#havent drawn them for so long... this is old too

[voidedjuice]

Not ilta and information on everyones smiling habits

[chrysanthemore]

deactivating bsky, ig, and twt once and for all has been so liberating

shit is just going to be on neocities and here for the time being 😭

[phantom-z0ne]

Phosphophyllite and the Terrible, Horrible, No Good, Very Bad Week: 147 words written

when in doubt, post eerily accurate predictions online: 105 words written

Unless I decide to combine chapter 3 to the next chapter, chapter 3 of TTLG is almost complete!! Probably only 1k words max left :DD

PTBW on the other hand... I'll have to work on it every day if I want to publish the rewrite next month. Only ~10k words to go!! (T◡T)/

Last sentence(s) written:

"So," Hood clapped, the crisp noise ringing in the small space, "I've got some good news for you, Phos."

[crypticsketchpad]

havent had much drawing motivation lately so *throws pile of old AU scribbles i made months ago and never shared directly at you*

basically the result of a random scenario i came up with ages ago that spiraled out of control juuuust a little

introducinggggg. Splice! (it/its) the... i guess you could say love/hate child of Matrix and Alva my favorite toxic yuri/yaoi/whatever the fuck you call it when theyre both nb.

the first and only instance of a common/rare "hybrid", informally dubbed an "uncommon" wubbox. neither alva nor matrix have any idea how they managed to bring splice into existence.

despite its parents' strained and conflicted relationship, splice is well loved and taken care of- spoiled, even. alva is very protective of it, and despite letting matrix visit every now and then, never lets splice out of its sight.

believe it or not matrix is actually a decent parent! a little dumb and irresponsible sometimes but loves their kiddo very much. splice is one of very few beings in matrix's life that they truly, genuinely care about (not enough to stop their horrid experiments, though...)

somehow managed to inherit one of matrix's robot arms in place of its right arm, resulting in splice having to deal with a disproportionately long and hard to control limb from birth. it's lightweight enough to move, and its hand functions just fine, just very unwieldy overall; splice (at least when it's a kid) seldom uses it properly, mostly just letting its arm drag on the floor or keeping it in its mouth.

more drawings under the cut

rough growth chart/ref thing; third pic is its teen/young adult stage! this au is connected to my semi-anthro wubbox universe, so as it ages splice's body gradually becomes more humanoid

(and in case it's barely legible the text in the preteen pic says "matrix went missing when splice was around 10". what do i mean by this?

:] )

more grown up splice! had a silly idea where it retains its arm-chewing habit from when it was a baby throughout its life

i <3 making aus of aus. heres organic au splicey and a peek at human au splice (aka Spencer; haven't really drawn them much yet)

organic!splice is missing an arm, but its prehensile tri-tipped tail makes up for that- manipulation wise, anyways. it prefers to walk on two legs rather than on all fours (or. all threes). as a common/rare hybrid of sorts i guess it'd be the monster equivalent of intersex? inter-rarity? just generally an oddity

spencer was also born missing an arm, so maddox made them some sort of experimental prosthetic (hence the robot arm. it probably looks more normal canonically I just like drawing it as the noodle version). but, no matter how many times maddox (sometimes Alva too) tries to fix or upgrade it, it’s pretty uncomfortable/doesn’t work all the time and spencer doesn’t like it very much. it's kinda just dead weight to them

pictured here is 10-11 year old spencer dealing with the newly acquired knowledge that one of their parents is a wanted criminal and serial killer. poor kid

anyways splicey baby I love you. sorry you have the most shitty parental situation

[taboo-night-xxxx]

hi did someone say voixer

reblog this to show me all your voixer fanart please

I want to add it to my collection.

[separatedleoau]

Did One ever say... dad to Draxum?

Nope! He's been calling him Boss from the moment he started to talk

This is actually something he picked up from the goyles! They call Draxum "boss" pretty much all the time so One started mimicking that since he started to talk

In One's mind, the goyles are pretty much his co-workers

they played a big part raising One, almost as much as Draxum, specially when he was really small and Draxum was too bussy supervising the reconstruccion of their home

But as time passed and One grew, the role of babysitter have fallen more and more, tho there are still times they are constantly checking up on what is One up to ro report back to Draxum

I don't have any specific scenarios for One getting sick as a kid, but I imagine he has gotten sick a few times. Taking care of him would be a mix of Draxum and the goyles' duty, Draxum would always call a healer is necesary too.

Draxum might seem too harsh a lot, but he had always look out for One, after all that's his experiment! Draxum needs him to be on peak health so he can perform his duties and compleate his purpose!

There's quite a few things One likes to do! He likes to play basketball and to skateboard, but he has to do those behind Draxum's back and doesn't do them often

Few things Draxum is aware of is him practicing parkour, but that helps him on missions so is ok. He also enjoys to throw knives a lot and has been perfecting his technique for years, and making up tricks to entratain himself

He's interested in the Nexus in a way, there's no yes or no answer, honestly. He doesn't like Big Mama or her "wasting" warriors on Nexus fights but a lot of that is just him parroting what Draxum has said, he enjoys watching fights but Nexus fights are kind of forbidden to him. but he likes watching old recordings of Lou Jitsu!

I do have kind of have a design for Usagi but I'm constantly chaning how I want him to look on my mind and havent drawn it out in a long time, I think a wip of it was one of the first posts I did on patreon? but thats an old design and, like I said, I keep changing it. I dont think I'm gonna finish his design until I have to draw him for the comic, and thats not gonna be any time soon

and thank you!!!🫶🏼🥰 I love getting questions even when it takes me a while to actually answer :v

(found the old patreon post of Usagi)

[dykefrin]

WE HAVE HIT!!! 100 FOLLOWERS!!! SKETCH DUMP AS PROMISED UNDER CUT!!!

cw for gore in some of the sketches and other isat-typical warnings. also very long post

1. some of my first siffrins ever... dont think i had even finished the game yet. youll notice random physics/calculus notes in the margins of a lot of these lmao

also. heir of time siffrin real ^

2. more old siffrins. by this point i had actually finished and thought act 5 siffrin was really normal

3. loop telling siffrin to kill themself

4. rare nonsiffrin drawing... hi low hp odile...

5. > establish character full of joyous wimsy > inflict soul-crushing trauma

6. one of my fave scenes in the game yay yippee!

7. postcanon siffrin + loop designs. i imagine these being a couple years postloops whereas most of the postcanon sifloops ive drawn are more immediately postcanon. i love the idea of siffrin growing out their hair and keeping it in a braid. also shoutout to the loop boob window

8. posca doodle i drew in a hospital waiting room while getting tests done for the whole kidney stone incident

9. ok the second page of these i posted on my homestuck blog but i dont think ive posted loopsprite. shoutout to loopsprite theyre skaias strongest soldier and theyre sooo normal

10. these are!!! all the thumbnails for the road to nowhere!

11. the two flavors of sifloop

12. in cats and time. pallas cat siffrin. black footed cat mirabelle. sand cat bonnie. canada lynx odile.

also loop critter that is meant to go with all the cat designs

13. twohats sifloops

14. siffrins i drew during therapy

15. act 5 siffrin i drew the day before we got around to voicing it in my friends' playthrough (i voice siffrin ofc)

16. cover them (guts) up slut

OK THATS ALL THE STUFF FROM MY SKETCHBOOK. NOW FOR DIGITAL STUFF

17. you should read haunt the stage (words dont come easy) by @razzware ooo you wanna read it so baddd

these designs are not accurate to the fic tho bc i drew this while it was being developed. girlfriend privileges

18. honey im home redraw

19. handful of frames from an animatic im working on

20. act 5 mirror picture

21. playing around with making siffrins scar more gnarly. drew this to explain smth i was describing abt their cheek getting ripped open enough to see their teeth but the scar not reaching their mouth. the actual scar in the 2nd one was kinda bullshitted based on how id drawn the wound in the first one

22. not a sketch but havent posted this anywhere else. siffrin injury/scar ref sorry for my shitty handwriting bluh

this was MEANT for vaugarde-posting but. applies more generally too

ok thats everything YAY

[underligtarv]

What's your oc lore for vicky and her family if you don't mind sharing?

I absolutely dont mind sharing!

So, there isnt a concrete story for them - more so just a vibe and basic ideas and concepts of their family life, where they live and their dynamic. I have only drawn three of the family members (I just realized too that they dont even have a lastname... I should figure that out!) and these are Raylene, the matriarc of the family. She is somewhere in the age range of 30-40 and has never had a long lasting relationship. She does have several baby daddies, though! She is unemployed in a technical sense, but I imagine that she does some odd jobs around the trailerpark where they live to make ends meet (babysitting, hairdressing and perhaps the occasional financial aid from some men around the community c;). Shes currently pregnant with twins!

Then theres Vickies older sister, who is currently nameless. Shes 21 years old and is Raylenes oldest daughter. Shes quite shy compared to her younger sister and she works at the convenience store nearby the trailer park. She and Vickie do not share a father but they are very close and share a bedroom alongside their younger sister (more on that later). Shes saving up to have her own trailer in the future, but she will most likely end up having to share it with her family members as they are quickly running out of space ^^'

And then, of course, theres Vickie herself - who I see as the "main character" as I draw her most often. Shes 18 years old and pregnant with her first child. The father is unknown (or so she says!) but there are a few likely candidates as she has her "favorites" that she messed around with! Vickie is mischevious and chaotic and worries her mom the most - she got her tattoo as well as piercings done without permission by a friend and sees no issue with her pregnancy as shes so used to helping with her siblings. Another baby will be a piece of cake and, hey, she looks damn good pregnant too!

Raylene has 3 other children as well, a daughter who is around 13 years old and then two little boys who are around 8 and 4 respectively. These ages might change as nothings set in stone about them, i just know that they are there haha. The 13 year old girl, who Vickie and the oldest sister share a room with, is Vickies full sibling. The two boys both have separate fathers.

But all that is to say that I havent ever drawn these other siblings and I probably wont really draw them as they are children. This is, after all, a blog for kink art! ^^ Perhaps one day just for a family portrait or something but... Yeah!

In so far as the "lore" for them goes, the deepest lore I have is really just whats laid out and that they live in a trailer park. They all share one trailer, a 3 bedroom and 1 bath and the idea is really just that they live their lives and enjoy themselves! Its loosely meant to be set in the early 2000s as well.

If theres anything more specific you were looking to learn about them or the setting, do feel free to ask! But I think this covers the basics haha ^^

[mysticalcreatorflower]

MMMM YES HELLO HELLO I HAVE SPAWNED AGAIN!

i have many things to do in the summer and I'm very busy, + where i am has bad internet so when i travel back to my home country I'll be posting ALOT more like before

Uhh so even if I'm not posting much, I'm cooking up LOTS of sprites, costumes, au-s and memes for lilium, and maybe, just maybe i could reveal some old ocs to yall and maybe even lilium's old design bcuz i think it's funny!!

I've just made an au a month ago, still working on it, and it's the human au. I've posted some human au art on here, cool right? Heh anyway I've revealed in some post that lilium's name in this au is "lilith". But i just couldn't leave it at that so i made her full name "lilith seraphine" (se-ra-fin). In her human au she still has the same initials as her cookie form. L. S. for lilium speciosum! And pshh i thought I'd give dark choco a name too so "derek cavanaugh" (ca-va-naw) yes i know they have weird last names but they have meanings and i thought it was cool

Lilith seraphine! But i havent drawn dark choco yet. Also i headcanon that she's pretty tall. Like atleast 5'12, or 182 centimeters.

Not talking about human au anymore, thought I'd spill some facts about lilium here to feed yall

See that little necklace buddy? It isn't really a necklace actually, it's actually a pendant that dark choco cookie gave lilium speciosum cookie while they together, it has their names etched inside.

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Lilium secretly does ballet..shh (yes dark choco cookie helps her with it)

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Lilium writes poetry allll the time in a little notebook and presses flowers between the pages

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Lilium sneaks away from the silver kingdom alot to travel to other kingdoms and collect rare flowers for her garden (and that's how she met dark choco cookie, she travelled to the dark cacao kingdom to get a flower that only grows in the snow, a snowdrop)

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Since lilium and dark choco are in a long distance relationship (on different continents and there's a literal LICORICE SEA between them) they both travel to the other's kingdom with a ship and since it's kinda boring on the way by themselves, they bring some of their friends or servants from their kingdom to hang out. (Lilium brings silverbell cookie, and mercurial knight cookie, dark choco brings caramel arrow cookie and crunchy chip cookie.)

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If you've read lilium's origin story, the bond between white lily cookie and moonlight cookie that I've posted, basically, we all know that white lily is lilium's mother, but since lilium was born from a butterfly and moonlight, moonlight cookie is lilium's second parent. And before I've written the bond, i used to headcanon that elder faerie is her dad but that felt weird so i just headcanoned after that lilium was born after elder faerie cookie died and that she doesn't know him at all.

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Lilium owns a little harp and plays it sometimes.

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Lilium has been in the st. Pastry order since she was a kid and grew up praying to the witches everyday, this is how she knows black forest cookie and pastry cookie.

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Her voice claim is mitsuri kanroji from the anime: demon slayer. Both English and Japanese because it sounds too lilium accurate

And that's it for some of her facts.

And some sprites i made for lilium and dark choco

And uh i made rich cheese cookie (a scrapped golden cheese kingdom cookie, she was gonna be the daughter of golden cheese cookie) a sprite

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[storgicbytes]

ehehehehehe okay. first things first i figured out a good name for stohio: carteblan (i cannot believe it took me this long ive been calling it stohio for like ? oh my god just over a year now)

anyways yeah.

i havent figured out the exact timeline, but a couple years before victim "came back to life"/escaped the ava1 youtube video (that's a whole other can of worms), stickfigures were just finding out about the existence of other living sticks. in particular, freedom was a rather popular figure as one of the first sticks to break out of stick slavery (many living stickfigures were put to tasks, similar to chosen and second, where it was either do the task or die). freedom specifically was the first to discover the outernet, and quickly provided a link to others online.

he then created the "stick freedom ad" (which earned him his name; prior to this, he was simply known as unti (short for untitled) (sticks having Names outside of their roles was not a common thing yet)). he made this ad and scammed several websites into displaying it without actually paying for it by using fraudulent money (there are a couple very old blog posts and forum posts about the Stick Freedom Ad and what its supposed to mean, since clicking on it leads to an error 404).

as more sticks were freed and entered the outernet, they began to build houses. some sticks that had experience with drawing helped draw the sketches for these houses, which was then built upon using the surrounding resources. this eventually developed into carteblan, the city that mango and purple live in today.

however as time passed the culture in carteblan became a little elitist--- victim-blamey (haha), acting like all sticks should be strong, and turning down their noses on sticks who look a little too different from the norm (like paleo, ballista and hazard) (the norm being hollowheads, fullheads and whiteheads).

like i mentioned in my reblog, the sticks in carteblan began to crave more, lives similar to human lives, and amongst that was a demand for stick children. in my headcanon, sticks cannot reproduce and any sex they have is entirely recreational, so they had to devise another method for having kids. adoption, like mango did with gold in my hc, is the most common way of doing this.

sticks like second, that can draw things to life, are extremely rare (like 1 out of a thousand) in the outernet, but theres a couple thousand people in carteblan as of 2024 so there are a few sticks that can actually draw sticks to life. thus, they do 'kid' commissions where they literally draw a kid to life in exchange for money. there are also some website sticks in touch with their animators who ask their animators do do kid commissions as well for people in the outernet.

wow okay this is long. there are other stick cities too but the two major cities are carteblan and adagia most other sticks live in solitude or on websites ok im done woo

grabs you by the shoulders. falls onto the floor. has a fucking awakening

DUDE.

this is one of the most amazing things ive seen recently that inspired me to make a ramble/srs.

im going to create another part of my ramble series and pin it because of it im fr

foundation of the outernet, development of outernet sticks and creation of living beings

(a ramble made with the help of an immaculate person with amazing ideas)

OH MY GOD?????? FIRSTLY. i need to mention that i ADORE that we both have an idea that outernet was discovered by created internet/pc sticks. that its appearance began to be a place for a whole race to live in. and that its not something that exists completely naturally and independently from it. this is the theory of their origins i believe most right now

freedom being the founder IS SICK. ITS SO FUCKING SICK im rolling on the floor

in my "rules of code" ramble also i supposed sticks being in touch with their creators as well and them also BEING DRAWN!!! by sticks and creators. ill put a screenshot of everything hold on

outernets creation

my thoughts about outernets existence that most of which i think i explained

lives of stickmen and reproduction

my thoughts were about reproduction as well!!!!! its mostly accepted as canon in the fandom that sticks reproduce naturally but i cannot say that it actually is canon. everything that was going on with purple was symbolic and didnt showcase like. natural birth

alan said that for gold to exist king would have to marry a very neon yellow stick.

AND THIS made me confirm my headcanon that stick children are created by parent(s) own code. that they cannot influence it or prefer a color, that their code INHERENTLY has the variety of the color palette and hexcodes embedded into it.

ABOUT the code and colors. (i believe that the colors of sticks mixing up with each others is COMPLETELY code.)

all sticks inherently have a code and a name that gives them associated power. that can be messed with as well by a user (tdl command). its something that ive also talked in my rules of code ramble and mentioned the concept of "levels" and name power hierarchy

the chosen one, created and possessing a grandeu amount of power

the dark lord, also posessing a lot of power (that i dont believe couldve came from the command that was written into them. the command of destroying chosen is a goal that i believe is able to not be achieved)

the second coming, the name of someone that ties them with their predecessor (does make me wonder though how exactly their code made a connection with our chosen. maybe its possible that the name "the second coming" by itself, as a level, implies being a coming of someone powerful)

victim, being quite weak by themselves and not posessing any power by their own and having to rely on pc programs they're aware of.

i believe that being able to code a stick into a specific power and duty is something that could only be achieved and controlled through the feature of the program the stick was created in. in case of outernet, since they dont have access to computer programs and therefore, programs of creation such as adobe they cannot influence or change one's code

when it comes to creation of a stick i truly believe that you are able to give them color by yourself, unless the child is made by connecting it to the codes of its supposed parent(s). they gain hue by either actually taking/mixing up the colors of the parents or by taking one color in case of a sole parent.

(societal thought: its possible that outernet sticks, due to not wanting to have a literal copy and just an extension of themselves and wanting to create an "actual new life" by mixing colours prefer to have children with a partner, and not by themselves only)

have thought that color/code of the stick could be influenced by the parent(s) preferences, like a parent would like to have a kid similar to them and name them the same way (thus resulting/having their hexcode being picked out individually) BUT. i remembered alans words about kings spouse.

that for gold to exist king would need to marry a really neon yellow stick.

would it imply that sticks that subtract parent(s) code cannot influence the color of the stick created? as much as it impossible to influence the features of a born child in our real life, only taking it from parents and letting the nature play a randomizer. and that the only thing that they are able to influence is the shape of their creation?

society of outernet

THE CONCEPT OF STICKS SOCIETY BEING ELITIST ABOUT THIS STUFF. im eating it im not sure what fully do with it yet but im eating it

ive also talked about society there

when talking about creators of mercs king purple and co i was mostly thinking about real users. BUT YOUR CONCEPT OF STICKS BEING DRAWN BY OTHER STICKS AND ME THINKING ABOUT IT AS WELL . THIS IS SO FUCKING AMAZING. this is canon for me IDC!!!!!!

it does, however, make me wonder of their living process. we know that alan's hollowheads are created for a reason, are born aware of themselves, how to walk/run/interact/fight and havent been seen aging or changing. and due to chosen, victim and second surviving a whole bunch of damage that should've killed them, second literally REFUSING to delete, the fate of dark lord being unknown and alan not giving a straight answer about it and, very important: cg as created sticks being unable to actually die and needing only refresh of a page to continue living, having all their memories intact... makes me wonder that stickmen created directly by a human hand are unable to die.

(does make me wonder about another completely different thing. the societal perception. is it acceptable to be in touch with your stick creators? how would it even feel. do they perceive them as a distant relative?? do sticks that are able to create life consider their creations close to them as well??? im imagining something along the lines about detroit stuff with connor&kamski but way less intense)

connection of realms and creation of life

ive rambled A TON about connection of internet and outernet and how sticks especially of outernet could connect and travel between realms. hear ye hear ye.

right now i genuinely believe that stick society advanced so far in the outernet and got to live there that their connection with the internet mightve severed:

sticks of outernet don't physically interact neither with internet/pc programs OR travel there unless they obtained something that could allow them to travel to a pc/internet (the minecraft block and nether portals that seem doing quite fine in the outernet dimension) or have powers that can allow them to break through (chosen and the computer/ip sky which, interestingly, has only been seen broken through on the alanspc ip adress//dark portals to the internet).

given this, there's not a lot of accesible methods of traveling to the internet and most of them are available only to pc sticks.

(except. for king and purple. except for king getting a block from minecraft that was not supposed to be in the outernet from that merchant in his backstory. but it is a whole another can of worms as well)

as far as we've seen sticks that werent exposed to pc and internet tech dont really use or possess any tech that could access it??????? the times where we've seen tech such as computers/phones/tvs/pc and programs interface were always in possession of sticks that came from a pc or were there at least once (hollowheads, the cg, purple) or were entrusted with it from someone that was on a pc (mercenaries). talking about the video used on the tv in "the king" episode... it has never been shown that this video was being shown directly from the youtubes platform either. and that lead me to a thought that outernet sticks might not even interacted with internet's properties except for the tools used to create a life that came along with the foundation of the internet and most likely were developed from tools brought by the first sticks. but the way outernet progressed they might not even know that this stuff is literally from another realm

heck, a daring thought.

in case of outernet being almost completely cut off from its original internet history recent sticks of outernet might not even know of the existence of pcs and internet.

this does however clash with sticks being still created by people and sticks that are able to create life being in touch with them. but its still supposable that only rare sticks with an ability to create life somewhat have a.. gene? passed through to them from some of their ancestors that could've been able to create life. and users dont exactly come into this (also given its unlikely that its a regular experience for a user to be emulated in the outernet world like it was with alans cursor in showdown)

continuing to talk about elitism. again this is such a sick concept

im thinking right now that elitism towards stickmen that arent completely strong/prefer not to engage in fighting due to the progress of their civilization//different kinds of stickmen mightve also came from the original stickmen (im going start coloring this concept now. also this whole is some adam and eve stuff) that were created to fight. we know from our real world that the first appearance of sticks in the internet didnt come from a desire to animate them in a fighting ring but the whole scene and culture of fighting sticks came around pretty quickly. the whole reason avam exists as a series

its possible that while predecessors of original stickmen werent created with fighting in mind the stickmen that discovered the outernet might as well been the first sticks created for fight. and since it isnt a thing that gone away and is most likely embedded into the code of sticks themselves in the avam universe the whole "fighting code gene" mightve been carried over to recent sticks as well. and this elitism exists that even though sticks dont have to fight anymore (to literally survive in most cases) due to the progress of their kind some conservative mfs might believe that "this is what our ancestors intendeeeddd you need to bow to your roots and your existing gene"

the elitism towards kinds of sticks is. god its such a big and very explainable and amazing concept

due to sticks just beginning existing in the internet a long while ago and mostly drawn pretty similarly (since most creators were just exploring how to draw them digitally) the race of stickmen that passed down from original stickmen could've been all just fullheads and whiteheads and perhaps hollowheads?.. im really thinking hard about it because. we havent seen hollowheads in the outernet and the fact that orange didnt even know of their existence anywhere else and even WE didnt up until they saw victim (and were probably quite damn shocked) and the fact it was possibly quite a grand moment to them confuses me.

im not sure for what reason, but the number of sticks of the race of hollowheads might have been reduced in present outernet, only having the ones that posses incredible power survive. (yet. also victim. that does not posses such power. but its a whole another idea on that they could've acquired it through different means and not from power coming from their own self)

or, it just is an avam universe rule that users didnt really think of drawing hollowheads when creating first sticks because it was hard for them to keep track of the background besides their damn hollow head and it was easier to have a stick that covered it fully on another layer LOL

either way, coming back to elitism (this sounds funny out of context), due to original sticks being simply drawn as fullheads whiteheads and possibly hollowheads it was the main race that stickmen were used to creating when drawing a new life. but with the progress of their civilization they started to experiment, eventually inventing new kinds of sticks (the kinds of hazard, ballista and paleo). due to some conservative sticks clinging to their roots they didnt like the difference from the norm.

elitism thought.

even with a possible inability to code a stick into doing something by outernet sticks would people still try to draw a stick with a specific build associated with certain jobs and tasks, trying to force them into a mold of who they are "supposed" to be? like, drawing a stick that resembles a sign (like hazard) and having them work for example as an aircraft marshaller or some other job that requires caution and directive? the grey sticks working in rocketcorp, possibly made as clerks and errand dudes?

..could purple be drawn being stronger and having a greater build than a usual stick would have, therefore disappointing navy when they dont match their expectations of a stick they wanted?

would it be a problem that progressive sticks would try to solve? allowing different kinds of sticks to exist, but not forcing them into a certain shape?

another thing. YOUVE OPENED A GATEWAY TO A SEA OF WORMS BY TELLING ME ABOUT POSSIBLE ESCAPE OF VICTIM FROM A YOUTUBE VIDEO.

my previous ramble (rocketcorp, dimensions and virtual reality) made a theory that victim, in one way or another essentially brought pc programs and tech into outernet, thus obtaining power that is, quite literally, linked with their whole creation. (very symbolic considering their whole power is the one that made their life end so fast) and, due to outernet being cut off from programs and powers of internet and pcs, became a being that literally stood higher than the reality and fabric of the outernet realm itself, possesing power that could possibly meddle with it (mercs cannons literally changing structure and whole being of objects like the corndog stand or literally messing with a sticks state and body with chosen). and i have thought that victim is the one that could use internet itself as one of their grand tools.

and. animation vs youtube. we fucking know. that a stick is able to upload itself and break the interface of internet.

no one said that the original ava video on youtube is the whole thing that victim used to escape.

also. remember me mentioning that the original video of animation vs minecraft wasnt shown to be accessed through youtube. this video looked like it was downloaded having a whole different bar at the bottom and everything. couldve it been downloaded by vic or rocketcorp?

(victim interneted the fucking internet and started showing avam series like their own show. by the way its ALSO a potential scenario i talked about before. that due to potential severing of outernet citizens with the internet the recorded adventures of the cg on pc, internet and minecraft (ESPECIALLY considering that minecraft existed as a fun simulation game on a festival) that was broadcasted could've been interpreted by outernet sticks as fiction. but its an independent funny concept to be thought about and i still didnt fully figure it out)

op.

you cracked my mind open like a walnut and i cannot stop thinking about all of your ideas

oh my god this did so much to me. ive been writing for the past two hours due to how much ideas it gave me. im going to pin this ramble because its very important to me and puts a lot of theories and headcanons in stone. you are my saviour cindersnows and you are probably going to be fucking FLABBERGASTED by the length of this post

sincerely yours storgic "the aspiring matpat of the avam fandom" dealer

[turbotasthick]

(do not make attempts to comfort me, and this isnt aimed at anyone. AIMED AT NO ONE. attempts to comfort me is USELESS. I WANT TO VENT. I WANT TO VENT. this is my genuine feelings. i know what im doing is dangerous, irresponsible, wreckless and HARMFUL, but i honestly couldnt care anymore. dont make assumptions, dont point fingers, DO NOT MAKE ASSUMPTIONS OR POINT FINGERS. do not make attempts to give me advice. i know what should be done but i cant do it.)

(THIS IS A VENT. AND ONLY A VENT. DO NOT READ IF YOU ARE EASILY TRIGGERED)

TRIGGER: thoughts of being gone, ED, SH, hopelessness, Attempts.

Im gonna be completely honest with all of my followers right now, i am depressed.

i am talking pure defeat, hopelessness and worthlessness. i feel like i am unlovable, i feel ugly, and i also want to die (genuine feelings. DO NOT FUCKING POINT AT ANYBODY) i feel replacable.

i feel defeated and hopeless. i genuially feel like giving up on everything. Be it my relationships, or my blog or my health or my fitness journey. I have gone back to harming myself, i have lost my appetite completely, i have not been going therapy now i have not been going to the gym consistently. and everything is crashing down on me all the while im doing college. i havent been talking to dad.

i feel like giving up on myself entirely. why?

im beginning to see how worthless i am. i am a terrible friend, daughter, elder, lover- everything you can think of. i am difficult, selfish, intimidating, stubborn. i am very toxic. i am a drag. i am miserable, insecure, and absolutley diaboloical. i am beginning to fall into my old ways and i hate that.

i am beginning to feel more replacable and unlovable with each day that passes by. Everyone around me is surrounded by friends and lovers that care about them so deeply. i cannot have that. i do not have that and i dont think i ever will because i dont deserve and work for it. Its starting to eat me more then it should. Because of me being such a problem. i am a problem. i know that and i hate that i always fail to see when im friends with someone, or with someone until its too late and i hate that.

i havent made new connections, i havent drawn too much, i havent been my bubbly self and i miss that because Its gone to a point that i feel like i am unlovable, worthless, replacable. i genuially feel like that. Nobody can convince me i am lovable, worthy, or irreplacable. Thats nobodies fault but mine because I can no longer convince myself i should have those desirable things.

i feel really alone again and i cannot help but feel that way.

My feelings of wanting to die is strong again and im not saying this to guilt trip anyone or mess with anyone but it is what it is. THIS IS NOT TO GUILT TRIP OR FUCKING MESS WITH ANYONE IT IS HOW I FEEL AND I CANNOT HELP IT. it has come back in its disgusting and rampant form. i thought i had that fixed but i did not. I have been nitpicking at my expired medication for the past few days now. genuially i feel like wanting to disapear. i want to be gone. For a long time i want to be gone. i dont know how i made it this long. I have been harming myself consistently for a few days now. i have been pricking myself, i have been biting my self, i have been punching myself, and i do not bother fixing it up. i only hide it from my parents. i honestly have been toying with death.

i dont think i can conceal my misery anymore. i dont know how long i will feel this way. i dont know if i can help myself. i dont know if i can make new friends or lovers anymore, i dont know if i have the ability to maintain or keep my friends anymore, and i dont know if they want to keep me in this draining and exhausting state of defeat and misery im in.

i dont even know if any of my friends want to stay with me during this state of mine. i dont know if anyone is willing to deal with me. i dont know if anyone wants to spend time with me. i dont know if anyone wants me. i am scared that i am going to be abandoned by everyone after this. i am scared to isolate myself and i am terrified to talk to new people.

i honestly feel like i will be miserable and defeated for a while. i dont know how long it will take before i pick up my pieces completely again. i hope i can stop feeling like crap because i know i have a future ahead of me but i am really. Defeated. Absolutley. i feel like giving up.

This isnt anyones fault. There is no one to blame but myself. I know what to do. I just dont want to do it right now- i know thats very dangerous but. i am very tired.

Despite the utter Hopless, miserable, and giving up nature i think i still can hold on for a bit. College for some reason has only made me feel better these past few weeks. My professors are kind. The subjects are very interesting and i LOVE doing homework, it gives me structure. The friends i have right now have been very patient with me and kind. and im glad for that genuially.

please dont pity me dont comfort me or dont point fingers to anyone. dont try to convince me im worthy lovable or irreplacable or good. this is not aimed at anyone, and this is mostly a vent in my feelings.

I know i will eventually have to fix this. But i think for now, i will allow myself to be miserable. Let me feel these very devastating feelings so i can learn to fix it. i have done this before i can do it again.

i just hope no body hates me for feeling like this now and will not be hiding them anymore-

i will try to keep safe.

[danielmolloystits]

📝- boy (or man or guy or dude if you havent used boy haha)

no boys! so you get a man haha

from an upcoming ghost story fic:

July, 1974.

Alabama is a surprisingly pretty state. Daniel knows this because he’s been stuck in it for about three days now.

Here’s how it happened: he was headed east on I-20 on his way to Atlanta, not a damn thing but wildlife reserves and filthy, bathroom-less gas stations for miles. So of course that’s when his Volkswagen started making a noise that sounded like the death rattle of a drowning ferret, this guttural sputtering that almost certainly heralded some sort of imminent catastrophe that Daniel would be radically ill-equipped to deal with.

He pulled off the interstate at the first exit he found that looked like it might eventually lead to a town and then drove for a concerning number of miles, until he reached something vaguely adjacent to civilization. Which is how he wound up here, in a little hamlet called Coyote Creek.

Naturally, though, the one mechanic in town had already closed for the evening by the time he got there. So instead, he moseyed his way on down the road in a car that could possibly explode at any minute to a dingy motel called The Sweetwater Inn. He booked a room, went to bed, and was told in the morning that it would take at least a week to fix his shitty secondhand car.

It’s whatever, though; he’s been stuck in worse places. For as Podunk and off-the-map as Coyote Creek is, it makes up for it by being surrounded by lush forests and a sweeping valley and, presumably, a creek somewhere. The Alabama summer is blistering and the air is thick like soup, and it takes mere moments outside for Daniel’s hair to frizz and the shirt he’s wearing to glue itself to his back like greasy parchment paper. The sky, too, cracks open in a torrential downpour at least once a day.

But, man, the sunsets are something else: rich, buttery oranges and fluorescent pinks lighting up the treeline like a fever dream.

Besides, it’s not like he’s got somewhere else to be. That’s the beauty of running away from something, of buying a ticket to anywhere but here and anything but this: he’s got nothing but time to fuck around in shitty little towns until he finds something beautiful about them. Sure, he’s ostensibly looking for potential stories, things to write about, but those can be encountered anywhere. And maybe it’s just him being a sentimentalist, but he thinks they’re better in places like these, where every narrative has a long line of humanity tied around it like a bow. Generations on generations in the same place, living the same lives, marrying the same women and having the same children.

Maybe that’s why, when he hears about the old Dyer Estate up on Harvest Ridge and the supposed curse on the land, he thinks, fuck it, I could write about that. The owners of the property apparently haven’t been able to sell it or even rent it for coming on five years, so they’re willing to lease it out for a pittance. And, really, Daniel can’t pass up an opportunity like that—being right there in the beating heart of the thing—so he gives them enough cash for two months and that’s that. No formal paperwork drawn up, just a handshake deal and a set of keys pressed into Daniel’s palm.

So that’s how, within the span of three days, he goes from being en route to cover the music scene in Atlanta to being the proud inhabitant of an allegedly-haunted house.

[silvercrane14]

Kaguya-Sama: Love Is War - two students are in love with eachother but refuse to "lose" and admit their feelings. Instead, they have increasingly convoluted plans to get the other to confess.

Okay I will admit. this Is a romance and also ive only seen the anime. So actually this would fall more under anime recs bcs the english dub voice acting is AMAZING. Anyway tho its a comedy that I really enjoy. Its about romance but like. Idk I dont read/watch romance often so I cant say "its not like the standard romance plot". But its less about them Falling In Love and more about them Overthinking Everything And Being Silly. ALSO !! tho it takes a bit, it does go into the characters a lot. Very centred on the characters relationships !! Not just romantically between the main two, but in general.

Why I think you would like it: similar in "vibe" to nozaki-kun. Funny!! But it has its moments of seriousness and it understands its characters well.

Mushishi - Eye Have Not Read This im sorry 🙏 i havent even seen the anime so I dont actually know much about it but ive been recced it so many times I figure I should pass it to you.

If u like Natsume's Book of Friends you'll enjoy this. Genuinely I think this is my strongest rec for you on this list even tho I've never seen it. I really do think u wld enjoy 👍

Insomniacs After School - IM REALLY SORRY I HAVENT READ THIS ONE EITHER. I HAVE IT KN GOOD AUTHORITY U WOULD LIKE IT I JUST CANT GUVE ANY DETAILS. BCS IDK REALLY.

"Two young teens who can't sleep find companionship with each other. They must learn to overcome any challenges and figure out what's important to them."

Why I think you would like it: Ive heard its similar to Skip to Loafer in a way!!

Girls Last Tour - Two young girls explore a post-apocolyptic wasteland. They go through abandoned buildings and old towns in their journey, battling solitude eith only eachother

This one is a little sad. More likeeee. Meloncholy, yk? I dont have much to say about it. Very good manga.

Why I think you would like it: The character relationship between the two girls seems like something you would enjoy.

Look Back - to be super honest its been over a year since I read this I dont fully remember what happens. Theres this girl wjo draws comics for her elementary school newsletter. Shes funny so every1 really likes her and her comics. at some point another comic appears, but its actually just four panels of background art. Its so beautifully drawn that the other students begin to fawn over it. Angry kver her loss of attention, the first girl goes to meet the girl making these new comics (The background girl doesnt go to school, she works at home). Thr end up becoming friends and the story shows how their friendship develops and changes, growing closer and growing further apart.

The manga is p short for. a manga but its actually just a Really Long oneshot. Its rlly good. not much else to say.

Why I think you would like it: Very similar to Blue Period. About art and how it reflects people. Also very strongly driven by the relationship between the two girls.

The Girl From The Other Side - ive been typing so much i really cant give a whole review on this. Similar to WHA. kinda. beautiful art. read it u will enjoy it

Kaguya-sama I watched the first two seasons of! Maybe I should read the manga too, I did think it was fun

Mushishi I watched maybe the first episode of, but I should definitely try again,,, I don't remember anything about it lol

I've read Insomniacs After School!!! I'm definitely not caught up though, and I've been planning on watching the anime,,,

Girls Last Tour I,,, might have seen? At least part of it a long time ago. I'll have to rewatch/read the manga

Look Back sounds really interesting,,, I'll check that one out!!!

I'm actually reading The Girl from the Other Side in Portuguese rn lol I have volumes 1-5 on my shelf

[sharkymothfaby]

(Putting as sensitive topic just in case)

When Kisame had to go to the Land of Iron, for the mission given to him, Rinto went with him, as his new partner, to make sure the infiltration mission was successful.

In their way, they were stopped by 2 ninjas of Konoha, one of them being very familiar to Rinto, as it was his old sensei ,from his time as a genin. The other one seemed to be the sensei's new kenjutsu apprentice, that funnily enough was also a hoshigaki. (Characters still need to be drawn). Rinto instructed Kisame to keep going, while he takes care of these two. He would catch up later. The konoha ninjas tried to stop the swordsman, but Rinto blocked them from doing so.

The fight was long, and at the start, it seemed Rinto had the advantage, due to his kekkei genkai, his fighting abilities, and smart thinking, but his sensei knew him more than anyone, he knew rinto's weaknesses. Lenghting the fight, making him battle more as his Battle Fix form, so in the end he would struggle when moving. Rinto caught up to the plan right before he was at his limit, and managed to defeat them. At least he thought he did...

Rinto's body still hurt. It hasnt been 2 hours, so he could move, but the fatigue in his muscles pulsed, and his wounds werent helping. Whe he was ready to meet with his partner, he felt his legs get snatched. It was a jutsu that the apprentice used, in a last resort to imobilize the fox man. Rinto tried to get free, but his body was too tired. It gave the sensei and his apprentice time to get up and unleash a deadly hit onto Rinto, each sword piercing through his chest.

As rinto took his last breaths, his sensei, with tears in his eyes, apologized profusely for everything he had done, and also havent done, that could have lead rinto to this path of pain and hopelessness, and said that him and everyone else from the old "team yokai" still loved him from the bottom of their hearts, and that doing this to him was the most painful thing he has ever done in his life... rinto only chuckled, as his body leaned onto his old sensei. "You were always a cheesy old man, werent you... sensei" Rinto says, before colapsing onto the snowy ground.

"At least... i kept my promise..." he murmurs, as he smiled, tears falling, as his vision blurs, and his body gives up. "Im sorry, Kisame.... i wont finish this mission with you this time...."

[forlorn-crows]

Just wanted to say I absolutely LOVE Lady of the Lake and I've reread it so many times that I should be lowkey ashamed haha BUT

I'm also very curious about Nyneve's interactions with other ghouls like Delta or Dew. How did Dew find her?

You can absolutely take this as an opportunity to ramble about it if you want :)

okay so. i admit that technically the ghoul i call Water in my fic i guess is Delta? im terribly bad at tracking who's who in the water ghoul 'lore'. but Terzo called his bass player before Mist 'Water' so thats what i went with. so please call him whatever you'd like lmao.

for anyone who needs a refresher, this is sort of all i've established about Nyneve's past interactions w/ghouls or otherwise:

Uh, how long has it been? Since you’ve met a ghoul, I mean. Rain isn’t sure what to do with himself—what to do with his hands, his limbs, any of it. He dangles in front of her like a worm on a lure, and he supposes he is one, in a way. A slice of life outside the murky waters she inhabits. But he knows he’d be her catch of the day, not the other way around. 

Many years, Nyvene says wistfully. I can sense those who venture into the water at any depth, as well as those close to the shore. But the ones who seem most closely aligned to you have never traveled as far as yourself. They were surface dwellers. Rain gives her a confused look. Not all are drawn to the depths, and that is perfectly fine for a being such as myself. But I did begin to wonder who would come next.

Dew had been telling the truth, then. Who was before me?

His name was simply Water. He was quite robust in his search, perhaps a little impatient. But he was kind to me. So I cannot fault him too much. She seems wistful, reminiscent. Rain realizes he doesn’t know much about the water ghouls before him and Dewdrop, let alone any of the ghouls that came before their current pack. 

How many before him?

Many, she says simply.

Rain swallows, more bubbles escaping his gills. How, uh—how old are you, exactly?

Hm, age is a funny thing. That can’t be good. I have existed for a long time, longer than your congregation. 

So, we didn’t, um, create you?

No, my child. Though, the dark magick running more frequently through these lands has been . . . refreshing, to put it simply.

You’ve always been here? In this lake, I mean. 

Well, as long as I can remember, yes. She chuckles.

so, you'll notice, and as a gentle reminder, Dew and Mist did not interact with her. to me, they are not a deep-water alignment as Rain is. that's not to say Dew never meets her. because he does. but he didn't interact with her prior to Rain.

i think water ghouls, and ghouls/demons in general, have more specified alignments within the elements they are 'made' of/from. just water itself can be saltwater, freshwater, deep sea, rivers/streams, storms, ice, and things of the like.

so not all of them will have desired to go to the bottom of the lake (i think its pretty deep, think some of the deeper american great lakes depth despite its overall size). the elder ghouls may have passed down the knowledge about her, and some, like Water i think, dont. maybe theyre a little selfish about her, feel like theyve been 'chosen' and that everyone else should have to discover her too. with Water (again, Delta, w/e), it was turbulent with the new summonings, the changing of ghouls and even elements. there simply wasnt time to be like 'oh yeah also theres a big tentacle lady in the lake if you want to have a fun time' you know? not his fault.

so Nyneve's def had a relationship with many a ghoul, but it hasnt been linear. it hasnt all been water ghouls either, but i think the interaction of other elements has come and gone throughout time. i havent decided if any of the 'more recent' ghouls beyond the others mentioned have met her, or just know of her.

certainly there'd be urban legends passed around amongst humans that live in the surrounding areas, so they may have heard about something in passing. esp if any of those humans happened to become siblings of the church. but humans that do know of her have never truly known who she is, and mainly just call her varelse, creature. a monster.

the poem at the end you may have noticed uses her real name, Nyneve. so we can assume someone more personally familiar with her wrote it. scribbled it in some tome somewhere about local myths and legends, or historical drafts about the abbey itself.

she's very mysterious and not even i know everything about her, haha! dark magick gone rougue, some creature that crawled up from the depths, or something created by some long forgotten god.

all this to say, Rain had to introduce Dew to Nyneve. once he got over the fact that he'd have to tell everyone else about her, considering hed come home with sucker marks all over with no real logical explanation. i think Mountain is the first one he tells, but Dew is the first one he introduces.

i really appreciate that you enjoy LOTL so much; apologies for taking a little bit to answer this, but thanks for stopping by xx

if you havent already read about Nyneve and Rain, and this sparks your interest, you can do so here:

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[realpinkdiamondsstuff]

I'm experiencing rn a terryfying paralysis of creativity and drawing that is making me go insane. I want so badly to draw my characters PERFECTLY canon compliant that everything that I draw that deviates slightly is trash to me. I look at so many artists out there that draw pictures that look fresh out of the show, and all I want Is to be like them, but I CAN'T and it's so frustrating.

I have zero skill on digital, and in traditional im very lacking. Yet, i see all the time so many amazing painters and digital artists and inkers and pencil artists that make it look so EASY to be like them. But when I try, i immediately get frustratred and lose my motivation. I havent drawn anything i feel particularly proud of for a long time, the last time i remember i was 12 years old. I havent DONE anything, to be honest. All i do are little sketches on my diary and books, made without any effort or particular concentration. And I want to get better, but every time i'm either too busy with school or stuck in a mindless scrolling on social media. My perfectionism is literally killing me. I haven't felt creative for YEARS at this point. I can only copy, never create original artworks. I have a lot of ideas and concepts, but im never able to translate them on paper. I hate the way i draw, the way i colour, the things that i've created. I used to be so inspired and creative, even if I couldnt draw at all. Now i can a little bit, but its always not enough for me. I cannot come up with any dynamic composition, draw different facial expression, i dont understand perspective nor colour theory and clothing shapes and folds are alien to me. I used to love art so much, now i cant even pick up a brush. I feel always tired and angry and unmotivated. I wanted this to be an art account, but I ended up posting very rarely. I miss my old me, i hope one day she will come back.