#hopefully I can get there and get back home before 8pm

[mortally-beloved]

forgot to buy waterproof makeup and a good amount of the makeup stores are closed

[minimomoe]

The Little Things

AN: I was listening to Sexy to Someone by Clairo and thought of Nanami. short, fluffy drabble

You stood in front of the elevator and waited for the metal box to ascend to your floor. It was 8pm, well past office hours, but time waits for no man and you had work to finish. All that mattered now is that you were done. You could slip out of your drab work clothing and crawl into bed as soon as you got home.

You had hoped that you could ride down alone, but you found yourself holding the door open for Kento Nanami, your unrequited work crush. He swept in, his cologne filling up the air and you didn't find it nauseating in the slightest. It was clean, green, and oh so sexy.

"Thank you for waiting for me. Most people would let it close in my face."

"You're too not bad of company," you teased.

He smiled back down at you and you felt heat rush up to your face. It wasn't fair at all. He couldn't be this gorgeous with pretty brown eyes and be one of the nicest people you have ever met. You might not even make it down the elevator with how fast your heart thumped in your chest.

"So why did--"

"You look--"

You had both started talking at the same time. He laughed, apologized, and asked for you to go first.

"I was just gonna ask why are you staying so late?"

"They're pulling a lot of people from my department. Someone had to pick up the slack," he sighed. He ran his hands through his hair and it fell over in perfect tresses. How annoying. How gorgeous.

"Tell me about it. They're doing the same to us in the marketing department. The quarter's almost over so hopefully the workload will lessen."

You could do this with him. Small talk. Safe talk. There was nothing that could go wrong here. Nanami couldn't hear your heart racing in your chest. You just had to keep your cool.

"What were you going to say?" You remembered.

"Oh-- it... I don't think it matters anymore."

The handsome, suave Nanami was stuttering. You had the man stuttering. You snapped your head forward as if you were afraid you messed with the balance of the universe. He cleared his throat and looked at you once again.

"I hope that this doesn't come off... inappropriate. I think that blue looks wonderful with your complexion. And you got new glasses last week. I never got to compliment them."

Your ears were ringing. Did you hear him correctly? Nanami watched you, has kept you in his sights to know that your glasses have changed and complimented your favorite work dress. You peered up at him and his ears were flaming red. Your unrequited work crush could possibly be requited after all.

"Thank you, Mr. Nanami," you said softly with a shy smile. "It almost looks like were matching, right?"

He looked down at his own blue suit and chuckled. "It does, doesn't it."

The elevator dinged and the doors slowly slid opened. Nanami held his hand out for you to leave first and followed behind. You were keenly aware of how close he was to your body as you both said goodnight to the security guard on your way out of the building.

"Well... Good night to you too, Nanami. Try not to work yourself too hard this weekend," you waved. You started on the opposite direction before he called out your name.

"Would you... like to have a meal with me? I know a place," he asked.

You bit back a smile. Never would you have imagined that Kento of all people could get so shy. He patiently awaited your answer but you noticed his jaw tightening.

"I don't know. It's getting pretty late," you teased.

"This place is only open from 8pm to 12am. And a meal is always better with someone to eat with."

He was practically begging you to come with. You gingerly took your step towards him and his smile widened.

"I can take your bag," he offered. He slipped it off your shoulder and you softly hissed at his fingers grazing your shoulder. His eyes darkened at the sound but kept on strutting down the street. Once again, his ears were blushing and you internally squealed. To think that you were rushing to go home only to end up on a date with Nanami. Was this a date?

Only your brain to mouth filter was broken, and you actually asked the question out loud. He gave you a fond look. "I would like for it to be."

You hooked your hand around his raised arm. All this time you thought that your feelings would never be reciprocated, but it looks like you were sexy to someone after all.

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[prodbymaui]

I Loved You (Dangerously)

drunk off that love, fuck my head up

PAIRING: lee jeno x reader

GENRE: infidelity

WORD COUNT: 1.8k+ words

WARNINGS: bulging kink, choking kink, strength kink (?)

SYNOPSIS: You're in a lovingly, domestic relationship with your boyfriend. Or so everyone thought.

A/N: first jeno fic, happy reading! please do leave your thoughts if you can! <3

Lively chatters, car honking, vendors selling. The sun has exchanged positions with the moon yet it is not the end of a day for the people of Myeongdong. The chilly breeze bites through your flesh, but you suppose you are to blame for not dawning a puffer jacket.

Steps quickening, your keys jingling in your hands as you head back to your apartment. Your phone pings and catches your attention, it displays an email from your co-worker but it's not what you looked at though. Eyes settling on the time, you glance where the picture of your lovely boyfriend smiling innocently and widely lies. A quarter after 8PM, he should be in his own apartment now.

Upon arriving, your doorknob twists easily, as though it wasn't locked. Did you forget to? You were certain you did before leaving. Carefully, you hold the door open, heart beating rapidly as fear creeps up on your spine. Am I about to die? Hopefully not. You have a lot of things on your bucket list and dying young isn't one of them.

The lights are on, and music fills the entire flat. That song is too familiar for you. Closing the door behind you, your eyes roam around, observing. Not even a minute and as if on cue, a man who wears the face of your boyfriend walks into your vision, seemingly fresh out of the shower. He then meets your eyes with no surprise.

''Great. You're home.''

You roll your eyes. Raking your eyes up and down on his body, heat burns your cheeks as you turn away, pursing your lips at the sight of water droplets dripping along his bare chest. You chuck your shoes off and head to the kitchen. ''Why are you here?''

You heard a scoff. Footsteps following your trace. ''Why not? I'm more comfortable here than at my own apartment.''

''Cut the chase, Jeno.'' You face him. ''What are you doing here?'' And when you only receive a grin from the man who's leaning on the wall, you sigh. ''Did you got fired again?''

''Ah.. you know me too well.''

Irritated, you shake your head and proceed to walk out of the kitchen but before you could, Jeno's already catching your wrist– preventing you from getting away. Tugging you closer, he offers a smile.

''Don't walk out on me now, babe.''

You click your tongue. ''Shut up.''

Chuckling, Jeno wraps his arms around your waist and nuzzles his nose on the crook of your neck. ''So feisty.''

Jeno runs his palms on your side up and down as he plants sweet sweet pecks on the vastness of your neck. His kisses then eventually travels upwards where he connects your lips with his. What a lighthearted kiss turns into somewhat a desperate one, swiftly licking each other's lips before sucking on them.

''Fuck, I missed you–'' Grabbing the back of your thighs, Jeno carries you with ease as he transfers both of you to your bedroom, his body leading him despite the lack of vision. It's like telling him 'Worry no more about tripping, you've been here enough that I've memorized every single thing.'

Jeno is lying if he says it doesn't fuel the smugness in him.

He slowly settles you on the bed, hovering over you, gripping your hips as your legs circle his waist. Pushing his tongue in, Jeno licks every wall, every part that he can reach. A drool escapes the end of your lips as you share the messy kiss with Jeno, groaning when his boner rubs against your clothed core, putting pressure on your clit.

A string of saliva that connects your lips is the thing you see before your top gets taken off of you and your bra flies somewhere in the room, the only thing your mind could fully register is Jeno's tongue flicking over your nipple as he keeps his fingers entertained with the other. The air thickens, and suckles echoes in your bedroom.

Pleasure shoots up your spine as Jeno grinds, angle perfectly aligned for the head of his cock to nudge your clit. You whimper. ''Jeno, fuck...''

But Jeno's ears are shut the moment he takes your nubs in his mouth, eyes closed as he savors the delish before him. Tightening your legs, you move to press your core onto him harder, hands squeezing his biceps. ''Jeno, please..''

Jeno snaps out of his daze at the vulnerability. A music to his ears, his eyes darken, once again he captures your lips in a bruising kiss. You squeak, body jostling as your pants and underwear get ripped off of you, thrown carelessly.

His fingers trace the line between your pussy cheeks, dipping a little before bringing it to his mouth, licking your wetness– tasting you. Jeno moans, head cloudy. Jeno takes in the sight of you after opening his eyes that he doesn't even know had closed. 

''Please, Jeno..'' Breathing heavily, legs wide open for him, already looking so fucked out when he haven't even done anything yet. Jeno growls at the urge to eat you up, make you his.

Cupping one ankle, Jeno peppers kisses along your calves, eyes not leaving your figure. ''Tell me what you want. What exactly are you saying please to, baby?''

At this point, all your sanity had left you. Embarrassment? It was a thing of yesterday. Reaching up to Jeno, your next words snaps his patience. ''W-want your cock.. I want your cock in me.''

Smirking, Jeno pecks you again before going down on you, making out with your pussy as if it's your lips. His tongue wiggles, pulling out lewd moans from you, gripping the sheets in an attempt to prevent yourself from pulling his hair instead. Jeno flicks his tongue over your puffed clit.

''Fuck, Jeno–!''

A finger slides past your entrance, your walls engulfing the digit with warmth and velvetines. You're so fucking wet, there's little to no resistance. Another follows suit, Jeno scissors you properly all the while he enjoys himself in getting drunk from your essence and the music that is your explicit sounds.

Pulling his face away, his skin covered by your slick glistens under the bedroom lights. Jeno chuckles as your walls clamp around his fingers. He then curls them in an angle that prods at your spot sweetly, your back arches off the bed. Latching on your perky nipples, Jeno tugs his towel and gives himself pumps to tend his hard cock.

''Put it in..'' Jeno mumbles profanities seeing the desperation in your eyes as you stare at his angry leaking tip.

Before you could whine about the loss of his fingers in your, Jeno replaces it with his girthy cock, slipping inside as you moan in unison. Burying the rest of his cock, he presses your knees on your chest and starts a brutal pace that jostles your body to the headboard repeatedly.

''Jeno! F-fuck! So big.. it feels so good–!''

Jeno grips the top of the headboard as he madly drives his cock in and out of you, his eyes glinting with lust and something you couldn't decipher.

''When's the last time I had you like this?You're so fucking tight– you're suffocating my fucking cock. Look at that, baby. Look how your pussy stretches widely and sucks my cock inside. It feels good, huh?'' Jeno nudges your legs to a wide V, planting his foot on the bed as he gives it to you faster, harder, and deeper. 

Looking down, he notices a bump that continuously appears and disappears in sync with his thrusts, growling in realization that it's his fucking cock that cause the bump in your belly. Gripping your waist, Jeno slams your pliant body to meet the snap of his hips, your breast jiggles and Jeno will be damned if he resists the urge to feast on them. God, he's fucking crazy for them.

''Oooh shit! You're so big and so hard inside me– ah ah ah– fuck! More! More, please–''

Jeno hums against your ear. ''More? Does my girl want more?''

Drunk in pleasure, you nod absentmindedly, nails raking down Jeno's back, creating red lines all over his skin. He slams a couple more times before taking a pity on the headboard that hits the wall due to your vigorous fucking. Jeno groans, scooping you in his arms, and pins you to the wall before hammering his cock inside you. Biting the junction of your neck, Jeno laps the red beads that seeps past your skin. The graze of teeth on your skin itches in pain yet you crave for more.

Wet skin slapping bounce in the room, wanton moans escapes you as Jeno snaps his hips fiercely.

''Oh, god!''

''Yeah?'' Jeno licks your tears. ''You like that? You love getting stuffed full of my big, fat cock, huh?''

Pulling you away from the wall, your eyes roll to the back as Jeno's length digs deeper inside you, so deep that you could feel it at the back of your throat. You cling to Jeno, drools dribbling down your chin as carnal ecstasy takes over the entirety of your body and mind. ''I'm coming..''

Grabbing your ass, Jeno bounces you to meet his thrusts, parting your cheeks to slide even deeper. ''Come on my cock, baby.''

Strained moan leaves your lips as Jeno sucks the pathway of your drool, feeling himself get closer to climax as your walls clenches continuously around him, painting his cock white. Jeno pistons his hips violently, eyes shut close. And when your hand encloses on his neck and tightens just the way it sends him an irreversible euphoria, Jeno holds on to his strength as he shoots strings of white, filling you up to the brim.

Breathing heavily, Jeno brings you back to the bed, fetching the towel to wipe down your mess before laying beside you, hugging you from the back. His loving kiss on your shoulder is the last thing that registers in your mind before drifting to a slumber.

As Jeno combs his fingers through your hair, a smile unknowingly appears on his face. You look so beautiful like this. So peaceful. Sure, you can certainly protect yourself but it still makes him want to gatekeep you from the harsh world so that you're out of harm's reach. 

Though, Jeno knows it is impossible. The constant pings from your phone is a reminder.

JIHO: Hi, baby. I just got home! 

JIHO: Mom asked for help to look for Jeno because she received a call from his work telling to pay for the damages or sorts.

JIHO: Sooo sorry I didn't send you a text!

JIHO: Are you gonna sleep now?

But as long as you don't stop him from having you, Jeno supposes he can ignore the fact. 

The fact that you will never be his. And the fact that you're in this loving, domestic relationship with his twin brother.

[danieyells]

I don't know if you've done it yet but I would like to request Ren lines? I'm having tokyo debunker Ren brainrot bro 😭.

@otomelover23

You're all very welcome! I love you guys too, so far! Sorry you've been deprived of lazy boi lolol HOPEFULLY THESE SATISFY YOU A LITTLE BIT.

He's a little tsundere I think. He's one of those characters who just wants to be normal but he can't just pretend to be normal because he lives surrounded by chaos so he just complains a lot lolol. . .but i think he's a good guy. Aside from that he does not help his mother captain at all.

Hello: (the first time the game is opened after that character is set as home screen NPC. Only happens once per day, unless the character is switched out and back.)

"Great, shift change. I'm gonna head out then... What? Do I really need to be here for that?"

You've Got Mail: (whenever there's something in the inbox, usually Arena rewards)

"I think you've got a notification... Aren't you going to look at it?"

Default: (requires no affinity, has no time constraints)

"Who did I disappoint in a past life to end up in Jabberwock... There's no general students or even a single other sane person, and these jumpsuits are a crime..."

"Why do I have to look after all these weird-ass animals? This is forced labor...  Ugh, they're so gross..."

"If you're just gonna stand there, could you go feed the animals in the aquatic zone?  I'm too busy."

"Ugh, why is that clown calling me... ... Whatever, I'll just let it ring out."

you know damn well that if you don't answer the phone you're gonna have to deal with Haru in person. Better to just answer it.

"Oh, hey... Could you open the link I sent you? No, you don't have to sign up or anything. Thanks."

Affinity 1: (between 5am and 11am)

"Ugh... Tell me how I'm supposed to sit through classes when I've been up since 4 AM? (yawn) I'm exhausted..."

well if you didn't stay up until 4am--oh who am i kidding i stayed up til like 3 watching a stream and reading datamine stuff and then I got up at like 6:30 to get ready for work I'm no better kekw.

Affinity 2: (between 11am and 4pm)

"Ugh... I can't believe I'm hiding right now... Why the hell does that clown have to chase me around at lunch time too?"

Affinity 3: (between 4pm and 8pm)

"Preach about doing it for the sake of your friends or the animals or whatever all you want— I really don't give a shit. People who say that stuff are just deluding themselves."

i've known people with this kind of cynicism before. once he finds people care about him and a little more stability he'll come around a little more.

Affinity 4: (between 8pm and 5am)

"Huh? I can't see that clown anywhere... Hell yes. Gonna get through my watch list. I hope he never comes back."

Affinity 5: (between 8pm and 5am)

"I'm grinding this game on my phone, so could you not talk to me for a while? Crap, I think my RSI is flaring up..."

in Japanese he specifies tendonitis haha

Affinity 6: (between 4pm and 8pm)

"Don't people get embarrassed calling out those words when they use their stigmas? It makes them look like LARPers..."

in japanese he says they sound like they have chuunibyou which is much funnier imo lmao. also i guess that means he can say his in his head? since he'd feel embarrassed doing it aloud, maybe he's practiced already lol

Affinity 7: (between 11am and 4pm)

"You think I sigh a lot? Got a problem with that? You realize trying to take away people's freedom of speech is power harrassment, right?"

you're starting to sound like ritsu. gonna hurt yourself reaching like that.

Affinity 8: (between 4pm and 8pm)

"I'm so done... I'm out of HP... Shouldn't I be exempt from missions and classes since I'm looking after all those animals?"

well based on one of Haku's chats, you can just do missions if you don't go to class, and based on Kaito you can just go to class instead of doing missions. . .but I'm sure Haru forces him on missions anyway lol. . . .

Affinity 9: (between 8pm and 5am)

"Pfft... The video of that clown getting attacked by that hawk thing is getting so many interacts. This editing thing's actually pretty fun."

does editing count as a creative effort? i wouldn't be surprised if he switched to Hotarubi next year if so, assuming he doesn't get used to Jabberwock and the animals. Also why didn't he get stopped by Sophy for uploading a video with an anomaly? Unless he uploaded it to an Institute social media site like WickHive or something. . . .

Affinity 10: (between 10pm and midnight)

"Gotta change the locks so that clown can't get in again. I've bought enough padlocks to start my own business by now..."

life haru finds a way. sometimes that way is "towa, break down the door" if he runs out of lockpicking equipment.

Affinity 11: (between 5am and 11am)

"My head's killing me... This is the worst... Rise and shine! my ass... It's basically still the middle of the night. Guess I should padlock my windows..."

5-6am I can understand being 'basically the middle of the night' but after that you're pushing it lmao

Affinity 12: (between 11am and 4pm)

"The cafeteria's way over capacity... The assholes who save seats before its even noon are ruining it for everyone else..."

Affinity 13: (between 4pm and 8pm)

"Why's my pay so low... huh? What's this deduction for? "Consultation Fee: Ritsu Shinjo..." He's seriously charging me for complaining...?"

Ritsu charges for looking at him too long. i'd try venting on wickhive over complaining to Ritsu.

Affinity 14: (between 5am and 11am)

"That rabbit sure has it good. All it has to do is breathe and everyone fawns over it. Doesn't even have to feed itself. Just wait till it grows up and learns what the world's really like."

WELL BASED ON THAT THE ADULT PEEKABOO WAS STILL BEING FAWNED OVER AND HARU HAD TO STOP PEOPLE FROM PETTING IT BECAUSE IT BITES. . .IT'LL PROBABLY STILL HAVE IT GOOD. Haru takes good care of the animals.

Affinity 15: (between 5am and 11am)

"Sup... Huh? I'm alone today. I just got up on my own since if I don't that clown'll wake me up anyway."

yeah? it's because of haru? not because of your affinity with the pc being more than half so you wanna be up earlier to spend more time with them? sure.

Affinity 16: (between 11am and 4pm)

"Oof, nearly missed the noon raid...  Not like I'll have any time to myself once I get back to the dorm, so I guess I should do it now..."

Affinity 17: (between 10pm and midnight)

"No, I'm not going to sleep yet. I'm gonna watch a horror B-movie. You don't have to think, so they're the perfect thing to watch before bed."

i used to watch/listen to mts3k to go to sleep so. i feel this.

Affinity 18: (between 8pm and 5am)

"Well done me for surviving another day... Oh, same to you too, {PC}. I don't how you can do this stuff voluntarily."

SOME PEOPLE JUST LIKE ANIMALS DAWG.

Affinity 19: (between 10pm and midnight)

"Huh? I'm going to the campus store to buy some stuff, where are you going? Well, I'm going that way, so...bye."

not sure if shy or asocial lmao. could be both!

Affinity 20: (between 5am and 11am)

"You're being forced to help out again? Wow, a doormat out in the wild. So? Where do you want me to carry all this food?"

he's helping you even though he doesn't wanna work. HE'S GOT IT BAD.

Affinity 21: (between 11am and 4pm)

"This? It's a video I uploaded. People seem really into it. It's of that clown getting chased by a dog and flailing around like one of those inflatable air dancers."

Affinity 22: (between 4pm and 8pm)

"What am I doing today? Working at the diner. Oh, if you want to keep me company, feel free to come by. As long as you serve yourself."

it's not a date or anything since he's at work but like. . .he is inviting you to hang out. . . .

Affinity 23: (between 8pm and 5am)

"Huh? You were waiting for me to get off work? Oh... Thanks. Wait, that clown put you up to this?! I'm gonna kill him..."

NO NO WE CAME HERE WILLINGLY probably. although it does seem like Haru to be like "oh hey Ren really really likes you, you should go pick him up from work! he'd love that!!" like a real nosy mom who's trying to get his son together with his crush.

Affinity 24: (between 10pm and midnight)

"When did it get this late? That was horrifyingly fast... I'll walk part of the way back with you. I was gonna go buy something to drink anyway..."

excuses, excuses. . . .

Affinity 25(max): (no time constraints)

"Every day here is a fresh hell, sure, but... You're suffering through it with me, so I guess I'll stick it out a little longer..."

'this sucks but you make it suck a little(a lot) less so i can keep going'. yep, that's our tsundere alright!

Spring: (March-May) (between 5am and 11am)

"That clown's even more slap-happy than usual lately—it's horrible. Has he got spring fever or something?"

(between 11am and 4pm)

"Otonashi keeps trying to make me drink some kind of rice porridge with weird flowers in it... It's actual porridge harassment."

considering the flower Towa associates with Ren is poisonous, i think it's safe to assume he is literally trying to poison him to death lmao. also wtf is porridge harassment--i even tried looking it up in japanese and the first thing that came up was someone screenshotting it and saying "what is porridge harassment" lolol

(between 4pm and 8pm)

"All this farm labor's bad enough without all the caterpillars and weird plants that are out there now...This is harassment."

what's harassing you, nature? as someone who just had to kill a huge mosquito that came into my room, nature is harassing me too.

(between 8pm and 5am)

"I hate cherry blossoms. They're like the flower version of being a legacy kid— all they have to do is bloom once a year and everyone claps."

in japanese what he says is something like 'i hate them just like people born with silver spoons in their mouths'. basically he hates people born into privilege lol i bet he'd have the potential to get along well with haku until he learns he'll be inheriting a shrine. . .then again he's getting along with Ritsu in their own little way

Summer: (June-August) (between 5am and 11am)

"This is the worst... It's not even noon yet, how is it so hot? Summer is for extroverts and party animals, I wish it could just be over already..."

(between 11am and 4pm)

"A group trip to the beach? I'd rather die. No decent person would ever go there of their own free will."

butbutbut. think of the summer skins!!!

(between 4pm and 8pm)

"Summer was our busy period back home, so I always had to kill myself helping out. Now I'm here though... nothing's changed."

. . .did Ren's family run some sort of seaside shop??? And he happened to end up afraid of the ocean and hating aquatic creatures and such?

(between 8pm and 5am)

"How can the A/C be banned in the dorm...? Who gives a shit what temperature some anomalous animal that sneaks in prefers, humans should come first..."

okay i agree with him here though what the fuck kind of rule is that. can we talk to hyde about that, that's insane haru.

Autumn: (September-November) (between 5am and 11am)

"Now it's getting colder, I nearly found myself feeling grateful for this tragic jumpsuit... Am I being brainwashed...?"

(between 11am and 4pm)

"Fall, the season of the harvest—I'll stick with cup noodles, thanks. "Fall, the season to enjoy the outdoors"—screw that. I'm gonna make it the season of naps."

(between 4pm and 8pm)

"Look—I got bitten by some weird bug anomaly. To hell with the stupid bug spray ban, I'm buying some."

(between 8pm and 5am)

"I feel like the mountains are rowdier when there's a full moon. Pretty sure my enemy encounter rate goes up when I'm on patrol too... Maybe I'm just imagining it."

is 'enemy encounter rate' here referring to people or anomalies. . .because if it's people then that's just because of tsukimi. . .although I wouldn't be surprised if there were a lot of anomalies or anomalies were more active on full moons.

Winter: (December-February) (between 5am and 11am)

"There's less patrols in winter but anything involving water like washing up gets even worse... Ugh, I wish I could hibernate too..."

(between 11am and 4pm)

"Since the climate in Jabberwock's so messed up, sometimes it's actually warm in winter. The blizzards are way stronger though..."

have you tried pissing towa off less?

(between 4pm and 8pm)

"Oh god, I just saw what's in the diner's new Mystery Hot Pot... It's gotta be a matter of time before this place goes bust..."

i mean if they had ordinary health inspectors maybe lolol

(between 8pm and 5am)

"That clown broke my window so my room's like a freezer... Oh, don't worry. I just took his room instead."

lmao imagine Ren invites you to hang out and takes you to Haru's room instead of his like nah he broke my window so i'm using his room and he can freeze.

His birthday: (July 25th)

"You got this for me? That clown's been spreading my personal info around... No, it's fine, I'll still take it. Thanks."

i guess he doesn't really tell people his birthday, huh.

Your birthday:

"Happy birthday, {PC}. ...Isn't it kind of rude to look so surprised I'd celebrate your birthday? That came from the heart, you know."

I MEAN YOU NORMALLY DON'T CARE ABOUT ANYTHING. . .it's happy surprise!!!

New Years: (January 1st)

"Happy New Year. My resolution? Escaping the hell hole that is Jabberwock, for starters."

well you got here in like September or something so. you've got a while befor eyou can switch houses lmao but you can do it this year!

Valentine's Day: (February 14th)

"You got me chocolates? You're the type who does all this kind of stuff, huh? No, it's fine, you went to the trouble and everything so I'll take them."

i love when characters kinda mock you for doing getting them something but then they're like "nonono i want it gimme--" lolol from Ren especially it's very tsundere. poor guy wouldn't be straightforward about his feelings unless a damn life was on the line.

White Day: (March 14th)

"{PC}... Here, if you want them. I just bought the first thing I saw, so don't read into it..."

i bet it's actually really nice lolol

April Fool's Day: (April 1st)

"Guess what? I got special permission to switch houses. That nightmare is now behind me! I wish..."

Halloween: (October 31st)

"I hope everyone who gets excited about Halloween lives in misery for the rest of their lives. Why the hell do I have to help out with this stupid themed tour?"

Christmas: (December 25th)

"Can I ask you a question, {PC}? You don't still believe in Santa Claus, do you? Never mind, it doesn't matter. Have a good Christmas."

i mean. . .after coming here santa is a plausible entity to believe in. . .if there's gonna be a santa i don't wanna be caught not believing and missing out on gifts. . . .

Idle: (about 20 seconds without interacting with the game) (below 13 affinity)

"Where'd she go...? Whatever. Guess I'll catch up on some of my games."

(13 affinity and above)

"Pfft... This edit's awesome. I'm a genius. I'll show {PC} when she gets back."

true bonding is sharing the funny memes you worked hard on. . . .

Absent: (logging in for the first time in 2 or more days?)

"It's not like I was waiting for you or anything. It's just this hell hole is even more unbearable when you're not around..."

YEP THAT'S OUR UNFORTUNATE CUSTOMER SERVICE EMPLOYEE TSUNDERE ALRIGHT. His lines don't really get super affectionate but. They still have a charm to them when you realize how much he hides his feelings in the usual tsundere way. He likes you a lot but like. . .it's a bother and it's embarrassing. . .and what're the chances you're into him? He'll just invite you over to watch movies and play games with him and stuff. . .and tell himself it's fine to just be friends until it eats away at him. . .or until Haru spills the beans for him--

this took way too long because i got distracted like three times in the middle and my laptop started freaking out and i had to figure out why and close and reopen everything about 8 times hahaha. . . . OKAY TIME FOR ME TO GO TO BED! I hope this satisfies you a little bit!!

[studentbyday]

a september packed with purpose 🏵️ (goals for the 2024-2025 academic year)

an attempt to live a meaningful life even if it's really busy.

🎓 academic goals:

stay on top of my schoolwork. not feeling like i'm running after deadlines but staying organized, calm, and methodical, even if there's a lot.

change up my study strats! turn text into diagrams! shorter focus periods followed by an active break to ease myself into the semester!

study 8h per day or less if at all possible (for official schoolwork)

👩🏻‍🔬 career goals:

finish databases courses to increase my career capital (i sped read so good they can't ignore you this summer and it was both inspiring and practical - grateful for the feeling of having a roadmap...even if it's vague.)

do everything to become so good the lab i'm interested in joining can't ignore me (i have pretty much no current affiliation with them or their university so this is gonna be an uphill climb unless maybe i seem like a perfect fit...)

🌳 lifestyle and adulting goals:

develop a can-do attitude and work on my growth mindset

continue to practice driving at least 3x per week before it snows

become a 6AM girlie (or an 8PM girlie, if you're looking at the sleeping time lol) so i have a few hours of calm, focused silence in the morning which will minimize the amount of time i need to spend studying after dinner (planning to take advantage of the jet lag and the fact that the sun sets earlier in winter, making me sleepy sooner 😠)

re-gain some level of fitness to counter my couch potato summer habits and all the sitting i'll be doing this semester

🤸🏻‍♀️ more fun goals:

apply to volunteer with my local horticultural society and hopefully start volunteering soon (hoping to work on their newsletter as that's something i miss from my high school days! something familiar will also be good for easing into my "reintegration into society" era as a previously "studying hermit". perhaps once i get so comfortable i feel like i'm plateauing, i can branch into being a volunteer gardener! i have absolutely zero successful experience with plants, so it would be really nice to have some guidance from people who've made and maintained such pretty gardens in my community 💗)

make time for piano (ideally at least 1h 3-4 days of the week, but i will be happy if i even get to touch the keys for less than 1h of practice 3-4 days a week. if i can do this, then i can more reasonably justify getting a real acoustic piano at home and maybe even take lessons again when things get less busy...and i don't have to fear not making progress or even getting worse on the digital in the meantime because my fingers and brain get re-accustomed to the acoustic feel and sound options surprisingly, happily quickly even if i only get to play on one for a few days of a year, which is already quite a privilege 🥺🙏🏻 in the meantime, i need to maintain/improve my dexterity, sight-reading skills, and theory knowledge. i don't plan to read the theory book front to back anymore, i'll just read the bits i'm most interested in and maybe eventually that will mean covering the whole book but i won't start with that intention in mind 🤷🏻‍♀️)

sOmEhOw have the energy to comprehend even 1 duolingo lesson in japanese ~daily if only to one day get to a level where i can read more japanese books (and maybe even watch some animé without subs? no pressure tho since i'm very picky about animé 😂)

💭 nice to have but not pressing:

make it a habit to read a nerdy book or academic article that isn't directly for schoolwork to help me find my research interests, learn more about labs in my physical area, and/or re-ignite my passion for/sense of wonder with STEM and STEM-related issues 🔥

each week read something from suggested/recommended course reading lists if there are any

each month read a book completely unrelated to academics, something that distracts me or that feeds my soul or both (or if i can't do that, then just 1 such book each semester, i'm just after something rather than nothing)

🐝 productivity advice from one of my role models that i want to follow religiously this semester:

prioritize rest in order to think and act fast (10 hours of sleep! downtime! meditating! gentle exercise!)

schedule down to the minute but understand that as long as you're doing what you planned to do within the hour you planned to do it, you're good (that is assuming life doesn't happen and derail the entire day's plans but most days thankfully are not like that). give yourself lots of buffer (bigger, not smaller blocks of time in the calendar!).

understand that prioritizing means that you may fall behind in the unprioritized areas from time to time and have to catch up and that's completely expected and completely fine.

be selective about what you're "perfectionistic" with (it's not really about applying perfectionism, more like being picky about where you apply extreme conscientiousness). that is also part of prioritizing.

✏️ post schedule: 1-3x a week depending on time, energy, and what that means for my mental state 😅

[luvmorales]

HEY POOK. I absolutely love the way u write miles ( feet in the air, giggling, twirling my braids ykwim 🤭), wondering if you could write a lik something about how 1610miles is around his crush? like your interpretation of how he'd act studying , in class or js chilling w us. LOVE YA 💗💗

BLUSHING

pairing ⊹ 1610!miles morales x gn!reader 

summary →  how miles acts around his crush before and after they start dating

contains ⊹ fluff, kissing

a/n: hopefully this is what you had in mind! ty 4 requesting love ;>

miles is definitely the type to get flustered if you touch his shoulders or hands

you and miles are currently sitting at the back of the class together, trying to finish up your math homework while you have free time you reach over to grab the calculator as you feel miles warm hands graze yours. "oh- i'm sorry you can use it" he says rambling out "it's okay miles" you laugh out shaking your head while grabbing the calculator, noticing how worked up he was getting

miles will walk you home no matter what, he always wants to make sure you get home safe, he knows what kind of people linger around your neighbourhood and wouldn't want to put you in harms way

if you guys were studying together you would catch miles staring at you multiple times

it was 8pm, you were sitting next to miles on his twin sized bed trying to finish studying. as you focused on the material in your notebook, you felt miles gaze linger a little too long on your face, you tried to ignore the butterflies swarming in your stomach. turning your direction to miles, he quickly turns around thinking you didn't notice his little staring problem "miles, i have eyes you know" you laugh out "i don't know what you're talking about" he punches you lightly trying to play his embarrassment off

in class if you guys sat apart from each other he would try and pass you cute lil notes; telling you how good you look that day, or he'll complain about how the teacher won't shut up

[tia-amorosa]

Episode 5: recurring need

Later. It's now just after 8pm. Father and son have been home for a while and have ended the day with some gardening. “Autumn hasn't even arrived yet and there are already so many leaves lying around“/”that's what happens when the trees don't get enough nutrients“/”are grandma and grandpa to blame? The tree is in our cemetery“/”hnhn, no, certainly not”.

“oh, good evening, my dear daughter. It's getting late“/”I know, I'm sorry. I just had some things to talk about."/ ‘With Don?’/ ‘Also, yes… I hope I can make more progress with my things at the institute soon so that we can plan the wedding.’/ ”hh… Now you sound determined“/”that's me, Dad, yes, that's me. And how was the gallery?"/ ‘Good, your brother learned a lot of new things. …’/ ”That's nice. The salad will be ready soon.“.

Cassandra quickly went to the supermarket for the salad after her meeting with Don. Mortimer knew what kind of things his daughter was researching, but he didn't think much of it. He doesn't allow himself to be infected by her hope and enthusiasm. Yet it was he who inspired her to go into science, to explore and try everything where others fail.

“What is it, Dad? You look so thoughtful…“/”Oh, nothing. I was thinking in the gallery that your mother would have liked to do an exhibition…“/”Yes, she always dreamed of that. Do you still have her pictures?"/,,hh… Sure, but I can't look at them“/”hm… well, otherwise I would have had a nice idea/"yes, I think we have the same idea. But I'm not ready for that“/”that's okay, Dad”.

“Can I clear the dishes, Dad?"/ ”Voluntarily? If that's your wish, of course"/ ‘Your eyes are tired and sad, that's why I want to do it’/ ”I'm tired, yes… Please go to bed afterwards, yes?"/ ‘OK. I hope I get another A this week, we're building a little rocket at school’/ ”A rocket… But hopefully you won't shoot yourselves to the moon, hnhn”.

“Good night, Dad. I'm glad you did something with Alex today. You need to go outside more often, it's still summer after all"/ I know. Sleep well, my child."/ ”You too. And no matter what you think, I still have hope.”. He was silent, then nodded and gave her another kiss on the forehead before going to bed.

Every night before she goes to bed, Cassandra goes back to the living room to see her mother's picture. She talks to her as if she were just as present as everyone else here, “Do you think it will work out with me and Don? I'd really like to give him more attention, but… I'm too busy trying to get you back to us…I hope Pascal will get in touch in the next few days”. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Mortimer got out of bed early the next morning. And his path led him to the attic, which he hadn't visited for a long time. He looked at his children's old toys and many other things that had been lying around untouched for a while. “somewhere… was that box of paints…” An inner urge drove him to pick out a few colors for painting. He hadn't done that for a long time.

He picked out a small canvas and stood in front of the white surface for a long time. Up until now, it had always caused him mental pain to come up here. He couldn't explain to himself why it was different today of all days. He took a deep breath, collected his thoughts and painted away without any ideas.

He was quite engrossed, so after a while he almost didn't notice that his daughter was in the attic. “Here you are. Well, you… You're painting again…"/ ”I don't know why, but there's a lot of blue paint left here. Maybe I should get some fresh new colors… “/ ,,hm, o.k., yes, there is quite a lot of blue”. Cassandra was very surprised that her father was standing in front of a canvas again after such a long time, “I'll take Alexander to school and then drive to the institute”/“ mhm”.

(,,Has he perhaps overcome his mourning phase? No, I can't imagine that, he has suffered almost the most of all of us and still does. Should I really succeed… How will he react then? Mom has often stood up here and painted her pictures…. Now I have to hurry…ugh, I know why I don't like being here, these cobwebs…").

A little later, “Thank you for bringing me. Fortunately, it's not far"/ and not particularly dangerous, I know, my brother. “/“And are you going back to look for mom now?”/,,mhm, but I can't get any further at the moment, you know, I'm waiting for a call from Strangetown“/”There are supposed to be aliens there, is that true?“/ ,,Yes, but only nice ones”.

Cassandra's workplace is rather inconspicuous from the outside. Tourists don't even recognize it as a scientific institute. And they don't even have access to the premises. Only the garden is open to the public.,,and what it's like here?"/ “No different than usual at the moment, but they should get in touch with Mr. Curious. He called with new information”.

. “But, why didn't he call me on my cell phone?“/”He said he tried…”. She took out her cell phone and looked at it. “Oh dear, of course, the battery's dead… That's what you get for not being so crazy about this thing"/,,haha, yeah. He said you should call back when you have time“/”good”. Cassandra was naturally excited, but wanted to do a few other things first.

@greenplumbboblover ,@solorisims , @plumbobgothica 🙂

My story posts are also welcome to be shared.😊🙂

[glittter-vamp]

Happy Friday! Time share Today’s agenda because it’s a long one.

6AM- Nis wakes me up with nose boops to go potty (fought with him for 30 minutes to go pee on the cold wet grass after I brush my teeth & wash my face) ✅

6:45- Fed Nis, Made coffee for Eli & I. (Took it upstairs to her while she got ready for work)

7AM- Packed her lunch & made her oatmeal for breakfast. (We talked about her fake birthday plans tomorrow while she ate)

7:45- Eli leaves for work and Nis & I looked at each other knowing what was about to go down.

8AM- I change out of my PJs & start cleaning the entire house while blasting Christmas music.

9:45- Joe the neighbor & my aunt come over to start bringing some of the stuff I’ve hid at their house for the party knowing since I’m doing laundry at this time, Eli won’t have a reason to go in the basement today & I can hide some stuff.

10AM- Made more coffee for us because Joe the neighbor brought donuts.

10:30- My friend who is helping decorate comes over so I can show him how I want the house decorated tomorrow while we’re out.

11AM- I have to drive to New Hampshire to go pick up Eli’s mom & sisters from their flight and take them to their air bnb.

1PM- LUNCH BREAK with her mom & sisters to game plan for tomorrow because they’re also going to the house to decorate & be there when the cake is dropped off.

2:30PM- Take Eli’s mom & sisters to the nearby air bnb before taking them to the car rental place.

3PM- Take them to the car rental place while showing them around town again because they want to do birthday and Christmas shopping while they await more family members arrivals tonight.

4PM- Go shopping for some jeans that I need for tomorrow.

5:30-Go back home, feed Nis, make him go potty in the rain. (That’s going to the another 30 minute fight)

6PM-Get ready to go out to dinner with my mom because she wants to treat Eli to a birthday dinner (This also helps divert attention for the surprise party tomorrow)

6:30- Eli gets home from work.

7PM- I’m checking on her families ETA while she gets ready.

8PM- We go to dinner.

9:45- Try to get Nis to potty again.

10PM- Decompress on the couch & remain calm about the birthday surprise while also making sure her family is doing okay and settling in fine.

Hopefully everything stays on schedule 🙃

[lumine-no-hikari]

Dear Sephiroth: (a letter to a fictional character, because why not) #554

I managed to get about 7 and a half hours of sleep last night, which is a lovely change of pace from 6 hours or less. It's not 8, so it's still not ideal, but I'll take whatever improvements I can get.

J made more eggs with toast, and shared some of it with me:

And then it was time for M and I to run off to the dentist to get our teeth cleaned:

Apparently, my teeth were already very clean; I needed only minimal scraping done with their weird hooks and water spritzer thing. Then they looked for cavities and found none, yay!

I wonder if you've ever had cavities. I imagine probably not, but I wonder anyway. I'm lucky enough so far to have only had two during the course of my life so far. I understand I'll probably get more. But hopefully they'll be caught and dealt with before they become too much of a problem. That sort of thing is why you're supposed to see the dentist every 6 months. And also, because tartar and plaque harbors bacteria; their buildup is an inevitable part of eating no matter how well you brush, and if you leave it on there, the acids that bacteria produce as waste while they're hiding out in there will slowly eat away at your gums and at your enamel. Freaky! Only thing for it is to scrape it off every now and then.

...Seriously, bodies are kinda funky, aren't they? Not like in a bad way. Just... the absurdity of it all makes me marvel sometimes.

Anyhoot. I got a bunch of pictures during the car ride to M's favorite place to eat.

For whatever reason, the process of getting M's teeth cleaned is extremely painful for him. So he gets a snack every time for being brave and getting it done. Here's what I got:

I decided to rest today after I got home. I'm in a lot less pain than I expected, given that I swam yesterday; I imagine it's because I didn't wear a sports bra under my swimsuit this time, but... I still didn't wanna push my luck, especially since I have a visitor tomorrow (one of our lovely readers will be in the area!), work the day after that, and work plus an An visit on Saturday. I did a couple dishes and a load of laundry, but... aside from that, I mostly just played Valheim. I decided to spend more time in the Plains:

...Specifically, I decided to turn the goblin outpost I cleared out before into a place to plant barley:

I cleared out another outpost, too. And in that one, I planted flax:

...I really wish the goblins could be like... allies. Trade partners, even. I'd pay coin for their barley, flax, and black metal. But they want to eat me or something. So... I have to defend myself. It's very unfortunate.

I decided to poke around more Plains biomes. But I got distracted by a place called Smoldering Tomb. It was one of the quests for Hildir. So I went and fought a flaming skeleton named... Brenna??? I guess???

Brenna was felled easily, so I gave the box she dropped back to Hildir, then went on my merry way to the next Plains area. I found another goblin outpost there. But then I ran into this... giant blocky thing.

I wondered what was up there, so I climbed up it. But the only thing up there was this view:

...It's definitely not a bad view...

Here's another nice view:

And finally... I found some tar. The Plains has tar pits, I guess. I was able to build some new furniture. And so now, the comfort of my house is at 17:

Remember when it was just 4? Hahaha...

…

...I wish you could play this with me. I think you'd really like the scenery.

When it got to 8pm, I decided that it was time to breathe a couple wishes to life, and write to you.

...It's almost midnight now. I can't believe it. Where did the time go...?

Sephiroth, are you... safe? Happy...? Wherever you are? Are you doing okay out there? Is there... anything I can do... to make anything a little easier for you...? I wonder...

…

I gotta go to bed. I hope you'll go to bed, too. Somewhere safe and warm with lots of nice, heavy blankets, and maybe a purring kitty. Maybe there could even be glow-in-the-dark stars on the ceiling, if you wanted. Wouldn't that be neat...?

I love you a whole lot. So... please do everything you can to keep yourself safe out there.

I'll write to you tomorrow.

Your friend, Lumine

[ghostofasecretary]

i feel like i fundamentally do not have enough energy to live my own life

yesterday i was recovering from Exhausting Funeral Trip. so it makes sense that i was slow.

and i did:

- fill out last week's timecard

- make my bed

- get groceries

- do my laundry

- make dinner + plan tomorrow's lunch

- watched TV like a maniac (had fun) (knitted)

realized i still had to fill my med case back up. ugh

- did that, got to sleep late thereby

so. today. throat's sore and nose is stuffy, gross! only charged phone partially somehow! there's a persistent beeping in my house for god knows why! (none of the options i can think of sound good!) i'm TIRED and i JUST WOKE UP and i want to SCREAM and then CRY, MAYBE.

okay. okay okay okay

1. you don't have your focus meds and that makes everything harder. fix that, please. call the number you just put in your journal in the parking lot after work, c. 1:30.

2. class this term is a real and awful stressor. you are not going to be as prepared as you want to be. still, this might be adequate: work on your homework for an hour each evening. 7pm-8pm, or you can knock it out early. just set an alarm.

3. you have to do Scary New Thing at Job this week. plan that tonight.

4. go print thing at library after work. then make the rest of your apple cidey with spices and drink it.

5. i could really use the fucking money from my paid social. i really could. i would *rather* see my actual IRL friends but actual friends don't give you $20 for hanging out with them. because that would be weird. and i lost $20 going home and it would be nice to make it up. (stupid! argh!!) (I NEED A NEW/SECOND JOB BUT WE A R E N O T T H I N K I N G A B O U T I T N O W.) plus maybe you could see your friends and do work? so. RSVP today or tomorrow once you confirm.

6. i am really and truly Not Gonna Worry about poetry. i want to but this is the thing that will last the longest without maintenance. sorry for your loss.

7. do not even start to book club or party plan till Friday evening.

so! okay! that's your week!

today we got:

- restart laptop. fuck it, update AND restart

- eat breakfast

- work outfit (ugh my gross hair, need to shower tonight *also*)

- pack lunch

- plan: what lesson materials do i need, what am i doing today, goal for each group, little list of times + names, etc

- pack bags

- walk to car

- drive to work

- head in early

- gather materials

- head down around [set time]

- teach g1, g2 (survey), g3

- lunch

- teach g4

- finish up admin paperwork, go upstairs, put materials away afaic (all! nice!)

- clock out

- call number about meds; hopefully they will have some or be able to direct you to someone who will. oh they were closed. EPIC. CALL BACK LATER. what do you mean you want me to leave a voicemail message. fine. what the fuck

- drive home

- go to library; print item; walk back home. actually the item cannot be printed! sent an email fml 1989

- call another pharmacy?? should hear back by cidey time. call a third pharmacy. message psych. i hate this stupid baka life (getting adhd meds in the US)

- um. wow. am sick. covid test? yay, it's negative

- shower

- apple cidey (expect this is to be about 3:30?)

- wash today's tupperware

- cooking break: [make some lentils? (soak, cook ~1 hour, cook with reverse tadka. do not make too much, maybe 300g dry?) - make potato sabzi? (start after lentils are in) - make a tiny bit of rice? (start after lentils are in) [- maybe one episode of show but you should begin food at 4:15 at latest so you're done cooking around 5:30 and done with food c. 5:45 and done with dishes c. 6:15 so you can start planning before your Homework Time begins. you can start cooking at 4, that'd be fine. even 3:30 for lentil soaking time.]]

yeah, no, if all that cooking sounds like Too Much instead of like rest then make some mushroom pasta with spinach and arugula. or you can eat your defrosted potato soup. damn. options

- eat dinner

- maybe poke your friends about plans during Food Eating Time (/notify them of. covid test results. UGH)

- plan [new job thing] for g1, g2, g4, g2 On Last Day Only. figure out what materials you need and who you're going to work with and prep those as much as you can. put materials to print on flash drive

- 7-8pm ONE HOUR OF HOMEWORK. it doesn't have to be good you just have to sit at the desk for an hour with no distractions and try. i believe in you

- 8-9pm watch your tv show

- 9:30 shut laptop and head bedwards. this is a lot; you will be tired.

okay! that's a fuckload! but do it step by step and it will. get. done.

[minkkumaz]

hi omi *winks*

boynextdoor members getting your attention at night (maknae line ver.)

han taesan

“pretty..” was taesans first thought as he saw you enter the apartment next to his. you were his neighbor! a very pretty one, in fact.

Over the course of 2 weeks, he’s repeatedly seen you leave and enter your apartment around the same time he does. Your smile was completely glued to his mind.

The way you greeted him made him feel like he was a teenager in love— well he is. Over those weeks, he learned your birthday was coming up soon. He didn’t mean to eavesdrop, but in his defense, your phone call was quite loud.

he (definitely not jaehyuns idea) decided to make a move on you then. He planned to start off simple, to give flowers and a hand made sweatshirt. It took around 5 tries to perfect the sweatshirt to his liking, (and hopefully to yours as well.) He bought all sorts of flowers, watching a video on how to design a pretty bouquet.

then came the day, taesan was nervous to say the least. he had your present and bouquet sitting by the living room. around 8PM, he heard the shuffling noises outside and you unlocking your door.

he panicked and checked how he looked by a mirror, whispering encouragement to himself. taesan soon found himself pacing around the front of your door, bouquet and a nicely wrapped present in hand. taesan held his fist to knock on the door, but retracted it. taesan hovered his finger over the doorbell, but dropped it.

though, inside you stood, watching him through the peephole with a tiny giggle threatening to escape your lips. coincidentally, you were about to give him a tupperwear of extra food you ordered for him at the restaurant you went to.

with a smile, you opened the door and were met with a wide eyed taesan.

“..oh. um! hello.. i heard it was your birthday today and I made you something..”

kim leehan

he was insufferable. your groupmate, the residential pretty boy in your class, kim donghyun. out of all the people you were paired with in aquatic science, it was the boy all girls dreamed to even talk to. not you though, you wanted to be special.

you never really knew where this hatred of him came from. he didnt do anything wrong, he was never rude or obnoxious. he was just.. too perfect. there HAD to be something wrong with him.

the way his glasses sat perfectly on the bridge of his nose, the way he ran his fingers through his hair, the way his skin was so perfect— gosh you couldn’t stand it.

your best friend, haemin would know. haemin hears you rant about him all the time.

“i think you’re just jealous.” he repeatedly responded back.

no! you were not. not that you think…

but here you were, sitting next to leehan. your sworn enemy. you sat there, waiting for him to just ask you to do all the work for the group project, like how everyone else in that class did.

“would you like to exchange contact info? that way we could both talk over the project when we aren’t at school?”

huh. you’ve never heard any of your partners ask that before.

reluctantly, you gave him your number and began talking about the project. to your surprise, he was actually very invested in aquatics. stuff about.. “corydoras” and “shrimp”.. you two had a long conversation about types of fish you liked seeing.

maybe he wasn’t THAT annoying. but he still is.. a tiny bit.

later on at home, you were finishing some extra assignments until a familiar contact messaged you.

kim leehan.

[attatchment:1]

this is my fish tank. the orange one is a corydora named woonhak, the red one is called riwoo……… [open to read more]

you couldn’t be bothered to check it right now.. you had assignments to focus on!

ding..! ding…! ding ding ding!

kim leehan.

i know you’re probably working.. but we should call so we can learn together.. and so i can showcase my other fishtanks..

kim woonhak

you missed your boyfriend. you 100% supported his dream to be an idol, and you 100% understood that being an trainee under HYBE requires a lot of work and time— but you couldn’t help but miss seeing him in the mornings before class started.

while you were an average student, woonhak would be out missing school to practice for his upcoming debut. yes, he always managed to text you when he was free, but its never really the same as seeing him in person.

as of now, it was a cold, snowy winter night. checking the clock, you guessed woonhak would be finishing up his practice around this time. though, his text was later than usual. not wanting to disturb him, you sat on your desk, shuffling your playlist and drawing little hearts on the edges of your paper with his name in the center.

finally, your phone lights up.

woonbaby 🧸💘

look outside

to your surprise, woonhak was at the front of your lawn. by him was a large footprint-made heart in the snow. you gasped in shock, looking over to see him under a cozy red scarf. you could see the crinkles in his eyes from his smile. you wasted no time running down the stairs, exiting the front of your door, completely disregarding the cold weather and staying in your light cotton pjs.

you eagerly dove into his arms, making sure you didnt trample on the snow-heart he made.

“baby! you’ll get sick!” woonhak hurriedly took off his padded jacket and scarf, wrapping it around you with a frown. the tip of his nose was red from the cold, but he couldnt help but smile at your embrace.

you proceeded to invite him into your home, making you both a hot chocolate and cozying next to eachother under a big blanket on the couch.

“don’t tell anybody.. but i wrote our debut songs while thinking of you..”

—

hi. i was literally thinking about snow x woonhak ALL DAY. in my christmas mood. id cry if he were to make little drawings out of snow for me. no. in general id cry if i even saw woonhak in person.

also PLEAASEEE hear me ojt on enemies to lovers w leehan. some one sided enemies to lovers and hes just either oblivious or completely confused to why you seem to dislike him. its his goal to befriend you. and who knows,, maybe he’ll pass the friend stage?!

also i took my taesan imagine straight from my hc where taesan would overhear you talking on the phone if he was ur neighbor.. 👆👆

HRHRHDH WOONHAK TT

-🍉

HELLOOO MELON i finally have time to sit down and read your ask and this makes me so happy ><

taesan. TAESAN. this man has me giggling n stuff, like reader is literally me i would totally spy on him getting all his things together. also i would be so happy to get a gift from him?! especially because it is homemade :( i can imagine reader having a shocked expression then taesan letting his shyness seep out!

"oh im sorry i shouldnt--"

"no wait!" you say, grabbing his wrist, "w-- would you like some cake?"

(jae in the bushes is gonna tease him so much)

leehan academic rivals actually unlocked the beast inside of me that i never knew existed. he is just so pretty he sabotages everyones attention span..

also that is completely accurately something haemin would say i giggled LMAO

and leehan showing all of his fishtanks is so precious, i know how much he loves them and he was probably so excited to share his little fish with the world. especially if he gets to share it with reader! imagine him naming a fish after you???

"this is my favorite, i named this one yn."

"you named a fish after me?!?"

"how could i not? i think i might love my fish more than you.." he teases.

its the way i would actually be a ticking time bomb and explode in woonhaks arms if he made a SNOW HEART. in my FRONT LAWN. i fear i might be in love with him i love the way you interpret him ahh >w<

plus getting all cozy with him under the covers while drinking hot coco AHHH i actually love woonhak so much he is the sweetest flipping person every im gonna die at school rn..

"hey, why did you get more marshmallows than me?!?"

"because im just so much sweeter~"

"hmm lets find out!" he says as he grabs your cheek.

YOUR IMAGINES ARE SO ADROABLE MELON I LOVE YOU SO MUCH

enemies to lovers leehan is REAL and i completely agree that it would be one sided, he just secretly cares for you so much while you're just like >:((((

[myfriendofmiseryyy]

The intimacy of being understood by someone part 2

Warnings:swearing,reader feeling insecure,mentions of bad relationships and toxic men.

Date night:

The next day:

After yesterday I found out that Marcus was friends with my boss,and no I didn’t get in trouble for being late. I also found out that Marcus is one of most amazing people I’ve ever met,he is kind,thoughtful,trustworthy and not to mention drop dead gorgeous. After we arrived into work (fashionably 3 hours late) Marcus introduced me to my new co workers I would be working with as a emt in the fbi. He showed me around the building I’d be working in,filling me in on where to get coffee and catch a break which in his words is “the most important thing” which I wholeheartedly agreed with. I Learned that he works in the art crimes department,and he loves art and old movies,SWOON! after Marcus showed me around I got to work on some paperwork I had to do before actually going into the field,normal boring shit but it had to be done,it was 8pm before I knew it and Marcus popped his head around the office to say he was going home,and I should get going too. I finished off the papers around half an hour later and to my surprise Marcus was waiting for me. “Marcus you scared the shit out of me!” I laugh. “Just wanted to get you home safe” he laughs,”sorry for scaring ya!” We walk to the subway station together talking about where we should go for dinner tomorrow,should I call it a date? Probably not. “He is just being friendly”I think to myself Marcus suggests an American diner not to far from the station,apparently it sold killer pancakes. “Sounds like a plan to me agent pike” he laughs at me using his professional name “American diner it is then agent smith” we laugh and joke until our trains arrive,”hey could I get your number? Just in case I need to contact you”. Marcus asks,”sure” I give him my number and Marcus puts it in his phone.

“You sure you gonna be ok getting back on your own?” Marcus asks with a caring smile “Yeah if I need you I’ll text you”I smile warmly back,we both stand awkwardly for about 5 seconds before Marcus leans in and gives me a hug “I’m glad I met you today,and even more glad we are somehow working together” he chuckles “so am I Marcus,I can’t thank you enough for today”. The hug lingers for around 20 seconds and I smell his cologne,it’s musky and woody with a hint of his natural musk. I’m slightly taken back by the hug and after we part I’m longing for more…hopefully another day.

Marcus’s train arrives and we say our goodbyes and I wait for mine and put my AirPods in… I put on Lana del reys new album she released last week while waiting for my train…one of the worst days turned quickly into one of the best,all thanks to Marcus. Even if we stay just friends,I can tell he going to be in my life for a long time.

I wake up feeling refreshed,but nervous. I need to get a outfit ready shit. It’s just a causal friend date not to fancy right? And it’s the middle of autumn,it’s gonna be cold last thing I want to do is freeze. Plus I hate showing skin anyway,i look in my closet and find a simple but cute outfit, “this will do”

I look in the mirror,”I look stupid Marcus going to think I’m weird and fat” I push the thoughts away and put on some light makeup and have a bite to eat. Whiskey comes up to my feet,”hey boy,you hungry?” “I’ll feed ya” I feed whiskey,then there is a knock on the door. “Shit” I grab my phone and my bag and take a deep breath,and answer the door.

Marcus is on the other side with flowers in his hand. Holy shit he looks gorgeous.

“Got these for you,you look gorgeous” Marcus smiles and blushes lightly

“Omg Marcus you didn’t have to do that!” “You don’t look to bad yourself” I smile and wink. God that was probably so cringe I say to myself and put the flowers in a vase before leaving with Marcus.

“So where is this diner?” I say while walking with Marcus.

“It’s not to far from mine,I’d figured I’d drive us there,it’s actually quite a trek from yours” he chuckles

We walk up to Marcus’s car and he opens the door for me “ladies first” “oh such a gentleman” I laugh “only for you” he winks. Omg did he just wink at me??get a grip it was probably just a joke. Marcus looks over at me and puts his hand on my thigh, “hey you ok?” “Yeah! I’m fine just being stupid” “you’re not stupid” Marcus says softly while staring the car. “And you look amazing” he looks over at me with a gleam in his gorgeous brown eyes. I must of been daydreaming because before I knew it we were parked outside the diner. “Ready to stuff ourselves with pancakes?” Marcus laughs “hell yeah!” I say laughing softly.

Marcus takes my hand to help me out the car,the brief moment our hands touched felt like electricity. And I think he felt it too as when our hands touched his hand clenched slightly,maybe I’m reading into it too much.

We get inside and it’s amazing,not to posh so I’m happy I didn’t go with the other outfit in the end, I find us a seat while Marcus gets the menu. When he sits back down again I take a moment to really look at him…without looking like I’m staring,he is in a plain white shirt with a leather jacket,how can he make something so basic so hot? “You look absolutely amazing btw” I say to him quietly.

Marcus blushes “you think?I wanted to look half decent for you,you really are an amazing person and I don’t even know that much about you yet,but I want to get to know you,maybe as more than friends too.you’re beautiful,and strong. I know that already

I just sit there looking shocked for a second “Marcus you really mean that?”

“ I mean every word,if you want this could be our first date,only if you feel the same way about me obviously” he chuckles.

“I…feel the same way,you’re gorgeous Marcus. And you’re so kind,I’m not used to guys actually being interested in me,all my exes said the same thing,that they couldn’t accept me for who I was. One of them even went as far as cheating on me with a slimmer girl because and I quote “I’m to disgusting to have sex with” and I believed him,I would throw myself into toxic situation after toxic situation because I didn’t know any better…kinda why I moved here,fresh start I guess.

It was now Marcus’s turn to looked shocked “sweetheart I’m so sorry that happened to you” he takes my hand,”none of them deserved you,you deserve someone who loves and respects you,and takes care of your every need. I’m a firm believer that love stems from respect,and respecting your partner’s feelings,sticking with them through thick and thin. Call me a old school romantic,I’ve probably watched to many old movies,but men these days are trash” Marcus chuckles softly “I’ve had my fair share of bad relationships,hell I’ve even been divorced,but I’ve gotten the help I needed,I went to therapy and healed. And I’m ready to date again,and I want that to be you”. Marcus smiles softly and looks into my eyes “we can take it as slow as you want darling,you’ve been hurt in the past,we both have and if you want to just be friends for a while I’m fine with that but,you’re beautiful and you deserve someone who loves and respects you,and if you’d let me,I’d do that for the rest of my days.

“No Marcus I really want to date you,so much especially now after you said all that I’m not good with words but you just blew my mind with how incredibly beautiful and intelligent you are. You make me feel things I haven’t felt in a long time and we haven’t even kissed yet. You have already made me a better person,and I really want to find out more about you.you’re so sweet and interesting,when our hands touched it was like electricity and when we hugged last night…I didn’t want to let go,I wanted you to hold me forever. You make me feel safe.

By time we finish talking our food arrives

“Also you like pancakes so that’s an immediate green flag for me” Marcus winks while tucking into his pancakes. “I could eat pancakes all day if i could”

“You’re so adorable”I laugh softly while digging into mine.

“Not as adorable as you tho aye? Marcus flashes a cheeky smile

We finish off the pancakes and make light conversation for another 15 minutes mostly about our love for music and movies

“I’m really falling for you” Marcus suddenly says

“Really? Because I literally fell for you the moment I met you”I laugh

“I suppose you did,but I mean it I said to myself I’m not going to rush into things but I’m falling for you babe. Marcus chuckles

“If you don’t wanna rush into things then we can take this at your pace,you know that right? I say softly

“I think I would like to take this slow,but I can’t help myself you’re beautiful,kind compassionate and intelligent. I just can’t help falling for you”

“Then we can take this slow,but I’m falling for you too.you’re genuinely the greatest person I’ve ever met.

After a while of more talking…and flirting me and Marcus step out of the diner “what you wanna do now? You can come back to mine if you want,it’s way to late for anything to be open,unless you just want me to drop you home?”marcus says softly

“Yours sounds good” I chuckle “might get a good night kiss then” I wink

“Oh I’m making sure of it” Marcus laughs.

Well that’s the end of part two,it went on way longer than I expected it too! I hope y’all enjoyed:))

[valkwriteshealth]

The Master Plan (TM)

Been a crazy 5 days. Saturday was awful.

Sunday I was in the WORST mood ever brought on by the wonders of PMT and useless friends.

Monday I was possessed by the spirit of competence (caffeine) which has lingered to now (than the gods)

But now I have a cold - like an evil one, its took my mum out for the count for the last couple days and I am fighting for my life.

But anyway things are getting wild, I described my days but not the contents. Im in too good a mood to explain why I was miserable on Sat & Sun so Im moving onto the moves that have been made starting monday and the plans spawning from there.

Saturday Me taking over from Tuesday Me - the reason was anxiety and useless people.

Anywho, so Holiday is booked, and I still have a cold so I was only able to enjoy it for a little time.

Im going to Wales in 2 days and while I am excited about it my current physical limitations are really taking the wind out of my sales. I just fixed my warddrobe (after 4 months) and turned my room around, lost all my energy but still havent packed my duffle bag. So waiting for a second wind.

I hope to use Wales as a time to get a lot of writing done, and a bit of sight seeing. I'll definitely get to see the bridge on the Tuesday but to see Abergavenny castle on the Monday would be elite.

Im trying to get into photography as well. Got my dad's old shit camera. Im hoping to learn it now and take it to Rome with us. Definitely getting ahead of myself here on the story telling.

So back to the plan:

Im going to Wales and Im pretty fucking sick so thank Past Me for putting a shift in and creating a list of everything I need to pack while I had my braincells. I need to finish off packing. And also make sure everything is charged (or has batteries) then that those chargers are packed. Then I need to make a sandwich for lunch tomorrow.

Ideally, this is how I want the next 2 days to go. Wake half 6, leave house at 7.10am, Mcdonalds breakfast, train station to get the 8.08am train to Abergavenny for 10.59am. Where I will read until Crewe and then write on the second train. If I can get out of getting a lift from a coworker then, I will walk 15mins to Abergavenny Castle and take pics. Have my sandwich and call a taxi to get to Crickhowell all before 1.30pm. Then its work till either 4 or 5pm. Go to my hotel room. Chill/Change etc, then do whatever work socialising thing and have dinner. Hopefully I can either watch Big Brother or get some writing in. Sleep.

Tuesday I will wake up early, maybe 6am, get a shower, get dressed, see about breakfast then go visit the historic bridge nearby. Take photos. Go back to hotel, checkout and then go to work until 4pm-ish. Get train home at 4.55pm. I'll be back aroun 8pm, catch up on Big Brother, eat, watch new Big Brother, sleep.

May or may not have gym this week, by I will meet up with my friend and we will talk the Rome Trip. Then its getting back into the routine, the goal being get fit AF. I need to lose body fat stat. Going to go back to the Chloe Ting and my milkshakes. And Im going to get more strict on the snacking. Ill measure myself again, all over and monitor progress that way. June is the deadline.

Need to get holiday shopping for clothes. Ive seen some stuff on Newlook that I like. Also need an outfit for a communion Im going to 3 days before the holiday, so theres that. I refuse to be the frumpy cousin any longer.

Have to plan and book the camping. Need to call the campsite in Windemere either this week or next week to clarify how many people and tents I can fit per pitch and then its booking train tickets. This will be for July. I want to go full hiker with that one, clothes too.

There's going to be more that needs to be done in the mean time, between all this. I would also really like to be published by then or in talks with a literary agent at least so Im going to step up my game with this.

To make a long story short:

Wales trip

overcome being sick

Holiday prep

Get fit AF

buy clothes

Camping prep

[journey-of-the-ip]

Thursday June 6th

I guess I’m starting a new day even though it’s still the middle of the night in home time.

Bleghh kinda finished the flight zombie mode. The flight was only 8-9 hours which is pretty short imo, and I only “slept” probably like an hour or two? Probably less honestly. It’s crazy with map projections we took a short cut over the top of the globe cause that’s how globes work. Weird.

Upon landing I finally figured out the roaming data with Mint but my coverage is garbage and I couldn’t get signal in most of the airport.

Also the airport WiFi wasn’t working so I was like damn, also I walked past and then subsequently couldn’t get back to the SIM card shop in the airport double damn. I also walked past and couldn’t get back to the money exchange in the airport. Triple damn.

I was anxious that my credit card would be declined and I wouldn’t have any euros so I wandered around a bit by t didn’t really get anywhere, brain was feeling very shot so I just went up to the taxi stand which luckily was really easy to find and got a taxi to my hotel.

Card was accepted, all is good. Is this frontal lobe anxiety finally kicking in? (Albeit too late for me to have done anything about it) I guess just need to practice being more proactively anxious.

At the hotel, I can’t check in until 2 (it’s 11 at this point) so I have 3 hours to kill till I can brush my teeth, shower, and feel human. Also it’s HOT which makes sense because it’s June but Seattle has lulled me into a false sense of security. This trip is gonna be sweaty.

Anyways my hotel is near the airport which means it’s near nothing interesting. I’m between a Nissan dealership and an IKEA.

I have a long vent about globalization which I hopefully get back to because I’m writing this as I’m waiting to check into my room still.

Luckily, seems like there’s a shopping mall about a 15 min walk from the hotel so I go there and grab a bite to eat and hide in the air conditioning for a while. i didn’t realize how ravenous I was bc I wasn’t really craving any of my snacks, classic. After I made my way back to the hotel where I am now.

Schleepy. Hopefully will write more later.

Okay I slept from 3-8pm and then from 10pm-2am. It’s now 7:14. I guess I’m still including this in the day before because I don’t have any pictures yet and these thoughts are from yesterday. Anyways here is my vent I was too sleepy to transcribe yesterday.

Being here is kind of uncanny. Except for a few things, you could easily mistake this place for the US, or Mexico City. Most of the stores I see are international brands. At the mall I saw Starbucks, Sephora, guess, H&M, etc etc. when I was looking for food, I saw Italian, sushi, frozen yogurt. It felt like being in any other urban mall. (One store I thought was funny was straight up the Aliexpress store?? It was like a cross between a dollar store and one of those stupid tech shops that had like massagers in the early 2000s.

Of course some things are different, I found a more traditional tapas place and got some food you wouldn’t normally see in the US. Everyone smokes here, drinking is much more casual, and they’re fond of this weird sloped escalator that’s like half way between an escalator and those airport fast walk things. Maybe it’s wheel chair accessible? But that thing is still pretty steep idk

I’m also not in a touristy spot but like, I feel like the mall I went to was a very authentic local person mall. The people just looked like normal Spanish people not tourists. Even so, Everyone here speaks English, they had an English menu ready for me, it’s all so… samey? Easy? Idk

I think this is part of why I’m not caring as much about traveling these days. Why spend all that money to just go, be somewhere with a slightly different skin? Anything I could want I could personally also get on Amazon, or at my own malls, idk.

I’m going Morocco will be more different. This is definitely bias but it feels like different == poorer. Where cities if given the option will homogenize into a globalized urban center.

When I reflect back, I feel like Saigon had more character and differences even though it also felt like a global city. Anyways.

Gonna chill and rest here until late morning and then hopefully stay out all day today. We’ll see.

[suzieb-fit]

Here I go on another "change of plan" route.

I'm now dairy free. At least for the next 8wks.

This mucus issue has been extraordinarily bad this past few weeks.

Desperate for a solution. Hopefully this will be it.

I've had a full day off everything today.

Tomorrow I'll be up and on with my normal 7.30am workout, then out on the bike.

Diabetic review appointment before meeting my man almost all the way back home for an active day out in the fresh air.

I'll not eat anything til halfway round what's looking like a 50+ mile ride.

I started my fast timer pretty late today. 8pm. That's pretty much unheard of these days. But y'know.....moods and that, lol. Full on binge mode today. Not clever, not cool. Not healthy! But also rare.

So by lunchtime tomorrow, that will be at around the 16-17hr mark.

My only set plan from there is to go into a 48hr fast on Saturday, starting after a substantial carb heavy breakfast. Healthy ones though!

Porridge, fruit and peanut butter. That's one type of "butter" I can thankfully still eat, lol.

Not done a 48hr for a while.

Feel bloated, sore throaty, lethargic and ready to get myself back into gear!

[happyendingsong]

my last job basically offered me my old job back and idk what to doooo