#im coping in normal and healthy ways

[shyaringan]

arcane fandom is this anything

[basu-shokikita]

tbh one of those things I’m completely hellbent on is that murderface is gay. not bisexual and definitely not hetero. gay. men lover. cuck slurper. pillow biter. a fully fledged HOMO no doubt about it

[rinkara]

I hate the fact that I actually get triggered by shit like an anime ship because 1) everyone thinks I mean the pop psychology version but I mean the real one. and 2) who the fuck gets actually triggered by some shit like that lmao. it's not normal and I hate it but I also can't really control it. it's RSD related which some people think is fake but whatever, all I can say is I nearly get a panic attack from it sometimes because it makes me remember every time in my life I've ever been rejected or bullied or whatever, even if the thing itself is not directed at me or even intended to be negative. so I just isolate myself from any potential triggering situations, which leads to.... umm isolating myself from everyone I could otherwise be friends with and it really sucks haha anyway just gotta do my do my do my thang (yes the word trigger got it stuck in my head)

the good news is that the more I touch grass or get into other stuff the easier it is to avoid these things, and the bad news is that I'm avoiding something I still do love and it sucks. and I am afraid to make any new friends in other fandoms etc in case I develop the same problem again. or even get too far into something because the more I care, the more likely I am to start getting irrational about it. anyway no one here knows what I'm even talking about lmao so sorry for being vague. I appreciate the few people who have engaged with my insane posts about stuff on here it means a lot

[windupaidoneus]

picture me like a ffxiv minion running around in circles at very high speed I FEEL LIKE SUCH A BURDEN AHHYAAHAHAHAAHAHA!!! WAEEEHHH XD okay im good No im not i need to be euthanised

[neptune-scythe]

If I ever write a fic without major character death or graphic depictions of violence assume I have been kidnapped and am calling for help

[kralierror404]

SIT DOWN CHAT. ITS RANT TIME.

What do you mean Alex started making his actual film when he was aroud 20 and then at age 27-28 he fucking dies. I cant. He was so young and it ruins me man, i gotta rant about my fave.

Alex seemed so determined and happy about making this movie, it had auditions, a trailer, a few recorded takes that never released, his “best” friend literally got cast as the main character for it!! - bro was so excited for ppl to audition for his project (you can hear it in his voice when hes talking to Brian abt asking Tim to try out). Alex also literally declined going to dinner so he could work on things for Marble Hornets. He had such a nice like friendgroup too Brian, Tim, Jay.

Like Alex pre-operator was probably the sweetest guy imo, he was proud of the people working with and for him, he cared about them (he says hes very proud of Jay and also asks Tim abt his like coughing), he was also quite patient i believe.

Then yk shit hits the fan over the 3 months Marble Hornets is being shot and he changes so so much its so insane - he gets paranoid and irritable and his passion isnt all there anymore :C which probably was really upsetting, and maybe caused some internal confusion and conflicting feelings in himself of: “Why cant i just be normal!?” meaning he’s kinda at war with himself. Also not to mention he was going through the operators effects alone at the time so its not like he could just bring it up without sounding crazy, he probably felt so alone and that no one would understand.

As we know he moves away, probably to hopefully escape whatever was happening to him and to put things behind him, to start over in a new place, where its safe and thats with Amy!. Now ive brought this up before but idc- he says on the phone to her

“Im gonna come visit you soon okay?”

“Okay.”

“And while im up there we might actually film a few things for Marble Hornets”

“Good i could use the company.”

“Actually uh..ive been thinking, i might try to transfer there after im done shooting all this.”

(That to me is Alex already planning to stop shooting it, already making plans to move with Amy but hes still unsure if he’ll be putting her in danger)

“For real?”

“Yeah, i mean the film program is better the one im at now so..i mean well thats what ive heard at least”

“Also i just dont like being this far away from you.”

(He says that so ominously but hes definitely like sure of himself and obviously Amy sees nothing wrong with it, she’s probably just happy that her boyfriend is going to come see her for the first time in..however long. Alex probably thinks he can keep her safe too)

MY POINT WITH THAT PHONE CALL ISS: His solution of escape was to 1. Burn the tapes and 2. Go to Amy to be safe but also to make sure SHES okay

Literally he thought that the operator and him murdering Brian would magically go away if he just left the area to be with someone who loved him, it was probably also his way of ignoring those things which all in all was a HORRIBLE coping mechanism (yk ignoring it) but heyy its Alex, he is not healthy. So, for 4 whole years he lives with Amy, away from everything and then WHOOPS Mr pale tall and skinny is there again to fuck up his day.

I honestly dont even wanna go in depth about how Alex mustve felt, how bad it must have hurt for his past to come back on him and find him somewhere he was meant to be okay. Also the way he probably killed Amy, did he make her feel secure then did it as she died in his arms? did she fight him? Amy does seem confrontational in a way- then he had to leave her behind, start anew AGAIN.

Except this time, he finds Jay has gotten himself involved and there is Alexs new goal, his new task that continues to drive him throughout the series that absolutely turns him into more of a horrible person: STOP THE SPREAD OF THE SICKNESS AND ‘SAVE’ EVERYONEE…except for that one guy he just killed while he was going insane.

One person i doubt he was trying to save eventually, was Brian, given that apparently Brian has been killed multiple times, instead Brian became like a pest getting in his way which makes sense. SO OVER THE COURSE OF 3-4 years, all this shit his happening and it gets to the point where Alex admits he thought HE was the problem (which in a way, he is), he shifts that blame onto Tim, then the big fight happens where they’re ultimately trying to kill eachother.

Alex is dying but as he is, he seems sorta sad, he fully believes he was doing the right thing and now, the only “right” thing to do, is die.

God its just his transition from making a silly student film and then 7 or 8 years later, dying due to an Eldritch being really messing up his and everyones life.

[jyndor]

that said ugh bix caleen, if someone more competent and less gross had written her:

has adhd, fiddles and tinkers to clear her mind and focus

is trying to move on from her dumbass ex who she loves in multiple ways in order to keep from falling into old toxic patterns - something she seems to understand in s1 but apparently forgets the minute cassian rescues her post torture, which is cool and healthy and not at all a red flag about the man who wrote them since it isn't written to be a red flag but a green light apparently

she can keep her little plants i love that for her actually tony you can have one thing

sex haver! but in a normal, not male gaze-y way - also has a girlfriend! because she should be queer and not just aggressively hetero 😭😭😭 (for that matter let cass fuck a man, melshi is right there jfc)

is already radicalized by being TORTURED WITH THE SCREAMS OF GENOCIDED CHILDREN and does not "need" to be the undocumented woman who gets sexually assaulted by an imperial officer while doing manual labor for a farmer, who is actually a collaborator and not a class traitor (bc im sorry? not the marxist theory show presenting a wealthy ag farmer as an ally of the rebels and not the fascists oh brother)

actually gets to spend time building her friendship with vel (and cinta bc cinta would not be dead)

actually follows her cultural values as established in s1, respects the dead - and does not use the audio of children being genocided as a girlboss uno reverse move on her torturer because she would NEVER. girl just beat his ass we know you can

absolutely believes in cassian's revolutionary potential since childhood but is an idealist and not a pragmatist like he is, so they do the leftist infighting

has unhealthy coping mechanisms that don't play into racialized xenophobic stereotypes :)))) nightmares and sleeplessness, cool! fair! reasonable - but then lets see her struggling to stay awake during the day, always drinking wayy too much caf, not doing the quality of work she used to do. maybe she isn't eating well, keep the anxiety she exhibits in the first arc, etc etc etc. maybe she lashes out at CASSIAN because of misdirected resentment, etc.

NO UNDOCUMENTED BABIES AS HOPE DURING THE WAR ON THE AG PLANET WHERE HER CHILDHOOD FRIEND GOT KILLED PLEASE

since this is the prequel to the EVERYONE DIES MOVIE she does have to go - maybe she doesn't die, maybe she does. but however it happens, it needs to be ABOUT HER. maybe she hears about the ghorman genocide and goes to help refugees because you know her bestie is a genocide survivor AND the dizonite genocide would and should be a sensitive issue for her. maybe she doesn't like what cassian is becoming, maybe she never imagined that him radicalized would mean that he'd become someone who leaves allies behind, maybe they HAVE been hooking up again and its super obviously unhealthy for both of them, and bix being tired of his codependence and paternalistic protective shit tells him to fuck off, maybe all of these things, but let it be ABOUT HER AND NOT ABOUT "CHOOSING THE REBELLION" FOR A GUY WHO SHOULD NOT NEED HELP CHOOSING THE REBELLION

maybe she goes back to LIBERATE FERRIX, finally having the understanding of how to do revolution! and she finally has her braids back in again for the first time since leaving

such fucking wasted potential jfc

[elasticitymudflap]

you think your boy Simon is gonna come back for season 2 or is he all arced out?

LISTEN *GRIPS U* SORRY IM ALL CAPS IM JUST BEING VERY NORMAL RN

SEASON 1 WAS BASICALLY ABOUT GETTING HIM TO THE POINT WHERE HE WAS SIMPLY NO LONGER LOOKING FOR AN EXCUSE TO THROW HIS LIFE AWAY, AND RECOGNIZING/NOT ROMANTICIZING THE CONCEPT OF SACRIFICE IN HIS RELATIONSHIP WITH BETTY BECAUSE OF HOW DISPROPORTIONALLY SHE SACRIFICED HERSELF FOR HIM IN WAYS HE WASN'T COGNIZANT OF.

IMHO:

SEASON 1 BARELY TOUCHED UPON ADDRESSING OR WORKING THROUGH HIS ICE KING TRAUMA. THIS IS MY FIRST MAIN THING I NEED THEM TO TOUCH UPON.

IT CONCERNS ME THAT SIMON DIDN'T EVEN COMPLETELY CONNECT THE DOTS IN THAT ALL THE CRAP WORLDS THEY WENT TO WERE HINGING ON WHO HE IS AND THE IMPACT HIS LOVE AND SACRIFICE (OR THE LACK THEREOF) HAD ON THE WORLD (DID SORT OF FOR A MOMENT IN THE STAR BUT NOT NEARLY ENOUGH IMO)

HE'S OBVIOUSLY STILL PROCESSING HIS YEARS TAKING CARE OF MARCY IN THE APOCALYPSE???? THERE WAS NO FOLLOW-UP WITH HER PHONECALL EVEN IN THE FINAL MONTAGE???? WHAT HAPPENED IN OOO WHEN HE DISAPPEARED??? THESE TWO NEED TO FUCKING TALK FOR REAL

WHAT DOES SIMON'S LIFE LOOK LIKE WHEN HE'S NO LONGER AN EXHIBIT?? HOW THE HELL DID HE BECOME/CONSENT TO BECOMING AN EXHIBIT IN THE FIRST PLACE I MEAN WHAT THE FUCK?? HOW DID HIS LIFE CHANGE SO DRASTICALLY (OR DID IT NOT) FROM OBSIDIAN??

THE MORAL OF "MAYBE WE SHOULD HAVE GONE ON THAT TRIP TO AUSTRALIA INSTEAD / WHO KNOWS WHAT LIFE WOULD HAVE BEEN LIKE" IS SO BAD FOR HIM TO END CONCLUSIVELY ON AFTER EVERYTHING WE'VE SEEN BECAUSE THE WORLD STILL FUCKING ENDED??? MAYBE HE FOUND THE CROWN, MAYBE HE DIDN'T, BUT EITHER WAY FROM WHAT WE SAW IN THE ALT WORLDS IT WAS ALL GOING TO END IN TRAGEDY AND MAYBE THIS IS THE ONLY WORLD WHERE WE GET A BITTERSWEET END INSTEAD OF A HELL WORLD THANKS TO THEIR DESICIONS??? IDK!!!!!! I'D LIKE TO EXPLORE THAT CONCEPT I THINK

THE UNIVERSE IS OUT OF HIS NOODLE, BUT DOES SIMON'S HEAD-PORTAL STILL WORK?? CAN HE CONNECT TO FIONNA WORLD IF HE'S IN HIGHLY CHARGED MAGICAL ENVIRONMENTS??? ACTUALLY, WHAT THE HELL ARE THE LONG TERM EFFECTS OF A HUMAN HAVING A UNIVERSE IN HIS DANG HEAD

HE'S CONNECTING WITH ASTRID NOW AND SEEMS TO BE ON MUCH BETTER TERMS, IS SHE GOING TO INSPIRE HIM TO START WRITING FIONNA AND CAKE STORIES AGAIN TO COPE IN A HEALTHY WAY WITH HIS PAST THIS TIME??

SIMON'S RELATIONSHIP WITH ICE THING???

SIMON'S HUMAN PAST IN GENERAL: WHY IS THIS DUDE THE WAY HE IS??? WHY DID HE BELIEVE THE THINGS HE DID, STUDY THEM, MAKE THEM THE THINGS HE HINGED HIS LIFE AND CAREER ON???

ON THAT NOTE: FLASHBACKS. MOTHER FUCKING FLASHBACKS. MORE OF HIS ADVENTURES WITH BETTY. WE ACTUALLY SEE SO LITTLE OF WHAT THEY WERE LIKE TOGETHER WHEN ACTUALLY HAPPY, HUMAN, AND IN A RELATIONSHIP TOGETHER, IN THEIR ELEMENT, AND NOT STRICKEN WITH LIFE-OR-DEATH DESICION MAKING EXCEPT FOR HIS DUMB ASS GETTING BRAINED BY A CHERRY JAR

HIS YEARNING TO FIND BETTY AND APOLOGIZE TO HER WAS "TECHNICALLY" HANDLED IN THE SHOW, BUT YOU CAN NOT TELL ME THIS DUDE DOESN'T HAVE LASTING ISSUES AND TRAUMA AROUND THAT. ABOUT THE FIRST TIME HE PUT ON THE CROWN AND BETTY DISAPPEARING FOREVER. ABOUT THE GUILT AND FEAR ABOUT HER BEING DEAD DURING THE WAR. ABOUT LIVING NINE FUCKING HUMAN LIFETIMES IN A HAZE WHERE ALL HE KNEW WAS HE HURT THE PERSON HE LOVED MOST AND HE JUST NEEDED TO FIND HER. IT BECAME AN INTEGRAL PART OF ICE KING'S CHARACTER, HIS MOST DEFINING TRAIT STRIPPED TO THE STUDS. HE HELD ONTO THAT LAST PIECE OF SIMON PETRIKOV SOME HOW UNTIL SO MUCH TIME HAD PASSED HIS ONLY HOPE TO EVER FIND HER AGAIN WAS TO USE TIME TRAVEL. I'D LIKE SOME MORE OF THAT, IF YOU PLEASE.

HOW IS HE ACTUALLY COPING POST-SEASON 1? WHAT ARE HIS THOUGHTS ON ALL THE WORLDS THEY VISITED, THE THINGS THAT HAPPENED TO HIM, THE IMPLICATIONS, HIS INTERPRETATIONS? HE MAY BE IN THERAPY BUT HE'S STILL DRINKING.

ANYWAY

[cringefail-clown]

at last, where doing it man where MAKING THIS HAPPEN

cringes jakehal fic rec list

just so were clear: some of the fics are unfinished, and havent been updated in a while. leaving a comment to let the author know that youre reading and youre enjoying it is fine, but dont be a bag of dicks and harass them over when the new chapter will be up. have some decency or else ill be inside your walls.

Heart by fawn_writes || rated T || 1/1 || 663 words - man its so good. short and sweet. jake comes by to witness the construction of hals new body while also reminiscing about the times he fought brobot and his untimely demise. a good sparkling of body worship. "Everything will be normal. They’ll manage to keep it normal. After all, Jake has enough of his own heart to share." - fuck, that lines so effervescent.

What he needs by fawn_writes || rated M || 1/1 || 1259 words - another banger from the same author. they be doing the horizontal tango, but nothings too graphic. healthy serving of body worship from jakes perspective, as well as his internal struggle with his apparent robotic attraction.

Dead Weight by squirtgunplay || rated M || 5/9 || 27337 words - oh that fic. oh my god. love me some zombie apocalypse au with existential horror sprinkled on top. hal and dirk are twins but with a twist in this one. theres mystery. theres injuries that make you incapable of moving around. theres ship of theseus discussion. its nourishing. its beautiful. jake and hals banter in this one is fucking amazing, and the author captures their characters so well. the relationship between hal and dirk is also very fucking good and heartwrenching and just ugh. stellar writing, the forth wall break made me laugh out loud, hal gets called a security camera (derogatory). theres graphic depictions of violence, so beware of the tags.

Tennessee Whiskey & You by MistLaFey || rated T || 5/? || 12217 words - major character death and graphic depictions of violence tagged, so beware and read the tags. no-sburb au. dirk fucking dies (its in the fic description so i dont feel like its a spoiler). beautiful exploration of grief, unhealthy coping mechanisms and trying to get back into the normal life when theres a big part of it suddenly missing. hal and dirk are twins. jake is not doing well. hal is also not doing well, but pretending he is. its heartbreaking and some scenes made my chest hurt. very good fic and i dont understand why it doesnt get more love. it deserves it. go read it, even just for the funeral scene, i got teary-eyed over it.

seconds by squirtgunplay || rated E || 2/2 || 18698 words - graphic depictions of violence and its no joke, presidential alert the girls are fightinnn!! but its also so funny and the authors so funny and its also really hot! no sburb au, hals a human and dirks twin. he gets kidnapped by a craigslist hitman jake who mistakes him for dirk. the banter is top game in this one. hal cant keep his mouth shut even in life or death situation. jakes a dork, but hes a deadly dork, and also cant keep his mouth shut about his personal problems. theres fistfighting and knifethrowing and hal gets a weapon put to his head at least twice and he thinks its pretty damn hot. theres banging in second chapter. what more can i say to sell you on this one. the characters are on point, the action is tense but its also written in a cheeky, fun way, smut is good, a npc gets unsubscribed from life. amazing fic, 10/10, will read it again.

I Think Therefore I AR by Taxi_Boy || rated T || 25/? || 30417 words - im saving the best for last. major character death. hal has to start the game and get his friends into the medium while dirk is missing, while also pretending to be dirk as to not raise their suspicions. im not going to say anymore about the plot, you just have to go and read the fic. genuinely my favourite jakehal - and homestuck in general - fic of all time. i love caliborn in this one. i cant wait to see what the author has cooked up for us in the future. its plainly genious.

these are only ao3 fics as i have no clue how tf you search other fanfic sites for a specific ship, but if you have any other recommendations feel free to add them onto this post! we all need some good jakehal fic recs in these trying times!

[strokeovapen]

Sorry if this is a bit strange to ask, its largely out of curiosity to see what youd think considering the knowledge you possess. Do you think there couldve been any good form of kittycorn’s coping? like, as in, if there were some healthy way to do it at all. ive seen some people (nonproshippers themselves) say they think proshipping could be fine if kept entirely private, and done in like brief lapses or just generally not constant. does this have any truth, in your opinion? COULD this have been healthy, had it just been brief sexual depictions of incest privately, without normalizing or rationalizing it, or devolving into making it into frequent porn or having a fetish for it? I guess im just wondering if maybe it can be something like how cnc is considered a fine coping mechanism, since theres a disconnect between it and sexualizing actual rape. im aware that kittycorn is far past the point of no return with what she does being considered healthy for her at all, but im wondering if there was maybe ever a point that could have been good for her, and maybe what so many proshippers base their idea of this stuff being a “good coping mechanism” in general on, that spiralled out of control? hope this was all easy to understand, im a bit rambley

To put it simply… this is a heavily nuanced topic.

In my personal opinion, sexualizing your incestual trauma, even without inherently “rationalizing” it, does not have any bearing as to whether it can actually “heal” you or not. From some quick shuffling around sources, there doesn’t seem to be any concrete evidence that proves sexualizing incest can help you heal in the long run. It can make you feel good temporarily, but for your future? We can’t tell you.

From personal experience, and especially by observing Kittycorn’s actions, it doesn’t seem to have helped her heal at all. Proshipping is not a practice I would like to recommend to anyone because of this. My concern isn’t inherently about the privacy of it, but the way it affects you as a person, and how it can bleed into your life and personal relationships.

Normalizing or sexualizing incest in media or personal fantasies can be deeply harmful to survivors and may trivialize their trauma, and sexualizing your trauma isn’t exactly a sign of being able to understand the true abusive nature of incest, but again this is very nuanced and is only my opinion based on personal life experiences and research.

Was there ever a point in which this could be healthy for her? The unbiased answer is, it’s hard to tell. But in my opinion, I don’t entirely think it ever would be healthy.

I do not interact with Proship communities for my own sake, but out of everything I have witnessed, it tends to be a very mixed community that in some cases tries to justify these immoral actions. And everyone is just kind of… cool with it, for some reason.

Whether it be the desensitization of these individuals or not is something I haven’t put too much thought into, but “Proship” seems to be a community that encourages and fetishizes fictional abuse rather than shipping some characters together. Proship communities very often come paired with romanticization of abusive tropes instead of consuming them with nuance, so I highly doubt they would be anything healthy at all.

[nobody-is-here01]

back on my bullshit, (im here to spam you Marine Luffy stuff)

Thinking about Marine Luffy’s dynamic with the 7 warlords and it's one of the funniest things ever.

Boa Hancock is going to get her own post because I have SO MUCH to say about her and Canon! Luffy along with Marine Luffy’s dynamic with her.

Anyway, personal headcanons of what I think Marine Luffy and the Warlords dynamics are.

Doflamingo: Luffy is usually the one who during Warlord meetings has to deal with Doflamingo’s bullshit. This is partially because Luffy is the only thing that really puts the fear of god back into Doflamingo. Also, Marine luffy is absolutely feral, and terrifying, and does indeed bite. I think in some twisted ways Luffy in this AU reminds Doflamingo of when he's younger. In some fucked up way of trying to cope with trauma Doflamingo tries to simulate situations that he went through as a kid to see how Luffy reacts. To see if things had been a bit better, if things had been different, if Doflamingo could have been a better person. The Dressrosa Arc still happens in this AU except a bit later. As Doflamingo’s tyrant rein finally falls he realizes that “huh maybe we never were that similar…”

(I have no idea if this AU is a Crocomom AU or not but I’ll go ahead and write up how it would go in either situations.)

Crocodile: Dynamic is definitely more cold and distant than in an AU where Crocodile is Luffy’s other parent. Luffy is seen as a threat, and Crocodile has at least 15 different drawn-up plans on how to deal with him. (none of these plans would actually work in practice.) The dynamic is pretty much just business, you leave me be I’ll leave you be.

Crocomom: Similar to the first one. Except the first time he meets Luffy and he hears that he's Garp's grandkid he's freaking the fuck out. Because holyshit, that's his alive, grownup, kid. Crocodile has no idea how to explain to Luffy that like “hey im your biological mother, now a man, hahaha…” So Crocodile simply doesn't. (The two of them do have a heart-to-heart much later alone in Impel down during the breakout.)

Moria: Honestly I don't have much to say about him. Luffy absolutely hates Hogback and Absolom though. So Luffy has a dislike for Moria and what he does. But Moria out of all the warlords not including Kuma is the easiest to deal with, so that earns him some brownie points.

Kuma: Im not sure if you caught up with the latest chapters. (specifically his backstory chapters) so I will be staying silent for now as not to spoil anything for you.

Mihawk: Mihawk is both intrigued and concerned at the beginning. Because that is Shank’s hat, and Shank’s kid. Why is Shank’s brat in the Marines?? Mihawk also like all the other warlords tends to use Luffy as some form of a coping mechanism. It's not uncommon to hear about Luffy and Mihawk getting into another physical fight. But after a while, Mihawk does realize that he has been accidentally treating Luffy as if he is Shanks. Mihawk realizes that he can't force Luffy to become his new sparring partner. Luffy is not Shanks, and he can't fill that hole either. After Marine Ford Mihawk reads the news regularly, a rare grin on his face whenever he catches sight of a straw hat.

Jinbei: That is Luffy’s emotional support parental figure your honor! The only one who is normal, safe, and sane. Also, the only one to look at Luffy and go “Are you okay?? I don't think healthy humans are supposed to act like that.” Also, the one to get Luffy to open up and heal slowly after Marineford. Also Luffy definitely knows the full truth of what happened to Fisher Tiger in this AU, so yeah that's something.

(I am so sorry, this is a really long post 💀)

Aaaahhhhhh!!! I've missed you and your bullshit bombarding my asks!

I love how with each dynamic all of them are also like, 'alright this kid is fucked up, keep an eye on him' but for different reasons

So here are some of my thoughts on what Marine Luffy’s relationship is with the warlords (love yours so much)

Crocodile : so unfortunately not a coco-mom au, like you said their relationship is strictly business, Luffy doesn't really care for the warlords as long as they don't get in his way.

Domflamingo : Luffy finds him kinda annoying so he tries to avoid any situation where he would meet him, unfortunately he can't at warlord meetings, but he's tried, probably one of the only warlords Luffy wouldn't mind punching out of the blue, dude would punch him without reason (gets away with it too)

Kuma : (no sadly not that far yet but I know a bit of his background not much though) but Luffy likes him

Moria : almost the same relationship as Domflamingo, except he just straight up avoids him, unless he has to deal with Moria then he will and he'll do it quickly

Mihawk : one of the few warlords Luffy actually respects, he admires his fighting and his character, granted it annoyed him a bit to constantly be reminded of Shanks, like you said he also like the other warlords used luffy as some form of coping, but after he realized what he did he stopped and him and Luffy kinda became like gossip buddies, like they'd hang out whenever Mihawk was in the area, but Luffy wouldn't actively seek him out, Mihawk would have to come to him if he wanted someone to talk to or spar with,

Jimbe : only warlord and person that Luffy actually likes from the warlords, yes he likes Mihawk, but Jimbe is different, Luffy has a sort of awe for Jimbe and felt very honored to know about him and his past with Fisher Tiger, Jimbe is the only one who knows that Luffy secretly wishes he was a pirate instead of a Marine, when Jimbe asked why Luffy didn't just become a pirate now Luffy replied saying that he's made so many promises to the people he protects that he doesn't want to go back, not now at least, Jimbe is also the only one who knows about Ace and Sabo and how much Luffy misses them and how proud he is of them

absolutely love your asks 🩷

Have aa good day/night

[thepatchworksys]

ppl be normal about alters having different opinions from the rest of the sysyem. harmful ones. radqueers, bigots, pedos. whatever! the system cant control that. no it doesnt reflect on the rest of the system. and most of all its not weird or uncommon.

But hey, you might ask: why? why would your mind form a racist alter?

its a good question! the brain tries to help us cope in a lot of weird ways. An alter can form as a stress response, its the brains way of "helping". But it can be bad help because the brain is far from perfect.

Heres an example: Jamie has did, she is having intrusive thoughts about sexual assault. its horrid and she cant deal with this anymore! -> brain splits to cope -> this new alter has thoughts of sexual assault and enjoys those thoughts and fantasies. the new alter doesnt believe sexual assault is wrong, so they can handle the thoughts- unlike jamie, who was disgusted and horrified.

Another example: Silas is gay, but he is having a hard time coping. His parents dont accept him. -> brain splits to cope -> this new alter is very homophobic. they try to convince silas to renounce being gay, so he can become straight and not struggle as much. They also agree with the systems parents when they front, negating conflict.

Another nother example: Lucy is healing from her trauma, she grew up in a cult and has osdd. However, she feels deeply uneasy - her new life is safe but different and unfamiliar. She is deeply homesick and feels guilt for it. -> brain splits to cope -> Lucys new alter is a cultist. They become a xenosatanist and join a "faux online cult" in the radqueer community. It feels comfortable and familiar to be in a 'cult' again.

Those are 3 examples of alters forming with harmful mindsets. Traumagenic alters form as a result of trauma as a way to cope- But that doesnt mean the coping mechanism is healthy.

As well as this, alters are identities. You may view your alters as their own people or as parts of 1 people, but either way alters are identities based around personalities, traits, and opinions. Just like any singlet, they will pick up their own opinions which might be harmful, because they have their own identity!

Example: Julia and Yuki are a system of two. Julia is very pro trans! However, Yuki has started spending some time on reddit and has been exposed to TERF ideals. Yuki is convinced and agrees with them, because like anybody, Yukis opinions can change and be swayed by her environment. Julia is upset and disagrees, but the terf mindset aligns with Yukis morals so she believes it.

Its not Julias fault that Yuki expressed autonomy and free will. Yuki's mind was changed by an outside force and Julia couldnt control that. The only thing Julia can do is try to convince Yuki otherwise but she cant force it.

This isnt to say its ok to have/act on these beliefs- im just saying that it is not a moral failing of the system to have a harmful or bigoted alter, and there are tons of valid reasons why. So please please be nice to your sys friends. Their alters harmful opinion doesnt mean the whole system shares it. The sys is probably doing their best, you just have to support them along the way.

[syscciht]

really dumb question, why do you ship dreammare? (YOUR ART IS SO COOL BTW !!!)

tahnky uou…

i think i enjoy dreammare a lot particularly for the sun and moon motif. its like. so poetic and elegant and gives me a reason to make them pretty and celestial when they kiss fhdkkd. though also a part of shipping them (and other ships im a little more private about) is just a thing i use to cope and have fun.

i think topics like incest and guilt and abuse etc make a story flavorful and better than a happy healthy normal couple. when i do rps or just think about them i enjoy working out their feelings and why they’re the way they are (trauma or mental disorders)… a psychology topic im really obsessed with are paraphilias and i like incorporating them into my writing and ideas (especially since paraphilias can cause guilt in those who are affected). snickers i just like making my favorite characters guilty for wanting to kiss their brother (dream and swan in particular).

i also think theyre just pretty together?? my most recent drawing of them is so pretty i think. dream’s glowy yellow is so pretty against nightmare’s dark teal. sun and moon.. dark and light.. negativity and positivity.. good and bad.. opposites attract :3

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im gonna talk about the title of my cypher character study bc its very important to me! and im adding a readmore for spoiler purposes :)

i wavered between a couple of titles, the closest possibility being "i just need enough of you to dull the pain". this was mostly because the possibility of it being misinterpreted was lower compared to the actual title of "i'm in love with my own sins". i settled on the latter because i think it's truer to what i'm trying to convey; that being, cypher's relationship to sova in this fic and how it doesn't matter at all.

i've tried to show different types of dynamics in my cypher/sova fics, a handful of those being sexual but nonromantic (the bounty hunter/outlaw fic, the enclosed space fic, and some other WIPs) but this one is important in particular because there's such an absence of a platonic or even a compromise in place of a romantic relationship. cypher and sova have basically no chemistry beyond understanding each other's humor.

cypher's perspective of himself as someone who hasn't earned everything he has kind of captures the first point; him viewing pleasure as a "sin", or something to be guilty about. he doesn't think he deserves what he has, independent of sova-- that he shouldn't be able to put down his work or the physical burden he has turned his grief into.

then there's the other aspect of that, which is the fact that he's "in love" with his sin. i was worried about misinterpretation on that point because i really didn't want to create the assumption of romance (or even a solidly platonic relationship between them). cypher's not in love with sova, or even technically with what he considers his "sin", he's trying to tell himself he is. convincing himself to like what he's doing, or to fall "in love" with it is key to how he's failing to cope with his grief. if he were to think of it any other way, it'd be to accept happiness that he does not deserve, or to acknowledge that he's failing to handle it.

despite cypher's lack of a perspective on sova's character, sova himself is very important to the fic; sova views his dislike of cypher as a flaw in his professionalism, and he feels compelled to tell cypher that. to me, there isn't a whole lot of an implied relationship of any kind between them in actual valorant canon beyond general dislike from sova towards cypher, and even then i don't think sova would allow it to become something that impacts his professional relationship when working with cypher. so i tried to write it at a point where sova's distant from him, but there is that vague idea that they're skirting around a legitimate improvement of their relationship because cypher doesn't want a half-apology and sova isn't willing to give him a real one.

there's still that question of why sova accepts. he recognizes that cypher's dealing with something and he's not dealing with it in a healthy way. he's not there to question it. sova in this fic cares, being a mentor figure in the protocol, because he's used to having to act as a sort-of buffer, but it's not much more than that. he's content to let cypher work through what he's working through. it could be sova trying to understand cypher instead of disliking him on the principle of honesty, but cypher (or me, to be honest,) isn't clearheaded enough to see that. all of that may have left him a little flatter than id like, but i also think it makes sense from cypher's perspective for him to be characterized like that.

in general, this work was a really big change from how i normally characterize and portray them, and i enjoyed it a lot! but, that being said, i would probably find it painful to write another fic that leaves sova's character so unspoken. i just wanted to practice some of the details of cypher's character that i'm not very good at expressing.

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Heyo Im gonna rant about a horrendously bad and disingenuous take I saw on twitter concerning pricesoap

Undermine and invalidate???

What Price says is that the radiated wild dogs feeding on human corpses in Pripyat are more fearsome than the regular domesticated Russian K9s. That is all he says (and he's right). To think what Price is doing is invalidating Soap, of all things...christ

For the sake of the argument though, lets imagine Price said something along the lines of "You think these are scary? You haven't seen the dogs in Prypyat." it still would not be invalidating Soap's feelings. Do you know ribbing eachother is what soldiers do all the time? Do you honestly think Soap would be hurt over this???

But yeah I mean, they should have had a long heartfelt convo instead, and on the same freq. channel for Roach to hear, in the middle of a covert infil on enemy ground. Yes.

First of all, Price most likely didn't know about the rabies. In the journal, Soap writes he doesn't want to tell Price, and Nikolai "seems capable of keeping a secret".

Second of all, again--Price literally says none of those things oh my goddd. Soap doesn't bring up his personal experience with Russian dogs, but his feelings towards dogs in general. All what Price does is fucking talk about his own, not Soap's, experience with dogs.

Third of all, AGAIN-- they are special forces operators. If Price knew about the rabies all he would likely do is tease Soap about it, just like Soap teases Price about his age, moustache, and Price about Soap's near death experiences. This is normal for them, they're bloody soldiers not HR office workers, graveyard/offensive humour is a coping strategy and a part of the military culture as is banter!!!

Third of all, Soap is happy because his friend/mentor he thought to be gone is alive and kicking. When Soap says "good to have you back" it's an indicator of how much Soap values Price. Soap likes to keep the comms clean. During 'the gulag' mission, Soap tells Ghost off for yapping, but here in 'Contingency' Soap is so glad to have Price back he breaks his own standards to tell him that. Price doesn't leave Soap hanging either and acknowledges it with a situation appropriate "Roger."

So like. How the hell did that person inferred toxicity where there is none? Idk but i guess it's part of this strange phenomena whereby you have to have an argument for why you don't like a ship, even better if you can paint the ship as toxic or other flavour of problematic.

But yeah Soap and Price's relationship could be interpreted in many ways, not all of them being healthy of course, but toxic? Get outta here

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apparently my state wants to ban phones and headphones from schools next year if that actually happens and i can’t find a way around it i might actually kms

i need to listen to music to function and regulate myself and i have extreme anxiety about my phone if i don’t have it with me i get panic attacks because i worry about people finding it and looking through it or someone calling me in crisis or an ememergency and missing it they can’t take my phone i legitimately can’t function without it and even more if they take my headphones

i have it on my 504 that i can have noise cancelling headphones but they might not let me have the electronic ones and normal ones without active noise canceling cause me even censory issues than not having headphones because they fit wrong and they make an echo noise and they’re all made for fucking children and i don’t just need the noise canceling i also need my music to self regulate when im at school listening to music is basically the only healthy coping mechanism i have when i have panic attacks and stuff because i don’t have access to what i would do at home

i’m sorry ik im complaining about first world problems and its not that serious compared to other things but its very distressing to me and i dont know what to do