#i just feel like everything theyre doing has been done better by someone else

[charliebot-art]

gonna be honest chat i rly miss archive 81

[thyme-in-a-bubble]

was binge reading under your wing au and had an idea for it

What if the boys were playing mario party and reader sits on the dick who has the highest points

(lowkey they get her high & theyre not allowed to bust in her)

a/n: no but the way intox kink is so high on my list of things i wanna play around with these guys!! you get meeeee! you’ve hacked my computer and looked at my nasty notes! ♡ 

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when your stepbro had texted you saying that he had gotten his hands on the newest game and was inviting you over for the first official time he and the rest of the frat got to play with it, sweet little you had of course assumed that that was just it. you would just go over there, play some nintendo, laugh till you cried, nothing else whatsoever 

how fucking wrong could you have been

it was Marc who was the one who suddenly conjured a joint from his stash. 

your eyes went wide when you realised that it wasn’t just a hand rolled cigarette that the frat boy was about to light in the middle of the living room. 

now, you’d never done any drugs before, much less seen any in real life, not even a simple joint, so naturally you instantly became paranoid, looking over your shoulder because what if an officer of the law suddenly burst down the door and saw you all doing illegal shit? it wasn’t gonna happen, but the ache still bloomed in your stomach 

then they say all of this stuff about how you should try it for the first time in a safe space around people who you know, which calms you enough to timidly take the blunt when it is handed to you

the first hit makes you cough like crazy and you quickly begin to feel strange, but the guys then just nudge you and say that if you take another drag then you’ll feel better. glancing to your stepbrother, he of course is all in as well and just lulls you into a false sense of security, assuring you that everything will be alright and how you should trust him since he’s your big stepbro after all

so you quickly turn into a giggly mess, all foggy and pliant for them to toss you to whoever wants you in their lap

maybe at first it gets you so hazy and turned on that you unconsciously start humping the thigh that you’re sitting on, like you’re in fucking heat or something

or maybe it’s the guys who take the opportunity to tease you as soon as you get all fuzzy. light caresses all over your body, so light that you don’t even register them through your high. tickling your little nipples as they poke through your shirt. basically just teasing you till you’re all drippy for them and trembling on top of them like they’ve edged you for hours. 

they don’t really take any of their clothes off, just unzips and such for the ✨important✨ parts of them to spring forth

but they do rip all of your clothes off, not that you really notice till it’s way too late because of how brainless they’ve got you

now, i’m imagining that since you’re all melted, the perfect little pocket pussy for them all, the position you’re often moulded into is like you in their lap, your back completely melted back against them, your legs folded up against your chest while their arms are wrapped around you and their just bouncing you in their laps, using you like a fleshlight

that vibe or they make you cockwarm them if they still gotta have their hands free to play 

they probably tried to get you to move on your own, but you are just way too high to be able to do it, so they settle for just the feeling of your weepy cunt clenching tightly around them as you try to keep up with the bright colours flashing on the tv

oooorrrr maybe someone who isn’t playing (because there are tons of them and there's a limit to how many players there can be at once) can swoop in and help move you. you know, just dudes being dudes, bros being bros and getting each other off, jerking your pal off with the pussy that you’re all head over heels for lol

now, your eyelids feel so so heavy, and at one point you finally loose the battle, but then when you blink them open again, it takes you a while to notice that you’re sitting on someone else’s cock

and if your whining gets too much and starts messing with their concentration of the game, then they just grumble for you to shut up before the person next to you suddenly grabs your hair and folds you over to silence your whimpers and fill up your mouth 

they also get you to say all sorts of nasty things that you’d normally blush and put your foot down at if they tried to make you repeat such filth when you were sober

and if all of this happens after they’ve trained you to take multiple of them at once in your warm little holes, well then you best believe that they make you cockwarm multiple of them at once, filling up all of your holes with at least one dick at a time

now, your stepbro may not have allowed his friends to finish in you that day, but that just means that instead of it leaking out of you, you just get covered in cum :) 

and maybe at the end, the next morning when you wake up, you don’t remember too many details from what happened, just that you played that new game and then you must have fallen asleep on the couch… strange… maybe the guys will just have to remind you then of all of the things that actually happened while you were stoned out of your mind…

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[supernotnatural2005]

yay you accept requests! 🥰 sometimes i think about how dean has endured a lot of touch that was not welcomed especially from monsters and of course michael 💔 it makes me think about a fic where reader is extra gentle with him and makes the effort to check in with him and ask for consent before doing different simple actions while theyre getting intimate. idk that might be kinda heavy to write and if it is please dont feel pressure to write it..... actually please don't feel any pressure at all to write it lol but i think youd really do it justice if its something youre interested in 🧡

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Pairing: Dean x Reader

Summary: Michael is gone, for good, but his lingering torment still remains with Dean. Will he ever find closure, can you bring him back from this?

Word Count: 2.1k

Warnings/tags: Angst, PTSD, established relationship, Light smut (18+Only), fluff.

AN: So I focused more on the aftermath with Michael, I feel it worked better with this request? To the lovely anon who sent it in, I hope I've done it justice for you? 🫣❤️ I hope you all enjoy ☺️

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The last few weeks had been a delicate dance of watching Dean. Not in a way that felt suffocating, but in a way that was more about paying attention to the quiet things he didn’t say. You could see it in the way his shoulders tensed when people unexpectedly clapped him on the back or reached for him. It was subtle, but it was there. And you noticed.

Dean was no longer the man he had been before, even if he didn’t fully realise it. The constant tension in his body, how he always seemed on edge, the way his eyes would narrow in wariness at sudden movements—everything about him screamed that he was still waiting for the other shoe to drop. For Michael to return.

And that was the difference, wasn’t it? 

Dean had been through hell before—literally. He had clawed his way out of the Pit, had survived Purgatory, had fought his way back from being a demon. He had been battered, broken, and stitched together more times than he could count, but through all of it, he had always been fighting, always been in control of his own choices, even when they were terrible ones.

But Michael? Michael had taken that from him.

Being possessed by the archangel had been a different kind of torment, a horror unlike anything he had ever endured. It wasn’t just about pain or suffering; it was about helplessness. He had been a prisoner in his own body, a passenger while Michael moved him like a marionette, speaking with his voice, wielding his hands, using his face—all while Dean could do nothing but watch.

Every moment had been filled with the unbearable certainty that it wasn’t a matter of if Michael would use him to hurt the people he loved, but when. And then Michael locked him away in his own head, had him living in some fantasy loop that you Sam and Cas shattered. It haunted him, and deeply so.

Jack had made sure Michael was gone for good, burned him up until there was nothing left, but that didn’t erase the damage. Knowing Michael couldn’t come back didn’t stop the nightmares. It didn’t stop the way Dean flinched when someone reached for him too quickly, or the way he sometimes stared at himself in the mirror for too long, as if expecting to see someone else staring back. It didn’t stop the lingering fear that there was still something inside him that wasn’t him. That maybe, in some way, he wasn’t just Dean Winchester anymore.

It had left a fracture in him, a barely visible fault line running through the man who had once seemed unshakable. Maybe no one else could see it, but you could. And maybe, deep down, Dean could feel it too—even if he wasn’t ready to admit it.

You weren’t sure how to help him heal from something like that. But you knew being there was half the battle.

You didn’t want to smother him or act like he was fragile—Dean hated that more than anything—but you also didn’t want to pretend you hadn’t noticed the way he had changed. He wasn’t broken, no matter how much he tried to convince himself he was. He was healing. And healing took time.

So, you started small.

A gentle hand on his arm as you passed him a cup of coffee in the morning, fingers lingering just long enough to remind him you were there. A light brush of your knee against his under the table, subtle enough that he didn’t tense, but still something real.

When you drove into town, you’d reach for his hand, lacing your fingers through his, letting your thumb trace slow, idle circles over the back of his knuckles. You never pushed, never clung—if he pulled away, you’d let him. But more often than not, he didn’t. He let you hold him, let himself get used to it. And when he did squeeze your hand back, even just a little, it felt like progress.

On the couch in the ‘Dean cave’ when you sat down to watch a movie, you’d sit close enough that your thighs touched, letting him decide if he wanted more. Some nights, he’d stay still, comfortable in your quiet presence. Other nights, he’d surprise you—letting his arm fall loosely around your shoulders, pulling you in just enough that you could hear his heartbeat beneath the layers of flannel.

You never made a big deal out of it. That was important. Dean never did well with being handled like something fragile. But little by little, you saw the shifts.

He started reaching for you. Taking your hand first when you walked through town, absentmindedly rubbing his thumb over your knuckles the same way you did to him. Kissing your temple as you made breakfast together, his hand steady on your waist as he leaned in, warm and familiar. He let himself relax into you, like he used to—like before.

However, as the night stretched on and you curled up beneath the covers one night, waiting—either for him to join you or finding the familiar sight of him slumped over a library table, lost in whiskey and exhaustion—Dean appeared in the doorway. His shadow spilled into the room, not looming, just present.

You smiled at him, warm and welcoming, offering him the quiet reassurance you always did.

Something about him seemed different tonight—quieter, but not in the way that made your chest tighten with worry. Still, after everything, you couldn’t help but wonder if he was slipping again. But then, without a word, he crossed the room, climbed into bed beside you, and slipped under the covers—no hesitation, no distance, no walls.

That alone was enough to steal your breath.

He didn’t just press a quick kiss to your lips before rolling over like he had so many nights before. Instead, he moved closer, warm and solid, his arm carefully draping around your waist.

You stilled, startled by the shift—but pleasantly so.

Then, for the first time in what felt like forever, he held you.

Not just physically, but fully. Like he was here with you, really here, instead of somewhere far away, trapped in the shadows of his own mind.

A slow, lingering kiss pressed to your bare shoulder. Then another.

You sighed at the warmth of it, at the weight of him against you, at the silent promise in his touch that you hadn’t felt in so long.

“Thank you,” he murmured, voice rough with emotion.

Your fingers curled around his arm where it rested against you, squeezing lightly. “For what?”

“For sticking with me,” he admitted, his lips brushing your skin between words. “For loving me through yet another damn crisis.”

Emotion clogged your throat as you turned in his arms, meeting his gaze. His eyes—green, raw, open—held something you hadn’t seen in too long. Something him.

“It was never even a question,” you whispered, your fingers ghosting over his cheek, aching to soothe away the lingering remnants of his fear.

Dean exhaled sharply, like the words reached something deep inside him. He leaned into your touch, his eyes fluttering shut, and he sighed—a real sigh, one that sounded like relief, like letting go.

Then, he turned his head, pressing a kiss to the inside of your palm before capturing your lips with his own.

It wasn’t rushed or uncertain. It was slow, deep, sure—the kind of kiss you had missed, the kind that said more than words ever could.

It grew heavier, his hands finding your waist, gripping like he needed to anchor himself to you. You felt the heat of it, the want in it, and your heart ached with how much you had missed this.

Still, you pulled back, breathless, searching his eyes. “Dean…” you whispered. “Are you sure?”

For the first time in what felt like forever, he looked like your Dean.

His gaze was warm, adoring, steady—filled with something deeper than desire.

“I’ve never been more sure.”

And then, he kissed you again—more purposefully, more certainly, pulling you flush against him.

You let him lead, let him set the pace, let him take what he needed. But still, some small part of you hesitated, worried, unsure if he was ready.

Dean must have sensed it because his hands fisted in your camisole, his lips brushing yours as he broke away just enough to whisper, “I want you to touch me. Make me feel whole again.”

Your breath caught, your chest tightening at the vulnerability in his voice. At the pleading look in his eyes. Like this—this—was the final piece he needed to reclaim himself.

And so, you did.

You held him tighter, your hands tracing familiar paths over his skin—relearning him, grounding him, reminding him that he was here. That he was Dean—and no one else.

Your fingers ghosted over his jaw, down the strong column of his throat, feeling the thick swallow beneath your touch. His breath hitched, his grip on you tightening like he was afraid you might pull away. But you didn’t. You never would.

Instead, you pulled him closer, your lips finding his in a slow, unhurried kiss—one that deepened as his body melted against yours. He was warm and solid, all hard muscle and quiet vulnerability beneath your fingertips, and when your nails scraped lightly down his back, he shuddered.

His mouth parted against yours, a quiet groan slipping free as your bodies aligned. He pressed closer, hands roaming—hesitant at first, like he needed to be sure this was real. But when you murmured his name, when your fingers traced his spine and your legs tangled with his, something in him snapped.

The hesitation bled away, replaced by something deeper—something desperate.

His hands gripped your hips, strong fingers pressing into your skin as he guided you beneath him. His kiss turned hungry, consuming, like he was trying to make up for every night he’d spent distant, for every time he convinced himself he didn’t deserve this—you.

Between kisses, between slow, careful touches, you checked in with him—silent, unspoken questions in the way your eyes met his. And each time, he nodded. Yes. Encouraging. Needing.

And when he finally pushed inside you, his forehead dropped to yours, his breath faltering as a deep, broken sound rumbled in his chest. His arms tightened around you, holding you like you were the only thing keeping him from falling apart. But you only held him closer, guiding him through it, keeping him here—with you.

Soft reassurances spilled from your lips, your hands mapping his body—his back, his arms, the sharp line of his jaw. Gentle yet firm, never letting him go. Never letting him slip away. He breathed your name like a prayer, like it was the only thing tethering him to this moment, to you.

And then he moved.

Slow at first, each roll of his hips careful, like he was afraid to shatter the fragile reality of this—of you. His lips ghosted over your skin, relearning, savoring, his breath hot against your throat. But the restraint, the hesitation, it was slipping. You could feel it in the way his fingers tightened in your hair, in the way his body pressed flush against yours, desperate to be closer.

When he pulled back, his gaze met yours—warm, adoring, a little wet around the edges. He swallowed hard, his voice rough when he rasped, “God, I've missed you.”

Your fingers curled into his back, nails digging in just enough to ground him, and you kissed him—his temple, his cheek, the corner of his mouth—letting your own emotions spill into every touch. 

“I’m right here,” you whispered. “Always.”

Something in him cracked at that. A quiet, shuddering exhale. His jaw tensed like he wanted to say something, but instead, he just kissed you—slow and deep, pouring everything into it.

And then the desperation bled through.

His rhythm faltered, hips pressing harder, deeper, like he was chasing something just out of reach. His breath grew ragged, his hands roaming—gripping, pulling—like he needed to anchor himself in you.

His fingers threaded through yours, pinning them to the mattress as his pace turned urgent. A tremor rolled through him, his forehead pressing into the crook of your neck as he gasped your name. And you felt it—the way his body coiled, the way he was holding on, trying to keep control, trying to make this last.

But you didn’t want him to hold back.

So you whispered his name again, voice soft, coaxing. You let your hands wander, tracing his spine, dragging your nails down his back just enough to push him over that final edge.

And then, he let go.

A broken sound tore from his throat as his body shuddered against yours, as he buried himself deep, spilling into you with a raw, unguarded intensity. His grip on you tightened, his breath hot and uneven, your name falling from his lips like a prayer, like a plea.

And as the tension ebbed, as his body finally melted against yours, you felt it.

The shift.

The moment he finally, finally came back to you.

AN: So this was my first time in like over 10 years of fulfilling a specific request! 😅 It's a little angsty with a sweet ending 🥹. I hope it's what you were hoping for anon! 💕 And to everyone else I hope you enjoy 😊

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[spinnileaf]

big hero rant. Pls read i need more hero appreciation💙💙💙

i think something a lot of people forget about heros character is that being praised for being "perfect" or "good at everything" and all things like that is. Not a good thing. everyone views it as good but the amount of praise and admiration he gets is extremely hurtful to him. whether its intentional or not the amount hes praised for things he does like good grades, college, cooking and cleaning etc. just sets huge expectations for him and makes him feel like its something he absolutely has to do or else everyone will be disappointed in him. hes almost never shown that kind of attention for his actual personality and how caring he is but rather what he accomplishes, and theres been so many points in his life where he isnt able to do those things because of his mental state (and cause nobody can live up to that much) no matter what he does, theres no way he'll always be able to meet everyones expectations for him so he will always feel like he is failing and not doing enough for everyone.He has so much that he wants to do in life and his own hobbies, but hes completely given up on them and everything that makes him happy just so that he doesnt disappoint his parents or other people who think too highly of him!! the amount people congratulate him for his achievements and everything hes capable of has given him extremely bad self esteem and a feeling that hell never be enough for everyone, but hes so closed off about it and will immediately mask his emotions because even showing negative emotions makes him feel like hes going to let everyone down and make them stop believing hes strong. Hes so focused on making sure everyone else is happy and nothing bad happens that he completely stops caring for himself and his own emotions, and that extreme kindness is what people should appreciate of him because its a trait that he has and will always live up to because its just how he is as a person and not something he could super easily not be able to do anymore. One of the only times in the game where hero is admired for who he is is when theyre sleeping at sunnys house and he describes hero as a person and why hell miss him ("HERO has always been someone you could rely on. He is wise, capable, loving, and always puts others above himself. He is the kind of person that will always make himself available to help you, even to a fault. You will really miss him.") all of heros friends truly do appreciate him for who he is, but he appears to repress his negative emotions towards himself so much that they assume he does as well and only feel a need to congratulate him for what he has done (it also really hurts to me that sunny doesnt talk/communicate enough to let hero know that hes one of the only ones who truly does see him and appreciate him for himself and want the best for him and what he wants uuuuu im really glad the game is told through sunnys perspective because he is so loving) when mari died, hero immediately fell into a deep state of depression and showed pretty much every sign of being suicidal, meaning he could no longer look after everyone and do things like cooking or his school work so he was extremely aware that everyones expectations for him were going to be ruined and that they wouldnt think hes doing everything right and well anymore. so im sure its understandable that after kel says "mari wouldnt want to see you like this", hero interprets it as "mari would be disappointed that youre like this too" and all of the hatred hes built up for himself and his lack of perfection comes out in the form of lashing out at him, but unfortunately for him showing that amount of anger just makes his situation even worse because it changes how kel views him permanently. even though kel is genuinely proud of hero and how hes gotten better and proud to be his brother, he will always be hurt by what happened and hero will have to live knowing hes permanently hurt someone who he loved the most because he felt like he wasnt good enough for them.

mari was also one of the only people who actually showed support in heros hobbies and dreams like cooking and things other people wouldve called silly, she was the only true support he was able to get and that made him appreciate himself more, so wehn mari died he didnt only lose her as a person and the whole friend group, he lost the only bit of belief he had left that he would be able to do what he enjoys in life and be free from everyone elses harsh expectations and enjoy the freedom that comes with being an adult

Anywau im really bad with words and theres like no thought behind this so its not meant to be a 'proper analysis' i just dont like how things like this are completely brushed over with him!! people always label hero as the "boring character" because they really do fall for the act he puts on to appear perfect and flawless to everyone else, either that or they just dont care enough to look into how complex his character is.And i want to bring attention to him so im pointing out for fun

[jonathanspenguinboxers]

pls rank your top circle characters, if you’ve already done it, just pretend i never said anything

Ok so I have different lists. Favorite characters, and most interesting, and a couple of others. I’m gonna do most interesting here, because someone else asked me favorites. This is one of my favorite posts and it took me so long omg. Basically turned into a character analysis but thats my whole fun with the circle. Lmk what you guys think about them too! What you agree or disagree with. I honestly don't like this ranking because theyre all top 3 for me, I am exceedingly fascinated by all of them

1. Valentine. Obviously. I want to pick his brain and how he became the way he is. His ideals, convictions, the radical belief in his cause and complete hypocrisy. So interesting to me, I could talk about him forever. Perfect foil to the narrative, and a perfect microcosm of choice, why it matters so much, how you ALWAYS have choice, and how it is not your experiences or past that define you, rather how you choose to keep going, and he simply chose to abide by fear, anger, and grief instead of processing it. I think its imperative to understand what his character represents beyond the obvious faults of fascism, bigotry, and prejudice, because you can get so much more from him. I could write essays on him and I will. But what an important character to understand the purpose of. Perfect foil. Perfect villain. I'm not putting all my thoughts here because it would get too long.

2. Luke. I adore that he was the only one in the circle forced to his knees by becoming a werewolf to live that life and come to terms on such a deep level. How fucking insane and beautiful to have a world and narrative that allows you to put your characters directly in the spot of their deepest prejudice. This is honestly the only punishment I see fit for the circle members, death is too easy. I love that he had to know true violence to become who we know him during TMI. That his peace and calmness is a choice, since he is certainly and familiar with great violence. I love his journey, the grief, the isolation and growth, how after everything he still chooses to be kind, actively makes that choice, and remains empathetic, having a wider range now with both experiences, but that doesn't mean he would end up with it, he chose it. I love you Luke Garroway. Morally grey, still does things that shouldn't be (killing the werwolf leader to get the pack, while yes it was to protect Clary and Jocelyn and that is how packs usually handle it, he still has the power to bargain, offer help in exchange for protection, etc) But still, I think that makes him complex and imperfect and he still has a ways to go. He is the perfect foil to Valentine, with their dynamic of choice, and I could go into that forever as well. Chefs kiss Cassie.

3. Jocelyn. She's just really mysterious to me honestly. A lot of her actions are swept away or shifting blame onto Valentine, and overall I've never been able to pin her exactly. I really need to reread because now that I'm not 12 I'll probably be able to pick up more 😭 Still, shes incredibly complex and exceedingly interesting to me. Her actions, behaviors, especially the confliction relationship between her and Sebastian. I can't get enough of her. I almost put her as 2, but ultimately I know more about Luke and find his werewolf dilemma so fun (for me)

4. Robert. He's fascinating. His psyche, his choices, his growth during TMI and between. He's incredibly imperfect and a very broken man, but what do I love more? He's not as mysterious to me as the other three, I feel like I have a way better grasp on him as a whole, but still, I love writing him, his interactions, etc. I find mostly his perpetual defense of giving up his moral compass to Valentine, the clave, etc very interesting and want to explore that a lot. I love to make him my punching bag ❤️

5. Maryse. She was the most invested in the circle. Her relationship with Valentine seemed particularly strong or at least different. Out of everyone else she was the most convicted in the cause and I really want to know why.

6. Stephen. I actually really like Stephen. I want to poke him with a sharp stick. I really want to be in his brain, why when he seemed to have a loving household he still felt the need to join the circle (its because most shadowhunters would have/will, prejudice is so engrained in the culture that the circle was only taken down because they started killing shadowhunters and it was simply an extension of the clave and shadowhunter culture and Stephen, even despite being a more healthy child is still surrounded by this propaganda and it takes nothing, especially in a war driven society where things like Jem's story happens but whatever) why he was so morally weak, leaving the woman he loves, marrying one he didn't, staying when he explicitly knew Valentine would kill him. His psyche is so fucked. I love his character because he wasn't dealt that bad of a hand and it just goes to show that its your choices that make you, and EVERYONE has a choice, for either direction, always. He chose wrong, again and again, against his better judgement, will, and peace of mind. And how interesting is that

7. Celine. Sad that I put her this low, actually everyone feels low because I am extremely interested in all of them in different ways. I do feel like I have a grasp on her very well, its similar to Hodge, where she is compliant to her trauma and lives by the fear of confronting it, so instead she searches for connection, fullfillment, etc everywhere but inside of herself and therefore gives away her power and choice. Everyone does it. Not to this extreme, but in a way, everyone can be like Celine, whether your giving up your power to food, relationships, patterns, belief systems, helplessness or if your like me the victim mentality, etc, and so I think shes just an imperative character to understand and use as a tool to reflect. Shes devastating, and unfortunately this happens too often in real life, that people are convinced they must sacrifice for their happiness or else they are undeserving. Also why it is so important to have community (TO NOT FUCKING BEAT YOUR CHILDREN) and to build safe spaces for the youth for them to grow and self actualize so that no one, espeically the disturbed and broken, can take advantage of them.

8. Amatis. Similar to Stephen. She has a victim complex, she is not set in her convictions, she chooses her actions with no real bad hand (When I say bad hand, I mean someone like Celine who was explicitly going through an extremely abusive and traumatic experience) yes, she was abandoned, she was neglected, but she had Luke, and it was never implied that they struggled to eat or that they had a turbulent childhood in general besides their parents leaving. I like her selfishness and her fear a lot, I especially like how she betrayed Luke and still goes to clave meetings while having no real opinion and never speaking up. Its real. Its because shes hurt. Its human. Its wrong. I love it! I love when women get to be real people without being villains. Was she a good person? Who cares. Not the point. Shes human and she represents that side of trauma. I could explore all of this about her forever, and I wished she had lived to keep growing, mainly, likeeveryone else, I wish she was turned into a downworlder and forced to experience that. It would force her to grow, because she is so determined to avoid it.

9. Hodge. I am very interested him I just feel like I know him. I know why he did it, I have my speculations on his character, and theres not so much complexity to him, he is just a broken, neglected kid who was found by the wrong person and attached to his attention. I know you Hodge. I really like his character as a character, its a great representation of this kind of trauma and what happens when it goes unchecked and why it is SO important to ensure the youth are not neglected, and that they have the access to good influence, in fact I think it applies heavily to society nowadays (the rise of shootings and the implications of WHY that is becoming more prevalent) which is why I'm so adamant on critiquing the circle since it parallels a lot of reality, especially now but thats neither here nor there, I love writing about Hodge, I love analyzing him, I just love others more.

10. Michael. I just feel like out of everyone he has the most simple(not the right word idk) conundrum. I don't think he's not interesting, I just think the others are more interesting. I still really like how he marries Eliza after being in the circle, even dating her while being in it, how he could have grown afterwards if he was already entertaining other ideas. I think that had a lot of material to go with it, but we know so little about him unless it has to do with Robert

[giga-queen]

What have you been thinking about lately? (:

HI THANK U SO MUCH FOR THIS ASK . SMILES SO BIG!!!!!

i have been thinking about walnut so much lately.. more specifically her character development as well as her relationship to both roguefort and her mother. ill focus on her and roguefort more in this post though :] im gonna try to be comprehensible in this one but thisll be a doozy

reblogs ok!

what i find interesting is that in every case we've seen walnut and roguefort BESIDES their release event, walnut has always defended them. In the butter painting affair she knew that they would have left a calling card, in the lost holiday she knew that they wouldnt have done any harm to eggnog cookie, and in face the trial she knew they wouldnt have stolen something with such little value. Theres a big contrast between her first interaction with them in their release event and how she treats them from that point on, and its clear that they dont have quite the rivalry that was shown in that first event. Walnut isnt nipping at their heels every chance she gets lol

i think that from the start, roguefort has always been fond of her,, in a mentor or parental way almost; they see her potential. they see her skill. they want to watch her grow, to see her learn from her mistakes and become a better detective and a better person. in the lost holiday the calling card was a gift itself - they know how much she loves doing detective work and they want to encourage her, though if they break character then the game isnt fun anymore and it feels less genuine ,, so they observe her from a distance. I do think that they wish they could care for her more but they have to be discreet about it since theyre. yknow. A thief and supposed to be her most hated rival (be weird abt these two btw and i will eat your fingers)(dont ship them)

i dont know if this was intended to be canon or not, but thinking about how roguefort left in their release event feels,,, strange? If the boat was far enough from the docks that nobody was trying to stop them, then surely they couldve escaped with the jewel still in their hands. sure, they threw to distract everyone and allow them to escape, but there was a Whole crowd of people there ? if walnut had caught the gem, someone else could have jumped onto the boat and caught them. i like to interpret it as them trying to reward walnut. While they werent going to turn themself over just like that, they wanted to give her a prize for being smart enough to solve their puzzle. They wanted to encourage her by giving her back the gem, even if Cheesecake had a spare and nothing would have really changed if they had kept it :]c

heres my interpretation of them, and its mainly based off of the lines "One logical answer always exists!" "One logical answer? Sounds rather... dull."

in the start, walnut did consider them rivals. She was pretty young at the time and still figuring the world out so she saw them basically as a supervillain, basically just a person filled with pure evil intent and thats... Obviously not who they are. but little wawer just saw someone stealing and went Ah evil!! Evil!!!!! you are WRONG and you must be STOPPED!!! And thus their rivalry began. Also why she was so bitter towards them in the first event :]

in the events of search for lost time/pursuit of lost time, though - and keep in mind, this is completely based on my own headcanons since we hardly know anything abt these costumes - walnut realizes a shift in their behavior. At some point, they even put their own life on the line just to save her... would an evil, cruel person really do something like that? Why would they risk themself to save her when all shes ever done is try to have them arrested?

this is when she starts to realize that not everything in the world is black and white. Not everything has one logical answer. What is rogueforts motive? that is one messy question with multiple answers and none of them are logical. This also goes into my headcanons with her relationship with almond but thats for another ask heehee... Walnut starts to realize other things, too. Roguefort always leaves a calling card, and theyre always incredibly polite to everyone, even the authorities,, of course thats just phantom thief stuff but she realizes that they really arent just some villain. Theres much more to them than some urge to cause mischief and steal from others. in my timeline, all of the other events take place after search for lost time/pursuit of lost time, and this is where walnut starts to defend them rather than just try to chase them.

At this point, i dont think walnut wants to see them behind bars anymore. that was pretty clear when she was distraught at the sentence cappuccino gave them. i think shes conflicted about them. She wants to know the truth about who they are, and why theyre doing everything. She wants to see them change - for them to start doing good. but at the same time, she doesnt. at the same time,,, roguefort is one of the only ones who takes her seriously

Almond is the most guilty of this, and ill elaborate on that in another post, but oh Boy does he make walnut feel worthless and dumb. walnut is always trying to act more mature, more professional and less child-like despite Very much being a child, first example off the top of my head being her not wanting to decorate her office for the holidays and also the way that she always calls almond by his name instead of mom/mother(or dad/father if we're not talking about my hcs lol). She doesnt want to be treated like a child. and to some extent, yeah, people baby her!! almond told cappuccino he was scared that shed eat a Rotten jelly are you fucking kidding me ? (dont even get me started on the one twitter art where hes worried that roguefort kidnapped walnut i do Not consider that canon because from what weve seen abt how he acts towards roguefort?? No the fuck he wouldnt????) he didnt want her to be involved in the butter painting affair because it was "dangerous" despite it basically being identical to other theft cases shes dealt with and there wasnt any violence to begin with. in her story even, people usually let her investigate just because shes cute which.. works in her favor but also FRUSTRATING because its only because shes a kid. almond is always talking about how worried he is that she'll get into trouble and YES she is a child she does need some sort of supervision but shes also so much smarter than people give her credit for. she has so much potential thats being wasted purely because people think shes too young, though at the same time, i think walnut overestimates herself. i think that because of the lack of support she gets from almond and other adults in her life she tries to go above and beyond to Prove that shes better than she actually is and that shes worthy of being a detective and taking on more cases and ends up getting hurt because of it (cough sflt). she tries to act more mature because she wants people to take her seriously but she is a Child and thus people will just look at her and go "Aww! what a cute little detective :)"

i think that the reason why shes so involved with rogueforts cases is because theyre the only one who takes her seriously. They do tease her about it - this is seen throughout all of the events but most specifically in the first one when she gets upset at them calling her "little detective." though they still take her seriously. They see the skill she has now, and they dont just see what she could be in the future. theyre more focused on supporting her now and giving her encouragment and more puzzles to solve rather than babying her and telling her she'll be a great detective someday like everyone else. thats especially important to walnut considering almond does Not show her the same support and is more often restricting her and trying to get her to stop

if roguefort were to stop, to be arrested or to decide that their life of crime was over, walnut wouldnt have that support anymore. Thats terrifying to her. while she does want what is best, there is also a part of her thats a little selfish and just wants things to stay the same forever.

idk where to put this but im elaborating more on her wanting to learn more about them. because really she shows a much deeper understanding and respect than most other characters despite them being her supposed rival ? Lost holiday in specific was so funny because she was so chill with them like "yeah i know you probably didnt do it lol i just needed to have u here just in case" ANYWAYS just the fact that she keeps standing up for them is enough to show how much respect she has for them. The general public is SO cruel and dehumanizing towards them through either idolization or vilification or both at the same time and shes one of the few who actually treat them like a person. she doesnt like it when people are unnecessarily cruel to them, like almond insisting that she stays out of the butter painting affair despite them not committing the crime or her reaction to the harsh jail sentence cappuccino gave them. Both almond and cappuccino are characters who are very close and friendly with her, might i add, and yet she still wants to protect roguefort. She knows that they deserve so much more than how the public and how authorities treat them, thief or not.

anywasy yeah um. In summary. i think that the two lines "One logical answer always exists!" "One logical answer? Sounds rather... dull." symbolize them quite nicely ... roguefort is a motivation for her, a mentor disguised as a rival. they teach her more about the world and detective work. they made her realize that not everything is black and white and taught her to people and situations in more complicated shades of gray. and i think that it goes the other way, too - in a world where roguefort is so Deeply misunderstood and misjudged, walnut tries to stand up for them and does understand them, to a degree. better than anyone else at least. she gives them hope.

[averysmolkirbo]

BABE WAKE UP NEW ✨️BAD FIC IDEA✨️ JUST DROPPED

Fic idea i might ACTUALLY be able to do, even though its probably super generic and has already been done 20 different ways before

Text under cut because the img quality is kind of shit for some reason

Anyway this is one of my less unhinged fic ideas (its probably too generic tbh) so let me know if this is any good/ if you'd read it/ thoughts/suggestions

Text because the img quality is bad lol

Fic idea for an hcom/ love/enemy triangle

narumitsu/kirinaru

similar idea to other fic but different and less fluff more drama. in the aj era.

Since its canon (i think??) phoenix refused to get any help from edgeworth when he got disbarred, i wanna expand on that idea in a relationship/love triangle way.

When phoenix gets disbarred he's intially offered support from edgeworth (even though he's still in europe) but he denies it out of pride. Even though phoenix says he doesnt need help, edgeworth has a feeling he's lying to get him to leave phoenix alone and decides to preemptively go back and see him in person. In a plot-twist-twist, phoenix is tipped off to edgeworth's suprise visit, and leaves the office before he gets there (still out of pride and believing somehow if edgeworth saw him he'd hate him for some reason) and somehow ends up staying with kristoph. Edgeworth finds the office empty and since he's persistent (in a yaoi way) he continues to look for phoenix.

Meanwhile phoenix is hiding from him at kris's house and they sort of have a thing but its kind of like a toxic old man yaoi type thing (they are terrible for each other). Kristoph is really nice to phoenix but really he's just manipulating him

and eventually Edgeworth finds out where phoenix is and goes there knowing it's kristoph but never having seen him in person before and when he gets there kris refuses to let him in like "yea no he's mine now he doesnt want to see you" with a smug little bitch attitude and while edgeworth gets the vibe he's totally lying, he's still hurt at the thought of it. He tells phoenix about it and tries to gaslight him into thinking he actually hates edgeworth (for real) and that he is WAY better for phoenix anyway. Edgeworth keeps thinking maybe phoenix really DOES hate him and that maybe he should move on since phoenix has seemingly moved on already.

Little do they both know theyre both completely incorrect about eachothers' assumptions because phoenix thinks edgeworth is chasing him to humiliate him and edgeworth thinks phoenix is running away because he hates him (for some reason) but really theyre both doing what theyre doing because they love each other. Phoenix trying to spare Edgeworth's feelings by not tarnishing his image of him by seeing him disbarred and Edgeworth not caring about that at all and just genuinely wanting to help/take care of him.

Eventually and after talking to someone else about it (maybe maya/franziska/gumshoe) edgeworth finds phoenix out somewhere and before he can run away he stops him to explain everything and they realize they love each other ❤️

[collidescopeeyes]

Idk if anyone has already maybe can you make an angst for pyke and swain, Where they rejected femreader's feeling towards them, maybe bcus of age gap or they find her annoying or maybe they like her too but they thiught theyre not enough

Rejected confession for your own good: Swain and Pyke

Swain thought something like this might happen. He's excellent at reading people, and you haven't exactly been subtle. Still, it somehow manages to take him off guard, and a part of him wants to say yes, of course, I'd love to–but there are a great many number of his personal wants he's ignored for the good of Noxus, and this is just one of many. He is, after all, Grand General of Noxus, not to mention a fifty year old man with a demon living inside him that with every passing day strives to destroy him and everything he had built. You, though–you're young and sweet, and you have a bright future ahead of you that's better off untainted by the brutal and bloody reality of his life. He has no doubt that if he showed so much as an inkling of favor to you, his enemies would take note. The Black Rose, enemies of Noxus, the noble houses within that still vied for power, even himself should Raum ever find a way to bend him to his will. A dozen possibilities dance through his mind, poison slipped into your drink or your throat ripped out by Raum’s sharp claws or a note ransoming you against his country, asking exactly how much you're worth to him–

Outwardly, he seems perfectly calm, even while his mind ties itself in knots. Your hopeful smile threatens to break his resolve, but he's done much worse than break a heart for the good of Noxus. Still, he should let you down easy--you deserved that much. His voice comes out perfectly even when he says, “You're a wonderful young woman, but I'm afraid I don't feel the same.” He's much too good at reading people not to see how your face falls, before you cover it with a resigned smile and hastily excuse yourself. After the door clicks shut behind you, he scrubs his good hand over his face and allows himself to take three steadying breaths. Then, he returns to work. Noxus needs him. You're not the first, and not the last thing he'll give up for that.

–

Pyke absolutely did not see this coming. He's a fucking mess, who in their right mind would want him? He's dead. He's crazy. He's got a face like a lions scratching post and the temperament of a bull shark. He's a killer and one day death isn't gonna spit him back out again. What kind of life is that for anyone? Especially for you? You, the one good thing about this rat pit of a town, the one person who makes the seething mess in his head go quiet. You, who deserve so much better than a broken man with a short and bloody future ahead of him. Who deserves better than him. The voices rise, cascading over his senses like a tide rolling in. You're a killer, they remind him, and you will never be done. You belong to the Deep. You belong knife-deep in the ones who wronged you. There's nothing for you but that. Don't you remember how it hurt? The teeth, the saltwater in your lungs? Don't you want them to feel it too–

You're still waiting for an answer, he realizes belatedly. The voices swim in his ears, and his answer is clear. “No.” Your smile falters, and he almost reaches out to you before he catches himself. Fuck–he’s never turned down anyone whose feelings he gave a shit about before. He's bad with words, and worse with being gentle–another reason you're better off with someone else. “I mean–” his voice falters, struggling to put words to the tangled pit of feelings churning in his chest.

“That's okay,” you say, because you've always been far, far kinder than he's ever deserved. “You don't need to explain.”

He lets out a deep breath. “‘s better this way, trust me,” he grunts. The voices rise again, and he just knows if he stays here he's going to do something stupid, so he turns and dives off the dock without another word. He lets himself turn to sea-spray, let's the Deep take him down into it's crushing depths, as if he can outrun the memory of that sad smile on your face. Maybe it will–its not the first time the Deep has fucked with his memories, the least they could do is take this one.

It's for the best, he tells himself as he unfurls his list. He almost even believes himself.

[stuck-in-the-ghost-zone]

It’s so crazy watching so many fandoms shift into just wanting everything canon and brought up in show. Or into the chess is a fish-slapping game complete disconnect from canon with no in between. There is nothing better than a cool headcanon backed up by textual evidence! The demand to make popular fanon canon sucks it misses the point!! And if those things do somehow get pushed into canon they’re often done poorly/without care.

I feel like it’s connected to how a lot of things are cutting out filler and popular media slop but I don’t know

RIGHTTTT like its so.... not only baffling but like. frustrating!!! for someone like me whose favorite form of fanart for YEARS was straight up just doing screenshot redraws. whose favorite types of fics are. pov swaps or scene rewrites/extensions or filling in empty space or CHARACTER STUDIES. like. idk! my favorite part of being a fan of something is to . yknow. be a fan of that thing! I like it as is! the 1 million hcs i do have are like... I dont want them to be canon because theyre Mine yknow? nobody understands a character the same way i do and thats cool!!! not to keep talking about dp (but to be fair it is like My Signature Thing) but like... I fuckin love when people have little design tweaks and costume changes for danny. theyre all cool. but design changes and giving him freckles or fangs or a favorite food or whatever doesn't change his character at all? if that makes sense? like . idk. the people who are dead set on having the Fentons be evil to their core and rabidly insist that they would kill their own son if they ever found out he was a ghost when we have MULTIPLE EPISODES where they find out his secret and.... dont.... do that? its just crazy. not to "clearly you dont own an air fryer" this whole thing but ... clearly you didn't watch or engage with the show. and its so obvious. and then the entire tag gets filled with people loudly insisting theyre right and canon sucks and we shouldn't pay any attention to it ever. where am i right now.

like. no. canon is cool. canon is cool and fun and I think you guys (generalization) just need to sit down and rewatch the show without any sort of like.... fanon preconceptions.

discussion for hxh spoilers below the cut, bc its the most recent thing ive finished and I have Thoughts about it. whiskey dont click on this.

TLDR. I just. I think so many things are so much better when they're just left up to interpretation. im the sort of person where.... I dont need representation clumsily shoehorned into the shows I like and I actuallt feel worse when that happens because it always feels hollow and insincere. id much rather a character Be Intended For A Thing at the start of a story and fill out their intention in a well thought out way. if by some wild alternate dimension miracle butch Hartman suddenly tweets "danny phantom has actually been transgender this whole time for real" i would feel worse about it !!!!!!!!! its the same as like. fuckin..jkr saying dumbledores gay. yknow what i mean. i just. fandom is such a beautiful thing and I think people have gotten wayyyy too caught up in forced representation . let things happen naturally and theyll feel so much better. be content with your own interpretations, be passionate about it, find friends who will have fun with you, but dont go preaching about how youre obviously correct and put everyone else down for not agreeing with you, because at the end of the day it doesn't matter what the fuck any sort of fanon says because the show is right there proving us all wrong

okay so. end of hxh. the whole kite situation. I was literally JUST talking about how like...... ok quick context if you've never seen hxh. Kite (he/him, grown man) dies. He then... something weird happens with his soul and he comes back to life but in the body of a young adult/teenage girl. and the entire time I was watching the show after I learned this fact I was DREADING. DREADING !!! the conversation that was going to be had about that bc its an anime from 2011/a manga from the mid-late 90s. but whats so great is like........ it never gets addressed. That's never a topic that comes up in the show. his gender/feelings/whatever at the end of the show are left totally ambiguous and I dont even think any pronouns are used at all to describe him after the fact, they just use his name (<< IM only using he/him because i havent solidified my own thoughts on the character and thats what ive been using the whole time anyway.) . and the fucking RELIEF!!!!!! I felt. when discovering this. bc like. its SO GREAT that this is an ambiguous thing. because it means no one can be right or wrong about their interpretation. and people cant like. meaningfully fight about it (not that any fandom fighting is meaningful, I think its all stupid) because everyone is simultaneously both right and wrong. yknow? ????

[beekissies]

HIII GAY BEE

🔑 and 🥧 forrr arthur and phantom mayhaps?:3 (It's been so long since we last had phanomen food)

WAUUWUUWAUUU HI YUE!!!!! i miss phantom........ thank u for the ask....... these are so silly...... so cute........

ask game here!

🔑 - which one of you locks themselves out of the house more often?

arthur does! he canonically loses his things a lot OR gets them stolen pretty often or BOTH!!!! (eleanor likes to steal his bike keys and loren stole his pager) so he has to do the walk of shame around the mall asking everyone if they've seen his keys (alternatively do the walk of shame to just aoi to see if she can find them for him because el would laugh at him)

for phanomen, i think omen would! phantom seems like the type to be pretty careful about things like this so it's unlikely for him to lose his keys or lock himself out by accident. i can also see him like ... climbing in through a window if worse comes to worst. so omen has to be the one knocking on the door like Lucian my darling my sweetheart my everything my beloved........... my keys..........

🥧 - have you and your f/o tried to bake something together? how did it go? what did you make?

i think lrtr definitely would have tried to bake something together! arthur likes to cook and he offered to teach loren how to sometime so it's definitely something they would've done together at Least once. i can see them making something small at first ... maybe something to share with the others like cupcakes/cookies/etc etc so they don't have to keep eating pizza everyday LOL!!!! and i think it'd go well actually! loren is very dog so they're good at following instructions even if they dont know what a baking soda is. arthur asks them to hand him something and theyre standing at attention like

i feel like phanomen also would've tried to make something together too but i'm unsure if the very first time they did would've gone As Well as lrtr ... i always imagined them trying to bake like a cake for the other/someone else they knew in the troupe when they were kids and that probably didn't go very well. but now that they're both a little bit better at Everything i can see them trying again once they're both in ri! they also have the added bonus of ri kitchen supervising so less of a fire hazard yayyy ^_^ i can see them making those super cute heart cakes that have been pretty popular lately!!!!

[mrswhymrhow]

going to discuss xiv patch stuff just so i can get my thoughts organized

i thought it was insanely cool but the things that made me a bit :/ were the fact that they like. solved the levin issue so easily. it sort of annoys me that they give someone a disability and snap their fingers and go ok its solved ^.^ i know it can still relapse like alisaie said but (scratches head) i dunno. it kind of annoyed me but ill see how it goes on bc i am interested in the new guy and his bandage thing despite Being an endless and if theyre going to touch on more on that. i could grow with it but my initial reaction is not favorable.

LOOOOOVE sphene. every single one. shes rlly cool. its interesting to see what the real sphene is like vs the endless sphene, which is to say theyre the same but how their paths diverged. i like the idea that she has to reckon with what shes done. dont really show that though? mostly we see her mourning the good endless sphene did which very fair they both love their people and want to help but i tihnk we cant discuss that without the consequences that that goodness brought i.e. the way there are people living outside on the outskirts in order to keep their culture but it is incredibly dangerous vs moving into the safety of solution nine but giving up everything they had before. i really hope they make sure to include that in her thoughts in the future patches. But i dont want to be a hater nation they could be planning a lot more, this is only like one patch and shes been thrown through a lot. also kind of annoyed that she got cured instantly and now is like "i cant do anything if i cant fight" which i think is something to Feel and Discuss in the disabled community but if they really just make her able to fight and not have any sickness anymore im going to be More than a little annoyed. still loved her though. love her knight. my girl zelani i need you

im just interested in general of what its putting down, esp with the way its examining the body in what it means to be alive which is why im hopeful theyll discuss disability in a better way than "i can cure this in 2 seconds". i wouldve loved for sphene to need to walk slower or have fatigue or anything but it seemed she just had it all from the moment she got up? (shrug) everything else was wicked cool and im excited to see more of the story. i just hope it doesnt forget its themes of disability/colonialism. esp the 2nd one tbqh. itd be crazy if it did but im sure itll turn out okay. ill put my trust in it even if im a little wary atm

i forgot everything else in this patch fuck my baka life. thumbs up excited to do the raids

[differentcoloredcontacts]

Class-B reacting to a rumor being spread about them.

Not proofread we die like men

Awase - he wouldn't care all that much at first but as it starts to spread and potentially get to his friends and such then he will start trying to find who started it.

Sen - he instantly starts to pick fights with anyone that believes the stupid rumors lmao. Its his way of clarifying that the rumors are just rumors lmao. (Tbh its not helping though)

Kamakiri - he couldn't care less about what people that dont know him think. If its his friends then they would already know he didnt do whatever the rumors say yk? And theyre the only ones hes worried about when it comes to this stuff.

Kuroiro - hes very shy and quiet so hes more surprised that someone bothered to spread a rumor about him in the first place then the rumor itself. He doesn't bother trying to clear things up if its obviously fake but if its too extreme he will get involved

Kendo - she tries to clear things up as quickly as possible. Shes class representative so if some nasty rumor about her is going around it could ruin her classmates view of her.

Kodai - shes just really confused the whole time. She will hear the rumor and shes just like 'i did what? Thats crazy.' The whole time lmao. she just lets the rumors be but if theyre too extreme or if they involve someone else she will slear things up pretty quickly

Komori - she is a bit upset about the rumors so she turns to one of her friends for advice. They end up helping komori clear things up and make her feel better <3

Shiozaki - she instantly trys to clear things up when she finds out a rumor about her is spreading around UA. Shes also a little heartbroken that one would start about her in the first place yk? She starts to wonder how she hurt whoever started the rumor to get that treatment but her friends reassure her <3

Shishida - hes surprisingly calm about the whole thing. He just clears things up before the rumor really has time to spread ykyk

Shoda - how his classmates see him is pretty important to him so obviously hes a bit upset about the rumor but hes even more so worried about how it will effect his reputation amongst his classmates. He probably gets some help to get rid of the rumor as quickly as possible.

Pony - shes a bit upset that someone started a rumor about her so she tries to find out who started it before clearing up the rumor itself.

Tsubaraba - he does so much crazy stupid stuff every day so at this point he cant tell the difference between a rumor and something he actually did and just forgot about lmao. If its obviously fake he'll just turn it into a joke amongst his friends

Tetsutetsu - if there is a rumor about him going around he wouldn't know unless one of his friends actually broke it down for him. Even if he heard someone say he did something crazy tetsu would just think theres someone that shares the same name as him lmao. Honenuki and kendo end up shutting the rumor down for him and tetsu dosent even realize until weeks later (hes not dumb just ignorant lmao)

Tokage - she tries to look like shes unbothered by the rumors but anyone remotely close to her can tell that shes a bit hurt by them. Shes very strong and brave but she lets things get to her a bit too easily sometimes. Her friends get rid of the rumors for her pretty quickly.

Manga - he is out of the loop bro. One of his friends ends up clearing up the rumors before manga finds out they exist. When he finds out after everything is done with he freaks out for a bit before his friends let him know that its already been delt with lmao

Honenuki - hes suprisingly popular so most rumors about him dont really get the chance to start unless it actually sounds like something he would do yk. He was a bit surprised when a pretty bad rumor did start to go around but he had no issues clearing things up lmao.

Bondo - hes pretty shy for someone so tall and intimidating so he probably turns to a close friend for help and advice and they help him clear up the rumor.

Monoma - he lives for drama so obviously he figures out who started the rumor and he acts accordingly. Aka he starts a 'rumor' about them himself nothing too extreme but still.

Reiko - she could not care less. If anything she just finds it funny that people that know nothing about her are terrified of her now because of something that isn't even true lmao. As long as her friends know its false shes fine lmao

Rin - hes very calm when he finds out even if the rumor is pretty extreme but internally hes freaking out. Who did he piss off to make them spread the rumor? What if his classmates believe it? Anyways he takes care of the rumor pretty quickly

Gif anime - dungeon meshi

[deetzsblog]

newjeans. um. what the fuck was that? poor girls. i keep saying, more needs to be done to protect these children from the predators in the industry like mhj. she just TARNISHED their careers and she put them front n center to do it. thats insane. not to mention that younger kpop stans are ENCOURAGING and supporting stupid shit like that. newjeans has every right to feel as they feel but they are not in any way shape or form, different/special from any other group. experiences they described have been happening, have happened WORSE, since before they were born. some things u just HAVE to suck up. until u have the power to change them. like everyone else. idols speak abt it all the time. managers are going to put their groups first period. labels are going to be picky and strict. especially when it comes to LEGAL battles. all of the adults in nj lives KNOW better. but instead theyre feeding into these kids insecurities and doubts. grooming them to be dopes. and guess what? it worked, nj made themselves into dopes for someone who does/did everything they claimed to be upset over. so not only are all the adult/authority figures that are closest to them, steering them wrong, but young fans are putting a fucking blind fold on, on top of that. those girls are going to suffer a HIT they might not stand back up from. and all for what? a grooming bully petty thief? everything they claimed to be speaking AGAINST? they need legit help and care. if mfs really were newjeans fans they would be HORRIFIED rn. yall shouldve been months ago when the shit was first coming out, but i get yall dont really like to read. (me either) but it was out, n it shouldve made yall want their best moving forward instead of encouraging them to abandon ship w the stow aboard.

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''i do have thoughts ! but'' share?

well fbdkdk we all like to joke about mitch's daddy issues.. and even though it's all just speculation, it does something to you when you feel like a parent's love is conditional!! i would know. it's a very relatable part of him to me personally, and it's a part that can get ugly (which isn't the most fun to speculate abt in a fandomy sense) so i don't blame anyone for wanting to look at it from such a lighthearted perspective like. i do it too and in the end, he is a millionaire with little material concern in this life from now on most likely so!! But inside of him.... when you feel like you have to earn the love of people around you or keep it up or can't express your full self for fear of what ppl think or whatever like. it wears you down. it hurts your self image. it makes you codependent and needy in a way that might not be the most fun or cutest despite what all of us who adore him say.. mitch's perception of himself as someone who wants to and HAS to provide that energy for this team all the time is pretty evident in that blueprint ep about him, and while i think most of the time, that's just his personality... you can't always be on and always be that for people. privileged to be in his position but sometimes feels like he's still. not whole.... missing something. HATES being left out and feeling like things are happening without him.... none of that is cute when it's happening a lot, but he has teammates who love him and are willing to accomodate that despite the teasing so <3

i also just think like. if any person on this team were most likely to Snap in any meaningful way... it would be him. like he's done and been everything Traditional Hockey would want from him and it's still not enough to get people off his back, fans media family alike. his teammates can break sticks over the bench and people "love their passion" but mitch goes down the hallway to do it out of everyones eyeshot and its a story for a week? idk. he is handled differently from everyone else on the leafs, and i cant imagine how it is to be this hometown boy who can never do anything right by some standards.... who think the only team he's ever really known would be better without him?? who wouldn't doubt their place or contemplate the drastic when theyre someone who lets others opinions get to them?? like when your self image already suffers but your have people piling on... you're telling me there's nothing internally dark about that???????

there is a lot more to say but i'm fucked up on nyquil and 5 seconds from sleep so. hope this makes sense 😭

[theribthatgrewback]

SPEAK YOUR TRUTH ABOUT THE NEW EARTHSPARK SEASON. GO 🫵

GETS SCARED. WHO IS THIS.

ok so i think that making starscream the villain was a Good Call.

lots of ppl were disappointed that starscream was the villain this season after he was the sympathetic one last season and i do see where they're coming from but i also see what the showrunners were going for. hes doing this because he doesnt have anywhere else to go. he isn't welcome on earth. he's only ever been attacked or locked up by humans, never made to feel like he could have an actual home coexisting with them. he only wants to carve out a place for himself where he can live without being attacked, but in his mind, that means he has to kill everyone in order to get that. it makes sense to me why he would do all that considering who he is and what he's experienced. i think they kind of rushed that too though because its definitely like... ppl with worse media literacy are just gonna be like "they threw out all his character development!" no they didnt. they just sort of paced it weird

most of the shit i was praising in season 1 (the autobots (unwittingly) being the bad guys, and the decepticons actually (mostly) being the sympathetic ones, explores the issues of oppression via incarceration) kind of got almost entirely thrown aside. starscream talks about oppression a couple times but they dont dig into the meat of it. they needed to get more into the specifics of that in order for it to be done well, but that's just because it's clumsy writing, not because the idea is inherently bad.

i know ppl are mad as hell about it though because season 1 earthspark starscream got woobified to the ends of the universe simply for having ptsd. i just think the message theyre going for is something about the cycle of abuse and how having trauma doesnt absolve you of wrongdoing but again, the pacing makes it feel awkward. like hashtag literally says something like "why would you do this to people after what was done to you" THEY ARE ACKNOWLEDGING IT. THEY AREN'T IGNORING IT. IT'S A CYCLE OF ABUSE STORY. theyre not doing "megatron was right actually" theyre doing "starscream needs more consistent help still"

i still think hes going to be better by the end also they literally made his eyes blue and everything. it's just that it TAKES MORE THAN ONE CONVERSATION AND A HUG TO MAKE SOMEONE TURN THEIR LIFE AROUND

[algrolo]

I think I hate my ex.

Im gonna use name and if they read this, thats on them.

Orson I think I fucking hate your guts. I think I tried to be the better person, take the high ground, not be spiteful, but god fucking dammit.

They were the first person I dated after coming out and it was a 3 year long relationship. And then to get dumped, on our aniversary, over the phone, where he told me I Got Bored Of You, has done so much damage to my self-worth. I think Ive buried these feelings for awhile (2 years jesus fucking christ?) But after something incidental tonight, Im ready to properly look at them.

I hate you. You took no responsibility for your actions or words and the wound it left on my psyche. I was always self aware of the connections I have with others and thoughts of being left behind by friends, so for you to then tell me you got BORED? How was I supposed to take it?

You told me my biggest fear to my face. After 3 years of trusting you.

I think its going to hang over me for a long time. Dated someone recently who also broke it off, but she said that she just wasnt interested in me romantically. And like a cordial fool, I took that as a responsible adult and was still polite about it and decide to keep up contacts with her. To then find out tonight that she is now dating someone else. I can understand how I wasn't the right person, but I think the Rage I felt in that moment was because of you Orson. I shouldnt care that she broke up with me and found someone new. But because of you, I will always think "did they do it because they were bored of me?"

What about me is so wrong? What am I doing wrong? Im not a fool in asking that; im aware sometimes the valid answer is nothing, and that it was on them. But at the same time, I cant help to blame myself. I dont want to blame others because I relentlessly believe in the good of others. I want to take responsibility.

And I shouldnt be. Its not mine. And yet I take some anyways. A blithering, cordial fool. Fuck me.

Jenna I dont know if I want to be friends with you. I dont like feeling used for 3 months only to be the friend for a lonely girl. Your reasoning for breaking things off was not well explained. Sometimes I wonder if I actually consider you a friend or if I just feel bad because I think youre lonely.

And then I see the loneliness that I myself hold and I feel bad. I dont know if when I look at you, I see you, or the projection of myself. A projection of my own loneliness.

If you wanted friendship in the first place, you shouldve started with that. I think Im letting you take advantage of me by allowing us to be friends after everything.

And worst of all, is that because of you, or the vestiges of these feelings from dating Orson? I dont know. I dont think a therapist would have an answer either as I think im kind of doing their job as well here in this ranting tumber text post.

Im done with dating the quiet, small, introverted ones. I refuse. Maybe its been a poor showing of 2/2 but these people fail to comprehend how their actions and words affect others because they dont interact with other enough on a daily basis. Theyre either too lost in their own worlds or dont want to see the outaide because its scary, and both of these are in metaphor, not literal.

I hate you Orson. I dont know if I want to be friends with you Jenna. I believe too hard in my own relentless optimism that it blinds me to my own feelings.

But I dont want to be alone.

No one does.