#fixation rant

[premamelody]

ok last ones I swear

rip edgar kinda u wouldve loved dr robotnik ring racers in particular probably srb2kart more actually

[ginnymoonbeam]

I have not read the apology discourse on My Stubborn ep 10 nor do I wish to, but now that I've watched the episode I for one am delighted that Sorn retained his inability to access let alone articulate his actual human emotions. The BSOD when Jun asked how long he'd liked him? Exquisite. Come back in 7-10 days Jun, the system needs to reboot.

(In all seriousness though, it was clear that what was hurting Jun was believing that Sorn did not genuinely like him and want to be with him, and in his pathetic flailing messy way Sorn did manage to clear that up, through a persistent pattern of actions.)

[lilyrayaya]

Hey this is just a question but I wanna know if your just taking a break from drawing cookie run, but if you have a reason for not drawing it in a while I’d love to hear it, if you ever do draw cookie run again in the long run, would you make doodles of the beast and ancients swapped role and pre corrupted beasts? I’d love to see your take on it, but this is a question not a demand or anything, hope you have a good time on your art and free time!

ohhh I've not looked in my inbox for a while I apologise if it's been sitting there for a while now.

I've been taking a break from cookie run, mostly because I've been hyperfixating on other things. My brain works in strange ways. It's not to say that I don't like cookie run anymore. I do, but if I force myself to do something my brain doesn't want me to do I'll just burn out and possibly make me dislike said thing. I don't want that. I've recently doodled a bit of Shadow Milk but that's it. None of them even have proper lineart.

shadowmarine because what's a cookie run if not with shadowmarine

Once I do get back to cookie run, because I know I will, inevitably, I'm not sure whether I'll draw ancient role swaps specifically. I have Golden Cheese Cookie done, but that's only because she's the only one I particularly like out of the ancients. The rest don't interest me much. The Beasts will absolutely get something, though.

I'll stop my rant here.

[variksel]

me when im in a "misunderstanding explicitly stated text of the source material" -contest and my opponent is a 'murder husbands family is nbc hannibals good ending' -er or a 'lestat was his happiest during the vampire family era' -er

[cosmic--static]

i do find it funny whenever people portray Jayce in modern college aus (or anytime) as the popular athlete who's top of his class. leave him alone. let my man be a weird antisocial freak

[ad-hawkeye]

thinking about this. once more

i'm Thinking. about it

i'm

grgrhhghhhhhhhh i'm

I'M THINKING ABOUT IT.

[livingdatura]

I'm probably going to get hate for this but i don't care atp I hate Antinous' characterization in Epic. It comes down to it being completely watered down compared to him in The Odyssey I'm not saying like "Oh!! He shouldn't be shitty!! blah blah blah!", I'm more just saying in The Odyssey, he has actual reasons and ways as to why he's shitty In The Odyssey, He eats Telemachus and Penelope out of a house and home (along with the other suitors), threatens people to scare them/to get what he wants, The only time he physically attacks someone is when he throws a stool at Odysseus Now, I mainly wanted to talk about the "him being a rapist" part, so that'll be under the cut. So tred with caution

Cutting down to it. In my research, i have found no translation or version that makes him a rapist. Yes, some of the suitors were, that's canon. But in those conversations, Antinous is never brought up (From what I've seen) I like Hold Them Down, it's a good song, but it's only half accurate And no, I'm not talking about where it is in the musical, that's just stupid to rant about because Epic isn't advertised as a completely accurate retelling What i mean is what happens. The only thing that Antinous does the same is plan Telemachus' murder. He, nor any of the other suitors, ever planned on assaulting Penelope. It more confuses me on where it even came from, throughout the entire musical, every time assault is mentioned/in a scene, it was cut or changed (i.e: There Are Other Ways or Love in Paradise, but that's a rant for another day). So why is it added here?? This isn't be saying that Epic is bad at all btw. I love Epic with my entire heart, but that doesn't mean I don't have criticisms for it (writing wise) Basically, to sum it up, you can make shitty characters without making them rapists, and a lot of writers need to learn that ALSO, If you want to know what Antinous actually says, this is a good post that I would recommend reading: ANTINOUS'S LINES IN THE ODYSSEY: – @katerinaaqu on Tumblr

[wizardclownballs]

I Want To Be Your BoyFriend by Hotfreaks is literally momokarun omg

I need to either make an animatic to this song or an edit

[zichiwithagun]

This video hurts me every time I see it.

I watched this video when I first started watching woy out of childhood nostalgia. Though I didn’t agree with some of his opinions, I’m fine with it and enjoyed video.

Until I actually finished binging the show.

I rewatched the video and it frustrates me.

He said he can’t understand why Wander can act like a bad guy in The Bad Guy, but can’t even stop himself from helping others in The Fugitives, and thought his kindness to others in the same episode caused Wander to be “near incompetent”.

I immediately stopped watching the video and started punching the shit out of my bed.

Also the fact that he think The Box is the worst from the first fourteen episodes hurts me opinion wise, because this episode is one of my favorites in the entire show.

To me, this episode taught us more about Wander, we get to know his flaws and weaknesses. It’s not about if the characters learned their lessons or not.

Forcing people to learn your “morals” by making them suffer psychologically is not ok.(shocking right? /sarcasm) Sylvia threatening the Lords of Illumination to put random stuff in the box is justified. If they wanted to teach them “the box is just a box”, do they really have to cause someone to have hallucinations to the point of detaching from reality?

I’m not really good at expressing my feelings and English is not my first language so I can’t really go too in depth with this even if I wanted to. But yeah I don’t like this video and every time it shows up in the YouTube fyp makes my skin crawl for no reason at all.

Also I physically can’t finish the video so yeah that’s all.

Geez why did I make this post look so dramatic I feel dumb

No hate for AlphaJ man I just don’t like this video

[gh0stbeeee]

Rise of the Guardians/The Guardians of Childhood is low-key my Roman Empire.

Like, specifically in the movie verse, there's just... so much that was never elaborated on. It's one of the unfortunate side effects of being kid's media, things get dumbed down for no reason.

Like, Jack Frost in general as a character. He died. DIED. He DROWNED in a pond saving his sister and??? Nothing. The entire moment when he remembered became "Oh I'm the fun guy that had a family and saved my sister!" AND DIED. Very important part that is completely glossed over other than the idea of sacrifice. Like, the other guardians were "chosen," did they not die too? Did Jack lose his memories because he died, but the others were chosen while alive, chose to leave their lives and remembered?

And just, what were his early years? For a very long time, at least a decade, he probably thought he was totally invisible, that he could never have a true conversation with another person, because I doubt that he stumbled upon another spirit/legend for a while.

Like, that would have driven him INSANE. There's no way he wouldn't be super socially awkward from the isolation, much less just totally mentally well. Are spirit's brains built different? They'd have to be, but I don't think they should be able to withstand that level. Like what was the mim thinking??? Seriously just abandoned a TEENAGER he resurrected with no memory or possibility of support, that's wrong.

And on that note, let me reiterate that Jack died. In front of his little sister. Who had to go back home and tell her family what happened. Did he have a father too? More siblings? Friends and family? They had a funeral no doubt, mourned him. Because he died.

The worst part? He was right there. The whole time. Jack came back to that pond and settlement for hundreds of years, even when it became Burgress. He probably watched his funeral not knowing what was going on, saw his family mourn him without knowing it was for him. He was there when they died, not knowing who they were to him. Did he realize later on? I can only imagine the devastation.

The worst part is Manny probably had to take his memories, because Jack would have been DEPRESSED. He would've tried everything to make them believe, and they probably never would. His parents would probably never see him again, they were adults. His sister was plausible, but she's still mortal. She would have died, Jack would have seen his little sister grow old and die while he stayed eternally young. He might've not ever recovered from that, mim taking his memories distanced him from the pain for when he remembered 300 years later.

But he also could have moved on, grown and loved her descendants and honored her. The mim took that choice away, and that's pretty fucked up.

Then yeah, 300 years of pretty much no acknowledgement. Going into live blind with no guidance or memories, trying to figure yourself out but being ignored by the once who brought you here. Jack would realistically be a little nutty, because wow. It's shown the even other spirits didn't really talk to him, he made them acknowledge him by playing pranks and pissing them off till they confronted him. Maybe it's in spirit's nature to be recluses, but it's not in Jack's. He wanted attention and to be seen, but no one wanted to or could give it to him.

That's why Jamie seeing him for the first time always makes me tear up. This is the first time for HUNDREDS of years that a human has acknowledged him, not an out of touch spirit, but a regular person Jack can connect with, that chose to see him, to believe. That's beautiful, and special.

There's just so many layers to this story that we never got to see, and I'm forever sad DreamWorks abandoned the franchise.

(If anyone has any good fics that explore topics like this, especially Jack's family, please share)

[fruit-icus]

Smth about Shauna liking her tragic saints.

Smth about the child being treated as a messiah, a blessing, even something that will somehow lead to rescue (now with the wilderness to deliver us). Smth about how that makes Shauna St Mary; how she wears a hood all throughout the winter and Mary is depicted often in a shawl/headscarf. Smth about how, in her dream when her son was alive, Shauna was so much gentler than her sharp-edged, awake self, just like Mary is full of peace and grace. Smth about how when her son dies - when 'Mary's' hope dies - she becomes the pure opposite: angry and bitter, the darkest parts of herself, all of her light and joy dead and buried with her baby. Smth about how that never really comes back.

Shauna, you tragic, tragic saint, I love you.

[zylian]

I have SO many thoughts about everything but my brain is mush… so speedrun time !

——Spoke——

omg just zam picking him over minute cause he wasn’t thinking about skill but rather trust and reliability which is wild and than him being bewildered by spoke going crazy omg love them and the s2 ref cause they were so silly

the way they track the other and oddly understand what the other is saying, it’s super simplified with them and limited words which is usually spot on plus them being nice to the other and oh it’s so hard for both of them, zam gritting his teeth when he’s brought up but infront of him he was genuine and spoke barely could match it without losing it and zam just laughed at him struggling to be nice- oh spoke and zam are both insane for that, zam who can match his insanity even if it’s bitter and spoke matching his niceness only to throw up a bit

Like them addressing the other in this day of s6!?!?! crazy crazy CRAZY!!!!! also win for me! Omfg I will not be shutting up about spokes immediate chaos and zam addressing while going along but never dwelling on it omg omg omg them

——Mapic——

him asking zam to trust him, which where did the word trust come from- that and especially in the scenario when zam gave up all hope for escaping flame, like it was pure silence and focus and zam not thinking twice as he listened to mapics instructions which ultimately got him out alive

the potential thoughts in mapics head of him having nothing to save minute so he had to ask zam who also had nothing but zam still tried and was going to die for it, man mapic cares so fkn much and the way everyone is always so ticked zams with the empire but really they say that cause of mapic and holy not to forget about mane not thinking he could take mapic and zam both in a 1v2 cause they actually play as a team helping the other tremendously ugh I love team fights

also zam getting told by bacon and now kab that mapic cares for him so much it’s insane and zam still struggling to accept that omfg, this guy trusts mapic so much but can’t see that mapic trusts him insanely high like zams ready to die for him and in Ls dying for someone is a higher honour of trust and loyalty than protecting > helping > neutral not killing

if mapic ever addresses zams existence in lore to anyone in game omg I would go insane cause how do you explain his trust to a guy who isn’t teamed or allied or doesn’t even have the same morals and to top it off lent him hearts and asked him to save your teammate multiple times DUDE

——Kab——

her having the hardest mental battle and breaking from care and everyone around her being mean except zam and zam never gave up to hate her and now she has to accept him being kind to her omg

such a sad rabbit bonking her head against a tree and the fact she willingly was bait and lived twice and lended 5 hearts omfg her heartbeat was probably through the roof

oh and her staying teamed with wemmbu to keep him out of the mane situation, totally forgot about that

————ok that’s all rn !————

[1doesnotsimplyhavejust1fandam]

The thing that gets me is, if nothing changes, if Tim just stays on as showrunner, we will literally never be free of the worry that one of our mains is going to die in a random episode with no real warning in-universe. If the live stream hadn’t happened, we wouldn’t have even thought it was a possibility while the 118 was trying to get the antivirus and escape the lab. It had been nearly eight seasons of ridiculously unrealistic NDEs for all of the main characters, there was no precedent for Bobby’s death. If I hadn’t seen the live stream or anything on social media leading up to the episode, I wouldn’t have imagined a world in which they would kill off Bobby (except as a fake out). I would’ve understood that his oxygen tank was compromised, but would’ve assumed that Athena or Buck or the military or somebody would come up with a solution to the single antivirus problem. Because that is what every previous 9-1-1 episode had assured me would happen. There is no answer that is beyond this team and this family when it comes to keeping each other alive. “There is not a locked room anywhere that the right tools and enough time can’t break open.” It’s engraved into the heart of the show.

But now that there is precedent for a main’s death, we’ll never be able to breathe easy when it comes to the team being in danger, especially in the big emergency episodes or heavily promoted weeks. Because if Bobby can die in arguably one of the most disrespectful and idiotic ways for a main character and lead on a show to die after eight years, then literally nobody is safe. If Tim sticks around, he will always have the ability to “play God” again, and destroy the firefam with another death.

This is nothing new for many shows, including some of my favorites! But after watching this show for five years, and being reassured in and out of universe that they would never kill off a main, and the show keeping that promise, it had become an expectation and a joy of mine that nobody ever dies. I love angst and silliness and found family, and that is what I watch this show for. And call me egotistical, call me parasocial, but I do not appreciate being lied to by a show runner who kills a main character on a whim. That’s not good writing, it’s somebody who lost the plot a long time ago.

[anghraine]

It feels extremely silly that only today did I realize that pantry and panadería are slightly similar-sounding for a reason >_>

(The English word pantry is one of the many, many common modern English words derived from Anglo-French: in this case, panetrie, from Old French paneterie, "bread room" ... Spanish panadería also has a complex etymology, but all are related to Latin panis, "bread.")

[nellie-elizabeth]

I really, really loved campaign 3, I loved Bells Hells, I loved the finale.

I want to talk about it a bit. This gets messy and rambly and I’m a little defensive because it’s this thing where I loved the story and I want other people to love it too but I know I can’t make that happen so I just feel the need to justify my own response? Idk, read at your own risk, no shade to anybody who feels differently! Truly!

This isn’t me trying to convince anybody of anything, I totally get that I seem to be in a bit of a minority about C3 and that a lot of people didn’t gel with it! I guess this is just me just trying to articulate my reaction? The one thing about watching this finale that I didn’t like was how alienating it feels to see the negative fandom reaction to stuff and just be like… how do other people not get really jazzed about how exciting and weird and different this is? No shade for not liking it, that’s totally valid, but it did bum me out to be in the main tags and see so many people kind of being like, openly mocking of what I thought was a beautiful story?

I don’t wanna state anybody’s opinion back to them because tbh I still feel like I don’t quite understand the core objection about the gods stuff other than that people liked the god dynamics that existed in C1 and C2 as they were and didn’t want that aspect to be destroyed? And for me I guess my metaphor would be like, in C1 the gods were sitting on a box in a shelf and I had no problem with that, they were cool, they were there, whatever, but the RQ and Vax was the only juicy dynamic that got explored there, and she was the only god that broke the pattern because she was an ascended mortal and therefore a foil to our BBEG of Vecna, etc. etc. The stuff with Pike & Everlight, or like Scanlan & Knowing Mistress, Vex & Dawnfather, Grog & Stormlord – or even in C2 the stuff with Fjord & Wildmother, Yasha&Stormlord, which I really really loved – all of those dynamics were more about internal character growth to me, about characters making choices internal to themselves and reaching out for a new purpose and direction. I never like, “cared” about the Wildmother or the Stormlord as “characters,” they were abstract forces, they served as metaphors for character growth for the PCs in my mind.

But for me, so, the gods are sitting in the box on the shelf, and then through C2 when we learned about this other spiritual thing with the Dynasty and the luxon, and every hint we got about the gods’s origins and the Calamity, it was like the box was rattling on the shelf, and then C3 spilled the box open and made this giant fascinating mess where it’s like - oh man, now because of Downfall the gods are characters to me, and now because of all the lore of C3 and Calamity and Downfall, I don’t know what’s going to happen, everything is upside down. And I’m not even saying that this outcome was THE outcome that I would have loved best, I wasn’t really committed to a particular conclusion, I just wanted to break the box open and see all the shit that came spilling out of there, and that’s what I feel like we got? And I guess that goes back to the core thing of, the way the gods functioned in the story back when we first got to know Exandria in C1, that just wasn’t something that I felt really connected or invested in story-wise, I didn’t dislike it, but it just felt like background worldbuilding flavor to me, pretty standard high fantasy pantheon stuff, and didn’t really compel me especially. So fucking with that status quo didn’t have any… grief to it, if that makes sense?

But like narrative-wise for BH, it’s so cool to me to have this story where the heroes did save the world in that they stopped Ludo from releasing Predathos, and they stopped Predathos from getting loose in any other way and just eating all the gods and thus destroying their realms, BUT what they had to do to save the world did NOT preserve the status quo, it really shook everything up, it made what once had seemed permanent impermanent, it defied narrative cohesion and turned a lot of certainties into question-marks. And I really really love that for the world-building aspect of Exandria, and I really love that for Bells Hells, these characters who stumbled into being the ones to make this call, not because they deserved it or they had the greatest investment or it should have been their choice, but because they were the ones who happened to be there and that’s kind of it. That’s very D&D to me, in all its complicated glory.

I see objections about BH’s meandering and lack of motivation a lot and I just do not get how you can say that’s MORE true of BH than it was of VM or M9, all three core campaigns had the same D&D feel of Matt coming up with story hooks and the players going “okay, yeah, we’re playing a game, let’s go over here and see what’s what.” And then personal investment and stakes are woven into that: the chroma conclave is personal because of what Raishan did to the fire ashari, and because Thordak killed Vex & Vax’s mom! The Somnovem is personal because that’s MOLLY, and he’s their friend. Stopping Ludo is personal for Orym because that man killed his family, and Ruidus is personal for Imogen and Fearne because of their fated births, and because their long-absent parents (Imogen’s mom and Fearne’s dad) are caught up in this mess. So the world-ending stakes end up having personal character hooks to them, but also as always there’s this aspect of a D&D party going to stop the end of the world because that’s what you do, and the RP challenge is having the characters figure out why they’re motivated to be there. I’m not even going to argue that they’re 100% successful at that all the time, like, I think the player who grapples with the question the most directly is Sam, who famously keeps struggling with why Veth would be adventuring when she has a family waiting for her, but he did it with Scanlan too obviously. That’s another thing I think of as a feature, not a bug, of this game, it’s not that a fully improvised TTRPG show is going to have the tightest and most cogent character arcs ever created, it’s that the actors are constructing something on the fly while new concepts are being thrown at them constantly, and what are they going to land on? Not something perfect, but something that hopefully feels true. And I certainly felt that from C3, while I get the sense that many others did not.

I checked in on tags while watching the finale a few times but then had to stop because I just saw a lot of people apparently…. Hate-watching this finale, and just kind of jumping to the most judgmental possible reaction to everything? This isn’t even saying that I was annoyed that people were disappointed, I saw some reactions that I didn’t agree with but that made sense, people being like “man, I wish they’d more directly confronted the risks of releasing Predathos the way they did, I wish this had been something that actual holy leaders and Vasselheim had gotten to help decide” and like, yeah, I totally understand that reaction! But other people seemed to take anything that BH did or said and just decide it was proof of what shitty horrible people they all are, and that did bum me out lol.

Like one example is that there’s this scene where Matt is showing how many of the leaders of Vasselheim are deeply grieving about the gods being gone, and it’s complicated, right, because they’re not gone gone but still everything is different forever now - and we get a whole host of different reactions from our party. We get Ashton trying to be understanding but also being pretty smug and condescending (very Ashton of them), we get Orym and Imogen being compassionate and totally seeing the point of view of the grieving Vord, et al, we get Laudna being socially out of touch but candid as she always is, expressing (privately to the group) that she’s annoyed that they’re not being celebrated as having saved the world. And we get Deanna, in one of my favorite lines of the whole finale, I think, talking about how it was never the point to worship the gods because they were gods. The gods gave them power to help people, and that still stays. So we see how even though there’s this sadness and uncertainty, there are still people of faith who have their purpose and maintain it through this period of transition. They get to have this whole new relationship to faith and to the divinity of their guiding patrons, and some of them are going to embrace it and others are going to crumble under the weight of this loss, and it’s going to really, really fuck with the world. It was, I thought, a pretty standard scene for this group of talented actors, myriad reactions and experiences being expressed, no one right answer or definitive way of viewing what had happened.

And I saw multiple reactions in the tags being like “god, this is why nobody likes bells hells, they’re so shitty and they just think they can walk all over everyone and make the decisions for everyone else and not suffer any consequences.” And I just like… don’t understand how that can be your reaction to that scene, to this finale, to this campaign. I truly feel like that’s not an accurate read of any of this. Who’s to say they didn’t suffer consequences?

Also, one last thing, I like that this was a finale of compromises, and I fucking like that Vax gets to come home! I feel like I get exactly why the people who don’t like it don’t like it, and it’s because it unravels the ending of C1 and takes away the permanence of that ending, but like — listen, Vax didn’t WANT to be dead and leave his family, it was a huge fucking bummer, if Vecna hadn’t turned him to ash he would still have been a paladin of the RQ and maybe gone with her forever when he died but he at least would have gotten to live a life with the people he loved, and this ending DOESN’T undo his choice to be devoted to the RQ, it just undoes that thing where he had to be gone too soon. Maybe I’m just selfish but I like compromise land where his important relationship to the matron is still going to guide his life forever, that’s still a core part of who he is, and he gets to come home from work trips to be with his family. Idk, it’s different from the ending we got at first, and I think if you were writing a novel, Campaign 1’s ending is the most coherent, wrapped up, thematically tight story here, and fucking with VM outcomes in C3 totally disrupts that, I get it, I just, personally? Fuck it, Keyleth’s been in pain for 30 years, let her fucking have this one!! I don’t think it ruins the ending of C1, I don’t think it diminishes Vax’s sacrifice, I think… idk. I think Liam’s happy with it. And in a weird way, that is honestly the most important part of this to me? These shows are such a blend of character & performer where the investment and satisfaction of the PC actors matters to me more than how I would have written the story if it were a novel, if that makes sense. Idk, I’m just rambling, I know some people who are throwing parties in the streets about Vaxleth happy ending and other people who are pissed that it ruins C1’s ending, and I’m just like… man, idk. Maybe it’s because the real world is so fucked right now but I really needed a miracle and Keyleth really needed a miracle and I’m cool with her getting it.

There were PLENTY of aspects of C3 I didn’t love, but I felt that way about VM and M9 I think just as strongly as I did about BH. I find myself in this weird position of writing all of this out in this kind of defensive way because I feel so alienated and disconnected from all the negative reactions I’ve seen. I feel genuine sympathy and sorrow for the fans of CR who didn’t like C3 because I am having such a joyful and transcendent experience having watched this 10 year journey come to such an epic close. I wanted to be able to celebrate more with people but I also think I need to just stop focusing on all the ways this story failed to capture some parts of the fandom, because I know I’m not alone in feeling really happy and satisfied right now!

So, so many congratulations to the CR team for this huge accomplishment, I’m excited for what they do next.

[raptor-claw]

if anyone is thinking of watching supernatural WATCH IT PLEASE I BEG OF YOU!!

even just the first season is amazing, then mayhaps perchance you could send me an ask with your thoughts so i can get that serotonin boost pls perhaps maychance…

or if you just wanna talk abt spn you can send me an ask, warning tho i am on season six ep thirteen and have been having a war trying to consume as little spoilers as possible :’) (an impossible goal when you’re a fan of destiel)

also you will not see this post as a cleverly disguised way to get spn fans into my inbox for that sweet sweet notification hit nuh uh it’s not that all you don’t know what you’re talking about-