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alltimecharlo · 2 days ago
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pregnant omega will who just needs cuddles! he communicates in purrs and chirps and mack is fighting for his life to make him happy
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cute cute cute!!! fic under the cut :)🩵
Mack is fighting a war. A very gentle, very sweet, but extremely high-stakes war. And the enemy is his own mate’s relentless need for cuddles.
Will is curled up on the couch in one of Mack’s sweatshirts—which, okay, was originally a generous XL but now just barely stretches over his rounded belly. It’s the soft grey one with the cracked SAN JOSE SHARKS logo and the faint smell of popcorn from that movie night two weeks ago. Will hums contentedly, curled around a pillow like it’s Mack himself, tail of his sleep shorts bunched up and riding high on one thigh.
And he’s purring. Loud. Steady.
Mack, standing in the doorway between the kitchen and living room, towel slung over his shoulder from drying dishes, feels the force of that purr in his chest like a physical thing. It makes his palms itch. His alpha instincts go haywire, tugging at every protective and nurturing bone in his body.
“Hey, babe,” he says, voice rougher than he means it to be. “You good?”
Will turns his head, blinking at him slowly. Then he lets out a little chirp. It’s barely a sound, just the lightest squeak of acknowledgment. His fingers curl against the couch cushion and he wiggles, trying to make himself more comfortable, or maybe make space. Mack doesn’t know. He doesn’t speak fluent Pregnant Omega.
Yet.
Mack takes a cautious step forward, then another, eyes fixed on the way Will’s whole expression softens when he gets close. “You need anything? Water? Snack? Foot rub?”
Another purr. Louder now. Will opens his arms like he’s about to give the most judgmental hug in the world if Mack doesn’t take the offer.
“Okay. Alright. Got it,” Mack mutters, and drops to the couch like it’s his mission in life.
The second he’s seated, Will flops into him with all the grace of a sleepy cat, limbs going everywhere, his belly pressed tight to Mack’s side. His head tucks into the crook of Mack’s neck and he purrs again—this time a bit higher pitched, like the perfect sound of success.
Mack wraps his arms around Will and exhales. It’s ridiculous, how good this feels. He’s got a whole game plan for today—calls to return, baby gear to sort, some paperwork to sign for next season—but apparently all of that has to wait, because his omega is vibrating against his chest like a little furnace and Mack is utterly powerless in the face of it.
“You’re gonna be the death of me,” he whispers into Will’s hair, carding his fingers through the strands slowly.
Will just chirps again, sounding very satisfied with himself.
“I was productive today,” Mack tries half-heartedly, resting his chin on top of Will’s head. “I did the dishes. I folded laundry. I even cleaned the damn baseboards. You weren’t even awake yet. I deserve, like, ten alpha points.”
Will’s hand sneaks under Mack’s shirt, fingertips cool and insistent against his stomach. It’s not a counterargument, exactly, but it is a clear demand. More. Touch. Now.
Mack chuckles, helpless, and presses a kiss to the crown of Will’s head. “Yeah, alright. I get it. You’re in charge now.”
He shifts so that Will’s weight is better supported and starts rubbing slow circles into his lower back, just like he’d read about in that article Will had flagged for him last week. Will lets out a sigh so deep it sounds like a balloon deflating.
Mack grins.
“How’s that, hmm? That good?”
Will tilts his head up, big blue eyes a little heavy-lidded with comfort, and then he makes the smallest, sweetest little chirping noise that immediately shoots straight through Mack’s heart and melts him into goo.
“Okay, okay,” Mack says again, voice embarrassingly fond. “You win. Cuddle fiend.”
Will hums.
Mack strokes his hand over the swell of Will’s belly and rests his cheek on top of Will’s head, perfectly content to stay there forever if he has to.
Honestly? Not the worst fate.
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krystalsturns · 3 days ago
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the rehearsal - m.s.
chapter 2: almost in sync
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grace’s wedding was officially twenty-seven days away. which meant tonight was time to start choreography.
you already knew this wasn’t going to be some cute, simple slow sway kind of thing. grace didn’t believe in “subtle.” she had been pinning couple’s dance videos on pinterest since before she even had a boyfriend. so yeah, you knew what you were walking into. or more like dancing into.
you showed up at the rented dance studio a few minutes early, dressed in something easy: loose gray sweatpants, a pink tank top, and your pink new balance 574s. your hair was in two simple braids, and you hadn’t bothered with much makeup. this wasn’t a fashion show. it was just a rehearsal. a warm up.
at least, that’s what you told yourself.
the studio was bright and mirrored from wall to wall, with a speaker setup in the corner and a playlist already buzzing low in the background. fairy lights had been strung across the ceiling beams, probably by grace herself. she could never leave a space untouched.
you spotted her by the water cooler, chatting with a woman who looked very choreographer-core. tight bun, clipboard, tiny bluetooth mic. typical grace.
“hi!” she called out when she saw you, waving dramatically. you walked over and gave her a quick hug.
“you look cute,” she said, then added immediately, “but i know you can’t dance.”
you blinked. “okay, rude.”
grace grinned, unbothered. “i’m just being honest. it’s fine! that’s why we hired professionals.” she gestured toward the clipboard woman. “the dance is simple, just a few turns, a little dip at the end. trust me, you’ll survive. just keep trying and don’t give up.”
“you sound like a motivational poster,” you muttered, but she just laughed.
“go find your partner!”
your stomach did a little flip, not that you’d admit it. you scanned the room. most people were already moving toward their person. nick had kennedy, obviously. chris was dancing with grace for the practice round. and then, standing near the mirrored wall, adjusting the hem of his black t-shirt and sipping from a bottle of water, was matt.
gray uncuffed sweatpants. black tee. white air forces. completely unfazed.
you walked over, and he looked up just before you reached him.
“just a heads up,” you said lightly, offering a crooked smile, “i have two left feet. and i’m a horrible dancer.”
matt gave the smallest smirk, just enough to show that tiny dimple in his cheek. “i told chris i was gonna kill him if i had to dance,” he replied. “and yet… here we are.”
you laughed. “grace is so extra. i should’ve known she’d make us do this.”
“i heard something about lifts. tell me that’s a joke.”
“i’ll throw her bouquet at her if it’s not.”
you both smiled, and for a second, the silence between you wasn’t awkward. just… there.
the choreographers clapped their hands and called everyone to center.
“partners ready? positions, please!”
you turned to face matt. he stepped forward and lifted his hand. you took it, carefully. your other hand rested on his shoulder. his arm slid around your waist, warm and steady.
you felt your breath catch a little in your chest. he didn’t hesitate. not at all. not about the closeness, or the hand placement, or the eye contact. he looked right at you like it was nothing.
maybe it was nothing. or maybe he was just really good at pretending.
you swallowed and tried not to look down at your feet.
“you good?” he asked, voice low and quiet, just for you.
you nodded. “yep. totally calm. totally coordinated.”
he gave a short laugh, more like a quiet exhale.
and then, the music played.
you started to move together, slowly. step, turn, back step, turn. it was mechanical at first, clunky. your bodies moved at different rhythms, hands too stiff, feet not quite in sync.
you stepped on his foot within the first forty seconds.
“shit, sorry,” you said, laughing a little too hard. “that was definitely not part of the routine.”
matt shook his head, smiling. “you’re good. honestly, you’re doing better than i expected.”
“wow, thanks for the vote of confidence.” you look down at your feet.
“just saying,” he teased. “you’re not flailing.”
“yet.” you add.
another step. another correction from the choreographers. you repeated the same section three more times. it was awkward, but… less than you expected. somewhere around the fourth run through, you realized his hand felt kind of natural on your waist. and he was warm. and when you stumbled slightly again, he caught you easily. fingers tightening for just a second before releasing.
you didn’t say anything about that. neither did he.
but you felt it.
after an hour, the instructor clapped her hands. “that’s it for tonight! we’ll do the rest next week.”
a wave of relief swept through the room. people grabbed their things and headed for the door. grace was already organizing the next dance rehearsal, but you were pretty sure your legs had turned into jello.
you lingered near the mirror, grabbing your water bottle. matt walked up a moment later, stretching out his arms with a quiet sigh.
“you made it through,” he said.
“barely. pretty sure i’ll wake up tomorrow sore in places i didn’t know existed.”
“worth it, though,” he replied.
you glanced at him, surprised. “you think?”
he nodded. “it’s a cool dance. grace’ll love it. and you… weren’t that bad.”
“wow,” you said, placing a hand over your heart. “you really know how to flatter a girl.”
he smirked again, but didn’t look away this time.
a beat passed. the kind that stretched just long enough to mean something.
“you driving home?” he asked.
“yeah. unless my legs give out and i collapse in the parking lot.”
“if you collapse,” he said, walking backward toward the door, “i’ll come scrape you off the sidewalk.”
you raised a brow. “you’d help me?”
“i said scrape,” he replied with a shrug, “not carry.”
and with that, he turned and walked out.
you stayed still for a second, suddenly aware of the fact that you were smiling. for someone who was so quiet, matt really knew how to fill up a room.
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leejenowrld · 3 days ago
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hii! can we please get a spoiler for part 3?
soo excited to read the next chapter!
~🫀
in all honesty i am (and will be) more cautious about giving out spoilers because there’s a lot of unexpected things that will happen in part three and i don’t wanna ruin it and a lot of the time i lowkey don’t get reactions when i post and it makes me quite upset … but i will give you a little spoiler cos i remember your ask yesterday and it truly did cheer me up.
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The promise sits in your chest like a swallowed shard of glass, you’d sacrifice bone, breath, heaven itself for your little girl, yet the calendar crawls forward, toward the night when fluorescent light curdles into rot white moonlight and the NICU mutates into a cathedral of dread. You stand there, pulse drumming like a trapped moth, bargaining with gods who will not look up from their ledgers while machines pour hollow music into the dark; plastic tubing hangs from chrome hooks like nooses, monitors blink a malignant Morse code, and every vent hiss sounds like a blade being whetted. Haeun’s body curls boneless in your lap, too heavy and limp, yet her smallness feels monstrous—her warmth leaching away, her limbs tangled around you like the ghost of a promise you can’t hold tight enough. She clings to you, fingers tangled in your hair, damp breath trembling against your ear as she murmurs in broken toddler syllables, “no go, Mama, stay wif me, pwease, pinky pwomise… Mama home, Mama don’t leave me,” each word a moth’s wing scorching in the sterile light.
Hospital beds aren’t made for two, but you pull her into your arms anyway, every part of her clinging, breath shaky, eyes wide and shining with old tears. She presses her face to your neck, voice small and scared, “Mama, I ‘fraid… monster come? You got owie too? We both hurt?” Her hands grab at your shirt, patting your cheek, checking for blood or bruises the way she’s seen the nurses do.
You stroke her back, humming, “Mama’s here, baby, right here. I’ll hold you, always.”
She nods, sniffles, clings even tighter, “Don’t go ‘way, Mama. Stay. I stay wif you, kay? No let monster get us. Snug, snug.” You kiss her lips before she hides under your chin, thumb in her mouth, whispering, “Wuv you, Mama. You my best girl, I so happy you here.” Even in the hush, with danger scratching at the glass, she’s braver because you’re there—because you’re holding each other, safe for now, in the smallest world two hearts can make.
Her wrists are thin ribbons, pulse a stuttering echo under your thumb, and you feel the slow bleed of her life like ink seeping through gauze; every beat falters, softer, softer, until it sounds like snow falling on a coffin lid. You beg, throat raw—stay, sunshine, fight, breathe—but her voice gutters to a ragged hum, the lullaby of a dying star. “We go ‘gether, no be scawed, hold tight.” She presses sticky kisses to your cheek, blood-warm and frantic, and you know the moment her soul loosens because the room exhales, lights flicker, and the shadow at the ceiling’s edge opens its jaws. You lay your life on her altar without hesitation—heart offered like meat—yet discover the universe is a butcher that accepts every sacrifice and still demands interest; you follow her into the blackout, fingers laced, stepping through the curtain where heartbeat ends, believing love can cheat entropy. Behind you, Jaemin crumples into a silhouette made of salt and ash, pacing hallways that now buzz like fly-ridden catacombs, his voice a hollow bell tolling names no one answers. The future had been sharpening its teeth for months, each sleepless night a lick, each prayer a whetstone and now it bites clean through, leaving nothing but echoing corridors, cold sheets, and a Father and a Partner wandering like a revenant in the ruins of a promise carved from blood.
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strawberrieg0re · 4 months ago
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Hi everypony!!
My girlfriend and I need help funding our Baby's surgery!! He was attacked by another dog and needs to undergo an emergency amputation. The procedure is going to cost more than we can afford and we already have a large amount of donations but it's still not enough :(( with the donations + my paycheck we should have the majority of the cost but we don't even know the exact charge until his operation is over.
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gaza-giving-tree · 4 months ago
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Imagine walking for miles beneath a merciless sun, each step a battle against exhaustion. The empty water containers in your hands feel heavier with every faltering step, but you press on through rubble-strewn streets, driven by the desperate need to find clean water for your family.
Your vision blurs, dark spots dancing at the edges, and your heart pounds with the effort to stay upright. The heat is suffocating, your limbs tremble with fatigue, but you force yourself forward, refusing to give in. Then, without warning, your strength gives out. Your legs buckle, and you collapse onto the burning earth, dust rising around you as darkness claims your senses.
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Images: Ahmed Aldani, a chronically ill teenager from Gaza, is trying to raise money to evacuate and receive medical treatment abroad.
@ahmedaldanigg
@ahmedaldani333
Story written by @rumiandroses
For most in Gaza, each day is a battle for survival—but for fifteen year old Ahmed Aldani, who is chronically ill, the struggle is far more severe. His body is being pushed to its limits by the relentless strain of hunger, pain, and exhaustion. He needs urgent medical care and a chance to escape the nightmare that has become his everyday life.
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Image: Ahmed recently reached out to us with an update on his condition.
Every task, no matter how small, has become a struggle for survival. Just a few weeks ago, Ahmed collapsed while walking 3 kilometers (almost 2 miles) to fill water—his body having difficulty sustaining the effort, in desperate need of medical care that, without financial help, is out of reach for Ahmed and his family.
Born amidst conflict, Ahmed has spent all fifteen years of his life enduring the effects of war. The development of his teeth and hair were negatively impacted by toxic gas his mother inhaled during a phosphorus attack while pregnant with him in 2008. The recommended treatment—dental implants—is far beyond his family’s means, with each tooth costing around $1,000. But without treatment, the pain and exhaustion will only worsen.
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Images: The development of Ahmed's hair and teeth were impacted by white phosphorus that his mother accidentally inhaled after an occupation attack near the family home in 2008.
Ahmed’s family has been displaced more than seven times in the past ten months, their savings drained just to stay alive. They now live in the southern part of Gaza, jobless and with no access to proper medical care.
This GoFundMe is a lifeline, both for Ahmed’s survival and for his family’s chance to escape Gaza and access the medical treatment he so desperately needs. The goal is to raise $50,000 to cover travel expenses, medical care, and a chance for Ahmed to finally rest, heal, and grow up without pain overshadowing every moment.
Ahmed needs your help—now more than ever. Even the smallest donation can help bring him closer to the care he needs to reclaim his health and his future.
You can donate to Ahmed's GoFundMe campaign [HERE].
Ahmed's campaign has been vetted by @gazavetters, and is (#198) on their list of verified campaigns.
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jinx-xxed · 28 days ago
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I need Remmick being so down bad for his human wife pretty please
Work Song
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☆.。.:*・°☆.。.:*・°☆.。.:*・°☆.。.:*・°☆ .。.:*
A/N; I needed this too so thank you for this request 🙏 I love a man that’s down bad and obsessed, those are the best kind ^_^ the title for this one takes after Hozier’s Work Song of course since I was thinking about it while writing this :P I hope you enjoy, and thank you again for requesting!! (Also apologies for me going overboard, I got way too invested in the backstory and couldn’t stop myself :’D)
Summary; Remmick comes home to his wife.
Content; NSFW 18+, AFAB reader, human reader, down bad Remmick!!, soft Remmick, possessive Remmick, vampirism, cleaning him up, married to Remmick, soft sex, fingering, piv sex, cuddling, he doesn’t know how to handle “I love you”, fluff
Wc; 6.2k
☆.。.:*・°☆.。.:*・°☆.。.:*・°☆.。.:*・°☆ .。.:*
The house is dark and quiet when the door opens with the smallest squeak, resting on old hinges gone too long without oil.
The curtains are drawn tight, the material thicker than your typical run of the mill, assuring no light can sneak through the cracks. The air is fresh with recent movement, signs of a home well lived in with pictures hung on the wall and shoes in a small rack by the door. That’s where Remmick leaves his dust covered boots so he doesn’t track red speckled dirt all over your nice clean floors. He tosses his stained button up in the wash bin you set out for him too, just his white tank remaining as his suspenders fall loose around his hips. Stepping inside your place is like a balm on his unsettled, angry soul, letting him leave everything else behind just for a little while.
Your home is the only one he’s allowed himself to become familiar with, the only one he’s stayed at for longer than a couple months. He knows every hall, every creaky wooden floorboard, every small detail at an almost intimate level. He follows the path he’s gone down hundreds of times, the one that leads him right to your bedroom. Your scent brings him there just the same—sweet and flowery like a perfect spring day, a tantalizing whisper of iron hiding beneath.
Remmick nudges the bedroom door open, his eyes flickering in the dim lighting, red simmering in the blue-gray like the last embers of a dying fire. It’s strange how instantly something within him is calmed at the sight of you, something deep and possessive and maybe even predatory that finally quiets when it realizes you’re still here. Your form is tucked beneath the sheets, blissfully warm and cozy and utterly perfect. He sees a book tossed aside to the corner of the bed, like you’d tried to stay awake for him but ultimately gave up and fell asleep. He can hear your gentle breaths, the quiet thrum of your heart that taunts him.
His steps are near silent when he makes his way over to you. You lay on your stomach, a pillow hugged between both arms, your pretty mouth parted just slightly. You look serene in sleep, an angel come down to earth just for a devil like him. Remmick reaches forward, brushing a stray curl from your face with a tenderness most would think impossible for himself—with his hands that have taken too many lives to count, that are stained with blood every night. But with you they’re gentle, able to rediscover a mushy part of him that was buried centuries ago.
Your eyebrows pinch and you mumble indistinctly when his chilled hand rests on your cheek, relishing in the feeling of your soft skin beneath his calloused palm. He’s a little warmer tonight though, with fresh blood still flowing through him, but it’s never enough to completely chase off the cold bite of death. He leans down to pepper kisses across your face, steadily moving to your neck where he pauses, his blunt teeth teasing along your jugular and inhaling your scent like it’s a lifeline.
Under his attention is how you finally wake, shaken from meaningless dreams by frigid fingers and loving kisses. You smile lazily, stretching your arms and twisting so you’re on your back to face him. You paw at him, pulling him in with no resistance—he’d happily follow your touch wherever you wanted him to go. Your lips meet briefly, a pleased noise rumbling from him before you pull away. “You’re back.” You say, sleep still edging your words. You breathe him in contentedly, your fingers coming up to run through his short hair. He still has that signature metallic tang on him despite his efforts to clean up before coming home. “Was worried ‘bout you.”
“Aw darlin’, you ain’t have to do that. You know I’ll always come back to ya.” Remmick says, his deep voice sending a pleasant shiver down your spine. One of his hands rests above the covers on your waist now, the weight of it comforting and familiar. He huffs, shaking his head. “Shit, thought ‘bout ya all night.”
It’s true, he really was thinking about you the whole time—something he finds himself doing a lot recently. He thinks about you from the moment he leaves your house because of the undeniable call of his hunger, all the way to when he finally returns hours later. He’ll think about wishing he could stay around when your eyes start to droop and the mortal need for sleep takes you away, when you subconsciously curl into him searching for warmth that isn’t there. He hates having to move you off of him so he can go, so he can step out into the unforgiving darkness of night in search of a life to steal. You do make the cutest little noises though, something like a disgruntled cat’s. He’ll tuck you in real nice and kiss you sweetly to make sure you don’t miss him too much, and so he can seal the image in his memory to keep him motivated—a reminder of what he gets to come home to.
“You were gone for so long.” You say with a small pout, holding his face in your hands, his light stubble tickling your palms. The gold ring you wear glints in the darkness, a twin to his own.
He tilts his head so his lips connect with your hand, nuzzling into your touch that he always seems to crave. “Just got caught up with some things s’all.” He’d cut it close tonight, the sun appearing like a reckoning seconds after he’d shut the door. “I’m here now, darlin’.”
You smile at that, pulling him in again to kiss him, enjoying the taste of him. There’s always something metallic hiding beneath every bit of him, something too old for your mind to comprehend, something otherworldly. For most it would be unnerving and terrifying but for you, that’s just your husband, your Remmick. You’d accepted that when you agreed to marry him about three years ago, opening your arms and home to him and every unnatural part that came with him.
It was two years before that when you’d actually met him, the memory always sitting clear in your mind like it happened yesterday.
You’d spent the whole day baking—cookies, pies, cobblers, tarts… the list went on as you prepared for the market happening in town the next morning. You prided yourself on your baked goods, and people always bought you out. The whole house smelled of your efforts, the scent carrying out the open windows and into the trees beyond. You hadn’t heard it at first, the whispers in the leaves, the way all the animals went silent, the world seeming to hold its breath for just a moment. You’d been too busy singing a song you knew by heart as you were prone to do whenever working in the kitchen. (Remmick has told you countless times how much he adores your voice, he says it’s like a fine wine).
You were rotating the food left to cool on the windowsill when you saw him, standing out there by the tree line, watching you with eyes that at first gave you the willies. “Hey there,” you’d called, watching as he flinched at the sound of your voice, “what brings ya over?”
He’d taken a few curious steps towards the house, letting you get a better look at him. Worn button up loosely tucked into high waisted trousers, a white tank hidden beneath, suspenders over the shoulders, old boots, and a banjo slung across his back. He looked like a man who traveled often, never staying in one place long enough to learn the style of it. His face looked kind, set with strong features on stocky shoulders that suggested he was no stranger to hard work. His short black hair was messy but in a presentable way, curled bangs sitting on his forehead. Still, you knew there was something deeper about him that was off, that didn’t belong in your realm of living.
His hands were loosely in his pockets and he shrugged. “Smelled somethin’ mighty sweet, heard somethin’ even sweeter. You got a beautiful voice, darlin’.” He’d given you a close-lipped smile, one that made his eyes crinkle at the edges. His southern drawl was thick like syrup, coated across every word with something mixed in that you couldn’t quite place.
“Oh, I‘ve got years of church choir to thank for that.” You’d joked. You’d tilted your head. “Would you like to try anything, sir? I could always use a taste tester.”
He’d hesitated for a moment longer than would be normal, as if debating something serious in his mind, before shaking his head. He chuckled. “Nah, I’m tryin’ to cut back.”
“Aw, that’s a shame. If you change your mind, I’ll be at the market tomorrow. Feel free to stop by.” You’d said. He’d smiled back at you in a way that suggested he knew something you didn’t, told you that you wouldn’t be seeing him at the market or any day after that.
As soon as the sun went down though, he continued appearing in your backyard. He never stayed long at first, only sticking around to strike up a brief conversation. You’d learned his name, Remmick, and he had learned yours. Your name was always soft on his tongue, like he needed to be careful with something precious. He listened to you talk like you spoke the gospel, reverence in those blue-gray eyes as he never missed a word. In turn he would tell you stories of a time long ago, weaving vibrant imagery that made you feel as if you were standing in the green fields of a country far away. It confirmed things about him that you already suspected, like how he wasn’t from here at all, that he came from something hundreds or maybe even thousands of years old.
You’d sit on your little porch swing while he’d remain in the grass leaning against the railing, never truly breaching the line of your home. The night was warm and muggy, and there was a lull in your conversation, causing your gaze to travel to the banjo he continued to carry with him. “You any good on that thing?” You’d asked with a nod towards it.
Remmick huffed. “I like to think I am.”
You smirked. “Play me somethin’.”
He’d given you that signature smile. “Well, can’t deny a pretty thing like you, can I?”
He was always quick to flatter you, and you had to admit it was getting to you a little, something foreign fluttering in your chest. He’d swung the instrument around, resting it in deft hands and idly strumming a string or two as he thought about what to play. He’d then struck the first few chords and you quickly realized you recognized the song, it being one your family had shared together for years. You couldn’t help but sing along, shutting your eyes and letting yourself feel the music within as your body swayed. It meant that you missed the way Remmick looked at you, like you were heaven come to earth, adoration and reverence burning in his eyes like the hottest fire. That was the moment something clicked into place for him, that cemented his need to have you in whatever way he could.
He was downright obsessed with you. He couldn’t stay away from you and your sweet voice, your mouth watering smell, your entire being that seemed to be kissed by the sun. He knew he’d do anything to stay in your warmth, in your blessing. He kept coming by night after night, staying as long as his hunger allowed or until you couldn’t stop yawning and finally headed to bed with a sleepy goodnight. Part of him wished to follow you inside, thinking of how easy it’d be to take you in the carnal way he secretly desired, to lock you to him for eternity, but Remmick always held back, another part of him not wanting to ruin what you have. After all, he couldn’t remember the last time he’d had a civil conversation with someone that didn’t end with their blood smeared along his face. He couldn’t remember the last time he’d been shown such simple kindness, he couldn’t remember the last time he’d felt so human.
You didn’t know how much time passed like that, with easy talks and shared songs into the late hours when everybody else would be asleep. You always kept your physical distance, as did he, like some unspoken understanding. The emotional distance was another story, something that was shortening by the day. Feelings were blooming into something out of control, mixing with your desire in order to make a sickly concoction.
You both knew you were onto him, onto the fact he was something unnatural and ancient, but you never bothered to bring it up. You’d heard enough stories from your momma about things like him, you understood how dangerous they were but… you couldn’t find it in yourself to chase him off. You’d grown too fond of him, of his stupid smile and charming words, his endless stories and soothing voice. He felt much the same and yet… you were at some kind of mutual standstill, neither of you quite knowing what to do with it.
Until the one night he didn’t show up.
You’d waited. You’d sat on the porch with furrowed brows and downturned lips, disappointment sitting heavy behind your heart. Had he gotten bored of you? Decided to disappear without a word? You’d supposed it wasn’t a shock, it happened to you all the time. You gave him an hour before you sighed in defeat, heading back inside so the bugs didn’t eat you alive for nothing. You tried to ignore the hurt you felt, knowing it was useless to feel it over someone—something—like him. He didn’t owe you anything, hell, you were lucky he hadn’t killed you. Maybe it was some kind of sign. You’d gone to bed just as thunder rumbled outside, lightning flickering between the clouds.
You were woken hours later by a knock on your back door. You’d grumbled and wrapped a robe around yourself, trudging down the hall and to the kitchen, eyeing the silhouette hidden behind the mesh screen. There was something whispering to not open it, to protect yourself and just crawl right back into bed. You noticed the silence that had settled around your home, the one that made the frogs quiet and the crickets cease their songs, the one always followed by a familiar figure. You knew something was off, could feel it in your bones, but it didn’t stop you from opening that door.
You’d gasped so sharply that it hurt, your body stumbling back a step. Remmick stood there, blood covering his front half, his eyes gleaming a deep red that reflected in the same way an animal’s did. The whole way he carried himself was different, more predatory and deadly, poised to kill at a moments notice. His clothes were disshelved, his bangs plastered to his forehead from sweat. The wind carried the smell of him to you, ancient earth and leather tainted with the iron of blood. He opened his mouth and you saw the teeth sharpened to fangs, coated with his meal.
He smiled at you, and it was no longer one that made your heart flutter. It sent a cold shiver down your spine. “You gon’ let me in, darlin’? Or just keep starin’?”
He liked the way you looked at him then, like everything finally snapped into place for you. Mixed with your fear was a kind of defiance, like you were trying to tell yourself not to be frightened. He liked you seeing him for what he truly was, liked knowing you still wouldn’t cower. It’s what made you step aside and say those simple words, even though you knew your momma was surely rolling in her grave at your stupidity.
Something heavy shifted when he stepped inside your home. Something that told you it could never be undone and you’d have to bear the consequences, but you found that you didn’t care. “So that’s what you are,” you muttered, “a vampire.” You’d heard of them before from your momma, you knew how to kill one. You were pretty sure there was even some kind of emergency kit hidden in a closet somewhere.
Remmick chuckled low and dark, shaking his head. “You knew this whole time and you ain’t ever run or scream or cry…” He smirked, triumphant. “I knew you was somethin’ special, darlin’.”
He sat in a chair at your dining table like it belonged to him, his eyes traveling around your home as he swallowed down every bit of information he could glean about you. The floral designs on the dish cloths, portraits hung on the walls, keepsakes littering empty spaces, and a thick recipe book sitting on the counter—all of it a testament to you, the woman he didn’t stop thinking about night after night. Your scent was so heavy in your home it made it feel like he was breathing in a drug every time he inhaled and fuck- he couldn’t get enough. He wanted it to live inside him, he wanted you to make your home in his veins, in the space between his ribs. He wanted you with him forever.
He watched with a predator’s gaze as you filled a bowl with water, desperate to do something to keep yourself busy. It was brave of you to keep your back to him, but it was like you knew he wouldn’t do anything unless you asked. He’d get on his knees for you if you wanted, he’d beg just to hear his name fall from your lips.
You grabbed one of your pretty little dish rags, setting it and the bowl next to him while you sat in front of him, so close your knees almost touched. He could tell how much you were trying to hide your fear from your expression but he still saw it in your furrowed brows and pressed lips and your eyes that were just a bit too wide. “I’m scarin’ ya.” He said it like a fact, one without room for dispute. His fierce red irises bore into yours, seeing everything you wanted to hide. You went to protest, your trembling mouth opening before he shushed you. “Don’t lie. I can smell it.” It was potent and intoxicating, seeping from your pores and making drool threaten to fall down his chin.
“I ain’t scared of you.” You said with a false confidence. You dipped the rag into the warm water and suddenly grabbed his face in one hand as if to prove it, shocking the both of you with your boldness. Remmick visibly shuddered under your touch, his eyes fluttering briefly and a small noise coming from him, even as your fingers dug into the plush of his cheeks. Oh, how long he’d waited to feel your hands on him, the warmth of your humanity, the softness of your skin. He couldn’t believe he’d gone this long without it, without something that was clearly so vital to his very existence. He knew then he could never go another day without touching you.
“Don’t want you makin’ a mess in my house.” You muttered like an excuse, dragging the rag across his upper lip and moving down, taking the blood with it. He was more than willing to relax into your ministrations, letting you clean him as if he was a child. Nobody had ever done it for him before, after all. He watched you all the while—the crease between your brows, the determined curve of your mouth, studying every detail and committing it to memory.
“I ain’t a stranger to blood, you know. My daddy used to be a doctor.” You began after a good few minutes, talking to keep yourself distracted from the reality of your situation. Remmick didn’t mind of course, he loved your voice more than life itself. His attention immediately shifted towards the sound like a dog with its ears perked.
“Used to?” He’d asked.
“He died in the war. Momma went soon after, they basically said heartbreak caused her stroke n’ killed her.” Your head shook. “She really loved that man to death. Couldn’t blame her, he was the kindest soul you’d ever meet. Always helpin’ the poor and needy, bringing ‘em into the house to heal ‘em when they couldn’t afford their bills. He’d make me help sometimes, getting fresh water and whatnot. That’s why you ain’t nothin’ special.”
“How sweet of ya.” Remmick teased, his fangs showing with his uneven smile.
You’d ignored him, rubbing the cloth along his collarbones and across the gold chain he wore, clearly beginning to discolor from age. The water in the bowl had long since turned red, your dishrag officially ruined but it was the least of your concerns (and Remmick had gotten you a new one later on).
When you’d deemed him clean enough, you moved to get up and dump the bloody water before his large, cold hand latched onto your wrist, stopping you abruptly. It was like the tension was pulled taught as a bowstring at that moment, some small seedling of doubt in you saying he was about to kill you while he just stared at where your bodies were connected. It was slow and purposeful when Remmick brought your hand up to his mouth and ran his lips along your palm, breathing you in, tasting you with darts of his tongue. You felt the flush crawl up the back of your neck and across your cheeks, watching as he nuzzled into your hand, looking at you with those wide red eyes, every reminder of the last couple months together hanging there. Every shared story, every vulnerability, every song sung together.
“I need ya, sweet thing, shoot- I’ve needed ya since that first day. I’ll treat ya nice and good, I swear it on my dead heart.” Remmick said to you, his words thick, heavy, and gravelly with his desire. “You’ll never want for nothin’, darlin’, I’ll give ya everythin’, I promise. Please, baby, let me prove it to ya-“
He continued to kiss along your arm, so determined to show you the truth behind his words, to make you give in to him with murmured pleas and prayers. He relished in the taste of you, his breaths growing labored from his excitement. You stopped him with your hands on either side of his face to pull him back, his lips parted and shiny with spit, his eyes still glowing red but full of unbridled desire for you. You already knew your answer, had known it the whole time. You were so tired of being alone, so tired of searching for someone, anyone, to love you and understand you. You didn’t care that the only one who did was a monster in the body of a man—there was something about it that made it even sweeter.
So you’d agreed.
There was only a second of pause, like Remmick was processing it, those simple words that tilted his entire world, before he was on you. He kissed you with such ferocity, such possession, his hands roaming all over you, gripping you so tightly you had no choice but to submit to him. He’d swept you up with ease, carrying you into your bedroom where he’d fucked you stupid until the sun rose, pulling more orgasms from you than you thought possible, pinning you beneath his sweat soaked body and filling you again and again, whispering his thanks and devotions the entire time. You’d slept through the whole day after that with Remmick cradling you against his cooled body, encasing you in his arms like he was afraid you’d take it all back if he let go.
That was how you fell into the routine of your relationship. He’d spend the light hours tucked away inside the safety of your house while you went about your day, then he’d leave most nights in search of food before coming back hours later and fucking you senseless, exhilarated from both the hunt and seeing you again. Remmick made you feel more loved and protected than you ever had before, always saying praises and promises into your skin like a prayer you’d hear in church, always giving you everything he had to offer. He’d sometimes even bring you gifts after his hunts, little things he knew you’d like. Fresh berries he stole from a garden or farm, beautiful flowers to go right on the table, a book or two he was able to snag off somebody.
It went on like this for months, and then it became a year, then two, until Remmick couldn’t take it anymore and he decided he needed you in a way that was deeper than what he’d been indulging in. It didn’t mean you getting bit, no, not yet, it meant you got presented with a pretty gold ring that matched his own. He asked you to marry him on a warm summers night, when fireflies were dancing outside and the critters of the moon were singing their songs. You’d said yes without hesitation, flinging your arms around him and kissing him until you both ran out of breath. You’d spent the rest of the moon hours dancing and singing and making love, too full of joy to do much else.
It was the best way for Remmick to have you forever, for every other man to know you belonged to him. He knew that one day he would bite you, he would drain the life from your body, he’d taste the sweet nectar of your blood that he so craved, he’d make you just like him and truly keep you for eternity. But that day wasn’t coming anytime soon.
He refused to be greedy just this once, deciding he wasn’t ready to take away your love of sunny days and the warmth of your skin, the thrum of a pulse in your veins. He wasn’t ready to ruin the simple pleasures of being a human being. But he knew he could never stand to lose you to something as menial as old age, or stand by and let some tragedy befall you. Biting you is like his sick way of protecting you, of showing you his love and devotion, even if you don’t know it yet, even if it takes you time to understand. It’d happen no matter what, he knew, but he’d let you enjoy those bright days in ignorance a little while longer.
Remmick can smell it on you now, the hours you’d spent in the sun earlier today, selling your baked goods at the market. The coldness within his bones seeks out your heat, desperate to bask in it and take it for his own. You give him a pleased hum as he grips your waist, blankets being moved aside to reveal your body to him. You’re pliant in his hold, always eager to give in, always eager to let him take control. It’s nice when you can step outside of yourself and just be, something you’ve only been able to do with him.
You can tell that he’s softer this time, his touch more reverent, something about it full of more longing like he’s memorizing every bit of you. He holds you like a man making love to his wife, not a monster clutching his possession so nobody else takes it. His mouth on yours is sensual, a twin to the hands beneath your nightdress, steadily bunching the material up your body so the air kisses along your flesh and leaves goosebumps in its wake.
“Shit, darlin’, yer too perfect.” Remmick mutters, nearly breathless as he looks down at you, your supple curves, the expanse of your breasts and stomach that nearly has him drooling—not from hunger, but from pure want- no, pure need for you. Even after all this time, his attention still makes you squirm, your thighs squeezing together subconsciously. His eyes track the movement like a predator, the burning hue of red steadily consuming his irises once more.
One of his hands moves lower, parting your legs with ease and running his fingers along your clothed cunt. He hums to himself, feeling the way your wetness has dampened your underwear. “Missed me, huh?” He says, his crooked teeth showing in his smirk. He loves that all you can do is nod, a pathetic little noise coming from you. The scent of your arousal hits him like a truck, a guttural groan tearing from his chest as it seems to ignite his blood with desire. You smell so goddamn sweet, like the ripest fruit sitting ready for him to take and sink his teeth into.
Your underwear is moved aside and you jolt at that first contact, his fingers dragging up through your folds and collecting your slick. You whimper as he buries his face in the crook of your neck again, a deep groan coming from him with his inhale. As his thumb rolls your clit, his other hand comes up to knead a breast beneath his palm, the cold metal of his ring nipping at your skin. You can feel the way Remmick’s chest heaves against you, his desperate breaths fanning across your throat between his open-mouthed kisses.
You gasp when two fingers sink into your heat, your hands coming to scrabble at his shoulders. You always take him easily, your body attuned to him alone, like he’s branded into your very essence. It drives him crazy. “Fuck, Remmick-“ You whine, arching into his touch. He responds instantly to you saying his name; a harsher squeeze to your breast, a little show of his teeth against your neck, his hips rutting against you in search of friction. His name coming from you is like touching two wires together, sending sparks through his rotten veins. He’d happily walk into the sun as long as your voice is the last thing he hears.
You writhe under his weight, pleasure running like a wildfire beneath your skin. He devours every moan, whine, and gasp he pulls out of you, his erection painful in his pants from his lust and need. His fingers draw in and out of your cunt in smooth motions, pressing against the spots that have you keening, scissoring you open while your slick coats his palm. His thumb traces quick circles over your clit, listening to the way your body sings for him. He knows you’re close, your noises raising in pitch, your nails digging into his back, your pussy clenching around his fingers. 
“C’mon darlin’, give it to me.” Remmick encourages, lifting just enough to look at your face, your expression twisted with pleasure. Tears edging the corners of your eyes, your pretty mouth dropped open, your cheeks flushed. Your hands rest of either side of his jaw, drawing him in and kissing him deeply as your orgasm crashes over you. He groans appreciatively while you moan into his mouth, shudders wracking your body. He rides you through your orgasm, steadily bringing you down from that high as he practically engulfs you with his muscled form like he needs there to not be a singular inch of space between you. “My sweet girl.” He whispers against your mouth, a string of spit connecting you, his eyes ablaze with his desire.
As your underwear is tossed to some unknown corner, he fumbles with the buckle of his belt, shoving it aside to finally free his aching cock, precum beading at the tip. He runs his slick-covered hand along his length, happily coating himself in your release. He gives a sound halfway between a hum and a moan. “Fuck, darlin’, I need ya…” He practically gasps against your collarbones, his cock slipping between your folds, collecting the remainder of your cum. “Need ya so bad.”
You both moan in tandem when he at last thrusts into you, his hips flush to yours and filling you so completely in the way he’s done countless times before. His hand suddenly finds yours, your fingers intertwining and gripping on to the other so tightly it’s like you’re scared they’ll disappear if you let go. He draws out to the tip only to then slam back in, ecstasy simmering in his veins now that he can take you. He bites your skin between his blunt teeth, teasing that goldmine of ambrosia waiting just beneath, calling to him. He’s dreamt of the day he can finally drink from you, can finally have more than just the few drops that bubble to the surface from a cut or him biting too hard. He pushes those thoughts away now, not daring to tempt his appetite and instead focusing on the way your pussy holds onto him like a vice.
Your free hand comes up to card through his sweat-soaked hair, his short bangs plastered to his forehead. You grip at the strands for purchase as he sets an unrelenting, steady pace, his desperate pleas and vows to you a constant in your ear. You know for a fact no man’s ever loved you the way he does, no man’s ever been this desperate for you, so willing to get on his knees just for you to look at him. You welcomed him in, gave him something to hold on to and call his own, some place to belong—and he’ll spend the rest of his eternity showing you his gratitude.
You moan loud after a particularly harsh thrust, his grip on you tightening as he hits that sweet spot inside of you, the one that knocks the breath from your lungs and has you seeing stars. “So beautiful, sweet girl, y’sound so nice.” Remmick pants, his drool that’s begun to fall smearing along your skin. “Feel so good, so fuckin’ tight fer me.”
You practically chant his name mixed with a slew of curses, voice punctuated by his rutting into you. He has you pinned to the mattress, his muscles flexing against you with his efforts, making sure you stay right where he wants you. He licks up your neck, tasting the saltiness of your sweat, inhaling the drug that is your scent, heightened by your pleasure and mixed with something intoxicating. His groan falls off into a whine, mind overridden by his adoration for you and his lust, chasing the release he can feel building.
He knows it’s the same for you, he can feel your flutters around his cock, that knot within you growing to the point of soon coming undone. His free hand releases your hip to find your clit, rubbing jerky, uneven circles over the sensitive bud while you writhe in an attempt to get away from the overload of pleasure. Remmick never gives you the chance, your body tensing as that second orgasm crashes over you like an angry wave, your noises becoming broken and breathless.
Remmick’s eyes nearly roll back from the way your pussy grips his cock, his forehead falling to your chest as he tries to laugh and fails. “Shit, suckin’ me in. Fuck, sweet thing- I can’t-“ He manages one last thrust before he cums deep inside you, his words breaking off with a wail, your walls painted white with his spend.
You both lay there for a moment, motionless in the aftermath of release, combined sweat covering your bodies and your hands still locked together. You and him shudder when his cock slips out of you, your shared cum beginning to seep from you in his absence.
Remmick is the first to regain himself, as always, his lips leaving gentle kisses on the space between your breasts and up your throat and jaw before reaching your mouth. He kisses you sweetly, then pulling back to bring your hand to his lips, leaving a gentle kiss on your knuckles, on your wedding ring. “My perfect girl.” He murmurs. “So good to me.”
You smile tiredly, your arms slinging across his shoulders. “Could say the same to you.” You tease. You then sigh contentedly, bringing him in and encouraging him to lay on your chest. “I love you, Remmick, I hope you know that.”
Those three words, so simple and yet so damning, always make him stop. He has to run them over in his mind, like he doesn’t believe they can actually be said to a thing like him. His hold on your hips tightens, his face nuzzling into you as if to hide from that phrase. “‘Course I do. Love you too, darlin’.” He mumbles, the words still foreign on his old tongue. Your smile softens, your fingers running soothingly through his hair. You pull the covers back up around you both, encasing him in the warmth that he lacks.
Outside, you can hear the familiar early morning sounds of the South; the birds chirping, the bugs buzzing in their swarms, and the occasional car sputtering by. The world wakes up beyond your reinforced curtains, basking in the sunlight that Remmick so violently hides away from. He knows that in a few hours you’ll go out and join them, greeting your neighbors and sharing recent news, playing a game of normalcy so nobody asks too many questions about the husband they’ve never seen.
But for right now, he’ll enjoy being able to hold you and feel your body right against his, your steady heartbeat drumming in his ear as sleep pulls you away. He’ll enjoy having you all to himself in the safety of the dark before you step out into the daylight and leave him behind.
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woovalin · 10 months ago
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i’m in such disbelief right now and beyond disgusted.
i really hope y’all are choosing your morals over kpop; because we do not know these men at all. i will never side with or defend a predator and a criminal, even with little to no proof. even if there is the smallest chance he may be innocent, i will always believe the victim first.
some of you, as fans of the boys for years and him in general, i know you must be feeling disappointed and betrayed. you’re not dumb for previously supporting him, as we couldn’t have possibly known. but now is the time for a reality check and it’s time to wake up and take a step back. this just goes to show that we know absolutely nothing about them.
for sm to just outright put out a statement on their own before any rumors even surfaced and immediately kick him out? this has to be insanely serious and i’m terrified of what he could’ve done. the crazy thing is with everything currently happening in korea with the telegram situation, and korean women constantly being in danger in general because of the men there, i’m not at all surprised that celebrities are being exposed. sm has protected criminals before, and held onto lucas when his scandal came out as well as other artists who have been exposed for similar crimes. i can’t even imagine the severity of the current situation. we’ve seen what happened with the burning sun, and these men are not immune to being misogynistic, vile human beings.
members have already unfollowed him and deleted posts with him in them; his best friend of 17yrs has unfollowed him. the company taking the initiative and him getting kicked out of the group in less than a second before anything even came out, no denying the claims or even trying to defend him. that should be enough to tell you and understand how serious this actually is. i am beyond disgusted with him and this whole situation.
i sincerely hope the victim is doing okay and praying for them to heal and get the justice they deserve. and remember that your love for these celebrities should always be conditional, because we do not know them. it’s their job to put on a show and show you their public persona, but behind closed doors? we don’t know what they’re actually like. we put them on a pedestal and yet we don’t know what they’re really capable of. they are still men after all. i hope the police are taking this seriously. there needs to be consequences and these women need to be protected.
let this be a lesson to all of us. they don’t know us, and we don’t know them, not really, not at all.
ALWAYS choose morals over these strangers you idolize. and as women, we should be standing with the victims.
maybe not all men, but enough of them. and maybe not all men, but somehow always a man. and going forward, i will continue to support nct as a whole with the remaining members. however, keeping the situation in mind, i will be supporting from afar for a little while. if the situation escalates and other members are investigated and new information comes to light about the rest of them either knowing or possibly being involved, it would be best to step away for good. i will do my best to stay updated. but i do hope the rest of the members are doing okay, and hopefully no other members were involved; but this, just shows that they can always surprise us. you never think it’ll be your fave, until it is.
let’s hope this causes a domino effect and more of these people are exposed and charged for the crimes they’re committing.
sending love to anyone who has ever experienced sexual violence or has been targeted and been in a similar situation. it is not your fault and it never was!
love you all and my dms are always open if you need to vent. <3
❗️EDIT: also i wanna add that we need to not praise the rest of the members or any other celebrity for simply unfollowing him on social media. that is the least of anyone’s worries.
we don’t know if they were aware, we don’t know if they knew and were protecting him or turning a blind eye. it could be them trying to save themselves and clear their guilty conscience. maybe they didn’t know and are just as shocked as we are, we don’t know that either.
we blindly trust these people and believe they have good intentions but look at where that can lead to. fans being upset is valid, yes; but remember people with money and power will do whatever it takes to sweep things under the rug and make it go away in order to save face and keep their image and reputation.
follow-up post here.
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jaesblogstuff · 1 month ago
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Don’t forget who you belong to
as much as i love to write smut, i love softness and fluff much more. So here’s this ig??? (smut tmr if you’re lucky)
The house is quiet.
Save for the sound of Simon strapping his combat boots on in the hallway—low, heavy movements that echo against the walls like a clock ticking down. You hear the creak of leather, the muted grunt as he adjusts the holster under his jacket, and the metallic click of a blade sliding home.
He’s not late. But he’s rushing.
You dry your hands on a towel, fold it neatly, purposefully, and cast a glance at the clock. Then you walk out of the kitchen and down the hall, toward the door where he’s gearing up like he’s about to step into hell. Maybe he is.
You’ve stopped asking where he’s going. He tells you what he can, when he can. That’s enough. You don’t need details. You just need to make sure he comes back from it.
Simon doesn’t look up when you step into the room. His eyes are already hard. Distant. That part of him—the one you fight to keep buried at home—is surfacing fast. And it’s not just the gear. It’s in his shoulders, the way he moves. Measured. Final.
He’s halfway gone.
You stand there and wait. Silent.
He feels you before he sees you. But when he finally does look up, his gaze latches to yours like it always does. Like it’s checking in, one last time, before he puts the mask back on.
“I’m going,” he says.
You raise an eyebrow. “Clearly.”
A twitch of his mouth. Almost a smirk. It dies just as quick. You step forward, fingers brushing the edge of his collar, smoothing it down without ceremony. He lets you—stands still for you like he always does. Even now.
“Did you eat?”
“I’ll grab something with the lads.”
You click your tongue. “No, you won’t. You’ll drink. You’ll act like you’re bulletproof. And halfway through the night, your blood sugar will tank and your hands will start to shake. So no. You’re eating now.”
He doesn’t respond. Just stares.
You jerk your chin toward the small pack on the table. “It’s already in there. Sandwiches. Painkillers. Something with protein. And the granola bar you actually like. Not the ones you pretend to.”
He glances. Then back at you. “You’re not my mum.”
You fold your arms. “No. I’m worse. I’m the woman who knows all your passwords, your triggers, and where you keep the spare knife taped under the mattress. And you’re still dumb enough to test me.”
That earns you the smallest flicker of something in his eyes. Humor, maybe; but it’s fleeting.
You shift closer.
“I know how you get when you’re with them. Johnny starts barking and Gaz pulls some stupid stunt that should get someone killed. You go from zero to Ghost in five seconds flat.”
You grab the front of his vest. Not rough, but not soft either. A simple grip, grounding. Real.
“So let me be very clear,” you say, voice low and steady. “You go out there and start acting like you’ve got nothing to lose, I will show up. In my robe. In my slippers. Face cream still on. And I will drag your fully-armed, testosterone-fueled, world-ending ass out of that pub by the collar.”
Silence.
“You hear me Mr Riley?”
He doesn’t blink. Doesn’t nod. Just stands there. Alert. Because he knows you. And he knows you’re not bluffing.
You keep going. Calm. Deadly.
“You’re not just their attack dog, Simon. You’re not some weapon for hire. You’re mine. And if you forget that even for a second—if you let one of those idiots hype you into acting like the world won’t miss you—”
You lean in, voice softer now, barely above a whisper.
“—I’ll remind you.”
Simon swallows. His jaw works slightly. The edge in him, that cold razor-wire coil, loosens just enough to let the man underneath breathe again.
“I hear you,” he says finally, quiet.
You reach into the pocket of your robe and pull out the granola bar, press it into his palm. “Eat that now. And the rest later. You don’t get to come home to me half-dead because you couldn’t be arsed to eat.”
He takes it. No argument.
Your hand finds his chest, solid beneath the gear, and you feel him exhale under your touch. Just for a second.
“You come home to me whole,” you say. “Or I come out there and finish the job myself.”
His eyes soften at the edges. Only a little. The corner of his mouth shifts, half a twitch.
Then he grabs the bag, slings it over his shoulder, and opens the door.
But before he steps out, before the world takes him away again, he turns back, just slightly. That cold, distant thing starting to creep into his face again. But his voice cuts through, low and rough
“Love you.”
You don’t smile. “uh huh, right”.
You just watch him go.
And he knows, without question, you’ll still be right here when he returns.
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shaiyasstuff · 3 months ago
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glass half full | xavier | drabble
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“It was always going to be her, wasn’t it?”
Your voice slipped through the stillness of the apartment, soft but sharp enough to slice through the air between you. It lingered in the hallway like smoke, unshakable.
Xavier stilled.
One foot forward, one hand still holding the edge of the wall. He didn’t turn at first—just stood there, his back to you, silent in a way that felt louder than any answer.
When he finally faced you, his expression was unreadable. Of course it was. He always was.
He parted his lips to speak, but no words came. Just a subtle shift in his jaw—a clench, a twitch. Hesitation.
So you stepped closer. “That’s why you’ve been leaving so often lately,” you said, barely above a whisper.
Another step.
“Why you’re willing to throw yourself into danger without hesitation.”
Another.
“Because you still love her.”
Now, you stood right in front of him. Inches away. Just close enough to feel the way he tensed.
“Then what am I?” you asked.
Your voice was calm, but your eyes betrayed you. You could feel the tears brimming, but you held them back. You wouldn’t let them fall. Not yet.
Xavier didn’t speak. Not even a breath of denial. His gaze didn’t waver, but it didn’t soften either. Still clouds. Still distance.
You pressed again, a whisper cracking at the edge. “Why do you still keep me around, then?”
This time, he flinched.
It was the smallest movement—a flicker in those pale blue eyes.
But you saw it.
You always saw him, even when he tried so hard to be unseen.
You weren’t asking for him to change fate. You knew how cruelly and arbitrarily the universe worked. Knew that some ties were stitched into the soul long before choices ever mattered.
But still. It hurt.
Because you were here. With him.
The one who shared coffee with him at 6 a.m. The one who stitched him up, not from battle wounds, but from the quiet ones no one else saw.
Because you loved him first.
And she didn’t even know.
“…Tell me,” you breathed, and your voice trembled this time.
A final plea slipping through the cracks of you.
His hand lifted halfway, like he meant to reach for you—maybe your cheek, your hand, anything.
But it hung there, suspended in indecision.
Caught between instinct and guilt.
And that—that was what broke you.
Not the silence.
Not the truth.
But the almost.
“I haven’t said anything until now… because I loved you.”
Your voice broke on the last word, cracking like porcelain under too much weight.
It trembled in the quiet, echoing off the walls that had once known softer versions of the two of you.
“I kept hoping,” you whispered, breath catching on a sob, “that maybe… maybe you’d see it.”
Your hand curled into your palm.
“That she doesn’t want you.”
The truth sat heavy in the space between you, too brutal to deny, too cruel to change.
Because she didn’t.
The lady hunter he clung to in silence had already moved on—living out her days in sunlit contentment with your doctor friend, oblivious to the way Xavier watched her like she was a constellation he could never reach.
And you… you had been right here the entire time.
Waiting. Wanting.
Loving him in ways she never would.
His fists clenched at his sides, the knuckles paling as tension rippled through his frame. You had never seen him look smaller, despite the quiet strength he always carried.
“I know,” he said.
Barely audible.
But it landed like thunder.
You stared at him, stunned—not by the confession, but by the ache tucked behind those two simple words. Like he’d been carrying them for a long time. Like they were too heavy to hold, and too late to matter.
You wanted to scream. To ask then why?
Why let you drown in your silence while he chased after a ghost?
But you couldn’t.
Because there was grief in his voice too. Grief that didn’t belong to you.
And maybe that was the cruelest part of all.
He knew.
He chose it anyway.
“I see.”
It came out on a breath, a fragile exhale laced with quiet resignation. A sob followed, muffled as you bit it back, swallowing the rest of your heartbreak.
You stepped past him—slowly, deliberately—shoulder brushing his as you moved toward the door. Your voice barely rose above a whisper.
“I’ll come back for my things.”
That was all you could manage.
No accusations. No pleas.
Just an ending dressed in softness.
But before you reached the door, his hand shot out and caught your wrist.
“Y/N.”
Your name broke in his mouth—softer than you’d ever heard it. Almost reverent. Almost afraid.
You didn’t look back. Not yet.
You couldn’t trust yourself to.
Not when his grip was warm and trembling.
Not when it felt like he meant it, finally.
But meaning it now changed nothing.
His hand was firm around your wrist, but his voice wavered.
Like he was holding on not just to you, but to everything that might vanish the moment you took another step.
You stood there, your back to him, shoulders trembling.
He said your name again—quieter this time. “Y/N… please.”
Please.
The word sounded foreign on his tongue. As if he didn’t know how to ask for things he thought he’d already lost.
“I didn’t mean for it to be like this,” he said, and for once, his tone cracked through the calm. “I didn’t—”
He let go of your wrist like it burned him.
“I kept telling myself… it wasn’t fair to you. That I should pull away. But every time I tried—” His breath hitched. “You made it impossible.”
You turned to him then, tears clinging to your lashes.
His eyes were the color of sorrow, clouded and storm-wrung. “You were always here,” he murmured. “You stayed. Even when I didn’t deserve it.”
You wanted him to say the words. To finally say what he truly felt.
But instead, all he gave you was this—
“I don’t know how to let you go.”
And somehow, that hurt more than if he had.
Because love was never the problem.
Choice was.
“That’s what they all say,” you whispered, voice thin and fraying.
Xavier stood frozen, breath shallow in his chest.
“That you didn’t mean for this to happen. That it just—got out of control.” Your voice began to rise, shaky and sharp. “There’s always a reason. A justification. A story that makes it hurt less—for you.”
The silence between you stretched, brittle and aching.
“She’s my friend, too.”
That part came softer. So soft he almost missed it.
But he didn’t. He heard it.
And it hit him harder than any accusation ever could.
You looked at him then—really looked at him.
Not like someone you loved.
Not like someone you were begging to stay.
You looked at him like someone you were done trying to understand.
“Do you know how stupid that makes me feel?” you asked, voice trembling at the edge of tears. “To be the one to see it? To sit across from both of you and smile like I didn’t feel the air thinning every time you looked at her?”
Xavier’s lips parted, but there was nothing behind them—no defense, no denial.
Just guilt. And grief.
And the realization that maybe the worst thing he ever did… was say nothing at all.
And still, you waited. Not for an apology.
Just for something real.
Something true.
“Say something…”
Your voice cracked—not out of anger, but desperation. A final plea, quiet and trembling, like a hand outstretched in the dark.
Xavier’s gaze flickered, faltered.
His mouth opened—closed—opened again.
But still, nothing came. Just silence.
Just the sound of rain starting to tap against the windows, soft and cruel.
He looked like he was unraveling from the inside out. Like the words were there, tangled somewhere deep in his throat, buried beneath everything he was too late to admit.
“I…” he finally breathed, barely audible. “I thought if I kept my distance, it would go away.”
He laughed, bitterly, at himself. “Not the feeling. Just… the choice. Like if I said nothing, I wasn’t choosing at all.”
His eyes met yours, raw and wrecked.
“But silence is a choice, isn’t it?”
And it was. The worst kind.
You didn’t speak. You didn’t need to.
He saw the answer in your eyes. In the way your shoulders dropped.
In the way hope quietly slipped out of the room, one breath at a time.
“I never wanted to hurt you,” he whispered.
And maybe he didn’t. But he did.
He just didn’t love you enough not to.
“I have to see her,” you choked out between shallow breaths, the sobs rising faster than you could contain them. “Every day… at work.”
Your voice broke entirely then, cracking open like the rest of you. “She looks at me like nothing happened. Like I’m not falling apart every time she says your name.”
You wiped at your face with the back of your hand, but the tears kept falling, hot and relentless. “Do you know how cruel that feels?”
You laughed—a hollow, broken thing. “She doesn’t even know. She doesn’t even know what I’ve lost.”
Xavier took a half-step forward, his hands twitching at his sides like he wanted to hold you, to anchor you—but he didn’t move further.
Didn’t speak.
And that—again—was the problem.
“She gets to have everything,” you whispered. “She gets your loyalty, your heart, your silence… and she doesn’t even know.”
Your hands clenched at your sides, not in anger, but in helplessness.
“I loved you loudly, Xavier. I was here. I chose you. Every day. Every damn day.”
Your voice collapsed into a whisper.
“And you let me stand in the shadow of someone who wasn’t even looking.”
The door slammed behind you, but you didn’t stop. You couldn’t.
Rain tore through the sky in torrents, drenching you to the bone as you stumbled down the steps and out into the street.
You couldn’t feel the cold.
Couldn’t hear the storm over the sound of your own sobbing breath.
It wasn’t supposed to end like this.
Not like this.
Your vision blurred—tears and rain indistinguishable. The world moved too fast, too loud, too bright.
You didn’t see the car. Not until it was too late.
The light turned red.
You stepped off the curb.
A horn blared.
Tires screamed.
“Y/N!”
His voice cut through everything.
You turned your head, just enough to see him.
Xavier, sprinting after you, drenched and terrified, hand reaching out like he could will time to stop.
But it didn’t.
The impact was thunderous. A sickening thud.
Your body hit the hood, then the pavement. Hard.
Time fractured. Sound vanished.
Rain fell. Somewhere, people screamed.
Xavier was already on his knees beside you.
“No, no, no—Y/N, stay with me,” he begged, his hands trembling as they hovered above your face, not knowing where to touch without causing more damage.
Your eyes fluttered, unfocused, lips parting with a breath he didn’t know if you could finish.
“Why did you…” you whispered, voice too faint, too broken.
And Xavier—he broke.
“I’m here,” he said. “I’m here, I’ve got you, just—just keep your eyes on me, please—don’t do this.”
But your blood was on his hands now.
And for the first time, silence wasn’t a choice.
It was all that was left.
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airybcby · 3 months ago
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જ⁀♡⊹。° you outshine the morning sun
( sae itoshi x fem! reader )
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♡ a/n — just a short drabble bc domestic sae has invaded my brain
♡ word count — 705
♡ content — sae itoshi x reader, sae x fem! reader, made sae abt 25 in this, marriage mentioned, pregnancy mentioned. AN: i'd give this man as many babies as he wants.
♡ synopsis — sae itoshi didn't need to be a soccer god, not as long as he had you
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The roar of the crowd still buzzed in Sae Itoshi’s ears as he exited the stadium, the post-game adrenaline barely settled in his veins. The night air was thick with the voices of fans calling his name, their desperation and admiration mixing into a cacophony he had long since learned to ignore.
"Sae! Just one autograph!"
"Marry me, Sae! Please! Just one chance!"
"I’d give you as many babies as you want!"
The shrill voices of young girls, the deep admiration from older men, the wistful sighs of women both young and old—none of it meant anything to him. He kept his gaze forward, his hands clenched into tight fists at his sides as he pushed through the chaos. The only thing on his mind was getting home.
A sleek black car idled by the curb, the driver standing by the door, already well aware of the arrangement. No talking. No questions. Just drive and get him home as quickly as possible, and the tip would be hefty. An even bigger one if the trip was fast.
Sae slid into the back seat without a word, the door shutting out the noise of the world outside. He exhaled sharply, leaning back against the seat as the car pulled away from the stadium and into the quiet of the night. The streetlights blurred past, but he barely noticed them. Instead, his hands moved instinctively to his duffel bag, fingers searching through the smallest inside pocket until they curled around something cool and familiar.
A simple silver ring, discreet and unassuming, warmed quickly in his palm. His thumb brushed over the carved initials—his and yours—etched into the metal. He slipped it onto his ring finger, feeling a sense of calm wash over him.
Yeah. He just needed to get home.
The drive was mercifully quick, and before long, he was stepping out of the car and up the pathway to the house—the one place in the world where he wasn’t Sae Itoshi, soccer legend. He barely had time to set his duffel bag down when something small and fast crashed into his leg.
"Daddy!"
A grin tugged at Sae’s lips as he looked down, teal eyes meeting an identical pair staring up at him with pure joy. His daughter, barely three years old, clung to his leg with all her might. Her soft pink hair was pulled up into two messy pigtails, bouncing as she giggled.
"Hey, sweetheart," he murmured, crouching down to scoop her into his arms. She fit so perfectly against him, her tiny hands grabbing onto his jersey as if she never wanted to let go. And he? He didn’t mind one bit.
"Oh! I didn’t know you’d be home so soon," your voice rang out from the kitchen, warm and full of love. Sae glanced up just as you turned the corner, a wooden spoon in your hand, eyes crinkling at the sight of him. "The game just ended."
"Took a shortcut," he said simply, stepping closer to you.
His gaze flickered down to the soft curve of your stomach, where a second life—one he helped create—was steadily growing. Without hesitation, he reached out, resting a gentle hand there, feeling the warmth of your body beneath his fingertips.
A soft smile played on your lips as he leaned in, pressing a quick but meaningful kiss against them. Before you could deepen it, a tiny voice piped up between you.
"Yuck!" your daughter squealed, squirming in his arms.
You laughed, reaching out to tuck a stray strand of pink hair behind her ear. "You say that now, but one day, you’ll think it’s sweet."
"Nuh-uh!" she insisted, her little nose scrunching up in defiance.
Sae chuckled, finally feeling the weight of the world ease off his shoulders. Here, there were no screaming fans, no demanding coaches, no suffocating expectations. Just you, your daughter, and the quiet hum of home.
Sae Itoshi didn’t need fangirls, fanboys, or old women begging for his attention. He didn’t need adoration from the world, validation from the media, or the empty promises of strangers who only saw him as a soccer god.
Sae Itoshi just needed this.
Sae Itoshi just needed to be home.
Sae Itoshi just needed you.
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posting this as an apology for going MIA for a bit :)
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cheeseatlantic · 4 months ago
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oddities!!
The door creaks open, and before you can even call out, Simon’s voice fills the house.
“There’s my tiny wife,” he drawls, a teasing lilt in his voice. “Worked her little heart out today, didn’t she?”
You roll your eyes, barely able to suppress your smile as you sink deeper into the couch. Your feet ache from hours of standing, and your limbs feel like dead weight, but the second you hear him—deep, warm, and fond—you feel lighter.
Simon steps into the room, already shrugging off his jacket. His eyes sweep over you, and his lips twitch in amusement. “Christ, love. You look like you ran a marathon.”
You huff dramatically, stretching your arms above your head. “Might as well have.”
His gaze softens, and before you know it, he’s crouched in front of you, hands already reaching to pull your legs into his lap. His touch is firm but gentle, his thumbs pressing slow circles into your calves. “Poor little thing,” he murmurs, shaking his head like you’re the most pitiful creature he’s ever seen. “Made to work so hard today. Didn’t even have her big, strong Simon to help.”
You scoff, but the sound turns into a hum as his hands move higher, kneading the tension from your legs. “Mm. Keep talking like that, and I’ll start expecting this every day.”
Simon chuckles, a deep, rumbling sound that makes your stomach flutter. “You already do, sweetheart.”
He’s right. You do. But it’s not your fault that he treats you like you’re made of glass, like the world is too rough, too harsh for someone as soft as you. He’s been like this since the day you met, only worse now that you’re married—watching you like a hawk, carrying things before you can, doing the smallest, sweetest things that remind you just how much he adores you.
And God, do you love being adored by him.
His hands finally still, warm palms sliding up the sides of your thighs. “C’mon, up you go, baby.” he murmurs before effortlessly pulling you into his arms.
You yelp, but he barely reacts, shifting you in his hold as he settles onto the couch with you in his lap. His arms wrap around you, big and sturdy, and you melt against him.
“You’re ridiculous,” you mutter, face pressing into the soft fabric of his shirt.
“Mhm,” he hums, resting his chin atop your head. “But I’m your ridiculous husband.”
Your ridiculous husband who treats you like royalty, who kisses your forehead like it’s sacred, who never lets you lift a damn thing if he can help it.
“Did you eat?” he asks after a moment, tilting his head to try and meet your gaze.
You hesitate.
Simon sighs, already knowing the answer. “Of course, you didn’t,” he mutters, shifting as if he’s about to stand—with you still in his arms.
“Wait, wait!” you protest, wrapping your arms around his neck in an attempt to hold him still. “I was too tired, Simon.”
“Too tired to eat, but not too tired to sit here and pout?”
You glare up at him, and he grins.
“Sit tight, princess,” he murmurs, pressing a kiss to your temple before standing, still holding you like you weigh nothing. “Gonna fix this.”
Simon carries you to the kitchen, setting you on the counter with a firm, “Stay.” He turns toward the fridge, muttering under his breath, something about “can’t have my wife wasting away” and “useless at takin’ care of herself, she is.”
You swing your legs, watching him work. He moves with an easy confidence, pulling things out of the fridge, heating something up on the stove, like taking care of you is second nature. Like he doesn’t even have to think about it.
It makes your chest ache.
“Did you eat?” you ask, just to be difficult.
He doesn’t even turn around. “’Course I did. Unlike someone, I know how to take care of myself.”
You huff, leaning forward to grab his shirt and give it a little tug. “I take care of you.”
He finally turns, looking down at you with something soft in his eyes. “Yeah, sweetheart,” he murmurs, stepping between your legs. His hands settle on your waist, thumbs brushing against the fabric of your dress. “You do.”
You grin up at him, smug. “So, there.”
Simon chuckles, shaking his head before dipping down to kiss you. It’s slow and warm, his lips lingering on yours like he has nowhere else to be, nothing else to do but kiss his wife in the middle of the kitchen.
And you suppose he doesn’t.
When he pulls back, he flicks your nose gently. “Eat first. Then you can argue with me.”
You roll your eyes but let him finish making your food, watching as he plates it with all the care in the world before setting it in front of you. He even grabs a fork and holds it out, raising a brow.
“You want me to feed you, too?”
You huff a laugh, grabbing the fork from him. “Not today.”
Simon hums, leaning against the counter beside you as you eat. His fingers brush over your knee, absentminded and gentle. “Gonna run you a bath after this,” he murmurs. “Maybe give you a massage. My girl worked so hard today, didn’t she?”
You try to play it cool, but your face warms at the way he says it—low and full of affection, like you hung the moon just by existing.
“You don’t have to do all that,” you mumble, even though you desperately want him to.
Simon clicks his tongue. “Not about havin’ to. I want to, love.” He nudges your cheek with his nose, whispering, “Wanna take care of you.”
You turn your face, burying your warm cheeks in his shirt. “You’re embarrassing,” you mumble.
He laughs, tilting his head down to kiss the top of yours. “That so?”
“Yes.”
“Mm. Well.” His arms wrap around you, pulling you into him. “Better get used to it, Mrs. Riley.”
You do.
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iniquitousyearning · 6 months ago
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SLYTHERINSLUT0’S RIDDLEMAS
dec 23rd. tom riddle — wet dreams, house rivals.
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RIDDLEMAS MASTERLIST. I 2024
summary: tom’s been infiltrating your dreams, and you decide it’s time to call him out on it.
warnings: 18+, SMUT MDNIIII, coercion!!!!, dark!tom, mind manipulation, religious undertones, gryffindor!reader, enemies if you squint, fingering, squirting, begging, dream sex, tom riddle is his own warning, so much praise, dirty talk, verbal sparring.
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You've never been a heavy sleeper. Even as a child, the smallest sound—a creak in the floorboards, a shift in the walls—would jolt you awake. For years, you chalked it up to some ingrained survival instinct, some form of trauma response to whatever part of your childhood still haunts you. You got used to it.
But lately, it isn't sound that’s been waking you. It isn't movement or foundation shifts, either. It's the dreams.
Dreams—strange, lucid, intense dreams of him. Always him. Dreams that make you feel like you're drowning, like you're flying, like you've found a new level of intoxication that you'd never imagined possible—and each time the dreams wake you up, the sheets (and whatever bottoms you may have been wearing) are always soaked, and your thighs are always shaking.
It's maddening.
They feel too real to be anything but a violation, his presence bleeding into your subconscious regardless of how much you try to fight it. You know it means something is wrong. You'd tried to rationalize yourself into going back to sleep, telling yourself it's just hormones or some form of stress, but you're too smart to believe your own excuses.
You know it's more than that.
He's haunting you in your sleep—in the most unexpected way. The dreams are always lucid enough that you can feel it—you can feel him—his mouth on yours, his hands on your hips, his dick bullying your fucking cervix and his magic on your clit—leaving behind nothing but hunger. Hunger that's so intense it makes you want him in a way it almost scares you.
You tell yourself you hate him, you've always hated him—but denial only lasts for so many days, as you realize you can't look at him or talk to him without the dreams forcing their way to the forefront of your mind, making you remember the feelings and the sensations and how much, despite hating him, you want them to be real.
You wanted to believe it would pass. That this was nothing but a phase, a trick of your overactive mind. But deep down, you knew the truth. Tom Riddle has wormed his way into your head, into your dreams—out of spite—and he's not letting go.
So after a hell of a week of this—with damn near zero hours of sleep—you decide to seek him out. To put an end to this madness. Once and for all.
It takes every ounce of courage and Gryffindor-like reckless bravery you can scrape together just to go through with it, but somehow you do. Somehow, you make it across the castle, make it to his door. You're in your pyjamas, for Merlin's sake. It's 1 a.m., and the slick still coating your thighs from what had to have been your tenth lucid orgasm in a matter of a week is a humiliating reminder of why you're even here at all.
And when the door opens, you have the strange feeling that he's been expecting you, even as he makes a great show of acting surprised to see you, looking you up and down with a lazy, smug glance that makes your pulse quicken so viscerally you lose the last shred of sanity you were pathetically clinging to—
"What the fuck—" you prowl forward without hesitation, forcing him a step back into the room. "—are you doing to me?"
Even if you're not imagining some form of surprise in that smug little smirk, he does his best not to let it show.
"Me?" He says, all pretend innocence, flicking his hand out to shut the door behind you with some spell you don't care to name. "You'll have to be more specific."
You glare at him, refusing to acknowledge how unfairly attractive he looks in just sweatpants and an oversized shirt—because of course, even casual looks like this are a weapon in his arsenal.
"Cut the bullshit, Riddle," you snap, and you're not sure if it's your lack of sleep or some form of desperation-fuelled bravery, but you're suddenly invading his personal space, poking an accusing finger into his shoulder. "You're fucking haunting me—"
He blinks. "I’m haunting you. And how am I doing that?”
There's a part of you that knows it's a trap—that this is probably exactly what the smug bastard in front of you has been wanting, but your brain is so deprived of sleep and your body is so starved of respite that you decide 'fuck it'—you want answers, and you're going to get them.
"You're in my dreams," you say, bluntly, forcing an exhale alongside it. "You've been in them every night for a week straight. I haven't slept a bloody minute."
That's when it happens—the tiniest flash of amusement in his eyes, so brief you might've missed it if you weren't ready to tear his fucking throat out.
"You're accusing me of giving you dreams?" He asks, in a tone that makes you want to grab him by the front of his shirt and make him cut the bullshit, and you can't tell how much of your own expression is irritation and how much is lust. "You think I've somehow managed to invade your mind?"
"Don't be condescending," you spit, trying to focus on the spot between his eyebrows that makes the heat in your core roar the least, "and don't act like you're incapable. As much as I can't bloody stand you, we both know damn well your mind magic is strong enough to do this to me—"
"Mind magic," he echoes with an amused snort, "you think I'm doing some kind of mind magic to invade your dreams, is that it?"
He's so damn good at this, you think—infuriatingly good. The way he's playing it off like the idea is absurd, completely laughable—
"Fucking precisely.” You can't hide the heat from your voice. You don't care to try. "These aren't just dreams. They're—they're strong. I feel you. Your hands, your tongue, your—"
Dick. You can't even bring yourself to say it.
And the bastard just smirks, like he's reading your mind anyway. Like he knows. That glimmer in his eyes—arrogant, insufferable—only confirms it.
"Hm," he says with something bored, running a hand through his hair. "Your subconscious—"
"It's not a bloody subconscious thing," you cut him off, uninterested in whatever bullshit he was about to feed you. "It's you. You're invading my dreams—I feel you—my body fucking feels you—"
He laughs at that. Like some sick, sadistic freak. He actually laughs—
"Listen to yourself." He says, with a mocking tone that makes you want to shove him. "Are you that desperate to hate me that you're pinning your dreams on me?"
"Hate doesn't even begin to cover it," you spit, stepping closer, your frustration boiling over. He shifts slightly, his back brushing the wall. "You've got a hell of an ego, but even you have to know this isn't something I'd want. I wouldn't put you in my dreams willingly if you paid me to do it—"
He hums, smirk never faltering, if anything it fucking grows at the tirade.
"You've been dreaming of me for a week," he points out, coolly, as if this is the most casual conversation in the world. "And now, here you are—standing in my dorm in the middle of the night, dressed like this." He takes a step toward you, now. "Do you know what that's called, sweetheart?"
Your lungs hitch at the pet name. Your mind is at war with your cunt and it's losing—
"Delirium?" You choke out, noticing another flash of something in his eyes as the gap between you closes. "Insomnia? Sleep deprivation?"
He gives you a mocking arch of the eyebrow.
"No," he says, in a tone that makes you seethe. "It's called obsession."
"Oh. The irony," you can't help but hiss at him, heart pounding because he's in your space and you're in his and this shouldn't be getting to you the way it is. "It's rich, coming from you, that you'd put that on me when—when you've been mindfucking me every goddamn night—"
"Mindfucking you?" He repeats, almost lazily, as his gaze drops, sweeping over you—your pyjamas, the clear lack of bra, the flush creeping up your neck. "Is that what you think I've been doing? You think—"
The way he doesn't even deny it—doesn't argue the accusation—makes your blood boil in a way you can't control.
"It's the only explanation. You've been—you've been—" you cut him off but your sentence falters because his gaze is moving so deliberately, dragging over you like he's cataloging your weaknesses, and the anger curdles into something raw and desperate. "God, Tom, I just need it to stop. I'm so fucking tense and tired. I'm so wound I can't even focus—I'm wet all the time—"
His eyes snap up to meet yours at that, and he gives you a look you can't even begin to interpret. You bite your tongue, realizing the words that left your mouth just a moment too late to pull them back, and you know you've lost the upper hand in this, somehow. You feel the ground slipping from under you and you hate the way your body shivers as he takes another slow, deliberate, step forward.
"Is that what you are?” He wets his lips. "You've come all the way here, in the dead of night, in your pyjamas, half out of your mind with exhaustion because you're wet. Isn't that right?"
You know better than to answer, though you feel yourself walking straight into the trap he's set.
"Piss off," you snap, but the bravado in your voice is paper-thin as he takes another step forward. He's so close now that his scent overwhelms you—leather and spice, something sharp and smoky that makes your head spin. You recognize it, of course you do; it's the same as in your dreams, and the familiarity makes your knees feel unsteady. "You're—"
"Don't act so offended," he leans closer, his voice a low murmur, quiet, almost silky as it wraps around you, and suddenly you barely remember what you were so pissed off about. "You can't even deny it. I made you cum tonight, didn't I? In your dreams."
Your teeth grit. "You know you did—"
He takes one more step and now you're backed right up against his desk—and gods, Tom's tall, so much taller than you—and it feels like he's looming over you, caging you in.
"Mhm." There's a flash of triumph in his eyes as you lose your words. He leans down, breath grazing your ear just as he brings two fingers to your temple, pressing the pads against it. "Let's watch, shall we?"
Watc—oh no.
A cold sense of dread washes over you as you catch on to what he's insinuating, merely a second too late—
"Tom—"
He whispers something, something that pulls you under, and the next thing you know—in a flash of consciousness you didn't even consider possible—you're staring at yourself inside a dream you remember all too well. A dream sequence where you're moaning and trembling beneath him, your head thrown back, eyes rolling in unabashed pleasure as he drives into you, hips snapping with thrust after thrust after thrust—
And it's one thing to have felt it in the safety of your dreams, in the dead of night when you woke slick and desperate, clenching around nothing. But this—this is visceral. You can't look away because it's projecting inside your mind: the flush blooming across your chest, the arch of your back, the way your lips part with every desperate breath. You hear the obscene sounds spilling from your mouth, mingling with his low, guttural grunts—and worst of all, you can feel it.
You can feel every ounce of pleasure he's giving you, as if he's giving it to you now.
"Mm," you hear him hum from infront of you—it's too much—you're lost in the memory, the dream, and it's a strange, voyeuristic, intimate experience to watch yourself and him like that. "You're worse off than I thought."
You’re gripping the wood of his desk so hard your fingertips are numb, heart flying out of the room as his hand slowly slides from your temple down to your jaw, holding you in place—
"Stop it." You manage to hiss at him, trying to force some semblance of control back into yourself—the last thing you need is to start melting against this bastard. "Tom—"
"You feel that?" He murmurs, breath brushing your neck, and you can't even focus on anything but the sensations he's forcing through your memory—seeing him above you, feeling him inside you. "You do, don't you? This is exactly what you've been feeling all week, isn't it?"
You want to snap at him, cuss him out, but oh god—
"Damn you," you hiss, even as his hands slide down to your hips—and it almost feels as if he's touching you twice, as if there are two sets of hands on your body. "Fuck, Tom—"
"Mm, you look good from this angle," he murmurs, and you fucking keen as you watch, in your mind, his hands slide over your stomach, pushing up your shirt and exposing your tits, groping as he fucks you. You keen as you feel it. "You love this, don't you? You want this."
"I—" you gasp, trying to convince him, or yourself, or goddamn anyone. Still fighting some invisible battle between resistance and submission because you hate that he's right. "I—god, what are you doing to me—"
"What am I doing to you?" He whispers, and you're not sure if the question is rhetorical, or if he's giving you permission to ask it. "I'm not doing anything that you aren't letting me do."
Your knees feel like they're about to buckle, and it's taking all your strength just to stay standing because the pleasure playing out in your mind is pouring into your veins and you can't even fathom how it's possible but you can't do anything to fight it—
"Oh, god—" you moan, unbridled, your physical body slumping back onto the desk as you feel the slick between your thighs, growing with every goddamn thrust. "Oh my god—"
He takes the opportunity of you slumped back against the desk and instantly leans down, bringing his lips to your ear—
"Not even god could keep your legs underneath you." His hand creeps up your thigh. "You're helpless."
"Helpless," you repeat, with a shaky gasp, and you hate how much the word turns you on. This is the first time you've ever been called helpless, and you're not even sure that you care. He's got you in his clutches, he's winning, and it's so infuriating and so goddamn perfect. “Tom—please, please touch me. I need to—fuck—"
You feel his lips brush the skin of your neck in a way that has you trembling with want, but—fucking hell, that's not what you need—you need his hands on you, you need him to just—
"What do you need?" He cooes, and there's a sly tone to his voice that makes you want to throw yourself at him all over again. "You need to cum?"
You moan, low and needy, writhing against the desk because this fucker—he knows exactly what he's doing. He’s got the upper hand here and you want it back. You want—
"Yes," you manage to gasp out. "I need you to—I fucking need you—inside me—"
As soon as that leaves your mouth, the dream fades from your vision and he's urging you to lay back. There's a soft thud as he places a hand on the desk next to your head, and he leans down, bringing his lips back to your ear, and you can't remember a time when you've ever wanted anyone else this bad.
"I'm touched," he murmurs, fingers slipping to the waist band of your pyjama pants, "that you want me that bad."
"I hate you," you manage to gasp out, but that's a lie, and you think he knows it. His fingers on your skin as he pulls your pants down make you ache for him, and you're struggling to not make another sound that will give him ammunition. "Why do you have to—"
"Why do I have to what?" He asks, and you know he's just trying to get a reaction out of you. "Tease you? Make you helpless?"
Your pants get hardly half way down your thighs before he decides it's enough and slides a finger through your soaked slit, and you can't hold back the moan that tears itself from your throat.
"Fuck, you're soaked.” He hisses through his teeth. “You've been sitting in your dorm for days, hm? Dreaming of me touching you, wishing you could touch yourself without thinking of me—do you want to cum, sweetheart?"
"Yes," you gasp out, and you're not above begging at this point. "Yes, god, please—I want to fucking cum—"
"There we go," he cooes, and he's enjoying this more than you'd like to acknowledge. "You know how long I've been waiting to hear you say that?"
"I'd say at least a week," you throw back, in a vain attempt to keep a shred of your dignity, but that's hard when he's circling his fingers around your clit and your body is jerking against the desk beneath you. God you really are helpless. "Because that's how long you've been plaguing my head, giving me wet dreams like some goddamn incubus—"
He chuckles at that, and you hate him a little less when he slips two fingers inside you, "You think I'm a demon?"
"You certainly act like one," you choke out, because he's crooking his fingers and your mind is going fuzzy and he's not going to let you get the upper hand back, even for a second. "Fuck—oh, yes, yes, yes."
"You've got me all wrong," he says, with a smile that would be boyish if it wasn't so sinister. "Demons come to punish you. I'm here helping you get that relief you've been needing so badly."
"Just want t-to help me," you moan as his long fingers work you open, thumb brushing your clit, "out of the kindness of your heart—"
"Out of the kindness of my heart,” he repeats, with a mocking tone, and it's the way he murmurs those words that's making your thighs clench around him until he grabs the fabric of your pjs bunched around them and pushes your legs up to your chest, working his fingers impossibly deeper. "Out of the goodness of my soul—it's what I do, darling, I'm known for my benevolence—"
"You're a good man," you know he can tell you're being sarcastic, but his fingers are filling you so fucking full you're nowhere near ready to start a fight again when you're this close to losing your goddamn mind on his desk. "You're such a good man, Tom—“
"Mhm," his breath tickles your ear. "What else am I?"
"So good with your fingers," you're moaning, and he's going to get a bigger ego than he already has. You're too far gone to care. "God, you're so good, I'm going to—"
"Yes, you are," he answers, and it takes you a second to realize that he's not correcting your words anymore. He's simply telling you that you are, in fact, about to fall apart for him. "Give it to me. You've earned it."
You almost want to snap back at him, you almost try to, but you're so far gone the words don't form on your tongue and you're not sure you'd be able to fight the fire pooling in your stomach.
"Oh, fuck—“
He doesn't even let you finish that, he just dips his hips down, bringing his hand that's not buried in your slick up to cover your mouth, muffling those strangled screams before they spill out and echo down the hall—
"That's it," he murmurs, his voice a low hum against your skin. "Be a good girl. Let it all out for me."
And it's that; that stupid combination of cooing warmth and the phrase 'be a good girl' that sends you over the edge, and you're muffling your gasps and moans and screams against his palm because gods, what would happen if someone heard you? What would happen if people realized what Tom Riddle was doing to you—your house rival, your sworn enemy—
"There we go," you're falling apart and he's watching you as if he owns you, as if this is where you belong—writhing beneath him, release squirting out around his fingers. "Ride it out for me. Such a good girl, you needed this so bad, I can tell you were aching for this."
You're struggling to say anything back, the only thing that comes out is a strangled moan of his name, and you've always known how bad he was, heard from other girls how good he could be with his hands, but this—you've never had this, never been this before.
"Such a fucking mess," he's murmuring, his voice low and rough and so goddamn beautiful. “How'd that feel? Hm?"
"So—so good," it feels like the words are being forced out of your throat, and you're struggling to think with enough clarity to form anything that's not an embarrassing moan of how much you needed this. "Needed it, need more, I—"
"More?" He murmurs as he slips his fingers free, and he's bringing his other hand up to your jaw, forcing you to look at him as he brings his soaked fingers to your lips. "Greedy girl."
You're not thinking about the implication of him calling you that, you're not thinking about how you should fight back, you're not thinking about how much you hate him—you’re just thinking about the sinful taste of you on his fingers, when they press against your tongue. Without a second of hesitation you suck them clean, tasting yourself, and it's obscene. You're obscene. But you don't care, it just makes that ache in you grow worse—you need more, you need him.
Dear god, what happened to you.
“So good," he murmurs, the praise dripping like honey from his tongue. You hum and he exhales. "I'll find you tomorrow."
"You'll find me tomorrow?" You repeat, as he withdraws his fingers from your mouth, and you're struggling for air, your chest heaving beneath your rumpled shirt. "What are you going to do, come into my room?"
"I'll come into much more than your room," he says, with a laugh that dances with promises of sin. "Now go. Before someone finds you here."
You push yourself up on trembling arms, pulling your pants up your thighs, your heart hammering in your chest because—god, that was incredible, you want more of it, and you can hardly even believe it happened. With a breath, you force yourself to move.
You look back at him as you get to the door. Your legs are shaking and you're not going to hold it against yourself for needing the wall to support you as his eyes rake over you, the corners of those lips curled up his signature smirk, and you want to hit him so goddamn bad—but then he speaks, like he read your mind, and it snaps you out of it—
"No dreams tonight." He says. "Scouts honour."
"You're no boy scout," you throw back, and your voice is a little breathier than you'd like. "And this changes nothing."
He smiles, slow and languid and knowing. "Of course."
You want to roll your eyes at the condescension dripping off his tongue, but you're worried that if you stay here any longer the only words on your tongue will be 'do it again'.
"You just owe me." You say as you crack the door open.
"I owe you," he agrees, and you think that his smile is just a little too genuine—like he would give you anything you wanted, just for another taste of that. “I'm keeping score, darling. Sleep well."
You hate him for calling you that, you hate his stupid smile, you hate the way he knows he's got you.
What he doesn’t know, is that you’re going to make him pay.
"Good night," you mutter, and then you open the door and slip out into the hallway.
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𝐒𝐨𝐫𝐫𝐲 𝐛𝐚𝐛𝐲—𝘉𝘢𝘯𝘨 𝘊𝘩𝘢𝘯 𝘹 (𝘧𝘦𝘮) 𝘙𝘦𝘢𝘥𝘦𝘳
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Synopsis: You tend to remember the smallest things and dates which are of you and Chan, so you decided to surprise him with a homemade dinner on the date of when you both met for the first time. Except for, you didn't expect Chan to forget it, let alone react the way he did.
Warnings: Couple arguments. Use of strong language, a bit of angst & tears, Smut🔞, unprotected (make-up) sex, intimate, oral (f.receiving), pet names, brief mention of a tummy bulge (so size kink if you squint I guess?). Use of Y/N (but only twice).
Minors do not interact!!!
Note: I think I'm going through a phase rn, somehow I am ADDICTED to writing angst and tears— LMFAOOO @mrs-hwangh what have you done to me???
If this isn't your thing, you're more than welcome to skip it. Reblogs, likes, comments and feedbacks are always appreciated.
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Your soft hums of your favourite song echoed quietly in the living room, smiling to yourself as you fiddled with a silver bow, wrapping a small box that contained a gift you bought for your boyfriend a few days ago.
Today was the day when you both met for the first time four years ago, in the same college, at the same coffee shop where he accidentally bumped into you and spilled his drink all over your notes and you never would have imagined that moment would lead to this.
To love. To Chan.
Your heart swelled at the memory, a fond chuckle escaping your lips. You had planned a simple evening, nothing too extravagant, just the two of you, sharing memories over a homemade dinner and the gift you picked out so lovingly. You knew how busy he was, but today mattered to you. It was the day everything began.
Once you had everything set, you waited for Chan to return home from work, your leg tapping on the floor and fingers playing with the hem of your dress.
Minutes passed to hours and you hadn't received any calls or texts from him, but you waited patiently. Maybe he was caught up at work. Maybe he forgot to check his phone. Still, you gave him the benefit of the doubt.
The sound of the door unlocking cut through your thoughts, and you quickly stood up, smoothing down your dress. Relief and excitement flickered in your chest as Chan walked in, rubbing the back of his neck, looking utterly exhausted.
His bag slumped onto the floor as he kicked off his shoes, barely glancing up at you. Your heart sank ever so slightly but you tried not to let that disappointment settle in.
“Hey,” you greeted softly, stepping forward. “Long day?”
He nodded, letting out a tired sigh. “Yeah. I’m drained.”
You swallowed, suddenly nervous. “I… I made dinner. And I got you something,” you said, gesturing to the neatly wrapped gift on the coffee table.
Chan barely spared it a glance, his brows furrowing slightly. “What’s the occasion?”
Your heart dropped, but you put on a soft smile. You couldn't get mad at him if he forgot it, even though you wished he didn't. That he didn't forget the date or not acknowledge the effort, the way you had been looking forward to this all day.
"You don’t remember?” Your voice came out quieter, trying to mask in a playful tone.
He sighed again, rubbing his forehead, looking as if he'd been asked questions in an interview. "Um no, why don't you tell me?"
The way his voice sounded made you feel like you got slashed with a blade, but you shoved that dramatic thought aside and walked closer to him, biting your lower lip in order to swallow the hard lump that had formed in your throat.
“It’s the day we met.” Your voice wavered slightly, the weight of unspoken emotions pressing down on you but you continued smiling softly. “Four years ago today.”
Chan exhaled, running a hand through his hair, frustration creeping into his features. “Babe, I’ve been swamped with work. I barely know what time it is.”
You blinked, his words stinging more than you expected. “I get that you’re busy, Chan. I really do. But this was important to me.”
He groaned, pinching the bridge of his nose. “Come on, don’t do this. It’s just a date. It’s not like an anniversary or anything.”
You took a small step back as if he had physically pushed you. You blinked up at him, trying not to let his words form the tears to gush up your eyes.
Your arms wrapped around yourself, hoping that would keep you steady. "I just thought this would mean something to you too."
His brows furrowed deeper, irritation creeping into his voice. "Of course it means something to me. But I don’t have the luxury of remembering every single date when I’m drowning in deadlines."
Your heart clenched, his words cutting deeper than you expected. "So, what, I'm just supposed to understand that I come second to everything else in your life? That it’s okay for you to forget something that mattered so much to me?"
Chan scoffed, shaking his head. "That’s not what I’m saying, and you know it. You’re making a big deal out of nothing. It’s just a date."
"Just a date?" Your voice cracked, a slight tone of anger and heartbreak mixing in your chest. "It’s the day we met, Chan. The day everything started. I planned this for us. I waited for you, and you didn’t even think to text me back? Or check your phone?"
"I was working! I don’t have time to be glued to my phone every second!" His voice was sharper now, making you flinch hard, his frustration spilling over. "I come home exhausted, hoping to relax, and now I have to deal with this?!"
The venom in his voice made you shiver and you hugged yourself tighter. "Chan, please don't shout..."
"No, I mean you always do this. I get it, that you remember small things, but I just want an evening of peace after a long day at work."
Chan had rarely raised his voice, your throat tightened at his words, a dull ache forming in your chest. You took a shaky breath, forcing yourself to stay calm even though his tone made you feel like you were drowning.
“I’m not asking you to drop everything for me, Chan,” you said softly, voice trembling. “I just thought—” You swallowed hard, fingers gripping the fabric of your dress. “I thought maybe today would matter to you too.”
His jaw clenched, and he ran a frustrated hand through his curls, exhaling sharply. “Sure you did,” he muttered under his breath, shaking his head. “You always do this, Y/N. You put so much weight on things that I—”
He stopped himself, hesitating, but you already knew where he was going with this.
“That you what?” You challenged, your voice barely above a whisper. “That you don’t care?”
Chan looked at you then, eyes dark with exhaustion and irritation. “That I don’t have the mental space to deal with every single date, every little detail, every expectation you set for me without telling me.”
His words cut deeper and deeper, the sting of them making your eyes well up. You blinked rapidly, refusing to let the tears fall.
“I never asked you to be perfect, Chan,” you whispered, voice thick with emotion. “I never expected you to remember every little thing. But this?” 
You gestured weakly toward the dinner table, the untouched meal, the small, neatly wrapped gift that now felt like a stupid afterthought.
“It's the day we met for the first time, so it just meant as much to me as our anniversary.”
Chan’s lips parted slightly, his brows furrowing, but he said nothing. That silence, that hesitation, hurt more than his words.
Your fingers wrinkled your dress, feeling a chill despite the warmth of the apartment. “You know, I wasn’t even mad that you forgot. I just wanted to spend time with you.”
Chan let out a humorless chuckle, shaking his head. “You think that I don’t want to spend time with you? Do you know how exhausting it is to juggle everything, to be everywhere at once? And now, I come home and instead of just relaxing with you, I’m being guilt-tripped over a date I forgot?”
The sharp sting of his words left you breathless.
Guilt-tripping? That was what he thought this was? Your efforts, your love, your excitement, had all of it been reduced to you being an inconvenience to him?
Your lips parted, your throat constricting as a wave of emotions surged through you. “I’m not trying to make you feel bad, Chan,” you said, your voice wavering. “I just wanted you to remember. I wanted you to want this too.”
His expression flickered, something unreadable flashing across his face, but it was gone in an instant, replaced by a heavy sigh. “I’m tired, okay? I’m so damn tired. I don��t have time to remember every little thing—”
“Every little thing?” you cut him off, your voice suddenly louder, cracking under the weight of your emotions.
He pinched the bridge of his nose, exhaling sharply. “I didn’t say it wasn’t important, I just—damn it, I forgot, okay? I’m human! I make mistakes!”
Your chest heaved as you stared at him, eyes stinging, heart breaking. “Forgetting is one thing,” you said, voice thick with unshed tears. “But the way you’re acting right now? Like I’m just another problem you have to deal with?”
You let out a shaky breath, your hands clenched at your sides. “That hurts more than you forgetting.”
Chan’s eyes widened slightly, the anger in his expression flickering for a brief moment. But the damage was done. The silence between you was heavy, suffocating, the walls closing in around you.
You shook your head, backing away from him. “I don’t want to do this right now.”
“Y/N…” he started, but you turned away from him.
“No. I get it. You’re tired. You need space. And I’m obviously asking for too much,” you said, your voice hollow. “So I’ll make it easy for you.”
With that, you turned on your heel, took your keys that were sitting on the coffee table and walked toward the door, grabbing your coat. Chan’s eyes darkened, his hand wrapped around your wrist. “Where are you going?”
You untangled yourself off his grip and slipped in your coat, brushing away the tear that slipped down your cheek with the back of your hand.
“Somewhere that doesn’t make me feel like I’m begging for your attention.”
His face fell, and for the first time that evening, you saw a flicker of realization in his eyes—as if he finally understood just how much he had hurt you.
“No, wait, please,” he said, reaching for you, but you pulled away before he could touch you.
You turned away and closed the door behind you, walking away as fast as you could to your car, driving back to your apartment.
Behind the door Chan grabbed fistfuls of his hair, grunting and growling under his breath as he fell on the plush couch.
His eyes caught the small, neatly wrapped gift that was sitting on the coffee table, he hesitated for a second but then opened it, his heart sank like a stone thrown in the ocean when he saw what was nestling inside.
His favourite bracelet he lost when we went on a business trip a few months ago. It was the exact same design and brand.
His fingers trembled as he picked up the bracelet, the silver catching the dim glow of the living room light. His throat tightened painfully as he turned it over in his hands, his vision blurring slightly.
And you… you had remembered. You had gone out of your way to find it, to replace something that meant so much to him, because that’s just the kind of person you were.
Chan exhaled sharply, pressing the heels of his palms into his eyes.
“Fuck,” he whispered, the weight of his words from earlier slamming into him like a truck.
What had he done?
***
The next morning you woke up, exhausted, your vision blurry, nose stuffed and what felt like a dull headache creeping up your forehead. You groaned softly and walked into the bathroom, to find your state in a mess.
Disheveled hair, puffy cheeks with stained mascara, swollen eyes and lips. You had barely stepped inside your apartment before the dam broke, tears spilling freely as you sunk in your bed.
You didn't know at what time you reached home or when you had fallen asleep.
You hated arguing with Chan. 
Sure you had a few disagreements once in a while but they were different. But this kind of argument; where it wasn’t just a misunderstanding, but something way deeper, made you question if you were the only one holding onto the pieces of your relationship while he let them slip through his fingers so easily.
You fixed yourself into the shower, letting the water wash away the fresh set of tears that began to run down your face. After a while you stepped out and changed into a comfortable pair of sweats and grabbed your phone, only to see a dozen calls and texts from Chan.
Your thumb hovered over the screen, heart pounding as you scrolled through the missed calls. Channie <3 (12).
The unread messages blurred together, but you caught glimpses of them as your breath hitched.
Channie <3 [1:12 AM]: Please, baby, pick up. Channie <3 [1:13 AM]: I know you’re mad. I know I fucked up. But please, don’t shut me out. Channie <3 [2:03 AM]: Are you home? Are you safe? Just… let me know you’re okay. That’s all I need right now.
Your fingers trembled as you scrolled further, his messages growing more frantic, more desperate.
Channie <3 [2:45 AM]: I can’t sleep knowing I hurt you like this.
Channie <3 [3:20 AM]: I love you. I love you so much. I don’t deserve you, but please tell me you’re okay.
Your chin wobbled as you closed your eyes and kept your phone face down on the nightstand, not knowing what to respond to him. You weren’t sure if you were ready to face him yet, if you could talk to him and not break all over again.
You walked out of your bedroom, to the kitchen to make yourself some coffee when the front door bell rang. You glanced at the clock hanging on your wall, wondering if you were expecting anyone in the morning, you sighed heavily and walked to the door, only to be greeted by someone that made you feel like you got pulled into the floor.
Outside stood Chan, his face masked with exhaustion and faint hints of dark circles under his eyes and messy hair as if he had been running his hand through it the entire night. He was holding a bag, what looked like it was from your favourite bakery and bouquet of flowers, his gaze locking in with yours, pleading you for a chance and forgiveness.
You attempted to close the door but Chan held it, interrupting you from shutting him out. “Sweetheart…” He started but before he could say anything, you left the door hanging and walked into the living room.
Chan hesitated at the doorway, gripping the bag and flowers tightly as he watched you walk away. He took a shaky breath and stepped inside, closing the door softly behind him.
The quiet of your apartment felt heavier than usual, like an invisible barrier had formed between the two of you. He placed the bag on the kitchen counter, setting the flowers beside it, before slowly following your retreating figure.
You kept your back to him, your arms crossed over your chest as you stood near the window, staring outside as if willing yourself to be anywhere but here.
“Baby…” Chan tried again, his voice softer this time. Apologetic.
You tensed but didn’t turn around.
He took a careful step forward. “Please, just—”
“Don’t,” you said, your voice a whisper, but it carried enough weight to stop him in his tracks.
Chan swallowed hard. He wanted to reach for you, to hold you, to tell you he was sorry in a way that would make up for last night. But the weight of the argument hung so heavily between you both, without sparing a glance at him, you went inside your bedroom.
The soft click of the door shutting behind you echoed louder than it should have, and Chan exhaled shakily, running a hand through his already disheveled hair.
He had messed up. Badly.
His gaze flickered to the neatly wrapped pastries and the bouquet he had brought. He had stopped by your favorite bakery the moment they opened, hoping—praying—that it would mean something, that it would show you he was trying to make up for the way he reacted.
But he knew better. A box of pastries and a bouquet of flowers couldn’t, wouldn't erase the way he had hurt you.
With a tired sigh, he sank onto the couch, resting his elbows on his knees as he stared at the floor. He didn’t know how much time had passed, only that the silence in the apartment was suffocating.
He glanced toward your closed bedroom door, debating if he should give you more time or if he should go to you now.
But his heart won over his hesitation.
Slowly, he pushed himself up and walked toward your door, his footsteps hesitant but determined. He paused just outside, lifting a hand to knock, but stopped himself at the last second.
Instead, he carefully turned the doorknob and stepped inside.
You were sitting on the bed, your back facing him, silent sobs filling the room. As much as you wanted to hate him for the way he behaved, you simply couldn’t. His presence alone was enough to pull you over, but the heaviness of your emotions made it hard to think. 
Chan’s heart ached at the sight and the sound of your sobs. You heard his footsteps, with a choked voice you said, “Chan, go away.”
He couldn’t go away like that. Not until he tells you how sorry he is and how much he regrets last night. 
“Honey…”
Your shoulders shook harder with each breath, Chan made his way towards you and sat next to you, hesitating for a fraction of a second before his arms wrapped around you and pulled you flush to his chest. You couldn’t react, just stayed frozen in his embrace.
“Baby, my love, I’m so sorry…” He exhaled deeply. “I hate myself for the way I was last night. I hate that I made you feel like you weren’t important to me because, God, baby, you are everything to me.”
“I messed up,” he admitted, his voice thick with regret. “I was stressed, and I let it make me forget what really matters. I forgot us. And that’s not okay.”
You swallowed thickly, your body still stiff in his hold, unsure if you should let yourself sink into his warmth or resist the comfort you so desperately craved. His arms tightened around you, his heartbeat pounding in a frantic rhythm under your ear.
“I should have come home and held you,” Chan murmured, his breath warm against your temple. “I should have kissed you and told you how much I love you instead of making you feel like you were asking for too much.”
Your lips parted in a shaky exhale, the weight of his words pressing against your fragile heart.
“You never ask for too much,” he whispered, his voice raw, filled with self-reproach. “You only ever ask for me,” his throat flexed, “and I failed you.”
A fresh wave of tears spilled from your eyes, but this time, you weren’t alone in your grief. Chan pressed a lingering kiss to your temple, as if he was trying to kiss away the pain he had caused.
He gently turned you in his embrace, urging you to face him, his hands cupping your cheeks as he tilted your face up to his. Your vision was blurry, so you closed your eyes, unsure if you could look at him.
His thumbs brushed away the tears clinging to your skin, his touch featherlight, reverent. “Please look at me, sweetheart.”
And then you did. And what you saw made your breath hitch.
Pure, unfiltered love—wrapped in sorrow, wrapped in desperation. His dark eyes were puffy from lack of sleep, rimmed with exhaustion and regret. His lips were slightly chapped, parted as if he had a thousand apologies to spill but didn’t know where to start. He looked just as broken as you felt.
His mouth brushed on your forehead, lips trembling as he whispered, “There is nothing in this world that matters more to me than you, baby.”
Your chin trembled. “Then why did I feel like I was alone in this?”
Chan inhaled sharply, his expression crumbling. “You’re not,” he said instantly, his voice urgent. “I swear, you’re not. I just—” He exhaled heavily, his fingers trembling as they traced over the curve of your jaw. 
“I shouldn’t have taken out my stress from work on you, when you only wanted to spend time with me on a day that I should have remembered too. I’m really sorry baby. I can’t lose you over this.”
Your gaze dropped to his lips, then back to his eyes, searching, wavering. His words poured out so thick with emotion, unfiltered and raw, it made your chest tighten so hard, it hurt.
“Tell me now,” his fingers brushed away the faint tear stains from your face, “Do you want me to go?”
Your breath and words were stuck in your throat. Part of you wanted to let your pain fester a little longer so he could understand just how much last night had hurt. But the way he was looking at you, so full of remorse, it broke through the wall you had tried to keep up.
Chan was here. And he was trying.
The sincerity of his voice and his presence thawed the ice that built around your heart overnight, you couldn't stay angry at him for another moment longer. Because you knew the love you had for him could overshadow any kind of pain.
Your fingers reached up, hesitant, before threading through his soft curls. He sucked in a breath at the touch, his eyes fluttering shut, his grip on you tightening.
Time was frozen, breaths were stolen and before you could stop yourself, your arms wrapped around his shoulders, pulling him flush against you. “Don't hurt me again…” You chokingly whispered.
“Never sweetheart. I won't ever do that again.” He let out a shaky breath against your neck, his hands running up your back, molding your body to his like he was terrified you’d disappear if he let go.
“Let me make it up to you,” he whispered, his voice so low and vulnerable that it sent a shiver down your spine.
His lips brushed over your cheek first, barely there, as if he was asking for permission. Then he kissed the corner of your mouth, lingering and waiting. “Please.”
And when you didn’t pull away, he finally pressed his lips to yours.
Soft and hesitant.
Not demanding, not rushed, just a quiet plea wrapped in tenderness.
His lips molded against yours like a silent confession, staying there as if he wanted to memorize the way you felt against him.
His hands moved up your sides, thumbs tracing absent patterns over your skin. He wasn’t taking, he was giving, pouring all of his love into every press of his himself, every stroke of his fingertips.
Your body melted into his instinctively, your hands tightening in his hair as you deepened the kiss, letting yourself drown in the warmth of him. 
He made a quiet sound against you, almost like a sigh of relief, as if he had been waiting for this, for you to accept him, to let him back in as he laid you on your back and toyed with the waistband of your pants.
He had barely touched you and you were already on liquid fire. Blood coursed through your veins when he pulled them down, the chilly air making you shiver at the contact of your heated skin. 
“Chan…”  Your voice came out in a breathy whisper, half moan and half command, when his lips danced over the soft skin of your thighs. 
“Hmm?” when he pressed there, you couldn't help but sigh completely. “What is it honey?” He coaxed, the huskiness of his voice that made it hard to think. Did you want him to stop? Or did you want him to go on?
“I…,” He smirked against you as he made his way up, a path that he knew like the back of his hand. He spread your legs apart, the glistening sight before him reawoke a rush of possessiveness in him. 
“I hate fighting with you.” Chan whispered against your flesh, voice raw and aching. 
Your fingers found his hair, tugging him closer as if that alone could answer him. His breath fanned over your core, and his thumbs rubbed soothing circles into your thighs.
“You’re my world,” he admitted, looking up at you, eyes dark but filled with something deeper than lust. “And I want to give you everything. I'm sorry for ruining last night baby.”
The words sent a warmth spiraling through you, melting away the remnants of your argument.
He brushed a kitten kiss right on your swollen clit, and your body responded instantly, arching toward his touch. He took his time, tracing delicate patterns with his tongue, exploring you with a reverence that left you breathless. 
His hands kept you steady, but the way he worshipped you made you feel as if you were floating. You couldn't help but squirm, soft moans spilled from your lips, and when you murmured his name.
This wasn’t about just sex. It was about him making up for every harsh word he said, erasing any distance that had carved its way between you both over the past 12 hours.
His mouth moved over you like he had all the time in the world, savoring every reaction, every soft gasp that spilled from your throat. His hands, rough and calloused, held you with the gentleness of a man afraid to break something precious.
“Cha—nhg,” You whimpers didn't slow him down. It only made him go faster and faster, tongue flicking and licking with an agonizing pressure. 
He groaned against you, the vibration sending another wave of pleasure coursing through your veins. You attempted to pull his head away from your pulsing core but he wouldn't budge. 
“I'm not done.” He looked up from your pussy, chin and lips swollen and glistening with your arousal. 
He dove back in with a renewed, hungry pace, his nose nudging against your clit, the warmth shooting up to every inch of your body. He couldn't get enough of how you tasted, how you moaned and screamed only for him. If he could, he would stay right were he was forever.
The band in your lower belly knotted tighter and tighter, had you writhing and bucking your hips, it was on the edge of snapping
And then you surrendered to him. Your orgasm left you gasping, tears leaking from the corners of your eyes and only his name escaping your lips, Chan held you firmly as he helped you ride it out. 
He didn't let you go for a second as he sucked and licked your pussy splurting with arousal like he was on the verge of starvation, until he left you boneless but content beneath him.
Slowly, he made his way up your body, removing your top and his mouth hovering your hips, across the plane of your stomach, up the valley between your breasts. Each of it was an apology, a whispered promise against your skin.
“Baby,”—smooch—“fuck you're so sweet when you,”—smooch—“come on my face.” He said between kisses and gentle nipping on your sensitive, peaking buds that rebuilt the anticipation.
Soon enough every piece of clothing was discarded until it was only the fiery sparkles of your sweat misted bodies flying between you both. He shifted, positioning himself between your legs.
The tip of his cock nudged your nub softly before entered you slowly, filling you inch by inch, watching your face for every reaction. You gasped, your hands clutching at his shoulders, nails digging into his skin. Chan let out a shuddering breath, his forehead pressed to yours.
Your arms wrapped around his neck, holding him close as he started to move. His pace was slow, deliberate, each thrust sending a fresh wave of pleasure crashing over you, but it was more than that. 
It was a silent conversation, an absolution, a way of reminding each other that no fight, no disagreement, could ever take this away from you.
You pulled him in deeper and deeper, his cock twitched hard inside of you, the rhythmic slapping of skin against skin, sweat and groans soaked the air. 
His eyes fell down to where you both joined, what he saw drove him out of his mind. A soft but visible movement in your tummy. 
“Shi— fuck.”
Your eyes fluttered open when he held your hand and brought it over your tummy where you felt the bulge that was moving in and out of you.
“Feel that?” He pounded into you that made you arch your back, digging your nails into his skin. “D’you feel that baby?” 
You nodded, out of breath, mouth falling open until the cries of pleasure consumed you whole, the feel of the bulge just spurring you on more. 
His hands roamed your body, mapping familiar paths, his lips never straying far from yours. He whispered sweet nothings against your skin, words of love and devotion, apologies and reassurances.
“I love you,” he murmured, his voice hoarse but steady.
You smiled softly for the first time after the long hours, tilting your head to kiss him once more. “I love you too.”
And just like that, the fight was forgotten. Not because it didn’t matter, but because what you had together was always stronger.
“You're squeezing me baby,” his orgasm rushed fast and threatened to take over him, climbing up his spine and snapping his restraints. 
“Chan I'm… I'm going to come,” 
And your release finally crashed over you again, it wasn’t just pleasure—it was catharsis. 
A loud cry tore off your throat as you flooded around his cock, shaking and moaning, Chan followed seconds after slamming into you in one last thrust, burying himself deep with a breathless groan, his body caging over yours.
The post sex high lingered but he didn’t move or pull out. He stayed wrapped around you, pressing lazy kisses to your temple, your shoulder, anywhere he could reach. His fingers traced slow patterns on your skin, grounding you both in the quiet aftermath.
“Do you forgive me?” He asked softly, his fingers brushing away a few strands of hair. 
You smiled cheekily, fingers running through his damp sweat hair, “No,” you said lowly that made his eyes widen in disbelief.
His reaction made a laugh bubble up your throat, you pulled him down onto your mouth letting your tongue slip past his lips and had him melt all over again.
“Yes, I forgive you Chan.” You said pulling back, chest heaving and content. 
He chuckled deeply, hugging you tightly, the lingering amusement from your playful teasing was still evident in the crinkle of his nose. 
Then, with a slow, deliberate exhale, he shifted, reluctantly pulling away from your warmth.
You watched him as he retrieved a washcloth from the bathroom, wiped you clean before he reached for his pants, discarded somewhere on the floor, and retrieved something small from the pocket. 
When he turned back to you, he held a tiny velvet box in his hands.
Your heart skipped a beat.
Chan hesitated, his thumb brushing over the soft fabric of the box as if gathering the courage to speak. Then, with a slow inhale, he flicked it open.
Inside, nestled against the velvet lining, were two delicate rings, a simple silver band with a tiny, shimmering stone embedded at its center. It wasn’t flashy, nor extravagant, but it was beautiful in a way that felt so intimate and personal.
Your eyes flickered from the ring to his face, your heart hammering against your ribcage. “Chan…?”
He let out a quiet chuckle, but you could tell he was nervous. His free hand found yours, fingers lacing together as he held you close.
“I’ve been carrying this around for weeks, waiting for the right moment. And I—” He sighed laughing, shaking his head. “I guess last night was the moment but…”
Chan took a steadying breath, his fingers tracing the edge of the velvet box. “I know I can be a pain in the ass sometimes,” he admitted, a sheepish smile tugging at his lips. “I push too hard, tease too much. And when we fight, I say things I don’t mean.”
You shook your head, reaching out to cup his cheek. He leaned into your touch, closing his eyes for a brief second before continuing.
“It’s not… a proposal,” he clarified quickly, though his lips curled into that familiar teasing smirk. “Not yet, at least. But it’s a promise.” He squeezed your hand, eyes searching yours with a raw kind of vulnerability. 
“A promise that no matter how much we fight, no matter how many times I mess up… I’ll always choose you. I’ll always come back to you. If you’ll have me.”
Your throat felt tight, emotions swelling so intensely in your chest that you could barely breathe. “Oh Channie,”
His smirk faltered, concern flashing across his face. “Is it too much?” he asked hesitantly. “I know we just—”
You shook your head quickly, cutting him off. “No,” a shaky laugh escaped you . “It’s perfect.”
Relief flooded his features, and for the first time, you saw the nervous tension completely drain from his shoulders.
“Then… will you wear it?” he asked softly, lifting the ring from the box.
“Of course, I will.” You nodded, biting your bottom lip and holding out your hand, he slipped the cool metal onto your finger, the fit perfect, like it was meant to be there all along.
You took the other one from the box and slid it onto his finger with the same reverence, looking up at him through damp lashes.
“This is my promise to you,” you echoed, voice soft but sure. “That even when you’re a pain in the ass sometimes, I’ll still choose you. Every time.”
Chan let out a breathless chuckle, his head tilting slightly as he gazed at you like you hung the stars.
“God, I love you,” he whispered, voice thick with emotion.
You didn’t get the chance to respond before his mouth collided with yours again, slow, deep, and filled with a devotion that made your heart flutter in the best way possible.
And as you fell back on the mattress, tangled in each other yet again, the silver bands glinting under the soft glow of the morning light filtering through the window, you knew; there was no one else for you but him.
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calumcxke · 5 months ago
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CHOCOLATE MILKSHAKE
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yang jungwon x fem!reader
SUMMARY: your rich boyfriend- who you never thought you would have a chance with- loves to spoil you. even with the smallest things.
WARNINGS: none just really fluffy and they’re both down bad for each other
wc: 1.9k
notes! this is mainly based on a dream i had about ricky from zb1 LMAOO so sorry if it’s a bit unrealistic and tooth-rottingly fluffy, this was also RUSHED, i know i usually write about txt but i’ve been on such an enhypen kick lately and i loveeeee jungwon
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yang jungwon was rich. if that was even the right word for it.
with a prestigious father- who was rumored to be one of the reasons he got into snu- his whole family was loaded.
he walked around campus like he owned it. realistically speaking, he could probably buy it if he wanted to. everyone knew him. and his friend group. jungwon, jake, and heeseung were some of the most well known people at school.
you, on the other hand, were not. it’s not like no one knew you. you were known, just not popular. not like jungwon. you had friends, aka sunoo, soobin, and karina.
which is why it was a bit weird when jungwon had taken a liking to you. it wasn’t anything special at first. just small smiles exchanged in passing, but it was still enough to have you running off and telling your friends what had happened. they, of course, told you to make a move. you refused. that’s too scary. making a move on the most popular- and the hottest- guy in school? you would rather crawl into a hole.
you didn’t have to worry too much about making the first move, though. a few days later jungwon caught you at the end of class, falling in step next to you as he asked for your number.
you almost disintegrated into a puddle on the spot, masking your shock as you sputtered out a yes, putting your contact into his phone. you tried to ignore how soft his voice was, or how intense his eye contact was, or the way he smiled at you, or how cute his dimples were, or- you were down bad.
when you told your friends, they nearly lost their minds. karina was jumping around you, before sunoo concluded this called for a night out. you still think he just wanted an excuse to eat out. but alas, you spent the whole night making a plan. or, they spent the whole night making a plan while you sat there daydreaming about the dimple-y, cat-eyed boy who you had spoken to earlier that day.
it started out as just exchanging texts back and forth. you tried not to be awkward, but you always were with new people. plus, you were talking to yang jungwon. if things got awkward, you brought up school. lame, but it was the only thing you knew you had in common with him.
you don’t remember when, but the texts turned into calls, then late night facetimes. looking forward to calling him at night, checking your phone constantly with every notification. smiling when you saw his name pop up on your phone. then he asked to hang out.
in person.
you felt like a part of you glitched when he asked, his smile lighting up your phone screen in the dark. you said yes, obviously. what you didn’t expect was for jungwon to say he was on his way, asking you to meet him outside the library in ten minutes. you still said you would be there, immediately calling karina once you hung up, screaming to her about what was about to happen. she calmed you down, but she was just as excited as you.
you cleaned up as best as you could without looking like you were trying too hard, listening to karina’s advice on how to act before you were rushing out the door, shaking from the cold air whipping against you and your nerves.
the night was fun. you two spent it walking around, giggling with each other about stores you could think of. you learned even more about him. he went on a rant about how good aladdin was while you stared at him with an endeared look. the night ended with you two hand in hand, your fingers intertwined and arms swinging as he walked you back to your dorm.
you two stood outside your door awkwardly, you shifting your weight from foot to foot before telling him goodnight. with a surge of braveness, you were on your tippy toes and pressing a soft kiss to his cheek. you watched the surprised look on his face that he replaced with a smile soon after, his cheeks turning a pretty pink.
you turned around to go back into your apartment before a hand on your wrist stopped you. you didn’t have time to process what was happening until you were being turned around and his lips were on yours. he pulled away with a shy smile on his mouth, his dimples poking through as he backed away, whispering a goodnight before he was walking off. you stood in a daze, unsure of how this was reality. you finally stuttered out a goodnight, entering your dorm calmly before you were jumping up and down with silent screams, immediately calling sunoo, soobin, and karina. safe to say they had to listen to you rant for about two hours.
that’s basically how it all started. to this day, two months in, there was only a handful of people who knew. jake and heeseung knew, along with your friends. your friend groups had meshed slightly, although you didn’t hang out much at school. at night and off campus were when you would all get together. you and jungwon in your own world, while everyone else conversed with each other.
right now, you were walking along the sidewalk, soobin, sunoo, and karina in front of you while you and jungwon trailed behind, fingers intertwined as you walked to your favorite shake shop. you had been looking forward to it since you woke up, imagining the cold chocolate shake invading your tastebuds throughout every lecture.
“what’re you gonna get?” you asked, turning your head to face jungwon, his eyes meeting yours as he thought.
“whatever you get,” he replied with a smile, his dimples poking through.
“don’t get what i get, get what you want,” you giggled, rolling your eyes at him playfully.
“i like chocolate shakes,” he spoke, your eyes widening slightly at his sentence.
“you remember my order?” you asked, your lips hanging open as you stared at him.
he laughed, turning his head away from you to face forward again, “it’s not like you haven’t been talking about it all day.”
oh. that’s right. you laughed awkwardly, mumbling out a ‘sorry’ as you looked forward again. he gave your hand a squeeze, laughing along with you. a comfortable silence fell upon you two, listening to your friends converse in front of you. there was no need to keep talking to fill the silence. just being around each other was enough.
your eyes lit up as your favorite shake place came into view, the light brown and orange shack standing on its own off of the sidewalk, four little steps leading up to the window where you placed your order. you smiled brightly, subconsciously picking up your steps as you dragged jungwon along behind you. sunoo laughed at the two of you, pointing you out to soobin and karina, who could only roll their eyes with smiles on their faces.
you skipped up the steps to the entrance, turning around to see your friends right behind you. you sent them a toothy smile, pulling out your wallet, “i’ll cover us today!”
you tried to ignore the smile jungwon sent you, or the heat that rose to your cheeks as you spun back around to greet the girl behind the counter, smiling brightly at her, “hi! can i get one- sorry, two chocolate shakes,” you paused as she put the drinks in, looking back up at you, “and then just whatever they want.”
you gestured to your friends behind you, stepping out of the way so they could place their orders. you bounced slightly on your heels, biting your bottom lip as you gave jungwon a cheeky smile, too excited for your shake to function properly. was it embarrassing to get this excited over a chocolate shake? probably. you didn’t care.
when everyone finished ordering, you stepped back up to the counter, pulling your wallet out of your bag and reaching for your card. you looked back up just in time to see jungwon leaning against the counter, sending you a cocky smile as he placed his card on the card reader, before turning his head to smile at the girl, taking the receipt from her.
your jaw dropped, a pout forming on your lips as you looked up at him, “i was gonna pay for it.”
he huffed out a laugh, squeezing one of your cheeks before shoving his card back in his wallet, heading to lean against the wall by your other friends, “it’s no big deal.”
you couldn’t fight the smile that was threatening to creep on your lips, you steps quickly catching up to him as you stood in front of him, “you didn’t have to do that.”
truthfully, you knew it was nothing to him. $40 was practically like a penny to him, it wouldn’t affect him in any way. when he said it wasn’t a big deal, it truly wasn’t. you still couldn’t help yourself from feeling bad when he bought stuff for you, though. you didn’t want to seem like the girlfriend that leeches off of her rich boyfriend.
“baby,” he started, a smile on his lips as he reached for your hands, rubbing his thumbs over your knuckles as he continued, “i would buy you anything. no matter how many zeros are at the end.”
you didn’t know what to say back. your mouth opened and closed, his words effectively shutting you up as your cheeks turned a bright red. you didn’t expect those words to leave his mouth.
smirking at your flustered reaction, he continued, leaning closer to your face as he whispered, “whether it be two zeros,” he pressed a soft kiss to your cheek, moving over to the other one, “three zeros”. another kiss.
he pulled back slightly, a soft smile on his lips as one hand left yours to grab your chin, tilting your head up to meet his, “six zeros.” he pressed his lips against yours, a soft, lingering kiss that had you reeling, his words making your mind spin.
when he pulled away, you couldn’t help the words that spilled from your mouth, “you would spend a million dollars on me?”
he simply laughed, pulling the hand he was still holding so your chest collided with his, wrapping his arms around you, “i would spend all my money on you.”
you smiled, snuggling your head into his chest as you whined, your cheeks burning, “don’t say stuff like that,” you mumbled out, your voice muffled against his shirt.
“why?” he asked simply, and you felt him shrug as he rested his head on top of yours before he pressed a soft kiss to the top of your head, “it’s the truth.”
and suddenly, the chocolate shake didn’t seem as important, nor did anything else around you. just spending this moment with jungwon, wrapped in his arms, practically surrounded by him, simply being there with him- was all that was on your mind.
all you knew was that he was as down bad for you as you were for him, and that somehow made you fall more in love with him, tilting your head up slightly to press a soft kiss against his neck before mumbling, “you have to let me buy you dinner tonight, though.”
he snorted out a laugh, wrapping his arms tighter around you, “yeah, right.”
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aleksatia · 4 months ago
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You've been in a relationship for a short time, and a lingering question has been eating at you—are you truly good enough in bed? After some thought, you finally ask him what kind of sex and positions he likes the most.
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🎨 Rafayel – "A Canvas of You"
He doesn’t answer right away. He never does. Instead, he watches you—too long, too intensely—until your skin warms beneath his gaze, your breath shallows, your body betrays you before he’s even touched you.
Then, he moves. Not rushed. Not hesitant.
Fingers brush your shoulder, catching the strap of your dress. A single shift of his hand, and it slides down, fabric slipping over your skin like a sigh. His knuckles graze bare flesh—unhurried, deliberate, as if testing the way you react to the smallest touch.
"You know, Cutie," he murmurs, voice rich and smooth, "I’ve always thought you’d make the perfect canvas."
Then, just as easily as he came to you—he’s gone.
Your body sways before you catch yourself, the absence of him too stark, too sudden. Across the room, you hear him move. A clink of glass. The whisper of bristles lifting from their place. And then—the slow swirl of ink, thick and black, rolling against the brush like liquid night.
You exhale, only to inhale too sharply when he turns back.
"You’re not serious."
His lips curve, just slightly. "I never joke about art."
Then—he paints you.
The first stroke is nearly nothing, a whisper-light touch against the slope of your shoulder. The ink is cool, pooling where the fine bristles meet skin, spreading like something secret. His breath, warm and steady, lingers close—too close—as his free hand finds your waist. His palm fits there like he’s done this before.
"Hold still," he murmurs. Low. Dark. A warning wrapped in velvet. "Or I’ll have to start over."
You don’t move. You can’t move.
The brush glides downward, slower this time, tracing something unseen, something only he understands. Right where your pulse betrays you.
"Do you know what it says?"
You shake your head.
His lips tilt—not quite a smirk, not quite soft. And then, before you can form a thought—he kisses the ink.
A slow, claiming press of lips against bare skin, sealing the mark he’s left on you.
"Mine."
The brush moves again, lower, lazier, dragging out the moment like he enjoys the wait, like he enjoys watching you wait.
Then—he switches hands.
And everything shifts. Fabric slips further. Falls.
Your breath catches as his gaze flicks upward, locking onto yours.
The moment stretches, the room too still.
Then, a quiet click of his tongue. "Tsk," he muses, tilting his head as if in contemplation, the brush tapping lightly against his fingers. "Now I really will have to start over."
And this time, there’s no mistaking the intent in his voice.
☀️ Xavier – "A Public Revelation"
You expect restraint. A flicker of amusement. The usual walls of composure, too perfect to crack.
But this—this is something else.
He moves without hesitation, without a single wasted second. One sharp step forward, and suddenly, his hands are on you. Firm. Unyielding. Fingers pressing into your waist as he pulls you into him, his grip absolute. Your breath stumbles, your body caught in the shift before your mind can catch up—
Then—his arms tighten.
The ground vanishes beneath you.
Your hands grasp at his shoulders, legs instinctively locking around his waist in search of balance, but he doesn’t give you that either.
"Like this," he murmurs. The words are soft. The meaning isn’t.
You open your mouth—to question, to push back, to remind him who he is.
But his hold shifts, pressing you closer.
And everything else fractures.
Because Xavier doesn’t do this.
Not like this.
Not with raw certainty, without calculation, without the endless steps ahead he always keeps in his back pocket.
But right now? Right now, he isn’t thinking.
His next words land like the first snap of a fire in a quiet room.
"Especially in public."
Your heart stops. Then slams into motion, too fast, too much.
"What?"
He doesn’t explain. He doesn’t have to.
His eyes are darker now, their usual cool edge gone, replaced by something thicker. Heavier. The kind of quiet hunger you’ve always known was there—but never like this.
"I wonder," he muses, too casually, "if you’d still be so composed if someone walked in right now."
Heat floods through you. "Xavier—"
"Shh." His lips graze the edge of your jaw, a whisper of contact, soft and deadly.
Your breath stutters. He smirks against your skin.
"Oh? Now you’re quiet?"
One of his hands moves, dragging slowly up your spine, deliberate in a way that makes it impossible to ignore just how firmly he’s holding you in place.
How easily he could keep you here.
Everything inside you screams to push back, to push him, but your body is already betraying you, already tilting into him, already wanting.
Because Xavier is always the one in control.
But now? Now, he’s letting you see exactly what happens when he stops pretending.
And the worst part?
You want him to keep going.
🩺 Zayne – "A Lesson in Restraint"
The question lands between you like a scalpel on steel—clean, precise, dangerous in the wrong hands.
He doesn’t answer right away. Instead, he adjusts his stethoscope.
Cool metal meets warm skin as he presses it just below your collarbone, his touch impersonal, professional—except it isn’t.
"You should breathe normally," he reminds you, voice smooth, even, impossible to read.
But you don’t. Because you can feel him.
The warmth of his fingers as they rest just beneath the curve of your ribs. The calculated press of his palm steadying you—not too firm, not too soft, but just enough to remind you who’s in control of this room.
You swallow. He hears it.
His lips twitch. "That’s not normal breathing."
Your chest rises too sharply as you force air into your lungs, but it does nothing to steady your pulse. He listens anyway.
Slowly. Methodically.
He moves the stethoscope lower, following the delicate line of your sternum. The sensation is impersonal. It should be impersonal.
Except his gaze never leaves yours.
"You know," he muses, tilting his head slightly, as if considering something, "your heart rate tells me more than you ever do."
Your fingers tighten where they rest on the edge of the examination table.
A slow inhale. A calculated pause. Then, finally—he answers you.
"I like discipline." The words are soft. Absolute.
The stethoscope lingers.
"I like knowing you can listen."
A small flick of his wrist—the stethoscope is gone. But his hand?
Still there. Palm resting lightly against your ribs, right over your heart.
He can feel it. The way it betrays you.
"I like when you stay exactly where I put you," he continues, still clinical, still calm. "When you don’t move until I say you can. When I touch you—" his fingers barely shift, but it’s enough, more than enough, "—and you tremble, but you don’t pull away."
Your breath catches. His thumb moves, a single slow drag against bare skin.
"You like that too, don’t you?"
Heat spreads.
His lips curve, slow, knowing, as if this was never a real question—just a test you were bound to fail.
Then—he leans in. Not touching. Not yet.
"If you don’t believe me," he murmurs, "let’s run an experiment."
His breath is warm against your jaw, his voice dropping lower. "For the rest of the day, you do exactly what I say. No questions. No hesitation."
A pause.
Then, his lips barely move, but the words strike like a direct hit to your pulse.
"I wonder how long you’d last."
Your fingers twitch. A fraction.
His smirk sharpens.
"Well." He exhales, deliberate, slow. "Just the idea made your hands shake."
His eyes flick down—brief, knowing.
Then, finally, he steps back, scribbling something onto his clipboard like nothing just happened.
"I’ll take that as a yes."
🐱 Sylus – "The Edge of Control"
He lets the silence stretch. A deliberate thing. Like he’s daring you to take back the question before he answers it.
Instead, he laughs—low, rich, like the hum of an expensive engine, the kind built for speed, for power. The kind that always wins.
Then—he moves. No hesitation. No warning.
Your back hits the desk.
Glass rattles. Papers scatter. The entire room shifts around him—because he is the one who dictates movement here.
One strong hand pins your thigh open, fingers digging into bare skin like a silent command. The other?
Wrapped around your throat. Not tight. Not cruel. But undeniable.
"You really want my answer, kitten?" he murmurs, head tilting, watching the way your pulse slams against his palm.
Your breath catches. He sees it. Feels it.
His grip flexes. A silent dare.
"Because if you do," he continues, tone almost conversational, like he’s discussing something as ordinary as stock prices, "you better be ready for it."
His thumb drags up—slow, deliberate—over the fragile line of your pulse, over your jaw, over the part of you that always betrays you first.
"You wanna know what I crave?" he muses, lips curving—not mocking, but daring you to ask again.
Then—he leans in.
The heat of him, the undeniable weight of his presence, his breath against your cheek, like he’s already claimed the space between you as his.
His lips brush against your ear.
"You," he whispers.
One word. Absolute.
"You," he repeats, slower this time, savoring it.
Not a single hint of hesitation. Not a flicker of doubt.
"You, when you stop thinking."
His teeth graze skin. A slow drag. A threat.
"You, when you let go."
And then—his hand moves. The one at your throat? Gone.
Before you can even process the loss, before you can catch your breath, his palm is already flat against your stomach, pressing down—hard.
Not enough to hurt.
Just enough to make you feel it.
Just enough to force you to recognize what’s happening.
Just enough to remind you who you’re dealing with.
"You, when you take me without hesitation," he continues, his free hand dragging slowly, lazily down your thigh. "When you stop waiting for permission."
His fingers flex.
"You, when you give in to it."
A pause.
Then—his smirk sharpens.
"But, kitten—" his breath warms your lips now, so damn close, so deliberate, so Sylus.
"You already knew that, didn’t you?"
Your fingers twitch. He sees.
He grins.
"Well." A slow exhale. "Just the idea made your thighs shake."
And then—he leans back. Lets go.
Like it was all his choice to begin with.
His eyes flick down—brief, knowing.
Then—a lazy stretch, a roll of his shoulders, a smirk so smug you want to slap it off his face.
"You got what you wanted," he murmurs, running a hand through his silver hair as if he wasn’t just wrecking you without lifting a finger.
Then, with obscene, devastating confidence:
"So." A tilt of his head. A challenge in his voice. "You gonna do something about it?"
🍎 Caleb – "No Holding Back"
He stops stirring.
The question lingers in the air, sweet and dangerous, like the scent of warm batter and fresh coffee—except he’s not thinking about breakfast anymore.
Slowly, he looks up from the mixing bowl, brows lifting, like he needs a second to process the fact that you just said that.
Then—a quiet chuckle.
A small, breathless shake of his head, like you’ve just thrown him completely off-balance. Like you don’t even realize what you’ve done.
"Damn it, Pip-squeak," he mutters, setting the whisk down with deliberate ease. "You really startin’ my morning like this?"
But you don’t take it back. Of course you don’t.
And that? That’s all it takes.
Because Caleb’s already too far gone for you.
His fingers curl around the mixing spoon, scooping up a bit of batter, thick and golden, before lifting it between you.
A test.
You meet his gaze, and instead of moving away, instead of hesitating—you take it.
Lips parting. Tongue flicking against his finger, slow, unshy.
And that’s it.
The spoon clatters onto the counter as his free hand is suddenly at the back of your neck, dragging you in, swallowing the little smirk he knows was there.
He kisses you like he’s been starving for days. Like he doesn’t care that the stove is still on, that the batter’s going to burn, that the sun hasn’t even fully risen yet—because none of it fucking matters.
Not when you’re here.
Not when he finally has you.
His hands are everywhere at once, gripping, pulling—desperate, but never careless. Because he knows you. Knows exactly where to touch, exactly where to press, exactly how much to take without pushing too far.
You make a sound—a soft, startled little thing—when he lifts you right onto the counter, right between his arms, right where he wants you.
"You wanna know what I like?" he breathes against your lips, forehead still pressed to yours, chest rising and falling like he’s barely holding himself together.
His hands tighten on your thighs.
"This."
A pause.
Then, lower. Rougher.
"When you’re not expectin’ it."
His lips graze your jaw.
"When we shouldn’t have time."
He kisses the corner of your mouth—a tease, a warning.
"When I wake up and you’re still half-asleep, curled up in my sheets, lookin’ soft as hell, and I know—I know—the second I touch you, you’ll let me."
His fingers flex, breath rougher now.
"Or when it’s the middle of the damn day, and you say shit like this, and suddenly I don’t care if breakfast burns, ‘cause, princess—"
He leans in.
Nose brushing yours. Smirk curling against your lips.
"You really think I’m just gonna let you walk away after that?"
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