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fallendomino99 · 6 months ago

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Post-Movie Turtle Pile Blah Blah Blah

(just me projecting thoughts and feelings and wanting a hug lol)

"Do you ever feel like..." Leo trails off. His twin and younger brother are both fast asleep against Raph, who shifts subtly to peer at the slider.

"What?" Leo picks at a loose thread on the beanbag he's occupying.

"Nevermind. Sorry," Leo replies. Raph huffs sleepily.

"What's on yer mind, Leo?"

"Don't worry about it, Hermano." Leo's tone is devoid of emotion. Raph checks the small clock ticking away across the room.

1:38 AM.

"Leo?" Raph tries, the slider's gaze shifting to his big brother from his staring contest with the ceiling. "Could ya tell Raph what you were gonna ask?" Leo tenses. Raph notices the signs of a panic attack a mile away. "Hey, big man, you're alright," he says, shifting around to reach for Leo. Mikey and Donnie mumble in their sleep.

"Raph..." Leo's voice cracks as he accepts the offered hand. Raph kicks into gear, sitting up enough to pull Leo into a hug. This startles their purple and orange brothers awake.

"Leo?" Mikey mumbles, joining the hug without questioning what's wrong. Donnie silently reaches out to tap Leo's shell.

We're here.

"Do you ever feel like you shouldn't exist?" Leo whispers brokenly. His brothers pull him in even closer.

"Aw, buddy."

"I do." The three eldest brothers snap their attention to the youngest, who shrinks away but doesn't let go of the hug. Leo lets go of Raph to pull his only baby brother closer into a crushing hug. Donnie joins the hug on the other side of Mikey, making sure he's holding on tightly to both of his younger brothers. Nothing else is said, and any tears that fall are silent. Leo tries breaking away at some point, making the other three latch onto him tighter.

"I'm sorry... Insomnia brain doesn't pair well with, uh..."

"Don't let go, Leo," Mikey whispers.

"I am declaring war on your dum dum thoughts," Donnie mumbles.

"We're in this together," Raph says with finality.

Anatawa hitorijanai.

#rise of the tmnt #rise donnie #rise leo #rise mikey #rise raph #oops sorry i writed #take that depression #yes i hc leo being the younger twin #hating existing rn #platonic #been thinking about mikey-centric fics???#i know leon's got his issues but i think angie needs a hug

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thekittyokat · 1 year ago

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you ever just have a lot, a LOT of feelings all at once about a character and not even remotely enough words or brainpower to FORM the words to describe everything you're feeling. so it feels like you may explode. yeah

#sorry i got really into my feelings about mark hoffman again #the very specific version of him in my brain that i really really wish i had the time and energy to properly share with you guys #saw #well until i muster the energy to explode all of my feelings out into a fic. if you want to TRY and understand #know that my three biggest hoffman fic insps right now are as follows #your best kept secret hoffman. a series of mistakes hoffman. and rushed like a dreadful wind hoffman.#there is a very clear throughline just know i am extremely emotionally compromised rn #thinking about theee fics vs the canon path hoffman spirals down #something something the absolute tragedy of watching a man's descent into madness #the transformation of a man into a monster #and what could have saved him from himself and kramer's corruption #sorry i'm rambling so much oh my god i was just having such a crying fit out of nowhere about this #do you think he could feel it happening. do you think he was aware he was losing his mind.#the script version of him fucks with me so bad. the crazed rankings and the longer hair and him not being well kept anymore #it's impossible to think he didn't know he was deteriorating #fuuuck okay i need to either chill or write a whole longfic rn #i project on that guy so much i truly don't know if i could properly write my vision of him #until i do something more substantial the full extent of my hoffman exists for me and my boyfriend only. they get me like no one else #well ginny and jenna also get me. please read best kept secret and a series of mistakes Oh My God #where am i going with this. i like tag rambling actually this is a nice way to do it without forcing EVERYONE to read my delirium #anyways if you've read all of this i think i love you? feel free to dm me about hoffman and my very specific headcanons and aus #maybe soon i'll try and start writing my fics about this tragic man #i could never say any of this on twitter btw they'd string me up for my opinions on him as a sad wet beast who could have been fixed #if only he hadn't been weaponized first #god i'm too tired to even be as embarrassed about this as i should be. thought i unlearned cringe already #but i've been spending way too much time on twitter and they HAAATE hoffman there #rip. i know it's not that serious but i'm sensitive rn and hate feeling lonely in my thoughts #ok bye for real otherwise i'll never shut up. i might tag ramble more often bc this was therapeutic in a way i needed badly #cat chat

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royaltea000 · 10 months ago

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Hmmmm…monkey

#sorry guys I’m on a mythology kick rn #I also watched legos monkie kid despite hating the Lego style and had a lotta fun actually can’t wait to draw the characters in my style 👍#journey to the west #lego monkie kid #lmk sun wukong #sun wukong #so was anybody gonna tell me that there’s mpreg in journey to the west #or was I just supposed to find that out in the same chapter its revealed that sun wukong is a pro choice activist and abortion water exists #jttw truly is THE template for all modern tropes huh #digital art #my art #the cure to burnout is rest and media exploration #also have fun :)#watching black myth sun wukong playthroughs and desperately trying to convince myself that I’m not a furry #they really said return to monke and meant it

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cimmerian1275 · 3 months ago

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"Falling feels a little like your flying" - Song

WOOO I DID IT!! Trying to figure out how the show drew those portals was An Experience, whew.

And a close up ✨

My brother helped with the pose again <3 hes great with being my model so i can take photos and learn how to draw humans/humanoids.

And bc of him i have a ton of references with cool dynamic poses just sitting in my folder for stuff like this 👀

#my art #cimmerian1275 #digital art #tmnt #rottmnt #leo #leonardo #fanart #i cant tell if i enjoyed drawing the portals or hated it #i drew this at midnight >.> insomnia is the bane of my existence and i feel very dead rn #GO LISTEN TO THE SONG!!! Ive been listening to it on loop for 12+ hrs now #plus it sets the vibes for the drawing >:)#kinda tempted to use this as a pfp cuz its got GREAT pfp potential #or maybe a banner?? idk

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lemongogo · 1 year ago

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#waiting for livraz 2 show up^#elendira #trigun maximum #trigun #lg doodles #mo but im like . going 2 complain for five secodns #but i hate working full time i hate it ive awkays hated it i will always hate it and when im dead ill still be hating on it #NOOO ENERGYY(‘!!!for anything . ever .#like ive given up on hobbies bc it feels soo fcking impossible to do anyrhing that isnt cooking dinner and then passing out 4 the night #miserable existence i want to claw my face off #the oast two yrs have been manageable in the sense that i alws had smt to look forward to #hyperfix or whagever. but these past 6 months r grey.DESOLATE‼️‼️‼️devoid of purpose #elendira outstretched hand lets take ibuprofen together #but its lexapro #anyways . ^__^!!~~ hope uve had a good day today #or did smt fun this week #bHELPPPP #walking 2 my car rn actually .. inagine the virgin walk guy thats like this > 🚶#metbh #being let out of my hamster cage . only to return 2morrow

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valewritessss · 1 year ago

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How do I tell Annabeth haters that they’re not being more feminist for hating Annabeth instead of Rachel? Why do we always gotta hate someone? Can these two girls just exist and not be blamed for shit.

Because first it was “Rachel is getting in the way of Percabeth so she’s a bitch”

But now it’s “Annabeth was so mean to Rachel she had so much internalized misogyny”

Like why did y’all switch up??

I mean good for Rachel but like bad for society this just set us back because wtf

If you can’t blame one you have to blame the other? Honestly they think they’re being such a girls girl for that but it’s just getting worse. God forbid a girl has a crush on an attractive guy and god forbid the other girl who has severe trauma revolving anandonment hates her for it.

#Annabeth chase #this isn’t Rachel slander obviously #anti annabeth antis #rachel elizabeth dare #percy jackson #Percabeth #I swear how is the logic logicing #they’ll say Rachel is allowed to be a teenage girl but crucify Annabeth for the same thing #hypocrite much #Rachel did nothing wrong and Annabeth was valid for disliking her #these two can co-exist #and yes I’m addressing more Annabeth hate rn because I’ve seen so much of it #they’ll say maturing is realizing Annabeth was in the wrong #why the rush to blame someone #this isn’t the feminist move they think it is #heros of olympus #pjo #hoo

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eclipse-song · 1 year ago

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He lost a bet with Thirteen

#doodles #james wilson #blaming the existence of this art on me being stoned rn #house md #hate crimes md

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allthebestnamesweretaken · 1 year ago

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“Charles Xavier did more for mutants than you’ll ever know. My single greatest regret is that he had to die for our dream to live”

Oh nothing, just Erik talking about his (ex) husband

#cherik #charles xavier #erik lehnsherr #charles x erik #I’m falling down a cherik rabbit hole #the closet is glass #I should be asleep rn #but how can I be when they exist #they plague my every thought #x men the last stand #the way Pyro thought they hated each other #no bro they’re in love #they’re just divorced rn

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literallyjonathandavis · 1 month ago

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i love how frank wrote some of the most violent and morally questionable songs in leathermouth when in reality he's the most chill and non violent dude (I mean except for when he beat up a nazi but that's justifiable) out there like he's not actually shooting up a school or killing the president or anything ofc not but instead of breaking the law out of anger he channels that into slightly concerning music and I relate to that heavily ykwim

(I'm newer to leathermouth and I'm still trying to decipher what the FUCK this man is saying in this bands songs so pls tell me if there's any more violent lyrics I can nibble on thx)

#Like fuck no I'm not shooting people or killing them but I myself will write a song about it #Oh yeah did y'all know I come up with lil songs sometimes and then end up hating them a week later #Axl says trans rights #Frank iero #Leathermouth #LeATHERMØUTH #Frank iero and his fifty billion bands era goes hard I AM UNLOCKING A NEW LEVEL OF TRANSGENDERNESS I DIDN'T KNOW EXISTED #Ok but this one (lyrics) I'm cooking up rn actually eats like yay violent #Spotify

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beardedhandstoadshark · 30 days ago

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You guys remember when you could just do the whole "Title minus Hero of part = nickname" thing to differentiate all the Links in the regular Zelda fandom without lu stans instantly thinking this is about them somehow (despite the comic itself never even using those nicknames) and going absolutely haywire? Those were the good times lmao

(Seriously though it's been a thing since the 2000's in the general fandom and is still common everywhere else that isn't tumblr/ao3, where it's only stopped because of all the harassment. Jojo from LinkedUniverse didn't invent the concept of crossovers. No, not even Link's Meets. Like. Cmon)

#legend of zelda #linked universe #<- on account of a noticable trend of this happening a lot lately #but rn instigated by scrolling past a fic where the author got #*bullied into turning their story into lu*#because it ^reads as lu^ (aka used the Zelda fandom nicknames)#by GETTING STALKED AND THEIR ADRESS DOXED #like. wtf #and it's not like this is a new or one-off thing.#Just look at all the other Links Meets comics that either have to plaster not lu everywhere #or quit #or will never even begin to exist #because people know they'd have to deal with this if they ever tried getting their stories out #bro I recently saw Regular Ass Zelda Fanart with a gigantic disclaimer not to tag as lu #because apparently Hero of Time angst is lu now #lu anon hate harassment / death threats / doxing is like the lu fandom's oldest ^drama^#except it never ceased #really though ^it reads as lu^ because there's two Links in a room.#lol. lmao even #and before anyone starts again:#i just suck at conveying emotions through text without using emoticons #the vibe here is /hj #or half-serious #not meant to be read in any angry or rantful tone that may be interpreted out of it #imagine an XD at the end of every sentence #except for the one about doxing #ok? >v<#TLDR #that one ^when you mean the girls and gays can you include me too^ meme

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moniquegibaeu · 5 months ago

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Heh 😼 I reposted atleast 43 rtc posts because of the TikTok ban while watching rtc while texting about rtc while posting about rtc I'm just so sigma 😼😼😼

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decayayhagfishh · 7 months ago

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I cried at school 2day so i drew Kou ♪⁠～⁠(⁠´⁠ε⁠｀⁠ ⁠)

i drew him as Niigo because urm hoo boy...

also ignore the small images and stuff, i was in genuine distress because uhhh uhhh uhmm that girl is a real crowd pleaser

and don't mention that i forgot his omamori in the middle or i will cry

I genuinely feel like doodoodookiecrap lately i just want to disappear without anyone even remembering me i feel embarrassed

#i h8 having meltdowns #tomorrow marks the day my worst meltdown turns a week old!!! yippee!!!#tbhk #kou minamoto #toilet bound hanako kun #jshk #ikigusare #artists on tumblr #ikigusare idols #Parlor Parisienne go Bang Bang Darling Wow is the local Parisienne on a Bench Predictable Parlor Parisienne a bright shimmering red Sky #I need to daydream NOW!!!!#Who else hating on their whole existence rn?!?!#ikigusare idols niigo #irdc that the tags are out of order tbh i just want to honk shoo honk shoo

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lemongogo · 8 months ago

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oo u want 2 draw soo bad..

#i hate that my ability to draw is so conditional #its soo frustrating but i dont know how to break it. this has been the one thing thats never changed.ill never be free #times like rn i just do studies but its soo fking BORINGGG euuhh...#but if i try 2 draw something for funsies i just stare at the blank canvas. literally immobile. & u know how people r like just draw #something anyways. a line. something. and its like no i cant do that oi cant even do that u underestimate my freak #i want 2attack myself from the pov of someone else #i think im having the realization tht i will never be able to do art stuff frls and its driving me crazy i think.#like im actually sick and unwell frm the thought of it.my friend commissioned me and im ab 2 send the money back #after two weeks bc i cant do it im literally frozen dude.i want 2 cry and die and explode into a million pieces #wait im back to add more.idk if anyone feels the same way but its like. i know its entirely a Me issue its a mental block issue #theres something thats not connecting in my head but its like.why is it so easy for everyone else ykwim...and thats a lie too right #like everyone else struggles w art and its not.it cant exist Without you struggling and practicing hard and trusting yourself #but in my brain im just convinced that like.i cant do this i cant do this like everyone else can do it like second nature and it freaks me #tf out #but also its the one thing i want to do more than anything else in my life and so like if i cant do it i dont know what to do.ughh.#not me freaking the fuck out rn lawl.lols.even #and on top of it i feel like i cant express myself well and i think my friend. < SOOO awesome and well meaning and NICE and legitimately #pushing me to try and believe that i can do this stuff but i feel like they wont understand the sort of like.mental block im struggling wit #like its less that i hate my art or something i dont its more like.i just feel soo physically restrained and incapable of doing it.suddenly #i cant think and i cant do anything.i have no creativity i have no ideas my mind is quite literally blank and empty

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fierydare · 4 months ago

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#hi im getting my ass beat by the flu #ill try to write after another day or two #but existing is a struggle rn #man. its already march how is the flu STILL going rampant i hate it here squirtle #( out of fire / ooc )

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itadooori · 20 days ago

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the junhun brainworms are so bad rn yall i dont think im gonna make it

#junhun #rn im thinking about jun-ho obsessively trying to find out as much about gi-hun as he possibly can in the short time span they r together #not an easy task btw gi-hun is being soo avoidant #anyway i am Thinking about jun-ho asking him about what he was like before. not as a kid necessarily just #his life from before the games #obviously thats too raw of a wound for gi-hun to even CONSIDER showing to jun-ho so he doesnt really Want to #but jun-ho is nothing if not a freak who hates listening to what people tell him to do tho #he makes his way to gi-huns old place (probably remembering it from when he caught gi-hun there years ago in s1) and does what he does best #(breaking and entering)#its dusty and dark and clearly not lived in at the current moment #but its also...untouched #my headcanon is that gi-hun still owns the property he and his mother lived on but he just #couldnt live there anymore #it was just too much #spent maybe a week or two completely catatonic waiting to die in bed in the house and then he just Left #so he was just living on the streets and in hotels sometimes for that year after the games #so that house is just #a time capsule honestly #jun-ho walks through it and is taken back to three years ago #he sees pictures of gi-hun and a little girl on the wall. does he have a daughter?#she has his nose. his smile.#jun-ho was excited to learn more about gi-hun but something is kind of digging at him now i think #just #this heaviness.#hes standing in the house of a man who no longer exists #has jun-ho reallyyy thinking about how the games changed both of them #and i think it strengthens his resolve to want to Know gi-hun even more now #jun-ho so passionately refuses to regret anything about knowing gi-hun #not art #yapping tag

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cynniminni · 8 months ago

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Hewwo, this is just a notice that I've deleted my Twitter and idk if I'll keep this blog updated. I've been dealing with health issues lately and am going to continue focusing on resolving that if I can. In light of recent events, I wish everyone to take care, stay safe, and stay warm 🥺♥️

#personal #Man do I hate existing rn

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