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evviejo · 3 months ago

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so it seems i suddenly have dozens of gifsets flagged for Mature Content, which seems to include indecencies such as:

patrick stewart's nipples (okay, that's nudity; which apparently is more threatening to the public of tumblr than george takei's nipples)

seven of nine standing by the sea, fully clothed (unless you take the lack of her facial implants for nudity)

pink, animated, ginormous tribbles (is someone on staff secretly a klingon?)

and it feels like i barely scratched the surface

#going through all my posts is impossible #i have literal thousands of gifsets up #whatever the fuck is happening today i am so over this #i just want my gifsets unflagged please #tumblr woes

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asexual-shelly · 1 year ago

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alas, motivation granted me more ponies as was promised yesterday. A joyous occasion this is indeed

#total drama #td dakota #td ezekiel #td cody #mlp #my little pony #mlp au #all were requests!#tumblr user mary-kasexual follows through with what they say they're going to do in a previous post (shocking) (impossible)#Camera Action's half-dragon half-pony but the draconic features show up later in life when she molts #she has no magic but vaguely resembles a unicorn in appearance minus the horn #Hay Fever's from a rock farm similarly to Pinkie Pie #later becomes a bat pony during WT after he's bit by a vampire bat while hiding in the cargo hold #Swooning Stumble's very naturally gifted at magic but tends to be unfocused and overconfident #he likes to cast advanced spells to impress ponies only for them to inevitably backfire on him #my art

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angst-is-love-angst-is-life · 4 months ago

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I FUCKING LOVE VILLAIN WINS AUS

I AM SO INCREDIBLY NORMAL ABOUT VILLAIN WINS AUS

#I am sometimes reminded that I eat these the fuck up in any context #it’s just— we’re all seen the good guys win time and time again. we’ve seen them go against impossible odds and still come out on top. and #in canon we love to see that; it’s inspiring and satisfying to see our heroes triumph.#but what if they DIDN’T? what if they tried everything they could; went through all that effort; and still failed? what happens next? is it #just one loss (maybe even one that can be fixed in time) or is it one that cascades into MANY?#how much do the heroes have left when the dust settles (if anything at all)? do they try to pick up the pieces? is that even possible at #this point?#AHHHH it’s just fucking delicious #and there’s not enough of them #my posts

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horror-ful · 6 months ago

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the indicator ticking in the final entry of mh is such a beautiful, poignant moment where a character is deciding his own future and we as the audience don't get to see what he chooses, what he's already chosen, just know that neither path is a happy ending

and the fact that it wasn't planned makes me insane

#marble hornets #tim wright #tim marble hornets #op #I saw somewhere that it was just a happy accident as they filmed but oh my god #the weight of that ticking #like a clock ticking down #like a bomb #the sirens in the background that could mean nothing or could mean everything #and I know Jessica is alive in the comics but that was added post canon #and I love the uncertainty #did Tim kill her and now has to kill himself to ensure no one else gets infected?#did masky kill her and now Tim is faced with knowing he could choose to get rid of the last known source #without the moral quandary of choosing to kill her?#or is Tim simply moving on trying to find peace somewhere else #even knowing that after going through all of that peace will be all but impossible to find #I don't know man but it keeps me up at night

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lemonyinks · 2 months ago

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I - Has tumblr caused you to stop liking any fandoms, if so, which and why O - Choose a song at random, which OTP does it remind you of

I - Has tumblr caused you to stop liking any fandoms, if so, which and why

Now I am a bat character enjoyer, I like many bat characters, but it is kinda impossible to interact with that fandom. I cannot look at any fan content related to them, especially on tumblr. I just can't. Almost all of it is horribly out of character. ESPECIALLY if its got my favorite non-bat related characters in it 😐

O - Choose a song at random, which OTP does it remind you of

Saturn by Sleeping at Last reminds me of BrainyLyle

#asks #dont tell anyone but i have almost all the bats names blocked 💀#otherwise i wouldn't be able to go through any fucking character tags ever #r.i.p the bart allen tag that thing is nigh impossible to scroll #i let my dash naturally bring me posts about bat characters i like #i never go into those tags i don't dare to

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fisherrprince · 2 years ago

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the problem is I’m such a staunch believer in the slow buildup, the earnest enjoyment of meandering through terrible story decisions and weird nothing subplots to build up into a conclusion that explodes out from all that as fantastic storytelling and intrigue based on all that buildup, such that it makes it necessary to get through all that or you’re missing something essential, that I’m also a terrible person to talk to about what makes a story good. I can tell you plenty of what actually makes something tight and well-written and all that technical speak but how could anyone take my advice when I so so so love excruciatingly long unnecessarily complex fumbling and weird nonsense that spirals into, inexplicably, weird nonsense that makes you cry your lungs sore

#kipspeak #my point being everyone is too mean about post arr. sure f’lhammin did not have to be our problem but everything after that was like #meandering. Thinking. building. unnerving. they were cooking and i RESPECT their dubious food #i love homestuck and long audio dramas and dnd podcasts and indecipherable fancomics and lego ninjas and khux and im starting to love ffxiv #all incredibly long and made with passion and kinda weird and hard to get into #said with THE MOST affection in my heart #I could structure a kids show and I know how to write for tv but in my heart of hearts #I just want to write an impossibly long absurdity epic that is weird and a little bad and also makes you feel shrimp emotions #ALSO I feel 0% bad for not respecting ur theory or opinion if you haven’t played khux/dr/recoded I don’t feel bad about it at all I’m right #understand what’s going on in them and I’ll respect your theories. it’s like comics enjoyers but less chaotic #don’t let me get into comics. superheroes never really catch my interest but if you let me get into comics I’d explode #‘it gets really good’ is a genuine way to interest me #also don’t let me get into anime that do this. I already watched a thousand episodes of detective Conan—#maybe it’s a careful balance of weird and Good Storytelling Seeds. it has to have internal logic for one; and it has to have a structure #It has to be leading somewhere. and I want to see where it leads #we are GOING through the disney worlds. all of them. they are COOKING !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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todayisafridaynight · 10 months ago

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plane scene is so funny cause why is mine a sleeper agent that wakes up whenever daigo is mentioned

can’t wait to see it in dragon engine :3

mine has been the winner for Funniest Character Imaginable for 15 consecutive years and i have yet to see anyone come close i fear

#snap chats #originally i wrote 'funniest character alive' and then remembered. HAH im so funny //throws up//#all my fave charas know how to do is get crazy on planes over men they love its disgusting #utterly hilarious cause after making the last post i went on twitter and they mentioned ANOTHER plane scene i throw up over #diff franchise so not important it is just SIMPLY funny how coincidences work and further confirming I Have A Type #BUT NO BACK TO MINE IT'S STILL SO FUCKIN FUNNY I HAVE TO REWATCH IT #i have to replay it .... all of y3 ...#if anyone remembers my friend from college and how we used to stream she asked me if we could stream #and i was like 'girl i havent streamed in Fuck Ever huh' and yk what maybe i'll stream y3 with her #at the very least ill stream y3 for myself ... legend mode .....#ive beaten y3 legend mode one (1) time and it was the worst experience of my life because if its not shadow the hedgehog #i am not good at the game i am playing !!!!!!!!!!! it'll be funny tho #i remember wanting to do a y3 drinking run but i told myself id stop drinking so i simply think. i will substitute drinking for hot sauce #its an idea im ironing out and i also have to like. properly set up a twitch- or maybe ill stream through youtube #ive always liked youtube streaming more ... at least as a viewer #these are all details for plans i will not be enacting literally any time soon can i stay on topic #the topic being i love mine. i love that plane scene forever the casual Whats Goin On Here :)#and he is the embodiment of :) in that scene casue :] is gen friendly but :) has an underlying aura of Im Going To Kill You #thats him in that scene. and i love him. for the third time. im ending this post now forever and always stan mine #if and whenever y3k comes out i cant wait to see !! but i personally believe that's well and away from us at this point #not impossible since they did mention it but yk. i dont think itll happen within the next year or two #maybe next five or ten realistically. if that jVLAEKJVLAEKJ ok bye fr now

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tentglitch · 1 month ago

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I'm crashing tf out grandson

#luka.txt #vent #stuck between feeling guilty and annoying when I vent #and needing to vent so bad I feel like I'm gonna explode #like agh I don't want to be this gloomy inconvenience but also just keeping things to myself is agonizing #idk I'm more introverted and awkward but I do genuinely enjoy talking to people #and circling back to just feeling very lonely #but I'm so fucking sad all the time and just so reserved from past issues I don't feel like an interesting person #and I can't talk to people abt my struggles with this because it just feels like I'm guilt tripping them into being comforting and friendly #so I'm just alone and dying because I would rather suffer than even potentially bother someone #idk my fucking mood has been fluctuating like crazy but last couple days/week have been pretty bad #when the bipolar disorder makes you bipolar #how much are meds supposed to help because this shit feels impossible like when I'm entering a depressive episode everything is so bad #prob doesn't help that I'm having to attend therapy less frequently and also have postponed my med check twice now #I'm ngl part of it's because I don't wanna go like it does not feel like a judgement free space #idk how to explain it really but like I think a part of why I struggle to open up is fear of being judged #and it's just the way she talks and questions me idk it makes me uncomfortable even though I know breaking down these walls is going to #so maybe she's just doing her job idk #I lost the plot but I'm tired of talking so that's it for now #I'm curious if anyone actually ever reads these or if they just get swept through the void #idk which I'd prefer #I am so caught up in how I am percieved I cannot experience the joys of living 🥲#I hate it!! make it stop!!#my therapist has been trying to get me to be more understanding and gentle w/ these parts though #it is very hard because I'm just frustrated and sad but I'm trying #it's so easy to despise though because like I just want to be normal and happy why is this so hard #urgh I have to stop talking I'm gonna die #I haven't been that active lately due to this and a multitude of other things so uh idk when I'll be back again #I'll try to do less vent posts sorgy

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gemstarstarlight · 2 months ago

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Grief is weird.

What they don’t tell you is that grief can be about anything. Loss is something that happens to everyone, but it’s not just death. Grief comes when you lose something precious to you.

Over the past two to three years I have lost my relationship with my dad. And it’s never been very good to begin with, hasn’t been good for a decade, but over the last two years it has completely withered and died.

It started emotionally, then theologically, and finally politically. And it’s not like one stopped when the next one started. It’s just one layer after another layer. Exponential hurt continues exponenting while another one starts.

It’s really hard to lose your respect for someone, but that’s what’s happened. I no longer respect the man that is supposed to be my father. I don’t look up to him, I don’t see him as a role model, and I don’t want to be around him.

And that’s sad. I used to love him. I used to want him to care for me, to see me. Now I’m terrified of his opinion because I don’t want to deal with it. I don’t want to deal with the emotion swings, the painful words, the close minded politics, the grief I feel when I hear him talk about God.

Because that’s the worst part. The way he talks about God is so sad to me. I don’t know why, but all he sees is a God who is never satisfied. He only sees himself in the text: his own insecurities, his own perfectionism, his own resolve to do better whenever there is failure.

There is no acceptance, there is no grace for him. All he sees in the text is his own salvation. His own coping mechanisms. His own unprocessed grief.

I wonder if he feels like a failure as a father and is thus so hard on himself? If he still feels the pain of his own losses? If he even thinks about what he’s doing? I don’t know.

All I know is that I cannot see my father as someone worthy of respect anymore. His values, his biblical interpretation, and his view of humanity are totally incompatible and I cannot be in the room with him anymore.

#vent post #I don’t know if I’ll take this down or not #I’m a verbal processor so this is mostly to help me think #but this is coming after a really long sermon of his where there was a lot of bad theology that was also telling on himself #like speak for yourself Dad I do feel hope in the presence of God #I don’t need to muscle into God’s presence by trying hard enough #by praising him even when I don’t feel like it #I just say “God I’m sad and I don’t feel like praising you. Will you still be with me?” and he IS #sure it’s not easy but I can come to God with my negative emotions #because my negative emotions are not sinful #they’re signals of how I’m doing and I honor that #it helps me search out how to best move forward #just because you don’t seem to process your negative emotions with God doesn’t mean I can’t #just because I’m feeling grief doesn’t mean God can’t meet me there #I keep going back to how much my father must hate himself if he’s this hard on himself all the time #and that would be fine if he didn’t then project that onto everyone #that includes the scripture #and it’s awful because he says with his mouth that he doesn’t believe that and that he walks in God’s grace #he says so much in his words about love and peace and God’s presence but his actions are burdening others with his own perfectionism #and it’s really sad #but impossible to get through to #thanks! it’s the trauma

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mushroompollution · 4 months ago

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real talk, this story arc could have been like 3 chapters shorter if Jack's memories just played straight instead of jumping back and forth and revisiting the same scenes 18 times

#ooc #tbd #anyway chapter summary coming later today #and this one's not too bad but like #some of these could have been an email #going to use this post to keep rambling #as I was writing the drabbles for this tl I kind of got stuck between knowing I can't reasonably include every fucking thing that happens #and wanting to include as much information as possible for anyone who reads my drabbles but not these summaries #and it's impossible I'm so sorry #I think I've included enough to get the general Gist that they have the story backwards #but I can't write out all of Jack's actual backstory that would be insane xhwhdjqkq #also #this tl is written from Leo's pov so he wouldn't see those anyway! (: <-convenient excuse #I might write up an ic summary of the events I have an Idea for that #like how Leo and Elliot wrapped up the ceremony arc lol #but anyway that's why I really want to get through 74 before advancing the plot ic #so everyone can Get what's going on and hopefully be on the same page zhqjajzb

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coelacat · 5 months ago

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the thing they don't tell you is that when you're depressed and poor that the food is actually what drives you most fucking insane

#if i have to eat kraft mivrowave mac again i might actually just permanently dissociate or something #vent #i always feel weird about posting stuff lile this on main but lile. i don't really have anyone else to complain to at the moment and i want #to complain #like oh my god. i couldn't tell you how fucking sick i am of eating the same stuff all the time #can't even actually go grocery shppping because we have to do all of it online #like i can't peruse a store and think about the things i want while i'm in shopping brain #and if i did it's a hell of a walk anyway #and i need to just shut up and eat the stupid food because it doesn't matter if i like it or not #almost none of my emotions genuinely matter in the face of survival 👍#<- that has been the toughest part to grapple with from being a human living under capitalism #like. nothing i feel actually matters because i have to just get through it to leep living anyway #i'm just so tired of all of it. i want to curl up and sleep for forever when i'm hungry #but the prospet of eating food makes me want to die #it's fine. i'm fine. i just don't wanna be here doing this right now. i wanna just study cool stuff and play games #and take care of people but that's just an impossibility right now

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schickenmcnuggentd · 5 months ago

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feeling joyous for i had a sudden craving for chicken nuggets and my local supermarket is offering a free pack for a purchase value of 3€

#shopping for groceries and paying under 3 euros is impossible in this economy this is the best thing ever #how long will i keep going with this account resulting from an inside joke all my friends must have forgotten by now you may not ask?#as long as i can #as long as i desire nuggets #my nugget consumption has decreased significantly over time #(i am generally on the healthier side and barely eat processed or frozen meals and would rather make them myself)#but one day i may become a great nugget home cook #and nuggets are still a rare treat for me i value a lot #i will never not love them i fear #there are vegan nuggets as well #in a very old post i mocked meatless chicken nuggets for not being nuggets (as a joke) but i have gone through character development

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musical-chick-13 · 6 months ago

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Thinking back to the one (1) time (okay one of two) I ever went to a club when I was like eighteen, and a young woman around my age was...idk trying to hit on me by negging? I think? I'm actually not sure, she could have just straight-up been insulting me.

Anyway, I ended up dancing for a bit with this person, and at the time I thought, "Hmm, that was weird," but ten-plus years removed from the situation, I'm starting to think maybe I should have pursued that further. There's a high chance I would have been miserable and uncomfortable, but at least it would have been. Something. However bad this theoretical thing could have been at the time, at least I wouldn't feel like THIS.

#which is. a really scary thing for me to say!#but such is the life when trying to date at all is literally fucking impossible #because apparently I'm the most romance-repellent person on the face of the earth #like this girl had Bad Vibes™ but you know what at least I might have been able to know what it feels like to be wanted for 5 seconds #In the Vents #okay THIS is where I leave for a little bit #I just have to. put things somewhere sometimes.#the good news is that I WAS FINALLY ABLE TO GO TO FUCKING THERAPY. and I think it did help enough to get me through to the #next time I go to therapy.#but sometimes you have to let things out to not-a-therapist. and that means. putting Ugly Emotion Posts on my blog. periodically.#(<- unfortunately for everyone who follows me)#okay. bye.

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theunconcernedembalmer · 7 months ago

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Blog directory

I finally decide to organize everything here

My Count Blog (Joseph + Claude) // My Embrace Blog (Victor)

Art tag: unconcerned art / unconcerned collab

Comics tag: unconcerned comic

Mun tag: its me the mun / unconcerned ramblings

RPs: unconcerned reply

Events

1. Exorcist event (100 followers)

2. Joseph and Mun event

3. 250 request fest (250 followers)

4. chibi muffin event

5. aesop draws

6. Exorcist 2.0 (400 followers)

7. 550 skin event (550 followers)

8. Fenix/Birdsop (700 followers)

9. mun got a new pen

10. cookie event

11. Gatto event (~800 followers)

Comic series

1. Exorcist event (intro / extra)

2. Modern Ghost AU

3. Exorcist 2.0 (intro)

4. Modern Ghost AU 2 electric boogaloo (in progress)

Miscellaneous tags I happen to have: mersop, simp au, gen/shin flavoured, modern au stuff, the drama tm

#im not gonna tag this im pinning this HAHAHAHA #wow ive really done a whole lot for this blog huh. sheds a tear #went through the mass post editor for all this. so hopefully i got them all XD #theres other stuff like my opinions on characters but thats not what ppl r here for so i didnt include those #all my comics including the short 1 - 3 pages ones are in the comics tag. the series are the more serious projects #anyway i did put gatto as the 800 follower event cos i was kind of expecting my follower count to go up by like 5 n reach 800 #but instead it uh. fell by 5 instead. so technically im not at 800 yet #lying on the internet. who wouldve known #i did want to put little summaries for the events n comics but. theyre pretty self explanatory HAHAHAHA #also i really really hope the tags work. that is a lot of posts and tag links im not ready to fix again #im just gonna put the date when i update this just in case. i dont know if there will be any more events or comics #since a lot of things are. well. the odds are pretty stacked. mainly me being out of touch with idv #and the idv ask blog scene in general........ well............#anyway! ill see how long i can do this for. work and life in general makes it impossible for me to be consistently posting everyday all yea #i guess me rambling in the tags will always be a constant huh. do i really want all this to be in a pinned post? yeah sure why not

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thebeautifulfantastic · 2 years ago

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how unfortunate that i have two hyperfixations, several side interests, and a load of homework all clamoring at the same time for priority in my brain

#it’s so frustrating rn because yeah i do have to get some online coursework done so I don’t fail this class #but i ALSO want to relax before to go to bed #so what do i do?#(after i finish another module)#i could start heartstopper season 2 or i could make progress on the book i started today or i could watch a mission impossible movie #or i could watch a greta gerwig movie or i could start that tv show starring rebecca ferguson #there’s no WRONG choice but i want to do it all #& at the same time therefore this feeling that i have to watch things at the ‘right’ time in order to achieve maximum enjoyment #so like. that’s setting me back too because i want to reach maximum enjoyment for all these things #my gut feeling is to just start watching silo since i’m already obsessed with rebecca anyway #and if i watch mission i’d have to start from the first movie which she’s not in (until the fifth movie)#and i’ve been consuming so much alice oseman content lately i feel like i need to take a small break before i watch heartstopper s2 #and my book… well i am in a rush to finish it because i have to get through all my library books before i move #but it could probably wait until tomorrow #idk maybe i’ll watch an episode of silo and then read a few chapters if i’m still awake enough #wow this is such a rambly post i’m so sorry #belle speaks

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toytulini · 11 months ago

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reeeeeeally wish. it didnt feel. like the needs of my body vs the needs of my brain were actively in fucking conflict with each other in a way that makes it impossible to function or exist

#toy txt post #chronic pain #just. really frustrated. cant see a way out or through or over or whatever here yall #augh #and dad wants me to. do what i was doing before that made everything worse somehow as a method to get my foot in the door and fucking #network???? to do?????? unclear. until i get what. middle management?#how the fuck would that help anything #meanwhile i am trying to muster the executive function to complete. the catpans #ouaghghahghhgghg #it is so hard to be gentle with myself about this bc it doesnt feel like i deserve gentleness for it! like i have worked so hard to try to #unlearn the ableism and shit but that doesnt really fucking help much if both my parents just keep that shit so deeply baked into their #worldview that they interpret me trying to treat myself a little gentler as being a lazy freeloader or whatever #like im really trying not to be too harsh on myself about this but for what? at least if im mean to me about it i have ground to stand on #in calling their meanness unjust and unnecessary cos dont worry!!!!!!!!! i can reproduce the entire fucking ableism cycle inside my own #head and self flagellate for not being able ti push through it like you guys did so you dont have to! in fact i am so good at it that it #makes it an impossible topic to address! bc i just speedrun everything into thinking of myself as worthless so you dont have to! see im not #a total laze/s #god. i hate this so much so fucking much. aaaaagh. there are a number of things i CAN do and unfortunately none of them seem to be #the necessary administrative faff of it all #oausbdjsfusbfhshhrrrgrhrhgggg #trying to organize notes of talking points to unpack this a little in therapy this week but its only the second appt. so like. she wanted #to go through a bit of a questionnaire? idkkkk

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