#i'm so happy rn like words cannot explain

[allurenamin-moved]

Oh my god, I've just read one of your drabbles and I am IN LOVE with your writing! Really, how can one have such a beautiful and sophisticated writing style? YOUR VOCABULARY?! HELLOOO?!?!! Teach me your ways master!

(like really, I need to know all your secrets and tips on how to write like this)

UM HI HELLO DID AN ANGEL SEND YOU OR SOMETHING?? THIS IS THE SWEETEST THING I'VE READ ALL WEEK THANK YOU SO MUCH!! 😭😭😭

[sylvieserene]

A small update on personal life + the "Love is like a Poison" fic

Okay so I was thinking of writing this earlier but if y'all have noticed, Chapter 11 is taking a long time 😅 I usually update in an average of 7-11 days but this time it's near 19-20 days with no updates posted-

So um, firstly I'm just gonna be honest, I took a short break of 4-5 days right after posting chapter 10 (which was posted the day I finished) cuz I was starting to feel drained.

I did mention this in chapter 9 ig? That it was the last pre-written, that is, a chapter started when chapter 7 was up in public and ended on just the day chapter 9 was set to be released which kinda messed up the schedules cuz I was always writing one chapter ahead (which gave me time to maintain the schedule and take my time with chapters without readers really understanding how much time is going in each) but after that particular chapter, it really became "Whenever I am done, that's the day the chapter comes to light."

Due to the sensitive topic of autonomy involved in chapter 9, it went through countless revisions, rewrites and scraps before it saw the light of day.

Ngl, I was frustrated of the process by the end but really wanted it done and ended up having a version which did align with what I wanted to do but it also caused a weird sort of mental exhaustion cuz having to write a particular scene exactly from how you imagined it is sometimes hard as you are stuck in that scene in a loop, are rewriting the same thing over and over again until it's what you want. I was feeling burnt out from it but when it was finally done, I felt very liberated lol

Which is why, Chapter 10 came out normally as I was really happy to be finally free and actually progress the story beyond that one talk scene organically and play with all the things I really want. But chapter 9 had already done the damage for me and drained me mentally.

Which brings me to Chapter 11.

As I said earlier, I took a short break of 4-5 days and didn't really write anything aside from starting basic baselines for it as I really wanted to have a break because I was starting to feel burnt out so I allowed myself to have some mental peace. But once that period was over, I had a few irl situations, events and stuff like going to the hospital and getting my pin removed from my broken toe finger as the bone is back to its place on 16th (which now will take a few more months to get fully repaired) then there was freshers in my law college on 18th, my cousin's engagement on 19th...the list goes on. It's been busy lol And even after all that was over, then there was my own will. I just couldn't get myself to write something fruitful for a good while (which was also influenced by an irl incident I'd rather not share) but I have only just have gotten back to writing the chapter with in total 10+ scraps and rewrites with the actual chapter plot maybe uh 25-30% done...?

I really didn't mean to write this long ass paragraph to explain everything and really, I thought I would write why I didn't update like usual in my chapter's end note but since that is gonna take a while judging by the speed I'm writing it in and the amount of times I'm rewriting it, I just thought of writing this rn here instead

A lot of folks were messaging, sending asks and all to know when I would be updating, if I was okay and that they love my fic and it's truly dear to me. I cannot iterate in words how much yalls support and love means to me. I truly appreciate that you like my fic so much but I was just feeling mentally drained/burnt out/exhausted you name it which is why I just didn't get the chapter out.

And no guys I'm not abandoning the fic or going on an hiatus lol (plz stop panicking in my ask box 😭)

I'm just late in writing the chapter and updating it this time.

I just don't post chapters until I'm personally satisfied with it or think it's passable. Even now, chapter 11 is going through a rewrite cuz I didn't feel like the previous version flowed smoothly enough and at places felt too glazing so yea-

I'm sorry guys.

It'll still take a while lol

[reeniecon]

- IDIA SHROUD -

" Hey lend me your hoodie, so atleast I can feel like i have a bf."

Disclaimer : gn reader, angst(?) to fluff?? , not proof read!! U and idia are on relationship/dating for a quite long time.

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You Were lying on your bf bed on his room while idia watch his favorite Idol on his screen.

Gakkepuchi moirasu.

Gakemo for short.

U felt kinda jealous by three Idol members, seeing him jumped by exitement and happiness because of them make you felt burning from the inside.

God.

I really hate it.

You know idia will always choose you over anything but god it does felt ugly.

" Hey idia " You call him out.

Yeah, you're right as your expectation he didnt even respond a lil bit to u, maybe because of the headset that he is wearing rn. You cannot but sigh in this situation ur on now.

"IDIA" you called out again, with Louder voice this time, no answer.

" HEY IDIA, HEY" You tried again, but throwing one of his pillow to him this time.

" Oh, sorry sorry I cannot hear you... " He finally respond while lowering his headset into his neck and showing his usual concern face.

" Hey lend me your hoodie, so atleast I can feel like i have a bf."

"Eh? " He quickly removed his headset, stand from his seat and kneeled in front of the bed while gently touching your upper arms.

" What do you mean ' so atleast I can feel like I have a bf??? " He say with a concern face full of sweat

" Well idk, what do you think? And why don't you consult with your favorite gakemo Idol group? "

"...(name) " He slowly speak, while his body are practically inches away from you.

" Um... I'm sorry for ignoring you... If- if you want I can stop being ....gakemo fanboy! Yeah- uh... " He explains with a quavering voice he ends up hugging you when he say the last word.

' god this man' you say to urself

" Yeah yeah u don't have to go that far" U responded

" Just acknowledge me and play with me when I finnaly have the time to be with you" You explain

" Sorry... " He mumbles his head on your shoulder

"*sigh* dont you miss me? "

" I really do (name)... )

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An: I'm rlly sorry if this is ooc I felt like idia would have sassy and soft personality towards his partner, sassy in a daily conv and soft when he make a mistake/ fighting ect. Idk tht just my personal opinion

Sorry for the bad English, it's not my 1st language lol

[soupradio]

AHHHHH

MORE LIVE COMMENTARY HERE WE GO SPOILERS OBVIOUSLY IM SO EXCITED RICK IS SO GOOD IN THIS EPISODE I cannot express in words how much this episode means to me

LOVE SPACE BETH BEING DORKY

RICK CANT USE CHOPSTICKS HES ADORABLE THAT STUPID IDIOT

OF COURSE YOUR MY DAUGHTER

HEY MY DAUGHTER IS JUST AS DANGEROUS

"so they don't know your dad drove you?"

"Stop acting embarrassed" RICK IS SUCH A DAD ITS SO ATTRACTIVE

THEY ARE SO CUTE

DEFENDING HIS DAUGHTER FUCK YEAH

RICK DEFENDING HIS DAUGHTER AGAIN HES GOING OFF HE LET HIS CARE OF HER OVER POWER HIS REASON

Making excuses to hang out with his daughter

I don't think you understand how important it is to me that Rick is expressing his hurt of what she said. "ouch" MY BABY HIS DAUGHTER HURT HIS FEELINGS AW

THEY'RE BEING COOL TOGETHER

They know the same ppl thats cute I like them having similarities in their work

Missed a sec cuz it paused

AW THEY'RE SO CUTE WHEN THEY WORK TOGETHER

"You really don't know me do you?" He's so hot cute when he's cocky

Him getting tossed around is so cute did we see him get tossed onto the table that was amazing

WAS HE SPEAKING SPANISH DID THEY HEAR OUR PRAYERS?! (Now make him do it casually like not as a reference to something)

BETH TALKING ABR HER DAD LIKE THAT and "That's all you had to say partner" AWWEWWW

them playing out the plan together is so cute like they're playing dolls

"Are you jealous of Cisco?"

So much happening so fast OMG I def need to rewatch but I love this form of story telling especially with how they're doing it explaining how sure he is what's not gonna happen while that exact thing is happening is so cute and fun to watch

There are ads rn that's why I can type

WHO IS CRISCO THO? WHY IS HE ON THE SAME LEVEL AS BIRDPERSON?

I love how everyone knows bp's importance to Rick aw gay

Also bird daughters va being in the same episode we get a bird person mention? What is gonna happen this season holy foreshadowing

So lucky I can type fast and multi task love that for myself

ADS OVER Rick being so adorable this episode "oh we found our slimer" He's so cute when he gets excited

"Sweetie" THERES THE PET NAME I WAS LOOKING FOR

Rick rolling his sleeves up and Rick being smart so attractive. Him being a girl dad is so cute

"Daddy's coming!" AWWSWWWWWAAAWWEE S AGICWOVAOV

also boobs and boob milk? Rick try not to be the weirdest character in this show for half a second (Don't I love you for it)

BIRD DAUGHTER HOLY SHIT YALL CALLED IT WHOEVER SAID THAT OMG

RICK AND BIRDPERSON HOLY FUCK IM SHAKING SO BAD

"I'm trying not to blow it" OMG THEY'RE BEING DADS TOGETHER TOO FUCK

BIRD DAUGHTER THATS MY GIRL YEAH

THEY ARE DADING OUT TOGETHER THE POTENTIAL THE DOMESTIC BIRDRICK POTENTIAL

RLLY PAUSING RN

Did Rick scream beth?

beth and Rick communicating YES why this family chooses to communicate at the worst times I don't know but I'm not complaining it's progress

also Rick did the same move beth did in the beginning that was so cute(take a shot every time I say cute, Don't actually you will die)

BIRD DAUGHTERS VOICE IS SO CUTE SHES MY BABY

"haha I had fun" OMG HES SMILING AT RICK OMF IM ROLLING IN MY GRAVE

rick stop being a whore

Post credits - Ah Cisco

Ad for the next episode - WORLD DEVELOPMENT AND THAT HOT RICK IN THE OVERALLS

POCKET MORTYS CISCO!

And more Morty's to collect im still trying to get simulaton morty

I'm so happy Abt space beth life insight that's so cool

[bendy113]

//TW: vent

ok somehow my dad caught me awake at night while i was trying to finish the jevilary stuff and bro just kept telling me some fkin morals or whatever to the point i started tearing up- and he did this again this afternoon-

he somehow said he'll cut off the internet for a whole month and forces me to do stuff i hate a lot if he sees me awake at night again-

...idk i'm like tearing up nonstop rn bc of it and now i lost motivation to draw- bc of this bitchass.

it's not like i'm "addicted" to the internet or whatever adults nowdays keep calling it, i'm attached to the people that i met from it, the content, all of this gives me comfort and happiness even tho my irl shi is so fucked up. (idk how to explain this im so sorry-)

besides it's not my fkin fault that timezones are different af like for example i have to stay awake at 4am to play pressure with my friend bc we can't do it earlier due to them being busy. or idk having vcs with my close friend- or finishing an art-

the fact that i'm not noisy at all idk why tf they even complain about me staying up at night, ik ik the night is for sleeping and resting but literally. i cannot fkin rest when SOMETHING IS NOT DONE or idk tbh-

(idk what words i'm using rn due to me being overwhelmed i am so sorry-)

idk anymore. i would've kms a long time ago if i wasn't a fkin muslim bc these types of shi makes me so overwhelmed to a point where i can't handle it but i always need to remind myself that i can't do so bc "god will send me to hell and oofing myself is for cowards."

[okay-but-could-we-not]

20 questions: Writing Edition

tagged by @megatraven (thank you my friend! <3)

How many works do you have on AO3?

35 revealed rn!

What's your total AO3 word count?

185,267

What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

Saints Into The Sea (ghostsoap)

You Break Me Down, You Build Me Up (sidlink)

sugar, sugar (kuroken)

Blood Like Honey (verdan)

lightning in a bottle (sidlink)

What fandoms do you write for?

oh boy. um. well, things I have written for myself/want to continue writing: Teen Wolf, BNHA, Mortal Kombat, Call of Duty, House of the Dragon, Devil May Cry, and Resident Evil.

but! I've written RWBY, Breath of the Wild, Marvel, Pokemon, Haikyuu, The Witcher, The Ballad of Songbirds and Snakes, and Trigun Stampede as gifts in the past.

Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

yes! always! sometimes it takes me a few months but I always respond. I'm so happy to get them I want people to know I appreciate them.

What's the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

I think I gotta give it to put me in my place (wintersfield).

What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

god, idk, most of them are pretty happy. maybe Something in My Soul (BKDK)?

Do you get hate on fics?

I do not, thankfully! it would be funny to but I'm glad I don't have to deal with that shit.

Do you write smut?

a lot, yes lol. I think about half of what I've published is smut.

Do you write crossovers?

not yet but I will when I get into a few OC projects! they won't be big because I don't care enough to explain how the crossover happens but it will be there.

Have you ever had a fic stolen?

not that I'm aware of!

Have you ever had a fic translated?

also not that I'm aware of.

Have you ever co-written a fic before?

no, but I collabed with someone to make art of my fic!

What's your all-time favourite ship?

on my hands and knees. bakudeku world domimation. they're literally tattooed on me you cannot fathom how much they mean to me.

What's the WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

oh, there are a few. none officially posted but I have some longer OC fics I'll probably never finish.

What are your writing strengths?

hmmm... idk I think I'm generally good at describing things? both physical things and feelings.

What are your writing weaknesses?

I want to say everything but I think that's just me being mean to myself. I struggle to end things, I guess. or just generally finish them. I feel like I'm not great at smut or other intimacy but I've been told I am actually so idk if I would count that.

Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in a fic?

I don't speak anything but english and I'm too afraid of mistranslating something so I cheat and do italics or just say someone is talking in a different language.

First fandom you wrote for?

that I published, RWBY. that I didn't, Metal Fight Beyblade.

Favourite fic you've ever written?

ooh... um... damn. recency bias maybe but New Moon, Rising Sun (disaac). but also maybe Give and Take (ghostsoap) or milk and honey (nerodan).

npt: @honestlydarkprincess @thiamsxbitch @fruchtfliege @ashyjingles @thiamsalpha @hemlocksandfoxgloves @ksbbb @haven-of-dusk @el-viruss @drsteggy

and anyone else ofc

[yuriyuruandyuraart]

Before anything i would like to say HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! 🎂🎉🎉

Thank you for sharing why you were gone. Frankly you did not owe us an explanation, and if you hadn't im sure we would've welcomed you right back anyways because we like having you around that much! Still, I know its difficult to share anything personal, especially when its not the most positive thing in the world. I'm glad you managed to get it out because it was not for nothing. (I personally feel a little less alone in my own experiences, so thank you again for that.)

Given how many things are going on in your life rn, I understand how things got so stressful so quickly, and how it snowballed into a big mess. I'm sure anyone in your shoes would find it hard to keep up with school and socializing on top of being active online. I don't blame you for prioritizing your health and studies (and honestly who would??)

Trust, it always feels (for lack of a better word) awkward to come back online after a long time. And sometimes it feels better to put it off longer or avoid it completely. But, for as long as you are here, we are happy to have you back Yuri! Do what you gyatta do to take care of yourself!!! >:D

You're really cool, y'know that Amy? Cause you're amazing

I swear It's like you're putting into words exactly why I always hesitate to post after my breaks cause I just don't know what to say that would, excuse it ig? I feel like I'd need a good reason for why I've been gone, and I know it sounds silly, but most of the time so much happens I don't even know what reasoning I'll choose to go with cause it sounds so surreal xd I cannot make this shit up it's like a compilation of outlandish events and i never know how to explain it so i always put it off lmao :'D

Got me tearing up early in the morning dude aughghg thank you. so so much I swear you don't get how happy your ask made me. I felt so nervous and seeing you say it resonated w you?? Buddy I am gonna squeeze the life out of you from behind the screen ilysm WAAA i'm so glad to have you around my blog dude you're great<3333

[dinxieyinxie]

I beg ya tell me about your OC Yonal and Snape, I need to know about them.

omg,, my heart is so full rn qwq i didn't really expect anyone would be interested in them so idk where to start DFHFDHJ

Yonal isn't fully fleshed-out yet but I made a post sometime ago about them to kickstart their story and a snippet of their friendship with Snape but I'd like to add a few new info for their lore (I did mention that I'd delve deeper into their friendship) so buckle up!

(I am not well-versed with words so lmk if you'd like me to clarify something! ><)

Their friendship is something these two weren't expecting at all tbh and the fact that they managed to build such a strong foundation is somewhat peculiar to me, in a way that they have the most contrasting personalities that it even clashes from time to time but still having that "homey", cozy feeling about it. Yonal being carefree and chaotic, the type to just "go-with-the-flow", and thinks that the glass is half-full while Severus is completely on the other side of the spectrum, with him looking at everything realistically and pessimistically at the same time. I could describe their relationship as:

Sun and Moon

Yin and Yang

Achilles and Patroclus

Red String of Fate

There's more but they're basically rocking that "opposites attract" typa energy HAHAHA

Yonal is most of the time, if not, completely, unaffected by Severus' attitude but rather he (Yonal goes by he/they!) chooses to respect and understand why Severus is like that and would even offer insight in which Sev would always be taken aback. (Not saying Linx is a dunderhead but he can be quite clueless LOL) I like to think Severus learns to accept Yonal the way he is and even appreciate it (He wouldn't outright admit it tho)

There's a lot of things Yonal and Severus don't particularly agree in but there are a few that allows them to connect with each other like the thirst for knowledge, great interest for the Wizarding World, socks, dead-beat dads, loneliness, and other things that I cannot think at the top of my head rn hehe

Idk if I've mentioned this already but even though Yonal loves being an absolute headache to Severus, he deeply respects that raven-haired mf and wouldn't dare ruin their deeply-rooted friendship in any way. I explained in this post how he's willing to bend his habits for him and it is still true to this day!

What fascinates me about them is that they definitely keep each other grounded in a sense that they have that ability to calm each other's turbulent souls, which opens to a lot of vulnerable moments. Something that both of them don't really allow themselves to be in. I like to think they'd grow closer as they confide with one another. Sometimes, home is a person.

Back in the day, they had underlying feelings with each other but these two dumb mfs didn't want to poke and probe in fear that it might end the bond that they have so they set these emotions aside but it does slip out sometimes teehee! In present times, the old flame ignited on its own and over the course of the time they have together, I think it's safe to say that they'll eventually finally confront these feelings and get it over with. But for now, I'm evil and love to hurt myself so im subjecting them to a slow-burn love (angst included!) <333

There's much more that I want to spew but I think that would be for another time. Honestly, I just want Snape to be happy bc God forbids he have peace in his depressing life

As a treat, here's a silly one I made uwu

[beefcakeash]

please elise please enlighten me on the appeal of omegaverse. I don’t understand it, someone’s bossy and the kind of authoritative that makes me anxious, someone’s horny and a little bit manic, maybe more than one in each category, and idk aboutthe other guy/s. is it meant to be hot? explain it to me like I grew up in a cave and don’t know what sex is

i cannot put into words how obsessed i am with this becoming my reputation . i will do my best to enlighten the people!!

(extremely long) essay below the cut <3

as you read this keep in mind that i only consume m/m content. idk how they do things on the other side of the tracks

quick run down before i yap:

secondary gender: status as alpha/beta/omega

alpha: traditionally seen as dominant, brutish, controlling. has a "rut" and usually a knot

beta: basically a regular human, sometimes with scents (depending on authors preference). typically seen as the neutral in society.

omega: traditionally seen as submissive, subservient, and weak. has a "heat" and, in some instances are fertile (again, depends on if author is into mpreg (personally no thanks))

i'm splitting this into two sections because i think both are important

the explanation:

based on your ask it seems like a lot of what you don't like about omegaverse is the smut. which is fair! it's kinda weird (until one day a switch flips and you're like oh yes this is good) and i think a lot of people feel this way about it.

(however i will say, one of the best things about omegaverse is that its ~fake~. a lot of fics have no knotting, no slick, etc. that's what's great about it!! authors can write what they like and what they're comfy with. there are no Rules)

i think, though, what makes omegaverse good is not the smut. some of the best fics i've read have had little to no smut scenes. i'm working on a fic rn that won't have any! what makes omegaverse good is the dynamics.

omegaverse is primal at its core. it focuses on instinct and the five senses in a way that can really make traditional attraction more fun! not only to read but to write, too. it's not just oh this guy is so cute, it's this guy feels/smells/tastes like safe.

a really important aspect to me is the dynamics of a pack. the emphasis on friendship and chosen family is so important. we all have people that are our people and omegaverse takes that and runs with it. having a character go from feeling alone in the world to having people that not only make them happy but make them feel safe and content on an instinctual level? that's beautiful.

and then there's the romance. hoooo boy i love the romance.

but what makes the romance Good is, once again, the dynamics. there's this idea that omegaverse is all just weak omegas who need some dominant alpha to take care of them - and some of it is! but i think that this is where authors get it wrong. what makes these relationships good and interesting is going against this idea. transforming this traditional way of thinking into something more complex. omegas aren't all helpless or weak or less than when they don't have an alpha mate. alphas aren't all power hungry and brutish people who want to control a helpless omega.

giving these characters depth and personality outside of their secondary gender is So important. it's referred to as "secondary" for a reason!

it's not "oh you smell good and you're cute lets bite each other and have rough sex." it's "you make me feel complete, i want to spend forever with you and satisfy your needs at the most intimate, baseline level."

what i think makes omegaverse so interesting is breaking out of what people assume of it. any good story, regardless of the universe/trope, shocks the reader. characters need depth! every character isn't just a joe schmo with no personality.

political omegas, serving alphas, betas with tendencies typical to other genders - that's what makes omegaverse fun !

my Opinions on omegaverse:

i think one of the things that makes me such a connoisseur of omegaverse is that i am picky. to this day, i consider there to be only 1, maybe 2 good quality omegaverse fics in the 5sos slash community (not counting smutshots. there're a couple good ones)

and that's not anything against the authors! it's not about writing quality or anything like that. it's about breaking the barriers i mentioned before. creating characters with depth in a universe that appears black and white.

a huge (and valid) criticism of omegaverse is that it's an excuse to write a largely misogynistic universe, and it's true that some authors reflect that. every author has the right to their own creations and to whatever tropes they want, even if they're objectively immoral.

but that doesn't mean i have to read them!

one of my personal grievances with omegaverse is the common erasure of homophobia. i think this ties in a lot with the misogyny thing, because in making a world where primary genders don't matter (and, ahem, mpreg exists) you're essentially feminizing one half of the pairing. and, of course, that half is the traditionally subservient omega. omegas are also commonly described as appearing more feminine, being smaller, being maternal. sorry, but that's just not my blorbo!

i'm writing 2024 ashton irwin, of course he's not feminine !! and i'm not going to change the way he looks just to fit him into a box. at that point just write an OC.

but back to the homophobia, in erasing such a huge aspect of culture you're removing so much depth from the story line. i don't think that queer history should be erased in these universes, especially as the standard.

traditionally/historically in omegaverse, the purpose of mating is to reproduce, just like in real life! there should be history to the trope that same sex couples face backlash. the whole thing is based on instincts to keep the human race alive, of course people still have Opinions about it even within a different context.

basically, i think too many people focus on the horny d/s aspect of omegaverse, and fail to really see all the different dynamics that can be explored.

each combination of gender + secondary gender is different, and that should be reflected in fic.

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i shall end this rant with a fic rec. this is the One omegaverse fic that i think really ties my opinions together.

!! TW: untagged sexual assault , discussions of sexual assault , and if i remember correctly there may be a scene where the main character actually witnesses SA. Please read with caution.

Le Chatelier's Principle by LyricalPary

[celestie0]

While waiting for updates I started re-reading ihm

and it absolutely devoured me. It’s one of those stories where you think you’re in for a tropey fake marriage plot—but instead, you’re thrown into this gorgeously nuanced emotional slow burn that quietly unravels you.

It starts with a fake marriage so the reader can get medical benefits for her mother. Practical. No fluff. Just survival.

But then Gojo starts noticing her. Noticing how she keeps her pain in her posture. Noticing how she tries not to ask for help. Noticing how he wants to be the one to make it easier for her.

And the reader? She's trying so hard not to fall. She tells herself it's just a deal. But then he says something tender without even meaning to, or gets defensive over her like a husband, and she shatters a little more each time. AND IT MAKES ME SO ILL. Love me a slow burn fr

The dialogue here is everything?? The way you write? It's flawless. It's sharp, dry, funny—but then, suddenly, so intimate that i had to reread a line three times just to breathe through it.

Gojo joking about their “romantic” lack of chemistry while clearly staring at her like she hung the moon.

You literally feel y/n's exhaustion as her mother's condition worsens. You feel how guilty she is for daring to find comfort in him. You feel how Gojo doesn’t say anything dramatic—but he starts showing up more and more like a man who’s already made up his mind..He wants her. But he wants to be chosen. And that ache just simmers until it boils over.

The part where she’s slowly realizing she can depend on him? Devastating.

That quiet moment when he does something stupid just to make her laugh? Gut-wrenchingly good.

The tenderness in how they sleep in the same bed—not even romantically at first, just...because she’s tired and he’s safe. Oh ellie you want me DEAD

This isn’t just a romance fic. It’s a story about what love looks like when you’re exhausted. When life is unkind. When you’re not even looking for comfort, but someone gives it to you anyway.

It’s the story of two tired people choosing each other quietly, fiercely, without needing grand declarations.

It’s so tender. So emotionally rich. So real.

Thank you for this emotionally devastating gift. Can't wait for the next chapter I'm literally counting down the minutes..and sorry if I yapped I just love this fic so much

ouuu my anon i cannot explain how much this ask means to me pls!!! you're also such a poet? i'm like damn why i feel like crying rn HAHAH

But then Gojo starts noticing her. Noticing how she keeps her pain in her posture. Noticing how she tries not to ask for help. Noticing how he wants to be the one to make it easier for her.

:'')) i could sobbb. this is so beautifully written n such a wonderful reflection. how soft n sweet, and so trueee ugh i can't wait to write more of the ways gojo looks out for her n helps her more than she had ever expected AAA

You feel how guilty she is for daring to find comfort in him. You feel how Gojo doesn’t say anything dramatic—but he starts showing up more and more like a man who’s already made up his mind..

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

It’s the story of two tired people choosing each other quietly, fiercely, without needing grand declarations.

this really hits me. i love a quiet love. a peaceful love. one that sneaks up on you before you had really expected it. very gentle without the grand declarations but rather in the little things!!

i literally dont know what to say, i could highlight all your words and react to them but like idk i just am sitting here n soaking in your reflections and they're hitting my wee little author soul i'm just so thankful and you have such a deep understanding of the story!! i'm so happy you enjoyed rereading the story n i'm so grateful for you 🥺❤️ you have a lovely day bb

[addcests]

five favorite characters

rules: make a poll with five of your all time favorite characters and then tag five people to do the same. see which character is everyone's favorite.

tagged by @hoardingator :3c

this was really rough bc my favs from the past (who shape lapin core) vs favs rn are clashing...... and it's Really rough when you have multiple from the same franchise and you have to Pick One (i Could put multiple from the same fandom to fill up the poll but that's Boring!)

as for my choices

obvious add pick, if you've been around on this blog long enough and know me, then i don't need to explain this one

minato from p3! aka p3 protag - if you call him his corn star name i am unfriending you Immediately (that goes for all the other persona protag's """canon names""", i def have many a words about this)

usagi but wow i wanted to do all men (bc i'm misogynistic and hate women !!!!! /s) but who would i be today w.o mentioning The bunny magical girl of all time?

libra -- this was tough bc out of all the fire emblem characters there's a few more i'd thought i'd pick but then i realized how crucial libra is to like... my tastes nowadays (and just of all times/overall) lmfao i am sooo weak for the (long hair) blonde type (bonus if healer or support of some kind; see next option below)

aventurine! i cannot explain how this man has invaded my head and took over my life.... i thought kaveh was bad but this gambler is truly infuriating,,, (affectionate) doctor i sympathize with you

and as for tagging, you the person reading this! free free to do it (and tag me!) i am simply too lazy and idr which of my friends are on here now to be bothered

honorable mentions below the cut! bc i'm in a rambley mood (it's pretty long):

the guy who SHOULD ACTUALLY BE THERE BESIDE AVENTURINE IS KAVEH! (genshin impact) happy bday btw light of my life but sorry you passed the torch to your son; other genshin impact honorable mentions: kaeya and diluc and albedo!

hsr: luocha....... you are literally just libra (do u see the vision in my taste now), this man was the reason why i kept playing hsr at all so he def deserves a medal; argenti could have been there too had there been more space! also sunday :>

rip lio (promare) who i demoted in favor of The guy aka aventurine, raihan (pokemon swsh) almost made it as well; i almost put howl (howl's moving castle) in aventurine's slot too but imo howl and lio are like same tier for me -- if i could do a sixth one of them would be there for sure

persona honorable mentions: akechi (if u hate akechi i absolutely Do Not Trust you) and naoto! < 333 also aigis! yusuke and haru! also shinji (if u hate shinji i also Do Not Trust you)

fire emblem honorable mentions: whoo boy i ALMOST put soren in 3rd or 4th slot! chrom was considered briefly too as well as flannel; when raihan was being considered i almost put claude. claude could have been there if i finished fe3h lmfao (some day!) also ferdie too! :3c

others: n (pokemon), leon (pokemon), kaiba (ygo), chibiusa (sailor moon - she should Really be up there with usagi for Many reasons but i'm not doubling up on the fandom so rip), madoka (pmmm), graha tia (ffxiv), sho minamimoto (twewy), thanatos (hades)

alternatively you could just stare at this: https://anilist.co/user/alittlelapin/favorites (but unfortunately it's Mostly anime chars - and Some video game chars who got anime/manga material and therefore they also luckily got thrown in the database lmfao)

thanks for reading o7 have a cookie!

[transfemlogan]

For the fandom ask game; 2, 10, 16

Positive Fandom Ask Game

a headcanon you weren't sure about at first but have come to like!

that janus is loveless. i will say my hesitance didn't last very long and wasn't really hesitance, it was more "oh loveless janus is a hc? i can see how people can dislike it, but i love it." (so this option doesn't really count but i quite literally cant think of anything else)

there is a headcanon that janus is loveless/cannot feel love/doesn't love because he is a snake and snakes don't feel love. and as a loveless aromantic I absolutely love this headcanon.

i know people don't like this headcanon because people tend to view love as an inherently positive force and if you don't love or refuse to love that it's negative and offensive. & because people will try to use the lack of love to demonise janus, an already very demonise side. which... the demonising janus one is a valid reason to dislike it, the other reasons aren't.

i only ever consider patton to be loveless and i never see loveless hcs in fandom so knowing there's already a hc for janus being loveless makes me so so so so happy. i think there's something so sweet about janus not feeling love or choosing not to love or being critical about how society views love, but still being compassionate & caring towards the other sides & c!thomas*. that whether or not he loves them that doesn't control how he treats them. that his care isn't controlled by one singular feeling, but a multitude of feelings or opinions; he cares for the sides & thomas, because he knows they need it. & that idea means the world to me.

*obviously, loveless people can care & be compassionate. im loveless & im so compassionate to the people around me. but i mean more that, choosing janus 2 be loveless when he is literally self preservation & cares so much about the other sides & their health is soooo smart & beautiful. i know it probably originated to demonise him (or write aus where he "thinks he loveless but finds out he CAN feel love" eugh), but i like that you can switch it on its head & go "he doesn't feel love but that doesn't mattwe & wont ever matter. he feels so much compassion for the others" & choose not to demonise him.

i probably explained that all strange & worded it so bad i just woke up. BUT LIKE. YOU CAN CHOOSE TO DEMONISE HIM FOR BEING LOVELESS, BUT YOU CAN ALSO RECOGNISE THAT IF HE IS LOVELESS THAT LOVE DOESNT PUSH HIS CARING ACTIONS. HE JUST CARES.

also janus 100% would be loveless in the sense that he's criticising how society views love as the most "important thing" or as an inherently positive thing , as if people don't do horrible things bcuz of their love.

a blog (mutual or one you follow) that has made your fandom experience brighter

UM. HOW DO I LIST A GAJILLION BLOGS.

i was gonna go thru & explain why they r on my list but thats 2 much effort so im just gonna rapid fire:

@sankiisides , @warnadudenexttime , @intrulogical , @edupunkn00b , @lovecorepatton & everyone i know on instagram. i was gonna list blogs that im not mutuals with but i am so tired & couldnt remember anyones blogs . ill just come back (<- is lying & wont come back)

the one blog i am not mutuals w/ that i can list rn is @we-all-horny-here :3

a tiny detail in canon that you want more people to appreciate

PERHAPS A REALLY SMALL DETAIL, but the way remus pauses & actually thinks about what is being said to him when logan is talking to him at the end of working through intrusive thoughts

maybe im crazy & insane & making things up bcuz i want them to be friends so bad BUT thruout the entire ending scene w/ logan & remus, remus is shown turning his back and reading a book and taking a cockroach out of his ear and eating it. very actively ignoring him.

BUT . IN THIS SCENE:

logan tells remus how he can see how remus can be helpful (albeit. thru gritted teeth.) & then asks him, "but perhaps, you can also see the merit in what I'm trying to do?"

& remus pauses.

he hesitates.

you can see him sit there and actually think about what logan is saying. & ofc he immediately goes back to ignoring him but it makes me crazed that logan tells remus that he can see why remus is doing what he is doing & that it can be helpful & then asks remus, straight forwardly, to try & see what logan is trying to do & remus stops in his little schemes and thinks about that. he has a little moment of hesitation.

though it could also be remus going "hmmm should i eat the tongue lollipop first or should i do the cockroach?" /j

im ill . im ill. im ill. im ill.

Positive Fandom Ask Game

[greenxprof]

NAME: Leo

PRONOUNS : he/him or woof/woofs

PREFERENCE OF COMMUNICATION : tumblr messages at first, discord after we're close enough

NAME OF MUSE(s) : Green Oak, Leowes(@wesnatcher) are the active ones rn

BEST EXPERIENCE : Talking about tumblr specifically, I had sooo much fun during the Halloween Events we had here. I had an absolute blast seeing everyone costumes, the ball, fighting the gmax gorgeist...

Back in twt it was the Reguri Wedding with Kyle Red, which believe it or not TWO arceus attended, Spectrier Event in 2022 Halloween, and a thread with my bestie about Green asking their oc's hand in marriage while in a cute romantic boat date.

Maybe I should also mention that I got to play my first dnd campaign with friends I made here in tumblr and that was certainly one of if not the best experience of my life heehee

RP PET PEEVES / DEALBREAKERS : Hard question because I operate on auto for most of my life but forcing anything onto my muse. Sexual or violent. And, this never happened, but acting weird or saying weird things about Green's gender.

As for things I dislike even before writing with someone are simply not properly crediting the art you use if it's not yours. Or having a bunch of rules that are basically telling me I need to write a 20k words every reply for us to be mutuals and be extremely serious about roleplaying. Aside from the chronic brain fog I have, this is a hobby and supposed to be fun, not work!

Besides, English is not my first language and that means reading pages and pages of it certainly gives me a headache.

MUSE PREFERENCES: snarky sassy and gay. or cute creature.

PLOTS OR MEMES : Both!! I'll admit though I'm often not in the mental state for elaborate plots. I'm happy with memes and small spontaneous interactions until we're both comfortable with each other and can plot easy and nice :)

LONG OR SHORT REPLIES : Depends on the thread of course. Plot-heavy and serious threads require long replies but it's not like I ask you to match. Specially when Green speaks way too many paragraphs.

I feel like it's important to say that I have only had very introductory english classes in middle school. Everything else I learnt through rping and playing games in english. So it's possible sometimes my grammar is all over the place or I might not properly understand what you wrote.

I'd love if you explained to me if I wrote something wrong, kindly of course :3

BEST TIME TO WRITE : everyday at night! once autumn and winter comes to brazil I'll write the whole day, it's because it's so hot in the afternoon I cannot think HAHA

ARE YOU LIKE YOUR MUSE(S) : Like Green? Oh absolutely. Except for the smart part, I am pretty much him. Like Leowes? Not really. I wish I was a handsome rogue though.

[callsignspark]

5, 16, and 28 for Mary and Bradley <3

anon we are kissing on the mouth rn because I love these

5. What is their love language? I've put way too much thought into this but here's their giving and receiving. they line up very well with each other.

Bradley

Giving: as we've seen so far, he's very much an acts of service guy. he wants to help her out, make her life easier and happier whenever he can. he also is a big words of affirmation partner, like I've said, Mary is a pretty confident person but he likes to give her that extra assurance that he is all about her, and only her.

Receiving: quality time and physical touch! he's happy to just sit there in the corner and stare at her while she works or cooks. and he cannot get enough of her hands on him. he melts when she runs her fingers through his hair and scratches his head.

Mary:

Giving: quality time and gift giving. they spend hours together, reading, at the beach, watching movies, cooking and baking. most of their free time is spent together. she literally cooks and bakes as a form of love and giving the food away as gifts is as close as she can get to giving her heart to someone. she loves to surprise Bradley with his favorites after a long week.

Receiving: words of affirmation and gift (receiving? kinda? I’ll explain). him telling her how much he loves her and how smart she is and how beautiful she is just makes her feel like the most important person in the world. (and to Bradley she is) and as they get further into their relationship, the way he’s not afraid to just shower her with compliments is a lovely reminder of how strong their love is. when I say she loves receiving gifts I mean little tiny things. like if he goes to the store and gets her a packet of mini m&ms because they’re her favorite. or if he goes on a run and comes back with a pretty rock that he found. (is he actually a crow disguised as a man? maybe. but she loves it all because it means he’s thinking of her)

16. Who stays up way too late and who tries to drag them to bed? Bradley is the way that stays up too late. 100%. and Mary tries drags him to bed. but it's really not that hard. she just goes, "Bradley, I'm lonely, come join me" with a little pout and he is following her down the hall to their bedroom.

28. Do they get along with each other’s friends and family? their relationship with Bradley's family is amazing! Mav and Penny are wonderful about being parental figures without actually trying to be their parents. and Amelia is a great little sister, even when she's roasting Bradley and cockblocking him because she wants to spend time with her sister-in-law.

her family though... they leave a lot to be desired, to put it nicely. she doesn't go fully no contact with her parents, but it's very much only a text on birthdays and holidays relationship. which works for her, she'd rather be civil and distant than never speak to them again. she keeps the same level of contact with her brothers, aka she calls about once a month to catch up and ask about her nieces and nephews. she has some cousins that she's really close with (and always has been) and they switch off between visits to New York and California. Bradley is happy to support whatever decision she makes with her family, he knows what it's like to have a rough relationship with loved ones.

their friends are very much overlapped because the Dagger Squad becomes a huge family and they're all very good friends! the friends they have that aren't mutual (they both have friends from college, plus Mary's time in Florida and Bradley when he was stationed in Virginia) they all get along with very well! there's only one slightly awkward interaction with a friend. one of Bradley's exs from college (it didn't work out between them, "broke up" after one uncomfortable date and decided they were better as friends. she realized she was gay, not bisexual, a few years later) hits on Mary the first time they meet and he has to be like "Britney, this is Mary... my girlfriend..." and Brit is like "OH MY GOD SORRY" and then it's fine after that lol

come ask me about Mary and Bradley!

[leejenowrld]

Hey gff omg I finally finished the last chapter and omds you've done it!! Kinda sad the series had ended and I'll miss Mark and y/n sm BUT AHHH THE HAPPY ENDING MADE ME SO HAPPY I JUMPED FOR JOYYY.

OKAY HONESTLY I THOUGHT SOMETHING BAD WAS GOING TO HAPPEN TO MARK TOWARDS THE END OR JENO DURING THE GAME. Like I genuinely thought Sunwoo and Eric were about to do something to Jeno OR Mark collapses due to his heart condition 💔 BUT LUCKILY NONE OF THAT HAPPENED. y/n being able to express her love finally to Mark after the game honestly made me almost shed tears LIKE YES GIRL WE'VE BEEN WAITINGGG it was so lovely i cannot express it enough.

TO BE SO HONEST i felt so bad for Jeno when he was arguing with Mark before the game, I'm so invested what happened between him and Mark's best friend (ICL SHE STILL LOWK PISSED ME OFF BUT IT'S FINE). Did anything happen between Karina and Donghyuck towards the end though?

The part where y/n confronted Chenle and Donghyuck at the Rivercourt was honestly one of the best parts like OUUUU it was so good. I CAN'T EXPLAIN HOW THAT MADE ME FEEL LIKE YES GIRL THAT WAS SO POWERFUL. Same with the part with Seulgi and Irene, like I think y/n just really needed that push and support (especially from Irene!) to get in touch with her feelings/thoughts and be able to communicate them to Mark. It was genuinely such a heartwarming part.

THE KARINA AND Y/N KISS PART WOOOO like yeah I would too Karina's hot af, Jeno was wildin too like I screaming rn.

This has genuinely become one of my favourite series I've ever read, like just the anticipation for the next chapter to come made me so excited and nervous at the same time. The storyline was just perfect I'm actually speechless. Thank yew SO MUCH for creating this beautiful series, MUCH LOVE 💗💗 I enjoyed every bit of it from start to end, CONGRATSS 💋💋

hi omg!!! reading this made me so emotional, i can’t even put into words how much your love and excitement for this series means to me 😭 i’m so happy you enjoyed it and that the happy ending brought you so much joy—it makes all the work feel so worth it. i’ll miss mark and y/n too, but knowing they’ve left such an impact on you means everything.

honestly, you’re not alone in expecting something bad to happen toward the end; that tension was definitely there on purpose (sunwoo and eric did cause chaos but not in this story hehe), and mark’s heart condition lingering in the background was always meant to keep everyone on edge. but they deserved their happy ending, and i’m so glad it gave you that emotional release when y/n finally expressed her love—i feel like we’ve all been waiting for her to get to that point!

jeno’s argument with mark was intense, right? it was such a necessary moment for them, even if it hurt to see. and omg, jeno and mark’s best friend—there’s so much left unsaid there, and i promise you’ll get answers in their fic (and yes, she pissed off a lot of people but it’s all part of the mess). karina and donghyuck though… 👀 i’ll let you decide if you think something happened, but the tension is definitely there.

i’m so glad you loved the rivercourt scene with chenle and donghyuck—it was one of my favorite moments to write because it felt like such a turning point for y/n. she needed to reclaim her voice, and that confrontation was so powerful for her. and seulgi and irene’s scene was such a quiet but meaningful moment too; they gave y/n exactly what she needed to take that final step with mark. knowing those parts resonated with you makes me so happy.

and the y/n and karina kiss!! lmaoo right??? jeno wasn’t ready for that one, and neither was mark! karina is just such a force, and i love her dynamic with y/n so much, especially in moments like that.

thank you so much for sticking with this story from beginning to end and for sharing all of your thoughts—it means the world to me. i’m so glad you enjoyed it and that it became one of your favorite series! sending you all the love, and thank you for making this journey so special. 💗💗

[boigorl]

gender dysphoria rant babble, advice / stories / insight / relatablity / whatever welcome. no negativity unless ur relating tho 💖

feeling more fem body dysphoric / non femme each day, I've based so much personality and spent so much money on hyper pink barbie femininity that I'm not sure if it's cope or a coinciding thing.. feeling so mixed and strange . still gravitate to pink if it's not completely just emo boy mcr thing idk. I wear my cute pastel pink tennis skirt on the treadmill at the gym with an oversized baggy shirt.

cut my hair short recently for the first time and I just want to cut it more gnc / shorter man. It's more Ramona flowers esque rn.

been using more dudebro words but still hate the whole ultra masc vibes personally (each to their own whatever)

always hated the idea of childbirth, pregnancy, having / raising kids. I don't have a maternal bone in my body. wanted to rip my uterus out since I first started puberty and that has never budged.

idk I guess being a lil feminine boy would be lovely I

I just get so much dysphoria from having such huge childbirthing hips n fat ass-which seems to be ppls fave parts of my body of course !! Like I would love these curves on someone else - just when I feel my hips to waist I feel so ugh and it's not .. idk . feels yucky and wrong .

gaining and losing weight has left me with lame.boobs that are just not full idk how to explain. I think if they were nicer I'd be comfy with them cus like. Tits r fun and I like fem clothes. But I just . Would be so happy and comfy if they were gone. The weight alone but also just having a shirt fall from your shoulders ?? I am so jealous of men for that . I hate the way clothes cling sometimes and if I'm not ultra femming it up it's a baggy unisex tee

My partner is closeted mtf trans and wants to wait til we move out together. Idk if I can wait that long with the dhit I'm dealing with otherwise . No longer able to really push stuff down (I did 2 much now I cannot, autism explosion tldr ) she is my world and my wife (unmarried, we both live at home still lol) and I have been doing everything I can to help her feel affirmed and loved. she's been so lovely and understanding and comforting but I'm just so stuck.

I wouldn't come out to my parents as male until I had moved out, Non binary maybe. My brother and partner know me as nb and my bestie is sort of aware of gender crisis, but we didn't really discuss it.

just confused, tired and looking for a little outsider insight ❤️💖 I am safe and fine otherwise ! 💖❤️