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Summary: The music is loud, the drinks are hitting, and Oscar Piastri is hornier than he looks. Good thing there’s a private bathroom in the back. Unlucky for Lando Norris, he has to stand outside and make sure no one walks in to see you getting absolutely wrecked. Warnings:18+, smut, public sex, unprotected piv, club bathroom setting, dom!Oscar, choking, hand over mouth, overstimulation, creampie, dumb humour, Lando is the unfortunate third wheel (but outside the door), Oscar has a filthy mouth
It starts with a whisper. A hand on your lower back. A voice in your ear just filthy enough to make you clench around nothing.
“You’ve got five seconds to get to the bathroom, or I’m gonna fuck you on that VIP table in front of everyone.”
You blink. Turn. Oscar is standing behind you like he didn’t just casually threaten to publicly ruin you. Except his eyes are darker than usual, his jaw tight, and his hand is already dragging you toward the back hallway of the club. The VIP section melts behind you. Smoke and neon and champagne blurs into nothing.
“Wait,” you stammer. “Oscar-”
“I said five seconds, baby.”
And Lando? Lando Norris is standing nearby, leaning against the wall like a stupid little bodyguard with his drink in one hand and confusion in his soul.
“Wait, wait, what’s happening?” Lando tries to ask, watching you both disappear down the hallway, Oscar’s hand curled tight around your wrist.
Oscar doesn’t even look back. He just mutters, “Guard the door, mate,” and shoves you into the single-stall bathroom, locking it with a click before Lando can respond.
The second it shuts, everything explodes.
Oscar grabs your waist, lifts you onto the sink like it weighs nothing, and kisses you like he’s starving. Like he needs your mouth to breathe. Like he might die if he doesn’t get his cock inside you within the next thirty seconds.
“What the fuck are you doing to me,” he breathes between kisses, dragging your dress up to your hips. “You knew exactly what you were doing, dancing like that, looking at me like that- fuck.”
Your head tips back as he drags your underwear down and shoves them into his pocket. His mouth is on your neck. Your jaw. His hand curls around your throat, holding you still.
“Oscar, we’re literally in a club-”
“Uh huh. I’m aware.” He tugs his zipper down. “That’s why I told Lando to guard the door. He can suffer while I make you come around my cock like a good girl.”
You choke on your own breath. “You’re evil.”
He kisses you again. Smiling. “You love it.”
And then he’s lining up. Rubbing the head of his cock against your slit, already soaking. Already twitching.
“I haven’t even touched you properly,” he mutters, groaning as he pushes in, “and you’re dripping. You’re such a slut for it, aren’t you?”
You whimper, nails digging into his shoulders as he starts to fuck you, hard and fast, the bathroom echoing with skin on skin. Your head thuds lightly against the mirror behind you. The sink creaks. The walls shake.
Outside, Lando flinches. He can hear everything.
“Oh for fuck’s sake,” he mutters, banging his head back against the wall and holding his drink like it’s holy protection. “Why me.”
Inside, Oscar’s fucking ruthless. He’s got one hand gripping your throat and the other hand sliding between your legs, rubbing your clit fast enough to make your thighs shake.
“You’re gonna come for me, baby,” he pants, forehead pressed to yours, breath hot and filthy. “Come on. Come while Lando listens. Let him know how good I fuck you.”
You can’t help it. The mix of pain and pleasure, the thrill of being caught, the filth in his voice, it’s all too much.
You come hard, shaking, gasping, head falling back against the mirror as your body clenches around him.
“Good girl,” he breathes, fucking you through it. “God, I’m gonna fill you up so good, make sure you leak all over that pretty dress on the way out-”
The second you whimper his name again, he loses it. Burying himself deep. Coming hard inside you with a low groan that sounds like it’s breaking him in half.
When he pulls out, it’s messy and warm and you’re both panting. Your dress is ruined. Your thighs are sticky. Your lipstick is smeared across his jaw.
And outside the door? Lando’s done.
“I’m never doing that again,” he says the moment you two walk out. “I’m serious. I don’t care if I get fined, arrested, banned from every club in Europe, I’m never guarding a fuck-room door for either of you again.”
Oscar shrugs, arm slung casually around your waist. “She said please.”
“I did not,” you whisper, laughing.
Lando glares. “You owe me a lifetime supply of therapy.”
Oscar grins. “Mate, we're sponsoped by Loop earplugs, get some of them.”
#f1 fanfic#f1 fanfiction#f1 x reader#formula 1 fanfic#f1 imagine#f1 fic#f1 smut#oscar piastri#oscar piastri smut#oscar piastri x reader#oscar piastri x you#oscar piastri imagine#oscar piastri fanfic#lando norris
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divisive thought here, but can we stop sexualizing Aziraphale and Crowley? I personally don't like it because they were the first cannon asexual characters I ever saw in media. I felt seen for the first time in my life and it gave young ace me the hope that I needed, to know that we are real and not just on the internet. Y'all are human beings with free will and can do whatever you want, but please remember that it hurts some of us when you sexualize the only representation we get. Idk if to call it ace erasure but when I have to go hunting for the asexual crowley/aziraphale tag on Ao3 it makes my heart sink a little.
-Love a passionate media loving apothiace person
#asexual#good omens#acespec#archive of our own#ao3 fanfic#asexual awareness#asexual awareness week#ace erasure#y'all have free will but please just keep us in mind#for the love of all things holy let the smut die#divisive opinion ik#you don't have to agree you have free will#just be kind#harrassment=blocked and reported
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hey guys fred weasley throwing my legs over his shoulders and fucks me so good he can’t help but laugh at the puddle i am before him hi
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Pairing: Fred Weasley x reader
Word count:1149
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Warnings: Smut (18+), oral (f receiving), teasing, dirty talk, pet names, established relationship, aftercare, fluff
Fred Weasley had a gift for many things,blowing things up, bending rules, getting out of trouble with a grin,but making you completely lose your mind might’ve been his most potent magic.
You were tucked up in his room at the Burrow,summer air warm, windows cracked open, and the low sound of enchanted wireless humming lazily from the corner. You’d stolen one of his shirts again, the old one from the shop with the neckline stretched and sleeves too big, hanging off your shoulder just enough to drive him mad.
He was watching you from the foot of the bed, eyes raking over your body like he hadn’t just had you the night before. Or the morning before that. Or up against the bathroom sink not twelve hours ago.
You peeked over the top of your book, trying not to smirk.
“You’re staring.”
Fred didn’t deny it. “I am. You look so good like that. All casual. Comfy. Completely fuckable.”
You snorted, but your thighs pressed together.
“Bit needy today, aren’t you?”
He tilted his head, grin wolfish. “You calling me needy? You, who literally screamed my name loud enough last night I think the ghoul in the attic clapped for us?”
You laughed, and that laugh earned a low growl from him. He moved, slow and controlled, like a lion stalking prey,crawling up the bed until he was hovering above you, nose brushing your cheek.
“You calling me needy…” he whispered, dragging his lips across your jaw, “…while you’re sitting here, soaking through my shirt with your thighs clenched and pretending you don’t want me to ruin you.”
Your breath hitched. “Fred—”
“Let me eat you out, Y/N.”
“...what?”
He grinned. “You heard me.”
“Yeah, I just—no foreplay? No kissing? No—”
Fred’s hands were already sliding down your body. “Baby, we’ve been doing foreplay since the minute I saw you in my shirt. I’ve been suffering.”
He kissed down your neck, hands lifting the hem of the oversized tee until it bunched at your waist.
“I need you on your back. Legs over my shoulders. Right fucking now.”
You’d never obeyed so quickly in your life.
He slid your underwear down slowly, teasingly, sucking a kiss to your thigh as he settled between them.
“Look at this,” he said, voice in awe. “You’re already soaked. Merlin’s tits, love.”
You opened your mouth to snap at him,but then his tongue flattened against your clit, and all that came out was a moan so loud it echoed.
Fred groaned, latching on like he was starving. His tongue circled and licked, slow at first, building gradually, fingers digging into your hips like he was holding onto the last threads of control.
He loved eating you out. It was one of his favorite hobbies,up there with Quidditch and annoying Filch.
And he was good at it. Filthy. Passionate. Worshipful.
“Fuck, Fred—please—”
His fingers slid inside you just as his mouth closed around your clit again, and your back arched off the bed.
“That’s it, darling,” he murmured against you. “Let me hear you.”
Your fingers tangled in his hair, tugging as you whined, thighs shaking. He didn’t stop. Didn’t even pause.
“Oh—fuck—I’m gonna—Fred—fuck—”
You came hard, grinding into his mouth, eyes screwed shut, legs trembling on either side of his head.
He moaned like he loved it,like tasting you was the highlight of his entire day.
And when he finally looked up, face soaked and smug, you were a breathless, blissed-out mess.
“You good?” he asked, voice hoarse.
You blinked at him. “I can’t feel my legs.”
He laughed so hard he had to lean on the bed for balance. “Holy fuck, Y/N. You’re literally a puddle.”
“Shut up.”
“No, really. You’re like—dripping. If you die, I’m blaming that book you ignored me for.”
You threw a pillow at him. He caught it with one hand and tossed it aside.
Then he was back on you,pulling off the rest of his clothes, lifting your hips like you weighed nothing.
“You think we’re done?” he teased.
You squeaked when he spread your legs and lined himself up. “I—Fred—wait—”
“Just a little more,” he whispered, kissing your cheek. “I’ll go slow.”
But he didn’t. Not really.
Because the moment he sank into you, tight and warm and still twitching from your orgasm, his control shattered.
He groaned like you were the best feeling he’d ever known. “Fuck—fuck—you’re squeezing me so tight—how are you this perfect?”
You gasped, hands gripping his shoulders. “You’re huge, Fred—oh my god—”
His pace started steady, but it didn’t stay that way.
Every time he pulled out and pushed back in, he went deeper. Harder. Faster.
Your legs instinctively locked around his shoulders again, heels digging into his back as he slammed into you over and over.
Your moans were shameless now,raw and honest and wrecked.
Fred leaned down, face close to yours, grinning like he’d just discovered treasure.
“You love it,” he panted. “Being fucked like this. All stretched out and cock-drunk for me.”
You nodded helplessly, tears in your eyes from how good it felt.
“Say it,” he demanded, breath hot on your lips. “Tell me you love it.”
“I love it—I love it, Fred, please—”
“Please what, baby?”
“Don’t stop.”
“Never.”
His hand reached between you, fingers finding your clit again. Your body jolted at the stimulation, already too much and somehow not enough.
“You gonna come again for me?” he whispered, kissing your temple.
You nodded desperately. “Y-yeah—yes, fuck, please—”
“Good girl.”
That pushed you right over the edge.
You shattered beneath him with a scream, body spasming, stars bursting behind your eyes. Your walls clenched so tight around him, it pulled his orgasm out of him seconds later.
“Shit—Y/N—”
He buried himself deep, groaning your name like a prayer as he came hard inside you.
It was messy. Intense. Fucking glorious.
When he finally collapsed beside you, both of you breathless and sweaty and clinging to each other, the room was dead silent except for the ragged sounds of your breathing.
Then, softly:
“Still mad I interrupted your reading?”
You snorted into his chest. “I don’t even remember what the book was about.”
Fred chuckled, pulling you into his arms and kissing your forehead. “Exactly.”
You both laid there for a moment, tangled in sheets and limbs and sweat, before he grabbed his wand and muttered a quick cleaning spell with a flick.
You sighed. “That’s cheating.”
He smirked. “That’s magic.”
A beat passed. Then, softly, Fred looked down at you.
“Y’know I love you, right?”
You blinked. Heat rose to your cheeks. “What?”
He smiled. No teasing. No joke. Just Fred,completely sincere.
“I love you, Y/N. Like... all the time. Even when you’re ignoring me for books.”
You cupped his cheek. “I love you too.”
His grin widened. “Even when I turn you into a puddle?”
You rolled your eyes and kissed him again.
“Especially then.”
#fred weasley smut#fred weasley x reader#fred weasley x fem reader#fred weasley x you#fred weasley x y/n#fred weasley imagine#fred weasley fic#fred weasley fanfiction#fred weasley and reader#fred weasley and y/n#fred weasley and you#fred weasley#fred and reader#fred weasley fluff#george weasley x reader#george weasley x you#george weasley x y/n#george weasly x reader#george weasley#harry potter fanfiction#harry potter fanfic#harry potter smut#harry potter oneshot#harry potter x reader
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heart-pounding satisfaction
max verstappen
tags: smut/pwp, teammates au, driver!reader, mean!reader, (implied) sub!max, reader is a bitch (affectionate), mean & degrading language (also dirty talk), face sitting/masturbation
a/n: i can imagine fans hating the reader for being so vocal, especially towards max, but in the world of formula one, it's do or die. i need these fuckers to get nasty!! this fic is also nasty as hell, don't look at me....
max had fucking lost it. he was convinced he had lost it. you two had been teammates for close to six months now. three months of off season, three months of the twenty-twenty-five season. and you drove him up the wall.
this was a teammate up in the making, red bull's savior, their prince and the princess plucked from haas and placed in a car next to him. it should all be roses, singing birds and happily ever after.
but you couldn't be more disinterested him. almost hostile. as you said to the press, "i am here to win. i respect max's previous teammates, but i won't fumble because someone needs a fifth title." not even glancing over at your teammate.
after that, other women felt boring. any city on the globe, he could easily find a lovely lady for the evening. someone to spoil with orgasms and a rocking bed, a tale for her to tell her friends the following afternoon. but lately it had felt like the only thing that got him excited was you. when you were mean.
it had been a long time since someone was mean to him. aside from comments online or snide comments from other drivers. everyone knew he was in charge, and his teammate should be second on command. but you had zero interest in that. he hadn't complained, and instead played along with the niceties of teamsmanship. he only did it because he didn't want it to stop.
he liked it, he liked it a lot.
and while max was in a self inflicted dry spell. you were taking a liking to the new found fame you've acquired. max had gone to get you from the hotel room a few times and every time a man had sheepishly left your hotel room.
"sorry, mate." they'd often say. that or, "holy shit, it's max verstappen." and only scurry off when max glared at them. willing to give these guys some action, but not your teammate? cruel woman.
regardless, he let your words tumble off your tongue. venom that turned into honey in his brain. the more you spoke, the more he wanted to jerk off. you had ruined him without a second touch.
as you lazily held the trophy for the canadian grand prix in your hand on the way back to the hotel in montreal. you leaned up against the wall of the elevator and laughed, "fourth, verstappen." your tone mocking, "i'm pretty sure if you were less of a bastard on the second turn you could've given stroll the podium he wants. he could've over taken piastri... you could've as well, but you've become comfortable."
max swallowed and the elevator door opened. he didn't exit until you did first. you reached around him and pulled him close to you. you looked marginally up at him and he said, "i...i'll win next time." he could already feel the red in his face.
you laughed, "sure, sure, verstappen. why, is daddy coming to visit?" you gave him a mocking look. you acted like you weren't heavily scarred with your own daddy issues. you at least had the option to never mention the man who pushed you until you broke through any barriers to get into f1.
he hated that he was getting aroused. that he could feel the spike in his soul as his heart skipped a beat. it could be cute if another woman was mean to him. but when you did it, it blew a fuse in his mind.
you laughed and looked at him, "you gotta get over it one day, max. if you don't that fucking bastard is going to outlive you." there was a moment of honesty, "if i want to beat you, i'd like you alive." then squeezed him for a moment more.
he swallowed then asked, "do you hate me that much?"
you pulled away and stalled in your step for a moment, you collected yourself quickly and said, "no... as much as you'd love to hear it. i don't hate you." you looked at him briefly, "you love being the villain. the lion, mad max, whatever else they call you. i'm just giving them the drama they want." you looked at the trophy, "beating you is just half the fun." you went to open the door to your room and max pressed himself up against you which made you drop the trophy and get squished between his solid body and the harder door.
"be mean to me. fuck... be fucking nasty with it." the words poured from his mouth, "just, be brutal." he swallowed, "but please, just give me a taste of you. i hate those bastards that get to fuck you every weekend. get to feel and taste you." he pressed you further, "give me a hard time and let me have my way with you."
you exhaled deeply and felt a quickening of you heart rate. you were quick to respond, "well then, verstrappen. why don't you make yourself useful and help me get my key out."
you could already hear the cheering in max's head as he helped you open the door. that you only assumed grew louder when you two started kissing. your arms wrapped around him as you got into the room backwards, your trophy left behind in the hallway. almost tripped over your shoes, but clothes were of little issue once max got your red bull branded t-shirt of you.
clothes tossed variously throughout the room before you two ended up in bed together. you rank your fingers down his chest and exhaled deeply. "you're a pain in my side, max. from the moment i met you. you were always the golden boy, the champion. god's gift to racing." you pinned him down on the bed and he shuddered.
"k..keep going." the heat was high in his face. he could feel the stagger of his heartbeat. it felt good. your words sounded like heaven, but yet it sank him down to the pits of hell.
"oh my god, you're pathetic! do you hear yourself, max? four championships and you're still chasing a prize that you'll never get." you straddled his chest and put your hands on his jaw. you looked down to stare in his eyes, "but yet you live in my head rent-free."
he exhaled, "imagine what you do to me." grabbed your hips and pushed your cunt over his mouth and nose. he gripped your ass and pressed your sex against his face and groaned loudly.
you had to brace yourself with your hands so you didn't go nose-first into the wall. his pace was brutal on you, his licks were sloppy. he was messy with his movements in a desperate attempt to bring you pleasure.
he was less like a lion and more like a desperate dog. you moaned loudly and held your position against the wall as he desperately ate you out. like a man starved.
you really had burrowed into his brain and invade every empty space in his skull until his thoughts were swamped with you.
"jerk yourself off, you useless idiot." you spat, "you're so used to girls getting you off. if you want to get off, you actually have to work for it. can you do that? actually work hard for something." you clenched your thighs around his head.
max kept one hand on your hip and the other around his leaky, achy cock. he groaned as he pleasure himself. it was hot, to see a sort of moral collapse on a four time world champion. that even a man with power, could be reduced to a moaning slut. you wondered how wet you could get lips.
if your wetness could stain his mouth as he made pleasure shoot through your body. you held onto the wall with one hand and a his short blond hair with the other. you shuddered and felt your nipples grow hard, "this feels fucking wrong." you yanked on his hair which only made him jerk himself off faster, "you have driven me crazy. everything you fucking hard, most would kill for. i at least want to give you a run for your money. actually make the wins feel real, because when i take over. when i beat you, it'll only make the victory sweeter." you arched your back a little more and moaned loudly.
the movements only continued and you felt the pleasure course up your body. the heat in your breathing as you closed your eyes for a moment to compose yourself. you croaked out through an intense feeling of pleasure, "fuck, max. i didn't know honestly that you got off to it." you panted heavily, "if i knew, i would've been nicer. but knowing your perverted ass, you would've gotten off to it. you would've loved if i was gentle and mean to you. a firm yet cuddly hand." you let out a sharp exhale and a small moan.
max would easily admit that any attention from you would go right to his cock. he continued to tease the blunt head as he orally pleasured you. the feeling of your thighs on his face and head. your pussy right up to his mouth and nose. he could feel the lack of oxygen, but it only increased the pleasure in his body. he felt like a live wire, he felt like a hurricane. it was an intense feeling that pounded in his chest. it left him sexually starving, a lion without a feast as he devoured you. and the way you tugged on his hair only drove him more mad.
"you love being used like that. hoping that i'll give you praise one day. but you're just a stupid, stupid boy. a toothless lion, a failure to your country. and your fucking family. you're a failure to me and that stupid trophy we left outside was evidence of that. do better, be better and maybe you'll be someone worth being on the same track at me." your words laced with venom, but held heavy sexual want as the pleasure continued to course through your body. your chest heaved and your pulse pounded. it felt hot, you felt hot. it was erotic in a way that would make most disgusted.
how dare the world champion be used like for your sexual gratification. while he pathetically jerked himself off. you allowed him to breathe out of his nose and his pants were heavily as air allowed blood to be pumped to somewhere other than his cock.
you hissed through a tense jaw as he continued to orally pleasure you, "you deserve to be some low-level job. get off the track and make yourself useful by picking trash off the stands." it only made him jerk his cock off harder. you panted heavily as the words tumbled out as pleasure near hit its peak, "get out of my way, i refuse to be second fiddle to you. i refuse to be in your shadow." you clenched your thighs around him tighter, "i am better than you, max verstappen." your voice toxic.
but yet, it made max cum all over himself. he groaned loudly and panted against your cunt as he continued to stroke himself to overstimulation while he continued to lap at your cunt hungrily. max had lost it, he had officially lost it.
it was the most erotic thing that he had ever been a part of. and years and years of a life like this had made him experience many interesting things. this topped everything. you groaned once more and felt the pleasure curl up inside of you.
it was becoming too much, with one more slew on words, "you cum to me calling you weak.. huh? interesting. i guess the great max verstappen is weak just like every other man. why call you a god of racing when i can make you whine and beg like a dog." you coursed under your breath. and then you came. you admitted to yourself, it was the closest to heaven you had ever be. damn max verstappen, damn him. you slowed your pace down and got fully off of his face before you got into bed.
he wiped his face with his hand and tried to go in for a kiss, but you put a hand over his mouth. you looked at him dead in the eyes. he looked at you quizzically.
"oh, you're not shutting me up until i can make you squirm with my words, verstappen. now get yourself hard again, i'm not done with you." <3
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Babydaddy!simon marrying you!!!!!
(gang this is 18+ im lowkey sorry im horny and can barley write smut lol)
You and Simon elope. It’s a lot easier than an actual wedding, even if it would be only small. It’s not like you have many people to invite anyway; Simon would die before having his workmates at something so personal, and motherhood had kept you from seeing your friend for a while now (you’re sure they would show up if you asked, but it all seems like too much work pregnant). Not even the kids come; the eldest has some idea of what is going on but not enough to care that they are being left out of something very important. The others don’t care, happy and content to sit staring at subtitles all day rather than being dragged to a marriage ceremony.
Simon gets a sitter for them; desperate to prove his worthiness back into your life (even though you are about to marry him), he sets it up and prays it goes off without a hitch. It’s a courthouse wedding; Simon wears a rare button-down top and slacks that you don’t remember ever seeing before (you haven’t he realised that he didn’t have anything remotely nice to get married in and snuck out to get some after work). You wear a sweet satin mini dress; it’s more light blue than white, but neither you nor Simon could pretend to care about that. Simon certainly can’t care, or, for that matter, focus when your legs are on display like that; he feels a certain amount of anger that other people (a geriatric marriage officiant) should get to see the sinful way that your bump is already pressing up against the light blue fabric, breasts popping out to create cleavage that both he and his youngest want a lick at (although for very different reasons).
It's a quick process; they arrive around midday. It seems to be the best time to get a sitter to cover. The ceremony is basically over before it began. It’s a quick and simple thing; it’s romantic and makes Simon’s heart ache but is over quickly. Both have short vows. Simon promises over and over again that you’ll never be alone again; he apologizes for not being as present as he should and so on and so forth. He slips the ring onto your hand, and just like that, you're happily married, walking back to the car hand in hand. Simon cannot keep his hands off you the second you are both in the car.
“My pretty little wife,” he murmurs into your neck, pulling you into his lap the second you are both seated, kissing up and down your neck, murmuring in disbelief that you're actually finally his wife.
He feels like a horny teenager again, his love boner painful as you make out. You don’t let it go further, reminding him that you have a house full of children to get home to. Children who are ecstatic to see you both, they are getting used to seeing Simon around every day, but they certainly aren’t used to not seeing you. The rest of the day goes by as normal, not that Simon feels normal; in fact, he feels unabashedly horny. He has to escape his kids; when you get home, he throws a
“bathroom” over his shoulder before rushing upstairs.
He jerks off fast and almost painfully, something so reminiscent of when he is on deployment, hard as hell after receiving a photo from you. The text says, “30-week appointment.” The accompanying image shows you standing in front of a mirror, bra tight over your breasts and belly big and bare, a hand pushed into your back to counter the weight. ‘Fuck,’ he texts back. ‘That’s hot,’ is all he says, already going back in his memories to find a scenario to jerk off to.
He doesn’t need a scenario today; seeing you all pregnant and pretty wearing his ring—holy fuck, it’s got him going. Going so much that he spills over into the sink, washing away his precious come that he intends to keep you swollen and round with.
That night after the kids had gone to bed, he fucks you hard, calling you his “pretty little wife” and promising to keep you pregnant over and over again. He groans when you moan; you promise that you're his, his wife to keep barefoot and pregnant till the end of time.
#baby daddy Simon Riley#x reader#mae writes 💞#simon riley x you#simon ghost x reader#simon riley x reader#simon ghost riley#simon riley smut#task force x reader#task force 141#call of duty fanfic
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You are the knife (I turn inside myself),
S2!Post-addiction!Spencer Reid x afab!BAU!reader
SMUT!! (and copious amounts of angst, and like a small amount of fluff to just… balance it out), Workplace rivals, aka, enemies to lovers (who are still enemies and would rather die than tell each other they’re in love).
──── autistic spencer (as per usual), evil evil reader (im being dramatic, kinda), they hate each other so much that they have to find a new way to crawl into each others skin.
Warnings: sub spencer, brat!spencer (a man gets glasses and suddenly thinks he can be defiant) brat!tamer!reader, HUGE corruption kink (someone keeps putting that in there???? it’s not me, i swear), first time for Spencer (i love a virginal nerd), restraints (someone has to pin him down), crying— like lots of crying, degradation (and a little praise because they work hand in hand), Spencer eats reader out like rent is due, reader says thankyou by destroying him, they argue mid-sex. They actually just argue constantly. Mention of past drug addiction.
w.c: 9k (mostly smut, holy shit how is it 9k??? their arguments hiked up my word count im positive)
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Something, something, mindless torture. Spencer holds his brain, his intellect, in high regard. Proverbial accomplishments, Stanford Binet approved genius, he’s an outlier to most. And yet, the moment you start speaking, he has no thoughts beyond the domineering urge to throw himself off a cliff.
You’re late today. Chicago, you’ve both been sentenced, discarded to create a profile from the minimal information present. Forced proximity, the team have been trying to stifle this animosity shared between you for over a year now. It doesn’t work.
Here’s the thing, each member of the BAU has their own specialised feat: Penelope could be a cybercriminal, if she so wished, a tech-genius that has no qualms in tearing down firewalls. Morgan, adroit, an expert on the field, stereotypically strong, all running lines of muscle. Who wouldn’t want to be princess-carried away from danger by him? He’s also remarkably good at kicking down doors. Gideon has incalculable years of experience, a mentor.
The list stretches on.
But you and Spencer can’t both be the brains of the team. It’s unbalanced, skewed. A clash of intellect. Scales tipped in one direction, why does he always come up short? Why can’t he just—
Why, repeats as you push through the bureau, blanking the predictable, formulaic stares of various officers, trained officials, the usual mess. Why— why profiling? Why did you voluntarily choose to suffer your way through ceaseless cases of sanguinary?There has to be an element of masochism to your career; no one with a sane mind voluntarily decides to walk into an onslaught of serial killers and death.
The early mornings are always the worst; stumbling out of bed, deriving no sleep from the night, tangled sheets and restless limbs. “Don’t,” you push, padding into the office, met with Spencer’s hardened gaze. “Late night.”
“We haven’t been here for 48 hours yet, 36 and 22 minutes to be precise, and you’ve already—“
“Get your mind out of the gutter, boy genius. Late night as in I stared at the casefiles until my mind went numb.”
“Did you take a break?” he asks, and you both know it’s not born from care. “Maybe a self-reflection period to realise that torturing yourself isn’t the most effective form of work. Your reactive skills will be delayed now, let’s hope we don’t find the unsub today. In fact, maybe I should warn Hotch—“
“Have I ever warned Hotch about your breakdowns?” that shuts him up. It also makes him spiral, because you can’t know, it’s not statistically possible that you’d be aware of Hankel’s lasting impact on his body, dilaudid, hydromorphine, and not tell someone. He assumes you’d be desperate to eliminate him from the team, to claim your win.
“Right, um— the case,” he shifts in his seat. Professionalism, tolerance, it’s all a little too much work when it comes to the subject of you.
“The case.” you agree.
You’re attuned to each other, a psychological curse he’s forced to stomach. Offices and crime scenes, analysing, competing, hellbent on one upping the other. “Look at these markings—“ his hands rifle through the files that adorn the table, searching searching until they produce an autopsy report.
The markings on the body are intricate, latin symbols prominent against the victims pale skin. You lean further forward, following the path of his index finger as it traces the outline. Perhaps there’s an element of telepathy to your dynamic; you don’t need to state the obvious, too aware that his brain has already processed the information, that he’s moved onto the nuances now.
Human sacrifice, it’s not the first time you’ve caught yourselves in the midst of cult worship and indoctrination. But it’s certainly the first time of its kind.
“Traces of wine in her bloodstream. Found in a forest. Sounds like a bacchanal.” you state, shifting to pull yourself up on the desk.
Spencer looks. At your long, slender legs extending out from a pencil skirt. Effortless, natural, situating yourself on the oakwood, hair half covering your face, with loose strands pooling over your eyes to obstruct your sight.
It’s a strange analogy, the two of you; Spencer with his tired eyes, haphazard clothes and messy desk, and you, just as dishevelled in the morning light.
Metaphorically and literally you’re higher than him right now. He fixes his askew glasses. Clears his throat. “Regina Horthorne,” the victim, “Straight A student. Honour role. What are the chances she willing went to said… bacchanal?”
“Hm. I don’t know, maybe she’s like Laura Palmer. Double life. 4.0 cheerleader by day, crazed bacchante by night.” you retort.
Shamelessly, you take a moment to observe him, just as he did you. Shirt sleeves bunched up at his elbows, hair tousled, large hazel eyes, interminably darting across your face. You wonder for a moment if he’s analysed you the way you’ve analysed him. It’s a futile question, of course he has.
Anything to gain the upper hand.
You continue, “Maybe they’re sacrificing virgins. You could go undercover as a potential victim. Certainly fit the part.”
“I’m already too old to be counted as an appropriate victim. There’s a high probability ‘they’, the dominant unsub, wouldn’t even look at me, and—“ he pauses, pretty face marred by creased features, brows furrowed, a slight pout to his lips.
“There’s a homicidal cult preforming human sacrifice, and you’re wasting time by insulting me?” Spencer is….. a perpetual scholar, a social disaster, wearing his intellect like an ill-concealed secret, outcasted for the weight of his own brilliance. “The BAU clearly made a well-informed decision when they hired you.”
“Oh, you wound me boy genius.” you respond, pressing your hand against your heart.
Endless cases. The impenetrable presence of fall. It feels like you shift through cycles, bleary-eyed and tainted from the job, damaged goods— do you struggle to sleep like I do?
You lean forward, hands, adorned with cluttered rings, braced against the table, bodies closer now. There’s a burn, something fervent that lingers between you, rivalry, opposition. Some days you feel as hedonistic as the unsubs you track and chase.
Continuing, you let out a sharp laugh. “Are you still bitter because I realised it was a bacchanal before you? Don’t worry, i’ll let you take the credit for it. I’m sure Gideon will be so impressed.”
Gideon sees everything in him, and nothing in you. Predictable.
The distance between you has become almost null. It’s intimate, and he’s not sure how he feels about that. “I’m not bitter. And I don’t care about the credit.” A lie. “Unlike you, I don’t need to prove my worth to him.”
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Spilt blood. Your hands are calloused from holding a gun. From firing a bullet straight through skull. The case closes, locked behind that inviolable wall, the one that’s installed into your mind the moment you’re employed, the moment you sign your fate over to the BAU. You’re not sure why anyone stays, overworked and undervalued, there’s no heroes in real life. Maybe it’s the sense of family, or maybe it’s just what everyone subconsciously fell into.
You can’t understand why you’re so angry at Spencer, why it extends to the next case, South Dakota— deaths of locals, but these days, all of the illogical, petty reasons just blur together. Create this tangled mess of overcompensation. ’I assumed you two would get along,’ Prentiss had stated— but what does she know? She’s been an active member of the BAU for a whole 10 minutes.
The hostility has mounted to new levels now.
It’s hard work, long hours, no gratitude and a pay cheque that can’t even begin to cover the trauma that comes with the job. The BAU is like self-sabotage: a long list of reasons to leave, and no real reasons to stay. But still you’re both stuck in this loop.
South Dakota, of course it’s South Dakota. Cold, desolate South Dakota where the wind and snow will not let up, and the team are forced to remain cooped up in a cheap motel, desperate for any sort of entertainment.
Here he is, coerced into your room to work on the case, overtime, his eyes are rimmed crimson.
You’re sprawled out across the bed while he sits at the other end, slender legs crossed. Spencer is tired with a weariness that seems to go soul-deep, shoulders slumped forward, glasses oblique.
The tension is near-palpable, stifling. “I can do this myself. No offence,” full offence, “but you’re unneeded right now. In general, really.”
You make him cruel. Or no, maybe this job does? He can’t remember himself unscathed now, fresh-faced to the BAU, unaware of what he’d endure. It’s still early days in recovery, two months since he was entirely, indomitably reliant on Dilaudid.
“No you can’t,” you retort. Maybe it’s unprofessional, disreputable to waste so much breath on insults, to dedicate specific moments to hostility— people are dead, people will keep dying. And yet, perhaps there’s justification for this; your mutual animosity is the only semblance of routine to this job, the only way either of you can seek control.
Control. All you do is reach for the blade.
“You’re just bitter that I know what I’m doing. You’re not infallible, Boy Wonder. You need my help, so shut up and read that autopsy report. The sooner this is over, the sooner I can go back to my apartment and forget you exist.”
Well that’s certainly unlikely.
“I think,” he says, and he knows this is going to be bad. He can feel the serrated edge to his forming words, his half-baked analysis too focused, too distracted, by his need to hurt. But he’s exhausted, and these days, he runs on a detrimentally short fuse. Maybe he finds a release in your dynamic, or maybe it makes everything worse. How can something be everything and nothing at the same time?
“I think you’re insecure” he continues, “because you know Gideon values me more. That, to him, you’re replaceable. It’s why you’re so fixated on one upping me. Why you feel the need to prove yourself superior. Textbook insecurity. You can’t stand the fact that he chooses me over you, that he thinks I’m better than you. That my input is more wanted, more necessary.”
This is uncharted territory now. It’s never been pushed to this extent. It’s never gotten so morbidly cruel that his words actually pierce. You’d consider yourself to be thick-skinned, bullet-proof, a mess of hardened edges and calloused flesh. But he regards you with such insignificance, in a way that’s different from your own personal view of him.
Obstinate, petty, a smart kid yet to meet his match. But never insignificant.
There’s silence, and then he’s dragging you down with him, forcing you to dig deeper, to smother wounds with salt. “Did he really choose you, though? No one on the team noticed. Not one person. After the Hankel case? When you came back different?”
Spencer falters.
It’s a vulnerable, raw spot, a laceration that never seems to heal; the worst part is that you’re right. He’d been in a spiralling decline for months, in plain sight, but everyone had been so absorbed in their own issues and god he needed a release. No one noticed. No one ever notices.
That he has no life, no prospects outside of the BAU. That his existence has been one comicotragic mess of inexperience, missing the mark, missing the joke, the punchline, the fact that everyone was always laughing at him, behind his back, to his face, present or gone. It didn’t matter? Why would it ever matter to a bunch of washed-out teenagers?
He was robbed of his adolescence. And these days, he barely gets by.
Spencer’s eyes drift back to the files, avoiding your perusing gaze, if only you had enough decency to soften your eyes. Just once.
“You don’t get to bring that into this.” He murmurs. “Shut up.”
“You started this—“
“Are you 5?” he bites back, “I was making an observation.”
When he abruptly stands up, files clattering to the floor, discarded despite the prevalent case, you’re quick to follow after him, to chase him into the cheap motel corridor. Because no, he doesn’t get to walk away from this. Not when he laid the first blow, when the first cut was drawn from his blade. Perhaps it’s perverse, to chase the hurt that comes from being around him. Maybe it’s all just an elaborate way to self-harm, to find release in the distorted relationship you both share.
“Where are you going? You can’t walk away from this one.” you state, gripping his arm. Nails pressing into skin, crescent marks that’ll stain and remind and then ache— it’s repetitive now.
“I covered for your ass.” you knew about the addiction, you knew, and even though omitting such information to the BAU could’ve lost your license, you still. Didn’t. Say. Anything.
It’s not like it took much effort to discern the truth.
“I also signed your email up to about 100 rehab centres and self-help blogs.” you’re not sure if you did that out of malice, or if it was your own, interpersonal way of minimising the damage, despite the circumstances.
You noticed. The rest of the BAU, who pressed false promises of friendship, loyalty into his shaking palms didn’t notice. Didn’t even think to humour what he became at his worst. But you did.
Furthermore, to add onto that jarring conclusion, you helped him. Admittedly in your own insufferable, (downright mocking) way. But it was help, and that’s more than he’s ever received before.
All he knows right now is that he hates you, hates the person he is, the person this job, and the intransigent presence of you, forced him into becoming.
All he knows is that he’s stumbling forward, cupping your face (taking your grip along with it), and kissing you. Kissing you hard. Like he’s Icarus and you’re the sun, worth the inevitable burn, even if the touch is only momentary, even if it’ll seal his fate as foolish.
It’s a mess of harsh, rough skin, tousled hair and sharp teeth against soft lips. It’s like trying to grasp at stardust, his hands fumbling for purchase along your body, trying to push you closer, as if the chasm of space between you is unbearable, a distance that’s impossible to endure.
He laughs when you respond instinctively, a sharp excuse of a noise, muffled by your swollen lips, and he’s just kissing you through it because he hates you, he hates you— he hates you so much that sometimes he can’t breathe when you’re around.
You crawled under his skin a long time ago, made yourself a home there.
“I think I’d rather be held hostage for a second time than kiss you again.” he says, and he might’ve elaborated further, but his lips abandon such a notion to chase your own.
The kiss becomes more languid, more desperate, like he’s trying to find an answer in response to it. There’s a brief, agonising break, foreheads pressed together, a harsh gasp of air, before the moment restarts.
God you taste good. Feel good, he thinks. He’s never been this intimate, not beyond Lila, that fleeting mess in the pool. The two events incomparable, he felt something then, small and minuscule, not enough to pursue. But right now? Oh, In contrast, he feels everything now.
“I wish you were being held hostage. It’d be quieter,” you retort. It’s muffled, and you’re moving, bodies stumbling into obstacles as you relocate, when did you get to your room? It feels like natural progression, evolution, diminutive changes that you don’t even realise are occurring.
You bite his bottom lip, draw it between your teeth, ruin him for anyone else. Because isn’t that what you’ve been doing for years now? Hurting each other so profoundly that only you can bare the scarred aftermath?
It’s sick. It’s sick, and you wonder how petty comments, trivial work-place rivalry distorted into this? How you’ve just ended up sick because of each other, and admittedly, for each other.
What is sickness without pleasure?
He whimpers. The noise almost imperceptible, but it’s there, and it’s pathetic, an unbecoming thing caught somewhere between a gasp and needy whine. He’s backed against the wall now, and he can’t find it in him to complain.
“Of course it would be you,” he says breathlessly. For all the knowledge he lacks here (physically; he’s well-versed in the hypotheticals of anatomy), he doesn’t feel pure.
People like him don’t get that.
He should feel guilty. He should recoil at the touch, at the knowledge you bear, at the reality of this. Except, for some unknown reason, he relishes in the idea of someone having him, even if the cost is his pride, his dignity, even if the cost is you.
He whimpers again as your teeth rake along the slope of his neck, shuddering at the sharp sensation, and he’s almost begging, words on the verge of being uttered.
But he can’t. Because that isn’t him when he’s with you. “Are you going to punish me? For uh, everything I said tonight? Because ah, god, I’d like to see you try.”
Admittedly, it’s not hard to break his resolve. A few more soul-crushing kisses and your wandering hand, dipping beneath his trousers, hard. Obscenely hard. Yes, he’s muttering as you unclasp buttons, as you loosen his trousers to the extent that you can palm him through his boxers. Half-choked gasps escape his bruised lips with every touch, and he’s crying now. Pretty tears streaming down his face, accentuating those doe-wide eyes of his, now glossy and warped.
“Only person who’s ever touched you, huh?” you state, and maybe you derive pleasure from that concept. That only your hands, drenched thick with staining blood, have ever scrutinised the warmth of his skin. The areas where his form curves, and the areas that make him come apart, undone at the seams. Grasping you, relying entirely on the wall, just to remain upright and somewhat conscious.
He makes another noise, another guttural, pathetic sound. Because, yeah, it’s just you. It’s only you, and the thought should be unbearable, but the pleasure of having, being touched is too much.
He has to grasp the back of your shirt, nails digging into fabric, as a distraction, a way to centre himself, while the rest of the world falls apart. His words are scattered, broken and messy, and he finds himself saying things he’ll inevitably regret. “Please, I can’t-“
He’s supposed to hate this, hate you.
“Cant— can’t take it. Oh,” he wants to bury his face into the crook of your neck, but you’re gripping his jaw, forcing him to look directly at you. Glasses discarded, the view was blurry without the added layers of tears.
“Eyes on me, boy genius.”
He complies. Gaze locked, unable to look away, entranced by the way your pupils dilate, staring at you, like you’re artwork, something to be studied and broken down and torn apart, only to be rebuilt again once he’s had his fill.
“Let’s look at you. Hm?” you state, removing his sweater, then his shirt, and there’s so many layers, and he’s acting coy now, as if he wasn’t whimpering moments prior.
Instinctively, by reflex, he tries to cover himself up. To hide planes of untouched skin from your gluttonous palms. You grip his wrists, pin them above his head, and oh isn’t this a sight: Spencer Reid, entirely bare, bound by you alone, tear track marks and swollen lips.
He always wanted to be seen.
He just didn’t expect, anticipate, being seen to this extent. He can’t fight your trailing gaze, and he doesn’t want to; it might make him flushed, a few irrational movements away from a cardiac arrest, but this it— raw uncut intimacy.
You’re softer now, as you run your hand along his dick, earning a variety of muffled noises, as your thumb brushes over his tip, taking care to touch every part of him. Everywhere he needs it. When you finally wrap your fingers around him, everything burns, fervent and collapsing, and he supposes this is what it felt like the moment Troy collapsed.
“Mhh,” he moans, hips bucking in time with your palm, steady movements.
He’s already so messy, and it should be embarrassing, but all he feels is the blunted edges of pleasure, the jagged cut of humiliation, warring against each other.
“You’re— oh.. you’re enjoying this far too much,” he manages, and it takes so much energy to get it out, his words slurring, interrupted by debauched gasps.
It feels good, so good that he can’t process the shame that’s bound to follow. He hates you, and he might be a little in love with you, and it’s not fair to process feelings, chemicals, he was never supposed to obtain.
“That it’s. There you go. That’s my good boy.”
Spencer sobs.
“Shh, shh, I know, I know, it’s a lot.” there’s always an element of condescension to your words. An undertone that rips through his defences. Destroys him in the process.
His body is receptive, ruined, because of the praise. He’s not sure how you can look at him, clearly, consciously, and dictate that he’s good. Most days he feels impure, debased. Burnt-out and wasted, the great always fall.
The same skin he pierced with needles is now reverently on show, and you should be cruel, it’s what you’re both good at, the only viable way to communicate, an undisclosed secret language. But you’re not. That confuses him to no extent.
“I can’t— cant, ‘m so close.” his arms are still bound above his head, and despite the ache, he keeps them there. It’s not the most conventional ‘first time’, but he takes it regardless.
“Yeah?” you mutter, pace picking up. The sound is obscene, his excessive pre-cum smeared across his length, wet noises with every stroke. “You wanna cum for me, hm?”
“Oh god,” he breaks, “Yes— yes, please—“
You have no interest in denying him, not when he’s this destroyed from a mere hand-job. “Go on then. Just because you asked so nicely.”
He falls apart. Dewy-eyed and blissed out, you force him to look at you as he reaches his orgasm. To keep looking as he squirms and writhes. So he does, because apparently his cognitive function has evaporated now.
Your tongue meets your palm, tasting him, pressing the excess into his mouth with an indecent kiss. Is this what sex entails? Complete submission, vulnerabilities bared wide? Dirty in that primal sense, the same one he always shied away from?
Finally, finally in the aftermath, he breaks his stare. His head falls back against the wall, eyes closed, neck exposed. Stifled gasps, it’s quiet, as if you’re both aware of your actions, the consequences of them.
“This is, uh— yeah.” he mumbles, reaching for his clothes; now the ecstasy has worn off, the shame overpowers. The sin of man, he’s starting to think you’re the personification of the serpent.
Or maybe it’s the other way around. He doesn’t hold his own body to such pure standards. He’s not sure any benevolence would look at him with acceptance. Not after everything he’s done to it.
“Hey wait,” you’re not good at this whole ‘nice’ thing, not when it comes to him. But there have been moments, in the past, small, fleeting seconds of…. you’re not entirely sure what to call them. Late hours spent scrutinising cases, your back-up points to his statements, mindless information dumps that the team can’t quite understand.
“Don’t make me chase you a second time, jesus.” You can’t just leave—“ you exhale, breathe, in and out, “Are you okay?”
He stops. He stops because you’ve never asked that question, never cared to ask that question, and maybe that hurts more than not being asked at all.
A part of him, the small part of him that’s not functional, wants to stay, wants to just stay in this bliss and pretend that it doesn’t matter, that the inevitable fallout won’t occur. But the larger, prominent part, reminds him that this isn’t right, that he needs to leave and collect his wits.
“I don’t know, im confused—“ he sighs, drags a shaky hand through his hair. “Yeah, im uh… i’m fine. “I just need to leave, I have to-“ he swallows. “I can’t. Not right now, I need to do— anything but this.”
He walks out on you and it’s fine.
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Everything is fine, reality can return, and you can forget that you had his arms bound against the wall, that he fell apart from the weight of your dragging palm. You can pretend you never saw him naked, bare in every form of the word. Stripped raw, his lips burning against yours, skin on skin. It’s. Fine.
Life continues. Your dynamic remains the same, unrelenting, your biting words, just short of callous, his scathing remarks. Modus Operandi. You wonder how you’ve turned the most tender person into something sharp, and you wonder if it’s ever going to be reversible.
When the case closes, the BAU, in predictable, systematic fashion, celebrate (ease the weight) over drinks. You’re adorned in lace, a black dress that just catches your thighs. It’s late now, and by the time you arrive at the dive-bar, the majority of the team are intoxicated (you couldn’t go straight from work, there was still blood clinging to your skin).
Everything is fine. To reiterate.
It’s not.. It’s not. Because oh, Spencer finds himself staring. He’s fairly certain he doesn’t have any lingering interest. But then again, why is he fixated on the way fabric clings to your ruinous figure, the way your hair sits, slightly dishevelled, pooled over one shoulder? It’s exasperating and inebriating all at once. You shouldn’t be able to affect him to such an extent, and yet here he is, mindlessly staring at you with starry-eyes. He should look away. Leave even?
Of course, he fails. You end up squeezing in next to him, all leather seats and too little space.
And, okay, he knows he should feel guilty.
In reality, he’s not. Because, sure, he’s sat too close, and sure, he can just make out the scent of your perfume, faintly floral. But he’s intoxicated, just as everybody else is, and it’s making logic and reason seem far off, too distant to process. He looks at you once, then twice, like he can’t quite believe you’re tangible.
“You look nice, I guess,” he murmurs bluntly, looking away, feigning disinterest.
As if the ‘incident’ (as he’s taken to calling it) didn’t tilt his world on its axis.
“You also look nice, I guess.” you retort, and it’s the best you’re going to get out of each other. At least in this state (the surplus of praise that left your bruised, possessed lips cannot be justified, or repeated ever. again.)
You lean forward, watch as his face creases at the proximity. Are you thinking about the kisses? Plural, fuck, plural. Open-mouthed, desperate movements?You’re. not. Instead, you steal his glasses, slip them on. The prescription is strong, thick lenses that distort your perception.
“What do you think?” you ask, “I might go as you for halloween, it’ll definitely scare the kids.”
“They make you look intelligent. Considering you need all the help you can get, I’d take that as a compliment,”
It’s a domestic action, to put on his glasses. And the thoughts that burn through his mind stem from HR prohibited to domestic, which he argues is far worse. You, tangled in sheets, sporting nothing but his glasses. Resting against the tip of your nose, askew, as you ride him. As you tilt your head back, exposing— no.
He wants to say something about how ridiculous you look— but it’s hard to focus, you’re taking up all of his sanity, like a computer running multiple programs at once. You’re malware actually, destined to corrupt him (which you’ve already done to a painful extent).
“You can’t just touch my stuff.” he settles on, sounding more petulant than anticipated.
“Oh chill out, boy wonder. It’s a pair of glasses,” you mutter, removing them to blink blink blink, and there he is, the centre focus of your vision, now fully detailed again. It takes you a moment to render in his appearance: shirt sleeves rolled to his elbows, arms exposed, long, deft fingers. There’s heavy bags gathering beneath his eyes, dragging down those big, blown-out irises of his, wide and completely dirty (how is it that his natural resting face is so obscene?).
Focus.
You push the glasses back onto his face. Better, it’s a sight you’ve come to anticipate after he ran out of contact lenses. “There. Oh, were you just upset because you couldn’t see me properly? That’s sweet, Spence. Flattery will get you everywhere.”
He can see everything.
Every small detail of your face; strands of hair falling loose, dilated pupils, accentuated by heavy liner, obsidian that contrasts against your incisive eyes. Your lips, oh your lips, he could write a thesis on them. Stained crimson, if he were to kiss you right now, residue would catch against his own mouth, incriminate him.
He gets up. Excuses himself. Sometimes he wishes he could vanish.
But it’s not good enough.
“You,” he says between messy kisses, “Need to keep your hands to yourself.” — okay, he’s not sure how this happened. He left for the bathroom (to splash water on his face, gather his dignity, perhaps drown himself?) and you to humour the locals outside, gathering around with half-smoked cigarettes and slurring conversations.
But then, on his way back, padding through the long corridor (why is it always a corridor?), you were there, and yeah. He was screwed. Fatefully wrecked.
He had tried, in the moments leading up to his demise, to resist, but he was a man of logic and science and the science, when he was around you, simply did not apply. You’re bad for him, in every sense, he should avoid you, he should stay away.
But now, there’s no space between your bodies, no space for rationality or reasoning (god he’s tired of the thinking part. He just wants to feel).
The kiss is rough, sloppy, a desperate, messy thing. “This can’t keep happening,” he mumbles against your smeared lips.
“Do you remember last time?” you question. It’s taboo, to bring it up, to disclose the buried. But you’re fairly certain this compromising position wouldn’t exist without the lethal effects of that one night. The cheap motel and his body arching into your touch.
Rationality appears to be nonexistent now. A discarded concept.
Like last time, you guide him back against the wall, pin his hands above his head. Mirroring your actions. Well, to some ‘dignified’ extent. “Had you just like this,” you lean forward to press a series of kisses along the curvature of his jaw. “I bet you’d let me take you like this again, hm? Right here? In the middle of this shitty dive bar?”
And if he weren’t so far gone, he’d protest, he’d tell you that no, this is wrong, because you’re so wrong for him. He knows that if one good man has to fall, it shouldn’t be him.
But you don’t let good men rise, and there’s something so enticing about the depths of hell. He’s not sure he’s good anyway. It’s a complex situation. “You’re a sadist,” he murmurs, breathless, “I wouldn’t.”
Your grip instinctively tightens against his wrist, and he squirms. He’s nervous, “Could we, like… at least find a bathroom? I’d take a bathroom, even though there’s endless strains of bacteria there. Or, or split a cab. No, i’ll just pay— Anything. I’ll do anything. Just not here. This is a public space, and technically, public indecency, and—“
“Fuck,” he’s never been the type to swear, “I’ll do anything.” this time, he says it in self-defeat. Acknowledgment.
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French exit. His wandering hands in the cab, and the electric pulse that burnt through his body as he kept a low profile, stumbling out of the bar, muttering thinly-veiled excuses for his abrupt departure.
The second you’re both inside your apartment, you’re clattering into things. “I love your eyes,” you state bluntly, forthcoming in every sense of the word, “Love it when you cry for me.”
You think of every harsh word that has ever escaped your lips, You think of the consequences they might’ve had. Did he ever cry over them? You know, in contrast, you never did over his. Though there was that sharp, sinking pain that felt like the embodiment of slow death. Something terminal, fated to linger, to eat and eat until nothing remained.
No big deal!
“It’s an involuntary bodily response. You’re a dacryphiliac.” he responds.
There’s not a lot he can compute right now, his brain too preoccupied with processing your touch alone. Which is so prominent, so harrowingly good that not even his genius mind can comprehend it.
He’s reasonable to believe he would kill whoever had the pleasure of experiencing you like this.
“It’s not a fetish if I only feel it for you—“
Spencer breaks.
“No-no-no,” he says, too loudly, “You can’t just- say those things. You can’t tell me you love when I cry, just because- I should be scared, of you. You’re volatile. Destructive,” he murmurs, head leaning against the crook of your shoulder. Against better judgement. But all reason has left him now. You’ve stolen it, taken it as a personal trophy to parade and boast about.
“Why am… Why am I not scared?” he asks, “It’s not like I make you cry…”
“Because there’s no reason to be scared.” you answer simply. And at surface level, it’s true. In spite of the hostility, the years of white-knuckled rivalry, you’ve always trusted him. It’s a coveted admission, considering you’re circumspect by nature.
You unbutton his shirt, let it fall to the floor, exposing his skin in the middle of your apartment. He’s standing there, and you’re not sure what to do with all of this want that perhaps you’ve misplaced as enmity for so long.
“You could make me cry,” you state, because if there’s one person out there capable of cracking you open, leaning behind fragmented pieces, it’s him. It’s always going to be him.
It’s a startling realisation. That he, Spencer Reid, of all people, can reach the centre of you in ways nobody has ever done before.
“Why would I want you to cry? That’s— i’m not even sure how I would go about it.”
You grip his hips, walk yourself backwards until you’re hitting a wall, there your body instinctively curves forward to meet his. “It doesn’t always have to be bad.” you explain, because he’s looking at it from a simplistic, textbook perspective. “Last time,” those words still feel like poison, “When I made you cry, there was no pain, right? You cried because it felt good.”
He’s staring at you clueless. Though, he might just be distracted. Either works.
Your hand catches his wrist, and then you’re hiking up your dress, guiding his touch beneath fabric. The lace panties that cover skin. He’s tentative, experimental, dragging his thumb over your clit, causing your hips to cant towards him. “Make me cry, boy genius.”
You act like this is the most indecent thing he’s capable of doing. From an unbiased standpoint, it’s up there on his list, but admittedly he hasn’t really done enough to constitute a list in the first place.
Spencer, in response, simply drops to his knees. Your panties are pulled down your legs in a disconcerting haze, and then he’s just groaning, cursing Gods he doesn’t believe in, spiting them with blasphemy, whilst also simultaneously thanking them, humouring false promises he won’t commit to.
It’s blasphemous, a prodigy on his knees, in front of you, for you. As if he’s worshiping something he can’t even comprehend, something beyond the expanse of his knowledge. And you just pull strands of his hair, pull at the strings of him.
His hands find the inside of your thighs, caressing the soft skin there and you make another noise, a noise that has him devouring you.
Face buried between your legs, he flattens his tongue against your clit, drags it upwards to catch wetness, to affirm that you’re just as affected as he. That since you touched him, all thoughts have consisted solely of you.
He doesn't think he's doing this correctly- but you're making noises, gasps that he didn’t even know you were capable of, and that's the thing about science or anatomy, whatever it may be, the brain is incredibly subjective, and the more knowledge you acquire, the less you really know.
And there's knowledge here, but it’s not utilised; no coordination, even when there should be, even when he’s got the human body memorised to perfection. Still, you seem to like him messy, desperate, drawing your clit into his mouth to pull, to tug, before shifting back to blow cold air against you.
The task was simple, at surface level: make you cry. And whilst, if you pick it apart, it becomes more complex, he seems to be efficient in following orders because right now, you’re ruined. It might not be the most meticulous head you’ve received (though you’re sure, under different circumstances he could probably surpass that standard), but it’s wanting, in a way that makes you ache.
“Oh oh, fuck— fuckfuckfuck.”
You grip his hair, twisting and pulling and using, and he lets you, he’d do anything, do this forever if he had to. His fingers, still gripping your thighs, dig into soft flesh, leaving visible marks. And he wants to see those marks, in the morning, an irrefutable fact that would force him to accept this as real.
But he can’t focus, can’t think about anything when you’re reacting like this, so undone. How can there be anything, at all, beyond this?
He lets you drape a leg over his shoulder, let’s you get off against his face, fingers sliding inside, one digit at a time, to feel warmth wrapped around him. To feel the way you clench when he curves them, when he grazes spots that he could explain to factual detail.
Your body shudders, and you’re making noises he hasn’t heard before, sounds that could only be described as obscene— and his name, you’re moaning his name, and god, he’s certain he would follow you to the ends of the earth right now. Without question.
It’s when he stops, when he leans back enough that he can breathe. That he can look at you, really look at you.
You’re messy, undone. The sight could be considered humiliating from an outside perspective, but you’re gorgeous, and he’d do this a thousand times over if it resulted in this exact reaction. A reaction that he’s given you. No one else.
“I love your face.” He says, a little bluntly. But it’s true, he does.
So he returns to the task. Practically situating you on his face now to suffocate him, to let him become some sort of extension to your pleasure. And inevitably when you fall apart, tears and writhing, boundless pleasure, he can only push you through it. Allow his existence to crumble, for the second time,
And as he draws back, face covered in you, he can only stare.
His knees are bruised. That’s the first thing you notice when you stumble to the bedroom, when you’ve taken a moment to wipe away evidence of the tears, to regather and compose yourself. It’s not in your nature to be soft, no to him, but you still find yourself kissing the mauve blemishes, working your way up his body after you’ve oh so unceremoniously undressed him. Reduced to his boxers, he’s an incriminating sight.
“Losing your virginity to me is like the biggest irony ever.” you say, kissing along his stomach, watching as his body reacts, arches, contorts in search of more pleasure. It’s a hypnotising sight, to see every nerve tuned to you solely.
“Ironic, demeaning, enough to send past versions of myself into an early grave. Yes, I get your point.” he mutters.
Your hands find their way to the waistband of his boxers, and he’s lifting his hips, because he wants you to undress him, because he’d let you do anything right now, but he also feels embarrassed, exposed. Vulnerable in a way he’s never felt before. You’re seeing him, seeing things he doesn’t even know himself. But there’s nowhere to hide, not while you’re slowly pulling off his underwear, with a care that he’s unaccustomed to.
“I won’t go easy on you,” you assure. Even though that’s technically a straight-faced lie. Of course it’ll be more tender than anything else you’ve endured; he has this devastating habit of softening those around him. It’s only taken this long to affect you out of pure, unbridled spite.
Oh, he wants. The evidence is his body alone. Laid out before you, like an offering, a hedonistic one. Dick hardened, dripping pre-cum onto his stomach.
“Hands above your head,” you watch as he blindly obeys, any defiance now crushed. Well, for the most part: at least in his actions. “That’s good— good boy. Tell me if they’re too tight,” you say, binding them with his discarded tie.
You stare, and it’s like you want to eat him alive, and against better judgement, he’d let you. Serve himself up, passive as you tear him limb for limb, taste all the bad parts of his existence, the ones he keeps hidden shamefully away.
“Too tight? I’ve been held hostage, I think I can handle a little bit of fabric.” he retorts before tugging at the restraints, “Tighter.”
“Didn’t realise you were so into this—“
“Neither did I,” he scoffs, “I’ve never done it before, obviously.”
“Now you have. Congrats, i’ll give you a sticker once we’re done. Gold star, huh?” and just for good measure, you tighten the restraints further. Just a few more pulls until you’re knotting it in place. Until he’s entirely defenceless, but realistically, what would you do? It’s hard to find fear when you’ve covered him on the field for over a year (he’s prone to being targeted, an unsubs wet dream).
“Yes, thank you. I’ll put the sticker on the wall next to my PhDs.” right now, right in this moment, countless people are getting what they want.
And Spencer is being manhandled by his pretty coworker.
Ironically, that’s exactly what he wants.
You’re the perfect dichotomy. Cruel, and caring. Harsh words to juxtapose gentle hands. Soft touches, but scathing remarks that linger, leaving behind a trail of scars, the ubiquity of your cruelty.
You’re lethal, and he’s smart enough to comprehend the danger. Except he’s never been smart when it comes to people.
Your hands are acquisitive, roaming, searching, blunt nails that scrape skin as you rake them down, down towards his abdomen. He shivers, bite into that pretty bottom lip of his until he’s spilling blood, and it’s a sight. Something sick that you both want to such an offensive extent.
“Sensitive.” you murmur, like the idea of him so reactive pleases you, in a way you’ve never considered before. Because the way his body strains, bucking forward to deepen the contact is maddening.
“Are you always like this?” you wonder aloud, leaning down to run a hand along the length of his inner thigh. “Poor baby, so touch-starved.”
“I don’t know if I’d use the word sensitive.” he replies, “More susceptible to the fact that you’re touching me, and that I haven’t felt another person touch me in a long time. And of course when people touch me, it’s usually professionals poking me with needles or stitching this weeks new wound.”
Touch-starved? He has sensory issues. The lightest graze can provoke, cause his skin to crawl. Of course he would like your touch, of course the universe would torture him by finding relief in the one person who nobody should stumble upon for relief.
“Oh you’re a soldier, you suffer so much.“ you state, and it’s condescending (naturally), but there is some truth to the serrated comment. You, the team, are all bruised, mentally and physically distorted from the consequences of the job. Only he could react so reverently to your calloused hands, blissed out to the extent that it looks like you’re witnessing ascension.
It’s pretty. Pretty, in a soft, domestic way. One that demeans his bound wrists and your sharp words.
You press a few tender kisses to his thighs, the inner sections, where you’re certain, assured, no one has ever touched before. Maybe there’s something possessive to that thought, the want to own, to know that no one will ever have him the way you have him.
Your touch is like a brand. He wants it, even if it’s bad, even if it’s cruel. Because the alternative to this is nothing. A lonely existence. A life of work, of chasing shadows, knowing he had so much to give, and no one to give to.
“Stop mocking me.” he replies, it’s through laboured breath. “Just because I don’t have your proclivity for taking hits doesn’t mean I don’t suffer.”
No one’s ever touched him like this. No one’s ever cared to try. You’re his first.
“I know you suffer,” you retort, are you arguing? Is this foreplay? If it is, then you have some serious self-reflecting to do on every single past conversation. Because maybe you should’ve taken him to your bed earlier, in that case.
Oh god was your hatred of each other built solely on sexual tension?
Finally, you move. Just like the first time, your hand runs across his length, taking him slowly, easing him into it, coercing him through the pleasure. It’s not similar to before: it won’t end after he’s found his release, and it’s not frenzied and ardent. Spurred on by shame.
“And you know i’m always going to take the hits for you, regardless.” he whines when you remove your hand, and whines again, for contrasting reasons, as you spit on your palm, generate lubricant to support each stroke.
“Oh—“ he breathes out. He’s fairly certain he’s supposed to be more contained. A huff escapes his lips and then he’s retorting, “You could try a tactic other than reckless self-sacrifice every once in a while.”
He’s overwhelmed, with you. All of you. The way you look, the way you talk, all the harsh lines and scathing remarks. The way you take the hits for him, an altruistic custodian, but he isn’t worthy of being saved. Isn’t worth the effort.
“Shut the fuck up, Spencer.” you say, promptly ending this discussion; you grip his dick tighter, tilting your movements to catch him at a better angle.
“Shit— okay, okay,” he moans because that feels really really good, and he wishes he could articulate it in a better way. Something complex and poetic, but it’s just so good.
He’s always been a little masochistic. Too smart for his own good, too analytical. He wants you to take him apart, piece by piece, and see the inner workings of his body laid out before you, raw and vulnerable. Because only you can see him like this.
He doesn’t even really touch himself. There’s been nights, body flushed and wanton, bucking up against sheets, muffled noises pressed into his pillow. But they’re rare, and they usually lead to an aftermath of ignominy.
He’s a prodigy, a genius in the field of criminal psychology. So why does it feel so good like this? To be humbled, to be demoted. As if all his degrees, his awards, his intellect, mean absolutely nothing.
He’s never felt so loved. Which is ironic. Because he’d always hoped love would be slow, gentle. Soft, like a caress. The kind of love you share over meals and pillow-talk.
He realises, with a jolt to his system, that if this is love to you, he’d accept it, in its most primal form.
“You get off on this,” he analyses as you draw back, mostly to stifle the begs that nearly escape his mouth. Come back, need you here.
“Well I’d be pretty concerned if I wasn’t getting off on this right now—“
“No,” he pushes, “You like that i’m, that yeah. I have no experience. You want to corrupt me, huh?” he looks up at you with pretty, innocent eyes. Holy shit. “Ruin me for anyone else? Go on, let me have it. I’ll only come back, i’ve already done it once. Statistically, it’s going to happen again. And again. Pavlovian responses, condition me. Make my body react to no one else.”
When you kiss him again, he can only take it. Can only moan, whimper, plead against your mouth until you’re lining him up, until you’re sitting on his dick, and everything is okay.
“You’re so—“ bottomed out, wrapped around him entirely, you sigh. “Fuck, Spence, who taught you to be so fucking dirty?”
“You.” he mutters, playing coy. “But you’re a bad teacher, I think I could do with a few more lessons..”
“I think you could do with learning to shut your mouth more often.”
“It is better suited for other purposes, I suppose..”
He gags when you slot two fingers, index and middle, into his mouth. No warning, no predetermined acknowledgment. They hit the back of his throat, and he can only suck, muffling protests around the digits until he goes blissfully silent.
“Better,” you retort. Drawing them out, you press your thumb against his bottom lip, keeping it parted so that you can lean forward, spit into his open mouth. When you first met, he promptly refused to shake your hand, too conscious of the dissemination of germs, now? He’s swallowing your saliva, unprompted, with little resistance.
You know him. The way you touch is like you’re searching for something. Anything about him. It’s like you’re a bloodhound, trying to unearth every single vulnerability. And you must’ve found them, because you’re suddenly here, bearing all your weight on him, moving, and it’s all his body can do to take it. All of it. All of you.
He tugs at his restraints, because he won’t go down without a susceptible fight. Even if he knows it’s fated that he will inevitably fall. “Please—please untie me, just wanna hold your hand.”
And, oh that shatters you. Like, mentally, physically, spiritually dismantles you until you’re breathless, staring at him with widened eyes and a loss of composure. It’s such a tender request, something domestic and raw, and mindlessly you’re fumbling with the knots of his tie. Freeing them to take one in yours.
It’s against your nature, but you can’t help, can’t refrain yourself from pressing a kiss against his knuckles. “You’re doing so good f’me. Such a good boy,”
Your free hand runs across his torso now, grazing skin, admiring the sight of him, flushed, debauched, sprawled out beneath you.
He grips your hip. That’s the first thing he does once he’s sufficiently sane, well… partially, the praise did knock him entirely off balance. Tip the scales, send him over the inexorable edge.
He watches as you take the incentive to slip off his body, and the loss of friction is okay, tolerable because he’s sitting up against the headboard, drawing you closer, whining for you until you’re on his lap, until you’re sat in your rightful place.
Here, he can kiss you. Which he admits has become a very vital aspect to his existence.
The kiss is like a bruise. Not rough, he’d never be rough with you, he’s all long, languid strokes and soft movements. But it’s overwhelming, and leaves discernible, lasting imprints.
And yeah, sure, kissing you is the closest thing to worship he has ever known. Something he would like to commit to memory, every single time your lips touch, it’s like he’s seeing god in the shape of your cupid’s bow.
“Please, I need—“ he stutters over his words, “If you don’t move, I swear—“ he pauses, his head falling against your shoulder— “I swear, I’m gonna die, this has to be against the Geneva Convention, you can’t leave me like this, please—”
“The Geneva convention? Really? Is this your form of dirty talk?” you retort, unable to muffle your laugh.
“No. I’m stating my rights,” he says, “Torture is prohibited.”
“I’m not torturing you—“
You tangle your hand through his hair, tug tug tug, and then pull, drawing his head back by tousled strands, forcing him to meet your gaze.
“Ohmyfuckinggod, yes. You are.” he whimpers.
It’s indefensible how good he feels, how he sinks into you, hitting crevices you’re certain no one else has ever grazed before. Feeling full, whole, it’s new. It’s your own first, and you can’t even begin to articulate how defenceless you are to the way it makes you disintegrate, fragment to pieces of pleasure. Spencer is warm, and soft, and it makes you want to cry. To just fall, give in, transcendence of self, Burke said, and right now, you feel that entirely.
His moan is unapologetic, unfiltered as you move. At this point, you could slice him open, leave him bleeding in your bed, and he’d thank you for it.
You hold his hand, and yet, simultaneously destroy him.
“Please,” he whimpers again— he’s too pretty to be asking so nicely. “I just— I want you closer. As close as possible, I want you so close to me that I’m not even sure if my body can handle it.”
It’s not dirty talk, it’s more like he’s begging you, tears staining his skin, pitiful eyes, wide and glassy, staring at you with some form of desperation. Brows furrowed, gaze soft.
And his gaze only grows worse when you do give him what he wants, when your pace fastens.
It’s a religious experience, like he’s about to be crucified, a martyr to his pleasure. He’s almost afraid to touch you— to stain something divine, like you’re too much for him. But you’re not.
“I like this. Like you. Like you here. You’re so good for me,” he murmurs, and it’s untruthful, but right now, he sincerely believes it. “so good, so perfect, all I need, please—”
“Stop it.” you bite, preferring him defiant over this— because this opens up wounds you weren’t even aware existed. “Oh fuck, stop it.”
“So good. You’re so good,” he cups your face, presses his forehead against yours, and you might as well just die right here.
“Says you.”
“Says me.”
You fuck him harder.
“Oh,” is all he can pronounce, little oh’s every time you rock against him, and he has to grip you hips, deepen the movements until you’re bouncing against him, up down up down, exploiting his sensitivity with a torturous pace.
And it’s not fair, he needs to balance the scales, so he runs his thumb over your clit, firm halos that have you keening. “If being nice got me this, I’d be so nice to you for the rest of my life—“
Another lie. But it’s worth it. If only for the way you kiss him. The way you silence his cutting words, forcing your way into his mouth, forcing him to just squirm and sob, until you’re clenching around him, and he’s there with you. Falling apart, bodies shifting until movement ceases, and there’s nothing but bliss.
“I hate you so much,” you say in the aftermath, and it’s closest you’ve ever gotten to a confession of love.
He laughs, wipes away tears, “Hate you more.”
“Don’t leave this time.” he just nods, bordering on nonverbal now. It takes you hours to coax actual words out of him, and by then, you’re both tangled in a foreign mess of warm limbs.
“Oh i’m going to be so mean tomorrow.” you mutter, playing loosely with his hair.
He can only sigh, stare at you dreamily. “God, is that a promise?”
#sub spencer reid#sub spencer#brat spencer reid#spencer reid angst#spencer reid smut#criminal minds#enemies to lovers#rivals#idk they hate each other but want each other#it’s a messy situation!!#id hate to be either of their therapists#or HR who has to deal with the fallout of this
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part 1 | part 2
wrd count: 2136
warnings: pure smut, breeding kink if you squint, fem!reader, pet names used, big dick josh!!!!!, p in v sex, 18+ content, hard teasing
a/n: finally a part 2!!! yay!! enjoy babies :3 not proofread, per usual >_<
“you’re already so worked up just from humping my leg?” josh breathed out a laugh, hands grabbing at your hips, firmly enough to leave bruises.
all you could do was grow small in embarrassment under him, causing your hips to slow and eventually come to a halt.
his words made you realize what you were actually doing and reality snapped back at you.
josh had a fat grin on his face and he shook his head in disapproval. “don’t stop now, keep going. maybe i’ll let you cum on my dick if you’re obedient.”
your head was spinning, by now you could hardly make out anything he was saying, mind haunted with disgustingly sexual thoughts.
but he wouldn’t just make a huge mess out of you for fun.
josh liked you.
he liked your face, body, and how bright you were; how much you stood out from everybody else. he found it so attractive and he was ready to pour all of those feelings inside of you.
along with something else.
the exposed skin on your warm back started to melt into the cold plaster of the wall, reminding him that he was still completely clothed.
that had to be out the way. now.
josh met his lips with yours again, mouth wet from how harsh he was sucking on your tits. a dream come true.
while kissing you, nice and slow, he started pulling his layers of clothing off, only breaking the kiss for a moment to take his shirt off.
you broke the kiss entirely though, hands still holding onto him just because if you let go, your weak knees would buck and you’d be a puddle on the floor.
“t-take… take off your pants.” a soft order came from your lips, he couldn’t help the chuckle that left his.
he tilted his head at you, like a confused dog. “why don’t you do it for me? hm, pretty girl?” he whispered to you, the words making you feel things deep in your stomach.
there was no need to ask twice.
you were already on your knees, the warmth of your tights battling against the cold floor.
by the time you could take in a deep breath, he was already teasing you.
“c’mon. i love the view but i have needs too, y’know?” josh said from above you as he ran a hand over the top of your head, giving you a gentle push towards his crotch.
it was evident in his tone now that he was just as needy and ready as you. maybe not as much as you but he was getting there.
your hand reached to unbuckle his belt, being gentle because it felt expensive. the noises of metal clanking and pants hitting the ground filled the room.
silence.
stunned is one word to explain the feeling of the sight in front of you.
joshua washington was big, big and tightly pressed against his navy blue calvin klein boxers, pre-cum leaking through the cloth and it was staring right at you.
this was a sight women die for.
the cold breeze of the room was hitting him because his entire demeanor had changed.
josh was flushed, grabbing at the hair on your head with more vice than before, breathing in staggered patterns.
you tugged at the waistband with delicacy, swallowing dryly as the thick seven inches in front of you bounced slowly.
with a hand, you grabbed at the base while your lips made their way around the pulsing tip.
the new contact wired a low groan out of josh’s mouth, knuckles now wrapping themselves into your hair.
you started off slow.
bobbing your head only enough to take less than a few inches in as your hands twisted and tugged on the parts that weren’t in your mouth.
his mouth was wide open, spurring out words of praise while his hands tried to push your head closer, simultaneously pushing his cock farther into your mouth.
“fuck…holy shit thats good, s’good…” his head fell back and a grin fell on his face at the sounds of you gagging all on him.
tears pricked your eyes like thorns, and taunting you for thinking you could handle something so big.
the quicker you sucked on it, the louder the noises of your choking were. it made your cheeks burn hot in embarrassment.
the closer he was to finishing, the quicker he ripped your head from him.
right when you were in the zone. what an asshole.
“h-huh? wha— what? was it bad?” you asked in pure confusion, eyes big and full of tears as you stared up at him.
josh shook his head, his chest heaving and breath hot. “the complete opposite. i just want to finish while fucking your pussy. not your mouth.”
every time he spoke like that, you were just left with your mouth half-open and brows raised, looking dumb founded.
all he could do was laugh.
he grabbed you from the floor, picking you up with ease and hooking your legs around his hips.
hands on the prize, he palmed your ass to hold you up as he started chewing up your neck, loving the taste and all the mewls you cried out.
he was rock hard. dick twitching and ready to burst just from feeling your bare tits on his skin.
but he had to stay strong, had to maintain himself so he could blow a mean load into your guts and clean up the mess.
like a respectful gentleman.
thought there was nothing gentle about the things he was about to do to you.
before you knew it, your back was slammed against the mattress and your shorts were being stripped off your body, all in one swift movement.
he carefully placed one of your feet on his shoulders, holding it there with his left hand.
the view was something straight out of some cheap porno.
his biceps tightening as he ripped open your tights right where your cunt was, his fingers of his free hand slowly sliding your panties to the side.
you twitched from under him, knees bucking as you felt a thick digit rubbing between your lips, teasing your clit.
a whine left your mouth, noises almost pornographic. so embarrassing how quick he could get you like this just from one finger.
and he wasnt even thrusting it yet.
“so wet ‘n pretty. didn’t even have to wet it before putting it inside.” he tutted, sucking in his bottom lip between his teeth to hold himself back from saying something that was almost disrespectful.
your eyes rolled into your skull, biting down on the tip of your acrylic nail to hold back a dramatic moan that was inching out of you.
“josh, just fuck me already. please”
he wanted it as bad as you did. but he was an asshole about shit so, of course he had to take the high road.
“not just yet, gotta get you ready for me.” his tone was cocky as hell. he knew how big he was and how dramatic you were. so if he tore you up, he wouldn’t hear the end of it.
after a short moment, he sucked in a breath and scoffed. “fuck it.” he muttered almost to himself and quickly after, he grabbed at your hips, flipping you completely onto your stomach.
as if you’d run away, he forcefully pulled your hips up, leaving a sharp slap on the full skin of your ass through the tights.
you still felt every little thing, jumping and flinching at the burning pain; that still felt so fucking good.
once he realized he couldn’t get the full effect, he was ripping that section of the flimsy material too.
all in a few seconds, he was sliding your panties back to the side and grabbing himself, positioning his length right at your entrance.
a dazed chuckle left josh’s mouth and he’s practically drooling at the sight. “shit, baby. if only you could see how good this looks.”
your back was arched, leaving a sexy arc that made him dizzy to look at.
he never imagined actually having you like this. and it made him so eager to fill you up.
with a guttural moan at your tight walls soaking him in, he tried to slowly push in every inch.
which made everything feel ten times better.
he sucked in a sharp breath, biting on his bottom lip and making a writhed up expression at how good it felt.
you on the other hand, let out a harsh gasp when his tip was touching areas you never thought could be reached.
it made your head perk up from being stuffed in the bed, eyes wide and chest heaving.
“g’nna start— f-fuck— moving… now…” he could barely speak, groans interrupting his words as he started bucking his hips forward.
his hands grabbed at the fat on your hips, holding you in place.
your mouth was stuck in an ‘o’ shape, brows furrowed up and eyes shut as you felt every. damn. thing.
noises you didn’t even know you could make were being let out. and he was barely even fucking you the way he wanted to yet…
how embarrassing.
his dick was so good. you had goosebumps on every part of your body and you could hear your juices squelching every time he thrusted into you.
when he started to get used to the tight and wet feeling, a hand reached for the hair that rested over your neck, grabbing up a handful of it.
with this, all he could do was fuck into you harder, skin slapping as he bit on his bottom lip.
his dark green eyes were full of lust due to the way you just consumed every inch so well.
you were loud. telling him you couldn’t take it and babbling out a whole lot of nonsense.
it just felt too good.
“what’s wrong, baby? never had anyone fuck you this good? hm?… yeah i bet no one’s been appreciating this pretty pussy like they should be.” he groaned, looking at your body as if it was a renaissance painting, his free hand grabbing at the plush skin of your ass with every fiber in him.
safe to say the skin was tinted red with his hand print all over it.
the mix of pleasure and pain of being stretched out made you weak.
your brain was absolute mush and you were so cock drunk, his dick replacing the feeling of all the alcohol from earlier.
“j—! oh my— fuck…!” was all you could blabber out. you tried to respond but he was pulling your hair so harshly, causing your back to arch more than you physically could.
meaning he was hitting a whole new spot, with harsher movements and a faster pace. the new feeling made your mind completely black out.
you were left a loud, whiny and moaning mess.
josh had promised himself to not get too caught up in one thing on this trip.
but the alcohol and ways you were talking to him earlier into the night made his dick twitch in his pants for any kind of attention from just you.
the both of you were close.
he could feel your walls tightening around his cock so nicely, making him want to empty all the cum he could hold into you.
“shit— shit, y/n. ‘m gonna cum inside this pussy, yeah? gonna make you all mine, fill you up so nice.” he was spewing half-minded bullshit in between deep breaths, grabbing at your hair and your hip while his thrusts became more aggressive.
you were drooling everywhere, his words made you want to cum right then and there.
the sounds of wet skin slapping and the feeling of his balls slapping against your clit consumed all of your thoughts.
“c— cum..! g’nna cum.. fuck—!” your legs were trembling, voice shaky while you reached for your orgasm by fucking yourself on his dick, rutting your hips; gripping the bed sheets for stability.
could’ve sworn you were seeing stars. your vision started to enhance white sparks and your eyes were open as wide as they could go, a loud moan of his name slipped out of your mouth.
a few more pumps in and he was cumming deep inside of you, holding his dick as deep as it could go.
he finished with a baritone and low groan, biting at his bottom lip as he watched the cum overflow, slipping out of you and down your thighs.
the both of you lied there in sweat and with limp
limbs, one of his hands was still stuck to your ass, holding it as he rested on his back while you were on your stomach.
“you awake?” josh muttered to you in a bit of concern, breaking the silence.
when he heard soft breathing in replace of your voice, he figured that was his answer and got up to find something he could clean you up with.
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THEODORE NOTT SMUT
You don’t even remember what upset you. Not now. Not with Theodore Nott between your legs, tongue slow and starving. Your back’s pressed into the mattress, thighs trembling around his head—and he’s not just licking. He’s drinking from you like it’s holy.
Every groan from his throat sends shocks up your spine, and he doesn’t come up for air. Not once.
“You taste like fucking heaven,” he rasps against your clit, his breath hot, his mouth slick and soaked. “Sweet little thing… all this for me?”
One hand hold your hip while the other grips your thigh, spreading you wider, pulling you to his mouth even more like he needs to be closer, needs to feel every twitch and spasm of your body under his tongue. When you whimper, he vibrates with it—moaning like your pleasure’s the only thing keeping him alive.
“You’re shaking,” he murmurs, voice low, tender, and cocky all at once. “Poor girl… such a hard day, huh? Let me take it. Let me fucking erase it.”
Then he sucks—slow, focused, tongue flicking devastatingly right—and your orgasm hits like a crashing wave. You cry out, body arching, but he doesn’t stop. Not even a breath. His mouth stays locked, hungry, his tongue chasing every pulse of your high like he’s starving for it.
“That’s it,” he whispers, lips brushing your thigh. “Come for me again. I want it. I need it.”
He slides two fingers inside you—deep, curling perfectly—and you don’t even have time to warn him before you’re coming again, sharp and loud and blinding.
That’s when he loses it.
He groans, low and guttural, and goes feral. His tongue returns to your clit with ruthless precision, while his fingers fuck you slow and deep, like he’s dragging every drop of pain, every ounce of tension, right out of you.
“So wet,” he pants, licking through your slick with reverence. “You’re making such a mess for me... Ti adoro, amore mio. I fucking adore you.”
Your thighs tremble, trying to close—overstimulated, twitching—but he only bites you softly, locking you open with a grip that feels possessive. Like he owns you. Like he needs to watch you come.
“Shhh, bella… don’t fight it,” he coos, kissing your clit like a lover, tongue gentle now, but fingers still pumping slow, hard, deep. “I’m taking care of you. Nothing else matters now. Just this. Just you.”
He moans again, head shaking in disbelief, eyes glazed as he stares at your dripping cunt like it’s paradise.
“I could live here,” he says to himself, dazed. “Right here. Between your thighs. Mio dio… I’d die happy if I got to taste you every day.”
You’re floating. Mind fuzzy. Everything that hurt is gone—burned out of you—and it’s all him. All Theodore. His lips, his fingers, his voice.
He kisses your clit again—then again, harder—and your whole body jolts. It’s too much. And yet, never enough.
“Again,” he breathes, voice wrecked. “You’re not done. I want everything you’ve got. Every fucking orgasm I can pull from you. I’m not stopping ‘til you forget everything but me.”
Your third orgasm crashes like a tidal wave, a sob ripping from your chest—and he moans into your pussy like he’s tasting divinity, like your pleasure is the only thing keeping his heart beating.
“That’s it, amore mio,” he groans. “Give it to me.”
He doesn’t stop. Doesn’t slow. His tongue is back on your clit, messy, focused, obscene. His fingers move with sinful precision, curling inside your soaked pussy like he knows your body better than you do. You’re trembling, crying, gasping his name like a prayer, and he just watches.
Drinking you in like you’re art—his art.
“You’re so beautiful when you come,” he whispers, lips brushing your clit. “So perfect. Let go for me. Just feel how I love you.”
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dreamin’ bout you
kinktober 2024 !! day four : wet dreams
pairing : kamo choso x fem!reader
summary : what does choso do when he’s sick of having wet dreams about you and not being able to get the real thing? we answer that in this fic!
wc : 340+
warning : SMUT (mdni), mentions of masturbation, p in v, subby!choso for a split second tbh, not proofread
notes : chosochospccjosochoso LOVEEEEEE HIM i will always go back to u pookums shookums also i went to my ex situationships house today his mom loves me but holy shit yall ever have a rly bad moment of weakness? i wrote this choso fic to cope. like on the spot. sorry yall enjoy
this has been happening for way too long.
images of you flash through choso’s mind. when he sleeps, all he sees is you. whether he’s kissing you or fucking you, it’s just you.
it always leads to him fisting himself stupid. he doesn’t stop until he feels like his dick is really about to burst and not in a good way. you’re just so damn addicting to him. he needs the real thing. he needs you.
maybe he shouldn’t have called you so late at night. he thought it wasn’t the best idea to call and say that he needed you urgently. that he’d die if you weren’t on his dick. but you definitely weren’t any better for going along with it.
“you need me that bad? really? maybe i should just let you take care of it on your own.” you’d teased him with a laugh. that led to him immediately begging and whining for you to stop fucking around. for you to come over and just do him a favor. just this time.
and that’s what led to you on his bed, letting him plow into you. he had his hands on your thighs to keep them apart. his cock pistoned in and out of you, throwing you for a fucking spin. choso’s moans along with your own mixed in the silence of the night.
he couldn’t believe he was finally acting out his dreams. he finally got what he wanted: your pussy. “thank you- fuck… thank you so much…” he moaned out, his head hung from how fucked out he was. his sharp eyes focused on the way you sucked him in.
you couldn’t even respond to him from how intense everything felt. for a half curse, he definitely fucked a lot better than any human you’d been with. you chalked it up to his desperation. he reached the deepest parts of you, making you writhe under him in pleasure.
“you should dream about me more often.” you stuttered through whimpers and choso’s harsh thrusts. and honestly? choso couldn’t agree more.
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hii how r u?
can i please request saka days men (preferably shin, natsuki and yoichi) x s/o with a flat body and it’s making them feel insecure? could be fluff or smut whatever you feel like it
thank you!!<3
Body worship - sakamoto days
—nagumo, shin, natsuki
Mdni!!
Nagumo yoichi
You tried to hide the wince when your shirt came off, but Nagumo caught it. Of course he did.
He froze mid-motion, eyes sweeping down your chest like he was memorizing you. You crossed your arms instinctively.
“Don’t,” he said softly. “Not in front of me.”
“Nagumo—”
“Nuh-uh.” He was on his knees before you now, hands sliding up your thighs. “You think just because your chest isn’t huge that I’m not obsessed with your body? Baby, I jack off to the curve of your waist.”
His mouth moved to your stomach, kissing a slow, heated trail up to your sternum. “Your tits are perfect. Small, soft, sensitive. I can feel your heart beating under my tongue. That drives me fucking insane.”
Then his hands hooked your thighs apart.
“Let me show you what this body does to me.”
He dragged his tongue down your belly, licking over your mound, your slit, tasting you like you were his first sip of water after a warzone. He moaned against you, grinding his hips into the mattress.
“You're so sexy I ache, baby.”
You were shaking. Writhing. And when he slid two fingers inside you and latched onto your clit, you swore he smiled into your cunt.
“Flat body?” he growled. “No, sweetheart. You’re a fucking blade. Sharp, deadly, and mine.”
Shin asakura
You tried not to let it bother you—how you looked in the mirror. No curves, no bounce. You felt like a sheet of paper beside the women in Shin’s world.
He noticed. Of course he did.
Shin reached for your hand in the dark. “You’ve been pulling away from me lately.”
You flinched. “…Sorry.”
“Don’t be.” He moved slowly, respectfully. “But I want to show you something. If you’ll let me.”
You nodded.
He undressed you like you were fragile silk. Kissed your collarbone, your shoulders, your flat chest with lips full of worship. No mocking. No judgment.
“Can I tell you a secret?” he murmured, brushing his fingers over your ribs. “I’ve never liked anyone’s body like I like yours.”
He leaned down, pressing his forehead to your sternum. “You're real. Raw and perfect. When I see you like this, I—fuck, I just want to protect you and ruin you at the same time.”
He moved between your legs slowly, gently. Slid into you while whispering, “So beautiful. Just like this. You don’t need anything more.”
He stayed deep inside, grinding against your walls, kissing every part of you he could reach. Each thrust came with a soft whisper.
“Perfect…”
“Feels so good inside you…”
“Love this body… so fucking much…”
You came with tears in your eyes, and Shin held you close, as if to shield you from even your own thoughts.
Natsuki seba
“Wait—wait, Natsuki,” you said, breathless as his hands slipped under your tank top. “Don’t look.”
He blinked up at you, confused. “What? Why not?”
“…I just don’t look like other girls. I know I don’t have a lot going on up here,” you gestured vaguely at your chest, “and I don’t want you to be disappointed—”
“Are you serious?”
Before you could move away, Natsuki pulled you down onto the bed with him, pinning you with gentle hands and wide, dark eyes.
“I’ve been dreaming about getting my mouth on you for weeks,” he said. “Flat or not, I want you exactly how you are.”
Then he yanked your shirt off and just… stared.
“Holy shit,” he murmured, awed. “You’re so fucking hot.”
His mouth was all over you in seconds—sucking, licking, moaning. He kissed up your chest, nipping at your nipples like they were the most precious thing he’d ever seen.
“You’re so cute, I could die.”
He slid down between your thighs, tongue darting out, hungry and unrelenting.
“You feel that?” he said against your core. “That’s me losing my mind. Over your body.”
You gripped the sheets, crying out as he worked you over like a man starved.
“I’m gonna worship this body every night if you let me,” he gasped, pulling you tighter against his face. “Flat? Nah. You’re perfectly fuckable. And I’m gonna prove it.”
You came hard. He didn’t stop until your legs were trembling and you were moaning his name like a prayer.
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THE LOVER⠀⠀⠀ ( 𝓽wo. )



things are heating up beyond your control, but you don’t intend to stop now that you feel this alive.
𝓬ontains: f!reader x felix. 7.8k wc. infidelity. fluff. felix being the chillest other woman ever. smut. 18+
𝓷otes: taking over a month to update a miniseries is insane and i am sorry, this is now the longest fic i’ve posted on here yet and i hope it lives up to the wait😭 for everyone still tuning in i love and appreciate you
PREV. ❀ CONT.
𝓨OU RUN THE BATH hot enough to just about boil you alive. as you slip into the water, a searing sting coating your skin, you just take it. tell yourself you deserve it.
when you slid into the passenger seat beside your fiancé, his hand landed heavy on your thigh — right over the spot where felix’s mouth had been moments earlier. panic shot up your spine like a bolt of lightning.
you needed a cleanse, a detox. to burn off all the remnants of felix that still clung to your body like smoke. although, he’s left you with patches of red blooming on the skin that’ll be a bitch to hide.
you’ll have to freeze spoons, buy some military grade concealer, maybe even start praying that your fiancé won’t suddenly start taking actual notice of you, only to see where someone else had marked you.
you weren’t about to fuck around and find out.
was this close enough to a baptism? maybe you could DIY some homemade holy water. skull it in a flask. cleanse yourself from the inside out.
… you’ve never felt more shame in your life.
after the shitshow that was today, you’re putting your foot down. there’ll be no more. your bed’s all made for you — yes, you can feel the pea at the very bottom, but there’s no use rolling around or thrashing about like it’ll change what’s already set in stone. what’s already sitting on your finger.
you hold your hand up to the ceiling, watching the light refract on your ring. this little gold band that dictates the trajectory of your life.
is it worth giving up the first human connection you’ve found in what felt like forever when your fate’s already predetermined?
it’s not like felix could stop it all. it’s not like he’d even want to go through the trouble. you just happened to make him a nice looking coffee. he’s not your soulmate. he’s not your forever. that titleholder is beyond the bathroom door, dozing on the couch watching some boring 90’s sitcom.
at least that’s what you’ve been told. that he’s supposed to be. isn’t that what marriage is?
you sit on the thought for a while.
you scoop water onto your chest, the droplets run tears down your skin. you blow bubbles across the surface and watch them pop. you think of your swan, what she must be up to at this hour. you think of your coworker emmie and how you’d die to have another friend. you think of felix and then you cry.
shoulders shuddering, throat constricting, you cry and you cry. you just can’t stop the tears. maybe they’d been backed up for months.
you let it all out. how badly you wish you could’ve chosen your own life. how badly you want it to be felix. how you can’t do anything about it but ugly cry in a now lukewarm bath.
you don’t want to let him go — to just abandon the spark of life he ignites within you, in a way this ring and this man and this life has never come close.
the foot you put down has just been amputated (didn’t take long), because you know you’ll see felix again. he’s bound to swing by the café again, regardless of what conclusion you draw in your head right now. you did leave things unfinished, after all…
but that was only a shared moment of weakness, between two friends. that’s all he’ll be. a friend. nothing more, nothing less. nothing that your fiancé can fuss over if you behave yourself.
you catch your reflection in the mirror: eyes red-rimmed and cheeks puffy. you sniffle.
liar.
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ten minutes into your usual routine on the job and you were thinking of ways to stage an accident to hurt yourself.
felix hadn’t come by — not yet. if he even does. what do you care? he’s just a friend, of course. a friendly friend…
is burning your hand on the coffee machine enough to get sent home?
was an empty house and a burn mark, which you’d have to think up a viable excuse for, better than just facing felix?
maybe.
the doorbell jingles, and your heart nearly gives out until you’re faced with a very confused emmie.
she steps in out of the breeze, bag slung over her shoulder and brows raised at you standing there, stiffly alert.
“did i walk in on a ghost?”
you exhale, untensing your shoulders. “just thought it was someone else.”
she hums, but that’s not the answer she was looking for. “someone else like... the guy from the other morning? lean, blonde, acting like a puppy?”
you turn your gaze to the floor, pretending to notice a nonexistent smudge to clean. “he’s just a regular.”
emmie snorts a laugh. “yeah, okay. maybe a regular in your bed.”
you glance up sharply. “no he’s not.”
she shrugs, but there’s that pointed look again — the one that’s connecting dots. she sets her bag down on the counter and leans her elbows against it, watching you with more concern than teasing now.
“you okay?” she asks gently. “did something happen with your... boyfriend?”
there’s that word again. like a bruise she keeps pressing just to check if you’ll flinch.
this time, you admit it meekly. “he’s not my boyfriend.”
emmie’s face doesn’t shift much — just a flicker of the eyes, like she’s filed that away. “alright,” she nods. “well, if you ever want to talk about it... i’m great with secrets.”
you trade smiles.
but then bell rings again. and this time when you look, it’s actually him.
felix steps through the door, hands in his jean pockets like he’s unsure if he’s welcome, windblown hair tumbling into his eyes. once his sights land on you, his whole face lights up: soft, uncertain, but unmistakably hopeful.
you forget to breathe.
“i’ll be in the back,” emmie assures, already nudging you forward. “go on.”
you didn’t have much time left before the morning rush. your legs are moving before your brain can catch up.
you meet him halfway by the pastry case, half-shielded from the window and out of the camera’s line of sight.
felix’s eyes roam your face, as if searching for the version of you he saw last — bright, giggling, alive in the sunlight. but now you were schooling your face to give away as little as possible.
“are you okay?” he asks gently, like the wrong words might send you running for the hills.
you try for a smile. “i am, yeah. are you?”
felix runs a hand through his hair, then laughs quietly to himself. nervous. “agh, i don’t know. i’ve been wondering if i messed it all up.”
“what?”
“you ran off so fast. and you didn’t call,” he says, voice dropping an octave. “i left you my number, but maybe i shouldn’t have. was i pushing too far?”
“felix, no—”
“i don’t want to make this weird, i swear. you can tell me if i came on too strong or if i misread—”
“—you didn’t.”
he pauses. you watch his eyes soften, pupils expanding as they swallow the light. and then his face splits into a smile — that sun-warm smile that makes you weak in the knees; chipping away at the last shred of your resolve.
you hold your hand up, sunlight refracting off the gold ring on your finger. “this isn’t what it looks like. it’s complicated, but i’m still going to be married—”
“happily?”
you freeze, the words dying in your throat. you swallow when you meet felix’s gaze — soft eyes searching yours.
“doesn’t matter. but it is real, and i can’t change that.”
“it should matter if you’re happy or not—”
you shake your head, grabbing hold of felix’s hand to shush him. you can’t answer that in a way he’ll be okay with.
you exhale shakily. “i didn’t call because i was.. scared. i didn’t know if i should..”
“i know, i’m sorry. i get it,” he says, though you’re not entirely sure he does. “but you don’t have to pretend, you know. if this was just something fun, a little distraction, then i’ll back off.”
your hold around his hand tightens, and you feel him tense under your touch. “it’s not that.”
felix sounds breathless as he asks, “then what?”
you force yourself to hold his gaze — heart pounding, throat dry. you owe it to him to not run away again.
“this, you. you’ve been the only brightness in my life lately. the one thing that makes me feel like i’m not isolated. trapped.”
felix huffs, stepping closer. “you’re not.”
you give him a sad smile, silently disagreeing. you already figured he wouldn’t get it.
his breath hitches, hesitant, before he says lowly: “i don’t care what this is. if this is just me showing up every morning and making you laugh, i’ll do it. if you only want me to walk you to the lake, feed the swans with you — you’ve got it. i’ll be your friend. your distraction, your secret, whatever. just let me be what you need.”
“felix,”
“i like you,” he blurts. “probably too much, more than i should. i know. but i do.”
you’ll admit, he does drive a hard bargain. if felix keeps making you happy in this little bubble, and you leave it all behind the moment you go your seperate ways — then where’s the real harm in that? as long as the lines don’t blur, and no one gets hurt. right?
so much for just a friend.
your hands find his denim jacket, tugging him down to you.
and you’re not sure who moves first, but then you’re kissing him.
it’s not like before. not tentative and shy, but not hurried and needy either. it’s just warm. heavy. your lips move slowly, then it deepens, mouths moulding to one another like you’ve kissed a hundred times before this.
felix’s hands stay respectful, but his body leans to press into yours, aching with held-back tension and everything he didn’t get to do last time.
you pull away only to breathe, his forehead resting atop yours.
“what are we doing?” you whisper.
his tongue darts out, licking the taste of you from his lips. it makes you shiver. “i don’t know. i just know i don’t want to stop.”
you exhale with a smile. “okay.”
“i’ll come back for you,” he murmurs, brushing his nose against yours. “after your shift. we’ll walk. or chat. or just sit in silence. whatever you want.”
you nod, letting him know your finish time and leaving one last peck on his lips before you part with his hold.
you both go your seperate ways, you walking back to the counter and felix to the door — and when you look back to him, he’s already looking at you. you smile at each other once more before you round the corner, then almost run into emmie.
she’s stood there with an all-knowing grin. you can’t help but duck your head shyly. “so, is mister not-my-boyfriend getting some?”
you pick up a cloth and throw it at her.
she catches it easily, laughing as you blush and scamper off to the kitchen.
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you spot a glint of that familiar blonde hair through the glass, posted up outside just over an hour before your shift actually ended.
after your initial confusion, and shooting felix a raised brow through the window while he just smiled like it’s nothing, you’re already asking your supervisor to clock off early before you can talk yourself out of it.
she doesn’t look the least bit convinced when you tell her a family emergency’s come up, but she doesn’t pry either.
you push open the door and find him leaning against the short stone wall — now his waiting spot of choice — with a hand tousling his hair and grin already blooming as he greets you. it makes your stomach flip in the way it always does, and yet somehow worse this afternoon. there’s more than just nerves.
you’re blunt as you ask: “you are aware i had another hour left, right?”
felix shrugs it off, eyes soft. “figured i’d rather wait where i get to see you than waste time anywhere else.”
you give a half roll of your eyes which he just chuckles at. the noise makes you feel all clammy. each time you’re around him, it’s harder to ignore just how gorgeous he is. you wanted to count the freckles on his face. trace the veins on his arms. wanted to do a lot of things.
felix nods his head toward the path leading into the deeper part of campus. “c’mon. i wanna show you something.”
you follow without asking where. and once you’re out of open view, tucked between the shadows of buildings, you let felix reach for your hand without protest — softly hooking his fingers around yours as he led the way.
the band room is tucked into a corner of one of the older college buildings. felix lets you walk in first as he unlocks the door, and you take notice of the equipment lining the walls: amps, guitars, tangled cords stretching likes vines across the floor.
“it’s usually livelier,” he flicks on a dim overhead light. “chris and the others packed up early.”
“you come here often?”
“yeah,” he shrugs, leading you toward a worn couch near the far wall. “sometimes i mess around with beats. write some lyrics here and there. nothing serious.”
“you’ll have to sing one for me someday.”
he laughs under his breath as he shakes his head, clearly flustered. it has you leaning closer to him.
“why not? don’t you think you’ll ever do something with them?”
“that’d be the dream. i’m paying a helluva lot to learn about it.” he exhales, rubbing the back of his neck. “but nah, i dunno. i’d like to, if i could. my mate chris talks about starting a band.”
“you should take him up on that. you’ve got the talent, i can tell.” the compliment comes effortlessly. “i could totally see you being in a boy band.”
he squints at you, tilting his head. “what, like BTS?” he hums. “don’t think i’ve got the build for that.”
you nudge his knee with yours. “that’s nonsense. but you’ve gotta admit, you definitely have the face for it.”
felix’s grin widens. “maybe for a girl group.”
you both burst into quiet laughter, your shoulders brushing as settle closer into the couch. the growing thrum in your chest is a spotlight on the silence that follows.
it’s a quiet pause that seems to thicken the air. it’s like everything unsaid is sudden bubbling to the surface.
you start. “about last time,”
he glances away, almost seeming ashamed. “ah, you don’t have to say anything about—”
“—i want to.”
you look down at his hands, playing with his shirt hem in his lap. he audibly gulps. “i just— i didn’t mean to push. i didn’t want you to feel like… like i expected anything.”
“you didn’t.” the words come without effort. your hand glides over to his tentatively, and his fingers curl around yours. “i wanted it too.”
you’re amazed he’s managed to doubt his effect on you this much — just the other day he was so eager to pry your legs apart. guess that’s what the heat of the moment will do to a guy.
felix fidgets with your fingers. you smile softly. “everything with you is moving so fast and also too slow at the same time. i don’t know what that means for us, or where the line is, or if there even is one anymore.”
felix shifts closer, voice seeping lower. “i don’t care about the rules. i just care about you and what you want.”
you can’t remember the last time you heard anyone tell you that out loud.
you’re already moving before you think twice about it — one hand coming to his jaw, the other fisting in the denim of his jacket as your mouth finds his. felix groans on your lips like he was at his wits end waiting for this.
each of your kisses with felix so far have been different, and each time you learn something new. this kiss is warm, open, a little desperate. the caution of his hands is fleeting before he’s pulling you towards him with firm hands at your waist.
he exhales your name into your mouth like it hurts to say it. not because he doesn’t want this — but because he’s been holding his breath for too long, and now that you’re kissing him he can finally breathe. because the girl he has to restrain himself from falling to his knees over is engaged — and still she’s here in his arms, wanting him just as bad, kissing him just as hard.
he’s grateful it’s him you chose.
“i told myself i’d stop this,” you whisper out between felix’s hurried movements. “that i’d be good.”
felix parts with you at that, pulling only an inch away, and your face burns hot from the eye contact at this proximity. you go to turn away until his hands cup your face — slender fingers caressing your cheeks so gently, eyes looking at you so reverently you could cry.
“you don’t have to be anything,” he murmurs, all breathless from the flurry of kisses. “just… be here. if you want to be.”
you can’t nod fast enough. of course you want to be here with him. it’s all you ever wanna be, and it’s all the more reason why you shouldn’t. but when felix smiles against your lips, nothing else matters. and in the next breath, they’re on his again.
felix’s movements are sweet; politely restrained. he won’t do more than you’re willing to. but he’s still just a guy, you know? you can tell he’s thought about this way more than he should. you can tell just how excited he is, how he’s intentionally keeping his crotch away from bumping into you. you’d find it adorable, if you weren’t getting more worked up by the minute.
you’ve never wanted a person quite like this before. you could almost think that the feelings were reserved for felix. or maybe you’re just so horny that you’re thinking unrealistic.
it’s unbecoming of a lady the way your tongue slides against his, teeth nipping at his swollen lips, hands grabbing him everywhere like you just can’t get enough. biblical amounts of greed even. felix just giggles onto your lips, matching your energy by trailing his hands up your shirt. his warm touch on your bare skin makes you shiver even though you’re burning up.
his hand rests just below the swell of your tits. you rock your body to force his touch upwards, but when his hand stays stubborn where it is, you take it upon yourself to place your own hand over his and move it. it’s him who gasps as you close his palm around your bra, guiding him to give a firm squeeze of your breast. it’s all so much so quickly and it’s not enough.
you don’t care how desperate you sound as you whine his name — a wordless plea for him to do something, anything. but you care even less once you hear felix’s voice in response.
“can i?”
his voice is hoarse and strained, like a rubber band stretched thin. he might want this even more than you, which is surprising that he’s even asking for permission first.
his hold loosens on your chest, uncertain. his other hand lingers at your thigh, thumb brushing circles into the skin like he’s trying to ground himself. he exhales softly onto your lips, thinking. breathing out the last of his restraint.
“is it okay if i touch you?”
you nod hurriedly, fingers curling tight around his palm on your chest. “yes, felix— please.” you could sob it.
“okay,” his adam’s apple bobs, eyes trailing lower down your form as he takes you in. all of you, all for him. “you tell me when to stop.”
when. you’re so breathless you can only huff a laugh. felix’s expression is genuine as he eyes you.
“won’t wanna,” you murmur, leaning back on your elbows to an easier angle for felix. after unclipping your bra and guiding felix’s hand underneath your shirt, you lay back and let him take the initiative.
his hand plied at your bare breast, pulling soft hums from you as the other moved tentatively up your waist. his fingers twitched at your waistband, skimming lower to right where you wanted them. his thumb swipes hard over your nipple, and you can’t help yourself to rocking your hips up — clothed heat dragging over felix’s palm.
it’s no question how bad you want him.
he tugs your shorts to your hips, careful not too expose too much — still being respectful, even as he intends to literally fingerfuck you — and they sit low enough for him to get a hand in.
his eyes stay on yours the whole time as his touch grazes downward. checking, asking, waiting. his pupils dilate to about twice the size once he finally touches you, fingers dipping into your slick as a whimper leaves your throat. you’ve never felt a touch that wasn’t your own before — and you’ve got a hunch it’ll take you half as long to get off as it does on your own.
felix gathers the wet arousal on his index and middle, swiping upwards to where your nerves are tingling. it elicits a jolt from your cunt through to your whole body, and you moan nastily when felix’s fingers starts drawing circles on your clit. you catch him mutter a deep “fuck” as if he’s the one being touched.
you throw your head back, clenching down on nothing as his hand works at you. it’s like he’s read your mind about aching to feel full — his fingers slide easily into your wet core, pumping you slowly as his thumb fills their absence on your clit.
you can’t tell if he must’ve google searched how to pleasure a woman or if he’s horrifically ran through, because he’s making you see fucking stars and you could cum right this second if you stopped trying to hold it off.
your hand claps over your mouth as you become suddenly aware of the downright pornographic moans that’d been coming from you. but it doesn’t muffle you for long before felix’s hand is prying yours away, tilting your chin downwards to face him. you feel way too seen. and it’s more than just the sex.
“please let me taste you.” his deep voice cracks, eyes almost entirely black. you’d kill to see how hard he must be in his jeans right now.
you let out a strained noise as a reply, something between a laugh and a moan, your head tipping back into the couch cushion while his fingers slowed their pace. you’d let him do absolutely anything if he asked like that. that heavy breathing lust. he’s not even trying to be sexy — he just exists and is, in the way honesty can be. desperate and patient and full of hope as if it’d be anything but a yes.
“am i allowed to?” he asks again, uncertain. he has to hear your consent in words.
“yes, felix.” you breathe out, hand threading through his blonde locks in anticipation.
he pulls his hand out from under the fabric, fingers hooking around your waistband to give a stronger tug this time. you even raise your pelvis upwards for felix to slide them down your legs. he gently places your clothes on the armrest of the couch, thoughtful — then he’s getting down on his elbows himself, face at level with your heat. you gulp at the exposure.
“wanna make you feel good,” his arms hook around your legs to pull you closer, breath hot on your cunt.
“i do, felix,” you manage to pant out, fist twisting in his hair.
guilt twists deep in your chest as he hovers there, a phantom of a ring still heavy on your finger — yet your body leans into him like it has no doubt at all. like it’s certain about what it wants, who it needs. and once his lips pucker to press a soft kiss to your clit, tongue darting out to lick a stripe with curious precision, all reason melts into heat.
you gasp, hips twitching before his arm’s draping over your stomach, keeping you in place as he leaves kitten licks on your buzzing cunt. it’s not long before he’s flatting his tongue against you, fingers coming back to prod at your damp entrance.
you’re crying out as three digits slip inside you, felix’s tongue swiping quick over your clit.
“is this good?” he stops to asks, too concerned for someone who already has you on the fringes of an orgasm. “am i doing good?”
you nod, biting your lip hard to keep from letting out a particularly filthy moan. words are beyond you now, all focus channelled into lasting as long as your body will allow. you just hope felix can tell the last thing you want is for him to stop.
and he doesn’t (because he’s not blind). if anything, he grows bolder, cheeks hollowing to suck tight on your clit, undeterred by your fist about to rip the hair out of his scalp. and when his fingers curl to hit that soft spot of flesh, you’re gone.
your thighs shake around his head as you cum, overwhelming pleasure washing over your whole body as felix steadily holds you through it.
you know you’re going to think about this moment every time you lie in bed under the same roof as your fiancé. you’re going to feel felix’s hand knuckle-deep in your pussy, his tongue relentless on your clit, his breath bated like he’s unraveling at the same time as you.
you don’t know how long you were even cumming for once you’re finally coming down from it, eyes screwed shut as you catch your breath — body lying limp in felix’s hold. he just peppers the inside of your thigh with soft pecks as he waits for you to gather yourself.
and when you finally glance down at him, he’s smiling like you hung the stars.
and you decide you’ll give him the whole damn galaxy.
you reach for him, pulling him up by his jacket collar until his body’s hovering over your chest. he watches as your hand reaches down, knuckles brushing over the bulge in his jeans. his breath hitches, and he nods, unable to speak.
you consider teasing him — asking him to say it in words like he made you do before, but you just can’t find it in you to postpone touching him any more than this.
he keeps himself propped up with his arms resting by your head, a hand cradling the side of your facez you unzip his pants, and he shudders under the attention — just barely restraining a buck of his hips into your hand.
“i haven’t.. done much.” your palm cups the outline of him over the fabric, uncertain.
“me either.” he admits, voice cracking. you’re surprised — but not complaining. the thought of being his first like he was to you makes your core pulse.
you’re too impatient to get his pants all the way off, instead settling on shoving your pants under his boxers and wrapping your fingers around his length.
you stroke him slowly, the way you imagine he might like it. the way he started with you before you riled him up. your fist sets a steady pace as you pump his length, adding a twist of your wrist at the top that has his hips stuttering.
you don’t take your eyes off him, watching the way his face scrunches and his mouth parts in beautifully deep moans. it doesn’t take long before he’s panting above you, forehead falling to your shoulder as he finishes in your hand — a groan rumbling at your ear as his hips jerk one last time, cum spilling across his stomach.
you both just sit there for a moment. let the room fill with the scent of your bodies and the noise of your breathing in sync. finally, felix laughs breathlessly.
“i’m sorry,” he mutters, lifting his head. “that was quick.”
you just smile, still dazed. “that was perfect.”
he kisses your cheek. “you’re perfect.” then he kisses your temple, your jaw, before smothering your face with kisses. you lay there like that for a moment, giggles and sweat in the air.
you help felix clean up with whatever stray tissues you can scavenge from your bag. he hikes his shirt up his chest for you, shyly facing away as he exposes his toned stomach splattered with his mess. you take notice of the happy trail peaking out from his waistband, and you swallow down the urge to leap at him and go for round two.
it aches, how domestic it could feel. felix holding your hair out of your face as you wipe his stomach, pulling your pants up for you and brushing the creases out of your shirt. it’s all tender and quiet and so terribly forbidden.
you both know that this is only going to get harder to stop.
by the time you both make it out to the lake, your cheeks still ache from how much you’d been smiling.
felix walks beside you, back of his hand brushing yours every so often. on purpose, you think, though he pretends not to notice. the sky’s soft and pink now, dusk spilling its colours in pastels lazily across the water. there’s a breeze through your hair, and the swans drift slowly across the surface when they take notice of the audience.
you both sit down on the same bench from before, legs still a tad unsteady. it comes from something deeper than just what happened in that quiet little band room.
felix nudges your arm, chin jutting towards the lake. “see that one? the one with the lopsided feather on its wing?”
you squint, spotting the swan in question. “hm?”
“that one’s mine.”
you huff a laugh. “yours? what makes you think you get a swan?”
he grins, seeming glad you asked. “because it’s got no clue where it’s going, swims in circles half the time, and looks a little too soft for its own good.”
“are you calling it a mess?”
“i’m saying it’s chillin’,” he says, a little more seriously. “even if it’s kinda lost. like me, i guess.”
your smile falters for a second. then grows. “so that’s the one you’re claiming, huh?”
he shrugs, eyes warm. “well, someone already claimed the pretty one.”
there’s a faint blush dusting his cheeks as he watches the lake again. “i think yours is over there.” he snaps his fingers, pointing towards a lone swan preening its feathers by the reeds. “she looks like you. all elegant. might be plotting something.”
you snort. “i’m plotting now?”
“mhm, plotting how to steal my heart and then leave me for dead,” he teases, eyes flicking over to meet yours. “too late though. first part’s already done.”
you roll your eyes, trying not to show how your stomach flips at that. “you’re such a sap.”
“only for you.”
the words hang between you, light and heavy at the same time. he means it in jest — kind of. but the dip of his voice gives him away. there’s a truth tucked in the centre of it that neither of you can really ignore.
you hug your knees to your chest, eyes following the swan. she’s so pretty. effortlessly unbothered.
you wonder what that might feel like.
this is only going to get harder. harder to stop, to justify. the more he touches you like that, makes you laugh like this — the more you feel like the girl you used to be, before all the duties of the adult world started strangling the life out of her.
the more felix looks at you like he’s already yours, even when you know you can’t be his.
you don’t speak any of it out loud. if just for a moment, maybe nothing outside of this exists if you stop thinking about it all. you just lean your head on his shoulder and let him take your hand.
felix doesn’t say anything to fill the silence either. he just holds on — until the sky fades to a dusty orange and your time for the day has come to an end.
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felix starts showing up more often, enough to be considered part of the furniture. not just at opening, when you’re groggy and spacing out the hum of the espresso machine — and not just at closing, when the place quiets and you sneak him pastries on their way to the bin.
now he comes in halfway through your shift. sometimes multiple pop-ins a day. he’s started a bad habit of leaving his classes early just to watch you from a corner booth: hoodie pulled up, laptop open on some document he’s not even touching, pretending to work while he waits for you to glance his way.
you always scold him for it. warn him that he’s going to fall behind, that the term finals are coming up so he’s supposed to be serious about this.
“and i am,” he simply says every damn time through a cheeky grin. “i’m just more serious about you.”
you roll your eyes, might toss a balled up napkin in his direction. but you’re smiling. always are with him.
there’s a rhythm to the sneaking around now. an art even. the stolen kisses in the camera’s blind spots. texting him when your coworkers turn their backs. felix’s “accidental” touches inching higher — palm brushing your back, fingers hooking yours — riskier.
you’ve accepted the affair. not out loud, and maybe not fully. but you’ve made peace with it in your own, quiet way. told yourself that it can be your little guilty pleasure — a last gasp of rebellion before you marry and seal yourself into a life that was decided for you. a life that, truthfully, isn’t all that bad.
except felix makes it increasingly difficult to wave it off as just a fling. you see it in the way he looks at you — no longer in a rush to memorise you, like he’s certain he’s got forever to now. you hear it in the way he talks about “someday” like it’s a real place. a future where you don’t have to go home to someone else. a world where he can be the one waiting for you.
and sometimes, you start to think it too.
you haven’t told him the full story yet — if there even is an at all. you’d only ever alluded to it: the engagement, the man behind the gold ring, the empty house you so often arrive to.
it started long before either of you. with your families, friends for generations. business intertwined. it was a good match on paper. he’s only a little older, successful, made a name for himself. and you’re meant to be the cherry on top of it all: a beautiful, young fiancé.
you didn’t have to love each other. just serve to honour the fellowship of your families, benefit his image.
you hadn’t known what you were doing with your life at the time. aimless, you’d offered yourself up to the proposition. it gave you a purpose, you figured. something that made you matter. while other people your age were diving into full-time work or studying for degrees, you’d be playing the sweet housewife — all the while you figured out what the hell you wanted to be when you grow up.
it’s not like he’s cruel — some tyrant keeping you locked up in his tower. he really hasn’t forced you into doing anything. but it’s not like any of it holds any weight either. you’re getting married, sure. but it’s a show put on. you could be replaced by any other girl and nothing would change. the only time you get to choose anything is in odette’s. when you make silly little doodles in coffee cups and when you exist around felix.
he doesn’t know all of that. but he knows enough.
one afternoon you’re curled together in the music room again, listening to one of his friends’ demos crackle through his old laptop speakers, when felix randomly decides to get deep. he admits to you why he came back that second time. why he couldn’t stop coming back.
“i think i felt invisible before you,” he murmured, twisting a string of your hair around his pointer. “like i was there, but no one really saw me. y’know?”
you glance at him, listening. he turns his gaze at the ceiling like it might offer him courage. he continues:
“that first day, you didn’t just take my order and forget me after. you took the time to draw that little swan, like you somehow knew i feed them. and knowing you now, you probably would’ve remembered my face if i had just kept my darned head up that first time.” he chuckles.
you don’t have to say anything. just reach out and take his hand.
“it might be dumb, but i think i needed it at the time. you made me feel like i had a place here. like i mattered.”
“of course you do,” you give a reassuring squeeze of his fingers.
he squeezes back. “then let me take you to see your family sometime. even just the one day. just to remind you of where you come from. of who you are.”
days ago you had only off-handedly mentioned the fact that you hadn’t seen your family in a while. the only common face in your days was your husband-to-be, your supervisor at work, and now felix.
you don’t answer. just put your head on his shoulder until your phone alarm goes off — meaning it was time to go your separate ways once again.
his hugs linger for a little longer, touch a little tighter each time. you’re worried that one day, he won’t have the heart to let go.
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you promised felix you'd meet him at the usual time. the same as always after your shift: meet him by the bike racks, share a quiet walk before sunset, swing by the band room for a quick stop if you had the time.
but today, odette’s had been short-staffed, so you found yourself under the watch of your supervisor more often than usual. and it’s not even because they were less workers — it felt like she was intentionally hovering over you, too attentive over what you were doing.
you started to worry in the silence. when did she start suspecting you? had someone told her about a blonde boy coming over far too often? or perhaps someone had spotted you in a comprising way with felix and full-well snitched?
you couldn't risk finding out just what that is. not when you've already been pressing your luck far too much.
you just needed a moment to cool down. to convince yourself your supervisor’s curt orders and lingering glances meant nothing. so you stalled. stacked boxes in preparation for tomorrow, deep-cleaned the sink drain because why not. you told yourself he’d understand if you needed a few more minutes — which ticks by to over half an hour without you realising.
when you finally make it out, slipping your apron off and hurrying down the back stairs, he's still waiting. hands tucked in the pockets of his hoodie, walking lazy circles around the racks, scuffing the toe of his sneaker against the pavement.
and he looks up when he hears the door. smile. that gentle, sun-bleached smile that always steals your breath away.
“hey,” he calls, relieved. “thought you might’ve forgotten about me.”
before you can answer, he’s reaching out instinctively, maybe to brush your hair away or drag his knuckles down your cheek. but whatever it’s meant to be, you flinch — a subtle step back, and his hand drops mid-air. that smile falters and you want to just die.
“i— sorry,” he murmurs, quiet. unsure. “i didn’t mean to— are you okay?”
you don’t answer right away, too busy berating yourself for making him feel bad over nothing. his hand falls back to his side. “i’m sorry.”
you shake your head quickly, reaching for him. “no no, it’s not you— felix, please,” your voice is close to begging, but you don’t care. “i swear, it’s not. i just—”
you sigh, frustrated, and he just watches you for a moment. the silence between you grows heavy on your shoulders.
“you sure?” he treads lightly. “because you’ve never—”
“i’m fine,” you affirm, a little too sharp at the edges. “just tired.”
he nods slowly, flashes a quick smile that doesn’t quite reach the eyes. you can tell he doesn’t believe you.
you want to speak your truth — that little voice in the corner of your mind still reminding you that this can’t last, so you’re trying to keep your heart from getting too attached. and yet, still failing.
you want to tell him that you’re fucking scared.
but instead of any of that, you just ask, “walk me to the lake?”
and he nods, settling on burying his hands back in his pockets instead of reaching for you again.
back inside, your supervisor watches the back window with her arms crossed. emmie’s stacking cups behind the counter, trying too hard not to look up.
“emmie — a word?”
she reluctantly turns.
“she’s been leaving in a rush lately. and that boy — i’ve been seeing him outside too much. you remember who her fiancé is, don’t you?”
emmies stays quiet. the supervisor narrows her eyes.
“you need to tell me if there’s something going on. because it’s not just her job on the line. you realise that, yes?”
emmie meets her stare. “i don’t know anything.”
“you’re certain?” the supervisor deadpans, not the slightest bit convinced.
“she’s not stupid.” emmie states, and leaves it at that before walking off. adding a quiet “neither am i” under her breath.
and unfortunately, it’s not enough.
the late afternoon settles over the town like a sigh. the sky’s blue bleeds into an orange, light seeping between the tree leaves and onto the concrete of your usual path. the campus is a nice quiet, save for the breeze and distant cars as students and staff leave the grounds.
there’s enough of a chill in the air to be an excuse for felix to stay close, shoulder bumping yours every so often like he’s gauging you. when you finally face him with a smile, having grown tired of beating yourself up, it’s when he speaks.
he nudges your arm. “so, i’ve been wondering..”
you glance at him, curious.
“that first time,” he continues, tone careful, almost shy. “in the band room. how’d you know how to do that?”
you scoff. “i should be asking you.” in comparison, you barely even touched felix — while he had reached depths your own fingers couldn’t.
he just chuckles, looking away with a faint blush on his cheeks. “well, i.. uh, did my research.”
you squint at him, suggestive. he groans.
“no, it’s not what you’re thinking— well, maybe not exactly, but— look, i just didn’t want to screw it up, alright?”
you laugh, fond. “of course you didn’t.”
he peeks at you from under those long lashes. “well that’s good. ‘cause i’ve got a second chance now, don’t i?”
“says who?”
you both stop in your tracks, felix backing you off the path. your feet land on soft grass. “you’re walking with me, aren’t you?”
you roll your eyes. you plant a hand on his chest, giving a light shove. it’s meant to be playful. but the words that follow are what had been weighing on your mind.
“you need to be less careless, felix. we both do.” you sigh. “we can’t be acting like this out in the open.”
he nods, serious now. “i know. c’mere,”
“no.” your lip curls at the corner, watching his expression drop. “there’s not enough time for the band room.”
for a moment, he stills as he thinks silently, before he’s taking you by the hand.
felix pulls you gently towards a dirt trail — a desire path winding behind science block and down to a patch of overgrown greenery, shielded by a thicket of trees. one of these days you have to remember to ask how he knows all these spots.
felix lays his jacket down on the grass, patting the spot like a gentleman inviting you to sit. you raise a brow.
“here, felix? really?”
he grins. “not out of the open enough for you?”
despite your sarcastic reluctance, you sit anyway, brushing a few stray leaves as felix settles in front of you — crouching between your legs. his hands are finding yours in the next breath, mouths meeting the millisecond after you nod as permission.
you laugh quietly onto his lips as he kisses you, still caught on him admitting to researching in preparation of getting physical with you. it’s so cute and thoughtful and damn was he a great learner.
the noise catches in your throat when his fingers find the home they’ve made at your waist, hot mouth latching onto the curve of your jaw.
right there under the canopy of leaves, you let him take you on the grass. spread your legs like you’ve made a bad habit of doing lately. fell apart under him as he made paintings with his tongue, naturally returning the favour with an eager hand.
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the front door clicks shut behind you. you toe off your shoes and toss your bag with no regard for noise, already mapping out what you want to do around the place before you’re not home alone anymore. you’re always coincidentally tired and not in the mood to talk the instant he comes home.
except, when you turn the corner into the kitchen, those thoughts hightail.
your fiancé sits at the dining table, hands clasped, sleeves rolled up neatly like he’s just come from work — or like he’s been waiting. no television murmuring in the background. no phone in hand, rather placed faced down on the table.
your pulse kicks, but you try to smile like you’re surprised. pleasantly, should be.
“didn’t expect you back so early.”
he gestures to the chair across from him. “sit.”
you don’t even attempt to protest.
he waits until you’re settled into your seat before he moves, sliding something across the table. a folded scrap of paper bumps your fingers.
your fiancé watches you with cool, unreadable eyes as you unfold it. and then, your heart’s beating in your throat.
eight digits in smudged ink stare back at you.
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the event (1) ❖ nanami kento
this part → part 2 (soon) | mdni! | the nile is a river in egypt 👍
summary: after struggling for so long with the feelings you had for nanami, your colleague and closest friend, you finally decide to put an end to your misery and confess to him. little did you know there was no misery left for you to wallow in that night — none at all. alternatively: nanami was a gentleman, but holy hell, given the context, there weren't many ways he could misunderstand the phrase "I want you".
tags: jujutsu kaisen, sorcerer!f!reader, colleagues in the field, 18+, alcohol, explicit! smut (oral f!receiving, piv, squirting), 1/3 plot 2/3 filth ratio, it’s romance guys, nanami x reader, reader is emotionally stunted, they're clearly in love, angst, fluff, hurt and comfort, basically a book chapter, no beta my inner demons proofread this.
wc: 8k
notes, etc.: if i have to rewrite this one more time i will commit a felony. inspo → just like you do (carly simon) and sonnet (the verve). saved by smooth operator (sade). the bit "love is something brave people do" is inspired by fleabag's last episode. appetizers for this fic are the shorties “would you let me die?” and “where does your mind drift”.
❖ collection of stories: "jujutsu partners au" → masterlist
this is big but very worth it, i promise.
Today, you were determined to finally utter those three words and put an end to your own personal brand of misery.
Ever since you and Nanami kind of discussed if getting involved would be a bad idea — he said it would, but you had your doubts — you just couldn't stop thinking about it. He knew you had feelings for him. Maybe. He mentioned that he believed you thought about him.
But the thing was… nothing was actually said. It was all implied. Implied into oblivion.
You two had been working together for a good while now, and you didn't fail to notice that, in the most recent encounters you've had, be it on missions or just having a drink at your favorite bar, your heart would involuntarily throb whenever you gazed at him for too long.
Not only that, but you were finally able to admit to yourself that your gratitude towards the sorcerer, who saved your life years ago, had become love. You were, without a shred of a doubt, in love with him, and the fact that he clearly stated that getting involved would be ill-advised — his words, not yours — was a special type of torture.
So be it — you were confessing your feelings for him today, at least to have a definitive answer. It would be better to get shot down than keep doing this little tip-toe dance around the unsaid. You just couldn't do this anymore.
Thing was… You were terrible with feelings. And words. And putting feelings into words. And also just feeling your feelings, in general.
So you decided to invite him to a bar — like you always did —, and chat the night away — again, like you always did — to try easing yourself into this conversation in a comfortable, known setting. Your drinks were downed until the middle of the night like you were filling up a Jeep tank, trying to fuel yourself with liquor-bought courage.
Eventually you slowed down, because certainly throwing up would be less than ideal. Better to be sober and chicken out than drunk and vomiting.
You were so in your own head, though, that you failed to realize Nanami was accompanying you in the "getting completely hammered" department until about a few hours prior, partially regaining his sobriety, with a lot of things swirling around in his own mind.
Mostly, he still thought about the non-conversation you both had about thinking of each other. More specifically, the fact that you inquired, right at the end, if it would really be such a bad idea.
Would it?
Could he dare to dream of a life beyond killing curses and hoping not to die every time he stepped his foot into a mission?
He wasn't sure about it anymore, and could feel his usual negative stance about getting romantically involved with someone while still being a jujutsu sorcerer wavering — an absolute first for him. He was hardly someone to be swayed on his stances in life.
But this time, just maybe, you were able to do that without even realizing.
He caught himself gazing at you more frequently than usual, and wondering what would be the texture of your flower-scented hair tangled in between his fingers.
Today, your hair smelled like jasmine flowers.
Unlike you, however, Nanami was unsure if he'd touch upon the subject that night, specifically, in case he ever decided to do so. He’d prefer to talk about it in an appropriate setting — dinner at a restaurant, maybe? No, you weren't someone who'd like that. Perhaps at a picnic, she does enjoy nature...
He tried shaking those thoughts away along with his feelings, but it didn’t work.
The conversation was very pleasant, and you two were reminiscing about his mission at your hometown where you both met years ago.
”Do you remember when I tried cooking breakfast? Oh, that was a good one,” you jested, chuckling.
Nanami nodded, resting the edge of his whiskey cup on his bottom lip.
“I’d say that was a terrible one. You nearly set your entire kitchen on fire trying to fry eggs,” he noted, letting a smile take over his lips.
You laughed in response.
”Yeah, you’re probably right. But at least you rescued me and made one of the best tamagoyaki I’ve ever eaten.”
He put his glass down on the counter, looking at you with those adoring, beautiful, brown honeyed eyes.
"One of?"
You chuckled, trying not to stare too much.
Good God, he's looking gorgeous tonight.
“Oh, come on. According to you, I can barely taste my food the way I eat, mixing everything up in my plate,” you joked, “I don’t have the same particular taste buds of yours.”
Nanami sighed, rolling his eyes at your teasing, taking a sip of his whiskey.
The ice had melted a little, and he felt the watery coat on the drink with displeasure, grimacing a little.
Somehow, Nanami failed to see the irony in that.
You noticed, and laughed a little before continuing.
"The other amazing tamagoyaki I had was when you rescued me from starving during my first week here. But I don't think I'd really regret burning Jujutsu High down, even if it was an accident."
Nanami shook his head lightly, the smile still on his face betraying his half-hearted chide.
Then, after the banter evaporated in the air, that moment finally came.
The absolute silence.
Arguably the perfect opportunity to say these types of things… So you began.
"Nanami, I…" words gagged. "I wanted to tell you something."
His body visibly tensed up a little, but he probably didn't realize it.
He knew, of course.
Nanami noticed all the recent instances you'd stare at him, and ever since pulling you in for a not-so innocent hug when you were both stranded on the road after a mission together, he felt dangerously close to crossing this boundary.
Nanami's words were easily controlled, always so neatly put together with mathematical precision to express his thoughts. However, ever since he crossed the line of physical contact beyond pure platonic affection, it had been difficult keeping his hands to himself.
Right now, he wanted to cup your face with his palms and brush his thumbs against your cheeks.
Perhaps even press his lips against you- stop that, you’re not a teenager anymore.
This comfort zone of avoiding the discussion about the feelings you both had for each other was becoming increasingly uncomfortable.
"What?"
You gulped, and took a few more sips of beer.
"I…"
Your voice got stuck in your throat.
Your syllable had stretched long enough for this to have become a little awkward.
"I wanted to thank you," you blurted out, more for your benefit than his.
Nanami was equal parts relieved, disappointed, and surprised.
Did he actually want you to tell him you had feelings for him?
"Thanks for welcoming me to Jujutsu High, for shepherding me all this time, and for being a reliable, good friend. I was ready to face hell here, but it was… much better than I had anticipated. So, thank you, Nanami."
He looked at you, and both held each other's gaze for a moment. His hazel brown eyes were always something that lured you in, and you surely enjoyed how he'd always remove his green shades to talk to you.
Seeing them felt strangely — and endearingly — intimate.
"You're welcome," he offered in a kind note.
"Last call!" the bartender stated loudly, as you and Nanami looked at each other, feeling somewhat disappointed that the night was about to be over.
Stepping outside after paying, you both realized it was raining — something neither had noticed from inside the bar.
With half a mind to do something, definitely inebriated, and still with a declaration stuck in your throat, you absentmindedly made a question to Nanami.
"Can I wait the rain out at your place?"
He did live close by, in any case.
For a second, you realized you were probably butting in his rest hours, and felt a little embarrassed.
"Yes," he replied immediately, also absentmindedly, before you could retreat your request.
***
It was actually the first time you ever visited his apartment, and it was interesting to see his place. To no one's surprise, Nanami's pristine apartment, with his collections of books and CD's — he still had an actual stereo CD player — felt as every bit put together as Nanami himself did.
His kitchen drawers alone were surely more organized than your income tax return.
You sat on the counter and had your drenched hair haphazardly covered with a blue towel as Nanami fixed something to eat for the both of you.
The smell of cooked rice and eggs filled the air, hugging your senses, as you watched, still halfway drunk, how he skillfully walked back and forth, being somewhat inebriated himself, making way more than instant noodles, your first choice after proposing you both ate something to ease the alcohol out.
You stared at his back while he cooked, trying to push the thought of telling him how you felt to the back of your mind, at least for a while, just so you could enjoy the following moments without the sensation of impending doom.
As he finished plating the food, you were nothing short of impressed — the man mustered up the skill to cook omurice while inebriated, a feat you couldn't do sober even in one of your best days.
"This is incredible, you're such a badass," you remarked as Nanami gave you a plate with a pair of chopsticks.
"It's a simple recipe," he replied, getting his own and taking a bite out of it as he leaned against the sink counter, facing you.
"Oh, it surely is,” you remarked, ironically.
You were getting ready to eat as Nanami interrupted you.
"Don't desecrate it," he chided, referencing the way you'd usually stir up your food on your plate until it became an unidentifiable goo before eating, "try to taste your food at least this once."
You chuckled a little, acquiescing.
"Okay. This is too beautiful to get vandalized, anyway."
Nanami huffed, the faintest ghost of a smile on his lips, before he took another bite.
"I am so going to regret this entire thing tomorrow," you stated, taking the first piece out of your plate, “I drank like a sailor.”
It was absolutely delicious, of course. It was Nanami's food, after all.
He swallowed before proceeding.
"Me too, most likely. I hadn't drunk this heavily since… ever."
"Hah, me neither."
You both resumed eating peacefully, partaking in a comfortable and cozy silence for the next few minutes. During that time, he looked at you without you noticing, and realized just how much he wanted this small sliver of peace — sharing a good meal with you in his kitchen after a remarkably pleasant night — to keep going for eternity.
You were looking so adorable with his blue towel over your drenched hair.
As you were finished, he took both plates and put them inside the sink, going back to his original position. Nanami had already removed his tie, his weapon holster and opened the top of his blue buttoned shirt by this point, both of his sleeves rolled up for him to cook.
It was becoming increasingly hard not to stare.
"Thank you, Nanami," you said, smiling at him.
"It's no trouble," he answered, softly smiling back at you.
His smile was much sweeter than usual, and it sent your heart throbbing against your chest.
The urge came again, to finally tell him.
However, when you actually spoke, something entirely unexpected came out of your mouth.
"Why did you come back to Jujutsu High after years of working a regular job?"
Nanami was surprised, to say the least, and pondered for a while before resuming his answer.
He had left the jujutsu world shortly after the mission where he met you and ‘failed you’ — that last part solely according to him — so, needless to say, this was a sensitive topic.
"Well, I had known the jujutsu world, and after entering the corporate one, I realized both were idiotic. So-"
"No, not that speech," you interjected, "I want to know exactly what happened for you to come back. I mean, when we ran into each other years ago, you seemed pretty resolute in trying your retired-by-40 and moving to Malaysia plan, and from what I gathered, not long after that, you just came back, out of nowhere."
Nanami was silent, because he remembered vividly what had transpired, and that you had something to do with it.
"Well," he began, "a few days after we had that conversation, I went into a bakery to buy breakfast. It was always the same person at the cash register, and she had a small fly head curse on her shoulders for a while. It began affecting her sleep, given her complaints. I had avoided doing something about it, but our conversation kept ringing in my head."
Nanami averted his gaze, as if remembering the moment in its details before proceeding.
"After I exorcised it, her shoulder pain subsided, and she thanked me. That was it."
You remembered well how you chided him, telling Nanami to go back into sorcery because the world of jujutsu needed people who truly cared, such as himself. You just didn’t think it would have such a direct connection to the reasons he came back.
"So... you realized the importance of the job we do?" you inquired, with a half-smile pulled on your cheek.
He sighed. "Something like that."
"Oh, Mr. Nanami 'I'm just doing my job' Kento... you have finally understood that meaning is something relevant to you, it seems," you remarked, light-spirited.
He smiled, looking the other way, somewhat appreciating the fact that he had just been read like a book by you.
"But... don't say I had something to do with you coming back," you stated, "I might feel responsible if something happens to you."
Even as a joke, this snapped at your heart a little. The mere thought of losing him felt terrifying.
Nanami sighed, smile vanishing, looking back at you.
"You always see things from a perspective of assigning responsibility and guilt... It is a perspective that usually warrants unnecessary suffering."
You scoffed, still wearing your mid-smirk on your face.
"Oh, and looking at everything from a protective perspective is any different? I mean, both boil down to us thinking we're responsible for other people's fates."
He was slightly taken aback, before smiling discreetly and crossing his arms in front of his chest.
"I guess you're right."
Nanami looked at you, and seemed to be staring at your cheek. Under the dim light from the stove hood, you could make out the contours of his face — his sharp jaw, his chiseled cheekbones, and his now exposed forearms with taut, sculpted muscles, right under the rolled up sleeves of his blue shirt.
If pupil dilation could be felt, you would have definitely felt it at that moment.
The urge came up again, but by this point, you were already feeling defeated enough at your pathetic inability of confessing your feelings, so you just let your mouth roll with whatever came out of it.
"I really admire you, Nanami."
You surprised even yourself.
His eyes then met yours.
"Do you?"
Pondering on your words, you nodded, thinking a little about it.
"You're such a calm, collected and responsible person. You seem to always know exactly what you're doing, meanwhile I'm usually just guessing around. No wonder Ino and Yuuji look up to you."
Even under the soft lighting, you could swear you saw Nanami's face blush a little.
"Thank you," he stated, bowing his head slightly towards your direction.
You smiled at him and sighed right after.
"Most times, I don't think I'm someone people would call admirable or actually look up to."
This was something you hadn't anticipated you'd say. You had never told that to anyone.
But, well, this was him. This was Nanami.
"Why do you say that?" he inquired in earnest.
"Because... Because I'm often hanging by a thread, just trying to survive. I'm not doing great things. I'm barely existing, sometimes."
He mulled his thoughts over for a second before answering you.
"You have a good capacity for adapting, taking whatever life hands you and doing the best you can with it," he noted, "and you keep going even if you feel like you're guessing. Even when you don't know where you're going. That takes bravery, and I find it to be admirable."
Now you were the one surprised, and you could feel your entire face burning the moment he finished uttering those words. You were never one to take compliments easily, but this was a whole other level.
You stood there, mouth slightly agape, faltering without any words.
His eyes had returned to your cheek, and in a swift movement, you heard him say excuse me as he stepped into your direction, rubbing his thumb on it to take off some food you hadn't realized that was still stuck on your face.
Nanami barely registered that the thoughts looping around his mind the entire night about touching you had finally taken the best of him.
Before he could remove his hand, though, you held it in place, lifting your eyes to meet him.
His palm felt warm against your skin, his digits rough, and perfect. Just like he was.
Nanami's expression was unreadable as he gazed back at you, and you began hearing your heartbeats against your ears, muffling the sound of the tapping rain on the window.
Words failed him too, and he was guided by his body once again.
Nanami lowered his face and softly pressed his lips over yours, still tasting like whiskey and Demi-glace, which sent waves — that you couldn't quite discern if were hot or cold, perhaps both — all throughout your body.
It was a quick kiss, though, because shortly after, Nanami backed out, still with his eyes closed, and had something resembling a frown on his face.
"I apologize, that was inappropriate," he mumbled, beginning to pull his hand out from your cheek. You, however, held it in place, and that got him to open his eyes and look at you.
He seemed taken by trepidation under his usual collected demeanor, and his lower lip had the slightest twitch to it as his eyes flickered quickly between your mouth and your eyes.
For a moment, you felt like you were looking into the eyes of the Nanami you once knew — the bangs, the uniform, the seventeen-year-old version of him.
Little did you know that your corresponding younger version was looking right back at him with the same bated breath, just like the teens-becoming-adults in the most traumatic ways you two once were.
"Stop apologizing and kiss me," you pleaded, edging your face closer to his, pulling his towel off your head.
You could feel his breath exhaling against your skin, as Nanami approached his body to yours, putting himself in between your knees, and cupped your face in his hands. His body was incredibly warm, just like his hand, and his woody, musky scent sent your senses spiraling when he finally descended his lips to yours, determined on taking his time — after all, this was a kiss ten years in the making.
His mouth felt velvety and supple, and you both melted into each other while exploring the way his head tilted against yours, how your nails would eventually find their way up the nape of his neck, how your breath would hitch every time he pressed his mouth against yours more intently. Your lips slid wetly over each other with a newfound ease none of you expected.
You were both dipping your toes in the ocean and testing the temperature before committing to dive into deeper waters, taking all the time into familiarizing with the feeling of each other's bodies.
Nanami's hands descended to your waist, leaving a trail of heat on the way, and you let out a soft moan into his mouth when he pressed them against you. He groaned lowly, a sound reverberating from the depths of his chest, as he parted his lips from yours and put some distance in between your faces with his eyes closed.
You didn't understand, but before you could ask anything, he began speaking.
"I don't mean to assume," he stated, letting his forehead rest on yours.
"Hm... What do you mean?"
"I... What I mean is we can stop, in case you don’t... We're both still somewhat under the influence. You are," Nanami replied, opening his eyes to look into yours. The faltering restraint dwelling in them was palpable.
In the back of your mind, you wondered if there was any way of loving him more than you already did. Even now, he was so mindful and careful with you.
"I want this," you replied, resolute, "I want you. I've wanted it all for a very long time. It's not a drunken decision, I mean it."
His gaze softened in a way you had never seen before, one of his hands ascending to brush his thumb over your cheek. Nanami snuggled his nose against yours and sighed, seemingly fluttering.
"Are you sure?"
"Yes. I'm sure. I want you," you repeated, incisively.
He let out a huff of air against your mouth, and you could smell his breath, mingled with the scent emanating from him and his clothes. Intoxicating wasn't a strong enough word — you were completely enthralled, entranced and overwhelmed by him. Every sound got muted, but the sound of his breathing. Every smell disappeared, but his. And there was no other temperature in the room other than the warmth of his body.
You had entered tunnel vision mode, and at the end of it, he was your light.
Closing the remaining inches that separated the both of you, he brushed his lips against yours, whispering, "then have me. Have all of me."
Still cupping the side of your face, Nanami tilted it, finally fitting your lips against his again, like lovely little puzzle pieces getting more and more accustomed to each other by the second. He felt around your contours, pressing the tip of his tongue softly over the seam of your mouth, and you warmly welcomed him in, his true taste lingering just under the drinks and sauces being enough to knock the air out of your lungs.
He was salty, fresh, and a breeze of cool air by the seashore.
There were a few times you wondered what he'd be like, but your fantasies were quick to pale in comparison to the reality of him.
Nanami’s broken restraint was completely done for, and just this once, he wanted to let it come tumbling down like a house of cards, as he parted to gaze at your disheveled hair, your flustered face, your slightly puffy lips.
His chest swelled full and content at that sight.
He met you once again, and the ruffling from the fall was sounding better than he could have ever hoped for, insistent heart beat pushing against his ears, encompassing your breathless kissing like a sonnet.
Nanami's hands, however, didn't dare explore beyond your waist, and all this intense make out session was starting to make your panties feel uncomfortable against your pooling arousal. You were starting to feel antsy, and your body was nearly twitching at the aching desire. You needed some kind of relief, or you'd go insane.
Nanami was a gentleman, but holy hell, given the context, there weren't many ways he could misunderstand the phrase I want you.
You put your hands over his and slip them down to cup your ass, parting from his lips for a moment.
"Stop keeping your hands to yourself. Touch me," you pleaded, with some type of simmering desperation to your voice that you hadn't yet heard — never, actually.
He looked at you, and seemed equally desperate in an unfathomable way. He pulled you in, kneading his fingers fiercely against your skin while moaning into your mouth, and pressed your bodies hard enough for you to feel him pulsating through multiple layers of fabric.
Oh, my.
You knew he was strong, but this was something else.
Instinctively, you wrapped your legs around his hips, and drew the tips of your fingernails down his back, while grinding over his growing erection with your clothed core. Nanami let out a muffled groan on your skin and began kissing your neck intently with messy, open-mouthed kisses.
He put his hands under your thighs and whispered in your ear, "hold on to me."
That caught your attention from your hazy brain.
"I... My hair is still wet. My clothes are a little damp, too. I'm kind of a mess right now," you told him, chuckling sheepishly.
This man's apartment was the most immaculate place you had ever been in your life, and the last thing you wanted to do was to dirty it around with dripping water from the rain. In his bed, of all places.
Nanami immediately pulled himself back and held your face, locking eyes with you.
"You are beautiful right now," he remarked, not giving you enough time for an answer, as he pressed another kiss on your lips — this time, more urgent, a little sloppy, but just as passionate, if not more. You gasped into his mouth, letting your body take control.
In an instant, your arms were draped over his shoulders, your legs tightened firmly around his body, and his strong hands held the back of your thighs, as Nanami lifted you from that counter like you weighed nothing.
You squeaked in surprise, and he uttered a soft, deep chuckle before planting a quick peck on your lips.
After walking you both into his room, he calmly descended towards the mattress, laying you down delicately and climbing his way on top of you.
When he approached his face to yours, you smiled at him, and he smiled back, sharing a tender moment of silent closeness.
This was probably your favorite shared quietude yet.
“I should get out of these wet clothes,” you stated, giggling softly, before tugging your shirt over your head.
He huffed a soft smiling hum in return, as his palms found their way towards the sides of your hips. Their warmth clashed a stark contrast against your still dampened, cold skin, and his touch was electric, making you involuntarily sigh.
"Help me take these pants off," you cooed, relaxing your legs around his body.
Nanami didn’t need to be told twice, and swiftly slid his hands down to unzip you and pull your damp pants off while you unclasped your bra.
After he was done, his eyes lingered over the drenched patch on your underwear, a realization that definitely riled him up, as his breath got caught midway out his nostrils for a second.
Nanami’s fingers swirled around your bra straps, but before he removed it, you began unbuttoning his shirt, finishing off unclenching his belt and unzipping his pants.
"It would be unfair for me to be the only one exposed here," you remarked, light spirited, while smiling tenderly at him.
He smiled back very much the same way, and pulled his shirt off, downing his pants, letting it all become a wrinkled puddle on the floor. Nanami caged you in between his arms, and pressed a quick kiss on your lips, asking, "do you ever stop?"
"Why don't you try to find out?" you slyly replied.
Nanami wasn't usually one to appreciate being teased. This was especially true when it came to Gojo annoying the hell out of him, and he could — and would — also get annoyed at your snarky teasing from time to time.
But it felt different with you. He wasn't nearly as irritated as he would've been with anybody else.
Perhaps because you teased him with love.
Your hands pulled your bra off and tossed it aside, and for some seconds, he was speechless, contouring his eyes all over your body. With butterflies on his chest, he finally cupped your face in his hands again before kissing you once more, and you couldn’t help but notice he really liked holding you like that when he kissed you — and you'd let him, every time he wanted to.
It was lovely to be held so preciously under such an adoring touch.
Letting go of your lips, Nanami began planting kisses under your jaw, descending towards your neck, and nesting his face in between your breasts, inhaling your scent with his face laid over your skin. With your encouraging hand tangling in his hair, he began kissing and licking his way around, kneading on your breasts with his palms. Your hips instantly bucked up against him, at the same time you let out a needy moan.
He noticed it, very pleased, and gave you the tiny mercy of removing your panties.
Still with his mouth plastered on your skin, Nanami descended one hand towards your folds, and groaned the second his fingers touched over your wetness, cock twitching inside his underwear.
You were drenched.
He sounded so satisfied, you couldn’t help but blush a little in between your moans and mewls, wanting to brat out just a little.
“Hah-- I did say- a-ah… that I wanted you,” you half jested, trying to fend off your fleeting embarrassment, “w-what did you… hah-- expect?”
He stopped briefly, and lifted his face to look at you, sighing with his classic I could be eye rolling at you right now expression.
You smiled mischievously, fully aware he noticed the teasing.
Nanami brushed his fingers above your clit softly, not breaking eye contact, and you thrust your hips up again, mewling mindlessly. Huffing, you tried saying something, but he pressed his fingers a little more intently, having your words turn into incoherent moaning tumbling down past your lips.
At that moment, you just knew…
You stood defeated.
“Finally, you relentless little devil,” he mumbled, kissing his way down your body, as you huffed a few chuckles in between your pleasured sounds.
If he was so hellbent on shutting down your antics like that, you’d probably try to keep them going all night long. Perhaps you could even break his composure completely.
The idea was enticing.
However, he was the one about to break you apart completely, as you realized when his wet, hot tongue got seared-flat against your clit, and stroked on your glistened folds with the ravenous dedication of a starving man.
Nanami was delighted to have finally shut down your quick-wit tease mouth completely, especially like this.
In the back of his mind, he realized he’d gladly do it every time you got on his nerves.
Being a pretty tactile person, with heightened senses overall, Nanami was sure that tasting you would feel amazing, but this was otherworldly.
Completely enthralled, he began dipping his tongue inside you to drink you in, having your walls clenching immediately around it.
The sounds you made — your moaning and begging, as your thighs rubbed against his cheeks and fingers tugged on his hair — would be etched in his brain for eternity, he was sure of it.
The moment his hands pressed harder on your thighs, pulling them against his shoulders, and you let out a mixture of a squeal and a moan, something inside him snapped, sending his mouth into a feral quest against your cunt.
Groaning and panting into you, he lapped relentlessly on your folds, nuzzling your clit so intently it nearly sent you crawling over the walls. Your vision was white, starry, black, and then white again, and you wondered for a minute if this was all pleasure or if the light of the room was actually flickering.
Mouth agape, your moans bounced off the walls, and your back arched desperately, while your entire body tightened with the tell-tale signs of an intense orgasm. Your toes were curling, your ears were ringing, and your face contorted in desperate need for release.
“D-don’t stop- don’t… Hah-- I-m… I-I… Hah---!“
Upon hearing your pleas, Nanami latched his lips on your clit and sucked on it so powerfully you didn’t get tipped over the edge, but was effectively thrown from it with no parachute or lifeline.
Your entire body tensed and jolted. You came with a desperate cry, tightening your grip on his hair with bruising force. He let out a loud moan, trying to hold himself together as you fell apart on his mouth, and started to lick you softly to wean you off your high.
For a few seconds, your entire body stopped answering any voluntary movement signals from your brain, and you could’ve sworn you forgot your name.
You were sent to heaven and returned unscathed.
Coming back to Earth, your grip on him loosened, and Nanami brought his mouth up to one of your thighs, pressing gentle kisses over it.
When your vision wasn’t all abstract colors anymore, you looked down to see Nanami with hooded eyes, resting his chin over your mound, gazing at you like you were the most beautiful creature in existence.
Given what had just transpired, you found it to be incredibly absurd that this — him gazing at you — was what had you blushing violently.
But here you were, hiding your face under the back of your hand, as you chuckled sheepishly solely from the way he looked at you.
This beautiful, adoring man.
The urge to tell him how much you loved him came back, but even like this, so unclad and vulnerable, it was incredibly hard.
Nanami was barely blinking, wondering how he had allowed — or better, forced — himself to live without this, without you, for so long.
“I’m starting to feel embarrassed,” you said, equal parts joking and genuine, as you finally managed to meet his glance again.
He blinked a few times, being pulled from his thoughts, whispering a half-hearted apology as he crawled his way back to you.
His hair was a mess, his lips were rosy and puffy, and his eyes…
His eyes.
Trying to keep yourself from becoming a fluttering chaos all over again, you shook your head lightly as you resumed speaking.
“There’s nothing to apologize for,” you cooed, sliding your fingers down his face, pressing your lips to his. Nanami pushed his tongue inside your mouth, and you moaned in response, tasting your essence mixed in with his own flavor.
God, you could kiss him and taste this for hours on end.
His mouth and tongue flowed and veered softly, with no rush other than to imprint your flavor in him. Nanami clearly was a kisser — a very good one —, and was delighted to keep exploring you like that for as long as you’d let him.
Suddenly, you had a little wicked idea creeping up on you, as you made some effort to finally part your lips from his and uttered, “you know what, I’m sorry.”
Nanami was puzzled.
“What do you m-“
With your strength back, you locked your legs on the sides of Nanami’s waist and rolled his body over, landing on top of him.
His breath was caught for a moment before he smiled at you. Smiling back, you straddled yourself back, diving your fingers on the edges of his boxers to slide them down.
Nanami helped you by raising his body, and the moment you removed the piece of clothing, his cock sprang out, bearing a flushed, bulbous, red tip that mutely slapped against his belly. It was bigger than you anticipated, thicker too, and you wondered if you could fit it all in your mouth.
Probably not.
You also didn’t fail to notice the very evident damp patch on his underwear from his pre-cum alone.
He must be desperate right now, you thought to yourself, enticingly amused.
However, the moment you were about to wrap your fingers around him and descend, Nanami held your hand and sat up. He seemed slightly… Embarrassed?
“Hm… what is it?” you asked, pressing against his hand.
He cleared his throat.
“I’m… very wound up. Could we…” Nanami mumbled, words dying on their way out.
Truth was, ever since the moment you were grinding your clothed cunt against him, his mind was boiling to the thought of burying himself inside you to the hilt.
There was no sugar-coating it.
“Oh…” you let out, “so… you want me too?” you asked, a hint of amusement to your voice.
You weren’t the only one needy tonight.
He sighed from the depths of his soul.
“Stop teasing.”
His voice came out raspy, more of a plea than an actual chide.
The man was crumbling down, and it was delightful to watch The Nanami Kento, always so unflappable, falling apart like this.
You chuckled and planted a quick kiss on his lips.
“I’m sorry,” you offered in earnest.
He exhaled gently, gaze towards you softening as he did.
You blushed a little before proceeding.
“Where is the…”
“First drawer.”
Everything happened quickly. You snatched the condom from his nightstand and opened it. Nanami took it from your hands and slid it down his length. A soft sigh escaped his lips as the rubber snapped at the end.
Softly crawling your way towards him, you put both hands on his shoulders to straddle on his lap. Nanami locked his gaze on you, not breaking eye contact even for a second, right up until you both finally kissed again.
His hands began making their way down your back, and then…
You felt it.
The tip of Nanami’s fingers pressed against the scar you had right over your spine, and you gasped in pain as it hit the bundle of tangled nerves bumping over your skin. You instantly backed your face away with an aching grimace.
Nanami had witnessed how you got that scar in the fateful mission in which you two met years ago.
The sound of the blade piercing through your skin and flesh still lingered on in his nightmares.
His hand retreated so quickly you barely felt it leaving your body.
Following the aftershock, you opened your eyes to see him with his own eyes sealed shut, and Nanami appeared to be crawling his way back into his mind. His expression, usually so calm and collected, was replaced by a pained frown of his brows.
“I apologize, I… I’m…” he muttered, and you realized this wasn’t an apology for what just happened.
He still blamed himself for what had taken place then.
It broke your heart to shambles to see him like that, knowing full well nothing that transpired that night was his fault.
You cupped his jaw in your palms, and pressed your forehead to his.
"Hey, stop it. Stop apologizing, you haven't failed me. You never failed me."
Nanami's eyes were still very much sealed, and he seemed to be pulling even further away from you as the memories swirled around in his mind.
"Please, look at me," you pleaded, nuzzling against his face.
After a sigh, he answered, "I… I can't."
And he truly couldn't, still feeling the shame eating away at his chest like a parasite.
You scrambled your mind after something that might help, and finally realized the only thing you could say to pull him back.
Shit.
You were still terrified, and your entire body tensed up.
This is it. Now. I have to tell him now.
According to Nanami, you were brave.
And love, apparently, is something brave people do.
Still cupping his jaw, you sighed before letting the words come out of your mouth.
"Nanami Kento, I love you."
Your voice didn’t falter or stutter. Your declaration smoothly left your lips as naturally as breathing — the same way loving him came to you.
His breath caught halfway out, and he finally opened his eyes, soft and bare, gazing into yours.
"I love you, I have loved you for so long, I…" you repeated, sighing greatly, "I love you."
Nanami opened his mouth, but for a second, nothing — not even a huff of air — would pass. Knotting away in his throat, the words also struggled to form.
Should he? Could he? How deep in trouble would this launch the both of you?
Surpassing his worries, eventually, the words finally came out.
"I love you too."
The guilt and trauma had taken a backseat in his mind, at least for now.
When you heard Nanami’s words — heard him say that he loved you too —, your heart immediately began fluttering, and you could've sworn there was a ringing sound around the both of you.
There wasn't, though, just as much as the honeyed dewy warm rain that prickled over your entire skin was a manifestation of your love ridden excited imagination.
Smiling, you pulled him in for a kiss, and he intently pressed his lips against yours, no exploration left to be done — your tongues, by this point of the night, had met and familiarized themselves with every inch of each other's mouths, breaths, and moans.
Mindlessly, his hands plastered themselves back into your body, and brushed up from your hips, to your waist, over your back all the way to your shoulder blades.
Nanami brought you even closer, and kept kneading his hands against you, almost as if he was trying to touch your entirety all at once.
His fingertips ghosted softly around your scar accidentally again, and your breath hitched for a second. You pulled your mouth from his, just long enough to say, "lay me down."
Nanami understood it, and acquiesced. Swiftly, he supported you from your shoulders and hips, laying you down like a porcelain treasure, and caged you in with one hand to each side of your head.
You both took a few moments to admire each other.
Nanami was a tall and broad man, but from underneath, he seemed even more mountainous. His angular face, his wide shoulders and muscular arms, everything about him was just grand.
In a second, though, interrupting your gazing, his hand pulled a pillow from the top of the bed, and he gently lifted your head to put it underneath.
That was it.
In the end, you knew that his kindness, just as grand as he was, was what stole your heart.
Nanami slowly descended over you, and supported himself with his forearm to the side of your head, using his free hand to part the slightly sweaty hair on your forehead and press a fleeting, soft kiss in between your brows. Your heart skipped a beat, and his mouth came down pecking at your face in the most delicate fashion, until it rested on one of your cheeks.
You guided your hand down and positioned his tip towards your entrance, noticing Nanami shuddering with the sensation of your fingers clasping around him. His hand got down to the side of your hip, and Nanami let out a soft huff as he began to slowly push his length inside. He could feel himself gliding along your slick folds, and scrunched his eyes shut as the tip got past the resistance of your ring, eyelashes brushing over your skin with a feathery lingerance.
To say he was savoring this down to the last infinitesimal tactile sensation would be a gross understatement.
You dragged the tips of your fingers down the muscles of his abdomen, seeing how he deliciously flexed himself inside you, as you savored this in your own way too.
Sinking inch by inch, you could feel all the muscle stretches while his girth accommodated inside your walls, widening and filling you as he slipped in further. Your mouth opened in a muted moan, and with a hazy mind, you turned your face towards his, having the tip of his nose brushing over until your noses bumped against each other.
You captured his lips haphazardly, and Nanami stroked his tongue over your mouth, groaning the moment he bottomed out inside you.
You felt him almost kissing your cervix with the tip of his cock, and your mind was sent spiraling with the shivers that shot up from your lower abdomen to your entire body. It got you fluttering around his shaft, and Nanami's grip on your hip suddenly tightened, as a strained groan fell from his lips.
It took you a second to realize exactly what was going on.
"I-I… need… a second,” he mustered up to say in a cracked, coarse voice. His length was throbbing strongly inside you, and his expression looked almost pained. You noticed his fist beside your head was strongly clenched around the bedsheet.
Nanami wasn't lying when he said he was very wound up.
You planted a small, loving peck over his cheek and drew your hands to the back of his head, gently brushing your thumbs against his hair until you felt Nanami’s body relaxing, and his pulse inside you evening out to something calmer. He eventually let go of the bedsheet and drew his hand closer, tangling his fingers in your hair.
In an easy, gradual pace, Nanami began dragging his length out from you, and did so completely, pushing back inside the same way, robbing you of a gasp the moment he bottomed out again. His hips began in a steady, calm rhythm, and from your mouth, came out what he could only say were the best sounds he had ever heard.
“Fuck-- y-you feel… so good…” you purred for him, sending pleasured shivers all over his body. You were both completely covered in sweat right now, and your bodies slapped against each other, sounds only covered by your begging whimpers.
However, as good as it was, you needed more. Greedily, you felt the increasing need of being completely taken apart, and this slow love making was not doing it for you.
“Harder…” you pleaded, and Nanami picked up the pace as soon as he heard you, thrusts becoming more intense. It was better, no doubt about it, but you still wanted more.
Your hungry desire had become something indescribable, and all you could do was mumble softly in between mewls, pleading him to go even harder.
Nanami was also feeling himself grow more and more intent on satisfying your pleas, and realized this might not be the best position to do so.
He stopped for a second, and you muttered in complaint.
However, your disquiet was short-lived, as he propped himself up, manhandling your hips to accompany him and pulled one of your legs straight, letting your ankle rest on his shoulder, supporting your leg with his arm's length and hand cupping your ass. Your other leg kept hooked around him, and this shift sent his cock even deeper.
“Harder?” Nanami asked, almost as a dare, with his disheveled hair falling over his forehead, a few golden strands tangling with sweat. There was something remotely playful in his eyes, and it sent your heart pounding inside your chest to see him in a way you had never seen before.
Oh, how you coveted to freeze this moment in time.
In answer to his question, you nodded, half-lidded eyes and an anticipation smile, only to be surprised with a thumb making its way to your bottom lip, softly asking its way in.
You obliged, and put your lips around it, sucking on his thumb, basking in the view of this boulder of a man completely shuddering to the sight and sensation of that.
Nanami pulled his hand back, resting his digit over your clit.
“Hold on to something, darling” he warned, having a cheeky smile pulling on his face.
In sweet anticipation, you pressed your hands against the wall on which the bed rested, and locked eyes with Nanami, just to see him admiring you for a moment before he made a complete mess out of you.
In a sharp motion, he thrust his cock into you so intensely his tip bumped fully against your cervix, trembling the bed on its foundations. Your head launched on the pillow, your mouth falling open to let out the loudest moan — if that sound even be called a moan — you had ever uttered in your entire life.
Not sparing you a moment to recover, he retreated and plunged again and again inside your cunt, sending wet plap sounds bouncing over the walls. Nanami began rutting into you, kissing you deeper and deeper with every thrust, and you were nearly yelling from the pleasurable pain with which he had you finally crumbling down.
“Fuck,” he let out, “is this-- hah- hard enough--?” Nanami asked half in jest, knowing full well he didn’t need an answer. The way your back began arching so deliciously as you yelled and mumbled incoherently was enough of a response.
Every time he’d thrust, your body would tense up, and your walls would suck him in. It was sending his mind into a wild spiral.
Nanami was mesmerized by your face, and had the faintest feeling that he might cum from it alone. You looked and sounded like you were having the most delicious, toe-curling, gut-wrenching, blissful-stupor inducing sex of your life.
And well, up until at that moment, you actually were.
Dear God, he could die right now, and he’d die the happiest man alive.
You were having shock waves of stupor-filled pleasure shooting through your body, and Nanami began circling his thumb over your throbbing, sensitive clit. Oh boy, did he have you seeing the entire Milky Way in a split second behind your eyelids. Your mind distantly registered the noise of dragging wood and your fingers starting to struggle reaching support behind your head.
Is the bed pushing away from the wall? Are we literally rocking the bed? Holy shit.
A heat you rarely felt began to burn like incandescent molten lava in your belly, and you looked at him wide eyed, holding out onto some kind of desperation.
Nanami barely registered that you were looking at him like that when he felt the warm spurts, getting his entire crotch completely greased. You squirted so intensely that for a second you felt like you actually fell unconscious, before coming back to the second wave — the continuum of earth-shattering, convulsing orgasms that always followed it.
He wasn’t ready to have you squirt all over his cock so fervently, letting out the most heavenly, luscious, indecent and pornographic sounds he had ever heard.
He could never be prepared for that.
The sheer scent alone sent shivers throughout his entire body. Your scent was completely smeared over him, slowly dripping down his thighs.
With your walls tightening around his cock, his own peak took him by surprise, as much as he had tried to hold it away. The most animalistic and ferocious groan came out of his mouth as thick strands of white cum filled up the condom. Nanami's entire body jerked, making it incredibly difficult to keep pumping himself into you without risking pulling out too much by mistake, so he just let the convulsing waves finish washing down his body before collapsing on the bed by your side.
You both took a moment to breathe, then two, then three, still panting like you had just run a marathon.
Hell, you were probably panting even harder than that.
"I'm… I’m s-sorry about… the mess," you apologized, huffing and puffing, face blushing as you rolled your eyes back, still recovering from the aftershock.
Nanami instantly turned your face to his, mouth agape and gaze locked onto your lips, as he, without uttering a word, thrust his tongue inside your mouth in an open-mouthed, wet, sloppy kiss. All while still panting heavily.
Pulling back, you smiled, asking, “nothing to apologize for?”
He huffed, smiling back at you, “nothing.”
You both felt like you'd have the best night of sleep of your lives.
Nanami would not, however, as the thoughts he shoved away to the back of his mind earlier that night were about to take him into unwanted nightmares.

End notes:
I can’t reread this again. I just can’t. Hope I got all the typos out, lol. Old version of this fic is here. When I read it a few weeks ago, I came to the conclusion that I didn’t quite like it, so I decided to give it a go on rewriting it. Three rewrites later, here it is, hope you guys enjoyed it.
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Childhood Friends
cw: childhoodfriend!sabo, creampies, college au, p in v, smut, squirting, dubcon/noncon?, public, thigh riding, eating that kitty, orgasm denial, overstimulation, and choking (i'm sure i'm missing some just tell me)
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it started when y'all were at a college party. being harassed by weird men who were drinking and joking about getting laid all night.
sabo actually saved you from being brought up but of course, he was punched and it just turned into a whole thing... anyways, bringing him up to a room that the host told you there was a first-aid kit located in. walking into the bathroom, digging around and when you found it, you mumbled a quiet 'ah-ha!'
walking back into the room, making sabo come back into your vision. he watched the sway of your hips, touching his own bruised face to distract himself.
sitting down and saying "stop touching it," grabbing his wrist and moving his hand down onto your thigh without thinking. as you lectured him, his eyes continued to travel down to the hand on your thigh...
and now? his face was between those thighs, licking up between those wet folds.
"oh, god, sabo-" running your fingers through his hair and tugging at it. before you could close your thighs around him, those strong hands clutched them from behind. nipping at the sensitive bud, looking up with lidded eyes "enough, as much as i love these thighs i don't want to die between them tonight." a breathless laugh escaped your chest, looking up with a pant as his hands ran between your thighs. both of his thumbs held your folds open as he shoved his tongue deep inside your aching hole.
shutting your eyes, "holy-... fuck!" arching your back. sabo chuckled and looked up at you, running one of his thumbs to your clit, rubbing it with the bud of his thumb.
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it also happened in the library, after three weeks.
in the back, behind bookshelves and eyesight... not even asking you if you were okay with this. y'all studying for a test coming up. of course, the small glances he gave those little shorts made him hard. after a million minutes, he pulled you onto his lap, spreading your legs with his hand on your knees. saying in a husky voice "i need you so bad."
ending up on his thigh, panties under the brown table along with your shorts, running your bare, wet pussy against his jeans as he held those hips, making you press down on him.
"shh, shh, we need to be quiet angel..." whining and leaning your face into his neck, shaking your head. "i-i can't, sabo, i can't." he's denied your orgasm four times already, four! looking at your pathetic state, he scoffed "nasty slut." taking one of his hands off your hip and into your hair, pulling to make you look into his eyes. "so beautiful..." it confused you but for now, that thought will be talked about later. he flexed his muscle that pushed against your clit.
covering your mouth, eyes widening, "let me come... oh please, sabo." tears began to bridge your eyes, making your lashes turn dark from the tears.
chuckling, the hand in your hair slowly traveled down... your cheek, jawline and to your neck as he slowly tightened his grip. "wanna come all over my thigh?" nodding quickly. sabo let out a sadistic laugh, "okay." bringing you into a deep kiss where his tongue pushed past those lips and explored your mouth.
bouncing his leg, making a sudden moan escaped your lips into his mouth. that gave you a signal to start rolling yours hips to push yourself to an orgasm... tapping his shoulder quickly, shaking your head in the kiss.
finally, after the stimulation on your clit you squirted on his jeans. eyes blown wide and body stuttering.
sabo groaned and pulled away from the kiss, looking down at his bulge. he clearly had a perfect circle from his precum, his jeans making it hard to control.
"perfectly done angel."
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now we're in the present... two months after messing around.
you have finally decided to confront sabo. y'all have always been best friends, since kindergarten, you've watched him run around with ice cream all over his face... now you're watching him finish all over your chest, finishing down your throat, choke you, and call you all these sweets names.
"sabo, you aren't taking this seriously!" crossing your arms, plopping down next to him on his dorm couch. sabo chuckled, "sorry, sorry!" glaring at him as he continued "i don't know what you want me to say..." there was a moment of silence. don't know what to say? don't know what to say?! "sabo, you always know what to say, so stop using that excuse for the hundredth tim-"
yelping as he grabbed your throat and yanked you towards his face. "angel, has anyone ever told you that you talk too much?" yes, you have... you thought. searching his eyes for something and mumbling "no." "well you do." there was a silent conversation between the look y'all gave each other.
"you never tell me to stop, so do you want me?" raising an eyebrow, looking around but gasping when his grip tightened. "you don't leave room for me to say no..."
sabo never faltered but you saw it... you felt it. the way his eyebrow knits, his hand softening, lips twitching. then, he straightened up, "you asked me what i want?" slowly laying you down, getting between your legs, setting them on his hips, keeping your arms on the armrest on the couch. whispering a 'yes' as his hands slid under your shirt, nipping at your neck "i want to be your boyfriend." eye widening when he leaned up to look into your eyes. his hands continued to feel you up. since you had stayed the night you were just in a shirt and some pajama pants.
"i want to take you out on dates," using his thumbs to take your shirt off. "i wanna say that i love you when you're throwing up in the toilet after drinking too much." both of you let out a breathy laugh. his face right above yours, looking into your eyes with something you can't quite name. "would you like that?"
it was silent... awaiting your answer.
lifting your head slightly to kiss his lips, "i'd love that." he smiled and mumbled something before kissing down your neck and to those two perky nipples, kissing the left before biting it. arching your back and gasping when his other hand gripped your right boob, twirling the hard nipple between his thumb and index finger. after abusing those nipples he kissed back up, slowly, to your lips saying "ima fuck you now."
humming as he worked your pants down, tossing them to the side where your shirt laid. face pink, mumbling "can you take your clothes off now?" sabo chuckled and said, "as many times as we've done this you still get embarrassed." pursing your lips as he laughed, taking his shirt off to expose hard earned abs. gulping as he then started to slide his pants off, leaving just his boxers... his hard dick pressed against them, his pre making a small spot. drool formed in your mouth as you could already feel the veins inside of your aching hole.
"turn around, lemme see that wet pussy." whining and taking your aching arms to held you turn. laying your boobs on the arm of the couch, arching your back up to expose your pussy which was glistening from slick. a deep growl from the back of his throat made you shiver. taking his middle finger and running between your folds.
and without warning he shoved his middle and ring finger deep inside, already using his expertise to ring out moans from your lips.
sabo rubbed his dick, moaning as well as liquid began to roll down his fingers then off of his wrist. "so soaked... love it so much, angel." rocking your hips back which told him to start taking off his boxers.
after they were off, he took his leaking tip and rubbing it between your soaked folds. sabo mumbled, "im going to fuck you raw you're going to take all of it, yeah?" nodding, not even caring about the risks just rolling your hips, "c'monnn... please sabo."
"hungry cock slut." pushing himself inside slowly... once he was halfway inside, he reached up and grabbed your neck. moaning as he pulled your head up by the neck, forcing himself all the way inside, making you look him in the eyes from upside down. "so easy to fold... open up." not even thinking twice, opening your mouth, lolling out your pink tongue. sabo groaned as he spit inside of your mouth.
once you swallowed it, he watched you open your mouth to show him that you did. "such a good girl, angel."
gripping your neck hard and starting a rough pace. the only thing he wished to hear was your moans and pleas for more and that's exactly what he got. "please, sabo... fuck me harder!" chuckling and slowly taking his hand that held your throat into your hair. sitting up straight and pulling at your hair as he started to really fuck you.
"f-fuck... fuck sabo, im close, m'close!" sabo grunted and said, "im going to fuck my cum inside of you, fill you up real good, yeah?" drool trickled down your chin, "yes! give it to me!" he let go of your hair and grabbed your hips, feeling his climax coming. looking back at him with begging, glossy eyes. he gave a way too innocent smile, "yes... cum around my cock."
both of you moaned in unison. sabo groaned once he pulled out, seeing his white cum leaking out of your hole. he laughed breathlessly and turned you over into missionary then placing your legs on his shoulders, "you're beautiful." giving a post-nut smile.
your mouth formed in the shape of an 'O' as he pushed back inside, seeing that white circle from from both of y'all's recent orgasm. shaking your head as he began thrusting again. "no... too much!" whining as he laughed and pushed your legs to your chest as by the back of your thighs. "take it... take it all you whore." grabbing your throat, moaning.
as his balls slapped against your ass, you moaned loudly, "close! i-i..." he moaned also, "squirt around my cock. do it." your bruised cervix was going to be so sore as you yelled, squirting around his cock. sabo groaned as he continued his abuse on your red pussy.
"about to fill... fuck, fill you up again." breathless, he moaned. sweat making his blonde hair stick to his forehead.
before you realized it, he wasn't stopping.
he fucked his second load inside of you, making your eyes widen. "s-sabo!" leaning down into your neck, groaning "angel..."
that night, he fucked six loads into you. safe to say, y'all weren't just friends anymore.
im not that mad about this one! thanks for reading!
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glad I crashed the wedding // oscar piastri

summary: she needed a wedding date. he wanted a reason to spend time with her. but of course, the inn only has one bed, and oscar makes her feel alive in a way she's never felt before.
pairing: oscar piastri x female! reader
warnings: sexual tension, one bed trope, difficult sister relationship (though they love each other very very much), eventual smut, fake dating (I’ve been reading too much Ana Huang lately)
“so let me get this straight,” she began, swirling the coconut-mango-pineapple icy drink in her hand, leaning back against the photocopier. “you, the great oscar piastri, wants to come home with me to be my date for my sisters wedding, and you don’t want anything in return?”
oscar nodded, a wide grin on his face as the copy machine continued to churn out waivers for the hot lap guests to sign. “that’s exactly what I’m saying.”
“but why?”
oscar shrugged, trying to come up with a convincing lie. “because I’m your friend. and this is what friends do.”
y/n sighed, sipping her drink before turning away from the driver. keeping eye contact was dangerous when it was with oscar piastri. when it was with the man who set her nerve endings on fire, who made her stomach churn like the rising tide with a gesture as small as a wave, or an offer to buy her a drink.
who had an accent that made her core throb, soaking her panties right through when she thought about how his voice would sound in her ear if he was whispering some less-than-holy things to her.
“I don’t want to subject you to the insanity. you might not want to be friends after you meet my family. we can’t even be in the same room sometimes, it’s like dropping a match onto a pile of dry leaves.”
oscar laughed and she tried to ignore the shivers the sound sent up her spine, the rising goose flesh on her arms as she counted the waivers, having to start the count over again more than a few times.
“I’m sure they’re not that bad.” oscar reasoned, taking the file folder from her, insisting on lightening her load. “I just want you to feel at ease.”
she rolled her eyes, grabbing her drink as she started to walk out of the motorhome. “I’ve been living in delias shadow since I was fourteen. she’s a well respected medical professional; and I went to a three year college. everything she does is perfect. hell, she’s getting married this weekend and here I am, convincing myself that letting you tag along is a good idea so I don’t look like I’m going to die alone.”
it’s not like she wasn’t successful. she was a part of the legal team for one one of the biggest racing names in the world. when Oscar’s contract dispute started, she had been the one who served otmar his papers (and to this day, saying the words “otmar szafanuer you have been served, see you in court” was still one of the finest moments of her career).
it’s just that delia always brought out the worst in her, every insecurity, every flaw she hated about herself. their childhood has been fraught with insecurity and competition.
she sighed, leaning against one of the paddocks scratchy palm trees, bark digging into the skin on her arms. oscar was still trying to plead his case, and she wondered why she was fighting it.
this is what she wanted, wasn’t it? oscar on her arm, making her feel like she was wanted, loved, even?
she took another sip of her drink before she spoke again.
“we’ll probably have to share a hotel room, and my dad might threaten you with his antique saw collection. you’ll also have to stop me from killing delia with my bare hands before the big day.”
oscar chuckled, handing back her file folder. “I think I can handle that.”
that goddamn smile. that’s where it all started, when she first started to think about his lips on hers, his hands in her hair, his mouth wrapped around her nipples.
why on earth was she agreeing to this?
“you’d better be up bright and early tomorrow. it’s a long flight and my dad is meeting us at the airport. as far as everyone knows, I’m not bringing a date.”
the feeling of his hand against the small of her back burned into her skin. she could feel his body heat through the thick fabric of her papaya golf shirt as he started guiding her towards the garage where the hot laps were being conducted.
“oscar, what are you doing?”
he grinned at her, baring his pearl-white teeth, in their slightly uneven top row. “if we’re going to convince your dad that we’re together, we’d better start practicing.”
god, this man was going to be the death of her.
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she regretted inviting oscar along the second they got off the plane.
from the moment they passed through airport security, it was as if a switch had been flicked in her brain, converting him from the serious, driven race car driver she met at the track, to a man straight out of the romance book she had been listening to on the flight. his hand was rooted to her back protectively, and he wouldn't let her carry any of her luggage on her own.
she could get used to this, she thought, watching his t-shirt ride up over his defined abs as he reached into the overhead cabin to pull down her two small suitcases.
they walked peacefully through the terminal, oscar pushing the baggage cart with one hand, his free arm looped over her shoulder.
"you know you don't have to act like my boyfriend until we see my father, right?" she said hesitantly, running a thumb over his knuckles. "my feelings won't get hurt if you don't want to pretend when nobody else is around.
oscar acted like he was about to say something, but he was cut off by a shout across the airport.
"y/n!" the voice shouted. "there's my girl!"
"dad!" she shouted, breaking away from oscar's side to launch herself into her father's arms. the constant travel that came with working in formula one took it's toll, and she didn't get to see her father as often as she liked. she'd had to move to england to work with mclaren, and her family had stayed behind.
she never said she loved that part of her job, but a little space away from her family often made her appreciate them a little more.
"dad, i want you to meet someone." she started, waving at oscar, who lumbered over with the weighed-down baggage cart. "this is my boyfriend, oscar." despite the lie, and how foreign the words were, saying them almost felt right.
my boyfriend oscar.
"i'm carl, nice to meet you." her father said, his voice a slight bit more gentle than his usual grunt.
oscar shook carl's hand, a bit of weariness on his face as he slipped his smooth, dainty hand inside carl's larger, more calloused one. "nice to meet you, sir."
carl raised an eyebrow. "australian? you'd better not be giving my daughter any of those australian kisses."
"dad, what the hell!?" she whined, hiding her face behind her hands as a blush began to coat her cheeks. if there was one thing she definitely was not getting from oscar piastri, it was australian kisses.
oscar thought she was cute when she was flustered. it was such a shame it took him an hot minute to figure out why.
australian kisses are like french kisses, just down under. it was mark who had said it to him first, in an attempt to be funny. as the meaning set in for oscar, he found himself silently cursing mark webber.
but it didn't mean he didn't get half-hard thinking about having his head between y/n's thighs.
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"you've got to be shitting me."
she knew they would be sharing a bedroom. all of the plus ones were rooming in the chic, trendy motel with the guests who had invited them. and that would have been fine.
except that this hotel only had a queen bed, done up with plush white sheets and a small turquoise blanket draped over the bottom half.
a queen bed that she would have to share with a man that she wished would fuck her brains out.
"i can call the main office if you want." oscar suggested softly, reaching for the door handle. "i can see if they have another room, or they could bring a cot in for me?"
she sighed, raking her hair over her head as she looked around the room. "don't bother. the motel only has fifteen rooms, and it's booked solid for delia's wedding, between her bridal party and the fiancée's family, i doubt they'd even really have a cot. we can manage, right?"
oscar nodded, hands buried deep in his sweatpant pockets. damn those gray sweats.
"we can make a towel barrier, and the bed is more than big enough for both of us. hell, we could probably have a threesome on that bed and still have space."
did oscar piastri not have a single drop of shame?
she shook her head, trying to forget the thought of a half-naked oscar hovering over her, whispering things in her ear. she made a grab for her suitcase placing it on the bed and grabbing a handful of clothes and a travel bath and body works bottle.
"i'm going for a shower, can we talk about this afterwards? i'm jet lagged and i really just want to sleep."
"sure." oscar shrugged, spreading hismelf out on the bed, arms over his head so that his shirt once again showed off his stunning lower torso.
she tried to stop herself from staring at the happy trail dipping under oscar's waistband, but she failed miserably, her eyes following the small trail of hair down to the waistband of his jack and jones boxers, to the impressive lump underneath his jeans.
if his cock was that big when it was soft, how would it feel when it was hard, throbbing and inside of her. just the mere thought was making heat grow between her legs-
nope. we're not going there today.
she squeaked out some kind of muffled statement, clutching her clothes to her chest and making a mad dash towards the bathroom door. a cold shower should fix this, right?
when oscar heard the shower turn on, the music clicking on soon after, he sat up on the bed, rubbing the tiredness out of his eyes. he knew he should shower as well, but the fatigue of air travel was beginning to set in. a small nap wouldn't hurt, right?
he got up from the bed, socked feet sliding against the laminate floor as he reached for the wheels on the bottom of y/n's suitcase. all he needed to do was close the suitcase, move it out of the way, close his eyes, and then drift of into a peaceful slumber.
all he had to do was hope that he didn't wake up hard, or moan her name in his sleep. it should be easy, right?
wrong. the suitcase slipped out of his grip, almost sliding off the bed before he thanked god for his reflexes, stopping the suitcase from hitting the floor, save for a few articles of clothing.
he leaned down picking up the black busted tour shirt and denim shorts, his breath catching in his throat when he saw what was resting on the area rug underneath.
it was a mass of bright peach lace, the color so close to the mclaren signature papaya, his heart hammering in his chest as he picked it up and unraveled the halter bralette. he bit back a moan as he stared at the lace and mesh that left very little to the imagination.
he started to think about his mild-mannered co-worker wearing it, her perky nipples pressing against the bright, skimpy fabric.
the mere thought sent all the blood rushing straight to his cock.
god, he was down so bad that it should be criminal.
he shouldn’t be thinking about whispering dirty sweet nothings against her skin, or sucking a hickey into her thigh before he plunges his tongue inside of her.
he shouldn’t be thinking about anything that would make his boner worse.
and that was when he heard the bathroom door open. and there wasn’t enough time to hide the sweat seeping from the pores on his skin, the tent in his sweatpants, or the fact that he was still holding the offending lingerie in his hands.
“it’s not what it looks like!” the driver sputters, turning around to face her, and bitting his lip to stop himself from losing whatever composure he has left.
she’s wearing booty shorts that barely cover her backside, the ass emblazoned with the acronym for the college she attended, her top half covered with a loose-fitting muscle tank sporting a skeleton on a surfboard, the sides of her bare tits just barely visible through the arm holes.
“oscar,” she breathed, voice raspy when she saw the tent pitched in his pants. “do i turn you on?”
“you have since the day I met you.” he admits, dropping the bra and slowly moving closer, hesitantly running his hands down her still-warm sides. “tell me, y/n, do you touch yourself when you think about me?”
“i could ask you the same.” she shot back, her voice wavering as she pressed her hand shakily against oscars clothed cock. “your boyfriend act didn’t feel like an act this morning.”
they shouldn’t be doing this. it was crossing so many lines. but when oscar looked her dead in the eyes and breathed out a single word, all thoughts of self control went out the window.
"yes."
she pressed her lips against his, nipples springing to attention as she pressed her front against his, his hands moving from her sides to squeeze and caress her breasts, her mouth falling open in a moan against his lips. oscar took that chance to slip his tongue inside her mouth, his hands migrating to her hair as he maneuvered their bodies towards the bed.
she took the lead once her back hit the mattress, practically ripping her tank top off and casting it aside, hands making a mad grab for oscar's plain white shirt while he kissed and marked up her neck.
she whimpered under his touch, and would have been embarrassed had she not been so turned on.
"oscar, please." she begged, spreading her thighs as she tried to grind her core against his thigh. "i need you. i need your cock so deep inside me that i can still feel it three days later."
oscar practically growled at the admission, pulling his lips off her right tit. "are you begging for me, pretty girl? do you want me to make you feel good? hm, want me to treat you right?"
"yes." she breathed, tucking a hand underneath his boxers. "please, oscar."
god, his name sounded so sexy rolling off her tongue. he couldn't think straight when she had her slender fingers wrapped around his cock.
"are you sure you want this? because once i have you, i won't let you go. i'll need more."
"i'm sure, oscar. and i'm not just saying that because i think your mild possessiveness is kind of hot."
oscar smiled, a small, imperceptible blush forming on his cheeks. "you think i'm hot."
"since the day i met you." she hummed, sewing her lips to his, her fingers tugging on his hair, a small moan leaving his throat.
"oh, so pretty boy likes it when i tug on his hair." she giggled. "i learn something new every day."
"keep talking like that, and you won't be able to walk in the morning."
"i look forward to it."
oscar looked around, his eyes settling on the mirror hanging opposite the bed, right next to the bathroom door. he felt his dick throb as an idea formed in his head, pulling away from the body lying prone on the bed.
"shorts off, all-fours on the bed facing that mirror." he ordered, trying to keep a gentle tone in his voice as he clambered off the bed, stripping out of his sweatpants and boxers, hard member jutting straight out as her touched himself, trying to find some kind of release from the pressure between his legs.
she shivered at the command before making a show of dropping her shorts to show off the cream coloured cotton thong she was wearing, laughing to herself when oscar's eyes rolled back in his skull, a moan escaping his throat.
"god, you're going to be the death of me, sweetheart."
she couldn't deny the excitement in her bones as she settled herself on the bed, arousal literally dripping down her thighs when she looked in the mirror and saw oscar looking at her, mounting the bed behind her before slapping his cock against her ass.
in a more tender, loving action, oscar leaned over her, pressing a kiss to the top of her spine.
"you're so pretty." he whispered, the compliment sinking into her skin like tattoo ink before he sunk into her, gripping her hips and closing his eyes to try and show some restraint as she got used to his size.
it was a sinful picture in that motel room mirror as he began to rut into her, watching her tits shake in the mirror, listening to her sweet whimpers and whines and pleads for more.
"god, yes, oscar! feels so-so fucking good, oh my god."
he met her eyes in the mirror, sweat running down his chest and dripping onto her back as he kept thrusting, the same relentless pace. "you're so good for me, pretty girl. so stunning, so sexy with my cock inside you like this. god, you're prefect. perfectly mine."
he practically growled the last word, knowing damn well that he was ruined for any other woman.
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they woke up in a tangled heap of limbs, not knowing where one body ended and the other began, lazily exchanging kisses as the sun rose outside.
"oscar, we have to go to the rehearsal." she whined as he kissed her neck. "if we're late, i'm never going to hear the end of it."
"don't care." oscar hums, running his hands up and down her sides. "i would gladly stay in bed with you all day and order room service so we don't ever have to leave."
"osc." she warned, sitting up in the bed and pulling the duvet over her chest. "we're going to the rehearsal. i'm a bridesmaid, remember?"
fifteen minutes later, oscar was in the bathroom steam-cleaning the wrinkles out of his suit while she tried on the bridesmaid dress, caramel fabric falling over her skin as she stared at herself in the mirror.
the same mirror where, just twelve hours before, she had watched oscar piastri fuck her brains out.
she felt heat on her hips, and didn't even need to look up to realize that it was oscars hands, gently caressing her skin through the satin. he gently kissed her shoulder blades, his hands moving to do up the zipper she couldn't quite reach.
"you look beautiful." he hummed, pressing a kiss to the side of her head. "you deserve better than me."
she giggled softly, tugging his arms away from her hips and around her waist, sinking back into his arms. "no i don't. you're exactly what i want, oscar. you're funny and you're sweet and you make me feel like the best version of myself. you're also really great in bed."
oscar laughed, kissing her softly. he would never get tired of feeling her lips against his. "the boyfriend stuff was never an act. and i volunteered to come with you this weekend because i wanted to get to know you off the track. who you are when you aren't serving legal papers to team principals."
"i only did that once. i missed out on the chance to fight with chip ganassi since arrow has a different legal team." she laughed. "i really like you, oscar."
"and i really like you too, y/n. my perfect, beautiful girl."
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the wedding came and went, marking the end of y/n and oscar's dream weekend, the reminder that very soon, they would all be going back to their real lives.
that she and oscar would need to figure out where they stood with each other.
but she didn't want to think about that. not while she was dancing with her sister, the pair of them finally getting along as they screeched the words to an old tove lo song.
oscar watched from the table, sitting next to y/n's mother and making polite conversation as his lovesick eyes found her under the disco lights.
"someone is feeling lovesick tonight." mrs. y/l/n hummed. "we heard you two last night. the motel walls aren't as thick as you think."
oscar blanched, coughing on his drink. "you heard all that?"
y/n's mom laughed. "her father had to leave the room and get a coffee before he walked in there and strangled you. y/n is always going to be his little girl. but she's growing up, and i think if she has you in her life, she'll be okay. you're good together."
oscar was about to say something else when a shout rang through the room. "delia is doing the bouquet toss!"
all of the members of each wedding party gathered in the middle of the floor, y/n's sister standing on the dj stand, her white dress brushing against the floor and picking up specs of dust and dirt, as she lifted the bouquet over her head.
y/n mother rested her hand on oscar's forearm, staring at him with a knowing look, hoping her other daughter would be the next to tie the knot.
sure enough, it was almost like fate as the boquet of white roses soared into the air, nailing y/n right in the face and tumbling into her arms as the other bridesmaids cheered. her face was pink and she was trying to hide behind the bouqet as delia came to pull her into a hug.
"i love you, sis. and i'm sorry i didn't know how to show it when we were younger." delia gushed, kissing her baby sister on the forehead before nodding her head at oscar. "you've got a good one. don't let him get away."
"i won't." she laughed, wiping at the tears threatening to fall down her cheeks. "i love you, deels."
the song changed, a slow kesha ballad humming through the speakers as the singer crooned about her old flame, and how they couldn't hold a candle to her current love. she turned away from her sister, who had just gone to find her new spouse to dance with, only to see oscar, looking dapper in his black suit and bowtie.
"can i have this dance, my love?"
she smiled, leaving her bouquet with her mother before stepping into oscar's arms, wishing for nothing more than to wrap herself around him like a woolen sweater. she rested her head against his chest, allowing herself to fall into him while they swayed to the music, his lips pressing a kiss to her forehead as dolly parton began to sing the second half of the song.
man, she could really get used to this.
get used to oscar.
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Can I make a request for dilf!JakexFemale! Omatikaya!reader?
While Neytiri is out hunting with the kids, jake makes his way to readers hut. And let’s just say reader is shorter than Neytiri so size kinkkkk🤭
Guilty Pleasure
MDNI!🔞
Pairing: Dilf!Jake!Sully x Fem!Omatikaya!Reader
Warnings/content: SMUT, jake cheating(sorry Neytiri), size kink, stalking/obsessing, some roughness/power over reader, oral/face sitting (Jake being a pussy eating king), p in v, cream pie, dirty talk, a sprinkle of angst at the end
W/c: 3.2k (holy shit-)
A/n: thank you for this request anon!!💖 I am a SUCKERRRR for dilf Jake! I got a lil carried away heheh but I hope y’all enjoy this! Comments, likes, and reblogs are SO appreciated! Muah 😘
“We will see you later, ma’Jake,” Neytiri sweetly said while motioning for the kids to go out of the hut, holding up the flap of fabric for them to walk by. Neteyam and Lo’ak went first, throwing a hand up and bidding a short “Bye, dad,” with their bows in hand.
“Come with us daddd!” Tuk whined and ran up and clung to his side. He chuckled at her.
“I’d love to, kiddo, but I gotta take care of something. Ya know, all my boring adult responsibilities,” He smiled gently.
She frowned up at him but had no choice but to accept he wasn’t coming.
“Bring me back a big ‘angtsìk(hammerhead titanothere)!” He joked while bending over and ruffling her short braids in an attempt to cheer her up. She giggled at his absurd request and ran off to catch up with Lo’ak and Neteyam.
Kiri came moping out and rolling her eyes like usual, she was not excited that she was being forced to go hunt with them. It just wasn’t her thing. She gave Jake a quick “Bye” and walked out without looking at him.
“I love you too!” He laughed, “You’ll do great!” He cupped his mouth and shouted to her. She looked over her shoulder and couldn’t suppress her small little grin of amusement. She pretty much always blatantly disrespected him but he loved her to death.
Neytiri smiled one last time at him before ducking under the flap, following her kids to go off to their hunt.
Jake’s smile faded from his face once they were out of sight.
He had a lovely wife and an amazing family—everything he could ever want and dream for. But unfortunately for him, his heart yearned for someone else. Someone who occupied his thoughts day-in and day-out, consuming his entire being.
He started to resent you for how bad he wanted you. But how could he blame you? You’ve done nothing. Nothing but just be utterly and effortlessly perfect. He felt like you casted a spell on him, damning him to be desperate for you. You were quite the sight to see; young and beautiful in all your glory. He could worship your body all day— the stunning curves of your hips and the rounding of your breasts. You were short in stature, not tawtute short but very much on the short side for a na’vi girl. But that just made Jake be drawn to you even more. During his endless daydreams involving you, he would have some particular thoughts of you. Images flooded his mind of getting to manhandle you around. He was bulkier than the average na’vi due to the combination of his human DNA, so he had no doubt in his mind he could toss you around effortlessly in several different positions. He also inevitably thought about how much tighter your smaller pussy probably was. And fuck, it wasn’t just your stunning appearance— it was also the way you were so damn sweet and compassionate to others. You never did anything wrong, it was like you really were perfect.
He longed to touch you and pleasure you, he would die a happy man if he could just watch you cum for him. It wasn’t even that he wanted the pleasure for himself, more than anything he wanted to pleasure you. So many scenarios have ran through his mind of imagining how your pretty face would scrunch up as an orgasm wracked through your petite body. He felt like he was loosing his mind, he hasn’t had this many vulgar, horny thoughts constantly since he was probably 17. It was like you made him young again. He wanted to show you how good he could make you feel. After all, he was experienced. Whether it was keeping Neytiri’s needs satisfied or previous lessons from his sexual partners back on earth, he’s learned a thing or two over time. He wondered if you’ve let any of the omatikaya boys fuck you. He hoped not, but he was sure they were all throwing themselves at your feet. I mean who the hell wouldn’t?
Jake had been stalking you for quite some time now. He pretty much had your daily schedule memorized and he’s even learned all your little mannerisms. Like how you looked down at the ground when you laughed, or how you quietly hummed to yourself when you were weaving. Sometimes throughout the day you would make eye contact when passing by each other. He noticed you would give him a little smile. It was like you knew you were torturing him.
But watching you from a distance and stalking you wasn’t cutting the mustard anymore for him. Sure, it satisfied the itch at first but it left him only wanting more. And stroking his cock to you felt good, but not as good as your soft, dainty hand would feel doing it.
He knew Neytiri was taking the kids hunting today to let them practice. And at this time of day, you were usually in your hut. He decided there wouldn’t be a more perfect time than now to approach you. He couldn’t let this keep eating him alive, he had to do something about it. So, he gathered up the courage to start his way over to you.
…
You were in your hut, cooling off a little. It was a hot, sunny day in Pandora and you always take a midday break around this time. Right before you were going to sit down, you seen a figure in your peripheral vision. It was… Jake?
“Jake.. I-I wasn’t expecting to see you here,” you stuttered and shifted to face him respectfully, caught off guard by your leader entering your hut. “Is something wrong?”
He stood confidently, almost like he owned the place— I mean he was the Olo’eyktan. Which was why you felt concerned and surprised to see him, surely it must be something important if he took the time to come here.
He surveyed you as you stuttered and slightly fidgeted with a hint of amusement in his eyes. His piercing gaze burned right through you, making you feel small and embarrassed. But he was the one coming into your home, so why were your cheeks heating up in embarrassment?
He finally broke the silence and breathed out a sigh. “Yeah, I’m afraid something is wrong,” he spoke with that low, sultry voice of his and once again burned holes into you with his eyes. He took slow steps towards you, casually.
Your heart dropped to your stomach and the blood left your face. “W-What is it? I’m sorry if I’ve done something wrong, sir-“
“Don’t play dumb and innocent. You know exactly what it is.” He cut you off sharply.
You were taken aback, eyes widening in offense. “Excuse me?” You scoffed.
He kept inching closer and closer to you and you backed up in return, scowling at him. But unfortunately you backed up against the wall, having no more room to back up.
He was eyeing you down fiercely, power and authority exuding from his aura. But you weren’t a pushover, and you gave it your best effort at holding his eyes and not cowering.
He swiftly grabbed your wrist and shoved your hand on his hard erection covered by his loincloth. You gasped, once more taken aback.
“Understand?” He quipped.
You snatched your hand back and hissed at him. You were unable to form any words, so shocked at this predicament. Your scowl deepened and your breathing picked up, feeling the intensity in the atmosphere.
He let out a single chuckle of disbelief and shook his head.
“You do this to me. It’s your fault” he snapped, “You’ve been torturing me night and day and you know it” he accused with his pointer finger in your face.
Your mouth dropped a little, eyebrows scrunched in anger. “What?? I’ve done nothing! You’re fucking crazy!”
“You are such a little brat. Sounds like you need that attitude fucked out of you,”
You couldn’t help the coil that twisted in your stomach to his words. The obscenity of them made your body react with a mind of its own. Slick trickled out of your hole, making a little wet patch in your cloth.
His nose twitched and he grinned menacingly at your new smell of arousal. “Is that right? The lil’ slut needs her pussy stuffed with cock?”
Your cheeks heated up, making a purplish color on your face. You were losing this battle quickly. You blamed your body for betraying you so shamefully.
“Fuck you!” You finally said. It was your last attempt at trying to get the upper hand.
“Yeah,” he laughed, “That’s the plan.”
You scoffed again, still trying to make it seem like he was crazy and you didn’t want this. But in reality, you don’t think anything has ever piqued your interest more.
He put his fingers inside the band of your loincloth, tickling the soft area below your belly. Your heart thudded hard inside your chest and more waves of arousal coursed through you.
He slowly and lightly teased the area, making your breath hitch slightly.
“Not stopping me, I see,” he quietly mocked.
Your let your eyes fall to his chest which was right in front of you. You didn’t want to see the smug grin on his face.
“Now what if I touch your little pussy? Is she gonna blow your cover?” He taunted some more. You swallowed roughly as his fingers traced further and further down into your cloth until he got to your soaked cunt.
He ran a finger up your slit, eyes dilating as he basked in the incredible feeling of your slick pussy. Your legs parted on their own, giving him easier access and you whined softly, leaning your head back against the wall.
“Fuck…” he breathed out, seemingly losing his control.
Your half lidded eyes met his again as he ran his fingers through your folds. You knew you were at the point of no return.
“Please..” you mewled quietly.
Trying to regain control of the situation, he straightened up and cleared his throat, still continuing his touching. “Oh so the brat has manners now?”
“Mhmm” you hummed shamelessly, pride be damned.
He licked his lips and looked down at your pretty lips, just waiting to be kissed. But he had other things in mind.
He yanked down your loincloth and it fell to your ankles then you kicked it aside. Then suddenly he knelt down and hitched one of your legs over his muscular shoulder, much to your surprise. You gasped hard at the first stroke of his tongue on your pussy lips.
“Oh!” You cried
You grabbed his dreads for support because your knees already felt weak. Looking down at him, the sight was purely sinful. He lapped, licked, sucked, and kissed all over your cunt, slurping up all your juices and making a complete mess on his face. He hummed and moaned on it, creating vibrations which elevated your pleasure.
He pulled back only for a second, your juices falling down his chin and painting his blue skin with white and clear shimmer. “You taste so fucking sweet, even better than I imagined,” he groaned in near disbelief. Then he continued working his mouth on your pussy.
You felt so good, feeling the most ecstasy you’ve ever felt. You’ve had a few partners and of course masturbate when needed but nothing and nobody has ever felt like this. He knew exactly where to go and how much pressure to apply and suck at.
He stuck a finger in your hole while he continued lapping on your clit. You moaned and fought to keep yourself standing up. He caught onto your struggle and swiftly moved to reposition you both. He laid himself back against the ground and had his hands hooked around you, bringing you down with him to then plop you right on his face.
Sitting on his face was much more comfortable and you tried to hold yourself up to hover some, but he grabbed your ass and pushed all your weight down on him. You switched between watching him do his thing and throwing your head back, closing your eyes and welcoming all the sensations. All his sounds were muffled but looking behind you and seeing his still rock hard erection and watching his feet curl and his legs dance around told you that he was very much enjoying himself.
You knew your orgasm was about to come. The pleasure was coming to a peak and you relaxed and let it happen. You came with a loud and drawn out moan, thighs shaking from the intensity. His humming got louder as he licked up all your essence, drawing out your high but letting off before you got overstimulated.
You rose off and scooted back a little to sit on his chest, looking down at his absolutely soaked face.
“Holy fuck,” you breathed out roughly, trying to catch your breath, “you didn’t tell me you were a pussy eating expert”
He chuckled with that deep voice of his, making your pussy flutter. “You thought the old man wouldn’t know how to eat pussy? Baby girl I am very experienced,” he winked.
You rolled your eyes at his cockiness, trying not to smile. Before letting you fully catch your breath, he sat up and effortlessly carried you with him, you were like a little rag doll in his huge, bulky arms. He hung you over one of his shoulders, ass up in the air. He smacked it and you let out a little yelp of surprise and smacked his back in return.
“You are so tiny, ya know that?”
You rolled your eyes once again. “Yes, everyone loves telling me how short I am” you complained.
“Mhmm well I think it’s hot as fuck”
He set you down on the table and you were facing him, legs spread out and pussy on full display. His eyes drank in the sight of your most intimate part, being fully captivated by you. You then took the reigns and slipped off your skimpy top, leaving him even more speechless. You smirked in satisfaction at how pussy whipped he was already.
He didn’t fail to notice your shit-eating grin and quiet laugh. “Oh yeah? You won’t be laughing much longer,” he threatened while untying the strings of his loincloth, letting it fall to the floor.
And it did in fact shut you up. He was huge. Your jaw hung low like an idiot and he laughed at you.
“You’re not that big. I’ve had bigger.” You lied, trying to sound confident.
He narrowed his eyes and felt a pang of jealousy at the thought of someone else getting to fuck you. “That so? Well then you should have no problem taking me,” he taunted.
You were nervous about how it would hurt but you put on a brave face. You spread your legs wider and gave him doe eyes as an invitation to go ahead.
His bigger body hovered over your small frame as he positioned his cock at your entrance. He teased your folds and your opening, making you buck your hips up in an effort to get him inside of you. His cockhead breached into your hole and you gasped in unison. He was so thick and girthy, the stretch against your walls was one you’ve never experienced this intensely.
He sank in deeper, thrusting a little to help break it in. You winced and moaned but stayed relaxed and let him keep going. He finally bottomed out. Then pulled back and started thrusting.
Your eyes widened and your jaw fell slack. The drag against your walls and the pressure his dick provided on your cervix made you nearly see stars, clouding your vision in a bit of a haze.
“Mmmm!! ‘s so good!” You slurred drunkenly, choking on your moans and cries.
He grunted and moaned above you, keeping a steady rhythm as his balls slapped against your ass.
“Holy shit” he gritted between his teeth, slightly baring them at you while he got caught up in the passion. He squeezed his eyes shut and his head slumped down, hanging from between his shoulders. “You’re gonna make me cum too quick” he panted.
You moaned in response, loving how you were breaking him. He cupped both your tits and gave them a squeeze, edging both of you on more.
“More!! Please!” You didn’t really know what you were asking for but he seemed to know right away.
He pulled out quickly and swiftly flipped you over, pulling you from the hips to scooch your ass up against him. He entered you again easily and plunged all the way in making you moan loudly.
“Cum on this dick, baby,” he grunted as he then started a fast and hard pace, increasing it from the previous pace.
His dick was now reaching so far up into you and satisfying all your sweet spots. He was fucking into you like a bunny in heat, hiking up one of his legs and placing his foot on the table to have a better grasp on you and a better angle to fuck you.
“Fuckkkk!” You screamed, getting your cervix pounding into over and over again. You felt your walls convulsing around him and knew you were getting close.
He pushed your head down into the table, his enormous hand pretty much engulfing the entire size of your head. Your hair fell around your face and was scattered in a complete mess.
“Shit baby, you’re close, huh?” He groaned.
“Yesss! Don’t fucking stop!” You begged and whimpered.
And then you felt your coil snap. The waves of sweet release spread throughout your whole body. Your pussy’s grip on his dick tightened, making him cum right after you.
“Nghh- gonna fill you up” he moaned while still bringing your ass back to meet his hips, slowing down and milking out both your orgasms. His hot cum spurted into your womb, filling you up just like he said.
He finally stopped his slow thrusts and pulled out gently making you whine as you felt some of his cum seep out.
He stepped back to admire his work, taking a mental screenshot of your cream pied cunt. He used his thumb to gather what had dripped and pushed it back into you.
“Your pussy looks best with my cum in it,” he admired.
You rolled over to your side, completely exhausted. You looked at him expectantly, wanting him to lay with you now.
He got your message by the look in your face. “I’m sorry baby but I gotta leave now. As much as I’d rather be stuffed inside you, I gotta get back to my place before my-“ he paused, looking physically pained, “before my family gets back home.”
Of course, you thought to yourself, how the fuck could you forget? Guiltiness flooded your heart, making it physically ache for his wife and kids. You felt terrible. You never liked a homewrecker and now you were a complete hypocrite and felt like a whore.
“Yes, o-of course… I’m sorry,” you offered weakly.
He weakly smiled as a response, pain still in his eyes as the post-nut clarity washed over him and guiltiness attacked his conscious as well.
“I’ll see you later, y/n.” And with that he left your hut.
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In My Room Pt 2


Shauna Shipman x GN Reader
Warnings: Strapon referred to as 'cock' and 'dick' also smut in general
MINORS DNI OR I WILL CALL YOUR MOTHER
Zombie's Brains: Hey! So I tried to write this as gender neutral as I could, but did have a lesbian or transmasc reader in mind. I do need requests tho so pls gimme some. Also.. I apologize if this sucks. My first time writing smut. Pls gimme a break if you hate it. Also all characters are aged up.
It was gonna be a fun night.. When Shauna pulled off her robe, you saw she was wearing the same outfit as earlier. A tank top and those shorts that she knew drove you wild. The ones that made her ass look fucking amazing. You knew if you dare touch her there would be hell to pay so you refrained. She grinded on your lap, “Mm.. such a pretty thing, aren’t you? You want me?” You nodded dumbly as she pulled off her tank top and reached back to unclasp her bra. It fell off her shoulders onto your stomach. You drooled at the sight of her chest. Holy fuck. You could die right now and be the happiest person on Earth. Shauna smirked as she looked down at you, “Such a perv though.” She got up and pulled your pajama bottoms down to leave you in your boxers and your sleep shirt. Shauna pulled out the strapon that she had bought you from your nightstand and slid the straps over your hips.
“I’m gonna ride you and you are gonna stay fucking still. Got it? Now beg.” She ordered as she placed the knife to your neck again.
“Please, baby, ride my cock. Please please please, pretty girl. Ride me.” She chuckled at your desperate pleas as she slid off her shorts and underwear. She tossed them somewhere in your room. You knew she’d leave her panties here. She did it often everytime you guys had sex. Shauna enjoyed knowing that every time you saw them you would think of her.
She straddled your hips and grinded her cunt onto the tip of your dick. You watched with a mesmerized stare. She was wet and you knew it was because of you. Shauna bit her lip as she slowly slid down your dick until her hips were pressed on your’s, “Fuckkk.. Good baby. You like when I ride you? Use your words.”
“Yes, pretty girl. I love when you fucking ride me. You look so beautiful on my dick.” Shauna placed her hand on your stomach before starting to bounce. Her mouth fell open in quiet moans as she bounced. She kept the knife at your neck as she rode you. Shauna brought one of your hands to her chest while the other fell to her waist. You obediently started groping her chest as her eyes rolled back. You let out soft moans as the base of the strap grinded on your clit as she rolled her hips. She dug the knife into your neck a little. Not too deep but enough for a little blood to trickle out which she licked up before kissing your neck. Shauna let out little praises through soft gasps and moans in your ear, “Good- fuck- slut. Good baby. You are so good for me. Fuck fuck fuck.” You could tell she was getting close as she bounced harder and got louder. Her hand rubbed her clit, matching her bouncing. You wanted to watch her fall apart on your dick. Shauna slammed herself down, desperate for her own high, as she bit down on your neck. You let out a moan as she sucked a hickey onto your skin. Shauna pulled back and smirked as she slowed down a bit to admire your work. It was short lived as she picked the pace back up again. She let out a loud scream of your name that sent you into your own orgasm as the strap finally stimulated your clit enough as she teased your neck.. Shauna’s hips stuttered as she slammed down one last time and rode out her orgasm.
Shauna slowly slid off your dick and onto your stomach. She slowly moved her way to your face, putting her pussy right over your mouth, “Clean me up.” You started lapping at her cunt, tasting her cum. Shauna moaned and wrapped her hand in your hair, pulling you deeper. Your lips gently wrapped around her clit and sucked gently. Obviously that was the right move because she got louder. You went back to licking at her cunt, pushing your tongue in. Shauna wrapped her thighs around your head and grinded herself on your face, “Good.. So fucking good for me. So fucking good. Imma cum…” You felt her cum on your tongue as you continued to eat her out. She laid down on the bed next to you after you had fully cleaned her up.
Shauna helped you out of the straps before throwing the cum covered strap to the ground. She pulled you back into her chest as she peppered your neck with kisses, “You did so good for me, baby. I love you so much.”
“I love you too..” She hummed in satisfaction at your reply as she cuddled deeper into your back.
“We’ll take a nice shower together in the morning..” Shauna promised gently as she rubbed your stomach. You nodded as that sounded fucking amazing. Your hips were too sore to do much right now anyways.
“I’ll make you your favorite breakfast too, pretty.” You also promised as she buried her head into the crook of your neck tiredly. You soon felt her soft peaceful breaths as she drifted off to sleep. You smiled as you fell asleep in your girlfriend’s arms.
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