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lesbianjudasiscariot · 11 months ago

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awkward experiences i hate youuuuuuu

#i don't even know what to do right now #diary #♡

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artistic-gay-walrus · 10 months ago

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So I just lost literally all of my art so I'm probably not going to be posted for a hot minute

#I literally fucking can this dumbass computer just yelled at me to update it and I did but it fucking deleted everything #even my files every picture I've downloaded gone #I don't even know what to do right now #nix is not having a good time

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akanemnon · 10 months ago

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Yeah, Kris is definitely NOT alright.

FIRST - PREVIOUS - NEXT

MASTERPOST (for the full series / FAQ / reference sheets)

#undertale #deltarune #utdr #crossover #crossover comic #undertale fanart #deltarune fanart #twin runes #twin runes comic #twin runes au #kris dreemurr #frisk #and we arrived at the breaking point #i know the last pages have been very depresso but i swear once this arc is over we'll get right back on track with the funnies #but first we have to deal with some DRAMA #imagine what it would be like if some otherworldly entity took over your body #and suddenly you start making friends and patching up old friendships #Something even your mother is proud of you for #even though it's not YOU doing that #you'd feel like people don't like YOU but only that parasite in your body #because without it you're just that creepy kid next door #you'd feel like the world would be better without you #at least that's what Kris must be feeling right now #i DO wonder what's up with this cave though #it clearly is NOT the exit #and what's with those markings outside and inside the cave?#hmmmmm

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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 3 months ago

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We're going on an ass kicking adventure.

[First] Prev <–-> Next

#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #wei wuxian #lan wangji #Yes indeed this is a reference to the classic 'Kirby's fucking pissed' meme. It felt fitting given the circumstances.#Wei Wuxian is nothing but a villain now. His name is but a booeyman and scapegoat for everything that goes wrong.#It is a cruel and unusual punishment to be Irrepairable to others. That no matter what you do - you are othered and unsalvageable.#While this situation deals with necromancy & war & politics...boy does it ever mirror how modern drama campaigns go.#I wonder if MXTX did that on purpose? Considering how SVSSS talks about the relationships between authors and their fans/work -#Its stands to reason that WWX story is indeed a parallel for how the public prefers black and white & sensationalist views of people.#People are heroes or villains and trying to think about the nuance is too much work.#And it does not matter what the truth or lies are. The rumour exists and so it must hold truth.#It feels like someone dropped a poorly researched callout post on WWX on twitter that went viral.#80% of the people don't even know who he is but are still leaving him death threats.#“Guys I know we all used to really love WWX's content but I heard he unethically sourced his bones for his last art installation...”#Okay actually he might indeed do unethical bone sourcing. I need to think longer on what the hyper-specific hobby drama might be.#And a huge shout out to LWJ who is right in the vicinity watching this happen in horror. *That* is a specially kind of torment too.

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a-scary-lack-of-common-sense · 11 months ago

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My Great Grandma who loved her babies very much

Reference that I used for the face!

#I was scrolling through pinterest and saw this woman and I was like: She looks EXACTLY like how I imagine Stan and Ford's mother to look #my art #gravity falls #mabel pines #dipper pines #ig??#caryn romanoff pines #caryn pines #mabel voice: she must have been one hell of a mother to have had to deal with Grunkle Stan and Grunkle Ford when they were kids!#DO YOU EVER THINK ABOUT HOW SHE MIGHT HAVE DIED THINKING STANFORD AND STANLEY NEVER GOT THE CHANCE TO RECONCILE #DO U EVER THINK ABOUT HOW SHE MUST HAVE BEEN PLAGUED WITH REGRETS AND WHAT-IFS OVER STAN BEING KICKED OUT- WISHING SHE COULD HAVE DONE MORE #DOES THE THOUGHT THAT STANFORD MIGHT HAVE NEVER GOTTEN THE CHANCE TO VISIT HER AT HER DEATHBED OR HER FUNERAL SINCE HE WAS STUCK ELSEWHERE??#EVER HAUNT YOU AT NIGHT???#DOES IT EVER OCCUR TO YOU THAT SHE MIGHT HAVE KNOWN ALL ALONG ABOUT STANLEY- SINCE SHE'S THEIR MOTHER AND “WHAT KIND OF MOTHER CAN'T #RECOGNISE HER OWN CHILDREN APART“#THEY MEET AT STAN'S FUNERAL LIKE: “STANLEY I DON'T KNOW WHAT HAPPENED- NOR WHY THAT CASKET AT THE FRONT IS EMPTY RIGHT NOW AND WHY WE'RE #CURRENTLY ATTENDING YOUR FUNERAL- OR WHY YOU'RE EVEN DRESSED UP AS FORD RIGHT NOW.“#“I DON'T KNOW WHAT'S GOING ON STANLEY- BUT I DO KNOW THAT ONE OF MY SONS DIDN'T DIE IN A DITCH SOMWHERE IN THE FLAMING WRECK OF A CAR CRASH-#AND THAT'S ENOUGH FOR ME.“#SHE GOT THAT MOTHER'S INSTINCT #stan twins parents

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rocketbirdie · 8 months ago

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face value

#it's autism torment hours for cloud strife (featuring Projection™️)#everybody just assumes the worst about cloud the moment they meet him.#i think all the time about the 'be nice!' -> 'i'm doing my best :(' thing from remake. like. all he did was answer a fucking question.#it burns because i know EXACTLY what it's like to be on the receiving end of that. 'don't be rude!' i wasn't planning on it but ok i guess?#and people getting mad because they assumed i meant something completely different than what i said.#how many times have i asked 'hey when are we leaving' (so i know when we're leaving. god forbid)#only for them to hear 'WAAA WAAAAAAA HURRY UP!!!!!!! I WANNA LEAVE RIGHT NOWWWWW UGGHHHHHH'#like ???????????#we're speaking the same language right??? RIGHT????????#cloud listen bby. just know that i'm always here for you. even if no one else got ur back.#ok i'm better now. at least until the next easily avoidable stupid misunderstanding #ffvii #cloud strife #my art <3

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omnificent-orion · 4 months ago

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Waiting for...

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deathricedrawn · 1 year ago

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i'm ready to try

#This drawing is kind of personal to me #I recently graduated (CUM LAUDE WOOOO!!!!) and its like. not to get depressing #but when i was younger i was never sure whether i would make it to this point #When i was going through what i consider to still be like. the worst time of my entire life #This fictional character was there for me and she was something for me to latch onto and cope with #eGem helped me a lot with being able to process my emotions at the time but also helped me to reflect on myself #which i think is a big reason as to why I'm really happy with where i am with myself right now #I'm going off to uni next school year to study astronomy!!! which!!!#Im also doing because of eGem!!! She ignited this kind of childlike wonder for space for me #I love doing math and physics and whilst Im still a bit scared because. honestly i don't know whether this is what i want to do with my lif #I think i'll be okay either way #either way i wanted to draw egem again even if i haven't done so in a while because its like #i think i wouldnt be who i am without her. i think i'd be a lot worse off #so like. thank you empires smp thank you geminitay thank you egem This drawing is me expressing my gratitude #AND THANK YOU AUTISM!#empires smp #empires smp s1 #empiresblr #esmp #geminitay #art #fanart #alice.art #mcyt #mcytblr #song is andromeda by weyes blood... obv.. you guys know me by now :oP

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egophiliac · 5 months ago

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Silver is finally here...he just took the title for the most beautiful card in TWST's history...

me five years ago: wow I really hope we get to see dragon Malleus someday! that'll be so nice and wonderful. I bet he's a big silly! :)

twst: :)

GOD. it occurred to me literally three hours before the anniversary stream that they might've been saving the reveal for then to just explode us all at once. this timing was EXTREMELY deliberate. thank you Twst. I can't even focus on all the Blazing Jewel stuff because Silver wielding the physical manifestation of his Complicated Dad Issues is busy eating my entire brain. and -- oh what's that? he duos with Lilia? I'M RUINED THANK YOU ᕕ( ᐕ )ᕗ

this is your warning that I'm going to be the most annoying person on the planet come Monday morning, thank you everybody and goodniiiiiiight

#twisted wonderland #twisted wonderland spoilers #twisted wonderland episode 7 spoilers #twisted wonderland book 7 spoilers #twisted wonderland episode 7 part 13 spoilers #twisted wonderland book 7 part 13 spoilers #i say this with every card but the groovy might actually murder me this time fellas #silver in his biodad's armor with his adopted dad's sword #on his way to fight his adopted brother who both dads tried to save but who's also the son of the woman his biodad killed #because due to extremely complicated circumstances this is the only way to actually save him #and also this is all a parallel to what happened 400 years ago except hopefully it'll go less horribly this time #and also sebek is there!#this really is the story of poor sebek's life isn't it (jk jk sebs you know i love you)#but now it is silver's time to SHINE (a stray beam of light hits silver's armor and my eyes fall out of my head)#i say it again: episode 7 is about two things and two things only #it's dads and significant hair moments all the way down #don't worry! i haven't even reached my final form of being annoying yet!#gosh. this was SO deliberately timed to the anniversary that it HAS to be the wrapup to the episode 7 plot. right?!#like i still think there might be an epilogue chapter or something with the dorm reruns (yes i am fixated on the dorm reruns)#but we're definitely going into 7 endgame here huh folks #genuinely feeling a little bittersweet there! we've spent literally over two years in the episode 7 gauntlet and now the end is in sight #oh media. you can't last forever but why you gotta end.#(malleus in the background: i can fix that } :) fae of --)#at least we have whatever cliffhanger they throw at us for episode 8 to look forward to!#can't wait for it to turn out that grim was raverne this whole time or something #also. just. love that mal's horns look fine in the blazing jewels art #i mean obviously if something happens they wouldn't just put an enormous spoiler on there. but the potential implications are hilarious #malleus having a great time in his little idol outfit like. the weekend before lilia goes 'guess i'll die! 🤷‍♂️'#ugggh and now i have to actually think about what pulls i'm gonna do. this is awful. how dare you do this to me twst

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lazylittledragon · 1 year ago

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i'm in one of those phases where i really wish i believed in manifesting and spellcasting and things like that bc you know when you want something so bad you're literally praying for the universe to let it happen

#ramble #this is not me judging by the way i think it's cool as fuck i just don't do it personally #context: a lot of my 'dream jobs' are now just 'ways to make money that i might not absolutely hate'#but i have one (1) legit dream job and it's literally FINGERTIPS away from me right now #i feel like most people who know me can guess what it is and know how badly i want it #i'm not even letting myself daydream about it or talk about it too much because i'm so afraid of not getting it and being disappointed #and also i don't want to like. jinx it #i've tried so many times before but this is the closest i've ever been and i feel SICK i want to bite something

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thekittyokat · 1 year ago

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you ever just have a lot, a LOT of feelings all at once about a character and not even remotely enough words or brainpower to FORM the words to describe everything you're feeling. so it feels like you may explode. yeah

#sorry i got really into my feelings about mark hoffman again #the very specific version of him in my brain that i really really wish i had the time and energy to properly share with you guys #saw #well until i muster the energy to explode all of my feelings out into a fic. if you want to TRY and understand #know that my three biggest hoffman fic insps right now are as follows #your best kept secret hoffman. a series of mistakes hoffman. and rushed like a dreadful wind hoffman.#there is a very clear throughline just know i am extremely emotionally compromised rn #thinking about theee fics vs the canon path hoffman spirals down #something something the absolute tragedy of watching a man's descent into madness #the transformation of a man into a monster #and what could have saved him from himself and kramer's corruption #sorry i'm rambling so much oh my god i was just having such a crying fit out of nowhere about this #do you think he could feel it happening. do you think he was aware he was losing his mind.#the script version of him fucks with me so bad. the crazed rankings and the longer hair and him not being well kept anymore #it's impossible to think he didn't know he was deteriorating #fuuuck okay i need to either chill or write a whole longfic rn #i project on that guy so much i truly don't know if i could properly write my vision of him #until i do something more substantial the full extent of my hoffman exists for me and my boyfriend only. they get me like no one else #well ginny and jenna also get me. please read best kept secret and a series of mistakes Oh My God #where am i going with this. i like tag rambling actually this is a nice way to do it without forcing EVERYONE to read my delirium #anyways if you've read all of this i think i love you? feel free to dm me about hoffman and my very specific headcanons and aus #maybe soon i'll try and start writing my fics about this tragic man #i could never say any of this on twitter btw they'd string me up for my opinions on him as a sad wet beast who could have been fixed #if only he hadn't been weaponized first #god i'm too tired to even be as embarrassed about this as i should be. thought i unlearned cringe already #but i've been spending way too much time on twitter and they HAAATE hoffman there #rip. i know it's not that serious but i'm sensitive rn and hate feeling lonely in my thoughts #ok bye for real otherwise i'll never shut up. i might tag ramble more often bc this was therapeutic in a way i needed badly #cat chat

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tridentkickflipper123 · 4 months ago

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#chonny jash #cccc #cccc soul #cj soul #cccc mind #cj mind #(not a ship) (please don't tag as such)#art #concordposting #I don't even know what to caption these anymore I'm not going to lie #like yeah here's my 394857345th concord post of the week. what the fuck ever #I've realized the only reason there's not more Soul and Mind duo art on my blog (compared to how much I think about them) is because #I keep starting comics with them. and then... not finishing those comics... because comics are my least favorite thing to do...#but a lot of those ideas can really only be expressed through comics...#hmm. ideas found dead by their nature... oh well. I'd really like a big sandwich right now

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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 4 months ago

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I won't let you go again.

(Timeskip follow up for the MDZS Homestuck AU)

#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #lan wangji #wei wuxian #mdzs au #homestuck #digital art #Approximately 3 people asked for this. Some of them even pleaded.#Those are three people whom I hope have a wonderful day.#I do want to clear up a misconception that the associated colours are one for one their blood colours.#The Lan clan take in mostly blue and maybe teal bloods. They already kick out the 'not pretty enough' cultivators canonically.#...Oh god I'm going to have to make more art for this AU to show it off aren't I? When will my commitment to the bit end...#1000 likes and I'll post an un-homestucked version of them. I say - knowing it is very possible. I'd do it for less I'm just being silly.#But yes - WWX comes back with a few extra years more than he would have in his first life. It is still not as long as LWJ will have.#What matters is that they will have time together. The don't have forever - they have 'right now' and 'tomorrow'.#And that is just as important too B*)

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fallofthecelestial · 3 months ago

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Okay. Since we're going over all the takes on Mr. X at this point.. What if his powers really don't have a backside. What if (the state of) his normal life is the backside.

What if his normal life is akin to that of heroes where he has to pretend to be something he's not and follow rules that the people who control his life came up with to further their own goals. What if he can only be free of other people's beliefs and expectations when he's a hero.

What if in reality he truly is like everyone else. The other heroes. The ordinary people. All those who work themselves to the bone, who are tired and overworked and sick of all the exploitation...

What if when he's in the form of the number one hero.. when he becomes the most sought after product on the hero market..

Is when he gains the freedom to truly be himself

#to be hero x #tbhx #hero x #considering one of the first things they revealed to us in the trailers was that he's a white-collar worker...#we definitely need to think about that if we wanna try to predict / guess what he's actually like #this thing feels very lin ling coded but lin ling is tbhx coded (introduction to the main themes of the show)#so I feel like my best prediction rn is that he's actually the other side of the same damn coin #(cue the coin flip clip from the opening *coughs*)#I think from a writing perspective the whole downside thing is based on a characters perception #so if the writers make us think that X is an omnipresent all powerful god #then it just makes sense to reverse it by revealing that the opposite is equally as true #and then he'd have an even stronger incentive to want to break the system cuz both of his lives would've been defined by exploitation #maybe not the bright side of X (at least not after he became No. 1) but I don't think being the best product makes him no longer a product #ACTUALLY #“bright side” was supposed to refer to his hero identity bc of the black & white switch he has going on but #yeah calling his normal self the “dark side of X” would definitely reinforce the idea that it's the not so good parts he hides #and we've not much of normal X yet (other than his sugar stealing. you go boy exploit the company back for sugar. I believe in you) but!#we all know there's darker times coming. right.#I don't think they're gonna reveal his normal life to have a sad backstory or Idk (there's gonna be enough of that elsewhere anyways haha)#but we've definitely only seen the top of the iceberg for now #btw yes I do think capitalism & the CEOs are gonna be the real villains #and X is probably playing their game to win #yes all along you were reading my “X is actually anti-capitalist” propaganda #we're gonna go free heroes (at a cost) :))#ice demon talks #tbhx theories #tbhx analysis

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letmetellyouaboutmyfeels · 1 year ago

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As if I wasn't already exhausted enough this morning...

It's been brought to my attention that people are taking my fanfics, editing them, and sharing them around. I don't have the words to describe how not okay this is. If you don't like something about my fanfic, then I'm sorry to hear that, but there are a lot of other fics out there you can read instead.

I put time and effort and care into my writing, as does every writer. To take my work without permission and change it feels like someone just punched me in the gut. Frankly it makes me not want to share my work at all and to take down all the writing I do have up, because why should I share anything with people if all they're going to do is decide it's not good enough and they're going to do what they want with it and make it "better"?

And before anyone comes at me, this is not what a transformative work does. This is not the same as fanfiction. I'm fucking exhausted from working two eleven hour shifts over the weekend so my brain is not working so someone smarter and more articulate than I am can explain why. I'm tired.

This genuinely makes me want to take down all my works and not share anything new. It's very simple, kiddos: Don't like it? Don't read it. You will miss out on some fanfics that way, just like you'll miss out on some films, or books, or TV shows. I've missed out on really good fic, novels, films, etc, for the same reason. We all do. It's a part of life. Stuff will sometimes have things in it that you don't like. Skim those parts, fast-forward those scenes, grin and bear it, or just go and read/watch something else.

Normally I would make this post unrebloggable but I worry other writers in this fandom might experience the same thing and not realize it. So people are welcome to reblog this. Anyone who's an ass on it will be blocked, no second chances.

Just. Don't do this guys. Holy shit don't do this. What the actual fuck.

#lincoln writes stuff #911 abc #911 fanfic #yes unfortunately tagging the fandom since that's the fandom it happened in #I'm just #holy fuck #genuinely I want to message every writer I know in this fandom #even if we've never spoken #to like... warn them this is apparently a thing #I wish I could make my brain work right now but I'm so fucking braindead #I'm working three jobs and this is my fun relax safe space except NOT ANYMORE 'CAUSE PEOPLE ARE BEING DICKS #just... don't fucking do this what the FUCK is wrong with you #actual CHILDREN are more respectful holy fuck

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impactrueno · 5 days ago

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#i'll delete this when i wake up #i dont know what the hell is wrong with me but i'm on the verge of breaking down rn bc it's 6am and i couldn't do shit today #except struggle drawing because for some reason my hand just wont respond lol it's like i completely forgot how to draw #and it's been like this for a few days now and idk what to do #i cant afford to “take a break” please stop telling me i need to take a break #i know you guys mean well but i know taking a break would just make me feel worse because i'm taking even longer to finish what i need to d #i cant afford being useless right now #the reason i started my patreon back up is because my mom had to quit her job so right now the bills are on me #and my mom decided to take over taking care of my grandma so i can focus on *my* work for once #and it's truly a blessed opportunity but at the same time i feel enormously pressured to excel at this because if i don't then idk what i'l #what i'll even do #i have so many pending commissions to finish and patreon content to prepare #my brain gets stuck doing the simplest things #everything takes me ages to get started and once i do i cant stop because then itll be so hard to pick up again #love dealing with executive dysfunction at a time where i'm pressured to somehow pull money out of my ass to provide for the three of us #i'm so terrified of failing that i freeze before i even do anything #anyway im gonna go take my meds and try to calm the fuck down and cry myself to sleep or something #im sorry to all the people who had to read this i promise ill be fine when i wake up #i just needed to vent at no one in particular because talking to people is overwhelming the fuck out of me right now #and i don't want to offend anyone with my unresponsiveness #thnak you guys for being patient with me

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