#had to vent for a second

[streatfeild]

sometimes i think a lot of fanfic authors have never had a hot drink in their life

[minty-playhouse]

Falling down the "I don't think I deserve the good things that happen to me" pitfall and it sucks.

I hate that I can't just accept good things in my life because I don't feel like I'm worthy of them. It's incredibly frustrating...

[catboythanatos]

ok hear me out????

things that i think stone had to do to nurse robotnik back to health after the end of sonic 2:

-physically dig him out of the rubble and carry him in his arms to safety

-cut his clothes off of him to access his injuries without bending or pulling on anything

-clean, stitch, and bandage wounds

-set broken/dislocated bones

-procure (steal) hospital-grade painkillers and medical equipment

-surgically remove shrapnel embedded in him

-hook him up to an intravenous line to administer (stolen) fluids and nutrients

-build or procure some kind of machine to monitor his vitals and alert him immediately of any changes

-carefully bathe and dress him

-monitor him 24/7 for days, barely sleeping, meticulously cataloging every detail of his injuries to keep track of any slight change in his condition

-kiss him on the forehead (this is what actually made him better he didnt need to do all that other shit)

[adustoflove]

No one understands guilt better than a girl with emotionally immature parents

[sad-leon]

They're Tired

Lineart available for download on my patreon if any of yall wanna colour them

KoFi || Patreon

[saint-hymn]

WIP - tommy, i-

part of the zombie au

[ladyloveandjustice]

The complaints of the "male loneliness epidemic" or whatever are always so funny because none of them could ever survive being a lesbian trying to find someone on the dating apps, or more impossibly meeting someone who's single and down irl. Everytime I had to turn to bumble and okcupid it was months of desperation and being ghosted mid-convo and me having to swipe through so many people whose main interest was hiking, knowing we could never work.

The dating pool is small! Meeting up irl is way less likely! And that's in a city with a fairly high queer population!

I WAS SO LONELY it was bad. I needed friends too (and still do) and went to lesbian book clubs in hopes of catching someone's eye only to find they were either entirely women in their sixties (this also happened at a lesbian meetup but it was fun talking to them at least), and the club would break up immediately because everyone got busy/lost interest. but did you see me bitching about it and blaming women and society. no.

We're all lonely out here. Girls are just as desperate for companionship esp if they're introverted and not conventionally attractive. whatever. A lot of factors go into why that is and it's not a guy thing, it's just those guys who take it as some kind of gender oppression because they feel so entitled to a girl who's more conventionally attractive than they are.

[normieauaskblog]

Autistic meltdown

Yeah this is the post this week lol

Just a shitty doodle

Its just edd having an autistic meltdown because err hashtag relatable

[sundown-sunrise]

Ugh, sometimes I think any discussion with ultra-fans of anything is impossible, because as soon as you try to approach the topic from a different point of view (it's not even always a different point of view, but simply correcting misconceptions!), you immediately get blocked.

I've had this happen more than once with Ford ultra-fans in the Gravity Falls fandom (the ones who usually call themselves "Ford's Defenders" and I'm not saying that all "defenders" are the ultra-fans I mentioned, but unfortunately, I've only met such ones, if you one of those, sorry, it isn't about you) and these are always posts about sexual abuse. To be clear and not allow for confusion, I think that sexual violence in Billford is very clearly visible, it has been discussed more than once in the fandom and between fans, so I think most people know about it. My problem with these kinds of discussions from these kinds of ultra-fans is that they somehow think that they are the only ones who know about this and that it is "not talked about" (even though it has been talked about constantly since TBOB came out, especially in the summer 2024) and also that Billford fans "don't take it seriously" or "don't know about it/downplay it" and I kind of always come up with accusations like "what the hell are you talking about, this isn't even true???" not to mention the denial of a lot of canon or a very narrow view of Billford's relationship only in terms of sexual abuse and not in terms of the relationship itself, which was deeply abusive itself and rife with sexual abuse. You see the difference? It loses the characterization of both characters and what brought them together (if you can say so, it is obvious that it was Bill's accidental call by Ford + the recruitment of the new pawn on Bill's part, but I am talking specifically about how everything went far beyond the usual "master/student" (muse/scientist???) relationship) in the first place and the fact that the attraction was mutual (despite Bill's abusive relationship and his denial of that attraction).

It's just...as a fan of both of these characters and their relationships, it's deeply saddening to hear people like this say things like "if you ship them, you're minimizing the sexual abuse/failing to see that it's an abuser/victim relationship" and that's just a lie, everyone knows that, that's why so many people are into Billford in the first place, people love problematic relationships, that doesn't mean they don't understand the seriousness of sexual abuse or are in denial about it. Sure, it's likely that given how big this fandom is, there are people like that out there, I wouldn't be surprised, but it's definitely not the majority, since I haven't personally met any, and I've been in this fandom since 2016.

And literally today it happened to me again, I didn't even disagree with anything, I just corrected the misconceptions I mentioned above and said that I think Alex obviously understands that he wrote the SA hints into Billford on purpose, given how it was presented in TBOB and I also don't think that having a little humor somehow affects the seriousness of the perception, if you understand how the narrative of Gravity Falls works and... I was immediately blocked, who would have guessed...

I just want to have a normal discussion without insults and denial of reality, but right now it seems impossible :(

[dykedvonte]

I think it says something that you got to see everyone’s dead body and were forced to be a participant to Curly’s torture at the hands of Jimmy but we don’t get to see him dead.

You don’t get to see the satisfaction of seeing the true cause of all the pain everyone went through get a single consequence and it’s so hollow. You don’t get a panning shot of his body, you don’t get splatter to show you it was messy. It just happens and then you’re just left there with all the remnants of what happened and unable to do anything because it’s over. It’s done and you don’t get to do anything about. It’s how Curly feels about what he didn’t do. It’s how you feel as you pilot Jimmy and can do nothing to stop him.

It’s how those affected by people like Jimmy feel after it’s all done. Seen some sort of due process or justice after every painful little thing. It doesn’t feel like enough after every, cause maybe it wasn’t enough. Or rather, it wasn’t done soon enough.

[iliterallydecepticanteven]

I'm tired of being the mature bigger person eldest daughter so, taking into account that my mom didn't call or text me for my birthday (which was on this past Sunday), she will be getting a glitter bomb mother's day card because this is the only way I can cope that doesn't involve burning major bridges

[qoldenskies]

You dropped out of school?????

yeah, i went and got a GED. it was because i had unmedicated adhd as well as what in retrospect was probably just a mix of undiscovered dyscalculia (i cannot do basic addition, it made math impossible) and also. idk ocd. i genuinely still cannot identify the source of my problem, because starting 2021 i just began to have severe panic attacks every single day i went to school. and i dont mean one, i had up to three or four a day. the second i felt slightly frustrated or overwhelmed i'd just start crying and wouldn't stop, and we tried things like a 504 (which most of my teachers didn't even adhere to, even when i told them i had it lmao) or even putting me on antidepressants and it didnt work, unfortunately.

in retrospect its just such a shocking thing to me, because ive been out of school since 2023 and it doesnt feel like its something that happened, like,,, to me. i'd say that i might have trauma around school, but its not a traumatic subject to talk about. you dont need to give me any condolences i have a very clinical view on it. im happy i dropped out!

[blackpilljesus]

You don't identify yourself as rad fem or feminist? Why? Also why don't you prominently post about men and misogyny?

Interesting ask, I knew someone would ask me about this eventually.

Answered the first question in a separate post but for the second question it's a few things even though I do speak about misogyny & maIes. For starters everyone already does that. I dont have much to say that someone else wont have already said; if you notice most of my blogs here are reblogs. Besides, as I've said (& shown) many times, everyone is aware about these things - at least the basics & enough to know it's a significant threat - they just dont care because they benefit from it. Just like how maIes pretend to not know, many women also pretend to be unaware & also pretend to be more righteous when many of them aid & enable maIe evil. Many women advocate for things against women as a collectives best interest bc they're only thinking for themselves but when it blows up in their faces they run to what they protested so it's not naivety. Better for another woman to be thrown to the dogs than them, they get to higher positions by stepping on other women. Like yeah yeah oppression & all but it doesn't make their actions less fucked up & free from being criticised.

Also, I've spoken extensively about moids & misogyny on other platforms and generally speaking I'm tired and over it. I'm done worrying about things out of my control. I'm over seeing the same reptitive points about maIe evil discussed & witnessed only for those complaining to go back to happily fucking & birthing maIes. No amount of talking about maIe evil + misogyny to most women will change things bc in the end moids will get away with their evil & women will still defend, love + reproduce them anyways. Writing endless posts on maIes & misogyny becomes redundant & counterproductive if there's no way forward which is common. Idc anymore because most women dont care & I've seen the lengths women will go to sabotage other women. The typical excuse for many women is that they dont know or need to "unlearn" internal misogyny but even with women that do know, women that have read many feminist books, done the VoLuNtEeRiNg, seen the stats & news of moid violence, etc - they still love, empathise with, defend, and happily birth moids. The women that complain & pull this "we're all in it together" crap just got screwed over by their nigels and will drop everything for another nigel they find anyways & I'm done with being used + wasting my time. I saw a tiktok of a woman talking about how soldiers brutally raped girls to the point their pelvises were shattered & many of the girls died from injuries yet she talks about how she + other women still love moids & believe they can change. She also mentioned the andrea dworkin quote about knifes towards the end "I don’t believe rape is inevitable or natural. If I did, I would have no reason to be here. If I did, my political practice would be different than it is. Have you ever wondered why we [women] are not just in armed combat against you? It’s not because there’s a shortage of kitchen knives in this country. It is because we believe in your humanity, against all the evidence". It's not women being "too empathetic" it's pathetic. Oh and this "excess empathy" is never given to other women & girls. Many of these women will rip you apart for much less.

Ironically, most of the loudest voices against maIes + misogyny are maIe lovers & apologists. They have a maIe partner or are looking for one. They speak endlessly on misogyny & go round in circles with the same talking points and endless articles of maIe violence with an interest to "change" maIes bc they love them. Despite everything they say about maIes you're public enemy #1 if you talk about having spaces or life without them. Reminds me of the below.

This ask mostly hits the nail on the head bc this is what I felt when I first left feminism. I used to be a huge fact fem on Instagram years ago until I realised it wasn't worth it. Didn't matter how many stats, stories, and arguments I pulled. Maturing, especially as a single childfree woman is realising that all this shit goes beyond witty one-liners & "gotchas" pulled.

To be clear, I dont think its bad to talk about these things; some people do need that wakeup call and it helped me years back & i'll likely make more posts on moids & misogyny in the future but instead of just constantly reinventing the wheel (which I'm also guilty of tbh); the wheel needs to be used to move forward. However realistically I dont think feminism will do that so I see it as a stepping stone instead.

However, it's also not that necessary anymore because maIes are peaking women more than any feminist text would. Very slowly but a lot of women are waking up to just how disgustingly maIes think of + treat women due to the internet. So while that's happening I'd rather focus on what's next.

[erggggggggg]

just as i suspected i hated today

[coffeecakecafe]

I'm on month four of typing my symptoms into google and getting the same thyroid results my doctors wouldn't treat already

seeing a specialist at the end of the month but given how it's been going I'm not anticipating treatment without More Tests. hoping to be on the right track by March, but this all started in October ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

[passionfruitmango]

Kinda fucked up how corporations make people put up with death threats, being called slurs, and other general bullshittery without the customer being told "do not come back"

But the instant a burnt out employee reacts and tells someone they don't care if you dont like them? Fired.