#hmm and they were stuck together for a while 🤔

[wyrmposting]

Here’s a visualization of your new crackship op

Gríma and Saruman toxic yaoi

[meadowscarlet]

BARCELONA’S SWEETHEART | OP81

✩ — summary: oscar develops a teensy-tiny… okay, maybe a huge (enormous, actually), crush on the younger sister of football barcelona’s talented midfielder, pedri.

✩ — oscar piastri x fem!reader

✩ — author’s note: mixed up timelines for the plot & i don’t speak spanish so i used google translate sorry in advance if it’s not accurate LMFAO

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fcbarcelona A special visit from the grid to the pitch. Welcome, Oscar Piastri! 💙❤️🏁

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random somebody pinch me

random OSCAR????? WATCHING A BARÇA GAME?????? this is so huge

random RIGHT MY TWO WORLDS COLLIDING

random why can’t this man at least wear an fcb jersey /?/?/? this white polo shirt is stuck permanently on his body im truly cracking up

random FCB x McLaren collab when 👀

random OMGGGG he was in the VIP players zone

random DID ANYONE ELSE SEE OSCAR CHATTING WITH PEDRI’S SISTER

random I DID… i also saw fernando and their mom smiling while oscar and y/n were talking… im about to start a rumor

random i wonder what they were talking about 😭

random thank god y/n’s fluent in english but anyways they’re so cute together oh my god

random THEY AREEEE this is the first time i’ve seen so much emotion on oscar when he’s talking to someone

random bro looked too comfortable like he’s been to 5 family dinners already 😭

oscarpiastri Huge win! Thank you for having me I had a great time

random and we said oh we’re sure

random ahhh te amo oscar 😍😍😍

random this is insane

random i love this crossover soooo bad

random now we need an oscar and pedri pic together

random carlos sainz disliked this

random OSCCCCC 🧡🇦🇺

random BARÇA AND F1 YESSS 🙏🏼

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youruser VICTÒRIA!!!!!!!! no podría estar más orgulloso 💙❤️ (victory, i couldn't be more proud)

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random liked 👀 by 👀 oscarpiastri

random girl he also commented imejsnhsha

pablogavi hermanaa ❤️ (sister)

youruser pablitooo 🥰

random ugh their friendship is to die for

random VAAAMOOOOSS!!!

oscarpiastri as they say, Visca el Barça

youruser hmm i think your spanish is improving

oscarpiastri i’d still want some of your lessons so i could be more fluent and all

random is this oscar trying to flirt

random here he comes world, please be kind to him

random IMJSJSHXBHWHAHAH

random most supportive sister ever 🥰😭 pedri’s so lucky to have you

random i wonder what pedri feels with all these sudden y/noscar propaganda happening 💀

pedri publicando como si no me gritaste todo el partido (posting like you weren’t yelling at me the whole match)

youruser SHHHHHHH

random I LOVE THEM 😭😭😭😭😭

random PEDRIIJSNABSHA

pedri siempre la más orgullosa. te quiero, enana ❤️(always the proudest one. love you, shortie)

youruser te amo 🪄🌟

random the switch up is killing me

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oscarpiastri Hola Barcelona 👋 ready for a fast weekend

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youruser hola 👋

oscarpiastri suddenly forgot every spanish word i rehearsed

random THIS IS GOOOLD 😭💀

random NOT OSCAR BEING DOWN BAD IN REAL TIME

random OSCAR PLEASE 😭😭😭

random no way she got oscar fumbling his language skills tears in my y/noscar eyes

random barcelona’s got a way of making u smile a little more

random probably had to do with a certain pretty gonzález sister

opeightyone Vamos 😎💪🏼💪🏼

random i have a good feeling about this weekend

random ya’ll hear me out. y/n attends the race and oscar will win this gp then they start dating and it will all be so poetic like like like

random on to something ❌ ON something ✔️

fernandoalo_oficial 🤔

random NANDO?/?/?:? what r u doing here 😭

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youruser could get used to this 😋

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random the second slide… ain’t no way

random did somebody check on oscar

random girl i feel like that arm belongs to oscar..

random he’s in the likes but he didn’t comment is it over for y/noscar 🥀

pedri dios mío ¿qué es esto? (oh my god what is this)

pablogavi 😂😂😂

ferrantorres 😂😂😂

lamineyamal 😂😂😭😭

random LMDAO THEY KNOW SOMETHING

random a case that doesn’t sit right w me 💔

random THIS HAS ME YELLINGSHHSHS

youruser has added to their story!

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mclaren Welcoming some special people in our garage in Spain 🇪🇸🤝🧡

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random did oscar like this while he was in the car??????????? LMFAOOOO

random Y/N ON THE SECOND SLIDE WE WON

random i knew she would attend today’s race 😭

random third picture is so cold 🥶🥶🥶

random barcelona’s sweetheart at the mclaren garage oscar’s plan is slowly coming together

random y/n’s so gorgeous

random right she’s unreal

random hermosa chica @youruser 🥺 (beautiful girl)

random why didn’t pedri attend with y/n like lewa ferran and eric were there but not him 😕

random he’s busy training with the national team

random some special people 🙂‍↕️ is one of your guest the special someone of ur driver 🙂‍↕️

random guys im gonna get delusional for a sec but i’d like to imagine that y/n’s wearing oscar’s mclaren jacket that’s all. thank u for listening

random here you go ❤️

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youruser i quite like the color orange 🧡

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oscarpiastri Hola 👋

* ♥ by author

random boy if u don’t put ur phone down… the race starts soon

random IM CRYING HE’S SO UNSERIOUS 😭😭

random he’s so lame i’m so endeared

oscarpiastri i like your cap

youruser a certain aussie with a cute smile gave it to me

random JUST FUCKING KISS GOD DAMN

random oh no she’s gonna make oscar malfunction before the race

pedri te criaste con el blaugrana, no empieces a cambiar de bando ahora... 🤨 (you were raised a blaugrana, don’t start switching sides now)

youruser no seas tan dramático (don’t be so dramatic)

random “i quite like the color orange” GIRL JUST SAY YOU’RE IN LOVE

random like mama we’re tired

mclaren Barcelona’s sweetheart gracing her presence in our garage 🧡

alejandrobalde ay, crecen tan rápido 🥲 (aw, they grow up so fast)

pablogavi JAJAJA 😂

random not these boys whacking y/n i know she’s sick of them 😭😭😭

lamineyamal 8️⃣1️⃣?

youruser sí (yes)

random okay chat it’s confirmed already

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oscarpiastri What an enjoyable weekend

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random oscar dedicating his win to his sister and y/n im gonna kill myself

ediepiastri ❤️���

random OSCAR MOUTHING HOLA WHILE HE WAS APPROACHING Y/N TO HUG HER IS THIS THEIR ROUTINE ITS SO CUTE FUCKEJ

pedri 👏👏👏🏆

random PEDRI APPROVE????

youruser bien hecho, mejor chico 🤗 (well done, best boy)

oscarpiastri Mi chica (my girl)

random WAR IS OVER

random oscar speaking in spanish 🙂‍↕️ the lessons from y/n is paying off

random MY FAVE COUPLE EVER

random they just make sm sense 😭🩷

mclaren VAMOS P1ASTRIIIIII 🧡🧡🧡

random such a great weekend!!! 😍

random futuro campeón 😎 (future champion)

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youruser Hola 👋 huge win for osc congrats pretty boy 🥰 & the best weekend ever!!!!!!!! somebody pinch me (also thank u to edie for sending this pic of oscar trying to kick the ball lol)

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random oscar piastri to barcelona here we go?

youruser let’s just stick to driving ❤️

random Y/NJDJSJSHSHHSHSHSHSH

oscarpiastri baby 🙁

random he calls her baby where’s my meds im gonna throw up they’re so 😭❤️❤️❤️😭

oscarpiastri Gracias preciosa (thank you gorgeous)

random he’s fluent now

random did anyone else see f1 putting “oscar piastri’s partner” when y/n appeared on the screen who else JUMPED

random this whole race was basically their hard launch 😭

random and people called me delusional when i was right 😒😒😒 this is so poetic

random and suddenly life is worth living 🚬

pedri bueno… si se le puede llamar lindo (well… if you can call it cute)

pablogavi 😂🥰🥰

lamineyamal el fútbol te echa de menos (football misses you)

youruser sabes que estaré allí en el partido de españa contra francia 😤 (you know i’ll be there in the spain vs france match)

pedri ¿vas a traer a cierto australiano? (are you bringing a certain australian?)

youruser obvio. ahora está atrapado conmigo 🙄 (duh. he’s stuck with me now)

oscarpiastri yes to whatever she said 😇

random this man is so whipped 😭

random there’s no saving him now i fear

oscarpiastri i don’t want to be saved thanks 👍🏻

random no way he replied to MEJDJSB

random oscar piastri winning the spanish GP in barcelona and officially dating the sister of the best spanish midfielder in the world… what prayers did he say…

random he’s living the life

random bagged the barcelona sweetheart and i had to stand up from my toilet to applaud

random girl who is going to be okay

[kotobormot3]

Happy new year! Not a comic suggestion or anything, but a question! What are your thoughts on wandersong au’s? Any specific favorites and recommendations? Any of your own?

Happy new year, anon!! :D

Hmm, Wandersong AUs... Well, I definitely enjoy some of them! I'm not really an AU kinda person, to be honest, but sometimes it is indeed fun and refreshing to put familiar characters in completely new and different settings. So... yeah!

I don't think I can remember right now all the AUs that have caught my interest, but lately (after I saw soothsayerditty's amazing art here on tumblr) I've been stuck thinking about that vaguely modern Wandersong AU for days, haha. I dunno, there's something about these road trip vibes and all the possible situations and interactions that could happen between Kiwi and Miriam in this scenario that simply makes me giggle and wish someone would write or draw more of it. (I even started to write a little drabble myself, but I don't know if I'll ever finish it or make it public lol). I dunno. I just love putting characters in modern settings and thinking of all the stuff they could do and how that would affect their relationships and what form the canon events would even take there. (Even better if there is a possibility of the characters meeting their original selves later, hehe. Or just learning about the existence of each other.) (I just simply can't help but enjoy the concept of parallel universes and multiple timelines. Yeah, yeah, I may be cringe, but I'm free xd).

I also immensely enjoy all the time loop Wandersong AUs. I feel like it's one of these games that's just asking for one (or two, or three... lol). Honestly, each time I start the game immediately after finishing it, I feel so weird that Kiwi doesn't remember anything at all and basically has to start their quest all over again, even though not only a minute earlier they were hugging their newfound best friend and companion and saying their heartfelt goodbyes to her, knowing that there is a tomorrow after all- And then. And then we see her again only to go right back to being complete strangers. Just. Ughgh. Angst material. Absolute angst material. That being said, I really enjoy Kiwi's perspective in this AU (khem I even started to write a little something about it a long time ago khem), but Miriam's POV is very interesting too. All in all, time loop AUs are great. They never get old. This AU and the previous one also nicely go with another concept I greatly enjoy – something something computer simulation, you know the drill xd

I also came across a lot of cool AU ideas while reading some old fandom stuff, like siren!Kiwi, monster!Miriam, shapeshifter!Miriam, warrior cats AU (hehehe), ghost!Kiwi or ghost!Miriam and some more. Personality swaps are not really my thing, but some role swaps are great. I especially like hero!Miriam concept, because it just makes sense and has a lot of interesting potential storywise. Kiwi with the sword makes for some really good drama as well.

Yeah. I probably forgot something, but I think that's enough for now, haha. There's a lot of cool AU stuff people have come up with lately that's really nice and interesting too.

As for my own AUs, I can't say I have any 🤔

And even if I get some ideas, it's often just certain little random scenes in my head that don't really tie together in the big picture. I mostly like to think about what happens after the game, and all my fics on AO3 are post-canon stuff. Wandersong is honestly one of the only pieces of media that didn't leave me with the burning desire to change things in it after I was done, so maybe that's why, lol. It's a very special game, and I just like it the way it is.

...Doesn't mean I can't appreciate other people's AUs, though xd

Anyways, thanks for asking! Happy holidays! :D

[ladytauria]

1, 7, 19, and 32 for the ask game please! ❤️❤️

aaah i forgot i hadn't answered this! i thought i had, whoops ^^;

i'm pretty sure these are from the weird asks for writers 🤔 so hopefully im right, lmao

1: What font do you write in? Do you actually care or is that just the default setting?

I use Crimson Pro; it's a free font I found on Google Fonts, lmao. However, I tend to cycle through fonts. One will capture my attention for a while and then I'll change it again. I do tend to prefer serif fonts at the moment, but I also had a phase where I wrote in nothing but Calibri!

That said, if I can't use my preferred font for whatever reason, I don't mind using either the default font or the closest one I can find in their offerings. The most important thing to me is generally paragraph spacing; I don't like trying to write with a wall of text, and I also don't like having to hit enter twice because I don't enjoy cleaning that up when I go to paste anywhere dfghjkl

7: What is your deepest joy about writing?

I looove when I come up with a satisfying turn of phrase or metaphor! Or just... playing with words in general; puzzling out how to describe things or how someone would phrase what I want them to say. This is also what I sometimes find the most difficult & exasperating too, though xD

19: Tell me a story about your writing journey. When did you start? Why did you start? Were there bumps along the way? Where are you now and where are you going?

I've been writing since I was small. I remember using construction paper to make a picture book about a dog who---if I remember right?---became a superhero, lol. I also remember using a previous year's calendar to create a picture book as well; trying to find a narrative to string through the pictures they used for each month. (It was a horse calendar, if you're curious.)

I don't have either of those anymore, but.

However, I would say that my writing journey actually started when I was 10-11. My parents had set-up a family/kids computer in the living room, and I basically lived on it dfghjkl I started writing my first book. It wasn't great and the concept was ripped off from the Inheritance Cycle since I was obsessed with it at the time. The second was a little more original xD

Mm... And then a couple years later I was working on something different and decided to look for a place to post it. I found FanFiction.Net, which wasn't really the right place, but it DID get me started writing fic. And THEN after a few years of that I decided to seriously focus on original fiction again, because it's always been my dream to publish, lol.

Where am I now... I'm very happy with my writing voice. I can read over my stuff and only cringe at the occasional typo or wonky phrase, which is really nice. I'm still working toward getting published... in theory. I've been putting off revising/refining/rewriting my first draft, lmao.

32: What is a line from a poem/novel/fanfic that you return to from time and time again? How did you find it? What does it mean to you?

This is a hard one to answer 🤔 While I do tend to find phrases and such that I like, I don't know that I return to them specifically a lot. It's more a whole body of work dfghjk

Hmm...

Oh! Okay. So, I used to read a lot of fanfic for the anime Ghost Hunt. And there's this one fic, Beneath the Lilac Tree, which has a scene in it that I just ADORE. Two brothers, twins, are eating dinner together at a hotel and as they're conversing, they---switch plates? Offer the other food off their plate? It's been a while and I don't remember the specific action BUT it stuck with me? And I think about it all the time. It struck me as just this lovely moment of familiarity and intimacy, and I remember coming back to that fic and rereading it a lot, in part for that scene xD

Thank you so much for asking!!

[prettyoatmeal]

I'm in LOVE with your work. I love my konig so much he's the cutest on the world 💕💞💖

I have no idea what to request but im hungry for more subby konig who's babbling and moaning and just pussy drunk and he gets all dopey and giggly and almost high even after sex and maybe the 141 guys are like... what did he have? we want some too 🤔

Just a Giggly Mood (König x Fem!Reader)

I'm so in love w this ask, you have no idea. Subby König>>>>

Genre: Smut & Fluff

Summary: You, König and all the friends you'd made during your time in the military have come over to celebrate the return home with drinks. Though, you and König had other plans in mind. While music was playing and your friends were having the time of their lives, you two had snuck upstairs to your shared bedroom for a bit of well deserved fun.

Warnings: Drug mention

Word Count: 1285

NSFW UNDER CUT

Masterlist here!

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"Mmnph.. hmm!"

With every thrust there came a whiny moan or hum from his lips. He was so desperate for this, he didn't even bother to take all his gear off. His helmet and breastplate were laying on the floor next to the creaking bed, mask pulled up past his mouth just so he could kiss your soft skin, his trousers were barely down to his knees with your underwear being merely pulled to the side and out of the way just enough, being slammed into missionary and immediately being rutted into. If he told you that he'd sniffed some sex pollen, you'd believe him.

With the amount of lube being used along with your slick just so he could fit inside you, plus that sticky feeling from how many times he's filled you up already, you couldn't hear anything but those wet, squelching noises of his cock moving in and out of you at such a rapid pace.

Your hands were stuck in place, your fingers intertwined with his as he kept them pinned next to you head. But it wouldn't have mattered anyway because you could barely bring yourself to move from the sheer amount of pleasure he'd brought on you.

"My- mmnghh,, My love- gotta fill you, gotta fill you.." He'd repeat to himself as his hot breath hit against your neck, practically slobbering all over it with the open-mouthed kisses he'd place down. He was completely pussy drunk, he couldn't get enough of the feeling of you squeezing and pulsing around him, so warm and wet and everything he could ever dream of. Mix that in with an overly sensitive, overstimulated König from cumming inside you so many times now and he's crying out, sobbing into your neck and unable to keep his hips from relentlessly pounding into you.

You couldn't think, completely fucked silly and dumbified from the constant pounding he was giving you.

"Fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck! Schatz!" He mewled as he painted your walls white once again, his hiccups mixing in with the weak moans you were letting out yourself.

It was only a matter of time before he began to rut into you once more, still clearly not satisfied.

"K-König... plea- mmnf!" And just like that, his cock was pounding against your spongey g-spot over and over and over again, "Too much,,"

You managed to mutter out among your moans, completely helpless against the man of pure muscle pinning you down

"Just one more, p-please, Liebling! Please, please, please.. feels so good..!" He'd beg you so kindly, so of course you didn't stop him.

Finally moving a hand from your wrist, he brings his thumb down to your swollen clit, massaging it as he thrusted into you like his life depended on it. Your moans only became louder as you approached your millionth orgasm for the night, not caring for whoever could hear outside the room.

All the wet noises, the slapping of skin together, the way his balls would slam against you with every thrust, it was all too much.

"That's it, oh g-gosh... just like that-" was all you could say before you could feel yourself letting go, your release creeping up to you. König's hand quickly moved to slam over your mouth in a despair attempt to keep you quiet. You couldn't help but let out a final symphony of muffled moans and whines as you climaxed over his cock once again. Your mouth stayed agape against his hands as he continued to fuck into you, chasing his orgasm a final time.

His goddamn libido was going to be the death of you.

His hand moved back down to your hips, grabbing onto your soft flesh as he pulled them down each time he thrusted into you. The way he'd come completely undone from his own doing was a beautiful sight to see. The way he sobbed into your neck from the overstimulation was a constant reminder to you how much he craved this every single second of the day.

It felt like forever until you could feel him becoming close once more, his hands gripping your hips as if his life depended on it, pulling them up into an angle so his cock reached even deeper inside you, just kissing your cervix and causing you to squeal out.

His dirty talk turned into his classic, incoherent babbling, only able to make out little words such as 'please', 'yes', and 'fuck'. He let out a final girlish cry, his face buried into your neck as he filled you up one more time.

Your moans had finally died out while he was stuck with his face in your neck with heavy breaths and small sobs emitting from his mouth. Your hands were still shaking as they move upwards and under König's veil, moving up to the nape of his neck and running your fingers through his hair.

"You.. Y'still with us, König?" You ask in between breaths, hearing him swallow and feeling him nod. You couldn't help but smile and let out a small giggle, causing him to giggle meekly back with you.

He finally moved you back into a comfortable position, massaging your hips where he'd gripped them so tightly in a prior attempt to sooth the ache he knew would soon creep up on you.

"You did so well." You'd praised him, earning another flustered giggle as he'd relaxed from his high.

"I'm sorry," You'd heard his muffled words as he pulled himself away from your neck, finally pulling his veil off and taking in a deep breath, revealing his tear stained face, "I got your neck sopping wet!" His voice was nasally, still in the aftermath of all that sobbing.

His face was cute like this, reddened cheeks, huffing in the fresh air he's finally got access to, the way his glassy, puppy dog eyes looked up at you with a wide smile on his lips. You placed a small kiss on his nose before a whine escaped your mouth as you felt him pulling out, again, earning another giggle from him at your reaction.

"I'd say you enjoyed it more than I did, Schatz!" His bashful attitude had depleted and been replaced with his silly little giggles.

"Yeah, yeah, whatever." You'd reply, pulling him in for a kiss. His hands gently caressed all over your hips, your waist, your chest, before finally landing on your cheeks, feeling your soft skin with his calloused hands before you pulled away, "I love you so much."

"Ich Liebe dich, Schatz."

"Go clean up, you smell like sex and sweat. And.. bring us a warm towel maybe. I don't think I can stand."

"Yes, Ma'am." he replied, pulling his trousers back up and rushing out of the room, taking his giggles along with him.

When he made his way to the bathroom (which was so extremely conveniently not connected to the bedroom), he made sure to knock, hearing a voice yelling 'coming!', evidently causing him to let out another snicker as he thought back to just moments before.

Soon, the door slid open with Gaz walking out, noticing the little smirk on König's face.

"Your face is pretty red there, big guy. You doing okay?"

He quickly nodded with another chuckle.

"Sorry, just in a... giggly mood." There was nothing to be laughing at, yet all the thoughts come rushing to his head at once, earning another snicker. As König prepared the warm towels to clean you up with, Gaz made his way back downstairs, taking a seat next to Soap.

"Think they're doing drugs up there. König was giggling like a madman."

"Sounds like a blast, I want what they're on."

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Hope you enjoyed!

*************** DISCLAIMER Under no circumstances do I give permission to copy, repost, or manipulate my work in any way. I am not comfortable with this. If you wish to translate my work, message me privately. My inbox is always open.

[waitingformyfavoritesongs]

4:07 am pdt 30 Jan u ary 2023 Monday lunes 🌙

I typed a lot that I wasn’t able to save if I could see the character count maybe that would have helped. I got stuck w/a grayed out save button. I’ve bleeded a lot and it I blame my aunt for not letting me barricade the door 🚪 to protect myself against incubus. She does not want me near my cousin. She wants to get rid of me. She wants to sacrifice me to the incubus. 4:12 am pdt the incubus likes hotels 🏨. So he’s probably raping her there. 4:12 am pdt

4:13 am pdt my aunt is using the incubus as an excuse but I told my cousin about more than a month b4 we moved in together but I mayb didn’t use the word incubus. I felt a very deep pelvic acidic burning cramp hours ago. The time went by fast while I was typing 💬 a lot didn’t get saved. A lot of drama 🎭 btwn me and my aunt. One time I didn’t allow my aunt to come into my apartment because it was near finals and they had lived with us most of the year I think? Trying to remember. I had a full schedule and I had to keep my grades up to transfer and I had a learning disability. And earlier in the year I sometimes had to babysit my then 4 year old cousin. Sometimes I came home late and still had to paint 🎨 so I locked myself in the room and she used to knock ✊ on my door asking me to play with her. She had an imagination 💭 back then and said funny things like make alien 👽 soup 🍲. And I had to gently tell her can’t play now. 4:20 am pdt

that 4th guy sorta drove me a little crazy. He wasn’t like a lot of the other guys. I thought he peed in my shampoo 🧴 one time when I left him alone in my room, and that happened after he said he wanted to poop 💩 in another girl’s shoe 👠. I tried to keep up with him and stay up as long as him in the beginning, and I almost passed out trying to stay up as long as him. And he’d do crazy things like move lounge chairs 🪑 by using the elevator 🛗 and he seeemd to use it as an excuse to flirt with other girls even tho I am trying to remember if we already did it at the point. Maybe 🤔we did? Hmm trying to remember the timing/chronology. 4:25 am pdt I went so crazy I thought to impress him Bcz he used to play football 🏈 that I’d tackle him! Bonkers. I got tackled in middle school 🏫 during a game of ultimate frisbee by I think a guy named Julio??? Basically the same. Except that was grass, but still was rough and hard when he collided into me. 4:27 am pdt this guy, all his friends were asking me why I wouldn’t make him my boyfriend yet official on Facebook, well the thing is, he pressured me into having s*x with him. I was already psychologically set up to fail and be a whore and guy after guy who came into my life was set up to break me down to fit into that role. Some guys seem to know it like the guy in high school 🏫 who wanted friends with benefits he said but really he wanted a secret prostitute. He didn’t even want me calling his house 🏠 even though he gave me his number when I asked. After I called and his mom said he wasn’t home, he said “don’t ever call my house again!” As if I said something wrong to his mom, maybe? Without explaining. He was receptive when my friend at the time called. He entertained her for probably 20 minutes on the phone ☎️. 4:34 am pdt on the phone, he said he was interested in other girls to date. Specifically one of the cheerleaders 📣. My name he never mentioned, it was like I didn’t exist. 4:35 am pdt he 4th guy I declined kissing him in front of his dorm, and he wouldn’t keep talking to me it seemed unless I gave him kisses which led into s*x. I told him, you’re not getting any tonight! And then he said “yes I am!” We barely knew each other yet he wanted to go that far that quick. I am cursed. To think that I can never have a happy marriage like my sister bcz incubus parents?told me so when I was in kindergarten. 4:39 am pdt set up to FAIL. 4:48 am pdt I was still getting to know him. I should not have gave in.

4:49 I cannot remember everything that I typed that didn’t get saved. Part of it was drama 🎭 Btwn me and aunt and cousin. And probably included more of all of our flaws. Oh tangent from above when I didn’t allow her inside she asked if my mom was home 🏠, and she wasn’t , and I told her she wasn’t. And then my aunt said god told her I was lying about my mom not being home 🏠... but she REALLY wasn’t home. She also said back in 2015, that god was very angry with me and that I was a bad girl. Hey you know maybe his lies sometimes. But maybe he was right about me. Maybe I AM a very bad girl. 😑 okay 👌 have your way. 4:53 am pdt and I typed out the whole surrounding story of those things that were said but incubus kept it from being saved even though I deleted a lot of text to keep that part. I want to die NOW. Don’t feel like putting up with anymore pain and anyone’s judgements of me (ha! I know incubus will throw that one back in my face he always is throwing stuff back into my face!) my aunt tried to control me in 2015. And I got annoyed 😑. From when I go to the bank 🏦 with my mom to what tv 📺 show I watch to being noisy to making a mess in the bathroom and not cleaning up after themselves both kitchen and bathroom 🚽 and if I complained about the noise it’s still my fault 🤦‍♀️ bcz I “chose” to eat the hard rock 🪨 89% burned chocolate cake bcz I have weird craving or eating impulses? Still my fault 🤦‍♀️ bcz I know better! Yet you think she should know better! She was b4 we moved in together, staying at my apartment late and talking and not caring that I might have to go to bed 🛌 bcz I have class in the morning was it? And I think I still had trouble with being assertive and saying what I want and need to most people. At the time. Even though somehow bcz of weird random social decisions that I usually don’t make every day makes me feel otherwise about myself I’m recalling now that I had issues with saying what I really want and what I really feel. I got sorta lucky/unlucky in some situations like when I asked a schoolmate in middle school 🏫 if I had to pay her back for the ice cream 🍦 and she said “no” but she really meant yes and it happened a few more times that way. I felt guilty about it for years. Sometimes I was like that and then sometimes I was the complete opposite like with Q. In 2010 I thought 💭 about buying her a gift 🎁 card and writing to her Facebook but I procrastinated. I shouldn’t have. But I did. Should I blame selfishness again? 5:06 am pdt

5:09 am pdt my aunt ate all the broccoli 🥦 and didn’t leave me any when she came over to my place and I was already laid off and she had a job. But I guess she’s right to do that bcz of the ice cream 🍦? Incubus 5:10 am pdt

5:26 am pdt I am a bad girl and I am going to die of a hole 🕳-y intestines. Or an airplane ✈️. Or a train 🚂 or a car. Or anemia. Right now seems crohns or whatever and anemia. 5:28 am pdt

6:50 am pdt I don’t think 🤔 that guy hit his head when I tackled him bcz we I think 🤔 went out to dinner afterwards? He was probably ok 👌 I hope 🤞. We did continue seeing each other for a long while after that, probably months. 6:52 am pdt I remember after we stopped dating he invited me to a play he had been rehearsing while we dated. He didn’t tell me the part was to kiss and play in bed with the lead actress! He worked out 💪 at the gym to prepare for the role so he would have muscle to show off. 😑6:56 am pdt

7:37 am pdt incubus burned acidically my stomach and with heat he burned my skull ☠️. It’s always on the side I’m laying on so it gives me extra anxiety 😥 they are pushing inwards. 7:39 am pdt it gets uncomfortable 🥵 laying down but I lay down a lot bcz they torture my ribs and also make it harder to breathe 🧘🏻‍♀️. 7:41 am pdt

9:56 am pdt anus pain acidic. Days ago felt them fo something weird and painful to my spine and it looks shorter today than last time observed it. Incubus already made it absurdly short. 9:57 am pdt loud helicopter 🚁 passed by. 9:58 am pdt

9:59 am pdt incubus hurt my spine a lot last 5 years and made me sleep on weird bumpy mattress (futon) for abt ≈10 years? Which made it not correctly aligned for years. It always felt weird. The 4th guy who psychologically toyed with me to get him to have s*x w/ me, (11:13 am pdt tried incorrectly but I think I understand? To get me to have s*x w/him) one time he was calling a girl in the dorm with a pointing finger “lesbian” and laughed so I sat on him bcz I thought it was rude to point and laugh. Maybe also call someone out like that maybe 🤔 it’s rude if they aren’t ready? She didn’t mind. I liked her/admired her and thought she was funny. (<-Edited 11:16 am pdt) Incubus is probably punished me for sitting on him by hurting my back a lot even though he hurt my back during s*x by making me contort awkwardly(11:23 am pdt I think 🤔 I remember him laughing at my pain when I cried out from it 11:24 am pdt). He seemed to have no back problems I guess bcz he was able 2 go work out and get buff 💪 4 his play. 10:04 am pdt I think I remember him standing up straight? Maybe 🤔? And I remember not standing straight up 🆙 and he pointed it out to me and said stand up straight- I think he was starting to feel anxious that I might blame him for my back. 10:07 am pdt

10:54 am pdt can’t breathe again ok now I can after coughing 😷.

10:55 am pdt the 4th guy also I think finished off his b.a.? As a double or triple major I heard 👂? & went on 2 advance his degree 📜. 10:56 am pdt mayb bachelor of science if not arts.

10:59 am pdt https://www.Instagram

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this should b behati’s ig picture w/Justin Bieber March 3, 2013

the first night I talked 2 (pain! 😖😭🥵😤🥵😤 11:03 left thigh bone 🦴) “Brendan” he asked 4 me 2 describe myself. I didn’t have a webcam or digital camera 📸 back then. I don’t remember if he asked 4 a picture. I don’t think 🤔 I asked 4 one either but I probably should have? I wasn’t accustomed? 2 chatting w/ strangers online. I typed something like brown eyes black hair or dark brown hair? Bcz middle school 🏫 it lightened up to dark brown. Slender. I probably said I was 5’1.5” tall. And half white half Filipina. And his response was that I sounded “yummy.” Now I m thinking of Russell peters Holland + ph = jalapeños. 11:09 am pdt

11:31 am pdt if I commit suicide b4 they want me to I guess they have a backup doppelgänger 2 take my place. It was strange how I had an account setup already at a hospital 🏥 I never been too. Something I should have investigated but it slipped my mind.11:34 am pdt 11:35 am pdt there really is a doppelgänger I have not seen or met yet I mentioned in a previous post that some people told me about. I guess I’m replaceable 2 incubus. 11:37 am pdt my aunts dog 🐕 was named cinder. Cinderella I think slept 🛌 near the fireplace in the story? That dog knocked me down when I was 4/5 years old? 11:38 am pdt she just stood over me with her tongue 👅 out. Knowing incubus he makes a cute outside show but I m by myself feeling like dying. 11:39 am pdt

1:32 pm pdt when I was ≈14 years old? My mom tells me I am the worst person in the world 🌎 bcz I got annoyed that she asked me to fold laundry 🧺 when I was trying to concentrate/focus/get started on homework 📚. I will decide she’s right 4 simplicity and I don’t feel like rebuttaling. B4 that, probably a year? Or closer to it, @ daycare a young boy named Avery watching the new cartoons titled Tex Avery? But looks nothing like the ones I watched when I was a kid. He was very focused eyes 👀 glued to that cartoon. I foolishly asked if I could change the channel 2 watch my cartoon sailor moon, might have been 7th grade year for me, he didn’t respond even though I think I recall his mouth hanging open as he stared at the tv 📺. I changed the channel and then he yelled at me that I’m the worst person/girl in the world 🌎. And I said you’re right I am & I changed it back 2 his cartoon. 1:39 pm pdt

1:48 pm pdt something in the apocalypse saying the devil ? Produces signs 🪧? Who for? I don’t remember... am I the beast? I don’t feel like deciphering anything now. I m tired 😓. Difficulty breathing. Pain 😖😭 right shin 1:50 pm pdt. I m the beast ok? 👌 whatever. 1:51 whore whatever. I don’t have any dragon 🐉 god king whatever. Never ending story.

9:17 pm pdt I cracked 2day. I think while I was sleeping 😴 my mom woke me up while she was on the phone ☎️ with an aunt in another country. My back ribs all felt completely broken at the same time and I cried out in pain and my mom and aunt’s back were also in pain at the same time. 9:19 pm pdt said ncubus kiss 💋 = death ☠️ 9:20 pm pdt I got up a few minutes ago from sleeping it feels like and the mins s passed by fast 💨. I think 🤔 I’m really going to die, and incubus has lied 🤥 to me about everything and they really invest only what’s necessary to achieve their goals, even if it means sending out gigolo incubus minions to touch me with my eyes 👀 closed. 9:23 pm pdt he’s psychologically messed up 🆙 to mess with me in that way. He will justify it by using the past and saying karma this and that symbolically even though what he does is a million times worse. 9:25 pm pdt bcz I told “Brendan” I love you 💕 on the phone ☎️ even though I did not know him prior to that? Maybe bcz I got into a relationship with my first boyfriend and I was not honest about my feelings, even though I grew up feeling cursed and that I can never Truely have love 💗 with marriage? Bcz I grew up in a divorced family and only my dad would talk to me the most and he and his sister were cursed, too? I felt incomplete being so quiet 🤫 as if there I had no personality that I would leave guys feeling empty even though I wouldn’t consider myself that attractive, but pre-2018 I would have said that my *as was probbly one of my best features physically? I used to have big lips 👄 too I thought 💭. It’s all cut down now. 9:32 pm pdt there are days I looked 👀 in the mirror 🪞 & thought I was ugly, & some days I thought I look 👀 a little cute today. 9:33 pm pdt no one wants to 👂 hear my problems. Incubus “promises problems” via autocorrect boxes 📦 not genuine in anyway. I expect he will use karma as an excuse to lie in anyway he can. Please read all posts to learn about karma with my karmic experiences. 9:35 pm pdt

9:51 pm pdt is it best 2 4get everything and live with the horrible reality as is? He’s made everyone hurt 😞 4 years. Death.. “sea death” in autocorrect. All the strong 💪 stuff are completely gone from my back ribs. I think I remember autocorrect had “gone good” and also “aunt suicide”. I am an aunt and aunts are alive. 9:55 pm pdt they’ve scared me a lot. When I was 7/8 years old they made me feel like I was always running 🏃🏻‍♀️ out of time ⌛️ which actually gave me procrastinating problems bcz I started to worry about what to do first? Something. Trying to remember how it led to procrastination problems. 9:59 pm pdt

10:12 pm pdt I guess don’t expect love 💕 from an incubus. 10:13 pm pdt

11:35 pm pdt a*s not *as ⬆️ ⬆️ 11:36 pm pdt incubus = not genuine love. 💕 11:37 pm pdt. 11:38 pm pdt I was foolish to desire “Brendan” . Incubus is communicating to me via autocorrect I think it was “describe” then “destroy” incubus does not give fair warning ⚠️ b4 hand 2 the people he plans to double cross. He will enforce Ignorance in you by magic 🪄 until it’s too late. 11:42 pm pdt. You can’t really double cross him if he did it to you first. Bcz he doesn’t like to communicate clearly to you anything so you don’t have a relationship so how can you double cross him if he’s always hiding stuff from you and hurting you? Might be gas ⛽️ lighting? 11:44 pm pdt

[rookthorne]

You have to protect Bucky from several threats (one of which is falling on his ass on the ice)-

I fucking snorted. 🤣

His broad chest was covered by a tan turtleneck sweater and his worn leather jacket. His handsome beard and shiny hair–his glowing smile–he looked like a damn supermodel next to you. 

and I wanna climb him like a tree. FUCK.

Your wistful thinking was interrupted when you noticed someone out of the corner of your eye–someone that wasn’t there to experience Christmas magic. No, you would recognize that tacky red tracksuit anywhere. 

👀👀👀

“Yeah, sweetheart?” 

“Of course not; I’ll be back.” Bucky kissed your nose and turned to walk away. 

Bucky is whipped if he didn’t realise something was wrong. Damn.

“Delicious.” Bucky licked his lips, tasting the last bit of sugar. “Hey, are you feeling okay? You’re sweating.” 

damn you for distracting me from the plot dammit with THAT VISUAL

Bucky was good at many, many things but staying upright on his ice skates was not one. He stuck his arms out for balance and moved his feet as slowly as possible.

I have to agree, won’t catch my butt in there with those skates.

“A Russian target taught me a few years ago,” you grinned as Bucky rolled his eyes. “And then, of course, I ended up killing him with one of my skates.” 

Bucky shook his head, laughing quietly. He watched you twirl around while holding the railing in a death grip. You were grinning, but Bucky wasn’t convinced it was genuine. Sometimes he hated how perceptive he was—you had given him no real reason to worry, but he couldn’t ignore the minor signs that only he could perceive. It was the way your eyes shifted around when you thought he wasn’t watching you, the little “v” between your brows that meant you were likely running scenarios in your head—that mysterious phone call. 

If something was wrong, she would tell me now that we’re together—wouldn’t she?

“Come on, let’s go home and make some hot chocolate; I’m cold.” You grabbed his hand and pulled him to the exit. 

hot chocolate soothes the soul 🥰

Your finger froze when you saw one of the two of you together. It had been taken the day you had arrived in New York and posted by a trash news site, The Daily Bugle.

…oh, no

Still, you were quickly distracted by the comments people left on the pictures. It was hard not to take them personally. Who were these people? Judging you and Bucky so freely behind the safety of their screens. What gave them the right?

🥺🥺🥺

“You know, if you want to cut your hair again, I wouldn’t mind.” 

Bucky furrowed his brows as he sat you down on the bed. “Why do you say that?” 

“Shuri told me you cut it because it made you less recognizable.”

Bucky got back into bed and pulled you close to his side. “Thanks, doll, but I like your hands in it too much. Get some sleep.” 

JJKKSBSKDKNE

HAH yes. I have to agree. 👀

So Bucky isn’t as blind as I thought he was… hmm 🤔

Your Eyes Outshine The Town…Chapter 2

Bucky Barnes x Black Female Reader

18+ ONLY

Chapter summary: Ice skating in Central Park turns into more of an ordeal than it should be. You have to protect Bucky from several threats (one of which is falling on his ass on the ice) but at the end of the night, he’s the one protecting you.

Warnings: Racist and misogynist comments toward reader. Reader has a drinking problem.

*Tumblr is not letting me add links to the prev or next chapters. Please see the masterlist pinned to my page for the rest of the story!*

After decorating your small Christmas tree the next night, you and Bucky took the subway to Central Park. You promptly drug Bucky to the ice skating rink you had only ever seen in the movies. You watched the skaters glide and fall for a while–you were content just standing next to him. His broad chest was covered by a tan turtleneck sweater and his worn leather jacket. His handsome beard and shiny hair–his glowing smile–he looked like a damn supermodel next to you. 

Your wistful thinking was interrupted when you noticed someone out of the corner of your eye–someone that wasn’t there to experience Christmas magic. No, you would recognize that tacky red tracksuit anywhere. 

Fuck. How did they find me? 

The more you glanced around your surroundings, the more tracksuits you counted–there were four of them circling closer and closer. You had to deal with this now. 

“Hey, Buck?” 

“Yeah, sweetheart?” 

“I’m kind of hungry; I saw a stand selling beignets when we got here. Could you go get me one?” 

“That’s a bit of a walk–you’re not coming?”

You bounced on your heels nervously as the men got closer. “No, I wanna stay here and watch the skaters. You don’t mind, do you?” 

“Of course not; I’ll be back.” Bucky kissed your nose and turned to walk away. 

You stayed put until he was out of sight, then quickly ran away from the ice skating rink and deeper into the park. You cursed yourself for not bringing a weapon–you had let your guard down too quickly. You were so desperate to just enjoy your time with Bucky that you had thought you were safe. 

You hid in the brush and listened to the crunch of footsteps that had followed you. 

A Russian accented voice called your name. “We just want to talk to you. Promise.” 

They passed your hiding spot, and you considered staying put until your palm brushed against cold metal on the ground. 

What the fuck? 

Partially buried under the brush was a loaded pistol. You thanked whatever god or supernatural being was responsible and jumped from your hiding place, gun raised in front of you. 

“Yeah? About what?” 

The men turned, the one in the middle putting his hands up calmly. “Now, there’s no need for that.” 

“What do you want?” You flicked the safety off and took a step closer. 

“Well, that depends on you.” The man stuck his fat finger in your face. “Boss wants to talk to you–preferably alive, but if you want to do things the hard way….” 

You laughed dryly. “I don’t think so. He’s not much of a talker.” 

The man stepped forward, undeterred. “See, I told her you wouldn’t care about death. The stories I’ve heard make it sound like you seek it out.” He circled around you, the scent of his cologne making you grimace. 

“But, Boss doesn’t know about your–boyfriend?” 

You whipped around and knocked the man to the ground, your knee pressed against his chest. “Don’t,” you threatened. 

“Ah, so boyfriend it is,” the man laughed. “Do you want to take that trip with us now?” 

“No.” You jumped up, your limbs a coordinated blur as you disarmed and incapacitated your victims. 

Breathing hard, you looked at your watch–Bucky would be back soon. 

“You’re going to regret this,” the man groaned from the ground. 

You stood over him, your foot pressed harshly into his chest. “You tell your boss, this is a warning–I swear–if you go near him–I’ll make your deaths slow and painful. I’m sure you’ve heard the stories.” 

Without a glance back, you ran back to the skating rink just before Bucky showed up with your snack. 

“Sorry it took so long; there was a line.” Bucky handed you the beignet with a smile. 

 “Was it good?” You chuckled as you reached up and brushed white powder out of his beard. 

“Delicious.” Bucky licked his lips, tasting the last bit of sugar. “Hey, are you feeling okay? You’re sweating.” 

“Yeah–totally.” You turned back to the ice skaters and took a big bite of your beignet. 

“Are you sure?” Bucky pressed. 

You nodded enthusiastically. “Wanna skate?” 

Bucky was hesitant, but when you looked at him with puppy dog eyes, the next thing he knew, he was lacing up his ice skates.

“Have you done this before?” Bucky asked as he stumbled onto the ice skating rink. 

“Kind of,” you smiled, spinning in circles around him. 

“What does that mean?” 

Bucky was good at many, many things but staying upright on his ice skates was not one. He stuck his arms out for balance and moved his feet as slowly as possible.

You giggled and grabbed his gloved hands, skating backward and pulling him along. 

“A Russian target taught me a few years ago,” you grinned as Bucky rolled his eyes. “And then, of course, I ended up killing him with one of my skates.” 

You twirled away from him, leaving him frowning after you. 

“Show off,” Bucky huffed when you skated up behind him and wrapped your arms around his torso. “Are you serious?” 

“No, I didn’t kill him with a skate...I used a gun, much less messy.” 

Bucky shook his head, laughing quietly. He watched you twirl around while holding the railing in a death grip. You were grinning, but Bucky wasn’t convinced it was genuine. Sometimes he hated how perceptive he was—you had given him no real reason to worry, but he couldn’t ignore the minor signs that only he could perceive. It was the way your eyes shifted around when you thought he wasn’t watching you, the little “v” between your brows that meant you were likely running scenarios in your head—that mysterious phone call. 

Stop self-sabotaging, Barnes.

If something was wrong, she would tell me now that we’re together—wouldn’t she?

“Come on, you can go a little faster.” You held out your mitten-covered hand, snapping Bucky out of his thoughts. 

“Don’t let me fall,” he said seriously, not letting go of the railing until you nodded your agreement. 

He slowly got the hang of it as you glided around the rink. Your noses were rosy from the cold and your cheeks hurt from laughter. 

“I’ve always wanted to do this,” you said as you wrapped your arms around his neck. “I’m glad I get to do it with you.” 

“Me too, sweetheart.” Bucky leaned in to kiss you but was interrupted by a short, round woman tapping his arm. 

“Excuse me, you’re the Winter Soldier...right?” 

Bucky tried not to look annoyed; this happened every now and then. He nodded, scanning the ice rink to see if anyone else had noticed. 

“Can my son get a picture with you?” 

Bucky wanted to say no, but he didn’t want to be a disappointment—he briefly glanced at you, and you squeezed his hand. But, the woman wasn’t waiting for a response; she was already pushing her son next to Bucky and holding her phone up. 

“Not tonight, thanks, though,” you said as pleasantly as you could while moving in front of Bucky. 

“It’s okay—" Bucky muttered, guilt building as he watched the kid shuffle away. 

You ignored him, standing your ground and smiling tightly at the woman who still wasn’t leaving. 

“Just a quick—"

“I said no, now please go before you draw any more attention to Sergeant Barnes.” You gestured for the woman to leave, and she did with a huff and a glare back in your direction. 

“You didn’t have to do that,” Bucky whispered. 

“You’re too nice. You take one picture, and then everyone wants one.” 

“Thanks, sweetheart.” 

Bucky kissed you, but you could tell the mood was ruined. He was on edge, and his eyes were shifting around quickly, assessing the threat level. 

“Come on, let’s go home and make some hot chocolate; I’m cold.” You grabbed his hand and pulled him to the exit. 

As you sat and put your shoes back on, you glanced up. You happened to notice the woman from earlier, a few feet away, with her camera pointing in your and Bucky’s direction. 

“Oh, you’ve got to be kidding me,” you muttered. 

“What?” Bucky looked up and followed your gaze. “Doll, it’s fine, I swear.” 

“No, it’s not! I told her no pictures, how hard is that?!” You stomped off toward the woman before Bucky could stop you. 

The woman noticed you approaching and quickly stuffed her phone in her pocket. 

“I thought I said no pictures?” You cornered the woman and held out your hand. 

“I—hey! You can’t do that!” The woman yelled as you pushed her against the wall and pulled her phone out of her pocket. 

“Delete them, and I’ll leave you alone.” You held the phone out, waiting for the woman to enter her passcode. 

“You—no—you can’t do this!” The woman was flushed red, looking around for someone to complain to. 

“Fine, I gave you a choice.” You dropped the phone on the ground and crushed it with your ice skate. “Now, maybe you’ll think twice before filming people without their consent.” You dumped the broken pieces of the woman’s cellphone into her shaking hands and went back to Bucky. 

“Ready?” 

“Yeah,” Bucky’s lips curled into a crooked smile, “you’re crazy. Thank you.” 

“Anytime,” you giggled and stood on your tiptoes to kiss his cold cheek. 

**

That night you were too wired to sleep. The Tracksuit Mafia wouldn’t let you go easily; they would be back. And you were racking your mind for who their new boss could be. A woman—could it be The Power Broker herself? Someone from your past that you had forgotten about? Truly the options were limitless. 

The woman taking pictures of you and Bucky was also disconcerting. You had experienced a lot in your lifetime, but never anything like that—curiosity got the best of you. You downloaded Instagram and made a throwaway account. A search of Bucky’s name resulted in thousands of posts about him. Most of them were innocent, a few were creepy, and a lot more than you expected were paparazzi shots of him that he clearly didn’t know were being taken. Your finger froze when you saw one of the two of you together. It had been taken the day you had arrived in New York and posted by a trash news site, The Daily Bugle.

“What the fuck?” You murmured to yourself. 

The caption described you as ‘The Winter Soldier’s sneaky link’ and also managed to allude to the uncertainty of Bucky’s innocence. The picture wasn’t all that flattering either; you had been wearing sweats and a crop top, your coat in your hands. The comments were worse than the caption.

Who is this bitch?

He doesn’t look happy with her.

The guy murders hundreds and is just allowed to roam the streets? What kind of psychobitch would date him anyway?

And there were more pictures after that one...how had you not noticed this? Anyone could see these—they would know precisely where you and Bucky were on a daily basis. Your chest tightened, anxiety quickly taking over. You couldn’t breathe as you clutched your phone in your hand. Bucky stirred next to you, and you slipped out of bed and went to the bathroom to avoid waking him. 

You dug out the bottle of vodka you had hidden under the sink and sat on the floor against the cabinet door. You lost yourself down a rabbit hole of pictures of you and Bucky. The fact that your face was plastered all over the Internet should have been the most pressing issue. Still, you were quickly distracted by the comments people left on the pictures. It was hard not to take them personally. Who were these people? Judging you and Bucky so freely behind the safety of their screens. What gave them the right? 

You grimaced when you found pictures from that evening. There were a few cute ones of you and Bucky laughing and skating together, but the invasion of privacy made your skin crawl just as much as the non-flattering shots. You scrolled through the comments, and your jaw clenched when you found a particularly rude one that called you a litany of names and got slightly racist toward the end. You rolled your eyes when you realized it was posted by the woman whose phone you had destroyed that evening. 

Despite the sick feeling that was taking over, you kept scrolling. You were on the verge of tears but couldn’t stop. 

Looks like the Winter Soldier has jungle fever. 

She’s barely black enough for that. 

Annoying looking, but nice ass. 

Bet it’s fake. 

She’s too skinny, I hate when guys date girls who don’t eat.

Nah, look at her thighs, she could stand to lose a few pounds. 

You hadn’t realized how much time had passed until Bucky knocked on the door and asked if you were okay. 

“Shit,” you murmured as you realized the time. “I’m okay, just a second.” You scrambled to put the lid back on the vodka bottle and threw it back under the sink.

Your voice was not convincing, and Bucky slowly opened the door. You were frantically wiping your tears. 

“Sweetheart, what’s going on? What’s wrong?” Bucky knelt down next to you, panic in his eyes. 

“It’s nothing,” you sniffled. “Let’s just go back to bed.” 

“It’s not nothing; you’re crying.” Bucky glanced down at the phone in your hands and saw the last picture you had pulled up. “What’s this?” 

You sighed and gave him the phone. “I got caught up looking at pictures people have posted of us...I didn’t realize that was happening, and I know I should have stopped reading, but I couldn’t.” 

Bucky sat back against the bathtub and scrolled through the comments, his frown increasing with each one he read. “I’m sorry—I knew people took pictures of me sometimes, but I had no idea it was this bad. Shit, I’m so sorry.” 

“It’s not your fault—people just suck.” 

“I know,” Bucky wrapped an arm around you and kissed your head. “Don’t let it get to you. No more—what is this?” 

“Instagram,” you chuckled. “And you’re right. I definitely don’t need to look at this ever again.” 

“Come back to bed,” Bucky said as he picked you up. 

“You know, if you want to cut your hair again, I wouldn’t mind.” 

Bucky furrowed his brows as he sat you down on the bed. “Why do you say that?” 

“Shuri told me you cut it because it made you less recognizable.” 

Bucky got back into bed and pulled you close to his side. “Thanks, doll, but I like your hands in it too much. Get some sleep.” 

“Okay,” you yawned and snuggled close to him, letting his warmth relax you until you were fast asleep. 

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