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"Your girl" - Part 21 | The Salesman x Reader

Summary: During a weak moment, you think back to happier times.

Warnings: dead dove do not eat, kidnapping, mentions of sexual abuse and other traumatic events in the past, numbness, helplessness, violence, threatening (knife), mentions of blood, mentions of murder and rape, body issues, trauma talk, stockholm syndrome, forced relationship, unhealthy relationship, depression, manipulation, mentions of sexual activities and desires, mentions of pregnancy/pregnancy issues like nausea and puking, kidney failure, cockwarming, rough sex, penetration, oral sex, blood play, degradation kink, not beta-read and not proofread yet! if I've missed any please tell me! mdni 18+!

"Your girl" - The Salesman x Reader Masterlist

Having a knife pressed against your throat wasn’t half as exciting, if it wasn’t the one person you trusted not to kill you with it – and even if he did…you’d forgive him.

But what if it was someone else? What if it wasn’t the man who made everything possible, the man you had come to trust and love?

It wasn’t enough to kill you. But it, sure as Hell, was enough to break your soul.

You couldn’t help but think back to your last birthday. It had been quite the celebration, hadn’t it?

You had never really celebrated your birthday before and why would you? There were not enough people to invite, at least none who wouldn’t secretly make fun of you behind your back. A few people pitied you for being shy and quiet, they would have come for sure. Others were not so gracious – they said they’d show up and then they didn’t. It wasn’t uncommon, right? Nothing but a pathetic pity party. And yet it was enough to keep you from ever celebrating your birthday again.

Back home you had most often spent the day watching tv shows, probably comfort shows to keep your mind occupied, but at the same time not all that much. Carrie and Douglas shopping groceries for Thanksgiving. Samantha and Charlotte splitting up over Charlotte’s hot brother. A few of your favorite episodes and yet nothing to trigger any emotions in you. Because you knew, if you did, you’d spend all day and all night feeling miserable because your life was so goddamn empty. It went like that every messed up birthday of yours. No one to congratulate you, except for the people who felt obligated to. Your mother’s untrustworthy good wishes. Nothing of meaning.

That was until you met him.

Your last birthday…It had been…

God, if you had died and went to Heaven, it couldn’t have been like that.

Your gaze involuntarily wandered back to the typewriter. A part of you almost wanted to smile at the memory, but it was hard under these circumstances.

And yet you knew, you knew, you had to dissociate somehow. Because if you didn’t, your soul would be gone for good. And what good was it to spend the last few minutes of your life broken and miserable? No, that was so silly. So silly. Why would you do that to yourself, when instead you could remember one of the most beautiful days of your life?

You remembered it like it had been yesterday, though it was a few months in the past by now. You hadn’t been pregnant yet or if you had been, at least you hadn’t known.

Now, lying on your bed under the sharp threat of the blade, you felt your first trimester nausea had passed. Almost on the dot, three months into the pregnancy and the vomiting had stopped. Pasta was still an unbearable thing to you, but at least Tteokbokki worked – though not half as spicy as he liked to eat them. You just weren’t sought out for that kind of tongue pain.

The first morning you woke up and didn’t immediately feel like throwing up the emptiness of your stomach, your desire for something else than food immediately returned – and tenfold.

You didn’t consider yourself an especially wicked or wanton person. But now, that the nausea had passed…

Fuck, you wanted him all the time.

And you got him all the time.

Having him inside you was as natural as breathing. It didn’t matter if you woke up with him stretching you out lazily against the sleepy morning blur or if you found yourself on your knees, keeping his hardness warm for him like a good girl.

“Good girl. Fuck. My good girl. Daddy’s good girl. Mh-mh. Don’t you dare move, you know the rules. I know that you want it. Fuck, I bet you’re dripping by now. Ah…Fuck. No, darling, no. Keep that pretty mouth in place for me, will you? Stay in place and I might just reward you.”

The thought sent a thrill up your spine. Even in that situation.

A part of you still felt incredibly ashamed for being what you were. Every time you came to the thought of something degrading, something cruel, something shameful, your first impulse was to feel bad afterwards. But it got less. And less. And less.

Sex got easier. And so did pleasure.

He made sure to keep your mind occupied. And he made sure to cuddle and caress you to oblivion, each time he had just finished fucking you like a rabid animal, while throwing the worst insults your way and doing the most heinous things to your body.

Of course he took a few measures now that you were pregnant.

When you knelt before him for half an hour while he read the newspaper, he made sure you had a pillow under your knees.

When he pounded into you so hard that you were sure you felt him rip you apart, he made sure to kiss every part of your body afterwards.

Every time.

But your birthday, your birthday…That was different. That was a day you couldn’t ever forget. If you were forced to find your end at only twenty-five, pinned to your bed and pregnant, at least you wanted to think of something beautiful. And that was what your birthday was.

Everything started when he woke you up with a soft breath of a Happy Birthday in your ear. You had been so sure that he either had no idea about it, or if he did, he wouldn’t mention it. But he did. He wished you a Happy Birthday, only a few seconds after he felt you stir in the morning. The thought of that alone was enough to make your heart race in your chest. But that was nothing compared to what else was to come, right?

You didn’t expect much. No, in fact you didn’t expect anything.

So it was all the more surprising and unnerving when he left the room and came back with a giant present. It was packed in dark green wrapping paper, with a big, white ribbon on top. He hadn’t even gotten dressed yet, which was rather uncommon. Sure, he wasn’t the most organized, not with you. He had his ways of dealing with things, but he allowed himself to let loose every now and then. Morning sex and messy kisses before he even got out of bed. But when he did, he normally headed towards the bathroom and came back dressed. Not in anything special, but enough to remind him – and you – that another day had started.

But that day he vanished in nothing but his boxers and he came back exactly like that. You sat on the bed and watched with wide eyes as he came back, wearing no more than that little clothing. His body drew your attention almost involuntarily. Whenever he was near and whenever he looked like that, just a little messy, but still so fucking perfect, you couldn’t help but stare at him.

He was yours. He belonged to you. Only you.

That thought was enough to nearly make your heart stop beating.

You hardly even focused on the present, until he placed it right before you and made you snap out of your thoughts.

“Open it."

Your gaze dropped down, before you met his again.

“You…you got me a present?”

He immediately frowned. “What kind of silly question is that? Why wouldn’t I? It’s your birthday.”

Your cheeks burned, but not in embarrassment or anything similar. You simply felt the hurt of your last nineteen birthdays well up in you.

His expression softened and he gently cupped your cheek in his hand, his calloused palm rough against your skin and yet you felt yourself lean into his touch. Every touch was a gift.

“Just open it.” He said in a softer tone.

For some reason he seemed far more excited than you were. It wasn’t that you were not – but he seemed all but nervous about your reaction.

With a soft sigh, you began to tug at the paper, your thoughts a whirlwind of emotions.

When was his birthday? Would you ever get to know it? Would you ever be able to go out and buy him a present?

What a funny thought. You didn’t care to flee his fangs any longer, no, all you wanted was to buy him a gift.

By the time the floor was covered in paper snippets and the packaging of the present revealed itself, all other thoughts left your system.

Fuck.

Your head shot up and you stared at him with the most incredulous and confused look you could come up with. He wasn’t smiling, nor was he smug, he seemed to be assessing you. Reading you.

“Is this…”

You looked back down at it and ran your fingertips over the flat surface.

Olympia Carrera de Luxe…Typewriter.

Your fingers stilled against the box and you felt your heart skip a few beats.

You told him about it, of course you did. Just like many other things, like almost every ghost of every thought you ever had. So how would he have missed this? He wouldn’t. He was too observant.

Your dream was to become an author one day, but that wasn’t a secret. But you never mentioned the typewriter, not as in wanting to own one. All that you told him was how your father had owned one, back in the day. You had faint memories of sitting in his study and running your fingertips over the keyboard. It was so different from a computer or a laptop. You couldn’t tell what it was. The feeling of seeing whatever you had written right there, as a physical thing you could touch, fold, take wherever you wanted? Or maybe the way it fit into your physical representation of life. Mobile phones were fine, because everyone had one. It was impossible to survive without them nowadays, if you weren’t living in the forest, in a small cottage, with your own farm and freshly made sourdough bread every night.

But you liked real things. Mostly because you never had them.

You had relied on imagining your life rather than living it for as long as you could remember. But what you really wanted was a man to build a fence for you. Someone to wear dresses for. Fresh food. Real laughter. Dancing. Moonlight. Forehead kisses. Vintage phones. Photo albums. Ink. Paint. Sizzling food. And love.

Love like you could only find it in old love stories.

The feeling of the typewriter keyboard under your fingertips always made you feel like these things were possible, like life was endless and love was real. But then your father died and your mother got rid of everything, including the typewriter.

You had spent three weeks crying over it, until you finally realized that tears indeed dry out at some point. And if only, because she didn’t allow you to drink any water, until you finally stopped that pathetic whining of yours.

You had told him that. And he had heard you.

So when you looked up at him again, your eyes wide and filled with a veil of tears, the corner of his mouth twitched in uncertainty.

“I can bring it back, if you don’t like it.” He said in a soft voice. “I just thought you might.”

You swallowed back the lump in your throat as you looked back down at it.

“I can’t believe you did that.” You whispered.

When you looked back up again, you were smiling.

His eyes were still narrowed in uncertainty, as though he believed you were only saying this, because you felt obligated to. Your smile widened at that and you let out a quiet laugh. Without hesitation, you set the package down on the floor and straddled his lap, causing him to fall back against the mattress. His eyes widened for a brief moment, but he let you. His hands fell to your hips and he held you gently in place.

“You really like it?” He asked quietly.

“No one ever did something like that for me.” You whispered and rested your forehead against his. The way his breath seemed to catch in his throat, how your initiative still seemed to catch him off-guard, it was just a lovely bonus.

“Thank you.” You breathed out before you brushed your lips over his. “Thank you. I love it. And I love you.”

His eyes fell shut and he brushed his fingertips under your shirt, gently running his palms along your bare back. It made you shiver and he only ever pulled you closer.

“Happy Birthday.” He murmured against your lips.

Your smile widened impossibly, despite the tears that still stung your eyes.

“Just because of you.” You murmured right back.

Later that day, you found yourself sitting opposite him at the kitchen table. Things were…incredible.

They had often been these days, but that day was different in any sense. Not for a single second had you seen his hand twitch or his jaw clench. No, he was simply perfect.

Of course he had cooked the most heart-wrenching meal. You had no idea what it was or how you were supposed to spell it out, but it was delicious. More so than anything you had ever tasted before. Sitting in the kitchen and watching him cook had been the most relaxing thing you had done in a while, but it also made your mind wander all the same.

You loved cooking with him. It was always sweet, because he never lost his patience over spilled condiments or little mistakes you might have made. No, he stood behind you, his hands on your hips, his head resting on your shoulder. Or sometimes you stood curled into his side, simply observing. He liked cooking, you could tell and you tasted it with every spoonful. What you loved most though was simply co-existing with him, performing a basic, human task. Sometimes he’d hug you from behind and other times he’d shoot you that cocky smirk you loved so much. Whatever it was, it made you love him all the more.

But that night was different from any other time you had done it. You simply sat there, your knees pulled to your chest and your chin resting on your knees and you watched him cook. The precision in his movements, the focus in his expression, that little lip bite. It was all enough to make you swoon.

He was an attractive man, that much was clear. Aside from that, you weren’t sure if he really was your type – in case you ever had one. A part of you believed you didn’t have the right to have a type, since you never loved anyone and no one ever loved you before. It was all in your head, a wild mixture of all kinds of people in fiction and real life you had come to think attractive during some point in your life. Most of them actors, some your age, a few a little older, others quite a few decades above you. It wasn’t that you had daddy issues per say. You just found solace in the thought of a life that was already figured out.

Whatever it was, all of them normally had a little flaw. A little something, a little difference. You never fell for the quarterback, no, it was always some outcast who caught your attention.

Most people fell for Jon Snow for the time being, but your focus was always on Dolorous Edd. With his whole rough-around-the-edges-appearance and his dry sense of humor, he was your man. Jon was too perfect.

It had always been like that and you had never really thought about it. But that night, you suddenly realized, there was more to him that attracted you than his looks. If he was him, but with a kind, uncomplicated soul, with a smile that never left his lips, if all he ever did was assure and love and lull you…Would you still have fallen in love with him?

Probably not.

You realized that you weren’t exactly normal. But as you sat there, watching his quiet confidence and yet the ever-present sort of tension that always lingered somewhere inside of him, you realized you loved him.

For him.

You didn’t need him to change – not for you. The only reason you wanted it, was for him to be happy and carefree. Nothing more.

You didn’t mind his darkness, not even his cruelty, because he was yours and after every storm there followed the calm.

“You’re sure you’re alright?”

You snapped out of your thoughts. “What?”

He took a sip of his drink and watched you over the rim of his glass. “You’ve been staring at me. Again.”

That made you smile. “Are you getting shy?”

The sound of his laughter filled the room, real and unbridled. Your heart swelled with happiness and peace as you watched him, a warm smile on your lips.

“Just admit that you don’t like it.”

At your confused frown, he nodded towards your plate. You blinked in confusion and glanced down, only to realize he was almost done and you had hardly even eaten anything.

“Oh!” Your face flushed at the sentiment. “How long did I stare at you?”

He flashed you a grin that bared his teeth. “Are you getting shy?”

Your smile widened and so did the flush on your skin. “Oh, shush.”

A low chuckle rumbled in his chest as he observed you pick up your cutlery and take a generous bite, just to prove him wrong.

A part of you had always assumed men preferred women who didn’t eat. Who never used the bathroom and God forbid, there was ever a hair on your body where it didn’t belong.

But he had quickly proven your thoughts wrong. In reality, except for the times he had starved you in order to…break your will? Whatever it was. Except for those times, he seemed very content watching you eat and rather concerned whenever you didn’t. You didn’t feel the need to be something you were not with him. It should have probably been the bare minimum, but to you it was more. To you, it was something to be grateful for.

You did prove him wrong and showed him that you indeed loved whatever he cooked, by finishing the plate. You raised a brow and shot him a challenging look, as you set the cutlery aside.

He grinned like a predator stalking its prey. “Aren’t we proud over some pasta and steak.”

Your lips curved up into a slow smile. “Just trying to prove a point.”

He hummed softly and leaned back in his chair. “You want your cake now or later?”

Your eyes widened. “Cake?”

He shrugged. “It’s your birthday, isn’t it?”

“But I’m full.”

“So, later.” He smirked. “Or do you give up already? Weakling.”

You laughed. “You’re in for a real tragedy. There’s always space for cake.”

His smile softened. “That’s my girl.”

His words sent a pleasant tingle down your spine and you had no way of hiding that from him. He watched you with a mixture of amusement and fondness.

“Come. Let’s dance.”

Your brows shot up. “But I don’t know how.”

He hummed thoughtfully. “I’ll show you. Just trust me.”

And you did. When he held out his hand to you, you took it and followed him to the living room. Except for the gramophone (how old was this man, truly? There it was again. Your dream life…The cottage.) in the corner of the room, he wasn’t entirely frozen in time and so he had a music box playing, connected to a phone. Before you knew it, you heard a familiar tune hum quietly in the background.

He placed on hand on your waist, while he used the other one to intertwine your fingers. Your free hand rested on his shoulder and you looked up at him with wide, unsure eyes.

“Don’t be nervous.” He murmured. “It’s just us. I’m leading you. Just relax.”

It was no more than gentle swaying through the air, but to your surprise it felt far easier than expected. You couldn’t tell if it was the wine in your system, cutting your usual inhibitions short, or if truly was him. Whatever it was, when he spun and twirled you around, you let him – and you found you enjoyed it more than you ever thought possible. You were wearing the green dress, one of the first ones he had ever gotten for you. Mostly because you knew what it did to him. He kept glancing down at you, assessing you, licking his lips. And it drove you wild.

Not only with desire. But also the desire to be looked at like that by him.

You continued dancing, your rhythm slow, your thoughts caught in-between right there and somewhere else entirely. After a little while you felt his fingers tangle in your hair, gently pulling you into his chest.

“You know I tried my best to turn your black eyes hazel…And kiss away your cruelty…I gladly got undressed, put all my cards on the table...And by cards, I mean me…Apple in mouth, then you left town…Ran after you until my legs gave out...”

You hummed and your brows furrowed. “Interesting…choice of song.”

You heard his smirk before you saw it. “I found it on your phone, so I assumed you might like it.”

That made you look up at him. “Before you drowned it in tea, you mean.”

He exhaled softly through his nose. “Do you miss it? Your phone?”

A thoughtful hum later, you shook your head. “Not really.”

“I could always get you a new one.”

That caused your brows to shoot up in surprise. “Oh? Aren’t you afraid that I might end up calling the police?”

He shrugged. “To tell them what?”

There it was. The crack in the fourth wall, the cut in the curtain. What was it that you were doing here with him? You were hardly his victim, right?

“I came crawlin' in on all fours…Knockin' at your door…Knockin' at your door…”

Instead of making things more complicated, you somehow made a smile happen. “That a crazy man drowned my phone.”

He smiled as well, but it didn’t seem as genuine as he might have hoped for. He pulled you back into his chest and you continued to swing and sway to the soft melody. It was a song you had heard quite some times before, but you hadn’t ever thought back to it since you were there. Music was the least of your concerns. But now that you thought about it, maybe it did apply to him in a way.

“I don't wanna bleed anymore…I just wanted love…But you wanted gore…You're my matador.”

“Are you afraid of me?”

You didn’t need to look up to see the genuine concern in his eyes. His tone of voice was gentle, almost nonchalant. But there was a depth behind his words, a quiet uncertainty.

When you pulled your head back, he was already staring at you.

“Do you want me to be afraid of you?” You asked in the same, gentle tone.

He regarded you with a soft look and quietly admitted: “I don’t know.”

You took a slow breath, but didn’t say anything more. There was not much to say anyway. His words weren’t hurtful or at least they weren’t meant to be. You could tell.

“I want you to feel safe with me. Because you are.” He breathed against your temple. “Sometimes I just…I don’t understand what I want.”

“I do.” You whispered back, before you could stop yourself.

He froze in his tracks and looked down at you.

You decided to continue on with your courageous mission, even it might cost you your head in the end. “You want to control me.”

“Why are you so calm about this?” He asked quietly and he seemed genuinely confused.

“Because…Well, I don’t know.”

The only sound in the room were the soft tunes of the music and the quiet rustling of your clothes when you went back to your slow dancing. He didn’t press any further and so didn’t you. It was a quiet understanding of some sort. You belonged to him and you didn’t fight it. You weren’t perfect and he didn’t fight it either.

Because he fucking loved you. What else could matter there?

After a long while, after you already thought he had slipped into the abyss of his dark thoughts, he suddenly made you snap out of your own thoughts.

“Do you miss home?”

The question hit you harder than expected.

“Home?” You croaked out.

He nodded. “Yorkshire.”

You had to think it through for a moment. Then, with certainty you could say: “No. Not the way you think.”

He cocked a brow and waited for you to explain.

You hummed and gently tightened your grip on his shoulder. “I don’t miss her godforsaken house or anything else there. I don’t miss the Yorkshire I left behind. If anything, I miss the Yorkshire that Emily Bronte created. And I don’t miss her. I miss what it could be.” Your brows furrowed. “With you.”

His lips twitched in half-amusement. “Oh, yeah? You want me chase you through the moors like Heathcliff?”

You smiled. “Isn’t that what you are to me?”

His expression softened somewhat, but you saw the quiet concern flashing behind his dark eyes. “You’re not just some possession to me.”

“I know.” You whispered.

He exhaled a slow breath and gently cupped your face in his palms. They felt warm against your skin and everything else faded away, leaving your soul stripped bare beside his. He saw no flaws in it. Your brokenness didn’t send him running. Instead he was here, wrapping his clipped wings around you to protect your own.

“I want a future with you.”

There was not a thing in the world he could have said that would have made you feel a similar way. Your palms felt sweaty and your breath stuttered in your throat. There it was. The wall. The curtain. It was crumbling – and it didn’t hurt at all. But hope was a dangerous thing to have.

When he saw the way you struggled to come up with a reply, he continued, while his thumbs drew gentle patterns on your cheeks.

“I may not be the right man for picket fences and barbecues, but for you, I’d like to try. I never saw myself in that. Marriage. Children. Life. I never thought I’d make it this far anyway. I was always sure I’d be dead and gone and long forgotten, before I even reached thirty. It was never meaningful to me, none of it. I might as well have died.” He sighed softly. “Maybe it’s still that way. But you make it much more bearable for me.”

You didn’t mean to feel as touched as you did. But you were a natural crybaby it seemed and also, you were sure you were about to get your period, so you found your eyes grow damp.

Marriage. Children. Life.

“I don’t want picket fences and barbecues.” You heard yourself whisper. “We…we could just be us.”

His lips curved into a soft smile and you were sure, you saw the way his black eyes turned hazel again.

“I’d love that.”

Later that same night, after you had learned that dancing wasn’t as bad as you thought and your life wasn’t equally as hopeless, you found yourself underneath him. It wasn’t new, it wasn’t special either. But to you, it felt like it was.

His lips moved against yours with the same urgency as always, but there was something softer behind his touch, something that was almost careful. Like he didn’t intend to break your already fragile soul any further.

The tip of his tongue brushed against your own and that alone was enough to draw a moan from your lips.

“My naughty girl.” He murmured and slowly ran his fingertips up your thigh, pushing the material of the dress up your body. A few seconds later, he froze.

“Where’s your underwear?”

You couldn’t help but grin and shrug.

He sucked in a sharp breath and you saw his eyes darken. “You had no underwear on this whole time?”

“Mhm.” You purred.

“You…little…”

“Hey, it’s not my fault that you didn’t realize-“

“Minx!”

His lips crashed against yours again and he wasted no more time. His warm hands wandered up your body and he quickly discarded your dress on the floor, followed by your bra. You felt exposed when the cold air hit your skin, especially since he was still fully dressed. Your hands instinctively reached up to undo his shirt, but he quickly pinned your wrists against the mattress above your head and he kissed you with the fervor of a dying man. He used one hand to undo the buttons, while at the same time one of his knees settled between your own, pushing your legs apart. You felt so vulnerable, but at the same time, you couldn’t help but part them even further for him, desperate to finally feel him. When he felt the way you parted your legs for him, a low growl rumbled in his throat.

“Fuck, my dirty girl.” He breathed out and tossed his shirt aside, soon followed by his slacks. You felt his hardness before you saw it. He took your hand and guided it down his body and before you knew it, you felt your fingers wrap around him, your thumb brushing the little, damp spot on the material of his underwear. He groaned against your lips and bucked his hips against your touch.

“Fuck, yes. Come on, baby, touch me.”

Your hand slid inside and wrapped around his skin, all the while your eyes stayed focused on his face. The look in his eyes, the darkness, it was enough to drive you mad.

You bit your lip as you began to gently stroke him, rubbing your thumb over his tip in the most gentle touch. He groaned again and his head dipped forward, his forehead pressed against your collarbone.

“Fuck, fuck, fuck…” He kept bucking his hips, moving in rhythm with you. The way he bit his own lip to stifle any sounds and yet it didn’t help. The fact that you could do this to him…

A shuddering breath and...

“I want to have your baby.”

The words slipped past your lips way faster than you could stop them and you weren’t sure if you were ready to regret them. It was true. And at the same, you were scared shitless. It was stupid before it was anything else. But you wanted what he said. A future. A future with him.

He froze and his body went rigid above you. For a short moment, you were sure you had fucked up. But then he pulled his head back and you saw his eyes. Nearly black.

“Say that again.” He growled.

“I…”

“Say it.” He breathed out and tugged your head back by your hair. You moaned and arched your back, involuntarily pressing against him. He pulled your hand away and held your jaw firmly in place.

“Say it again.” He nearly hissed.

“I want to have you baby. I want you to…I want you…to…”

His lips found your neck and he left a trail of flaming-hot kisses against your skin. His kisses turned to bites, his bites to groans. His boxers shared the same fate your clothing did and before you knew it, he pushed your legs apart, as wide as possible.

“I don’t want you to say this, if you don’t really mean it.” His voice was a mixture of furious and pleading. He was taking control so effortlessly and at the same time, he was incredibly gentle.

You might have been confused, had you not been so desperate to finally feel him.

“I do mean it.” You whispered breathlessly. “I don’t need a fucking picket fence. Haunt me all you want. Kill me if you will. But let me be yours. Don’t look at anyone else. Love only me.”

You had no idea what you were talking. It was probably the wine speaking…or just the depths of your soul.

His expression shifted from quiet despair to something dark, something dangerous.

He leaned down and bit down on your earlobe, the sting of it enough to make you jerk, but not quite enough to really hurt you.

“Are you sure about this? Because, if you are, there is no way back. Because I want this. I fucking want this.”

You bit your lip and slowly wrapped your legs around his waist, pulling him against you. His hardness pressed up against your slick core and you were sure you heard him let out a muffled moan against your neck.

“Fill me up. I don’t want a way out. I just want you.”

He didn’t ask again.

He pushed himself inside you, but he was gentle about it. It was as though he was trying to savor the feeling, to feel every little bit of you wrapped around him. You inhaled sharply and exhaled just as hard. Every time his breath hit your neck and he pushed a little further in, you couldn’t stop yourself from trying to meet him in the middle.

“Fuck.” He breathed out. “Fuck. I love you. I love this. Fuck, I want to die this way.”

His words sent a shudder through you. “Shut up.” You breathed out. “If something happened to you…”

You didn’t want to think about it, but you did every day. If something ever happened to him…

You couldn’t finish the thought.

He intertwined your fingers with his and pressed your hands against the mattress, his lips just a breath away from yours.

“You’d just go on living.” He whispered.

He gave a slow, deliberate roll of his hips and so you couldn’t answer immediately. But when you did, it was no less desperate. You shook your head, almost frantically.

“What am I going to do if you die, huh? Just live in a world with no you in it? Pass. Fuck. You’d have to kill me first.”

His movements stuttered for a moment, his eyes fixed on you. There was a slowness between you, a feeling like the rest of the world wasn’t really there. Eventually, he continued moving and he wasn’t slow about that. Every thrust he gave was determined, determined to either prove a point or maybe get you pregnant.

He leaned down and his lips barely grazed your ear as he whispered: “You can’t say shit like that to me.”

You didn’t argue. You couldn’t. You were too busy clawing at his back and trying to focus solely on the pressure he put on you. Before you knew what had hit you, you were already gasping and whining out your release.

When he felt your walls clench around him, he let out a low moan against your neck. “What do you want?” He breathed out, his movements never slowing.

“Fill me up.” You breathed out desperately. “Fuck, I want you. Forever.”

These words were enough. His movements stilled, but you felt the way he throbbed inside you, filling you with his seed and his love. His hope. Whatever this was, you wanted more of it. You wanted it all.

He was still gasping for air and so were you. His hands were gentle in your hair and his lips moved softly against your temple.

“I love you. Fuck, I love you. My birthday girl.”

You bit down on your lip and closed your eyes. “I love you more.”

He let out a low chuckle and was probably about to protest, when he felt you tense underneath him.

His eyes shot open and he regarded with a concerned look. “What is it? Did I hurt you?”

You shook your head, your expression tense. “I just…I think I got…I may have gotten my…” You swallowed, still feeling him pressed against you, but you suddenly felt way more uneasy.

His brows furrowed in confusion, until it suddenly hit him.

He pulled back just enough to look down at you and, indeed. A bloody mess.

“Ah.”

“I’m sorry…” You murmured, your face flushed in embarrassment and shame. “I’ll clean it up, I’ll-“

“Shh.”

He gently tipped your chin up, but your eyes stayed firmly shut.

“What?” He murmured. “You thought I’d be repulsed by this?”

You swallowed and nodded. For some reason, this felt far more humiliating than you ever imagined before.

He sighed softly and gently stroked your hair.

“I’m cleaning it up.” He murmured. “But I’m not repulsed, my silly girl.”

“You’re only saying this so I feel better.”

“No.” He murmured. “I’m saying it, because it’s fucking turning me on.”

Your eyes shot open the same instant.

“You…what?”

He nodded without hesitation. And truly. You felt him, just then. Hard again.

Your eyes widened impossibly, but the flush on your face only deepened. Your mother had somehow made you believe that your monthly blood was something terribly shameful. A curse, a punishment, because women were without shame and that was the only way to stop them.

You never knew what exactly she meant, but it was enough to make you hate yourself over it.

“That- I-“

“Why don’t you come to the shower with me…and I’ll show you exactly what I mean?”

You had no strength to protest. You had come quick to learn, his word meant more than your mother’s ever did. And you didn’t mind.

Even when he hated you, he still loved you. Unlike her.

So you found yourself in the shower only a minute later, pressed against the cold wall behind you. He turned on the water for the cold to fade, but he quickly had you pinned against the wall, while the hot water burned its way through your skin.

“What are you-“

He groaned against your lips and pressed himself against you. All normal. It was all fine. The blood would just wash away, right? Like all bad and shameful things did at some point.

But before you knew it, he was on his knees.

On his knees.

You nearly fainted.

“What are you-“

He hooked one of your legs around his shoulder and attached his lips to your core, before you could protest. Your eyes widened and your blush was near painful. But the thrill…the thrill it sent through your body…

You nearly came, right then and there.

What the hell was he doing? Did this really turn him on?

And why did it turn you on, the way it did him?

He lapped and sucked at you in the most intimate way, a low groan on his lips every now and then. His lips and tongue moved in a cruel speed and you quickly realized you couldn’t just pretend this wasn’t happening.

Because it was happening. And you were about to feel it unravel.

Your fingers tangled in his hair, holding him in place, your hips moving on their own accord and a breathless moan was on your lips.

There it was. The feeling.

May the water never wash that feeling away.

Your body trembled and shuddered violently as you came and it never seemed to stop. A few seconds later it eventually did. The reality of the situation came crushing back on you, but before you could dwell on it, he was on his feet, towering above you.

“Are you still ashamed?” He whispered breathlessly, brushing his lips against your earlobe.

“Yes.” You whispered back.

He groaned and spun you around, so his chest was pressed against your back.

“Don’t be.” His tone was a quiet command, and yet you recognized the hint of pleading behind his words.

Don’t be ashamed of your pleasure. Don't be afraid of mine.

He didn’t give you time to be ashamed though. He was inside you before you could even think about being. And this time there was nothing gentle about it. Just your vampire lover, pounding away at you and taking what he wanted.

“Are you still ashamed?” He grunted while he mercilessly fucked you into the wall.

You opened your mouth, but all you could do was moan.

His smirk. His smirk was the most cruel sound in the world. But at the same time you were thankful. He didn’t let you be ashamed for something you both wanted.

“Thought so.”

A beat later, his smirk softened into something else and he slowed his movements just slightly to whisper against your earlobe.

"You'll get to know in time. Everything...Me. I promise you."

That was exactly what you thought about.

A day filled with as much sorrow as there was hope. And now there it was. A life growing inside of you, strong and resilient against everything that had hurt you in the past and would continue to hurt you. Until it was too late.

Fucking hell.

Was this your last day on earth?

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Author's note: Hey, guys! This chapter cost me years of my life yet again......I started writing this last night and finished it just now, with a sleeping break of course, but I'm just about to head out and I'm still sick, so I'm in no real condition to proofread. I'll do that later, I think...I just hope I didn't talk gibberish here. If I did at some point, please forgive me!

However, thank you guys for your patience and your constant love and motivation! A few things in this chapter were inspired by (anonymous) requests and I'll answer the asks in time!

What I remember definitely is: the period issue, the slow dancing, her wanting for him to finish in her in order to get pregnant, teasing him with no underwear and "What am I going to do if you die, huh? Just live in a world with no you in it? Pass." - "You can't say shit like that to me."

I love you, guys!

Yours eternally,

Lana

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Pretty Little Distraction

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Characters: Sam Winchester x Fem!Reader | Early Seasons

Summary: After boring yourself while researching lore, you decide Sam needs a well-deserved break.

Warnings: SMUT, reader wears a slip dress and thigh highs, cussing, oral (fem! receiving), dirty talk (but it’s nice bc Sammy), P in V, slight breeding k!nk, dean interrupts, allusions to aftercare, established relationship

A/N: okay so sam winchester LOVES thigh highs. if you have any sam winchester requests, ideas, or even thoughts feel free to send them in! i’m completely obsessed with him at the moment! <3

Word Count: 2079

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(lace divider from @strangergraphics )

Researching lore was fun at first; cracking open the books and the laptops, diving headfirst into the realm of mythology and folklore, and even the crappy vending machine snack breaks. However, after three hours of nonstop eyestrain, it became downright boring.

“Saaaam,” you whined as you shut your laptop harder than you should’ve, “I need to do something else, I’m going insane.”

Sam didn’t look up from his laptop, used to your usual begging for a break. He knows that you have a different stamina than he does when it comes to research. He’s been doing it his whole life, not to mention the hours of studying in college.

You let out an exaggerated sigh at his lack of attention, which earned you an annoyed glance from your boyfriend sitting across the rickety motel table. When his gaze returned to the apparently very important information on his laptop, you abruptly stood up, cracked your back, and flopped face down onto the bed you shared with Sam.

Remembering two hours ago, when Dean clocked out of research after only an hour, you thought about how unfair it was that he got to go out and have fun at the local bar while you and Sam were stuck doing more research in the motel room. You and Sam deserved to have fun too! Especially Sam, who has been more stressed on this case than usual due to the high amount of deaths. If you haven’t found a solution yet, you probably weren’t going to find one tonight.

You lifted your head from the cheap comforter as an idea popped into your head. Quickly, you grabbed your bag and headed for the bathroom without even a glance from Sam.

After five minutes of putting your outfit on, you looked in the mirror. Your body was hugged with a short, cream colored slip dress. A knitted pair of thigh highs with lace trim adorned your legs. It wasn’t over the top lingerie, but that’s exactly why Sam found it sexy.

A shiver ran through you as you recalled the last time you wore thigh highs in bed with Sam. You were about to take them off with the rest of your clothes, but he had caught your hand and begged you to keep them on. He spent an eternity between your thighs that night, the lace trim tickling his skin in the most perfect way.

You took a deep breath and exited the bathroom, leaving your insecurities behind you. Sam was right where you left him, sitting in the wooden chair that was way past its expiration date. Except this time, his eyes immediately find you standing in the doorway like it was some kind of picture frame.

His lips part as he trails his vision down your body, stopping on your thighs and the lace that appears at the top of your knee. You smile as you slowly walk over to him and stand between his legs that automatically widen for you.

“I must’ve fallen asleep,” he says as he leans into your palm that cups his cheek, “I’m dreaming.”

You giggle as you pinch his cheek and whisper, “Nope, wide awake.”

He smiles in response and runs his hands down your waist to your hips.

“Then maybe I died and went to heaven since I’m seeing an angel.”

Rolling your eyes, you pull him in for a kiss. He breathes out through his nose as he cups the back of your head. You pull back from his lips and kiss his nose.

“You needed a break, I had to pull you away.”

He looks back to his laptop for a second, hesitating only slightly before closing it.

“How could I resist such a pretty little distraction?”

You gasp in fake shock. “You really think I’m pretty?”

His lips quirk up. “The prettiest… now come here.”

He pulls you closer by your waist, and lifts you like a feather for you to straddle his lap. His lips are back on yours in an instant, but not for long as he trails his kisses down to your jaw and to your neck, brushing back your hair for easier access. He gently sucks on your pulse point. Not enough to leave a mark, (though he desperately wants to) but enough to make you let out a small moan at the feeling.

Sam chuckles into your neck at your reaction and starts to rock your hips into the bulge slowly growing in his jeans. You bite into his shoulder and pull on the waves of his hair near his neck. He comes up from your neck and lets out a low groan as he rocks you harder against him.

Suddenly, you hear the chair below you start to squeak in rhythm with your grinding. Before you stop, Sam whispers in your ear, “Ignore it.”

You keep moving your hips, but the squeaking grows louder and the chair starts to sway with each thrust.

“Sam,” you giggle out, “I think we’re going to break this goddamn chair.”

Sam stops moving your hips and lets out another groan, this time an annoyed one. He chuckles as he rests his forehead against your shoulder.

“Fine,” he says as he stands up from the chair with you clutching onto him. “To the bed then.”

He walks the two steps it takes for his long legs to reach the foot of the bed, kisses the top of your head, and then tosses you onto the mattress.

You land with a loud laugh but quickly direct your attention back to Sam, who was taking his shirt off at the end of the bed. He smirks as he sees you bite your lower lip at the sight of his bare upper body. His eyes run down your body, stopping on your thigh highs once again while he unbuckles his belt.

You bend your knees and allow your legs to fall apart, revealing a sight of no panties under your slip dress to Sam. His breathing grows heavier as he zeros in on the new surprise that you just exposed to him.

Once his pants and boxers have joined his shirt on the floor, he kisses your ankle. Then your shin. The little scar on your knee. Multiple kisses up your inner thigh.

He fully lays down on the bed and peels your slip dress up your hips, leaving the small amount of fabric bunched around your waist. He lifts your covered thighs over his broad shoulders; a position all too familiar.

He blows out a cold current of air onto your glistening pussy and you welcome a shudder of anticipation to flow through your body. Hazel eyes that looked more brown in this moment than gold, green, or blue met your own eyes. Those same puppy dog eyes watch you as he licks a stripe up your slit. His eyes close as he tastes you for the first time tonight. It had been too long.

Sam immediately gets to work on eating you out. His hands fiddle with the lace trim of your thigh highs while his tongue laps up the wetness that you produce for him. His eyes stay closed, brows furrowed, and his hips start gently thrusting into the mattress below him, causing you to moan out at the scene unfolding in front of you. All because of you.

Because of you, Sam is almost drowning in between your legs. And because of him, you’re gushing.

Your climax arrives too quickly. It always does with Sam. The feeling of pure sin washes over you as you gasp out Sam’s name with a collection of “thank you’s.” He only stops after your legs relax around his head. He leaves a kiss on your puffy clit and quickly moves up your body to kiss your lips.

“I need to feel you, angel,” Sam breathes out between rushed kisses.

You nod as you whisper out, “Please?”

He smiles against your lips. “So polite.”

You can feel him reach a hand down to his cock, stroking it once before pressing into you.

Sam was always gentle during this moment. He has to know that he’s big. He slowly gives you inch by inch, instructing you to breathe when he gets down to the last few. He lets out a groan as he buries himself fully to the hilt.

He pauses to let you get used to him as he kisses all around your face, ever the sweetheart.

“Don’t think I tell you enough how much I like these.” Sam snaps the lace of the thigh highs against your skin, leaving a pleasant burn.

“I kinda figured it out last time.” You clench around his length at the thought. “You were so hot, Sam. You always are.”

He laughs breathlessly. “You’re getting riled up, baby.”

He slowly pulls his length out, and even more slowly pushes it back in.

“Sam…fuck.” You let out the loudest moan of the night.

“There she is.” He grunts as his thrusts get more forceful.

You wrap your arms around his neck and moan into his ear, begging him to give you more. And of course he does, because it’s Sam. He gives you anything you ask for.

“Fuck, angel. I’m so deep.” Sam brings his hand down to press on your lower stomach, making you moan. “You feel that, baby?”

You could almost cry at the feeling of him so deep inside of you. You wish he would stay inside of you forever. You wish that you could become one.

The hand that was pressing on your belly goes lower and starts circling your sensitive clit. Your hands grab handfuls of the bedsheets under you as Sam gives you more and more pleasure with every passing second.

Sam’s other hand pulls down the loose strap of your slip dress and kisses the newly exposed skin of your collarbone area. He pulls the dress down even further to free your nipple, which he swiftly licked and then took into his mouth.

You brought a hand to his head and pulled back on his hair, directing his mouth to yours for a sloppy kiss. The pace of his thrusts quickened, causing the bed to squeak on its four wooden legs and hit the wall every so often. The sound didn’t even register to either of you who were so lost in each other.

“M’ close, baby,” Sam grunts out, his accent growing thicker. “M’ gonna cum deep inside of you, honey.”

You moaned at his words. “Please, Sammy. Need you to fill me up.”

Those words caused Sam to bury himself deep inside of you, let out the lowest groans, and release in your tight walls.

The feeling of his hot cum shooting into you triggered your second and final orgasm of the night. This time, you press your lips to Sam’s again; more panting into each other’s mouths than a kiss.

Sam falls into your arms, and you welcome the weight of the giant man on top of you. You comb your fingers through his hair as his thumb traces circles into your hips. You both soak in the feeling of complete love for each other.

Suddenly, the door opens as a drunk Dean walks in with his hand over his eyes. “Jeez you guys, I’ve been waiting for ten minutes. Could hear you from down the hall.”

You burst out laughing as Sam yells at Dean to get out.

Dean turns around and pulls the door shut as he yells over his shoulder, “Get dressed so I can sleep, you freaks!”

You giggle at the bitch face that Sam couldn’t hide. Your thumbs automatically gravitate to his face to smooth out the grumpy lines between his eyebrows.

“Every time!” You say, referring to Dean interrupting your post-sex cuddles.

Sam smiles. “Maybe we should put a sock on the door next time.”

You giggle and give an alternative solution, “Or, a sign that says if the bed’s rockin’ don’t come knockin’ jerk.”

Sam smiles and gets up from you, putting his hand out for you to grab. “Come on, let’s get dressed.”

“Sam, I don’t think I can walk.” You take his hand anyway, just to hold it.

He wastes no time in picking you up bridal style and carrying you to the bathroom where your bag still sat. “I’ll take care of you.”

You were sure he could see the cartoon heart eyes that you made for him.

“You always do.”

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ꗃ mine | zack fair 🗡️

summary: the relationship you have with zack proved to be anything but easy. he’s your best friend afterall, so you promise to be his.

contents: nsfw! zack fair x fem reader! eventual smut, protective/possessive/soft zack, oral (fem receiving), penetration, angst, fluff, basically all three.

words: 4k (i love him what can i say.)

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Life was funny.

It had a way of putting you into situations that you often questioned. Was it genuinely fate? Or did you like being put in these situations?

Especially when it came to your best friend, Zack Fair.

Growing up across the street from him, you often found yourself sitting outside waiting for him to get home from school. Your mom homeschooled you, so every day after you finished, you'd sit out on the steps until you saw him walking down the sidewalk.

He was a happy boy. Always was. And he liked being your friend. You were the only one who welcomed and embraced his boisterous personality.

That friendship blossomed into, well, you didn't really know what it was, but it was something that drew you closer to him. Many nights, he stayed over at your parents' house, the two of you falling asleep on both couches. Sometimes, he'd sleep on the floor next to the couch you were on. Your mom would make those snarky comments that'd get your face red as a tomato because even she knew there was love beneath that friendship of yours.

But it was something different about Zack and you. The awkward moments and stolen glances screamed to the heavens above that the two of you were in love. Yet, he never wanted more; never wanted to have you.

His reason?

You didn't deserve to be thrown into his chaotic becoming life. He had dreamed of wanting to be a first class soldier like his many idols.

“I’d be away for too long. Head full of progressing…” He’d say. Zack didn’t want to subject you to the torture of a long distance relationship. Not when growing up the two of you were inseparable. Needless to say, you understood why he never wanted you to be his girlfriend.

Did it hurt?

Maybe.

But you rather have him as your best friend than lose him for good.

Yet, something changed when he joined shinra.

That young, happy boy who used to walk to the store with you had become a man who was going off to do amazing things. And the unknown feeling of if you'd see each other again weighed on both yours and his shoulders.

It was what made you take his hand and bring him to your room a couple of nights before he had to leave. Your parents had gone on a vacation somewhere south, so you were alone with Zack, in your room. He was just as nervous as you were, not having any experience at all, but neither had you. Yet, he was so gentle as he eased his cock into you for the first time.

You whined and whimpered, tensing at the sting of your cherry being popped, but he kissed you wherever his lips landed to soothe the feeling. He had no idea what he was doing, but his hips thrusted and eventually pleasure took over both of you.

You were each other's first.

By no means did that mean the two of you were suddenly in a relationship, but the promise to always stay best friends was enough to keep you thinking about him over the years. Especially when he'd come home from deployment, surprising you at university sometimes, or showing up at your parents' house when you were home for the weekend.

Then came the moment he returned from the mission that would change his life forever. He had severe ptsd from the nibelheim incident and you tried helping him as much as you could. All he seemed to want was to hold you or kiss you. Sometimes, it went as far as having sex. You knew he was battling his own demons; demons that he never talked to you about.

But you, being the best friend that you were, let him be.

When his mentor Angeal passed away, you took it hard. Especially because the first couple of months, you were under the impression that he also died. But when he showed up at your flat, all you could do was leap into his arms. Crying at the fact he was still alive. You couldn't help it, but you kissed him, pouring all the love you tried to bury over the years into him. It was no shock that he scooped you up in his arms and walked into your bedroom, clothes quickly shedding off each other.

That was the sad thing about your friendship with Zack. You wanted more, and the crazy thing was-he did too. But after everything that happened to him, he was beyond afraid to put you through the pain he suffered.

But that's how it went for some time. He’d come back from a mission, show up at your place unannounced, fuck you senseless, act like he loved you in so many ways..then leave whenever he got called for another mission. You never asked him about a relationship; never asked him to be with you even when you so desperately wanted to.

You thought moving to cosmo canyon would somehow put a stop to the heartache of being in limbo. It did. Until you ran into him randomly one day.

He questioned why you left. Why you didn't tell him where you had gone, even asking if you hated him.

It was hard but you gathered up what little courage you had to tell him that the two of you needed to strictly be friends. No sex. No confusion.

Surprisingly, he nodded his head, agreeing that it was best because you deserved more than what he could give you. You hated that was his go to. Always saying that, but you didn't argue with the statement.

But life was just...funny.

You tried dating other men, but they'd always end up telling you they weren't interested after you'd briefly mention to Zack that you went on a date. Deep down, a part of you had an idea of why that happened, but you ignored it. Although, he had no right to stop you from seeing another guy if he wasn't going to do anything about it. Sometimes, heated arguments about how a certain man wasn't "good enough for you" almost caused the two of you to cross that fine line again, but it never happened.

Life really got funny the moment you saw him at the wedding reception of his fellow soldier/best friend Cloud.

You hadn't seen him in months, and the last conversation wasn't a pleasant one.

So how did you find yourself here? At the same place as him? The world seemed so small. Cloud had married a friend of yours, Tifa. She had invited you to the reception.

Life...it hated you right?

The woman clinging to Zacks arm made your stomach twist in a painful knot. She was beautiful in a way that made her stand out, ethereal even. But maybe it was because she wore the most beautiful dress that had everyone's gaze landing on her from time to time.

How dare he say he never wanted to date you, yet here he was with someone else.

You tried staying clear of his vision, thanking the universe that he hadn't seen you yet. But it was short lived once everyone started mingling.

"Come on. I want you to meet Clouds friends," Tifa said as she pulled you toward a group of men and women standing around.

Shit.

The moment the two of you made it them, she had introduced you to everyone. You were sure your face was beet red as they greeted you; when you felt a certain pair of blue eyes stare at you. He hadn't said a word, but his eyes were narrowed as he glanced over the dress you wore.

It wasn't anything like what the woman on his arm wore, but he hadn't seen you wear anything like that before.

How the hell did you get here?

Tifa did just say you were a close friend of hers but still, how did you know her?

You glanced at him, trying to remain neutral even though your heart was damn near beating out of your chest.

"It's nice to meet all of you," You said before peering around at the men and women again.

Cloud and Tifa were ushered off by a photographer, and they excused themselves before walking off. As the group got back into their own conversation, you took another look at Zack, seeing his eyes still trained on you before silently escaping off somewhere more private, like the bathroom.

At least he wouldn't dare to walk in unless he wanted the elderly women in there to scream.

You wanted to leave; not just leave the reception but fucking cosmo canyon.

She looked stunning-the woman on his arm. She looked everything that you weren't. Was that why he never wanted to date you? Because you didn't look like a model?

Taking deep breaths, you tried to calm down. Looking up a the ceiling above, tears threatened to spill.

You’ve got this.

When you stepped out of the bathroom, you were surprised-well maybe not really, to see the large figure of Zack leaning against the wall, his hands in his pockets. His eyes met yours, freezing you in your steps for a moment that seemed to go on forever.

"Hey," he said, voice deep.

"Hey," you responded.

A beat went by, his gaze trailing down your body before meeting your eyes again, "Y'look nice."

Nice.

You looked...nice?

Not sexy, not gorgeous, not beautiful.

"Thanks.” you shifted on your feet, looking down at the floor wishing it would swallow you up. You needed to leave before he saw even a inkling of a tear in your eyes. Raising your head to look at him again.

"It was good seeing you Zack," you tried walking away, but he leaned off the wall, walking up to you.

"We need to talk."

Slightly shaking your head, you began walking down the hall, "There's nothing to talk about."

"Like hell there is," he grumbled, walking after you.

"Don't you have your girlfriend waiting for you?" You snapped back, feet taking faster steps to get away from him.

He reached out, his large hand closing around your wrist as he pulled you back to face him, "She's not my girlfriend," his eyes flickering between yours, studying you and seeing the wetness in the corner. You tried not to let those stupid fucking tears fall, "Don't do that.”

"Do what?" you asked, biting your lip because you knew the answer he was probably about to give you.

Instead his jaw tensed, "I’m not with her. She’s important for work. I just decided to come to the wedding with her."

That made you even more mad.

Why couldn't he ask you?

"Whatever," you replied, trying to pull away from him, but his grip tightened.

"I mean it, I swear.”

He pulled you back close to him, your head almost tilted back because of how much he always towered over you. You weren't short, but still, he was tall.

Now was not the time to argue with him though. Especially when you heard the faint voice of his date calling out for him. It made you internally cringe, and you silently begged him with a shake of your head to release his grip on you. He did, and you scurried off before she could ask why he was in the hallway with you.

Still…you couldn't escape that reception even if you tried. Tifa begged you to stay a little longer. God, you wanted to shoot yourself in the head but agreed to, thinking it would be best to just sit at a table by yourself for most of the time except when you grabbed some dessert. You just hated that the cake had to be where the same group of people were, including Zack and his date.

You tried to squeeze by without being noticed, but you had somehow grabbed the attention of a man who had silently been ogling you since you got there. He walked up to you, attempting to strike up a conversation, as well as flirt. The blush on your cheeks and shy smile across your lips had him thinking if he kept this up, then maybe he'd get more from you.

More nervous than charmed at the awkward situation you were in, you didn’t lead the man on. But you could feel the heat basically radiating off of Zack from nearby. His narrowed eyes were lethal if looks could kill.

—

When you made it back to your home, you quickly discarded your dress, leaving it by the bedroom door and getting in the shower. You wanted the hot water to wash away the pain that you felt, but that was ridiculous. Watching Zack and his date leave before you just put nothing but jealous and depressive thoughts in your mind, and you wanted to just stop thinking about him so badly.

As you laid in the bed with nothing but a t-shirt and panties on, there was a knock at your front door. You glanced at the clock on the nightstand. It was just after 11pm. A sigh escaped your lips, wishing you didn't know who was on the other side. But you did.

"What are you doing here?" You asked him after opening the door, folding your arms over your chest.

He glanced down your figure quickly before meeting your eyes, "How long have you been home?"

A question with another question?

Classic.

A sigh left your mouth, "Left right after you. Now, why're you here Zack?"

He let out a breath that you couldn't see him holding in as he lowered his head. A long pause went by and he hadn't answered you yet. That was something he hadn't done before. It made you feel uneasy, "What's wrong?" you asked.

Suddenly, he raised his head, stepping toward you so quick you didn't have time to think when he grabbed both sides of your head and pressed his lips to yours. For a moment, you were too stunned to do anything until you realized what was happening before pushing him.

"Zack, what are you doing?"

He didn't say anything, he just grabbed the back of your head and pulled your lips back to his. You tried to fight him off because you didn't understand what he was doing as he forced his tongue into your mouth. But god, did you miss him. You had to stop.

You pushed as hard as you could against his chest, making him back away. The both of you stared at each other, your breathing heavy and eyes confused.

"Zack, what's gotten into you?" you asked, voice raising up a bit.

He still didn't respond, instead looking off to the side as he realized how he had just crossed that line of your friendship once more,

"Just-“ he tried to explain but couldn't find the words to.

You hesitated a bit before you walked and stood in front of him, making him glance down at you. His eyes bored into yours.

"Just what?" you asked.

His eyebrows were furrowed as the frown on his face deepened, "Just..need you.." he trailed off. Your eyes widened as you subconsciously took a step back, only for him to grab your hips and pull you back into him, "Please?”

You shook your head, "W-we can't-" you whispered.

"Promise this is the last time.” He pleaded, but you continued to shake your head. "Love...please?" He begged as he put his forehead on yours and closed his eyes, making you do the same. "Just really need you right now.”

You didn't know why, what, or how, but for some reason what he said got to you. He had never asked like that before. The two of you kind of just always ended up fucking. But he never asked you like that. Almost like he was going to break if you didn't give in to him…or worse, cry and lash out.

Slowly opening your eyes, you find his still closed. "Okay," you whispered, biting your bottom lip.

He snapped opened his eyes, looking straight into yours. Not needing to hear anything else, he crashed his lips onto yours again. This time, you felt yourself melting into the kiss.

He picked you up into his arms, making you wrap your legs around his waist as he walked toward the bedroom, kicking the door shut before gently tossing you on the bed. The dim light from the lamp gave a calming vibe in the room, but the way he yanked his black dress shirt off, you knew it wouldn't be so calm in a few minutes.

"Take my shirt off," he smirked, glancing down at you.

Yeah, the shirt you always slept in, and you hated that he automatically knew it was his. Instead, you playfully huffed and pulled the shirt over your head, leaving you in just your panties.

His eyes narrowed for a second before he got on his knees on the bed and hovered over you, making your body lie back onto the sheets. His hands were at either side of your head as his eyes darted over you. Starting with your face before traveling down your body and back up. “You’re so beautiful." He said before coming down to kiss you again.

His words had the butterflies in your stomach thrashing around violently.

When you finally pulled away for air, he leaned back on his thighs, grabbing your panties. You tried to help take them off, but he pulled them off quickly and tossed them to the side of the bed.

Standing off of it, he wrapped his arms around your thighs and pulled you closer to the edge. You almost felt your heart leap out of your chest with anticipation as he kneeled down and gently kissed a spot on your inner thigh. It made your eyes close as you bit your bottom lip. He moved to the opposite thigh and took a long drag with his tongue, making you squirm a bit as you wanted him to do that on the spot you wanted most.

"Look at me, baby.” He said, making you raise your head up to meet his piercing gaze.

"Want it?" He teased and you nodded. “Tell me you’re only mine," Your eyebrows scrunched together as you leaned up on your elbows to really look at him for a moment.

He hadn't moved from his spot as he kissed and licked on your inner thigh close to your clit again, "Tell me."

There it was.

The reason he showed up to your flat...

The reason he kissed you...

Why you were in your bedroom now...

He didn't want anyone to have you…

Except him.

You swallowed the lump in your throat as confusion and curiosity rushed through your mind. But there was also sadness. Sadness that no matter what, you were just his best friend.

"I'm only yours," you whispered.

His cock twitched in his pants before he took one slow, long lick from the entrance of your core to your clit, making you close your eyes and let out a soft moan.

"Promise me, love," your eyes snapped open to see his piercing at you. "Promise me you’re only mine.”

In that moment, you saw the vulnerability flash over his entire face.

He was worried-no scared-that you would somehow leave him one day. Even though he never once asked you to be his; never once let you in his heart like he should have. He was scared you would never be there for him again. That you would move on and find someone to be with.

And he didn't want that...

The crazy thing was, you didn't either.

"I promise.” You sincerely said, watching that devilish smirk appear a little before he attached his mouth to your cunt.

A surprised moan escaped your lips before your right hand reached out to grab the back of his head. His tongue flickered back all over your pussy before he sucked hard on the sensitive bud of your clit.

"Zack…” you fell to your back, grabbing the sheets on either side of you.

A groan echoed in his throat, and the vibration made your legs involuntarily close, but he tightened his arms around your thighs, holding them in place. He licked and sucked on your soaking cunt over and over until you couldn't take it anymore. Your orgasm hit like a powerful tidal wave, ripping through your soul and making you whole again.

And he didn't stop.

He kept sucking, making the moans falling from your mouth get louder in the room. When you tried pushing his head away, he still didn't budge. You raised your head and looked down at him, seeing his eyes piercing into yours in a way you'd never seen before. Like he was an animal enjoying the attack of his prey.

Somehow, you were able to grab both sides of his face, scratching at the skin under his ears as you pulled him up, making him finally stop. He quickly climbed up and smashed his lips onto you, causing you to taste yourself.

Your hands raked over his shoulders and chest, then down to his waist, where you undid his buckle before pulling down on his pants and boxers. He broke away from the kiss, standing up briefly to pull his clothes off completely.

His cock sprang free, throbbing and red with the leak of precum dripping as you took in all of him. The little scars on his chest and abs, the tiny cuts on his face that you would trace with your fingers sometimes, all of him.

He was beautiful.

So were you.

He always loved seeing you; all of you. And you always trusted him with the most vulnerable side of you like this.

You were so goddamn beautiful it hurt.

He didn't wait any longer before he hoisted your legs around his waist and slammed into your soaking pussy, the action making you moan out loudly. A struggled groan escaped his own mouth as he pulled back before thrusting into you again.

Eventually, you ended up on your hands and knees as he pounded into you from behind. You didn't know if he was still feeling possessive from earlier or not, but his strokes were punishing. He pulled your hair, he slapped your ass harder and harder, and you loved every second of it.

He leaned over your back, circling his middle finger over the already sensitive bundle of nerves, and god, you were about to lose it,

"You're mine...all mine," he growled in your ear. His words alone caused a shiver down your spine,

“Promise me again.”

"I promise.” You moaned as your orgasm was getting close. His thrusts were getting sharper yet sloppy in a way that had your walls squeezing around his hard cock. He was close too.

Both of his arms circled around your waist, leaning flush against you,

"Fuck—I love you," he breathed out, pushing you off that edge into the pure bliss of your orgasm. He grunted as he fucked you through it, loving the feeling of your walls clenching around him.

His own orgasm crashed over him, shooting straight through his cock into you, filling the hot seed of him up into your cervix as you milked every last drop. The growl that rumbled in his chest as he bit on your shoulder made you tremble. The grip on your body held you up, but he was afraid to let you go.

Now you were his.

Only his.

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first time writing for zack, i hope you guys enjoyed this one. i love a good backstory. xx <3

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jollyhunter · 6 months ago

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THE BROKEN CIRCLE

Beau!Dean x hunter!reader

Characters: (mostly) Beau Arlen / (flashbacks) Dean Winchester x hunter!reader, also Denise and Cassie AU: "Supernatural" x "Big Sky" crossover, set after S15 of SPN

One Shot (???) UPDATE: A SEQUEL IS PLANNED. THANKS SO MUCH FOR ALL THE POSITIVE FEEDBACK!! 🧡🧡🧡

Warnings: - Major MC death mentioned (end of SPN spoiler), implied panic attack, angst and just buckets of tears (I'm coping with a certain someone's death here) - No use of Y/N - English is not my native language

Words: ~4,050

Setup: "Winchester" - That's the name you applied with at the police department, when you started a new life in Big Sky, Montana, 4 years ago. It's your deceased husband's name. Or rather, meant-to-be husband, since Dean died 2 weeks before he got to propose to you. Today you return from your one month time-out. But a lot has changed since you went to visit Sam; You've got a new sheriff.

And he's the same man you thought you'd never see again.

The Broken Circle

Cold.

In one word, that's your last memory of when you gingerly cupped Dean’s face. How your tender fingers caressed his bruised cheeks and wiped away the dirt from his battered skin. Shakily combed out the rubble from his damp brown hair and scrubbed the dry blood off his fingers.

The last time you squeezed Dean's lifeless hand before it slipped from your trembling fingers. Cold and busted lips scraped against yours when you gently kissed him goodbye for the last time in this life.

...Or so you hoped. Who knew what heaven had in stock for you two.

You just wished you could have been there, in that damn barn. Been with him in his last minutes. Could have held his hand next to Sam. Could have told him how much you loved him. Reassure him that you'd give up the hunting life like you both had planned. That you'd try and live a good life for him... and that you were sure you'd see each other again.

But instead you had to take leave of Dean's lifeless body. Hollow. Drained of everything that made him the man you loved and had planned to spend the rest of your life with.

Dean gave his life for so many innocent people – hell, for the entire world. But he never got to have his own life. Never got to live it the way he wished to.

It just seemed so damn unfair. You had so much planned for your future. Have yourself some rug rats, a dog maybe, a house, a garden with those ridiculous white picket fences. You’d live a cherry pie life once you’d leave the hunting life behind you.

Or so you liked to picture it in your heads. On those rare, peaceful nights where you'd rest in each others arms like an old couple. His fingers combing your hair while your thumb carefully stroked his battered knuckles. Whispers of daring dreams filling the silence.

But reality was cold. Bloody. Like an animal put down. With a last effort, put to rest on his bed in the bunker by Sam and you.

This image will haunt you for the rest of your life, you know it. It already did for the past 5 years. If only you could have —

"Winchester?"

You blink rapidly, your mind thrown off for a moment when you snap out of your spiraling thoughts.

Denise waves with a paper in front of you to get your attention back. "She was mutilated. And it wasn't a bear. Her heart had been cut out."

"Jesus," Cassie breathes with a look of shock and disgust, shifting uncomfortably next to you.

"Yeah," Denise's face grimaces into a painful one. Her eyes are darting from Cassie, down to the report and back up to your still slightly absent gaze. "What do you make of it, Winchester?"

"Sounds like a werewolf." Damn it. The words slipped your lips before you could fully snap out of your memories. “I mean, sounds like a bit far-fetched but I’ll let Sheriff Tubbs know.” You force a wry smile when you grab the piece of paper from Denise’s hands, ready to head out of this messed up conversation.

“Sheriff Arlen,” Cassie calls after you and you stop in your tracks to look back at them with arched eyebrows.

“Sheriff who?” You inquire with a puzzled look. How the hell could you have missed this much in just one month off duty?

“Sheriff Beau Arlen,” Cassie repeats and Denise quickly adds with a teasing hum, “And his ass is just- mmmh-” she makes a chef’s kiss hand gesture while Cassie rolls her eyes with an amused chuckle.

You let out a huff in mock-annoyance but can’t help the faint grin on your face. Maybe, one day you’d dare to befriend them. Maybe, whenever you’d feel ready for letting people into your life again. But not today.

Ready to pick up your work at the police department, your eyes immediately land on the new name on what used to be Sheriff Tubbs office. ‘Sheriff Beau Arlen’ is written in an arched, golden text across the door’s glass.

You raise a sceptical eyebrow at the name. “Beau” you spit out the name under your breath, already feeling a distaste for this new sheriff.

In your defence, it wasn’t personal. It is just in your nature to feel sceptical towards anything new, especially people. Perhaps you gave up your hunting life. But any hunter will tell you between a swig of whiskey and a loaded shotgun that you’ll never lose your hunter instincts, no matter how hard you try. That’s not how it works. You don’t end this business by walking out the door.

It ends you.

In some way you were like trained bloodhounds. Always one chase away of your next kill. Unable to ignore the smell of blood. You were painfully aware of that fact. You could never live a fully normal life without the occasional hunch or a nervous look over your shoulder.

But you’d learned to accept it and make the best of it.

Here you can still help people. Save people. And once in a while nudge the sheriff into the right direction when you suspected something more than a suicide. Or you’d discreetly plant anti-possession charms on people when you had a hunch that demons were involved in a case.

Yet Sam believes you had retired fully from hunting like he did. And you liked to belief so, too. But on some days you weren’t so sure whether you even wanted to.

In some twisted way, hunting will always connect you with Dean. And at the same time it pains you, like a slow poison. Because you know it’s what he hated and never wanted for you.

And what took him from you.

It is a walk on a tight rope, really.

With a little huff of defiance you push the door to the sheriff’s office open. Your eyes dart around the empty room as you lean slightly forward, “Sheriff Arlen?”

Nothing. Oh well. With a quick glance over your shoulder you decide to take the chance and just drop off the report. You step inside, your fingers tracing the edge of the paper as your mind is instinctively drawn back to the case. I’ll have to look into this… bloody werewolf —

“Ah, Deputy Winchester, ain’t it?”

You freeze in mid motion.

And so does time. The paper slowly slides from between your trembling fingers and flutters to the floor. The unmistakable voice jolting through your mind and body like a lightning bolt. Your breath is caught in your throat, your mind and body paralysed.

The world holds its breath.

This is impossible.

“...Winchester, innit?” he repeats as he steps into the office and casually walks up to you, a wide smile spread across his face.

It can’t – NO.

You don’t dare to turn around.

Not that your body would be capable of any movement anyway. Every muscle is tense, your spine’s gone completely rigid. And your heart’s hammering against your ribs like it’ll crack your chest open from the inside.

You stand there like a deer caught in headlights. Headlights of a ‘67 Chevy Impala called Baby.

It has to be my imagination.

“Ya got somethin’ for me there? Oh-” You feel his elbow briefly brush your side as he bends down to pick up the paper next to your foot.

You don’t move an inch and stare ahead.

He straightens up again and steps around you to place it down on his desk. When he finally moves into your view and turns around to face you with his warm smile – your heart stops.

Emerald green eyes look back at you. Deep and sparkling green oceans. Alive.

Your brain freezes. Your mind scrambling for an explanation but failing to come up with anything.

This can’t be.

After a moment of tense silence, the tremors of your bottom lip make way for what your mind refuses to believe in.

“Dean?”

His name slips you in a mere breathless murmur. Afraid that whatever this is, will shatter the moment you dare to breath again.

Beau raises a brow. “Dean?”

He repeats the name with such nonchalance, such valuelessness, like it’s just some random clerk who he’s got no business with. As if that name didn’t mean the world to you once. Still would. Still does.

But the way his name dropped from his lips…

It clogs your airways. And the question mark at the end was him ramming a dagger into your heart and twisting it, without him even realising.

“Uh, no ain’t that.” He gently shakes his head and his lips melt into a cheeky smile as if that would make his next words any less painful.

“I’m Beau.”

Silence. Once again you feel like the air’s sucked out of your lungs. Like someone had pushed you off a cliff.

Someone who is an imposter of your deceased husband.

Beau. Your jaw clenches. And the name bounces off your mind. Your initial reaction being immediate rejection. No, you’re not... Beau.

Your eyes flicker across the man in front of you.

He might look quite… changed. He’s got a beard, neatly trimmed even. His hair is longer and… soft. Gone was the rugged and calloused man you loved. But it is still him. His eyes with their hidden secrets lingering behind those intense glinting, emerald green pools. His bow legs you’d recognize out of a hundred. His voice, his features, his – everything. Everything on him seems much softer but still… in your eyes, it’s Dean. No doubt.

“Why are ya lookin’ like you saw a ghost?” Beau questions with a tilt of his head, leaning back against the edge of his desk.

His voice snaps you out of your intense gaze. Your mouth opens, but no words make it past your quivering lips. All words drowned out in a flood of a million questions. Your focus drifts off, your eyes darting around the office like you’re expecting Gabriel to pop up any second and laugh at you.

But the room stays reduced to the two of you.

You feel like you’re on a tipping point.

Hands clenched, one subtly moves back to your hidden silver dagger – you do what you were trained to do in situations like these; Your mind grips for the lifeline and kicks into hunter mode. You rattle off the list of possible monsters; Shapeshifter? Ghoul? Am I dreaming? Is it some sick game of a trickster God? —

“Darlin’? You alright?” he asks, his voice now more concerned. You look terrified. As pale as a sheet, the blood drained from your face. Close to a panic attack, he guesses by your rapid breaths. Beau reaches out with his hand, gently patting your arm to get your attention. “Hey… Easy, just breathe.”

At his touch you jolt and finally snap out of your state of shock. The hand hovering over the concealed weapon falters. His worried eyes lock with yours.

The life-line snaps. Your mind tips over. Enough to make your stomach twist and turn, about to throw up. With only one shared look, everything’s back; The pain, the poignant grief, the cold skin under your fingertips, Dean’s lifeless expression, emerald eyes gone dull, the stench of decay, of old blood and dirt and his burning flesh and-- it all crashes down on you. All the emotions and memories you had buried in the depths of your mind, now laid open.

Fresh and hungry. Slowly swallowing you whole. Again.

“I- I don’t feel so… good – sorry,” you sputter, your hand clutching your chest in an effort to keep it together. The same second you spin around on your heels and storm out of the office without looking back once.

Beau. His mere presence was suffocating.

You remember the moment you and Sam cleaned up Dean’s lifeless body. How your fingers brushed against a folded paper, carefully tucked away in his jacket’s inside pocket.

Sam’s face had contorted the moment you pulled it out. Clearly, he had known what secret the paper held and before you got to question his knowing look, he suddenly got up. While walking out, he said he’d give you some time alone with his brother.

Once you unfolded the notepaper halfway, your breath stopped. Your eyes slowly shifted from one scribbled word to the next, each of them hitting harder than the next, each of them taking more of your breath. You swallowed past the lump in your throat when the realization of what you’d been holding in your hand slowly set in.

They were notes of Dean. Notes for your upcoming anniversary in two weeks.

You unfolded the rest of it and your eyes widened. The paper began to crumple in your shaking hands while wet stains swallowed some of his jotted down keywords. When your burning eyes reached the last four words, it had felt like whatever was left of your broken heart had just been ripped out entirely.

The raw emotions rolled down your cheeks, your tears mixing with his last unspoken words…

“Will you marry me?”

Beau was left back staring at the slammed door in bewilderment and a little stunned. After a moment, he sighs and pushes off the desk to follow after you.

“Winchester!” He calls down the corridor, watching you stumble out the front door into the outside. He jogs after you, slightly panting, while his eyes dart around the parking lot in search for you.

The rain crashes down on him the moment he steps outside. His head briefly tilts up to face the grey sky with an annoyed groan. The raindrops are pattering against his creased forehead, running down his cheeks to pool at the tip of his beard.

But then he hears a muffled sniffle next to him. Strands of his soaked hair fall into his face when he whirls his head around, spotting you leaned against the wall.

“No- no – it can’t be you – Damn it – it can’t…” you mutter under your rapid breaths, somehow trying to fight your scrunched up, stinging eyes with words of common sense. Your chest feels constricted. Your heart’s hammering in your ears and your breath’s clipped, feeling like you might faint any moment of lack of oxygen.

Leaning back against the wet wall for some support, your mind’s on the brink of a breakdown. There’s no explanation for this. This can’t be happening.

Beau suddenly appears in front of you and before you get to react, he places a hand on your shoulder. You flinch but don’t pull away. His hand feels heavy against your soaked jacket, grounding, gentle – but casual, like you would with a stranger. You are strangers.

“Hey, hey take it easy. You’re gonna give yourself a panic attack. You’ll be okay.” He says as he crouches down to your level. He glances over your trembling body and how your eyes try to avoid his, your expression like you’d just witnessed a murder in slow-motion.

“Look at me, deep breaths.” Beau speaks in a firmer, yet gentle tone, trying to break through your panicked state.

When you refuse to look up, he tilts his head down to meet your eyes behind some soaked stray hair that sticks to your skin. He pushes them out of your face, his intense gaze searching your contorted face for some form of hint for what’s got you so spooked.

He gives your shoulder a gentle squeeze. While his soothing words just keep coming, his voice now a lower whisper as he’s desperately trying to understand what is going on in that head of yours, “Hey, c’mon… talk to me, Winchester…”

Your eyes are burning from the tears that have been building up until now. Eyelashes heavy and clumped together by the droplets of the rain. And his intense eyes staring into yours, the very same eyes you fell in love with over 10 years ago, do nothing to ease your pain.

You try to tear your gaze away from his, but find yourself caught in them. It’s like you’re staring into a beautiful forest after years of living in a desert. They pull you in, and you feel like you are right back where you’d always longed to be. Home.

But a home that isn’t yours any more. The soul behind those eyes looks familiar and yet unfamiliar at the same time. You thought you’d never see those eyes again – but those very same eyes hold no memory of you.

The same question keeps repeating in your head, ripping at your heart and soul like a Hellhound.

Dean… is this you?

His voice cuts through your thoughts like a soft knife. “Take deep breaths darlin’, it’s oka-”

“Please- just-” you cut him short, a painful, shaky breath rippling through your voice, “Just stop talking.” Beau’s voice is like a dagger to your heart, twisting it whenever he speaks up. Mocking your memories with that uncanny tone of his.

I’m just tired. You hear Dean’s voice in your head and just like him, you wished you didn’t feel a damn thing.

Beau raises a brow and tilts his head forward, studying your face. For a moment he opens his mouth about to speak again, but when he sees you flinch, he forces himself to shut it closed.

His jaw’s clenched from fighting the urge to talk and feeling a bit overwhelmed with the entire situation. Not knowing where to go with himself or what to do without making things worse. He isn’t sure what it is, but something about you tugs at his heart in a way he can’t quite understand. But he quickly dismisses it, for now.

His eyes snap up to the sky when the rain starts to increase. Heavy drops splatter off the both of you, coaxing a single tear to let go of the corner of your eye. It was like the sky cried for you. Eyes that parched exactly 5 years ago.

Without a word he moves closer, gently wrapping his free arm around your waist. But you stop him before his palm touches your side. Your hand's shaking as it clings to his wrist like a lifeline.

Beau’s eyes widen in surprise, but he doesn’t comment on it. His expression grows pensive and his eyebrows slightly furrow, watching your trembling form. Your chest's heaving heavily, like you’re struggling for air. And your eyes are out of focus, like they're reliving some nightmare.

He suddenly feels a strong protectiveness - decides to hold himself back, though, afraid he might make things worse. But it pains him terribly to see you this way, even if he might not know you, yet.

You don’t say anything. Unable to form the right words as nothing could express the storm of contradicting emotions you are trapped in. The wavering grip on his arm is clenching and unclenching subtly as if unsure whether you want to push him away or pull him in.

“Sorry,” you finally croak between shuddering breaths, unsure what you were even apologizing for, “I’m sorry…”

Why were you apologizing? A strange feeling settles in his guts, one of this being a lot bigger than he could comprehend.

Next moment you know, you’re pulled into a tight hug. Both his arms wrapping around you to pull you close and hold you together.

At first you stiffen. Standing there like a fragile, shaking tree. Your arms pressed against your sides, unable to comprehend any more what is happening.

But he keeps you in his embrace, murmuring soothing words, muffled by your hair and the heavy rain. You lift your head slightly, just enough for your wavering eyes to meet his again.

That’s when the realization hits you. He looks so whole. So unbroken. His skin and his hair was smooth and tender beneath that thin layer of rain. He lacks any form of scar, any edges or any memory of the horrors you and he had faced and committed. Your heart twists; This isn’t what a scarred hunter looks like. And at the same time you feel your heart sink at the next conclusion… Beau would have been Dean’s idea of a perfect life, without ever having been born into the hunting business.

And it makes you wonder whether he was granted that alternate life.

Beau feels your trembling body against him and how your gaze is searching his face for something he doesn't know. Why are you looking at him like that? A lump forms in his throat. His hand gently caresses your back in a circle motion, while his other keeps stroking your hair.

“It’s alright, s’okay. You’re okay.” Beau says in a soothing, comforting tone and he tugs you a little closer, allowing you to rest against him.

Your wet hair falls into your face once more when your head drops to his chest. You both stay still, the only sound being the pitter-patter from the raindrops against the hood of his truck and the puddles around you. Your ragged breath’s nearly drowned out by the rain. The world seems to have shrunk to the beat of his heart softly thudding against your ear.

And that breaks the dam. Tears it down as the floods of emotions search their way out. Your shoulders rise and buckle against his chest. The tears finally break free, streaming down your face, mixing with the rain soaking your clothings. Your body wracked with sobs – raw, desperate, painful. Liberating.

You begin to shake uncontrollably, the sobs growing more and more powerful. They start to rack through every fibre of your body. Your legs grow unsteady beneath you, daring to crumble from the weight of every emotion you had buried in the past 5 years released and unloading all at once.

“I don’t know what’s going on, but I’ll stay right here as long as ya need me to. C’mere…” He reassures you, and pulls you even closer. His chin comes to rest on top of your head, his facial hair brushing against your scalp and his warm breath wafting down at you. “Just let it out… you’re gonna be okay… you’re not alone, ‘kay?”

You clutch at his jacket tightly, holding onto him like you’re drowning. Like you’re afraid he might be a dream after all. Might disappear from your grasp at any moment. Everything spills out of you, incoherent words bubbling from your wet lips. “Y-y-you’re alive- you’re alive- a-alive- I missed you so much, Dean- so so much-”

Beau can’t exactly make out the words that are tumbling from your mouth, but he can feel you shaking against him terribly. He quickly takes his big jacket off to drape it over you, to try and keep the rain and cold off you.

His heart tightens at the sight of your curled-up body, clinging to him while shivering badly and breaking apart in his arms. He slowly begins to speak again, a hint of an encouraging smile on his face, “Hey, ‘m gonna pick ya up. Ya ain’t gonna stand that cold and rain. Ya’ll get sick.” He then places his arms on your back and under your thighs, before lifting you up off the ground in one smooth motion.

He holds you close against his chest, wrapping his jacket over you for extra warmth. The rain patters against the concrete floor while his boots splash through the puddles, carrying you over to his truck.

You don’t protest as your body was giving in at this point. Like a run down shed in a storm.

Your fingers slowly going numb from the death grip, the wet and cold. You choke on your sobs while the tears keep rolling down your reddened cheeks.

But from joy.

You don’t know whether he is Dean or not. Whether this is real or you finally lost it.

But in this very moment you didn’t care.

You let yourself drift back to the happiest place in your mind. One you hadn’t dared to visit for many years. Locked up and keys buried along your husband. Deep down in your broken heart.

When you close your eyes and press the side of your face against his chest, you can hear his heart pounding. When he speaks, you hear Dean’s voice above you, soft and peaceful.

And you feel his body through the drenched pieces of clothings between you.

He feels warm. Warm.

A/N: it was meant to be a drabble IT WAS MEANT TO BE A DRABBLE

I'M NOT CRYIN'- OKAY FINE I'm still coping with his death - I haven't even watched it since I'm still catching up with the seasons. GAWD I HTE THIS - I JUST NEEDED CLOSURE DAMN IT

Anyway, I just had to get this story off my chest before next year. I don’t know yet whether it deserves more parts but do let me know if you think so!

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shaevilux · 2 years ago

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People knock on Rhoam for being a bad dad cuz he's distant and stern to little Zelda and say how Rauru is the goat (heh) for taking her in like his own daughter. Like Zelda had her real parental connection with Sonia and Rauru. But frankly that's a little reductive.

Rauru literally descended from the heavens, married a priest, started a kingdom. Man didn't really know much strife yet. There's no looming threat of calamity or prophecy yet. Things are peaceful. Things are fine. Things are great. Zelda dropped in during this time, talking about a doom that's going to happen tens of thousands of years in the future.

This sad, lost princess.

Of course any reasonable person would take her in and calm her and tell her she is fine and listen and support her.

Rhoam not being able to be this kind of figure for Zelda is tragic. Just read this poor man's journal entries:

"It has been a year and three months since her mother passed. Perhaps she is held back by heartache too deep to heal. If the Ganon prophecy wasn't looming over our heads, I would tell her to take her time... To wait until she is ready. But our situation is dire and leaves no room for weakness—even on behalf of my beloved daughter. My heart breaks for Zelda, but I must act as a king, not a father. I must order her to train relentlessly at the fountain." Pg 4.

"In truth, I understand Zelda's feelings. Painfully so. She lost her mother, her teacher, before she could learn from her. Ten pointless years of self-training, without so much as a book or note to help her find her way... Those in the castle talk behind her back. And I, her only family, scold her for her shortcomings. No wonder she wishes to hide away in her beloved relic research. I'd love nothing more than to console her... But I must stay strong. She MUST fulfill her duty, just as we all must. Even if she comes to despise me." Pg 6.

"I have been told my Zelda went to the Spring of Wisdom... This will likely be her last chance. If she is unable to awaken her power at Lanayru, all hope is truly lost. If she comes back without success, then I shall speak kindly with her. Scolding is pointless now. I forced 10 years of training on her... and after all that, it seems her power will stubbornly awaken some other way. Perhaps I should encourage her to keep researching her beloved relics. They may just lead her to answers I can't provide. For now, I sit anxiously, more a father than a king in this moment. I sit and await my daughter's return." Pg 7. (He fucking dies and never gives Zelda this bit of closure uuuugggghhhhhhh Zelda I'm so sorry Rhoam I'm so sorry)

It sucks because most people remember the cutscenes (duh it's more immersive and important) and in the cutscenes of the first game Rhoam was mostly shown as being stern and mean to babygirl Zelda, who is closed fists explaining herself to him at the verge of tears. And in contrast everyone in the first royal family of hyrule in the second game treated her with such kindness and we can see how happy she was being there with them.

Rhoam was shackled by duty. By prophecy. By the looming calamity. And from the day he named his daughter 'Zelda' he shackled her as well.

And what does Zelda do with these shackles? She accepts them. She tolerates them. Because she loves her father and her kingdom and knows there's a power dormant in her that can stop the calamity that she must do her best to unlock. She does this dutifully. She does all the training, she does everything that is required.

But it still doesn't unlock. So she tries other ways. She isn't just going after the 'relics' because she's scholarly and nerdy and wants to learn about them. She does it because she's pragmatic. She knows her sacred sealing power isn't present in her. She knows she might not be able to control it or even unlock it in time.

So she tries this alternative approach. The Divine Beasts, the guardians. Ancient tech that was used to prevent the calamity of their time. And she awakened the tech. And her father chose the champions for each divine beast. And they were all prepared. And it's all thanks to Zelda.

And then... Fucking tragedy again. Ganon probably learned his lesson from the last time he was thwarted and immediately went for the tech, corrupting it and turning it against the new users. Against Zelda.

It's never really stated how fast it all turned to shit when the tech betrayed them (or maybe I don't remember) but every account points to it being almost overnight. The champions died. Rhoam died. And suddenly, suddenly Zelda unlocks her sealing magic.

I always always hate the literary trope of using tragedy to unlock a great power that could've actually stopped the tragedy from happening in the first place.

And it's no different in BOTW. I hate that Zelda had to go through all this to unlock her powers.

And then what happens next?

She's stuck in limbo (in an almost mocking parallel to Rauru in the next game with his imprisoning arm) holding Ganon back. For a hundred years.

This young woman had gone through so much only to be trapped with a calamity seeking to destroy Hyrule for a century.

Does she know her father died in the war? Does she know the champions died in battle? Would she know Link would survive in the Shrine of Resurrection? Would she know how long it would all take? The century she would have to wait?

I think she didn't. I think it all happened too fast. I think ultimately, she decided a stalemate with ganon was an agreeable outcome. I think in her mind she probably thought she failed Hyrule. When the divine beasts turned she must have been distraught. Distraught might not even cover it tbh. But at least... At least when the kingdom was brought to it's knees by the corrupted tech and was waiting for the final blow, she had the ability to ensure the final blow never came.

And oh boy I have a looot more to talk about regarding Tears of the Kingdom. But I do want to have a couple of more playthroughs of it to really formulate what I want to say.

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And they were roommates

(Captain John price x F!reader)

Summary: the captain wants somewhere more homely to settle down and when an offer like yours comes alight on Zillow he must take up on it.

Warnings: oral smut, sexual comments, awko moments, kissing?

part 1 - part 2 - part 3 - part 4 - part 5 - part 6- part 7 - part 8 - Part 9!!

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It was the best night of sleep John price has ever had in his life. He wishes deeply his early bird tendencies hadn’t woken him from it. You lay facing opposite of him with his chest pressed snuggly up against your back spooning you. He thought he was dreaming at first, or maybe he died and went to heaven, but your steady breathing and warm skin was much too authentic for that.

He gently brushes the hair from your neck to kiss at the smooth skin, not in means to wake you, simply cause he just can’t help himself.

“Goodmorning.”

“Didn’t mean to wake you.” He says while peppering kisses up to your jaw.

“Are you sure?”

“Not anymore.” You turn over in your spot to face him, he’s a big man, a wall, even as he lays down. He peers down at you as you place a hand on his cheek.

to your misfortune he’s borderline obsessed.

“Shower with me?” He asks.

“Sure.” He pulls you with him as he rolls to get off the bed. He’s about to walk into his bathroom to get it started when he realizes you're about to walk out of his room.

“Where are you going?”

“To get my shampoo and conditioner.”

“I have shampoo and conditioner.” You laugh, confusing him.

“John, I'm a hairstylist, I wouldn’t be caught dead using head and shoulders. I’ll be back.” He watches you leave, still not completely sure what you mean by that.

When you return steam has already filled the roof of the bathroom. You carry your toiletries in both your arms trying not to let anything drop.

When John takes notice he goes to help you, except you’re not focused on the help he’s offering, you're focused on his bare chest, strong arms and slightly soft belly.

“There will be time for staring doll just not right now.” He says plucking your stuff from your hands. You roll your eyes at him trying to suppress the blush climbing up your neck.

He undresses fully and steps inside waiting for you to do the same. Suddenly you feel awfully nervous while lifting your shirt. You pause when it gets to your rib cage suddenly feeling self conscious.

“You okay?” He notices your absence and peeks out of the glass door.

“Uh yeah.” You say, willing yourself to pull it over your head. Your pants come off next and you pray soap gets into his eyes so he doesn’t really look at you.

You step in trying to keep your eyes on his out of politeness even though it feels like your eyes are magnets and the other magnet is in his southern region. He turns the two of you so you're the one mostly under the shower stream. His lustful gaze can’t help but look at the way the water runs down your shoulders and over your breasts.

“You’re shameless.” You say to him with a smile, you couldn’t feel self conscious under a gaze like that.

“Very.” He replies while leaning in for a kiss. He’s awfully warm, the shower at a temperature you like and one he’s not used to, but he couldn’t care less as long as he gets to have you like this.

“Can I wash your hair?” You ask.

“If you let me wash yours.” You hum in agreement, grabbing your overly expensive bottle of shampoo and pouring some into his hands. You tell him to lather it in his hands before he puts it in your hair and he entertains it even though he bets it does nothing. Lacing his fingers through your hair he watches the way your shoulders relax and your mouth slightly parts. He tries to stop it, really he does, but he can’t help the way his cock begins to harden. He prays you don’t notice, not because he’s insecure, it’s a totally normal human reaction, but because he doesn’t want you to think he can’t enjoy a wholesome moment without getting turned on.

“Feels good.” You sigh out as he begins to rinse it out. A groan is threatening to spill out and with all his might he is fighting it.

When you open your eyes you notice the stone cold expression on his face. The way it looks like his eye slightly twitches for a second. And just like his human tendencies have troubled him yours too make you look down to see what may be the biggest dick in your life resting against his lower stomach.

You look back up quicker than you looked down and it seems he hadn’t noticed.

“Your turn.” You say scooting closely by each other so now he stands under the water.

“I’m going to use my shampoo so you can see the difference.” You say as you pour some in your hands. It’s a bit of a reach to get all of his head so he slightly lowers it for you. You run your slightly long fingernails on his head scratching soothingly. He groans at the immensely good and foreign feeling as you make sure to not miss any hair.

When you’re done he begins to rinse and this is the chance you take to really look at him from head to toe. Do you feel a little perverted, yeah you do.

“Look who has the staring problem now.” If John’s going to do anything he’s going to own it.

“Who?” You say as you stand on your tip toes for a kiss. He gladly obliges, holding your head at an easier angle for him. You place a hand on his chest, which is normal, nothing that’d raise suspicion. Until it starts slowly dragging down his body.

He's pulled apart from your swollen lips carefully watching your fingers continue to trail down. When they reach his happy trail you hesitate.

“Go on.” He says softly.

Your fingers softly brush against the soft velvety skin of his awfully gorgeous cock. Your mouth instinctively watering at the sight, and his falling open at the tease.

You grip him in a mostly closed fist giving a gentle squeeze. His hips jolt slightly forward as a pearl of precum appears at the tip. Impatiently you swipe the pad of your thumb over it bringing it to your lips. You sigh softly at the salty taste, spitting into your palm you bring your hand back down to his cock. You give him a firm stroke as your hand slightly shakes. His groans and shut eyes encourage you to continue. You find a steady pace as your hand dedicates itself to providing him pleasure. He tries to control his breathing but it loses its pattern when you quietly moan at the way it twitches in your grip.

“You're so pretty.” You say quietly.

“Me or my cock?” He sighs out breathlessly

“Both.”

“Can I try my mouth?” You ask kindly he chuckles not humorously simply cause he can’t believe this is real life.

“I mean I don’t have too.” You say suddenly which he objects too.

“No, please.” He says watching the way your eyes light up. You waste no time lowering your knees onto the tile floor not caring about how they might hurt later on.

You grab him eagerly, in your lustful subconscious nature you paint your lips with the tip. He squeezes his eyes closed to try and calm himself down but you’re doing nothing to help his case.

“I’m losing it up here doll.” He says while leaning a hand against the wall for support. You begin to lick and suckle just to get comfortable, planning a course of action in your head.

Then you take him fully into your mouth bit by bit. His girth causes the dry corners of your mouth to slightly crack. Your eyes close as you try to focus. The sounds of slurping as you try to take him fully is sinful. He watches drool run down your chin and water droplets fall down your whole body almost cinematically.

“You’re a sight.” He groans out when you pull him from your mouth to simply kiss from base to tip. It’s never been done to him and he would’ve never thought of it, but after that he’s not sure anything else can occupy his mind.

You suck him back in, determined to make him come. You might just want it as much as him. You're putting in your best work, ignoring the ache in your jaw. He has a hand on your cheek stroking the tears that fall from your eyes away. He tries to stop himself from thrusting into your mouth as your hand on his thigh flexes subconsciously.

He’s so close but is greedily holding it in to keep his cock in your mouth for a bit longer. Your eye lashes bat up at him to watch his slackened features grunt and moan your name. With lidded eyes he watches the hand that once rested on your thigh slide down in between your legs, as you moan into him when he sees the way you slightly part them to give yourself an easier access.

“Mmmf fuck.” You hadn’t expected it quite yet, lost in your pleasure and his.

He pulls from your mouth as his cum splashes onto your lips, cheek and for his personal pleasure your breasts. When he’s done he pulls you from the floor, sucking your slick fingers into his mouth with a satisfied groan before kissing you long and hard. It’s a mix of you and him as he pulls your tongue into his mouth. His thumbs rub his spend into your cheek like it’s a facial cream as he looks in your big eyes.

“Shall we finish this elsewhere?” He says with a hand resting on the curve in your waist.

“As much as I’d love to, we can’t, I have to go grocery shopping and have to buy and restock some things at work.” You say with a small smile.

“But you haven’t gotten to finish?” He says with a little discontent.

“I don't need to.” You say giving him another quick kiss.

“That’s crazy.”

“Make it up to me another time?”

“Oh, yes” he couldn’t have been quicker with his answer.

“Very well then.” You laugh, grabbing your loofah which he plucks from your hands to pour soap on. He washes you tenderly, kissing every spot of your skin he swipes the sudsy soap over. He can’t help the way his eyes threaten to water at how ethereal you are to him. Call it the post clarity or whatever you want but he wants to put you in his pocket and take you everywhere.

He doesn’t let you reciprocate the favor but does let you wash his back when the time comes. He leaves the water on for you as he steps out to grab his towel. When he returns with yours you turn it off and wrap yourself in it.

You dress right then and there in the clothes you brought to his bathroom so you don’t have to suffer the cold. Grabbing your hair dryer to plug it in telling John to watch out for the noise. He dresses quickly and goes to the bathroom standing beside you at the his and hers sink.

He puts on his beard oil keeping in mind that it’ll need a trim sometime this week. After that he just stands there and watches you do your thing. Admires the fact it’s being done in his bathroom.

“May I join you?” He says amongst the noise. You click off the hair dryer after asking him “huh” for the second time so he repeats himself a third.

“Of course.” You smile feeling a little giddy at the fact you’ll have his company. John’s not a man who seems to like to go out much nonetheless shopping.

“Be ready in twenty?” He asks.

“Yeah I’m just going to finish drying my hair and put on some makeup.” He nods, walking up to you to kiss your cheek before heading outside for a quick smoke.

When you’re done he’s sitting on the couch watching whatever is on the news. You call for him from the front door and hear the silence from him clicking off the tv and his footsteps begin to approach you.

“Can I drive?” You ask hopefully.

“No.”

The weather is beginning to become more livable and sunny. You settle into the seat as he shuts the door and gets in himself. Your hand rests above his on your thigh as the radio hums music. There is something so dreamlike about the feeling he has around you. Like the air is smoother and easier to breathe.

“Where are we stopping first?” He asks, breaking the comfortable silence.

“My work so I can see what I need, beauty store, then groceries.”

“Okay just let me know where to go once we get near.” He says giving your leg a gentle squeeze. You nod to him as his focus returns back to the road.

He gets out with you at your job, walks you inside passing up all the private booths of other hairstylists as you lead him into yours. He sits patiently on the chair a client would usually occupy and watches you take product out, put it back and write some stuff down.

“Okay you ready.”

“Only if you are.” He says as you grab his hand and your purse to walk back out. That’s before you’re stopped by one of your coworkers who’s just walked out of her booth.

“Hey, who’s this?” She asks, giving you a hug and nodding to John.

“This is John, my roommate.” You reply softly as his hand on your waist tightens.

“Nice to meet you.” He says kindly.

“Yeah you too, so just roommates then?” You wish you could rewind time and keep her stuck in that room a little longer. Cause truthfully you and John technically still were just roommates.

“Um yeah.” You say trying to end this conversation. She glances down to his hand on your waist and then slowly back up you.

“Okay then, have a good day.” She says walking past the both of you.

John hadn’t realized till this very moment that he hadn’t asked you to be his girlfriend or anything official. It’s actually kind of a sickening thought to him that you're not really his. I mean in a perfect world you’d walk around with his name above your head in neon lighting. So he conspires, he’ll drop you off at your little beauty store, leave quickly, buy flowers and cute things, hide them in his car, pick you up and go grocery shopping and cook dinner with you and ask you to officially be his.

“John you okay?” You laugh as you wait for him to unlock the car.

“Yeah doll sorry.” He says snapping out of it.

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You're genuinely a little confused when he tells you he’s got some business to take care of real quick and drives away after you’ve made it inside. Not that you mind, you’ve shopped alone for forever now and it’s kinda therapeutic but it’s unusual. No more than twenty minutes pass by as you continue looking at all the new products from beloved brands that the doorbell jingles as someone walks inside. You don’t look up nor really pay it any mind till strong arms encompass you.

“Where’d you go?” You say looking up at him and the foolish smile on his face.

“Just handling some business.”

“Okay, I’m trying to decide between this conditioner or this one. I love the scent of this one but love the lather on this one.” You say holding up to large bottles showcasing them.

“Buy both and mix em’.” He says grabbing them from you as he also takes the slightly heavy basket from your hands.

“Yeah right that’s way too self indulgent.” You say while trying to make up your mind.

“Can I just buy them for you?” You look up at him in disbelief.

“Absolutely not.” You quickly decline his very generous offer.

“Why not?”

“Cause I’m a big girl who has money and should be able to pick a product.”

“I never said you weren’t a big girl with money, I just don’t see the need for you to choose when you can have both.” He retorts back.

“No I’ll just get this one, fan favorite.” You say hesitantly putting it back and putting one in the basket then looking at your list to see what’s next. He lets you disappear into another aisle before grabbing it back off the shelf and hiding it under the other stuff in your cart.

You shop for a while longer before heading to the cashier as the lady rings up your items. She makes small talk with you about your day and what not. As she nears the last items John asks you to run to the back of the store for that beard stuff he uses and you quickly do. She finishes up before you make it back and he happily takes his card out and pays for your stuff.

“I don’t know which one because they all look the same.” you say handing him three different types of the same brand.

“It’s this one.” He says giving it to the cashier along with the extra two.

“Wait John, where's my stuff?” You ask a little confused.

“In those bags.” He says nonchalantly as he pays for his one item telling the lady to have a good day.

“I’ll pay you back.” You say as he grabs the bags, heading to the door and pushing it open with his back.

“Don’t worry about it.” He says ignoring your persistence.

“I am worried about it.” The bill on your restocks is always over six hundred dollars and you cringe at the idea of him spending that on you.

“Well don’t.” He shrugs as he hands them to you once you're sat too put in the backseat. There’s no room for disapproval as he shuts your door and heads to his side.

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“Have you been drinking my oat milk?” You ask him as you pass the dairy section in the grocery mart.

“Oat milk?”

“Yeah the one in the yellowish carton.”

“I mean yeah I’ve been drinking it but I just thought it was flavored milk.”

“No, it's non-dairy, made out of oats.” Although that slightly disgusts him he doesn’t say anything cause he’d enjoyed it up until now.

You continue to shop around picking up things that you need and different snacks to try. You hate grocery shopping more often than you need to so now’s the time to stock up.

“Can you grab that for me?” You say point at the top of a shelf for the detergent you use. He does with no complaints as he effortlessly plucks it off the shelf.

You’re never out of his eyeline, he watches your every move along with everyone around the two of you. Although you don’t stray far from him it wouldn’t even be an option. He tried to trap you between him and the cart that he pushes but unfortunately you escaped quickly.

“I pay this time, you pay the next.” He says as you load stuff up onto the belt. Although he knows you wouldn’t pay for a thing in his presence.

“Deal.” It sounds fair to you. Once again he very happily pays and puts the grocery bags into the cart as you stand there and admire him. When you guys are done he tells you to sit inside and hands you his keys as he loads the stuff into the truck.

The drive home is mostly silent. His fingers trail shapes onto your clothed skin as you scroll on your phone looking at other people’s lives through a screen. He peeks over at you from time to time and you smile when you notice.

When you pull into the driveway you begin to unbuckle your seatbelt and grab your purse.

“Go on inside I can take our stuff in.” He says, not wanting you to see the stuff he has back there.

“You know I can help, right?”

“Yeah but you don’t need to.” He says leaning in for a kiss which you gladly entertain. His mustache scratches your upper lip slightly, it's becoming something you love.

“Ever the gentleman.” You say as he pulls away.

“For you, always.” If you weren’t experiencing this first hand you’d be giggling and kicking your feet at the thought.

“Okay.” You say smiling way too hard, something that’s been a recurring situation.

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“How do you like it cooked?” You say as you finish seasoning the steaks you guys bought at the store for tonight’s dinner.

“Medium rare.” He replies, nearly drooling at the sight of you, hair messily put up, apron tied around your waist, as you concentrate all your attention on what’s in front of you.

“Mkay.” You slightly sway your hips to the tune of the small radio playing music.

“How’d you learn how to cook?” He asks.

“By spending a lot of time by myself and having a cook book obsession.” He smiles, very you esque.

“I’ll be back in a short minute.” He says as you move onto chopping potatoes. You nod in response as he walks down the hallway.

As quietly as possible he sneaks back out to his car to grab the flowers, vase and earrings he bought you. And brings it inside walking slowly to his room. You’re too lost in thought to hear a thing. Potatoes in the pot of boiling water and steak in the pan. Your mind was occupied with one not over cooking anything and two not getting splashed by hot butter.

“John.” You call out. You're thankful he heard you with one yell as he came down the hallway.

“Yeah doll.” You turn to look at him and tilt your head in confusion when you see a leaf stuck to his half shirt.

“Was just going to ask for help in dumping the water.” You say ignoring it.

“Of course.” He says walking up to you grabbing the mitts you offer him that were a bit too small for his large hands. He picks up the heavy pot with ease as he drains it.

“Were you outside or something?” You say noticing another leaf on his pants.

“No, why?” He asks as he sets the pot back on the burner.

“You have leaves on you.”

“Oh not to worry, must've gotten there when I brought the groceries inside earlier.”

After that you pay it no mind as he returns back to whatever he’s doing. You finish cooking and set the table for you two. You plate the food and call for him again. He panicked when he heard you, although he’s going to wait till after dinner. What if you say no? What if you're not ready for a relationship, let alone with him.

“John.” You yell again, he hears your footsteps coming towards him and quickly leaves his bedroom.

“Sorry, I was just picking up.” You know for a fact it wasn’t messy when you guys left. Regardless he follows you back down the hallway and into the kitchen. You two sit in your now assigned seats.

“Looks great, Thankyou doll.” He says caressing your chin affectionately.

“You're welcome.” You watch him take his first bite waiting before you take yours, gauging his reaction then getting distracted by how wide his legs spread out, so much so that they peek out from under the table.

“Keep looking at me like that and I’ll have to enjoy dessert first.” You look away quickly, beginning to eat your own food. The first 5 minutes is silence that’s filled with chews and clinking.

“I think I’ll reopen bookings next month.” You say randomly as the reoccurring thought occupies your mind. You took some time off work to get some rest and have been enjoying it too much.

“That’s interesting, what for?” You laugh softly before looking up at him.

“Because living isn’t free?” It could be for you, he thinks.

“I could always pick up more bills.” He doesn’t want to push the topic knowing you don’t like to talk about it.

“Or I could just get back to work.” That’s your way of ending the conversation, he ends up finishing way before you do and sits back with a satisfied sigh chatting about some kind of camera he wants to put outside.

“I’m full.” You say pushing your plate away. You’re about to stand up and collect the plates before he stops you.

“Allow me.” He says grabbing them and setting them inside the sink, he washes them quickly and puts them in the drying rack before turning to do the pans you used.

He’s deep in thought about how he’s going to ask you but snaps out of it when he feels two arms wrap around his waist and slide under his shirt, then your head on his mid back. It’s so subtle yet so affectionate and foreign to Jonathan Price that he just wants to melt.

“You smell good.” You whisper as you stick your nose deeper into his shirt.

“Thank you?” He laughs.

“I’m sleepy.” You say as he reaches for the kitchen towel to dry his hands.

“Well before we head to bed I’ve got something for you.” Your head perks up curiously. He turns around and smiles softly at your drowsy eyes yet wide smile.

“What?”

“Well follow me and I’ll show you.” He’s wringing his hands as you both walk toward his room.

“Okay, close your eyes.” He says and you do.

You're both in his room now, you hear him shuffling things around or something of the sort as you stand there patiently.

“Okay, open them.” Once your eyes adjust you see him standing there with a gorgeous bouquet of flowers and a little box.

“Will you be my partner?” You tilt your head at the question until you realize he’s asking you to be his girlfriend.

“Your girlfriend?”

“Doll, I'm too old for that.”

“Yes then I’ll be your partner.” You laugh, grabbing the flowers from him.

“Open this.” He says handing you the small box and taking the bouquet of flowers to set them down on his dresser. Nervously you flip the top open as your eyes go wide.

“John, these are beautiful.” You say looking at the pair of small paint brushes with a diamond as the bristles.

“Pretty things for a pretty lady.” He says reaching to push a strand of hair behind your ear.

“This is too much.” You whisper truly admiring them, for a man who doesn’t believe in fate finding those in the small jeweler right next to the flower shop is the closest he’s come to it after meeting you.

“Nothing is too much when it comes to you, doll.” You close the box, setting it down. You look at him for a couple of seconds just admiring the man that’s been nothing but a blessing to you.

“What?”

“Kiss me.” It’s nothing sexual, it’s purely out of affection. The way you feel light as a feather beneath his touch, as he feels real against yours. He’s so enamored in everything you, loves the way you breathe, smell, move, laugh he’s obsessed with everything.

You feel like the heavens have sent him to you. He’s safe, warm and everything you’ve ever wanted. He cares for you truly. He holds you tenderly and gives you all the attention you crave, and you don’t even have to ask for it.

“Can we sleep in my room tonight?” You say when he pulls away.

“Yeah, but why?”

“I feel like this is too boyish for me, I need to see my plants and sleep in my matching sheets with my thousands of pillows.” He laughs as you put your vase of flowers in his hands and lead him towards your room.

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peonysgreenhouse · 1 year ago

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-`♡´- return.

summary: the obey me brothers react to mc coming back to life!

tags: obey me brothers x gn!reader, hurt/comfort, implied character death

i. lucifer

lucifer quietly steps into diavolo’s office, his usual professional mask quickly slipping onto his face, mouth set in a firm line as his eyes wander about the room. he freezes where he is when he sees who diavolo is talking to.

a familiar side profile, those kind eyes and soft lips he remembers so well, and he feels his breath hitch in his throat. this wasn’t real, he saw you die in front of his eyes. just how could you be here right now?

“lucifer!” you call, his presence being made known by diavolo, who grins wide upon seeing lucifer’s mesmerized expression. “oh, i missed you so, i–” you grip onto him tight, lucifer hesitating to return your affection out of both fear and regret. surely, he’d wake up any moment now in his own room and see that this was all a dream, remembering he had similar dreams after lilith’s fall. oh how his heavenly father liked to torment him so, even now.

“how did you…?” he clenches his jaw to keep himself from breaking. not in front of diavolo, not in front of you could he cry. lucifer hadn’t cried in eons, not since he was cast out of the celestial realm, but now, more than ever, he feels the weight of centuries of living creeping up on him, bubbling to the surface like a pressure he had let simmer for an eternity. “it’s really…?”

“it’s really me…” you whisper, putting your hand on his cheek. his hand comes up to cover your own, wishing he could shred the glove so he could feel the warmth of your hand on his. “it’s hard to believe, right? i was in the celestial realm for a while but… then i got sent back down here.” lucifer’s eyes flick to diavolo, who sits back in his chair with a smug grin on his face. he’s sure he now owes him two lifetimes worth of debts, one that he’d gladly work to pay off. you being here was worth more to him than anything the three realms had to offer.

“you’re never leaving again, understand?” his tone is more desperate than commanding, linking his fingers with yours. his other hand touches the spot where your mark is from making a pact with him, an eternal reminder that you both were connected. “from now until forever, you’re staying at my side.”

you laugh breathily: “yes, i’m yours, lucifer.”

ii. mammon

an unexpected knock at the door resounds through the hall. he doesn’t have the energy to get up and open it, knowing it was probably asmodeus out from a wild night out. hearing the knocks once again, he sighs, slinking over and throwing the door open, ready to snap at whoever is there.

when he’s greeted by your smiling face, eyes bright and glittering as you choke out words that he’s been dreaming of hearing ever since that night you died, he grips the door so tight that it threatens to shatter under his grip. lucifer stands behind you, his arm linked with yours and the brightest smile he’s seen on his older brother since the days spent in heaven.

he doesn’t care if he’s imagining things, he doesn’t care if it’s just a cruel illusion – mammon is greedy. he reaches out and pulls you out of lucifer’s grasp, holding you tight against his chest like you'd slip out of his arms if he let go. his breath hitches in his throat, hands running up and down your body, trying to commit this feeling to memory in case it turns out his hunch is right.

a flurry of emotions runs through his head, he has the urge to be angry that you left him, if only you could see the lengths he went to to get you back, all the restless nights spent bargaining with witches in back alleys and dark places. but he’s always cared for you more than he’s cared for his own pride, maybe even more than he’s cared for his own self. if this were an illusion he’s damn sure he’d sign over his own life to make it real, if even for a moment.

“hey,” your voice is more gentle than he remembers, “i’m here, i’m back, mammon.” when you push him back gently to cradle his face, he shatters, bursting into a fit of loud and childish sobs. he doesn’t care, he doesn’t worry about how pathetic he might’ve looked to you, you were back in his arms.

iii. leviathan

levi hardly ever left his room, not since the night you had died. he only came out when he needed to eat, or when lucifer would forcefully drag him to class. the days were long and dull, not even TSL seemed to make him light up anymore – it was much too painful to face the world without his henry at his side.

he gets curious one night when he hears the sobs of his older brother downstairs; had something else happened? stepping out of his room, he could’ve never imagined seeing the sight in front of him: mammon sobbing in your arms, lucifer stroking your hair from behind, the two brothers sandwiching you in like a vice.

it’s you, his breaths grow shaky as he nearly jumps over the banister trying to get to you, it’s his henry, his best friend, his–

“you left me, but you’re–!” he quickly pulls mammon aside, tears of his own pricking at the corner of his eyes. “you’re back… why did you leave me? why did you–?” his tone is harsh, but the way he’s gripping onto your shirt, fists balled up and tugging you out of lucifer’s grip and into his chest, you know he’s more upset with himself than anything.

“…promise me you won’t leave me again,” his voice is small, and it has fresh tears running down your cheeks.

“i promise.”

iv. asmodeus

he comes home late, in the hours where the devildom was at it’s darkest, smelling of alcohol and the perfume of other demons. fully expecting another lecture from lucifer, he tries to open the door as quietly as possible, slinking through the doorway, making his silent entrance. as he sneaks up the stairs and towards his room, he sees that the door to your room was open.

that’s odd, he thinks, but not entirely strange – mammon would often tuck himself away under your covers, sleeping in your room as it was like a second home to him, even when you were gone.

but then he hears it, the sound he so often dreamed of, so often tried to pull out of others as his fingers danced down their sides, but it was never the same. your laughter.

he hurries in, a sight in front of him he never thought he would see again: you with your head in lucifer’s lap, levi cuddled up beside you, mammon hugging tight to your other side. as your eyes snap up to meet asmodeus’s, he feels his cheeks heat up, the shame of what he’s done since you’ve been gone creeping up on him slowly.

but then you’re up and running to him, latching onto him like a vice and he finds himself smiling, the warmness of your body against his melting away his guilty thoughts like snow in the spring.

“it’s about time you came back,” he kisses you over and over, not missing an inch of your face. you taste salty, and he doesn’t know who’s tears he’s tasting at that point – yours or his. “you’re mine. don’t you ever think about leaving again, ‘kay?”

v. satan

a quiet knock at his door in the early hours of the morning alerts him, and he stiffens, knowing it was probably lucifer here to check up on him. the thought of seeing his brother made him sick, so he continues reading his book as if he heard nothing.

“can i come in?” a soft voice that sounds like yours asks. has he lost it? has he been awake for so long now that he had finally slipped out of sanity? if he tells you to come in, it doesn’t register until the light from the outside hallway makes its way into his room, satan hissing at the way it blinds him.

the way the light wraps around you makes you look not much different than an angel, ethereal and as radiant as the sun. you reach down and touch his cheek, noticing how hollow his cheekbones and how dark the circles under his eyes are. he hadn’t been taking care of himself, had he?

“satan, i’m here,” you smile down at him gently, “i missed you. i missed you so much.”

“you… you’re actually alive?” he heart beats wildly in his chest, “but… but i researched this and… and it said there was no hope! how can you be here now?”

“i’ll explain later.” you kneel in front of him, hand still on his cheek. “now, i just want to see you.”

he wants to be angry at you. he wants to scream at you until his throat is burning, wants to make you feel every second of agony he had felt since the moment you died. but he can’t, no matter how angry he was at himself for his failures, he could never take that out on you. “this is real, right?” he grits his teeth, sure you could hear how fast his heart was beating. “i’m not going to wake up and you be gone, right?”

“i’m not leaving you, satan.” you shake your head, “not now, not ever.”

he finally cracks, pulling you into his lap and burying his face into your neck. you smell just how he remembers, and he pulls you close, close, closer until you’re flush against him. even then it’s not close enough.

satan doesn’t trust himself to speak, no words seeming accurate to say how he felt in the moment. he lets the tender moment pass by in silence, until his brothers come in after deciding the both of you had enough alone time.

vi. beelzebub

the darkness of the devildom starts to wash away as the morning hours come. of course, it was never truly bright as it was on earth. beel finds himself waking up after another nightmare, hand clutching at his pillow like he would often clutch onto your hand when he had dreams of lilith.

in his dreams he sees you, shining like you always did, snuggled up against his chest. in the next moment, he sees blood staining your clothes, eyes wide in horror as you beg him to save you. beel is never quick enough, dying before he even had the chance to touch you, the last words of yours as cruel as a knife to the gut: why didn’t you save me?

beel makes his way to the kitchen, having left quietly as to not wake up belphie. he’s sure that it was levi’s turn to cook breakfast – not that levi would actually do it. levi didn’t leave his room unless forced to, after all. beelzebub could at least take over that job for him.

he passes by the common room, hunger pains keeping him from checking to see what his brothers were doing convened in there.

“oh, beel!” beelzebub whips around at the sound of your voice. he could never forget, not in a million years, just how sweet you sounded. like the brightest symphony or the softest lullaby. after you died, he found himself replaying your recorded phone calls with him over and over, to soothe him before he fell asleep.

“you’re… alive?” his eyes widen, and you pull yourself out of asmodeus’s lap to sprint to beel, who easily catches you in his arms, hoisting you in the air and spinning you around. tears prick at the corner of his eyes, and he crushes you into his chest.

“yes, i’m here beel!” your voice is a bit strained due to how hard he’s squeezing you.

“i’m sorry for not protecting you,” he whispers, “it’s my fault you were–”

“it’s not your fault.” beel leans down, letting you run your fingers through his hair, “not for lilith… not for me. none of it’s your fault. you did all you could.”

he smiles a watery smile, hands still strong around your waist: “thank you.”

vii. belphegor

as most nights go, belphie dreams about you. his head resting in your lap, your soft hands threading through his hair– it’s pure bliss, and he wants to cling to the dream as long as he can.

in fact, if he concentrates hard enough, he can feel something stroking his head in real life, his head resting on a surface both familiar and alien– did his favorite pillow always feel like this? but soon, beel’s voice pierces through the gauze, tearing his dream apart, and belphie opens his eyes.

blinking irritably, it takes him a second to process what’s going on– beel is smiling in a way he hasn’t seen in years. and his head is resting in your lap. you’re gazing down at him, something tender in your eyes, beel by your side.

it’s a dream. it has to be. there is no way you can be here, that you can be real– you were gone, and he was stuck, going around and around in his own head uselessly– but then you breathe, “belphie, i’m home,” and he turns and hugs you so hard you fall back on the bed, startled.

there is a flurry of limbs, of movement– beel has wrapped his arms around you from behind, and belphie is clinging to your front, head pressed in the crook of your neck, hands running all over to make sure you’re real.

hasn’t he wanted this moment forever? his two favorite people in the world, by his side? he doesn’t need an explanation, a reason. in fact, he’s sure mammon or lucifer will storm in in a couple more minutes, and he will have to tear himself from your side. belphie will have to share you with his five less lovable brothers.

but for now, you are his again. and it is enough.

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frozenwolftemplar · 1 month ago

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Carmen Sandiego Money Headcanons

I said I'd do a longer post! ;)

(thanks and kudos to @mmaricarmen23 @bisexually-finger-guns @backofthepencil11 for spurring this)

-- Growing up, Carmen really only knew about money in a vague, conceptual sense: money was a thing that VILE needed in order to function and was an indicator of how valuable something was (with 'something' being the 'imports' that were brought to the Island). That's it. Once a year it needed to be...whatever Cookie Booker did, but other than that you didn't need to think about it. Pretty easy low-maintenance stuff.

-- She got a bit of a wake-up call when she left the Island and hadn't yet started lining her pockets with VILE's ill-begotten funds: apart from a roll of bills in the pocket of Cookie's coat and some of his own savings account money that Player quietly wired to her (don't tell his parents), she was flat broke. It was here that Player first grasped just how...few life skills his bestie possessed.

-- Carmen: Player, guess what? I saw this place off the highway that teaches you to ride a motorcycle and-

Player: Red. Please tell me you didn't...

Carmen: ...Why wouldn't I?

Player: How much did this cost?

Carmen: I dunno, a hundred?

Player: RED!!! THAT'S LIKE YOUR MOTEL ROOMS FOR THE WEEK!

Carmen: But! I can ride a motorcycle now. 😎

-- He is now bestie/hacker/money manager

-- Once they joined her, Zach and Ivy had a hard time wrapping their heads around (a) how much money their new friend had (b) how freely she spent it, and (c) how willing their new- boss? friend? something?- is to spend it on them.

Zach: Whoa! You wanna eat here? Isn't it kinda...expensive? (it's literally an Olive Garden)

Carmen: No worries; tab's on me. 😉

Zach: ....Ives, we died and went to Heaven. 😍

Carmen: ...We're in Ohio?

-- It was...hard to get used to. Especially for Ivy; she'd been the one to manage the money when her and Zach were on their own (he would have spent it all at McDonald's, something he has freely admitted) and is well aware of how much things costs and what smart spending looks like. Seeing someone basically burning through a bank account (never mind it seems to be bottomless?) is...well.

Ivy: Boss, you can't buy these! $400 is way too much for sunglasses!

Carmen: ...It is?

Ivy: .....YES!!!

-- And she just...doesn't feel completely comfortable with sponging off someone they just met, even if she is really nice and offering to pay for room service and hotel room movie rentals and anything else they could ever need or want. That's not the world she came from; in her experience, everyone has an angle they're playing, and money is how they keep you beholden to them. Plus this whole vigilante thing? Yeah, it had to be a one-and-done for this...she wants to say 'heiress?' She made that mistake with Eddie, and she's not making it again.

-- Zach is more comfortable with the spending sprees. He's a little uneasy at first (he, too, knows the value of a dollar), but quickly and easily adapts to a life where he doesn't have to feel shy about asking for seconds.

-- Update: Carmen really doesn't have an angle; they really are doing this vigilante thing, she really is footing the bill, and she really expects nothing in return. She also, Ivy quickly realizes, has no idea how money works beyond buying things. Good thing she has practice explaining this stuff to Zach

Ivy: The drugstore sells pairs for less than $12 that work just as well. Just go there to-

Carmen, already wearing the sunglasses: Still getting these

Ivy: At one point, my entire wardrobe cost less than that. Think about that for a minute.

-- This is not going to be easy.

-- Shadowsan feels some guilt for not teaching Carmen about money management better, and for being the reason she spends like it's her last day on earth (which it could be with VILE hunting them but we're doing that today), but he doesn't take much action beyond occasionally remarking on something being too expensive. It's not like he was responsible with money when he was her age. Or ever.

-- No one pursues money management 101 in earnest, though. Ivy and Zach and Shadowsan and Player...they all know how unfair the world can be, and all know what it is to be dealt a bad hand. They all (well, the kids; Shadowsan has Guilt (TM)), to an extent, kind of....feel they deserve this (hey! tons of people far worse than them get to have nice things; why can't they?). They want and like this lifestyle, of jet setting and high living, the fantasy come real. It's fun, and really nice to not have to worry about being unable to afford their next meal or next month's rent. Plus they like the perks; the cars and tools, the bayside warehouse and the super-fast CPU Player wouldn't have been able to afford otherwise. It's hard to want to stop all that.

-- Maybe they can just...ignore that part of Carmen's Life Skills curriculum? Wolfe's secret accounts were seized by VILE, so a good chunk of this ill-begotten money is technically Carmen's by rights. The interest alone is a king's ransom, so she...doesn't really need to learn budgeting, right?

-- Carlotta disagrees.

-- She wants her daughter to be able to manage her own money. Responsibly.

Carlotta: Hija, you spent almost $200 (US dollars for simplicity's sake) on shampoo this month. Do you truly think that's sustainable?

Carmen: ...Yeah? I mean, I recycle the bottle.

Carlotta: Dear Lord. 🤦‍♀️

-- It's hard to see just how ignorant she is about money; it just reminds her how her baby was raised to be a weapon against humanity, one who was never meant to exist outside VILE. But stewing over it won't change matters, and anyway, after missing so much of her life, she actually welcomes to chance to teach her daughter Life Skills. And anyway, Carmen has a good head on her shoulders; how hard could it be?

Carlotta: Now, mira, see these bottles? The same size as the expensive one, but cost far less. You'd have more money for other necessities.

Carmen: Like the expensive shampoo?

Carlotta: ....Like food.

-- This may take longer than she thought...

#carmen sandeigo 2019 #in which i write #fic inspiration #carmen sandiego #carlotta valdez #player bouchard #zack and ivy

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candycandy00 · 12 days ago

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As Heaven is Wide - A Doflamingo x Reader x Corazon Fanfic Part 3

In a world where Doflamingo and Rosinante were raised by Celestial Dragons after their parents died in an accident, they grow up to be notorious world nobles in their own right. And then they buy you at the Human Auction. Now trapped between two very different brothers, you’re shared like a toy. Maybe they’re not so different after all. Part One | Part Two | Part Three | Part Four

Smut. 18+. Fem Reader. Dubcon. Dead Dove Do Not Eat! Bondage. Master/Slave Dynamics. Violence. Manipulation. Squirting. Size Difference. Rough sex. Humiliation. Pain. Reader is described as little but only by ten feet tall men. This is a brutal, dark fanfic! You’ve been warned!

Any comments/feedback is greatly appreciated! Title comes from a song by Garbage (which really fits the mood of this fic I recommend it!). Dividers by @animatedglittergraphics-n-more and @benkeibear!

When you get to Rosi’s room, he gently sits you on his bed. You’re still panting, trying to catch your breath after the ordeal you just went through. Rosi paces around a bit, then rushes out of the room so fast he trips and has to scramble to his feet in the hall. He returns with a glass of water and reaches it to you.

The cool water feels good in your sore mouth and throat as it washes down the lingering taste of Doflamingo. By the time you’ve finished the glass, you’ve calmed down enough to speak.

“Thanks, Rosi,” you tell him as he takes the empty glass and sits it on a small bedside table. His room is a bit messier than his brother’s, with some clothes strung about here and there and an empty plum jar sitting beside the water glass. Otherwise, it looks very similar to the other bedrooms you’ve seen in this manor. Huge bed, decadent furnishings, fluffy rugs.

He looks flustered as he shakes his head. “No, I didn’t do anything! I was too much of a coward to stop him sooner.”

“But you stopped him before he killed me. That’s something.”

Rosi lets a tiny smile creep over his face. “I won’t let you die here. I promise.”

You shift on the bed, suddenly remembering that you’re naked beneath Rosi’s black feathered coat. You pull it tighter around yourself.

“Oh! Hold on, I’ll find something you can wear,” he says, going over to his closet and digging around. He pulls out a long sleeve button up shirt and hands it to you, then turns his back to you.

It’s almost comical, since he’s seen you completely naked more than once now, but you appreciate the gesture.

You pull on his shirt and button it all the way up. With his ridiculous height, his shirt is long enough on you to be a dress. It’s soft and warm and it smells like him.

“I’m done,” you tell him, sitting back down on his bed.

He turns to face you again, his face slightly pink when he looks at you. Is it because you’re wearing his clothes?

“I’m sorry you had to go through that,” he tells you, standing a few feet away from the bed, maintaining his distance.

“What is your brother’s deal? I can’t believe he got that mad over a kiss! It’s not like he couldn’t have kissed me anytime he wanted.”

Rosi looks away awkwardly. “Doffy would never kiss a slave. He thinks they’re dirty.” Then his eyes shift back to you. “Oh, but I don’t think that at all!”

“It’s okay, I know you don’t,” you say.

Rosi sighs and sits down in a chair near his closet, facing the bed. “I think it scares him, on some level, to see me bonding with someone else. I’m the only family he has, so I guess he doesn’t want to risk losing me.”

You mull his words over in your mind, then remember what Doffy said earlier. You hesitate, take a deep breath, then ask Rosi the question you know he doesn’t want to answer.

“Is it true? What he said about the mermaid?”

His face freezes, then slowly twists as if he’s been stabbed. “He told a twisted version of it, but the basics are true.”

“What really happened?” you ask.

Rosi pulls out a cigarette and lights it, taking a long drag before starting to talk. “Doffy bought her as a present for me, for my eighteenth birthday. I was young and horny and stupid and naive. So when she started being flirty, and then initiated things… I thought it was love.”

He pauses and pulls the cigarette from his mouth, letting it dangle between two fingers as he looks down, watching the smoke. “For the next few weeks, we were… intimate. A lot. It never even occurred to me that something was off about the whole situation. It was my first ‘relationship’, and maybe I just wanted it to all be true.”

After another pause, you prod him gently to continue. “So what happened?”

He looks at you, and he seems embarrassed as he goes on. “One day out of the blue she just started crying and eventually told me the truth. Doffy threatened her into pretending to be in love with me. I don’t know if he actually thought he was doing me a favor, or if it was all some sick game, but the fact was she never wanted any of it. I was horrified. Everything we did… everything I did to her…”

He trails off, putting one hand over his eyes.

You stand up and walk over to him, lightly touching his shoulder. “None of that was your fault, Rosi. And she must have known that, she must have realized you genuinely cared about her. Otherwise, she would’ve been afraid to tell you the truth. Even in that situation, she felt like she could trust you.”

“That trust was misplaced,” Rosi says, “because I got her killed.”

You draw back slightly. “What?”

“I tried to free her. I thought it was the only way I could begin to make up for what she endured. I snuck her out, and paid a man with a small ship in Sabaody to escort her back to Fishman Island. I didn’t realize Doffy had servants watching us. He blew up the ship before it ever left port.”

“That’s awful!” you say, “But it still wasn’t your fault. You tried your best to help her.”

He finally gives you a weak smile. “I won’t make the same mistake again. This time, when I free you, I’m coming with you.”

You’d nearly forgotten about his promise to help you escape. After hearing his story about the mermaid, you’re even more uneasy about the whole thing. But you can’t stay here forever. Maybe… if Doffy wasn’t so cruel to you… but no. He’s going to end up killing you anyway.

That night, Rosi insists you sleep in his bed while he takes the floor. He never touches you, probably assuming you were in no mood for such things after what you went through tonight. He would be right that you want nothing sexual right now, but you wouldn’t mind being held.

Your mind flashes back to being in Doflamingo’s bed, to his arm draped over you, his massive, firm body behind you. Why do you suddenly miss that? Doffy almost killed you!

These brothers are driving you mad.

*******

You wondered if Doffy would skip a few days of calling for you, if he would have even the tiniest shred of shame for what he did to you, but he calls for you the very next day. Guess he’s shameless after all.

When you walk into his office, you don’t bow. You simply stand there looking at him. He’s standing near his desk, and after a moment, he says, “Not going to kneel for me?”

You keep your eyes on his face. “You said we were past that… Doffy.”

There’s a pause where you think he might kill you on the spot. He’s deathly silent and expressionless for several seconds, then suddenly laughs. “You never fail to entertain me!”

You almost breathe a sigh of relief, but within seconds he’s crossed the room to you, tore your dress over your head, and dragged you to his desk to bend you over it.

He takes you right there, roughly enough to convince you he was actually offended by what you said. His hand presses your body down against the smooth wooden surface, sliding up your spine to settle at the back of your neck.

“Do you know why I removed your collar?” he asks, right in the middle of fucking you so hard the heavy desk is wobbling. Your splayed legs are dangling off the edges, not long enough to touch the floor.

Your face is turned sideways, one side smushed against the wood, one side able to look back at him. “N-no,” you mutter, barely able to speak.

His hand on your neck tightens. “Because I like this better,” he says. “I can feel your pulse, feel how fast your heart is beating, how terrified you are, and all I have to do is give a little squeeze and your tight little pussy clamps down on me!”

It’s already hard to breathe in this position, but when he grips your neck like this, you feel your airway constricting. Your body starts to panic, your heart racing, your body clenching.

“There we go!” he says, thrusting all the way in each time. He keeps up the brutal rhythm until he cums, shooting every drop inside you. Then he releases your neck and pulls you up by your hair. This positions you on your knees on his desk, him behind you and his enormous cock still buried inside you.

His free hand reaches around and slips between your thighs, his fingers finding your clit and rubbing it aggressively. Your legs begin to tremble, tears flooding your eyes. This is all too much!

The white hot pleasure is building, making you cry out, making you go weak as you cum. You almost collapse back onto the desk, but Doffy’s arms wrap around you, holding you against him until your body stops shaking.

Somehow, even though he’s a cruel monster, he always seems to provide exactly what your body needs. At least when he’s not actively hurting you.

Two days later, after you’ve just finished sucking him off and pulling your dress back on, a servant quietly walks into Doffy’s office. It’s strange that he didn’t knock, even stranger that he doesn’t announce himself or make a sound. Doffy is facing his desk, reading some sort of document, his back to the servant.

Then, to your shock, the servant holds up a gun and seemingly aims it straight at Doffy. Your eyes go wide as you look back and forth between them, wondering what you should do. The servant holds the gun steady, his finger starting to pull the trigger.

Your body moves on its own. That’s the only explanation. You rush over, pushing Doflamingo out of the way while screaming, “Watch out!”

Huh? Should it be this easy to push a man of his size?

Both of you end up on the floor, you lying on top of him, your eyes squeezed shut while you wait for the sound of the gun firing. Only… it never comes. You carefully raise your head and look back, where the servant is standing with the gun held limply by his side.

You hear Doflamingo laugh, and your panicked eyes shift to his face.

“I thought you’d either let him shoot me or call out to warn me,” he says, grinning broadly, “but I never expected you to push me out of the way!”

Your face freezes when you realize this was all planned. “Were you… testing me?”

He laughs again, apparently very amused. “I thought it would be fun to see how you’d react. As always, you didn’t disappoint me.”

You stare at him, at his stupid smiling face, and feel the first tears start to drip from your eyes. You climb off him and get to your feet. “I was scared! For you!” you say fiercely, and he stops laughing, but the grin never fades. Your bottom lip quivers as you glare angrily. “You can play with my body all you like, but don’t play with my heart!”

With that, you storm out of the room, nearly knocking the servant over. It’s the first time you’ve ever left Doffy’s presence of your own will without being dismissed.

You expect some kind of punishment for your outburst, and it comes, but not in a form you imagined.

The next day Doffy has you brought to his bedroom, where he keeps you for hours. He spends the entire time making you cum over and over, his fingers overstimulating you until your mind is on the verge of going completely blank.

“You don’t mind me playing with your body, right?” he asks, his hand between your shaky legs as he holds you in his lap.

At night, as exhaustion wins out over discomfort, you start to drift off to sleep while wrapped in his arms. Just before you resign yourself to oblivion, it occurs to you that Doffy never got off even once tonight. How strange, that you were the only one receiving pleasure, even if it quickly became too much.

Two nights later, you decide to go see Rosi. You haven’t seen him since you spent the night in his room, and you’ve figured out that Doffy only gets angry when it seems like you and Rosi are sneaking around while he’s away.

You stand in the hallway and knock on Rosi’s door. At first, you hear nothing, and you wonder if he’s asleep. You decide to knock one more time, and that’s when you hear a series of thumps and bangs. The door flies open, and you’re hit with a cloud of cigarette smoke. You cough and wave your hand to disperse the smoke.

“Oh, hey, come in,” you hear Rosi say. When the smoke has cleared enough, you look up at him. He’s shirtless, wearing only a pair of white pants that look like pajamas. Your eyes can’t help roaming over his pale, sculpted torso as he steps back to give you room to walk in.

His room is a bit messier than you remember. There are at least ten full ashtrays sitting around, several empty bottles of various kinds of alcohol, and more clothes strewn about.

“I haven’t seen you lately,” you say, sitting down on his bed while he takes the chair. “I was worried about you.”

“Sorry,” he says with an uneasy smile. “I’ve been keeping to myself the past few days.”

You look around the room. “I can tell. Does it bother you for me to come see you?”

“No, of course not! You can come anytime!”

The two of you chat for a little while, avoiding the topics of Doflamingo or the plan to escape. Eventually you ask a question that’s been on your mind lately.

“Rosi, how do you feel about me?”

He seems to tense up, his face turning pink. “I thought I already told you,” he says awkwardly.

“Not exactly,” you tell him. “You said you were falling for me.”

His eyes meet yours. “I finished falling already. I’ve hit the bottom and there’s no climbing back up.”

You stand up and walk over to him. “So why do you barely touch me?” you ask, standing right beside his chair, your legs brushing his.

“I just thought, with everything Doffy is doing to you, you wouldn’t want to be touched,” he says.

You smile at him. “Usually you’d be right, but every now and then I’d like to be touched by the man I’ve fallen for.”

His eyes widen. “Do you want to be touched now?”

You step around to stand directly in front of him, between his long legs. You nod as he leans forward in his chair. He slips his hands under your dress, sliding them up your body, over your hips, your waist, and pausing to grope your breasts.

He stands up then and picks you up. Your legs automatically wrap around his torso as he carries you back to the bed. While still holding you like a doll, he sit on the bed and shifts until his back is against the headboard, his legs stretched out in front of him and you in his lap.

You kiss him while his hands continue to roam under your dress, your fingers raking through his soft blonde hair. You can feel his erection through his thin cotton pants, and you feel a sense of relief when he reaches down to free it.

Looking down at his massive cock, it’s still a little intimidating even after being fucked by Doffy so many times. By your estimation they’re roughly the same size, so you should be able to handle it.

Rising up on your knees, you position yourself just right and then sink down onto him. He groans at the feeling of your slick, tight pussy enveloping his shaft. You take him as far as you can without pain, and that’s when it occurs to you why he chose this position: so you could choose how deep he goes.

Ahh, he really is a sweetheart.

As you begin to ride him, you pull the front of your thin white dress up and hold the fabric with your teeth while your hands grip his thighs. You want to give him a good view of your pussy sliding up and down him, of your tits bouncing as you move.

His hands start out on your waist, then move around to squeeze your ass before gliding up to your chest. He’s breathing hard, his eyes focusing on the spot where your bodies connect.

“Can I touch it?” he asks in a breathy voice.

You know what he’s asking. His gaze is fixed on your swollen, sensitive clit. “Yes… gently…” you breathe out.

With one hand he reaches down, using his thumb to lightly rub the little bundle of nerves. You moan, sliding a little further down on him. His eyes flick from your pussy to your face, then back again, as if he wants to see the pleasure in your expression.

His thumb moves quicker, applying a little more pressure. You moan again, your back arching. He watches, enraptured by the sight of you, his cock throbbing inside you.

You cum, squiring all over his chest, clenching him before you let out a shuddering sigh. In your lustful haze, you sink down even further, until he’s fully sheathed inside you.

Rosi leans forward, kissing your breasts, your neck, your face. “You feel so good,” he whispers into your ear.

And then he tenses up, his muscles tightening under his skin as his cum shoots from his cock in great spurts, filling you to the brim.

Later, you’re lying beside him in bed, his arm around you, when he drops a bomb.

“Doffy is leaving again in three days. That’s when we’ll escape.”

You look up at him in surprise. You didn’t expect it to happen so soon. “Are you sure we can get away?”

“If Doffy‘s not here, yeah. The servants and guards can spy on me and report to him, but they can’t stop me from leaving. I’m still a Celestial Dragon. Even if they call him on the snail, we’ll be long gone before he can get back here.”

“Where will we go?” you ask.

He smiles. “Anywhere we want. We can live in a quiet little village on a small island, where they barely even know what Celestial Dragons are. Or we can go to a big city, blend in with the population, disappear into the crowd. We’ll go where Doffy can’t find us.”

You hesitate for a moment, then rest your head on his chest. You should be excited, thrilled, but something is gnawing at the back of your mind.

“I feel a little bad for him,” you say in a quiet voice. “He’ll be all alone when you leave.”

Rosi doesn’t say anything for a few seconds, then he sighs. “I know. But he brought this on himself. If we stay, he’ll end up killing you. He might end up killing me.”

You snuggle in against him. “You’re right. I know you’re right. I guess it’s naive of me to wish all three of us could be happy.”

Rosi doesn’t reply to that, only pulls you closer.

Finally the planned day arrives. Doffy leaves on his ship as usual, and after watching him sail away, you feel a sense of sorrow. He’s a monster. You’re well aware of this. But somehow you feel sad that you didn’t get to say goodbye.

That night, Rosi comes to get you and lead you outside. There’s a small boat waiting at the port, nestled between huge ships owned by various Celestial Dragon families. Rosi walks confidently to his boat, and is stopped by no one. A few guards simply nod as he walks by, and some men working on cleaning the docks or repairing ships all immediately bow when they notice him.

The two of you climb into the little boat and he unties the rope securing it to the dock. You still feel nervous, even as you begin to sail away from the Holy Land.

You sit beside Rosi, who smiles at you. “We’ll stop at a nearby island and buy a bigger boat,” he says.

You nod, looking around and realizing the night is quite foggy. There’s something unsettling about it, something keeping you on edge.

Not even an hour into your journey, a huge b ship emerges from the fog right in front of you. Immediately, you recognize it as Doffy’s ship.

Beside you, Rosi curses and stands up in alarm.

Up high, standing on the deck and looking down at you is Doflamingo, wearing a blood red suit. He’s grinning in that terrifying way as he says, “What’s this? Going for a little moonlight boat ride? You should have invited me!”

“Doffy,” Rosi begins, “just let us-“

“Shut the fuck up, Rosi.”

Doffy said the words with such authority, such venom and such finality, that Rosi falls silent.

Then Doffy’s face turns toward you. “As for our pretty little toy, you’ll wish I’d killed you that night in my room.”

You look back at him in horror, then to Rosi, who looks terrified.

Doffy looks at someone behind him, probably his personal guards, and says, “Bring them to me. They’re both going to have a long night.”

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youraverageaemondsimp · 7 months ago

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Metanoia ;

Aemond targaryen x Transmigrated!Strong!Reader

>> Chapter V : The Epiphany.

Summary: Aemond's been taking care of you since you fainted, at last you finally wake up.

WARNINGS: mdni, smut, unprotected p in v sex, canon typical incest, nothing too crazy, mentions of purity culture and customs, hymen breaking (reader's transmigrated body, this isn't specified for the body outside of the world), blood mentions, Aemond becomes a softie ig (cherish him y'all), + not proofread, please let me know if I forget anything else!

A/N: it's back!!! divider credits @cafekitsune

<- prev // masterlist // next ->

You blink open your eyes staring at the openview outside of the window, the sky beginning to darken.

It seems you've passed out once again. It's probably been a few hours. This body is extremely weak, you needed to do something about it.

Lost in your thoughts, you didn't hear the door open so you jump slightly when it slammed shut. Looking up, you see Aemond whose eye widened as he rushed over to you, dropping a rag of cloth and the bucket in his hand, causing the water in it to pour out. “How are you feeling?” He questions, grabbing your hand, checking your temperature and pulse.

“I am alright, how long have I been asleep?” You ask him.

“A week.”

That reply made your heart stop.

A week?

That long?

“Are you serious?” You ask and he nods, “Yes, we were all concerned and I thought—” He cups your face, tucking a strand of hair behind your ear. “I thought you went into a long slumber again, but I thank the heavens you did not.”

Perhaps the last encounter with Aemond really pushed the limits.

“Did.. anything happen while I was asleep?” You ask once again, wanting to know what happened during your absence of consciousness. Aemond sighs. “Your mother and siblings have all returned to Dragonstone as there was an urgent matter at hand, they were unable to take you with them.”

“I see.” You furrow your brows, wondering why Viserys hasn't died yet. It has been a week, was his death gonna occur at any moment now? There was a deep feeling in your gut that something would happen soon.

Aemond sits on the bed, before pulling you into his embrace. “I apologise.” He mutters into your ear. “What for?” You ask confused, hugging him back. “It was because of me that you had fainted.” You could feel his breath hitting against the back of your neck as he spoke.

You pull away from the embrace, giving him a smile. “I am just weak.” You reply, in an attempt to tell him that it was not his fault. He smiles at you. Your eyes fall to the bucket on the ground before you look at him. “Have you been taking care of me?” You question and he nods, which makes you feel embarrassed.

“Why bother? The maids could've done it.” You shrug but he shakes his head. “I do not want anyone I do not trust near you when you are vulnerable.” He replies.

You just simply nod at his reply, feeling the silence fall between you two. The air turns cold causing shivers to travel up your spine. Aemond continues to stare at you, taking in your features.

Since your apology, it seems the environment and the atmosphere around you and Aemond has changed, you could feel it. The way his face blanketed on a worried expression, the longing in his eyes, you could see it. Something has definitely changed in him. And you did not know if it was for the better or worse.

He leans closer and you look into his eye, your heart accelerating as you anticipate him to lean. He does exactly that, he leans in, capturing your lips with his moving them in a slow manner, contrary to the first time you both shared a kiss.

Aemond seemed to have significantly warmed up to you now, it was one thing that you had fixed after coming into this world.

His hand travels to the back of your head as he pushes you further into the kiss, wanting to get closer to you; to seek your warmth. You couldn't help but melt into his hold, reciprocating the kiss as your hand reaches up to rest on the bend of his elbow.

He pulls away, panting heavily as he takes you in, the sight of his saliva glistening on your lips, the light of the candles around you bouncing off of the shine. He couldn't help but crave you more.

But he knew, he had to stop himself before he lost control, he shouldn't be taking your maidenhead without getting married, cause it is a part of your dignity. He respected you enough to consider this fact.

Yet, you were so irresistible, he felt like a feral animal, trying to lock his own desires in a cage. You do not know the effect you have on him. You couldn't help but notice that the environment had indeed turned a little tense and you knew exactly what he was thinking, his eye failing to hide his desire and craving for you.

And so, you took the initiative, not liking the way he was restraining himself from you. Had this been the Aemond from a week ago, he would've taken your maidenhood without mercy as a way to teach you a lesson, because he was a cruel man. But now that man is no more, replaced or rather, reformed into his younger self who loved you a lot.

You pushed him onto the bed, straddling him. His hair was sprawled out behind him like a halo, making him look like an angel that has descended from the heavens above.

He was taken aback by your bold move. His hands grabbed onto your hips for leverage as he felt you straddle him, your thighs on both sides of his legs as you sat on top of his crotch.

He felt embarrassed, feeling you shift on top of his crotch, his breeches meekly trying to conceal his hardening shaft like a lone leaf holding onto its branch against the strong wind.

It was futile, because you feel the outline of his cock quite clearly.

Your hands moved on their own accord, your body taking the lead like it always did. Perhaps the owner of this body is still inside somewhere, yet you could feel no one else's consciousness in your brain except yours. Maybe you are the—

The sound of clothes ripping cut you off from your thoughts and you realised that Aemond has ripped your nightgown by pulling it off your shoulder before he grabbed it with both his hands and tore it down the middle, exposing your breasts.

He grabbed onto them, his movements becoming bolder each second, as if he's slowly releasing the beast yet still trying to keep it tamed. His thumbs caressed your nipples, pressing against the hard nubs before he sat up, taking one of your breasts into his mouth.

He breathed out in satisfaction, suckling onto your areolas, his tongue swirling around the nub and flicking against it continuously before he'd suck on it, repeating this in a loop.

You felt yourself getting wet down there, so you rub yourself against him, trying to ease the ache in between your legs, but he holds you down, grunting before he lets go of your breasts with a pop.

He shakes his head lightly, “Are you sure about this?” He asks, and you nod desperately, your mind filled with the thoughts of just wanting his cock inside you, pushing out any rationality left in you.

“Please— Aemond.. I want you..” Those words leave your mouth voluntarily as you grab his shoulders tightly, indicating that you really mean it. You cup his cheek before catching his lips in a searing hot kiss.

Those words that left your mouth set the forest inside his heart ablaze, the fire of desire engulfing him in its warmth. The feral beast broke free and took control immediately.

He flipped you over, pushing you onto the bed, getting on top of you. He begins kissing your neck, sucking your sweet spot, leaving his marks, his teeth biting on your flesh as a way to claim you as his own.

He pulls away, panting heavily, immediately scrambling to undo his breeches, freeing his cock from the confines of the material. He pulled off his leather suit as well, the tunic following along with his tunic, hating the way the sweat was sticking to him.

You wouldn't help but admire the view in front of you. You spread your legs before he could say anything, hiking up your nightgown to reveal your cunt. Aemond's eye widened in surprise at your bold move, driving him crazy even more.

Aemond grabbed you by your thighs, pulling you forward as he lined himself against your entrance as he slowly pushed in. You winced when you felt a sudden heat of pain down there. His length penetrates you slowly.

He wanted to pull out the minute he saw blood, yet the darker side of him only felt motivated, knowing that he's taking your maidenhead. It drove him further off the edge.

You on the other hand only felt slight discomfort but your eyes widened when you saw blood.

Ah right, the hymen of women in this era is still intact as they're not that active for it to break off due to physical movement. So even the slightest penetration would lead you to bleed.

Basic biology, you shrugged it off, if only they knew. You felt annoyed, not agreeing with the custom this era practices.

Aemond settled fully inside you, his cock throbbing inside, the way your walls felt warm around him. Without a warning he began moving, which cut you off your thoughts when you felt yourself being jolted up and down, his thrusts starting off rough from the beginning.

‘That's right, focus on him for now.’ You tell yourself internally, gripping onto his shoulders, staring into his eye. Your hand reached upwards towards his eyepatch and he flinched away a little before he realised what you were doing.

You took the eyepatch off, revealing the sapphire that rested in his eye. You sat on your elbows, cupping his cheek as he leans in. You kiss him on the eye before kissing his cheek and finally kissing him on the lips.

He pushes you back onto the bed, not breaking the kiss and neither stopping his thrusts as he supports himself on his elbows kissing you with thirst desperately wanting to be quenched while simultaneously ramming into you.

You gasped when you felt him hit your sweet spot, making way for his tongue to slip past your lips, his tongue challenging yours in a battle of dominance.

You were losing it, of course, because his tip kept ramming and grazing against your gspot, pushing you to the edge. You gripped his back in desperation, your fingers leaving bites on his flesh.

And then, you felt it, the sudden shot of immense pleasure up your spine to the point it made you push your head back into the mattress as you gasped loudly into the kiss, whining directly into it. The pleasure blinded you temporarily as you convulsed around him.

He felt you clench and grip him tightly, which pushed him off the edge as well, he grunted, finishing inside you with a soft call of your name, it felt erotic, it felt comforting all at once.

Aemond wouldn't stop with just this one time, after all, he finally got the taste of what he craved the most. He continued all night, taking you all positions known to mankind, leaving you a moaning mess beneath him.

The night was wonderful, it was only when the sky began to turn into a lighter shade than darkness that he'd stop, collapsing next you and allowing you to rest in his arms.

You fell asleep soundly in his embrace. It was peaceful.

But, the peace wouldn't last for long.

The knocks on your chamber door were hurried and loud. Aemond grunted in his sleep, annoyed at the disturbance before waking up, you had woken up as well. He wrapped a cloth around his lower body before he went and opened the door, to find a panicked Alicent.

“Y/N— Aemond?” She's surprised to see Aemond, so many questions arise in her mind as she's processing the sight before her. She wanted to reprimand, but she could not because a lot was on her mind already.

“What is it, mother?” Aemond asks cooly, not bothered by her reaction. You hold the blanket to your chest, leaning sideways to try and catch a glimpse of Alicent, yet you only catch a sight of her dress and her dishevelled hair.

“Aemond your father— is dead.”

The words that left her mouth made your blood run cold. Aemond seemed just as shocked, remaining silent as he processed the information before he blinked. “And Aegon, he's gone.” She finishes.

Aemond immediately returns back into the room, putting on his breeches with haste before throwing on the tunic and rushing out of the room. Leaving you alone with your thoughts.

Viserys is dead.

Aegon is gone.

Fuck.

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lightningbreath · 8 months ago

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A little more information about the HH leaks + a rant about some things in these leaks.

SPOILER ALERT

WARNING: MENTIONS OF ATTEMPTED SA AND SUICIDAL ATTEMPTS

Rosie owns Alastor's soul and sings a song about how Alastor is her pet and how he is in her zoo.

Vox looks like they will try to perform a '''''correctional grape'''' on Alastor to prove that Alastor is not asexual. (PROVEN FAKE) .

Vox tries to use the media to damage the Hotel's reputation. At some point, he manages to place several sinners (including some members of the Hotel) under mental control.

Husk and Angel apparently kiss in episode 6.

Apparently Lucifer dies (AMEM) in episode 8. Lute probably kills him, but it's pure speculation, all I found was an image with Lucifer on the floor. If this is true, and Viv resurrects Lucifer, then the chances of Adam and the dead Exorcites returning become very likely. And this will further undermine the understanding of how death works in Hazbin Hotel.

ABOUT EP 2, SEASSON 2

Sir Pentious is simply insufferable. During Emily's song introducing him to Heaven, Pentious tries to create and link A SHITTING DEATH WEAPON WITH A SMILE ON HEAVEN'S FACE, but Emily, Abel and Peter stop him and destroy the weapon.

Sir Pentious's sin was not having reported Jack the Ripper. Although I would say that inaction in these cases does not constitute a valid reason to be sent to Hell for christianity, after seeing how some Mouthwashing fans treat Curly, then it's not crazy to think that there are people who believe that would be a reason to go. to Hell. But it's interesting to see how Viv didn't have the ability to take a real sinner and try to redeem him, it seems like she thinks the only way to empathize is by posing a '''sin''' that isn't a sin, without a challenge moral, without a conversation about what is good and evil, without something that makes people REALLY think about whether redemption should be for everyone or if it should be limited, etc.

Ah, but Hazbin Hotel is a bold series that criticizes religion and says that situations are nuanced, a series without ''good guys vs bad guys'', a series that is not moralistic..... Of course it is. 🙄

Lute nearly has a panic attack after the Tribunal, this is where she starts hallucinating Adam, he basically validates all her thoughts and encourages her to do what she has planned (similar to how she is talking to herself). Here it is interesting to see how Sera, Emily or the ''Voice of God'' don't even care about Lute's emotional instability. Emily and the Voice of God are described as ''good'' and ''compassionate'', but they only know how to look at Lute with disgust instead of, I don't know, TRYING TO LISTEN TO HER BEFORE SIMPLY DISCARDING HER. To have the slightest empathy because Lute's WHOLE world is crumbling and falling apart and the only person with whom she identified is DEAD. It's also funny how quickly Sera simply discards Adam, Lute and the Exorcisms now that she sees that she was ''''wrong'''', simply using them as scapegoats, without worrying about the consequences this left on the exorcisms. itself. Yes, the Exorcisms were Adam's idea, but it was SERA who allowed them for who knows how long, Sera doesn't seem to have tried to control the Exorcists' murderous impulses, she simply left everything in Adam's hands and only showed up to demand and complain when something went wrong.

Abel seems at least somewhat affected by Adam's death, despite appearing to be a pacifist type, he seems somewhat willing to go to Hell out of resentment for Adam's death. He admits that he is not the best person to say what to do about the situation in Hell, as he himself is kind of interested in getting revenge for Adam's death, so this bombshell is in Sera's hands.

Lute goes to Adam's office and Abel follows her, he tries to connect with her by talking about Adam and apologizing for the way he acted in Court, but Lute doesn't want to listen to him and throws him out.

Lute's song begins (BANGER SONG), where she swears revenge on Charlie.

St. Peter continues to be useless and from now on, I will consider that he is just a random person with that name and that he IS NOT the real St. Peter.

Emily is spoiling Sir Pentious, and when she sees him crying for his minions and his "friends", Emily creates new minions (basically the same as the ones he had in Hell, but these ones have wings). She continues to spoil Pentious, who continues to try to create weapons (but the environment in Heaven seems to not allow weapons like Sir Pentious's to work). Sir Pentious spends the entire episode crying saying that he wants to go back to Hell and see his "friends".

Sera decides to put all of Heaven under protection while she thinks about what to do. Emily opens a portal saying she will warn Charlie about recent events.

The Exorcists continue to be dehumanized to the extreme and treated as simple '''walking weapons'' and as scapegoats, with Lute being THE ONLY ONE who has, at least, a face.

Lilith is apparently in the Garden of Eden, she was sitting enjoying the breeze and eating fruit. Then she sees something on the phone, gets up and leaves.

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hivemuthur · 29 days ago

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In Thy Name - Ch.10. - Cut Down The Puppet Strings

viktorxfemale!reader NSFW + mild gore, gothic AU

Reader is a highly renown linguist hired by Viktor, a paranormal investigator, for a case he cannot crack himself.

<- previous chapter MASTERLIST + SOURCES

word count: 8,1K

author's note: Playlist here! Art by @cringemaster3 ♡ For everyone interested, the songs I used for chapter titles are as follows: Dark Entries by Bauhaus, Mask by Bauhaus (Ch.2. and 3.), Blasphemous Rumours by Depeche Mode, The Passion of Lovers by Bauhaus, Persephone by Cocteau Twins, Spellbound by Siouxsie and the Banshees, Stigmata Martyr, All We Ever Wanted Was Everything and Spirit by Bauhaus. In the end notes I'm explaining the Algernon paradox.

Cross-posted on AO3

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Within the fourth day the bell tolls iron-throated and low, rolling across the valley for Radomír, the nameless. Dawn is scarcely a suggestion; breath smokes out of every mourner’s mouth. They gather in the hilltop chapel—stone ribs blackened by centuries of incense—while below, the footprint of the manor still steams, earth warm enough to melt the shy November snow that drifts in uncertain flakes.

You and Viktor stand among the stripped-of-surname household, shoulders brushing the Samkovas, hands brushing the young heir’s trembling sleeve. Grief here is quiet, almost reverent; names were eaten by fire, but affection survived the feast. Candles gutter along the narrow altar and the priest intones only given names, as though Heaven itself has no ledger for what was burned.

Viktor’s gloved fingers find yours—small linkage beneath the funeral pall—and squeeze once, solemn. Friend, the gesture says. Witness. Co-bearer of passage. You return the pressure, feeling the faint tremor in his hand—the weight of a vow forming even before the last bell stroke fades into the aching sky.

Outside, winter light glints off the chapel’s stained-glass shards, littering the steps with bruised colours. Beyond the churchyard gate a modest crowd waits—fewer than the fire brigade counted when the house was burning, yet enough to thicken the road: farmers in smoke-scented wool, shopkeepers in their Sunday coats, widows wrapped in sable shawls, a trio of schoolchildren clutching frost-stiff posies. No one speaks above a hush, but in every lifted face lives a story Radomír once mended—a broken fence, an unpaid doctor’s fee, an apple pressed into a palm the winter after his wife died. These gathered memories outweigh any title that went to cinders.

If the boy’s deep, effortless breaths were not proof enough of what Viktor has done, this living ledger is. As you and he descend the chapel steps, the mourners part, touching brims, bowing heads. Some look puzzled, mouths shaping a surname they can no longer summon. Others simply nod, certain of grief even without the anchor of letters.

“They remember him,” Viktor murmurs, almost to himself, voice thin as a church draft but clear to you as heartbeat. You tighten your grip on his hand, feel the pulse speed beneath kid-glove.

“I cannot call the name,” you confess, the realization sudden and eerie. Your free hand finds the one that balances his cane; you fold both inside your own.

“Nor can I,” Viktor answers. “ But I recall the man. I see the boy draw breath, and I think—perhaps…” Words tangle in the raw cusp of hope.

Footsteps skirt around you, coats brushing yours, but you do not step aside. Leaning close, you hide bright anticipation in an embrace that passes for sorrow. Lips near his ear, you whisper, “For this I will owe you my life.”

He steadies you, palm warm against your cheek despite the frost. His gaze softens. “On the contrary,” he breathes, “it is I who am in your debt. But let us earn living first—then we may bargain over gratitude.” Behind him the bell tolls once more, not dirge but distant clock, and the two of you stand a moment longer in its echo, feeling the shape of the future settle—unnamed, but suddenly, achingly possible.

Snow begins in hushed flurries as the last mourners drift away. Good-byes are simple: Mrs. Samkova presses your hands, repeating soft blessings; her husband clasps Viktor’s shoulder with the word brother caught in his throat. The boy—newly free of hitching lungs—hovers behind them, boots scuffing half-moons in thin white powder. Just as you reach the carriage step he bursts forward, arm outstretched.

A toy horse, hardly longer than a matchbox, carved from orchard wood and burnished by long pocket-rides. He offers it to Viktor without speech, huge brown eyes fierce with purpose. Viktor kneels—snow dampening his trouser knee—and accepts the gift with both palms as though receiving a relic. “Ride far,” the boy whispers, the words a vow and a benediction. Viktor touches the child’s cheek, nods once, and slips the horse into the safe hollow of his waistcoat.

Inside the carriage you fold into each other as naturally as breath and rib. Cold seeps from the glass, but warmth pools where your legs tangle and Viktor’s arm bands your waist. The toy horse rests between his palm and your thigh, its smooth flank warming by degrees.

Fear travels with you—an uninvited passenger—but it rides quieter now, tempered by a sharp, bright appetite for the hours still possible. Outside, the countryside has softened: snow stitches field to hedge, grave-mound to road, erasing quarrel lines with white thread. Trees stand in gentle truce, their black bones laced by the same steady drift. Even the river wears a hush—skin of ice knitting its restless pulse. The world feels briefly unified, forgiven.

You breathe that sameness, that bright muffled calm, into one another’s mouths. Viktor’s lips brush your temple once, twice—small tithes against the chill—while the carriage wheels turn steady beneath, bearing you toward the last bargain yet to be struck and whatever thin dawn follows its price.

Home greets you with a modest crust of snow, the sort that means to stay—no soft drifts, only a colourless film clinging to hedges and crunching under wheels. The manor itself seems to have exhaled while you were gone: shutters half-latched, lamps burning low but steady, a dogged pulse awaiting its master.

Algernon stands beneath the portico, two footmen at his flanks. “I take it the mission was successful, Master Velesny?”

Viktor lifts a brow, frost still jewelling his lashes. “Yes. Disappointed?”

The butler flinches as though tapped with a switch, then smooths his features to the usual porcelain calm. “Not in the least, sir. You must be chilled—come, come.” He shepherds you both through the doors, already delegating with crisp gestures. “Tea in the drawing room anon—”

“In my chambers, if you please,” Viktor interrupts. “All luggage there as well.”

“As you wish, sir.” Algernon bows, the motion precise yet brittle, and disappears down the corridor, orders snapping after him like dry twigs.

Viktor turns, arms open but hesitant, a man poised on the threshold of a stronger vow. “I do not wish to part from you,” he says. “If you will have me.”

Wordless, you step into the circle of his embrace, feel the thaw where your coats touch. Together you climb the familiar stairs—past the secret room, your guest bedroom and the quiet library—until the upper hallway hushes around your footfalls.

Luggage lands in soft thuds; the door closes; the house recedes. Viktor kicks free of his boots and sinks onto the edge of the bed, long legs stretched before him, braces creaking. The tea tray arrives, steam curling into lamp-lit calm, then you are alone again with the muted tick of distant clocks.

You kneel at his feet, fingers deft at buckles, leather surrendered into your lap piece by piece. He exhales—one long ribbon of relief—as the brace slips away, his shoulders folding loose for the first time without urgency or ache. You set the metal aside, warm your palms against his calves, and look up.

He studies you, half-smile tugging at the edge of fatigue. “You are equal parts wicked and kind,” he murmurs—praise spoken like confession. The words balance between you, steeping in the quiet the way strong tea stains porcelain, until the whole room tastes faintly of possibility rather than peril.

“You are the same,” you murmur, and slip your fingers beneath the edge of his sock. The wool peels away; winter-pale skin shows the faint map of veins and a single old surgery scar. You roll the fabric down and cup his calf with both hands, working slow circles into the knotted muscle. A tremor skims through him—surprise and surrender. His breath catches, not in pain but in some startled bliss he hasn’t tasted since some thoughtful hands last tended a fevered limb. He lowers his eyes, lets them shutter, as if watching might break the spell.

Your thumbs sweep the length of his shin. “Any notions,” you ask, tone almost idle, “of how to undo your bargain?”

He opens his lashes, studies the ceiling as though answers might be chalked there. “What, precisely, did the name purchase?” he muses. “Scholarship seats, lectureships, every citation that turns ink to clout. I can’t drag all those journals to the fire.” He reaches into his waistcoat, producing a slim bundle of embossed cards: Viktor Velesny, FRS, Lecturer in Aetheric Dynamics. Their gilt edges catch the lamplight like tiny guillotines. “It reduces to this—titles and vowels on good linen stock.”

Your palm slides to the back of his calf, squeezing. “You were tricked,” you say, voice low. “Taken against your will.”

A sigh breaks from him, long and bone-deep. He slips off the mattress, joints cracking soft, and folds to the floor before you. The discarded brace glints nearby like an iron question. He draws your knees between his, rests his forehead against your sternum. “I know,” he says, words feathering the cotton of your dress. “Not a moment passes I don’t search for some sleight to turn scripture against that god.”

You comb fingers through his hair, feel the heat of his plotting skull. “We’ll find the hinge,” you whisper. “Every trap has one.”

He tilts his face up, eyes dark with hope that can’t yet name itself. “Then tomorrow,” he says, voice steadier, “we begin forging keys.” Outside, wind fidgets around the eaves, but in this hush his vow feels heavier than iron, warmer than the tea cooling on the bedside table.

Days begin to braid into one another, silver and soot, tenderness and graphite. Morning often finds you in the library where frost feathers the windows and Viktor’s breath plumes over strewn folios; he dictates, you annotate, both of you hunting the hinge on which a god’s claim might turn. Noon drifts into the greenhouse, where weak sun warms copper gears while Viktor sketches sigils in dirt between wilted basil stalks—testing fragments of languages older than mortar. He breaks off only to tug you close, soil still on his fingers, pressing a kiss to the pulse beneath your ear as though to remind himself which world he is fighting for.

Evenings pool in the bedroom, heliostat planets tracing their muted constellations overhead. At the workbench Viktor opens a leather-bound album—sepia portraits of scholars’ banquets, university fêtes, expedition groups—each captioned in his careful hand: V. Velesny, Lecturer, Prof. Velesny and Colleagues. With a sable brush he dips into dense India ink and drifts a dark stroke across the surname, letting it bleed until the letters vanish beneath a soft, tidal black. Page after page he performs the quiet erasure, leaving only initials and faces. You stand close, turning sheets for him; between each sweep of ink your fingers knead the tension where leather brace meets his shoulder blade, and the room fills with two companion sounds: planets ticking their slow orbits above, and the patient sigh of parchment surrendering names to night.

Sometimes, without warning, desire flares: you end up half-undressed on the desk, schematics crinkling beneath your hips while nightingales outside the cracked window sing their cold-season dirges. Other nights are quieter: Viktor lies listening to your heartbeat, toy horse clutched between your palms like a charm, the two of you talking in murmurs about what a nameless future might taste like—bread still warm, bodies unburdened.

Between each sunrise he files another portion of himself away: lecturers’ medals tucked into a velvet pouch, an old dissertation reduced to ash in the grate, brass nameplate unscrewed from the study door. With every relinquishment his spine straightens a fraction, as though the god’s hand loosens its grip by degrees—yet the cost shows too, in new shadows beneath his eyes. You match him step for step, fearing and craving the moment the ledger is balanced, when the world must decide whether it will remember brilliance shorn of syllables or let the man himself slip, bright and unclaimed, into legend.

On the last night the lamp is low, trinkets caught in their mute procession, as Viktor lets a bead of scarlet wax fall to the spine of a calling-card. A stray tremor tips the spoon; a droplet leaps, lands on the slope of your hand. Heat bites—sharp as drawn breath—then cools to a humming sting while the wax sets, shrinking into a lacquered shell. You flex, feeling it crack, and lift the small crust away with the edge of a fingernail.

Viktor’s quill stills mid-air. For a beat he watches the red fleck in your palm as though it might reveal an oracle. Something moves behind his eyes—relief, almost, that the night has offered sensation other than the clawing dread you have both worn over the last few days. Wordless understanding slides between you: a silent dare, a promise of a feeling stronger than fear. His pulse answers before speech can; you can tell from the sudden hush, like rooms aligning perfectly after long disrepair.

You edge closer, rolling your sleeve to bare your forearm across the desk. His hand settles on it, thumb tracing veins with affection that feels pre-remembered. He tips the taper. Molten orange glides, sears, then cools. You steady your breathing; he steadies his on yours. When he peels the hardened drip away, need sparks in both gazes—twin flames recognising tinder.

The candle meets wood with a muted clink. He hooks a hand behind your knee, draws you to the chair’s edge so your breath mingles with his. Fingers slide to your bodice fastenings. “Is this truly what you want?” he murmurs, though the answer is already thudding in his throat.

You nod, pulse bright. “It is our last night before—” you cut yourself off. Then: “Let us spend it wisely.”

His mouth brushes yours—promise, or a pact. “Then let me spend you,” he whispers, clothes loosening under deft hands. “Let it brand us both, and melt the fears away.”

With that, he parts the last hook of your contraption and spreads the fabric wide as though opening a rare tome. His palms skim the slope of clavicle, pause a heartbeat to feel your pulse beneath thin skin, then glide upward—encircling your neck with a velvet firmness that draws you in. The kiss begins soft, delicate, corners first; heat pools where your bare breasts brush the linen of his shirt, silk nip against starched front. His thumbs press gently at the hollow where your throat rises and falls—measuring want like a physician might count breaths—before his teeth catch your lower lip in a tender bite that steals your next exhale.

You feel the moment the tension in him shifts from caution to hunger. He pulls back just far enough to strip his shirt, buttons scattering like pale seeds. Your fingers know the brace now: you unfasten each buckle with practiced grace, leather loosening until the iron scaffold slides away. He shivers—not from chill but from the shock of unarmoured skin meeting air and your gaze.

“Look at you,” you murmur, palms spanning the firm plane of his chest. “All iron gone, and still the strongest man I know.”

His answering smile is half gratitude, half wicked delight. “And you,” he breathes, tracing circles around the knot of your spine, “are art and appetite in equal measure.”

You lose your bottoms and swing a knee across his thighs, sinking into his lap. The sudden cradle of your weight pulls a low sound from him, rich as dusk bells. Your fingers work deftly at the clasps of his trousers; fabric yields, and the warmth pressed against your inner thigh grows urgent.

“Ease me,” he whispers, voice frayed with lust.

“Guide me,” you counter, slickening the request with a roll of your hips.

He cups your breasts, thumbs brushing peaks into sharper want. “You take light,” he murmurs, kissing the tender swell, “and make it unbearable.” His praise sparks heat under your skin; you free him from the last restraint, smoothing your hand along firmness until his throat imprisons breath.

Your name leaves his mouth like a vow. “Hardships tomorrow,” he says, eyes bright with the promise of oblivion found in each other’s bodies. “For this hour, let us be only yes.”

“Yes,” you answer, lowering yourself with slowly, welcoming him inch by aching inch. The world narrows to murmured endearments and low, unruly pleas.

His palm glides from the plane of your belly up through the valley of your breasts, circling once over each quickened peak before winding round your throat, guiding you to arch like a bow. “Ready?” he asks, voice frayed velvet.

“Brand me,” you breathe.

He reaches for the taper—its stub of flame trembling in the draft—tilts it until a bead of fire-soft wax swells and slips. It lands just below your sternum, searing, then cooling to a tight sting that pulls a keen from your throat. You arch higher, hands fumbling for his shoulders, nails grazing the muscle there.

“Look at me,” Viktor commands, candle held aloft like a single votive between you. Your gaze locks on his: pupils blown, irises twin furnaces.

“Again,” you whisper.

This time he watches every shift of your expression as molten orange beads, slides, and kisses the slope of your rib. Your breath chokes; his own follows. Wax shells bloom along your skin—tiny seals of night—each one a vow he speaks in low praise: “So brave, my compass… my true North.” Your hands settle at his nape, pulling him forward until the heat of breath replaces the heat of wax. He kisses the cooling marks, tongue soothing the sting, and when your hips roll in silent plea he answers with a slow upward thrust, melding body to body while the candle’s glow dances, the only star in a room intent on forgetting every hardship but hunger.

Viktor bows his head, lips roaming the new reliquaries cooling on your chest. Each pass of his tongue feels like sacrament reversed—holy water traded for salt-slick hunger. Deep inside, his rhythm lengthens, driven, splitting you open to the root. He catches your gaze, sweat haloing his brow in the low glow, and offers the taper between trembling fingers. “Anoint yourself,” he rasps, hands sliding to cup the curves he worships. “Let me witness your devotion.”

You take the candle, the flame wavering like a single rebellious cherub. “Every word you speak,” you murmur, tipping the wax so it swells at the lip, “writes salvation on my skin.” The first drop falls, and heat sings through nerve and marrow. His hands urge you higher, guiding you so the drenched heart of you grinds against the taut plane of his abdomen—each stroke a bell-note of pleasure, flesh chiming against flesh.

Wax beads again, trailing down your ribs, sluicing over soft curls below until it nets there, bright and sacrilegious. Viktor watches, chest heaving, zeal and hunger braided in his stare. “Beloved of mine,” he breathes, two fingers parting you to keep you poised, to feel every clench that answers his thrust. “Brand yourself with every yes.”

You drizzle another line, hiss his name like a litany. It cools to a fragile shell over pounding muscle; he rises into you, sealing heat with heat. In swift ruin of restraint he crushes you to him, molten edges catching, bonding skin to skin. The candle slips, extinguishes against the floorboards with a hiss like a psalm’s final amen.

“Sealed as one,” Viktor gasps against your ear. “I am yours, and you, irrevocably, mine. Spend for me, darling—let the night witness our creed.”

“Take me,” you answer, voice caught between prayer and dare, mouth pressed to his temple, fingers clutching at his dark hair. He drives upward, groan rending the hush, teeth claiming shoulder then throat in near-feral blessing. Pleasure shears through you, wax shell fracturing as your body locks round him, pulse beating fire against broken seal. His own release follows, anthem and surrender, spilling into the shared incandescence while snow-pale light fingers the curtained glass—two sinners bound, sanctified by flame, fear held at the door until the chiming clocks remember to summon it back.

Wax cools and cracks where your bodies meet, tiny shells of red and amber falling like spent petals onto the carpet. You sit sideways across Viktor’s thighs, both of you still perched on the poor chair that now lists under your joined weight. His breath creeps along the curve of your neck—warm, unhurried—and each exhale loosens another flake of hardened seal that lands soft against his bare shoulder. He tightens his arms as though the night might yet slip away, mouth grazing the pulse beneath your ear.

“It is foolish of me to ask,” he murmurs, voice worn thin by pleasure and dread, “but you mustn’t follow me to the cave. I can’t promise I’ll walk back out.”

Your spine stills; you lean away just enough to cradle his face, palms cupping cheeks still flushed. The candle’s after-scent lingers between you—honeyed smoke, something half like church, half like damnation. “Death will not part us,” you say, steady as catechism. “I won’t grant it that courtesy.”

A breathy chuckle shivers from his chest, equal parts awe and resignation. “I had to try,” he confesses. “If positions were reversed, I’d bolt the door to keep you safe.” He kisses the pad of your thumb. “But stubbornness is devotion by another name.”

You fold against each other, let the cooling wax lie where it falls, and barter a few more hours of sleep from the reluctant dawn. When afternoon finally bleeds grey across the windowpanes, you rise together—limbs aching, hearts steadier than before. Packing is oddly brief: Viktor shrugs into a travel coat, slides the leg brace into place, pockets a tinderbox and a coil of hemp line. On the writing desk lies a single calling-card—one he spared from ink or flame—bearing the gilt of a name soon to be bartered. He tucks it into his breast pocket, over the beat of his heart, not as keepsake but as coin.

You step from the threshold without ceremony—no luggage save the weight in your chests—when Algernon appears at the top of the steps, hair uncombed, cravat skewed as though dressed by ghosts. Fatigue dusts his shoulders; candle-soot smears one cheek. He descends, halts, and for a moment simply stares at Viktor, lips parted around a plea that takes its time finding sound.

“My lord… I beg you, do not go.” His hand lifts, wavers inches from Viktor’s sleeve, then falls—as if the air itself forbids the touch.

Viktor forces a smile that wobbles at the edges. “Why? Would you prefer me dead after all?” The jest is thin; your fingers brush his coat, feeling the sudden tautness beneath.

“It is death where you go—either way,” Algernon murmurs, smoothing hair that will not lie flat. His gaze fixes somewhere beyond the yew hedge, as though an answer hangs in the fog, just out of reach.

“What say you?” Viktor closes the distance, palm steady on Algernon’s shoulder. “If I perish, sooner or later matters little. I must attempt this. You, of all men, know trying is the marrow of living.”

For a span that might be a heartbeat or an eon, Algernon simply looks at Viktor—eyes clouded, as if some hidden ledger is being read aloud inside his skull. Muscle by muscle, his face rearranges: first the polite neutrality he has worn for decades; then bafflement, as though he’s stepped into a room whose walls are suddenly wrong; then stark terror, pupils shrinking to pinpoints. The corners of his mouth flutter, trying on several shapes—apology, protest, prayer—before settling into a tremor that leaves his lips parted, wordless. You watch the change ripple downward, loosening the set of his shoulders, stealing the impeccable butler’s poise until the man beneath the livery emerges—frightened, unarmoured, newly aware of the knife-edge on which his existence balances. Only when that transformation completes, slow as frost creeping across glass, does he seize Viktor’s wrist, desperate not to be left behind by the truth he has just understood.

“It is not you who will perish,” he whispers, voice fraying. “It is I. I was a man once—I can half-recall—a foolish boy seeking favour of gods, much as you did. Now I am bound to the name on your tongue, kept here where He wishes you tethered. If you slip the leash, I slip into nothing.”

The realisation dawns across Viktor’s features like sunrise over ruins. “Algernon…” he breathes, horror and pity intermingled.

“Forgive me,” the butler goes on, a man confessing sins discovered only this moment. “I meant no harm; I am merely an instrument, unaware. An illusion of will.” He bows his head, fingertips blanching where they still hold Viktor.

“All those times,” Viktor murmurs, remembering sudden tea trays, doorways blocked by polite inquiry. “The interruptions—”

“It was He, puppeting me.” Algernon’s voice cracks; you see tears standing, silver as thaw. “I should not exist now—not as myself.”

Silence settles, heavier than any bell. Somewhere a rook cries, harsh and solitary.

At last Algernon lifts his gaze, and for the first time the mask of perfect service is gone; what remains is raw, undeniably human. “Go,” he says, the word shivering in the cold. “Cut the strings. Free my soul with the name. I beg you.”

Viktor’s hand rises, rests against Algernon’s bowed head—a benediction, or a farewell. No more words follow; the three of you understand the bargain, spoken and unspoken, that waits in the dark mouth of the cave. You turn toward the path, and behind you the manor door closes with a sound like a curtain drawn, leaving Algernon in the porch light, already half-shadow, half-memory.

Before you the lane narrows quickly, stone walls giving way to hedgerow ghosts and then to the starker wilderness beyond. Underfoot, rime squeaks; each breath leaves a plume that fades before it can reach memory. Viktor’s cane clicks a measured cadence—never stumbling, as if the ground itself has agreed to bear him this one last time. Your hand anchors at the crook of his arm; whenever the path glass-slicks to ice, he steadies you with a subtle shift of weight, and onward you go.

The world pares itself to elements: birch trunks etched black on pearl, the iron scent of distant water, the hush of snow filling every pocket of silence you might have filled with fear. Somewhere an owl sounds—three hollow notes, answered by nothing. Frost crystals rim the cuffs of Viktor’s greatcoat; in the faint moonlight they glitter like a borrowed crown.

Darkness folds deeper. You pause to strike a flame, cupping it from the wind, then lift the lantern between you. Its amber circle slides over bark and root, over drifted stone fences, painting each breath a momentary gold. You huddle close—two sparks moving through a field of unlit stars—sharing what warmth remains in tired bodies. Words seem too loud for this world; instead you speak through small gestures: your thumb tracing the seam of his glove, his hand settling at the small of your back whenever the trail drops.

At last, the hush gathers a new sound: the faint glassy rush of water. A half-frozen stream slips between shoulders of granite, its surface veined with black ice, its voice low but urgent. Lantern-light glances off the water and shows the stream’s narrow tongue leading into a cleft in the hillside—the cave mouth, waiting like an unspoken sentence. Snow has not drifted there; the ground is bare and dark, as if even winter hesitates to follow further.

You and Viktor stand a moment at the threshold. The lantern quivers in your grip, casting restless rings upon wet stone. Behind you, the snow-soft night continues, vast and indifferent. Ahead, the cave exhales a breath older than language, smelling of iron, fern ghosts, and the memory of a child’s wish. Without speaking, you tighten your hold on the lantern pole. Viktor meets your gaze, nods once—the simplest vow. “Godspeed,” you say. Then together you step across the icy stream and into the dark that bears his unspoken name.

The passage narrows after the first bend, forcing you to walk single-file beneath a ceiling that sweats winter condensation. Lantern-light skates over limestone ribs; each droplet poised to fall gleams like an icy bead of anointment. Behind you the entrance dwindles to a pale lozenge; the hush here is heavier than snow.

Further in, the path tilts downward. Frost gives way to damp earth tinged with the mineral scent of deep water. A faint silver glow leaks ahead, outshining the lantern’s amber. When the tunnel finally widens you step into a chamber half the size of a cathedral’s apse. Moonlight slants through a jagged aperture in the roof, bathing a single unfurling of green at the center: a fern, winter-defiant yet bloomless, its fronds trembling in the underground draft.

Viktor lowers the lantern to a flat stone, flame settling into a steady heart. He turns, takes both your hands, and presses his forehead to yours; in that small circle of light your breaths mingle like vows.

“If night swallows me,” he whispers, voice roughened by awe and dread, “know I have lived my happiest weeks in your company. Nothing He takes can undo that mercy.”

You kiss the confession from his lips, salt and iron mingling. “Speak no finalities,” you breathe against his mouth. “I will meet you on the farther shore.”

He nods once—acceptance, promise, surrender—then releases you and limps to the fern. From his coat he draws the slim knife you last saw in Shalladholm. The blade finds the scar across his palm and reopens it with a soft, resigned sound. Blood beads, bright as melted garnet, and drips onto the fern’s central frond where it darkens, unabsorbed.

Viktor steadies his breathing, shoulders squaring in the argent glow. “Veles,” he calls, voice low but unwavering, the cavern carrying each syllable into shadowed vaults. “Come forth. I would reckon my debt.” The air chills, lantern flame recoils—then stillness gathers, listening, before the answer arrives.

From the farthest corner where lantern-light refuses to wander, a figure unpeels itself from shadow: a tall man, hair and beard slick as fresh pitch, shoulders wrapped in nothing but the cavern’s chill. Moonlight strikes his eyes—two coins cut from night. A smile, almost gentle, curves across his mouth.

“So,” he says, voice soft as falling ash, “you too would renounce me, Velesny? Such a promising child you were.”

“A child owns no power to bargain,” Viktor answers, steady though his pulse leaps. “It was only a wish, spoken out of sorrow.”

The god glides forward. Frost blossoms beneath each bare step, whitening the stone like plague. A whisper accompanies the grin: “No witnesses this time.” Fingers snap. Your knees buckle; the lantern jerks as you crumple to the cavern floor, breath whisked away. Viktor lunges, fear carving his features, but an unseen pressure roots him where he stands.

“She will wake,” the god murmurs, almost soothing. “I do not take what wasn’t offered, nor what is not yet due. Dreamless slumber—nothing more.” His gaze sharpens. “Tell me, child-grown: why spit out my bread?”

“I will be free of your name,” Viktor declares. “I’ll forfeit every comfort it purchased.”

Black laughter ripples off the cave walls. “Did you haul ledgers and houses to burn for me again?”

“No.” Viktor uncurls his hand; the single calling-card gleams ivory in the moonwash. “I bring only this.” Then, almost shy: “Why did you claim me?”

Silence gathers, heavy as subterranean water. With an almost parental sigh, the god speaks: “I choose prodigies. Radomír—honest, small—could wait. But prodigies feed a hungry god. Clever souls, once broken, sing my tale into every corner. Humans forget old altars; empires rename us stories. I bind you in tragedy, so my name outlives the rot.”

“Release me,” Viktor says. “Name your price.”

“You know it.” The god’s smile widens, teeth black as coal seams. “Your legacy to dust. Are you ready to be… middling, Viktor the Nameless?”

“I want to live,” Viktor answers, voice trembling at the edges of his truth.

“So be it. But a god taxes the debtor.” He plucks the calling-card, slips it between jagged teeth, chews—paper, ink, and gilt vanishing down a throat dark as burial earth. “Twice you have robbed me; I will take my due.” Circling the fern’s bare fronds, he faces Viktor squarely. “It will hurt,” he purrs, delighted by the promise, and the cavern’s air grows sharp as blades.

Veles’s smile thins to a razor. “A final tithe, child.”

His hand rises—no incantation, no flourish—only fingers spreading, pale as moon bone. They drive straight through cloth and skin, neither ripping nor cutting so much as invading, as if the flesh remembers an old, unwelcome door.

Cold floods Viktor’s chest, glacial shock that numbs quicker than terror. Then pain answers—every cough he has ever swallowed erupting at once, multiplied, condensed to white agony. It feels as though his ribs are packed with broken icicles; each shard twists, trying to pry itself free. Breath claws for exit but finds no purchase. He would scream if air existed.

The god’s arm burrows wrist-deep. Frost creeps outward from the puncture, feathering blue over Viktor’s sternum, making the lantern light glitter on crystalline veins. With a soft, fleshy crack Veles withdraws his hand. Two shriveled lobes cling to his fingers—organs the colour of bruised nightshade, collapsed and glistening. Steam rises where their warmth meets the cave’s chill.

Viktor staggers yet does not fall. The hole in his breast seals with a hiss, skin puckering, bloodless but raw. A breath shudders through the cavity—first thin, then fuller— until his lungs, impossibly new, inflate beneath scarred flesh. Each inhale burns like winter iron, but it is breath, strong and certain. He clamps a hand over the mending wound, feeling life drum loud against a palm that moments ago should have cupped nothing.

Veles lifts the desiccated lungs to his lips, teeth tearing as though into overripe fruit. Black blood dribbles along his chin before he licks it clean with a shiver of distaste. “Disgusting,” he sneers, letting the husks fall to the stone where frost devours them.

Eyes ember-bright fix Viktor. “Nameless you shall wander. As nothing you will live the span granted. Turn to me again—let your dove turn—and I will finish the feast.” He wipes his fingers on the air, and the darkness itself swallows the stain.

The god melts back toward shadow, until only the fern’s fronds tremble in the stirred gloom. Viktor stands alone but breathing, chest aching with newborn fire, the cave echoing with the price that bought his life and unmade his name.

Knees strike the stone, brace ringing a hollow psalm. Another breath roars through him—too large for old ribs—sending him forward on shaking hands until your still figure meets his reach. His fingertips skim your cheek, heat against chill; relief surges so fierce it blinds him. He presses his mouth to yours, pouring air into a kiss.

“Wake, my heart,” he whispers against slack lips. “Breathe with me.”

Your lashes tremble; a small sound—half gasp, half question—rises into the kiss. Awareness streams back like thaw, and you bolt upright, clutching what remains of his torn shirt. Your fingers map the fresh, puckered scar across his chest, ugly and luminous beneath lantern glow.

“It is done,” you breathe, terror threading wonder.

“Aye,” Viktor answers, eyes startlingly clear. “I am nothing—yet alive. Will you still have a man who bears oblivion?”

“You are everything,” you vow, palms framing his jaw. “The bravest soul to walk this earth— and I slept through your crucifixion.”

He huffs a ragged laugh, joy and exhaustement. “Then wake beside me now. Let us go home before the cave remembers it can keep us.” He rises, helping you to your feet, two heartbeats learning a new rhythm in the hush where a god’s shadow lingered only moments before.

Dawn meets you halfway home—indigo thinning to pearl while your footprints stitch the snow in crooked twin lines. You lean into one another as though still unsure lungs will keep the bargain, laughing breathless at nothing, at everything: at how light the air feels when no syllable drags behind it. At the threshold, the manor seems quietly startled to see you return. Every ledger, every monogrammed napkin bears a clean edge where a surname once slept; even the copperplate plaques on laboratory cabinets are blank as unearthed bone. You call for Algernon out of habit, and only the wind in the halls answers—his absence a hollow note that makes the whole house ring.

For a time you drown that emptiness in exhilaration: stolen brandy in the library, fingers tangled in hair above the stairwell, laughter echoing off frescoed ceilings. But elation, like a fresh burn, cools. Within days Viktor’s smile begins to fold at the corners; he walks the winter-garden paths with no clipboard, touching dead fern fronds as if they might whisper purpose back to him. In the library he stands before shelves of his own writings—now credited to V. or Anonymous—and the pride that once lit his eyes gutters into a strange, polite vacancy. When you press a cup of chocolate into his hands, he covers your fingers with his, offers a murmured thanks so thin it stings worse than silence.

The house learns your shared quiet. Meals arrive untouched; firewood burns low. You drift behind him like a guardian shadow, unsure whether to shake him awake or let him grieve the ghost of himself. At last the question—Do you still want me, when I can give only myself?—gathers too much weight. One grey afternoon you find him in the study, staring at a blank sheet as though waiting for a name to appear. You open your mouth—

“Sir!” Ethel bursts in, skirts swishing, arms laden with a teetering stack of letters. “These just arrived. The new mail driver was muddled. I’ve—well—collected a week’s worth.”

Viktor rises to relieve her, blinking as though from deep water. “Thank you, Ethel. Though usually the butler—” He stops, the sentence dangling.

The maid’s brows knit. “But there is no butler, sir. Not that I’ve known.”

The letters—addresses scrawled to The Author of Aetheric Currents, Dr. V., Distinguished Natural Philosopher, and one jaunty To the nameless genius who corrected my folly—spill across the desk, fluttering like startled birds, and something in Viktor’s eyes flickers: a small, unexpected spark that looks almost like returning light.

“A fool I am once more,” Viktor mutters, spreading the letters like tarot. Envelopes addressed in every flourished hand cover the mahogany. You step to his side and trace the riot of postmarks.

“You are no fool—only in mourning,” you say, voice soft but certain. “Though mourning proves futile, it seems. Here is proof you would have stood here—name or none.”

He studies a wax seal, thumb worrying its edge. “Do you remember the name?” he asks quietly.

You shake your head. “Only the weight it carried.”

“Me neither,” he murmurs, surprise and liberation mingling.

His fingers find yours; a fragile hush folds around the two of you. “Your commission is finished,” he says, as though tasting the words. “Forgive my silence—I had to weigh what was lost. It was not only a title I buried.”

With the same small flourish that once guided constellations, Viktor hooks his cane behind your waist and draws you close. “The love I bear for you is—devastating.” The confession slips out quick, almost boyishly shy. “I cannot stand parting.”

He gathers breath, eyes bright. “So much gone: the name, Radomír, Algernon—yet so much gained.” He nods toward the sea of letters. “Stay. Work beside me, sleep beside me, lace our fingers through all future hardships. I have only myself to give—and, it seems, a life of endless curiosities.”

You press both palms to the cadence beating beneath his shirt. He looks better—healthier. The hollows of his cheeks have softened, his eyes seem wider, almost younger. Beneath all the time and toil, the boy he once was lingers, gentler and less severe.

“Where you go, I follow,” you answer, voice steady enough to anchor the room. Outside, wind stirs the snowmelt into soft applause, and inside, among ink-blotted proofs of a legacy without a surname, Viktor bends to press his forehead to yours—pledging, in quiet breath, that nothing named or nameless will stand between you.

That night devotion takes the shape of pilgrimage: your tongue charts the new scar that bisects his chest—cool ridge crossing the terrain where a god reached in—and follows lower, soothing the faint chafe left by iron braces long discarded. When your mouth closes around hard flesh, Viktor’s breath escapes whole and thunderous; he speaks your name like a poem, each syllable borne on lungs that no longer seize.

You feed on him with slow, faithful hunger—hollowing your cheeks, letting your tongue trace the pulsing vein along the underside before taking him deeper, deeper still, until your lips brush the warm plane of his navel. Each glide draws a rough blessing from his throat; his hands thread your hair, knuckles blanching at every descent. The candles throw wavering gold across his stomach, catching on the slick sheen you leave behind, and when you pause to breathe, you drag the flat of your tongue from root to tip—savouring his salt—before sealing your mouth around him again, rhythmic as song, determined to worship until his knees threaten collapse.

He answers with thrusts sure and deep, filling you until the lantern rattles on its hook and frost quivers from the window lead. His fresh, wide breaths pace every surge, reverberating against the rafters as if the house itself must learn this untamed music.

And so it continues—night after ascending night—each joining a fresh mystery solved by skin and sighs. Before sainted dawn can lay its hush upon the world, you find one another again: in study shadows among scattered correspondence, against greenhouse glass fogged by winter stars, beneath quilts that smell of wax and smoke. Viktor breathes through every union—astonished, grateful, unrestrained—while you drink the sound, knowing the miracle was never the name he shed, but the life both of you now dare to claim, unbound and fiercely sung.

Winter passes like a deep breath held between two hearts. Inside the manor you and Viktor hibernate, wrapped in quilts and in each other, emerging only to chase the occasional village riddle—a vanishing brooch, a false haunting, a ledger cooked by candle-light. Those diversions are brief sparks; the real fire is the quiet: reading aloud with legs tangled on the bed, drowsing to the tick of the heliostat, tasting tea from the same spoon. By the time the river ice groans itself apart and crocuses spear the sodden lawn, the house smells of wax, dried lavender, and bone-deep contentment.

It is on such a thaw-bright afternoon that a sharp rap splits the calm.

Viktor unfolds from the chaise—gait uneven after sitting with his legs draped across your lap—and makes for the door while you drift in his wake, curious.

The visitor revealed is broad of shoulder, still carrying winter’s wind in the set of his coat. A shadow of growth clings to an otherwise clean jaw. He doffs his hat with formal economy, and that is where restraint ends.

“Finally,” he blurts, voice half-hoarse with travel. “I’ve searched for months. May I come in?”

Viktor’s mouth tilts. “Perhaps a name first, sir?”

“Oh. Quite right. Jayce Talis.” They exchange a firm shake; Viktor steps aside. Talis nods to you. “My lady.”

“A pressing matter?” Viktor asks, shepherding him toward the drawing room. “Haunting? Poltergeist? Or merely domestic unrest?”

“Neither haunting nor unrest—an opportunity.” Jayce shrugs out of his coat, words spilling faster than buttons. “I hunted down every scrap of your work I could find—no small feat, given your… limited signature. I was mocked, dismissed by the Academy, but I believe what I hold will interest you.”

“You sound remarkably like a traveling salesman, Mr. Talis,” Viktor remarks, motioning him to the settee. Seeing Jayce’s glance flick toward you, he adds, “Speak freely—we are betrothed and partners in all things.”

“Congratulations,” Jayce says, a bit too earnest, and you cannot help the laugh that slips free. He sits, coat clenched in his fist. Leaning forward, voice lowered: “I think I have found a way to harness magic itself. And you, sir, are the only mind I trust with it.”

Silence settles, thick as dust mote light. Viktor’s expression hovers between amusement and intrigue; yours holds polite interest.

Jayce stands again, pacing—laying out mining anecdotes, luminous anomalies, crude measurements. As he speaks, you watch Viktor shift: skepticism melting into the keen focus you know too well.

When at last words fail, Viktor taps his cane once. “Evidence, Mr. Talis?”

From an inner pocket Jayce produces a small blue crystal. On his upturned palm it glows faintly, as though remembering lightning. Viktor lifts it to the window; sun needles through, scattering azure shards across carpet and wall. A slow smile curls his mouth.

“And here I had you pegged for another pleasant madman,” he says, eyes lit with new hunger. “Perhaps, instead, you’ve brought me the next impossible question.”

Jayce paces as though tethered, coat flapping. “I mined it in the city’s northern quarry—pure happenstance. It hums, sir—hums at certain frequencies, as though tuned to energies unseen. It arcs between metal contacts without any external source, enough to brand copper. With refinement—”

“Enough to change the world,” Viktor finishes, voice low, equal parts warning and wonder. He lifts the crystal to his ear, and for a moment the house goes still. You catch the subtle widening of his eyes, the tiny indrawn breath: he hears it. The thing sings, however faintly, like a choir behind a door.

Jayce clasps his hands, knuckles whitening. “They call me deluded. The Academy laughed me out. But you—your treatises on aetheric lattices, your field notes on ambient motes around so-called haunted sites—those papers told me someone else had gazed beyond the veil and found rules instead of myths. Help me quantify it. Help me prove them wrong.”

Viktor turns, blue fire dancing up his sleeve. “I have sworn off gods,” he says, mouth quirking, “but the pursuit of wonders remains a vice I cannot break.” He glances at you; the glance holds an unspoken may I? You nod once, equal parts guardian and accomplice.

“Very well, Mr. Talis,” Viktor says, closing long fingers around the stone. “Stay as my guest. We shall test your singing crystal, chart its hum, and see what symmetry lies hidden.” His cane taps brisk assent against the floorboards. “But I warn you-—any miracle exacts its price.”

Jayce’s answering smile is broad, almost boyish. “I have already paid in ridicule. I’m prepared to pay the rest.”

“Then we begin at dawn,” Viktor decides. He passes the stone into your keeping—its cooled glow tingling your palm—while Jayce exhales relief so palpable it fogs the window.

Outside, early crocuses spear through tarnished snow; a rook scrapes new twigs for an old nest. Inside, three chairs draw close about a work-table soon to be cluttered with lenses, coils, and ink-stained notebooks. Somewhere in the rafters the house seems to shiver awake, sensing fresh riddles to devour, and the naming of things—be they crystals, curses, or the quiet vow between your joined hands—begins all over again.

Viktor pulls the bell-cord to summon supper, the chime fading down the corridor. Jayce rises again, clutching a fist at his chest as though it might steady his thoughts. A flush creeps over his cheekbones; he rubs the back of his neck, then spreads his palms in awkward surrender.

“Pardon my candour, sir, but—after all my chasing—I realise I don’t even know your name.”

Your beloved’s smile is soft, knife-bright at the edges. Amber eyes hold Jayce’s a moment longer than courtesy requires.

“It’s Viktor,” he replies, as if the single word were currency enough.

—

So, Algernon: he also made his own little pact :') What, we do not know, but it bound him to the god and the god used his essence as a construct - to keep Viktor from solving the mystery, because Viktor was a valuable asset. Some of Algernon's humanity remained, which is why he was doing everything unknowingly. He was planted into this reality like a parasite, making everyone believe that he's just a butler, there since the beginning. Upon the curse being broken, he ceases to exist. He becomes erased form everyone's consciousness, except Viktor and Reader - he lingers there, just to show how much of a relationship with Viktor he actually had. They don't mourn him extensively, because just the sheer fact that they remember of him is enough to accentuate it. That's it! Thank you for reading and see you in my next story!

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