with all this stress I'm honestly scared wherever I get heatstroke this summer it'll just kill me before that.

There are a lot of things available on my kofi, it accepts PayPal and stripe among others both of which I have accounts set up with.

Examples of my art exist on @spirits-art and on my Instagram cassderolo.

I offer tarot readings, art prints, sensory friendly (pride) bracelets and more.

Seriously anything helps my situation right now.

It's rare that I do any drag shows, it's be nice if I got book once a month but it's more like once in a blue moon ATP. I'm trying to get booked for more, they pay decently especially with tips from the audience. But only for a side gig.

Still out of a job and job hunting, wish me luck I suppose.

[pixiedustandpetrichor]

got my official autism diagnosis!

[dearpyramus]

i have sm head canons about the okumura family that i never shared (bc idk if they were good or not) but i rlly wanna yap about them if anyones interested

[gem-minnie]

Y’all are getting ur souls eaten for sure

[cassandthings]

*chuckles* oh no I'm in danger