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Ah yes, the aforementioned comic I was scheming up that one summer I had theater camp and always arrived five hours before it started (due to my parent having a librarian job in the area lol). Hence why I even had the time to make this silly concept into comic form. However it was never finished or continued as you’ve probably figured by now :P
Funny enough though I have leftover digital sketches for the initial conceptualization of these panels and the dialogue, which were never released once I finished the pages to be more refined. Think it’s neat to see the sketchy process tho. And since I’m not continuing it, might as well dump unfinished work or else it’ll just rot in my photos
These were part of the initial comic linked, before I redrew it and placed into comic boxes with background outlines


And this was part of the secondary comic prequel that I released. The dialogue got changed up and shortened quite a bit




And I think this was an alternative version to the second image in this sequence? Because it just kinda restates what was already said but different wording


Here’s some doodles in reference to the comic I created lol
I didn’t include The Badge Seller deal part in the comic, but it’s part of the overall story. Maybe I’ll make another comic explaining more about that
(Here’s the comic link btw. Just so it’s all connected together:)
#also here’s a fun fact: drew most of this while listening to the Lolbit Song & Babs Sneed remix#….yeah pretty much those two songs and sheer forceful snatcher brain rot#it was honestly a bit of a challenge to get the comics looking ‘good’#usually I just doodle and move on with my life#I’m not one to make backgrounds or format them into confined boxes :P#also I did have plans to continue it except uh…#my routine of drawing these before camp started was inevitably ruined because the damn scedual shift#my parent stopped working early hours at the library so I couldn’t sit in my drawing spot#we’d arrive on time to the camp and I wasn’t motivated at home to draw#odd how one jumbled up routine works to kill productivity sometimes#plus the initial direction of it felt a bit too cruel for even Snatcher#he would’ve inevitably realized manipulative scheming wasn’t the right way to go and all but#would’ve taken a while before he reciprocated feelings instead of pushing them away and suppressing#idk I prefer how I interpret and write his character in my head more then when I try to execute it#and even then this storyline would’ve been a different variation to snatcher’s personality then I’m fully used to…?#idk difficult to explain#also also actual reason behind this isn’t because I’m a Snatcher crusher. it’s because I like envisioning banter with his character#the idea of giving him another romantic interest is appealing to me because there’s many layers to his former failed love life and whatnot#so I enjoy the thought of him being reintroduced to love. however I myself don’t really do y/n stuff naturally lol#no I was simply influenced by the Sun & Moon x y/n craze at the time#plus I hated being on the sidelines of the snatcher x selfship community and desperately wanted to feel like a contributor#my limitation being that I’m aroace and unable to join in the same way others are able to <<#so yeah either way this wouldn’t have lasted I suppose#old art#old comic
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man. there comes a point where derap keeps admitting to doing things like vodwatching his teammate, "accidentally" having peoples streams open Just long enough to see a funny moment he can talk abt on stream, intentionally seeking out lifesteal spoilers, or using replay mod to see things he isn't supposed to know abt like the focus swords during the spawn war that it becomes incredibly difficult to trust anything he says or to continue giving him the benefit of the doubt
bc if he will admit to doing stuff like That fully on stream then how can it be trusted that he isn't cheating in other ways? like idk maybe its not that serious to anyone else but there's a reason the rules are the way that they are and even IF he claimed to not use the information he has on the server itself, his decisions and thought processes and everything are all still very much being influenced bc he has information he should not have :(
#lifesteal spoilers#crit#im sorry if im being a complainer its js like#weh#he always toes the line of cheating like this has been an issue since the spawn wars back in november at least#when he used replay mod to check the focus inventory and find evidence that he can use to confirm his theory. i didnt like it#but it wasnt Technically against the rules so it was like okay whatever#but then he kept doing things and admitting to things that similarly arent Technically against the rules but its like. cmon dude.#or even admitting to things that Are breaking the rules but explained off or framed in a way so it isnt that bad#it gets so annoying and like difficult to trust in what he says and in his intentions yk#maybe im js being silly idk like sorry if its a non issue and im overreacting LOL#i feel like im overthinking as i type this all
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i think one of my biggest pet peeves is when you're trying to explain or delve deeper into a topic that's *a bit* more complex or challenging with someone and they immediately cut you off and resort to making jokes about their head hurting or dumbing it down to a cartoonish level for,,, comedic effect i guess
#like damn are you really not going to entertain me just a little bit?#you're not even willing to let me explain it#and it's not always difficult topics it's like people are not curious about anything anymore :(#dont we all have an inherent thrist for knowledge? i honestly can't think of anything more rewarding than learning#(as long as the speaker is not condescending arrogant in his approach)#and i also think it's a disservice to the person joking about them being dense or not understanding#it's an unpleasant situation overall because if they claim they're dumb that makes you the pretentious one#which of course you did not want ahh idk i just wish we could focus more on a topic and less on our personhood if that makes sense#del later 100% sorry i got upset(
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REFERENCING THIS POST
#mel art#mp100#(spongebob about to get crushed image) i can say faggot ican say it iCAN SAY IT I CAN RECLAIM IT I CA#but also genuinely if anyone is confused. like if ur a friend of mine n see this and get worried like oh no why is he saying slurs#just ask i can explain cause i know there are some folks who are like. under the impression of 2021 slur discourse#& it has become such a firm idea in their heads that it can be a little difficult to understand#especially if some of the intake or outward appearance can seem. quote en quote aggressive#sorry i cant beleive im fuckng talking about slur discourse in a post about fagot teru#but like idk this is something ive been worrying about for a little while. ive been wanting to be more open about this stuff on my blog for#like a long ass while and i think a shitpost is a good way 2 bring it up LOLOLOL#but yeah if ur uncomfy pls jus tell me
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Google search: how do I tell people in my irl circle that I’m plural without running into arguments about self diagnosis but also still keep the context that I am in fact a disordered system. Send
#like the disordered parts are still important for people to know#but it’s more important to me that people know I’m plural in general#but idk how to explain that without people getting up in arms about self diagnosing#specifically my family#my friends are usually chill#like I have DID but that’s not the point here#the point is I’m not the only person living in this body#and it’s uncomfortable and frankly kinda inconvenient and hard to pretend I am#like if I explain it without saying I have did#they’re probably gonna think I’m psychotic or something unfortunately#but if I do explain it in the context of did#they’ll be like “boo stop self diagnosing#which is ironic because of the previously stated likelihood of them assuming I’m schizophrenic or something#Jfc it should not be this difficult lol#that’s why the future is plural movement is so important I’m sick of having to explain shit#just for people to not understand anyways#pluralpunk#plural#pluralgang#plurality#anti sysmed#sysblr#endo safe#anti transmed#endo friendly
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I’ve seen headcanons that Papa V is transmasc.
I read a fanfic last night where V was a trans woman.
I’ve read theories that gender doesn’t apply to V to begin with due to being a vampire or even half-ghoul.
And I just have one thing to say…
You‘re ALL correct.
#seriously#I am HERE FOR THIS#I’ve been coming to terms with being enby#idk I’ve been having a weird sense of secondhand euphoria at seeing trans and other NB/GNC people have fun with their theories#its difficult to explain#either way keep going ghesties#ghost#the band ghost#ghost headcanons#the band ghost headcanons#papa v perpetua
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guy who needs floor time
#mmmm my beautiful dim apartment with my beautiful noise cancelling headphones#my one coworker continues to complain to me about the job which that part tbh is fine because i complain too#it is a little stupid sometimes but she is like 'aren't you tired of this' and i'm kind of like#sooo the thing is 👉👈#i've created a life for myself in which i'm happy frequently#all i wanted was a boring job and my independence#to go to social events Sometimes and to generally be on good terms with coworkers#to work on my own hobbies to have friends and a routine and for my family to be healthy and safe#to set fun challenges for myself on occasion#i have what i spent my 20s wanting. idk#yes it took chemical help and i had to give up on some things and restructure the whole way i thought about myself#it wasn't ever the hard work that i minded#like. every day i get up and do some tasks and daydream the whole time and sometimes listen to books!#it's basically my dream#now when it's 10 hour shifts 6 days a week that is difficult but that's only a month out of the year#do you hear that? i only want to kms a month out of the year!#it's difficult to explain all that to someone who hates doing tasks and needs social interaction/validation
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Sometimes watching Community is like "Abed's just like me fr 😃" and sometimes it's "Abed's just like me fr ☹️"
#inspired by the fact that my therapist said i can send her show or movie scenes to explain how im feeling#and im slightly debating on sending her a scene from Community#the one in contemporary american poultry where talks how connecting to people is difficult#idk if I'll actually do it bc thats terrifying but its an idea in my brain#sorry for oversharing on tumblr dot com again#Abed nadir#nbc community#community
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something something Mytho's entire character being, as @schafpudel so eloquently put it, associated with self destruction; something something the heartless princes inability to connect with the world and care; something something the raven!Mytho's hair trigger temper and capricioussness; something something Drosselemeyer's personality and what his life and interpersonal relationships must've looked like when he was still a mortal human man; something something Mytho's entire being as an expression of trauma, of loneliness, of psychological struggles of his author.
#princess tutu#mytho#drosselemeyer#analysis#like#Drosselmeyer was a difficult man for sure. so like#he MUST'VE had a hard time in his personal life#i know bcs im difficult and was even worse in childhood#and ok maybe i dont have the same level of bullshit going on as mr I-can-warp-reality(<-implied god complex)#but like#i can see it clear as day#my guy was in misery#and you know how ppl are when they percieve someone as bad enough to be deserving of certain things#rightful anger can quickly snowball into vengefulness#and a lot of ppl take a cerain sadistic glee in doleing out justice#i imagine even before he may or may not have become dangerous enough that he needed to be stopped#he incurred enough wrath in people for them to decide to hit back ten times as hard#and i imagine lines were crossed#we can argue all day and night how much if any sympathy certain ppl deserve#at the end of the day cruel treatment has a bad effect on everyone no matter how cruel they are themselves#idk im trying to explain this without woobyfying him#like. that shit dude is also a dude. like me. like us#the pain is real and the same in every person it occurs in#yanno???#fate.txt
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Does this say anything about his type or am I overthinking?



He said this again after three years... and some other things he says makes me wonder if he could be one of these certain types but I'm not sure if I'm actually spotting his cognitive functions or stereotyping them and I know nothing about my boy... please help :')
it does!!!
he's using his Je function (Fe or Te). Je naturally cares about societal expectations and how society perceives you. ofc Fe and Te do it slightly differently and for slight different reasons but he's not showing one of them specifically, so i'm not diving into it.
that doesn't mean he specifically prefers his Je over his Ji, tho. high Ji users (that use Fi and Ti), contrary to stereotypes, can and will care about societal expectations at some points through their lives. that can be bc their Je is tertiary (ExxP types) or bc they are looping (unhealthy ExxPs) or gripping (unhealthy IxxPs). or they just randomly used it for some reason, which is normal.
you have to see if this is smth natural to him, like it's a part of his personality to prefer adjusting to the public. if it is, he might prefer Je.
if he only shows that part of him bc of stress and when relaxed he seems to do the opposite, he might be a stressed Ji user using Je unhealthily.
these screenshots don't really specify which case is his bc both can be true. a Je user might believe crying in front of fans (i assume he is in a concert) is smth bad bc he might be seen as weak, unrealiable emotionally, not man enough, imperfect, whatever reason he thought it would seem like.
maybe he believes his fans will feel like they can't count on him bc he is not the idea of singer they had (perfect human who is always confident and never suffers so they don't need to worry about him and see his as a rolemodel.)
Je wants people to perceive them in a certain way, but Ji users don't really care on that unless they're stressed. Ji users believe each people will perceive them in a different manner no matter what they do so "portraying" is useless (and might believe Je users are fake bc of that as well). bc of that they always show their "rawness" most of the time. they don't filter their feelings and thoughts.
however, when stressed or pressured, they will force themselves to use their Je. bc it is lower in their stack, they might use it in a immature or unhealthy manner. it seems "unnatural" of them.
anyway, look out for these signs on him and you might find out which types he could possibly be.
edit: some people might also mistake this for Se. Se users focus especifically on aestheticism for themselves (Ji, which Se might boost of be boosted for bc they're side-by-side in the stack.) it is a perceiving function so it's irrational, it doesn't care about society's judgement of them (Je), only what is cool/sexy/cute/whatever in their view (Se+Ji or Ji+Se.)
HOWEVER, Je doms who use Se as their tertiary function MIGHT USE IT to boost their Je. they could use Se's sense of "what's cool" to help Je portray the image they want people to have on them.
(auxiliary Je types who use inferior Se can also do it but they probably won't. they will probably use their dominant Ni to do it. but you never know, yk?)
anyway don't get it confused lmao.
OK NOW I'M DONE
#look at camila gooooo she's typing people#don't worry you're doing ok (by now)#this is exactly the type of thing you should be looking for (idk how to explain)#(but yk what i mean)#tio morcego tá tagarela#ty for the ask!!!! i LOVE to ramble about mbti#glad if i could help you :) i know this is important to you and you're having a difficult time with it so hit me up anytime you need help#don't be shy :) i love helping with things i love
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coming here for a sec to say that while i did somewhat enjoy merle’s character and what he was growing to be, it still doesn’t take away from how much of a racist piece of shit he was. like when i see people like, omg i love merle, bring merle back, merle deserved better—or just merle fics i’m like.. alright then! to each their own. anddd while i can understand, i also don’t.
and i get it, it’s just fiction, i get that that element was a part of his character and we aren’t supposed to love him, but idk as a black person that shit just.. eh. i’m sorry!! rewatching twd and just noticing the little racist shit he not only says in general, but especially abt michonne.. yeah i’m cool on him. loved how he was written so perfectly to be a shitbag, loved that a character can have enough substance to make me dislike them, but i’m glad he died.
and i don’t want to sound judgy at all because at the end of the day people can do whatever they want and like whoever they want it’s 100% not my business, but that’s just how i feel about him 😭 please don’t chew me out
#the walking dead#twd#merle dixon#and it’s weird bc while i hate him i still appreciate his character and what he did for daryl yk#but.. his ass was off the chain#idk it’s difficult to explain
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i still can’t believe jason grace died
#tw: canon character death#this literally happened YEARS ago but it gives me whiplash every time#it’s just so weird????#like growing up w pjo and hoo#and jason just being one of those constants#and then toa kills him off#like he was always there or somewhere and then suddenly he isn’t#i have no idea how to explain this#like………#still kinda difficult to process idk??#jason grace#pjo#hoo#toa
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When the RadioStatic obsession brainrot is so strong that you start overanalyzing every single frame in Stayed Gone and comparing it to the other duet Alastor had which is Hell's Greatest Dad so you could understand the similarities and differences between the two of them and how the visuals accentuate and allude to the idea that Alastor isn't taking his duet with Vox as seriously as with Lucifer based on the way the visuals was framed amongst other things.
The visuals is genuinely fascinating and leads to itself as to why we see Alastor's dynamic with Vox as different to Lucifer by the different ways they were framed against each other thanks to everyone who worked on Hazbin Hotel.
#may asher rambles#hazbin hotel vox#hazbin hotel alastor#radiostatic#hazbin hotel lucifer#am I making sense?#idk if I'm making sense#the thing about symbolism in visuals is that it's subjective and subconscious so consciously understanding and wording the way the symbolis#works and feels the way it does in a comprehensive and coherent way to explain it to other people is difficult for my autistic brain#a part of me say “but that's already established?” while another is like “I have to overexplain it in multiple words or else I will explode#or others may not get the point I'm trying to explain"
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computer, get this guy some chapstick
#anyway this is my john :3#I hate his stupid ass face#someone get him a tube of that navy blue nivea stuff STAT#his facial hair is so fucking wiry it pmo so bad why is it so hard to make him look good for photos#<- WHICH I CAN APPRECIATE BTW#i love this stupid greasy man#if he wasn't the way he is idk if we'd be here rn so like yk#but also at the same time I can recognize how its significantly more difficult to get good photos of my john than it is with my arthur#my john's facial hair is so insane im not gonna explain what I did and im STILL not even sure if I like it#maybe I just spend too much time looking at him and I need to do something else for a while#(I need to touch grass)#also if you have read this far into my tags... *gives u a sticker* ily <3#and you also get to know that when I took this photo my John only had two darts and a raspberry in his provisions inventory#idk what I was doing last time I loaded up this save slot bc I ALWAYS have stacks and stacks of food on my arthur??#so like- idk what my john has been doing while ive been gone but thats how I found him#which is fitting#red dead redemption 2#john marston#video game photography#red dead photography#paisley.txt
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it very much hasn’t healed yet but! here’s the merlin tattoo i’ve been talking about:

bit of an odd angle on this (who knew that taking a pic of my knee would be so hard), so it looks a little wonkier than it actually is, though the reference i chose was like an older looking coin, one that didn’t necessarily resemble a real one, especially not one you would see now, since it wouldn’t have matched my style.
we ended up going for an ‘ornament’, or rather a variation of one, seen in architecture and one that remind me of spears and sword ends etc. for the other side we chose to reference butterfly wings, but, because i wanted it to match/mirror the other, it ended up looking more like a flower in my opinion, which i think is quite cool (nothing if not a big sucker for things that can be seen in different ways).
(overall very happy with it and am still seriously considering just getting a dragon tattoo on its own, i have half a zoo on my body at this point, i might as well continue the theme)
#the idea changed so much - some of you might've seen me post about it#but since the actual tattoo isn't very big - it's 3x3 - it was difficult to design with the original concepts#so we brainstormed or whatnot and came up with this!!!#and i really do love it and couldn't be happier#slight edit - i forgot to mention that it also reminds me of a seal#…the one on letters..?#is there a better way to explain that? idk#but yeah#very cool to me
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2025 reads / storygraph
The End Crowns All
sapphic YA reimagining of the fall of troy, from Cassandra & Helen’s POVs
Cassandra is offered the gift of prophecy by Apollo, but backs out on sleeping with him, and he curses her so that nobody believes her visions
Hera came to Troy for love, bringing a war in her wake, and while they initially hate each other, slowly a friendship and romance develops
as the war and political situation gets worse, they desperately try and save their city through the strands of fate they have access to, despite the fact that Troy is destined to fall
ace lesbian & bi MCs
#The End Crowns All#aroaessidhe 2025 reads#I will start this by saying I’m generally not into greek mythology retellings / trojan war etc so this did start at a disadvantage#I thought it was okay…. but very long and slow.#it’s very much characters wandering around and talking about the war and politics that is happening in the background#i mean like the women are training and trying to do magic prophecy stuff i guess but. still mostly about stuff that's happening in the bg#not saying I want to see the battles and action - in theory I like following the quiet background characters but idk.#there’s only action at the very end - which felt a bit rushed in some ways#I found the side characters are a bit one dimensional - this and the pacing are I think#just a result of the source material being So Much and probably quite difficult to translate into a YA narrative unfortunately#I did enjoy the slow development of their relationship and I liked the exploration of Cassandra’s asexuality and lesbianism#it felt like a natural part of the story. including her being sex-favourable and figuring out different kinds of attraction#this is the reason I read the book so I guess it’s a win on that point. unfortunately everything else just wasn’t really for me.#also. i feel like her immediately being able to explain her curse being nobody believes her prophecies kinda negates the whole point of#that lmao......
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