#he did ask me if Id be ok with him using it for the blog and its like automatically YES like this is for you

[clockworkreapers]

Hey yall wanna see something cool?

Oh yeah, I think thats pretty cool

[borderline-culture-is]

bpd traits culture is my mom telling me that (according to his mom) my ex cried "big tears" when i said i ddidnt want to talk to him anymore. nad ik she wasnt trying to make me feel bad but i do i do feel bad. he was nice to me!!! my friends tell me he sucked but they didnt know him and as i tryy to say i havent told them all the good stuff because im either mad at him or feeling bad for him which is rarer and its always just little things anyway and they say the good doesnt outweigh the bad but maybe it does! i know i shouldve tried to communicate more its not enough that i cared so much about him and put his own health in front of my own i needed to talk to him about the stress he caused,and its not like he was putting all the pressure on me either because i was the one taking all his burdens he rarely asked for comfort really but i still know he depended on me because of what i did for him . i onyl felt i had a purpose in the relationship when i was helping him through something and he got better and i realized how awful my mental health was and. i still feel so bad. he didnt ask for any of this. hes just exhibiting symptoms of the same mental illnesses i have. as much as id like to go back to him to apologize even seeing someone with the same typing style as him is so jarring. i get uncomfortable when poeple use "silly" to refer to other people . i get uncomfortable wehn people put spaces between their parentheses and the words thye enclose. whenever i see an anon ask on any blog that sort of reminds me of their typping style i inspect it thoroughly just wanting to know if it was him. i periodically check his socials. he made a playlist that i think was alluding to me saying i dont want to talk and had the nerve to make 1/4 of it songs i introdced him to in it. hed always get into myu interests when id given up on encouraging him to and then he made them "his thing". i spent well over 300 dollars on him but i know he couldnt do the same reallt i mean after all he doesnt have much money he gave me handmade things more and i loved them i did it doesnt matter that i was hurting because i shouldve just tried harder to fix it all ok. i blmw him but i dont. i will be sending another ask thats more cool and poetic shortly.

-arcadeguy ++ candypiece cus ur gal is always on that darned computrer

I genuinely tagged this w the words and queued it, answered a few asks and then realised 😭😭

[sadie-bug345]

OK so I was wondering if you could do greasers head canons x gn!Goth s/o who just moved to town, and everyone, both socials and greasers are scared of them because everyone thinks that they’re a witch I know that’s super specific, but it’s an idea that’s been in my head for a really long time 

Thanks pookieeeee! Much love your writing is my addiction

i’m twinning with @urlocalnonbinarybastard !! go check out their amazing blog‼️🫵‼️

anyways pony is def intimidated by you

yet also intrigued 🤨

he honestly just thinks the whole mystery aspect of your personality and vibe is quite literary LMAO

def wants to match your fits you cannot convince me he doesn’t🫶

johnny noticed you and just kinda always had you in the back of his mind

like he just couldn’t stop thinking abt you

which i think is super sweet😭🥰

you guys are actually the cutest together like just the vibes match

and no one messes w yall PERIOD

soda was a little surprised when he had a crush on you

like he’s used to dating the cherry type (no hate to cherry cause id date her too🤷‍♂️💞)

anyways you guys are both night and day

givingggg black cat golden retriever

which i LOVE BTW

you guys are deffff a power couple

darry was prob really intimidated cause there were lots of rumors going on abt you

and guy doesn’t really get out much cause he spends most weekdays working like crazy

so he didn’t really get to meet you for himself for a while

but once he did actually interact w you he’s like TOTALLY crushing

you seem very sure of yourself and being around 14 year old kid brother pony, darry wasn’t really used to that

probably the most surprising couple here which just makes it better 🫶

yours and dally’s vibes definitely match

but guy was fr scared

so he’d probably cover that up with dumb comments

BUT you hold your own against him and he ends up regretting it

(this is like the first time in his life he’s actually thought abt other peoples feelings 😐)

asks you out a little after and you’re just like

”uhhh…ok🤷‍♂️”

POWER COUPLE.

two bit and you mainly just bond thru humor

other than that it’s a very opposites attract situation

you have really dark humor which two bit wasn’t expecting cause of your rep

but he LOVES IT

you guys just have inside joke after inside joke

and you guys have that “F WHAT ANYONE THINKS” mentality💞

steve prob saw you at a gas station

or soda mentioned you to him and he’s like

”i gotta know more🧐” LMAO

you guys are actually really cute

hes really sweet to you

and promises to punch anyone who says anything remotely negative abt you💀

go check out @urlocalnonbinarybastardwrites’s blog!!! they have amazing content there🫶🙏😀🥰 ANYWAYS MY INBOX IS OPEN!!

[outism-odyssey]

Outis Base EGO Sin Analysis

Right, I made this blog specifically to analyze her sins... and promptly forgot to do that!

For the meanings of each sin, I’ll be largely referring to this post from @lu-is-not-ok​ (its a very good post, do check it out!)

I originally meant to do her base ID and EGO in the same post, but, the EGO alone goes on for a while. (I’ll probably write up the base ID tomorrow)

Sin Costs

To Páthos Máthos costs 2 pride and 2 sloth, and translates to "Suffering Becomes Experience". Pride generally represents ignoring consequences. Act now, deal with the problems later. And almost always, pride-related actions ate taken out of the belief the benefits will outweigh the consequences. Sloth, on the other hand, represents apathy and resignation. It has many uses, but a particular use I think resonates with this ego is to do things without ever complaining or acting out.

Together, these sins would suggest that Outis believes what doesn't kill you makes you stronger. That she should press on, stoic and ignoring the pain, believing in the end she'll come out better for it. But, I don't think she actually believes that. Rather, it's what she *wants* to believe.

Early in canto 4, Outis tells the other sinners that "experiencing a certain pain will make you learn to fear and avoid it." And she says this in a very different tone of voice to the rest of her speech. It certainly doesn't sound like the words or tone of someone who thinks pain makes them stronger.

Her EGO's line is "the odyssey has a purpose." And in the context of her speech in canto 4? It sounds to me like she's trying to convince herself. She's trying to tell herself that there's meaning to her suffering, and that she hasn't just gone through all this for no reason. Telling herself that her odyssey did have a purpose.

Sin Resistances

There’s a few theories around about what exactly sin resistances on a sinner’s EGO means (like this one from analytical-machine!), but for this analysis I’ll be sticking to my own interpretation of it.

In the abnormality EGOs, I don’t believe resistances mean much of anything.it’s just the abnormality’s resistances, and it’s always identical across all sinners with the same EGO. But, the base EGOs are more interesting.

For a sinner’s base EGO, I believe the sins they’re fatal to are in some way connected to the origins of their traumas, while the sin they endure is how they’re trying to escape it - either literally or metaphorically.

For instance, Gregor has fatal for gloom and envy damage - respectively representing his PTSD and feelings towards G corp, and Hermann using him as a test subject and poster boy. On the other hand, he endures sloth. Gregor escaped the room he was locked into when, out of resignation, he cut the apple and was allowed to leave - resignation being heavily associated with sloth.

The resistances for To Páthos Máthos are: Fatal: lust, envy Endured: gloom

The combination of lust and envy was odd. Lust is associated with self-indulgence, following your own whims and goals. But Envy is associated with taking action because of someone else. They seem like complete opposites. I kind of didn’t know what to do about them. But, @speedynamo​ had some great insight in some comments, and I’ll paraphrase those below.

For Outis’ envy weakness: In The Odyssey, Odysseus ended up in the trojan war because he was bound by a truce to support the Greeks if Helen were ever to be kidnapped. When Paris of Troy asked Aphrodite for the most beautiful woman on earth for marriage, Aphrodite gave him Helen - thus kicking off the war and dragging in Odysseus.

And for the lust: War's often promoted as something that will make you complete. And because of that, many people think the best way to achieve your desires is to go out, fight in war, and come back as a war hero.

Speedynamo mentioned that their analysis hinged on there being a very close equivalent to the Trojan war. And there certainly is: the smoke war! While the specifics probably aren’t identical, there is a good chance that Outis’ experience was similar. Something was stolen (likely Old L Corp’s singularity?), and a deal/truce involving it dragged Outis into the war, where she believed she could complete herself by becoming a war hero.

It probably didn’t work out that way, though. So, how does Outis deal with it? With her resisting gloom... it seems like she doesn’t handle it. Gloom as a sin is all about stewing in your negative emotions, buckling under pressure, letting those emotions control you. And while we never see her express this directly, there are a few rare moments where she seems to show this side of herself - like when she tells Dongrang the calf will remember him, or in her sunshower EGO’s corrosion line (which is a topic for another time)

But, with her mask(s) on constantly, it’s not often that you see this side to her.

[bignattybear]

no matter how much you "wanted" him, he didn't deserve you, he must have gotten scared and realized he wasn't good enough

honestly, heres a rundown of how it went:

> we used to text a lot, he’d send me photos from open heart surgeries and other gruesome shit from his work day that i thought was neat

> i sorta disappeared because i just felt ugly and worthless and never intended to meet him in person

> months go by, i start a tumblr blog, have a hookup with a guy and got ghosted and was so just hurt by the way things went

> i’m whining feeling sorry for myself when he texts again saying hes been thinking of me. i literally said “ugh hi” because i knew what was about to happen

> i finally agree to meet him. it wasnt even going to be a hookup, i told him about the last guy and he says hes a coward this and that.

> he asks to see my tumblr and then starts jerking off in my car outside my apartment (he asked for consent before he started doing this, i said yes)

> he asks to go inside and watch each other masturbate and i was like well i have a condom

> we hook up, he was affectionate and sweet but still dominant, it was nice

> he blocks my number on the drive home

???? LIKE WHAT so i snapped and did a background check and messaged his brother that lives with him, telling him to “tell his brother its rude to cum inside someone and block them, and i assume he still wants me to take a plan B” he then unblocked me, profusely apologjzed, stated it was religious reasons, doordashed me a plan B, AND THEN WANTED TO PLAY VIDEO GAMES TOGETHER “but he cant date or have sex with me” ???😭 i was like dude we are not friends what the fuck LMAO?

yeah my life is a joke. i liked him but it wasn’t devastating, just infuriating that people are so goddamn allergic to communication. its ok to say “hey i changed my mind about hooking up with you, you’re crazy.” i would appreciate and respect that more than randomly fucking blocking me esp after i just vented about how it JUST HAPPENED AND TRIGGERED MY BPD ASS AND MADE ME FEEL WORTHLESS

Sorry yeah it just. i havent done hookups since cause its just fucking stupid, i dont even want commitment or anything serious and men are still acting funny so im just toyboxin it up over here which is a shame cause id be such a chill fwb???

[hang-on-lil-tomato]

Rhys Darby at The Keswick Oct 17, 2023

What a GREAT time!

I realized today how much LOVE was in that room! Love for rhys, for his “essence” (har har) and love right back at us!

it was a delightful time, rhys doing his greatest hits,

he can’t promote OFMD, which is fine since half the audience was dressed as pirates. We know about his little pirate rom com.

but…he very subtlety did a riff on “come back to me” and not so subtlety did “I did a punch”. Pretty awesome ways he had of sneaking that stuff in!

he got the best cheers for that bit of fan service.

his opening act was great, and he was doing a bit about usa tv, and CSi. It was ok, but it was kind of flat for him until he said something about the kind of shows you guys watch are about gay pirates, and we all went wild.

I met a cool fan with the same name as me, she was just back from NYCC. That was great! So we hung out, had dinner, and chatted. It was so nice to rave on with someone about OFMD details, and of course Rhysie. Really made the experience so much better, because I always go alone to things.

Steve was also joking about “where the hell are we? Rhys asked me to a show in Philly with him, but this isn’t Philly, is it?”

GLENSIDE, we shouted. It’s actually a very cute, upscale, suburban bedroom community for Philly. And we call everything around here Philadelphia, so that’s hysterical.

philadelphia factory outlets is in Sanatogo,

Philadelphia folk festival is in Schwenksville.

today I told everyone at school I saw Rhys Darby, and they looked at me like “Is that a band?” 😂🤣😂

Rhys asked the audience if anyone was local to Glenside. YES! And you’ve heard of me?

😂🤣

the capacity was 1300 but I estimate it was only 3/4 on attendance max, so maybe 800, but many DEVOUT fans. The orchestra was filled with SUPERFANS.

Anyone who pays any attention to my silly blah blah blog know I adore Rhys, but these folks are NEXT LEVEL. I had an excellent seat, but I’m glad I wasn’t quite in the gravy basket with the priesthood up front. May Rhys Bless Them from on high.

no merch table, just two guys doing stand up. Just down and dirty, simple and great.

unfortunately he and Steve couldn’t meet and greet as they had to drive up to Connecticut. But Rhys and he drove by and honked at the crowd in front of the theater. Unfortunately for me, I was on the wrong side of the street.

see Rhys LIVE! It’s a special experience.

oh, and don’t use AXL ticketing with their stupid app. Luckily I was prepared with my proof of purchase, ID and CC. Never again!

but I’d definitely see Rhys again.

the audience is part of the show!

[neims-skeleton-obsession]

16, 18 and 31 on Skulduggery for the ask game?

SKUG FUCK YEAH oh god these are gonna make me experience Thoughts And Feelings arent they /pos 16) deepest darkest secret they won’t even admit to themselves: oh this is. this is so evil i love you thank you im probably gonna end up spoiling book 15 be warned the first Plausible thing i thought of was that he did love china, for a little while. i hate the whole grandkids thing it doesnt make sense even chronologically but eh but no i do think he loved china for a bit, and not just because of the w. the whole her being beautiful as fuck- but because he really, truly cared about her. he probably would have felt so guilty about it if hed ever given it any thought- especially after he found out about some of her Worse Shit i think probably after wifey? like a few decades or so after wifey/the war. maybe. hm second thought: he thinks he is entirely unforgiveable. he says that he'll reclaim his family crest some day- but i do think he's lying. mostly to himself, but to val also. but realistically he has no plans to forgive himself, or accept others' forgiveness of him. he would deny that. i think. probably because admitting that to himself would make it that much harder to keep doing things- ie qquote un-quote good things. because if it wouldnt make a difference, it wouldnt change what hed done, what would be the point? 18) what they’d go to see a therapist about: i think he would have to be forced to go at gunpoint but id like to believe hed choose to go ghddgh but i think initially he'd go for. yknow how a fuck ton of characters point out him being an "angry man"??? thaaaaaat but it'd end up including his gEneral self loathing and all that traumatic sh- genuinely take a shot for every time he's been tortured and that doesnt include everything that's happened. ok. there's a lot. i don't know how if he'd actually be helped by going to therapy though. the systems arent that great for one and i think a lot of the gENeRAl sElf HatREd is. quite ingrained at this point rgyfhdgf.

31) jf they had a tumblr what would it look like: mmmm ok two thoughts: classic cars or getting into debates over true crime/crime. based fiction i dont remember what the genre is called i think all he'd figure out how to change is his pfp (probably just. set to a picture of his bentley or something oR. he'd deliberately leave it as default. or val would change it to something ridiculous and he'd give up trying to reset it), and his blog title n such. which i imagine would just be his name or, again, val setting it as something dumb and him not being able/bothered to change it erhgbegd. he'd either post an ungodly amount or very little at all (n just mostly reblogging stuff), probably the first, but he would use entirely correct grammar n punctuation, and probably correct other people on theirs in the tags. dickhead.

thank you for the ask!!! and sorry for the ramble(s)!!!!

[anothersebastianblog]

I share opinions of people that completely different to mines id say daily probably (about his rs, his friends etc)./// Okay… Then please explain how you see a loving couple on all of those pap walks. Because I see a man who is so over all this shit that he literally can’t smile with his eyes anymore. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t think this is a contract, as in actual papers were involved. But I do believe what DM and Enty said about this being a set up with some pretty strict boundaries and how they don’t even consider themselves GF/BF to other people. I think he enjoyed his time with her to being with but he is Seb and his relationship last maybe about 18 months to 2 years and then he gets bored and moves on. He looks like he getting a little bored. They badly interacted at the wedding, yes he was there, we know, but in multiple videos and pictures from multiple people all throughout the night, they hardly even acknowledge each other. She had his jacket for like 2.5 seconds and then put it on the back of her chair. But other than that they were like a couple who had been in a fight and were putting on a pleasant face for the crowd.

I don’t see lovey couple from them. I see friends who are traveling together and just enjoy not being alone. What goes on behind closed doors… who knows. But he sure as hell doesn’t act like he did with previous GF’s and yes people change but not that much. Your love language doesn’t just change and Seb’s is definitely physical touch (you can tell by how he acts with past GF’s, friends, family, and fans.)

I’m saying all this with the utmost respect for you and your blog and just trying to get someone else spin on this situation. Cause how I see it is not ✨endless love✨ it’s more ✨2 years and onto the next✨

And I’m not a hater btw, I just don’t think they have good chemistry. ✌🏻❤️

Ok so i am trying to reply in the most complete way i can but i am sure other anons will be able to add their interesting thoughts/points to mines.

The most important thing that is important to not forget about is we absolutely don’t know them (vali for both sides) and that we see just 2% of their lives. This is why I can’t understand why you draw so many conclusions in that ask with statements that seem the one and only truth.

On our side we act following the easiest path: two people are seeing together, kissing each others, walking hand in hand, hang out with each other’s families because they are together, as a couple.

Important: none of us ever said they are gonna last or that they have been the most important person for the other in their love life. I feel like some people pretend to think we said that to make us look stupid or something. We very well know seb’s love life history, this doesn’t mean we shouldn’t think these two are dating.

If i was you i would NEVER believe DM and Enty, every time I heard that from someone i go 😳. They have gossip pages just like this one with the difference that at least we concentrate our energy on ONE person and take time to analyse details, while they chose to speak about EVERY celebs, taking infos from non verified sources AND fans. They don’t directly follow the celeb in question they just report the infos sent. Sebastian is not Kim K, if he is getting married you will firstly know about it and DM will know it after you from some fans. Not from a PA or an insider. This is valid for every infos about him. And remember Enty is also 4738292 time worse than DM. (If you believe what they said about seb and annabelle i have to think you also believe the drug addiction rumours….)

He doesn’t smile in “all of those” pap walks (3…)? He is a normal person, i myself don’t smile 24/7. Especially if the pap walk wasn’t planned or if he agreed on it but still didn’t like doing it. You said he doesn’t act like with previous gf… too easy saying it that NOW because the others are GONE. People said that about ale as well (remember the ibiza pap walk?) and yet he seemed VERY happy in her bday video. So we should fall in the conspiracy theories hole and think he was acting in that video? So PR? Just wondering.

About the wedding… this is the part that surprised me the most: with the most respect, i feel like people who genuinely think what you wrote is the truth just can’t accept facts. We saw 3 videos of them, 4 seconds each. That’s not nearly enough to say they didn’t interact! And btw we didn’t even have a situation in which you would expect pda/interactions they way you wanted to see: they didn’t need to acknowledge each others because they already know the other one was there, they know each other and have been in a rs for 1.5 years.. they are 40 not 16.

The jacket thing…. Pls. You saw two pics and still decided to form a complete thought and narrative about it. You don’t know how many seconds she wore it and it is absolutely not an important detail that proves something (for both sides btw) but still funny that is being used as a proof.

Idk what to tell you but some people (Not necessarily you) like to think this way because it’s the easiest option if they want him single (and unhappy apparently).

The easiest option is the correct one most of the times, imo. And if he is that unhappy he should leave her, or else that worst bf ever badge is there ready for him.

Maybe you will find this too harsh (not my intention) but I honestly am a bit tired (not about you specifically, thanks for sending your opinion) when i see that people WANT to believe in something and in order to do that they make up stuff and draw conclusions from absolutely nothing.

[hehecham]

this evening was a bit of a :|

a few hours after clare left benno told me that tmr we're gonna have to have a pub lunch w/ his family so i immediately freaked out bc this additional Thing on top of seeing boops & his gf last weekend + having clare this weekend (after like, 3y of nothing, bear in mind, so EVEN THO i was so happy to see them both it also took a decent amount of time to like stop being anxious + come down from that spike. like im still a little keyed up now. they both follow me on here btw + none of this is news to them i hope lol. i love u both im just insane x)

i got so angry (not at ben but at the situation, through fear) that i juts stopped talking and went away upstairs to lie in my bed to try and calm down alone

a few mins later ben came uptsairs + i immediately was like "i really just want to be alone actually" then realised he was crying so i was like ...ok come in (crying trumps general rage in terms of Need i think)

we think it's a long-term mental effect of the pandemic where he gets rly emotional after a social event ends bc it reminds him of like the 3y where it was just us in this tiny little universe + he panics bc i think he goes like straight to that place in his mind where he's just never gonna see anyone again? like every goodbye feels like it's gonna be forever

so anyway he tried to get me to talk about MY feelings during this time + i was just like sry i cant lol. you know when you're hollowed out inside through a combo of rage / general madness / having to remain compos mentis for someone else who needs you. AINT GONNA HAPPEN

so after that settled down i did message him on discord like "love u, not angry, will talk to you later this eve about MY feelings" (+ did stick to this obvs)

think the general sticking point is that while ben seems to have been a bit traumatised by lockdown + the social isolation i found it incredibly incredibly easy + stress-free, + have found the slow transition to normal life v difficult (and still do find it both difficult + incredible to watch in the sense that we're all just pretending covid is over bc like it's easier ig??). ill just c/p what i said to ben here: "if you found the lockdown unexpectedly traumatic I found it lovely and have found the return to normal really difficult & think people are just pretending we're back to pre COVID times when we aren't and I find that cognitive dissonance very hard to deal with, I also can't stand gatherings based around food anyway as you know and it seems to literally be all that is ever on offer and it struck me in the same way as the pret in Portsmouth or you being invited out for the meal when my sister was here etc busy couple of weeks that filled me with huge levels of anxiety and stress, thought tomorrow might be a bit more low key but no, got to to do something else I fucking loathe just very fed up and tired"

he asked me again to talk to him more about my feelings instead of just suddenly crashing when something slightly unexpected happens - i said yes - i think im just confused by how much he wants me to talk to him about LOOOL like if i told him every single anxious thought or w/e id be talking to him 24/7 and it just feels like i dont know which thoughts are the ones to share + which aren't???

anyway w/e it got sorted out w/ solid communication i think tbh like ben says we wont do the lunch. i said that he could do it if he wants but there's not a chance in hell im stepping foot into that pub lmfao like there are so few things he wants to do that i actually refuse (hopefully if u read my blog regularly you will understand that this is true) but i have reached my limit on Events Not In My Comfort Zone, and idc if he wants to do it, he's welcome to, but i will walk around the village during that time he was like "ok that's not gonna happen sweetie bc they'll think you hate them" so we're just not doing it. i do feel bad but also i literally like cannot do it? like i am just fully comfortable in the knowledge that i cannot do it, will not do it, and am simply not doing it. so if that means ben isnt gonna do it either that's just gonna have to be how it is. like not to be dismissive but ... this is how i am + he picked me knowing that so like.

OK loads more shit happened in the hour i took away from this post, benny thinks it might be worth postponing the woods trip just bc he's worried how to spin the lunch thing (whereas im like if you want to tell them im insane just tellt hem idc) but we had a good chat in bed + i love him a lot lol. i do like how good we are at emotionally comforting each other. i think we should 100% go tmr but he's a bit fragile (see above lol) so ill just defer to him on this one, im not exactly in a position to be like "JUST POWER THROUGH!!" hahahhaha anyway we'll see how he's feeling tmr. he's more cheerful now anyway bc we had a nice chat + committed to making some post-wedding plans as well so he wont feel that giant post-event freakout that seems to be plaguing him atm

[consistantly-changing]

[Image descriptions in order: a tumblr reblog chain which says:

082: does anyone else want yaoi cocaine

catfanblog: I know that op is probably joking, however I don't understand what's funny...fetishizing mlm relationships isn't funny it is a serious problem. I think you all need to read posts before you reblog them, I'm truly hoping most people reblogging didn't see the "yaoi" part or something. Jfc I thought we were past this

neotrances: kinda homophobic to be agaisnt yaoi cocaine

catfanblog: You have blood on your hands]

[An anonymous tumblr ask which says: hey people are harassing the guy who commented on the yaoi cocaine post could u like get them to stop or something? he seems genuinely upset abt it

neotrances replies: ?? i'm not making anyone do anything and five other people responded to him / were sending him messages before i said anything in the post sorry that's happening but like. i literally did not say anything other than yaoi cocaine

catfanblog reblogs with an image of an anime boy crying in the rain.]

[A tumblr post by vergak which says: Anyways who else wants some yaoi ibuprofen?

catfanblog reblogs saying: Stop tormenting me. Please. I am asking nicely]

[A tumblr reblog chain which says

vampirate: ok so aside from this person does anyone else want yaoi cocaine

catfanblog: You aren't funny, kid.

atrisrising: but is the yaoi cocaine free?

catfanblog: Be honest. Would you be sad if I died. Would you feel guilty]

[An anonymous tumblr ask which says: very insensitive of you to say that my boyfriend is on a yaoi morphine drip at the yaoi hosptial because of a yaoi cocaine overdose :/

vergak replies with a fanart of Sonic the hedgehog unconscious in a hospital bed with Knuckles standing beside him and crying.

catfanblog reblogs saying in all capitals: enough about the yaoi drugs enough about the yaoi drugs]

[A tumblr post which says: All of you want me dead

catfanblog reblogs saying: All I do is reblog saying my opinion and everyone had to attack me. Just leave mlm alone

#vent tw]

[Tags which say #tw truama #traumacore #depressed #actually insane #pain #suffering #anger #hatred #sadness #yaoi cocaine]

[A screenshot of a post on catfanblog's blog, which shows seven images of crying anime boys.]

[A tumblr post by getouuu, showing a drawing of two anime boys making out (who might be L and Light from Death Note), with the caption "Yaoi moment." Below the image they say: catfanblog this could be us if we took some Yaoi cocaine and relaxed <3

catfanblog reblogs saying: i'm actually feeling something between us... should we explore this? let me know]

[A screenshot of DMs between vergak and catfanblog, which say:

vergak: Legitimately brilliant satire. Id love to share a yaoi blunt with you.

catfanblog: i want you]

Yaoi cocaine saga

[yktayy9669]

you look dumb . you're putting a lot of effort into a man that'll never get out 😂 you literally MOVED STATES once he got arrested just so you can be with him and see him . Just because you've known him for a long time back when you lived in Redding doesn't mean you should move to chehalis just to be with a man who will spend the rest of his life rotting in prison. He's probably calling other bitches from the jail too. You look fucking stupid and you're doing the most. You act so innocent on your blog too . Taylor you didn't even try to hide who you really are? I've seen you use pictures that are on your Instagram you took. For fucks sakes your account name is your old Instagram name. Trying to do rp yet didn't even try to hide it. You're fucking weird for doing all this . You can run from the past all you want but it'll always come out.

ok no. first of all I DID move states and it wasn't to" run" from anything I'm sorry I care about Dan and want to do anything to be closer to him? dan will get out eventually aslong as he keeps his shit straight. so you can fuck off. he won't be rotting in prison forever . I'm ok with who I am I'm not rjnning from ANY past. my life in Redding is not a secret...??? if you'd look at my blogs you'd see that I said I was incarcerated?? why don't you turn your anon off and say this shit with ur chest . my life in redding was NOT golden but I WAS NOT a bad person j still am not. Dan's not calling other "bitchez" from jail considering i have access to all of his lhone records. ur fucling oatgetic for doing all this acting like i have a big scary secret from my life back or cali but if anhone were to perdonally ask me id be open.

fuck you sincerely . no matter what u say everything I'm doing for dan is WORTH IT take ur fucking anon off and come say shit to me?? also I'm not trying to hide who I am ill rly drop my irl if so wtf r u even tb. it's actually sickening u can say all this.

[emzzy]

HADES 2!!!!

ok so WOW i was not expecting this so i am compiling all of my thoughts/theories i have gathered from the trailer

ok so for those of you who don’t know the main character is Melinoe zagreus’s sister (or half sister because sometimes Hades and Zeus are swapped around in regards to her origin) so no thanzag fan baby for us :’( sadge, but anyways, on to the story(that we know of)

so the story from what we can gather is that kronos (titan of time, father of zeus, hades & posiedon ETC, ate all of his children, was chopped up and had his chunks scattered around tartarus for said child eating) is the big bad here and he has presumably taken over the underworld after capturing hades as seen here

(and presumably all the other cthonic gods as well, but we don’t know for certain)

we know from the supergiant blog post that melinoe will be fighting through the underworld (and maybe more) but instead of going up through the underworld to the surface melinoe will instead be going down through the underworld to tartarus, which is presumably where kronos, and maybe even the other titans are waiting.

we also have a bunch of new characters such as:

moros! doom incarnate and im calling it now, he is SO gonna be a romance candidate like come ON look at this emo bitch and tell me supergiant wont let us fuck him, no idea whether he gives is boons or not.

we also have apollo, who does give is boons and seems to have a ‘daze’ debuff effect he can give you he seems to fill the same roll as the other Olympian gods so i dont have much to say about him yet

nemesis, very cool looking, probably also a romance character

and dora, who is a shade, which is interesting because before this we could only listen to shades in passing conversation, so the fact that we can talk to them is cool, and may also have something to do with melinoe apparently being the goddess of ghosts

we also see a few potential non-underworld areas, mostly the forests, but there is one in particular i want to call attention too

this one, just look at this place, water everywhere, coral growing on the floor, fishy looking enemies, even those shell shaped jugs, id bet money that this is posidons realm, or at least his house or something which makes me question just how BIG this game really is and just how much is at stake here, we know kronos captured hades, but what about his other kids?, did he capture them too?, because i don’t know why else melinoe would be in posidons realm other than to free him, or maybe to ask for his help to save hades?, IDK man im just really exited for this game and needed to write out my initial thoughts

[tonydaddingham]

actually no, you know what, let's address this - because i would love to be signposted to where my 'tasteless' post/take, as anon kindly implies, meant that i reportedly did not watch the same show, and missed the point of the character.

(and for anyone who wonders what the fuck im on about, please free to have a read here and interact, god knows i could do with the clout even if it's to rinse me, apparently-)

im going to assume at best that you didn't read the actual post, and therefore didnt actually see the point i made... or at worst did see it, and the point completely sailed you by. what i actually said was:

notice how i highlight the vast difference between crowley encouraging aziraphale with magic, his hobby that evidently makes him happy, and post-bullet catch when crowley doesn't - at all - express any gratitude for the photo trick, and actually insults him for it when the reproduction of the trick fails. if i have missed a mystical line in this scene where crowley actually expresses any gratitude, then by all means, please, educate me.

as for the scotland bit, this is the bit about scotland that i actually mention:

notice how i don't say anything about crowley preventing elspeths suicide? notice how i don't say that this was a bad, evil, dark, crowley-is-a-nasty character thing? i don't, because imo it proves my point. he can be an arsehole, and downright horrible, but has the ability and inclination to do nice things that literally have more weight when he does them. the backdrop is that he is a darker character than light. if you would like to scroll down further in the post, i even say this very thing! but just to make things a little more transparent for everyone, i'll even put that here too!

but ok! let's move on!

oh i have to admit that amongst having two panic attacks on the trot because im a baby, this one made me laugh. two things:

very human flaws? never said he didnt have them. i absolutely agree with you. but if you think that being human and having human flaws means you are immediately justified in engaging on the scale of less-than-nice > outright horrible behaviour, and don't deserve to be held accountable for that... idk what to tell you bud

notice how i don't, at any point in that post, make reference to other demons, nor compare crowley to them as if other demons are morally better than him... because of course they're not! they're completely worse! but id respectfully offer that splitting the characters' moral identities into 'recruited nazis' and 'didnt recruit nazis but does fuck up the O2 network for an hour or so' isn't quite the argument you think it is

actually no, third point; there is a vast difference between being a terrible demon (ie. refraining from doing horrific and devastating things to bring misery to humanity), and being a good-wholesome-and-nice person. there is a huge difference that tbh if you don't don't see that, idk how i can begin to explain it to you.

so look im sure i'll get the backlash on 'that ask wasn't even about your post', and tbh that's fair. it still however goes to show that a good portion of this site - for all it preaches about being kind to other people, just scrolling on or blocking people when they have takes on literature that you don't like - literally hasn't matured much beyond being that group in secondary school.

i have never, ever said that my take is the only correct take (in a serious tone, at least). i have never dismissed anyone outright who has politely rb'd or dropped an ask to me with a counter-argument, or asking me to clarify my points. i welcome them. what i don't expect is to find on my dash, at 0620am, a vague-post that makes me feel like shit, and from blogs i used to respect. and even if it's not about me or my post? well, i just hope that the other person doesn't see it.

except this. this is funny:

i recently saw a take on a blog i usually like that was basically people have over babygirled crowley. ok, fine, but included on a list of reasons why he is darker than we all think were ‘is mean to aziraphale about magic’, ‘didn’t thank aziraphale for saving him with the polaroid’ and ‘was kind of mean in scotland’.

sorry this isn’t really a controversial take i just think it’s very funny and you have taste so you might enjoy it.

They canceled his babygirl status for having the irritability of the average chronic migraine haver

[bri3ll3]

i only have eyes for you

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pairing: mcu!peter parker x reader

summary: when peter walks into the cafe that you and mj work, he still only has eyes for you

warnings: none, angst and fluff, no happy endings, this is not prof read so there are typos!

a/n: i don’t get hurt very often writing this but i am actually heartbroken, this shit took days to write simple’s because i didn’t want to cry while writing. i do not think that it is my best work but i still think that i did a bombass job.

also happy fucking new year i hope that you all have an amazing year and i also want to thank you guys for all of the support last year when i started this blog, i love you all!

peter was walking down the street going over the piece of paper that had down all of the things he was going to say on it. once he walked into the café everything immediately stopped as his eyes found you. all of the memories that the two of you shared came flooded his mind as he looked at you.

“hi is this seat taken” the voice startled him a little, when he looked up he saw the most beautiful girl ever seen. “um a-actually it’s not” he stuttered, you smiled at his antics before sitting down in the stool next to him.

“im y/n” you say looking over at the boy, his cheeks and ears were rosy making you smile. “im peter” he squeaks, nerves filling his whole body as he talks to you. “nice to meet you peter” you beam making him smile.

everyday after that peter would go home and tell may about your interactions and she would always encourage the boy to ask you out but the boy never did, well not until homecoming came around.

when he finally got to ask you to homecoming he was a stuttering and shaking mess.

“hey y/n” he calls and you turn around to see him smiling at you. “hey peter what’s up” you greet and he starts fiddling with his hands and start shifting from side to side.

“i-i was wondering if you wanted to go to uhm homecoming with me” he asks looking at the ground, you smile at him “i’d love to” you beam. “it’s fine if you don’t wan- wait what” he asks, his big chocolate eyes looking at you. “id love to go to homecoming with you” you express again and peters smile grows.

“ok yeah uhm cool” he starts “yeah i’ll see you around peter” you giggled before giving peter a kiss on the cheek and walking away.

peter went home once again and told may all about it, she was happy to see the boy excited for once.

“may she said yes” he screamed as he ran into the small apartment “oh my gosh she did” she asks running up to him and hugging him. “oh peter im so happy for you” she coos as she rocks him back and forth. “thanks may” he sighs as he hugs her back

at the dance peter was a sweaty and nervous mess, he hated being in the public eye and this out him directly in the public eye. he could hear the whispers of people thanks to his spidey senses, it didn’t help that they were all judgmental.

“hey pete you ok” you whisper in his ear and he nods trying to play it cool “yeah yeah i’m fine” he whispers back but you’re not having it. you grab his hand and pull hims out of the back door of the gym, “it’s better out here, less muggy and not as loud” you grinned making peter smile.

as a new song came on peter grabbed your hands gently and pulled you into him, the familiar tune of i only have eyed for you by the flamingos filled the air. “i love this song” you whispered making peter smile.

the both of you felt comfort in each other’s arms, your warmth was something peter got use to quickly seeing as though a couple months (well years) later he asked you out.

“PETER” you yelled looking around at the damage that had been done “Y/N” peter yelled as he saw you looking around for him. the moment you spot him you run up to him and hugged him, he immediately wrapped his arms around you and squeezed you as tight as he could.

“are you ok” your questions was muffled in his neck but he still heard you “yeah i’m fine” he chuckles. you move your face from his neck and hold his face im your hands “god i’m so glad you’re ok” you whispers feeling tears well in your eyes.

“are you ok” he asks and you nod “don’t worry about me i’m so glad that your ok” i whisper finally pulling away from him. “oh this tall guy who’s uhm in love with your aunt gave me this necklace” i say, looking up at him.

peters face drops as he looks at the broken flower in your hands “oh no i’m so sorry” he starts “i had this plan to give you this necklace and-“ he’s cut off with you giving him a quick peck on the lips.

he looks at you stunned before pulling you in for another kiss, your wrap your arms around his neck and card my fingers through this hair. when you both pull away your rest your foreheads on each other’s.

“i really really like you” he whispers and you smile “i like you too peter” you whisper and he smiles. “so that makes you my girlfriend” he asks and you nod “yeah and that makes you my boyfriend” you beam and he smiles.

things quickly went down hill after that’s, peters identity had been revealed and because of that peter, you and ned had lost lots of opportunities. peter felt so bad for you and ned, you guys had nothing to do with it and because of his guilt he asked the one person he knew who could fix this, dr, stephen strange.

peter asked strange to cast a spell to make everyone forget that peter parker was spider man, long story short he messed up the spell and opened up the multiverse.

this created a lot of problems, the main one being him losing his aunt may. peter had never felt such rage and loss in his life, he was angry at the world, at himself especially for trying to be a good person but you never let him forget that being good is apart of who he is.

“peter you can not let that man change who you are, may wanted you to help them out right” you ask and he nods feeling tears fall from his eyes “then you do that, she would be very proud knowing that you fulfilled what she wanted you to do” you assure him and he nods.

“thank you” he whispers and you nod wiping the tears from his cheeks. “you’re welcome baby, now let’s go cure some ass” you joke making him laugh.

peter would have never thought after curing everyone that he would have let go of you and ned and pretty much everyone he loved.

peter heart broke when he had to tell you and ned that you wouldn’t remember him.

“peter you cant just make that decision for me” you say and peter nods “i know i know but it’s the only way” he stresses. “i don’t wanna forget you” you mumble as tears continue to fall down your face.

peter pulls you in for a hug, probably one of the tightest hugs he has ever given anyone. “promise me you’ll come find me” you beg as you continue to hold onto him “peter promise me” your voice broke as you spoke making his heart break even more. “i promise baby i promise” he promises.

when you pull apart his heart breaks as he sees your demeanor, you’re shaking, your eyes are bloodshot and tears are still falling from them, the bags under your eyes are extremely prominent.

“make me remember when you find me, make me remember when i sat next to you our first day of junior year, homecoming, and london” you plead and peter nods “i’ll make you remember” he promises placing his forehead on yours.

“and if you don’t you know i’m gonna figure it out, i always do” he knew exactly what you meant, you found out he was spider man before he even got the change to tell you. “i know” he chuckles before going silent again.

“i love you peter parker” his heart breaks knowing that’s the first and last time he’ll hear you say it “i love you y/n y/l/n” he whispers before kiss you gently, he pours all of his love for you into that kiss. when you pull apart you peck his lips gently one more time.

and here peter was staring at you in the little café that you and mj worked at, “hi how can i help you” your voice broke peter out of his trance. “hi can i uhm get a coffee” he asks and you nod “would you like anything with that like cream or sugar” you ask and he shakes his head “no just black please” you smile and him and nods before going over to the machine.

“hey mj can you get ned’s doughnut ready for him, he should be here soon” peter overhears you say and mjs nods. once the coffees done he watches you put the lid on the cup and walk back over to him “im sorry but i forgot to ask your name” he smiles at you feeling tears brim in his eyes “peter” he says and you smile “well here your coffee peter” you beam as you hand him his coffee cup.

“oh i love this song” peter mumbles as i only have eyes for you by the flamingos plays lightly in the background “i love it too” you whisper making him smile.

“well have a good day y/n” he smiles at you as he walks backwards out of the door, you smile back at him “you too peter” you wave at him before he walks out of the door.

peter walks to the windows and sees you talking to mj about something that clearly makes you flustered, peter smiles before walking down the cold street knowing that no matter how much time may go by he’ll only have eyes for you.

[cooper-magnolia]

Hello! I’m Cooper! He/They/It/Faer, 16, licensed pokémon shelter guything, champion ranked trainer in Paldea from Galar, Shaymin chosen, and Naranja-Uva/Blueberry student!

I also have tamato the charizard, marley the zoroark, shaymin, a family abra, buddy the half hisuian Growlithe, Sprout the service sprigatito, itty bitty the bayleaf, my two rotoms riley and alvin, Zorueevee, an alpha eevee, Ponyfant, tangerine the absol, ripple the squirtle, and a runerigus that ran away from my biological mother

I’m mostly just here to hang out and scream into the void i guess lmao

Pokemon intros!

https://www.tumblr.com/cooper-magnolia/759902649213698048/ive-decided-to-start-making-little-infointro?source=share

https://www.tumblr.com/cooper-magnolia/759906847923847168/image-id-cooper-and-scruffy-stand-by-a-height?source=share

https://www.tumblr.com/cooper-magnolia/759912101847465984/image-id-cooper-and-remis-stand-by-a-height?source=share

what else should i put here,,

ooc info under the cut, whatever that means

OOC: Hey there! This is a PKMN IRL RP sideblog! General Unreality warning both for this being fiction and also because this character specifically has some derealization issues. Also warning for religious trauma, it might show up on this blog. I will try to tag anything potentially triggering that I post on here just in case but as a warning those are the two worst reoccurring themes on here I’m pretty sure.

With that out of the way, I’m Otto/Cooper! This character started out as a self insert almost a year ago when i first joined this community but they quickly became.. Not that. We still share an age, (kinda) pronouns, name, and some other things lol. But he’s very separate from me compared to when I first made this blog. I did already mention this earlier but just to be specific NO NSFW PLEASE!! Both mod and muse are minors.

Also, I’m not super active on rotomblr, I use gliscord for pkmn irl rp more often so you’ll probably see me more on there lol

DNI:

Terfs

NSFW blogs

Dream apologists

Wilbur apologists

MAPs

people with minors dni in their bio, im minors

Rules:

Pelipper Mail and Magic Anons are okay but please do not go overboard! Don’t send like. Entire severed limbs or anything unless i say it’s ok. For magic anons I’ll accept low stakes things (sometimes i’ll accept heavier stuff for the sake of torturing the blorbo) but most of the time I won’t accept anything that directly changes the plot. If heavy plot things are happening or i just don’t think it would make sense to get an anon at a specific time, I’ll save it for later and respond to it when I can!

Pls no godmoding. If you’re gonna do something with your characters that will have a specific direct effect on my character during an interaction between them. (Like. Please ask before stabbing him again.)

That’s all I can remember for now, Have a great day! (yippee i finally finished redoing the pinned post)

oh, and i might be adding arc tags at some point :]

[shanastoryteller]

i feel like i’ve told this story before but i can’t find it on my blog so here we go again

my aunt and grandma came out to visit me from the middle of nowhere town we’re from and i was reminded how very much middle of nowhere it’s from when i asked if they wanted to order indian for dinner and they told me they’d never had indian food before

which on top of being a grade a tragedy was genuinely confusing for me because i’d had indian food before moving away. i remembered eating it several times in high school 

then i remembered that’s not because there was indian restaurant we went to but because one of my very good friends was indian and i was the favorite parental approved friend who was allowed to go over for dinner and just hang out 

i was her parents’ favorite friend not because i was the politest, or the most put together, or because they knew my family, or anything like that

it was because i could handle spice 

i remember the first time i went over to hang out - i think we were working on a project together? - it was getting late but we weren’t done and she went and asked her parents if i could stay for dinner. they argued with her about it in bengali, and i didn’t want to stay if it would cause problems, so i told her it was fine and i’d go

but she said that her mom was actually telling her that i wouldn’t want what she was making and i wasn’t going to like it and my friend was like ok i’ll warn her then can she stay?? and her mom agreed and i was just confused. so my friend was like. okay. its a sauce kind of and there’s fish with bones and it’s spicy. and i, having had the type of food i eat be a source of anxiety in a social economic stigma sense but not a cultural sense, had no idea what the problem could be and just went, great, awesome, love me some free food

i have no idea what i was served but i know it was extremely good and i loved it and i asked if i could have seconds, which i didn’t usually do at a friend’s house, but it was just that good, and her mom kept asking if it was too spicy for me and i was like no :) it’s very good :) more please :)

anyway that’s how i became the favorite friend which my friend then used shamelessly to get away with dating an older white boy that her parents did not want her dating 

when she wanted to spend time with him she’d just be like hey! can i go to this thing? yes boy will be there, BUT shana will also be there! so clearly nothing suspicious is happening :)

which was fine but then he went away to college while we were still in high school and neither of us had our license SO my friend played 3d chess and told her parents that me and the boy were such good friends, and we all used to hang out so much, and wouldn’t they drive us to this random college town two hours away so we could all hang out together? 

and they said yes

except of course as soon as we got there we split up. the parents were out window shopping and stuff and then boy gave me his id and meal card so i could go wherever on campus and buy food and then he and my friend locked themselves in his room. since you know, my presence here was actually just a decoy and i’ve essentially made this trip so my friend can see her secret boyfriend, which means i’m just stuck on my own for the day

and of course i couldn’t just stay in the student area because THAT WOULD BE TOO EASY AND SMART and there was was a bookstore i wanted to go to. so i went into town to do that, nbd, except i was crouched over looking through second hand shakespeare when who walks over to me?

but her parents! whomst i like a lot and feed me a lot! and usually i don’t have to come up with my own lies, just agree with my friends’ lies! 

and they’re like hey, where’s our daughter and the boy? and i just laughed and was like oh, they wanted to move on from the bookstore but i wasn’t done looking yet, they’re probably just up ahead at the next store :) :) :) haha please don’t question me further 

that was on brand enough for me that they were like oh okay well don’t get left behind! hahaha (do not leave our daughter alone with this boy shana they said to me with their eyes) and i smiled and nodded and booked it back to the campus to hide out in the student lounge 

which is why i’ve had indian food before even though my family hasn’t