#i am OBSESSED with them

[virtualtear00]

Proper height difference between Navani and Raboniel

[asexualenjolras]

I need to talk about Charles Rowland and his love for Edwin Payne.

Charles saying he can't say he's in love with Edwin back doesn't mean he isn't in love with Edwin, and it doesn't mean he doesn't love Edwin in the same way that Edwin loves him.

He is just saying he needs to work out what he does feel.

Charles died when he was 16. He's still a child. Nobody at 16 knows what it means to be in love.

And, on top of that, he grew up in an abusive household with a warped understanding of what love means. His dad was abusive to his mum, so he wouldn't understand what being "in love" is compared to someone that grew up within a stable household. He's never had the time to unpack what that means about his ability to love. He's worried that he might end up like his dad, and he absolutely would never want to hurt Edwin like his dad hurts his mum.

Charles has a lot of confusion about love. He loves his mum, he knows that, and he loves his dad, despite everything he put him and his mum through.

And, on top of all of this, he grew up during a difficult period in history. He was a teenager in Britain in the 80's. The 80's were a notoriously homophobic period of time, and I'm not saying that Charles is dealing with internalised homophobia but growing up during a period of time where the homophobic rhetoric was rife would have an impact on anyone. Especially a confused 16 year old boy who didn't know much kindness in life.

Charles knows he loves Edwin more than anything and anyone else in his life, and he knows the love he feels for him is different to the love he feels for his mum. He just doesn't know whether what he feels for Edwin constitutes as being "in love" with him.

And he needs time to figure that out. That's what he is telling Edwin: he's telling him that he is the most important person in the world to him and that he does love him but he needs to work out what that means. And Edwin completely understands that because Charles put it so eloquently and in a way that Edwin could understand. This isn't the usual unreciprocated love trope. They are each other's person, and they're trying to navigate what that means for each of them.

Overall, Charles loves Edwin and Edwin loves Charles. And they're going to figure out what that means together in time. Because that's what they always do: they figure things out.

Together.

[cafecitoeddie]

“come. i’ll hold you, you rest now."

[starlesswdz]

you can rest now.

[honeygrahambitch]

Gentle reminder that "I'm alone in that darkness" is something Will felt like confessing to Hannibal in season 2, so post encephalitis. His anguish is not related to hallucinations, dissociation or fever. During the horse episode he is really struggling because he cannot hate Hannibal, he doesn't know why he cannot hate Hannibal if Peter can hate his social worker. He is feeling lonely and he is kinda spiraling and kinda too involved in Peter's case so there is very much going on in his closeted gay neurodivergent brain.

He looks a bit taken aback when Hannibal promises him that he is standing right beside him. I love that he says that. It's a bit of comfort that Will isn't getting from anyone else. Jack is like "Okay Will, you might be alone in that darkness but you are saving lives" and Alana is like "Oh, Will, poor you, the hopeless victim of that darkness."

Meanwhile Hannibal is like "I am standing right beside you" which is honestly the best thing anyone could have said to such a confession. Will never complains about his state. Hannibal is the person who has witnessed his most vulnerable states, break downs, seizures, inner feelings and so on.

And even after being framed by Hannibal, Will still feels like he is a safe space to share his anguish.

[slutbee]

sam screaming into his pillow for god to make him not want to fuck his brother anymore while dean just doesn’t care and flirts with him incessantly: a concept

alternatively- sam screaming into his pillow for god to make him not want to fuck his brother anymore while actively getting railed into next week by dean. god and dean’s names escaping his mouth interchangeably in desperate sobs: a concept

[rheya28]

Sweet like honey

[cassiancreating]

[g0lb3tty]

Chaggie sketches ❤️

[tsuyoiqueen]

every now and then i leave tumblr for a few months cause i get hyper focused on something that's not really popular here so i have to look for other sources. but every now and then neil gaiman comes out with a new queer couple with tragic backstory and an even more tragic present and i cannot help but be dragged back into this hellsite as my obsession reignites once again.

[emily-charlton]

[theladyyavilee]

can we like, talk about how in the coming out scene, there is this space between buck and eddie right? safe space, but still space, space to keep them safe?

and like rewatching today I noticed that they both reach into that space, they reach for each other, but like? at different times?

if they reached at the same time, their hands would touch? but they reach at different times, when in the conversation they are reaching out to the other all 'hear me, see me, HEAR ME and hear what I am saying to you' (buck with the I am bi and eddie with the you are loved)

but they

they don't reach at the same time

and I'm *screams into hands* I feel a certain way about that okay, can we talk about that? something about that makes me feel SOOOOOOOOO!!!! like, yes it makes perfect sense for the scene and what they are saying but also if this is foreshadowing I am going to throw myself into the sun for real 😭

(they do end up hugging right in that space to, so there's also that 😌)

[whetstonefires]

Honestly the most interesting thing about the Jiang interpersonal dynamics that is being totally slept on is how Jiang Fengmian's power as head of the family affects everyone, including him.

Yu Ziyuan knows Jiang Fengmian won't use his power against her unless he feels like he needs to, and that he doesn't fear her and isn't going to feel like he needs to act in self-defense unless she attempts significant physical harm, so short of that she can do whatever she likes against him, and he won't resist.

But if the collateral damage to the kids of her verbal attacks on him goes above a certain level, he says one word and she stops.

He just goes, 'wife.' ('My lady' but it's just a polite term for wife.) Sort of disapproving. Same kind of way he talks to Jiang Cheng when he acts like a shithead, but without the subsequent attempt at an ethics lesson.

And bam. Momentum halted. That line of attack is out of bounds. Nobody likes this, but good god it works.

And because they both know he ultimately has all the power, that Yu Ziyuan's lifestyle of privacy and doing exactly as she pleases at all times and so forth is all something that exists by Jiang Fengmian's generosity and sufferance, and she hates it, and he's not comfortable with it either, he sets that boundary really high, and she gets away with all kinds of cruelty because it's all stuff she's strictly allowed to do, entitled to do. So he'd be abusing his authority over her, by constraining her right to exercise her power within normative bounds over the people she outranks.

Even if she's using it harmfully and in a way directed by spite, these are her rights, she's not technically abusing her power, and her primary target in all the episodes he actually witnesses is him who outranks her; she's not being one of those mistresses.

So he'd be overstepping if he tried to constrain her, he'd be one of those husbands. Just like she always accuses him of.

(This is why she keeps insisting that she's also the master of jiang sect and he's 'forgetting' that in contexts where it doesn't make a huge amount of sense.)

Anyway, the fact that it's impossible to unpick where Jiang Fengmian's moral principles stop and his conflict-avoidance kicks in with this relationship is so much more interesting than the weirdly sexist readings I keep seeing, where it's all the conflict-avoidance and he's an unmanly loser who lets Yu Ziyuan bully him and his kids without ever standing up to her, for no good reason. When actually they have a really interesting and fantastically realistic toxic relationship.

He has a good reason! His reason is he's uncomfortable with the patriarchy! And guilty that his wife is miserable! And that he doesn't love her correctly! So he gives way as often as he can, trying to fix it!

But it doesn't fix it, because no amount of giving in to her gives her cause to trust him, and if she doesn't trust him and she knows that if he actually cares about an issue her ability to get her way will disappear, she can't feel secure about any of it. And therefore everything, especially Wei Wuxian the symbol of that fact, makes her angry and Want To Punish.

[iluumey]

alex song-xia save me ..... save me alex song-xia

[holly-mckenzie]

And mum I met a girl. I know what you'll say, "Sounds rather unlikely". We talked, and just for a while, I could almost have thought, she was starting to like me.

TWO STRANGERS (CARRY A CAKE ACROSS NEW YORK) by Jim Barne and Kit Buchan

[lilyoffandoms]

We crave the most, that which we cannot have.

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