#feli gets asked

[felikatze]

Loved your analysis of Soleum <3 can't wait for you to get to 125 126 & 127

ahahah. i just read them. i'm so happy i waited to read them all at once oh my gosh oh my gosh. so much. so much.

ohh man oh man oh man i'm just. i could keep reading but i need to process these chapters oh gosh oh gosh.

that was. so good. that was so good. this is everything i could ever want

like. hello.

under the cut: me screaming about kse and braun and the tldr: BOTH OF THEM ARE BAD FOR EACH OTHER YIPPIE

i did not edit this i was just yelling

it's so fun??? It's such a great acknowledgement how kse and braun were BOTH the manipulative fuckers in the relationship and forced the other into a role. because let's remember, kse did kickstart this whole shebang by hitting braun with a magic item that forced braun to like him.

and we also get kse experiencing what being a Good Friend is like... he can't move, he can't speak, he has no control over what happens to himself, and that perspective is what brings him to ask braun "Did being a Good Friend actually make you happy?"

ahahah it's such an amazing reversal. just as braun was trapped in kse's world, kse is now trapped in braun's. oh gosh. oh man.

And there's a lot of how, kse describes braun holding the torn plushie as "almost sorrowful", there's definitely an element that kse justified to himself how he did mistreat braun because braun is a Darkness and braun isn't human. yes, the stickers and the initial summoning for the good friend were under duress, but after that? braun's useful to keep around. it's only as time goes by that useful becomes reassuring not for the abilities braun offers but just for having someone on his side.

the fucking implication that braun could read kse's mind because of the good friend contract. man.

SCREECHES. "for the first time, they could have a real conversation."

screeches. i was gripping my hair i was. oh man. okay.

yeah. yeah they never talked to each other properly.

it feels like petty vengeance almost how braun treats kse in this arc. he rips kse out of his known workplace to somewhere new, puts him to work, down to kse's altered physical state, feeling alien to himself... not knowing whether he's ever gonna be able to go back, and it's scary, and it's weird, but something about it is also... nice.

it was absolutely petty vengeance that put kse into braun's shoes for a month, but it was also braun being insanely possessive to keep his friend, and honestly i'm just thinking abt how braun just Stops and tries to hold the stuffing in the good friend when he KNOWS kse cant die from this but he's still just for a moment shocked and upset and sad that his friend is gone.

just like kse in that fucking train bathroom dunking the plushie into the bathtub.

that just makes me all the more convinced that this arc is a Mirror. a reversal. i cant unsee that. it's too specific.

and it IS that perfect mirror moment that makes kse realize that he can't just treat braun like a Darkness. he needs to talk to braun as a person or else all this is just going to get worse forever.

i did not expect it all to be resolved with sincere communication. With empathy. With the admittance that being this close, being "Good Friends", is unhealthy for both of them. Hello. Taking it as a relationship that went too far too fast on shaky ground and just reeling it back and asking to start over. As friends. Just... just friends. For now.

EVEN LEAVING THE DOOR OPEN LIKE.

it could be like that again. could be. but it needs to be a choice.

i. fucking. wow. wowwwww. wowww chapter 127 you will be famous foreverrrrrrrrrr

of course there's Layers here in that both of them were still in front of the audience. They're only able to talk sincerely through the veneer of a tv screen. (It is poignant, to me, that kse describes his state of consciousness as through a CRTV filter. hello. who here has a crtv for a head.)

Both of them still aren't telling the whole truth. Braun is filtering everything through his show, that "following the thrilling developments" was enjoyable, not "spending time with" kse, or being his friend.

the plush on his screen, which kse takes to be a reflection of braun's true feelings, is rallying against braun's words putting the talkshow above kse. And, Braun knew, they were still on air.

He couldn't be too genuiene. Not on tv.

AS FOR KSE?? WELL. WELL. SURE WOULD SUCK IF HE WAS INSANELY PARANOID OF HIS COWORKERS FINDING OUT HOW HE TRULY FEELS ABOUT HIS JOB, WOULDN'T IT???

that's right. let's not forget: lee jaehon is hearing all of this. relaying all of this.

that tiny em-dash there is Everything to me. Of course, it could be a translation thing, but he interrupted himself from continuing that statement, just saying "You know that" without specifics. I gotta wonder how much it took him to say "this talk show scares me" when he knows chief lizard is listening. Because Braun is the only fucking person who knows this!

I. Head in hands. I love the humanization of Braun without softening his inhuman qualities, just straight up saying "Braun isn't going to develop scruples for me", that kse was being manipulated, while still finally having admit Braun that this dynamic meant something to him, and the surprisingly healthy end to it, admitting that staying this close is bad for them, but it's also just got that bitter edge to it.

A bitter open edge of both of them still acting in front of an audience both of them care to impress, but still leaving one foot in the door, of, if you need me... I'll be there.

Cinema. fucking. cinema. literary masterpiece. I'm yelling. Why is this relationship (honestly. idgaf whether it's romantic or platonic i'm demiro I'm just here for the drama) so insanely complex. This is the best friendship breakup ever portrayed in fiction actually. It's everything.

[isat-script-project]

Most of the enemy descriptions on the Enemies page say "encounted" instead of "encountered

tis been fixed! thank you for the notice~

in addition, i finally found the long missing post twohats dormont north dialogue. twas hidden in a dastardly single event, instead of being repetition dialogue. yippie

[canisalbus]

So i remember an ask mentioning your mortal enemy, Felis Atra and their cats, and i thought it'd be fun to draw what Felis Atra's version of your italian dogs would be.

I think they would be called Butter Knife and Flamengo! Butter Knife is not his real name, it's an nickname given by his peers because of how harmless he is. I choose Flamengo because that's the name of Vasco's rival football team here in Brazil, so i thought that was the perfect name :)

Cat Machete was slightly inspired by the Oriental Shorthair cat because of their long noses and thin head shape.

Cat Vasco was inspired by the Scottish Fold cat, because FLOPPY EARS. I gave Flamengo longer ears and orange fur to make him more like his look-alike.

The last doodle is a reference to this ask (https://canisalbus.tumblr.com/post/728923918314946560/me-i-am-machete-ear-fan-number-1-those-ears) and contains the tumblr ask stand-in dog, whose cat version was inspired by the American Curl cat! They have round ears that are slightly floppy outwards.

Final notes: I know cardinal clothes don't come in vibrant blue, but i was ADAMANT on switching Machete's and Vasco's clothing color patterns. I would draw the rest of Butter Knife's and Flamengo's clothes, but i suck at designing cool outfits.

Speaking of outfits, for Machete's iconic void outfit, i figured it would be fun to make it more baggy for Butter Knife, in contrast to Machete's, that looks very tight-fitted. I think it's cute, it kinda looks like a sweater. Also i can't imagine a Machete doppelganger without high heels boots, so those HAD to stay.

Oh, and just to be clear, i'm not like, claiming ownership of these guys or anything. I just thought it would be a fun exercise. Hope you like them!! I love your art and your characters.

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[klutzytomb]

Thoughts on the latest IBVS chapters while you were over on Instagram, since you never got to post them here?

I still haven't read beyond s2 ch8 sadly

[highpriest-feli]

Hello , feli. I'm a friend of your captain indris. It's magister Ayesha or you can call me Ayesha. How was your day.? 😊

Hello, Magister Ayesha! It's a pleasure to meet you.

And oh, you're friends with Indris! That's great to hear. I always think he needs friends, since he's busy with his duties all the time... So, having someone look out for him or just be his friend would help him a lot.

My day was great, thank you. I hope yours went well, too. I'm here to help if there's anything that troubles you.

[alacants]

Just in case you haven't seen this for tomorrow: https://www.instagram.com/p/DLP3uMVMRYA/

JUST SAW YOUR POST BUT DID NOT REALIZE IT'S TOMORROW THANK YOU!!!!!!!!

[ryusaidate]

[dnangelic]

ITS TIME

@box-of-characters

ITS TIME!!! 🎉🎉🎉

[breitzbachbea]

🌙☀️📣💡👑📦🚆☄️💘 for francesco ! (i love information i need more)

And how could I deny you!

Here's some fun bonus information, a panel taken from this comic by @cinalilli with Francesco smack dab in the middle of Team Italy. Shows his height relations to the rest quite well #shortking.

OC Emoji Questions

🌙 MOON - what is your oc's greatest wish? how far are they willing to go for it?

His greatest wish is too see as much of the world as possible and meet the most interesting people on this earth - which are most people to him - and see all the extremes this human world has to offer. And he's willing to go far for it. Lie and steal to make it possible, break into areas no one is supposed to be, e.g. climbing on top of the Collosseum at night. Toy with other people's life to see how they react under pressure, with only so much regard of how much harm it causes. You have to break geodes to see the pretty insides, after all.

☀️ SUN - are they a morning person? what is the first thing they do in the morning?

Considering how much he gets up to at night, I think he tends to wake up at 9 am or sleep in even further, depending on when he went to bed. He usually wakes up, goes to the bathroom and grabs breakfast before he actually gets ready and dressed. Depends of course if he gets breakfast at home or at work/at a bar.

📣 MEGAPHONE - how loud are they? what do they speak like? got a voice claim?

LOUD. To be fair, he doesn't come into a room unaware that he's booming, he's doing that a lot on purpose. Most of the time he's got an average volume and speaks as the situation calls for it, but when he gets excited or upset, he does get louder.

He has a very noticeable Neapolitan accent in Italian, when he isn't speaking Neapolitan outright to himself - his English is accented as well, even if less so. He tends to, again, speak to people in their language/in the way he wants to be perceived by them, but tends to stay more on the informal side or poetic waxing rather than overly stilted or clinically to the point.

💡 LIGHTBULB - is your oc a planner? do they write down every small detail or just wing it?

Francesco lives in the moment, but he does plan - in the sense that he calculates outcomes and the necessary parts to achieve them. He never writes anything down, it all stays in his head, but when he works with others, the other person usually writes down the plan they hash out. (If it's Fabio or Dolcetto at least - Gabriella and Lovino sometimes write things down, but Lovi also rather lets others do this and when he's with Feli, Franci has to jot some things down because of Feli's adhd.)

👑 CROWN - what does your oc want to be remembered as? why?

He enjoys the notoriety he has achieved in parts of the European underground, but he doesn't have many plans for cultural and social immortality. What he really wants to be remembered as is 'that magnetically charming weirdo you met on your holiday once.' He wants that plenty of versions of him, his zest for life, lives on other people's life, even if they're complete strangers. It meshes with his philosophy that from the micro to the macro, you can find the beauty and fascination of humanity in everything. As time goes on with him as part of Team Italy, he also wants to be remembered as a good friend and lover to those closest to him.

📦 PACKAGE - what's some "most likely to..." that can apply to them?

Most likely to smooch the enemy, much to Lovino's dismay. (He wants to fuck Michele so bad, just because Miché hates his guts and Franci likes his gusto). Most likely also to end up in the deepest shit, at the same time most likely to get away with most troublesome behaviour without having to pay the price. Who could be angry with this guuuuy?

☄️ COMET - what do people assume about them? are they right?

A lot of people assume Francesco is just a loving macho who runs his mouth but can't or wouldn't back it up. They are mistaken about the backing it up part but right about everything else. Others think that his happy, earnest joy and whimsy is simply a façade that covers up a cruel cunt of an overly curious manipulator. They are mistaken about his joy and whimsy being fake, but right there there IS an overly curious manipulator as well.

💘 HEART W/ ARROW - what traits do they look for in a relationship? do they believe in love at first sight?

Excitement! Francesco has never earnestly dated (not counting teenage school romances) before Dolcetto, but he loves loving. He doesn't have a physical type nor really one when it comes to personality, though someone stubborn in one way or another can always be a fun challenge. And someone horny's always good, because my god, he's horny too. To be in love, to indulge what you become when you tie yourself to someone else, and be it only for a night, is part of being human, which he loves!

In Italian, there's the expression of colpo di fulmine (a bolt of lightning/lightningstruck) and I think he does believe in love on first sight in that way. There's just people you feel immediately drawn to, there's a spark - whether you want to call that love isn't that important to him. That's the way he feels about Feliciano, one of his bosses and the man he acts as right hand and bodyguard to. Something about Feliciano's upbeat nature draws him in.

[good-wine-and-cheese]

UH hi hi hi. Chapter five of indomitable human soul was amazing

I love Tenma having developed a sense of spirituality after Tobio's death, despite him being so skeptical and rational?? Again you're writing him SO well. And Shunsaku is awesome here too. Everyone is. Anyways can't wait to see my guy Ochan and I'll definitely be waiting for the next chapter (no pressure!!! Take your time!!)

Uh btw unrelated but I started watching Monster and iT'S SO GOOD and I'll DEFINITELY check out your fics on it when I'm finished. Currently waiting for Grimmer to appear bc your blog made me hyped for the guy I know nothing about

THANK YOU ;O; I'm glad you liked it!!

Tenma is so interesting to me because I think for himself, he takes certain comfort in the idea that "he" starts and ends with the "human machine". You are just a collection of cells and biochemical functions. I think he likes that concept, but he can't accept it for the people he loves. He is comfortable with the idea of being erased in his entirety from the world if he dies, but particularly with Tobio, it's far too cruel to imagine that every bit of him is just gone. :( So he has this inconsistent belief.

Ban is doing his best here ;o; he's trying to fill in for Ochan as the rock that grounds people and the glue that holds them together. He's doing his best but this is his way of showing he misses his friend too!!

Ochan soon....dont worry hes coming <3

And dude it is the highest honour that I have u excited about Grimmer...hes my babygirl!! the guy ever!! hope u enjoy your monster journey <3

[felikatze]

so robin and i were talking about the psychology of sora kingdom hearts, as you do. coded and how characters treat real sora vs how they treat data sora came up; and i know very very little about coded. and i was told you are the Coded Guy.

here's a free pass: talk to me about how people treat the little computer guy i want to know more about him :D

(crawls out of my cave covered in blood) okay i finally escaped enough hells to actually have the brainpower to infodump once again

the answer is. the answer is. they treat him like a friend.

the main characters who interact with data sora are mickey, donald, goofy, and data riku. and the first three in particular just treat data sora like he is sora. mickey introduces himself as d sora's friend, and d sora believes him. i've made posts waxing more lyrical about it, but-- those three are what made d sora a real person. i love it so much

i am struggling for words a bit rn, but like, the biggest point is, you know like, the point in hollow bastion where riku steals the keyblade so donald and goofy leave sora all alone`? well. well. the game does the exact inverse of this.

data sora's keyblade, this whole entire game, was an imitation of the keyblade created by mickey, because d sora skipped ever getting it. mickey spoke to him and directed his path before the journal, the recording of kh1 and com, got to the part where Sora Gets The Keyblade. So yknow, Mickey cheated one in, because Sora ought to have one!

And we're in hollow bastion here, Sora is being opposed by Maleficent (the real one), and she shatters his keyblade, because it's not real, and thus not unbreakable. It's not the proof of a heart. Data Sora, in this moment, is literally proven to be heartless. Except, well, not really.

THIS IS THE ONLY PART IN THE ENTIRE GAME WHERE YOU HAVE PARTY MEMBERS. Donald and Goofy swoop in to help D Sora out and fight for him, because he's their friend! You spend a whole section only having them for action commands, and relying on them to defeat enemies and activate switches while you are a defensless little boy running around trying to keep alive.

And by the end of it all, when you reach Maleficent again... Data Sora pulls out a keyblade. A real one. One that cannot be destroyed. Because in being treated as a human person, as more than just the program, the recording he is supposed to be, he became real. He gained a heart.

The disney trio treat him Precisely No Different At All from the actual Sora. They just treat him like they pick up right where they left off like they just talked yesterday. One quick introduction of "Yeah, I'm Mickey, and I'm your friend!" and that's all it takes. That's all it takes.

It's a fascinating position because data Sora only exists as a tool, an avatar, a sentient antivirus to figure out what the hell is wrong with the code. They don't need to treat him like a person at all.

In fact, we have our foil here in Data Riku, who is aware of his own purpose as the avatar of Jiminy's Journal. He is keenly aware that he is a visual representation of a complex program. He is this entire world. And when he is failing his purpose, he asks to be destroyed. But it is Data Sora, who has been treated like a real person, who has become a real person, that insists Data Riku can be saved, and then does so, in that typical Sora tenacity.

Data Sora is just Fascinating because none of the bad things ever happened to him. There was no fall of Destiny Island, there was no betrayal from Riku, there was no princesses getting kidnapped, just more episodic adventures as he is guided the entire way and knows he's fighting for a good cause and knows and hears and feels that he is not alone.

None of the bad things ever happened to him. His adventure is comfortable. Friendly. Episodic.

I know Robin sent you a rom of this game, Robot, and I don't even know if I want to talk about everything that happens After Maleficent if you haven't experienced it firsthand, because it is wild.

Because (re)coded doesn't ask "Is any of this for real or not?" it asks, "Does it matter if any of this is real?" and the answer is, no. It doesn't matter. It doesn't matter if it can all be reset and wiped away with the press of a single button. Because it moved our hearts, it invoked emotion. Even if it cannot be remembered, the impact of it, the afterimage, the way it has shaped us as people, will remain. And the loss will be worth it, because in that loss is where we feel what we had.

Is it better to have loved and lost, than to have never loved at all? Yes. In the loss, you feel the love. There is no such thing as "reality", only what you perceive it to be.

So yes, the computer program is a real boy, because he's your friend, and you love him, and he learned to love you back.

[isat-script-project]

Your amazing work here has inspired me to want to try doing a script project for DQB2 and I was wondering if you had any advice for me?

I'm gonna assume that's some sorta dragon quest game?

Well, ISAT really is a blessing in this regard, because the game is not encrypted at all. Accessing files and all text via rpgmaker MV and VSC is incredibly easy.

okay this got really long i'm putting it under the cut.

But before you get started, there really are some things you need to ask yourself first:

How am I going to get the text from this game?

If your answer is "write it down by hand as I play" then already know that there HAS to be a better way. If you're choosing that method, get yourself emulation, save states, or endless patience, because hooh boy, I've done a little bit of that for a different project (no, I will not elaborate) but save scumming on original hardware to get different dialogue options is agony.

Is there a text dump for your game? Is there a file dump or decomp for your game? Do you have the technical know how to access it? If not, are you confident in your knowledge of the game to accurately identify where all dialogue may occur? If not, are you satisfied missing out on nothing lines and just focusing on the non-optional? Is your game linear enough to not need a closer look at the code to figure out what happens when, as isat does?

2. What's my scope?

Again, do you truly want every line from this game, or just what's "important"? I personally cannot rest until I've exhausted the fucking Menus (which is why there's a script page for those, too) because I'm a completionist with delusions of grandeur, but some people are satisfied transcribing the cutscenes and nothing else (MUCH TO MY ANNOYANCE WHEN I NEED THE OTHER STUFF.... nobody cares about the optional collectible npc dialogue BUT I CARE!!! I CARE!!!!!)

Anyways, what exactly your scope is is gonna significantly influence what your next step looks like.

3. How am I going to present this?

Making the isat script project an individual website mainly came down to how finicky the dialogue in isat is. There's conditionals stacked on conditionals and I wanted a space where I had total control over how to present these factors without influence.

For more linear games, like, say, that time I made all the fewiki scripts for Fire Emblem 6 from chapter 12 onward, it was easy enough to present the scripts on a wiki page just because the game is much more linear, there's less dialogue to begin with, and all conditional text could be nicely divided up into similar groups, like boss dialogue where the condition is just "fight boss with x character".

isat script project would not exist without my fire emblem fixation, fun fact. other fun facts include that as a child i attempted to novelize Mario Party DS by transcribing all story mode text into a booklet by hand, and I did not finish this for reasons that are hopefully obvious.

This is, as you may figure, way easier to do. There is significantly less burden on you to actually understand how a website works - I cannot stress enough that the current state of the script project is only possible thanks to Gold, and without them, we'd still be at all dialogue being formatted as <p><b>Siffrin:</b> Says some text.</p>

For a lot of older games, you can also find whole game scripts being put up into a single document. Tis common on gamefaqs, I've used those plenty. There I believe you're just working with plain ol txt.

The rule is always though look at examples and if they do something cool figure out whether you can copy it. i did not create the website layout myself, i used a base and fiddled with it for a whole weekend until it stopped exploding.

Again, like, using an existing structure like a wiki or gamefaqs or just google docs or a spreadsheet is a significantly eased burden. One of my favorite things ever is actually a text dump on github, of all places. For this one, the person putting it up chose to leave all text in as close to original state as possible, doing no trimming of things like character emotes and leaving in all original string titles of every line. This is also incredibly useful, even if it is more difficult to use for your average schmoe! (This has fucking saved me doing wiki stuff for engage. engage text dump i ADORE you)

Do you want to be as accurate to the code as possible, or as accurate to the game? Do you have the time, energy, and skills to make the visual presentation nice? Or do you want to keep it rudimentary to streamline your process?

If you ARE doing something like making your own website, it is crucial that you figure out your visuals early, lest you be like us, and be stuck in Reformatting Hell for several months, because someone figured out how to make a thing prettier and nicer to read, and now you need to update the 100+ pages you've already created.

Reformatting code like that takes just as long as making a page in the first place, by the by, because you're just not getting around copy-pasting everything line by agonizing line.

This stuff takes HOURS. If I went at it alone, I doubt I'd have finished by now, or within the next like, two years. This is a really time consuming hobby, and I love doing it a lot, it scratches my exact fixation itch, but if your game is huge, consider seeing if people would be interested in joining you? I will also say being autistic about your game of choice is also a bonus in the sustainability department.

Many a times there were just no updates (as they are now) cuz I am just. Distracted by something else. Like yes on one hand I'm going to uni now and have less time but it's not really less time if I can still put 17hrs into a new video game in three days.

Stuff like this is ALWAYS a long-term project and you WILL need to take time off from it or else you'll start seeing html in your dreams and get burnout.

STREAMLINE YOUR PROCESS!!! FIGURE OUT HOW TO DO THIS WITH AS LITTLE EFFORT AS POSSIBLE!!!! Gold introduced me to Espanso, which is a program that lets you set up keyboard shortcuts to insert phrases, which was a MAAAAAASSIVE time saver in the html department, as it allowed me to just rapid fire paste in all the many html classes we stacked for the presentation of the site. even if you are doing a script on a wiki where everything does look like ['''Siffrin:''' says a thing] you will still be doing yourself a favor if you can shorten that '''Siffrin:''' to just typing :s .

As a side note, I also wanna say like. The popularity of isat script project is a complete outlier. Other game scripts may be used by a maniac like me to overanalyze the plot structure of Sonic 06, but you're very likely not going to see that recognition. I love doing this, because I want these resources to exist for myself. I don't do this for the good of the fandom, but because it is useful to me. I started this because I was writing isat fanfic, and got tired of looking up dialogue on youtube or booting up my own game.

Do I know if anyone found my FE6 scripts useful? No. Do I know if anyone is going through Veyle/Quotes and appreciating that I transcribed all the fucking battle voice clips? No. Do I know if someone appreciates me accurately labelling all voice lines from the ring polishing minigame in engage? Hell no. I don't know, I'm never going to get feedback on that. Those are wiki pages, anyone can edit them, they don't have viewcounts or comments I can look at, and the fandom just isn't as prone to taking screenshots and posting about them line by line as isat.

Isat blew the fuck up on tumblr. I'm not saying you'll get no recognition at all, but if you are relying on external motivators, you are probably going to peter out. There are pages I've worked on for other script things that I've genuienly not touched in two years because I just didn't feel like it, and that's also okay.

TLDR:

Figure out how to get the text you need with the least effort possible (and figure out whether doing that is even possible at all!), figure out what scope you're actually willing to put up with, and present it with the least effort possible, because everything else just isn't sustainable. Streamline streamline streamline. Be prepared to spend hours on this and maybe like find a new favorite podcast to just copy paste text to, because honestly, doing this is also pretty zen.

And most importantly, sparkle on, don't forget to have fun! Even if it seems big and intimidating, you can still make it just a fun side project, and slowly chip away at it over time. Rome wasn't built in a day, and with all the advantages going for isat script project (additional manpower, unencrypted files, easy tools for game examination) it still took over a year to complete.

(loop voice) Don't make the same mistakes I did, okay?

oh, yeah, one last thing, if you're not putting it on a wiki and ARE making your own website, ABSOLUTELY PUT IT ON GITHUB!!!! setting up so any changes to the main branch on github get reflected onto neocities is pretty easy and you only need to do it once, and what this allows is to just have random strangers show up and fix your problems for you. sometimes someone will just show up and fix five bajillion typos and then leave. or they'll stick around and help with more stuff and wowie you have a semblance of a team now.

if you're doing it on a wiki, find like, the wiki discord, if someone is interested in chipping in. if you're doing your own website, put it on github. do it. do it do it do it.

[b-blushes]

chill Saturday night u know how it is but the past couple of days I’ve been trying to work out how I’m feeling and what I’m thinking about and I can’t really crystallise it. But one sentiment I have put together is that one thing about getting better and wanting to get better is that part of the process is Realising that things have been/are uhhhhhh. Not Good. And I will be honest that is a challenging thing to force to occur in myself. Connecting with discussing really bad pain in my neck/back/shoulders with drs for over a year and then seeing a specialist who was like ‘well obviously you have chronic spinal pain’ and although it was very obvious to me and I had in fact been talking about it intermittently for a very long time I also had not particularly internalised this until then. There’s some leaps between ‘well I know things are happening and maybe I can even explain those things’ and also really really Knowing those things and I don’t know what the deal with that is or how to explain it. And then a step after that which is like fully feeling it with and in your whole body and feelings I think. But that’s the progress I’ve made so far 👍

[felibrary]

BRO WHY IS THE DR RATIO PART FROM ANG BEER NITO O ANG PAG IBIG MO SOOOO GOOD?? THE NICKNAME, ITS SO CUTE BRO ISTG....(could u pls make more ratio fics 🥺🥺.. i dont even i will ever find a fic as good as that..)

HIIII ANOTHER FELLOW RATIO KISSER??? FIRSZ OF ALL TYSMM!!! KISSES AND HUGS TO YOU and 2nd) yes i will !! extra for you it should acc be a crime that my theme and user are veritas inspired but i only have a MUTLIDRABBLE that includes him. so be on the lookout for future veritas works (or i can tag you if you want ^^)

[authoruio]

I want to release Rosemi's beloathedloved brother Verin out of the basement 🥰

[ask-poorly-drawn-romano]

Your art is so cute!!

i don't know how well i like my hard work and artistry being reduced to "cute". maybe i'll show you my next piece another time.

< no but ty fhdkjgldd >