#i just feel like it’s weird? to say that moana 2 is going to cause disney to make more tv shows and turn them into sequels later on?

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I’ve seen a fair amount of people saying “oh shit disney is going to make more cobbled together tv movies after moana 2 aren’t they” but this is such a weird takeaway to me because moana 2 is quite literally the only case of them announcing a tv series and then later turning it into a theatrical feature. like yes moana 2’s success is almost certainly going to encourage them to make more sequels in the future (that’s obviously already their game plan) and ofc that’s not ideal but all the upcoming sequels are going to be just that: theatrical sequels that were planned and executed as theatrical sequels.

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Taking Risks - Chris Sturniolo

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Summary: Chris Matt and Nick take you to the movies and thing get hot and heated between you and Chris

Contains: smut, fingering, pet names, dirty talk, public place

Authors note: I thought of this idea while watching Moana 2 in theaters today (I promise I wasn’t being weird I had to pee really bad and well yk how that feels)

Divider creds: me.

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I was laying in Chris’s bed curled under the blankets while I waited for him to finish in the shower. We were seeing a movie today, which was Nicks idea because we were all just sitting around the house and he wanted to do something. None of us were opposed to the thought so we agreed. I wasn’t sure what movie we were seeing but I was excited because I haven’t been to the movies in forever.

I hear the bathroom door open and Chris walks out wearing his towel around his waist. He was being really quick so I wasn’t able to get a good look at him like I wanted to. I sit up in the bed and watch him get dressed.

Matt comes downstairs and he opens the door.

“Kid, what’s taking ya so long, we’re gonna be late to the movie.” He says watching as Chris pulls his shirt over his head.

“I’m ready, just give me a minute.” He mutters walking over to me and holding his hand out. “Come on, get outta bed.” He grins and I take his hand and he pulls me out of his bed. I quickly pick up my blanket and we meet Nick and Matt in the garage.

The car ride wasn’t long but Chris and Nick would not shut up about who drank the last Pepsi.

“I remember leaving the fuckin’ thing in the fridge to drink this mornin’. It didn’t get up and run away.” Chris says to Nick.

“I didn’t take your Pepsi stupid fuck. You probably drank it in your sleep sounds like something you’d do.” Nick says while using his hands to talk, I had to suppress a giggle.

Chris had that annoyed look on his face and I knew he wasn’t going to let it go.

“Babe, it’s fine we can buy more.” I tell him waiting for him to agree with me. He finally does and grumbles. “I wanted that this morning.” He crosses his arms.

We get to the movies and buy our tickets and popcorn. We had seats way in the back, one of my favorite places to be in the theaters, it was more comfortable to be there than in the front.

Finding our seats, we all sit down in a row, me, Chris, Matt and Nick. I lay my seat all the way back and drape my blanket over my legs.

“D’you really have to bring that blanket w’ya.” Chris whispers into my ear.

I nod my head and smile “there’s no problem with me bringing a blanket to the theater, it gets cold.” I say lifting my hand up to take the popcorn bucket out of his hands.

“Y’know it could be useful.” He says brushing my hair behind my ear. “Hide some things.”

“Chris!” I say louder than I thought I would. Matt looks over at me and I wave awkwardly. He looks away with a chuckle.

It was normal and quiet between us until about halfway his hand starts creeping under the blanket. I look up at him to my surprise he’s paying full attention to the movie. His hand unties my sweatpants. My eyes going wide, but I wasn’t going to make a sound or protest. I spread my legs for him as his fingers crawling deeper into my sweatpants finding my clothed clit.

“Chris…” I whisper quietly.

“Let me make you feel good, pretty.” He says pulling my panties to the side and pushing his fingers inside of me. I whimper softly that knot in my stomach forming, from the sensation and the risks we’re taking. His fingers slowly start to move hitting that spongey spot making me bite my lip.

“R’you gonna be a good girl for me, cum all over my fingers?” He asks his fingers moving faster hitting my walls perfectly. I let out a small moan causing Nick and Matt to look at me skeptically. I shake my head at them and wave them off.

He curled his fingers inside of me and I feel myself clench around him.

“Come on pretty, cum all over my fingers.”

My eyes clench and I look down tucking my lip under my teeth.

“Oh my…god Chris…” I say as I get pushed over the edge and I feel myself cum all over his fingers. I watch his hands move away from my pants and puts his fingers in his mouth. My mouth opens wide and he winks at me.

“You taste so good, pretty. So good.”

Thank you for reading!!! (Why am I such a horn dog bro)

[officiallanxichen]

1-30. unless ur a coward

SCREAM LEXI THIS IS SO CHAOTIC <33 so of course i had to do it

chipotle order?

I'm the bane of all burrito bar workers because i get sooo many things 😭i get a burrito with: white rice, barbacoa usually but sometimes i mix it up, black beans, corn, sour cream, cheese, lettuce, sometimes i get mild salsa, guac if i have the dollars! and i usually get chips n guac on the side

2. thoughts on veganism?

you do you but i could never because i love dairy and eggs too much. i also have a crazy metabolism and meat alternatives don't always sate my Hunger (but i do LOVE tofu esp when it's cooked well <33)

3. a specific color that gives you the ick?

i legit couldn't think of any <33 i suppose like. really bright neons?? but they just hurt my eyes and they're also cool in certain contexts

4. mythical creature you think/believe is real?

aliens i guess?? i want nessie to be real she is my friend <33

5. favorite form of potato?

TATER TOTS!!!

6. do you use a watch?

yes!! i have one of those cheap timex expedition watches because i can't read analog very quickly 😔

7. what animal do you look forward to seeing when you visit an aquarium?

answered here!

8. do you change into specific clothes for the house when you get home?

nope! i lounge in my jeans because i'm evil

9. do you have a skincare routine (and how many steps is it)?

sort of i guess?? i wash my face and put spf moisturizer on every morning

10. on a plane, do you ask for apple or orange juice?

ginger ale baybee!! or water sometimes because i'm a cool guy

11. anything from your childhood you've held on to?

lots of stuff!! books, stuffies, clothes (legit almost all of my winter gear is stuff i've had since elementary school). i love Objects <3

12. brand of haircare/bodycare/skincare that you trust 100%?

uhh i'm not really a Brand Guy. but i like neutrogena for skin stuff. and cerave cause all my moisturizers are from them

13. first thing you're doing in the purge?

is the purge the one where laws don't exist?? i forgor. probably go hide in ikea i guess??

14. do you think you're dehydrated?

not at all i am obsessed with water

15. rank the methods of death: freezing, burning, drowning

yikes! freezing/drowning/burning i Guess

16. thoughts on mint chocolate chip?

YUM

17. an anxious compulsion you do everyday?

i don't even know...i guess? stick to my bedtime routine?? because if i don't i'm always scared i won't fall asleep??

18. your boba/tea order?

answered here!

19. the veggie you dislike the most?

hmm this is a good question. probably tomatoes (FIGHT me they're used as veggies in cooking) (sorry tomato lovers they simply make me feel sick in my heart. but i like them in sauce)

20. favorite disney princess movie?

mulan <33 but i also love moana and tangled

21. a number that weirds you out?

none of them all numbers are the same to me. except the funny ones

22. do you have an emotional support water bottle?

YES i've had the same water bottle since i was 16. yes i know that's gross but shh i love her i've replaced her cap like. 5 times.

23. do you wear jewelry?

i have 2 permanently attached friendship anklets! i need to repair my friendship bracelets they both had threads snap 😭

24. which do you find yourself using, american or british english?

uhh american i suppose. but also when i'm writing i accidentally spell things british style and google docs yells at me

25. would you say you have good taste in music?

yes <3 it is my job

26. how's your spice tolerance?

all right. i can handle like medium spice just fine <3 it's impressive for a midwesterner but i also didn't grow up here so it's just regular

27. what's your favorite or go-to outfit?

jeans. t-shirt. fun sweater. boots. i am a simple man (autistic)

28. last meal on earth?

BIG bowl of fried rice from a nice restaurant. fancy blue cheese. bubble tea. i can't think of a dessert but something delicious and chocolatey

29. preferred pasta noodle?

corkscrews <33 idk what they're actually called

30. ask me anything !

lexi i love you <33 this was so chaotic and also really fun to think about all of these

[scortchedtoast]

Now my friend I need your top 5 best disney movies. Then your top 5 flops

Oooooohhhh this will be hard to narrow it down but my family and I just got finished watching a bunch. I will also keep this animated only and remove any Pixar collaborations.

1. Mulan- truly the movie of my childhood I watched this movie so much as a kid and it mostly holds up to me. Mushu is funnier than the average talking companion and the cricket and horse don't speak praise be. The songs slap, the emotional beats are the strong love the message and Li Shang is hot af. Mulan is also just such a great protagonist 10s across the board!!

2. Moana- I had been following Moana ever since it was announced and let me tell you it did not disappoint. It came out when I first started college (for animation and I wanted to work for disney which quickly fizzled out thank god but I digress) me and my friends saw it in theaters so I have fond memories of it. Story wise I have no notes a great sound track and one of the very few times I like lin manuel miranda’s work lol. I also probably bought the most merch from this movie.

3. Lilo and Stitch- A classic!! My parents don’t like it cause of the aliens??? But they are haters and are wrong. Great songs, great animation and now that I'm older I really feel for Nani and cry literally everytime she sings Aloha Oe before they come to take Lilo away. Like I cry again when the alien grabs Lilo and Nani thinks its over. Its a great movie if it can make me cry, plus stitch is adorable.

4. Tarzan- A Suprise entry for me! I remember hating Tarzan as a kid but when I rewatched it, it was an instant fave. Its so well done and also has great songs too, I even enjoyed the love story between Jane and Tarzan and I'm pretty picky about that with Disney. Like I was very pleasantly suprised and this knocked lion king off the list cause lion king was a disappointment on a re-watch.

5. Tangled- It was either this or Atlantis but I had to go with the og of the 3d princesses, and the animation still holds up! (Better than frozen’s if we are being real). This movie is the last princess movie of the old forumla incoroprating romance and a villain and its good fun. She should've got the love Elsa got but oh well.

Flops- I'm gonna preface this by saying I'm sure there are way WAY worse disney movies. I just have never watched them cause they look bad so these are the ones that I've watched that didn’t hit.

Raya and the Last Dragon- Boooo, decent premise and promising start but they had way too much ground to cover in such a short runtime. I honestly feel it would've done way better as a disney plus show like then we would've spent more time exploring the different places but no we had to speed run. Sisu was annoying af awkafina’s voice only made it worse. The moral to trust the person that literally already betrayed you, has been hunting you down, and showed no real signs of changing was also very bad and heavy handed. No way would I have trusted undercut after how she behaved also sisu is literally ignoring how the old lady betrayed her earlier in the movie just cause you trust some ppl doesn’t mean you can trust everyone.

Beauty and the beast- This was an easy one, so boring I never finished. I didn't watch as a kid so again no nostalgia but it sucks man and I tried to watch the live action too and it was even WORSE only made it through even less of that one.

Peter pan- The racism is startling on a rewatch and everyone was so nasty and mean to wendy it felt sexist a bit how every woman was a nasty hater trying to kill her because they wanted to be with peter. Also just boring and bad in general I had a horrible time watching it.

Frozen 2- A gigantic mess from start to finish. There was no salvaging this mess and the addition of the 5 spirits, and enchanted forest, and parents backstory was a confusing choice to pick. Also the spirits designs themselves were trash and super weird. Also from a dystopian capitalist viewpoint why did they not make the four other spirits magic girls as well so they could sell different dolls of the new magical girls. It also would've worked better as a tv show and wouldn't have been as rushed. I'm being nice because I know they had to rework a lot of the movie last minute.

Fox and the Hound- super boring and tedious to get through like all old disney movies. The songs were also super atrocious too, I use to love this movie as a kid but probably just because there were talking animals like no other part is redeeming. The subplot with the birds trying to eat the bug was super annoying too like this is a movie not a tv show why is there a totally unrelated B plot getting a ton of time.

[fruggin-bitch]

ask game from this link

1. chipotle order? I haven’t actually ever eaten chipoltle :/ 2. thoughts on veganism? I think vegans are really cool and come up with great alternatives for meals without meat that have the same amount of nutrients! 3. a specific color that gives you the ick? That tone of yellow-green that looks like baby vomit. Also super bright hot pink hurts my head 4. mythical creature you think/believe is real? Honestly- I���d believe that anything could be out ther in the ocean. Mermaids? Why not. So much of the ocean is undiscovered so there could be legit anything out there 5. favorite form of potato? Twice baked potatoes or McDonalds fries 6. do you use a watch? Nope, I did for a while but I hated the weight on my wrist 7. what animal do you look forward to seeing when you visit an aquarium? Turtles!! 8. do you change into specific clothes for the house when you get home?  Not really. If im gonna change for whatever reason I’ll just throw of whatever pajamas I have clean or a big hoodie n shorts 9. do you have a skincare routine (and how many steps is it)? Nope even though I probably should lol 10. on a plane, do you ask for apple or orange juice? Ive never actually been on a plane BUT I do prefer apple juice 11. anything from your childhood you’ve held on to? I have a stuffed hippo from when I was a little baby and a stuffed dinosaur that my childhood best friend gave me when we were five that I named after him 12. brand of haircare/bodycare/skincare that you trust 100%? Uhhhhhhh idk man I just grab Walmart brand 13. first thing you’re doing in the purge? Honestly I got no clue id probably just like walk into the bakery I work at and take some of the stuff that I don’t wanna pay for that looks tasty 14. do you think you’re dehydrated? Probably I don’t drink enough water 15. rank the methods of death: freezing, burning, drowning. uhh freezing cause I think it would be quicker and id get nerve damage, then burning for the  same reason cause id definitely get damaged nerves and would feel less I think, then drowning cause you’re completely aware of the water and pressure and augh im so scared of drowning dude 16. thoughts on mint chocolate chip? LOVE IT god I love mint stuff its so tasty 17. an anxious compulsion you do everyday? Chew on my nails and pick at my skin 18. your boba/tea order? Mango or peach tea with black boba pearls, mango jelly and cream foam 19. the veggie you dislike the most? Broccoli. Cant stand the shit 20. favorite disney princess movie? Does moana count? Otherwise I rlly like brave 21. a number that weirds you out? Hmm I don’t know, maybe three 22. do you have an emotional support water bottle? nah 23. do you wear jewelry? Yeah I have a necklace that I wear every day with a witch’s pentagram on it and a bracelet from one of those save the ocean groups 24. which do you find yourself using, american or british english?  American mostly with some British spellings thrown in there 25. would you say you have good taste in music? I mean I like my music taste but that’s really subjective 26. how’s your spice tolerance? Absolute shit dude, my tastebuds are so weak 27. what’s your favorite or go-to outfit? My favorite ripped jeans and a collared shirt with a crewneck sweater over it with converse, and for summer its jean shorts with a blue knit tank crop top and converse 28. last meal on earth? Uhh mac n cheese or pho 29. preferred pasta noodle? Mmm I really like farfalle or ziti

[hiccanna-tidbits]

okay, okay but hear me out!

Hiccanna, Moanida and Jackunzel (and maybe someone else if u want) going on a holiday trip together (it could be sea or lake or just swimming pool).

And that three couples playing "chicken fight game"~ When u have to sit on partner shoulder or ridding piggy-back and knock down or separate the other couple!

sksksks just imagine the fun and the chaos!! hahaha

Okay SO I recently watched Palm Springs so I’m just imagining The Gang going to like…a fancy pool resort in like Arizona??? SURE LET’S GO WITH THAT

I’m imagining the only resort the gang could afford to stay at is someplace out in the middle of Arizona or something

It takes a LOT of persuading to get Jack to go, because he haaaaates deserts. Rapunzel basically has to beg. Moana finally managed to bribe him with really good homemade ice slushies. (She’s used to making smoothies for Merida, so how hard can slushies be??? Just throw in some ice!)

Rapunzel offers to help Moana with the slushies, since she gave Jack SO many puppy dog eyes to get him to come. Since they’ve got two people working on them, they’re REALLY good slushies. Jack approves.

Anna also tries to convince Elsa to go, but the perpetually-single Elsa is just like “Um, deserts? Sunburns? Being indefinitely stuck with gross couples doing gross couple stuff?!? Yeah no thank you”

Hiccup tries to wake everyone up at like 6 am to go hiking because "that's when the desert iguanas are out guys!!! C'mon, we have to go!!!" Anna is only persuaded to go after Hiccup makes her coffee--she really wants to make her bf happy, but also mornings can suck her dick. Rapunzel is more than happy to go, because she loves mornings anyways!!! And oh my god, IGUANAS!!! Jack, Merida, and Moana are like "oh FUCK no" and put the pillow back over their head, shoo Hiccup away, and go back to sleep.

On their hike, Hiccup just goes "!!!!!!!" about every reptile he sees. Snake, lizard, horny toad, literally anything with scales will send the boy into an excited frenzy. Rapunzel has similar reactions. Anna could not love both of them more.

At one point, they stumble across a gila monster sunbathing, and Rapunzel is overtaken with the unwavering desire to adopt him. She gets Hiccup on board, and he tries to lure the lizard over with a dusty piece of a snake carcass he found (Anna tried to tell him he really shouldn't touch that, but he was not to be swayed and Anna ended up figuring he could just wash his hands really well when they got back). Anna finds herself in the unusual position of having to be the Voice of Reason, having to be like “hey uh I think this might be illegal and stuff??? Also aren't they poisonous???”

(I know what you're thinking. Bold of you to assume Anna knows the difference between poisonous and venomous.)

Rapunzel literally CANNOT stop gushing to Jack about all the wildlife she saw when she gets back! Jackrabbits! Kangaroo rats! Roadrunners! Peccaries! Centipedes! Jack has only mild to moderate interest in desert ecology, but loves hearing his gf gush so he listens attentively anyways. 

Anna and Rapunzel definitely hit up the gift shops in the resort town at some point, and go ABSOLUTELY BATSHIT HOGWILD buying gifts for everyone. They probably max out their credit cards. It's embarrassing, really. But Anna gets Hiccup an absolute shitton of those little wall lizard things and he nearly cries tears of joy when he sees them, so it's all worth it, really.

Moana will not leave the pool like. The entire time. The girl is just obsessed with being in the water, honestly. She gets restless, though, and can't just stand in the pool and vibe--she needs to constantly be moving and swimming around or she'll explode. Merida is more than happy to indulge her by hanging out in the poor with her, but Merida is also constantly challenging her to swim races--a very dumb idea, considering Moana is on the high school swim team and water polo team. Merida, naturally, is an extremely sore loser and is not above excessive pouting, splashing, yelling in angry Scottish, and dunking her girlfriend in revenge. It's at least entertaining for all of their friends to watch.

Jack keeps fucking taking huge buckets of ice from the ice machine and dumping them in the pool. At first he only does this because he keeps griping about the pool not being cold enough (this boy will accept nothing less than sitting in the goddamn arctic ocean), but after her figures out that it pisses off his friends, he takes to pouring said ice directly over their heads. Merida has threatened to murder him several times for this.

Hiccup and Anna's main pool activity is just lazing around on their pool floaties (Anna has a duck one, Hicccup has a dragon one because obviously), sipping cocktails, and just generally vibing. Through some ungodly mixture of pure charisma and a fake ID that Rapunzel helped photoshop, Jack manages to talk his way into getting the whole group access to alcohol. Hiccup is a sangria or Moscow Mule kinda guy while Anna usually gets a Pina Colada or a Sex on the Beach (she's aspec, so she literally will not stop joking about the irony of this). Merida makes a game out of attempting to tip over their floaties and dunk them. Jack, chaos gremlin that he is, puts aside his usual rivalry with Merida to join in. They have a surprisingly strong dunking alliance.

Hiccup and Anna try to form a syndicate of their own, and try to lounge on the same floatie so that they can protect each other while fighting off Jack and Merida together. Unfortunately neither of their floaties were made to hold 2 peoples' weight, so the one they're on ends up tipping over, spilling their cocktails everywhere and dunking them anyways. Jack and Merida consider this a Win By Default.

Moana of course loops everyone into playing water polo at some point. Unfortunately some idiot decided it would be a good idea to let Merida of all people pick the teams, which means of course that they are incredibly rigged. It's Moana, Merida and Anna vs. Jack, Rapunzel, and Hiccup, so basically The Jocks vs. The Nerds (although admittedly Anna is more of a softcore jock--she's nowhere near on Moana or Merida's level, but she's still more naturally athletic than Hiccup, Rapunzel, or Jack). Naturally, Jock Team absolutely whoops Nerd Team's ass. Jack gets salty and demands a rematch. ...Jock Team kicks Nerd Team's ass again.

Throughout all of this, no one thinks to just...rearrange the teams a little. Merida was counting on this. All according to plan.

In the titular chicken game (yes, I remembered, don't worry!), it's Merida on Moana's shoulders (Moana swims and has a lot of upper body strength, what can I say?), Hiccup on Anna's shoulders (I mean...Hiccup's a twig, and Anna HAS to have a fair amount of upper body strength from throwing busts around and punching men off boats and such), and Punz on Jack's shoulders (Jack's pretty lithe and good at keeping his balance while jumping around, so he's their best candidate for not just falling over).

Jack and Rapunzel actually manage to stay in the game longer than anyone expects--their primary strategy is “be good at dodging and staying out of the way while Merida and Hiccup duke it out.” And it works! As limber as Hiccup is, Anna's not nearly as coordinated as Jack and is no match for Moana's sturdy footing. Also, neither Anna nor Hiccup are prepared for how goddamn ruthless and determined to win Merida is. Even though they really, really should have been. I mean...have you met Merida???

When it comes down to Merida-Moana and Rapunzel-Jack, Mer feels a little bad for having to go up against Pure Sweet Punzie. Unfortunately, Rapunzel turns out to be a very hardcore fighter when she puts her mind to it, and Merida is much more evenly matched than she initially thought and realizes she must use her Full Power. It definitely helps her snap out of Going Soft when Jack starts brutally roasting Merida in particular (as per usual). Merida gets a rage-fueled Second Wave, and finally manages to knock Rapunzel over in one foul swoop. Merida and Moana are victorious!

Moana and Merida basically always shower together after a day at the pool. They claim it's because they both know how to handle curly hair in chlorine, and just like to wash each other's hair, but the rest of the gang is pretty sure that's not all that's going on in there.

One day, Anna hits up the resort town alone to buy some kind of secret gifts for her friends with what little money she has left (this girl seriously has no chill when it comes to buying presents).  She goes past this huge, fancy ice cream shop and she's like “!!!! OMG!!! I'm gonna surprise all my buddies with pints of their faves!!!” She just gets super hyped and buys everyone ice cream, getting so caught up in the thrill of it that she forgets that she'll have to like. Drive all this back all the way back to the resort in the rental car. In like. You know. 110+ degree weather.

By the time she gets back to the resort, the ice cream is, of course, goop. Poor Anna, feeling incredibly dumb and like an utter failure of a friend, just kind of bursts into tears. Like damn. This is too much. She was gonna make all her pals so happy, and all for naught! Jack just kinda shrugs and throws all the melted ice cream cartons in the freezer anyways. Once they're (partially) re-frozen, Rapunzel and Moana make slushies with them. They actually come out pretty decent. Anna is substantially cheered up.

Moana prepares some tropical fruit platters for everyone to snack on. Rapunzel tries to “improve” them by adding chocolate sauce and nutella to half of them. Sometimes it works (I mean...bananas and strawberries with chocolate and/or nutella is pretty solid). Other times it just tastes...very weird. Merida gest frustrated and yells at Rapunzel for “ruining all of her girlfriend's good mangoes.”

Jack just thinks this whole thing is so funny, and decides to swap the chocolate sauce with barbecue sauce to cause further chaos. Absolute mayhem ensures. Everyone has a bad time. Except for Anna, who apparently is just a freak who enjoys eating pineapple slices dipped in barbecue sauce.

At some point, Merida gets really drunk on appletinis or some shit and signs the entire group up for a local archery competition. Much to everyone's chagrin, it's no refunds. Naturally, basically everyone sans Merida does terrible. Rapunzel and Hiccup very nearly shoot themselves, while Jack and Anna come very close to  accidentally shooting a group of referees (although Jack might have done this on purpose). Moana gets the farthest, if only because Merida's taught her how to shoot a bow at some point. Merida actually ends up winning--although unfortunately, the prize is $20 and a very cheap plastic trophy (which Merida STILL manages to find a way to break before the trip is even over).

The rest of the group is much more amicable to the concept of going on hikes when said hikes are in the evening. Hiccup and Rapunzel are still excitedly chattering about the local ecosystems the entire time, and Jack and Anna are just kind of looking at their nerdy SOs like “<3 <3 <3″ Moana and Merida, meanwhile, are just kinda vibing in the back, passively listening in and watching the desert sunset.

Rapunzel manages to capture Mer and Mo's interest and gets them to participate more with geology, of all things. Merida just thinks rocks are cool (especially when they can be thrown at people bothering her!), while Moana likes learning about the physical history of places--how water can carve out landscapes, and all that. Hiccup and Jack just kind of exchange a look like “I had no idea that they were into rocks, but...the more you know, I guess???”

Jack makes fun of every reptile they see, mainly to piss Hiccup off. Unfortunately it has the opposite effect, and Hiccup can't help but be entertained--mainly because Jack's insults are so weirdly specific and over-the-top that they loop around to being hilarious. Seriously, he keeps saying shit like “Those are the lamest scales I've ever seen. Absolutely drab, and not nearly shiny enough to prove that nature is beautiful. 0/10.” and “Ohhhh, this fucking rattlesnake think's he's so scary, with his dumb percussion instrument tail!!! I could be more intimidating with a mean look and a large pair of maracas!”

At some point, a bunch of tourists riding donkeys pass them. Anna, Rapunzel, and Merida just absolutely lose their shit fangirling over how cute the donkeys are, thus exposing all three of them as the unabashed Horse Girls they are. Hiccup, Jack, and Moana find this extremely amusing, and definitely aren't above teasing their girlfriends about it. Hiccup asks if next time they take a couples' vacation, the Horse Gang (as Moana insists on nicknaming them) would like to go to a ranch instead.

Anna gets like. Obsessed with palm trees. Like they're just so pretty and exotic and tropical!!! OMG!!! And they definitely don't have them wherever the gang is from in this AU. (Also if griping about Elsa not having "tropical powers" is anything to go by, she DOES canonically like the tropics!) She has to take a picture of like...every palm tree on her phone. And considering the gang is in Arizona, that means Anna is stopping to take a picture like...every 2 minutes. Rapunzel catches onto the fact that Anna likes them, and paints her a picture with some when Punz has the time. Anna definitely cries when she sees it. Hiccup can't do nearly that good, but he does buy her some little plastic figurine ones in a gift shop that she can put in her room. Anna also cries about this. She just cries whenever any of her friends indulge her random fixation on palm trees. Surely she doesn't deserve such niceties!!!

Rapunzel is just. In love with the desert landscape tbh. Like the huge funky cacti!!! The shrubs!!! The desert wildflowers!!! The mesas!!! All of it!!! So of course she needs to pull out her easel and paint it. Jack walks by one day and sees her working on it and, partly just to troll her, he's like “put some snow in it!” As he walks away, Rapunzel just stops like “wait...that'd actually be such a great idea for a surrealist-type fantasy piece!!!” After she finishes the main landscape, she adds an overcoat of little puffs of snow on top of everything, and has some clumps falling off of the cacti. When she shows Jack, he just about cries tears of joy, but frantically tries to hide it. She gives the painting to him as a present at the end of the trip. He hangs that shit front-in-center in his room and cherishes it forever and ever.

At some point, Jack gets the ingenious idea that he's going to prank Merida by catching a tarantula and leaving it in her room. It's one of the harmless ones--Jack fact-checks this by offhandedly asking Hiccup and framing it as a casual interest in local etymology. Still, Merida screams far louder than is at all dignified, and also probably loud enough to wake a neighboring country. Rapunzel later has to physically hold Merida back to keep her from absolutely beating Jack into a pulp. Rapunzel also manages to get the World's Largest Sheet of Cardboard and the World's Largest Cup and somehow manages to get the damn thing back outside.

[imaginedisney1]

List of favorite!

Female Disney characters

*Warning this is just my opinion*

Honorable mentions ( Audrey Ramirez, Grandma Fa, Meg, Belle, Jasmine, Moana, Captain Amelia, Yzma,Colette, Frozone’s Wife, Madame Medusa,Mother Gothel)

10 ~ Helga Sinclair (Atlantis)

This list was SOOOO hard to make and rank everyone cause I love all of them and the honorable mentions in different ways. but Helga is a baddie I think her Audrey and Kida were one of the main reasons I watched the movie and LOVED IT it is still my top 5 favorite Disney movies to watch. She and the other women in the movie just radiate strength and elegance at the same time and her fighting skills against Rourke is just amazing and her send off at the end is iconic I literally quote her all the time, “nothing Personal”.

9 ~ Edna Mode (The incredibles)

For the short amount of scenes she is in, she makes the most of every one liner she has, she is probably the most quotable Disney character.....change my mind. When I was younger I would just yell “no capes” randomly through the house jumpscaring my parents (I have no regrets), I literally wanted to be just like her and live in a mega mansion just like hers. I love how she gave zero f@cks about who you were super or not she would tell your straight up and kick your @ss if needed, she’s iconic.

8 ~ Esmeralda (The Hunchback Of Notre Dame)

She is someone I would vote for to be my President, she is so beautiful, her hair, her eyes, her everything, I felt for her so much as a woman who was fighting against the injustice her people face and I can relate to her on a emotional and intellectual level even as a kid when I first watched the movie (which is also in my top 5 Disney movies). Her sass and roasts against Phoebus and Frollo always gets me hyped, and she is so creative in the way she performs and escapes situations with her goat, she is just all around great.

7 ~ Rapunzel (Tangled)

She is such is ray of sunshine (no pun intended)and I really related to her chaotic energy, she was instantly going to be one of my favorite Disney princesses just from her positive and bubbly nature in true princess nature, while also being naturally quirky and awkward from being inside for years is kinda relatable in this current moment. Her singing parts I just always know the lyrics by heart idk how since I don’t watch the movie that often but that’s how good they are, Rapunzel is a very hard character to dislike.

6 ~ Violet Parr (The Incredibles)

She is meme duchess, a Mighty and Powerful GOD!!! I loved her first movie and even more in the second movie, before going to see the second movie I was dealing with angst and anger everyday for no reason. So when I saw Violet having that same irration in the movie was so funny and accurate, I just love her iconic reaction to her crush who happened to be their waiter it KILLS ME. We must protect her at all costs.

5 ~ Nani (Lilo and Stitch)

I respect Nani so much as a big sister mother at such a young age taking on the responsibility of caring for sister and keeping her family together, yes she makes mistakes and can be crass at time but that’s why I love her. She’s not perfect at all and is hilarious for kids and adults to relate to in every way possible. She also reminds me of my sister being 12 years older than me it can feel like she trying to control and mother me which in my head is annoying like how Lilo feels, but I know she means well. So in conclusion Nani is a true Disney Princess.

4 ~ Lilo (Lilo and Stitch)

Speaking of Lilo....She is my future child, a little me. She’s weird, creative, funny, blunt, kind, and strong minded, I love her so much😍. What’s not to love her growth through the movies is ASTRONOMICAL, she starts out as awkward girl who feels like a weirdo who doesn’t fit in anywhere, and by the end is self assured, focused, ambitious, and confident and embraces her weirdly wonderful self. She is a legend I have nothing but amazing things to say about her.

3 ~ Tiana (Princess and the Frog)

She is immaculate she is ambitious, she is hardworking, she is a Disney Princess, like I am amazed at how hard she works for what she wants with something we can all aspire to and I am constantly rooting for her in everything. For Disney’s first black princess I think they did very well giving her a base for what kind of person she is and felt like good representation for black girls like me and she is so beautiful and Anika plays her so well, but I just wish she wasn’t a frog for 3/4 of the movie... that kinda through it off for me. But other than that even as a frog I just love her attitude about her self and how she pushes through tough times while also having the ability to be vulnerable as well. I just love Tiana and more people need to STOP sleeping on her.

2 ~ Kida (Atlantis)

A bad B!tch in every way, I had such a crush on her growing up I was just drawn to her character, her design of her hair and outfit is so amazingly creative, it makes it even better when knowing about all the heart that went into making this movie and her character. Her passion and love for her people is so strong that she is willing to let in strangers to help her, and try’s relentlessly to unclog the secrets to save her peoples future it’s so heartwarming how selfless she is (sounds like another characterfrom another studio I know...Proteus cough cough😏). Anyway she radiates inner and outer beauty through out the entire movie, she deserves all the praise, go watch the movie PLS.

DRUMROLL PEASE...

1 ~ Fa Mulan (Mulan)

I mean it shouldn’t be a surprise she is my favorite, from the time I was 5 and first watched this movie I knew it was true love, Mulan has always and will forever be my favorite Disney character and princess she is the number one OG, she is graceful, selfless, brave as F@CK, resourceful, independent, awkward, courageous, confident, and a DAMN BADASS hero with the biggest kill count of Disney history she puts the villains to shame I SAID IT! AND THAT HAIRCUT SCENE AMAZING. She is so wonderful on screen an seeing her defy the odds as a woman in war fighting for her father and self discovery, while also being a caring, determined and skillful fighter who sufferd through the odds to save ALL OF CHINA was so comforting and inspirational to me growing and even now as a new adult. The songs in the movie are bops, I love Shang he is my favorite Disney man, I love mushu he’s iconic, and I love Ling, Yao, and Chin po, that scene of Mulan looking out at China as the all bow to her is chilling. I will forever proudly say I love Mulan for the rest of my days.

[thebibliomancer]

Tides of the Dark Crystal liveblog pt 15

Tides of the Dark Crystal by J.M. Lee because we’re halfway through, whoa-oh I can’t think of a rhyme but we’re in a desert now.

Last times on book: Amri and co are on a quest to unite all the Gelfling clans against the Skeksis. They’ve managed to convince Maudra Ethri of the Sifa to not sail off into the sunset and join the cause. And now they’ve reluctantly hired known thief and smarmy guy Periss of the Dousan to take them on his sand skiff to the Crystal Desert where Maudra Seethi is.

Chapter 15

A storm in the desert, a teeming of Crystal Skimmers, a peril, and some Tavra/Onica content.

Team Naia plus Periss sand sails all day and continues sand sailing when night falls. But people need to sleep so they’ll just leave someone on watch.

Kylan volunteers Amri for first watch. Amri is like ‘hey, rude’ before realizing that Kylan was subtly letting him stay up at night without making a big deal of it in front of the others. And then he’s warmed by this kindness.

Aw, frens.

Some hours later, Naia joins Amri up on the deck because she had a weird, bad dream. She was in the Sog but she was Gurjin. And a message came for Momdra Laesid who reacted in horror to whatever it was. And then Naia woke up.

Amri suggests it could be an omen but Onica is sleeping.

“I’ll ask her when she wakes... You should rest, too, nightbird.”

Amri stood and yawned. Then he added, “Birds die in caves.”

“Nightworm, then.”

“They’re called nurlocs.”

“Go on!”

Hah! Frens!

I love that they’re the kind of friends who bust each others chops.

So Amri goes below deck and I’m confronted with the idea that this sand skiff has a below deck. How big is this thing? I was picturing...... Moana’s boat. But on sand.

Periss’ ship doesn’t just have a lower deck, it has hammocks. Multiple hammocks. Multiple hammocks with multiple hammocks still vacant. At minimum that’s... lessee Kylan, Onica, Periss all sleeping.... There’s a minimum of five but I don’t know if it would be uneven so there’s probably at least six hammocks!

This is a big, small ship and Periss was scooting around all alone in it.

Anyway, Amri gets into a hammock and passes out almost immediately.

He’s woken up in a hurry by Kylan (although its now daytime so he must have been asleep some hours) because there’s a storm and Crystal Skimmers because it doesn’t rain in the desert but when it rains it pours.

Also, they’re in the basin now so its just endless sand in all directions.

To their right, the sky ended in a cloud of gray dust crackling with lightning rolled like a monster with fire in its teeth. It boiled, unleashed and unconstrained like a whirlpool, in the wide desert.

Also, Crystal Skimmers. Darkened ones.

Geez, I feel like we haven’t deal with the darkening in a while. It barely come up, if at all, during the Sifa stuff. Because of ocean, I guess? I mean, if the darkening works by seeing some darkened crystal veins all that open ocean means that only the deep sea creatures are gonna get darkened and they’re probably bonkers already.

Anyway.

The approaching sand clouds teemed with horrific golden creatures. Their diamond-shaped bodies were bigger than the skiff, the size of the three-masted Sifa ships, with rough, ragged manes and long barbed tails. The creatures crashed out of the sands turned up b the storm to the left and the right and all around them, snapping with enormous gaping mouths.

If you remember the giant flying manta rays that the Dousan use to travel, then its those guys.

They seem huge so I wouldn’t want to deal with a rabid one of them, let alone a teeming of them.

Seasoned desert traveler Periss also decides that the storm isn’t natural either. He would have been able to navigate around it except for the Crystal Skimmers ambushing them.

One of the Crystal Skimmers side swipes the skiff’s starboard float and then gets tangled up in the ropes and starts dragging the boat around.

Periss recognizes this Crystal Skimmer as Hanja, who has the remains of a Dousan harness on its back. He begs Hanja to calm herself but Onica says that she can’t be reached since she’s seen the darkness. And that they’ll need to cut free or get dragged to death.

Seasoned boat traveler Onica takes charge. She and Periss go out to cut the ropes at the bow and stern where the Skimmer harness tangled.

They succeed in cutting the lines but before Amri can pull Onica back into the boat

Just as the starboard float glanced off the racing sand below, another Skimmer burst from below them. Amri felt Onica’s fingernails rip against his palm as the Skimmer snagged her in its enormous mouth, tearing her from his grasp.

ONICA NOOOO!

You’re too delightful to die! We barely know ye!

Okay okay okay Crystal Skimmers don’t have teeth so she’s not getting chewed but its got her good and it doesn’t feel the pain as she stabs it in the lips with her knife because its so maddened by the darkness.

And it keeps diving into the sand with Onica in its mouth which as far as experiences go I imagine is like being in a tumble drier full of sandpaper.

Periss follows the Crystal Skimmer but its flying too high and he says that Onica will have to fly down to them, winged girl Gelfing that she is.

“She can’t fly.”

The tiny, numb voice came from the folds of Amri’s cloak.

“What?”

“She lost her wings in a storm,” Tavra said. “She can’t fly.”

Oh no! Is that her Dark Backstory that we left the Sifa plot without learning? The thing that filled Ethri with much regret?

Naia decides she’ll fly up to the Skimmer and save Onica but her wings are so dried out from the desert that she probably can’t fly and if she did, her wings would probably be destroyed.

Geez, there’s a lot more to having wings than I had ever considered.

Amri decides he’ll do it instead.

But what of his no wings? Necessity is the mother of invention, probably. Amri pulls off two of those fins (that have already been noted to be roughly the size of Gelfling wings) and ties them to his back.

Buuuuut he doesn’t know how to fly. So Amri’s plan has a part 2. He tells Tavra to take over his body like she did before.

OH! That’s coming back up! And her being a spider is plot relevant in a lot of surprising ways this book.

“Amri, I didn’t do it on purpose before,” Tavra protested. “It was an accident! I don’t know how!”

“Well,” he growled, “you’re going to have to figure it out!”

He leaped and spread his arms.

The wind picked up like a hand, thrusting him into the sky. The gusts were like waves, coming from every direction, knocking him and twirling him higher and higher. He had no idea how to navigate, how to fall - how to fly. All he could do was try to keep his arms from breaking as the wind battered and beat him.

“You and Onica made a promise!”

“But I can’t --”

“Are you going to break your promise?”

Oof. Going for the hard-hitting emotional low blow, Amri? You can be mean when needs must, especially for the guy who wants to be the funny friend.

Can’t argue that it works because it works.

Amri is suddenly slam dunked into a dreamfast with Tavra for some important exposition dreamfasting.

A memory of a storm at sea with Onica’s ship broken to bits and her clinging to it as it breaks into smaller bits, holding Tae safe in her arms while the wreckage of the ship and the hail of the storm tear her wings to shreds.

Amri as Tavra fights her way through the storm, scoops up the two Sifa and flies them from the wreckage.

Promise me, someday we’ll sail away.

Tavra and Onica sat together on a misty shore, watching the tide bring in shards of crystalline ice. The seafarer’s lantern glowered nearby, dimly lighting the fog that surrounded them like a protective blanket. They were hidden there, by the silver mist. Or at least they could pretend they were, just for this moment.

To a place where no one can find us. Where there are no Sifa... no Vapra...

Their hands touched palm to palm, fingers weaving together.

Where it doesn’t matter. Where we can just be... one.

I’ve said before that I was 99% sure that Onica and Tavra were dating with all the saying it without actually saying it about their relationship. But, uh, I’m now 200% sure.

This is about as explicit as you can get without having one of them say girlfrens.

Anyway, the dreamfast ends and Amri finds that he’s flying. Or rather, Tavra is flying Amri. Like he’s a giant robot and she’s a plucky anime youth. Mobile Suit Amri.

Tavra is such a good flier even when flying with some juryrigged wings and she’s responding so intuitively to the winds that Amri briefly thinks that the storm had just quieted down since it seems less severe.

But when they reach the Crystal Skimmer, seeing Onica hanging limply in its mouth knocks Tavra out of sorts. The improvised wings get ripped off by the wind and Amri has to climb the Skimmer’s mane towards its mouth.

Now that the drift has ended, I’ll comment that the thing they did, Tavra piloting Amri to take advantage of all the physical skills she has. Its an interesting way to use the two of them. And its an interesting extension of Amri deciding to take up Tavra’s sword to take her role in the group despite having zero experience in swordery or fighting. But as an ultimate move, its probably unhealthy. Since Amri’s deal is that he feels useless and like he doesn’t contribute much to the group. If he starts thinking of himself as just a convenient meat puppet, that’s not great for his self-image.

Can’t deny that it got them 90% towards saving Onica but Amri has to do the last 10%.

The Skimmer dives into the sand - which we can now confirm from the POV character’s POV is an awful experience that crushes and scrapes and suffocates - but Amri manages to pull Onica free right when the creature dives towards the sand again.

He stood, tried desperately to find Periss’ skiff, but it was impossible. All he could see was gold and black, the storm and the din and the deafening howls of the Skimmers. He pulled Onica with him, trudging - any direction, it didn’t matter, he only wanted to be anywhere else. The sand burned his eyes, washed against his ankles, then his knees. He tried to listen, but its voices were too many. Millions of screaming sand-crystals, earth moving like water, singing in a tongue he couldn’t understand.

He turned as the ground shook. A Skimmer erupted under his feet, and Amri’s own scream was lost as the beast’s black maw swallowed them alive.

Geez, there’s just way too much getting eaten by giant beasts in this chapter.

[cosmopoliturtle]

Flipping the script - Which are your least favorite redesigns you did? Like maybe they just don't seem right now or something? And also, favorite redesign for the beta Pokemon you've done so far?

Oh boy– Okay, now I’m on the hot seat XD I guess we’ll do the same Generation format. 

I guess as a disclaimer, if any of the one’s I bring up here are anybody’s fave I’m not throwing shade on you, this is just how I feel. Maybe there’s something in them you see that I don’t. I’m sure somebody could crazy indepth look at all of my redesigns and find faults in all of them but like, I see faults in literally everything I do so I dunno how much that would help.

 Also if you’re wondering why I don’t go back and change any of these specific Pokemon it’s just cause if I were to go back and start changing things now, I’d be stuck in a hell loop and I’d wanna start changing everything. They reflect who I was and what I wanted to do at the time so I’ve chosen to respect that fact and I’m overall satisfied with how most of my redesigns have turned out in some way or another.

Gen. 1 - Pikachu Line

Pikachu and Raichu were ones I went back to most and made changes. It was kind of all in vain honestly because I don’t think I could ever match the perfection of such a long-lasting icon that Pikachu has become. Pikachu has kind of transcended Pokemon and is just a staple what people think of when you talk about any thing touching Japanese media. I think the odds were stacked against my favour but I can definitely say I did not recreate the magic of such an iconic brand but I tried doing my own thing and here we are I guess.

Gen. 2 - Granbull

This one is kinda cheating because I already went back and made it something I really like now, but yeah the original never really sat well with me while the new one I feel much better encapsulates the things I like about Granbull while the original I think went too far in a different direction.

Gen. 3 - Volbeat and Illumise

I drew these 2 while having a massive panic attack for unrelated reasons XD given that I think they turned out fine but I always kinda thought they could be kinda cuter, maybe rounder and softer. I like the idea behind them still but I definitely think Volbeat in particular could of been pudgier and cuter then he currently is. I’m very attachted to their concept though and I think illumise for the most part looks fine. Most of this is on Volbeat. This is probably the closest one I feel the urge to go back and change mainly because the changes would be minor and would make me feel so so much better. Just like a little itch is all. 

Also one I do like but I can critique - TAMATOA

Here’s the thing– I love Moana, I love Tamatoa, Tamatoa’s song is amazing, it’s one my favourite little bits in a western animated movie, I can separate the creatives working there versus Evil Corp but that being said I think my Crawdaunt is a little on the nose. I don’t doubt other Pokemon may be references or inspired by the things the creators love but I think they do it a lot subtler then I did. I still like the colours, the vibrant contrast is something I do with Dark Types regardless, and I really like the goofy pose and the dragon-claws but I could of been a wee bit more subtle I feel. 

Gen. 4 - Probopass

I like this guy in theory but wowie zowie does it ever look…something. Like I kinda love it for being so weird but I feel like the idea could of been cleaner. It’s so bizarre, this penguin totem electric moustache spinning top hat man. I think it exemplifies how weird I take these sometimes so I like in that regard but I think it could have been done cleaner and more succinctly.

Gen. 5 - Cryogonal

While a big departure from regular Cryogonal I kinda feel like I played mine too safe if that makes any sense. Normal Cryogonal has always bothered me for just being a big face but I feel like mine kind of being an ice golem thing could have been done weirder. I had so many off-the-wall ideas for this guy I’m not sure why I settled on this one. I do like aurora mantle and the colour contrast but I feel like I should have pushed it to being something a bit less conventional in terms of silhouette mainly.

Also one I do like but I can critique - Gothita Line

I can definitely see someone saying this is more a Regional Variant of my Ralts Line then a new Pokemon but at the same time I don’t particularly care and I really like them anyway XD I love the Hime Cut and the red string motif I went with. I’m putting them here though just ‘cause I think it would be fair to point out.

Gen. 6 - Hawlucha

This guy could be crazier I think. I like the colours for the most part and I like all the patterns and shapes and what I did with the tail being connected to the mask but I feel like the face could be weirder considering what normal Hawlucha looks like. I think taking inspiration from something like Alebrije could of pumped this one up in being a bit more memorable. I like most of it but I think it could have been pushed way way further.

Gen. 7 -Tapu Bulu

This one I feel similar to Hawlucha and Cryogonal where it could have just been pushed a bit further to give it a greater sense of identity. I think they’re cute but they also don’t quite fit with my other Tapu redesigns that have more mask-like faces. I think I figured the hat would cover that part but I think it could have been done a bit better. 

Mega Evolutions - Mega Aggron

I really like all the shapes like the face, the wingalings, the face on the chest and the tail hooking together but I think it would have looked better with more Kaiju-esque body shape like the normal one has. Considering that Aggron is one of my favourite Pokemon I’m not sure why I settled on a more theropod shape–I don’t think it’s bad but I think the dumpier, Kaiju shape of the normal one is a lot more likeable.

Beta Pokemon - Best and Worst 

Best one is Ghift, I’m probably never drawing anything this cute ever again sorry not sorry.

Worst one is Belmitt because they’re okay I guess. I like the shapes I did down the back but they don’t inspire any incredible feelings or anything. It’s fine.

Moral of the story is I’m still trying to improve all the time and hopefully I am I can’t tell I dunno. 

[hollymartinswrites]

Chapters: 2/2 Fandom: IT - Stephen King, IT (Movies - Muschietti) Rating: Mature Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Eddie Kaspbrak/Richie Tozier, Ben Hanscom/Beverly Marsh Characters: Eddie Kaspbrak, Richie Tozier, Ben Hanscom, Beverly Marsh, Bill Denbrough, Mike Hanlon, Original Child Character(s) Additional Tags: Fix-It, Post-Canon Fix-It, Post-IT Chapter Two (2019), Domestic, Light Angst, Family Feels, Childhood Trauma, Adoption, Kid Fic, Adopted Children, Richie Tozier Loves Eddie Kaspbrak, Eddie Kaspbrak Loves Richie Tozier, Marriage, Eddie Kaspbrak & Richie Tozier Are Parents, Angst, Fluff, Fluff and Angst, Minor Ben Hanscom/Beverly Marsh, Beverly Marsh & Richie Tozier Are Best Friends Summary:

Eddie and Richie embark on the most terrifying experience of all—parenthood.

Or, the author desperately needed a domestic, family fix-it for Richie and Eddie.

Chapter II: A look into Richie and Beverly's friendship as parenthood is thrown into the mix.

“How many godfathers can one kid have?”

“Richie, we’re agnostic.”

“Hey, I believe in God, I just don’t trust organized religion,” Richie replied, hanging the framed Princess Leia poster before stepping back to observe it. “Or any organizations, now that I think about it.”

“It’s crooked. Move it to the right like an inch,” Eddie said. “And she doesn’t need godparents.”

“Course she does,” Richie said, maneuvering the frame slowly as if it were a tempermental bomb. “I mean, obviously Bev will be godmother and I guess that means Ben should be godfather but we can’t play favorites with the guys like that.”

“Did you have godparents? And it’s straight now, quit messing with it.”

“Yeah,” Richie said. “My great uncle Jim and my mom’s cousin Valerie. I’ve told you about her before. She took me to my first Pride when I was twenty because surprise, she was a lesbian and no one knew. Even though she and her roommate Laura shared a one bedroom apartment in New York.”

Eddie laughed and shook his head.

“I’d pay money to see you at Pride as some lanky, awkward kid,” he said.

“Oh man,” Richie said, grinning, “I was such a twink back then.”

“And what the hell are you now?”

Richie shrugged.

“I don’t know. Sloppy otter? Is that still a thing?”

“You’re asking the wrong guy,” Eddie said. He gazed around the room and his smile widened. “I gotta say, this is a pretty awesome kid’s room.”

“Hell yeah it is,” Richie replied, stepping beside his husband and putting his arm around his shoulders. “She’s gonna love it.”

They were both silent for several long moments, content to simply be in one another’s presence in their child’s room when Richie squeezed Eddie’s shoulder.

“I can’t believe it’s finally happening,” he admitted softly.

“I know,” Eddie agreed. “You’re gonna be a good dad.”

Richie colored briefly before gently hip-checking Eddie.

“So are you,” he said.

Eddie merely smiled.

Richie picked up the phone on the second ring.

“Bev!” he shouted.

“Richie!” she shouted back, laughing. “How are you?”

“Oh, you know, exhausted, covered in glitter, and haven’t showered in days,” he replied. Lydia lifted up her latest drawing and he gave her a thumbs up. She grinned and grabbed another piece of construction paper. “So just like college all over again.”

Bev laughed.

“I wish we went to college together,” she said wistfully.

“Oh, we’d be expelled instantly if some university was stupid enough to accept both of us,” he said. “So what’s going on?”

“Well, I finally had time to sit and watch all the videos you sent yesterday,” she answered. “And I have to say, Lydia is the sweetest, smartest, cutest kid I’ve ever seen.”

“Aw,” Richie said. He moved the phone away from his mouth and loudly whispered, “Lyds, my friend Bev thinks you’re cute and smart and sweet.”

“Who’s Bev?” Lydia asked.

“My friend, you’ll meet her soon.” Richie returned the phone to his ear. “When are you and Ben coming by?”

“Soon, I hope,” she said. “Ben’s finishing up a big project but this summer should be free and clear. What about the other Losers?”

“I don’t know, I want to do a BBQ with all of you so you can meet Lydia at the same time,” he said.

“I don’t like BBQ,” Lydia pointed out. “I like macaroni and cheese.”

“I’ll make macaroni and cheese, I promise,” Richie said.

“You cook now?” Bev asked.

“Don’t sound so surprised,” he shot back. “I had been surviving on my own for twenty years, thank you.”

“I just can’t believe you’re a dad now,” Bev sighed wistfully.

“Well, you better believe it because I lost the receipt so this kid is nonrefundable,” he said, reaching out and tussling her hair, causing her to playfully bat away his hand.

Bev laughed.

“You sound happy, you know that?” she said.

Richie blinked. He hadn’t really thought about it but he supposed he was. A warm wave filled his chest.

“Yeah, I guess I am,” he said, clearing his throat.

“Am I making Trashmouth emotional?”

“No way,” he insisted. “I never get emotional and I definitely did not cry when we watched Moana the other night.”

“Yes, you did, Papa!”

“Shh!”

Bev laughed again and Richie grinned.

“Don’t worry, Ben cries at everything so your secret is safe with me,” she said. “I’m going to talk to him tonight about vacation days. You have to let us know when you’re free, though.”

“We’ll make it work, don’t worry.”

“Yeah, but I know Eddie’s always busy at work and you two are the ones with a kid.”

“We’ll make it work,” Richie repeated.

“I feel kinda bad though,” Bev admitted. “Won’t Lydia be overwhelmed by a welcome party filled with grown-ups?”

Richie blinked again. He hadn’t thought about that. He glanced at his daughter, happily tracing her hand on a piece of pink paper and swallowed.

“She has some friends from her school,” he said slowly. “I can invite them for her.”

“I just don’t want her bored or frightened,” Bev continued. “I remember the few times my dad took me to see family, I was the only kid. I hated it. Everyone talking over you and then yelling if you dared to look bored.”

Richie swallowed again and looked down at the table. He had always hated it when Bev spoke of her father but he was smart enough to know to shut up and listen.

“Anyway,” she said brightly, “I just want her to have fun.”

“She will. We’ll make it fun.”

“And Ben and I already got her a bunch of presents.”

“Oh no,” he groaned. “We specifically said no presents.” Lydia’s head immediately shot up, eyes wide and bright. “She’s spoiled enough as it is.” Lydia shook her head fervently.

“And send us her size, I saw some super cute clothes the other day,” Bev continued.

“Bev, no—”

“Yes, Richie,” she insisted. “I love you but I’m ignoring you.”

“Bev, I swear—”

“I gotta go,” she said quickly. “I love you, Trashmouth.”

Richie sighed but smiled warmly.

“I love you, too,” he replied gently.

“And I love Lydia even without meeting her yet.”

Richie’s heart did something intense, and it knocked the breath out of him.

“Richie?”

“Yeah, no, thanks, Bev,” he said quickly.

“Alright,” she said, laughter in her voice. “I’ll talk to you soon, okay?”

“Okay.”

“Bye.”

“Bye.”

Richie placed his phone on the table and tried to gather his thoughts. It was harder than usual.

“Look at this one, Papa,” Lydia announced, lifting another colorful and glittery drawing. A large percentage of said glitter slipped off and fell onto the table. “Oops.”

“That’s a beaut,” he said and sniffed. “My friend Bev said she loves you.”

“That’s nice,” Lydia replied. “And she bought me presents?”

“Yeah, but you don’t need anything.”

“But maybe she got me something I don’t have,” Lydia pointed out.

“Airtight logic, as usual, kiddo,” Richie admitted.

Lydia smiled and clapped her hands together in an attempt to clear them of glitter, frowning when it did nothing.

“I think we gotta hose you down,” Richie observed. He glanced at the clock. “And soon, before your dad walks in and has a conniption.”

“What’s a conniption?”

“It’s what happens when your dad comes home and sees what a mess your papa has made,” Richie answered, standing. “Come on, let’s get you and all of this cleaned up.”

Richie finished loading the dishwasher, closed it, set it, and immediately sat down in the closest chair, suddenly exhausted. He barely flinched when he felt arms curl around his shoulders and a chin rest on the top of his head.

“You okay, buddy?” Bev asked gently.

“Yeah, just tired,” he replied. “Too much excitement for one day.”

Bev nodded and leaned down to place a kiss on his head.

“You sure you’re good?” she asked again.

“Yeah, but just...can you do me a favor?”

“Anything.”

“Can you tell me if my hair is thinning up there?”

Bev laughed and flicked his ear.

“No, it’s as thick and messy as ever,” she replied. “But you do still have a fivehead.”

“Shut up.”

Bev squeezed his shoulders and then sat in the empty chair closest to him. A golden glow from the setting sun streamed through the open windows, and they could hear the rest of the party—Losers catching up and laughing and children shrieking with delight at whatever delighted five-year-olds—but it was mercifully quiet in the kitchen.

“I’m glad you invited her friends,” Bev said. “She needed some people her age to counterbalance all of us boring grown-ups.”

Richie nodded.

“Yeah, but she had fun with you and Ben earlier,” he said. “I guess she’s used to being the only kid around with just me and Eddie.”

“Do you think you guys will adopt again?”

Richie swallowed and shrugged.

“I don’t know, I mean, we’re still getting the hang of having just one kid,” he sighed. “But I wouldn’t want her to be an only child. They’re kinda weird, no offense.”

Bev laughed.

“They’re also lonely,” she pointed out, “so I wouldn’t recommend it for her, either.”

Richie felt compelled to hug her but settled for taking one of her hands in both of his, resting them on the table. They were both silent for a long moment, and he tried to ignore the fact that Bev was gazing at him expectantly before he cleared his throat.

“Bev, I…I’m scared.”

She quirked her head to the side and gazed at Richie with mild confusion on her face.

“Scared of what, Rich?”

“Fucking everything,” he admitted, not meeting her eyes. “What if I’m in over my head?”

Bev squeezed his hands.

“I’m not a parent,” she offered gently, “but I think that’s a common side effect.”

Richie sighed and shook his head.

“And you’re not doing this alone,” Bev continued, reaching out with her free hand to brush a strand of hair behind his ear. “You’ve got Eddie. The two of you are doing a great job. You can tell just by looking at Lydia.”

Richie’s chest tightened.

“Lydia’s amazing,” he admitted. “But she was amazing when we adopted her.”

“Rich—”

“And Eddie...” he swallowed and looked up at Bev, “I’m scared I forced him into something he didn’t want.”

Bev appeared genuinely shocked.

“Richie, that’s impossible,” she insisted.

“I don’t know.”

“Do you think for even one second Eddie would move across the country and endure years of all that bureaucratic bullshit and constant, needling, in-depth assessments from social workers for something he didn’t want?”

Richie swallowed and looked down again.

“He loves you,” Bev said gently, leaning in closer to her friend, “but he doesn’t love you that much.”

That startled a laugh out of Richie. He wiped at his nose and sniffed. Bev used her free hand to wipe at his face.

“You’re just tired,” she observed. “Tired and overwhelmed at having all of us here and showing off Lydia.”

“Hey, do you guys have any...what’s going on?”

They both looked up. Ben was standing in the doorway looking not unlike a deer caught in the headlights.

“Nothing, nothing,” Bev said quickly.

“Yeah, nothing, just your girlfriend bullying me about my forehead, that’s all,” Richie replied. Ben smiled but he still looked unconvinced. Richie continued, “You need something, dude?”

“Oh, yeah, just wanted to grab a drink,” Ben said.

Richie motioned towards the fridge and Ben opened it, reached in, and pulled out a juicebox. He glanced down at it in his hand and then smirked at Richie, his eyebrows raised.

“Hey, don’t knock it, mix that with a little vodka, fucking delicious,” Richie insisted. “That’s how I get through Lydia’s gymnastics classes.”

Bev smirked and slapped him lightly on the knee, earning a yelp from Richie. Ben shook his head, still smiling, closed the fridge door, and immediately pushed the straw through the top of the juicebox and sipped.

“Hmm,” he said after a few moments’ consideration, “not bad, actually.”

“See?” Richie replied. “There are some benefits to having a kid.” Ben sat at the table beside him and affectionately patted him on the shoulder. Richie glanced at him and bit the bullet. “So, not to sound totally straight, but are you guys thinking about having kids?”

Ben’s eyes widened and his lips tightened around the straw. Bev rolled her eyes.

“We don’t know, Rich,” she said gently. “Though we are running out of time.”

“What are you talking about?”

“I’m well over forty.”

“We’re all well over forty.”

Bev gave him a pointed look and realization washed over Richie’s face.

“Oh, yeah,” Richie muttered. “Who gives a shit? I read about a woman in India who had a baby at seventy.”

“I don’t plan on going for that,” Bev laughed.

“Besides, you and Eddie have inspired us to at least look into adoption,” Ben replied.

“Oh yeah?” Richie said. “Nice. Well, if you need advice, talk to Eddie. I’m a mess.”

“Richie…”

“I’m serious,” he insisted. “I know we only got approval because of him.”

“Come on, that’s not—”

“It is true. I mean, who would you let raise a kid? A shitty and foul-mouthed comic with crazy hours and a drinking problem he only just got under control or the responsible, completely organized nerd in polo shirts?”

Ben and Bev were both silent and Richie realized he had, once again, gone too far. He racked his mind to rectify the situation—a joke, an impression, a scream, anything—when he was saved by the backdoor opening and Eddie appearing in the doorway.

“Hey, Lydia’s friends are getting picked up,” he said. “You wanna come say goodbye with me?”

Richie stood.

“Sorry, folks, parenting duty calls,” he said casually and offered a lop-sided grin before leaving Ben and Bev in the kitchen.

He’s late.

What time is it by you?

7:32.

Well, didn’t he say he had a dinner meeting?

Yeah, at 5. wtf

I’m sure he’s just sitting in traffic. He’ll be home soon. Don’t worry.

I’m not worried. I’m fucking pissed.

He can’t help it if work is crazy, sweetheart.

He could’ve called out. I’m by myself over here, neck deep in snotty tissues and crying kids.

Richie glanced up from his phone at the sound of keys in the front door. Fucking finally, he thought. The door opened and closed and it seemed to Richie that Eddie purposely took a long time to get from the foyer to the living room, where he was sitting on the couch with Lydia’s feet in his lap and their youngest curled up against his side, drooling onto his shirt. They were still passed out, mercifully.

Eddie walked into the living room and quietly stepped up to the couch.

“Hey,” he whispered. “How are the girls?”

“Lydia’s fever broke,” Richie sighed, “but I think it’s going into her chest. She keeps coughing. And Tess is just congested and keeps puking up the medicine so that’s been fun.”

“She hasn’t kept any of the medicine down?”

Richie shook his head and shoved his fingers beneath his glasses, rubbing his eyes tiredly.

“Fuck, we gotta get her to take it,” Eddie said.

“No shit,” Richie snapped. He tensed when Lydia stretched in her sleep but she remained asleep.

“I read about another brand online today,” Eddie said, leaning down to run his fingers through Tess’s dark hair. “Supposedly it doesn’t have any of that artificial flavoring shit. That’s probably what’s making her sick.”

Richie shrugged, too exhausted to even comment. Eddie glanced at him, raising an eyebrow before continuing, “I’ll pick some up on the way home tomorrow.”

Richie’s head shot up and he stared at Eddie, stunned.

“You’re going into work tomorrow?” he asked dumbly.

“I gotta, but just for half a day. I’ll be home early.”

“Like you were today?”

Eddie straightened and shook his head.

“I’m too tired for this right now,” he sighed.

Richie’s eyes widened. For a moment, he couldn’t see straight.

“You’re too tired?” he repeated, his voice strained.

Lydia moved again, sighing in her sleep before being rattled awake by a violent cough. Richie and Eddie both reached for the glass of water on the coffee table, but Lydia got to it first before immediately gulping down half of it.

“Easy, kiddo,” Eddie murmured, taking the glass from her when was done. “How are you feeling?”

Lydia answered by coughing again, covering her mouth with her arm like her dad had showed her. Tears sprang to her eyes and her nose began running. Richie handed her the tissue box and ran his fingers through her unruly curls.

“My throat won’t stop tickling,” she finally gasped out.

“Your sinuses are draining, that’s probably it,” Eddie said before reaching towards his briefcase he had left on the floor. He opened it and brought out a bag of cough drops. “I made sure to get the lemon ones.” He unwrapped and handed her one, and she immediately popped it in her mouth before settling back down on the couch.

Richie glanced over at Tess. She hadn’t even stirred from the commotion. He was also quite sure some of the drool on his shirt was snot, but he couldn’t bring himself to care.

“Look, you’re home now, I’m gonna go take a shower, okay?” he said, gently moving Lydia’s feet off his lap and placing a pillow beside Tess. Without waiting for an answer, he hurried to the bedroom, leaving Eddie staring after his retreating back.

Richie, admittedly, took a particularly long shower but he felt he deserved it. A full day and a half of battling germs, miserable kids, and the occasional pukefest could wear a man out. Eddie’s extra-early alarm this morning certainly didn’t help, nor did his apparent reluctance to pick up the phone. Richie allowed himself one bang against the shower wall with his fist before concentrating on his breathing and allowing the warm water to undo the tension in his body. Fuck, he was tired.

Turning off the shower, he gingerly stepped out and wrapped a towel around his waist before heading into the bedroom, where Eddie was waiting for him.

“You talk to Bev about what a shitty husband I am?” he said in an oddly calm voice.

Richie blinked. Then he noticed his cell phone in Eddie’s hand. Shit. Deflect, Tozier.

“You went through my phone?” he shot back. “And you left the girls alone?”

“Tess is still asleep and Lydia is watching TV,” Eddie answered and took a step towards Richie. “And your phone went off with a text from Bev that had my name in it. Of course I fucking looked, you’d do the same.”

Richie frowned. Eddie, was usual, was right.

“Bev and I talk all the time,” he said, brushing past him to their bureau and began searching for pajamas. “You know that.”

“Yeah, but—”

“And you talk to her and the guys,” Richie continued. “What’s the fucking difference?”

“I don’t bitch and moan about you to them.”

“Bullshit.”

“I don’t share private things with them.”

Richie whirled around, which was a bit difficult considering he was still stepping into his pajama pants. “Private things?” he repeated. “You being late on a day where I really fucking needed you isn’t exactly intimate information. What’s the big deal?”

Eddie swallowed and shook his head.

“Well, I don’t like it,” he admitted.

Richie huffed a laugh.

“I don’t like that you care more about work than your family but we all got our crosses to bear, right?” he snapped. “So forgive me for letting off a little steam to someone who actually cares.”

Eddie stared at him, his eyes wide and impossibly bright. Richie looked away, grabbed the first t-shirt he could find in the bureau and put it on.

“I’m gonna go sit with the kids,” he muttered. “Text Bev back for me and tell her everything’s fucking fine.”

He felt Eddie’s eyes on him as he stalked out of the bedroom and tried his best to school his face when he approached the couch but by the sidelong glance his daughter gave him, he knew he had done a poor job of it.

[trauma-13]

You know the drill. All them asks. 😈 (is this deja vu?)

You got it dude!! (It is...cause I fucked up 😂)

The meaning behind my url:

Trauma because it's my favorite area of nursing.

Princess because I'm a fuckin princess.

93 because the year I was born.

A picture of me:

If you look hard enough you'll find one on here. Also my icon is me soooo.

How many tattoos i have and what they are:

Oh good lord. I have quite a few....

1. Mom's last name on my left wrist.

2. Flowers on my right foot.

3. Tribal-ish heart my brother drew on the back on my neck.

4. Walt Disneys signature on my left foot.

5. Mickey and Minnie behind my ears.

6. A prior dogs paw print on my left ankle.

7. A dandelion on my right shoulder blade with music notes.

8. My dog, Axel, paw prints on my collar bones.

9. A moon on my right ankle.

10. A semi colon on my right wrist (ulnar side)

11. A arrow on my right wrist (radial side)

12. A humming bird on my right forearm.

I think that's it... for now...

Last time i cried and why:

I dunno, honestly. I cry frequently hahah

Piercings i have:

Labret/Monroe

Ears gauged to a 00.

Traugus both sides

Right sided daith.

Nipples.

Favorite band:

Sooo many. Currently imagine dragons.

Biggest turn offs:

Bad hygiene, liars, cheats, narcacists.

Top 5 (insert subject):

???

Tattoos i want:

Too many to list, honestly.

Biggest turn ons:

I'm a big physical touch person, so basically anything where I'm being touched.

Age:

26

Ideas of a perfect date:

Doing something totally new that neither of us has experienced.

Life goal:

Pediatric ICU trauma nurse, be a mom, be a good wife.

Piercings i want:

Maybe my left daith. Probably a 2nd lobe hole.

Relationship status:

Very happily engaged.

Favorite movie:

Steel magnolias (the old one), Moana, Mean Girls.

A fact about my life:

I'm a nurse, I work in the ER and medsurg/tele, I have 2 doggos, and 2 kittens, I'm practically married at this point, I live on the surface of the sun.

Phobia:

Spiders, failure.

Middle name:

I'ma pass on telling the world that.

Height:

5'6" with shoes on.

Are you a virgin?

Naaah.

What’s your shoe size?

Between 9-10 depends on the shoe and brand.

What’s your sexual orientation?

I am bisexual, however I'm in a heterosexual relationship.

Do you smoke, drink, or take any drugs?

Drink yes, no to the others.

Someone you miss

@car-one-responding

What’s one thing you regret?

Suffering in an abusive relationship because I didn't think I had a way out.

First celebrity you think of when someone says attractive:

Chris Evans.

Favorite ice cream?

I'm honestly not a big ice cream person, but we have some delicious basil-lime sorbet from a local store that I'm obsessed with.

One insecurity:

Weight.

What my last text message says:

"I re sent it. Just delete the other one I guess? Lol" from @car-one-responding in reference to this cause I done FUCKED IT UP.

Have you ever taken a picture naked?

Mmmmhhhhhmmmmm.

Have you ever painted your room?

Not recently at all, but as a kid yeah.

Have you ever kissed a member of the same sex?

Yep, couple times.

Have you ever slept naked?

I usually do.

Have you ever danced in front of your mirror?

Almost every day hahah

Have you ever had a crush?

Duuuh, who hasn't hah

Have you ever been dumped?

Aldo duuuh.

Have you ever stole money from a friend?

Nope. I'm a very honest person.

Have you ever gotten in a car with people you just met?

Hmm. Probably.

Have you ever been in a fist fight?

Does patients attacking count?? I didn't punch, but I got punched.

Have you ever snuck out of your house?

Yep.

Have you ever had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back?

I think just about everyone has.

Have you ever been arrested?

No. Im from a tiny Town where my dad was a cop, mom was a nurse. So everyone knew me.

Have you ever made out with a stranger?

No I don't think so.

Have you ever met up with a member of the opposite sex somewhere?

Like...in a sexual way? Or like hung out? If so yes to both hah

Have you ever left your house without telling your parents?

Yeah, however I'm a pretty open person. I usually tell my mom where Im going. She raised me as a single mom, and I had a lot of freedom as long as I was open and honest with her. That's just transferred into adulthood.

Have you ever had a crush on your neighbor?

No. But I purposely became friends with an old neighbor cause he had a cute ass dog named Max.

Have you ever ditched school to do something more fun?

Yep. Got busted too haha

Have you ever slept in a bed with a member of the same sex?

Uh huh! It's called sleep overs, duh aha

Have you ever seen someone die?

Unfortunately, that's part of my job. Not everyone gets saved in the ER. Plus in the hospital where I work there is a very large group who has very strict rules about death, so frequently we admit people to die either to the floor if we suspect it'll be a couple days, or the ER if we think it'll be quick. Death can be a beautiful process, or it can be horrific, and traumatizing...just depends how ya look at it.

Have you ever been on a plane?

Yeah quite a few times!!

Have you ever kissed a picture?

Honestly what little girl didn't kiss a picture of Leonardo DeCaprio...

Have you ever slept in until 3?

Bro I'm a mid/nightshifter. Weird sleep schedules are my life.

Have you ever loved someone or miss someone right now?

Weirdly worded question. But yes I have loved, yes I do miss people.

Have you ever laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by?

Yes!! It's one of my favorites. I also love to watch the stars.

Have you ever made a snow angel?

Yeah!!! It's super fun!!

Have you ever played dress up?

Yeah!!

Have you ever cheated while playing a game?

Queen of attempting to cheat at games and failing miserably 🙋‍♀️

Have you ever been lonely?

Mhmm. Side affects of working away from my family.

Have you ever fallen asleep at work/school?

I'm forever sleepy, so yeah.

Have you ever been to a club?

Yeah couple times!

Have you ever felt an earthquake?

Once as a kid. I don't remember much of it besides it waking me up, and I woke up my mom because I didn't know what it was. I was maybe 7?

Have you ever touched a snake?

I love snakes. They're such cool animals.

Have you ever ran a red light?

That may or may not be why I didn't have a drivers license for 3 yrs.

Have you ever been suspended from school?

Nope 😏 I did get temporarily kicked out of nursing school and fought my way back in though. That's a tale for another time.

Have you ever had detention?

Once, for chewing gum.

Have you ever been in a car accident?

Yeah, nothing serious though. *knocks on all the wood*

Have you ever hated the way you look?

I feel like everyone has, unfortunately.

Have you ever witnessed a crime?

1. I live where I live, it's a regular occurrence. We don't carry a gun for no reason.

2. Used to work in the heart of the ghetto.

3. Used to live 5 mins from there.

Safe to say I've seen a crime or two.

Have you ever pole danced?

One drunken Halloween, yes.

Have you ever been lost?

Physically not emotionally? Yes to both haha

Have you ever been to the opposite side of the country?

I have yeah!!

Have you ever felt like dying?

Yeah, on quite a few occasions I don't talk about.

Have you ever cried yourself to sleep?

Yep.

Have you ever sang karaoke?

Again, drunken Halloweens.

Have you ever done something you told yourself you wouldn’t?

Im sure I have.

Have you ever laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose?

Yes I have, it's not fun.

Have you ever slept with someone at least 5 years older or younger?

Hmm.....I don't actually think so.

Have you ever kissed in the rain?

Yes!!

Have you ever sang in the shower?

Every single time.

Have you ever made out in a park?

Mhmm!

Have you ever dream that you married someone?

Yes, and I'm marrying him in a little over a month.

Have you ever glued your hand to something?

My other hand hahah

Have you ever got your tongue stuck to a flag pole?

No..but not for lack of trying.

Have you ever gone to school partially naked?

Uh, no haha

Have you ever been a cheerleader?

Nah, I was a band geek.

Have you ever sat on a roof top?

Yes, it's a great time.

Have you ever brushed your teeth?

I want to say "who hasn't" but we all know there's those people who haven't...

Have you ever been too scared to watch scary movies alone?

Sometimes, yes.

Have you ever played chicken?

Not huh.

Have you ever been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on?

Probably so.

Have you ever been told you’re hot by a complete stranger?

Yep.

Have you ever broken a bone?

A few yeah. My nose, jaw in 3 places, my tail bone, my ankle.

Have you ever been easily amused?

Have you met me....

Have you ever laughed so hard you cried?

Like 45 mins ago hahah

Have you ever mooned/flashed someone?

Yep, regularly occurs in my house.

Have you ever cheated on a test?

Probably way back in the day, but I don't remember anything specific. I'm a pretty honestly person, so if I don't know it, then oh well.

Have you ever forgotten someone’s name?

Every fucking day of my life!

Have you ever met someone who didn’t seem real?

Not quite sure...?

Give us one thing about you that no one knows.

Once upon a time, I was like 13 or 14. I was hanging out with my mom while she cooked dinner and eating a carrot. I suddenly sneezed. I then had a carrot chunk stuck in my sinuses. I could feel it, but mom didn't believe me. So for 3 days straight I blew my nose constantly. And I finally got the carrot chunk out.

[tigerlover16-uk]

So, what is the deal with tumblr's weird beef with Pixar's new movie Coco? I see a lot of people complaining about it and I don't get why

That’s actually a really interesting subject, because there’s quite a lot to unpack there:

1: Earlier into the films production, Disney tried to trademark the phrase “Dia de los muertos”, the Mexican name for the Day of the Dead holiday that the movie is based around. Naturally this resulted in justifiable outrage and disgust from Mexican citizens and fans at a company trying to trademark a holiday that holds great significance to their culture. Thankfully Disney quickly backed down after realizing how stupid they had been, but it still left many people bitter and weary of how the movie was going to turn out.

2: You heard of The Book of Life? It’s another movie based around the same holiday released about three years ago. It was generally well received by critics, but had something of a broken base reception among audiences for a variety of reasons, and made just shy of $100 million at the worldwide box office on a $50 million budget, making it only a very modest success at best. Though it has a passionate fandom especially here on tumblr.

Part of that has to do with the fact that it was directed by Jorge Gutierrez, a talented Mexican director and animator probably best known for creating the Nickelodeon show El Tigre. He’s a nice guy from what I’ve seen and very passionate about his culture and his works.

Tumblr and many social justice advocates are very passionate about pushing for a wider range of diversity in the media, and that includes behind the scenes and supporting the work of minority creators in Hollywood and the entertainment Industry in general (And understandably, it is an important cause).

So when Pixar announced the release date for a film also based on the Day of the Dead holiday, directed by a white man, fans of The Book of Life and Jorge became immediately salty over the prospect, since with Pixar’s pedigree even if the movie turned out not well received it was all but guaranteed to make WAY more money and get far more publicity from both the general public and the animation community than the Book of Life did, maybe even having a shot at winning best animated feature Oscar due to the academy’s bias towards Disney and Pixar due to their general disregard to animation as a legitimate art form worthy of their attention.

3: Disney have a very shaky history with representing non-white groups of people and cultures, many of their classic and even recent movies featuring offensive stereotypes or just downright racist stories, the most well known example being Pocahontas, a movie where if you know anything at all about the real life person it’s story is “Based” on, you’d… be pretty insulted, to say the least.

They’ve gotten better at this to an extent this century, Moana for example despite some complaints was pretty well researched and the filmmakers clearly cared about doing their best to respect Polynesian culture. But a lot of people are just suspicious whenever Disney release a work vaguely like Coco made by a white director and mostly white crew. The fact that it’s specifically Pixar making the film doesn’t alleviate this sentiment, since they’re owned by and heavily connected to Disney.

This also ties in with the previous point, where Book of Life fans and people who want to see more support for movies about Mexico and their culture by actual Mexican creators feel embittered about the situation with Coco, to the point of calling it a rip-off based on any even coincidental similarity they perceive between the two films.

Disney did recognise this, and brought on a Latino co-director in Adrian Molina, and a number of high profile Latino consultants including the CEO of the Mexico Heritage Corp Marcela Davison Aviles to help make sure the film was as accurate and respectful to Mexican culture and the traditions behind the Day of the Dead holiday as possible, the director and crew already having done extensive research to have achieved this from the start of production.

This helped alleviate some people’s concerns, but for many the damage was already done and among many here on Tumblr there was lingering resentment both from Book of Life fans and many people who just felt that a film about Mexican culture should have been the work of Mexican creators from the start. So the movie had a hard time winning over much of it’s detractors pre-release.

And, while I think there’s more I could add and probably I don’t know about, I think that covers a lot of the main points.

From what I’ve seen, Coco has been unanimously well received in Mexico upon release, and despite the attitudes of his fans Jorge Gutierrez loved the movie, and was very excited about having multiple animated movies about an important holiday from his culture being made (A sentiment echoed by many Mexican people and fans as to why the complaints about being a rip-off of Book of Life just from being based around the same holiday were unfair and jumping the gun, since how many movies do we have about Christmas and Halloween?).

So, it looks like things turned out fine regardless of the controversy. Now, I haven’t seen the movie. And I’ll say upfront, I’m a white-British guy who only has a basic knowledge about Mexico and it’s culture. I can’t tell you how accurate and respectful the movie is, whether it features any problematic elements or stereotypes and any of that. I probably wouldn’t be qualified to comment on that even after watching the film.

If there are Latino fans who have watched the movie, and are very passionate about their culture and how their people are represented in the media and they take issue with anything in the final product, I won’t argue too hard with them.

I will say though that a movie like this being made, and the way it’s been embraced by the people it’s representing, is a very important thing for Mexican people. We need more movies based on and which lovingly embrace and celebrate that country and it’s culture, now more than ever maybe with the rising anti-immigrant and anti-Latino sentiments in the United States, especially with President Crazy Steve and his “Let’s build a wall to keep those rapists out of our country and save our jerbs!!” nonsense. 

It’s important for non-Latino children to see movies portraying Mexico and it’s people in a positive way, and maybe even more so important for Latino children to see themselves in the media as the heroes more often than they do currently, especially those of immigrant families.

So, with the film now released and the very positive reception it’s got, you know… maybe we can all just calm down a little and accept this as a victory?

[smilingsection]

Tagged @teekapoa

1. DO YOU SLEEP WITH YOUR CLOSET DOORS OPEN OR CLOSED?

Closed

2. DO YOU TAKE THE SHAMPOOS AND CONDITIONER BOTTLES FROM HOTELS?

No, I use what i need and leave the rest where it was.

3. DO YOU SLEEP WITH YOUR SHEETS TUCKED IN OR OUT?

In! 

4. HAVE YOU STOLEN A STREET SIGN BEFORE?

What? No. Why would i do that?

5. DO YOU LIKE TO USE POST-IT NOTES?

I love them! They’re so versatile, i use them for everything!

6. DO YOU CUT OUT COUPONS BUT THEN NEVER USE THEM?

Hum...sometimes yeah. Last time it was a discount on a conditioner but i had already bought two bottles so i never used it and it expired.

7. WOULD YOU RATHER BE ATTACKED BY A BIG BEAR OR A SWARM OF BEES?

Ah jeez...the bees i guess? ‘cause it would hurt less?

8. DO YOU HAVE FRECKLES?

Some tiny ones on my nose and on my cheeks near my eyes but i don’t think you can call them freckles, they’re so tiny

9. DO YOU ALWAYS SMILE FOR PICTURES?

Yeah, i think so.

10. WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST PET PEEVE?

People who chew with their mouths open and make that sound *shudders* also rude and disrespectful people.

11. DO YOU EVER COUNT YOUR STEPS WHEN YOU WALK?

I used to do that a lot when i was little. Less so now but from time to time yes.

12. HAVE YOU PEED IN THE WOODS?

I have, yes.

13. HAVE YOU EVER POOPED IN THE WOODS?

No, never.

14. DO YOU EVER DANCE EVEN IF THERE’S NO MUSIC PLAYING?

Yeah, sometimes i have a song in my head and i can’t help but dance to it.

15. DO YOU CHEW YOUR PENS AND PENCILS?

No and i hate it when people do that to my pens and pencils.

16. HOW MANY PEOPLE HAVE YOU SLEPT WITH THIS WEEK?

None

17. WHAT SIZE IS YOUR BED?

Queen sized

18. WHAT IS YOUR SONG OF THE WEEK?

How Far I’ll Go from Moana

19. IS IT OK FOR GUYS TO WEAR PINK?

Yeah, of course! It’s a colour like any other and it’s my favourite as well ;)

20. DO YOU STILL WATCH CARTOONS?

No (unless you count anime then yes, i just recently started watching Attack on Titan and i’m obcessed)

21. WHAT IS YOUR LEAST FAVORITE MOVIE?

Least favourite? Well i watched Sausage party last year and i hated it so i’m gonna go with that

22. WHERE WOULD YOU BURY HIDDEN TREASURE IF YOU HAD SOME?

Idk, probably on a mountain.

23. WHAT DO YOU DRINK WITH DINNER?

I don’t usually drink with my meals unless it’s a special dinner. In that case either water, juice or wine (but only a specific wine)

24. WHAT DO YOU DIP A CHICKEN NUGGET IN?

Nothing, i don’t like it

25. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE FOOD?

Strawberries!

26. WHAT MOVIES COULD YOU WATCH OVER AND OVER AGAIN AND STILL LOVE?

Titanic, The Lion King, Pacific Rim, Moana

27. LAST PERSON, YOU KISSED/KISSED YOU?

My grandma a few minutes ago to say goodbye

28. WERE YOU EVER A BOY/GIRL SCOUT?

Never

29. WOULD YOU EVER STRIP OR POSE NUDE IN A MAGAZINE?

I don’t think so, no. I’m not comfortable enough.

30. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU WROTE A LETTER TO SOMEONE ON PAPER?

In elementary school where we wrote letters to children from other cities

31. CAN YOU CHANGE THE OIL ON A CAR?

Maybe? No, probably not. I suck with car stuff.

32. EVER GOTTEN A SPEEDING TICKET?

Never, i always respect speed limits

33. EVER RAN OUT OF GAS?

No but my stepfather has more than once xD

34. WHAT’S YOUR FAVORITE KIND OF SANDWICH?

I like it with butter and ham

35. BEST THING TO EAT FOR BREAKFAST?

I eat either french toast or cereal

36. WHAT IS YOUR USUAL BEDTIME?

Usually between 22:30 and 23:00

37. ARE YOU LAZY?

Sometimes i am but if i have something to do, i do it first thing.

38. WHEN YOU WERE A KID, WHAT DID YOU DRESS UP AS FOR HALLOWEEN?

We didn’t really celebrate Halloween then...

39. WHAT IS YOUR CHINESE ASTROLOGICAL SIGN?

Rooster it seems

40. HOW MANY LANGUAGES CAN YOU SPEAK?

English, Spanish and Portuguese fluently. French and Italian less fluently. I can understand everything people say to me but sometimes i lack some words.

41. DO YOU HAVE ANY MAGAZINE SUBSCRIPTIONS?

None

42. WHICH ARE BETTER: LEGOS OR LINCOLN LOGS?

Legos. I don’t know what the other one is.

43. ARE YOU STUBBORN?

Yeah, i am

44. WHO IS BETTER: LENO OR LETTERMAN?

I don’t know, never watched neither of them

45. EVER WATCH SOAP OPERAS?

No

46. ARE YOU AFRAID OF HEIGHTS?

Not really

47. DO YOU SING IN THE CAR?

Yes 

48. DO YOU SING IN THE SHOWER?

Sometimes

49. DO YOU DANCE IN THE CAR?

Sometimes

50. EVER USED A GUN?

I’ve used one of those big hunting guns.

51. LAST TIME YOU GOT A PORTRAIT TAKEN BY A PHOTOGRAPHER?

Elementary school i think

52. DO YOU THINK MUSICALS ARE CHEESY?

Some of them but they are fun!

53. IS CHRISTMAS STRESSFUL?

For me yes, there’s always a thousand things to do

54. EVER EAT A PIEROGI?

I don’t know what that is 

55. FAVORITE TYPE OF FRUIT PIE?

Apple i guess?

56. OCCUPATIONS YOU WANTED TO BE WHEN YOU WERE A KID?

Veterinarian

57. DO YOU BELIEVE IN GHOSTS?

No

58. EVER HAVE A DEJA-VU FEELING?

Hum...maybe? I don’t recall

59. DO YOU TAKE A VITAMIN DAILY?

Like pills? No but I eat lots of vegetables and fruits every day

60. DO YOU WEAR SLIPPERS?

Yes

61. DO YOU WEAR A BATH ROBE?

I do

62. WHAT DO YOU WEAR TO BED?

Pajamas.

63. WHAT WAS YOUR FIRST CONCERT?

It was a small festival, i don’t remember the name now

64. WALMART, TARGET, OR KMART?

I’ve never been to any of them so idk

65. NIKE OR ADIDAS?

Idk, don’t really buy from any of them

66. CHEETOS OR FRITOS?

Cheetos? 

67. PEANUTS OR SUNFLOWER SEEDS?

PEANUTS!!!

68. EVER HEAR OF THE GROUP TRES BIEN?

???Never

69. EVER TAKE DANCE LESSONS?

Yes! They’re really fun!

70. IS THERE A PROFESSION YOU PICTURE YOUR FUTURE SPOUSE DOING?

No, isn’t that a little weird?

71. CAN YOU CURL YOUR TONGUE?

Yeah

72. EVER WON A SPELLING BEE?

A class spelling bee yeah but we don’t really have contests of that, it’s just done in your own class

73. HAVE YOU EVER CRIED BECAUSE YOU WERE SO HAPPY?

...i don’t think so but i’ve laighed so hard i cried. Does that count?

74. OWN ANY RECORD ALBUMS?

No, i don’t

75. OWN A RECORD PLAYER?

No

76. DO YOU REGULARLY BURN INCENSE?

From time to time

77. EVER BEEN IN LOVE?

Yes

78. WHO WOULD YOU LIKE TO SEE IN CONCERT?

I’m not much of a fan of concerts but I’d go see Bastille

79. WHAT WAS THE LAST CONCERT YOU SAW?

Bastille

80. HOT TEA OR COLD TEA?

Hot

81. TEA OR COFFEE?

Tea

82. SUGAR COOKIES OR SNICKERDOODLES?

...i don’t...sugar cookies, i suppose...

83. CAN YOU SWIM WELL?

Yeah

84. CAN YOU HOLD YOUR BREATH WITHOUT HOLDING YOUR NOSE?

Yeah

85. ARE YOU PATIENT?

I am

86. DJ OR BAND AT A WEDDING?

I don’t know? A DJ, i suppose...

87. EVER WON A CONTEST?

Yes

88. HAVE YOU EVER HAD PLASTIC SURGERY?

No

89. WHICH ARE BETTER: BLACK OR GREEN OLIVES?

I don’t really eat olives that much but let’s go with black

90. CAN YOU KNIT OR CROCHET?

Yes i can crochet some

91. BEST ROOM FOR A FIREPLACE?

living room, obviously

92. DO YOU WANT TO GET MARRIED?

Yes

93. IF MARRIED, HOW LONG HAVE YOU BEEN MARRIED?

I’m not

94. WHO WAS YOUR HIGH SCHOOL CRUSH?

A boy

95. DO YOU CRY AND THROW A FIT UNTIL YOU GET YOUR OWN WAY?

No

96. DO YOU HAVE KIDS?

No

97. DO YOU WANT KIDS?

Yes, two

98. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE COLOR?

Pink, blue and white

99. DO YOU MISS ANYONE RIGHT NOW?

A friend

100. WHO ARE YOU GOING TO TAG TO DO THIS TAG NEXT?

Anyone who wants to do it

[m0rgansux]

101. Major turn off? when u stink/bad hygiene 

102. What’s the weirdest thing a guy has done or said to try and impress you? sent me a picture of his dad sleeping

103. What’s the first thing you notice about someone when you meet them? their hair I think 

104. Do you believe in love at first sight? no I guess not

105. Best gift you ever received? my mom made me a quilt

106. Last gift you gave a friend? I gave Dominique a nice makeup gift

107. Best gift to get for someone? something they would never buy for themselves but always wanted

108. What’s the biggest surprise you’ve ever had? my mom gave me her car and I got mad because I can’t drive stickshift I know that was bratty 

109. What’s your favorite color? black

110. Least favorite color? orange or brown

111. What’s your favorite type of flower? roses

112. Who is your favorite comedian? Bo Burnham

113. Who is your favorite action star? I literally cannot think of anyone but The Rock

114. Best superhero created? Wonder Woman

115. If you had one superpower what would it be? mind reading 

116. What’s your kryptonite? ME

117. Biggest phobia? snakes

118. Favorite Disney Movie? Tangled

119. Favorite Disney character? the chicken from Moana

120. Favorite holiday? Christmas

121. What’s your best Halloween costume? Grumpy Cat got some laughs

122. What’s your favorite plot-twist? Orphan fucked me up

123. If you could do a flash-mob where would it be? somewhere weird like a yoga studio

124. What’s the coolest thing in your bedroom? ME LOL

125. If you got a tattoo where would it be? forearms

126. What’s your favorite curse word? FUCK

127. What’s your favorite board game? I can’t remember what it’s called but u ask a question everyone answers then u read the answers and have to guess who said what

128. What’s the last hobby you picked up? doing eyeshadow does that count

129. What’s the geekiest thing about you? absolutely nothing

130. What topic would you own in trivia? cats

131. What’s something you can say in another language? I can speak basic Spanish

132. What’s the weirdest word in the U.S. language? moist

133. Who is your favorite painter? I’m srry I don’t have a preference 

134. How do you feel about horoscopes? stupid as hell but I love to read them anyways 

135. What’s something you can’t be subjected to for very long? stupidity 

136. If you could make a documentary what would it be about? cats duh

137. What’s one cause you feel passionate about? cats and music

138. What is one thing in this world we need to get rid of? mean ppl :\

139. Who’s the last person you tweeted? Kate like 2 weeks ago

140. What’s the best thing about the Internet? Worst thing? I’m tired figure it out yourself 

141. What’s the greatest invention? the Internet 

142. Who is the last person you texted? Kate 

143. Who’s the last person you called? my mom

144. Have you ever had anything stolen from you? when I was in 9th grade someone stole my iPod and I cried for like 2 weeks 

145. If you could be the best in the world, at any sport, what would it be? figure skating 

146. What is your favorite sport? sleeping

147. What’s your guilty pleasure? vodka

148. What’s a skill you wish you had? I wish I could cook

149. If you could switch lives with somebody for a day who would it be? Kylie Jenner I want money

150. If you didn’t have the job you have no, what would your other profession be? I don’t have a job but uhh probably working at a pet store or vet’s office

151. Perfect activity on a rainy day? sleeping and snuggling with cats

152. Where do you go when you need to be alone? my bed

153. What would you bring on a one-way trip to mars? cats and food 

154. What time did you wake up this morning? 11

155. How long does it take for you get ready in the morning? 20 minutes

156. What’s the first thing you thought of when you woke up today? Hey! I’m not hungover!

157. What do you usually have for breakfast? nothing

158. What’s the last thing you do before bed? scroll through tumblr

159. What are you doing tomorrow? going to petsmart and homework

160. Any nicknames? not anymore

161. Any strange talents? nah I’m useless

162. What’s one thing about you people would be surprised to know? I have 12 cats that usually throws people off

163. What’s one thing you still have from your childhood? stuffed animals

164. What is the best compliment that you’ve ever received? idk compliments creep me out

165. What surprises you most about people? when they’re nice 

166. What makes you laugh no matter what? YOUTUBE POOPS

167. What’s something you can’t live without? music

168. What does creativity mean to you? Idk??? Google it 

169. What’s the most dangerous/adventurous thing you’ve done? climbed a mountain w no harness idk how I didn’t die

170. What’s one accomplishment you’re most proud of? not dying that’s not even a joke

171. Can you describe an experience you felt most nervous? I’M ALWAYS NERVOUS

172. What’s one thing you’ve always wanted to try but have never done? My mind just went blank I’m not an adventurous person srry

173. What’s one habit you wish you could break? biting my nails and scratching my head

174. What are you completely bored of in life right now? school

175. What is something that recently moved you? I saw a video about a cat on facebook

176. What’s the best advice you’ve received? I don’t listen to advice so who knows

177. What’s been the best thing about 2016? it ended

178. Do you have any life goals? no :)

179. How would you spend retirement? I don’t have any plans

180. Biggest learning experience of your life? Having anxiety 

181. Proudest moment of your life? I guess graduating high school I guess I don’t really give a shit honestly 

182. If there is one thing missing from life right now what is it? money and LOVE :\

183. What’s your biggest strength? I’m very compassionate 

184. What’s your biggest weakness? I’m a doormat and afraid of people

185. On a scale of 1 to 10 how excited about life are you right now? 1

186. What are you most excited about in life right now? nothing :)

187. What’s the best thing to happen to you this year? idk my brother and sister both came to visit 

188. What’s the best thing to happen to you this month? I got paid for cat sitting 

189. What’s the best thing to happen to you today? I wasn’t murdered 

190. What’s the best thing ever? cats 

[kiishou]

All the emojis

all of them???? ok here we go

🐰 what is one secret that you’ve never told anyone?

anyone who knows me knows that I’m not very secretive. Something I think I rarely tell anyone is that my first kiss was taken from me by a girl

💗 if you could hug anyone, who would it be?

I’m not very fond of hugs, but I would love to hug Rod, Zach, Robert, and Ana KappaPride

plus i wouldn’t mind hugging the woman i would go lesbian for aka emilia clarke hot damn k bye 

🐹 what are some of your favourite Pokémon and why?

Sylveon is my all time favorite but I also have a lot in my heart. I think it changes from game to game tbh 

I love sylveon because i think i would be sylveon if i were a pokemon and i would be hella cute and strong and would be able to crush my enemies with sparkles

🌠 if you were in charge of the world, what would the world look like?

I think It would be a lot less of cities and more natural areas, I would like to come up with a plan for different countries and peace

👀 what was the most recent vivid dream that you had?

Oh my. I get these so often but the most recent one was about me being a skilled assassin and I was on a job to kill someone and it was such a difficult situation and at the same time I was being hunted to be killed so I ended up having to kill two people and I woke up walking into the room where my boss was

☀️ what do you like the most about your best friend?

I have more than one but I’m only going to focus on ana right now:

I like how much she’s let me in? Like, she’s naturally really shy and doesn’t talk very much but over the years she’s really talkative and funny with me. We also do stupid shit together which i love. She LOVES papitas as much as I do and we literally buy an entire bag of chips for each of us like every 3 days LOL. I just think she’s a beautiful person inside and out. Sometimes, things aren’t perfect but we seem to tough it out and stick around. I would honestly die for her and if anyone every hurts her I will end their life. I like too many different things about her to just pick one sorry

😘 talk about your crush or partner

He is someone who has been through a lot of things he does not deserve in his life. Most of the time I don’t think he even deserves to have someone like me around because I’m more than a handful. He’s very smart and studying to be an engineer because he loves tinkering with things and inventing things. He would be a pilot if he wasn’t colorblind. He’s very handsome with his hair cut but he tries to grow it out cause eh thinks it’ll look cool but it does not (oops) I only wish for his happiness and cherish all the time he spends with me and my weird ass. He’s probably one of the only two people who love fueling my Target obbsession

💁 if someone was rude to you, would you be rude back?

It honestly depends on the situation and how upset I was in that instant: example, online trolls on my stream/in games i just bully back or perma ban but irl it would take something really offensive for me to say something

🌟 what do you like about yourself? (must choose at least 3 things!)

1. how I think I’m cute sometimes

2. how much I care for my friends

3. how hardworking I am but no one really ever gets to see it

🐾 what are you scared of most? how will you overcome it?

I think I am scared of imperfection. I honestly don’t know how to overcome it other than accepting that things aren’t always going to be perfect.

🎁 what never fails to make you happy?

A blanket fresh from the dryer

💙 what annoys you about some people?

People who lie and thick they’re so slick about it smh

😤 do you get angry easily?

Absolutely not

🐇 what do you always daydream about?

how cute i would look with these boots that I can’t afford (i’m a size 5.5)

🌻 if you could change 3 things about the world what would you change?

1. The entirety of America

2. Donald Trump

3. The current presidency

🍓 send me 4 names: kiss, befriend, kill or marry?

there was no names sent? u.u

✈️ what is your dream city and why?

I would love to live literally anywhere in England because I love rainy weather

☕️ talk about your ideal day

an ideal day would be waking up early, eating a good breakfast, playing some games ( and ACTUALLY WINNING LOL) and have a successful and fun stream, then watch anime/movies until I sleep

🌸 are you an introvert, ambivert or extrovert?

I think I’m an introvert

💧 when was the last time you cried?

½/2017

🎵 name 5 songs you love at the moment

1.  Lovewave - 그 밤

2. There You Are - Pogo

3. Love Never Felt So Good - Michael Jackson, Justin Timberlake

4. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Qemb3iBlp1o

5. Deja Vu -Post Malone ft. Justin Bieber

⚡️ if you had any superpower, what would it be and why?

I would love to time travel and be able to change things that weren’t right the first time

💛 if you could talk to your younger self, what would you say?

I would tell her so many things. I would probably write her a book and everything I want to tell her.

💚 who are you jealous of and why?

I’m not one to really be jealous but I do get envious of different things/people. I’m just a brat who get upset over things I don’t have

💎 which one would you rather have more of: intelligence, beauty, kindness, wealth or bravery? why?

Bravery. I always tell myself to be brave and act like I am but I never am 

🙊 what are you ashamed of?

my entire being 

🌺 which languages do you know? which do you want to learn?

I know English, Spanish, German, and  some Japanese. I want to properly learn Japanese, Korean, and Arabic tho

🍀 if you could be any fictional character’s best friend/lover, which fictional character would you be?

I think I would be Newt Scamander’s best friend 

☁️ talk about your dream universe.

i honestly don’t know how to answer this one

💜 which acts of kindness are you going to do today?

who knows? none probably

🐬 if you could transform into any animal/magical creature, what would you be and why?

I would want to be a fox

🍄 talk about someone/something you really dislike

I really dislike how backwards my sleeping schedule is right now. I can’t even wake up remotely early and it makes me extremely grumpy and I can’t even fall asleep so I’m somehow surviving on like 3-4 hours a night and I am exhausted

😣 talk about some things that have been making you depressed/angry/anxious lately

no thanks

🍪 what did you want to be as a kid, and what do you want to be now?

I wanted to be an Astronaut when I was a child, then I wanted to be a musician because it was more realistic. Now? I just want to be an Illustrator/Animator

🍰 what are some of your favourite sugary foods?

i fucking love cookies, ice cream, sour punch straws, and gummy worms but by far wedding cake is my favorite thing in the world catch me crashing weddings just for the cake

🍑 what are you obsessed with?

star wars, pillows/blankets, collecting figures and other cute collectibles, these boots, wanting to be perfect, happiness, themed shit, skins in video games

💘 what happens to you when you’re stressed?

i’m cry

😪 what are you sick of?

i’m sick of my dumb ass

🙀 are you an adrenaline seeker?

NO i get too many panic attacks which involves a lot of adrenaline so no thanks bye

💥 what are some unpopular opinions that you have?

I already tried to answer this

☔️ would you consider yourself a good person?

As much as I want to say yes, I think I’m not and need a lot of improvement

😊 what do you like to do as hobbies?

play video games, go to target for no reason, stream, talk to friends, go out to eat at taco bell and destroy my stomach, sleep, watch movies

🎤 what’s the last song you hummed or sang by yourself?

who knows tbh I think it was Misguided Ghosts - Paramore

🐝 what’s your worst trait? how are you planning to improve it?

oh god pls don’t ask me this

🎨 what do you always doodle when you’re bored?

self portraits or things on how i’m feeling

🐻 what’s stopping you from chasing your dreams?

the American society standards 

🌷 what’s your mbti personality and why do you think it suits you?

my what? what did you call me????//

🐶 send me 3 fictional people and I’ll choose my favourite!

you didn’t send me anything hullo

👑 who are your favourite celebrities and why?

Emilia Clarke bye

🐴 opinion on __?

yes

🍋 do you consider yourself an emotional person?

I think so but sometimes i’m unemotional it’s very complicated

📚 share 3 books that you love and your favourite quote from them.

I don’t read often but I love The Harry Potter Series, Saving Max, and The Martian. I’m currently reading the Rogue One novel and I love it so much 

😔 what do you always do when you feel sad? does it help?

sometimes I stream or I just play games to feel better or I talk to my friends who I love cause they make me so happy and fuel me with support 

😌 what thoughts keep you going when you’re sad?

“something will always work out” “tomorrow is another day”

🌍 which country do you live in?

United States of America tragic

🐧 describe yourself in 3 words

1. sleepy

2. exhausted

3. smol

🐵 which quotes changed you?

“be brave” “trust goes both ways” “fuck you I was worth it”

💭 do you keep a diary?

I used to but I couldn’t keep up with it

💫 who inspires you?

kellye, pam, yams, ana, zach, rod, robert, and literally anyone i love alot 

👻 do you believe in ghosts and why?

who knows man just keep your nasty ass Ouija boards away from me I don’t wanna deal with it

🎀 what’s your fashion sense like?

who knows cause I can’t afford my fashion taste

🎬 what are some of your favourite films?

Inception, Starwars, The Martian, The Book of Life, Moana, HP, idk i like movies a lot 

🍦 what is one treasured childhood memory?

a memory that has always stayed with me very vividly was when i almost chopped off my finger however I wouldn’t call it a treasured memory

🐼 if you could meet anyone, who would it be and why?

Emilia Clarke HUULLLLLLOOOOOO

[ghost-town-story]

He Was Never Mine to Have: An Unexpected Part 2

boi it’s 4 am so let’s make some more mistakes

So follow up time on the events of He Was Never Mine to Have: it’s been a good three months since that night and boy oh boy has it been interesting for my goddamned feelings but let’s start off with the weekend after that.

First off, Tech wasn’t in pep band (for somewhat bullshit reasons but you know what whatever), so I didn’t have to figure out how to interact with him there. Or ask him to take me off campus for food, since I barely had time to run from pep band to the theater before call time :P But that’s not really important in the grand scheme of things.

That weekend there was a party at the director’s house. I got a ride with Tech and his friend (whom I am still friendly with, even more than Tech perhaps?). Friend’s nickname shall be Chuck. The night before, Chuck let me know that he was nominating Tech for the “shameless flirt” award because of what happened at the cast party. I’m like “lol that’s funny don’t worry about me I’m cool with it honestly” because he was like “Yeah thought I’d let you know since this vaguely involves you.” So at the cast party, I curl up in a corner of the couch (which was hella nice let me tell you) and when awards started up, Chuck was sitting next to me, with a bit of space between us. Tech decided to sit between us, so I moved more into the corner to make space for him. I gave him my chips to hold while I moved. He ate some the lil shit.

Awards happen. Tech wins shameless flirt because he’s “thirsty.” I laughed so hard at that. Stories happen. One of them involves repetition of a phrase in the first half, while twist ending means it doesn’t happen in the second half. I laughed as I saw Tech’s face twist into utter confusion when the second half rolled around and repetition didn’t happen. He was like “wait, what?” And I asked him if he knew this story. He said no. I laughed and told him to wait because it got better. The second story involves “brightly colored hankies”. Tech smirked at my beaded bandanna, and I teasingly smacked him in the face with it the next time they were brought up, only to apologize literally a second afterwards because I am cringe as hell. I offer him food. It seems like everything’s okay.

After awards and stories, everybody kinda disperses and people start to leave. I’m left alone on the couch, though Tech and others were nearby, including this girl. I don’t actually know her name, but she looked like a Maria so I’m gonna call her that. Maria was wearing a baseball cap. Tech and Maria start talking, kinda with other people, kinda not. I’m kinda half in my head, half half-assedly paying attention to all the other conversations around me, so I’m not paying a ton of attention to them, but at one point I notice Tech is wearing Maria’s cap. Fuck. It’s none of your business. You have no right to judge him.

Since I got a ride with Chuck, I chill around until Tech and Chuck are ready to leave. This takes a couple of hours. After most people have left, the remaining people migrate to the couch and sit around chatting for another couple of hours. During this, I have a good view of Tech with his arm wrapped around Maria, and Maria eventually migrating to basically sitting in his lap. It’s none of your business. You have no right to judge him.

I avoided looking at him as much as fucking possible because I just felt sick. I was so jealous, even though I kept telling myself I had no right to be, even though I was trying so hard not to care. I was hopelessly in love and viciously bitter. I swung between blaming him: You’re a fuckboy for doing this, for making out with me and maybe flirting with her when you told me you wanted to date Al, and feeling inadequate and insecure: What if he told me he wanted to date Al because he didn’t want to say he’d never date me and he’d never want to and somehow that’s better than the truth. None of my rational thoughts helped the jealousy coiling in my stomach and clawing at my throat.

I was tired enough at the director’s house that thankfully neither Chuck nor Tech expected much conversation from me on the way home. I wasn’t keen to give it. I’m not sure if this is at all related, but I stayed up till five or six in the morning, crying and feeling out of place and unable to attempt to sleep without feeling like shit and way too much cold blue (I know that only makes sense to me, but I can’t describe the feeling any other way).

But life went on.

On Valentine’s Day, our school was showing Moana in the theater, after band ended. Me and one of my band friends decided to hang around the theater after band until the movie, and meet our other friends there. I briefly entertained thoughts about what would happen if Tech was there as well, but I tried to ignore those. It was none of my business what he was doing, and I thought he would probably be going with Al anyways. 

After band, my friend and I chilled in the hallway, and to my surprise, Tech hung around, as well as another random person. We all hung out for a bit, mostly me fucking around on the internet and chatting with my friend. Since it was Valentine’s Day, my lovely Athena sent me a valentine involving scalene triangles (long story). My friend saw it and was confused until I showed her the video that Athena was referencing (if you value your sanity, don’t go looking for this video. Just don’t.) Tech wandered over and looked over my shoulder at the video while I was showing it to my friend, and at the end just said “I am very uncomfortable now.” Dude same that video is so fucking weird. Eventually, Tech asked why we were still here. I was just kinda like “?? Dude, Moana tonight?” I had thought he was hanging around waiting for Al. “Oh yeah. I shouldn’t stay for that, I have a test tomorrow.” I was very confused by this point by Tech like dude why are you still here then get yo shit together lol. But after finding out he had never seen Moana before, with a bunch of teasing and calling him lame, I somehow managed to convince him to stay and watch the movie. 

And then promptly ditched him for my other friends XD Okay, not really. More like when the movie was about to start and we left the back hallway, Tech got separated from me and my band friend, and then I went and sat with my friends that we were going to meet at the movie. He wasn’t in the theater at the time and didn’t chose to come sit next to me. Whatever, he’s a grown boy, and I’m trying not to have a crush on him anyways (though that didn’t stop me from looking for him before the movie :P).

Afterwards, as we were leaving the theater, I saw Tech kinda chilling near the back of the theater. I waved at him, and was vaguely surprised when he started walking next to me. Not that I was complaining or anything lol. I asked him if he enjoyed the movie, and he said yeah. He then went on to say that during the movie, a couple of his frat brothers that he was going to study with had tried to contact him, since he hadn’t told any of them he was going to the movie. I laughed and told him to reassure them he wasn’t dead. As we left the theater, he started towards the parking lot and his car, and I went towards the dorms in the opposite direction, wishing him luck on his test. 

For the rest of the quarter, I pined and I saw him in band. I went home to Minnesnowta and tried to get over him.

The first day of the new quarter, I was dying because I decided to have 4-6 classes back to back every day, and this was one of the 6 class days. I just wanted to go back to my room and collapse and not think for the rest of the day. When I got to the staircase in the Union, though, I saw Tech. I was just gonna nod and do my usual salute if he saw me, but he fell into step beside me. We chatted about our breaks. I felt extremely awkward, especially when I bid him farewell at my dorm. But I had also fallen head over heels for him again.

I continued seeing him in band, though not as much when we split into woodwind and brass choirs. We had just enough encounters when I was already feeling socially awkward from other situations that I think he might have an inkling of my hella crush I don’t want to have. I also saw him and Al hanging out together, which solidified my desire to get over this stupid crush.

For the spring musical, he wasn’t in tech. It was a small mercy, I suppose, because I would probably just make a fool out of myself as per usual yaaaay. But now it gets interesting cause Chuck takes on a larger role in this story.

For background, Chuck and Tech are pretty good friends from what I can tell. They’re also frat brothers and live together if I’m remembering correctly. Chuck is a senior and Tech is a sophomore.

One thing that happens is offhanded comments that just so happen to include Tech. Ones that are not aimed for me to hear, but I do anyways. And I start to think “Wow, I kinda don’t wanna date Tech. Like, he’s a great kisser and all, and not a bad dude, but idk if I would actually be able to get past these things I’m learning about him.” Which is yay, because I’m apparently getting the fuck over this shitty ass crush.

So one night I’m talking to Chuck and a couple other people, and Chuck brings up the last cast party, and the fact I “ended up on the floor.” “Yeah,” he said, “So I get a text the next morning from Walter that just says ‘fuck’. So I’m like, ‘are you still alive dude?’”

I thought I was finally basically over everything, but for some reason that really fucking hurt. Like, the first thing Tech thought of when sober was that he had done fucked up. Like wow, that kinda hurts, knowing I’m just a fucking mistake for you. Perfectionism, ya know? Don’t want to make mistakes, yet one of the most fun nights of your life is a mistake for the boy you spent it with. It’s just, I’d be more fine if he was like “yeah, that happened, but I don’t want to date you, so let’s just move along and be cool with the fact that it happened,” but it doesn’t seem like that.

Fuck you Walt. Even though my feelings are my own goddamned fault, still. Fuck you.

Also. Before the spring cast party, I had three people (Chuck, another techie, and an actress) all kinda mothering me about the party, which was kinda weird and hella embarrassing. The other techie basically banned me from the beanbag in his apartment (not that I ended up in his apartment, but still) cause he didn’t want me to “end up on the floor” again. Which, I mean, good goal, making sure the freshman girl who’s barely had alcohol before doesn’t make too many mistakes, but it’s not like that’s me. The actress offered to keep an eye on me. She’s sweet, but I turned her down. Why? Because I like to think that even when I’m slightly drunk, I still have a semblance of control.

So here’s what I want to tell everybody but won’t, because they probably don’t care enough. But I do.

Making out with Walt wasn’t me just doing dumb drunk things. That’s not who I am, while drunk or sober. There is nothing that could prompt me to make out with random boys, even if I was drunk. I’m too socially awkward for that, and I feel a lot more alcohol would not help. But I was well aware of what I was doing when I leaned against Walt and let him pull me close and kiss me. I kinda liked him, he made it seem like he liked me back, and that’s why I let myself end up on the floor. He flirted with me, pulled me close, murmured sweet things in my ear, and I responded, knowing full well what I was doing. The alcohol just made me brave enough to say, “Fuck it, let’s roll with this cute boy I like who’s flirting with me.” I pushed him away when I needed to. When we left the cast party together, it wasn’t to fuck. I never had any intention of that, even though I probably vaguely thought that a lot of people would think that. No, we just made out some more, and I went back to my dorm, tipsy and on cloud nine and alone. Nothing. Happened.

Except for Walt’s mistakes.

Guess I’m one of them.

Alternative title for this: My head’s yelling “fuck no” while my heart cries “yes”.