#cause i really cannot explain it

[kleinesmanuskript]

so does this mean that he still has two cocks or

[dykedvonte]

you make really good points, I think I used the term karmic wrong sorry. I think of it more as not how I personally think he deserved all that happened to him (which thinking back os exactly what karma means, I messed up sorry), but as his fate being directly tied/parallel to anyas. I handnt noticed the toxicity of jimmy and curlys relationship, from the first playthrough I watched and the first interactions I had w fandom I saw so many ppl just. dismiss the terror Anya went through and focus too much on him as the "ultimate victim" and that just didn't sit well w me. I really dislike seeing ppl go "oh well nothing could've been done" I think it's much more complex than that. also I forgot to mention in the last ask that I really appreciate you bringing the point that this game isn't just about the harm of patriarchy but also very very critical to capitalism, I haven't seen too many ppl touch on this. I hadn't thought too deeply about how it makes "he deserved to become disabled as punishment" come up and I agree that's really messed up. I'll try watching a playthrough again with all of this in mind. but either way thanks! I really appreciate your answer 🫶🏼

I guess this is just part of being in a fandom like this. I've noticed a lot of people don't actually see posts outside of their curated view. So some people only get like anya posting or jimmy or curly and it can make it seem like that is what is saturating the conversation.

I mainly just follow the general tags and look for anything new because I'm like obsessed but I know some are only looking for what they want or believe to be the case and can get weird about other ideas.

Sorry if I came off mean its just a last few of the asks have been like circular conversations like this and its not draining per say but seeing all the nuance and details get overlooked to fit a straightforward and basic narrative really sucks cause there's a lot to explore character and theme wise.

[jinxpantsu]

I wanna make a statement on me taking a nap last night even tho no one cares but I do this is about my ego and pride 🧍🏾‍♀️🧍🏾‍♀️🧍🏾‍♀️ I DID wake up after an hour. And I continues to draw silently for 15 minutes! But the entire time I was incredibly dizzy and fucked up my lines (it doesn’t matter much since I was doing ivory’s hair anyway) so I decided to just not nap at night anymore and instead do that during the day.

[imwritesometimes]

I just want a life where my mom isn't so much of an asshole that on like a bi-monthly basis my eyes hurt by the end of the day from crying so hard cause she's such a fuckin giant dick

[anotherdayforchaosfay]

For years, severe insomnia had me writing at night. I'm not a night owl, not by any stretch. For the last several nights, I've tried writing this extremely smutty scene, but to no avail. My brain begins preparing for closing at around 8PM, knocking me into a stage of stupid by 10PM as it demands I go to bed. I take my edible (I cannot use Rx sleep aids, but the edible I use works magic) and fight bedtime like a damn child. By 11PM, it's kicked in fully, and I'm walking around with just one eye open and constantly touching my face and hair. No point in fighting sleep, so off to bed.

My natural wake-up time is six hours after crashing. Doesn't matter when I go to bed. Damn near exactly six hours of sleep, and then I cannot sleep anymore. This morning, I was up at 7:18AM, and decided to stop being stupid and try writing now instead of the evening.

Wow, look at that. 1400 words in the span of an hour, and I'm not even halfway done. Gosh, it can't possibly have anything to do with me following my body's natural cycle, can it?

I'll have this delicious filthy chapter posted by the end of the day.

[ii-meeple-confessions]

OKAY SO. We all know the reason MePhone4 can generate things is because of the Shimmer egg, this power is exclusive to HIM and the SHIMMERS for obvious reasons. OR IT SHOULD BE. In Season 1, episode 8 around 2:30 MePhone4S gets Siri to generate cookies for him for the elimination. WHY CAN HE GENERATE THINGS?! We can’t even say “Oh maybe he had the egg first, because (to my knowledge) MePhone4 doesn’t generate anything in season one” MePhone4 must have it at this point because he generated the contestants WITH THE EGG AS SHOWN WITH MELIFE. Speaking of MeLife, it didn’t really exist in season one?? Now this could be a thing where Adam didn’t know it would matter down the line which I get, and it is very easy to say “Oh yeah he revived everyone off screen” BUT STILL.

TL;DR: Why can 4S generate things when he doesn’t have a Shimmer egg?!

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[fiepige]

I'm seriously considering posting about my concept for Venom!Hobie (I know that canonically Hobie would NEVER accept a symbiote due to how they're used in his universe but I just think it'd look really cool lol)

I have a bunch of ideas about the design but I CANNOT draw lol (I know cringe is dead but I honestly don't know if I should post the sketch I made...)

The implications of Hobie having a symbiote just fascinates me, like what would it require for him to actually accept one? What would be his breaking point? Or would the symbiote have to really mess up his head to convince him?

(Also I'm a sucker for some good angst where the spider-gang would have to try and save Venom!Hobie from the symbiote somehow cause they'd know that deep down Hobie would never want this)

EDIT:

Made a post where I talk about Venom!Hobie here for anyone who's interested!

[aso-bi]

New Special Interest Unlocked!

Bookbinding.

I am just so deeply in awe of the history of books and how they were made throughout. It's such an interesting thing to just learn about because I'd always loved books, but I had never given the process of creating one just ANY thought. I'm fascinated.

...Brb gonna stock up on material so I can bind books of my own.

[quatregats]

Having a real "*freeze frame**record scratch* oh hey it's me you might be wondering how I ended up here" kind of moment rn

[the-official-account]

It's sounds insane when I tell it as it is: Really we were just two deeply ill people in terrible circumstances surviving and torturing each other and I got better and they didn't, but they showed me that they wanted to, they really want it, and they are more than capable. So they don't get to give up and I will be a total nightmare if it motivates them to stop thinking they can't escape being a person they hate.

[angelguk]

just finished celebrity... mixed feelings for sure in that ending but definitely one of the best kdramas i've seen netflix is very good at picking unique storylines

[lesbians4rouxls]

Hi everyone!

I'm no longer really using tumblr or really active here (too busy irl), but to celebrate the chapters being released, I am going to reblog some art I see online here for a while!

So spoiler alert? (I'm going to tag it as "Deltarune spoilers")

Also, what are ya'll thoughts on the chapters?

About Rouxls: I am happy with what it gave! He was hilarious!! I'm happy that he gets to make me smile and laugh even after all those years! :D And I adored that we finally saw on screen his interaction with Lancer and how he indeed cares about the little guy! Honestly, that's all I wanted!

[learningfromlosing]

Love not having my asks up. Love only letting people I personally follow message me. Like if you got something to say to me you're gonna have to ask me take a step outside.

[clockworkfall]

really and truly i cannot fathom what dostoevsky tumblr sees in smerdyakov. he is abysmal to me

[chronicbitchsyndrome]

i have been in community with profoundly developmentally disabled peers and peers with brain damage my whole life, bc i had a childhood diagnosis. i have also been leftist my whole life; my mother was a marxist and raised me that way, and while their politics were absolute dogshit, they were lefty dogshit.

my entire life, i have seen leftist educators throw mentally disabled people away as "lost causes" because they couldn't engage with the material the way it was being presented. leftist outreach and education does, genuinely, have a massive lack of accessible material. to be blunt, people are not interested in retrofitting their leftist outreach to be accessible to people who learn best through episodes of sesame street.

as in, i have repeatedly faced outright laughter and cruelty over the idea that this could be a priority. or even something that we consider doing at all.

"people who are that mentally disabled don't need to know about these things," the kindest interpretation goes. ("people who are that mentally disabled don't interact with the world, anyway, they're all in institutions or monitored 24/7 by their parents," the uncharitable underlying assumptions go. "they wouldn't be a worker who needs a union. or a library attendee. or a member of the community garden. or a volunteer at the food bank. or or or")

the people i have seen this hurt the worst, over and over again, are profoundly mentally disabled people of color whose lack of access to accessible antiracist education is causing real danger in their lives. institutionalized disabled people of color who have learned racist ideology and behaviors from white authority, whether they were adopted by white families or incarcerated in care institutions run by white staff. who are treated lower than garbage by leftist educators, who view them as "lost causes," as unworthy of time and effort and attention, as deserving of their abuses because they... what... internalized the abuses that make up every aspect of their lives since birth?

i see people saying things in this conversation like "disability isn't an excuse for racism or transphobia or whatever, people have the obligation to improve themselves." oh, believe me, i have seen again and again how many privileged disabled people utilize their disabilities to punch down on others, try to escape accountability for their punching down by citing disability. but individual weaponization of identity is just that: weaponization of identity.

the power structures at play are what they are. it is a noble and admirable goal to want leftist outreach and education to be more accessible to all. if that is truly your goal, you must eventually reckon with the existence of people who do, actually, really need it presented in a picture book. or an episode of bluey. or a conversation where you only use examples of people they know in real life, using things that happened to them personally. the existence of people who cannot grasp forms of abstract reasoning, who need information presented as rules, or as guidelines, or as categories. the idea that yes, fully grown adults who need daniel tiger to explain racism to them are human beings who not only deserve access to that very thing, but who also deserve to be a part of leftist spaces and benefit from leftist organizing. are people for whom it might be INTEGRAL they get to be a part of leftism. are victims of racism themselves and suffering without access to antiracist spaces and community and support.

and you will need to reckon with the abject cruelty of your peers who laugh and mock the very idea of this. you need to reckon with the fact that a lot of people you respect, a lot of leftists doing genuinely good work, will respond to this by making fun of the people you're serving, even outright telling you their violent fantasies about these people. that is the experience of organizing in leftist spaces for profoundly disabled people. that is why so many of us burn out so fast. there IS a structural problem with mentally disabled people being seen as disposable and not a part of community. and it is EXTREMELY present in leftist organizing and outreach efforts.

[gemkun]

@aeongazed said : rare, was it, for the trailblazer to exist outside of anything but jovial patience and the occasional misplaced temperament that came with housing a certifiable destroyer of world's in his chest. indeed - even in the presence of ratio's cantankerousness he was... nonplussed for the most part, unfazed by his bad attitude and thinly veiled insults. caelus too, struggled with comprehending his emotions - naming them when they became deep, complex things, for his memory did not exist outside of the nameless, and all he had experienced was what he had for reference. yet even still, this was something far harsher than he'd known before - the grappled ferocity of both loss... and frustration, because while caelus was smart he was still... caelus. " you. " ire finds his voice in this midnight hour, back in his room in the reverie in reality with a finger jabbed into an absurdly chiseled chest ( what kind of scholar had pectorals this sculpted? how much did his books freaking weigh? ). " you sold him out! " the jab was harder now - the brunt of his nail catching on dark fabric and enticing... further annoyance on caelus' behalf. he bares his teeth up at the doctor, paying little mind to lan's lethal aura that shrouded him like a fine cloth. the stellaron pulses in his chest like a faux heartbeat, the glow becoming just bright enough to seep through two layers of clothing with his frustration. perhaps he should calm down. perhaps he should relax. he couldn't. " he didn't deserve that - no one does, after everything... and you... " another jab, this one more forceful than the last, in time with a luminous beat of the star resting at his core, " i thought you were better than that. "

      ⸻       in   acts   of   aggression   ,   the   best   treatment   is   to   simply   stand   —   by   and   let   it   play   out.   a   method   ,   the   doctor   implements   now   ,   as   the   notorious   trailblazer   enacts   his   wrathful   stirrings   upon   his   person.   prodding.   prompting.   provoking.   ceaselessly   ,   in   his   bout   of   unkempt   fury.

  intending   on   swallowing   his   recoil   ,   instinct   calls   instead   to   snatch   at   an   intruding   wrist.   a   secured   joint   belonging   to   the   individual   that   strikes   him   with   judgement   ,   determined   against   the   scales   of   justice.   kept   here   ,   there   is   no   axle   for   caelus   to   push   forth   with.

  he   is   lodged   ,   under   the   careful   force   ,   wedging   him   in   place.

  dawn   ignites   ,   aflame   as   they   catch   onto   the   vessel   housing   disaster.   it   is   a   mystery   why   he   is   permitted   to   stroll   freely   ,   when   he   possesses   an   incendiary   device   ,   prepared   to   detonate   at   any   given   second.   ❝   careful   now   ,   nameless.   ❞   his   lilt   curves   ,   tuned   to   his   dulcet   allure   in   the   presence   of   lectures   ,   with   the   addition   of   a   serrated   edge.   cautioning   as   the   predator   offers   a   morsel   of   a   chance   to   the   prey.   ❝   i   may   have   tolerated   you   initially   ,   but   this   act   of   ,   as   i   quote   ,   ❛   selling   him   out   ❜   is   not   in   black   and   white   ,   as   you   so   naively   think.   you   have   a   tendency   to   overlook   the   intricacies   and   complexities   in   matters   ,   as   you   are   doing   this   very   second.   ❞

  returning   a   previously   seized   limb   ,   the   scholar   resumes   ,   once   he   witnesses   the   fumes   billowing   —   remnants   of   his   previous   blaze   ,   now   ,   extinguished.   ❝   do   not   introduce   your   sentimentality   into   my   mission.   failure   burgeons   when   an   individual   surrenders   to   irrationality.   you   had   best   reign   in   your   emotions   ,   for   the   sake   of   the   task   that   awaits   you   and   perhaps   ,   the   most   critical   of   all   —   for   your   team   that   relies   on   you.   ❞

  having   reinstated   the   salient   aspects   of   their   endeavours   ,   he   folds   his   arms   and   assesses   the   situation   ,   affixing   a   keen   eye   on   the   response   catalysed   from   the   afflicted.   until   ,   he   suspires.   ❝   if   you   must   ,   turn   your   indignation   towards   me.   i   will   remain   unaffected   if   you   decide   to   ,   but   at   least   this   way   ,   you   won’t   be   consumed   by   the   unfairness   that   this   world   has   in   store   for   you.   ❞   from   somewhere   within   ,   his   words   resonate   ,   elucidated   by   the   firmness   in   his   enunciation   of   each   syllable.   a   place   ,   close   to   the   organ   that   thrums   behind   ridged   bone.

  ❝   no   matter   how   harsh   it   may   be   ,   you   must   not   be   ignorant   to   the   truth.   ❞