#definetly not complaining don't worry

[hoarder-of-rats]

Shoutout to @a-being-of-chaossss for getting me into The Magnus Archives and ruining my life

Thank you for the hyperfixation, I've got so many fanfics to read now

[1x1x1x1x1x1x1x1]

What if the reader is a TV host? Like full on 'WELCOME TO THE SHOW' with bright luminous lights in the background kinda guy. you can take the liberty on whether they are a desperate attention seeker or a creepy Mandela catalogue kinda host. But it's just the reader is a big yapper with bright attention seeking colors.

I'm thinking the reader doesn't really know if their killing cuz their desensitized to the show biz and just think everything 'all part of the network folk!'

They might also be one of the worst killers because they are more used to being an omnipotent narrator then an in action kinda host.

I just think it be really funny if reader hits the survivors with the SPARKLE ON! IT'S WEDNESDAY! DON'T FORGET TO BE YOURSELF!!!

HEEEEEELP ME THIS IS SUCH A PEAK IDEA,, wow look at me doing my first both survivors and killers,, this is why this took so long btw 😭😭

ANYWAYS I KINDA MESSED UL THE BANNER SINCE YOU SAID BRIGHT COLORS BUT ILL WRITE FOR BRIGHT COLORS COUGH

defo ooc an typos but idrc 😭

coughs ENJOY

Forsaken Characters × TV Host!Killer!Reader

Noob

well,, they are definetly scared of you, like they are of everyone else that has a job to get rid of them all.

They're not wrong for it too, better be safe than sorry!

Although you are the killer that has probably caused the least harm to them, since your,, killing,, skills are a bit rusty

You randomly pause, come up to them, and ask random questions. Like you're still on stage.

Most of the time, they don't answer, quickly drinking a cola and running away as fast as they can.

Elliot

Hes,, pretty neutral about you.

Not really worried about you being a threat, since most of the time he can easily loop you.

You definitely greet him with something along the lines of "Hello pizza boy !!" With an almost mocking tone, and to be completely honest, he doesnt even mind at this point.

When you randomly ask him questions, most of the time he just ignores you and runs away to heal Chance (again,,)

But there are times when he does actually answer, just for giggles (and he has been wondering what happens if he does)

When he answers correctly, you play loud correct buzzer noises and money sounds which are REALLY obnoxious btw,,, and for the rest of the round, you mostly spare him.

And when he answers wrong,, well,, i think you know how that goes,

Shedletsky

Ah,, its not like he can complain.

It is refreshing to NOT have the creation of hatred targetting him the whole round and making his life a living hell.

And he does find your persona amusing

Probably one of the people that mostly plays along with your stupid gameshow questions, just for shits and giggles

So most of the time when he sees you are the killer, he just lets out a sigh of relief

Also youre easy to stun,,,,, but shhh we dont talk about that!!!

Guest 1337

Its all the same to him.

Wether or not you spare him, he WILL be stunning you and he WILL be protecting his team.

Deadass refuses to answer your questions. Will not be caught interacting with a killer that makes his life here a pain. (like all killers)

Although, you are one of the hardest killers to block-bait. You can pretty much tell right away trough his facade that he just wants to get that punch in. Hes not using that medkit since you didnt hit him. even once.

He doesnt like you. Why should he?? You play games with the minds of some survivors since they see you as 'chill'. He does not like this.

Two Time

i dont think anyone can really talk normaly to this insane motherfucker,

everytime you ask them any question 'for your gameshow' they just laugh manically before STABBING YOU.

Then running away and talking about some "praise the spawn" shit,,

i think the dislike most likely goes both ways

Chance

You and the gambler get along quite well, actually!!

Well, as much as a killer and survivor can even get along.

Everytime youre the killer hes the first to run to you, hoping you ask him one of those questions and he can just chill for the rest of the round if they gets it right.

Probably the one who answers you the most, and you have to respect the gambling,, some of your other tv shows basically involve it too, so yeah

I think they actually watched one of your tv shows a while back,,, so he probably recognized you,

007n7

He actually watched your TV shows and Gameshows before all of this (like the dad he is,,,,) so he recognized you pretty quickly

He was quite shocked when you first randomly decided to stop the chase and ask him a question.

He paused for like almost a minute, completely lost in thought before you went "Time is TICKING!!!" with your robotic voice

And then he answered, wrong.

Which meant he was getting locked onto, (he died like 30 seconds later)

Although, the next time you asked him again, he answered correctly!! And you just,, basically left him. Alone with his thoughts.

Well, he cant really complain, a break is nice once in a while

Builderman

Hes Builderman. The CEO of roblox. Of course he knew you.

Actually, he made a guest apperance in one of your episodes!! So he already knew you (well, kinda) before this.

And he cant really complain that much about your whole 'asking gameshow questions' thing, since most of the time he gets them right, and can help the teammates in peace.

Even though he doesnt always answer, when he does, he gets most of them right. Probably because more than a half of them are about Roblox and its history.

You like to call him your "NUMBER ONE!!!" and he has gotten MULTIPLE dirty looks for that, since some survivors now think you guys had something going on,, not good for his image and reputation. So he was pretty quick to dismiss those rumors,

Dusekkar

DUSEKKAAAAARRRRR🤤🤤

Well, he certaintly thinks youre intresting.

Not only are you asking him easy questions, but you will also spare him if he answers correctly? He cant really complain, huh

Youre quite persistent on asking him a lot of questions, 'gameshow' questions. Which are a piece of cake to him, although sometimes you cant really understand his phrasing quite well,, You just display a blue question mark on the top of your head out of nowhere, hoping that he can redeem himself before you decide that you dont want that answer to pass.

You also call him some stupid 'charmer' nicknames, something along the lines of "Pumpkin!!!!" or even sometimes Matt (since you heard Shedletsky call him that once,)

Hes actually quite shocked, even a bit flustered when he hears you call him by some names that you made up on the spot, or even his real name,

Taph

This fella,

He tries SO HARD to answer your questions correctly in his emoji speech ((i know a lot of ppl heacanon him as a sign language user but just for this fic im using his canon speech)), but you cant really understand it, so he never passes in your eyes,

He does like messing with you!! Youre probably one of the killers that falls for his traps the most out of everyone else

((i dont have anything else to say for him,,,,

· · ─ ·✶· ─ · ·Killers.

1×1×1×1｡𖦹°‧

You REALLY piss her off,

Bright flashing lights, loud sounds, and that fuckass voice of yours thats always cheerful,, it just gets on his nerves.

And the way you KEEP ASKING THOSE QUESTIONS. They rarely even answer, and she REALLY wants to get rid of you,

But he does entertain your little 'gameshow' vision sometimes, and most of the time, they answer correctly (they are a hater,, not an idiot,,)

Instead of you letting her go and not killing them like the survivors, the killers get little stupid prizes for answering correctly, and they dont really suffer any consequences if they answer wrong.

The prizes range from a stupid bright glittery pen with your face plastered over it, to just random stickers.

1x1x1x1 always keeps the little trinkets in a drawer in his cabin,, what?? you never know when they can come in handy!!

John Doe

as much as you try and try, and try and try and try to get him to even say one word when you ask him questions,, he just doesnt.

Probably cause he geniuenly cant,, the bright flashing lights of your design and your loud robotic voice,, he cant really comprehend what youre asking him in due time,,

Although, hes pretty neutral towards you, you even gave him a pen out of pure pity for him,,

Noli-.ᐟ.ᐟ

You guys actually match eachothers freak really well,,

Both of you guys are loud and obnoxious, bright lights,, and 'annoying' to the others

Although he actually likes your little gameshow host persona!!

The first time you were in a round, he was watching intently, and everytime you asked a question he would immediately stand up and scream the correct answer like a dad watching football,

He really likes answering your questions too!! It keeps him entertained at least,, And the little trinkets!!!!!

You guys actually get along quite well,

Mafioso🂱⚔

He doesnt like you.

Youre loud, bright lights, and obnoxious, while hes calm and reserved,, quite the opposites.

Although HE doesnt like you, his men definetly do!!

Most of the time they all meet up in the cabin next to the table for, basically a competetive game of your questions,

They get a good laugh out of it, and you love to entertain!

The only problem is how loud it gets, instead of big red buttons to signal who answers the question first, they basically just slam their fists on the table,

Mafioso has scolded them for it a bunch of times, but he wont stop them

Its only fair that they get a bit of a break in this hell hole once in a while

And hell, you keep them off his back for once, so maybe just maybe your not that bad after all,,,

im so done with tgis 💔💔

the writing got worse and worse as i went on because i was TIRED 💔

tgis was fun tho,, (also i had to rewrite everything in the killers part because i closed the fucking window,,

also quick question,,

would you guys like me to write for the Spectre too? 😭😭 As in like the headcanons and he would be in the last part of the killers kinda

okay bye bye

[nikovraskol]

so just a random thougth

What if the batfam suddenly got the memories of their alternative selves (readers original world) specificaly about seeing readers corpse?

hollup now this is such a cool concept

masterlist

when bruce dreamt of your cold, lifeless body drowned in your own blood, oh boy, he woke up in a cold sweat -- scrambling, reaching out for you.

he immediately seeks you out, nevermind the fact that it's 5am and you're enjoying a deep slumber, you just wake up to bruce cradling your face -- don't mind him! he's just making sure you're real.

the oddities don't stop there, dick is literally clinging onto you all day, the only time he's not hanging off your shoulder is when you've gone to piss, even then he waits outside the bathroom. don't mind him either, the image of his precious baby sibling dead, the glazed look in your eyes -- it had him waking up naseous, so when he cuddles you close, don't complain, you might hurt his feelings. :(

jason, well, he just lingers. he's not as obvious as dick but he's definetly diferrent than usual . in the past, he'd push past you in the hallways, but now? he's trailing after you like a lost puppy, he's just on edge, he doesn't know how his mind conjured up your lifeless body but it scared him, striking a chord in him he thought was buried alongside him.

tim reacts in a similiar way to bruce, when he dreamt of your death -- he was not expecting the way his head was spinning, or how his heart was racing. he's afraid, was that a premonition? were you going to die in the near future? every few hours he'll come behind you and just put his hand on your shoulder, looking at you as though you've already died, as though he physically can't look away, it's unnerving.

if you thought that's bad, whew, you're not ready for damian. your brother already thought you were weak, seeing your limp body, cold, flies running over your lifeless face -- it reminded him just how utterly helpless you are. you will be treated like you're made of glass. you're trying to cut something for food? don't you dare touch that knife, you'll hurt yourself. you've got to go downstairs? okay, but he has to trail in front of you, in case you fall, or better yet? just let him carry you. it may seem demeaning, but he's just worried for you. :(

cassandra is similiar to jason, the sight of you, her sibling, dead. it made her realise just how fragile you are, she's suddenly everywhere you are, her eyes trained on you, she's over-analysing every single one of your movements. she wants to ask if you're okay, but she's scared, she can see the frustration in each of your movements when everyone is crowding you, she afraid you'll lash out at her. she can't deal with that, not when she's still so unnerved. so just let her hover around, okay?

me when i'm procrasinating chapter 3

[thequietkid-moonie]

Comfortable date in a cold night

[ SCENARIO ] [ Sunny ] [ Omori ]

Just wanted to write something cozy and comforting, u dont mind right? Also, this was wrote while hearing the dango daikazuku song for extra fluffiness

Sunny is a reserved person, he doesn't really talk much and shows his care by indirect ways mainly but being with a group of friends that accept him like that and care for him definetly makes him feel better

Even when you two are on a relationship it take him a little while to open up and become more affectionate and direct with his love, but when he grows comfortable enough Sunny becomes incredibly clingy and affectionate, he is just so happy to have you at his side and in his life that he just can't help it (hopefuly you don't mind because he grows to love way too much to cling to your side that he could just never leave your side again)

If you two decide to have a date he rather have a date in doors than going outside so he can just cling to your side in peace without having to worry about being teased, so a cold night it is the perfect excuse to do so, even proposing to have a home date himself (wich can be a surprise, specially for how excited he seem to be)

By the moment you agree he is already planning everything in his mind and even willing to get it all ready himself, making sure to get some hot drinks and a blanket before dragging you to the sofa to cuddle while watching anything on the tv. At the end all seems just to be a excuse to cling to you because when you less expect it Sunny have already grapped both completely on the blanket and leaned on your side, snuggling a little closer a few times with the excuse of keeping both warm

At the end he wasn't too discreet about the fact that he just wanted to cling to your side and cuddle you, not even about how comfortable and safe he feels at your side, his completely relaxed and peaceful expresion gives him away, but, honestly, he doesn't mind at all since is you the one at his side, just forgive him if he end up falling sleep while hearing the sound of your heartbeat, holding your clothes under the blanket as if he wanted to make sure you didn't left him

Now you will be pretty much trapped on his grip under the blanket, he is so comfortable that he wish to stay like that for eternity, if for any reason you have to stand up and leave the sofa for any reason he will take a moment of hesitantion before letting you go without complaining, still his expression gives him away how sad and lost he feels without your presence and by the moment you come back he waste not time before wrapping you around the blanket and his arms once more

[kidnap-the-series]

EP 1 - Real Stunt (Part 1)

30 secs in and we are already snapping necks (???)

Ofc we were filming

It hasn't even been 2 whole minutes yet and we have shirtless Ohm already (I mean... who is complaining?)

Not James just casually offering a real gun job like hello mister???

Stop he is treating Mhen like he is a little kid 🥺. So adorable.

God... We have got hospital bills and on top of that debt collectors too

Lol did they really think a stuntman would not know how to fight back or what? Also, love that it's a bit more realistic. Even if he is a stuntman, he is not dumb enough to fight against someone with a knife.

I'm sorry but this is hilarious, made me chuckle.

Oop, i wasn't really expecting them to meet before the kidnapping but i'm cool with this too.

String of fate?? i love things like this. They are like fated to be together. I was thinking they should have made his sweater red so that it would be like the red string of fate but I remember seeing something about the significance of blue on X. But, I couldn't really find much about it on the internet, so that's that.

From the snippets of the novel i've read, Min was, to say the least, mesmerised by Q here.

"My shirt is totally ruined! Can't you see?" Q looked at Min provocatively. Min glanced at Q’s shirt, noticing how it had ridden up, revealing a flat, well-defined stomach. Even his navel was attractive. Min composed himself and turned away, his face and ears turning red, unsure how to deal with the situation.

credit: user @/ohmpwtz on x

This part wasn't really emphasized in the series but I guess you can't really show everything thats in the book ig. But it really kind of explains why he acts the way he acts later in the episode. Bro is down bad from the start.

Damn, they have been trying to undress each other from ep 1. 😂

Ok, the dad storyline is starting. From this scene, I gather that his dad is a high level police officer who seems to be dealing with high profile cases (which are usually risky).

Ok boss lady. She's got such a prominent aura tho. I like it.

With how expensive q's house looks, I assumed q's dad would probably be into corruption and bribery. But for now, that does not seem to be the case. Probably generational wealth or his mom's wealth maybe? He seems to be an honest police officer.

Oh, she is soooo plotting something.

Ok, sir. He is living in that house too. So, i think he can rightfully ask who those people are and with the way yada looked at him, I'd ask who she was too.

There's definetly more aspects we need to know for this conversation but it sets the preface. Q is worried about his dad's safety being risked for his job. But his dad sees it as his duty.

This place looks really good tho

Bro is out from the very beginning. The moment he laid eyes on Q, it was over.

Nope, you both don't look suspicious at all. They are just casually INSIDE a mall, INDOORS wearing black sunglasses. Totally normal behaviour. Anyone who questions this is weird.

Are you sure you are still looking at the person you are supposed to kidnap and not your potential boyfriend?

I mean, I don't blame min at all. I would stare too if I saw someone this pretty.

I saw too many people complaining about the guitar. I mean, I don't love the guitar scenes but I don't despise it either. Ig it being overdone makes people hate it. But honestly, it aligns pretty well here considering q's profession.

I will never stop talking about how pretty he is.

Ok guys we lost him.

Not a single serious cell in his body.

I get contemplating about this because even if it is just a one-time thing, it could have life-altering consequences. You never completely get out of this criminal world.

From this scene, I really thought we were going for typical rich lonely boy character for q but man was I proven wrong.

Not the fucking binoculars, pls. 😂

[aoishiitake]

Before Us - Kanade x Mafuyu

Chapter 12: Warmth

note: Copy and pasting this from my wattpad. This was the first fanfiction I ever wrote (started 2022 or so). I know it's bad, you do not need to remind me. I'm posting this here because I want my writing backed up on as many platforms as possible. I write better now, I can assure you of that. Everything in brackets and bold is me commenting on my own shit writing lol. Thanks for reading if you do <3

divider's from this post/person

Kanade

Whose arm is this? It's so warm, I don't want it to go away. Maybe should I turn around and see who it is. My eyelids, they're so heavy I think I'm falling asleep... (L bozo can't stay up late)

(around morning time)

Woah, is it 10am right now or am I that sleepy?  I slowly open my eyes, about to reach out to grab my phone and check what time it is. Instead I am woken up by Mafuyu's face... again. Unlike some people, I will not make the same mistake twice. 

Oh but I could just, stay here, in Mafuyu's arms until I die.

NO EW THATS GROSS AND GAY I NEED TO TOUGHEN UP

Okay okay voice inside my head, I'll just turn around and grab my phone. I turn around and-

"WONDAHOY!!!"

"AAAAAAAAAAAAAAA" I screamed. At this point everyone had woken up, even the deep deep sleepers who are almost impossible to wake up. Except for Rui because of course he has noise cancelling headphones too.

"What. Was. That. Kanade." Ena complained removing her sleeping mask.  "Yeah dude you woke everyone up." Mizuki rubbed her eyes.

"Well it's because Emu SCREAMED wonderhoy in my face!" I argued.

"IM SORRY YOISAKI SAN!!" Emu apologised. "I JUST WANTED TO MAKE YOU SMILE!" She started crying. She couldn't stop apologizing. Almost immediately Nene started hugging her, then stared at me as if this was all my fault. Which I don't think it was but that doesn't matter right now. Because I must've woken up Maf-

"Can we just continue being half awake?" Mafuyu mumbled, cuddling up closer to me. I swear to god I could see Ena smirking so hard when Mafuyu did that.

And so everyone continued being on their phones, cuddling with the person next to them and/or something else.  I was gladly wrapping my arms around Mafuyu while scrolling on my phone. I could most definetly die at peace this way.

Mafuyu

How will I tell mom about this...

I love a girl a lot and now I'm doomed because that means I have to eventually accept that I'm not straight.  The longer I let myself collapse into Kanade's arms, the more I am sure that I'm a lesbian. Her hair smells unsurprisingly good. Smells a bit like cup noodles, but it reminds me of her so it's still a good smell. I can hear her fingers swiping up on her phone screen. I wonder what she's looking at.

I hear some sly footsteps, one- no, two people walking around. I think someone left the SEKAI...

I can't be bothered to check who it is.

Mizuki

Ena and I are sneaking out to get breakfast for everyone. I hope no one heard us, we we're trying really hard not to distract anyone. She grabbed my hand and lead me out of her home and into a nearby convenience store. 

"WOAH MIKI LOOK!!" Ena pointed to the refrigerated section. "THEY HAVE ONIGIRI!" she squealed. "Woahh it looks really good!" I responded to her. "Don't worry I will get you one."  I grabbed one and put it into the shopping bag. "AWWW THANK YOU!!!" She hugged me. "Anything for youuu" I laughed. 

We continued shopping, we decided to get some fruits, jam and pastries. You know, a Iittle something for everyone. Except for Rui because he hides everything in the world up his ass /j.

We walked back to my place to get back to the SEKAI and bring our friends breakfast. I stepped into my room, got a hold of Ena's hand and clicked on the file for the school SEKAI. And just like that we are in school SEKAI.

"Guys we got breakfast!!" I exclaimed. 

"EEEEEEK BREAKFAST! NENE THERE'S BREAKFAST!!" Emu squealed to Nene. "Yes yes I heard." She replied.

Kanade

I guess it's breakfast time now. Man I don't think I can get myself to wake Mafuyu up. I don't think I can get myself out of this position either. But then again I'm hungry and I also want Mafuyu to eat too so it is my duty. 

"Hi Mafuyu" I whispered. "It's time to wake up", I rubbed her back in circles. She tucked herself even more instead of waking up. "I don't wanna..", she mumbled.  Ena started smirking at me again, I swear she is so dead once she gets all cuddly with Mizuki.

"C'mon Mafuyu", I pushed her a little bit away from me so that I could see her face. "We need to have some breakfast man, especially you". I got up helping her up by holding her hand.  As we walked over to see what there was for breakfast her eyes swayed from how tired she was. You can't blame the girl, she just woke up. 

"Okay everyone! Attention please!!", Ena announced. "Please grab the food you want but don't over do it obviously. You can take everything except for..", she searched around the table for it. "Aha found it!" she grabbed the only onigiri on the table.  "Hey why does she get to have an onigiri??", Rui complained. "Rui, respectfully, shut up." Mizuki shot back at him. 

Everyone grabbed what they wanted to eat. I grabbed a banana, I made sure I got the freshest looking one. Along with that I took a croissant (QUASO). Mafuyu only took two apples. It was quite interesting to me, why she only took two apples. Why do I sound like an old british man holy crap I will never talk like that again.

"You must really like apples Mafuyu." I noted.  "Yeah I do, they're really good", she peeped. She was almost immediately in a better mood. We peacefully ate together. 

"Kanade" She said. "can I have a bite of your croissant?"

"Of course Yuki!" I answered. I held the croissant in front of her mouth for her to bite. Her teeth sank in the buttery croissant and bit a piece out.  

"Oooo Kanade whatcha doingggg", Ena giggled with Mizuki. I couldn't be bothered anymore honestly. They tease me as if they were the straightest people alive. Which uhm, no. they aren't that at all.

(later)

"Well guys I think everything looks cleaned up now so feel free to leave. Thank you all for coming to the party, it was a blast being with all of you!" Mizuki announced. I packed my things and left with Mafuyu.

Oh right

Where is she going to go now?

[crayonboxcolors607]

okay so it really bothers me how tons of steddie fanfics headcanon wayne as being super biased towards steve when he and eddie become friends/start dating.

and they like make wayne compare steve to his dad and shit like that and it just really rubs me the wrong way.

like wayne legit raised eddie he of all people should understand not turning out like ur dad. and obv steve's dad is a jerk (that is a front the fandom is united upon).

but i feel like its more like wayne loves his little boy and eddie is basically his son so of course he wants the best for him. cus eddie definetly came home after school some days and complained about "stupid king steve and his stupid hair and his stupid girlfriends"(and wayne wrote it off as steve being a jerk and eddie was mad about that).

but in reality eddie had like the biggest crush on steve (think draco from harry potter) and didn't know how to deal with those feelings so he just assumed they were because he hated steve and didn't think anything of it.

and then all the shit with vecna happens and eddie wakes up to steve sitting by his bedside with massive dark circles and worry lines and the biggest smile when he sees eddie's eyes open.

and eddie realizes "oh SHIT!"

because that hatred in highschool was definitely not hatred and definitely something else and now steve is gonna hate him because now he's even more of a freak.

and poor wayne is just oblivious to the whole thing. (he obv had an inkling that his nephew was gay but didn't ever say anything because they don't talk about that shit)

so wayne and eddie are just chilling in the trailer and steve comes over to change eddie's bandages or smth and wayne is confused because this? this nervous young man with dark circles and fidgeting hands and a tote bag of bandages and meds this is king steve? the same king steve that eddie used to complain about every day because of his attitude and his face and his hotness....

and wayne munson realizes something about his nephew that day...

[kazuhasbunny]

Scaramouche kink headcanons? How would he feel about having an extremely masochistic partner? I already saw you wrote about Scaramouche twice so if you don't really feel like writing him again that's totally fine too. Keep up the amazing writing btw :D

nmngf so true... sadistic scara really got me going <33 ALSO anon no worries ... more scaramouche content the better LOLS

pairings : scaramouche x masochistic gn! reader

warnings : heavy mentions of sadism , dubcon , knifeplay , mentions of blood ,spanking , slight nipple play, degradation , humiliation , shoe (?) grinding , marking ,dacryphilia , creampie 

remember to always consent to these stuffs ..the content is kinda dark in this one so please skip if you feel uncomfortable !

— nsfw undercut !

everything started when a sudden tug on your hair that made you moan is what got him . you liked the pain ? how .. disgusting he thought . but that didn’t mean he stopped whatever he’s doing on you

with your consent , he went on lightly at first . light hair tugging , spanking , biting . the slightest of pain would make you whimper , asking him to stop when infact you were actually enjoying it so he kept on going , ignoring your pleas telling him to stop

as days go by , his sadistic tendencies grew even more , he was quite sadistic before but ever since knowing that you liked recieving pain from him really lit up something inside of him

his spanks were faster and harsher this time , not having any mercy on you . his grip on your hair tight , pulling your head back everytime you try to hide yourself into the pillow . pinches your nipples and twisting it in between his fingers , teasing you and pulls on it hard making you sob onto him

he liked seeing you in pain , he enjoys watching you cry , begging for him to stop makes him even rougher on you , wanting to hurt you in every way possible for his own sake of enjoyment

would use his foot to step on your crotch , pushing you further into the ground , a sobbing mess as he looks down on you with a dark look covering his face , sadistic eyes and a disgusted look on his face

 “look at you . disgusting , getting off to being stepped on like a useless whore makes you feel good huh ?” his degrading words ringing into your ears as you shake your head furiously , disagreeing with him as he tsked and pushes onto you harder

he’d purposely grip onto your thighs or arms hard , nails digging into your skin surely leaving bruises at the end . purple looks good on you he thought . he likes seeing you writhe and squirm underneath him as he fucks into you in an inhumane pace

when his sadistic tendencies goes off the chart , he would’t hesitate but to use a knife on you , slowly slicing your soft skin drawing blood out . your tears rushed out onto your cheeks , tear stains already visible . he licks your tears off everytime you cry and smirks as he slices into you more , even so as to carving his name between your thigh or back to make sure you know who you truly belong to

the more you cry out to him telling him to stop the more he keeps going on making sure to leave the pain all out on you , smirk plastered on his face pleased on his works on you . at the end of the day you’re repeteadly filled up to the brim , making sure to actually mark you everywhere including your insides . so full , marked up , bruises here and there . all for him 

you were his anyways , he has full control over you as long as you stay with him till the end oh and dont worry , scaramouche definetly helps you out in the end . he’s not that mean . well..  unless if he had a really rough day and decided to only use you as a stress reliever and just leaving you on the ground all used up , not that you were complaining anyways

[yellowcry]

A burning flesh

There was something wrong with Luisa, and Julieta just wished she could realize it earlier. Because Luisa never reacted to pain, no matter how hurt she was.

Julieta was heading home after a whole day of healing people. Even so, she felt pretty high. Today there wasn't a big amount of people, so she might take a break from kitchen and not baking anything this evening.

"Mom!" Julieta shuddered as she heard her eldest daughter's scream. "Lulu is hurt!" She grabbed the mentioned girl as she ran to her mamá.

Julieta didn't take another second to run to her hijas. Even from far away she could see that Luisa's free arm has a giant deep red burnt that was black at some places. Juieta felt sick, how come her baby girl could be hurt like that?

"Mámi!" Luisa waved at her happily. "Isi want you!" She announced proudly, not putting any attention to her arm.

"What happened to you?!" Julieta cried worriedly as she put an arepa in Luisa's mouth. The two years old girl innocently blinked her eyelashes, chewing food in her mounth.

"I was playing with Dollie!" Isabela cried, "Then I felt like something burnt!" She sobbed putting her hands on her hermanita's shoulders. "And Lulu put her hand in the bake!"

"I wanna make an arepa for mommy!" Luisa explained proudly! For a second Julieta felt proud, but then she became even more worried than before.

"Mija, you don't have to deal with pain to cook." She sighed, Luisa gave her a suprised look, like if Julieta just told something really stupid.Luisa always coped well with pain, never crying no matter how badly she was hurt, but it was totally out of limits.

Then realization hited Julieta. Luisa never complained about any pain. Julieta felt sick, she might not know what happened to her baby girl, but she knew exactly one thing. It wasn't normal.

"Don't ever do that again!" Isabela screamed as she pressed Luisa closer to her chest when Luisa's hand was fully healed.

*****

Julieta started to pay way more attention to her youngest daughter after that. Well, not exacly the youngest, since she became pregnant again a while ago, but still very small girl. And she realized something, that she never noticed because of her ability to heal people. Luisa didn't have a normal reaction to pain. She could put her arm inside of boil of boiling water and said that it was fine, holding her palm long enoung to draw it back and screamed from pain. Julieta tried her best to not think about a charred hand. Luisa could smile and say that she was fine when her forehead was burning. She could run to Juleta with a huge smile on her face when her leg was definetly broken.

And Julieta was scared. It wasn't a normal reaction, and she understood it. What if Luisa would be hurt so badly that she might die and didn't even notice it?  She spent hours in library trying to find something, but couldn't find anything. So, the only thing that she could do is to make sure that Lulu was never alone, because arepas didn't seem to heal it, no matter how hard Julieta tried, falling on her knees every night, begging to let her hija feel pain.

Julieta gigged weakly as she thought about all this poor mothers with a sick kids who was begging about the opposite thing. Maybe, the good mother would be happy because of it. А kid who never felt pain probably was a  blessing. But image of a black charred hand stuck in her head. If Julieta tensed up a little bit, she almost could feel the smell of burnt flesh, even if she was never here when it happened, this smell was forever stuck in her nostrils.

****

It took a few years for Julieta to realize that Luisa's gift gave her not only strenght but also an invulnerability. Julieta couldn't remember a day when Luisa wasn't hurt before her seremony, but now she was always fine. Lulu was able to break a stoned with her bare hands, and she won't have any broken bones or sprains. She could stand up in fire and didn't raise an eyebrow, not only because of not feeling pain, but because her skin wouldn't twitch and mangle under the hot flames of fire.

Or atleast Julieta really hoped that it was like that. After all, Luisa's reaction to pain was the same as before: non-existing. Even so, Julieta make sure to check on her daughter every evening, forcing Luisa look away in ambarrasment. Then Mirabel didn't get her gift and everything was so hectic that Julieta completly forgot about it for the next few months. And then, it simply became too late to return to it. Expecially when Luisa was about to outgrow her mom. Well, she's totally got her height from Agustin.

But even when everybody was sure that Luisa is immune to pain, Luisa still asked her magic to heal Luisa wherever she might be hurt.

[spencstan]

Six of Crows re-read

(i also did this for the shadow and bone trilogy so read that if you want to)

spoiler alert obiously

i'm SO EXCITED FOR THIS this is my comfort book (with crooked kingdom of course)

JOOST HI

oo fun fact this was my first grishaverse book and i read it with no context whatsoever except that the mc is an emo boy and morally grey

so IMAGINE my pure confusion when JOOST appeared

i was like ?????? weird take on morally grey character but ok

joost trying to figure out how to flirt with a girl is a mood

anyone wanna teach us how to???

i kinda wanna skip this part so i can see the crows..

but i won't don't worry

(won't I?

"I think Yuri may be quarantined"

aaaand?

so are we you are not special

i feel like it's very important for me to mention that i read this book in spanish first

and then i got into the fandom and i was like who the fuck is the wraith? i only know El Espectro

Heartender who??? ooo you mean Cardio

Tidemakers? nope, i only know Maremotores

for real i was so confused i had to re-read it in english (not that i mind tho)

say whatever you want about the spanish version but we have to agree that this design is pretty af

another one yay: "Retvenko was a Squaller" vs. "Retvenk era un Impulsor"

(should i also say that in my pfd english version the book is 294 pages long and in my pdf spanish version its 532????) (i think it's because in the english one the speces are way less like the lines are so close together wtf

i've decided that i'm bored so i'll be skiping this chapter

anya is super badass tho

skdgfalsdgfliaysvfascvhjl yesssssss inej

Kaz Brekker didn't need a reason.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

KAZ

INEJ

I MISSED THEM

omg now i can picture amita and freddy SDJGKASKGLASG THIS IS AMAZING

we interrupt our regularly scheduled program to watch the shadow and bone trailer once again to hear freddy's beautiful voice

ok moving on!

now hear me out i'm giving you all permission to make fun of kaz for this one: Dirtyhands = Manos Sucias

hello i am Kaz Manos Sucias. nice to meet you!

AAAAA

AAAAAAAAAA

JESPER FAHEY

JESPER LOVE HI

SJDGHFKAHSGDLAJSDFSJ,AHFLHDSGF

I MISSED HIM OMG

OMG NOW I CAN PICTURE HIM AS KIT

can you tell jesper is one of my favourite characters?

i really love the fact that kaz is pissed about the murder of that ambassador ONLY because he can´t figure out how it happen

he´s such a nerd

i can't believe one of the firts things we hear jesper say is threathen to kill someone by writing "forgive me" with bullets

AND HE CALLS HIS GUNS "BABIES" OMG

picture saying hi baby and wylan thinkin he's talking to him but actually jesper's talking to one of his guns

Jesper rolled his eyes. "It's about sending a message. What's the point of a dead guy with forg written on his chest?."

"Compromise," Kaz said. "I'm sorry does the trick and uses fewer bullets."

ooo thank god we have kaz to come up with creative solutions /j /s

honestly i love how they talk about kaz's cane like it's the scariest weapon ever (which it kind of is)

nothing will ever disappoint me more than finding out that in english their gang name is "the Dregs". like i don't even know for sure what that means

in spanish is "Los Indeseables" (the undesirables?) which sounds a lot more badass

no hate tho i like the dregs

but i was confused af bc i expected it to be sometihng like "the undesirables" or"the unwanted" or whatever

and it said "the dregs"

which in the translator means something like shit or something

anways moving on:

If he'd (kaz) ever been a little boy

i love how lowkey all the crows think he was just born exactly like he is now

imagine a baby kaz all dressed in black and threatening people

cute

"No mourners," Jesper said as he tossed his rifle to Rotty

"No funerals," the rest of the Dregs murmured in reply. Among them, it passed for "good luck".

YES

YESSS

i wonder what wylan's doing right now :))

i can't wait for the next book where he has a pov

the first time i read this book i literally looked at the title of every chapter to see if he ever got one (i was disappointed to say the least :((((

Besides, she was the Wraith - the only law that applied to her was gravity, and some days she defied that, too.

ma'am

marry me please

i'm gonna cry so hard once the show is out and we get to see inej omg

me simp

That Kaz had chosen Jesper to be one of his seconds was no surprise. Twitchy as Jepser was, with or without his revolvers, he was at his best in a fight, and she knew he'd do anything for Kaz.

idk why but i just love it every time kaz implies or shows that he cares or trusts jesper

it makes me soft

But every one of Inej's senses told her that was not how this was going to play out. Her father would have said the shadows were about their business tonight. Something bad was going to happen here.

underrated saying from Inej's father right there

"I'm a business man," he told her."No more, no less"

"You're a thief, Kaz."

"Isn't that what I just said?"

i-

i see no lies here

not to be annoying but i hc jesper as adhd (i mean is pretty much as canon as wylan's dyslexia) so i'm gonna write here every time i see evidence :)

jesper with adhd part 1: impulsivity

Jesper snorted. "Stomach, spine. What's next, spleen?"

"Shut it" Oomen snarled. The rules of parley dictated that only the lieutenants could speak once negotiations had begun. Jesper mouthed "sorry" and elaboratedly pantomimed locking his lips shut.

he know he couldn't speak but couldn't stop himself from making a comment (i relate way too much to that lmao)

hoestly poor jesper he had to watch hid friend get shot and kaz do nothing about it

i would've been mad too

"I like it when men beg," she said. "But this isn't the time for it"

KAHGFAHLGSFGASFLGSAFS

this is one of the best quotes in the book by far

YASSS KAZ POV

Kaz could have tol Jesper that he knew he wasn't dirty, reminded him that he'd trusted him eough to make him his only real second in a fight that could have gone badly wrong tonight.

cute

but kaz is petty af

he didn't even have a reason not to tell jesper that!

i love that kaz knows inej is following him but doesn't say anything because he wants to wait until she's ready

i LOVE the scene where kaz in in the van eck mantion /srs

idk why but it's so good

And, of course, there was the mystery of Van Eck's son.

wonder what that could be!!! /s

He grinned at her (...)

"Hmm." she said noncommittally, pretending to examine one of her knives, determined to ignore that grin.

KANEJ YESS

HE'S BASICALLY SHOWERING IN FRONT OF HER OMG

this is so funny poor inej is getting flustered

"And I'll need Wylan waiting at the Crow Club tomorrow night."

YES WYLAN OMG

One minute he made her blush and the next he made her want to commit murder

happens to the best of us :/

"Please, my darling Inej. treasure of my heart won't you do me the honor of acquiring me a new hat?"

if kaz doesn't say this on the show we riot

agreed?

it's so amazing how nina found a way to use her powers to get money instead of having to like steal and murder like the rest in the gang

NINA'S POV YESSS HIII

nina and inej omg

their friendship is just perfect

POOR MATTHIAS HE HAS TO FIGHT THE WOLVES

i would straight up cry

Matthias was dreaming again. Dreaming of her

i'm gonna cry damn it

this is the enemies-to-lovers we all needed

jesper has adhd part 2:

"Jesper was supposed to wait until three bells." said the pale boy

"It is three bells, Kaz." replied a small girl (...)

"Since when is Jesper punctual?" the boy complained with a glance at his watch

the time blindness come one

(btw i love the fact that kaz plans around jesper's time blindness instead of like threatening him to be on time)

i really love how every one feels the need to take the time to say/think that the masks are ugly

its so unnecessary lmao

yessss inej is a badass that kills monster we stan

and matthias is lowkey impressed lmao

as he should

"Thank you, Jesper," said Nina

"You're very welcome, gorgeous. See, Kaz? That's how the civilised folk do"

THESE TWO OMG

JESPER IS THE LOML

INEJ OMG LOOK:

She stepped aside as if she's known he was coming, languidly hooking her heel behind his ankle. Matthias let out a loud grunt as he landed on the stones

(...) "Clumsy, this one," the bronze girl said impassively.

i-

that's what happen when you underestimate her bitch

AAAAAAA

PEOPLE

PEOPLE

TIME TO FREAK OUT

WYLAN IS HERE

AND HE'S DOODLING STOP IT'S SO CUTE

ok jesper has adhd part 3 i think:

"Just how crazy is he?" asked Jesper, fingers drumming on the pearl handles of his revolvers.

ok first of all: stimming

second of all: hyperactivity

i rest my case

ok 2 or 3 things here

"I believe you know Nina," Brekker continued. "The lovely girl freeing you is Inej. (...) and this is Wylan, the best demolitions expert in the Barrel"

"Raske is better," Inej said

The boy looked up, ruddy gold hair flopping in his eyes, and spoke for the first time. "He's not better. He's reckless"

"He knows his trade"

"So do I"

ok 1: kaz calling inej lovely omg kanej

2: YES WYLAN STANDING UP FOR HIMSELF

2.5: kaz calling him the best cute af

3: honestly why do people think wylan is like an innocent soft boy or whatever. he's in a room full of murderers and thieves and the first thing he does is correct them and stand up for himself

like i wish i could do that

i would be crying like a bitch

AAAAAAAA

"Meet Wylan Van Eck"

KHDSGFALSGFIASGFAL

HI WYLAN BABY

YESSS JESPER'S POV NOW

I'M SO HAPPY also look at this it's the first thing in his pov

Jesper stared at Wylan

do i sense some wesper?????

ok everyone is being so mean to him right now

they are aclling him useless and an idiot and other shit

poor boy honestly he had to deal with this + taking part of a heist he is definetly not ready for + he has to hide the fact that he can't write or read

it so distrubing that kaz is literally the nicest one to wylan right now

"See that? Hidden depths." (...)"He's good enough at demo, and he's got a fine hand for sketching, thanks to all those pricey tutors."

(...)

"There you have it," Kaz said to Jesper. "Marketable skills. Wylan is watching you, Helvar"

GET READY

ARE Y'ALL READY?

OK THEN:

"Scheming face," Jesper whispered to Inej.

She nodded. "Definetly."

THEIR FRIENDSHIP OMG

AND THIS QUOTE

I NEED IT ON THE SHOW THEY BETTER GIVE IT TO US

"Who's Mark" damn wylan (but pretty good comeback to jesper tho)

"What's the easiest way to steal a man's wallet?

"Knife to the throat?" asked Inej.

"Gun to the back?" said Jesper.

"Poison in his cup?" suggested Nina.

"You're all horrible," said Matthias.

tag yourself i'm jesper

KJSFGAL kaz just told wylan to tell him everything he know about his dad's company

and he said he doesn't know and kaz was like "and you never looked trough his documents????

AND THEN HE GOT SAD AND SAID HE HADN'T (and kaz believed him this is sad)

AND NOW JESPER CALLED HIIM USELESS

ok you know i love you jes but if you keep this up

idk i can't do anything you're a sharpshooter

but stiiiiiil

LMAO MATTHIAS ACTUALLY THOUGHT HE COULD BEAT KAZ

nice try

demjin

*insert spongebob voice* demjin

WE'RE GONNA TAKE A MOMENT NOW TO APPRECIATE INEJ GAHFA

BECAUSE KAZ DOESN'T

The heart is an arrow. It demands aim to land true.

*ugly crying*

Many boys will bring you flowers. But some day you'll meet a boy who will learn your favourite flower, your favourite song, your favourite sweet. And even if he is too poor to give you any of them, it won't matter because he will have taken the time to know you as no one else does. Only that boy earns your heart.

*uglier crying*

TANTE HELLEN IF YOU DON'T GET THE FUCK OUT OF HERE

SOMEONE PLEASE STAB HER FOR ME

jesper has adhd part ?? (i have dyscalculia you can't expect me to remember the number):

That sound - the swift, shocking report of gunfire - called the scattered, irascible, permanently seeking part of his mind into focus like nothing else.

do i really need to explain this?

ok just in case.. an adhd brain doesn't actually have a deficit of attention(the name just sucks) it's problem with controling that attention. the brain is always looking for new sources of dopamine which is why it shifts its focus so much

i love that jes thinks of matthias as "tha giant"

like sir

have you seen yourself?

you're tall af

HE GOT SHOT

WHY DID I FORGET JESPER GETS SHOT IN THE LEG HERE

"Close your eyes!"

"You can't kiss me from down there, Wylan"

"Just do it!"

i love the energy BUT NOW IT'S NOT THE TIME JES

YESS WYLAN SHOW THEM THEY WERE WRONG CALLING YOU USELESS

inej just stabed some guy int the d

good for her!

KAZ YESSSS HI

AWWW SHE'S WORRIED HE DOESN'T HAVE HIS CANE

KANEJ FOR LIFE

oh no wylan got shot too???? (just barely but stilllll por baby)

my Wraith omggg

ok 3 things about this:

Without another word, he tipped Oomen into the sea.

"No!" Wylan shouted, leaning over the railing, his face pale, stunned eyes tracking Oomen in the waves. (...)

Jesper set his hand on Wylan's shoulder. "Let it go."

"It's not right-"

"Wylan," Jesper said, giving him a little shake."Maybe your tutors didn't cover this lesson, but you do not argue with a man covered in blook and a knife up his sleeve"

1. wesper yasssss

2. wylan just argued with a mant hat had just tacken the eye out of someone. he literally called him out for being an asshole. like damn wylan is brave af i love him

3. do you think seeing kaz trow the guy out of the boat reminded wylan of when the same thing happened to him???? this makes me sad

he's brave and a good person and i just-

"Man with a knife, remember?" he said over his shoulder.

"Man with a gun!" Jesper called after him

this had no right being so funny

AND THEN KAZ GAVE HIM THE MIDDLE FINGER STOP I CAN'T

nina is the biggest kanej shiper no one can tell me i'm wrong

unrelated but if jesper had gone to the Little Palace and had studied there with nina they 100% would've had a crush on Zoya and bonded over it

like you can't tell me those two bisexual disaster wouldn't be absolutely in love with Zoya

jesper has adhd part ??:

Jesper scrubbed the back of his neck, touched his hands to his gunds, returned to his neck. He always seemed to be in motions

hyperactivity right there

and restlessness

"Do you know the best way to find Grisha who don't want to be found?" (...)

"Seems to be if they don't want to be found, you should just let them be" (jesper says this)

this conversation must be so stressful to him omg

LMAO JESPER CUT MATTHIAS HAIR THIS IS SO FUNNY

AND HE SHAVED HIM

ok you all know i love all of them but they can be sooo stupid

like wylan wrote no names on the drawing and he's excuse is that he doesn't know fjerdan?

AND THAT'S NOT EVEN TRUE he literally said he learned school fjerdan which means he should know how to write it too (we know why he can't but the tohers don't)

and even then like the excuse doesn't make any sense. why would having the original name be usefull if no one can fucking read it????

the worst part tho? NO ONE QUESTIONED HIM

THEY WERE LIKE "yup makes sense" AND WENT ON WITH THEIR DAY

i wondered how they didn't figure wylan's secret sooner but now i now

it's because theya re idiots

"I'm just doing my job. Stop glaring at me"

wylan baby let's not make the gigant mad

Jesper knocked his head against the hull and cast his eyes heavenward. "Fine. But if Pekka Rollins kills us all, I'm going to get Wylan's ghost to teach my ghost how to play the flute just so that I can annoy the hell out of your ghost."

Brekker's lips quirked. "I'll just hire Matthias ghost to kick your ghost's ass."

"My ghost won't associate with your ghost," Matthias said primply, and then wondered if the sea air was rotting his brain.

i had to put this here i don't want to get murdered by the fandom

jesper, inej and nina have the BEST friendship

I CAN'T WAIT TO SEE JES AND INEJ TOGETHER ON NETFLIX

"I know some people don't understand, but Kaz told me ... he said it was my choice, that he wouldn't be the one to mark me again."

i love this because it happen when they had just met

he did it because he understands her trauma and he respects her not because he loves her (i doubt he did at the time)

Kaz had been impressed with the sketches. (...)

"Just learn to take a compliment. Kaz doesn't hand them out often."

I'M SO PROUD OF WYLAN

and yess kaz only compliments wylan (and inej but that's sarcastic so it doesn't count) because he's a proud dad

"And you don't belong here, either."

"I beg your pardon, merchiling?"

"We don't need a sharpshooter for Kaz's plan, so what's your job - other than stalking around making everyone angsty?"

He shrugged. "Kaz trusts me."

Wylan snorted and picked up his pen. "Sure about that?"

DAMN WYLAN DESTROYED HIM

also

"If you aren't born with every advantage, you learn to take your chances."

"I wasn't-" Wylan left off and set down his pen. (...)

aww cute neurodivergent boyfriends bonding

Wylan had turned back to his work, his disappointment obvious. For some reason, Jesper felt disappointed, too.

ajgflasjgfjagslfiuusgflgdfsgdflasdgfsd

wesper

aww jes checks on inej every morning and every night i love him

"Thank you for keeping me in this world when fate seemed determined to drag me to the next. I owe you a life debt."

Nina blushed deeply. "I was teasing, Inej"

LJFGALKGFALGA another cute friendship right there

(and i can see why people ship them romantically)

STOP INEJ AND JES ARE BONDING SO MUCH (page 127 so i can go back and read it lmao)

Van Eck writes to Wylan every week, and Wylan doesn't even open the letters

"They just said the same thing again and again: If you're reading this, the you know how much I wish to have you home. Or I pray that you read these words and think of all you've left behind."

should i kill him? anyone want to join me?

Inej bumped her shoulder against his."Then at least we're both the same kind of stupid." (...)

"You're too good for him, you know?"

"I know. So are you"

jes and her bonding over their stupid crush on a white boy

Because I've been looking for an excuse to talk to you for two days.

jfsfdajdhmgkfutdjrgsg ok i can't blame them for having a crush on him anymore

this chapter is full of kanej i love it

"What do you want, then"

You, Inej. You forever.

jksdgfoagsdfgsdgfklasgdflaghsldfgksdgfkahgsdfghjlkf

kaz's backstory makes me sad

"When we get our money, you can burn kruge to keep you warm," said Kaz. (...)

"I´m gonna pay someone to burn my kruge for me."

Kaz fell into step beside him. "Why don't you pay someone else to pay someone to burn your kruge for you? That's what big players do."

"You know what the really big bosses do? They pay someone to pay someone ...". Their voices trailed off as they tomped ahead, and Matthias and the others followed.

JES AND KAZ HAVE THE BEST CONVERSATIONS

i can't believe we get to see nina and matthias meet and their whole backstory in less than a month omg

"It's not natural for women to fight."

"It's not natural for someone to be as stupid as he is tall, and yet there you stand."

QUEEN

YOU TELL HIM

oh no the dead grisha

this part breaks my heart every time

"Do you have a different name for killing when you wear a uniform to do it?"

.....i'm just gonna leave this quote right here

anyways acab

stop nina tried to kill the survivor so they wouldn't suffer but she couldn't do it

and jesper did it for her without hesitation i wanna cry

and inej didn't want to do it either i want to hug them

"Because our crime is existing. Our crime is what we are"

..........

i'm gonna leave this here again

do with it what you will

"Don't mock what you don't understand."

"My mockery offends you? My people would welcome you laughter in place of this barbarity"

i- this conversation is so important

AAAAA JES AND WY ARE A GREAT TEAM I LOVE THEM

WYLAN TROWS BOMBS TOGIVE JESPER TIME TO GET READY TO SHOOT

INEJ AND KAZ ARE A GREAT TEAM TOO

THEY LITERALLY DID THE SCENE LIKE IN THE AVENGERS (but without the shield WHICH MAKES IT BETTER)

Jesper shouldered his rifle. "Wylan earned his keep."

Wylan gave a little jump at the sound of his name. "I did?"

YES BABY YOU DID GREAT

kaz getting self-conscious for his hair is pure comedy

but nina how can you say that have you see his hair on the show???? it's perfect

"Remeber our friend Mark?"

HELP I CAN'T

"Any other impossible feats you'd like us to accomplish?"

The bearest smile flikered over Kaz's lips. "I'll make you a list."

once again jesper and kaz being besties

unrelated but nikolai and jesper would love each other

the amount of sass they have between them it's unparalleled

"Mmm," Inej murmured, taking a sip from her mug. "Maybe you're just not enough."

DAMN

ma'am marry me please

kaz fainted damn poor boy

unrelated unce again but this is so much betetr than shadow and bone

like you can tell leigh improved so much

her characters are better and their arcs are better developed

the writing itself it's better

or maybe i'm just biased because i love soc so much but i think she definetly improved

INEJ IS TRYING TO GIVE HIM SPACE EVEN WHEN SHE'S TRAPPED AND LOCKED ON THE WAGON

I JUST - THEY KNOW EACH OTHER SO MUCH

Though he'd trusted her with his life countless times, it felt much more frightening to trust her with his shame.

Inej had once offered to teach him how to fall. "The trick is not getting knocked down," he'd told her with a laugh. "No, Kaz," she's said, "the trick is in getting back up"

inej is smart af

Kaz was usually unshakeable during a job, but now he was on edge, and Jesper didn't know why. Part of him wanted to ask, though he knew that was the stupid part, the hopeful farmboy who picked the worst possible person to care about, who searched for signs in things that he knew deep down meant nothing - when kaz chose him for a job, when Kaz played along with one of his jokes. He could have kicked himself. He's finally seen the infamous Kaz Brekker without a stich of clothing, and he'd been too worried about ending up on a pike to pay proper attention.

ok i got a couple of things to say about this part

first of all it makes me so sad that jes cares so much for someone who dosn't deserve him. because no hate to kaz but they would never work as a couple and kaz already treats him like shit most of the time

i think this part shows who a lot about who jesper really is. a boy that grew up having to hide parts of himself, who thinks he's worth nothing but it's smart and capable, who's loyal and brave and caring but doesn't even know it himself. he's someone who feels he doesn't deserve good things and thinks he's not good enough, and that's why he unds up in all the wrong places with the wrong people. he left uni bc he fell in with the gangs, because he didn't think he was smart enough or even prepared to be in studying in the university. jesper is constantly hiding behind a mask or running from things because he's scared of not being enough

an kaz is everything jes in a way wishes he could be. kaz is secure in himself (at least on the outside), he's stable, he's smart, he's "unshakeable". and most of all, he doesn't care about others (we know that's not true but that's how he presents himself)

and that's the thing that causes jesper all his problems. because he's insecure because he thinks he's not good enough for the poeple or things he cares about. and he's always trying to do what's best for his loved ones: he went to the ice court to pay his debt for his father, he follows kaz everywhere beacause he cares about him, he offered to read to wylan (knowing it wouldn't be easy for him to be still that long).

and yeah it often doesn't work out becuase he's messy and he has problems but he tries. and he hates that. he hates that he cares so much about people because at the end of the day, that's what makes him feel like he's not good enough

one more thing and i'm done i promise

unpopular opinion but i love that leigh made jesper have a crush on kaz. 1 beacuse it's refreshing to see someone not get otgether with his first crush. and 2 because i love that it shows that we sometimes get attached to people that are not good for us, but that we can learn to move on. jesper ended with wylan who respects him and values him, unlike kaz

ok i'm sorry that was probably all bs

oo one more thing, jesper definetly has rsd (rejection sensitive disphoria), which is something most poeple with adhd have

"My father used to take me everywhere with him"

this is so sad. bc they probably had a good relationship when he was little. and then they figured he coudln't read and now his father treats him like shit

it's even worse than if he haf been horrible from the beginning because wylan knows he can be a good father. and so he thinks it's his fault and he deserves to be treated like that. i hate van eck

"You're cuter when you're smart"

(...)

"Definitely cuter when you're smart"

wesper yesssss

i love them so much

ok but why do people think jesper is stupid. like the boy just made a bunch of criminals pass out by mixing some chemicals

and he was going to the university at like 15

AAAAND NOW THEY KNOW HE'S A FABRIKATOR

amazing plot twist

also:

Wylan coughed. Flirting with him might actually be more fun that annoying him, but it was a close call.

oooo come on jesper we all know you just love getitng him to blush

and you love him

who said that? definitely not me, nope

awwww jesper misses being around animals that's cute

imagine him coming home to wylan one day with a puppy because he just couldn't resist

cute

Better terrible truths than kind lies

just leaving here more of inej's wisdom

ok this may be a reach but jesper has adhd part ???

Yellow Protocol? Red Protocol? He couldn't remember which was which. (...)

"The alarm was Yellow Protocol, a sector disturbance."

Jesper pushed at his temples. "I don't remember what that means"

a bad working memory? sounds familiar

kaz loves puzzles

it's canon

"I love puzzles. Trickery is just my native tongue."

this part where wylan and jesper see the banner made with grisha's kefta kills me every time

I would have worn purple, Jesper thought, if I'd joined the Second Army. (...) He'd beenwilling, even eager to risk capture and execution as a thief and hired gun. Why was it worse to think about being hunted as a Grisha?

this makes me want to cry so much

another thing super sad: the fact that since his father is Kaelish and had some supersititons towards grisha, jesper grew up wondering if his own father was scared of him. he had to hide his powers and he was almost taught to be afraid of them

"Is it safe to leave them, you know-"

"Alive? I'm not big on killing unconscious men."

"We could wake them up"

WYLAN

NO

damn the boy needs therapy

it's amazing how nothing went like they planned

not a single thing

PEOPLE GET READY

ARE YOU READY?

NEITHER AM I BUT WHO CARES

"What do you like?"

"Music. Numbers. Equations. They are not like words. They...they don't get mixed up."

ok dude the clues are right there he's basically saying it

"If only you could talk to girls in equations."

There was a long silence, and then, eyes trained on the notch they'd created in the link, Wylan said, "Just girls?"

Jesper restrained a grin. "No. Not just girls." It really was a shame they were all probably going to die tonight.

wylan really said a straight man?? couldn't be me

this is the definition of bi panic "jesper restrained a grin" bitch we saw that

btw i love the slow burn

like they hint something here but they don't actually start liking each other until much later and they don't get together until almost the end of ck

i also love that the fact that they both like guys is like out in the open now. bc i'm not a fan of when queer characters have a crush and there's the whole thing of "are they queer too or not?"

like they both know htey are queer. but they don't get together right away bc they have to start liking each other before. they don't get together bc they are the only queer mlm characters

matthias fake betrayal killed me

i tought it was real

I have been made to protect you. Only in death will I be kept fom this oath.

this is just-

also foreshadowing?

YAYY KUWEI HI

There was no part of him that was not broken, that had not healed wrong, and there was no part of him that was not stronger for having been broken.

She's laughed, and if he could have bottled the sound and got drunk on it every night, he would have. It terrified him.

if i ever have a s/o and they don't tell me this at least once i don't want it

He needed to tell her... what? That she was lovely and brave and better than anything he deserved. That he was twisted, crooked, wrong, but not so broken that he couldn't pull himslef together into some smeblance of a man for her

THIS

THIS IS LOVE RIGHT THERE

they are the only straight couple that matters

everyone else go home

Wylan had scratches all over his cheeks and neck. He was beaming. Inej grabbed his hands and sqeezed.

so cute omg

"You can explain why our illustrious Shu scientist looks like one of Wylan's school pals along the way"

KAZ

i mean it's true but you didn't have to say it

KAZ IS SMILING OMG

EVERYONE FREAK OUT WITH ME

HE'S "grinning like and idiot" STOP I LOVE HIM

"We are all someone's mosnter, Nina"

"I will have you without armour, Kaz Brekker. Or I will not have you at all"

this part breaks my heart and i love it

"Stay," she oanted. Tears leaked from her eyes. "Stay till the end"

"And after," he said. "And always."

i just- helnik is perfect

AWWW JESPER MISSES WYLAN

my daily dosis of wesper :)

ok but in like 2 pages jesper tought of wylan like 10 times bc he's sad wy isn't with him

Jesper scanned the empty deck. He's assumed Wylan would come up to see them off. (...)

Jesper knew he was being selfish and stupid, but some petty part of him wondered if Wylan had deliberately kept away from him on the journey back. Maybe now that the job was complete and he was on his way to his share of the haul, Wylan was done slumming with criminals.

*charles boyle's insinuating voice* and why do you care so much???

btw YOU ARE WRONG. HE'S LITERALLY GOING OUT OF HIS WAY TO BE WITH YOU EVEN THOUGH HE CAN'T SPEAK

this scene where we find out the truth about wylan hurts so much but it's one of my favourites idk why

I LOVE THAT EVERYONE IS AS MAD AS I AM ABOUT THE LETTERS NOW

"Your're a fool," Jesper snarled. "He smarter than most of us put together, and he deserves a better father than you."

YES TELL HIM

the fact that wylan just heard him say that omg

"Deserved" amended Van Eck. He blew the whislte twice.

SOMEONE BETTER GRAB ME BEFORE I KILL HIM MYSLEF

THAT IDIOT

I HATE HIM SO MUCH

I'M GONNA CRY CAN SOMEONE KILL HIM FOR ME

Jesper screamed in rage and raised his guns.

YES EXACLTY WHAT I MEANT

JUST KILL HIM RIGHT NOW

"I'm not big on bludding, am I Inej?"

"Not as a rule"

Van Eck's lip curled. "And why is that?"

"Because he'd rather cheat," said the boy who was not Kuwei Yul-Bo in perfect, unaccented Kerch.

THIS WAS PERFECT

THE BEST WAY TO REVEAL THAT

(...), and Jesper flinched

baby he recognized wylan's voice

The Shu boy held out a hand. "Pay up, Kaz"

BITCH THIS IS AMAZING

THIS BOY MADE A BET WITH A CRIMINAL THAT HIS OWN FATHER WAS GOING TO TRY TO KILL HIM

AND HE WON THE BET

A nearly perfect replica of Kuwei Yul-Bo stood before them, but he had Wylan's voice, his mannerisms, and - though Kaz could see the fear and hurt in his golden eyes - Wylan's surprising courage, too.

i love it when they compliment him

my boy deserves all the compliments ever

AND KAZ IS PROUD OF HIS SON WE ALL KNOW THIS

Wylan cuold draw a perfectt elevation. He's made a drill that could cut throu Grisha glass from parts of a gate and scavenged bits of jewellery. So what if he couldn't read

this is taking me to some real places

i may cry you've been warned

WYLAN DIDN'T CARE THAT HE MAY BE STUCKED LOOKING LIKE KUWEI

this is making me cry

"A fool would have been waiting to be smashed to bits on that ship. And as for "traitor", you've called me worse in the last few minutes alone."

EXACTLY

YOU TELL HIM WYLAN

Instead, in that moment of threat, when he should have thought only of the fight, he looked at Inej.

BABY

i would've done the same tho she's pretty

amita is sooo pretty i'm gonna die when the show comes out

Jesper was staring at Wylan, his eyes roving over the black hair, the golden eyes. "Why?" he said at last. "Why would you do this?"

nothing to say here except: wesper

You... how many times was it you standing beside me on the deck at night when I tought it was Kuwei?"

"Every time."

i want to cry so bad

"Why does it matter?"

"I don't know!" Jesper said angrily. "Maybe I liked your stupid face."

a very staright and platonic thing to say of course

i know jes we all liked his stupid face

"Jesper made a mistake," said Wylan. "A stupid mistake, but he didn't set out to betray anyone."

YES WYLAN DEFEND YOUR BOYFRIEND

And maybe he'd kept him in the dark about Wyllan because he wanted to punish him a little

even kaz know they like each other come on

Jesper sat with elbows on knees, head in hands. Wylan deside him wearing th face of a stranger.

wylan give him a hug fro me please

he needs it

"Scheming face," murmured Jesper.

"Definitely," agreed Wylan.

i miss inej already

And I'm going to get my girl. Inej could never be his, not really, but he would find a way to give her the freedom he´d promised her so long ago.

i'm ugly crying and so what?

and now we're done....

i want to read this book again omg this is unhealthy

[yandere-romanticaa]

The votes are in and #2 was the most popular! Don't worry though, I'll definetly write the other two though, the lot of you especially craved platonic yandere love!

"No, not like that..."

ft! Jack Howl.

Remaining hidden underneath the lush green trees was (y/n), as she awaited her dear friend Jack to show up from class. He had asked her to help him with some homework and who was she to say no? She loved being with Jack, he was the cutest person ever! She loved how big and strong he was while in reality he was incredibly awkward if not a little shy. Checking the clock on her phone she happily awaited him, knowing that he was arriving very soon as Jack was a very diligent guy. As if on cue she heard a pair of footsteps approaching her nearby.

Speak of the devil.

In a flash Jack was beside her, his face emotionless as he sat down next to her, greeting her.

"Good afternoon, Supervisor." Jack said in a calm but quiet voice. She giggled at his serious tone as she ruffled his hair, ocassionally touching his ears in the process. Jack's face erupted in to flames as he froze on the spot, his eyes unblinking as he stared at (y/n) unsure what to do. She was always like this, so touchy feely but despite his protests he never actually complained all that much. It was refreshing to have someone be so sweet to you for once, unlike the very rough and tough dorm he was placed in. Jack had to always be prepared for any of his peers to challenge him for whatever reason they deemed worthy - and he could never say no. His pride forbid his from doing so.

But with (y/n)? He didn’t have to keep up appearances or the tough guy act... most of the time. He could just unwind and enjoy these peaceful moments as they were, scarce but utterly divine. He felt (y/n) shifting next to him as she placed her head on his shoulder as she stared off in to the distance, a dreamy smile on her soft lips. Glancing at her Jack said nothing as he stared at her like that for a few moments, his heart beating at a irregular speed. For a moment he worried that it was going to burst right out of his chest or ever worse, that (y/n) could hear it. He wanted to get up and go somewhere, anywhere, but goodness his legs felt like complete mush. (y/n) always had this affect on him, she always made him feel so vulnerable, like he was a little puppy again.

But oddly enough it was a good feeling. A feeling that he grew to love, no matter how many times he denied it.

Because of that Jack became so overprotective over (y/n). He couldn’t help himself, Jack knew just how cunning some of the students were in this school and that they would gladly indulge in their dark desires, no matter who might get hurt in the process. Besides, it was in his nature to protect his pack... That is what wolves do after all. And despite not being a wolf herself, (y/n) kept him safe too, in her own little ways. She was his emotional rock, the support system that Jack needed. She was everything he could possibly want.

But that was not the case for (y/n).

Despite the friendly nature of their relationship, Jack was bitter, greatly so. Why? Because their relationship would always remain just that - friendly. Never more, never less. (y/n) only saw Jack as a friend, if not a little brother, a little brother for her to dote on.

But he didn't want that, God he did not.

He wanted (y/n) too see him as a potential partner, as a man. Someone who could keep her safe from harms way, someone who was willing to do anything for her.

Anything.

He does not care what, if (y/n) was safe and happy then that was the only thing that mattered. But as of now Jack had no choice but settle for this. Who knows, maybe the stars will start to favor him and luck will be on his side.... one day.

As of now, he was content with playin his part... But that content was not going to last forever.

Tags: @hookrunt-official, @twst-rose-prisms, @twst-soul, @yandere-wishes, @pumpkiethepie, @phantomness @heartofabunny

[defschoice]

His Babygirl - Park Jinyoung

Characters: Park Jinyoung, Jackson Wang, Lim Jaebeom, Reader, Kevin Moon

Genre: Smut

Warning: (bondage, spanking, dom, obedience, rough sex, lightly fifty shades of grey vibes)

Summary: Jinyoung, a cold hearted savage and spoiled fuckboy who gets everything he wants and gets his way with people as he wants it.

Word count: 1546

"Why do you have to leave Kev?" You sobbed as your brother package his suitcase.

"It's just a small tour to Europe and USA with my group" He said as he continued to pack.

"How long will you be gone?" You asked sitting on his bed

"Just a month or so but don't worry, I'll be back before you know it" He said as he patted your head and went down the stairs.

-------------------------

As you stood at the top of the stairs you heard your parents talk with Kevin as you walked down the stairs and grabbed to jacket.

"Hey sweetie where are you going?" Your mum turned around and asked me.

"Over to Jun's place, I might stay there over night" You said as Kevin just chuckled.

"Okay but be careful sweetie, see you later then" She said as you walked out and about to close the door.

"Remember to use protection if you do anything" She added right before you closed the door. Is she being for real?

"Mum! No!" You yelled as you slammed the door and started to make your way to Jun's place.

You were walking down the streets of Seoul as you were texting Jun when you walked into someone and fell backwards.

"Hey watch were you walk!" You said as you looked up at probably the most handsome man you've ever seen.

Damn... and me who thought Jun was the most handsome man I had ever seen.

"The name is Park Jinyoung and who is this beautiful little lady?" He asked with a smirking but yet heartwarming smile as he reaches his hand out for you to grab.

You take his hand as you stand up and start to dust your pretty ass " My name is Moon, Y/N Moon" You said as you continued to dust yourself of.

"Here let me help you" He said as he lifted you up and threw you over his shoulder and dusted your ass that was already clean.

I bet you he just wants a reason to touch your ass and that's when you felt a hand of up under your skirt grabbing your ass or more likely caressing it a bit which was very weird. The only other guy who's ever touched your ass is Jun and don't question that.

"Hey this is private property" You said as he just started laughing and then slapped your ass so hard you were sure the whole town could hear it.

"Well i take what i like and make it mine and i like that pretty little ass of yours so don't get too surprised from now on, okay princess?" He said while smiling bright at himself.

After a good 20 minutes of Jinyoung walking with you on his shoulder while he had his hand on your butt you managed to text Jun saying you couldn't come obviously because Mr. Perfect over here decided to take you to his home.

We entered this big mansion as you looked around "Can you set me down now?" You asked he just started laughing again, I swear does this boy just find everything I say funny or what?

"Not quite yet princess" he said as he walked into another big room, closed and locked the door as he threw you on his big king size bed, as you bounced on the mattress.

"Want to have some fun? I wanna see more of you than just your pretty little ass" He said as you looked into his eyes which was full of lust. He looked you up and down as he licked his lips and stood up.

He's quite gorgeous and handsome you honestly wouldn't mind doing him plus it's been a while since last time you did something so why not.

"Yeah sure I would like to see more off you than just your face, back and that peachy ass of yours" You said as he started to unbuckle his belt and pulled his pants down along with boxers, you decided to be a little extra and tease him a bit as well cuz why not hahaha

God damn he has a gorgeous body, so muscular and ahhh it's too much he must be working out or something and you like it.

You just started at him in standing there as you stood up on his bed and put your arms around his neck as you started to rub myself up against him giving him an even bigger boner than he already has.

You kept teasing him until he begged you to fuck him which took shorter time than you expected.

Fuck he's needy lmao

"Just fucking do me like there's no tomorrow" he said as you kept going on with this for a little bit longer.

"What's my name?" You asked lifting his pretty face up by the chin that was resting on your shoulder.

"Y-Y/N" he said now stuttering.

"B-Babygirl" He said still stuttering.

"Good boy" You said going on my knees and grabbed around his hardened member and started out slowly as he grabbed your head to control and lead you.

After a good amount of time he pushed you down the bed and was over you and started undressing you while demanding you to turn around flat on your stomach as he made himself ready to go in.

He placed the tip at your entrance and started teasing you, now giving you what you gave him.

He started thrusting inside you hard giving you no time to adjust for his size

"J-Jinyoung I'm so close" you said grabbing on to this hair.

"That's not my name" he said as he started to go slower teasing you even more.

"D-Daddy" you said now stuttering as he smirked of amusement

"That's right babygirl" He said going faster again until you both eventually came.

"Baby?" He asked laying on his side looking at you

"Hmm" you said being really fucking exhausted right now. He's good and he definetly knows what he's doing

"You know that pretty little ass of yours? I'm not done with that or you" he said as he started laughing while walking out of the room.

A few minutes later he came back fairly more undressed than before with some handcuffs and foot lockers and started tying you up, then throwing you over his shoulder once again.

"May I ask where you're taking me?" You asked as he just smiled

"Just a little room I have" he said as you walked into the room that pretty much like something taken straight out of fifty shades of grey

As he was tyeing you up you suddenly heard 2 other male voices.

Short after he cuffed the handcuffs to your hands at the bed frame and walked out of the room.

As Jinyoung was tyeing you up to the bed frame with some handcuffs, two of his best friends Jackson and JB arrived cuz obviously I had to call them over about this.

"Oh it must be them" He said as he ran out of the room leaving you tied to the bed with your arms

"Yo wassup bro?" JB said as he bro hugged him.

"Where is she?" Jackson asked clearly excited to see you.

"Relax Jacky she's in here, but you don't get to see her " He said standing in front of the door to the room.

"Bro come on. Why not?" Jackson complained to Jinyoung.

"Because. Go make yourself home in the living room. I'll finish up here and come out soon" He said gesturing for the boys to go as he went in again.

He took his shirt and pants of again and proceeded to grab your waist as he started spanked you a few times.

"You want more?" He asked you as you nodded your head at him.

"I need words. Speak to me" He said slapping your ass again.

"Y-yes Jinyoung" You said as he took the order and started slipping his thumb in your pussy rubbing your clit slowly but hardly.

"J-Jinyoung" You said as he started going in and out with his finger in a rapidly pace.

"Hold it in for me princess" He said replacing his fingers with his hard cock as he started pumping in and out giving you no time to adjust again.

After you both came he lied down next to you for a few minutes before standing up to get dressed again.

"Get cleaned up and come out in the living room" he said leaving the room.

You got dressed and walked out in the living room to the the boys

"Sup?" You said looking at JB

"Not much, you're pretty nice. Should we head back Jackson?" JB said to you to then look at Jackson.

"Y/n you can leave again if you want to but here's my number so I can call you whenever I need you" Jinyoung said to you as you walked with JB and Jackson out

"Do you want to drive with us?" JB asked looking at you.

"Sure I just need to get dropped off at my friends house anyway" You said taking your phone out.

Not gonna lie she's pretty cute but I wonder who her friend is.

[jay-bee-me]

200 Followers celebration!

For I finally reached 200 Followers here's my celebration!

It contains 2 elements! First this emoji ask meme:

So send me

🌈To get a fictional character based on your blog/what I know about you

✨To get a book recommendation (please add a genre if you aren't into sci-fi or fantasy)

💫To get a series recommendation

🌸To get my thoughts on you/ first impression

(beside the first and the last one you can sent on anon when you feel more comfortable with it)

Part 2 is the following creepypasta! If you don't like scary stuff just skip it and scroll on. I don't mention any critical things as far as I can judge. If you read it but think I should add trigger warnings please tell me (you can just sent an anon ask and tell me what tw I have to set) I don't want anyone to feel uncomfortable and will add any trigger warnings!

"There's a myth being told. You know? It's about the white man. A creature pale as snow. His eyes a glooming red. You should never ever try to get him alive. And never ever summon him! He has medusas abilities and a single look at him and you saying 'no' will immediately turn you to stone for the next 10 years."." wait- wait- wait. Why only 10 years, Kathy? That sounds lame. Like losing 10 years? That's definetly worth to experience how it is being a stone!" Dev and Emma nod agreeingly." Well fine! What other ideas do you have?", Kathrine asks sending a glare in my direction. "uhm. What about 30 years and you forget everything besides the feeling of not being able to move?" I ask 'em. "why not 50 years? That's way more frightening and sounds way more magical?" Emma complains. Dev gives a noise that's implying he agrees. "than that's it?" we all nod to show Kathy our agreement. She then types the new version into her computer. "okay so how do we wanna continue?" she says as she looks at us again. "what about a young boy like 15 years old? And he is trying to challenge himself by finding the creature." Dev suggests. "okay, that sounds good, but I'm going to bed guys" "g'night" we say as Emma already leaves the room. "okay I'll write like a short introduction and I'd say we do it then tomorrow so no one leaves out!" "yeah!" Dev and me say simultaneously. While she's writing Dev and I throw chips in each other's mouth and try to catch 'em. Afterwards we talk another half hour and then go to bed.

It was dark when I woke up. A look at my smartphone revealed it was 4am. I had to grin to myself. It was exactly the time we stated in the SCP document to be the time the white man would show up. I was still impressed by Devs idea to start our own myth. And I was proud of Kathrine to be such a good writer she would write us the creepy pasta about it. The SCP thing we might got by ourselves but none of us had the talent to write a good horror story. The idea came from Deb at least all the facts for the SCP site. Only the years I didn't agree. I thought ten years of being a stone doesn't sound scary. Maybe even like a relief. Ten years without any responsibility... I went to the toilet and bumped into several objects on my way but didn't wanted to turn any lights on. When I was done I decided to go outside for a bit. I couldn't go back into that room with three other people. The air just was bad. I took Kathy's key so I don't locked out myself from her home and went into the garden. It was November and pretty cold but my sweater kept me warm. I sat under the oak tree I always wished to have a tree house in but her parents didn't allow us to build one. They thought it were unsafe but right now it would have been a better option than the bare ground. I breathed in the fresh air. 4.15 am. I thought about the creepypasta. What would it be like to be a stone for 50 years. I mean you can't age as a stone so when you come back you just lost 50 years of your friends and families life but none of your own cause physically your still the same age? Or would you die at the age of 20 cause you would have only had 70 years? I heard a rustle from the hedge in front of me. Was it a cat? But who would leave a cat that early when it's winter? I made a clicking sound with my tongue. "come here little one" I whispered. I heard another rustle. I took my phone and turned on the flashlight to have better vision. I cast it at the bush. Nothing. Then a reflection. It was almost red so it must be a cat with amber colored eyes. Cute, I thought by myself. Another movement. "don't worry." I told the cat. And it came out the bush. Only problem: it wasn't a cat. It was pale. It was a man. It was an almost white man. I gasped. What the hell. Automatically my eyes went to the creatures eyes and in my dumb disbelief I spoke the one cursed word: "no". Because my mind refused to belief what it saw. I felt my body turning unmoveable. The last clear thought of mine was: Well,at least I will find out what it is to be turned to stone.

The next morning Dec was the first to wake up. As soon as he noticed Alex empty bed he knew what happened tonight. He knew it because it was what happened to him. Ten years ago. He knew it because he lived through a similar evening back then. Sure they didn't wrote an SCP but they had other places to put the information. Back then he also thought it only was a joke of the new kid that came to the school one year ago. Back then he was as naive as Alex. When he woke up this night he ignored the urge for fresh air. He refused to be turned to stone again. The whole evening he worried the others would find it strange he told him all the facts. But he didn't questioned anything back then either. He know went down. And searched for the sculpture. The horrified look on Alex's face sent a little hurt to him and he asked himself if the one who hid him back then felt the same. He also wondered how long this have been happening already and how long it will continue. At least none of them actually loses ten years. They all only lose ten years of their friends and famalies life's. He pushed and pulled the sculpture to the cave. The cave he spent the last ten years. And because he knew Alex would hear him he said: "I'm sorry. We will meet again somewhen. I didn't knew he would pick you. When you wake up you have to do the same I did. I don't know what will happen if you don't. But if it was something good I don't think this would have continued so long. Goodbye" then he left this cave forever

I had time to think about everything. And I figured something out. When I look into the mirror in the bathroom of my new friends I met in the last year I still saw the same face. It was even stranger than if I had aged. I wondered whether Dev felt the same back then. Ten years ago. I made a decision. I never knew I would do this. But I was sure to do the right thing. The only option. I went back to the living room where Amy, Cal and Pete were already waiting. "so what will we do tonight?" Amy asks us. "what's about starting the myth of the white man?" Pete asks. And I look at him. And I see what I should have noticed so long ago. The strange oldness in his eyes. I knew it. "No!" Cal exclaimed and got my full attention. "no goddamn horror stories! Stop that! You guys know that always goes wrong! You know the movies! We aren't dumb teenagers from ten years ago! We won't do this!" and when I looked at him I notice that he was like me. We had made the same decision. But I also asked myself: when three of us are already here, how many of us exist? How many of us have to do this? When will this end?

@emo-bi-mess I thought you liked to be tagged in it :)

[fixingmysociallife]

The art of casual apologies

G'Day Depressos,

I'm back with another life lesson/tutorial/next step in my project to become a socially functioning adult. heyyyyy

A week ago, my college publicized its voluntary classes and activities for the coming spring break. Which made me super excited, because I missed it at the start of the semester and all the cool stuff was already gone once I caught up :(

However, since I am a small anxious bean, I didn't want to take one completely on my own and asked my college friends immediatly if they wanted to join me. Particularly, I was interested in a four hour K-Pop dance workshop. We went to see Blackpink together in December and also do regular sing and dance breaks when studying, so it was a perfect fit! When announced, the reaction to my proposal was a little lukewarm though...

Nobody said outright no, but not yes either, causing me to get a little more persistent to get an answer in time before the class was full. Very...persistent. I have a tendency to complain and whine quite a lot anyway and given my lack of sleep, PMS and horrible weather that day I was in full form. I tugged at one of my friend's sleeve until he finally snapped at me to knock it off already and that he needs to think about it. I stopped.

And of couse I laid awake that night thinking that I was a horrible annoying friend, that I lost my chances of them doing an extracurricular with me ever again and that my true colors will probably cause them to distance themselves slowly from me.

Yeah. Don't we all love the nighttime madness?

At 3 AM, I finally gave in, rolled over, and grabbed my phone. I am notorious for doing middle-of-the-night apologies, but usually for actual fights and big missteps. I never dared to really do it for something so...unimportant I guess? Not wanting to bother others with my overthinking and stuff. But since I've been working to be more open and vulnerable, I figured this had to be a part too.

Opening WhatsApp, going on the chat, type, delete, type again, pause, rephrase, send. Two sentences only took twenty minutes! In the end, I effectively wrote

"Hey, I was pretty excited about the dance class yesterday and got a little too annoying because of it. Was generally off that day. Sorry :("

It still took a while to fall asleep afterwards, but I managed and the next morning I woke up to a very sweet answer. He was telling me that yes, I was an annoying little shit, but he is one too so now were even, no worries.

An easy, quick, direct communication that soothed my anxiety and probably made me more likeable (maybe, I don't really kow haha).

If you ever feel guilty about something, no matter how little or fleeting, an apology may work wonders. It doesn't have to be a grand gesture to turn a bad memory into a positive one for both sides. And in my experience, it can also make you kinder towards yourself too. I definetly will try to keep this habit!

See you on my next (and a lot more serious) post about myself and my social struggles!

Byee! (Also, my friend did end up agreeing to do the class. Yay!)

[gurophism]

oh, no, definetly not... i usually forget to do things, just as i forgot to follow you the first time i saw your profile. after a while, it just became easier to search your username. guess i got used to it. the bad thing is that, since i don't use social media so much, sometimes i forget to check it and when i come back you posted so many updates and i need to read them all to see how you are doing! HA. but i am not complaining, it's actually fun so keep posting as much as you want. reading your posts always entertain me, maybe i will check them from closer now.

people's aura usually tell so much about them, if you look well enough to someone, you can discover many things... both bad and good, which is interesting. humans are such complex creatures, aren't they? when you get a job don't forget to post about it, i will happily give you the congratulations. nothing happened, life is just tiring and i have been exhausted these days, but don't worry about me. i hate going on car trips, they always make my dizzy and sick, i can imagine how annoyed you felt, at least you are home now. don't forget to rest.

sincerely, V.

Oh that’s embarrassing… haha. I’m sorry if I talk too much t_t sometimes I end up rambling a lot and I reblog a lot too so my bad if it’s hard to keep up with all. But I’m glad you like it.. hehe. Hmm, I guess I’m not good reading peoples auras? What would you say about mine? Is it too bad? :p I like humans, although I always end up disappointed with them, they are very interesting to me. I wish I was closer to them but I lack connection with people so I watch from afar. How silly of me.. and I still feel upset that I’m lonely. Well that’s how it works for me, I’m not very good with dealing with people I guess. I understand you, life really can be tiring sometimes. When everything is making me tired I try to distract myself and be alone listening to music. Well, I do worry about you, V.. So you should definitely get some rest and do the things you enjoy so you don’t feel so exhausted from life, I know it’s hard but we have to keep going, right? And don’t worry, I’ve been resting now, I spent all my day playing Pokemon unite and smoking.. Not the best way of rest but.. that’s how I distract myself too. It’s very late now but I still couldn’t sleep, right now I’m just trying to get myself tired since I can only sleep if I am exhausted.. I wanted to answer you before going to bed so here I am. I hope you have a lovely day, if anything happens today, tell me about it (: i’ll be waiting. Goodnight, V.

[englishfrensh]

Chapitre 2

Austin: I am already done my morning workout.

Austin:What happened here?

Mother:Oh wiliam, i knocked over one of the paint cans ! I knew that was going to happen

Father: Honey, i have to finish painting this staircase,potential buyers need to see it. In all its glory

Mother:That won't help, let the buyers decide what to do with it.

Austin: Mom, dad, what buyers are u talking about?

I promised i'd repair the hall, and the staircase too right after.

I have to take care of the disaster first, clean up the paint and put away the can.....

....

Austin:it looks like the paint is all gone ! It a good thing the bookcase didn't get splattered, look at all this books. There's even a complete Butlers Herald collection.

Austin : Dad, don't you worry the bookcase might collapse soon? I can put in a new one.

Dad: The bookcase work just fine for me, there isn't much room, but i can put so many things on top, and on the floor next to it.

Austin: i guess chaos and messes are just part of dad's life now.

I am sure life wilk be much better once he has a new bookcase

Austin: the old wallpaper spoils the view too.. I think it was hung before i was ever born. So the wallpaper is a must. So wallpaper is a must !lets makes this hall nice and cozy so my parents will reconsider selling the room.

Dad: you ordered a new bookcase even after we talked? I told u i was fine with the old one...

Dad :Is that beech? Nice wood.. Smells good too, the shelves are spacious... And the books look great. All right ! I can stay i guess there's no point returning it's to the store

Austin: i am glad we didn't listen to my dad, the new bookcase transformed this area, and he's happy, well done by us.

We are't done yet? Something's missing here...

Of course, i say we lay a new rug in front of the armchair, so dad's feet don't get cold during the long winter nights

The wallpaper ia great,is looks good enough for magazines

We aren't finished yet, but it definetly worth half spread

Let's wallpaper the rest of the room.

So much better,huh? Now the walls looks modern and don't feel embarassed about inviting friends over.

It time to take care of the floor.

Mother : what are u going to do with the floor. ? There'is nothing wrong with this.

Dad :If u have anything to do, you can catalog my collection of toys cars or organize my business cards alphabeticaly

Austin : Mon, Dad !can't you see humongous cracks? Walking on this parquet will put u in the hospital.

Dad: Nonsense ! The floor is absolutly fine, it'll last for handred years. Let me show u...

Mom: oh, Wiliam, are u okay?

Dad : i am fine, but the floor isn't....anymore.

Austin, Mom, Dad, don't worry, i will fix the floor, trust me. The floor will never let u down again.

Fantastic, the floor 50 years younger.

You know, the floor brings back on many memories.

Something you'd go to the kitchen and hear it squeak, almost as if it was complaining about its life

And that's the board i used to hide my treasure when i was a kind, baseball cards and superbuttler comic books

The floor turned out great, even, beautiful and most important.

Dad won't be making any more holes in it.

Dad : a rug ? Why do i need one ? I've always been fine whithout one. Austin : dad, armchairs should always have a rug next to them. That's we were laught at the Institute of modern Butlers. Take a seat and enjoy.

Dad : okey, okey, but i don"t understand what it's ll change.

Dad : Not bad, soft and cozyi think i will stay here a little longer to read the paper.Austin, can u move the lamp stand a bit closer ?

Austin : oups, looks like just dead....dad don't worry, we will fix the lighting situation.let's install wall light in the book corner.

Look at dad's corners now, cozy and bright.

Dad : hear that Austin,Mike butler bought an island. In the hebrides, that s the life.

By the way where exactly is the hebride ? .

Austin: Maybe exactly next a old hebride.

Wiliam : i'll go to look it up in the encyclopedia.

Austin : We should get a globe. He loves staying on of what's going on in the word.and a globe is more interactive to an encyclepedia.

It turns out a new hebrides are near Australia. Where made me think ylthey were off thz Florida Coast ?

That's because we didn't have a globe Austin.

So in 1848, ships named the Terror were icebound near king Wiliam's island,were is it that ?

The armchair is a dinosaur and like all dinosaur, it belongs in the history books. You want to know what we'll remplace it with. Oh i thought of a gift that would be the perfect finishing touch !

No. Don t even ask me. I'm silent at the grave. Let'll be a surprise for u too.

Dad : A rocking chair ! I'm speachless , son, i've been wanting one for so long...oh u made me so happy.

Austin : wouldn't yu agree that this whole reading area is must cozier ? Maybe you w'll reconsider selling the house now ?

Dad : what.. Are u trying to bribe me with this rocking chair ? It's that's the case. I can't accept it.

Austin : how could say something like that ? The chair is my present to u. I hoped that all the changes in the hall would change your mind.

Dad : i dont know.. I feel bad selling the house. We've lived here our whole life. And now this gergeous book corner...on the other hand, one redone part doesn't fix the whole hall. So, i'm sorry son. Thanks for the rocking chair, i'll take it whith me to our new apartement when we sell the house

Austin : Such a shame ! I really thought, i could make dad change his mind.

It not over yet, i can still get the work on mom

It's so late tonight but tomorrow let's start bright and early in her favourit spot, the lounge area !

Today just flew by. Lets go to sleep.

Three hours later...

Mother : Austin, darling.. Time to wake up.

Austin : Please just five more minutes.

Mother : No my dear, the new owner is here and its time to leave. We already have everything packed up. It's just u and your parrot left.

Austin : what are u talking about ? What owner ?

Dad : you dont remember, we sold the house yesterday

Austin : this can be hapenning !!!! Nooooo