#google play code generator

[crushedsweets]

CREEPED VISUAL NOVEL Link, tutorial, extra art, Q&A, some chatter

The CREEPED Prologue is completely free and browser-ready. Gameplay is about 10 minutes. Please read the "tutorial" and notes before playing!

Follow Y/N and their dog, Max, through their grandparents' farm and a mysterious forest filled with...less than fortunate people!

PLAY HERE; works best on PC

This visual novel is powered by GOOGLE SLIDES! It has 0 programming and was created by one person in a little over a month, so please bear with any "bugs" and clunkiness!

TUTORIAL

>Click using mouse/trackpad >Go slowly to not break game >Do not use arrow or space keys

EXTRA NOTES:

>Works best on PC/Browser, I haven't tested the full game on mobile yet >In general, clicking the PNGs on the textbox (Apple, Teddy Bear, Hatchet, etc) will lead you to the right page >If you land on a page that tells you to "go back," that's when you should click the back-arrow key. If your cursor disappears, it doesn't register the click correctly >I recommend moving your cursor periodically to avoid it disappearing and sending you to the wrong page

EXTRA ART

some WIPS and the original sprite-style i was gonna choose LOOOOOOOL

Q&A

Q: Is this an x reader? A: This is a reader-insert, but it's not romantic and I try to keep it as neutral and unidentifiable as possible! Q: What's the plot? A: GENERALLY AND WITHOUT SPOILERS, your dog gets you into trouble and you're just looking to help him!

Q: Who is in the prologue? A: Tim, Brian, Toby, and Kate! More will be added in future chapters.

Q: When will future chapters be posted? A: Not sure! This took me about a month to do, and half was spent over winter break. I will try to get chapter 1 posted before summer, but I am a full-time student, employed, have extracurriculars, etc etc

ok thats all i only remember 4 questions feel free to ask more LMAO

CHATTER(because you know i can talk forever)

ok i just wanted to be able to talk about how the process was with this and how i feel about the results and whatnot...

ive been wanting to make a google slides visual novel since i was like 13 LOL it hit the point where i was repeatedly told i should just learn to code but i was like NOOOOO ITS GOTTA BE GOOGLE SLIDESSSS which is totally stupid but hey. i think that gives it some sort of simple charm that reminds me of being 16 and doing little projects in my room LOL i like working with the easiest tools . my bad

anyway. im just very happy LOL. it's not perfect but i feel like i came full circle in a sense?!?! i've been into creepypasta since i was 9 and it comforted me when things were really hard, and when i was 18 i was going through a really hard time and got back into creepypasta as a way to distract myself. i've always had a habit of throwing myself into fiction for escapism when things suuucked.

i'm 20 now but i've met SO many amazing people, had so many fun awesome exciting projects with friends, created tons of stuff im proud of, felt more motivated to create since i was like 13, have been inspired by so many amazing artists/authors on here, etc. just so so so lucky to find community in such a tight-knit cute fandom that thrives off of creativity and playing around! i hope i can keep the momentum and make a couple more chapters this year, but im kinda busy with school and work...LOL . i'm just excited to have this posted so i can have more discussion about it T_T

anyway thank you if you read this far and thank you if you played etc etc yaahhhhhh omg ok BYE THIS IS SO EMBARRASSING im just so grateful to be in this fandom

[uraniathegypsy]

To be Hero X Agencies

So I've been thinking alot after Ep. 4 (for....reasons 🥲) but opened up and brought attention of somethings.

One of them being that we get to see more of other Hero Agencies, glimpses of how they operate, and what each of their "brand" is for the Hero Commission.I'd like to dedicated this post on the info that we know and my on personal theories on them.

TREEMAN

First off, we have the Treeman Group whose CEO is Mr. Shand. For their employed Hero/Villain rooster so far has featured:

Nice

Moon

Wreck

Firm Man

Blankster

Lin Ling ( new recruit )

Translated desc.- "a hero agency that makes good use of marketing to shape the hero's personality" (@tbhx_officialCN)

From what we've seen, the mangers and staff take in precaution on how their heroes are depicted on stage, their meet-ups with fans, as well as crafting a boosting narrative for their heroes trust values to grow in the eyes of the fans. They are not above bribery, coercion, and stunt casting in order to push their quota ( as seen by the actions of Miss.J )

Also from what I've seen and gathered, it seems that Treeman possibly owns much of the real estate and city development in this world cause much of their promo features a lot of residential areas and shopping districts with their brand on them.

So maybe them hiring people to play the part of villains is because they are the ones who are able to rebuild plus reshape how fans live and consume.

FOMO

Up next is FOMO, which literally stands for "Fear of Missing Out". Their CEO seems to be this young guy named Zac. Their rooster so far consists of:

Loli

Ahu

Translated desc.- "provides ordinary people with opportunities to speak out and become famous" (@tbhx_officialCN)

So from their general description they seem like the mostly are in tune with what regular people are doing, and finding out what's new and fresh.

From the look of their office space, FOMO it's the most colorful and lively of the 4 agencies. It gives off what a lot of start-up tech, social media, and web HQs like Google and Youtube.

It's possible that most, if not all, of their heroes started out as Influencers or people that became heroes through viral moments on the web. Maybe their dark side is that their heroes have to keep coming up with more new, and exciting acts or content to please their fans to keep raking in Trust Value.

It could be more possible that FOMO has the same guide lines like YouTube, Twitter, and Twitch. ( Which would be pretty bleak ^^')

MIGHTY GLORY

Third, we have Mighty Glory whose CEO is the mystery guy right here. Their rooster, as far as we know, consist of:

E-Soul

Ghostblade

Dragon Boy

Translated desc.- "The ace hero organization Mighty Glory has successfully cultivated many high-ranking heroes" (@tbhx_officialCN)

Just looking at the main heroes they have, this agency mainly focuses on acquiring heroes that have a wide-ranged of fighting and physical skills.

They also seem to have morally gray code and ethics. Some not against pummeling or killing those that they deemed "deserve it".

My theories on the CEO is that he is collects and sees their heroes how a Roman Emperor does with Gladiators. They are valued solely on their combatant attributes and merciless displays, but are kept in line behind the scenes like wild animals or slaves.

DOS

And lastly, we have DOS. I have yet to find what it the abbreviation means, but this is their CEO, Mickey. Their hero rooster, so far in the show, consists of:

Queen

Lucky Cyan

The Johnnies

Translated desc. - "DOS pursues high efficiency by acquiring a large number of small hero companies to grow stronger." (@tbhx_officialCN)

So it seems like they are the largest AND most powerful agency out of the collective 4. It has a very...Disney way of acquiring more heroes to cultivate it's company.

They have means to tap into different markets of branding for their heroes.

On one brand, you can appeal to animal lovers and sell marketable mascot plushies, and on the other, you can appeal to pop star and music fans who want to see their favorite idol to succeed.

Not to mention they hold one of the strongest powerhouses to take the title of X.

O_O!!

Disney Evil! This company is willing to obtain and cultivate their heroes so it can become the most controlling Hero IP out in the world (This CEO is Steve Jobs and Bob Iger rolled into one).

So if their was ever a chance or motive for these agencies claim to dominance. it's DOS.

So I hope you enjoyed my on-the spot, collective analysis and ramblings on the agencies so far. I'm still holding on to some other theories and little details I spot that I want to post soon (hopefully a shorter one ^^')

[charmedreincarnation]

MOAB subliminal challenge

(Click links)

The Mother of All Boosters, commonly known as MOAB, is a high-potency subliminal booster originally created by the user ItsaKid (also known as Synergeticboy). Developed over the course of nine months and upgraded in three, MOAB is engineered to serve as the foundational accelerator for any subliminal system, built with both speed and complexity in mind. While multiple versions exist, MOAB 1.0 remains the go-to for those prioritizing rapid, concentrated results. It activates deep neural, energetic, and subconscious layers, effectively removing resistance, integrating affirmations faster, and collapsing the delay between intention and manifestation.

MOAB is structured around a modular design system—each formula is written in code-like expressions, such as {B} = {Topic} or {S} = {Topic[Submaker (Formula)] × Topic[Submaker (Formula)]}. These modules allow users to target specific goals (like confidence, wealth, or void state access) and fuse them together to multiply their effects. The booster works in tandem with these scripts, interpreting them like psychic commands. MOAB 1.0 is optimized for velocity: it initiates a kind of subliminal combustion that prioritizes speed over subtlety, making it ideal for users who are mentally stable and spiritually prepared for rapid transformations.

We will be using 1.0 rather than 2.0 because it focuses on speed. In essence, MOAB 1.0 acts like a raw psychic amplifier. It does not hold back. It is especially compatible with other generative subliminals, morphic fields, or void-based systems. When paired with clean scripting and a clear mental field, MOAB doesn’t just boost results—it warps time around them, often collapsing what would take weeks into hours or days. Due to its sheer intensity, scripting clarity, hydration, and intentionality are strongly recommended. This is not a casual track—it is the Paragon Core for speedrunners of the subconscious realm.

If you’d rather use your own subliminals instead of the ones I picked, you’ll need to learn and research how the module system works on your own. Direct any specific questions to the original creator on Reddit or to ishteham. I just don’t have time to build individual module setups for everyone. :)

The challenge

This challenge is extremely simple and honestly, you don’t even need to overthink it or do deep research unless you want to. I’ve already done the work for you. Everything is set up. The subs are chosen, the formula is written. All you have to do is follow the steps below and stay consistent.

1. Every morning, listen to the MOAB Booster. (Download here)

It’s about 45 minutes long. If you’re short on time, just set an alarm for an hour before you need to wake up, play it, and go back to sleep. That’s it. One listen per day.

Then, throughout the day (and overnight if you’d like), listen to the two subliminals I’ve assigned for this challenge. You can loop them while you work, study, sleep—whatever works for you.

2. Make a playlist called: MOAB Challenge

Add these two subliminals to it:

Infinite abundance by moza mroph

Problem solving by slade

These are your daily subs. Listen whenever you feel called, or just keep them looping gently in the background during the day or while you sleep.

3.important (!!!)

Save this in your Notes, Google Docs, or wherever you track subliminals. DO NOT CHANGE ANYTHING. This is your energetic formula. Just copy and paste it lol.

{S}= {infinite abundance[Moza morph (C.O.D)]} X{Problem solving[Submaker (Formula)]}

{S}= {infinite abundance[Moza morph (C.O.D)]} X{Problem solving[slade (thestral wings)]}

{B} = {Lucid Dreaming}

{B} = {Manifesting}

{B} = {Reality Shifting}

{B} = {Self Concept}

{B} = {Luck}

{B} = {Wealth Building}

{B} = {Mental Health}

{B} = {Void State}

{B} = {Lucid Dreaming(G)}

{B} = {Manifesting(G)}

{B} = {Reality Shifting(G)}

{B} = {Self Concept(G)}

{B} = {Luck(G)}

{B} = {Wealth Building(G)}

{B} = {Mental Health(G)}

{B} = {Void State(G)}

{R}= {Infinite Abundance [Moza Morph (C.O.D)]}

{R}= {Problem Solving [Slade (Thestral Wings)]}

{C} = {MOAB Challenge}

{H} = {Lucid Dreaming}

{H} = {Manifesting}

{H} = {Reality Shifting}

{H} = {Self Concept}

{H} = {Luck}

{H} = {Wealth Building}

{H} = {Mental Health}

{H} = {Void State}

If you’re using your own subliminals instead of the ones I provided, you’ll need to create your own formula and module sheet. If you have questions about how to structure them, I recommend reaching out to the creator directly—@Itsakid has a Reddit community and can explain everything way better than I can. He built the system, so you’ll get the most accurate answers there. But here’s the module explanation.

Final words

The subliminals used in this challenge also work perfectly with the Lucid Dreaming Challenge so if you want to combine both, go for it.

That’s it. I lucid dreamt immediately using this method. It’s simple but powerful especially if you’ve struggled with manifestation, resistance, or stagnancy. The booster handles integration.

[coquettetoji]

{💌} ARMIN ARLERT MOODBOARD

★ general armin hcs ★

— sweetest soul who is 100% down to earth, will scold you for not recycling your fork into the correct trash can and will pick up plastic / any trash on the ground

— nerdy golden retriever boy, and is the biggest people pleaser

— played hockey growing up and in college, he’s a right winger

— reads a shit ton of books, will press pretty and colorful flowers he finds outside into the book spine to save it

— is academically and naturally smart, gpa is a strong 4.2, majors in business, economics, or biology, some smart shit like that ( will grow up to be that hot rich dad every single mom wants )

— SLEEPER BUILD 🗣️🗣️AND A V LINE🗣️🗣️

— hands are big but they’re like bony and soft, he also plays piano so he’s good with his hands *moan*

— his most used app is spotify, google classroom, and messages

— lana del rey coded. i will argue with anyone who thinks otherwise.

— listens to cigarettes after sex, clairo, and this one random 63 hour playlist called ‘band cafe soft jazz music’

— speaking of cigarettes, armin also smokes cigarettes (ik i’m sorry) but this guy is a student athlete, ofc he’s gonna have to de-stress somehow

— drives the newest model of a white range rover with beige interior

— 6���1 teddy bear with attachment issues

— speaks french fluently

— so so so soft spoken like you will never see him yelling at another person, even when he’s frustrated

— also doesn’t like cursing, will give someone a quick glance if they cuss but won’t mind it

— has a gold chain around his neck, yes the slutty kind

— came from old money 🤭🤑, he dresses like it too i’m talking quarter zips, sweaters, khakis, and neutral colors, wears his gold thin wire framed glasses occasionally

— knows all girl shit bc of his little sister (who he adores) he learned how to take care of her so he’s really reliable when it comes to treating girls right

— his phone case is the apple silicone one that’s cream color, keeps one of his credit cards in the case behind his phone

— phone screen is him and his puppy ( spot the difference game for everyone 👍 )

— every woman he knows or did a favor for all say “his mother raised him right”

— the most organized person ever, his whole pantry would labeled and organized like khloe kardashian’s

— eren and armin are 100% that black cat golden retriever duo, take a wild guess on who is which lol

— 2 deep dimples on his cheeks that pop out when he smiles, also has light freckles dusted on his nose n around it, has the straightest whitest teeth + an adorable smile **he’s so grateful for braces existing

— overall the most genuine human out there, no detection of fuck boy here 😁😁😁

{💌} new message from mica

armin is actually my baby i love him so much i need me a soft spoken tall nerdy blonde white boy in my life now

[mogruith]

BG3 Virtual Photography Supplement: Mods and Resources

Here's some popular and useful mods I use for virtual photography! I will try to update this as I find more. You may find these useful with the rest of my tutorial:

Chapter 0: Overview

Chapter 1: Script Extender Debug Console

Chapter 2: Scene Manipulation

Chapter 2.5: More Scene Manipulation

Chapter 3: Otis_Inf Camera Tools

Supplement: Mods and Resources

Tools

EasyCheat - Teleport to locations near and far, summon armor and items for your characters, clean the dirt off. All at the press of a button!

Lighty Lights - An incredible tool but terribly finicky. Actively being worked on.

Native Camera Tweaks - A Native Mod that allows you to unlock the camera pitch and zoom in and out of combat. It's handy for photo stuff but generally useful.

WASD Character Movement - another Native mod for WASD movement. More precise placement of characters in the field.

Remove Broken Objects - can help clean up sets.

Scribe Object Inspector and Event Logging - sometimes you need to find the IDs of objects in the game. This is an easy way to do it.

Polyamory Mod - can be useful for flag checking but I haven't used it recently. But it may have use for some.

Characters

Full Custom Companions (Hirelings) - have full custom control over hirelings. Great if you wanna add more Tavs to your shots! Have done family portraits for my Tav's family this way, it's so fun!

Recruit any NPC - Make an NPC a playable character. Can be really handy sometimes if you don't wanna do code transformations.

Appearance Edit Enhanced - if you're not using this already, you should be. Modify your characters at any time. Works great with the Custom Hirelings mod.

Transmogs and Spelltheft - identity theft! Another mod that lets you copy the appearance of characters. There was some special case scenario that I used an old version of this but I don't recall what that is anymore. Listing it here anyway.

Ring of Metamorphosis - Another mod for changing your character into several known characters and also INVISIBLE. Being invisible is extremely useful when you start conversations for facial expressions but you don't want another character in the way of a shot.

Effects

Pretty Particles - I've only used this once but if you combine it with Depth of Field, you can use it to get some really pretty bokeh effects. Also, blood and sweat in varying degrees/combinations.

No Annoying VFX - a series of mods that will remove the effects that you may not want for a shot. Like casting glows, glowing armor, UI indicators, among other things.

Posing

Hugs - Hug your companions!! Great for a quick and cute hug that doesn't require any coding.

Kisses - Kiss your companions using anybody animations! For best results cast the spells on a body type that matches up.

Replayable Romance Scenes - what it says on the tin. Romance scenes playable through casting a spell. These cutscenes play in new locations.

Stay Still In Camp and Play Idle Animations Everywhere - basically what it says. Once you switch from a companion to Tav, they won't run back to their tent. They also have some idle animations that are new.

Sit Happens - spawn chairs to sit!

Emotes - Poses and Toggle Walk - TONS of poses to use in the open world. Extremely useful for non-cinematic shots.

Cutscenes

Cut Scene Edits for Better Screenshots - A mod by Moxi that allows for cutscenes to be modified slightly - including forced clothing when you want something custom (shirtless Astarion, for example), removing Karlach's glow from her cutscene, among other things. Take a read through.

Musical Instrument Yeet - Sometimes the instruments pop up in a kiss cutscene and it is really distracting. Remove them with this!

Resources

Moxi's Research Directory - TONS of resources for finding character UUIDs, some copy-pastes ready to modify for scenes, cool locations like Private Camp Rooms and how to get there, Teleport commands. HANDY!

Google Spreadsheet of Tags - for scripting purposes.

Google Spreadsheet of Dialogue Lines - for finding cutscenes you want to script and play.

A few useful ScriptExtender commands.

An In Depth list of Osiris Commands - for advanced use.

LaughingLeader's list of Osiris Commands - another resource for commands.

[olenvasynyt]

I know my fellow artists and creators have been frustrated with the rise of AI on Pinterest and Google.  Many of us find it difficult to serch for good references, tips, and general inspiration for art.  So I want to share my collection of good, free websites for artists, designers, film makers, and creators so we can create without ugly AI images staring in our faces 🙌

Sketchfab

An incredible source for references.  Has a huge collection of 3D animals, architecture, interior rooms, vehicles, food, objects, furniture, nature, memes, characters, etc etc etc. You can literally find several insanely detailed 3D models of the Notre Dame (this one is insane) Models can rotated at any angle as well as zoomed in and out.  You can also change the view of the model to be matcap with flat, colorless planes, wireframe, or base color as opposed to fully rendered.  

Cons: there are many uploads that are random and incredibly specific, which overwhelms the search.  Can be excellent for game designers who want to download models but for artists looking for drawing references, you might have to dig a bit for what you want.  Can be so fun for playing around and using crazy fun references for practicing.

Designspiration

As a photographer and graphic designer and someone who can doomscroll on pinterest forever, this is my favorite for finding inspiration for everything: typography, logos, product mockups, illustration, photography, web design, etc.  Has an amazing feature where you can search for art with specific hex codes!  Probably the coolest feature I’ve seen in search engines, and by far superior to google's color search. This site is mostly for design inspiration, but I feel like if you are super into moodboards, then this is the site for you too especially with the beautiful selection of photography.

Cons: I have no cons, I love this website so much and I used to be addicted to pinterest (still am actually😬) but this is easily my new favorite

Public Works by Cosmos 

Thousands of artworks enter the public domain every year, and this website is a search engine for other 100,000 of those copyright free works.  All of these works are free to edit, use, and sell with few restrictions.

Cons: I personally find the layout for the search feed a bit frustrating to look around in sometimes, because it’s not the typical "scroll up and down" website. But is very dynamic and overall fun to explore.

Same.energy 

This is a good visual search engine that’s a good replacement for Google images and Pinterest.  The minimal words makes it simple and easy, and clicking on an image you like to filter the feed to find similar images.

Cons: this is in beta so it still have some kinks to work out. It seems to struggle with specific searches and some of the images brought up in the search can be repetitive or not relevant.  

Reference Angle

A website for finding face references in any specific angle and any expression for any gender and age.

Cons: I would love this website more if it gave you the ability to customize the light source, but sadly is not an option.  I also feel like there is not a lot of racial diversity in the photos, and some of the images do not match the specific angle. But it is overall a great source for face references

Virtual Lighting Studio by zvork

A good source for light studies.  You can change the source, direction, color, and brightness as well stacking several light sources on top of each other.  

Cons: there isn’t a way to angle the face or change the expression, so it is permanently in portrait mode.  There are four different models and I’m not the biggest fan of some of them…I like the black guy the best because he looks at me kindly instead staring into my soul like the two white guys. The ads are also a bit obnoxious and for the love of god DO NOT USE IN MOBILE!!!  The ads are impossible to get rid of.

Film Grab

An archive of stills from a huge list of movies.  Good for film makers, photographers, art studies, moodboards, inspiration, etc. Has a huge selection of movies and you can search by movie, director, costume designer, aspect ratio, year, genre, and country. You can also hit random post and it'll give you a random movie, which I think is really fun.

Cons: I do not recommend mobile. The mobile does not have the option to search for a specific movie, so you're forced to scroll through the giant A-Z list of directors or films to find the specific film you were looking for.  Another con that I just discovered: a big-ass ad on the top of the website that occasionally advertises AI websites 🤢 (not shown on the screenshots I shared because ew)

Unsplash

Another image search website that has the feeling of Pinterest

Cons: some images are locked for premium only, and the feed is a bit frustrating to scroll through on mobile since they show the images one at a time instead of as a nice collage like pinterest.  Some images can also be irrelevant to the search.

Sending lots of love to my fellow artists and creative peeps out there. AI sucks and it feels like it's overwhelming the creative space. But I promise there is a way to avoid it! Keep creating 💕

[huellitaa]

୭ 🎀🐈‍⬛🧁 about bee...

hiii! my name is bee ♡ and i'm a teenage disaster living in england with a rly rly big heart and rly rly big dreams . i really really really love things like fashion, philosophy, psychology, self growth, writing, poetry, journalism, girly things, music, blogging, websurfing, pinterest boarding, playlist making, crafting, decorating,,,, i could go on!!! ♡ 💭🫶🏼🩷

i really love to think and to speak and to sing (even if i'm not very good at it) and to try and to fail and to get back up again and learn from my mistakes and come back better and more beautiful than before. some random notes about me are that i play drums, guitar, and keyboard, i have obsessive compulsive disorder and segmental heterochromia, and i also have not slept a night without a plushie since i was born . i also love my friends and my family with all my heart ♡

── my interests ✧˚. ᵎᵎ 👛🐈‍⬛.⋆｡‧

♡ self improvement as a whole ♡ anything 2 do with sanrio! ♡ gyaru fashion and styles ♡ tomorrow x together ♡ ♡ my little pony ♡ ♡ fashion journalism ♡ 2000's girly kpop like kara, girls generation, wonder girls, etc. ♡ music of any genre & musical history ♡ writing long and complex documents to hide in my google drive ♡

♡ ashnikko, pierce the veil, kali uchis, the marías, millionares, pinkpantheress, ive, avril lavigne, 6arelyhuman, mariah carey, gwen stefani, tommy february6, paramore, jazmin bean, wave to earth, nicole dollanganger, nessa barrett, elita

♡ death note, nana, madoka magica, jujutsu kaisen, louis theroux documentaries, bratz 2005, monster high, gilmore girls, gossip girl, inside job ♡

♡ draculaura, l lawliet, georgina sparks, pinkie pie, my melody, madoka kaname ♡ ♡ working on my many projects ♡ ♡ full metal alchemist (brotherhood) ♡

♡ shushucherry, vivienne westwood, angelic pretty, ma*rs, juicy couture ♡ florence & the machine ♡ ♡ lord of the rings (movies, books, & games; shadow of mordor)

♡ any type of magazine (irl or digital)

♡ old gothic literature (particularly h.p. lovecraft and bram stoker's dracula!!!!!! ♡) ♡ decorating, painting and creating

♡ ada lovelace & marilyn monroe ♡ ♡ the witcher (games, books and series) ♡ music journalism ♡

talk 2 me about any of these and i'll love you forever .i'm so serious

── my hobbies ✧˚. ᵎᵎ 🧁🐧.⋆｡‧

♡ websurfing ♡ girlblogging ♡ painting

♡ dancing ♡ coding ♡ decorating

♡ singing ♡ video games

♡ scrapbooking ♡ studying and learning ♡ playing instruments ♡ wandering the lines between morality's many faces ♡ pondering the lost and the forgotten

── my signatures ✧˚. ᵎᵎ 🧸🩰.⋆｡‧

♡ heart dotted i's ♡ lalaloopsies ♡ (un)fashionably late ♡ cutesy hairclips ♡ black cat emojis ♡ frilled ribbons ♡ paint smudges ♡ handdrawn penguins ♡ lots of keychains

── my favourites ✧˚. ᵎᵎ 🫶🏼🎀.⋆｡‧

(in no particular order ,, i love all of u guys!!!!!!!!!!!!!♡)

♡ @raym0ri my gorgeous gorgeous girlfriend,, my beautiful wife with their beautiful artworks and beautiful whimsy

♡ @sillyeveline my siamese twin and my bestest best firned ever !!!!!!!!!! (1/2) gorgeous goth girl best friend and misa irl

♡ @ngtvcr33p my bestest best best friend ever!!!!!!!!!! (2/2) silly hannibal enjoyer and #1 trashy teen boy. also the bunny ever

♡ @jiraipill cal's wife, american in denial and a very sily farm angel .we love her

♡ all my beautiful mutuals!!!!!!11 i love u guys so much♡

[irradiatedsnakes]

hey! here's the rip of all of dialtown's text!

hiiiii it's finally here! i cleaned it up! every line of dialogue in the game ripped out (over 300k words, it's a chunky game!) and laid out in plain text for your easy reference. includes both the basegame and roger dlc!

HOW THIS WORKS:

there's a couple versions of the 000 ALL THE TEXT IN THE GAME CLEAN file. this is the entire game in one file, for easy crtl+f'ing. it's also the cleanest version, without any code/font specification/color specification present. this file is included in both .txt and .docx versions. i don't recommend opening this file with google docs, the length makes it sad. it works just fine for me opening in MS word and notepad for searching up dialogue. this is what it looks like!

there is also the 000 RAW ALL THE TEXT IN THE GAME file. this is the un-cleaned-up version, as the text ripper spit it back out at me. it has no paragraph breaks. it looks like this.

lastly is all the rest of the files in the drive, ALL THE INDIVIDUAL MAP FILES. in these, dialogue is split up by each individual map (generally, every scene is its own map). these are ordered and named according to the ingame data. these also include code bits- font changes, text colors, pauses in speaking, text size, and so on. it looks like this!

enjoy! i hope you find it useful. (and tysm to dogman for permission to post this!)

HOW TO READ THESE:

so, there's a couple quirks with these. firstly, nested choices don't really display in a very comprehensible format: they're more just in order. so, for example, this exchange:

what i've highlighted here first are gingi's 3 dialogue options. you can see each option denoted by a -. so like:

Gingi: -"Option 1." -"Option 2." -"Option 3."

the corresponding start of peter's dialogue is highlighted in the same color. in cases like this, you mostly have to use context to figure out what's responding to what.

you'll also see repeated lines when someone uses a gendered term to refer to gingi- all versions of the line (for whether you're playing as a man/woman/neither) will be in a row, like so.

one kink i wasn't able to iron out is the narrator's dialogue in the all-the-text-in-the-game file. while the paragraph breaks in the individual map files make it clear (because the narrator's the only one with no name and font tags), the all-the-text file just has narrator's dialogue immediately follow whoever spoke previously, almost always gingi. use context clues, or check up on the individual map file

all-the-text:

individual map:

use context clues, or check up on the individual map file to be absolutely sure. if you want to know which map file you're at, scroll up til you get to something that looks like this:

so, you can see that this convo with madame mediocre happens in map 31, "randmug". this one!

you may also notice the blank space or \n[#] where gingi's pronouns would go. that's just a byproduct of the pronoun system. imagine whichever gingi-noun you wish

laaastly, a little guide to the individual map files' code bits, or at least the most common ones:

\fn changes font. usually present at the start of someone's dialogue

\. indicates a 1/4 second pause in dialogue

\c[#] changes the font color

\{ and \} text within these brackets is bigger

\m[Name] a shorthand macro used for a few characters to call their font and color.

\fi makes text italic. most of the text in the game is in italics, so a lot of dialogue starts with this.

i think that's all the notes i've got..let me know if i've missed anything egregious. have fun!

[evertidings]

Hi Kristi! I'm sure youve already had similar asks but I cannot for the life of me find them. I was wondering how you learned code for your IFs and in general. Did you start with interactive fiction or did you already have an introduction to coding previously? Thanks

Long story short, I took a template (I have a few linked on my itch.io page; I personally used the one from @/cerberus-writes), analyzed it and customized it based on what I understood. It was a lot of trial and error, with a ton of Google searches, but I was so determined to make it my own and stop using Choicescript (which yes, is what I started out with) that I pushed through any difficulties.

To be quite honest, I don't think I could do something like that again, but hey, this goes to show that if you put your mind to something, it can happen.

I've answered a few other asks like this (this is probably my most in depth response to it), but I usually just say that you need to play around with things. If you need more structure, you can always do (free) courses on CodeAcademy or The Odin Project but those mostly show you the basics of the HTML/CSS language, and not necessarily how to construct something you're happy with.

[the-hasegawa-fan]

@tingthething dared me to post this on tumblr so... HERE GOES NOTHING...!

Everything (I can remember) I've done since first meeting Hasegawa Ken

ohhhh boy..

- Memorized his hair hex code

- Can name most of his profile from memory

- Saved over 300+ pictures of js his sprite alone

- 2,000+ photos of him in my gallery

- Made a playlist of every episode he's in, in my first week of watching tetro

- Saved the OTHER all ken vids playlist js bc

- Drew him over 100+ times

- Wrote about 15+ essays in a few months

- At LEAST 9-10K words worth on those essays

- Written some of his dialogue WORD FOR WORD

- Wrote his name in my journal 100+ times straight

- Turned at least 40 random words/phrases including "The physics of a flying cow" and "cannibalism" into a Hasegawa Ken reference

- Gave away MONEY for him

- Spent multiple hours of my life sobbing over him

- Begged and pleaded for his interview for months

- Defended him since day 1

- Bookmarked his google search page

- Bookmarked his terminal

- Bookmarked his wiki page (on my computer, phone, and ipad)

- Informed my friends about Hasegawa

- Converted about... 3-5 people into adoring Ken

- My entire family knows him by first and last name

- dedicated at the ***very least*** a month STRAIGHTs worth of time to Hasegawa

- Went out and asked to go to places just bc they REMINDED me of him

- Skipped classes, and school days in general over him

- In the progress of memorizing all of [Matter of Taste]

- Memorized current info about [Matter of Taste]

- Left messages/drawings of him in 3 museums thus far (my goal is 14)

- Wrote him across multiple surfaces in public

- Extended family are aware of his existence

- Teachers are aware of his existence

- My classmates may also know of his existence

- When I first joined Tetrocord the FIRST THING I did was go to tetro art and scope out every single hasegawa art

- Multiple google docs of mine are DEDICATED to him

- He was my phone theme for quite the amount of time

- Have req'd multiple artists as soon I see art reqs open for "HASEGAWA KEN!!!"

- Cried in sheer and utter JOY each time he's proven innocent in a trial

- Listen to the Hasegawa Maid Audio... I've played it about 60-70 times now??? Maybe? I leave it looping sometimes so I lost track lol

- Got my phonecase based off smth related to him

- Set alarms to wake myself up for every premiere that includes him

There's so much more I'm forgetting probably- 😭 I keep remembering stuff as I go along- BUT YEAH!!! HERES MY LIST :3

[luulapants]

Do you have any tips to be more punk in 2025 specifically for minors?

Hey, great question! Let's take a look at our list and see what still applies and what we can flip around for you.

Cut fast fashion - Still applies! Try clothing swaps with friends.

Cut subscriptions Analyze your media consumption - Do you tend to play phone games that are psychologically manipulative? Are algorithms taking you to content that makes you upset? Track your screen time, think about what's being sold to you, and resist only consuming the media that is fed to you.

Green your community self - Forget touching grass, find ways to touch dirt. Spend time outside in nature. Go for hikes, look at trees, track how plants and animals change over the seasons. You're part of the natural world, so go connect with it!

Be kind - Still applies! Try handing out more compliments.

Intervene - Still applies, and especially applies to bullies, including teachers. This can be as simple as saying, "That was a really messed up thing to say. I think you owe X an apology."

Get closer to your food - Still applies! Try packing your lunch.

Use opensource software Reject Web 2.0 - Before you try to learn Linux, people your age need to start by learning some basic computer and coding skills. My generation was given computer classes and had social media that encouraged custom coding. Yours has been deprived of this education and given prepackaged web content. Reject AI. Right click + inspect element + fuck around. Learn Raspberry Pi. Become the cyberpunk hacker you want to see in the world.

Make less trash - Still applies! If mom won't let you start a compost in the backyard, propose starting one at school!

Get involved in local school politics - Know what's going on with your school board, with school administration. Start an underground, uncensored school newspaper with the real dirt.

DIY > fashion - High school is where a lot of adults learned their bad habits about keeping up with appearance/fashion demands. Refuse to buy in now and make homemade the new cool.

Ditch Google - Still applies! And also check your app settings to see if you have apps with unnecessary permissions.

Forage - Still applies!

Volunteer - Still applies! There might be fewer opportunities for minors, but you'll never know until you ask. Don't be afraid to be the only young person at the volunteer session.

Help your neighbors classmates - Offer to study with students who are struggling. Become someone people can trust to tell if their home situation is difficult. If you have friends who don't get enough to eat at home, bring them home for dinner. Check on people.

Fix stuff - Still applies! This can be a fun activity with friends, too. Let's all hang out and see if we can fix this busted stereo!

Mix up your transit - Still applies! Is taking the bus considered lame at your school? Do it anyway.

Engage in the arts - Still applies! Pay attention to art events that your classmates are putting on. Go to the school play - or join! Stop in the art classrooms to see what people are working on.

Go to the library - Still applies, public and school libraries! Talk to the librarians - they know things. Find out if there are after school programs you can take advantage of.

Listen local - Even more local! Stop by the band room after school to listen to practice. Does someone in your school have a band? Listen to them, cheer them on! Start a band! The great thing about punk music is that you can be really, really awful and still sound punk as hell.

Buy local Barter local - Lots of young folks don't have much control over or access to money, but that doesn't mean you and your classmates can't engage in barter. Figure out what you have to offer that other people might want, and trade for stuff you want. I used to cut hair and pierce ears in exchange for weed and rides to the mall. Maybe you can sew a friend's jacket in exchange for them bringing you a homemade lunch.

Become unmarketable - Still applies! PLEASE do this.

Use cash Steal ethically - Before engaging in shoplifting, make sure you know who you're stealing from! Stealing from Walmart is morally correct. Stealing from a family-owned grocery, a local coop, or a local artist? That fucking sucks, dude. Don't do it.

Give what you can - And only what you can. We ask a godawful lot from teens. You're in school all day, you're doing extracurriculars and maybe working and doing homework. You probably don't have a lot of money. You probably don't have a lot of time. But maybe you can bring your elderly neighbor's trash cans up from the street. Find the small actions that you have space for.

Talk about wages - PLEASE! If you have a job, this applies to you even more. Why? Because the adults working at your minimum wage job probably can't afford to be rabble rousers, but what do you have to lose except your shitty part-time Panera job?? A teenager who doesn't actually need their job to live has the opportunity to be the voice of truth in any workplace.

Think about wealthflow Resist indoctrination - Education systems are being gutted. Algorithms are feeding us misinformation. Cocomelon probably gave you ADHD or some shit - Jesus. It's a mess. Do what you can to practice critical thinking, expand your literacy, read stuff that seems boring. Start a book club or philosophy club with your friends. Ask who's profiting from a given situation. Resist knee-jerk reactions. Becoming an educated, thoughtful person is one of the greatest acts of resistance a young person today can engage in.

[milgram-en]

Trial 2 - Neoplasm Voice Drama (Side-by-Side English Translation)

Preface: This is a side-by-side translation of Mikoto Kayano's Trial 2 voice drama Neoplasm in which the original Japanese text is directly taken from the official scriptbook. Translating this was a challenge considering how well Yamanaka plays around with the Japanese language to develop his characters, so be prepared for all the translator's notes. Google Docs version of this translation (formatted as an actual script and more readable (in print layout) than this tumblr post). If using/reuploading/reposting this translation, do not remove the translator's notes, do not color code the translations, and do not change the translations. Additional Translator's Notes will be found in the replies. Check the original post before reblogging as TLs are occasionally revisited and edited.

ミルグラム監獄内 尋問室 INTERROGATION ROOM IN MILGRAM PRISON 薄暗い尋問室。 エスが尋問室の扉を開けると、うなだれているミコト。 A dimly lit interrogation room. ES opens the door to the interrogation room, finding MIKOTO with his head down. エス　「……ミコト」 ES: ...Mikoto ミコト　「……あ。やぁ、看守くん」 MIKOTO: ...Ah- Hey, Warden-kun. ミコトが顔をあげる。 MIKOTO lifts his head. エス　「お前、ミコトだよな？」 ES: You're... Mikoto, right? ミコト　「何言ってんの……？」 MIKOTO: What are you saying...?

覚醒したてのような、まどろみを感じている顔つき。 そこで初めて自分の四肢に鎖が巻きついていることに気づく。 MIKOTO has the look of someone just waking up, still in a daze. It's only then that he notices the restraints wrapped around his limbs.

ミコト　「なんか久しぶりな気がするなぁ……元気してた？あれ、なんだ……鎖？やだな、外してよ」 MIKOTO: It feels like it’s been a while… How have you been? Wait- What’s this… Restraints? Oh no- Please take them off! エス　「却下。オマエは危険すぎる。物理的な拘束は必須だ」 ES: Rejected. You are too dangerous. Physical restraints are necessary. ミコト　「ん、えっと……はは、こんな人畜無害な人をつかまえて何言ってんの」 MIKOTO: Oh- Ah…haha. What are you saying, restraining someone who can’t even hurt a fly, right? エス　「やはり、自覚がないんだな」 ES: As expected, you’re still not self-aware, huh? ミコト　「いや、さ。さすがにわかるよ。僕は寝てる間に暴れちゃうんでしょ」 MIKOTO: No- Well… It’s kinda expected that I know. 𝗜’m… the one acting violently while I’m asleep, aren’t I? Everyone’s been telling me Kotoko and I traded blows a lot. T/N: This is the first instance of any first-person pronouns being used by MIKOTO. "I (boku) am the one acting violently while I'm asleep, aren't I?". Only the kanji boku (僕) is used in Neoplasm, unlike in MeMe where both kanji boku (僕) and katakana boku (ボク) were used. エス　「……」 ES: … ミコト　「みんなが教えてくれた。コトちゃんとドンパチやらかしたとかさ」 MIKOTO: Everyone’s been telling me Koto-chan and I traded blows a lot. エ ス　「そうらしいな」 ES: That appears to be the case. ミコト　「夢遊病的な、そういうヤツなのかなぁ……最近眠くなる頻度も高くなっちゃって、いや、はは。困っちゃうよねぇ」 MIKOTO: I wonder if it’s some sort of… pathological sleepwalking thing, y’know? I’ve been sleepy more often recently. Geez… Haha.. It’s a bit of a problem, isn’t it?

さみしげに笑うミコト。 MIKOTO smiles somberly.

エス　「ミコト……」 ES: Mikoto… ミコト　「みんな僕を怖がってる。態度見たらわかるんだ。空気読めちゃうから、僕……」 MIKOTO: Everyone’s afraid of me. I can tell by the way they look at me ‘cause I’m usually always reading the room. 𝗜... T/N: Mikoto says 空気読めちゃう (kuuki yomechau) which has a nuance of "accidentally/completely reading the room" and a feeling of regret. エス「……」 ES: … ミコト　「やんなっちゃうよね、はは。ココに来てからずーっと訳わかんないよ」 MIKOTO: Getting so so sick of it, you know? Ahaha. Ever since I came here, nothing has been making any sense. T/N: This is spoken with a full lean into Kanto dialect, specifically the syntax/phrasing of the younger generation's Tokyo dialect. When he says "here", ココ (koko) being spelled in katakana implies a sense of dissociation from the "here"; the prison location MIKOTO is in at the moment. エス　「……お前は、本当に苦しいときに笑うんだな」 ES: You…You really do laugh when you’re in pain, don’t you? ミコト　「え？」 MIKOTO: Huh? エス　「怒ったり、叫んだりしないんだ。困ったように、笑う」 ES: You don’t get angry. You don’t scream. You don’t understand, grasp things as they are, in difficult situations. You awkwardly smile and laugh like it’s a minor inconvenience. ミコト　「あー。いや、そうだね。僕、そういうとこあるかもね」 MIKOTO: Ahh… Huh- Yeah, you’re right. 𝗜- Maybe that’s just the way it is. T/N: Depending on how boku pronounced, it associates a different image upon its speaker. Mikoto says 僕 (boku) with a falling pitch (boku↘) in this line which gives a childish vibe. Normally, guys his age would use 僕 (boku↗︎) with a rising pitch as it sounds more mature like in previous instances of 僕 (boku). エス　「……」 ES: … ミコト　「たいてい笑って誤魔化してりゃ、上手くいくじゃん。そういうとこ器用だからさ、それなりにこなしてさ」 MIKOTO: Usually, if you just laugh it off to take your mind off of things, it all works out in the end, right? I’m pretty good at that sort of thing. With the kind of place this place is, that’s one way to deal with it.  T/N: Mikoto speaks with a gobi, an ending particle, which demonstrates voice (a way to express how the speaker wants their vibes to come off as. Ex. masculine, feminine, tough, cute, etc.). Here, the particular gobi is "-teri" which makes him come off as cute; sounding adjacent to high school girl speak. エス　「そうか……」 ES: I see… ミコト　「はは、でも、終わらないんだよね……ここじゃ。身に覚えのないことでずっー」 MIKOTO: Haha, but… it never ends, does it? All of this. Things I’ve never even heard before, being accused of things I have no recollection of— エス　「？」 ES: ?

会話が不自然に途切れる。 The conversation is unnaturally interrupted.

ミコト　「ずっと……！イラつく思いをしなきゃいけねぇ……！」 MIKOTO: —all. the. time. Can’t help but be irritated all the fucking time. T/N: From henceforth, MIKOTO starts speaking in an Edo dialect, otherwise known as "roughspeak". People who speak in this are typically seen as delinquents, uneducated, gruff/rough, etc. エス 　「……出たな」 ES: …Look who’s out.

ミコトの表情が歪んでいく。 MIKOTO's expression begins to twist.

ミコト　「おう、まだボコられたりねぇみたいじゃん。看守のガキ」 MIKOTO: Ha? Looks like someone hasn’t had enough of a beating from me. Isn’t that right, warden brat? エス　「……」 ES: …

暴力に対しての恐怖に息をつまらせるエス。 ES holds their breath in fear of violence.

ミコト　「あ。ビビってんのかよ？」 MIKOTO: Ah. Are you getting cold feet? エス　「コトコにやられたくせに」 ES: Saying that like you didn’t get beaten by Kotoko-! ミコト　「ハツ、ありゃ不意をつかれただけだ。お前が寝てる間に やりあったが、別に負けてねぇ」 MIKOTO: Heh- It wasn’t anything special, she just caught me while I was a bit exhausted. We went at it again while you were off sleeping and, besides, it’s not like I lost. エス　「……多重人格。今喋っているお前はミコトの別人格という理解でいいか？」 ES: Multiple personalities… Am I correct in assuming that the you speaking right now are another personality of Mikoto’s? ミコト　「まあ、そうなんじゃねえかあ」 MIKOTO: Well, I guess that’s about right. エス　「そうか、お前のことはなんと呼べばいい？」 ES: I see. Now, what would be a good thing to call you? ミコト　「あ？随分普通に受け入れるじゃねぇか。多重人格なんて眉唾モンだろ」 MIKOTO: Ha-? You’re accepting this awfully well. Aren’t the authenticity of things like “multiple personality disorder” suspicious? エス　「あぁ、僕もそんなものが実際にあるとは思わなかった」 ES: Mhm. I never thought that such a thing could actually exist in reality. ミコト　「だよなぁ？オレもそれがオレでなきゃ信じねぇよ。ヒトゴロシが罪を逃れるためのウソだとしか思わねえ」 MIKOTO: Figures. If it wasn’t 𝐦𝐞, 𝙸 wouldn’t have believed it either. I only see it as a lie to escape guilt for murder, y’know. T/N: This is the first instance of this MIKOTO using "ore" with the katakana spelling オレ in the voice drama. In John Doe, the previous voice drama, as well as in Double, "ore" is spelled using the kanji version (俺). エス　「だがミルグラムがお前をそうだと認めている。僕は事実として受け入れ、考えを進めるだけだ。で、なんと呼べばいいんだ名前」 ES: Nevertheless, MILGRAM judges that you appear to be an authentic case. I simply just accept that as truth and develop my thoughts from there. So, what would be a good name to call y—

ミコト　「知らねぇよそんなの。好きに呼べや」 MIKOTO: Don’t know, don’t care. Call me whatever. エスは少し考えたのち、 After thinking for a moment, ES says

エス　「……お前を便宜上ジョンと呼ぶ」 ES: Hm… For the sake of convenience, you’ll be called “John”. ミコト　「犬みてぇな名前だな」 MIKOTO: That’s a dog’s name, isn’t it? エス　「身元不明の人物を指すジョンドゥから来ている。気に入ったか？」 ES: It comes from “John Doe”, referring to an unidentified or unknown person. Do you like it? T/N: The name "John Doe" also is associated with unidentified or unknown corpses. ミコト　「知識ひけらかしてるみたいで、いけすかねぇ」 MIKOTO: Can’t say I’m very fond of the way you’re flaunting your knowledge. エス　「……しかし今日は随分と落ち着いている方じゃないか。僕はお前を怪物みたいなものだと思っていたぞ。ここまで話が通じると思わなかった」 ES: …Anyway- You’re acting rather calm today, aren’t you? I’d been thinking that you truly were just some kind of monster. Until now, I didn’t even expect that the conversation would get this far. T/N: "Until now, I didn't even expect that the conversation would get this far" was also alternatively translated into "Until now, I didn't think you could talk this well." ミコト　「調子乗んじゃねぇ。この鎖さえなかったら今頃顔面潰れてんぞガキ」 MIKOTO: Don’t get carried away. These chains are the only thing keeping your face from being smashed in, you brat. エス　「おーこわいこわい」 ES: Ooh- Scary, so scary. ミコト　「フン」 MIKOTO: Hmph. エス　「ジョン、お前はミルグラムの四人ではない。ミルグラムの拘束が効果を発揮しないのが何よりの証拠だ。ミルグラムはミコトを囚人と判定し、別の人格であるお前は例外となっている」 ES: “John”, you are not a prisoner of MILGRAM. The ineffectiveness of MILGRAM’s ability to regulate and restrain you is important evidence of this. MILGRAM judges Mikoto as a prisoner, and you—an alternate identity—are an exception. ミコト　「はあん。なるほどね。それでお前の中で多重人格が確定してるわけか」 MIKOTO: Ahh~ I get it. So you’ve already decided in your head that I have multiple personalities. エス　「だから今日はお前を重要参考人として話を聞ければと考えた。まともに話ができそうでなによりだ」 ES: That’s why I thought it would be a good idea to talk to you today as a key witness. I’m glad to see that we can have a proper conversation. エスの言葉に眉をひそめるミコト。 MIKOTO frowned at ES’ words.

ミコト　「……だけどな。これはいいことじゃねぇぞ。多分」 MIKOTO: But you know what? That’s not a good thing. Probably. エス　「どういうことだ？」 ES: What do you mean? ミコト　「僕が消えようとしているかもしれない」 MIKOTO: Maybe I am trying to disappear. エス　「？」 ES: ? ミコト　「明らかにオレが表に出てる時間が長くなってる。そのおかげでオレという存在が安定してきてる。ちゃんと話せるのはそのせいじゃねえか」 MIKOTO: Clearly, 𝙸 am spending more and more time out in the open. And that influences the stabilization of 𝐦𝐲𝐬𝐞𝐥𝐟 as an existing being. It might be why I’m at this nature able to talk properly. T/N: When he says "Clearly, I am spending more time out in the open", there's a nuance that オレ (ore) feels like he doesn't quite have control over when he exists due to the が (ga) particle. "Clearly, I (ore) am spending more and more time out in the open. And that influences the stabilization of myself (ore) as an existing being." エス　「……」 ES: ... ミコト　「オレが怪物のままの方が、良かったかもしれねぇな」 MIKOTO: Maybe... it'd been better if 𝙸'd remained a monster. T/N: "Maybe... its been better if I (ore) had remained a monster." ミコトの物言いに目を丸くするエス。 ES' eyes widened at MIKOTO's manner of speaking. ミコト　「なんだよ」 MIKOTO: Oh- What? エス　「思いの外お前が理知的な物言いをするもので驚いている」 ES: You’re more articulate than I expected… I’m impressed. ミコト　「大卒だからな」 MIKOTO: I’m a college graduate. エス　「……」 ES: ... ミコト　「多重人格は何故生まれるとされてんだ？」 MIKOTO: What causes multiple personalities to be born? T/N: MIKOTO is translated here as using the term "multiple personalities" as he likely wouldn't know nor be aware of any other phrasing. The term he uses 多重人格 (tajuu jinkaku) is a derogatory term meaning "multiple personalities" which carries a connotation that personalities/personhood/self-states/egos/etc. are discrete objects that can be stacked and ordered, or a commodity of one's volition. It's a phrase that makes it sound like a person has masks that can be taken on/off/stack. A lot of people (including persons with DID) still do use 多重人格 (tajuu jinkaku) because either (1) they don't know any other term or, (2) it's easier to say and convey the concept of a very long clinical term for DID: 解離性同一性障害 (kairi seidou itsusei shougai). However, some people write it as "DID" instead as it's shorter/easier and also respectful and accurate. エス　「正確には解離性同一性障害という。一般的には苦痛やストレス、トラウマなどから自分を守るためにもうひとつの人格を産み、切り離しをはかるとされているな」 ES: Accurately, it’s called Dissociative Identity Disorder. It’s generally believed that alternate self-states are formed into existence in an attempt to protect oneself and dissociate from pain, stress, trauma etc. ミコトがうなずく。 MIKOTO nodded.

ミコト　「多分。オレは僕の受けたストレスを解消するために出てきてる。オレが長く出てるってことは、それだけ僕が強いストレスを受け続けているわけだ」 MIKOTO: Hm. Maybe 𝙸 have been out in order to reduce the stress 𝗜 have been undergoing. The longer 𝙸 am out, the more stress 𝗜 am under. T/N: Whenever MIKOTO says オレ (ore), the "I" is formatted as "𝙸". When 僕 (boku) is said, the "I" is formatted as "𝗜"; the closest thing to a Helvetica Neue font (one of the most common sans serif typefaces used in design) capable of being placed in a tumblr post. Why format it like this? First off, author's intent- Yamanaka's intent. Yamanaka could've written オレ (ore) using the placeholder name ES gave him, "John", as a valid first-person pronoun when MIKOTO (ore) is referring to himself, but for some reason MIKOTO (オレ) refers to himself with オレ (ore) and not "John" which could mean that he doesn't personally identify with "John" thus not use it to express his self, or for some other unlisted reason. Why doesn't he use "Mikoto" (ミコト) instead of 僕 (boku), a first-person pronoun, when referring to his other self? Maybe he still identifies with "Mikoto" that he doesn't use the name "Mikoto" as a third-person pronoun or however else it can be interpreted. This is a translation, not a media essay, but still requires media analysis in order to deliver a decent translation that attempts to retain the original author's intent and deliberation as per translation theory. Using a name as a first-person pronoun directs a lot of attention towards the existence of that person as That Person (especially in a high-context language like JP where you often omit pronouns since it's already implied in context, unless you want to deliberately direct attention to a subject), yet Yamanaka deliberately decided to write 09 with only variations of "I"— a subtle way to indicate the different states of self a person identifies with to express themself. In order to translate over that deliberate writing choice into English (where no alternative first-person pronouns exist), different "fonts" were used. An unformatted version of what MIKOTO's line says is: "Hm. Maybe I (ore) have been out in order to reduce the stress I (boku) have been under. The longer I (ore) am out, The more stress I (boku) am under." When MIKOTO says “The longer I (ore) am out…”, there’s a nuance that オレ (ore) feels like he doesn’t quite have control over when he’s “out” due to the が (ga) particle in オレが長く出てるってことは、それだけ僕が強いストレスを受け続けているわけだ

エス　「ストレス。ミルグラムの環境のことだな」 ES: Stress… You mean MILGRAM’s environment. ミコト　「あぁ、特に『赦さない』という判決にな。僕は多大なストレスを感じている。だからオレに預けるんだ、心を」 MIKOTO: Yeah. Especially with the Unforgiven ruling, 𝗜 have been experiencing an enormous amount of stress. That’s why 𝙸’m taking me—heart, mind, and soul—into my care. T/N: *It's not said if there's a specific "Me" that he'll take into his care. Unformatted version: "Yeah. Especially with the Guilty ruling, I (boku) have been experiencing a tremendous amount of stress. That's why I (ore) am taking me*—heart, mind, and soul—into my care." エス　「なるほどな」 ES: I see. ミコト　「無理もねぇ。本人からすりゃ自分に記憶のない罪で責められてんだ」 MIKOTO: Is that too much to ask? The person in question is being persecuted so much of crimes oneself has no memory of. エス　「それが真実なら……実際にヒトゴロシをしたのはお前か」 ES: If that’s the truth, the one who truly did the murder was you? ミコト　「あぁ、オレだ。オレがぶっ殺した」 MIKOTO: Oi. It was me. 𝙸 killed. T/N: When MIKOTO says “I killed” he says オレがぶっ殺した (ore ga bukkoroshita) instead of オレはぶっ殺した (ore wa bukkoroshita). Using the particle が (ga) has a nuance that the speaker feels like they don’t have control over オレ (ore), ore-who-killed. 当然のように話すミコトに絶句するエス。 ES is left speechless by MIKOTO speaking as if what he was saying was obvious.

エス　「……」 ES: ... ミコト　「だから本当に僕はやってねぇんだ」 MIKOTO: So, in reality, 𝗜 didn't do it. T/N: "So, in reality, I (boku) didn't do it." エス　「……何故殺したか聞いていいか」 ES: ...Can I ask why you did it? ミコト　「ムシャクシャして」 MIKOTO: I was pissed. エス　 「……誰を殺した」 ES: ...Who did you murder? ミコト　「そこらへん歩いてたヤツ」 MIKOTO: Some guy walking around. エス　「……何人、殺した……」 ES: ���How many people did you murder…? ミコト　「記憶にねえ。オレはそのとき初めて生まれたもんでな曖味だ」 MIKOTO: I don’t remember. 𝙸 was a newborn then so it’s fuzzy. T/N: "I don’t remember. I (ore) was a newborn then so it’s fuzzy." エス　「よくも、悪びれずに言えたものだ……」 ES: How dare… How could you say that so calmly- without an ounce of guilt? ミコト　「……」 MIKOTO: ... はぁっと短くため息をつくミコト。 MIKOTO lets out a short sigh. ミコト　「法律でいうと、僕はどうなる？」 MIKOTO: Legally speaking, what’s going to happen to 𝗺𝗲? T/N: "Legally speaking, what’s going to happen to me (boku)?" エス　「精神鑑定で減刑される可能性もあるだろうが、殺した人数によっては死刑は免れない」 ES: There’s a possibility of a reduced sentence through psychiatric evaluation, but, depending on the number of people killed, the death penalty may be inescapable. その言葉に少し焦るミコト。 MIKOTO becomes flustered at those words. ミコト　「いや......やったのはオレだ！僕は寝ていただけだ！」 MIKOTO: Wha- No- The one who did it is 𝐦𝐞! 𝗠𝗲, I was just sleeping! T/N: "Wha- No- The one who did it is me (ore). Me (boku), I was just sleeping!" エス　「......そんな都合良くいくものか」 ES: …It doesn’t work like that. ミコト　「僕の身にもなってやれよ！僕はただストレスに耐えていただけなんだぜ！一人でじっと耐えていたんだ！爆発するまで！誰かを傷つけようなんて考えてなかったんだよ！」 MIKOTO: Try to put yourself in 𝗺𝘆 shoes! 𝗜 endured all of that neverending stress all alone, ironically enough. Patiently enduring and enduring all by myself as one person... until I, in all that I was, exploded. I wasn’t thinking of hurting anyone! T/N: "Try to put yourself in my (boku) shoes! I (boku) endured all of that neverending stress all alone, ironically enough. Patiently enduring and enduring all by myself as one person… until I, in all that I was, exploded. I wasn’t thinking of hurting anyone!" エス　「……」 ES: ... ミコト　「そういうことができないヤツなんだ！気使って、空気読みで、周りの顔色伺ってばっかで……そういうことができないから、爆発しそうだったから、オレが生まれたんだ……あんまりだろ。何もしてねぇんだぞ……僕は」 MIKOTO: I'm the kind of person who can't do that sort of thing. I'm the kind of person who can't do that sort of stuff because I'm too busy being sensitive, reading the atmosphere, and trying to see how everyone around me looks at me. 𝙸 was born because of that. That's not too much, is it? 𝗜 didn't do anything— T/N: "I'm the kind of person who can't do that sort of thing. I'm the kind of person who can't do that sort of stuff because I'm too busy being sensitive, reading the atmosphere, and trying to see how everyone around me looks at me. I (ore) was born because of that. That's not too much, is it? I (boku) didn't do anything—" エス　「そうだったとして……ミコトの意思ではなかったとして、人の命は失われている」 ES: Even if it was or if it wasn’t Mikoto’s intention, human life was lost. ミコト　「……」 MIKOTO: ... エス　「中身がジョン、お前だったとして、それを証明する手立てはない。少なくとも裁判で完全に通ることはない。虚言だと判断されることだってー」 ES: Even if the substance of the case was you, John, there are no methods to prove it. At least, it will never pass completely in a court of law. After all, it will be judged as a falsehood, a false statement. エスの言葉を聞いていたミコトが身を乗り出す。鎖にジャマされて、近づけはしない。 MIKOTO, who had been listening to ES' words, leans forward. Hindered by chains, he can’t get any closer.

ミコト　「……お前は！」 MIKOTO: You! エス　「！」 ES: ! ミコト　「お前はどう思うんだ！」 MIKOTO: What do you yourself think?! エス　「僕……」 ES: I... ミコト　「やったのはオレだ！僕はやってない！お前はミルグラムによってそれを知っている！刑法なんてどうでもいい！オマエはどう思うんだよ！」 MIKOTO: It was 𝐦𝐞 who did it! 𝗠𝗲, I didn’t do it! All that you know and are aware of is according to what MILGRAM is saying! Who gives a shit about their alarms and litmus tests for judgement?! What do you think? T/N: "It was me (ore) who did it! Me, I (boku) didn’t do it! All that you know and are aware of is according to what MILGRAM is saying! Who gives a shit about their alarms and litmus tests for judgement?! What do you think?" エス　「……」 ES: ... ミコト　「僕を赦してやってくれよ……やったのはオレなんだ」 MIKOTO: Please… forgive 𝗺𝗲. 𝙸 was the one that did it, okay? T/N: "Please… forgive me (boku). I (ore) was the one that did it, okay?" エス　「すぐには、判断できない」 ES: I can’t bring myself to make a judgement immediately. 自分に言い聞かせるように喋るエス。 ES speaks as if trying to convince themself. エス　「そう簡単に放すと判断できることではない。事実、ミコトの心象風景はあまりに残虐なものだった……『赦さない』そう判断した」 ES: It’s not so easy to be able to decide [judge] to forgive. In fact, the scenery from Mikoto’s mind was so brutal… I couldn’t forgive him. That is what I judged. ミコト　「それは多重人格がフェイクの可能性があるからだろ！僕は本当に悪くない！殺したのはオレだ！」 MIKOTO: That’s because there’s a possibility that multiple personalities could be fake! 𝗜 really am not evil! 𝙸’m the one who murdered them in cold blood. T/N: "That’s because there’s a possibility that multiple personalities could be fake! I (boku) really am not evil! I’m (ore) the one who murdered them in cold blood." エス　「……」 ES: ... ミコト　「オマエなら納得できんのか！朝起きたらヒトゴロシになってるんだぜ！！」 MIKOTO: Wouldn’t you agree if you woke up in the morning and suddenly you’d had become a murderer?!! エス　「オマエを生み出したことが罪といえるかもしれない！」 ES: What you’ve given birth to may be called a sin! T/N: Alternative translation of this could be "What you've wrought forth may be called a sin!" or "It could be said that birthing you into existence was a sin!" The 生み出した (umidashita) gives birthing imagery. ミコト　「なっ……」 MIKOTO: Huh... ミコトは言葉を失い、しばらく考えた後。 MIKOTO is at a loss for words. He thinks for a moment. ミコト　「……多分、オレは僕にとっての理想の自分だ。屈な理不尽や、ストレスに泣き寝入りしない、やり返せる自分だ。オレという人格が生まれなきゃ僕はきっと限界がきて壊れてた……」 MIKOTO: 𝙸’m… probably the person 𝗜 wish I was. A version of myself that doesn’t cry themself to sleep because of stress, someone who doesn’t suffer in silence from injustice, the one who fights back— If this 𝐦𝐞 hadn’t been born, 𝗜 would’ve reached my limit and completely broken… T/N: "I’m (ore)... probably the person I (boku) wish I was. A version of myself that doesn’t cry themself to sleep because of stress, someone who doesn’t suffer in silence from injustice, the one who fights back— If this me (ore) hadn’t been born, I (boku) would’ve reached my limit and completely broken..." ミコトの気落ちした口調に、少し心配になるエス。 MIKOTO's despondent tone makes ES a little worried. エス　「ジョン、お前……」 ES: John, you… ミコト　「たしかに、全部ぶち壊してくれる存在を願ったのは僕だ。一人で立ち向かえなかった僕の弱さが原因かもしれねえ」 MIKOTO: If I remember correctly- Yeah… It was 𝗺𝗲 who wished for a being that could destroy everything. Maybe because of my weakness of not being able to face it all alone. T/N: "If I remember correctly- Yeah… It was me (boku) who wished for a being that could destroy everything. Maybe because of my weakness of not being able to face it all alone." エスを見つめるミコト。 MIKOTO met ES' gaze.

ミコト　「でも、それだけだ。それが罪か？」 MIKOTO: But that’s all. Is that a sin? エス　「……それを考えるのはこれからだ」 ES: …I’ll think about that moving forward. ミコト　「お前と話して、オレがやったことが赦されないことだというのはわかった。それには納得だ」 MIKOTO: I know from talking to you that what I did was unforgivable. That I agree with. エス　 「……あぁ、そうだな」 ES: Oh, is that so? ミコト　「……ミルグラムの判断対象は僕......ミコトだな？オレ、つまりジョンではねえ」 MIKOTO: MILGRAM is judging 𝗺𝗲… Mikoto. Not 𝐦𝐞, that is to say “John”. T/N: "MILGRAM is judging me (boku)… Mikoto. Not me (ore), that is to say “John”." エス　「その通りだ」 ES: That’s right. ミコト　「僕を赦してやってくれ。そうでなければ、僕はきっともう耐えられねぇ」 MIKOTO: Please forgive 𝗺𝗲. Otherwise, I’m sure 𝗜 won’t be able to bear it anymore. T/N: "Please forgive me (boku). Otherwise, I’m sure I (boku) won’t be able to bear it anymore." エス　「別の人格が起こした罪は、罪ではない。そう判断しろと言いたいんだな」 ES: The crime brought about by an alternate self is not a crime; that is the judgement you’re trying to tell me. ミコト　「あぁ、僕を赦してくれるなら、オレは消えてやる」 MIKOTO: Mhm. If you could forgive 𝗺𝗲, 𝙸 will go disappear. T/N: Alternative translation that retains the nuances of 僕を赦してくれるなら、オレは消えてやる (boku o yurushite kure nara, ore wa kieteyaru) is: "If you could grant the favor of forgiving me (boku), I’ll (ore) proactively make myself vanish in order to prove my use". In this context, the “-te yaru” (てやる) in 消えてやる (kiete yaru; to disappear) adds that extra nuance of “to (proactively) perform an action so as to prove one's ability to others” エス　「……！」 ES: …! ミコト　「そう、最終的にオレはいなくなきゃならない。全部、全部引き受けていなくなる。オレは僕を守るために生まれたんだから」 MIKOTO: Well- Eventually I’ll have to. I’ll take it all– bear it all, everything and anything, and I’ll be rid of it– Troubles and myself.  𝙸… was born in order to protect 𝗺𝗲. T/N: “I (ore)… was born in order to protect me (boku)." エス　「……そのために、生まれた……」 ES: …born for that purpose… ミコト　「ああ。僕を守るためだったら、オレはなんでもやるんだぜ」 MIKOTO: Yeah. 𝙸 would do whatever it takes to protect 𝗺𝗲. T/N: “Yeah. I (ore) would do whatever it takes to protect me (boku)." 部屋にある時計から鐘の音が鳴り、尋問室の部屋の構造が変化していく。 The clock in the room chimes and the structure of the interrogation room begins to change.

エス　「ジョン……」 ES: John... ミコト　「……何、犬の名前？」 MIKOTO: Mm... What-? Is that a dog’s name? T/N: MIKOTO is no longer speaking with an Edo dialect/roughspeak. エス　「ミコト……？」 ES: Mikoto…? もとに戻っているミコト。 素っ頓狂な顔をしている。 MIKOTO has returned to his previous self. He has a silly look on his face. ミコト　「看守くん、犬飼ってんの？犬種何し？いや、待って。当てさせて」 MIKOTO: Warden-kun, do you have a dog? What breed? Ah- Wait! Lemme guess-

エス　「……」 ES: ... ミコト　「トイプー？いや、意外とブサカワっぽいのが好きかも？フレブルとか？」 MIKOTO: Toy poodle? No- Maybe you like those that are surprisingly adorable and ugly at the same time like a french bulldog! エス　「……違う」 ES: …No. ミコト　「じゃあパグ？」 MIKOTO: That’s it- A pug! エス　「犬の名前じゃない！」 ES: It’s not a dog’s name! ミコト　「ええ……じゃあ何よ」 MIKOTO: Eh? Then what is it? エス　 「……お前の、友の名前だ」 ES: ...It’s the name of your… friend. 一瞬間の抜けた顔をしたミコト。 すぐに笑って、 MIKOTO looks stunned for a moment, then quickly laughs. ミコト　「そんな人知らないよお～」 MIKOTO: Pfft- I don’t know anyone named that∼ ミコトの言葉にどこかさみしげな笑みを浮かべるエス。 ES smiles slightly—somberly—at MIKOTO’s words. エス　「そうだろうな」 ES: Of course you don’t. ミコト　「⁇」 MIKOTO: Hm?? 帽子をかぶりなおし、ミコトに向き直る。 ES adjusts their hat and turns to face MIKOTO. エス　「囚人番号9番ミコト。お前の罪を歌え」 ES: Prisoner number 9, Mikoto. Sing of your sins.

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Ghost x Konig x Reader: I Don't Need You (Ch. 6)

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Summary: You (surprisingly) get more comfortable with Kortac, and slowly let yourself connect with the team. You subconsciously tether yourself to Konig, who is more than willing to help you fit in. The pain of the past begins to fade into the back of your mind like the end of a long chapter of your life.

Additionally, Konig starts asking the hard questions - it unearths a piece of you that you'd hoped would remain buried, but you still share the memories with Konig.

Chapter warnings: Mentions of violence, mentions of rape, cursing, google translate German, shirtless Soap, very EXTREMELY watered-down mentions of sexual themes (we ain't there yet, boiis)

Notes: Sorry it took so long, I've got a lot cooking in the kitchen now and I'm hoping to pump out a lot this week!

Additionally, I've had some comments on this work not being an x Reader. First off, I never want to mislead anyone. I label this as an x Reader because Bonnie is not an OC of mine. I've seen other x Reader fics include callsigns that refer to the reader, so I assumed using Bonnie similarly would be alright. I also mentioned a name ONCE in chapter 3, "Jane Morris," which I thought to be a very generic name, and I haven't used it since and don't plan to. I have a personal preference of writing longer, chapter-by-chapter fics in first POV because it feels more natural to me than second POV. The same goes for using y/n - I like to avoid it if I can because it feels unnatural.

Again, those last two thing are a personal preference. I'm not bashing any fics that use these things at all, I enjoy both ones that do and ones that don't, and I don't enjoy one over the other. When I say one feels more natural than the other, I mean it feels more natural to write, not to read. I'm debating changing the name I used in chapter 3 to just y/n l/n to make this a true x Reader. If you still feel like I should change this to an x OC please let me know and I'll be happy to adjust the tags, titles, and descriptions. Again, I never meant to be misleading, and I hope I didn't make anyone angry. If a mistake has been made I am happy to learn from it. Thanks!

Konig had cracked the code on me. He figured out that after a case of American beers and a long drive, away from the crowd of new faces, my outer shell began to soften.

There was still a wall that I was holding up between me and everyone else, even though it was significantly smaller than usual. When Roze and Castillo approached me at breakfast, I didn’t get up and leave. And when Juno used the empty spot in the gym room right next to me, dropping his bag on the floor and giving me a cautious glance as he set up for his routine - I didn’t grab my things and move to the other end of the room. That was my first instinct, but I fought it. Instead I huffed, facing the mirror in front of me and focusing on my sets.

I’d started going to the common area more often – maybe not every night, but often enough. We’d make it a habit to play poker on the nights I did show up. I was better than most of the group, since none of them were quite used to my mannerisms yet. However, Konig and Horangi still took the lead as the winners, despite most of us arguing that they shouldn’t be allowed to play if they were going to wear their masks. The argument would eventually turn into a casual conversation – I didn’t engage in it too often. I preferred to sit and listen, using the time to slowly learn more about the team. I typically planted myself between Roze and Konig, keeping my legs crossed on the seat and nervously fiddling with my Yuengling bottle.

Although I was ashamed to admit it, Konig had become a conduit for my interactions with the rest of the team. The way he engaged with their activities, yet still managed to stay reserved, struck a chord with me. I respected the fact that it could sometimes be difficult to find him on base, and that at the same time, he was always there when I started to feel overwhelmed. I didn’t need him, no… that was a stretch. But sometimes I felt grateful that he was so eager to accompany me places – especially when he invited me to go on “perimeter checks” with him, which mostly consisted of long drives off base.

I don’t know how I had grown to appreciate him so much – maybe it was because he felt similar to me, in the way that we both needed our alone time, and with how we often found ourselves slipping out of the common area around the same time, with the original excuse being that we were tired. Half of the time, we would sit in the mess hall and talk until the early hours of the morning.

“A sniper?” I asked on one particular night, fiddling with the mouth of my beer bottle. “You’re way to big for that – no offense.”

Konig chuckled. “And that’s what they initially told me.” He took a swig of his (nasty) German beer. “But, despite being handed other opportunities, I proved them wrong. I’m sill a damn good sniper.”

I huffed. “Nah, you should be happy you got promoted to Colonel; you’re lucky, you get to avoid being in the trenches – at least, as much as the rest of us.”

“Lucky? No…” Konig said, shaking his head. “I do not like being a Colonel. I’d much rather be doing the dirty work of soldiers than writing these stupid reports.” He slapped a large hand over the manilla folder that sat on the table next to his beer. “It keeps my head busy, and I don’t have to listen to myself think.”

I nodded while sipping my beer. “I completely get that – If I’m not actively doing something with my hands, my brain gets too loud. Like – like there’s a mini me in my head, and the only way to drown her out is by physically doing something. Anything, really.”

Konig laughed – almost a snort – “‘A mini you’. I like that, that’s good.”

I huffed a laugh through my nose, turning my head to hide the smirk on my face. Despite being a large, brutish man, he had a youthful essence about him. It was hidden deep beneath the thick exterior of a war-hardened soldier. But, every now and again, it rose to the surface, touching a part of my soul I hadn’t allowed to be seen in a long time.

I pushed my stack of bills into the middle of the table. “All in.” I said nonchalantly.

Gaz narrowed his eyes, leaning back in his chair and looking down his nose at me. “You’re bloody stupid…”

“Or really smart.” I retorted. I folded my arms over my chest, not wavering under his intimidating gaze.

It was unbearably hot in the room – whether that was from the tension of the game or the broken air conditioner (Price eternally insisted it would be fixed, “… by next week…”), I didn’t know. I was donned in my sweatpants and sports bra, Gaz was in a wife beater and sweats, Ghost was covered head to toe in a sweatshirt and jeans (one could ever rarely catch him wearing anything less), and Soap… well, Soap was Soap. Completely shirtless, with only a pair of gym shorts on. Typical for him to be so shameless.

Ghost looked at his cards, his jaw clearly tense underneath his mask. He wasn’t very good at hiding his unlucky hand – it was almost like he wasn’t even trying. Which was a possibility.

“Fucking hell… I fold.” He tossed his hand onto the table, revealing his sour bunch of cards. He walked to the fridge and cursed under his breath, rummaging through the contents.

“Jesus, you’re a load of dry shite.” Soap commented, leaning against the wall adjacent to Ghost. “You could’ve at least tried to intimidate ‘em.”

“You could try shutting your fucking mouth, alright?” Ghost snapped back. Soap raised his hands defensively, leaving Ghost by the fridge.

He flopped onto the couch near me and Gaz. “Miserable sap…”

I did my best to tune out their bickering. I stared down Gaz, tapping my fingers on the edges of my cards. I was relying on the river card – I had a chance at a four-of-a-kind, praying the last card on the table would be another seven.. It was risky, and Gaz was probably right in calling me stupid. But I was never one to back down from a challenge. I craved the thrill of it. Most of the time, I ended up getting lucky.

Gaz chewed his lip. He cocked an eyebrow, slowly pushing all of his cash to the middle of the table. “Call.” He said.

And I heard it – the telltale sign of his bluff. A fraction of a second where his voice had waivered, followed by him grinding his jaw. I knew I had it in the bag.

I was savoring the moment of triumph, watching Gaz stare at his cards, when I felt a hand on my back. I nearly spun around and yelled at whoever touched me, until I saw a gloved hand place a Yuengling bottle to my right, the lid already popped off. I faltered, staring at the bottle, feeling the hand on my back rubbing a thumb back and forth over my spine.

I glanced behind me, looking up to meet Ghost’s eyes. He was looking down at me with an empty gaze. His eyebrows twitched for a brief moment as he continued rubbing his thumb over the skin of my back.

I knew what he was suggesting. What he was asking. Put a woman on a compound with broken, touch-starved men, and eventually one of them will succumb to the temptation. Even so, I was shocked that it was Ghost. I would say he was showing a weakness here, no matter what he decided to call this – it was an admission that he needed something – something from me, specifically – which I never thought would happen.

He continued staring at me for another few moments, waiting for an answer. Keeping my eyes locked on him, I took the bottle and drank; my reply. He gave the tiniest nod, walking away and sitting down next to Soap – who was shuffling the remaining deck of cards, eyes narrowed at Gaz. He knew he was bluffing too.

I turned back to Gaz, smirking as he revealed the river card.

“You ever think about what you would say to those kids now?” I asked, tapping my beer bottle. “The ones who bullied you.”

Konig hummed. “Mm… not really. I don’t hold too much resentment.”

I chuckled. “If only we could all be a saint.”

“Well, it all happened so long ago.” Konig tried to justify himself. “We were only kids, bored and trying to stay on the surface. They just wanted to look tough so that no one would pick on them. Of course, I wouldn’t understand that as a kid. Maybe then, I would have admired what I’ve become, and I would have wanted to boast about it. But now that I am a Colonel – Ich habe besseres zu tun.”

I sarcastically rolled my eyes. “And that means?”

“Ehh…” he groaned, squinting his eyes. “How is it said… ‘I have bigger fishes to cook.’”

I sputtered, turning my head and laughing. Konig glared at me. “Gibt es ein Problem?” he asked, which I sort of understood. He sounded irritated, that much I could tell.

“No, Konig…” I said, standing up and giving him a pat on the shoulder as I walked by. “Just keep up the English lessons, ok?”

He scowled. “Verpiss dich… Start learning German and maybe I will.” He retorted, and I waved at him dismissively from behind my back.

I stuck my head into the fridge, grabbing a Yuengling and one of Konig’s beers. I walked back and placed them both next to him. Like instinct, he took each one and hooked their lid onto the edge of the table, then smacked the side of his hand down on the tops, sending the lid clattering to the ground. He opened my beer and handed it to me, then repeated the process with his, before reaching down and collecting the lids. He added them to the pile, totaling six beer lids so far.

If someone had shown me this image a year ago – Konig and I, sitting up late into the night, chatting like we’d known each other for decades… not to mention the fact that I was so unusually open with him… I would have been insulted. I would have laughed. No one would have been able to convince me that I would become so attached to anyone else after what had happened with the 141. Yet, all of this felt so natural. It was beyond how I felt that Konig and I were kindred spirits… it really did feel like I’d known him before. Maybe, he reminded me of a part of myself that I tried to bury away.

Or, maybe, I was just submitting to loneliness and trying to justify how quickly I clung to the first available soul. That was also an embarrassing possibility, one that I would rather not admit to.

“I have a question for you.” Konig’s voice and the clink of his beer bottle on the table brought me back to reality.

“I might have an answer.” I replied.

He looked off to the side, perhaps wondering whether or not he really wanted to ask the question. “Who did you kill? And why?”

Just like that, I felt the walls being built right back to where I had them. Bonding time’s over. Back to square one.

His inquiry caught me off guard. I froze, my bottle hovering in the air before I could take a sip, my eyes glued to the table. Just the mention of the incident brought the painful memories up to the surface, like claws scraping at the dirt, digging up the deepest roots.

“Lots of people.” I said, deflecting. I took a swig of my beer.

“You know what I mean.” He scoffed. “Why did you end up in military prison?” He leaned over the table – clearly not planning on letting the topic go.

I sucked my teeth, staring at him defiantly – moments ago, it was pleasant talking to him. Now, I was fighting back the urge to leave him at the table and go to my dorm. I felt ambushed at how he had changed the subject so abruptly. Like he had been waiting for me to carelessly stumble into the trap, and now he was watching me snarl from within it.

He leaned back with a sigh. “You don’t have to answer if you don’t want to. I just thought we were getting somewhere here.”

“Oh?” I said dryly, cocking an eyebrow. “’Getting somewhere?’ What’s that sup-“

“Hey, it’s ok.” He raised his hands defensively. “I get it. I don’t want to make you uncomfortable.” His words were forgiving, but his eyes said something else – I knew what he was thinking.

Weak.

I gave him a hateful stare. Fucker know how to play his cards.

“I killed a sergeant.” I admitted. “My lieutenant’s right-hand man.”

That got Konig’s attention. He leaned forward again, putting his bottle off to the side. “Why?” he asked again.

I inhaled deeply, then exhaled, as I leaned back in my chair. My eyes fell to the floor as I forced myself to recall the memories. “In Egypt, a while back. Don’t ask when because I won’t tell you.” I warned Konig, and he huffed – but obliged.

I continued. “We were going in to retrieve a hostile target. Everyone was jumpy – me included. It was dark, and we didn’t know what to expect. After the hostiles started to engage, we were scattered. I got stuck in one tower, so I went upstairs to try and make a foxhole.”

I paused. It was now my own hands, covered in dirt, clawing at the roots of the memory. Each word I said was painful, yet somehow felt overshared. Like I was trying to get Konig to pity me. Except I wasn’t – I just wanted him to listen.

And that’s exactly what he did. No comforting shoulder pat, no soothing words… he just listened. He knew that if he stepped on the wrong spot, it would break my openness, like a branch breaking under his foot would disturb the silence of the woods.

“The sergeant – ‘Flare’ – he was up there, too. I thought we’d had the same idea, but… holy fuck…” I ran a hand down my face, feeling my heartbeat grow faster. “At first, I didn’t know what he was doing, I just heard him making those sounds and I thought he’d been hit, but… he was taking advantage of this – this woman – and with her kids right fucking there… she was probably just trying to hide, to hide them, she had to be so fucking scared… he didn’t even stop when I found him, I don’t know if he even heard me screaming at him.”

I paused, almost waiting for Konig to say or do something, but he remained silent. Despite my eyes never leaving the floor, I could see his blue ones watching me carefully. Concerned, patient, and calm.

“I didn’t know what else to do.” I said, my voice faltering the slightest bit. “So I shot him. In the head.” I unintentionally shivered. “Probably traumatized that poor woman and her kids, but… quick decisions aren’t the best ones.”

I ended my rant with a heavy sip of my beer. Konig continued watching me with wary eyes, which I ignored. I didn’t need consolation, or sympathy, or whatever he might try to offer. Somehow, he seemed to understand that.

“I would have done the same thing.” He commented.

Would you?

After a moment, he exhaled. “I don’t understand… I’d say you were in the right. Why did they put you in prison for that?”

I chewed my lip. “There was… some speculation, that I was jealous of his position. We’d been close throughout my time with the team, and when he got the promotion to second-in-command, I was a bit envious at first. People thought I was taking my anger out on him in what seemed like the perfect opportunity to lie.” I took another sip. “But I was happy for him. He worked hard, and he deserved it. But then the pressure got to him – Lieutenant was always depending on him for too much, and Flare couldn’t handle the responsibility. If he slipped up, it was a lot worse than if one of the rest of us did. I guess… the pressure is what got him in the end. Made him crazy in the end. He didn’t have any morals anymore.”

More silence. It felt uncomfortably loud – Konig’s stare seemed to make my head ring, making me fidget and bounce my knee. I wanted to snap at him. What are you looking at? Why are you asking so many fucking questions? But I was able to keep my anger at bay, justifying the situation by assuming his questions were fueled by nothing more than curiosity.

I figured I had said enough for the night, and finished off the rest of my beer. I slapped my leg, the telltale sign that I was getting ready to turn in.

Konig ignored it, or seemed to not notice. “Why did you kill him?” he asked.

I narrowed my eyes in confusion. “Why did I? What do you mean?”

“Why kill him? Why not just… disable him for the moment, and let your commander deal with him later?”

I opened my mouth to speak, but my voice was a second too late. “Again… in the heat of the moment, you don’t make distinctions like that. You think: ‘shoot,’ or ‘don’t shoot.’ And shooting him was the choice I made.”

Konig’s gaze became scrutinous. He knew I was lying about something… he was hellbent on figuring out what.

He’s going to have to wait a long damn time.

“Goodnight, Konig.” I said flatly. I collected my bottles, getting up from the table. With a clang, I tossed them into the bin by the exit, walking down the hall and leaving Konig sitting alone in the mess hall. I feel tears stinging my eyes, but that’s all they did. It’s all just water under the bridge, y/n. Get it together. You’re alright.

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Taglist: @igotmajordaddyissues @princekonig @vixionix

[forestgromlin]

intro post!!

special interest: hermitcraft + life series current hyperfixation: hungry hermits!! (tango’s game in hc10)

more info below the cut!

Basic Stuff

call me: bee (like this lil guy -> 🐝)

minor (nothing weird please)

pronouns: she/her mainly, they/them is good too

sexuality: aegorose

art is under #bee doodles blog where i reblog stuff: @forestgromlinreblogs

Other Stuff

(may have been a hyperfixation in the past or is a general thing that just hangs around)

singing (i’m a soprano, and am in choir and musical theater, my range is around A3-G5 on a good day)

piano (i just started learning again, i used to take lessons when i was in like. 3rd grade?? maybe??? idk)

fanfic (i only read it, i don’t write it)

i like coming up with ideas for books and editing, but not writing the actual story lmao

i think programming/coding is very cool, i have done some very very beginner stuff before (if anyone has heard of perchance.org, i made a warrior cats things that has like 10k views or smt at this point 😭 it’s really bad, the code is so messy)

i would like to possibly go into game development in the future bc it combines a lot of stuff that is very interesting to me, but i currently don’t even have a computer i could use, so uh.. yeah

hermitcraft

life series

language/languages (grammar, linguistics, etymology, learning new languages, etc.)

art (i draw on procreate)

marauders (harry potter)

harry potter (i do NOT support JKR)

kotlc

the owl house (this my FAVORITE SHOW i love it SO MUCH ASGDHFHFJFHFUUFGUUVHFJF)

she-ra and the princesses of power

bluey

pjo, hoo, toa, mcga, etc.

good omens (i’ve read the book and watched the show, but i’m specifically referring to the show)

hamilton

newsies (the musical. specifically the pro-shot on disney+. also my mucial theater class performed newsies and i got to play davey so that was awesome)

lotr

rings of power (i’ve only watched season 1)

six: the musical

i used to play violin for like 2 years

music:

maisie peters

noah kahan

chappell roan

laufey

conan gray

boygenius

phoebe bridgers

clairo (specifically the album Charm)

plus many more!

im one of the people that saw tumblr stuff on pinterest before joining tumblr

im very friendly online and would be happy to chat!! feel free to tag me in whatever

tag system

#bee’s thoughts - random original stuff, ramblings, thoughts, questions, etc

#bee doodles - sometimes i get the motivation to art, you can find it all under this tag :D

#bee watches stuff - i’m making my way through a giant list of hermitcraft and life series series, updates will be under this tag :]

#bee’s song of the day - i’m gonna try to do a song of the day everyday!! feel free to remind me if i haven’t posted one lol (i almost never do)

#bee does texting - screenshots of texts i or my friends sent

#bee’s ultimate quiz - i made a really hard quiz about myself and had y’all take it to see how much you know about me :] maybe someday i’ll hold it again for new moots or make a new one? lmk if you’re interested (if so, google forms or kahoot or both?)

tags for moots

(so if you want to see all of my interactions with a certain person, just filter by their tag!)

(lmk if you dont wanna be here, or if you’re my moot but you’re not on here! i’m really bad at staying on top of stuff like this lmao, trust me, i encourage you to tell me)

#my beau-dee-ful wife <3 - @twinklefwinkle <- at the top bc she is my fiancée <333 i love her sm (her name is dee she is amazing)

the rest are in alphabetical order by tag! #andie! - @ladyloss-blog

#bug!! - @musical-dash-trash

#cal - @stuck-in-a-forest

#duck! - @duckieselz

#erin! - @kitab00m101

#freya - @freyapoststhings

#indi - @indecisiveness-incarnate

#jas! - @yams-and-toast

#laceyy - @theodditylacey

#lee! - @whimsical-laboratory-tragedy

#lucy! - @chickencentaur

#micky - @n0b0dyukn0w

#nyx - @nyxs-blank-canvas

#patch! - @toooster

#quinn! - @quintessent1ally1

#rin! - @rins-batcave

#rye bread!! - @kutie106

#sara - @snipemeout

#sam! - @imwaitingin-the-sky

#spinny bois / #stiles / #isaac / #spinny bois anon - @spinny-bois

#toast! - @ghost-y-toast-y

#vie! - @thelovelyvie

also @ all of my moots, i love y’all!!

[burning-academia-if]

Burning Academia: Chapter 1 release

Play Here | Intro Post

Burning Academia is a 17+ paranormal dark academia IF about family, magic, school politics, and the ghosts which haunt you.

Total Word Count (with code): ~41.3k

Words added: ~21.6k

Chapter 1 Features:

Tie up loose ends from the prologue

Decide your major and classes

Add some final character details

Finally get some answers (but really, you just end up with more questions)

Get really close to having a good day (it's another bad day).

Content Warnings

Mild: Possession

Prologue Change Log:

Fixed the sociability points for various choices

Added two new backgrounds to choose from + rounded out how backgrounds affect starting personality stats

General typo/grammar edits

General Changes Log:

Added the relationships stat page + flavor text for personality stats

adjusted the amount of points some choices give for various stats

Choice indicators for romance/friendship points and Path routes

Upcoming in Chapter 2:

Get back to work and decide your worksona

Interrogate the freeloader inside your head

Start classes

Decide how you're going to lie about having magic (or...don't?)

The start of branching and potential bad decisions!

A potential achievement or 2 if that's your kind of thing!

Notes

Due to all the stat balancing + a few tweaks to certain choices, old saves won't work (or at least have issues)! As always, if anything is broken either send an ask/message or you can submit it in a google doc here if you prefer!

[lith0000000]

Is privacy important to you?

So recently, I've seen an uptick of people interested in privacy regarding electronics (phones, pc, what have you). When I say people, I'm referring to non-techy people, like myself. I know my way around my computer and can do some basic troubleshooting for hardware/software, but beyond that, I'm sort of helpless. I don't know anything about hacking or cybersecurity and the only coding I can do is some html. I'm below a novice haha. So, if you're that sort of person, then maybe this could be of interest to you. What I am about to discuss involves no coding or really any in depth knowledge regarding technology. You don't have to be Elliot Alderson for this.

>Why does privacy even matter?

The answer to this question will vary from person to person. I, for one, do not like the idea of any corporation hoarding my data to sell or store or do fuck all with. If this does not bother you, I'd consider asking yourself if you're comfortable with, let's say, something like Google knowing everything about you. And I mean everything. Suppose that doesn't bother you, then okay. Maybe think about how it would feel if your classmates or coworkers knew what Google knows about you. Corporations also extend to governments because they're jerking each other off, so something to keep in mind. And individuals, people like you and I, work for these entities. And these people can abuse your data. For any reason.

Your data is a tool for them to control you. You might not realize it until it's too late. I'm being a little vague here because this point alone could be an entire wall of posts.

Additionally, something to consider is the level of privacy that you may require. If you are someone who attends public protests or is part of some sort of organization that criticizes your government, you are at risk of potential scrutiny or harassment. Obviously, but I mean specifically from a lack of privacy practices. Maybe from your government or somebody who opposes your views, etc. And depending on how you've been communicating about these gatherings or communities, you're potentially putting others at risk as well. If you're one of the people who's in charge of organizing or playing a large role, some of the methods I will be going over will likely not be enough to protect you. Activists and journalists need a different level of privacy that I can't begin to match.

Listed below are some videos that I watched that really helped me to understand why this is important.

“I Have Nothing to Hide” – The Dangerous Myth About Privacy

Is it impossible to be private online? (Eric's channel has been very helpful for me personally because his explanations do not alienate the tech illiterate)

>So...Where do I start?

Luckily, there are small steps you can take to prevent some information about you from being hoarded. And I say some, not all. Unfortunately, the only way to completely avoid all of this is to live out in a cabin in the middle of nowhere and never use the internet ever. Which I can assume you don't want because you're reading this on a website right now! You will have to make some compromises for some of these options, and if you can't replace all of these and only some, that's fine. Most of these can be adjusted in just a few minutes, if that.

General

Oh my god, stop using chrome. I'm serious, please stop. If you are using chrome to read this, close out of this and download firefox. or brave or chromium or whatever. I use firefox, and the second you download firefox, download ublock origin. Ads on the internet are completely out of control. Firefox is not foolproof either, other add-ons can provide not just a more private experience, but also a much smoother one. ClearURLs removes tracking elements from urls. And it's open source. There are a few others, but I don't know everything lol. There are VPNs you can use, but I only ever use one if I'm away from home and using the Wi-Fi at work or something.

Stop using google search engine. In firefox, you can set something else by default. I just use duckduckgo, but there are alternatives. You can also turn off the ai bullshit. Find one that works best for you and your needs.

Email. So this is one I have not moved yet. I still have gmail for my youtube account. I also have to use gmail for my university. I do have a protonmail, though, that I've been slowly moving over to. This could be an easy fix for some people, while impossible for others. This is something that I am willing to compromise on. Again, you can't have it all with how things are set up. I'm sure there are some ways to circumvent this, but I am not aware of it. For things like drive and docs there are also some alternatives, but I don't use drive all that much, so finding an alternative isn't that pressing for me. There's proton drive, which functions similarly, and several paid options, but I'm trying to keep this process free for people just starting to be privacy-conscious.

Signal is a good messenger especially if you're moving from something like facebook messenger, instagram, whatsapp, whatever. It's end to end encrypted and pretty modern (so stuff like emojis, reactions, voice messages) You do need a phone number though, but again, better than just whatsapp. More people are moving to it now, so you might have an easier time introducing friends to it.

Cellphone

Alright, so this is going to depend on a few factors, mainly whether you have Android or iOS. I had an iPhone for a long time, up until last year. I was never an Apple fanboy, it's just what I had, but I wasn't deep in the ecosystem by any means. I've always used a Windows computer, so I didn't have a Mac or apple watch or whatever. I had an ipad but sold it to a friend last year because I transitioned to using my Wacom full time on my PC. I only say that because if you like your apple products just keep in mind that while you are secure (apple does have great security), you may not be private. iOS is closed source, so it's more difficult for third parties or hackers to get your data, but apple has it. And apple can do whatever. Also, you are limited to the ways you can customize your phone.

I will link a video on someone who discusses privacy on iphone but aside from the few things I listed above I can't really help you much further than a few other points. Sorry.

A brief guide to privacy for iPhone

If you have an Android based phone you are in luck. Most Android phones allow you to put a different os on your cellphone since you can access the bootloader (unlike iphones) BUT your phone in most cases has to be OEM unlockable. Phones from carriers like Verizon aren't able to be unlocked because Verizon is weird and kinda treats their consumers like shit lol. I own a Google pixel 9 and I will admit I splurged on this phone by buying it brand new. It was on sale, I got a bonus at work and hey what can I say... Also my iphone 12mini was shitting itself so it was time for a new phone. The money must have been burning a damn hole in my pocket. In retrospect though, the smarter thing would have been to buy used or an older model. Which I will be doing in the future. Back on track though.

You're probably scratching your head here: if he was just complaining about google why the hell does he have a Google phone?

I'm glad you asked, hypothetical voice in my head.

Grapheneos is a os that is only available on Google pixels (I believe from 6 onward). What it does is basically degoogles your phone. So removes google services. And the thing is, you can redownload these services but refuse network permissions and limit what they can and cannot do or have access to. Or tweak settings that you would not otherwise have access to. You have control over your device and it actually somewhat feels like your device. It's easy to install...like, modding a ds takes longer than installing graphene on your phone. Here is a video that I watched that goes over specifics and installation.

Here is the grapheneos website

For non google phones there's calyxOS but I have no personal experience with it. But both of these OS give you back some ownership on your device by letting the user control how their cellphone functions and not a company. Also, it can help your phone feel a little smoother because it removes a lot of proprietary apps that companies like Samsung add to android. If your phone can't be unlocked, then start by switching to alternative apps and delete as many proprietary apps as possible. Watch this video on fdroid.

Remove face ID if you're able and remove fingerprints as well. It might be a bit inconvenient but it's much safer. I understand that these may be great accessibility tools for some so just do what you can. Turn off location when you're not using it. With graphene, you can give map applications your approximate location, not your exact location. There are also map options that can be disconnected from network, and you can save routes, but I use public transportation and really need to see when my bus is going to arrive. My cities bus app is so shit sometimes. Again, another example of compromising that is going make you ask what's important to you, and if you're willing to risk your privacy for it.

If you watch most of these videos, you'll hear a lot of these points are going to overlap.

I was considering discussing what you can do for your PC, but I'm a complete noob. I've been using Linux mint for a little bit now, and I avoid the terminal most of the time because I'm a little baby. Even still, I recommend getting away from windows if you're able. Especially if you have a windows 10 computer since Microsoft is dropping support this fall iirc. Linux mint is super beginner friendly and much lighter on your computer, so even better if your PC is older.

Some videos that might help you decide if Linux could be a good alternative for you.

Switching to Linux: A Beginner’s Guide

Why Linux is Better Than Windows 11

Linux Mint 22: Excellent Distro for Windows Users

Linux Mint for Gaming (2025) | Linux Gaming Setup (for Beginners) Pt. 1

This privacy stuff can go so deep and you'll feel kinda crazy lol. Once you learn about what people can do with this data, and read about how people's lives have been ruined by it getting into the wrong hands, it'll never leave your head. But it's important to start small. And start sooner rather than later.

Social media was something I considered discussing but I think it could be added to a later post since this is kinda long already. I hope this is somewhat helpful, I tend to ramble a lot of the time. If you're someone who is a bit more savvy than I, then please reply with any info that you think could be important. But remember that this post is for basic beginners who are just now learning about this stuff so keep it simple. Thanks for reading!