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[musical-chick-13]

I still haven't listened to the full album, and I'm not sure I actually will, but I'm genuinely surprised that, from what I've seen, the Big Favorite™ of the songs isn't "The Albatross."

[lincolndjarin]

a love letter about writing star wars fanfiction.

(aka a love letter to my eleven year old self, and to anyone who's read bks.)

this is extremely sappy, and gross, and personal.

tw : homophobia, internal & external

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There is nothing I love as much as storytelling. 

I wrote my first story when I was eleven. It was a story about an angel and a demon who fell in love with each other and I posted it on Wattpad with a cringey title while under the pseudonym of a young genderless author, and I thought I was so cool. 

I wrote that story for some time. I remember being at my lola’s house (the only place I had access to a computer) and checking my page and seeing that I had over one hundred hits on it. 

I also remember later that night when my father called my lola and asked her to put me on the phone. I was a child and I used my father’s email for everything because I didn’t have one of my own and I didn't know any better. He called and he told me to delete my account immediately because what I was writing was extremely inappropriate. 

My story didn’t contain so much a kiss between its love interests.

I thought maybe he was upset because of a scene where one of the male characters changed shirts, or maybe it was because I was writing about the devil. 

But my father wasn’t a religious man. He’s quite the opposite actually, I distinctly remember when I was eight, I would go to church with my lola, and that Christmas I played the Virgin Mary in our pageant. 

And I looked out in the audience to find that he wasn’t there. 

Lola told me he had a cold sore. 

(My mom told me he just didn’t like church.) 

When I told him I was sorry and I didn’t know what I did wrong he told me I should write a different kind of story because the one that I was writing was bad, he told me that it was disgusting. 

The love interests in my story were both men. And at the ripe age of eleven I hated myself for what I had done. 

Over the next ten years I found different ways to tell stories. I wrote songs, I performed in musicals and I played Dungeons and Dragons. Every once and a while I would try to write but it just never worked. I would sit and stare at the notebook or the screen and I could never get further than a chapter or two because I just couldn’t stop thinking about how inappropriate it was for someone like me to be telling a story. 

I came out as queer my freshman year of highschool. 

That morning a family member (who I have since reconciled with) told me that they didn’t love me anymore. Since that day they have come to terms with who I am and I love them endlessly but I will never really get over that. I just can’t stop wondering what kind of person would tell a fourteen year old girl that they don’t love them over something they couldn't help? 

I came out as nonbinary when I was nineteen. 

That was the thing that finally destroyed any ounce of a relationship I had left with my father. 

I stopped singing, I stopped performing, and I stopped playing Dungeons and Dragons. And I just sort of hit a wall. Years of people telling me that I talk too much, that my identity was something that made me wrong, and years of people halfheartedly listening to me when I spoke finally wore me down to a point where I just wanted to be alone and silent. 

I wanted no one to look at me and I wanted no one to speak to me because I had been told since I could talk that I was a chatterbox. So I shut up and I stayed in my room. I went to work, I went home, and once a week I would hang out with the only friend that I hadn’t pushed away. (Trust me I tried, and I’m grateful everyday for how hard he fought to stay.) 

I did this for a long time, around three years. 

A little over a year ago I started taking medication for my severe social anxiety and my depression. It helped me snap out of the funk I was in and I quickly realized that my routine was about to vastly change. Evan was moving away for college and I was going to be truly alone. Sure I’d made other friends by this point but I only ever really hung out with Evan. 

So I needed something to fill that loneliness lest I succumb to it entirely.  

So I wrote a story. 

A vague story, where the characters had no names but they had big emotions. A story about a princess who fell in love with a knight but she never saw his face, and when he sacrificed himself for her he fought tooth and nail to get back to her, and thanks to his anonymity he actually managed to do it. 

At the start of May this year I started to write in earnest, for the first time in a decade. And anyone who has followed Best Kept Secret for a long time knows just how quickly those chapters were coming out. I was posting nearly three chapters a week because a decades worth of words were rushing out of me, desperate to finally see the light of day. 

When Evan went to college I wasn’t scared because I had something new to fill my time, a story. Since the day I posted that story, not a day has gone by where I haven’t written. 

Yes it is a silly piece of Mandalorian fanfiction, yes it is basically just porn for quite a bit of it, and yes it is full of spelling and grammatical errors. But it’s mine. It’s my story and it doesn’t matter if it’s dorky or terrible or anything along those lines because for the first time in a long time I don’t feel bad anymore. I don’t feel guilt or shame for the things that I say or do because I have been able to grow past that and a large part of that is because of Star Wars fanfiction. 

And I wish so badly that I could tell my eleven year old self that they are going to be okay and that she isn't wrong in any sense of the word. I wish that I could tell her that she doesn’t have to be a girl and that she can like whatever she wants to like and she can write whatever she wants to write. 

I wrote Best Kept Secret for me, and I wrote it for her. Because she loved Star Wars so fucking much, and if she knew that we found our peace in a silly story about a princess on Naboo she might finally be happy because she loved Padme so so much. 

I should probably be more sad that it’s ending but I’m really just proud of myself and I’m eternally grateful to anyone who’s reading this because if it weren’t for people reading what I was writing I don’t know if I would have carried on. I was so scared and nervous to write this story but when people liked it I was reminded of why I liked storytelling so much in the first place. 

Because it makes other people happy. 

This is already too long and too sappy but I can’t thank everyone who has supported me enough, because this silly little story of mine has unironically changed my life. I’m going to continue to write fanfiction because I love it but I’m also going to write a book. I’m going to write my first novel because this is what I love to do and I want to share it with anyone who cares, this is my favorite thing and thanks to this I have been reminded of that fact. 

So thank you, to every single person who read this mess, and thank you to every single person who read the wonderful mess that is Best Kept Secret. 

Tomorrow I am going to celebrate with my mother who I have to thank for all of this. She has supported me endlessly and she has pushed me to write and keep writing. 

Tomorrow I am going to call my lola, who sadly now lives further away, and tell her that I finished writing the story she constantly asks about.

Thank you mom, thank you Lola, thank you Evan, Tori & Carli, thank you to every single person who has ever supported my writing. 

Thank you eleven year old Ro, thank you for writing fanfiction about minecraft youtubers on your lola’s laptop.

here's a photo of the wonderful women of my family and of me writing bks in a coffee shop, curtesy of my friend tori, taking a point five.

[iamreadytobecomefrog]

Hello!!! \^^

Welcome to my blog! (no idea how you found me but welcome)

This is just my space to try and come out of my socially awkward shell while spewing out my hyperfixations from my small soap box.

I'm not consistent with my posting and none of my blog is organized, sorry (⁠´⁠ ⁠.⁠ ⁠.̫⁠ ⁠.⁠ ⁠`⁠), but as I get more comfortable I might actually take time to properly organize all of this.

Rules

I don't do NSFW - I'm only 16 and I don't feel comfortable posting about that.

This isn't a politics blog - I'm not gonna post about politics on here but I'm making it clear now, I DO NOT SUPPORT TRUMP. Don't like that, leave. This blog isn't for you.

Please be respectful - I don't want anyone arguing in comments and I don't want to deal with drama. If you think I've done or said something hurtful, DM me or make a polite comment telling me what I did wrong. Calling me names and cussing me out will not help me right my mistakes.

I can post what I want - This I feel is obvious, but I won't interact with anyone that tries to push me into a fandom that I don't enjoy. You can recommend your fandom to me and I'll look into it, but if I'm not into it, I'm not gonna post about it.

I won't post about donations - I've seen people post about GoFundMe sites or support pages sent by others and I love that they do that, but I personally can't trust those links so I won't post about them in the small chance it's a scam. If you want to support people I recommend just finding those that reblog about those links or find a trusted site yourself.

Cringe is welcomed here - I personally don't care if something is cringey as long as it's not inappropriate.

DON'T PUT ANY OF MY WORK INTO AI - I DO NOT support AI at all so I don't want any of my writings and or OCs I share in the future to be part of AI. This includes C.Ai chat bots, if you see one just report it or don't interact.

Be patient - I plan on taking requests in the future and I am not a fast writer.

Fandoms I'm in!

*I can go in and out of these fandoms at random so don't expect consistent posts about them.

Obey Me!

Obey Me! Nightbringer

Twisted Wonderland

Undertale *(Not into Deltarune yet)

Bendy and the Ink Machine

Sonic *(shows and movies so far, and Snapcube)

Mouthwashing

Chook and Sosig (let's see if anyone knows this one)

Spy x Family

Saiki K

Jujutsu Kaisen

School Babysitters

Delicious in Dungeon

Gravity Falls

The Owl House

Amphibia

Ducktales (2017)

Transformers *(mainly shows and some movies)

And those are just the some off the top of my head!

Thank you for reading, and I hope I don't scare you away with my rambles ^^

[punkscowardschampions]

Mabby & Jaggie

Bobby: Have you got a sec to talk?

Maggie: I have

Bobby: It’s a bit of a weird one but there’s no one else that can talk to it and not be talking out their arse so

Maggie: Right you are, I’ve always time for the weird ones

Bobby: Say it’s your expertise on that s’why I’m here but it’s really ‘cos it’s about your sister

Maggie: Sure, what’s she gone and done now?

Bobby: Ugh, it’s pure cringey

Bobby: but [this gal who came over to do homework and got jump-scared by the debacle] will likely debrief you anyway so here goes

Bobby: She chucked a sickie today and was hanging out with Case

Maggie: Ah, I see

Maggie: more of that carry on

Bobby: He was raging the second we walked in, which isn’t that unusual but even more livid to see me than usual

Bobby: then I came back down for drinks and he sent theirs flying

Maggie: Yous are grand though, yeah? You’d have led with it if the ED was involved, like

Bobby: Just a few cuts I think, broken glass is a pig to clean

Bobby: think [this gal] was devastated I only got pushed and nothing to show for it, yeah

Maggie: She would be, another story what you think you’re doing having her over, and not the main one

Bobby: She’s top in [whatever lesson you were doing homework for]

Bobby: What did you mean by more of that carry on though

Maggie: We’ve all of us the knowing what I mean, those who trouble themselves to look

Bobby: It’s politically incorrect to say you sound like a fortune teller now but…

Maggie: Don’t then, it’s not the sight, it’s sense, common enough

Bobby: But say it plainly

Maggie: Come on now, you’ve no need for me to

Bobby: Yeah I do

Bobby: because how else can I know or do anything if I’ve only got my word and experience on it

Maggie: What would you have either of us do? 

Maggie: this is between my sister and your brothers, only them 3 at the count

Bobby: That’s ridiculous

Bobby: There shouldn’t be anything between her and Case

Maggie: Ridiculous things go on 

Maggie: and shouldn’t ain’t isn’t

Bobby: Do you have to be difficult about it

Bobby: Just tell us what you’ve witnessed

Maggie: It’s difficult

Maggie: am I to take pleasure in the telling of how I’ve been waiting for you to bring this up to me since [the wedding]? I’ve felt it from then with no doubt

Bobby: The wedding? Are you serious?

Bobby: Why would you not say anything in all that time

Maggie: To who and what? Was I to stand and object?

Bobby: Me, for starters

Bobby: Not let Jim walk around like an idiot for all this time

Maggie: You’d have said I was wrong, I’d be in the wrong meddling

Bobby: No I’d not

Bobby: This is wrong

Maggie: You wouldn’t want to hear it, same as Jim, who’s no idiot

Bobby: I’ve asked now and you’ve said fuck all so that’s just an excuse

Maggie: You already know, he knows, there’s the truth of how things’ve been for all this time, I’ve said nothing cos by god it’s not for me to say she loves the 2 of ‘em both

Bobby: Jesus fucking Christ

Bobby: She can’t just love them both, she’s with Jim, she married him

Maggie: Jesus fecking Christ is right

Maggie: Grace’ll never be over what went on with her wedding, so’s I forever held my peace, I thought that to be best but maybe it weren’t

Bobby: No shit

Bobby: Why let it go through, make a bigger mess

Maggie: They love each other, might’ve been the wedding made her mind up to just him, let her make good on her vows

Maggie: I can’t look to the future, not really, and if there’s some chance, I weren’t to be the one snatching it from anyone

Bobby: You don’t get married on a fucking maybe

Maggie: They didn’t, it was a yeah, you witnessed it yourself

Maggie: she wanted to as much as him

Bobby: That would change if he knew the full story

Bobby: you knew that’d make his yes a no so you kept quiet

Maggie: He’s the fullest story of any of us

Bobby: Bollocks does he, they don’t carry on in front of him

Maggie: They don’t in front of me but I’ve still seen the craic

Bobby: You pointed out he wouldn’t want to hear it, same goes for seeing it, surely

Bobby: So what, you just think it, you’ve not seen anything actually happen?

Maggie: I’ll hold up my damning charge sheet of each touch or every word, then what? You’ll use that to beat her over the head like she don’t have her own knowing she’s done wrong time and again? Away with you

Bobby: Oh yeah, poor Janis

Maggie: How easy could she have it, torn between Jim and Case? I’ve sympathy where you’ve none, sue us

Bobby: Pretty fucking cushy from where I’m sat, she can do no wrong to either of them meanwhile they’re both getting fucked over

Maggie: Where, your glass house?

Maggie: they walked to here hand in hand, she weren’t alone

Bobby: Because they’d both do anything for her

Bobby: She’s exploited that

Maggie: Not in a calculated way

Bobby: Oh yeah, she’s entirely unaware of the effect she has

Maggie: It’s a mess for a reason, if she was playing puppets with those lads it’d look different

Bobby: I didn’t say she was smart, I said she’s got away with it for this long because she knows they’ll let her

Maggie: Least you’re near addressing their part in this too

Bobby: They’re only in love with 1 person, that’s not messed up

Maggie: She didn’t choose this no more than they’ve, you love who you love

Bobby: Why did I think you’d understand this

Maggie: I do understand, I don’t know why you thought I’d blindly agree with all you say

Bobby: You don’t, at all

Bobby: What hope had you

Maggie: What hope had I? Too much in you, to be sure

Bobby: Because it would be my fault because I’m the lad

Bobby: lasses can do anything they want and never be in the wrong for it

Maggie: What nonsense, boy

Bobby: Yeah, yours

Maggie: Mine when?

Bobby: No need for a charge sheet, just scroll up

Maggie: Yeah, blame me

Maggie: be just like a lad to do

Bobby: Hilarious

Bobby: You wouldn’t need to be on the defensive if you knew she weren’t in the wrong

Maggie: She is, don’t mean I’m praying on her downfall

Bobby: Actions have consequences

Maggie: And they’re hers to have to live with, but they won’t include me turning my back on my sister

Bobby: Made up that it’s so easy for you

Maggie: Family’s important, you wouldn’t be this angry at me right now if you didn’t also believe it

Bobby: It weren’t a challenge for her to see if we could be any more fucked as one but here we are

Maggie: I’m sorry, for the little that’s worth to yous

Bobby: Nothing 

Maggie: Okay, fair

Bobby: It’s not, what am I meant to do now?

Maggie: Talk to Jim 

Maggie: or Case

Maggie: or both

Bobby: Oh yeah

Bobby: That’s a brilliant idea

Maggie: What d’ya call sweeping everything back under the rug?

Bobby: So it’s not your place to talk to your sister but it’s mine to bring this to my brothers?

Bobby: Not hypocritical at all

Maggie: It’s not my place to out her on her wedding day s’what I said

Bobby: You’ve made it clear you’re going to be of fuck all use

Maggie: I’ve plenty of uses but Jan’s mistakes ain’t something I’m taking on to fix, no

Bobby: 👍 Tah

Maggie: Of course I’d trouble myself if I thought it’d do any good

Bobby: You’d trouble yourself if you cared more about the right thing than saving her her share of it

Maggie: The right thing’s for them to come to a decision on, not us

Bobby: And how is any decision being come to when Jim is in the dark, on purpose

Bobby: it’s an affair, it’s self-serving for her and that’s that

Maggie: He’s in the dark on purpose cos he don’t want a light being shone where it’d have need to, that’s as self-serving

Bobby: Are you serious?

Bobby: Yeah, how utterly selfish of him to not want to think that his wife and brother would do that to him

Maggie: There’d be real work in addressing every issue

Bobby: I don’t see her fucking rushing to do it either, do you

Bobby: She’s obviously happy with having her cake and eating it too

Maggie: She isn’t, and that’s doing it nor happy, obviously, be why you don’t see me sainting her, do you?

Bobby: She should be

Bobby: why all of a sudden is she not

Maggie: I don’t know, we aren’t close enough for me to, I’ve only my limited POV

Bobby: Can you not try

Bobby: She’s your sister

Maggie: Do you honest to god reckon this would be the first time of, here now purely on your asking? Who am I else if not someone who tries too feckin’ hard?

Maggie: I can have another go though

Bobby: When before?

Bobby: How long ago, I mean

Maggie: Too long, but the when being sooner wouldn’t matter much, I’m not someone she listens to

Bobby: You have the inability in common

Maggie: I listen

Bobby: Not actively

Bobby: you let it go in one ear and out the other without changing what you were always gonna do

Maggie: We’ve our made up minds in common then, all of us, cos I can’t change hers either, you well know it’s too big of an ask

Bobby: Thanks for your help

Maggie: Bobby

Bobby: I just wanted someone to talk to

Bobby: but nah, message received loud and clear

Maggie: I don’t magically have the answers, be fair, I’m not my man Jesus, but you can still talk to me

Bobby: Er, I bloody well can’t

Bobby: all you’ve said is oh that? Yeah, I’ve known for ages and I don’t give a shit

Maggie: I give a shit but that’s not the same as giving you exactly what you’re after

Bobby: Well, can you remind her that he only wants her because he can’t have her

Bobby: it’ll be over and done and she’ll have messed everything up for nothing

Maggie: Does he?

Bobby: Obviously, Maggie, come on

Maggie: Come on yourself, they’ve a closeness and understanding, which ain’t nothing or to be over and done with easy as that

Bobby: Because we’re meant to be family to her too, me and him

Bobby: that’s wrong

Maggie: Proper recognition is powerful and rare, fighting that feels wrong to her

Bobby: Her and Jim have that

Maggie: Yeah, but her and Case have it too, what’ll pretending they don’t do?

Bobby: But they don’t

Bobby: He’s copying what he sees, he did it with our parents before

Maggie: Maybe and she’s a dope being conned, maybe not

Bobby: I know and surely you should want to see her not get hurt

Maggie: I want to see her happy, however it looks

Bobby: She won’t be, is what I’m telling you

Maggie: Okay, I’m listening, I swear

Bobby: He’s

Bobby: well, you know how he is, he just smashed up half the house

Maggie: Well, she’s no stranger to how he is, she’s who calms him, right?

Bobby: Feminism flying out the window…

Bobby: he’s an adult, not a toddler

Maggie: They’re all adults, that was my point earlier

Bobby: She just lets him get away with shit, getting his way calms him down, that’s all

Maggie: She wouldn’t let him get away with hurting her, I’ve not got a worry there

Bobby: It’s not a let, it just happens

Maggie: I mean, if he ever did that’d be the end of them

Bobby: You’re not any more convinced of that than I am

Maggie: You’re trying to scare me

Bobby: I’m not, it’s a legit worry

Maggie: I’ll share it with our mammy

Bobby: Is that going to do anything?

Maggie: Would I be able to without her involvement? We’re talking in circles now and spiralling

Bobby: You know what I’m saying

Maggie: Of course I do, like

Maggie: I know what everyone says

Bobby: It’s not without reason

Maggie: None of us are perfect, we don’t claim we’re

Bobby: I mean that’s your mam, hers

Bobby: How are you going to know better 

Maggie: Don’t start in on my mammy, you’re better than that

Bobby: I’m not having a go I’m being practical

Maggie: You’re being a prick

Bobby: I’m pointing out that your mum is the last person who can fix this, let’s be honest 

Maggie: Jan, Jim and Case are the only ones who can, but that’s too honest for yous whenever I say it

Bobby: It’s a cop out for nothing to be done

Maggie: Jesus, Mary and her wee donkey, you’re a test

Maggie: So, I repeat, what would you have me do?

Bobby: Soz your idea is shit you don’t have to be a bitch to me

Maggie: You don’t have to speak to me like that, eejit 

Maggie: none of the mess is mine nor yours

Bobby: I have to live in it, literally

Maggie: You’d claim inviting you to live with me’s my worst idea yet, especially as you’ve no love lost for my shite parents

Bobby: I didn’t call them shite

Bobby: at least you have some

Maggie: No? Then I suppose you’re forgiven

Bobby: 🙄😏

Maggie: Come away with me and I’ll try to have other ideas

Bobby: What are you going on about now?

Maggie: It’s written down, how are you to play the deaf card?

Bobby: It’s the deaf card now is it

Maggie: Living in hell, weren’t you?

Maggie: so let’s go

Bobby: Go where

Maggie: [a list of options, all giving outside like the fresh air will help her think lol, some giving chill and staying nearby-ish like the park but also more further afield genuinely getting away from it all things on offer like the beach etc, but clearly all things he’d be vaguely into]?

Maggie: you tell me

Bobby: I’m not in the best mood

Maggie: Oh, I got that, no need for a crystal ball or anything

Bobby: A pity hang isn’t going to improve it much either

Maggie: Give yourself permission to call me a bitch again in a new location, I’m giving it to you

Bobby: Or you want to jump me

Bobby: which given I can’t hear it is a proper hate crime

Maggie: You never went far enough yourself for me to have to

Bobby: I’ll be scared when I’ve seen you kick a door off it’s hinges a few times

Maggie: Play the right songs and I might

Bobby: Insensitive much

Maggie: Cheap shot, much? And when I’ve seen you work with vibrations and vibes too, don’t you lie to this face

Bobby: Don’t be a know-it-all

Maggie: Hitting up my band practice weren’t on the list cos you’d hate it, I’ve that knowing

Maggie: what are we doing though?

Bobby: Big of you to turn down a chance to show off, like

Maggie: Bold of you to assume I won’t find another way

Bobby: Hm, yeah, true

Maggie: True you’re avoiding my question

Bobby: He’s gone to work, it’s alright

Maggie: I don’t know that I’m convinced, but you’ve painted us into a corner whereby I’ve got to take your word or I’m not listening

Bobby: Mean, you could show up at [the club Casey works at] if you’re not convinced 

Maggie: Of the latter not the former, as again, well you know

Bobby: I told you I weren’t in no mood now

Maggie: Will I beg so it’s my pity hang and you feel better?

Bobby: You feel bad for not helping none

Maggie: Everyone’s in a bad place there’s no easy way out of, sure, I’d love to help

Bobby: I can think of an easy one

Maggie: What’s that?

Bobby: I could march in there right now and tell her I saw, I know

Bobby: that you said you do too

Maggie: And she’ll say right back we’re full of it, end of conversation

Maggie: you know how she is

Bobby: She’s not going to be that cocky if it’s true, when she knows what’s at stake

Maggie: People double down hardest when they’ve things to lose, she’ll not give you what you want exactly cos of what’s at stake

Bobby: You reckon

Maggie: I do, sorry

Bobby: Not if I was going to tell Jim, he’d believe me

Maggie: But you’re not

Maggie: talking to him was the worst idea when I suggested it

Bobby: I can threaten it still

Maggie: You reckon she’d get no inkling it were empty? She knows you both more than well enough

Bobby: It’s not empty

Bobby: It can be if she stops

Maggie: Alright, time to tell us what it was you saw

Bobby: They were close, and they had no reason to be, making drinks at [whatever PM you get out of school]

Bobby: I think they were touching, how they have no reason to be ever

Maggie: Well, they’ve a point in their favour with making drinks being his job and something he’s always doing at yours all times of the day and night

Maggie: how do you think they were touching?

Bobby: Not for her, she had no reason not to be at work 

Maggie: Either her reason was to spend time with him or she really was sick and it’s a happy coincidence, like

Bobby: She weren’t, nah

Bobby: she doesn’t take days off

Maggie: No, she don’t

Bobby: Not for a headache, that’s not fooling anyone

Maggie: She told you she had a headache?

Bobby: When we first got in and they were there watching a film like it was Saturday night or something, yeah

Maggie: Not the Netflix and chill

Bobby: Don’t 

Bobby: it’s so fucked

Maggie: God, I’m so sorry you and [that girl] walked into that

Bobby: Now you get it

Maggie: I didn’t realise they were acting our age

Bobby: I told you she wasn’t acting like a married woman

Maggie: But friends have drinks and watch films, you’ve still not told me anything which properly crosses the line 

Bobby: Yeah, friends

Bobby: they’re brother and sister in law, that’s it

Maggie: I’m just saying what she will, that it was platonic

Bobby: And I’m saying it ain’t

Maggie: Yeah, me too

Bobby: I’m sick of it, I’ve had enough

Maggie: I’ll talk to her

Bobby: You will?

Maggie: I have to try

Bobby: Let me know, what she says

Maggie: Swear you won’t shoot the messenger? 

Bobby: I’m not hopeful

Maggie: I’ll keep hold of the hope for us both, least I can do when there’s so much I can’t

Bobby: Just say what I said, that I’ll tell him

Bobby: that should mean something

Maggie: Give us strength, for whatever that’ll come to mean

Maggie: but you’re not wrong, enough now

Bobby: It shouldn’t come to it

Bobby: this is her second chance she don’t deserve but he does so

Bobby: I’ll not fuck his head if I don’t have to, her choice

Maggie: Everyone deserves a second chance

Bobby: It’s irrelevant

Maggie: Not to me, I’m thanking you for hers if she never does

Bobby: Leave it out

Maggie: Why?

Bobby: You’re being weird, there’s nothing to say thanks for

Maggie: You don’t owe her nothing, nor me, you’re being decent and I’m recognising that you are

Bobby: It’s for him, I said

Maggie: She benefits all the same

Bobby: Okay

Maggie: Okay then

Bobby: Stop being weird, go away, like

Maggie: Don’t ruin it, you were being nice

Bobby: I’m always nice

Maggie: I’ve not forgot about you using [that girl] for top marks

Bobby: I’m not allowed to study with someone now?

Maggie: Someone who weren’t there for homework in the first place and ended up with a show she never bargained for watching

Maggie: have you spoke to her since she ran off?

Bobby: Are you for real?

Maggie: Take that as a no you ain’t

Bobby: You’re judging me and you’re going to be that off-base about it

Maggie: Check in, she likes you

Bobby: No she doesn’t

Maggie: She does

Bobby: Well we were doing [whatever subject] homework, I don’t know what to tell you

Maggie: I don’t need telling, I’m telling you to talk to her

Bobby: It’s none of your business

Maggie: It’s between yous, I’m not making it mine other than to give the heads up you’ve missed

Bobby: I don’t care

Maggie: You care to have a go at me

Bobby: Because you’re making it into something it’s not, sticking your nose in

Maggie: You’re getting defensive cos you know you shouldn’t have had her over

Bobby: If someone offers to help me with my homework, I’m allowed to accept

Bobby: why the fuck are you trying to make me some predator about it

Maggie: I’m not, I’m letting you know why she offered

Bobby: That’s not my problem

Maggie: Right, why did I bother?

Bobby: It’s what you do

Maggie: Meaning what?

Bobby: I don’t know, you think you’re a matchmaker or fairy godmother or something

Bobby: I’m not interested, thanks

Maggie: You’re of no mind to like her back, that’s why I told you how she feels

Bobby: So?

Bobby: Her feelings are her responsibility not mine

Maggie: So maybe don’t encourage them for your own gain now you’re fully aware what they are, Jesus

Bobby: You could say the same thing about her only offering to help me because she wants me

Bobby: but you won’t

Maggie: I would

Bobby: You didn’t

Bobby: I’m exploiting and using her, yeah fucking right, you’re the biggest hypocrite

Maggie: I didn’t know she was carrying on like that until today, did I?

Bobby: Oh bullshit, you just took the opportunity to have a go because you thought you knew best and what was what when you haven’t got a clue

Bobby: do me a favour and actually shut up

Maggie: Gladly

Maggie: When you’ve a spare minute, I need to talk to you

Janis: Of course, shoot

Maggie: You’ll not be as eager when you hear what about

Maggie: but in fairness I’m betting you’ve a clue already

Janis: Sounds concerning…

Janis: What have you done now that you don’t want ma finding out about?

Maggie: Me? Nothing

Maggie: except had Bobby in my ear about you earlier on, like I’m your mammy or your keeper

Janis: Erm, that’s weird

Janis: Why, though, what was he saying about us?

Maggie: He saw you and he wanted someone to speak to about it

Maggie: as I’m the biggest busybody he knows, that fell onto me

Janis: What do you mean he saw me, we live in the same gaff, that shouldn’t be noteworthy

Janis: I chucked a sickie but that’s about it, being home [however early his home time is compared to your usual]

Maggie: I mean, you and Case

Janis: That was handled, he said he was fine, he didn’t get cut or anything

Maggie: He’s says he’s going to handle it by telling Jim, unless you stop

Janis: Wait, stop what

Janis: I was going to tell Jim anyway when he gets home, some work drama and Case lost his cool, no harm done

Maggie: Am I to spell it out? You’re my sister, I don’t really want to

Janis: I’m saying that I didn’t do anything, so I’m confused as to what Bobby thinks he saw and what he’s expecting now

Maggie: He’s heavy-handed but I can’t much blame the boy

Maggie: I’ve seen how yous are together too, more than this 1 time he did, and you can’t keep carrying on this way

Janis: What is this?

Janis: You really don’t know what you’re on about, there is nothing to stop

Maggie: He’s dead serious and set on you losing everything, I’m not, I’m trying to help you

Janis: That’s ridiculous

Janis: if he’d got home [however long] earlier, Casey’s girlfriend would have still been there

Maggie: Does Bob know of her? He never said

Janis: No, it’s early days but I’ll have to tell him now

Maggie: I can, he’s after me reporting back

Janis: He was clearly more spooked earlier than he let on, to be acting like this

Janis: You know their sibling relationship isn’t smooth sailing

Maggie: I didn’t help none, he wanted me to nod along

Janis: I can’t diss anyone for stubbornness but he is

Janis: it’ll get straightened out, don’t worry

Maggie: But I am for you, he made the point you should be happy and I can see you’re not

Janis: Maggie, I’m happy

Janis: I’m just an adult and that’s shit like 70% of the time

Maggie: I know happy adults, mammy and my daddy are

Maggie: you don’t have to lie to me, it’s been since the wedding

Janis: I’ve never been like her, the baselines aren’t comparable

Maggie: I tried to talk to you then, I should’ve tried harder

Janis: Weddings are really stressful, everyone goes out their head a bit

Maggie: Case went out of his a lot

Janis: It’s years ago now, he’s moved on, doing better

Maggie: Has he?

Janis: He likes this girl, that’s new

Maggie: It’s still only like

Janis: More than any of the others

Janis: we all have to start somewhere, right

Maggie: Right

Maggie: since when are you starting to pull sickies though?

Janis: Oh, if you had to work with Grace, you’d be inclined

Maggie: You love your work, even with Gracie about

Maggie: between just us, you’re not pregnant are you?

Janis: I fucking hope not

Janis: not screwed with my hormones for all these years to be failed like that

Maggie: I thought maybe, as he said you had a headache, and it’d be an added reason to want to avoid Grace

Janis: Definite false alarm there

Janis: glad that’s not a rumour he’s pushing, like

Maggie: I didn’t float it as possible, he was already raging enough at me for my shite ideas and blood relation to you that I weren’t willing to cast aside for the sake of your affair

Janis: Affair, Jesus 🙄

Janis: Does he honest to God think that or was he just marding?

Maggie: You’ve given him some cause over the years for emotional if not full blown physical

Janis: The fact Jim is the only boyfriend I’ve ever had counts for nothing, of course

Maggie: Of course it don’t, I got called every name under the sun before I’d ever had one

Janis: He should know me better than that by now

Maggie: He’s knows both you and Case well, better than me

Janis: I don’t know about that

Maggie: He was adamant I tell you Casey only wants you cos he can’t have you but I’ve the knowing that isn’t true and, sure, deep down Bobby does himself, be why he’s in the state he is

Janis: He doesn’t want me at all now, you can tell him that

Maggie: I’ve half a mind to for the boy to calm himself a bit, but come on now

Janis: You come on, I told you

Janis: and it’s not fair to hold Case to some school kid crush he had once, you’ll appreciate that one when you’re older

Maggie: He’s all grown and outgrown you, is it?

Maggie: I appreciate he’ll always want you, however unfair that may be to everyone

Janis: If that’s what he’s saying then yeah, I’m going to take his word for it

Maggie: Take mine, girlfriends mean as much or as little as someone’s word is good for if they can’t keep themselves to it

Janis: What is this? Are you warning me or trying to give me false hope?

Maggie: Ask yourself why you’d be hoping I’m right and she’s not important to him

Janis: I’m asking why you think that’s what I need

Janis: Can’t I be happy for him?

Maggie: I think you love him, both of them, and you’ve done from your first knowing of those lads, more or less

Janis: Not in the same way

Maggie: Not like he’s family, how Bobby reckons you ought to

Maggie: but he’s of the mind to blame our mammy, you can too if you want

Janis: Lack of boundaries could be learnt but it’s not so deep it needs to be inherited 

Maggie: It’s complicated, like, he can try and be as black and white as he wishes this were but that don’t make it so, his isn’t the law to be laid down

Janis: It’s not complicated, he can have it

Janis: I’m married to Jimmy, end of

Maggie: Except you haven’t ended things with Case or there’d be nothing for him to say to us he saw

Maggie: what were you touching him like? Bob wouldn’t tell me

Janis: I can’t end something that never began

Janis: Fucking hell, I don’t even know because whatever he saw wasn’t what was going on, I wasn’t touching him in any specific way

Maggie: He’s deaf not blind

Janis: I’ll ask him, what he thinks he saw

Janis: because I can’t tell you, I have no idea

Maggie: You and his other brother on a day date, s’how he made it sound to me, made me feel like I had to apologise for you

Janis: Well, that’s bullshit

Janis: Casey works evenings, if I’m there at lunchtime, I’m not going to just ignore him

Maggie: Well, I said all that

Janis: God, I hate teenagers

Maggie: Rude, and when I’ve been pulling muscles leaping to your defence

Janis: You’ll grow out of it, it’s okay 

Janis: but it’s obviously going to be painful waiting for him to

Maggie: I’ve made sure he knows he was being a prick

Janis: That’s something

Janis: I guess I’ll have to have the rest of that awkward conversation with him now instead of enjoying what’s left of my sick day

Maggie: Sorry, we left things on him telling me to shut up

Janis: Ironic when he apparently can’t

Janis: at least that random girl is gone, less audience to this nonsense

Maggie: Don’t get us started on that nonsense again

Janis: You know her?

Maggie: I know she’s into him, everyone who can hear does

Janis: She obviously hadn’t heard about the dysfunctional family, like

Maggie: She weren’t letting nothing, including his lack of interest put her off, no

Janis: He’s not about that

Maggie: He’s about her doing his [whatever subject] homework for him

Janis: Smart

Maggie: You would say that

Janis: Well it is

Janis: I didn’t capitalise on my looks at all in school, really would’ve made things easier, in retrospect

Maggie: It’s unkind, there’s that false hope you mentioned

Janis: It’s unkind to only want someone for what they look like

Janis: none of us are perfect

Maggie: I know

Janis: They’ll both survive

Maggie: On the scale of what else happened today, easily the most survivable, yeah

Janis: That is far too dramatic for what did

Maggie: You would also say that

Janis: A few broken glasses ain’t going to end any of our world’s

Maggie: When was I on about the broken glass?

Janis: Sounds like he’d be thrilled to see the back of me

Janis: unfortunately for him, no, unlikely that’s gonna happen

Maggie: He isn’t thrilled his brother’s being cheated on

Janis: I’m not fucking cheating on him

Maggie: He thinks you are

Janis: He’s wrong, obviously

Maggie: That’s obvious to who exactly?

Janis: Me, Jim, Casey

Janis: the people who matter most, respectfully but I’ll reassure him, sure

Maggie: On you go then, he needs to hear it most, as of right now

Janis: Of course he does

Maggie: Okay, I’ll gladly shut up for a second time

Janis: I’m not going to apologise for him, he can bother his own arse

Maggie: He won’t, I’d not hold my breath

Janis: Probably not, no

Maggie: I’m the least of what troubles him

Janis: Angst is a rite of passage, I suppose

Maggie: I’ll be grand, there’s no dark clouds over on my doorstep

Janis: Alright, little miss sunshine 

Maggie: Lucky 13, always, with no apologies of my own

Janis: She only managed 2 births on the 13th, not that impressive, tbh

Maggie: She’s managed plenty else I’d call impressive

Janis: 👶

Maggie: Yeah, including me true enough

Janis: You would say that

Maggie: With no apologies there neither, I’m great

Janis: And I’m the last person to attempt to teach you humility 

Maggie: A task my man Jesus couldn’t even but he loves me as I am too, so where’s the problem?

Janis: I didn’t say there was none, you coming to me with the laundry list

Maggie: The lad came at me, what else was I to do?

Janis: Too late to tell him to piss off now, like

Maggie: He’s lonely, I’d never

Maggie: for all he’s a fecking eejit with how he speaks to me sometimes

Janis: I know he is

Maggie: If he gets under my skin this much, maybe he’s meant to be there

Janis: Or he’s learnt it from the best

Maggie: You don’t get nowhere near as deep

Janis: How charming

Maggie: It is, I know you don’t have your claws out for me nor buried in, that’s a good thing, like

Janis: You’re still just a 👶 be a dickhead move

Maggie: I could have a baby myself, but that’s god’s move if I will or not before you

Janis: God’s not the baby daddy, you know, you can take that decision solely into your hands

Maggie: If only, on a par with my daddy for being relied upon to do right by me

Janis: Better than the alternatives

Maggie: I can’t condemn them all in a sweeping statement when there’s so many

Janis: Remind me to have a word with your father, like

Maggie: Ah no, I’ll have to forget to leave that reminder with you

Janis: Mhmm

Maggie: I’m a good girl anyway, leave me be

Janis: Glad to hear it

Maggie: How long’s Case’s girlfriend been on the scene?

Janis: [however long he said it was to you] apparently

Maggie: And what’s she like?

Janis: No clue, not really the introduction sort

Maggie: Probably for the best

Janis: Tell me about it

Janis: last thing I want is to meet some random bint but suppose I’ll have to eventually

Maggie: Last thing she’d want, if she’s any sense, is to meet the girl he’s blatantly in love with, who happens to be a model

Janis: Thanks for the pep talk but no amount of imagined jealousy is going to make it tolerable

Maggie: You’ve had your fill of jealous girls, I get it

Janis: She just won’t be

Maggie: He won’t just be over you, people don’t move on fast, if ever

Janis: It wouldn’t be fast though, would it

Maggie: [however long she said this girl has been around which clearly isn’t long]

Janis: That doesn’t have to be when he started to get over me

Maggie: It’s not cos he’s not, but if I’m to play along with the game you 2 are, we’re pretending somewhere around then

Janis: It’s just different

Janis: it doesn’t make me a bad person for needing time to adjust

Maggie: No one’s calling you one

Janis: ‘Cept Bobby who reckons he’s going to tell Jim we’re having an affair when it’s the opposite, of course

Maggie: He’s calling you one for what he reckons he walked in on

Janis: I upset Casey accidentally, brought up his mum

Janis: that’s why I had to come home, it was my fuck up to fix and I did, that’s it

Janis: but I don’t see how that’s Bobby’s business by right, it ain’t

Maggie: I won’t tell him purely to get him to shut up the once, it’s okay

Janis: Tah, I understand how satisfying that would be

Maggie: I’ll take my satisfaction from being more mature, or something

Janis: Sounds like the type of bullshit advice girls get given, yeah

Maggie: He wouldn’t come away with me, I’d have fixed his mood at least a bit if he had

Janis: He might be lonely but he doesn’t like going out much either

Maggie: He’d like going out with us

Janis: The world ain’t that wild and free for him

Maggie: But it don’t need to be as small as his is at the minute

Janis: I know that, I’m just pointing out that it’s not as easy as all that necessarily

Maggie: I’d make everything as easy for him as I could, I try to

Janis: I know

Janis: it’s hard to get your head ‘round, and keep it ‘round, that relying on other people when you have no choice but to is a shitty thing

Janis: and when he can’t, he’s essentially in a foreign country where he can’t communicate anything to anyone, would make the best of us wary

Maggie: I wish he’d get his head ‘round none of us having no choice but to rely on each other, we’d all be on an island alone if not

Janis: Yeah but you can appreciate that that sounds like an inspirational quote for a mug compared to the reality of him needing an interpreter just to go to school

Maggie: Why I’m saying it to you instead of him

Janis: And I won’t tell him

Maggie: You know what I mean, you tried your hardest to need no one

Janis: I get where you’re coming from

Janis: but I know where he is too, not relying on anyone can be a survival technique when it ain’t safe to, not just being a massive cold bitch like me

Maggie: And by god do I wish he weren’t in survival mode everyday

Janis: Don’t we all

Maggie: He’s the nicest smile but who’s seen it in forever? Not even [that girl] cos they wouldn’t have finished their homework

Janis: What a tragedy

Maggie: Bad craic, but whatever go talk to him, what are you still doing here with me?

Janis: I’m in the bath if you must know, let me get the conditioner out of my hair first, tah

Maggie: Thanks a million, you really let me think this was a bonding moment instead of you trapped

Janis: In my/your defence, ask anyone, that’s the only way I have them

Maggie: Sure, you’d have that be the rumour

Janis: Not a rumour, but an old story everyone has heard by this point

Maggie: A worn out lie I’ve no time for

Maggie: do me/yourself the favour of washing it out with your conditioner

Janis: Alright, white girl, assuming I’ll have the time after dealing with all this

Maggie: Erasure of my daddy’s origins aside, you’re still no bitch, nor can you be cold for having camped out in the bath this entire time

Janis: The waters not titanic yet but I’ll keep warm with those sincere compliments

Janis: Be honest, though, do I need to say something to Jimmy before Bobby does here?

Maggie: He made himself clear he don’t feel like saying something unless you force him to

Janis: Alright

Maggie: Hopefully it’ll be once you’ve talked to Bob

Janis: ‘Course it will, don’t worry yourself

Maggie: I am you’ll make things worse

Janis: The pep talk is over then, I see

Maggie: You said be honest

Janis: I’m not going to shout at the boy, if that were even an option

Janis: I’ll be super understanding, despite how hard he’s slagged me off

Maggie: Me and mammy too, a proper family affair

Janis: See, by rights I could kick his head in, but I won’t

Janis: so bloody mature

Maggie: By rights I’d be ignoring him, but I won’t

Janis: He’ll appreciate it once he’s calmed down

Maggie: I’ll find yous new glasses at [somewhere that’s giving a slay thrift shop or something of that sort] I’m away there tomorrow

Janis: I see the excuse to come over and check on him but appreciated nonetheless

Maggie: Maybe I learnt from the best, like

Janis: Lucky 13, kid

[vilgramcrimeandpunishment]

Raiden Arisawa’s First Voice Drama (The Late Night Show)

E: *footsteps echo* *the door opens, slamming shut*

R: And in enters a figure of authority and ethereal power. Their cape flowing in the wind that picks up near the door as it slams shut and presents the warden of the hour!!!

E:………the hell did I walk in on?

R: Everyone give it up for warden-san, Es~!!!!

E:……….please tell me this is the wrong room….

R: *chuckles* Sorry about that, little warden. I just thought I’d start this interrogation off with a unique introduction of your own

E: Well, I can certainly say that was…..something….

R: Hesitation…..you didn’t like it, huh?

E: Oh? It’s not that, I am just surprised

R: Surprised, huh? Yeah, I suppose anyone would be

E: What you just did resembles a game show hosts voice and mannerism...well, that or the enthusiasm level could be compared to a talk show host too. Really any figure of TV that is tasked with presenting an introduction in an energetic manner

R: *chuckles* Well, at least you got the point. Yes, that is what I was trying to imitate. Surprised someone as serious as the warden themselves can pick up on my childish intention

E: I am a prison guard, not a robot devoid of emotion or humor

R: So you can joke around too?

E: *laughs* When I'm in a mood, mostly though, I try to focus on the job at hand

R: Of course, understandable

E: And what did you mean by "I suppose anyone would be". Is this something you do often?

R: Something I do often? Not really. Well....only with people that I'm close to and what to give them something to laugh about. Or put a smile on their face

E: Huh, I see

R: Either way, they do end up laughing at the odd introduction or how cringey it may come off as. Heh, I guess being an old man using outdated lingo and jokes can be a good thing

E: I fail to see how being cringey in mannerism can be a good thing. You're basically implying that you're so pathetic at talking that it's laughable

R: Such strong words....well....I guess I can see the point you're trying to make. But as long as people are happy, then I'm happy

E: You must care a lot about your loved ones even at your own expense

R: My own expense

E: Your pride

R: Ouch, harsh words. I really don't mind if I'm the one being laughed at. Plus, I doubt you can really shame me when I've put on dresses and plastic tiaras for my daughter

E: Daughter?

R: My eight year old. She's been obsessed with princesses for a long time, so she would always pursue me to join her tea parties with 'proper clothing'.....that and speaking to her stuffed animals made me look absolutely insane

E: Ah, I see. Well, I suppose it's normal for fathers to do feminine stuff like that for their daughters

R: Right? Though I will admit it got uncomfortable at times

E: Uncomfortable?

R: Well, more physically than mentally uncomfortable. The seat would be too small for me, the feathers on my boa would make me sneeze, and my tiara would cut off circulation to my head

E: Well don't girls say 'beauty is pain'?

R: Some beauty is pain, but I wouldn't mind doing those face mask routines with her. They were more relaxing. Plus, my skin was soft afterwards, heh

E: Fair enough. Anyways, may I begin the questioning?

R: Of course. Just to recap, my name is Raiden Arisawa and I'm thirty nine years old

E: Professional

R: Just trying to make introductions more formal now for myself. You know I actually wanted to be a sports broadcaster when I was in college

E: Oh? Is that so?

R: Why yes. I have to learn how to fit the nature of a line and act quickly when I need to deliver it. It can range from being formal and serious to witty and funny

E: Alright, then. Anyways, I suppose I'll play along. Pleased to meet you, Raiden. May I ask how life is in VILGRAM?

R: I really have no complaints. Being here is punishment for my crimes, yes?

E: Well....punishment, partially. But also an experiment through using your memories and crimes to produce song and video that will interpret your murder in regards to your true feelings about it. When that's finished the three songs will align with each other and help me deduce whether you're forgiven or unforgiven of your actions

R: How outstanding. I'm pretty sure the other prisoners spoke about their own opinions on the said process

E: Yes they have. Though some really weren't impressed while others thought it was otherworldly and unrealistic. While I cannot blame their way of thinking, I don't really care. As I said, I'm only here to focus on the job

R: Right. The punishment

E: You keep emphasizing a punishment portion of VILGRAM, as if you're anticipating it

R: With open arms

E:....e-eh?

R: It's simple, really. You kill me, a murderer

E: !!!!

R: Did I....say something alarming?

E:.........

R:..........

E:.......*slaps him*

*clattering*

R:...-O-Ow! What--

E: What is it with your prisoners deciding your own faith? 'Oh please don't forgive me!' 'Oh, I pity a poor naive kid like you' 'Oh, don't forgive me--' Shut up!

R: Huh? But I--

E: Fuck off! Seriously, I am the warden and you are a worthless murderer. You're nothing more than a test subject who's memories will get extracted. I simply observe those memories and decide. ME! Not someone as useless as you and the others

R: I wasn't deciding my verdict

E: Liar.....what's with the 'You kill me, a murderer' statement. God, I swear, I can't catch a break with these type of people

R: Type of....people?

E: You and every last prisoner here!

R: Warden-san....are you alright?

E: Only when I'm not dealing with the trash that comes out of your mouths

R: You seem to have great disdain for us....

E: Pitying yourselves now?

R: No....I mean, we are murderers, yes....but do you even feel resent for the younger lot here? Minors like Asuka, Akari, and even Hikari?

E: They may be children, but they are all murders. And the latter two are almost eighteen, so don't give me that 'they're minors' excuses. I'm fifteen, and I recognize that I am an adult in two countries

R: Still.....it's not right

E: It's not right to murder either and yet here you are deciding your own faith, as if you're the one calling shots here

R: No, I just want to look out for these people. Call me pathetic, but whenever I see someone like Akari, Asuka, or even Kasumi....I just think of my daughter. So....I can't help but look after them

E: They're murderers. Strangers to you even. Why waste your time with them?

R: Because I'm a parent myself. It is true, I don't think I deserve forgiveness, but I also want them to see their lives all the way through

E: I suppose that answers part of my next question. If you are close to anyone here

R: Honestly, despite wanting those kids to have fun while they can, I wouldn't really consider myself close to anyone here. I feel out of place

E: Because of your age?

R: Well yes. The only thing worse than not fitting in is trying to fit in

E: That probably has to do with your giving introductions to people as if they'll find it cool

R: Hey, I already explained it's just to make people laugh. While I'm aware they're laughing more *at* me, it's nice to have that sort of attention

E: You have good intentions, just make people smile. Regardless of the reason why

R: I suppose so. It's also why I try hard when it comes to those kids. Don't get me wrong, it's not just them. People like Masako, Mai, and Kousei are also pleasent to be around

E: What about the more introverted ones?

R: Hikari is a bit closed off, but I feel like he'll warm up soon. So will Haruto. I....let Daisuke do his own thing, but in case he ends up being a danger to others, I'll step in

E: I see.....

R: For now, I'll just take care of the younger prisoners

E: *heavy breathing* Wow.....

R: Huh?

E: You really are stupid, you know that?

R: I....I am?

E: You don't understand the gravity of the situation, do you? You think you can play father figure to these kids when you're in jail? What a waste of space....

R: It's called simply keeping these people sane and moral high. That's it

E: Even so, that's a stupid way to go about it. Treating these prisoners as if they're your kids, but now even the guard themself?! Ugh, am I your kid or your prisoner warden?!

R: Did I make you feel inferior, warden-san? That wasn't my intention--

E: *laughs* Oh no, you did nothing wrong Mr. Dad. Ughhh.....you people are just weird.....

R: I.......I apologize....

E: Hm?

R: I should know my place better. I just wanted to cheer everyone up, but I suppose you are right....

E: Well, it's refreshing to a respectful and docile attitude from a prisoner for once

R: After all....I worried too much....that's how they died....

E: !!!!

(Bells chime, machinery whirl)

E: Already? I didn't get to ask all of the questions.....

R: Oh? Should we continue?

E: No, no.....I'll take a peek into your memories now. It's the best time to use the machine

R: Oh, for the song extraction process, that is?

E: Yeah, that. But Raiden?

R: Yes?

E: You don't decide your death. When you became a prisoner you lost your right to have free will. You are now under Vilgram's roof, so you follow Vilgram's rules

R: Seems like a violate of human rights. I may not speak out against it, presumably because I am a criminal now, but even most prisons wouldn't be this cruel, no?

E: Regular prisons also don't give spoiled teenage boys a nintendo switch or a flirty flight attendant a black forest cake

R: Right.....

E: Speaking of, I noticed you were one of the few prisoners that didn't request anything. It could be due to your low opinion of yourself, no?

R: That and....well....I already have everything I need in my cell

E: Oh really?

R: The weights....they're good for working out. I never really go to the gym anymore, but it's good to stay in shape, so...thanks for those......I suppose

E: Oh, those weren't a recent request that Vilgram fulfilled. It was left behind from the last prisoner that occupied that cell

R: I see....

E: Prisoner number 10, Raiden Arisawa, sing your sins!

[here-inmy-mind]

june 7, 2024;

The opposite of love is indifference

The night did not go nearly like I imagined it would. originally I had planned to go to dinner by myself after a really weird day and night of minimal contact with C. I just wanted some down time to read and eat and not lay around and think about how badly I messed things up.

but i missed him, and I was afraid of another night by myself.

I ended up asking him to come, which, I'm not sure I would categorize as a mistake or not. We talked and dealt with some issues, but I also had a panic attack in public. At my favorite restauraunt.

How about I get into it instead of just rambling? because I've been putting off even thinking about the night, it was so cringey in every way, and I'm incredibly confused about like 90% of it..

Dinner started off great, even though for some stupid reason after all this time I'm still nervous every time I see him. After the conversation we had the day before about most of the issues that we had lately I felt a lot better, but apparently being content isn't something that I can just accept, because part of that night was still bothering me.

On our way to grab dinner we ended up talking about my last name, and C mentions that I must be glad to soon be rid of my married name. I explained that I was keeping it. I don't think it's something that he could understand even if I tried to explain it. I just need that link t my kids. Even though J isn't part of my family anymore, I've thought so much about it and as much as I would like to get rid of anything that has any kind of link to him, this is also the only thing that links me to my kids on paper. I could be petty and cut that tie to take myself even further away from him, but it feels like taking myself a little further from my kids too. Like saying "this name I gave you is garbage to me now, I'm out, but you're stuck with it." It feels like one single part where he would be closer to them than I am. I've been there for them every single day of their lives while he waltzed in and out when he felt like it, I was there for all of their moments, always, and it feels like giving up that name gives him something that he doesn't deserve. Its absolute insanity to me that I would have to ask his permission to add my last name to theirs. But this is the way it works.

In my head, this wasn't the issue. I brought it up because when he laughed and said that was dumb on that night, I made a joke about how if he didn't like it he could change my last name. His response was to laugh at me and say "I hope you don't think I'm going to propose to you".

Like..don't get me wrong, I can take a joke. It takes a lot to offend me. But..ouch..? Right in the pride, which I don't have a whole lot left of.

I probably could have let it roll right off.. but he's reacted like this before when I bring up anything future related. usually joking, because if anyone isn't ready t jump into anything, it's me. His reaction is always the same, like it's hysterical to even consider any kind of future with me.

Except that I've already had someone decide that a future with me wasn't worth anything. So when he laughs about it it makes me feel small and completely worthless. It's sometimes hard enough to believe that he doesn't think I'm weird and someone that he doesn't want to be around. I still find it hard to believe that he actually loves me, and my brain tells me daily that it's ridiculous to believe him. "He doesn't tell you that much, it must be bullshit." "He doesn't want you to meet his family, obviously he's embarrassed of you" "He doesn't want to see you, he just feels bad for you"

The problem that I had with how the conversation went wasn't what started it all though. It was his response to me bringing up wanting to keep my name.

"Yeah, that's really fucking weird to me"

Immediately backs off, arms crossed, won't look at me, I can see his jaw flexing.

Panic.

Because those are the things people do before they swing.

I tried to save things, i think.. I explained why it's important.

"You have your reasons, so whatever."

Panic x2

My brain is in overdrive because.. why? Why does that upset him? Why doesn't he want me to be close to my kids? I've worried so much about him and the kids, and worried that it was to early for him to meet them, worried that they're attached and will hurt even more than I will if it ends, worried that he doesn't like them, that they're too much. Why does he want me to break this little connection I have with them if its so important to me? I don't understand why he looks like he thinks I'm garbage.

He swears its not jealousy so I assume this is the explanation. He looks so angry that I can feel it. The waitress can feel it, the people around us are looking. I've stopped breathing and I don't know what I did wrong, but I do know that he's probably right about me being trash.

I cover my face to hide the fact that I'm gasping for air and can't get a breath, every muscle in my body is tense, my eyes are tearing and I'm watching his hands because they're in fists, but I don't think he would get that, I don't think he knew. I hope he didn't.

We kept talking and he thinks it is jealousy. He brings up the wedding photo on my laptop. He thinks that I'm waiting for my marriage to fix itself so I can go back to him.

His dad walks in and sits down with us before I can explain that I'd be dead if I was still in that marriage, but not before I can open my mouth and make things infinitely worse. Not before he tells me that what I said about it being ok that he's jealous makes him feel like shit. Not before he can say that he screwed things up and I can wonder what in the fuck he thinks he did wrong, I'm the one saying things that are hurting him when I'm just trying to make things better.

His dad sits down and the conversation is done. And it feels like I'm 17 again and everything I say gets turned around into something that ends the whole thing, before I learned that you can have a conversation about an issue and it can be ok, no one is going to walk out, no one is going to tell you the problem is with you and that you're not worth changing anything for. I'm 17 again and feel like I'm heading home to get pushed against a wall and screamed at. I'm 17 and it feels like when we get in that car his fist is going to his my head rest and it's going to be my fault. We walk out and I managed to be nice to his dad. I wish I could see his family on a night that isn't terrible. I wish it wasn't always a fluke that his dad turns up when we're together. I wish he wanted me to meet them. I wish I knew for sure that he doesn't get angry enough to hit. I do know that if I go home to my house i'll be safe from that, but not from me. I can do way more damage on my own.

He doesn't though, and we go back to his house and its ok. We lie on the couch and watch tv. I try to get his clothes off and he doesn't react, I don't know why, I assumed it's me. I tell him I thought about it and he's right, it's really weird for me to keep my last name to be the same as the kids.

I go to bed with him and I'm just a little bit less than I was before.

[fodenswhore]

cobra kai s5 rant

- thoroughly enjoyed this season, i thought it was funny, not as cringey as previous seasons and the fight scenes were so so good. however, there were a few things that really annoyed me or made me question why i have a netflix account. here they are:

pregnancy storyline - when i tell you this plot annoyed the fuck outta me, i mean it. as soon as carmen said ‘i’m late johnny’ i was like oh for fuck sake and i had to pause the tv and resist the urge to smack my head off a wall. it’s such an unnecessary storyline and it aggravated me every time it was mentioned throughout the rest of the season. like, come on writers, could you be any more predictable? and don’t get me wrong, i think babies are cute n stuff, but throwing a baby into a book or a show just ruins it for me. also, johnny runs from all of his problems so who’s to say he won’t do the same when things get challenging with his new baby?

robby - i love love love robby, but the way he gets treated is not it. whilst johnny is funny i’ve come to the realisation that he is a really shitty person. he only acknowledges his own feelings and doesn’t care about anyone else’s - especially robby’s. and robby’s reaction to the pregnancy threw me off guard. he was happy??? he deserves to be angry about it, hell i would be. his dad literally neglected him his whole life and is now having a baby with miguel’s mum? i’d be more than pissed. robby needs a hug and i volunteer to give him one, he deserves the world <3

carmen and johnny - carmen really pissed me off this season idk why, she just did. like babe, how are you gonna have a child with a man who still acts like one😭😭😭 and johnny annoyed me too, he literally prioritised everything over robby. and then when he forced robby and miguel to fight out their issues as if those issues didn’t literally stem from him being a better father figure to miguel than he was an actual father to robby (i am glad they’re all good now tho).

silver - even just his face annoys me, had to hold myself back from punching the tv every time he had a scene. he’s a good villain though.

kenny and kyler - oh my god. i physically recoil anytime kyler has a scene, he’s so cringe it’s actually painful to watch. kenny also annoyed me as well, like bro i think you’ve messed with anthony enough, leave him alone now. and then when he tried intimidating robby and miguel, like honey know your place x

sam - now sam annoys me every season, i reallyyy want to like her but i just can’t. this season however, she did annoy me significantly less than usual. although she did make miguel’s circumstances in mexico about her which was very irritating and then had the audacity to get mad at miguel when he kissed another girl after she’d broken up with him???

okay, rant over. i’m sure there’s more that annoyed me but i can’t remember at the moment. so apart from the pregnancy storyline that it is so stupid, pointless, basic, predictable, annoying, ew and the characters mentioned above (except robby i love him, just the way he was treated annoyed me), the season was really good.

to clarify, i am not hating on the actors at all, i think they all do a brilliant job, this is just my opinion on the characters and storylines which are both entirely fictional :)

times the word annoyed/annoys was used in this rant = 9

- season 6 part 1

[ameliora-j]

twin flame iii // gw x reader

words: 2.2k

warnings: angst, breakup, mention of bruising, crying, angelina slander kinda (it’s just for the story i love her sm!), yn is sorta a pick me if you squint sry, cringey mediocre writing at very best

an: i used song lyrics for some of the argument and the ending :) i hope you like it besties!

part one | part two | part four

you george! i want you!

the words had been running through his mind since the night you left. he had been going over the days leading up to your explosion in his mind for weeks. your words were in his mind day and night. your pained expression, your anger, your hurt. you consumed him. more than you usually did.

george weasley knew he fucked up. he knew without anyone telling him. but they did anyway. every waking second they did. first it was fred, calling him a jerk. then ron, who called him a “bloody idiot.” then ginny, who told him it was his own fault. and then his mum. of course his mum, who said in exact words: “george fabian weasley, this is nobody’s fault but your own. quit moping around and do something to fix it! i didn’t raise you to treat women this way!”

his last straw, however, was his older brother percy. percy of all people. who looked at him with a disappointed shake of his head. receiving a disappointed head shake from percy was nothing out of the ordinary, especially for george. it was his words that stung. percy spoke ten simple words to him that truly set george off. percy spoke “you lost the best thing that’s ever happened to you.” at his sentence, george lost it.

“i know that percy! you don’t think i fucking know that i lost the best thing that ever happened to me! and fred i know i’m a jerk and ron i know i’m an idiot and ginny i know it’s my fault and mum i’m sorry okay! i know you didn’t raise me like this i don’t know what’s wrong with me but i don’t think she’s coming back!” he fell back onto the couch as he tugged frustratedly at his roots.

“george… do you love her?” molly asked him.

“yes mum,” a whimper escaped the fiery-haired boy’s throat. “i love her more than i’ve ever loved anyone before. she’s my world,” he revealed.

“then go, george. go get her,” his dad said. “for your sake and her’s,” he told him.

“and our’s!” fred called distantly from the kitchen.

“shove off fred!” george called back before apparating to your front door. he knocked three times and waited for someone to answer it. when you opened the door, he was shocked at your state.

makeup streaked down your cheeks with your shoulder bruised and your arm in a splint. your eyes were red and puffy, but they were furthermore accompanied by dark bags as if you hadn’t slept in weeks. the truth is; you hadn’t. “hi george,” you mumbled half heartedly.

“hi butterfl-“ you cut him off.

“yn. my name is yn,” you spoke sternly.

“i’ve called you butterfly since you were three…” he murmured.

“not anymore. hurts too bad to hear it. did you need something?” you quickly changed the subject.

“i want to talk to you,” he said. you nodded and walked in, telling him to follow you. george said hello to your brother and then followed you into the lounge where you two sat on the loveseat and you turned to face him.

you sat in a long silence as your eyes traced each other’s features. you memorized him. every line, every freckle, every bump, bruise, and blemish. the silence was deafening. untill he finally broke it. “what happened to your arm?” he murmured softly.

“it splinched when i apparated home. then i apparated again and made it worse,” you bit your lip softly.

“always so reckless,” he tutted softly, causing you to shrug.

“what’d you wanna talk about? know you didn’t come to talk about my arm…” you attempted to get to the point of his visit.

“right,” he murmured softly. “yn i…” he took a deep breath. “the day that i let you walk out of my life is the day that i made the worst mistake in the history of mistakes. i’ve done some stupid things in my life, but letting you walk away has by far been the stupidest. i’m so so sorry that i hurt you the way i did, i cannot express to you how sorry i am, i truly cannot. i love you, yn. with all of me i do, you have to believe me when i say that.”

“i do believe you george. i just don’t believe that you love me the way that i love you. and carrying around that pain is killing me. i mean absolutely destroying me. you live in my mind rent free. you’ve infested it,” you told him. “you with your stupid pretty smile and your god awful jokes and your ridiculous pranks that you somehow always rope me into and your perfect hair and your pretty eyes and just. you. george. stupid you. oblivious you. godric george,” you roughly shoved his chest. “i’ve loved you for years and you’ve always looked past me!” tears rimmed your bottom lash line and your voice cracked as you lashed out on him.

“for years george, i mean years! i’ve watched you fall in love with countless girls just to have your heart broken by them. i stuck by you through everything. even when you stopped being being my friend because it made angelina uncomfortable i waited for you george! and you just pushed me to the side. i did everything for you. i executed pranks for you. i planned pranks for you. i took the fall for you. i got detention for you! i did it all for you. i mean the countless amount of things i did just to be able to call you mine and i just… you didn’t care! you’ve never cared! you’ll never love me the way that i love you and that hurts. so. fucking. bad.” you wiped your eyes.

“it kills me george. it eats at me, every single day it does. i stood by your side and i took the blame with you even when i had nothing to do with the stupid shit you pulled at hogwarts because yeah i was going down, but hey, at least i was doing it with you, right? we made so much trouble and-and we used to laugh. and be happy. we were genuinely happy and i don’t know where we went wrong but we did, but i still say that i hate you with a smile on my face! i don’t get it george why don’t you love me!” a whimper tore itself from the depths of your chest as you let out a silent sob.

“now look what we’ve became…” he murmured, tears falling from your eyes.

“all the things i did just to call you mine… and… and all the things you said but… somehow, i still hope i was your favorite crime. cause merlin knows you were mine.” you sniffled as you wiped your eyes.

“you were mine. you’ll always be my favorite crime.” he leaned over and kissed your head as another silent sob racked your body. “now it’s bittersweet to think about the damage that we did,” he smiled over at you sadly. “i love you butterfly. just as much as you love me, if not more,” he whispered as he stood from his place.

you rolled your eyes water-logged eyes, but still managed to smile. “i wish you thought about that before,” you whispered.

“i do too… i guess i’ll have to just call you the one that got away then?” he asked.

“in another life georgie… i’d be your girl. and we’d keep every promise that we made,” you told him.

“and i wouldn’t have to say you were the one that got away,” you nodded as he kissed your head again. “i love you, butterfly. i always have.”

“i love you too, georgie. i always will,” you sniffled as you watched him walk out the door. you didn’t want this. you wanted to stop him. everything in your body screamed at you to stop him. but your brain wouldn’t work. your heart said no. you were scared of being hurt again.

you wanted to do something. yell at him. tell him to come back. to hug you. to never leave you. to never let you go. but your heart wouldn’t let you. you were frozen in time.

~~

it’ll all get better in time.

you’d heard the saying time and time again. especially after your parents passed away. it was people’s favorite line to use when they saw you. the truth is… you didn’t stop hurting. the pain didn’t go away. you just got used to it. but the pain you were feeling now… you didn’t know if it would ever go away. at least it didn’t feel like it.

two months. it had been two months since george walked out of your house that night. it was nobody’s fault but your own, and somehow you couldn’t help wishing he would’ve stayed.

you saw him everywhere. in the stars in the night sky. in the sunrise and the sunset. in coffee shops and store windows. even in your dreams when you slept. so logically, you decided to stop. if you didn’t sleep you couldn’t dream. and if you didn’t dream, you couldn’t see him.

you dutifully ignored the pain in your chest like an annoying bug on a picnic. you pretended that you were fine, but the reality was; you weren’t. but you played it off. and you were able to keep up your facade. untill one day… that one fateful day tucked in the corner at ninety three diagon alley. your brother asked you to pick up ten second pimple vanisher because he had a date tonight and just received a pimple the size of jupiter on his nose, causing him to look like “the muggle myth rudolph the red-nosed reindeer” as he put it.

you walked into the shop and kept your head down as you searched the aisles. it wasn’t where it usually was. you knew this shop like the back of your hand, of course you had… you’d worked there for nearly three years. you furrowed your brows as you looked around. the shop had completely transformed. nothing was in the place it usually was. that’s when your eyes landed there. on her. right at the front, behind the till at the register you worked, in the uniform you wore was angelina johnson.

you sighed deeply as you extended your neck around the corner to where the office was. you smiled triumphantly as you saw fred sitting at his desk and began your trek. you gently knocked twice on the opened door and fred called, “come in,” distractedly.

you walked in and sat on the desk, right in front of him, forcing him to look up at you. “yn!” fred exclaimed.

“hi freddie!” you smiled as a giggle escaped your lips and you returned the death-grip hug he had enveloped you in.

“what brings you by? not that i don’t love seeing your pretty face, of course,” he shot you a playfully flirtatious wink.

“ybn needs ten second pimple vanisher because he has a date tonight and he woke up with a pimple the size of jupiter on his nose,” fred laughed loudly at your remark. “i tried to look for it, but the stores completely turned around,” you pouted slightly.

“oh yeah, we changed some things up because we needed room for our new products. they’re still in the making, but george disappeared,” he hummed.

“george what?” you asked.

“you didn’t know…?” he asked you.

“no. i… i had no idea,” you stuttered.

“yeah. after the night he went to talk to you, he left a note on our kitchen counter and all his things were packed and he just… left. we haven’t seen or heard from him since. ‘s just been angie and i running the shop now. couldn’t do it alone,” fred explained as he picked up the box. “here you are l-“ before he could finish, you were halfway out the door. “YN WAIT!” he called. “YOU FORGOT YOUR PRODUCT!”

“SORRY FRED! YBN WILL BE OKAY I HAVE TO GO!” you called as you ran out the door as fast as your feet would carry you. if you knew george weasley… and you did… there was only one place he could be. and you prayed to any and every god that would listen that he was there. you prayed like your life depended on it that he was okay. you needed to fix this. to fix him. to make it alright.

in this moment you knew that he needed you. he needed you like peanut butter needs jelly. the way left needs right. like the sun needs the moon. he needed you like you needed him. you ran and ran and ran for miles untill you got to a secluded area. then you took a breath. and you apparated.

it was exactly the way you left it. a dingy old wooden box house sitting at the highest branch of a sycamore tree. you groaned softly as you began to climb the many branches. “george i swear to godric you better be in here,” you grumbled to yourself as you climbed.

it felt like hours—truly it was ten grueling minutes at most—untill you got to the door of the house. you whispered the password and it creaked open. “georgie,” you breathed when you saw him.

there he was. laying on the floor of the treehouse wrapped in blankets and a sleeping bag with a small pillow under his head. the apple to your pie. the straw to your berry. the smoke to your high. the one you knew you’d marry.

the one that got away. your twin flame.

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[boydiisaster]

hi !! I really liked what you wrote w/ trans mc coming out :DD (im trans myself and reading it made me cry happy tears at 1 am) could I request more trans mc- but after they've come out? Like during their transition or something? Thanks a bunch!! <3

trans MC my beloved

reader: transmasc, male, he/him

tw/cw: dysphoria mention

author's note: yay!!! i'm so glad you liked it- i'm trans, too! i hope you like this, as well- i'm not sure if you wanted a ftm MC or just a trans MC in general, so if you'd like me to rewrite this i'd be more than happy to! i love writing trans MC content, it literally makes my day <3

lucifer

So romantic with you when you first told him you wanted to transition. Offered to pay all your bills, and unlike Mammon, he can actually afford to.

"What, are you like my sugar daddy now or something?" you joked, poking him in the chest.

"If that's what my boyfriend wants me to be," he replied with a smirk.

(I'd burst into tears if Lucifer ever called me his boyfriend. Gender dysphoria: poof, gone.)

Makes an effort to always call you by your name, even if he doesn't have to.

"Can you go grab MC for me? I need MC right now so we can discuss his current grades."

If you take shots of testosterone, Lucifer will gladly inject them if need be. But if you want to do it by yourself, he's fine with that, too. Just allow him to stand by, in case something goes wrong. He really cares for you, and doesn't want you getting hurt.

mammon

When he first heard you wanted to transition, he was ecstatic. His love language is gift giving, and he wants to buy you everything that you need for your transition.

He was also the first person you told about this, and it really boosted his ego.

"Of course you'd trust the Great Mammon with this! I'm so trust worthy, it's obvious why you chose me-"

"Shut up and kiss me, oh 'Great Mammon.'"

Mammon tries daily to give you masculine compliments. Like, he tries so hard it hurts. You could be putting up groceries or something and he pops up out of seemingly no where to tell you that "You put up those groceries so masculine-like, MC."

He doesn't really understand, but he's got the spirit.

He'd pay for your transition if you'd let him. How, exactly? He doesn't really know, but he'd find a way for you <3

He's definitely like a supportive mother who doesn't really know what to do, but wants to do something to show that she supports you when you come out. You catch him sneaking mini pride flags or those cringey Amazon pride shirts into your room at 3 in the morning.

You wear them, just to make him happy, and his brothers most definitely tease you for it.

leviathan

Another one who doesn't really know what to do. He's had friends online that were trans, sure, but what if he messes something up with you?

(You're not gonna mess anything up, don't worry, Levi)

I want to say that he'd unironically buy you that Miku binder, but Levi has been online for so long that he knows that he probably shouldn't.

... He'd still ask to, though, just for the meme, followed by a swift punch to the arm by his ever-so-loving boyfriend.

"OW!"

"You're such a nerd.... I love you."

Not very off-brand for him, but Levi definitely recommends you anime and manga that have good trans representation.

satan

Satan is trans too, idc what you say. Am I just projecting onto my favorite fictional characters? Probably so, but it's fine.

Remember when I said Mammon buys you cringey trans pride stuff? Yeah, he did that with Satan, too. Satan still has all of the cheesy posters and tee shirts stuffed in the back of his closet, away from where anyone can see.

... When he's alone though, he definitely lounges around in the shirts and laughs to himself.

"We can form an alliance, MC. 'Trans Guys Suffering From Mammon's Stupid Gifts.'"

Much like Levi, Satan recommends you books with good trans rep. He also bakes you cake or anything else you want if you're feeling especially down.

(I headcanon that Satan loves baking okay, shut up-)

If you ever want to go to Pride with him, he'll be a little antsy at first, but buy him a couple of trans pride cat pins and he'll love it.

asmodeus

Two words: shopping spree

Takes you to all the hottest clothing shops to buy you clothes that make your dysphoria better

If you don't experience much dysphoria? Still takes you out shopping, anyways.

Hey! Shopping is fun, okay? >:(

Calls you lots of masculine compliments that give you gender euphoria. "Sir" and "Mister MC" are his favorites, just cus of the way you roll your eyes and giggle at him when he does.

Asmo loves it when his boyfriend smiles, it's the cutest sight in all of three worlds. Minus him, of course.

beelzebub

He's also trans, fuck you.

He's apart of you and Satan's alliance.

More subtle than his brothers: he doesn't do anything extravagant when you tell him you'd like to transition, just nods his head and pulls you in for a bone-crushing hug.

"I have work out routines we can try to build up muscle, if you want?"

"That sounds great, Beel, but please let go, I can't breathe-"

Another one I think would buy you trans stuff he finds online, except way less cringey, like pride pins or flags.

He also buys the two of you pride themed food to eat together <3

belphegor

You were so nervous when you told him, like, to the point you were stumbling over words. When you finally got it out that you'd like to transition, Belphie just blinked at you.

"That's all? Well, okay. What pronouns do you want me to use for you from now on?"

Catches onto everything very easily. He'll sometimes nuzzle his face into the crook of your neck and just mutter masculine praises so quietly you hardly hear him, but you catch a "handsome boy" and "darling boyfriend" here and there.

He'll still call you a dumb fucking loser though, but lovingly, I swear-

[phantomphangphucker]

Phic Phight - PhantomsPhine’s Writing Is Less Than Phine

For: @sailor-toni @everystarstorm

Paulina is a wee bit obsessed in all honesty, and while she might not be exactly good at it, she’s fine taking out said obsession on the written word while making others have to witness it

Jazz had been sorting what of her final papers for the year that she hadn’t already handed in, when she caught one of the younger students sort of… glancing at her nervously, shifting on her feet even.

The girl was outright beautiful, with long black hair, near-perfect skin, and expensive perfectly colour coordinated clothing; meaning she could only really be Paulina. Didn’t Danny have a crush on her for a short while? Like most of the silly boys at this school? Yeah she’s fairly certain he did; at least he was definitely over it. From what Jazz knew the girl was less than Danny’s type and was very much shallow; at least according to all of Sam’s ranting. She was a pretty face and that was apparently it; Jazz didn’t believe that of course. What she does think is that maybe the girl wanted people to think that; some people put everything on their looks and don’t want to be seen as anything more.

Turning to the girl and quirking an eyebrow, “what’s bothering you? Do you need any university advice or help with one of the teachers?”, Jazz was well aware that she had very little in the friend department, outside of Lillian all anyone really wanted with her was her brains. Just like all anyone wanted with Paulina was her looks; though Jazz’s pretty sure Star and Kwan are genuine friends to her, which is good. Everyone needs genuine friends, even if she didn’t use to believe as such.

Paulina shifts a little more and twirls her hair daintily. The younger girl had perfected the cute act, Jazz will give her that. Paulina walking over and making something of a show of ‘mustering up her courage’, not that Jazz can’t sense how fake the act was. “You brainy types write a lot right?”.

Jazz nods, wondering where this is going. Test writing? Essays! Job or University applications perhaps? How to professionally sign off on emails? What she didn’t expect was for the younger to hold out her phone, decorated in a custom-made 3d pink candy case, with Ao3 on screen.

“What am I doing wrong?”.

Jazz taking the device and eyeing the user name, PhantomsPhine, oh! Was she writing fanfiction! Well that was certainly a wonderful pastime and hobby, self-fulfilling and the act of writing it and reading it would improve anyone's reading comprehension and writing skills; vocabulary too! Scrolling a bit with a hum, making a point to not outwardly wince, she was… not exactly gifted with the written word. The spelling was fine, spell check likely being involved, grammar was… okay, but the word choice and paragraph structures were not great. It was hard to tell who was speaking and when, their tone even harder. There was a lot of ‘wall of text’ going on, which for an essay is fine, for online absolutely not. The ‘“we should probably get up”. “Yup”. “So”. “Fine”.’ line is particularly confusing. There was also a lot of ‘.”,’ and ‘.”.’ which was simply strange looking. The general word choice was, as Danny would say, rather cringey.

But she nearly chokes, smiling slightly, when she finally scrolls past an actual character name: Danny Phantom. This was self-insert romance! Oh Danny would be so embarrassed. But well, self-insert lent itself to being inherently groan-worthy. But she could still offer the girl some help… and then bother Danny about this later. Sitting down at a desk and gesturing with a smile for the younger girl to do the same.

Paulina glances around quickly first, likely making sure she wasn’t going to ‘been seen with the financially worse off’. Paulina plucks back her phone, practically showing off her manicured baby blue nails, and scrolls on her screen quickly before pushing it back at Jazz, “look at this! They’re so mean! To me!”. And Jazz sees why, exactly, Paulina had come to her: a negative review. A really scathing one actually.

‘Get off of here, no one needs to see more horrifically written dribble from some crushing loser who thinks they should get the privilege of writing just because they can type on a keyboard. Do you even know what grammar is? A dictionary? Are you five? If you somehow actually are five then whatever, your parents should take your phone away before you embarrass yourself further. And this dialogue? What cringey hallmark movie teen even talks like that. Do you think not using character names is ‘quirky’, god give me Twilight over this!’.

Jazz frowns, now this was simply mean. Unnecessarily mean. Shaking her head, “people like that give shame to all readers and writers. Unbelievable”, looking to the younger teen, “ignore them”.

Paulina pouts a little, lip wobbling in intentional cuteness, “but… it’s not very good”.

Jazz shakes her head, “No one is good when they start something new. Especially teenagers. If this was publishing quality then I’d tell you that you were truly gifted”, smiling, “sure there is much to be said for natural talent, which I will admit you don’t have”. Paulina twirls her hair a little at that. “But practice wins over natural gifts, particularly when it comes to the arts. Creative writing, drawing, photography, dancing; they’re practice based more than anything else”, shifting and leaning towards the girl some so she can see the screen where Jazz is pointing, “the technical mistakes are simply an awareness thing. Like these periods inside dialogue followed up with periods and commas outside of the dialogue is just a grammar error”.

Paulina shrugs, “I think it looks prettier having the, um, punctuation outside of the dialogue quotes on both sides and not just one”.

“Then get rid of the more grammatically correct punctuation inside the speech”, drawing ‘“…and”, character smiles, “hi…”’ on a bit of paper, “do this instead. Grammar barely matters with free online for fun writing like this. If people don’t like it, ignore them. Write for you first”.

Paulina smiles and hums to herself, “that does look better… prettier”.

Jazz nods to herself, pointing on the screen to a bit when she had written… Phantom elongating his tongue -which was not something she had ever needed nor wanted to read- swallowing a little to seem less weirded out, “and maybe learn more about ghosts, I can tell you that Phantom can’t actually do that; at least not like that at the least. Simply making things more accurate will make it better and it will help you keep things consistent”.

“Oh! Well I guess you would know that”.

Jazz ignores the slight jab. Nodding instead, “and drop using ‘said’ so much, you’re better off not using that word at all than constantly. The dialogue markers already tell the reader that a character is saying something, you don’t need a word to tell them that. Us things that give tone instead. Have them smile or laugh or smirk or giggle. Definitely don’t do more of this ‘she giggled, said, “oh you fox.!”.’. When someone writes a character giggling before saying something it means they are speaking with a giggle, so the ‘said’ is entirely redundant”. Paulina nods along eagerly, well at least she was listening.

…

The two girls manage to talk for a full half an hour actually. Jazz can tell the other girl isn’t exactly used to genuinely paying attention for long periods of time. On learning. Paulina smiling almost pinched, before grabbing her phone rather rudely and standing up, “well thank you bunches, but I should probably go. Star’s probably wondering where her Paulie is!”, skipping to the door before looking back, “you tell no one”.

Making Jazz laugh lightly, “I’m not the gossiping type”.

“Oh I know”.

-

Jazz sitting for a bit after the girl left before snickering and laughing into her hand. Poor Danny! That girl had it hard for him. Half of him specifically. She is absolutely telling him. And Lillian. She might not be a gossip but that doesn’t mean she keeps everything entirely to herself. Especially when it was a sister's duty to pester their little brother.

-

It takes her all of five minutes to find Lillian, grinning at her friend who quirks a ginger eyebrow at her. “Well you seem chipper?”.

Jazz nods, “oh yes. One of the underclassmen wanted some help with creative writing, and actually listened to my advice!”, and beams. It was really satisfying in all honesty.

Lillian bumps shoulders with her, “good on them, girl. It’s great when others actually want to learn from you”. Jazz nodding readily, well aware that Lillian wanted to be a teacher someday.

Jazz leaning over to whisper a little, “and all they write is self-insert Phantom fan-fiction”. Lillian actually blushes furiously at that and makes a scandalised look before shaking her head, “that poor whoever. Was it at least creative?”.

“A little too creative”, and winces. Lillian wincing in return, “oh gee, sorry for your brain then”. Making Jazz laugh lightly, “honestly? I think I’d actually love watching my parents read it, just to hear them jump between ranting about inaccuracies about ghosts to the simple fact that it’s romance about a ghost”. Lillian laughs with her readily, easily agreeing that would be something to behold. Either way, the two head off to their university prep class.

---

Jazz corners Danny in his room, crossing her arms and leaning against the doorframe, “so, you know how a vast majority of Casperhigh have crushes on you. On Phantom you”.

Danny groans actively, putting on a show of looking to the ceiling and slouching dramatically, “oh Ancients do I ever”, turning to her, “why?”, sounding more than a little suspicious.

Jazz smirks at him, “oh no reason, someone just wanted a little help writing some very interesting self-insert Phantom fan fiction”.

“Oh end me”, glaring at her, “why would you actually help them do that?!?”.

She rolls her eyes, “believe me, it was hard to read. But I am not about to discourage someone’s interest in creative writing just because my little brother’s famous enough to be the subject matter”.

He throws a pillow at her.

-

Regardless, when Jazz checks to see what new fic PhantomsPhine had posted, maybe due to a desire to simply check in on someone she advised, she’s happy to see there’s already a little improvement. It’s less visually painful… but reading about someone literally snuggling her baby brother's ghostly self was still mentally painful. But at least the writing itself has improved. Small wins.

Having also overheard Danny crying out, “Paulina why?!?”, one night. Also brought a smile to her face, she knew he wouldn’t be able to help himself but look. He pestered her constantly, she was going to get him back here and there.

End.

Prompts: Paulina begins to write self insert x Phantom fanfiction. But she is not a natural writer and after someone leaves a bad review she goes to Jazz for writing advice. and Jazz has friends

[its-not-a-phase-mom-i-d8-demons]

The Brother’s Reaction to MC having a Nightmare

bAby

this gif... holy SHIT 

Lucifer

Whether you started the evening snuggled up under his chin or all alone in your room, he’s an extremely light sleeper since he’s got to keep an ear out for Mammon being stupid at 2 am

So when you start to move restlessly and/or whimper and cry, naturally he’ll awaken and see what the issue is

Lucifer will sit up and gently rest a tentative hand on your trembling shoulder, so as not to startle you

His presence only seemed to make it worse! Your tears got bigger and your cries got louder, your breathing became more uneven until you woke with a start, your own shrill scream scaring you into a frightened, crying ball in front of him

Boi is at a loss…

Was this his fault?

“MC, darling, what has gotten into you? Are you alright?”

“L-Lucifer?” You whimper, watery eyes roving aimlessly in the darkness “L-L-Lucifer?! Where are-”

Wrapping his arms around you and pulling you close, he reassures you: “I’m here, right here princess,” “I’ve got you, it was just a dream MC... nothing to worry about.”

Strokes your head, smoothing your rumpled hair and supporting your back while you hide your puffy, tearstained face in his collar and cling to him for dear life until you calm down

You’re still shaking when the usually stiff demon presses a kiss to the crown of your head and begins to rock from side to side, murmuring gentle, reassuring words in your ear

“Nothing can hurt you as long as you’re in my arms, MC.” “Deep breaths my love, deep breaths…”

Mammon’s vivid scary stories before bed had obviously been a bad decision, Lucifer decided as he dabbed your cheeks with a kleenex

his poor, sweet human having nightmares about silly campfire tales…

How endearing, yet upsetting

He’ll carry you to the kitchen bridal style and hold you close after getting you a glass of water, then carry you back to bed and tuck you safely against his broad chest for the rest of the night making a mental note to hang Mammon upside down from the banister the following morning

Mammon

He woke up from his dream about goldie who had read “∞” on the ATM and opened his door in answer to the frantic knock to find his favorite human crying

You rushed into his arms, burying your face in his chest to hide your shuddering sobs, nearly sending the now blushing Avatar of Greed off balance in your haste

“Jeez, human! Wha… What happened? Why’re ya crying like that?”

No, like seriously, plz stop crying babie or he’s gonna cry too

Returns the hug, holding MC firmly as he regains his footing and manages to shut the door behind you

“MC, sssh, I’m right here! You don’t hafta worry, ok? Luckily you’ve got the best demon on the job to make ya feel better! Hug me as hard as ya need, ok?”

*forehead and cheek smooches*

Lets you curl up in his lap until you can talk to him without stuttering or choking on tears

Holds you the whole time, almost as if he’s afraid to let go for fear you’ll cry again

“Bad dream? What was it about?”

“Th-Those characters from Levi’s horror game w-were eating you alive and I c-couldn’t move!” You whimper tearfully, “You were begging me for help a-and I couldn’t do anything to save you from them because every time I moved th-these ropes got t-tighter around my neck a-an-”

First of all, he’s horrified that Levi showed you those games when he knew they gave you nightmares. Unfortunately, you had to if you didn’t want to be called a normie for the billionth time that week

Second, he, the great Mammon, begging a mere human for help? Yeah right

Even though he knew in his heart of hearts that that would definitely be the case

“They’re not real, remember that. And if you still think those freaks are lurking in the dark, come find me and the great Mammon will protect you!”

You can't help but giggle and hug him more tightly, knocking him back onto his pillow

Neither of you felt like moving, so Mammon pulls the sheets up over your shoulders and you snuggle together until the morning comes

At the breakfast table, Mammon doesn’t hesitate to screech at Levi for giving you nightmares while cradling your tired, sleep-deprived body against him

Leviathan

Doesn’t hear MC’s knock at first, he’s too absorbed in the 14th episode of I Was Eating Avocado Salmon Sushi at a Hundred-Yen Revolving Sushi Restaurant When Suddenly I Was Thrown Back in Time a Thousand Years to the Heian Era, Where I Was Selected to Be a Personal Chef for a Princess and Was Later Chosen as a Possible Candidate to Be Her Husband… Now someone Please Tell Me How That’s Even Possible

As the knocking gets louder and more frantic, the otaku finally notices and pauses the anime, goes to the door and opens it a tiny bit

Just enough to see the teary-eyed MC, hugging their waist in discomfort, shivering in fear, and looking left and right down the hall for danger

“... Yeah?”

“L-Levi? C-Can I come in? *sniff* I just had a really scary dream-”

“I-uh… Ummm I g-guess,”

He lets you in and on a whim, places a tentative hand on your back

He expected you to push him away, but when you choked and rushed into his half-open arms and buried your face in his chest, leviachan.exe has stopped working

EXIT

What was he supposed to do with his hands?!?!??

MC was crying and he was just standing there like a normie? Wh… WhAt wOULd HenRy dO?

“MC, h-hey, it cant’ve been that bad… here, um let’s s-sit down a-and you can talk to me. Sound good?”

He feels you nod and leads you to his large gaming beanbag chair and you get squooshed against his side, shivering and sniveling, but warm and safe

Levi dries your face with the edge of his shirt and after a few moments of comfortable silence, you begin to explain your dream

The slimy creatures scaling the walls of the House of Lamentation with their slimy entrails dripping whitish goo in their wake. Eight spindly legs to each monster, sixteen sinister red eyes, and countless rows of gleaming fangs ready to take a chunk out of anyone who came too close

They managed to get into the house and they chased you and the brothers, but the otaku had tripped over a fallen suit of armor and a spider creature made its move before he could get away

At that point, you’d woken up absolutely terrified and rushed to see if Levi was ok

“But you’ve played horror games with me and we watched My Sister and I Found a Spider and Took It Home, Realizing Soon After it Was a Demon Who Eventually Escaped From the Glass Jar We Used for a House and Ate Our Toes, Transporting Us To Hell Where We Were F-”

“Yeah… I know… B-But it wasn’t that bad. I was reading one of the books Satan recommended. It was a really well-written horror story and it had very realistic pictures. I just can’t seem to get those gross monsters out of my head:(”

Your voice slowly trailed off and Levi realized what he had accomplished

You… You weren’t crying anymore!!

Also, you weren’t breathing really hard or shaking too much! Had… had this yucky otaku really calmed the human down?

*gasp* he was rubbing your back too!? And you hadn’t slapped his icky hands away?

You… you were ok with this? B-Being all snuggled up together on the beanbag chair?

“L-Levi, I-I’m ok now. I’ll leave you alone… I hope I didn’t wake you up…”

“N-No!”

“Something wrong?”

“No… I-um,” (he couldn’t let you get away now! This was perfect! He had you all to himself!! No WAY was he gonna screw this up!!) “You c-can stay a little longer if you’d like… I-I was in the middle of I Was Eating Avocado Salmon Sushi at a Hundred-Yen Revolving Sushi Restaurant When Suddenly I Was Thrown Back in Time a Thousand Years to the Heian Era, Where I Was Selected to Be a Personal Chef for a Princess and Was Later Chosen as a Possible Candidate to Be Her Husband… Now someone Please Tell Me How That’s Even Possible… Do you maybe want to stay and watch?”

“You don’t mind? I don’t want to intrude-”

“No! It’s fine!”

And so he fumbled with the remote and hit the play button, but couldn’t focus on a single word the protagonists were saying

You. Fell. Asleep.

On. Him.

Uh

“Maybe… Maybe MC doesn’t think I’m a… ‘yucky otaku’ after all… But don’t get your hopes up, Levi.”

Satan

He fell asleep in his chair, book resting on his chest when he heard a short, quick (almost frantic) string of taps on his door

Being a light sleeper (just like his papa), he immediately woke up to hear your voice on the other side of the door

“Satan? Are… Are you awake? *sniffle*”

It was you

What could you possibly want at this hour?

Upon opening the door, your body crashed into his own, but not before impulsively throwing your arms around his neck and breaking down on his shoulder

“M-MC? Are you alright?”

No, you weren’t

Judging by your stormy sobs and trembling figure, something must have shaken you up horribly for you to act like this

The sweet MC he knew usually kept their cool

He leads you to his big armchair and sits you down, careful to keep a firm hand on your back for support, both emotional and physical

Your eyes were wide and glassy, pupils darting to each corner of the room looking for monsters, bad demons, giant bugs, etc.

Finding none, you finally make shy eye contact with the blonde demon who has kept his arms close about you and dabbed your endless tears away until you were calm enough to speak

“MC, did you have a night terror or something?”

“*sniffle* M-hm. I-I’m sorry S-Satan, I was just so scared I c-couldn’t stay in my room all alone and you were the first person I thought of. So… I ran here. Did I wake you?”

“I fell asleep in my chair again MC. So I would have awakened during the night anyway,” He replied, “Plus, I don’t mind at all. I’m… I’m happy you came. What was your dream about?”

“It was really twisted… are you sure you want to know?”

“You’ll feel better when you talk about it and I’m always up for a story.” He smiled.

He sat back in his chair tentatively resting your head on his chest as you began describing the terrors from only minutes before

“Asmodeus and I, we watched some of those cringey teen romance movies this afternoon and somehow they morphed into a really scary dream. You and I, the rest of your brothers, the angels, Solomon, Diavolo, and even Barbatos were playing spin the bottle for some reason and I landed on you, but when I kissed you, you turned to dust! Th-Then when I landed on Mammon and Beel, the s-same thing happened again, but no one seemed to notice! Th-”

Noticing you were getting worked up again, Satan rubbed soothing circles into your back, hushing you gently and assuring you that everything was fine and ‘innocent’ kissing games weren’t actually deadly

Unless they were

But he didn’t mention that to you at that moment

Instead, he cradled you in his lap and read to you until your eyelids began to droop once more for some much-needed sleep

Being the good boy he is, he tucked you into his bed

BUT

Before he could walk back to his chair

“Satan, aren’t… aren’t you gonna lay with me?” You ask, tired, sweet voice ringing in his ears, “I-If you don’t mind that is. I mean it is your bed, after all, I didn’t mean t-”

He’s blushing up to his ears at your request, but nonetheless rolls onto the mattress next to you and you snuggle up close and fall asleep almost instantly

“As long as you’re here with me, you’ll be safe MC.”

Asmodeus

Why… Why was he up so early? What was that noise? Wait… Where were you?

He could’ve sworn he fell asleep with you in his arms

Sitting up groggily he looked around after rubbing the crust of sleep from his eyes

Something was moving and whimpering next to him, caught in a snare of fluffy blankets

The fearful cries of “Asmodeus! Oh, Asmo please don’t die! No, no, no, NO!!” broke the sweet demon’s heart

Your ragged breathing turned to a blood-curdling scream and you shot upright, but the blankets blocking your vision increased your tearful unease tenfold and you began struggling even harder against them

Taking action, Asmo tugged at the sheets, doing everything he could to help you

When your face emerged from the heap, you took a great gasp of air and immediately began sobbing your heart out

Asmo paused, knowing it unwise to approach someone who’d just escaped the clutches of a nightmare, but he couldn’t just sit there and stare at you!

Luckily, you chose that moment to look around

Your eyes met his amber ones in the semi-darkness and you tackled him, wrapping him in an impossibly tight hug

“A-ASMO!”

“Darling, wh-”

“Oh my god! I thought I killed you! I r-ruined your pretty face! You just sh-shriveled up a-and-”

“Sweetheart, hey~” He murmured, closing his arms around your back and cradling the back of your head in his hand, “Don’t cry anymore, Asmo’s here…”

His gentle comforting coos as he rocked from side to side brought your tears to a halt and soon you were able to look him in the face

Your glassy, frightened eyes had almost a look of reverence when you ever so slightly cupped your palm over his cheek, afraid he would crumble away at your caress once more

When he didn’t, you let out a shaky sigh of relief and visibly relaxed; shoving your face in his shoulder and wrapping your legs and arms around him so he couldn’t escape

It was quiet for a moment

Asmodeus settled his forearms around your waist and said

“Dearest, are you alright?”

“I… I don’t know.”  You fisted his shirt in your palms and looked at him, “That was a really vivid one.”

“Tell me what it was about!” He smiled sympathetically and stroked your cheek, “I have bad dreams sometimes too, MC. If you tell me yours I’ll tell you a few of mii-iiine!”

You couldn’t help but crack a small grin as his sweet tone and nod

“Yesterday Beel told me about the one time he touched Satan’s favorite plant. He’d seen Satan pet the stalk and petals before and he wanted to do it too. (Satan is a plant dad, fight me) But when he touched it, it shriveled up and died on the spot. I… I had a dream where I touched you and you shriveled up! I tried to help you, but every time I touched you, you screamed in pain! Then… Then you died in my arms and I woke up.”

:(

You clung to the demon as he moved, lost in thought. Settling back into the abundant pillows and tugging a sheet over your shoulders, he began to speak

“That sounds absolutely terrifying! What would you do without me?”

“Asmo…”

“I’m kidding, I’m kidding!” He nuzzled your cheek and hugged you tighter, “Why don’t we find a way to help you forget about it? I have a couple of suggestions… if you’d like to hear them~”

Beelzebub

He’d only been gone for a minute… or four… maybe five…? Right?

Why were you writhing around like that? You sounded like a lost little puppy and… were those tears?

“MC? Are you awake?”

No reply, just your continued whines of discontent and a steady stream of tears soaking the pillow

He dropped his snacks on the floor and carefully knelt on the edge of the mattress, putting a gentle hand on your forehead

Lucifer used to do that when he was sick, long ago when they still lived in the celestial realm. Maybe it would help you? Somehow? Hopefully?

The strangled sob that fell from your lips as you forced his hand away broke his big heart in two

Hold on, your eyes were closed! Wait, you were having a bad dream!

Throwing all caution to the wind (and not knowing the consequences of waking someone in this state) and began shaking you rather roughly, scaring you awake and making you bonk heads when you sat up too quickly

Now you were crying for more reasons than one

Your head hurt, two big scary hands had your shoulders in a tight grip, there was a large figure looming over you in the dark, your dream was still raging and replaying in your head, and it was really dark and uncomfortably warm

Even in the dim light, Beel witnessed the look of pure terror that crossed your face

You thought his heart was broken? Well it just fucking shattered

You were scared? Of him?

“MC, it’s just me! Don’t be afraid!”

He’d woken you up, but apparently he’d only made things worse…

Beel is vewy sowwy :(

Those lovely amethyst eyes…

“B… Beeley?”

“MC? I’m so sorry, I didn’t mean to scare you, I didn-”

You silence the ginger demon by throwing yourself into his arms in unparalleled relief, afraid you hadn’t really woken up and the shadow of your favorite brother was just MC’s Nightmare, Continued

Happy you’re in his arms, he squeezes back with all his might and burying his face in your shoulder

“I just had the worst nightmare Beel. I’m so happy you’re here…” You murmur, wiping your nose on your sleeve.

“Is your head ok?”

“M-hm.”

The pair of you sit in comfortable silence for a few moments, Beel offers you a tissue to dry your face, but you can’t seem to stop crying

“MC, maybe if you told me about it, you’d feel better!”

His sweet, honest smile made you melt

But the contents of your dream… You looked guiltily toward the bed on the other side of the room where you knew the Avatar of Sloth was sleeping peacefully

“You… You promise not to tell Belphie?”

“What do you mean?”

“W-Well I dreamt about that time… you know… when he killed me? He gave me a hug before bed like he always does a-and I love Belphie’s hugs but I can’t help but think about... that. I feel bad, it’s the same as holding a grudge! I’m sorry Beel.”

*insert pikachu face meme* = beel

“Why are you apologizing? It’s not your fault you had the dream.”

“I know… I feel bad though. Did I wake you up?” You ask, changing the subject.

“Nuh-uh. I was already up grabbing snacks.” He pointed to the untidy pile a few feet away. “Maybe some TSL and food will bring your smile back. Don’t worry about your dream MC, the secret is safe with me. Plus, you’re only human and I guess being killed would be really scary for you. I didn’t protect you that time, but if anyone ever tries to hurt you again, I’ll be there before you can say Burgers from Akuzon, ok?”

The smile lifts your lips before he finishes his sentence warms his heart and puts a happy smile on his own as you give him a final squeeze and whisper

“Thanks a lot, Beeley.”

Belphegor

It is said the Avatar of Sloth could sleep through anything, even the loudest storm and the echoes of 4th of July from the human world

But when the precious human cuddled up in his arms every night begins to move around and/or whimper in fear, Belphegor is awake in minutes only to find you squirming away from him and begging to some invisible entity “Just… Just d-don’t hurt them! I’m sorry, I’m so, so sorry, please don’t hurt me I-”

The seventh born is squeezing your hand and whispering encouragement in your ear, telling you you’re safe and that it’s just a dream

Slowly opening your eyes you look around, still terrified and jumpy from your vision, but the warm hand intertwined with yours and the comforting arm around your back, plus the familiar scents of the twins’ room slowly bring you back to reality

“MC?”

“Belphie? I-Is that you?”

“Who else would it be, dummy.”

You ignore the half hearted insult and bury your face in his chest, allowing your heart to reach a normal pace and his natural scent and warmth to wash over you

“Tell me about it. Sounded pretty scary.”

“I’m sorry for waking you up Belphie, I know how you hate losing sleep…”

“Just… Be quiet and tell me your dream!”

“S-Sorry… Um, so I didn’t know you too well yet and an angel came and took the precious grimoire, but me and Beel were caught up in it and there was this whole thing with Purgatory Hall and Luke and-”

“Your stories can put me right to bed you know that? Anyway, so what happened? Did Lucifer tear the angel’s head off?” He looked rather hopeful…

“Of course not! Lucifer was gonna make me choose who I wanted to save, either Beel or Luke and I didn’t want either of them to get hurt so I said ‘both’ and Lucifer got really mad and scary and in my dream he ended up hurting Luke and Beel and he would’ve gotten me if you hadn’t woken me up.”

“You’re welcome.”

“... *sigh* Thanks for listening Belphie.”

With a sigh of his own, he pulled you into his arms, resting his chin on your shoulder

“It was just a dream. You don’t have to be afraid, you know. I’m right here for you. Always.”

“Aww, than-”

“Forget I said that! Shut up and go to sleep!”

[its5amgotosleep]

Hickeys and shattered hearts / Maria Hill x Stark!reader / Natasha x Stark!reader

A/N:This one's kinda sad but also kinda cute idk

Warning: Light angst, cursing ofc.

дорогой - Sweetheart

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You were new to the Avenfers despite being Tony Starks sister. They didn't know he had a sister because he never told them per your request. And only introduced yourself during the battle of New York showing up in an iron suit.

Although you had already worked for Shield even before Tony did as an agent. You helped him build some of his suits, even made your own

Tony and you were slightly different from each other with you being more on the nicer and sweeter side but still had his wit and sass.

You got along with the rest of them team really well, especially with a certain red headed assassin. Natasha had gotten to like you a lot after a few years of being colleagues, though was a complete wreck at asking you out.

Now you and the Avengers are in Sokovia battling with Ultron and his iron legion alongside new additions. Pietro and Wanda Maximoff.

"So when do you think help is on the way." You blasted through the robots that were lined up. "Any minute now cavalry."

"I didn't say we should leave.." You hear Natasha as you land to the ground. "There's worse ways to go." She finishes, you open your mask to breath a little better. "This isn't exactly how I planned mine to be." You said taking a few deep breaths.

"Where else am I gonna get a view like this." She motioned about the floating country. "Only once in a lifetime." You try to see through the smoke.

"I hope you like the view Romanoff. It's about to get better." Fury says through the coms as the helicarrier emerges up from the clouds and smoke. "Nice right? Pulled her out of mothballs with a couple of old friends. She's dusty but she'll do."

"Fury you son of a bitch." You and Steve say as you looked in awe at the flying ship. "Oh, you two kiss your mother with that mouth?"

"I wouldn't really call her my mother, but yes I do kiss her with my mouth." You grinned as mask closed again ready for the second wave. Nat didn't know you were in a relatiowith someone only till a few weeks ago.

You were searching up on new technology to improve you and you brothers suits. Recently discovering about Nanotechnology, after days of research you've only managed to create a protoype for only the helmet.

You heard the door knock and said out a come in. "Hey, Y/N have you seen Bruce?" Natasha came in as you still had on the mask thst only reached the bottom of your neck.

"No sorry, haven't seen him since like an hour ago. Maybe he's in his room I guess." You shrugged as the mask slowly disappeared like it was dissolving from your face.

"Whoah how'd you do that you fuckin wizard or something." Nat looked at you surprised. "Cool right?" You grinned at her as you put the tech on a mannequin.

"I'll go find him, sorry to bother you." She smiled a little. "Yeah no problem." You focused on the computer. She was nearly out of the room when she noticed a bruise on the side of your neck.

Once you turned around a little it showed more purple and red spots on your neck. "Y/N.." She trailed as you looked up at her. "Yeah?"

"What happened to." She motioned to her neck and you looked at her in confusion. "Huh? Why? Is there something wrong?" You asked still confused.

"Look at the mirror." Her tone laced with a hint of jealously. "I don't what's- Oh!" You cut off your own sentence when you saw you reflection in the mirror. Red and purple marks scattered on your neck.

"Oh my god, I'm so sorry you had to see that!" Shrieking you activated the mask again hide them and your embarrassed face.

You hit your head on palm of your habd a few times chanting to yourself that you were stupid to not notice. "Look, it's ok, I've seen worse. Do you want me to help you with it?" Nat brushed of the feeling in the pit of her stomach.

"No no, I don't want to take away more time from you. I can just cover this up with some make up." The front of the mask opened as you had a sorry smile for her. But Natasha wanted to stay longer, she wanted to stay with you.

"Ok just, just call me if you need anything." She said as you let out a final apology and a thank you. "F.R.I.D.A.Y, please call Agent Hill immediately please." You command the A.I thingking that the ex russian spy was gone.

"What is it Stark? Somethibg happened?" Maria said from the other line. Natasha hid behind a wall to eavesdrop, yes it was wrong, but she just wanted an answer to her question.

"Don't Stark me Hill, you know what exactly happened." You spat before sending a photo to her. "I can't believe you didn't tell me before I left!" You sighed running a hand through your hair.

"I don't get what- Oh, Oh!" Maria stopped midway when she saw the photo you sent. "Well you didn't exactly say anything when we were-" "Don't you dare finish that sentence Hill or I will slap you across the face." You threatened through gritted teeth.

Natasha left not needing and not wanting to hear your conversation. She only asked for Bruce to have an excuse to see you.

Now she's left to go to the gym to blow off some steam and to avoid her heart from shattering entirely.

"I think I know who you're talking about. You two together the whole night at the party right?" Clint said as he smirked at you as you flew past him.

"You're seeing someone and you didn't tell me? I feel betrayed- I am betrayed." Tony sounded genuinely upset over the fact that Clint new and not him.

"We agreed not to tell anyone, and that anyone including you brother." You said matter of factly.

You saw Clint rushing behind a rock with a little boy trying to get to cover from the iron legion who were about to rain bullets on them.

Also noticing a blue and silver trail speeding towards them, you land right infront of Pietro and Clint shielding the three from the bullets, after they were done it was your turn to start beaming at them.

"What you didn't see that coming?" Opening the front of your mask to smirk at Pietro who looked at you like you were crazy.

"After this Fury, I'm gonna take a break. I've seen enough robots for the year. Person I am seeing you owe me a date." You say taking down a few more robots.

"I am going to pretend I didn't see her nod her head and smile. Stark you two have sone explaining to do before any dates will happen." Fury eyed Maria giving the 'Really? You two?' look.

The three of you got on to one of the ships to the helicarrier. "I'm sorry for what's about to happen." You apologetically glance at Pietro about Sokovia.

"Not exactly the way I wanted my chapter to end, but I guess it's something. This is where my family was made, this was also where it was destroyed, and where my twin and I made into well.. Whatever we are." His thick accent following through every word..

After the battle with Ultron, the civilians were given the help that they needed. "Having fun staring at the wall? It's an interesting wall don't get me wrong." You smiled as you walked towards Natasha.

"What'd you call me for? You need help finding Bruce again?" You asl as she shook her head turning to fully look at you.

"Not really, I just wanted to tell you something." Nat looked nervous which surprised you for the very first time. "It's about you."

"Me?" You pointed to yourself. "I- jesus christ this is harder than I thought." Nat let out a heavy sigh as you put a hand on her shoulder. "Hey its ok, take your time." You reassured her.

"I like you." She knew that you knew what it meant and was expecting to take your hand of her shoulder but you didn't. "I'm sorry Nat I really am, you're an amazing person."

"I know you can't, that's why I'm telling you this to let it out of my chest." Sadness was evident in her tone but she had to accept the fact the you can't love her back.

"I'll go beat up Hill if she hurts you." Nat joked as you pushed her shouler lightly. "We still friends?" You mumble as you pulled her to a hug.

She reciprocated by wrapping her arms around you. "Always." She said against your shoulder. "I better not find you downing a bottle of vodka later." You threatened as she just chuckled.

"I'll try not to." She says as you pulled away from the hug to glare at her. "No promises дорогой." She playfully smirked at you.

Natasha swore to herself to be there for you until the end. Not as lovers but as friends. Always and forever

Natasha left with Steve because they were evaluating the new recuits for the Avengers, she asked you if you wanted to come with her but you declined saying you were gonna meet with someone.

"Hey.." Maria said as she leaned against a wall seeing you walk down the halls. "Hi, were you waiting for me?" You ask as you walked closer to the Agent.

"No I wasn't." She simply replied as she looked at you and smiled "Really? Cause you looked like you were waiting for me." You raised a brow at her staring at hers, cold blue eyes thst somehow radiated warmth whenever she looked at you.

"Maybe I was maybe I wasn't." She smirked at you causing you to roll your eyes by her answer. "What were you doing before going here?" She asked as you two walked together.

"Oh I jusst rejected someone." You sighed rethingking what happened earlier. "Was it Natasha?" Maria says non chalanty.

You looked at her with a 'how the fuck.' face. "How the fuck did you know?" Your eyes wide as they can be. "I've known for a while know. At first I was worried about it."

"Oh yeah? Why so?" "Because I love you and you love me, simple as that." She gave a quick peck before walking ahead of your blushing face.

"Atleast kiss me properly Agent." You caught up to her and pulled her down for a proper kiss, instinctively placing her hand on your waist.

You pulled away as Maria was about to deepen in. "Although I'd love to but I only said for a proper kiss." Now it was your turn to give her quick peck before walking ahead of her.

"This so very cringey but also so cute at the same time." Coulson solighed as he saw the whole thing happen.

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[captnjacksparrow]

if you had to rank your fav naruto characters how would it go? love your blog btw!!

Hmmm... Complicated ask, anon.😂

[My personal life would be splashed here and there. Please bear with me]

Before 5 months, if you asked me about Naruto, my response would be ‘What the fuck is that?’. I absolutely had no idea such a treasure existed. For me, it started out like a blockbuster movie for the sheer variety of fights and the resulting emotions it brought within me. 

However, there was a point I stopped and thought, ‘Wait a fucking second. This resembles my family dynamics. This person is speaking the exact same lines I spoke to my parents few years ago. This person’s situation resembles mine. Did this creator a time traveler?’. Naruto is the only piece of media that gave me such feel. Am not even exaggerating, believe me. 

I really liked so many characters very much but am going to try my best to list just 10. 

The only characters I hate in this series are Danzo, Sakura and Hinata in no particular order. Meaning, I absolutely cannot see any positives in them. They are crassy, cringey and completely detestable.

FAVOURITE NARUTO CHARACTERS

10. Killer Bee

HaHaHa :-) Just seeing this character makes me smile and light-hearted.

It’s a pity that he is the only character who don’t belong to Konoha in my Top 10 rankings who was developed well apart from Gaara.

I loved him from Frame 1 onwards and I sincerely wished Team Taka should be packed up with their ass beaten up mercilessly. And that’s what happened.

Despite being a Jinchurikki, he never bothered to mind his surroundings and filled his heart with love from his over protective Brother alone was nice to watch.

He makes a great Tag Partner with Naruto next to Sasuke. No doubt.

The way Killer Bee treated Team Taka like some annoying flies and his cool and don’t care attitude was top notch. It’s not just with Sasuke, Bee treated Naruto with the same IDGAF attitude at first.

Best Moments:

Lariat punch to Sasuke (TBH, Sasuke deserved it. LOL)

Blasted off every member of Team Taka like a doll

His entire conversation and fight sequence with Kisame (Their banters and exchanges are way too hilarious)

His dynamics with his Elder Brother (God!!!! Whenever Raikage gives him an Iron Claw.... What a hilarious duo!!!!)

9. Hatake Kakashi

Kakashi was my most favourite character when I started the series for simply being ultra-cool with the way he conducted the Bell-Test and taught a valuable lesson for those bratty kids in Team 7 called ‘Team Work’. 

Best Moments:

Kakashi vs Obito Hand-to-Hand Combat (the best in the series)

Kakashi in the Gaara retrieval arc (His fight with Itachi & Deidara gave a good start to the shippuden series. His Mangekyou reveal was surprising).

Kakashi & Guy teaming up with Naruto to reveal Obito in a twisty and tragic way. (Kakashi couldn’t handle the truth at all and neither did I)

Kakashi vs Zabuza (That’s when I realized that the series was getting real serious)

8. Jiraiya

Jiraiya was my next favourite to Kakashi during my Part 1 days. His open perversion and his entire dynamics with Naruto was one of the best things during the Chunin Exams arc. Taught Naruto about Chakra Control and about the way of a shinobi by just enduring. Naruto follows this even today.

Best Moments: 

Kuchiyose No Jutsu training (Man, I never expected him to push Naruto off the cliff)

Rasengan Training (One of the best arcs in part 1 and it was soo satisfying to see Naruto punching his first Rasengan on Kabuto, He also acted like a quasi parent to Naruto... heartwarming)

Jiraiya Vs Six paths of Pain ( 6 vs 1 was always doomed but still he had the guts of a shinobi and plunged ahead)

7. Uchiha Madara

Geez. What is there to not like him?? 

Everything he did was absolutely wrong ever since he broke up with Hashirama in a romantic way much similar to how couples break up in my country.

I am an Uchiha. You are a Senju. I wish it had been different.

This roughly translates to how 75% of lovers break up and marry someone else from their own clan in my state. (Duh!!!)

I am from XXX clan, you are from XXX clan. So we can’t love each other and my parents won’t accept this relationship. So let’s break up.

Alright, my first shipping couple in this series is HashiMada for this exact reason. (I started shipping SNS only after episode 478). 

Just like Hashirama, Madara had an extensive build up right from episode 1 where Kurama compares Sasuke with Madara. And flashbacks from Itachi and Tobi spiked my curiosity and I wanted to see his face so badly ever since.

But the moment he landed gracefully like a diva in episode 321.... Woaahhhh!!!! He literally danced in the battlefield and ate up 100′s of guys with just a fucking Sharingan. 

Best Moments:

Going Shirtless before 1000′s of people with Hashirama’s face, no less (Well, I literally went heart-eyed for 5 minutes. Sorry Sasuke, your ancester was way much sexier than you in the Orochimaru hideout and beats you by a million points).

Screaming Hashirama’s name like a cockatoo for 300 times even till the very end (Sorry Naruto, your obsession towards Sasuke for about 6 arcs is pale in comparison to Madara’s obsession which was established in just 6 or 7 episodes.)

I have 25 clones now. Do you want me to put Susanoo or not? You can’t answer. The answer is yes. (Man, his I don’t give a fuck attitude is just an alien level thing)

Openly admitting Only Hashirama Can Beat Me (Say what you will about Sasuke, Madara has no qualms about accepting his inferiority in terms of power. An absolute Straight Forward diva-queen)

Awakening Sharingan for breaking up with his ‘friend’ rather than for his 3 dead brothers. (Geez, Poor Soul. He is the forefather of a Romantic Uchiha. That romantic blood still flows in Sasuke)

6. Senju Hashirama

Man, I would have placed him somewhere in top 5 if only he was introduced early or had more scenes. I started watching Naruto only because of this very name. There is a local podcaster in my state who goes under the alias of Senju Hashirama and in his podcasts, he hinted about this character and how he was inspired by his ideals. I just googled and saw that this character belonged to Naruto series and I considered watching it. Here I am, making analysis on that very series.

There was this excellent build up for him right when we got introduced to Captain Yamato. He was constantly referred in flashbacks from Itachi and Tobi especially.

But the moment he was reanimated again..... Geez..... It was an hilarious ride all throughout. Out of all the flashbacks we got from this series, Founders Era flashback was my absolute favourite.

From where I come from, we are still under the stupid influence of Clan infrastructure and are not growing up in many aspects like people in western countries do. For me, I hope, one day, someone like Senju Hashirama appears in our state and change our lives for better by uniting all clans as one and treats everyone equally without the shitty favouritism for their own children, friends, parents, siblings.

That’s why this dialogue struck a thunder in my heart

“Be they a friend.... Be they a sibling.... Be it even my own child. I will not forgive anyone who threatens the village.”

Because the clan leaders in our place are absolutely selfish, trash bastards who serves their own needs with no regards for other people from other clans. For a person like me, Hashirama is not just a fictional hero, he is someone who many aspires to become. No wonder that podcaster chose this name as his alias.

He rightfully deserved the title ‘God of Shinobi’. And no one can surpass him, not even Naruto.

Best Moments:

Wood Style vs Eternal Mangekyou sharingan + Kurama powered Madara (He just beats Madara’s ass by a wide margin. This shows he was a whole fucking different level than Naruto + Sasuke combined. In terms of strength, nobody surpassed him YET. Sorry Naruto and Sasuke, you guys are no match even now with your Rinnegan and Kurama lost forever).

His entire banters with Madara (ROFLLLL. Without him, it would have been just another lifeless arc.)

5. Senju Tobirama

Hmmm, let me tell you something about him.

First off, he is not a racist or fascist as many hardcore Sasuke fanatics claims. He is one of the best hokages according to me. He is abso-fucking-lutely practical, rational, logical and holds no grudge. And Sasuke resembles Tobirama with all these characteristics as compared to soft and naive Naruto. If only he had more screen time, he would be easily in my top 3. 

Just because he didn’t lick the boots of Uchiha (many people’s favorite clan or may I say the only clan that was given any shit about in this series), it doesn’t make him a racist or fascist.

No, he never persecuted the Uchihas. Danzo, the crass bastard, driven off the Uchihas only after the Kyuubi incident. It was explicitly mentioned in the databook and was clearly explained in the series. 

He literally gave the highest position in the village for the entire clan. That is, a military power inside a military village. ‘Shinobi who can cause crimes can only be stopped by shinobi who are even better’. In my state, if a powerful clan decided to persecute another clan, they simply start by cutting off basic amenities like Water and Electricity. Compared to what I’ve seen, Tobirama did nothing but given the Uchihas, the highest position in their village. 

Orochimaru only said giving such a power made them conceited (arrogant). Tobirama had a trusted subordinate called Kagami, an Uchiha in his team. He suggested Kabuto to help Sasuke and even teleported him on his request. He even spited Madara for killing Sasuke, an Uchiha. He openly claimed Uchiha clan exceeds Senju in terms of Love. He openly appreciated Itachi and Kagami as someone who sees beyond their clan. In what world, would a racist or fascist do all this for a clan he hates??? 

Yes, he was cautious of Sasuke at first because he saw him with Orochimaru and even went full-on battle mode because of Sasuke’s carefree threat to destroy the village. But once he decided to go to the battlefield to fight Madara, he simply forgot everything that happened before and started to work with him as a comrade, and even helped him twice. In which world, a racist or fascist behave this way?

Believe me, a person like me who was grown with these clan politics surely can say who is a fascist. He was not. He was just cautious of them because of their ability to attain superpowers with just emotions alone. Let me ask you all this, ‘Would you be okay with people getting crazy powers whenever they are depressed?’. Being cautious is not racism. It really disrespects people who faced real oppression under fascism.

What Madara and Danzo did was a classical example of fascism. 

And No, Izuna didn’t die only because of Tobirama. He died because Madara was too arrogant to instigate war with Senju clan. And this was way before forming Konoha. If Tobirama killed Izuna after the alliance between Uchiha and Senju, I would agree that he was a racist. Izuna lost his life just like any other Uchiha and Senju soldiers in that battlefield. 

Just because he shitted your beloved ‘Sasuke-Kun’ doesn’t mean he is a racist too. Tobirama saw Sasuke along with that scoundrel Orochimaru who once used this very two hokages to destroy the very village they strived hard to create and protect. What will you do, if you were in his place?? Please don’t lie and say ‘I wouldn’t be judgemental’. 

And Imagine you are Tobirama, Sasuke is threatening to commit genocide against the entire village who had no idea about this coup detat instead of going against those old hags. Will you sit quiet as a Hokage?? 

He was the first person to suggest his brother, Itama, that Revenge against Uchihas are futile. All we need is an agreement to make truce. That gave the idea for Hashirama to pursue his dream. And Tobirama was happy to follow that dream and very supportive. 

It’s because of all these reasons I placed him above Senju Hashirama.

Best Moments:

Amazing power display against Sasuke & Co with just an index finger (It was a pleasure to see everyone’s face trembling with mild sweat including Sasuke).

Acted as a decoy to save his young subordinates. (The way he sacrificed his life saying young wills of fire must be protected is just Woow!! I wish his subordinates listened to his words and passed the mantle to the younger ones rather than playing game at such an old age and screwed up many lives. Pfft!!!)

Any time he says ‘Shut Up’ to Hashirama (ROFL)

His absolute ‘I don’t give a fuck’ attitude to Naruto, Sasuke, Hashirama, Minato and Madara (He trolled them all mercilessly and I love it)

4. Senju Tsunade

It hurts me to say that Tsunade is the only female character in my list because every other female characters were written in a much more piss poorly way. Only Konan came close to Tsunade but her role was very short. 

Despite her character’s purpose revolved around another male character (Dan) and a blatant objectification of her breasts, I liked everything about her other than those mentioned above. 

She is the Second Best Hokage who took Konoha right after the destruction made by Orochimaru, excellently handled the aftermath by making friendly relations with Suna (Sand village), provided her best medical support to Konoha in the Pain Arc and successfully handled the fourth Shinobi world war. 

She is such a badass who developed her own original jutsu called Byakugou no Jutsu, which can heal herself. 

She is just way too amazing and it’s a pity that we got very less scenes in Shippuden.

Best Moments:

Took 25+ stabs from Madara’s Susanoo like a piece of cake (Man, I simply couldn’t describe that scene. All the other Kages were shocked and even Madara too)

Lifted her advisors like a cabbage sack (Those fucking old hags deserved it. Those shits should’ve died)

Her index finger flick assault on Naruto (Aww, Naruto was definitely bratty in his first meeting and Tsunade didn’t hold back at all)

Played Orochimaru like a basketball (In that same arc, she fought Orochimaru mercilessly like a devil left and right. Someone who claimed to have surpassed Tsunade never even dared to fight Orochimaru’s student and crying for his attention after just receiving one stab from Madara. Just saying)

3. Uzumaki Naruto

Naruto is the titular character and your emotions evolve along with him. He surely deserves a spot in Top 3. The only reason I didn’t place Naruto even more higher is because he didn’t experience something very important which many characters in this list faced. That is, Losing a loved one before his eyes. Every villain in this series became what they are because they lost someone important before their eyes like Nagato, Obito. (Nope, I don’t count Neji as his loved one). I think this tests the mettle of any character and Naruto failed to experience this. The only person he ever lost was Jiraiya and that too from off-screen. That’s why I felt his journey to his dreams seemed little easier compared to the rest of the characters.

His best block of episodes will always be the part 1 Episode 1, 2, 3. Episode 1 is the character defining episode for Naruto and what he learned there will be applied everywhere till the very end of the series. He learned 3 things

Forgiveness, Empathy and Acceptance

Talk-No-Jutsu

Kage Bunshin no Jutsu

From then on, this boy wins many friends to his side, not only from Konoha but from other villages too and even made them to acknowledge his strength only through his sheer hard work. 

However, there is this person, whose acknowledgement he wants the most.  That person is his most important bond along with Iruka Sensei. He is none other than Sasuke. One day, Sasuke left him alone for some unavoidable reason at the end of part 1 which left a huge scar in him and he vows to bring him back to the place where he belongs. That becomes his ultimate goal rather than becoming an Hokage.

The way he goes to any extent to protect the people he cares about is just simply entertaining to watch.

Every time he makes an heroic entry to save the day was never boring, not once. 

Best Moments:

Sobbing from his heart after hearing Iruka Sensei acknowledging him (It just makes me feel heavy for no reason. The anime team did an awesome job to capture his emotions convincingly)

Awakening Kyuubi Mode for the first time after seeing Sasuke die in his arms (Man, out of all the collective hatred he got from the villagers, this moment affected him a lot speaks volumes)

Punching Neji from the underground to win the Chunin exams (God, I honestly believed Naruto lost but he just surprised us heavily from nowhere. And that failure speech was just pure bliss to watch even today)

Pain Vs Naruto (One of the best arc for Naruto. Because unlike other arcs, where Naruto fought with a team, this arc he was all alone fighting a person with Rinnegan. Be it the exuberant landing from the frogs with a dramatic kabuki music, creating multi-step attacks, coming up with novel solution in that difficult situation, finally ending the conflict without killing the enemy, becoming an hero. Superb journey. The only thing I didn’t like in that arc is some shitty selfish proposal. PUKE!!)

Bearing the burdens of his most important person and die along with him (This boy always shouts he will never die until he becomes an Hokage. But for Sasuke, he was ready to die along with him in order to not leave him alone proves how much he loves him. This shows his emotional maturity rather than shouting at Sasuke like he always did before which never reached his ears. This time it did)

Final Good Bye to Minato (Honestly, I was bawling just like Naruto in that scene no matter how many times I watch it. It started out slow but as he speaks more and more, he simply couldn’t hold back and wept a sea of tears 😭😭😭)

2. Uchiha Sasuke

One of the well written characters in this series, with all the flaws and positive stuffs which makes him more of an Anti-Hero. He always subverts my preformed opinions and never ceased to surprise me.

Despite being aloof and cold, his warmer side will always be exposed towards Naruto. This is evident by many things he had done for Naruto which he don’t have to or no reason to. Starting right from roasting Sakura, offering lunch, asking for tips, enquiring about breakfast, protecting him many times and dying for Naruto. 

Why I placed him above Naruto is because of his unavoidable decision to tread in a complicated dark path primarily due to the trauma he carried and was stirred up again by collective factors such as Orochimaru’s cursed seal, Itachi’s arrival and Naruto’s growth. Compared to Sasuke, Naruto had an easier path because he never saw anyone die before his eyes and hence he don’t carry any trauma which can divert his path.

Even after watching his entire clan and family members murdered before his eyes at an age 8, he managed to pull himself and never snapped out like many other good characters does. But the moment when he found out that Itachi was good all along, he simply couldn’t tolerate the truth and gave himself to Vengeance. Because, he loved his brother more than he hated him all these years. This shows he loved his brother more than his parents. His resolve to destroy Konoha was perfectly understandable. But is it good? Nope. He can kill Danzo and those old hags but killing other people was never justifiable.

But still, his resolve to have his vengeance was diverted by Naruto and weakened by Itachi, at some point. So, he decided to know the truth and when he heard it, he understood the Hokages also sacrificed many precious things to protect this village just like his Brother Itachi. He understood the mistakes of his clan and decided to protect the village which he swore to destroy. [Many Sasuke fanatics think that he succumbed to the Government and Kishi wrote Sasuke to bootlick them. Their idea was to tackle genocide with another genocide. What a stupid idea!!!!]

And No, I don’t consider him trying to kill Sakura, Karin and Kakashi as his bad moments (though I feel bad for Karin). For the simple reason being, he became a monster by losing himself in the darkness who lost the rationality to differentiate friends from foes. Much similar to how Naruto lost himself to Kyuubi’s hatred against Orochimaru and in Pain Arc. It’s so hypocritical to ignore Naruto and accuse Sasuke here. Plus, Sakura had no business to be there otherwise Sasuke would not have tried to kill her. 

But does it mean Sasuke did nothing wrong???

Nope.

He definitely shouldn’t have joined Akatsuki and hunted Killer Bee like an animal. Because, he knew that Tobi was the one who helped Itachi massacre the clan. When fighting Itachi he specifically vowed to kill Madara (Tobi). On top of that, Itachi passed on Amaterasu in his eyes specifically to stay away from Tobi. Why did he ally with him? Plus, Sasuke was one of the few characters who was exposed to the name ‘Akatsuki’ in part 1 itself. He clearly knew that this organization targets Naruto, his closest bond. Why did he join there? This is where the stupid part of Sasuke came out. I was grunting... ‘Oii Where did that clever Sasuke, who faced 1000 soldiers without killing any of them, went??’. 

And his plan for Revolution???? I thought it would be reasonable. But his vision was eerily similar to Danzo’s vision. Grrr..... Danzo also wanted to create his ideal village by destroying the current Hokage. He wanted to unite the Five Village and put himself on top of everyone as evident from the Kage Summit arc. 

I appreciate him that he finally adopted the Will of Fire, by wanting to protect the village at all costs just like Itachi and Hashirama did. But his methods are not very democratic. Plus, he wanted to do it alone. I was screaming at him... ‘Grrr, Sasuke, did you listen to Itachi at all???. He failed because he did everything alone. Why can’t you understand????’ This is also another instance, Sasuke’s stupidity glanced out.

I am happy Naruto knocked some sense into him by telling him not to do it alone but together.

Many fanatics also ask, ‘What did Sasuke do wrong to atone for his sins at the end?’.

I was like ‘Reallly????’

He joined Akatsuki, an organization which terrorized all the 5 villages and he hunted someone like an international criminal.

He spoiled the Kage Summit and attacked Raikage who lost his arm because of him. I know what happened over there is not Sasuke’s fault. But these are the kages who was loved by many people in their own villages. How can the world forget it and simply let him go?

It’s exactly because of all those lovely stuffs he did in Part 1 and all these mistakes he did in Part 2 but willing to correct his mistakes by sharing the burdens of his other half in the end made him more interesting, complicated and exciting and that’s why I love this character.

I also have a personal bias to love this character sooo much because of the character on top of my list.

Best Moments:

Defending Naruto before Sakura (Awww!!! Such a good boy he was. Eventhough I thought he was a typical arrogant K-Drama hero, he just subverted my opinion in that one scene. I always have a thing for people who stands up for someone even though they don’t have to. This is where I started to like Sasuke)

My body moved on its own. (Is there anything that trumps this scene in terms of emotions and love in this series?. This moment is where I understood the depth of Sasuke’s emotions towards Naruto).

What is a Clan? What is a Village? What is a Shinobi? (I was really hoping for Sasuke to question himself something similar to this. Because he was so self-absorbed in his hatred and failed to look outside him ever since he left the village. It was so gratifying that he did that)

Killing Orochimaru (I always thought Sasuke will kill him only after he tries to take over the body. Never imagined that he will strike the snake first)

Killing Danzo (Man, what an amazing battle!!!. It was so gratifying to see such a crass bastard die many times over and over).

His dramatic confession through his monologue (After the mystery of Who is this Tobi, Sasuke’s obsession towards Naruto remained a mystery for me. Why did he listen to Naruto under the bridge? Why did he protected Naruto in the War? I got the answer only after this confession. It was so heartwarming to see this mellow side of Sasuke)

1. Uchiha Itachi

I could write pages about him. The foremost reason I like Itachi and earns the top spot in my rankings is because he shockingly resembled me in many ways. As I already said, I come from a place where clan politics plays a major role and when I see Sasuke’s flashback in part 1, I was simply dumbstruck by such a detailed similarities.

Elder child of the family - ✅

Have an adorable younger sister who loves me more than my parents - ✅

Same age gap (5 years) with my sister as Itachi and Sasuke - ✅

Parents paying total attention on me while ignoring my sister completely - ✅

Parents constantly comparing my achievements with my sister - ✅

A sister who bear hugged me every time I entered the home after returning from my school - ✅

Despite my mom being a teacher, my sister always prefers me to teach her stuffs as she considers me to be way too better than my mom -  ✅

Love my sister more than my parents - ✅

Clan-Obsessed parents - ✅

Used me as a tool for the benefit of the clan - ✅

Sending another person from my clan to spy on me - ✅

Strained relationship with my parents - ✅

Disgusted with my clan - ✅

Most importantly, this dialogue from part 1 episode 129,

Clan? Clan?

Obsessed with the organization, Obsessed with the clan, Obsessed with the name, that’s merely the detestable action that restrict yourself.

I have given up all hope in this worthless clan

Because, people obsess themselves to their clan, a thing so petty, they lose sight of the things that are truly important.

A real change cannot occur under restraints and controls

I confronted my parents with the exact same dialogue (almost 98% similar) in my own native language some years ago. 

I didn’t even know the existence of Naruto series at that time. I was simply shell-shocked by all these similarities with this character. 

And Yes, The moment I heard these dialogues, I knew Itachi, was a good guy, who had a very strong reason for his actions and I instantly knew Sasuke’s revenge will not bear him any happiness. 

It is exactly because of all these striking similarities of myself with Itachi, and my lil’l sister with Sasuke, my family dynamics with the Uchiha family.... I could understand the magnitude of Sasuke’s love towards Itachi. 

And precisely because of that, I could understand Sasuke’s love towards Naruto is not fucking ‘brotherly’ one but something that leans towards Attraction. 

No wonder, Itachi left Sasuke in Naruto’s care. 

Anyways to speak objectively, 

Itachi is an extremely self-sacrificial person whose life is full of pain and miseries but never blames it on the world unlike other Uchiha members like Madara, Obito and Sasuke to an extent.

He did things considering the bigger picture which never benefitted himself in anyway and was willing to go to any extent even at the expense of his own family and his brother’s happiness. That is, Uchiha Clan Massacre and Joining Akatsuki. None of this benefitted him in anyways but he did it anyway, for the village of Konoha. 

His ideals are shockingly similar to Hashirama, Which Sasuke pointed this out and Hashirama acknowledged that Itachi was a better shinobi than he was. ❤️❤️❤️

Now, does this means I support Uchiha clan massacre?

No way. Even Itachi didn’t.

This massacre happened because of the huge clusterfuck from Hiruzen’s incompetence, Danzo’s paranoid arrogance, Uchiha clan’s devious plan to over throw the government by force rather than approaching it in a peaceful way, say, a peace talk or a protest. 

All these people acted on their own self-interest. Itachi and Shisui caught in their whirlpool, bear their burdens and paid for it with their life. Sasuke suffered for it.

But, it’s not the only reason I love this character. It’s because, the moment he decided to massacre everyone, he marked his own death by the hands of his beloved brother. I love people who owns up their mistakes and face the consequences rather than making excuses (even though it’s not entirely his mistake).

Itachi is also the only character in this series who realized his failures on his own without anyone’s interference or Naruto’s Talk-No-Jutsu. 

And he apologized for everything he did to Sasuke.

Again, some hardcore Sasuke fanatics criticize/hate him for torturing their poor ‘Sasuke-Kun’ with his Tsukuyomi. I was like ‘Hmmm...What?’. 

First off, Itachi apologized to Sasuke for not thinking out from his point of view and also for not telling him the truth earlier.

Second off, Sasuke never even blamed Itachi for anything (even he didn’t hold him for killing their parents). If Sasuke himself, forgiven Itachi... Why are his fans being so rabid?

Third off, for all of his supposed ‘crimes’, he paid for it by dying as a disgraceful Madman rather than a Hero who really saved the village. He is someone who should be celebrated like Naruto but instead died proudly as a Traitor of Konoha.

All in all, One of the wonderfully written character I have ever seen in the media. 

Best Moments:

Itachi vs Sasuke (That battle was a pure brilliance and highly emotional especially after knowing the truth. When Sasuke released his Kirin, Itachi showed off his ultimate armour Susanoo like a badass. Seeing Susanoo for the first time gave me chills. No, Sasuke didn’t kill him. Itachi died on his own)

Itachi vs Orochimaru (Man, Itachi may look mellow but when it comes to Orochimaru he is a pure Sass. He screwed that snake up both the times by a wide margin. It seems Uchiha brothers like to fuck up Orochimaru, LOL)

Talk-No-Jutsu’ing Naruto (Geez, Naruto was being completely bratty and was full of saviour complex like he was going to bear everyone’s hatred by himself. I was almost annoyed. Thanks to Itachi, he realised. Probably he is the only character to shut Naruto using his own jutsu)

Izanami’ing Kabuto (Other than Naruto, he is the only character to go out of his way to empathize with a villain and put extreme effort to change him. I think this is why Sasuke loves Naruto, for seeing these similarities??? ).

Goodbye to Sasuke (The first time when he said ‘Forgive me, Sasuke. This is the last’ by poking his forehead and finally closing the distance by butting with Sasuke’s head softly saying ‘I will love you always’.... It always evokes uncontrollable tears in me, no matter how many times I watch it 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭)

HONOURABLE MENTION

Uchiha Obito

God, Am such a sucker for Uchiha guys individually, though collectively as a clan they fucked up big time. I simply couldn’t find the place for him in the top 10. He is a classic example of What Naruto will be like if he becomes a villain?

However, all those horrible stuffs he did just for a girl whom he had a crush on which was never reciprocated seems childish. That’s why I couldn’t put him in Top 10.

And his understandable but weird obsession on Naruto was always enjoyable to watch. 

One cute thing I liked about him was, whatever criminal stuffs he may have done, he was never a cheapskate though. He had every chance to take back Kakashi’s Sharingan to activate his own Susanoo. But he never even thought of such an idea. He was a bad guy. But a good friend, no matter what. 

Pure Baby!!! But lost his way!!!

Best Moments:

Importance of Team Work (’In the ninja world, Those who break the rules are  scum. But those who abandon their comrades are worse than scum’. This very legacy he left to Kakashi came to defeat him later. And Naruto follows this motto even today)

Sacrificing his Sharingan (’I am giving you my Sharingan. No matter what the villagers say, you are a great Jonin. Please take it’. Awww!!! Obito. He left his Sharingan which helped Kakashi to complete a jutsu called ‘Chidori’, which is a go-to jutsu of Sasuke)

Thanks for the ask, anon. I thoroughly enjoyed writing this. ❤️

[stray-kids-react]

Doing WAP dance perfectly

(If you don't know what WAP is. It's a suggestive dance with a lot of twerking and grinding.)

Masterlist

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Bang Chan

° Chan always called you cute, you would try your hardest to be hot... But he'd still see you as an adorable lil bean. You became worried that he didn't see you in a sexual way at all, and decided to see if you could possibly get him flustered by doing such a dirty dance.

° You wore the sexiest outfit in your closet, leaving barely anything to the imagination. You walked into Chan's studio with a large trench coat hiding the treat you had in store for your boyfriend. Noticing Chan was alone, you decided to let the coat drop to your feet.

° Blush crept onto his cheeks, bottom lip bittne by his teeth. It was making a mark on him, until you started the music. That song was too much of a meme to be sexy to him, especially since Felix tried to attempt it in front of him once and gave up half way.

° Even if you looked extremely sexy while pounding into the ground, he couldn't help but giggle by the choice of song. If it were something more sensual and romantic, than he would be on the ground with you. But WAP turned him off quite a bit.

"Chan! I wanted to be sexy... Am I not hot?"

"Of course you are hot, it's just the song."

Lee Know

° Minho is a tease who loves you very much, but is not a fan of that trend. He can't help but cringe when he sees someone do it in public for everyone to see, he doesn't know why but it just effects him a lot in all of the wrong ways. But you didn't know this.

° While he alone in the dance practice room, you walked in with WAP blaring from your phone. You then put it on the bench and began to dance along with it perfectly, the phone was recording everything. Including Minho's uncomfortable expression.

° He was impressed by your hips, but the whole song and trend gave him terrible flashbacks to the tiktok he witnessed before. Even if he wanted to smile, it came off very fake or turned into some mixture of cringe and fake happiness.

° Minho did not want to hurt your feelings, but he truly couldn't help it when you did the WAP dance. You thought he was teasing you and trying to annoy you, and you continue to think that til this day. But he was truly not impressed by that trend that you did.

"I know you secretly loved it, don't deny it."

"Oh trust me, I won't deny anything."

Changbin

° You were trying so hard to learn this dance, you wanted to do it for yourself and to also impress your boyfriend. Even when you failed miserabley, Changbin still sent hearts of encouragement and asked if you could give him another show of it.

° He would be lying if he denied that he didn't get a tiny bit turned on when you pounded into the ground, but he didn't want to make you feel uncomfortable so he didn't tell you unless you noticed or asked him about it. Which you did a couple of times.

° Wonders how your body can move so smoothly while doing such harsh and sexual moves, especially when it comes to the twerking. You challenged Changbin to twerk with you, and you weren't surprised when he was actually pretty good at it.

° Will record the challenge, helping you edit it and re recording it if you don't like the final product. Changbin is supportive of your interests and even if he isn't overly into WAP, he finds anything you do breathtaking. And think your better than Cardi B herself.

"I swear you are better than Cardi B babe."

"Stop buttering me up lover boy."

Hyunjin

° Truly conflicted. He is impressed by your dance skills, but also doesn't want your followers to see you dancing so proactively. He wants to be the only one to see you acting this way, but he also finds it a bit amusing on how serious you seem.

° Your dancing to a song called 'Wet Ass Pussy' and yet your face seems like your doing an interview at the job of your dreams. This will calm his nerves a tiny bit, knowing you aren't doing this to get attention. But rather because you're bored and wanted to.

° Will sometimes hum along to the song while it's playing, getting shy if he reads out the dirty lyrics about sex. Even though it has become more of a meme than a sensual getting it on song, it still makes him flustered because of how raunchy it is.

° Claps when you've finally succeeded the dance, smiling proudly since he saw how hard you worked for a non benefitial trend. Once you posted the challenge, he would like and save it immediately. Secretly watching it while he goes on tour.

"Does it hurt when you hump the ground?"

"You get used to it after a while."

Han

° Knew that you were going to want to do it, you like to try out different trends to see if you like them or not. He just wasn't expecting to see you do WAP so closely, he thought he'd scroll through tik tok and then you'd be twerking on his feed.

° He was scrolling through Instagram when you got up and began to do the dance, he was trying to comprehend what was going on since you did so out of the blue. Became your personal cheerleader when you went into the splits, hyping you up quite a bit.

° Won't see it as a sensual dance, is more impressed than turned on. He'll high five you afterwards, and then 'high fives' your toosh for doing most of the work. You will become flustered with his compliments, giggling as he drums your bottom teasingly.

° Goes through your social media accounts later, to make sure there aren't any pervs commenting degrading things. If he sees any he'll report them, knowing he is the only one to say things such as 'that's some fine peice of ass' to you.

"Baby, are you scrolling my comments?"

"mhm, there are some creepy followers."

Felix

° Tik tok master, already knows all of the moves and probably taught you them. Felix likes to boost your confidence up and become your own personal happiness, even if you thought you looked cringey and horrid in the video, he'd tell you the opposite.

° Won't force you to do it in front of people or even post the video, even though you look amazing he still doesn't mind if keeping it private. Is a protective sunshine who would feel a bit of relief if you didn't post it, but would never ever admit that to you.

° When you were your best friend was visiting, you both decided to attempt the popular trend. She stopped half way through do to laughter, while you kept going. Felix rushed to you from the kitchen, beginning to throw money on you to enhance the laughter.

° If you get embarrassed when dialing one of the many attempts, he'll comfort you and shower you with kisses til you feel better. Over all he is a sweetheart who cherishes your happiness, and he'll do anything to hear your beautiful laugh and see your smile.

"Don't be shy love *kiss* you were great. *kiss*."

"The kisses make me more shy Felix."

Seungmin

° Knew you were on tik tok, and witnessed you attempt a couple of trends, mosy dance challenges. But never expected you to do WAP, you both were generally introverted and were much more soft with each other in public rather than all over each other.

° Even in photos of you two together, the most anyone will see is hand holding. That's why many people were surprised to see you doing such a bold and raunchy dance for many people to see, the reason behind it was a dare from your close friend.

° A staff member showed him the video, giggling as they couldn't beleive what you did. Seungmin smiled, seeing you so confident and bold made him feel proud. He wasn't upset or jealous in the slightest, he was extactic to see you be so confident.

° When he arrived home, you asked him about his opinion on the video. He could tell you didn't like it and were self conscious about it. So instead o replying at first, he embraced you in a gentle hug. Rubbing your shoulder blades as he complimented you.

"You looked stunning in the video."

"A-are you sure? Don't lie to me Seungmin."

Jeongin

° Stray kids knew you for as long as they knew Jeongin, you were his best friend turned lover and they saw you as family. That is why it made it 10x more awkward for both you and Jeongin when Felix noticed your newest post on tik tok.

° You thought you saved it privately, and did NOT want it to be public due to having such an open account with many followers. Your family even followed your account, so this made you nearly pass out knowing many people have already seen this video.

° You immediately deleted the video, even though it was far too late. Jeongin was a bit shy from witnessing you do such a raunchy dance, but he wanted to comfort you nonetheless. His ears were bright pink as you clung onto him, trying to calm down.

° A couple days after the incident, Minho and Han would tease you lightly. Jeongin occasionally joined in, unless he noticed you became very flustered and would then put a stop to the teasing. He still found it adorable how embarrassed you were of the video.

"What if my mom saw this!?"

"... What if she didn't. There is a chance."

[sunaswife]

Family | dad! Nanami Kento

Summary: Kento’s emo teenage son is going through some things

Warning: fluff, slight angst, Nanami being a good fucking dad :’)

🔪: I wish I had a dad lol

Nanami couldn’t help but jump when he heard the front door of his house slammed close. He peered out of the kitchen to see his son running up the stairs clearly distressed. Nanami sighed and left his precious tea behind to see what was wrong like a good father should. Your son’s door was closed and there was a red and white ‘KEEP OUT’ sign outside. My Chemical Romance was playing loud from inside the room bringing a form of nostalgia to Nanami.

He tried to hide his small smile and he knocked on his sons door. “Kyo..is everything okay?” He asked, instantly your son panicked and tried wiping away the eyeliner off from their eyes, they didn’t know Kento came home early. “Um leave me alone dad I don’t feel good.” They lied.

“Your moms makeup wipes can help with that.” Kento leaned on the doorway and pointed out causing Kyo to panic. What would their father think? They knows how strict and serious their father is, would Kento judge them? “D-dad I— I can explain.” Kyo said quickly and shut off the music. “Explain then.” Kento said and sat on the swirly chair, their father naturally had this serious aura which intimidated Kyo. They immediately wanted to shut down but decided it was now or never. “I like listening to this type of music and I like the way they dress and do their makeup, when I do my makeup like this I get stares and the kids at school whisper and I feel sad. I’m a loner, nobody wants to be friends with me. I don’t know how else to explain how I feel, you wouldn’t understand and I can’t even understand what I feel.”

“Oh I understand and you not understanding yourself is normal.” Kento nodded leaving Kyo confused, “Dad, you’re a sorcerer you don’t have a social life.”

“Okay now that’s offensive.” Kento pointed out, “I had the emo hair and all that jazz. I was the silent and ‘mysterious’ type at school. I just thought I was pretty reserved.” He shrugged. “Who called you silent and mysterious?” Kyo tried to stifle a laugh. “Your mother did.” He simply said. “Oh no I don’t wanna hear a cringey love story.” Your son covered their ears. “Don’t worry no love stories. But you’re not alone Kyo. It was the same for your mother before she transferred to Jujutsu Tech. She had the crazy hair that changed color every other month, a fiery personality and she didn’t take shit from anyone. She was the odd one out and that’s how we bonded. We shared an interest in music and always argued which band was superior. Your mother was a Green Day fan when I preferred My Chemical Romance.”

“Woah no way dad, it seems like you know your stuff.” Kyo said, “Of course I know my stuff, that box of CD’s are mine. I’m assuming you found them in the basement?” He motioned to the box by their bed. Kyo faces heated up and they nodded, “Sorry for not asking.”

“It’s fine. Wanna check out the clothes your mom and I used to wear?” He asked and his heart melted when his sons eyes lite up. “First fix your eyeliner.” Kento left and came back with makeup wipes. “You’re not mad I wear makeup..?” His son asked, “I don’t care, it’s how you want to express yourself. Who am I to judge?” Kento began wiping the smeared makeup away. When his sons face was clean he pulled out your eyeliner and eyeshadow from his pocket. “There.” Kento said and handed it to his son. Kyo tried to not get emotional and they began fixing their eyes to how they liked it. Kento sat on their bed patiently waiting as he skimmed through the old albums and vinyls he put away over a decade ago.

When Kyo’s makeup was finished they turned to look at Kento and Kento smiled. “You look just like your mom.” He said a ruffled their hair. “I look like a girl?”

“No you look like you. Unless you want to look like a girl then that’s fine too.” Kento said as he lowered the stairs to the attic. “Well my pronouns are they/them.” Kyo said. “Ah..do you get offended when your mother and I call you son? We can easily switch the ‘he’ to ‘they’.” Kento helped them up the attic. “I don’t mind ‘son’ if it’s you guys.” They said. “Understood.” Kento gave a slight nod.

“It’s surprisingly easy to talk to you. I usually opened up with just mom.” They said. “I can be a little cold and reserved at times. But I’m glad we got to talk just us two, just know that I love you.” Kento turned his head and continued looking for the boxes of clothes. “Aha.” He said a swiftly pulled out the dusty box. He found another and one more. The two carefully took them down from the attic and placed them in the living room.

Outfit after outfit, Kyo was in love. They couldn’t imagine you or their dad wearing any of these but at the bottom of the box was another box. Dr. martens to be exact and it was full of Polaroids. “That’s you?” Kyo pointed and Nanami nodded. “That’s mom?” Kyo asked and he nodded once more. “Oh my god you both were so cool! ....what happened?” They asked earning a look from their dad.

“My my this brings back memories.” You sighed as you took your shoes off at the entrance, you dropped your bag and sat next to your husband. “M-mom I—“ “You’re fine.” You smiled causing Kyo’s eyes to water. “I had a feeling this would happen.” You said, “Is that why you told me to store everything instead of throwing it away?” Your husband asked and you nodded. “I always wanted you to go through an emo phase.” You told your son. “It’s not a phase mom.” They said and you grinned. “I said the same thing. Now go on and model the clothes! I’ll wash them after.” You said and Kyo nodded and left with an outfit.

“Our son wants to be referred as they/them.” Kento said as you cuddled into his chest. “Then don’t call them son.” You replied. “They said son was okay only if us two say it.” Kento defended himself and you nodded. You both heard footsteps coming and turned your attention to your son. You began clapping like crazy and screamed. “That’s my child!” You said proudly. “Our child.” Kento nudged. “Fine. Our child.” You mocked causing Kyo to laugh. “Spin!” You encouraged and they did. “The creepers give your outfit an extra oomp.” You said causing Kento to shake his head. “I like how you took your moms chains and combined them with my old jeans. The Rob Zombie shirt is a nice touch.” Kento said.

“Thank you both again..” Kyo said with a small smile. “Thank you for being such an amazing kid.” You said as you reached into your pocket. “I got this letter in the mail. Middle school is almost over and you’ve been invited to go to Jujutsu Technical Institute. You’ll see Gojo sensei and Itadori sensei everyday.” You said causing Kento to groan.

Theirs eyes widened and they gave a firm nod.

“Let’s do it.”

“Jujutsu tech better welcome their first ever non-binary sorcerer with open arms or else mama bear will tell off the elders.”

“That’s not necessary mom.”

“It’s necessary.”

“You too dad?”

[ambivalent-anarchy]

Defending Peter Parker (Round 1: Andrew Garfield)

Here <- Read this one too if you want (you don't need it to understand this one... but still.. give me the attention🥴)

Soooooo I'm doing this cuz I'm bored to show y'all how dumb some of your arguments and criticisms of the live action spidermen are. I'm doing Holland next. I'll do Maguire if someone shows me where people have hated on his spidey cuz all I ever see for him is people treating him like he's the most perfect Peter Parker to ever exist. I'd never tell anyone how they're "supposed" to feel about a situation so I won't do that and also don't take this seriously I'm just a dumb teenager. I'm just taking the dumb opinions y'all like to pass as fact and rebutting them with actual facts.

Here <- link for Tom (coming later)

"hE's ToO cOoL"

This just tells me you don't really read the comics. Or if you do, you only read for one type of Peter Parker. People forget that his character is FLUID.

The completely BS idea that Peter Parker is this insanely socially inept uwu guy is just really false and I don't know where it came from. (Oof welp, actually I do. It came from all the people that think that there can only be one type on top) The hate for Andrew's Peter is so unwarranted. There are so many versions in comics and in shows where Peter's not overly awkward and he's actually pretty confident and does good with making friends. People really just took Tobey Maguire's and said that his was the only version that could possibly be right so apparently that made Andrew's wrong? Like no. Tobey's is not law. He was one of many versions and just because Andrew's was cooler, it did not make his wrong. Check out the spiderman cartoons. Literally any spiderman comic. Peter's got swagger when the story calls for it.

"cRiNgEy AcTiNg"

This is the only point where I'll use my opinions. If you can, with a straight face, say that the acting in TASM was cringey, but the Tobey Maguire movies are your favorites, you're either a pathological liar or you have absolutely no sense. The Tobey Maguire spider-man movies, while still being good, have literally the cringiest acting I've ever seen. They literally have a whole montage of the dude strutting down the street like an idiot to show that he's being "bad" like??? But your problem is Andrew Garfield's quirks? Um, next caller!

"sKaTeBoArDiNg & pHoToGrApHy"

(Yes. I've heard this idiotic one before)

Again. Read a comic book. Tobey Maguire's is not law. (Also, Tobey's spidey had photography too sooooooo? I am confusion?? Why do ppl even have a problem with what hobbies he does or doesn't have? That has nothing to do with the character)

"nO-oNe CaReS aBoUt HiS pArEnTs' StOrY"

...hehe fair 👀, keep going.

"i DoNt LiKe GwEn"

Okay, I'm all for Gwen Stacy slander here, just not TASM Gwen Stacy slander. The chemistry was there and she was MUCH better than little miss Mary "you didn't see my play, peter" Jane. (I wont put her over Zendaya tho) She was a really good love interest and honestly their chemistry was one of the best parts of the movie. Gwen never tried to hold Peter back and she always helped out as much as she could.

"gOoD sPidErMaN, bAd PeTeR"

This ties right back into the first one. Everyone had a view of what Peter Parker was "supposed" to be after Tobey Maguire's, so when Andrew's came out and he wasn't "nerdy enough" for people, they immediately assumed it was wrong and hated on him for being cool and funny.

All in all I give Andrew Garfield's Peter an 8/10. He's super cool and I despise it when people hate on his character and his acting as if he didn't BLESS them by gracing their screens.

Comment anything I might've missed!

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