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paint-it-red-and-black · 10 months

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WHAT THE FUCK WHAT THE FUCK TWAT THE FUKL

WDYM “Max praises Leclerc”

WDYM “Lestappen bromance”

#lestappen #charles leclerc #max verstappen #bro u good?#nah bro im dead #i wasn't ready for this launch at all #i mean i had a peaceful evening just waiting for tomorrow's press conference and then they just BOOM HAVE SOME LESTAPPEN #how the fuck am i gonna recover????#well i can believe that for F1 lestappen is for PR #if i try hard i can believe that lestappen for RBR is PR #BUT FOCKEN VERSTAPPENCOM?????#nah i dont know the sane fuck whats going on #it's just #lestappen gate 2023 #no more words #red and black posts

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akans-dead-at-sea · 10 months

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It's alright

30 second timelapse:

#ofmd #ofmd s2 #ofmd fanart #our flag means death #“I am a brave boy and will NOT cry while getting reference screenshots of Ed” he said.#*barely manages to hit Win+Shift+S through the fucking tears*#I'm sorry but this is the only decent OFMD fanart I got in me for now #I'm shit at drawing people with faces/head and I still gotta learn and find a style but god knows the gay pirates are gonna help me practic #I still need to recover from this scene- this episode- this season- this show goddamnit #ngl at first I liked how I drew Ed's hair but the more I look at it now the less I like it >:C #did I forget to post this? no nope nuh uh I don't know what you're talking about #this absolutely blew up on twitter- lowkey hope tumblr dot com likes it too :>#ed teach #stede bonnet #gentlebeard #ofmd s2e8 #tw blood #blood #akans art

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alchemicaladarna · 7 months

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OK HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO GET OVER THAT ENDING MR HALO???

We all expected Dapper to wander around the flower fields and *jumpscare* we find Bad's body and it's going to be haunting yet sad at the same time, but I argue this is infinitely worse.

Like, I thought Pomme might have seen Bad die yesterday, but nope- they don't even know he DIED. They spent the entire day looking for him, confused as to why he's nowhere to be found. They're just two kids looking for their dead father.

And then the last scene; Dapper riding out alone to the middle of the ocean to look for his dad, thinking he just wandered far away.

The ghosts try to hold him, try to shout, but we could barely whisper, "Oh honey, he's right here. He's in the fields- please just look closer. Wait Dapper, where are you going? Sweetie no, don't leave, there's nothing- don't leave-"

And then we or Bad's ghost is just left on the shores, helplessly watching her get farther out into the horizon, unable to follow, unable to call her name.

He was there, Dapper. He was right there, the whole time. And he's still there, waiting for you.

#qsmp #qsmp badboyhalo #badboyhalo #LIKE HOW AM I GONNA FUCKING RECOVER FROM THAT #ill be thinking about this tonight #like man just the staring into the empty horizon as dapper travels into the night...alone...#qsmp pomme #qsmp dapper #tw death

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hotshitno2 · 1 year

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Not to focus on the wrong things of this chapter or anything but watching Aqua struggle to make it in the entertainment industry for 128 chapters just to watch his rating be worse than a lot of random side characters that just appeared in this chapter is so funny help 💀

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moe-broey · 4 months

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Doing one of the scariest things an artist can do (draw a tree)

#i'm having like. war flashbacks. to a piece i just irrecoverably fucked up at least a year ago.#that just absolutely obliterated my confidence as an artist. like i feel like i did not recover from that for a long time #to be fair there were more complicated things going on in that one that were above my skill level i think #and that was when i was trying exclusively water colors too (which is. a choice. for a fuck around/find out artist)#but esp reffing heikala's work again like..... ah... it is taking me back. and i am so scared.#i feel like that piece is maybe two years old actually.#either way it was an incredibly significant deceptively personal piece and this one. is also very much that in a way.#it is going to be extremely devastating if i fuck this up.#to my credit. i do feel like i've grown a lot as an artist since then. a lot of things feel more.. doable?#like instead of being above my skill level it feels more like a challenge.#like i'm also gonna have to do some funky lighting in this piece too... it'll be interesting to see how i can do that #w how i've gotten used to using v specific pencils in a v specific way. it does feel doable. just challenging #mostly i'm just scared of trees.

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pinacoladamatata · 1 year

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something something down by the river

yeah i could draw something other than two characters gazing at each other with utter heartsick longing but I know what i'm about son

#beware the tags #oh no the vampire spawn is falling in love with the spider princess #also you will never guess where i got inspo from #yeah it was the man from uncle #i will make him look *more* lovesick dont worry. this is gonna rival my martin/hok stuff bc god #i still have not finished his quest bc i know its gonna make me step away from the game for probably 3 days while i recover #ugghhhh i am gonna scream! bc like the fucking headcanons i have about him and my evil little mermaid tav #she's never seen the ocean. bc menzoberanzzan. so when they finally get to the city she's like fuckin. struck by it.#never seen anything so big in her life. so to explain my running along the coast for hours to unfog the map i imagine he's humoring tav #and acting exasperated by her fascination with the water but he secretly thinks is adorable #and she doesn't know how to navigate a city like baldurs gate. bc where are the spires? the stalagmites? where are the stairs?#so he (knowing the city so well) has to basically be her guide/lead her through the whole thing otherwise it would take them 3 years #to find anything.#MEANWHILE she's having a crisis grieving over her recently dead spouse and fleeing her home for failing her 5th trial #and wants revenge on lolth of all things #so they make a little 'revenge pact' to each other but she's being slowly shown signs of eilistraee and having trouble letting go #bc she can never return home. and she misses her baby brother terribly bc he's only 12 and all 6 of her other siblings are not nice #and she's either gonna take the crown to become a god or have a breakdown at night by the water where she decides to move on #they can make each other better they can make each other so much worse

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runawaymun · 5 months

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just finished the main Inazuma questline.

Leave me alone.

#how the fuck am I gonna recover from this #i'm supposed to just go on living my life like normal?#raiden shogun #genshin impact #genshin impact spoilers #inazuma #this is not the first time this game has utterly destroyed my emotional stability and wellbeing to be clear

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bajablastflavoredsaxreed · 6 months

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quivering rn what the heck

baron from the baronies is something that can be so personal actually

ough

#fantasy high #baja’s blasting #the sheer unadulterated aromantic horror in his and rizz’s interactions jesus christ #‘everyone else will find someone they care about more than you’ hey. hey what if i cried #brennan lee mulligan why did you do this to me #the raw fucking dread the science with rizz seeing everyone he knows falling in love or dancing or making out #coupled with this freakish mannequin thing insisting that it is his romance partner. what the fuck #‘you are quite unlike your parents’ hey what the fuck man #and the fact that baron comes from a mirror which ties him into how riz perceives himself…aaaaaa #what if i cried. what if as in i am and have #AND WILL CONTINUE TO DO SO #it’s so sorrowful and realistic and terrifying and oh my god #i just can’t get over it. it is an amalgamation of riz’s fears of his friends all moving on from him after high school #and settling down romantically #it’s just so shfofksiokgnririe #AND THE FACT THAT BARON IS CREATED FROM A LIE RIZ TOLD IN ORDER TO FIT IN. HOW HE CARRIES BARON AROUND IN HIS SUITCASE #BECAUSE U CARRY THAT AROUND THROUGHOUT YOUR DAY #the horror of being in the closet is displayed so purely #also like. being aroace is really scary. it seems like everyone else has something magical that you never will #and you can’t attain it #and just jelstieoektkvkksir #they really did it justice #never gonna recover #sorry i wrote this before i learned that baron uses they/them :(#ignore my lack of lore knowledge #what i lack in facts i make up for in vibes

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dixidin · 10 months

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I'm going to kill myself

#WHAT #I THOUGHT TODAY WAS GONNA BE A GOOD DAY WHAT THE FUCK #genuinely about to start crying #before when Matthew Perry (Chandler Bing) died I didn't really care thaf much because I don't like friends that much #BUT ANDRE???? CAPTIAN RAYMON HOLT???#HOW AM I GONNA BINGE WATCH MY COMFORT SHOW FPR THE 67TH TIME NOW????#BRO.#i can't fucking do this #I CAN'T FUCKING DO THIS ANYMORE MAN!!!!!#I'm never gonna recover from this #MY COMFORT SHOW BRO.... WHY #brooklyn 99 #brooklyn nine nine #raymond caption holt #caption holt #caption holt brooklyn 99 #andre braugher #rip andre braugher

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theood · 4 days

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If I could change one thing in my life I'd make it so no one ever commented on food

#elias.zip #im so fucking tired of it!!! joking or not its fucking degrading. just constantly. i get it im so fucking unhealthy all i eat is processed #chemical slop thats gonna kill me at 30 and im the unhealthiest person in the fucking work #world* you dont need to fucking remind me every goddamn day. even the comments that arent bad still make me feel likr shit for eating!!! i #already feel really bad about how poorly i eat. i literally cannot fucking starve myself more basically over this kind of comment.#like damn!!! i sure do have a lot of body issues for someone whos skinny WHY am i even complaining in the first place likr i used to fucking #hate my stomach and its noy when #even* big and i think its gone down bc i eat even less now!!! i cannoy make ANYONE happy no matter what i do or what i cook its always comme #nt comment comment in everything i fucking do. i swear to god im never going to fucking recover from living with them. i would've run away i #f i grew up with them im serious #negative #ihateithereihateithereihateithere #nothing's working out. i csnt make friends. i csnt keep them. im a fucking deadbeat im just like my dad in every conceivable way no ones pr #oud of me no matter what i do and i fucked myslef from any opportunity i had to get out of the system what is the fucking point #i jsut dont knoe anymore!!!!!! its not like the Future even looks good or that i see myself anywwhre but in the exact same spot because all #i ever fucking manage to achieve is self sabotage and whining about how no one loves me. god!!!!!

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angelstrawbabie420 · 9 days

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in my quest to quell my pain ive only hurt myself worse. damned if i do damned if i dont.

#i need better coping mechanisms but it’s so easy to just turn to substances when you’ve never learned how to cope w your emotions #and physical pain. however a lot of it has been brought on by the substance abuse aka i did it to myself #so i probably deserve it #but i started with them in the first place to get rid of pain that was so overwhelming and constant #it feels like every time i do something to preserve myself im punished for it #and im so sick of it. i cant believe its gotten this bad #i drink to help the pain -> i get hungover and the pain is way worse -> i drink to stop that pain #and the worst part is it always works #realistically ive depended on substances for like a decade #i started drinking at 13 and fell into a rut of alcoholism at like 15/16 #my mom was going thru a phase of alcoholism and roped me into it so bad if be woken up by her bringing me a drink at 9 am #and we’d drink till she passed out and i had to walk her to bed and cook for everyone and do all the chores #it went on for months one summer #then it was weed and i smoked every day from like 18-22 #only thing thwt stopped me from drinking until i started again after both my parents died #i havent recovered since.#im still so traumatized and depressed that i looked for any method of relief #the dph phase was the worst. i think alc is even better than that lmfao it was horrible #once i got access to alc i stopped all that. wouldnt have if i hadnt had alc tho #it’s honestly been one addiction after the other for a decade #and my parents fueled so much of it #‘oh id rarher you drink under my eye than do it behind my back’#BRUH YOU WOULDNT LET ME GO ANYWHERE OR DO ANYTHING. HOW WOULD THWT HAVE HAPPENED #crazy how i was obsessed w drugs and shit by the time i was 10 and i remember thinking wow im gojna grow up to be an addict.#why am i so irreparably fucked up #idk whatever. like im not gonna drink abt it lmao.

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hella1975 · 9 months

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what do you plan to do with your degree after uni?

FUCK NASTY!!!

#if i ever touch economics again it's a cry for help like i cannot stress enough how fucking pointless this degree is gonna be #okay deep breath im only being so negative bc im balls deep in exam season. it's a GOOD degree i DONT REGRET MY DEGREE #this will be EXCEPTIONALLY helpful when i go into the working world i am EMPLOYABLE bc of my DEGREE #like economics is a VERY versatile subject there arent many areas of work that econ doesnt apply to in some way #so i KNOW it's a really good degree to have and i can kinda do what i want afterwards #but oh my fucking god. jesus christ. bloody fucking hell #i do however know that in the immediate year after my degree im gonna move back home and waitress full time #bc i just need to like. take some time off education and recover LMAO and i want a space to just tick some boxes i never got round to #like learning how to drive and stuff. and living without having rent to pay in a place im very familiar with will be good #even if i do think it's gonna have it's own struggles. oh hometown blues we're really in it now #but yeah after that year im thinking about maybe doing a masters? but ill have to proper blag it bc you typically have to do #masters in subjects relevant to your degree and i dont want to go within a radiation exclusion zone of economics #so. there's that. do u think if i say please somewhere will let me do a classics masters be honest. if i say pretty please #ask #hella goes to uni

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unagrancantidaddepanes · 11 months

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anyways all my homies love felix fathom, mf was doing what the social services could never do ❤️❤️❤️ king shit

#he really said 'hey i snaped ur abusive parents out of existence'#AND THE CROWD GOES WILDDD #FELIX COME HERE PLEEAAASSSEEEEE SPSPSPSPPSPSPPSPS I HAVE SOME NEW PARENTS FOR U TO THANOS SNAP PLLLEEEAAASSSEEEE #best villian motivation top tier he was so right i am a felix appologist until the end PLEASE come to my house and do ur evil schemes felix #PLSPLSPLSPLSPLSPLSPLSPLS #nah the finale really said 'gabriel was just a good nice guy really deep depp deep deep deep down' I HATE YOU MIRACULOUS WRITERS I HATE YOU #ALSO HOW DARE GABRIEL MAKE ADRIEN GO THROUGH THAT ???!??!?!??!#TO HAVE YOUR ABUSIVE PARENT DIE AND THEN BE TOLD BY THE PERSON YOU LOVE THAT YOUR ABUSIVE FATHER WAS GOOD REALLY AND THAT HE LOVED U AND #DIED TO SAVE YOU AND EVERYONE IN PARIS #WHEN REALLY HE WAS A FUCKING TERRORIST AS WELL AS AN ABUSIVE PARENT #THE AMOUNT OF THERAPY THIS POOR BOY IS GOING TO NEED #I ALREADY NEEDED SO MUCH THERAPY BECAUSE OF MY ABUSIVE PARENTS I CAN NOT EVEN IMAGINE HOW BAD ITS GONNA BE FOR ADRIEN #THE SURVIVORS GUILT IS GONNA BE ABSOLUTELY BATSHIT INSANE.....#WHATEVER INHERITANCE ADIREN GOT BETTER COVER THERAPY COSTS AT LEAST GO DAMN #GABRIEL DO 1 ACTUALLY GOOD THING FOR UR SON AND SEND HIM TO THERAPY SO HE CAN RECOVER FROM UR ABUSE SJAHJASHKJK #ok im done tldr fuck gabriel stan felix <333 KASHJSHKJ #miraculous ladybug #mlb #felix fathom #gabriel agreste #miraculous #miraculous finale #miraculous season 5 #miraculous spoilers #myposts

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i-can-even-burn-salad · 3 months

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Chapter 10 done \o/

#salad-txt #baby steps or something #hey time to bitch in the tags #a few weeks ago I was talking to a coworker (who knows I write) how I aim for 300w/day #and she was - absolutely serious btw - like that's so little #don't you usually do much more is that writer's block #and it's just so discouraging??#yes I did much more when I did nothing fucking else for 4-5 months #no lazying around playing games almost no book read #(also no gw expac in that year lol)#but I can't keep that up or I'll go insane and also can we not underestimate how hard it is to do it literally every day #perhaps it's not quite 300/day but one day 100 and one day 500 but I try to get a bit done every day and have 10k at the end of month #for months. oh a migraine an evening out or whatever. well those missing words keep piling up #i've done multiple nanos before I know that and I need a goal that's low enough I can recover a missed day or two without hating my life #and let's not go to where that also applies for everything else. but you did that once so you must be able to do that again don't be lazy #do you really believe the tone of 'well you did better once before so every other attempt is worthless' is encouraging??#nope makes me stop trying why bother if i am never gonna be good enough or if i am it will make future me more miserable

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micamone · 3 months

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hey guys

#vent #just... gimmie a sec im gonna put it in the tags i cant find the readmore on my phone rn #im havin a straight up not good time but not the worst in the house!#the worst is my cat. whose old and dying. and i have no money to put to sleep to fuckin put us both outta this misery #typical. she cant get a heart attack and go fast like my moms dog #shes gotta wail and be ill for a month while im recovering from one surgery and trying to get ready for the next #its also an amazing time for my ocd that i learned i have from artists on hear explaining what it is to send me into spirals #over germs. but shes just 20 with teeth and respiratory issues her whole life and been struggling with constipation #so i KNOW how shes dying. shes backed up and hungry and dehydrated but feeling bloated still and not eating or drinking.#shes probably got arthritis and has been moving like a geriatric for a while but its to the point now she wont even lay down. shes just #perched on a pile of towels in the bathroom dozing and occasionally crying for me to come pet her. im so fuckin tired #and theres nothing i can do! the vet i could find a timeslot for in a reasonable time said 500$. so thats cool. im paying 1000$ for me in #a week for my stuff and its just. god all she and i are doing is crying and it sucks ass #she wants company for comfort and i dont blame her - so the fuck do i!#but i cant sit in the bathroom with her my damn legs keep going numb. and my roomate 1) cant emotionally buoy me thru this #and 2) has a long work day tomorrow and its already mad late. sigh #dont try to offer me condolences ive worked thru her dying already its just now we're botb exhausted in the form its taking #if anything i just need another distraction to keep me from spiraling over something again #edit: ARUGH AND THE OTHER CAT THROWING UP IN THE OTHER ROOM. GOD DAMN IT #the younger one has so many allergies and wont stop fucking eating things off the floor babygirl i am BEDRIDDEN you gotta stop eating shit #off the floor!!!!!!!! you have specialty food for a reason!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#awesome it was right in my bed

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moe-broey · 3 months

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Like a whole other thing is when I have put Mani/Moe in situations where suicide as a topic is part of the punchline, I am so cautious about it, and there's always a greater intention behind it. Biggest thing is the characterization -- this is a part of its history. Moe's experiences inform a lot of its feelings, choices, even core personality. It's also a distinct characterization of Mani. A reflection of the past. Mani is more prone to becoming volatile and destructive. I have so much lore in my head I can never elaborate on LMFAOOO (SCRAMBLED. EGG). But that is the point/idea behind it, and I am always So Careful. I don't do anything without intent.

#suicide ment #moe tag #mani tag #something something moe is a healer. bc ofc it fucking is LMFAOO #i feel like. i have so many thoughts. but i cannot fucking articulate them LMFAOO #idk moe is like a rescue animal.#LIKE. I FEEL LIKE A CORE PART OF MOE AS A CHARACTER. is the fact that it's doing better now #but it never fully 'recovered'.#it still has mental health struggles/conditions. but it's well-managed and at this point moe is more practically minded about it.#like maybe an even bigger part of moe's entire fucking character. is that you can't 'fix' it.#one bc some things were never meant to be fixed. an impossible task that led to nothing but trauma.#examples would be its gender identity/queerness in general and being autistic. those are things you can't 'fix'#and things that. never should be 'fixed'. bc they are literally not problems.#two. idk how to word it. but some things can't really be fixed but in a different way than the prev example.#but you manage the symptoms of it. change harmful behavior. practice damage reduction as much as you can.#already i am so tired and i'm gonna thrup trying to explain the difference. but please i am begging you. there is one. just trust me.#like having self-harming tendencies deeply ingrained in you is wholly different. i wish i had the fucking words to explain it.#but that IS. a core aspect of moe. capturing how these things have impacted it #and also. having gotten to a point where it stays silly.

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