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Gen obsessed with how.. *dead* your Jason's color pallete is. Like, that's corpse pale right there. Not a spec of blood left flowing in there (also father Todd's skin being full of color in comparison is a nice touch)

THANK YOU I love making him look a bit ghoulish. Guy who's not supposed to be alive but yes he is. no he isn't <3
#DC#DC Comics#Jason Todd#Red Hood#Jaybin#Robin ii#Art by me#Asks#I know vitamin D doesn't affect your skin colour BUT the easiest way to get it is sunlight which does ik nobody is bothered by this but me#But I have OCD. so you're getting clarification anyways 👍#Jason's way of saying if you spend too much time underground it's going to start wanting to keep you there 😁#I do think he bleeds normally and has a heartbeat and all that because he's not Dead. Alive? Well no also. He's likeboth at once and neithe#I think his physical state should be full of inconsistencies. you can't see his breath in cold weather but you can if he smokes etc.#There's also appeal to him coming back looking completely normal I do love mundane horror but#His death was important both in and out of universe and it altered things irreversibly so I think he can be a little Off as a treat#Also it adds to the misery that he's the same person like he died and came back the same person internally he's himself but#to others he looks and acts and is offputting he's Jason but Wrongg. Except not really#Because yeah he changed but that's just getting older and being affected by your experiences like everyone else ever#unfortunately for him he popped back to life Like That so everyone is just going eughh what thebfcuk#But that's a little off topic ANYWAYS one thing I really liked about Countdown was Jason being described as a siren in the dark#Like yea he's unsettling even if there's no clear reason as to why yet. He wasn't even doing anything his vibes are just rancid#My ideal Jason is one who looks like he wouldn't be out of place eating someone. He wouldn't. but you know. looming threat#I think he'd have fun indulging in the undead aspect in his more dramatic moments#Also the environment matters like during the day at the store he just seems a bit strange but at night in an alleyway it's uncanny valley#I have more to say on this topic but I'm writing a novel in the tags so I'll wrap it up#To summarize it's basically YOU CAN'T GO BACK YOU CAN NEVER GO BACK TO THE WAY THINGS WERE AND EVERYONE WHO LOOKS AT YOU CAN SEE IT#Thank you again for this ask I love when people bring up details they like to me because I like putting them in and talking about them#And just talking in general clearly lmao post-crisis really had so much going for it. lots of interesting characters
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my pieces for @strawberrij's thespius fashion zine!! quite the endeavour and adventure that turned out pretty neat i think :]
special thanks go to @ratchetclankarecute for posing/cloth references + the bulk of the image descriptions! that first image would Not have happened without them <3
#great god grove#ggg thespius green#thespius fashionista zine#moon draws things#also everyone cheer and clap and say thank you to @actingwithportals and @vivifrage for significant help wrangling clothing folds#@publiccmenace for some tweaks and colouring advice#and @ayaheart77 for further colour advice + helping get these backgrounds sorted at All#literally that first page wouldnt have made it past the sketch cleanup stage if it weren't for the crew pitching in#shoutout to that entire server honestly. youve heard of twitch plays xyz‚ get ready for: discord plays zine entry#couldnt have done it without yall <3#also massive massive shoutout to tumblr blog omgthatdress whose extensive library of fashion this project--#--literally Could Not Have Happened Without#anyhow HI. BEEN A MORBILLION YEARS AND MAYBE IT'LL BE A MORBILLION MORE. WANTED TO PLAY TOYS THOUGH SO HERE I AM [FOR NOW]#THESE WERE SUCH A STRUGGLE TO POST AND FOR WHAT.#had to link them from my personal website just so tumblr would accept them. good lird#this was a whole entire adventure and Quite the challenge in many ways. quite proud of the effort that went into it all though :]#came away having learned a lot too!!#would 100% do this again [just. hold the sketti sauce (technical difficulties that cost me 10 days or so and made the whole thing--#--a slight scramble) next time]#be sure to go have a look at the zine whenever it drops to see these in full res!!! and see everyone else's work too!!!#everyone's been doing such a lovely wonderful job and it's absolutely incredible to see#anyway. sighs wistfully. i may be aroace but damn if this silly guy doesnt have me a rather goofy amount of in love in a shrimp sort of way#like YEAH i too am in love with love and have a passion for passion bestie!!! i never stood a chance. it was over before it even started.#peace and love and plants on planet grove#and also @strawberrij!!!! i hope you know that how you draw this guy like fundamentally changed how i draw him too#right in the middle of working on this and everything. saw your one impossible greens post‚ got hit with levels of serotonin i didn't--#--even know i was capable of‚ felt a switch flip in my brain‚ and HARD pivoted into borrowing some of how you draw this guy#it's literally peak and i hope you're proud of yourself [completely genuine]#unsure why it's not letting me ping you directly also but alas. may whatever curse that took your messages and asks be lifted soon cuz--#--Good Lird‚ man
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The absolute biggest thing I've learned as a trans guy: there is nothing more masculine and manly than not caring about looking or acting masculine or manly. Growing your masculinity or manhood takes time and care - you have no obligation to let the world water your garden when you can do that just fine (and you can, even if it doesn't feel like you can!)
#trans#transgender#lgbt#lgbtq#ftm#nonbinary#trans advice#got a stereotypically 'feminine/woman' piercing and. i feel like a man *inverted shania twain riff from man! i feel like a woman*#nothing affirms my manhood more than not caring about the genuinely toxic imaginings that the world has about manhood and men like me 👍#yes it can be a struggle ESPECIALLY if you're somebody who actively has to defend your masculinity/manhood...#...it's hard for me too sometimes. i had to not only build my manhood but jealously defend it from the 'phobes...#...but i am all the better for it because this is MINE. i have never truly owned something in this way...#...i don't own other people nor my cats nor even my material possessions - not in the way i own my manhood...#...i own it like a tiger owns his territory and i defend it similarly...#...i do not WANT to own my loved ones or possessions the same as i own my manhood and masculinity. this is special to me#my manhood was *made* for me to be owned anyway. i feel that applies to every trans person who hasn't felt able to own themselves#this is in the same vein as learning to cast aside the cissexist views of bodies&experiences that can make dysphoria worae
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endless list of otps: (remake) Callum and Rayla, The Dragon Prince
Rayla, I was wrong. I waited too long. I hope you know—I know.
#rayllum#the dragon prince#bc they are the number one for a reason no one will ever be above them#they are the blueprint they are the renaissance#my edits#otp#graphics#otp: it was always her#like bars upon bars. 'you're the most amazing person i've ever met' or 'you did' didn't even make it in here#'i made a promise to the human i love' or like almost any of their hugs#when he gives her his arm to walk across the ice or him decking a man in the face with pure love induced rage#'what are you doing to him?! let him go!' 'that's the dark magic you want. just let her go'#'you don't have to explain or justify anything to me. you can tell me when you're ready'#'it's okay callum. whatever you have to say to me everything will be fine'#'i believe in you' 'okay callum i believe you' 'she believes in me'#'you're too good to feel this bad about yourself. i know that & you should know that' 'you're a good person callum. maybe the goodest'
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Of course Duke having a Robin growing up just doesn't make sense for his character, as this post points out. WAR was created in the absence of Batman and Robin, and having a Robin Duke looks up to is just really contrary to his characterisation.
BUT I actually love the idea of exploring Duke having a Robin in fic/headcanons or something, but only if it properly reckons with the ramifications. If Duke had a Robin, and assuming his parents still get Jokerised, then his Robin failed him. This would a) make him becoming Robin more emotionally charged and b) negatively impact his relationship with said Robin. This could be REALLY fun!!! Imagine Duke entering Robin War with a vendetta against Tim, or pulling the Bruce train stunt with Dick 😭😭. Basically, 'so-and-so is Duke's Robin' could be really interesting if used as a vehicle to explore Duke's philosophy, rather than as a way for him to prop up another Robin.
#tbh ideally for me duke's robins would be either dick or steph#dick for the parallelisms inherent in robin war and steph for the parallelisms in MY head#damian too but that would be fundamentally different since he would've been robin when duke was much older#i am tired of 'someone is duke's robin' takes in general tho#he lowkey didn't give a damn about robin when he joined war he only started to care in robin war 😭😭#anywayyy i think a lot of bad duke takes could be improved if duke was actually the focus of the take#are you saying 'this is duke's robin' because it adds to duke's character or because he's a convenient person to be 'inspired' by your fav?#<- this goes for any of the 'duke is being bullied and needs to be saved' takes as well#ofc not everyone needs to love duke but if you're using him as a prop i'd appreciate if it's not in his tag!
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HOW AM I MEANT TO DIAGNOSE YOU WITH GAY UNDER THESE CONDITIONS!?!?!? GET OUTTA MY OFFICE!!!!!!!! YOU'RE GETTING CRUMBS EVEYWHERE!!!!
Hi @tiredsmashbros I said I'd draw our characters together at some point so!!! Hello!!!! :3 Lalalalala based it off your AF attack for me because I still love it so much, anyway peace and love on planet earth <3
#mango art#smg4oc: mango#does tsb have a tag??? Oh well tee hee :3#making it my goal to make mango shorter than everyone because he is#i love tsb (character) i love him so much. and you're cool too tsb (person) I'm waving at you hi hellooooo#fun fact i did not mean for it to say hungy that was a mistake. i am dyslexic
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more phoenix wright situations
#ace attorney tag#maybe i should tag this narumitsu or something. but i dont really care.#gearing up to rereading/illustrating bits of my fic i suppose...i think nick really is too dense to realise he's in love with edgeworth#without some scheming fop trying to intrude. i love villains like kristoph..villains can be fun..witnessing their pathetic folly..#or more like edgeworth would never have mentioned his feelings ever in his life if he wasn't sure phoenix reciprocates.#i want to see it this way because Falling in love during childhood with the person you're going to end up with. is not relatable#there have to be Situations that make you Realise.#as with orufrey i adore the idea of people not working out their romance with that person until their 30s+#but... i mean. even with orufrey i often think how alaira could be qifrey's ex. and oru having been pursued by noble fops through his work#there is that delicate sliver of time before orufrey start living together that such believable situations could have happened.#Then the relief of politely and amicably extricating themselves from those untenable situations#the idea of falling in love age 7 and saving your first kiss for age 35 or something is all very well but more relatable is#people realising how they really feel whilst trying something that ends up feeling wrong.#The comfort and joy of living with your dearest one as if it's platonic - much preferable to trying anything more with anyone else.#But i doubt i will ever portray that or mention it further. it is indeed very delicate to me.#and i really am an OTP FOR LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!! kind of person who can barely bear to consider this anyway...NOT a polyshipper i'm afraid !#so i wouldn't mind either if they do have their first kiss in their lives age 35 with each other either. I would not mind that at all.#i love bi/gay couples apparently... bi father figures & their grumpy gay men waiting for them to work it all out...#not used to using colour in comic-style drawings..or at all..so this is messy and awkward looking..but colour is refreshing#i imagine i will go back to witch hat art soon btw. my destiny in life.#i still remember writing my nrmt fic expecting to write their first kiss & then partway through twas like Umm No. They have kissed prior.#does that really line up with this comic though... i think i had their early dinner dates/first kiss BEFORE disbarment.#so i guess this comic doesn't line up with my ficverse.... No..... U___U Oh well. sorry kris! <3
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the way the music died at just the right moment made this so perfect
#HAVE I MENTIONED I LOVE THEIR FRIENDSHIP#holy hell i'm brainstorming there will be an essay in the tags#da4#dragon age veilguard#lucanis dellamorte#taash#i love how that phrase became a joke between them and got this far. and with lucanis being first talon#plus if you have taash assigned with the crows rook and teia comment on making them an honorary crow#i genuinely wonder if taash actually joins them and how it would go down#because on the one hand i imagine lucanis can just immediately let it happen no questions asked#but on the other hand the crows are more than what they appear to taash and it's not like people line up to join the crows#ANYWAY ignoring whether it's a good idea or not-- considering caterina's probably not far from passing#and illario being locked away (in my universe) House Dellamorte is down to one (1) and it's the first talon himself#so what if - dare i say it - lucanis takes taash under his wing and makes them part of house dellamorte#because taash has lost their family. lucanis has lost his. lucanis has since realised a family doesn't have to be by blood#and so lucanis is like 'you could be part of the dellamorte family. if you want. I won't be upset if you don't- i can find another house f-'#and taash is just 'fuck off you're joking of COURSE fuck yeah!'#and i imagine taash would want to be his personal bodyguard and lucanis is like NO that's too much stress and things you'd have to learn#and be aware of. and taash is like 'okay but how many crows do you know of that can breathe fire to threaten people'#and then spite dramatically intervenes with 'YES! FIRE!!!!!' and lucanis is right back in Tired Dad Mode lmao#ANYWAY i have a lot of feelings about their friendship
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It's kinda crazy when you think about how Ming Yi is basically the less ghastly version of He Xuan. And he was there by Shi Qingxuan's side for centuries, and yet Shi Wudu never found out. He never recognized him.
Imagine being in He Xuan's shoes - like this guy pretty much ruined his life and is indirectly responsible for the deaths of everybody who was dear to him. Shi Wudu rarely descends. But on the eve of Hanlu, he went down to check if he really died or not. He Xuan remembered his face. It probably haunted him during his times at Mt Tonglu, but when he finally meets this person, there is nothing on his face, no shock or horror.
He forgot him, forgot the face of the boy whose life he ruined.
He never bothered to remember. As if he never had a life.
It kind of reminds me of this scene from a manga called Yona of the Dawn. The protagonist is a princess who's on the run. She had lived a sheltered life and was trying her best to adjust to her new life. One day, she had to hunt a fawn for food, and one of her friends asked her if she would be okay with watching it, and she replied that she isn't. It's still hard for her. But she said that in the palace, thousands of animals were slaughtered every day to feed the royal family, and she never paid attention to it. But now, if she averts her eyes, it would be like refusing to acknowledge that the poor creature had a life.
Shi Wudu ruined his life for the sake of his brother, but let alone remorse, he even forgot what he looked like. He was there by his brother's side for centuries, and yet it never struck him, not until the moment his survival was on the line. If he was guilty, would it have changed anything? Would it bring He Xuan's family and the life he lost back? No, but at least it would ensure that his life meant something, anything.
And even after he recognizes him, his first reaction still is not guilt, not remorse. But a question, "You're alive?", perhaps an indirect way of saying, 'did I make a mistake that day?' Or 'did I fail to clear such an important evidence of my crime?'
The person whose life and afterlife is a consequence of his crime, the first thing he says to him is that.
"Noble people really are forgetful'', and He Xuan really meant it. He experienced it himself. For centuries.
#i hope this doesn't sound like a hate post#i love shi wudu#and i love he xuan too#which is why i feel surprised when people hate him for taking his revenge#would YOU spare a person who wronged you and had the audacity to forget how you even looked like? if yes then you're great#but majority wouldn't#it feels nasty from his point of view#shi wudu's response to 'have you no remorse?' is cool and everything#but if u think about it in this regard#if shi wudu was actually remorseful#if he was actually guilty#if he looked at him carefully that day#if he remembered his face#perhaps the tragedy with Shi Qingxuan wouldn't have happened#maybe the black water arc would've proceeded differently#some things could've been averted#the world has a way of getting back at you regardless of who you are#he xuan#shi wudu#black water sinking ships#black water arc#heaven official's blessing#tgcf#tian guan ci fu#my rambles
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I cannot believe we found you.
#dragon age#daedit#lucanis#dragon age the veilguard#rook#rookanis#mine#gif:da#rook x lucanis#datv#da4#lucanis dellamorte#'you're impossible' many thoughts about this phrase#the impossible person who broke him out of the prison. who helped saved his city and defeat the ancient gods#who offers support and help and still wants to stay side by side with lucanis despite Spite. someone who maybe shouldnt exist for lucanis#but they do and they love him <33 :')#and someone whom lucanis can show his own way of love and comfort and protectiveness towards too#im fine about them fr fr#:') i love them so much#the kneeling down in front of rook after catarina said dellamortes dont do that for anyone is a rlly nice touch :))#had to play out this scene three times to see what other lines where there with the other options#but this was the first i chose bc of my rook's playful personality and its my fave tbh#da spoilers#dragon age spoilers#datvedit#da4edit#datv spoilers#da4 spoilers#dragon age the veilgaurd spoilers#long post
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jason and juno's relationship is like "you were my mother, why couldn't you have just been my mother? and "i will be your sword and your shield" and "i made you into a hero. you ruined me. it's the same thing!" and "i will spend my lifetime being your dutiful champion" and "everything i am is because of you" and "it was my life! you had no right to take that from me. it was my life" and "a girl will be the daughter of zeus but you, jason grace, shall be mine" and "mom, am i still young? can i dream for a few months more?" and "i love you and i always will and i am sorry. what a useless word" and "i have my father's nose and all his rage, but i have my mother's face and her grief" and "or was my rage my mother's? or her mother's? or hers? an inherited creature?" and "but i am very homesick for arms that have never held me" and "the arms that cradled you are covered in an unfathomable amount of blood. but they cradled me, yes?" and "i will die your daughter and i will die your daughter and i will die your daughter" and "i hate you for what you did and i miss you like a little kid" and "hello? this is your mother. are you there? are you coming home?" and "mother, eat me and give birth to me again. this time around i'll make you proud" and "a fragment of god has been found in my mother's tender, fleeting smile" and "beause i'm my mother's son, i leave the arrow in my throbbing heart. what kills me keeps me alive" and "i have searched for my mother's love in all corners of the world" and "to say that you abandoned me would be very unjust, but that i was abandoned, and at times horribly, is true" and "i've done everything you have ever asked me. everything. i have given everything i've ever had" and "if i let him do this to me, what else will i allow? anything, anything, anything" and "i love you so much i'm going to let you kill me" and "you believe me like a god and i destroy you like like i am" and "i am forever your most devoted believer" and "somebody always needs to go first. i know this. i go first" and "i ache for the idea of it" and "i still loved you. i still have to live with that" and "i forget about you long enough to forget why i needed you" and "i miss you more than i remember you" and "when you find an old picture of us, and you clear away the dust, i hope you miss me sometimes" and "if home is where the heart is, then we're all just fucked. i can't remember, i can't remember" and "and i'll dream each night of some version of you, that i might not have but i did not lose" and "it's been a long time since i've been me" and "i am not the person i dream of being" and "i want everything back, the way it was. but there is no point to it, this wanting" and most importantly, "of course the love is there. still, still, still."
#THIS ONLY WORKS IN AN ALTERNATE DIMENSION WHERE RIORDAN ACTUALLY GIVES A FUCK ABOUT HIS CHARACTERS#first of all the most mommy issues man i've ever seen#and it's all about your mom being the worst person alive and still loving her anyway#and my gallery is full of web weaving quotes that i will now have to delete#and i wanted more quotes from juno's perspective but really who's writing about that?#'i'm sorry i love you but i'm going to rewrite every facet of who you are'????#'you're my son in every way that matters but i do not care enough'?????#'i love you. it will not save you. if anything you are more damned than ever before'????#and jason is her dog (devotedly) and her son. i do think some things are too important to ever fully be wiped#but juno does her best and jason is never fully her son again and she will never be his sometime-mom again#and he will never truly remember and therefore he will never truly be Jason Grace again#also imo riordan should've leaned into the whole 'giving jason up to juno' or whatever#like his spqr tattoo should've had a peacock feather instead of an eagle. real 'son of juno' vibes#everyday i think about pre-amnesia jason being her most devoted follower and then i think about post-amnesia jason feeling basically nothin#very mommy issues but also very 'knight and their most precious lord'#jason grace#pjo hera#pjo juno#jason and juno#jason and hera#pjo hoo toa#heroes of olympus#hoo
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some idw redraws
#i spent way too long trying to figure out sonic's quills#monotoneart#sonic the hedgehog#sonic#shadow the hedgehog#silver the hedgehog#sonic idw#ive read the first 2 volumes of idw so far. theyre such a delight :]#i do kinda rant below about my 2 sticking points so far (specifically about team dark in the metal virus arc) so uh. sorry#omega not caring about shadow when he gets zombotted kinda bugs me ngl#like bro that's ur teammate yall did so much together do u not care abt any of that.#sega give omega more personality than just ''kill eggman robots''#and the way the others talk about shadow and say ''oh he doesnt care im surprised he cares''#...well sonic says that and i... guess shadow could come off that way to him. ehhhhh.#i would think sonic would understand his deal though.#''oh more people saved means less zombots to deal with'' what!! it's more than that!!!#guy made a promise to protect the planet!!! that would include the people!!!#more people saved means just that: more people saved!!!#he's a ''the means justify the ends'' kinda character but that don't mean he's heartless#rouge girl u should know better!! you're like one of the only people he talks to relatively regularly!!#takes a deep breath. ok im good now. everything else about idw so far is cool. i love whisper n tangle.#cant wait to finally get to surge and kit#OH YEAH ALSO i watched wild robot and it was so extremely good. i cried <3
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today’s thoughts are of chigiri having a crush on his sister’s friend
#pie.talk#maybe crush is too light a word lol he is obsessed#i also like to think it makes him sweat a little#like you only know him from the cutified little brother lense Koyuki has presented him in#like yes he is a professional football player and has a very confident personality and admirable drive#but he also believed in santa until he was like 11 and you probably hear a bunch of other stories from Koyuki#that paint him as a spoiled little brother with a questionable personality#i think u usually only tend to see each other when in the presence of Koyuki and i feel like he's a bit more squishy around his family#i do think he is still pretty bold and blatant about his affection for u since that's just who he is#but u also know a lot about him from a source he has no control over so i think that makes him maybe nervous? a little pissed off? lol#his worst enemy is the 'little brother hyoma' image that exists in your head thanks to Koyuki#like you smile at him or say something nice to him and it sorta makes him crash out. he needs you to like him for HIM not because of Koyuki#he is working overtime and okay maybe he is leaning into the younger brother image a tiny bit to worm his way into your heart more#lulling you into a false sense of peacefulness until he lays it on really thick (bam sudden corny kabedon idk) he WILL have you#if ur still here...#this is now the sengoku period au portion#you are the wetnurse for koyuki's son and you live at the chigiri estate tragic past etc the cw list is longggg#he's effected by an old knee injury and is coddled by his family because he's the heir so he's extra antsy and huffy#rules? him being the clan heir? ur respect and gratitude for his sister and wishing to repay her?#he does not care and he will have you#comes off way too strong it feels like you're being hunted even though he is respectful of ur boundaries to an extent#eyes too intense#words too bold and direct and when he finally touches you it's so passionate and reverent it feels like ur burning#all consuming#you love it despite feeling that you do not deserve it
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#there's so many more but feel free to let me know any others you like!#personally I love william so much like what a down to earth guy he's always so cheery and fascinated by plants like arthur#his sweet nature and the way he interacts with arthur- god I could cry#and he always remembers arthurs name 😭#“well I'm ignorant ugly and nasty”#“well lets see if we can do something about that :)”#god I love u william you're so lovely#the way they get so casual and friendly the more you complete his requests too :')#he wants to help arthur#gahh#rdr2#red dead redemption 2#mick squeaks#arthur morgan#william rdr2#blind man cassidy rdr2#moonshiners rdr2#hamish sinclair rdr2#marko dragic rdr2#albert mason rdr2#algernon wasp rdr2#francis sinclair rdr2#margaret rdr2#charles chatenay rdr2#mr black rdr2#mr white rdr2#charlotte balfour rdr2#whew#tumblr polls#polls
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#bl series#bl drama#thai series#thai bl#silly post#ossan's love thailand#ossan's love th#episode 11#I'm sure Nanon wouldn't mind if you said no#if you are thinking of proposing in public: don’t!#especially if you're the boss of the person you're proposing to and you deep down know he doesn't love you this way#nanon korapat#his face was too funny here and I had to make a silly edit
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A Mandated Holiday Break - Chapter 6
Characters: Sylus x gn!mc (poly lads)
Warnings: None
Word Count: 971
Written: 21st December 2024
Notes: Post-relationship Sylus/MC-centric but poly LADs, with my personal pov of the game and lil headcanons littered in.
Chapters: 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10, 11
Masterlist AO3
Sylus' body is an inferno. He's well used to running hotter than most. It's just another part of who he is, that doesn't occur to him the majority of the time.
The first few times you'd shared a bed, you'd wriggled out of his grasp, sweating and uncomfortable. Had he had less control over himself, he'd have pouted. (You probably didn't miss the furrow in his brow though.)
So he'd slept wearing as little as possible.
Still too much, waking up in the middle of his sleep schedule to find you across the bed, covers thrown off to cool down. Shedding your discomfort.
Next he'd taken to pulling your clothes off. Always a delight, this time a driven aim. It had worked somewhat, you'd wrapped yourself into his embrace and tangled around him, seeking out the heat of his body like he was your personal pillow.
It lasted longer, but still he was awoken by you edging away, seeking the chill of a turned over pillow and the outside of the duvet.
He'd changed the type of bedding he used, bought you new bedding.
You'd told him to stop worrying, to stop paying expenses, sometimes it was just too warm.
Sylus was sure at that he'd grumbled like a child. He wanted to hold you, and he wanted to wake up with you in his arms.
Everytime you moved out of his reach, he itched and ached like scales growing through raw skin. It was one of the few times he envied the doctor, he never seemed to have trouble with keeping you clinging throughout your slumber.
Eventually he had two things fitted, a ceiling fan and air conditioning. The change to temperature meant so little to him, unbothered by heat or cold. When you'd seen them on your next visit, you'd been incredulous. Since when did he need either of these?
He didn't answer that he needed them for you, for him, he just made an offhand comment about the best, and preparation for the future. (The immediate future. His sleep quality.)
His relief that day when he'd woken up, your head under his chin, legs tangled with his, and arms around him. Seeking out his skin against yours.
The second you left the bed, however, you'd complained for the chill. He left the remote for the new tools of his victory, in your hands, but he had gleefully held you as long as he could, chin on shoulder and hands dancing across cool skin.
Your week off has allowed him to experience that for a few days now, he's using your sleep pattern for the week, though there is no real track of time in the sky of the N109 Zone. He doesn't want to make your return to work difficult.
As he wakes, this morning you have stayed asleep, catching up on long hours. Your back is pressed to his chest and you're holding onto his arm. He won't tease you about the drool out the corner of your mouth, but he files away the image for himself. Tickled and endeared.
He doesn't want to wake you, you're so peaceful... but he can't stop himself from pulling as close as he can. Burying his nose in the crook of your neck, and breathing you in.
You smell like his last meal in every life. Like he could bite down and die happy, your blood in his mouth and your soul in his chest.
If he were a weaker man, perhaps he'd drool as well, salivating and starving.
He certainly feels starved when he cannot keep you close, desperate and dogged.
You'd teased him that he reminds you of a wolf, and he thinks that's more accurate than he likes. He would bite your hand lovingly, but tear and snarl at your command, if that's what you wanted from him.
Sylus wants to get up, if he can get breakfast ready, he can see your eyes light up. Hand you a mug of coffee, that turns his nose, in bed. So you'll kiss his cheek and sigh happily.
He feels satisfaction when he sees you happy because of him. Yet...
Pressed against you, your chest moving with each breath. So alive, and warm and his. You trust him to guard you, to kiss your neck when the scent drives him to madness, to keep you warm against the cold. He once mused that you still took his hand despite how dangerous he was, and every day he marvels more at how you continue to do so.
Now when you take his hand, you place a kiss on his knuckles. That if he had no healing ability, would be scarred and torn and ruinous. He thinks, that even if that were the case... you would still kiss them tender and raw.
You had always seen something in him that no one else did. Flowers suiting his soul, a smile worthy of his face, love belonging in his hands.
He feels sick with the feeling, overflowing from where joined hearts beat in his chest, but it's a sickness he would never wish to heal himself of. Peace found despite how little he probably deserves it.
Sylus is selfish though. A fragment, a taste, a burst of you had not been enough. Millennia's will not be enough. Until the end of the world itself he will never think this is enough.
No matter his sullied hands, or the actions he has made, some of which he would not apologise for, he will never relinquish his treasure.
His Soul.
You who owns his heart for eternity.
As he bites down at your shoulder, stirring your sleep, and laves with his tongue to your sleepy pleasure, he settles for a taste of the cure to his hunger, that he plans to draw out forever.
#wonder writes#love and deepspace#sylus#lads sylus#lads x reader#lads x mc#sylus x reader#reader x sylus#lads#love and deepspace sylus#a mandated Christmas break#when I tell you I had an ex who ran like a furnace... but Sylus I imagine is almost unbearable#under covers? with a dragon? I need like. a cold blanket and a cool pillow#I truly need Zayne to slap his hand on my pillow at night to frost it over#for anyone wondering. Sylus for me runs like your personal heater#but it gets too much too quickly#Zayne is cool#he gets colder the more emotional or worked up he gets#but generally it'd be like hugging something left In the fridge#Xavier is pretty average you're sleep quality is pretty safe with him in the bed#raffy is average... but gets progressively warmer overtime#esp the more worked uphe gets and the more physical contact he has with you#except on ebb day. skins as cold as the damn deep sea and it's like touching ice#one of the reasons contact is so intense for him#anyway. as you were.#I finished this at midnight and put it in tbe queue to publish so I could finally get some sleep...#the brainrot is driving me bonkers.#I'm going to start putting sylus solo at level 1 in the senior contest as payback /jk
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