#it took me forever to answer tho oop

[bwoahtastic]

Just some little thoughts about small female Nico because she and Jenson have me by the throat 😭

- Nico has the sharpest pointy elbows in existence. When Jenson and Mark rest their arms on her head to annoy her she elbows them really hard and because of the height difference gets them in the kidneys, which is absolute agony for them

- Nico wears giant heels to go out clubbing in because she hates being tiny and in the crush of a crowd but loves dancing too much to not go. The only problem is that they always make her feet hurt, and she always whines to Jenson to take his shoes off so that she can wear them. The first time Jenson does it Nico's feet just keep slipping out because his shoes are so much bigger than her feet and Jenson just carries her back home. She still asks him every time, but Jenson doesn't want to get his socks wet and carry her back, so he just carries her back.

- Nico is always cold. Jenson teases her relentlessly because she's half German and half Finnish and should be much better at coping with the weather, but despite her passport, she's a Monaco baby and needs the sun. Despite his teasing, Jenson helps her out by buying her a top of the line space heater for her driver's room, and Nico spends half of her life lying in front of it trying to get warm like a lizard in the sun. Jenson does miss her wearing his clothes to try and keep warm, but doesn't mind when she begins wearing his clothes to seduce him.

- the palm of Jenson's hand is bigger than the entirety of Nico's hand and Jenson loves looking at her hand in his, and how dainty and delicate even her hands are. When Nico's asleep in bed with him, Jenson can spend hours just stroking the back of her hand and marvelling at how soft it is.

- Jenson has sisters so he's actually very good at braiding hair. He loves sitting Nico in front of him and methodically braiding her hair to keep it out of her face. She's so tiny that what is averagely long hair on other people is all the way down at Nico's waist. Jenson is secretly sad when Nico cuts it short in an attempt to appear more mature and capable but the moment he realises that Nico is also upset about cutting her hair and only did it because of the team, he does whatever he can to make her smile again.

- Nico is half Finnish and so will just drink black coffee, although she is very particular about her roast, while Jenson has a stupidly complicated coffee order that no one ever seems to remember correctly. Nico always gets his coffee order right, and has been known to interrogate baristas just to be sure that it's correct.

- Jenson finds Nico speaking German to be stupidly hot. In the early days he likes to annoy her to the point that she snaps and starts shouting at him in German, but later on, all he has to do is ask and she'll happily purr at him in German.

- Jenson loves it when Nico lays directly on top of him. She doesn't weigh that much so he's always comfortable and he loves feeling her warmth on top of him. They often lay like that to watch TV, and Jenson inevitably sneaks a hand up her top, splaying his hand out over her back or stomach.

- Nico's waist is so tiny that Jenson can encircle it completely with his hands, even having a bit of room to spare. Sometimes, when Nico wants to get out of her own head and let Jenson take control, he'll stand her in front of a full length mirror in just a see through night dress and remind her of how tiny she is in comparison to him. He's so smooth and seductive that he can keep his hands wrapped around her waist, squeezing just a little bit, and talk her to the point of orgasm.

- Jenson is stupidly gone for Nico because she's so adorable and cute and grumpy like a little yowling cat, but Nico is also insane about Jenson too. She loves how protective he is, and how he makes her feel so safe. She loves that he always carries a specific shirt with him not because he's going to wear it but because she likes wearing it, and even though she spends most of her life trying to prove to people that she's tough and capable and can definitely kick their asses, Jenson is the one person that she doesn't feel like she has to prove anything to, so she doesn't mind being small and delicate with him.

SKDKWKD OMG I HAD A BLAST READING ALL OF THIS GHANK YOU SO SO MUCH YOU ARE FREAKING AMAZING

Sksksk nico with her knife elbows just shoving them in people's side when they are annoying, they are her weapon!

Nico shuffling around on her high heels! She can walk really well on them but tires our and just wants to be carried because she likes to be treated well! And pls her shuffling in jenson's huge shoes pouting that it'd hard and she needs to be carried still!

Plss monaco baby Nico always being cold and stealing Jenson's sweaters and coats until she gets her space heater and then she is legit just basking in it like a lizard sksksk. Jenson is happy she is happy butnalso a tiny bit sad because he misses Nico's scent and perfume on his clothes...

Tiny handss🥺🥺 Nico's hands are so small and Jenson's hands can cup around them, warm them up when she is inevitably cold again and she smiles so sweetly then! She loves it ehen he takes care of her like thst

Plss little nico having hair down to her waist and jenson happily spends ages braiding it for her cos she is too impatient and too fussy about the result when she does it herself. But then she cuts her hair cos the media team wanted her too snd she looks so sad... Jenson braids it as best he can still and compliments her but she is much happier after she grows it out again.

And plss nico always getting jenson's stupid complicated coffee order right! It's her way showing she cares, rattling it at the batista and double, triple checking it's absolutely perfect for her Jenson! He deserves the crappy frappuchino he loves so much!

Nico being so hot when she speaks German, her voice a bit lower, huskier, less like the media trained voice she has when speaking English. Nico definitely uses it in her favor when she realises, grinning when Jenson shudders hearing her speak German!

Jenson chilling on the sofa and nico just flops on him cos she needs the contact, nosing into his neck and letting him play with her hair and strokenher back and it's perfectly relaxing for both of them! And nico feels so safe and small in his arms when he circles her waist, big hands around her little waist as she just sinks into him (she also never cums harder then when he lifts her up standing and fucks her while holding her)

Pls Nico really is a grumpy cat but she is so loyal to Jenson! He never makes her want to prove herself, she knows he sees her worth and always treated her as equal. And she is so soft for the way he cares foe her! She can't trust people easily, thinks everyone wants smthn from her when they give e her help but she accepts Jenson's help readily!

[varusai]

⭐️Get to know your mutuals⭐️

⭐️ Tagged by @elvenmoans

this took me forever to fill out i kept forgetting it in my drafts. oops😔

⭐️ What's the origin of your blog title?

blog title: ☆ ฅ^•⩊•^ฅ ☆

i was looking at a big ass list of japanese emoticons, don't even remember the specific one i was looking for, but came across this one ฅ^•⩊•^ฅ and???? hello??? its so cute???

i never know what to title my stupid blog so i just put that there because it makes me happy to see her.

⭐️ OTP(s)+ shipnames(s):

i’m on the oc shipping train rn but for regular non oc ships we got

moonsea tyrants (manshoon/ fzoul) - the forgotten realms

gideon/harrow/ianthe (any combo) - the locked tomb

farcille (falin/marcille) - dungeon meshi

durgetash (the dark urge/enver gortash) - bg3 (only default hot white dragonborn durge tho, i don’t care about any of that custom character shit)

scar/lex - AVP (i’m having my annual resurgence of this ancient fixation. it will pass soon)

⭐️ Favourite color:

black, but since a lot of ppl consider this a non answer/cop out, purple. i have a particular soft spot for ultraviolet purple.

⭐️ Song stuck in your head:

Thnks fr th Mmrs - Fall Out Boy

i heard it on the radio yesterday after not hearing it for a long time and now its stuck

⭐️ Weirdest habit/trait:

i think this is more of a question that one would need to direct outward, not self-assign. like i talk to myself and consider that both find and normal what the fuck do i know about what counts as a weird habit lol

⭐️ Hobbies:

mainly playing dnd right now. playing dnd and thinking about The Characters. i also write and draw sometimes. i just never finish anything. I’ve also been reading a lot more this year, which has been nice. and I do/learn math for fun, but idk if that counts as a hobby? i'm gonna count it because i do it often enough.

⭐️ If you work, what's your profession?

i got some chronic conditions during covid and was fucked up and disabled for a while in addition to being really depressed. i'm on meds now and its getting a little better but now the job market is fucked so i don't have a job job rn and i just do gig work and temp jobs when i run out of money. usually admin, tech support, tutoring, or doordash. kinda just depends on what comes up.

⭐️ If you could have any job you wish, what would it be?

tbh i kinda already had my dream job? i was a physicist doing research on planet formation. undergraduate level, but it was a paid position so technically i made it. i do hope to go back to it one day when i'm not mentally and physically fucked up, but considering the state of the world now def doesn't seem like the time. unfortunately.

⭐️ Something you're good at:

befriending cats. i’ve literally never met a cat that didn’t like me. even stray cats. i’d like to think i’m pretty good at art too.

⭐️ Something you hate:

capitalism. i also hate driving, temperatures higher than 80F, and the human head, neck, back, and nervous system. mine specifically.

⭐️ Something you collect:

pens and notebooks/office supplies. which was fine when i was in school/doing research/teaching but after??? i would have ended up in some trouble space wise if i hadn't started playing dnd lol. now i can use my stuff again for my notes/game binder :3

i also collect dnd dice sets✨

⭐️ Something you forget:

i'll forget anything that you can ask me a question about out of nowhere. my brain is never stupider than when i'm put on the spot😔

⭐️ What's your love language:

talk to me about something that i'm obsessed with. especially like fic/character/dnd/oc worldbuilding. and especially if we're working on it together. if you can get to this stage you're prob in for life.

⭐️ Favourite movie/show:

The Thing (1982) is my favorite movie ever i watch it literally all the time.

big shout out to the Alien franchise and LotR tho they're tight runners up.

my fav show fluctuates a lot more, but i gotta say just based on rewatch value How Its Made takes it easily.

⭐️ Favourite food:

panda express orange chicken and chow mein combo with crab rangoons, that exact order

⭐️ Favourite animal:

cats or seals! literally two of the cutest animals to exist.

⭐️ What were you like as a child:

undiagnosed and strange

⭐️ Favourite subject at school:

science! i literally took every science class my small town high school had and was still losing my mind

⭐️ Least favourite subject:

government & economics.

yawnnnn

⭐️ What's your best character trait?

knowledge seeking & creative.

⭐️ What's your worst character trait?

asocial & irritable

⭐️ If you could change any detail of your life right now, what would it be?

add about 3 to 4 more zeros to my bank account balance

⭐️ Tagging: @twilight-alchemist @sunnidaydreamer @voxiferous @sunsetfields @zarnitza @darkeecofreak @shadow-djinni @overcaffeinated-paranoia @roosterzebra @inadvisablyappliedmagic @bi-colored-corn @revasnaslan @a-la-orilla-del-rio @minigenos

i know a lot of y’all already but its still fun lol

[sunships]

💘 🥄 🎁

I’m sorry it took me forever to get to this ask 😭 I kept forgetting to 😭😭 TYSM FOR IT THO!!!

💘: How did you first fall in love?

(Answering for William)

(Sighs dreamily) I dunno… I watched the movie and as soon as he came on screen for his first scene I was done for. Hes just so pretty!!!! I was like “oh no I think I like him” knowing full well he was the villain LMAO. Oops. Oh well.

🥄: who’s big and little spoon?

(William again I fear)

He’s def big spoon and I’m little spoon! He is. Much taller than me LMFAO. But! Sometimes I kinda just cling to him like a koala so lol.

🎁: favorite gift from them?

(William agaiinnnnn)

Me and my friend @dadcollector created an AU that is very important to me. I won’t share a ton of it on here probably but in this AU William cleans out his office room and makes me my own room in his house!!! He decorates it with things he knows I like and it’s so 🥹 I love it so much.

[majjiktricks]

3, 18, 22

this genuinely took me forever to answer oops

3. What’s your favorite fic that you’ve written?

probably Muscle Memory. i need to write more fluff... its just a very comfy fic imo and i havent done much like that...

18. What’s one of your favorite lines you’ve written in a fic?

im ngl i read through every single thing i have saved on my phone to answer this one

im honestly awful at picking favorites 😂 i do love me some silly puns tho. where the title of one of my fics comes from: 'He couldn't help but find the odd predicament amusing, trapped between a tree and a hard place. “Is that for me, or is there some pretty woman wandering the jungle with you?”'

i just think its a funny line. young ocelot thinks hes clever :3c

22. Do you know how your fic will end before you start writing?

usually no, though i tend to have an idea of it. i usually write down and kinda sketch out how i want things to go in little notes and then later go in and actually put it in proper english lol. in that process things tend to change and get shifted around a lot 🤔

questions from here!

[wataeichis]

*sits down in your inbox* hi can i hear your hcs about the 5 eccentrics as individuals + as a group bc the tags of that rb interested me

pls

hi this took a bit to answer bc i spent forever trying to come up with these im kinda bad at hcs but i hope theyre still to ur liking! it did get kind of long though oops.....

alsooo cw addiction, light mentions of an eating disorder, and general mental illness things because these are not all super light hearted

rei - okay starting off with what I mentioned in the tags but I think he may have old addiction issues from before 3rd year and maybe before from being in a very stressful situation (kind of his whole life rlly being a head of like 2 cults but the war def amplified his stress), the Mental Illness(tm), and often being in bar scenes to perform idk what kind but! he’s probably over them now and he doesn’t like his friends talking about drinking or inviting him out bc bad feelings

- after the effects of the war he pulls away from all of his friends that’s like. canon but during !! i like to think he gets closer with people again slowly (mainly bc of kaoru helping him open up but that’s a rant for another time), and he sometimes uses his friends as pillows </3 it’s his way of showing he trusts them

- he still hangs out in graveyards bc he’s a weirdo /affectionate he’ll go there and pay respects and care for graves that seem to be abandoned and then read quietly if no one’s around so that the dead doesn’t feel lonely

- not cis at all but he doesn’t care for gender he just likes being cute sometimes and edgy other times (an old vampire like him can’t be bothered with modern gender norms /j)

- he’s such a nerd he can tell you about the entire chronological history of any country or generally any school subject but if his phone dies he’s crying to kaoru that he doesn’t know how to turn it back on…… he knows so many things but also!!!! nothing

shu

- he finds swearing unsightly but he also knows a lot of French swear words that he uses and no one catches him on it

- not necessarily shu but madonee likes sharing shus secrets because she loves the drama

- he keeps detailed teacups and fancy tea sets in the handicraft room bc even tho he hates guests he LOVES to show hospitality and will only have the best for his guests

- he sleeps in one of those dreamy canopy princess beds

- i have a shuP friend who feeds me lore and it seems like madonee is implied to be an introject of kuros mother (from before she died) and I feel like sharing that in case you didn’t know!

- i like to think he likes taking care of people a lot in !! and maybe it’s meant to be atonement for how he was in the past or perhaps it’s just the mothering side of him he picked up on from kuros mom (before the war and madonee even) and so when his close ones are upset he likes to be the first to be there to support them and make sure they’re well

kanata

- im. torn because i think he’s autistic but one of my special interests is psychology and i know that he’s probably just like that because of a severe lack of socialization and stunted social development and all of his specific trauma but also. immediately after i got into enstars I was like wow!! hes like me!! so do with this information as you will

- he likes mothering not just humans but (non land) animals so even if he doesn’t enjoy his family he enjoys working at the aquarium for the animals and he sometimes babysits shinobus frogs but with humans even he likes mothering and taking care of his juniors as much as he can, when people joke he’s like chiakis wife he doesn’t mind it at all

- he’s very touch starved and loves hugs from his friends randomly or cuddling (his dorm is all bestys and they platonically cuddle just bc they all need a little extra love </3)

- he wants to be close with madara again but he doesn’t know how to (and he’s a little scared of being hurt/mama leaving again) so he tends to just push mama away but sometimes, mama comes to him injured and knows kanata will take care of them. they never talk about those moments but kanata appreciates the trust mama puts in him

- he likes sugar a lot he never got it growing up and now he just has stashes of sugary treats

- chiakis parents love him he makes their son so happy (in a ship or non-ship way either works) and even if at first it was. hard to get used to the “hey my besty is a ex cult leader who doesn’t know how to be human” they love him and want to smother him in parental affection

wataru

- i think it’s implied in some stories ? but if not i like the idea that he’s from america (or some other english country) he probably wasn’t actually found in a river like he says just. hiding the fact that he was from an orphanage but i think he started trying to become an idol not just because of “genius from birth” like some others but more. because he wanted to prove he was worth something and wouldnt be tossed to the side

- he likes wearing his friends clothes (he steals all of eichis sweaters mostly) because they make him feel loved and wanted for more than just his skills as a performer

- i wrote a fic about this once based on some vague references in stories but he? just doesn’t eat and im fairly certain it’s not an eating disorder i think he views life as his stage as a performer and eating during the “performance” isn’t allowed but the exceptions tend to be a) his day off! a boy needs to rest and he’ll happily eat with fine on eichi day no problem and b) if someone offers him food, he can’t say no, because it’s the script for this play (life. the play is life dude u have issues)

- i think he’d find dancing relaxing like ballet or ballroom dance he finds it a nice way to ease his stress especially if he gets to be near someone he trusts (and he doesn’t trust a lot of people)

- he has joint/muscle pain constantly u can’t take this hc away from me he’s overworking himself and constantly in plays/performing on stage there’s no way he’s always in peak physical condition (ignoring how he can dislocate his own joints. u good dude?)

- he likes collecting weird things like plants and books he probably won’t ever read and ugly shirts that he won’t wear in public and idol merch of his friends bc he’s horrible with his money and theoretically eichi would buy him literally anything but he feels baaaaad and wants to earn things himself

- gender doesn’t exist! wataru does not need a gender his gender is [          ]

natsume

- the trans guy of all time (not even inspired by his backstory of dressing like a girl I know why that was but I think he’s still just so very trans regardless of that)

- he’s. a very sad individual i would think he likes to push away his emotions as a defense mechanism but he needs a hug

- wannabe emo he constantly has accessory chains jingling with every step bc edgy

- he’s probably got a caffeine addiction and I don’t mean that in the quirky way I mean he’s like. nocturnal stays up all night doing witchy stuff but is still expected to go to school in the morning

- his parents have issues but that’s not what this is about but i think he’s very attached to them especially his mom that’s like canon but sometimes if the stress of his life is building up he’ll go stay with them for a weekend instead of the dorms just

- his wiki lists that he likes piercings but he. doesn’t have any i think he’s afraid of needles so he likes to give piercings to other ppl instead because he would probably faint if you even implied the idea of him getting a piercing

as a group!

- okay so I said some stuff abt a few individuals but none of them are cis actually. this is up to interpretation but none of them are

- bi-weekly outings to cafes (shu joins via video call if he’s not in japan)

- it’s. a little rough after the war can’t sugar coat things rei hardly lets anyone close to him and they all collectively stopped trusting wataru (im eternally left trying to figure out how the heck he went from being enemies with them to friends again in like. a month) but they’re getting better!

- emotional support system! they all love and care for each other deeply (platonically, imo) and it’s hard with them all being So Very Mentally Ill(tm) but they try their best to be there to support each other

- eichi is definitely a sensitive topic. wataru loves him and dislikes negative talk of eichi in his presence, rei and kanata are neutral (as of !! more so for rei), natsume and shu despise him…. makes it tricky to get along sometimes!

- they play card games together, bc most of them don’t know how to use a phone properly im not sure if this is quite what u wanted but i hope u enjoy nonetheless !! also. i very much hope that the read more works... i, like the oddballs, am horrible with technology!

[candiedapplez]

I ask you all of the questions from that one reblog. Good luck/nf/j

Omg ok this will be a while then tehehehehehehhe im not complaining though!!!! Heres the questions so u can look at the questions and the answers!

1.this one is OBVIOUS!!! A-90 and Opheebop!!! DUUUUUUUH!

2.lighter. Ive never used a match before

3.ew no!!! I don't want buggies crawling in my room while im sleeping!!!! However i have before!

4. Aaaaaa ive never really gotten into that stuff so i cant really give an answer-

5. A really dark brown!!

6. Oops i did that again???

7. Well idk ive used both and they are both work really well! however i do think scrunchies are safer for your hair, i use normal hair ties more often because scrunchies are more bulky and yeah i dont prefer that, but both are great!

8. Six. I have six.

9.NONE! COFFE IS GROSS BLEEEEEEGH!!

10. Ofc!!

11. Does drawing count?

12. Good day!!!!! I havent cried yet so-

13. Not too long ago, like an hour ago actually. I had pizza! (Incase u were wondering)

14. HELL YEAH!!!

15. Nope and i never want to be 😗

16. NoooooOoOoO-

17. Nope i have perfect vision muah

18. I DONT WANNA SAY TEHE! (Sry)

19. Yea ofc!!! But they probably wont turn out good…

20. Soda…. Ive never seen or heard anyone say pop before….

21. Plushies!!!! I have a unicorn plush my old friend (we dont talk anymore since she moved) gave me for my 7th bday!!!! Yes i remember when, yes i still have it! And its in perferct condition!!! Also there was this one kid who ig had a crush on my and he gave me a basket full of stuff for valentines day and i still have said basket-

22. I have no clue what this means? I guess sensitive?

23. Love it!!!!!

24. Eating :] (and joking abt pushing each other off probably/JOKE/JOKE/JOKE/JOKE)

25. Aaaa i use all of them but i use lotion most so ig lotion?

26. Idk what to say for this one aaaaaagh

27. Like 5 i think? Ive been getting better with my sleep time!!!!

28. Not anymore, our school last year said we could take them off, however i was SO insecure about my face (still am, but not as much as before) so i would wear it every single day. If i showed up to school without one people got surprised. I stopped wearing them this year, however.

29. Hot????

30. THE FUCKING WATER BOTTLES!!!!

31. Theres a lot, i dont wanna get into it 😵‍💫

32…… is that a thing? People have favorite towels??

33. Hm my school took us on a field trip to a high school so we can see animals if that counts… (i have pictures btw if u wanna see them! We saw pigs, sheep, cows and bunny! I didnt take pic of bunny tho 😢)

34. LITERALLY EVERY SIX THE MUSICAL SONG HOLY SHIT IVE BEEN WAITING FOR THIS (the only ones i might mess up on are aywd and idnyl bc aywd is long and i dont listen to idnyl often)

35. Pst!!

36. Only once! My username used to have a 0 between the words (Candied0applez) but i changed it bc it made it sound like i candied no apples… but i was originally going to be called caramelapplez but i thought candied sounded better heheh)

37. The friend i mentioned earlier i met first day of kindergarden, her name is Alana, and this other girl Maya i met before kinder! We met eachother at a park and when we walked home we found out we were neighbors so we instantly became besties! (We still are to this day but she lives 30 mins away so i dont see her often-(

38. All…?

39. Sometimes!

40. Ice cream!!!

41. Empty. Coffee is gross

42. Hahahah yt, roblox and occasionally twitter!

43. HAND IT OVER BITCH!

44. Myself/j fucking donald trump 🤮👈🖕

45. NO ☺️

46. Oh god i dont watch any 🫢

47. | v

this actually was to the other girl i mentioned earlier! Maya! I found baby pictures of us when we were in 2nd-3rd grade and i showed her today!!!

48. Never and i dont plan on ever!

49. Never tried

50. GO AHEAD I GET SO EXCITED WHEN IM TAGGED IN SOMETHING AAAAA!

omg that took forever!!! Gosh i dont mind though!!! These were fun questions! Aaaaaaaa i enjoyed that tyty!

[lastoneout]

I get the impression that Laventon and Cyllene took one look at Akari and on one of the nights where both sleep in their quarters, and Laventon’s about to go to fall asleep, Cyllene just hits him with a “I think we should adopt Akari�� very nonchalantly, then immediately falls asleep.

Laventon is left with his giddy thoughts unable to sleep the whole night because he is just going “IM PROFESSOR DAD NOW”.

That’s why he gifts you the rest of the starters. 😘

Also… imagine post Volo reveal, Akari probably came back badly wounded because she didn’t expect Volo to attack her. And alright. She is a bit traumatized because she basically met Satan (Volo’s like. The most mediocre and inefficient merchant and acted like a useless idiot but it was all a cover up! To lull you into compliance)

Cyllene noticed this so she sends her Abra to watch over Akari constantly. If she gets injured, a potion suddenly falls from the thin air. And when she’s back to Jubilife Cyllene frets over her… in her own quiet way.

Anyways. The found family posibilites with these characters make me feral.

haha this post got long oops

d;kflskdj okay but that's so Cyllene tho like *admits vulnerability and then immediately dodges having to explain or examine it at all* but also you know Laventon saw the protag fall out of the sky and then admit to being completely alone with no family or place to go and was like "is anyone gonna adopt this teenager" and then didn't wait for an answer. Cuz like yes any scenario is funny but pls imagine Cyllene and Laventon with that "we've been together forever" style psychic bond just taking one look at Akari and then each other like "Teenager Acquired"

Also...my weakness......imagining Professor Dad and Cyllene deciding to have another kid and Cyllene is ofc totally chill about it like no sweat at all but when she tells Laventon she's pregnant he's SO nervous and happy that he spends a week accidentally walking into walls and shit, falls down the stairs once or twice, trips into and over furniture, literally has a shinx chewing on him for half a day and barely notices, cannot hold a conversation, just a Mess(tm).

AND my OTHER weakness ofc cuz Found Family Feels imagining protag Akari being happy but also a little sad like "okay yeah now they have a Real Kid" until the kid is born and when Akari gets to meet them Laventon just goes "see that's Akari your big sister" and Akari just goes FULL

(same ofc for big brother Rei, and he and Akari are immediately like "I would DIE for this child" because ofc they would)

Plus pls...uncle Ingo...he already helps with the sneasel babies...open that basket and there's like five little sneasel and one human toddler all asleep. I cannot, my heart, sobbing ect.

Also ah yes Volo my favorite dumbass merchant with rabies(I literally want to rescue him from himself cough cough time loop fic) BUT yeah you know after that Akari/the protag was Fucked Up and I can imagine out of everyone Cyllene would be the one to notice Akari being like "I will keep all of my feelings right here and then one day I'll die" about it and she's like "I'm not gonna make you drag all this Shit(tm) out BUT I am going to absolutely dial up the stealth mom vibes by 500"

(sdkfkldj ALSO abra just fuckin' teleporting a potion to Akari IS adorable but now I'm imagining the abra just being a bit dumb about it and so there are a few times where said potion gets dropped ON Akari or like...over a cliff or something, or like it's getting tossed from off stage left...like look that abra has dumb lazy cat vibes I'm just saying and it's fucking hilarious dklfjdlksj also tbh I can see Akari not saying anything even tho it's OBVIOUSLY Cyllene because she appreciates the Stealth Mom thing even if the results are uh...mixed)

But I also like the idea of Akari/protag just...falling apart like that's the final straw they just Can't and burn out SO hard and we gotta get a FULL found family intervention going we get Cyllene, Laventon, Rei, fuckin' Ingo, everybody is gonna let Akari know she is loved gdi!!! Akari is on the Depressed Express and everyone is getting together to Derail That Train with the power of friendship and love.

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Iko was bored out of her mind. The meeting seemed to last forever. The fancy people were talking about company policies and how a new invention from Commonwealth Products could 'change the face of Blackburn Industries'.

If she wasn't running on four cups of coffee she would fall asleep right in front of everybody. Then, three hundred years later, Kai stood up and ended the meeting. Iko was glad no one asked her questions because she would probably respond with the latest fashion trend.

Everyone busted out of the double doors, Iko among the first but she waited to bid her goodbye to Kai. When she spotted him, she noticed Winter beside him and Kinney on their heels. She joined the trio.

"-with my father. Then we could discuss further matters, " Kai said.

"Of course, Mr. Pierce, take as much time as you need. I hope your father heals fast, " Winter responded, "although, my stepmother would probably want an answer as soon as possible."

He nodded, "I thought so. Until the next meeting, Miss Hayle."

"Yes, until then, " Winter hugged Kai and motioned for Kinney to follow.

"Bye Kai!" Iko waved, "see you later."

"See you later, Iko."

The trio left the Pretty Boy of New Beijing (even though he lives here in Artemisia now) to his thoughts.

"'Even though he got stabbed by a piece of wood in the back, he should be okay," Iko read off her phone, "Cinder just texted. Let's go now, I want to see the Captain. And the long-haired girl."

"Me too, Iko-friend."

"Oop, she texted again. 'Oh he's also blind now'," she slowed her steps, "Thorne is blind! Who can admire me now?!" Iko wailed.

"You look stunning, dear, " complimented Winter.

"She was being sarcastic, Miss Hayle, " Kinney rolled his eyes. Winter cocked her head. He sighed, "you know fake, " she continued to stare, "like plastic. Fake. Or she was joking. Yeah, she was joking."

"Are you implying that Iko-friend is made of plastic?" Winter smiled. They reached the elevator and she pressed the button. Now they waited.

"No, I meant- wait are you messing with me?" Kinney accused.

"I mean I technically am, " Iko gasped, "am I a Barbie now? I don't look blond."

"Both of you, stop, " the girls giggled, "just like Selene, " they heard him mutter.

The elevator doors opened and they stepped in, eager to see their friends.

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Captain Thorn(e) sat with bandages wrapped around him. Iko gasped and sprinted to him, "oh my stars are you okay?!" she asked/ yelled.

"Yeah, I'm fine. It would take much more to destroy The Captain Tho-"

"Okay, Thorne, that's enough, you'll break another rib, " Selene sighed. A girl who was sitting next to Thorne giggled. She seemed to be glued to him because every time someone would stare at her, she would hide behind him.

Iko decided to introduce herself: "Hi, I'm Iko, " she extended a hand. The girl took it.

"I-I'm Cress, " she stuttered.

Iko smiled. "Have you met everyone yet?"

Cress shook her head.

"Perfect! I get to introduce you, " she hauled Cress up, "I bet you already know Cinders-slash-Selene and the Captain."

Cinders and Thorne waved. Cress nodded.

"That's Jacin in the far corner. You know, the grumpy pale guy? Yeah, that's him. Next to him is Winter, she just came in with me. I know, she's pretty. They're together " Iko pointed to the lockers, "over there is Scarlet and Wolf. Don't ask about the hair, the jacket, and the name, she'll get mad, trust me. And Wolf's real name is Ze'ev but we like to call him, well, Wolf. They are also together. Finally, there is Kinney. He's annoying, rude, and a jerk, don't talk to him."

She exhaled. Cress' bright blue eyes stared at her, "there you're all caught up. Oh, and Cinders is in love with Kai Pierce. Now you're all caught up."

"Iko, no I'm not, shut up, " Cinders hissed.

"Yeah, you are. Stop trying to hide it. Now someone explain to me what happened!"

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KaruShuu OTP Questions

Ah- I created ehhh 4?? I suppose KaruShuu head-canons posts today but do I regret it? Absolutely not, I loved it. So here you go, have another one, don't be shy, read it.

Also, please keep in mind that these head-canons are completely made up by me in a way of that it's just how I would see it sksksk also here, KaruShuu would be probably adults?? Also married??

Anyways, enjoy~ 🌸

Who is the most affectionate? Sinceee they got married, I'm sure the longer into the relationship, the more they have opened up to each other? Karma would be the type to wake up first in the morning and kiss Shuu good morning, but since Shuu is an early bird, he would wake up before Karma and make breakfast for him. Thats how he shows affection ❤️🧡

Most common argument? Sad to think that they NeEd to argue 🙄💅 but oh well- I thinkkk they would argue over super silly things. For example what to watch (If you have read my previous head canons, you will know what I mean by 'Shrek Marathons'):

"Let's watch something"

"Sure, what do you have in mind?''

Karma would just grin over to Shuu and Shuus eyes would widen, "Hell no"

"Absolutely ye-"

"Karma don't you dAR-"

They ended up watching (again for the 12 time this week) Shrek.

Who apologizes first? Karma apologies fly out of his mouth faster than they stop arguing. Karma would rather apologize than not let them talk for the next few hours.

Favorite (non-sexual) activity to do together? They enjoy getting massage! Ifff KaruShuu was too lazy to go out to get a professional massage for a few hours, they would do it to each other. (It usually ends with them making out later on but I'll delete that part)

Who is most likely to carry the other? Karma would carry Shuu ❤️😩 Ugh bridal style to embarrass him 💀💅

Nicknames?

For Karma, by Shuu: Tamponhead (I used this one in my fanfic and I will forever love it), Moron, Karma. Tbh, I don't think neither like these pet-names or nicknames since that think they are 'cringy'.

Tho, Karma has quite a few: Shuu (Main, he doesn't use 'Gakushuu' but when he does, Shuu melts lol), Pumpkin, Orange, pumpkin pie, Strawberry shortcake (bc he loves strawberries so why not call Shuu one 😌🤚🏻), Sugar cube (Idk I think it's cute, tho I don't know if that's even a nickname- 💀💀)

Also a note: They would definitely not use 'baby', 'babe', 'honey' bc- noooo 😩💀

Who proposes? Karma 💅

Who sings along with the radio? Karma would sing along but he is horrible at singing and Shuu makes him KNOW it by him singing and Karma shuts up but finds it hilarious at the same time.

Who worries most? Both do, depending on the situation. Shuu would be worried about stuff like paying taxes or things like that, meanwhile Karma is worried for Shuus health, if he is eating enough as well as getting enough sleep every night. Shuu is a hardworking bee after all ✨

Who always wants to take selfies with the other? Karma wants to, for example they are traveling somewhere for vacation and Karma wants to take as many pics as possible with his husband so he can later on put them into an album ❤️😩 (KaruShuu as a married couple >>>>)

Who likes to playfully tease the other? Ohhh~ Karma teases Shuu all the time, but there are times where Shuu would feel playful so he would tease back

Who has the weirdest taste in their music? Karma I'm begging you- his music taste changes every week and road trips are a disaster for Shuu

Who remembers what the other one always orders at a restaurant? Karma remembers because Shuu is always ordering the same things since he is minimalistic lol but Karma is a living chaos when it comes to food so Shuu can't remember it all.

Who is embarrassed to take their clothes off in front of the other? Lmao no matter for how long they are already together, no matter if they are married, no matter how many times they had done it, Shuu would be the one to be embarrassed about it every time.

Who tops? ...Okay so here, personally as someone who writes Fanfics, Karma tops. Always. I just- I just can't imagine Shuu as a top?? my friends gave me some really valid reasons for Shuu to be a top but I just can't see it 😩

Who initiates kisses? Both I guess? But mostly Karma

Who reaches for the other's hand first? Oooo here an example! If they are driving in the car, and Karmas hand is free, Shuu usually reaches for it but as soon as Karma needs it to drive, he has to let go. Or if they are in the cinema - Shuu would definitely hold onto Karmas hand the whole time - as comfort, since they usually watch Horror movies together so yea 😌

Who kisses hardest? Who is most ticklish? Both is Karma, but when it comes to tickling, even tho Karma is more ticklish, he is also stronger than Shuu so he can easily pin him down and tickle him, just for the sake to see Shuu giggle which kills him bc God damnit isn't he adorable?

Who brings an animal they found home? Lol depends on the animal. I would say Karma is a cat person and Shuu is a dog person b u t Shuu is allergic to cats so they can't have cats. But I think if Karma would be the one to bring an animal home, it would be a dog.

Who holds the umbrella for the other when it's raining? Karma's shoe laces often get untangled, so when Karma bends to tie them, Shuu stands over him with an umbrella to keep the rain from pouring on him.

Who tries to playfully embarrass the other in public? Karma 😭

Who kills the scary bugs? Oh lemme tell you about this one:

Shuu HATES bugs, since he always had the feeling of his father having a bunch of centipedes around himself whenever he acted manipulative and so on so he hates them. So one time when Shuu was taking a shower, and Karma was in the kitchen, Shuu suddenly screeched so Karma went to check on him. He walked onto a Shuu, covering himself with a towel and looking absolutely T E R R I F I E D at the ceiling, stuttering. Karma was hella confused so he looked up and oop here we go, a spider. Karma obv took the spider off the ceiling to free it, but first he had to tease and scare his husband a little by walking towards the shower stall, "Shuu look~ He wants to be friends with you~", the way Shuu screamed at this made almost all of the windows in the apartment break.

Who asks the weird questions at random in the middle of the night? Karma does that on a daily basis, but when Shuu is a little bit drunk, he would ask weird questions to which Karma never has an answer but he jokes around.

Who hogs the blankets? Karma hogs them and Shuu ends up having a cold the next morning 😭

Who wakes up first? Shuu is an early bird, but Karma wakes up first for work.

Who wants to stay in bed just a bit longer? On weekends, they both stay in bed a bit longer to cuddle ❤️💕

Who always makes coffee for the other each morning? Karma makes coffee for Shuu before he leaves for work 🥰

Who cries during certain films or when reading sad books? Lmao Karma cries during Shrek every time the scene comes up where Shrek had an argument with Donkey 😔

Who gets scared during horror films? Shuu 😩😩 He would (as said before) take Karmas hand for comfort

Who tells their friends/family about the relationship first? Lmao none since GakuHOE is well, a hoe so they won't trust him b u t I have the feeling of Karmas mom being actually super supportive?? But they wouldn't tell her, she would just get the hint and then when she receives the wedding invite she goes "oh-".

What do their friends/family think of the relationship? Rio was shipping this since the beginning of middle school aight, she loves it and she even threw a party for them. #IstanRioNakamura

Who is more likely to ask the other to dance with them? Karma would ask Shuu to dance obv but Shuu would go along 😩💕

Who cooks best? Karma! And Shuu loves his cooking! :D

Who wears the other's jacket? Shuu is the one to wear long coats, and Karma those thicc jackets. Shuu usually gets super cold even with the coat on, so Karma gives Shuu his jacket on top of the coat lol.

Who uses cheesy pickup lines? Karma- anywhere. Have an example:

"Hey Shuu, could you feel the shirt?", he asked Shuu while they went shopping and Karma wAsN't sure about his T-Shirt choice so Shuu was running his fingers slightly over Karmas chest with the shirt still on and thinking about the material, then Karma went: "Know what it's made of?", and Shuu looked at him and was about to answer him, but Karma was quicker and continued, "Boyfriend material", ObViOuSlY with a grin and Shuu was a gay blushing mess 💅 but then Shuu went along, "What do you mean boyfriend? I can only see Husband material", and tuRNED AWAYYYYY~

Who whispers inappropriate things in the other's ear during inappropriate times? AAAA I T H I N K I've written sum like this before- So two things that happened:

KaruShuu were invited to a funereal or sum and pls the church was quiet and stuff but obv Karma had to joke around and he leaned over to Shuus ear and whispered a joke into his ear which made our stubborn Shuu giggle and the church was this close👌 to throw them out lmao

Shuu was at work, and Karma likes to call him randomly, but oh well Shuu picks up and Karma starts to tease him over the phone maybe something very sexual stuff (knowing Karma he would) and Shuu just- he is sitting at his desk and his workers are giving him looks about why is he blushing so much.

Who makes the other laugh most? Karmas jokes always make Shuu laugh, sometimes even cry since they are hilarious.

Who would have to bail the other out of jail? Oh my God- Shuu would have to bail Karma out of jail maybe during college years, but I think Karma would mature a bit more as an adult

What would be their theme song? YOOO- A WHOLE PLAYLIST WOULD BE NEEDED-

Who would sing their child back to sleep? OOO!! Karma would be the type to read stories, but Shuu would sing them to sleep :D

What do they do when they're away from each other? I can imagine that they both have those business trips from time to time, so when they are apart, they FaceTime each other every evening to check on each other. Yes indeed they must stay at fancy hotels for their business trips and they are being served food, but they still check that the other one is eating and sleeping well. Oh and good morning and goodnight texts™️🥰

A headcanon about them that stabs your feels? Oh- oH GOD- That maybe they tend to act very distant at first in their relationships?? Or more cold? For example Shuu, he would not really know nor show much affection to Karma and Karma at first thinking that Shuu doesn't love him at all (which isn't true bc Shuu loves him deeply) but then he after some time figures it out when Shuu opens up to him more.

A headcanon that mends the previous one? That they both after some time spend together, have the opportunities to open up to each other, know each other better as well as find out each others weaknesses and strengths which makes their relationship stronger. I absolutely love them ❤️😩

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Oop hope this is ok to ask u! Cant imagine why not tho LOL: what about the game/teo drew you in? I played the demo when it came out and I really love teo's personality! He's such a sweet guy and I like that you can both joke around affectionately ❤ FREE TEO SOON IF U CAN PLZ CHERITZ

It’s totally fine to ask me, no worries! ♥

Regarding Teo, I would say I feel about him the same way as you do. Based on what we know about him (since we don’t know if Cheritz will retcon anything once the game is finally here), with the realistic art style and how he talks, Teo feels like a regular guy you could meet irl. He’s not necessarily an archetype like a vampire or CEO (not that there’s anything wrong with these tropes though!) He’s just a dude who likes ramen, who was a bit unsure of us at first based off our first interaction with him (yknow kinda like how you meet someone for the first time and you try to gage whether or not the two of you will get along). He has dreams like anyone else, especially when it comes to directing movies, which feels very normal to me when you consider all the movie makers on youtube who post their films to their youtube channels. (Teo's dream of becoming a film director like his Dad is the cutest thing ever istg-) With the crazy world of dating sims and their plots, especially cheritz games which have featured plot lines and characters like wizards, cu1ts, etc, Teo as a character just seems cozy and safe. (But again that's just my opinion and no disrespect to any other dating sims like that out there!) Teo's charm definitely lies in his sweetness but even so he manages to be relatable. As for the real world, it's an understatement that life and the dating scene can be very tough for people, so to have a character like Teo around, who's sweet and realistic, is very welcomed. Hopefully we'll get more info about him when the game comes!

As for the game itself, hoooo boy. The project’s announcement and the concept itself was so ambitious! It’s my personal hunch that the idea that there could potentially be a year’s worth of chats and the player could technically keep playing it forever is why production has taken so long. Kinda like with Omori and No Man's Sky where there was so much content being put into the project by the devs that it took forever to show the public anything and Cheritz probably thought it would be better to keep development under wraps because they can't show anything yet. It's kinda funny seeing the ssum fandom grow a second motivation for waiting for the game's release, the first one being to actually get the game and flirt with Teo, and the second being to see if the game will actually happen lol. I like how the game asks you the best time to talk for when you get up, eat lunch, etc. and I'm very curious to see what kind of customization we'll see as well since they were hints of being able to customize Teo's appearance (kinda lol) PIU-PIU's got such a cute design which reminds me of the lovecore aesthetic that I'm a Hugeeee fan of lol. Not to mention from what we've heard from the game's soundtrack, the majority of the music is so soothing and chill~ I was introduced to Cheritz through Mystic Messenger and that game absolutely blew me away when I played it so long ago, ever since, I've learned about Cheritz's other projects and its made me really excited to see what they'll develop next! Which is hopefully the ssum as I would love to see the game come to fruition and to be able to spend some more time with Teo!

YES CHERITZ PLZ FREE OUR MAN 😩

I hope this was a good enough answer, Altereden! :D (Also sorry this is so long, my apologies!)

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What Have I Done? || Epilogue

Pairings: Bucky Barnes x Reader

Warnings: Mentions of past traumas, fluff(Is that really a warning tho?)

Word Count: 3900+

Summary: A bad break up between Bucky and his ex leads to a new friendship with the quiet tech he never had the chance to get to know. Relationships grow, feelings are caught, and boundaries are explored. Bucky thought he found his happy ending, but old memories haunt his future. He knows what he’s doing wrong, dangerous even, but he can’t help it. Can he fix the wrongs he’s done? -a requested story for @iheartsebastianstan​

**THIS IS AN 18+ STORY, SO PLEASE NO MINORS!

A/N: And I oop-. This has been a long time coming, huh? Thank you for everyone being so incredibly patient with me. I hated how long I’ve been fighting this, don’t know why it was so hard to finish either. I hope you all enjoy the last bit of their story! Let me know what you think and enjoy!!

Gif is not mine, credit to the creator. text dividers credit: @writeyourmindaway​​

Chapter 12 | Epilogue | Series Masterlist

Six months later:

“Come on Wolf!”

Bucky chuckled at the shout from outside the little oasis he’d been living in the past six months and zipped up his bag with the last of his things. Even though he was excited, there was the bubbling apprehension that was festering in the pit of his stomach. Today was the day. The day he was given clearance from his therapists to go back to the compound and restart his life.

“The jets not going to wait forever for you!”

Bucky fondly rolled his eyes and threw the bag over his shoulder before he shot one last look over the room. Sighing softly, he headed towards the door.

“I’m coming. Chill.” He shouted back.

Shuri leaned against a fence post outside, flipping through her holographic messages. When Bucky opened the door, she glanced up and swiped the message clear. She beamed and pushed off the post.

“Finally. I thought I was going to have drag you out by your ear.” She smirked.

“Hey, the only person who can do that is my mother or sister, and I’m pretty sure you’re neither.” Bucky shook his head and brushed passed her. Shuri giggled and skipped alongside him, her arms clasped behind her back with her trademark smirk.

“I would say I’m a little offended you don’t see me as your little sister after all we’ve been through. You keep coming back no matter how many times I scare you off.” Shuri teased, nudging Bucky’s side with her elbow.

Bucky laughed and shook his head. Over the past six months, Bucky had grown closer to Shuri than he had been before. He’d spend hours at her lab, letting her tinker on his arm between his trips to therapy sessions and helping the farmers in the fields. Her cheer and sarcastic attitude was something he didn’t know he needed. She helped make things easier dealing with the separation from the people he loved back home and dealing with the trauma he’d gone through. It was like she was his own personal cheerleader who was willing to smack him in the back of the head when he’d go too deep in his dark thoughts. She didn’t let him get away with much. Anything, really.

Therapy itself was exhausting but also life-altering. There wasn’t one second where he doubted his decision to come here. He needed this. If he hadn’t gotten help when he did, Bucky feared to know where he would have been. There was no doubt in his mind things would have gotten worse and everything he loved, even the woman he cherished, would have abandoned him without a backward glance.

Now though, he knew what went wrong. He knew he wasn’t anything Vivian said to him. He was important, he did mean something to several people. And he still tangled occasionally with this, he acknowledged he isn’t a monster. He never was and now he could finally breathe easier. The little voices in the back of his head weren’t gone, of course, the therapist told him they’d never truly be gone, but now he knew how to separate them from the truth. 

Their only goal was to bring him down, to tear him and all his hard work to pieces. And now he had the tools to fight back. He’d still have therapy once a week, Bucky wasn’t completely ready to give that up yet, but they could easily be done over the phone or by video call now. He no longer needed to be here.

“Are you excited about going back?” Shuri asked, pulling Bucky back to the present. He hummed and nodded, despite the butterflies in his stomach. Shuri narrowed her eyes at him, catching the hesitancy in his lackluster reply. “That’s not a very convincing answer, Sargent.”

Bucky exhaled loudly and ran his metal hand through his hair. He knew what she really meant; he just didn’t want to answer it. Truthfully, he was terrified. A long time had passed since he left. Things have changed, and he hadn’t left on a positive note. There was a high chance Y/N took his words to heart and moved on. Bucky wouldn’t blame her. He treated her like she was nothing more than a possession. Y/N deserved better than that. Nevertheless, it didn’t stop him from hoping she might give him another chance.

“Bucky.” Shuri stopped in front of him, her face serious. Bucky blinked. “You don’t have to go so soon if you need more time. You were just cleared today. We would understand if you needed to stay and you’re always welcomed here.”

Warmth bubbled in Bucky’s chest, a tiny smile spreading on his lips. It felt nice to be welcomed somewhere. Everyone here greeted him with open arms. This was his second home and as much as he would love to stay, he needed to go home to his first. He couldn’t hide forever.

Inhaling deeply, Bucky let out a steady breath and smiled widely. For the first time in forever, Bucky felt light and free. Yes, he was ready and optimistic about whatever the future held.

“Yeah.” Bucky beamed, his happiness shining in his eyes. “I’m ready to go home.”

“Requesting clearance for landing.”

Bucky buckled in his seat, inhaling nervously through his nose as Okoye made her decent. There was a frustrated grumble on the intercom that brought an amused smirk to his face.

“Oh for the- Just land the damn jet.” Tony huffed through the speaker. Bucky shot a curious glance over to where Okoye sat at the helm. She had an amused smirk on her face and winked at Bucky when she caught him staring. Bucky laughed, realizing it wasn’t because she was going by the book, not in the slightest. Apparently, not even she was above riling up Tony.

As the jet began its descent, Bucky felt the nerves in the pit of his stomach increase with each passing second. There was no turning back now, he couldn’t run away if he wanted to. Besides, Okoye wouldn’t hesitate to drag him by the back of his neck if he tried to bolt. Not that he would.

After a smooth landing, Bucky shakily stood to go to his bag. He’s been on missions where he might never return home from, faced villains that would turn anyone’s blood cold, but this- seeing everyone after how he left things. This was terrifying. He tried to tamp down his nerves and push aside the bubble of uncertainty that rose in his throat.  

“I hope you don’t mind. Peter and his friends have invited me out to go see a movie.” He heard Shuri say to her brother. T’challa hummed and walked to the ramp as it lowered.

“I expected you to leave. Take Okoye.” He replied. Bucky slung his bag over his shoulder, grinning wide at the whine from Shuri and the frustrated scoff that came Okoye.

“I’m sorry. Would I be a buzzkill, your majesty?” Okoye asked tartly. Bucky walked up behind them to follow down the ramp, his grip tight on the handles to his bag. Shuri rolled her eyes and sent the older woman an annoyed glare.

“I’m not a child.” Shuri argued. “I don’t need a baby sister.”

“And yet, you were the one that filled the throne room with the chickens that took half the staff and me the entire day collecting.” T’challa replied simply, completely unfazed. Bucky snickered. He might have helped with a few chickens. “Consider this payback for the chicken shit we were covered in.”

Bucky turned to the laugh at the bottom of the ramp, spotting three faces he worried seeing and quickly looked at his feet. Tony stood at the bottom of the ramp, hearing the argument and smirked at the two siblings. Beside him stood Steve and Natasha, both looking excited and happy to see everyone. Bucky couldn’t meet any of their eyes, still too nervous that they harbored some resentment from him. 

He hadn’t spoken to any of them since he left, both he and the others agreeing that contact would be nonexistent until he was given the okay. T’challa would occasionally let them know how Bucky was doing, but it wasn’t often. He was supposed to tell them he was coming home, but he couldn’t even find the courage to pick up the phone. Instead, he sent a short email of the news and left it at that. An email, he scoffed to himself. I couldn’t even send them a text.

T’challa stepped away from his sister and greeted Tony with a wide smile and clasped the man’s offered hand in a shake. Bucky heard them say their hellos, a few snips between siblings thrown in here and there. Hesitantly, he raised his eyes to look them over and noticed there wasn’t the one person he hoped would be there. His heart dropped. Y/N was nowhere to be found. T’challa walked off with Tony and Natasha, his sister and Okoye following close behind, leaving Bucky alone with Steve.

Steve waited for Bucky, his hands tucked in his pocket and a gentle smile on his face. Bucky stopped at the bottom of the ramp, his feet refusing to take the last step off.

“How ya doin’ pal?” Steve asked, his voice void of malice and resentment. In fact, he sounded happy to see him. It surprised Bucky. Of all people he expected to hold the grudge, he expected Steve to keep a firm grip on that. Blinking, Bucky swallowed and nodded.

“I’m doing better.” He mumbled. “A lot, actually.”

Steve didn’t say anything. His eyes traced over Bucky, searching for something in his friend. He must have liked what he saw, his smile stretched across his face. Wordlessly, Steve opened his arms and closed the distance, pulling Bucky into a tight hug. All the fear and anxiety left Bucky in an instant, his shoulder sagging in relief. He returned the hug full-heartedly, squeezing Steve in a way to convey his relief.

“We missed you, Buck.” Steve said genuinely as he pulled away. Bucky’s breath hitched and he stared in disbelief at Steve with wide eyes. Steve chuckled and jerked his chin to the hangers' door. “Come on.”

Steve led Bucky through the familiar halls, asking any and all questions pertaining to his time away. Bucky found it easy to slip back into joking with his friend, and the realization that in the last few months before going to Wakanda, Bucky had shut himself away from Steve. From everyone for that matter. He missed his friend.

Bucky knew what Steve meant when he missed him. It was a big topic the therapists worked on in their sessions Steve didn’t mean he just missed him while he was gone, he meant he missed him period. Bucky might have found a lot in Y/N, but he quickly understood he lost a lot of himself along the way by listening to the voices that told him otherwise. Now, he was going to do everything he could to keep from falling on old habits. He had to. There was no way he could put anyone else through this again.

Steve stopped outside the living room, standing off to the side a wide crooked smile.

“We figured you’d want some time to yourselves. Everyone’s going to the lake house Tony bought a few weeks ago for the afternoon. We’ll be back around seven for dinner.” Steve clapped a hand on his shoulder and took the bag Bucky still held. “I’ll go put this in your room. And good luck.”

Bucky frowned at how obscure his friend was being. He watched Steve disappear around the corner before shaking his head. Stepping into the living room, Bucky froze when he saw who was sitting on the couch.

Y/N looked up when she heard him walk in, her heart in her throat. She sucked in air sharply at the sight of Bucky standing in front of her. Her eyes raked over his form, taking in his appearance. He looked good. His skin was bronzed from no doubt being out in the African sun, his hair was pulled back into his signature bun. But his eyes, his eyes were what made her heart soar. No longer did he have the dark bags under his eyes, or the glossed over appearance in his blues. They were crystal clear and staring right back at her with an expression of longing. Y/N’s face burned, and she willed herself to shake off the astonishment and smile.

“Hi.” She said.

“Hi.”

The two didn’t know what else to say, didn’t know where to start. There was a lot that needed to be said, a lot of pain that was between them. Bucky counted to three before inhaling deeply. He waved to the empty spot beside her on the couch.

“Is it oaky for me to sit?” He asked. Y/N nodded and moved over to make more room, tucking her leg to her side and angled to face him. Bucky settled onto the familiar couch, his own matching smile on his face. Y/N knew she missed him when he was gone, but she never realized just how much until he was right there, within reaching distance. She could count his eyelashes, could see the health pink in his cheeks. She missed him so much.

Bucky rubbed a sweaty palm on his jeans and exhaled loudly.

“I uh… I missed you.” He winced at the lame start of a conversation. Thankfully, Y/N didn’t mind. She tilted her head to the side and giggled softly.

“I missed you too.”

Bucky forgot how much he loved her voice. His heart did a funny flip in his chest and it took him all his willpower not to melt into the couch.

“I guess it’s time to address the elephant in the room.” Bucky began. Y/N sat a little straighter, her face dropping to a serious expression. There was no beating around the bush for this one. “There’s nothing I can say to ever express how sorry I am for the horrible way I treated you.”

“Bucky-.”

“No,” Bucky shook his head, his tone firm but gentle. “We can sit here and argue till we’re blue in the face, but I did. I treated you like an object that was mine to keep and hold. I didn’t give you the respect you needed or deserved. I let my fears and insecurities rule my emotions. I thought if I beat them to punch before they could be proven right that I’d win somehow. In the end all it did was hurt the woman I love. And God, I’m so sorry I ever did. You were my rock. You helped me bring me out of my lowest point and I essentially spat in your face.”

Y/N didn’t respond. She glanced down at her hands, listening intently at what Bucky was saying. Bucky, however, was trying to keep his voice from breaking. No amount of therapy could have ever prepared him for difficult this conversation was. It needed to be done, but god if it didn’t sting.

“I don’t know if you could ever forgive me, and quite frankly, I wouldn’t blame you if you decided you never wanted to speak with me again.” Bucky finally said after a moment of silence. Y/N’s head snapped up and her eyes went wide. “I just want you to know, I will never, ever allow myself to become what I was ever again. I can’t say I’m fully healed, don’t think I ever will be, but I can damn well promise you that I will do everything I can to keep from going back. I can’t go back. Not to what I had become.”

Y/N couldn’t stop the tears that swelled to her eyes, the conviction and determination he spoke with shook her to the core. She hadn’t seen him in months, seeing him was overwhelming as it was, but this brought the flood of emotions she’d been keeping inside since the day he left.

He wasn’t the only one who went to therapy. Tony and Steve both agreed, that while Bucky might not have been intentionally abusive, he had toed the line rather closely. Of course, both agreed after a day or two to cool their heads that Bucky never meant her any harm. At least not knowingly. Nevertheless, they wanted to make sure Y/N was okay, that she could talk with someone who knew what they were doing about what she went through. Much like Bucky, Y/N found a little bit of determination to not let things go back to the way they were when he would come back home.

She knew her limits and had control of the voice she was finding in herself when she was with him. Her therapist helped her realized that yes, Bucky did hurt her, but he wasn’t bad. This wasn’t him. He was sick and was getting help. Help he willingly went for. She talked through whatever hidden resentment she had and it helped her see things in a new light. She wasn’t the shy quiet woman from six months ago who was too scared to speak up. Now she found a strength she didn’t know she had and Bucky inadvertently helped her find it.

Even at the end of the day, after talking through everything and working past the hurt, Y/N knew one thing. She still loved him. Fully and completely, she was head over heels in love with the man. If anything, this made her realize just how much she missed and cared about it. How seeing him in pain brought her more agony than she could have ever described. Having him here, in front of her pouring out his heart only made that awareness even stronger.

Reaching to take his hand in hers, Y/N scooted closer so that her side was against his. Bucky held his breath, stunned at how easily she moved against him. He expected her to recoil, to tell him she heard enough and had already decided that this, what they had was history. Yet, when she tilted her head back to stare at him, her eyes shown with love and understanding that Bucky never thought he’d ever deserved. He took in a deep breath, his eyelashes fluttering shut when he took her smell. Warm as honey and sweet with a hint of citrus. She smelt like what home was to him.

“Bucky,” Y/N whispered, leaned forward to press her forehead against his. Bucky hummed and opened his eyes. “You weren’t in your right state of mind, the trauma you went through in your past was still fresh and then when you threw in Vivian and her treatment to you? It was only a matter of time before you snapped. I know that deep down you never would have hurt me, but we didn’t have the tools you need- that we needed to get you through this.”

“I still hurt you though.” Bucky interjected. Y/N sighed softly and nodded, sitting back to see Bucky’s face better.

“You did.” She didn’t argue. Bucky’s shoulders dropped and he turned away. Y/N cupped his cheek, bringing his face back to hers with a gentle smile tugging at her lips. “And I forgave you a long time ago. I could never hold something like this against you. We’ve all had those demons in our heads that do nothing but tell us lies and lead us to become worse than what we really are. I only wish we could have helped you sooner before it turned into what it had.”

“How can you just forgive me so easily?” Bucky asked astonished. Y/N tilted her head to the side the smile stretching across her lips at the shocked look on his face. He really didn’t know.

“It’s simple.” She shrugged. “Because I love you.”

Bucky swore his heart exploded in his chest. The hope he had suppressed sparked to life and began to spread. His therapists told him he was still too hard on himself. It’s not that he didn’t believe them, but he wasn’t going to get his hopes up only for them to crash and burn when she’d tell him to leave and never talk to him again. He knew his girl was different, but he really hadn’t thought she was ready to forgive him so soon. The shock hit him, and it was written across his forehead in big bold letters.

“You-.” He stammered, swallowing thickly. “You do?”

“Of course I do.” Y/N laughed and snuggled closer against him. She wrapped an arm around his shoulder and tugged at his neck so she could press her forehead against his. Bucky’s melted in her hold; his eyes fluttering shut on instinct. No matter how long they’ve been apart, his body never forgot how safe he felt when he was around her. When she started to scratch the spot on his neck behind his ear with her nails, Bucky felt a rumble build in his chest and a blissful grin spreading across his lips.

“I’m not saying I’m willing to just jump back into where we were.” Y/N began softly. Bucky tensed, his eyes fluttering open. “Things have to be different if you want us to stay together. And I’m more than willing to work out anything we need to work out to make that happen. I do love you, and I’m sorry if this sounds a little selfish, but I’m not willing to let you go.”

Bucky let out a breathless laugh, gobsmacked. He slipped an arm around her waist and pulled her to his sit on his lap. Y/N’s laugh echoed his, a sound he missed hearing the most, and wrapped her arms around his neck.

He stared up at her, a light in his eyes that Y/N hadn’t seen in months. She was right of course; this wasn’t going to be swept under the rug and ignored. They had done that for too long before and look where they ended up. He would do whatever he could to show her that there was no going back to six months ago. That Bucky was a thing of the past. Things were going to be different and for the better.

“To be completely honest, I wasn’t willing to let you go either,” Bucky whispered softly. “But I sure as hell wasn’t going to force you to stay with me if you decided you wanted nothing to do with me.”

“Oh really?” Y/N smirked. “Just like that? You’d walk away and that be that?”

“Yeah.” Bucky answered truthfully. “If you told me right now you wanted absolutely nothing to do with me, that you wanted me to get out of your life, I’d leave. No questions asked.”

“What? Really?” Y/N inhaled sharply.

“Yeah. I mean, it would hurt like hell, but I wouldn’t want to be the reason for your discomfort. Not anymore.”

Y/N stared down at him, the tears starting to well in her eyes for the second time that night. Bucky frowned, cupping her cheek and brushing the stray tear with his thumb.

“I mean it.” Bucky murmured softly. “You mean everything to me. If you give me another chance, I swear, I will make up for all the shit I put you through and then some.”

Y/N’s stared intently, a little crease starting to form between her brows. Slowly, a smile stretched on her face and she chuckled softly. Leaning forward, Y/N brushed her nose against him and tightened her arms around his neck. Bucky’s breath hitched and his grip around her waist tightened while his smile grew to match her own.

“Then I guess you better start making up Barnes. Cause I’m not letting you go.” Y/N whispered breathlessly against his lips before closing the gap. Fireworks exploded and a rush of euphoria swept over Bucky. He returned the kiss with equal vigor, savoring the taste and feel of his girl against him.

He didn’t know what he had done to deserve this, a woman who loved him despite all his faults and sins, but he wasn’t going to mess this up. Not ever again.

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I've finally done the final quest and decided to make a meme for my sky kid lmao

It's really sad to see the skater girl spirit go + the end of the season but I've had my proper farewell with this debut :')

I used glow and anti-gravity spell. Oh and the mask from the latest event (lunar new year) ahaha. The outfit tho, it's the best I can have overall from what I've collected. Plus I played "Little Wing and Beautiful Pride" from Pretty Rhythm : Rainbow Live, it fitsss🥺💗

Bonus a recap of my journey and why season of dreams is the best season for me. I really can't believe it's THAT long:

Few years ago watched an idol anime about girls who dedicated their life to becoming queens and stars of an ice skating, magical jumps and dancing packed performance (2013/2014). I def loved it and it became one of my important childhood. Sadly I couldn't even play their games or bought a merch, there weren't any from my country oop-

Moved on and left my "dream" of experiencing any similiar or related stuff from the anime. That's until I already downloaded SKY (June/July 2020) and met this traveling spirit. Twirling champion as I search his name hehe. His emote gave me a big vibes from the performance and that's when I realized I OBVIOUSLY can skate in SKY (duh 😔). Since that it often or even has become a daily routine to skate in Valley. Oh and with playing the songs from the anime really hit my feelings 🥺

I made 2 friends from skating experiences and they're great. But sometimes I thought that that lake would be my only place to skate or I'm the only one who skate in there when my friend wasn't around. It hurts a bit but heyyy, I snapped my mind and kept skating haha. Months later season of dreams teaser came and I was shocked. "Did god just answer my silly thoughts?", I said to myself.

After the teaser my spirit to skate in valley grew much much more. Also an ice rink came at HOME! A lot of peps were doing ice skating and I'm not alone?? Oh and SoD's story would be focused on the skater girl spirit HOW am I not freaking out???? Well when it came out I'm kinda sad that it's buggy haha but still enjoy it as I could.

Really hoping to have the ultimate gift but I don't have enough money to buy the adventure pass. So (innocently) every day I collected the seasonal candles but well until I realized that I could get it ONLY by having the AP I stopped collecting them and got really sad lol. Few weeks later my sky community had this discord emote competition and I decided to join. If I won I can get enough money to buy it. Welĺ I didn't win tho, but it's fine hehe.

I kinda see the skater girl almost as my sky kid or even me. The difference was that she had people who helped her and I didn't (lol dear me that's real sad).

Anyway her story also had this part of dream of mine that I couldn't fulfill back then and when I played the debut at BETA I was surprised that I did a performance with her. This season has completed my childhood dream and I'm really thankful for that. Like really, REALLY am thankful!

The places, coliseum update, spirits, quests experiences, cosmetics and the story they're all amazing!

Ane this scene right here will forever be my favorite. She's my exact reaction to everything that happened 😂

Bonus-bonus and bonus :

I love this picture that I took recently hehe

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INBOX

SO! I know I hoard asks. It’s a bad habit. Reasons?

I like to go look at them when I’m sad because they cheer me up.

I don’t want anyone to get annoyed that my blog is clogged up with asks, it’s a fear of mine that someone will think I'm annoying.

BUTT! My inbox is so cluttered right now, It’s hard for me to find certain requests. I saw someone else do an mass ask answering like this, and I LEARNED that if I tag it, I can look that tag up on my blog!

ALSO PSA you can also comment on my pics or message me to talk!!!!! I will never turn anyone away!!! I love you all!

ANOTHER PSA - if you want to not have to see this in the future, pls block the tag “shorkbrian answers a lot of asks”

Lets get ready to rumble!!!!!!!

These are in no particular order! Know that if you don’t see an ask you sent, it’s because I plan on writing something for it, probably like a lil Drabble cause those are my favorite (can you tell?)

Hello! My pronouns are They/Them or He/Him! I want to like give u a big ole hug for this question, You’re super sweet!

OOP Okay listen I’ve had a couple dreams with very unsavory happenings and each one is awful and so so scary. I hope your dream didn’t make you feel icky or anything dude. I Lub u, stay safe.

I am speechless. This is.... wow man. This is an amazing, positive review of my work and I feel so blessed and honored that you took the time to message me. I LOVE LOVE LOVE reading what people think of my work, and this one made me just like. I am like so blessed dude. Speechless (in the best way possible)

AHHHHH Thank you!!!! Look at those emojis!!!! SO bright and colorful and fun!!!!

As a fellow Hornee person that is dumb, I would like to say...... Why stop at a chefs kiss? are you afraid to kiss me on the mouth, homie? For future reference, I like tongue. (asdaslhjkah sorry I’m stupid but Thank you for these kind words!!!! What nice descriptors man, I’m like wilting under the praise its too much!)

Yes, reader is NOT going to have a fun time. Thanks for reading! I appreciate your support so so so much!!

Hey, listen! Requests are “closed” so I can have time to catch up without getting overwhelmed. If one or two slip in, they won’t get deleted :)

Bro, I recently talked to a friend with a similar experience. I’m so sorry for the things you’ve had to deal with, it sounds awful. The world is big and scary and VERY loud, and you are so amazing for navigating it. Bakugou would give you insane cuddles to help u feel better, remember dat okie?

Maybe! I’m getting around to things babey, it might take a hot second. But I will try!

Thank you! I try babey I try lol. I Lub u by the way thank u for msging me

I accept this wisdom. Thank you for sharing. I pray for a time when I will be able to use it.

You nailed it. I want this on my tombstone pls and thank u.

omg omg thank youuuuuuuu!!!!! Honestly, I think Izuku is still so so so shy, even when it comes to doing stuff with his darling.  ugh his poor darling. Ur right tho, no one would ever believe that Izuku was doing bad stuff. But once again!!! Thank YOU for reading and taking the time to send me an ask!!!! Warms my heart

wait wait okay I LOVE LOVE LOVE Kirishima I am his BIGGEST simp and this compliment? SENT ME TO OUTER SPACE. I squealed so hard I got like liftoff and I made it out of the atmosphere. This is the BEST thing EVER Thank you SO much my heart is POURING out love Grimm I would DIE for u no cap 

idk? Personally, I hate being touched so I probably would politely be like “Pls dont ahah” but I would hit him with paper airplanes with cute little notes inside.

I wish I wish with all my heart that I could turn into a small person tonight. Like, I'm crying. I am 6′0 and built like a refrigerator aint nobody able to manhandle me... *sobs in big man syndrome* I will continue to feed u tho bc it is a GIANT fantasy of mine to be manhandled and tossed around. lets goooooo

I don’t want to be a religion, can we start a cult? I’ll be the sacrifice.

bonk bonk bonk bonk bonk bonk TOO LATE (Also thank ant the comment abc my humor! Inspires me and tbh enables me)

no U 

“hey google?”

“What can I help you with today?”

“Why do I have the SWEEEEEEETEST followers ever? How did this happen? They make me blush I can’t handle it”

I have a SIMP???????? Come off anon u and I are going to talk and then passionately kiss. (not rlly but I do Lub you, thank you for the kind and gentle words)

bonk bonk bonk bonk (Also this was sent to me on a Sunday? I live in America bruv)

Pls don’t I almost peed my pants I was snorting at 2am and trying my hardest not to disturb my cat it was very hard (Repeat I almost PEED my PANST U HEATHEN)

wait stop stop u always give me such amazing comments skid I want to give u a candle made with wax and tears of love. You are so sweet. Pls never hesitate to reach out for a chat I luv u okei

BLACK HEART ANON I’m dedicating everything in my will to u, hope you know that. Okay, but seriously - I get being afraid of people. I don’t think you’re being hypocritical, I think you’re being kind and selfless and reaching out a helping hand to a loser like me. Black heart emojis low-key always make me think of you now and it fills my heart with warmth. Thank you for existing dude,

What have I said about the chefs kiss? Kiss me on the mouth u cowards. Do it.

Also this ask made me SAWFT I want to gibe u like idk a candy heart necklace to show how SOFT and Ugh demonstrate my LUB

I am glad I found YOU!!! Not everyone bothers to comment or interact or send me nice asks. They make my day man. You rock!

YYaaaayyyyaa!!! I’m cool with all the canon characters of BNHA except for Bakubro. I adore his fanon personification, but just how he acts in the show..... that aint it chief. I totally get u

TYSM!!!! Heart heart!! Aizawa has the potential to be so creepy and awful, he’s super interesting to try and write for! I’m glad you like my content, and thank you for telling me such!!!!!!!! LUB U

GRIMMM STAWWWWWWP I’m like on the verge of like melting into a PUDDLE of goopy admiration how the heck do u even know my blog ur so cool and I still can’t believe I can like.... talk to you. Ur rad dude.

BLACK HEARTTTTTTT You are never invading my privacy. Your asks are two that I hold very near and dear to my heart. I reread them over and over and they help when I’m having sucky days. Pls pls pls recognize that you’re an amazing person and you lift up my spirits and you are genuinely awesome. I love u Black Heart

I LOVE Kiri, have I mentioned? He’s my fav. And yes!!! I am VERY open to ideas!!!! Love pretty much everything and anything that comes my way!!! thank u for sending me an ask dude, means a lot :)

Sensitive anon, my dear dear friend if ur reading this know that I adore talking with u and I like hearing about ur day and You are so sweet and you make the world a better place by being in it

WE SIMP...... TOGETHER!!!!

Another beautiful baby that I always see interacting with me!!! I love you so so much and Each time your name pops up in my motifs I get so excited to see what you say!!! I’ve been holding onto this ask FOREVER because the little picture is SO CUTE and it makes me softer than melted butter man.

Okay, we’ve done it lads! I love each and every one of you!!!!!!!

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Never Saw Blue Like That Before

Summary: With Michael gone from the far reaches of Dean’s mind, Cas decides to tell his best friend - the man he rose from hell - his true feelings. He’s been in love with him for years and he’s pretty sure Dean feels the same way. Dean does, but being Dean, his first instinct is to push the man he loves away.

Pairing: Destiel

Word Count: 2,455

Warnings: Idiots that pine for each other and won’t admit it, angst, smut, part canon compliant and part canon divergent, oral sex, anal sex, lube, all the touching, I think that’s it :D

A/N: For those of you 18 and over! Some Destiel smangst that fulfills my Destiel square for @spnkinkbingo, mutual pining for @spnfluffbingo​ even tho it’s more angtsy mutual pining, @stusbunker‘s Break My Heart Challenge using the prompt “Save me the sob story!” (That was a 2019 challenge, oops, I’m sorry Stu I love you) and the song prompt (no lyrics) Never Saw Blue Like That Before by Shawn Colvin for @impala-dreamer​‘s Make Me Feel It Challenge. Italics are flashbacks in chronological order. 

Beta’d by: @67-chevy-baby​ Thanks a million!

Few things were certain.

One certainty is that they would be fighting forever. And the other was Cas’ longtime feelings for the man he raised from hell. Michael was gone, cast out from Dean - for now. But there were no guarantees. 

Cas swallowed the lump in his throat and knocked steadily on the door to Dean’s room. When he opened it, Dean shuttered slightly, as if he hadn’t expected Cas to be there. “Cas,” he said, voice soft and low. “What’s up?” He injected a levity into his voice that was unnatural and they both knew it. 

“Can I come in?” Cas asked, not waiting for an answer. 

A small huff of laughter escaped Dean’s lips. “Yea, sure.”

“Are you feeling okay?” Cas questioned. Quite the stupid question all things considering, but he couldn’t get the other words to come out yet.

“Well, Michael vacated my meat suit and I have no freakin’ idea why. He’s still out there. And I have no idea what he’s planning on next, so you know, could be better.” He had his hands on his hips, his lip trembling as he tried so hard to control the myriad of thoughts rolling through his head. 

For a moment, Dean glanced up, chancing a look at one of the two people he trusted most in the world. In all his years, all the people he’d met, all the things he’d seen, there’d never been a feeling closer to peace than when he’d looked in the angel’s eyes.

Taking a deep breath, Cas forced the words out. “Dean, there’s something you need to know. When you let Michael in, I was so afraid I’d never get the chance to say it, so I’m saying it now regardless of the consequences. I...love you.”

“Yea, I know you do, Cas,” Dean said, immediately on the defensive. He turned away a degree, hoping to hide himself from the angel, but after 10 years, he was wise to Dean’s mannerisms. 

Cas reached for Dean’s arm and yanked him back to face him. “No, not just as my best friend. Not just as the man I raised from hell. I-”

“No, no, no, no.” Dean mumbled to himself as he began to pace around the room. This couldn’t be happening. Of course, he loved Cas, he could barely remember a time when he didn’t, but... “Cas, you’re just glad I’m okay, that’s all this is.”

“No it isn’t!” The angel replied, his voice rising ever so slightly. He assumed Sam was still out of the bunker, but if he wasn’t Cas didn’t want to grab his attention. “Dean, that is not what this is. This has been sitting in my head for years. Every time I thought about saying something, another apocalypse was on the horizon or another monster needed to be slain, but that’s our lives and I couldn’t live anymore without getting it out of me.”

Dean bellowed, “Save me the sob story, Cas!” He combed his hands through his hair, still flecked with dirt and grime. The seraph flinched, taking a step back. Cas had no idea what he was saying. “We can’t! Not now, not ever!”

Before Cas could say or do anything, try and salvage whatever it was that they had, Dean barreled out of his room and out of the bunker, leaving Cas distraught and the nearby Sam saddened at his brother’s trademark stubbornness.  

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It was a dream. That much he knew. But he didn’t care. All Dean cared about was the slight breeze that came off the lake, the fishing pole in his hand and the sudden coolness at his back - the angel that permeated his dreams. “Hey Cas,” he said softly. “Why are you here?” It’s not what he wanted to say. What he wanted to say was ‘stay here’ and ‘let’s not move ever again,’ because this was perfect. 

But cowardice always won out. Put a knife in his hand and a demon at his back and he’d tackle that head on. But he couldn’t say those few simple words when the angel was near. 

“I have something I need to tell you,” Cas replied. There was so much he needed to say. How much humanity had already changed him. How much Dean had changed him and made him better. But that wasn’t why he was here. “We need to meet somewhere safe.”

Dean’s lip curved upward into a smile, the irony apparent. “Cas, we’re in my head.”

“And if I can be here, nothing says someone else can’t be here.” After handing Dean the paper, fingers brushing against the calloused skin of Dean’s right hand, Cas left - every word he wanted to say bottled up in the back of his mind for whenever the time was right.

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Leaned up against the Impala with a beer in his hand should’ve left Dean content, but with Sam in the pit and no conceivable way to get him out, Dean was lost. He tipped the bottle to his lips and took a swig when the familiar flap of Cas’ wings sounded behind him. “Hey, Cas.”

“Hello, Dean.” He wanted to ask how he was, but he knew the answer. And he also wanted to say so much, but with Dean in pain it didn’t seem right to complicate things. “Why are you out here alone?”

Dean dipped down to the cooler next to him and popped a bottle open for Cas. “I’m not alone. Just needed to breathe. I was in a similar field like this with Sam when we were kids. We set off fireworks even though Dad would’ve been pissed. It was one of the best days of my life.”

“We’ll get him back, Dean.” If it killed him, he’d get Sam back for the man he loved. “I promise.”

“I know,” Dean replied. They would find a way, but he wasn’t about to lose Bobby or Cas in the process. “You didn’t have to check in on me, you know.”

Cas drank the bitter liquid and smiled, his face hidden in the shadows of the night. “I wanted to.”

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As Cas followed behind Dean and the vampire, he pushed Dean’s protestations out of his mind. ‘I’m not leaving you behind. You'll get through.’

He wouldn’t. Deep down, Cas knew that the wormhole out of Purgatory wouldn’t allow him out. Dean was a human. Purgatory wanted him gone; it was desperate to spit him out. But Cas was an angel - a monster like any other. After all he’d done in heaven and on earth, he deserved to stay here with the rest of the world’s monsters.

“There it is,” Benny pointed out, the blue wormhole in the distance teeming with life and possibilities for anyone that managed to pass through it. 

Before him, Dean and Benny conducted the ritual so that Dean could carry his new friend through the portal. “Alright, Cas, come on.”

Reluctantly, he stepped forward, only to have his attention turned backward when the leviathan landed just paces away. He hurried his friend toward the portal, ready to push him through alone at any moment. 

Dean stepped into the swirling blue light, ready to do anything necessary to bring Cas through with him, but the angel saw the situation for what it was - an untimely death for them both.

“Go!” Cas screamed, pushing Dean through the portal.

After all that had transpired between them, all the ways he had let Dean down, the least he could do was get him back to his brother. With or without him.

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A stark white blinded Dean’s eyes when the blade pierced through Cas’ chest, his eyes burning bright before the light went out. 

He’d screamed himself raw that night, cursing Chuck, Lucifer, and the world as a whole for taking Cas away from him. When Cas was stabbed, Dean lost a part of himself, his heart disappearing into a black hole. He used to believe that losses were part of the job, but after losing Cas, he couldn’t make sense of it anymore.

The sharp ring of his phone jarred him awake, his head knocking against the glass. “You okay?” Sam asked. 

No. “Yea, I’m fine,” Dean replied, lifting the phone to his ear. “Hello?”

A familiar voice told him to turn down the next block and although everything in him was telling him this was impossible, a trick, or just something too good to be true, he forced Sam to turn down the street without any explanation. “What is it?” Sam asked. “Dean, what’s happening?”

“I don’t know,” he said honestly. If there was even the smallest chance, Dean was going to take it, no matter the risk of disappointment. 

Near a payphone halfway down the block, the silhouetted figure of the trenchcoat-wearing angel caught the brothers’ eyes. Sam slammed on the brakes. “Cas?”

Sam immediately gathered the angel into his embrace, while the older stared through glassy eyes, afraid to believe them. “Cas,” he breathed as he held onto his angel for dear life. There was so much he needed to say. He wanted to tell him that when the light in his eyes went out, his own heart forgot to keep beating, but nothing would come out. Instead, he hugged him tighter, hoping to never let go.

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Dean stormed back into the bunker hours later without a passing glance at Sam, a bottle of bourbon in his hand and a blanket of guilt wrapped around his shoulders. When he opened the door to his room, he hoped to see Cas, to finally say all the things he should’ve said so long ago, but the door opened to an empty room. 

Closing the door behind him, Dean tipped the amber liquid into his mouth, thankful for the familiar burn, almost as familiar as the layer of guilt he’d worn for so many years. Cas, I’m sorry, he whispered to himself. “I wish I’d had the balls to tell you how I felt a long time ago, but I’m a coward, I’ve-”

A quick flap of Cas’ wings brought Dean’s attention to the angel’s presence. “Dean Winchester, you are not a coward.” Though his deep blue eyes teemed with tears, his words were adamant. “I did not raise a coward. I have not been stuck by a coward’s side for the past ten years. I-”

“Cas, I didn’t call you. How?”

“I heard you.”

Dean placed the bottle of bourbon on the nightstand next to his bed, his gaze following suit, the heaviness of the moment too much for him to bear just yet. The desire to just be was at war with his desire to protect, to push away. “Michael could come back, Cas. You could-”

“That’s my choice,” he retorted. In the forest green eyes of the man he loved, he saw his feelings reflected, but years of loss made him painfully hesitant. Cas took a step closer and swallowed the growing lump in his throat. “Dean, we’re always fighting. Always. Let’s face it, we don’t know anything else at this point, but-”

“But at least we’d have each other,” Dean finished.

Dean finally allowed himself to lock eyes with Cas - the feeling familiar and calming, yet always sent his heart racing. 

Not another word was spoken as Cas backed Dean into the wall of his room, his lips hungrily searching for Dean’s. He’d thought Dean would be hesitant, but he wasn’t. His hands searched for Cas’ shirt, fingers hurriedly unbuttoning as he pulled the material free and moaned into the angel’s mouth. 

Cas lifted the hem of Dean’s shirt, grazing his fingers along the scar-ridden skin before pulling the material over his head. When he laid his hand on the mark he’d left on Dean’s shoulder so long ago, Dean switched their positions and pushed Cas back into the wall.

As Dean dropped to his knees, Cas threw his tie to the ground and let his coat and shirt pool behind him. Dean pulled Cas’ cock free of his pants and pushed them down around his ankles, taking the tip into his mouth while he watched Cas’ mouth drop open. 

Dean grazed his hand up Cas’ thigh and cupped his balls, running his finger between them while his tongue swirled around the length of him. Cas’ hand fell gently onto the mark on Dean’s shoulder, making him feel wanted, loved, safe. He looked up through thick lashes and pushed down further, not caring about the wanton noises he was making or the mess they’d have to clean up later. 

Cas braced himself up against the wall and slipped his hands into Dean’s hair, watching with rapt attention as Dean pulled back to take a deep breath before returning to his task of making the angel come undone. “Fuck,” Cas breathed.

Hearing Cas’s voice pushed Dean to take him down further, go faster, but Cas wasn’t about to let this be over that quickly. Not after 10 years. He slipped his hand under Dean’s chin and guided him to a standing position.

Dean’s lips were slick with spit, eyes glassy as he walked backward toward the bed. Cas pulled on his bottom lip, hands skating up the length of his spine before he pushed him down on the bed and grabbed some lubricant from Dean’s side drawer. 

Moaning, Dean dug his shoulders into the bed as Cas massaged the lube into his skin. “It’s been ten years, Cas. No more foreplay.”

Cas chuckled, expecting nothing less from the man he loved. Bending down, he kissed Dean and he slipped his cock passed the tight right of muscle. They moaned into each other’s mouths, grasping for each other and the surrounding sheets as Cas pumped himself inside Dean. 

Underneath the angel, Dean reached down to cup Cas’ balls as they slapped against his ass. “Fuckin hell, Cas.”

“You’ve always had a mouth on you,” he replied with a laugh. 

Dean spoke on a moan. “You think that’d change now?”

There was some kind of a response floating around in Cas’ head, but as Dean clenched around him all thought disappeared, his control waning despite his best efforts. He wanted this to last longer, to memorize the sounds he made, the way he tasted like whiskey, the feel of his muscles straining under his touch, but Dean pulled him down into a kiss so hungry it broke Cas’ resolve.

When Cas came, he wrapped his hand around Dean’s cock and pumped him hard, silencing his cry with a kiss when Dean finally let go. With a satisfied sigh, a heavy weight lifting from his soul, Dean slid back into his spot on the bed, tapping next to him. “Stay?” He asked.

“Where else would I go?”

[deathschoolbestschool]

My wizzy ocs

HEY I LITERALLY CANNOT REMEMBER IF I’VE EVER DONE THIS BEFORE but I appear to have not so?? Hey here’s what my wizzy ocs (currently, might update/edit every now and then) look like and a lil blurb about them (though I literally just got the new graphics patch and they look so weird 😭 it’s the eyes, the eyes are so different and unnerving)

Long post ahead!

Evan Crow

Evan is my main and the one I’ve had pretty much forever! (my old old characters were lost to time but. I’ve had him for a few years!! Which is also why he has two pets and two mounts, plus a few more in his house haha oops. Battle havox and Orio [frankenbunny] are the main ones though! I don’t use Vaden because they don’t have any good abilities and midnight harrowings are more for serious questing) He’s death primary balance secondary and is 19 years old! He has main character syndrome and ✨trauma✨ bc Ambrose thought it was a good idea to send a preteen (at the time) out to save the world. 😐 He’s kinda cynical because of it but overall pretty friendly and is personality is most like mine since he’s also kinda my sona! In relation to my ocs and their sorta universe he’s like. The genuine main character/goes through the main storyline, though the others do kind of go though it in their own way! He’s the one that REALLY does all the dirty work/is “the hero” so to speak though!! He has ADHD, OCD, GAD, and MDD (not because he’s like my sona and those are the disorders I have or anything ahaha //sweats) His pets are Vaden (harrowed bones) and Orio (frankenbunny)! Vaden is trying their best and Orio is no thoughts, head empty. He loves them both to death, but Orio is is questing buddy! His house is the battlemage keep and his hobbies are gardening, crafting, and fishing! I wouldn’t mind a few other mounts for him but I don’t need them/they’re not dream items!

Quinn Stargiver

Quinn is myth primary life secondary and is 17 years old! He’s quiet but not shy, more like keeps to himself. He’s pretty blunt and can come off as an asshole but is really just not in the mood to put with with shit (he will for his friends tho). Fun fact about Quinn actually: he has a mount so he doesn’t really have to worry about this as much now but before he used magic to get around/see! Kinda like putting out magic as “feelers”/like how echolocation kinda gives you an image in your head :0 literally. The only neurotypical here other than Cole HFSLFDSH  His pet is Plucky Belle (wargoyle) and she is a little DIVA that gets babied by Quinn, that’s his QUEEN. His hobby is pet breeding and his house is the wooded cottage (or at least I THOUGHT it was but I don’t own it yet, sob). Dream mount is astral unicorn!

Nora Stormsong

Nora is storm primary fire secondary and is 16 years old! She’s J O C K S U P R E M E and overall very hyperactive and happy-go-lucky! The physical embodiment of >:3c, chronic dumbass disease. She gets into a lot of trouble and is impulsive at times but she fucking loves magic, and loves adventure even more!! Has rlly bad ADHD but has honestly just given up caring at this point. Her pet is Bandit (fenris), he’s a feisty boy but loyal to Nora! She doesn’t currently have a hobby but might take up socketing, and she’s living in the dorms! Dream pet is tarantula hawk! I actually also have the new fangle (which is living over at Evan’s) and I really love that mount for Nora but I just... couldn’t get the colors to work. :,)

Victoria Goldthistle

Victoria is balance primary ice secondary and is 17 years old! You know that popular kid that always seems to have it together, looks hot as FUCK, gets good grades, and is honestly sort of regal, but as soon as you get to know them you realize they’re actually really struggling and isn’t as much as an asshole as you took them for? Yeah, that’s Victoria. Always carries herself with an air of grace, acts apathetic and “cold” (haha ice joke), comes from an upstanding family, and cares way too much about her appearance as a result. But in reality, she’s actually very sweet in her own way, and her laugh is the warmest thing you’ll ever hear! Cares deeply for her friends and her grades, although she’s struggling a little bit because of ADHD. (No I will not stop giving my characters ADHD, it’s MY disorder and I get to choose the coping mechanism) She also has an unnamed anxiety disorder (unnamed because I can’t decide or unnamed because she isn’t diagnosed/getting professional help? The answer is Yes) She doesn’t currently have any hobbies but might take up photomancy, socketing, or crafting, and lives in the dorms! Dream mount is desert racer or jeweled scarab and dream pet is pink cactus hopper!

Cole Silverbreeze

Cole is life primary (I haven’t decided on a secondary yet) and is 19 years old! If we’re being honest I have two directions I could take his character in that I haven’t decided between, one soft and wholesome and one... not so nice. I can’t choose!! On one hand Evan deserves Nice Things (as he’s Evan’s future partner) but on the other hand,, hrnrngngn life villain hrnrnrnngnggggg angst. I’m honestly worried the dark turn would be too heavy though so... idk! At this point he’s just one big bucket of potential! His hobby is gardening and he lives in the dorms! Dream mount is wild hare(?) or bruin ram(?) and dream pet is golden ram(?)

ALRIGHT that was it!! I hope you enjoyed this Proper Introduction to my characters since,, tbh I spent a lot of time on it!! Here’s to seeing where the story will go 👀👀 (also if you have any questions please ask me about my characters I will cry happy tears)

[godrics]

NCT DREAM BEYOND LIVE CONCERT!RORY

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NCT DREAM BEYOND LIVE CONCERT!RORY

UNDER READ MORE  (bc it’s actually really long now that im on tumblr)

okay so the concert started with the vcr/video from the dream show ..

rory's little scene was her as a teacher !!! so cute

OOH and then the transition into her into her teacher clothes into a suit .. thats my girl

her hair is still like this. much more vibrant than it was because she redyed it oops

first song was GO!! change ur ways

she was wearing this [ black cargo pants, a black crop top, belt, along with chains lmao idk how to describe. oh and black boots ] for go, drippin', we go up, and stronger performances!

it was kind of awkward at first but then she saw nctzens' faces so she was happy

"to the world, this is the nct! we are nct dream”

she clapped excitedly, jumping up and down

"beyond the dream show~"

when haechan asked the time where the fans were, she read the comments, squinting funnily at the screen before gasping

"one of the czennies said it was 3am!"

the other boys gasped in shock before clapping slightly

"thank you for watching us even though it's 3am!" rory said to the fans. "but go to bed as soon as this is over~ or whenever you're feeling tired, that's okay too!"

"for our global fans, we prepared something special, right?" haechan said and rory nodded, smiling

"so we prepared our greeting in various languages"

rory's greeting was in french! fans went crazy bc she sounded SO good and her pronounciation was good too

after that she says, "renjun took english from me" in english and playfully glared at the older boy who laughed.

she turned to the fans and said, "but um, wendy-unnie taught me that so .. if it sounds bad it's all her fault." she claps as the other boys laugh

when they were talking about how they felt, rory said "i watched superm and wayv's concerts so i was excited because i knew we'd hear from the fans just like they were here with us in person. they were really loud, too" and laughs

when renjun told them to scream, she hit him lightly and said "yah, don't you remember what i just said? some fans it's 3am there!"

"oh dont scream then," renjun laughed, making her laugh before she went back to waving at the fans as they waved their lightsticks

when the fans appeared behind them, her eyes widened and she immediately ran to the screen, waving in all directions

she noticed when she got close to a fan's screen, they'd start waving their hand/lighstick even harder and it made her laugh

"rory, come back!" jaemin laughed, tugging her with him back to where the other 5 were

"wow, pretty grass" rory mocked mark as she stared at the lightsticks where the audience were supposed to be and on the screens

haechan had to hide a laugh

then there was we go up performance

woo fun

then stronger! she loves that song is2g

okay for the next vcr

she was in a school uniform standing in between jeno and jaemin

"you guys suck," rory laughed, watching the boys try to succeed

when renjun comes over and succeeds in under one minute and one hand, she gasped in shock lightly before watching him walk away coolly and put his head back down on the desk

jaemin nudged her as she laughed, "you guys are just losers!"

and then it ends on her walking over to renjun and bending down to face him and tapping him on the shoulder

he jumps from how close she is and she laughs, grinning at him, "that was cool" before going back over to the boys and he watches her

next video of the vcr oo

she gets hit in the head by the basketball(she's after chenle) and luckily saves it before it falls to the ground and throws it towards the basket, renjun jumping up to hit it in

why is she always getting hit in the head rip rory's head

next performance is dunk shot!!!

she hated the outfits tho jfc

she was wearing white loose shorts that ended midthigh and a pink button up over a white t-shirt

yeah super plain im so sorry rory that the stylists did you dirty like that

(to be fair the boys looked bad too like what was that matching .. there was NONE)

NEXT IS CHEWING GUM!!

AND THERE WERE HOVERBOARDS

SHE MISSED THE HOVERBOARDS SO MUCH

she hyped up jisung so loud during his solo dance

and had a huge ass smile on her face during it

she was in the middle of renjun and chenle at the bottom

AND THEY LEFT A SPACE FOR MARK IN BETWEEN JAEMIN AND JISUNG SHE ALMOST CRIED

"i think chenle changed the most" rory laughed, talking about the difference from now and almost four years ago when they debuted

"you changed a lot, too" chenle poked her and she huffed out a laugh, choosing not to respond to him and shook her head

when it was time for the interactions, she had to hide her wince because since she watched wayv and superm's, she was worried about how it would go because some fans' wifi connections were bad(so were sm's but anyways--)

oh luckily the first fan spoke korean !!

"hi!" she waved excitedly at the fan

when the fan said her name, she quietly repeated it to herself but it was still heard from the mic

"there's a song called 7 days in your album. what do you guys mean to each other?"

rory's mouth went dry at that question as she rubbed her hands together, looking at the boys silently as they ahhed and oohed

she smiled slightly as she saw how big their smiles got at the question

chenle said that the members were his family. they're literally siblings

she laughed at that

hyuck said that the members were apart of himself and that he grew up with all of them

jisung said bc they're older than him, they're like his younger siblings

rory had to look away in order to not laugh at his answer LMFAO

she couldnt contain how big her smile got when jaemin said that he couldn't live without them

she literally almost cried from tears of laughter from jeno's answer "onion"

renjun said that the members are youth to him

and him bringing up the stupid bottle to his face . i s2g she quickly yanked that from him so quick while laughing

and then finally it was her turn

"um, thank you for the question, siyoung!" she clapped slightly before continuing. "to me, the members are .. my childhood" she nodded slightly as she spoke. "we all grew up together so each of them have a piece of my childhood that i dont want to leave"

renjun pulls her into a side hug as jeno says "cute~"

wolfies(rory's stans) cried

when the fan said she'd stick with nct dream seven days a week, she laughed from the sudden overwhelming feeling at her words and bowed towards the fan, keeping her eyes to the ground so the camera wouldn't catch her teary eyes

too bad the camera did once she looked back up

"nct dream have 8 members--" when haechan said that, rory smiled big and nodded her head

"infinity" rory cheered, the members following behind

the next caller was up!

"ooh, poland" rory smiled

the fans question was "what are your biggest dreams" which she translated for them

rory's answer was "i have no doubt that nct dream will stay together forever so ... i my biggest dream is nctzens staying with us forever. even when we all grow up and have our own lives, i hope nctzens will some day think of nct dream and smile"

jaemin literally walked over and pinched her cheek, cooing at how cute she was

rory rolled her eyes playfully but let him

ah yes to this day he's still the only one she'll allow to give her skinship in public

rip other boys

she felt so sad when the third caller's connection was bad

"ah ... difficult technicalities"

she put a thumbs down

anyways next was don't need your love!!!

she LOVES this song so much guys its unreal

her place at the start is right in between renjun and jisung again lmao

shes leaning against chenle and jaemin

she loves hearing the boys' english btw

also in this version she has more lines but im not gonna tell which ones that's too much work

and next is we young!!

watching the part when they take a pic .. made me cry so it made rory very nostalgic

rory's wearing a professional suit but like . with a skirt i forgot what its called rip

she's standing in between hyuck and jeno

when jaemin laughs she laughs

she has that pic in her phone case btw

along with an ot8 pic

when they're talking abt the 50 years later OO im gonna . cry again

"so we can see how we change"

"um, we're gonna look older" rory laughed

btw grandma rory literally still looks good as hell sorry i dont make the rules

rory: "chenle would look like steve jobs but like .. chinese"

chenle was so offended bye

rory: "jisung if you grow a mustache i will never forgive you"

"wHY DOES IT MATTER?????"

"bc you'd look stupid i cant be seen with someone looking stupid"

the other pic where renjun jumps .. her face is literally so genuinely shocked in that pic LMAO she didnt expect that

NEXT IS BEST FRIENDS OH MY GODD I LOVED IT SO DID SHE

SHE JUST WISHED MARK WAS THERE .. AND HE KINDA WAS

btw she was wearing a black blazer but it was shorter .. and another black skirt with a white crop top underneath rip

OKAY HYERI MADE NCTZENS CRY SO HARD

so theyre uneven rn right?

so instead of her being a third wheel(not really)

when it's her part, she's backstage and as she's doing her part, she reached into an open closet and .. pulls out a cutout board of mark :((

yeah she cried too when she thought of it and luckily sm let her!!

at the end of her part towards the end of the song, she smiles and says, "right, mark-oppa?" and forms half a heart up to the camera

(taeyong later sends her a video of mark reacting to her parts and when she does the heart he puts half a heart up next to hers <3)

next is candle light! they dont really have a choreo to this one either

anyway candle light wouldnt have been her first choice bc she'd prefer to perform dear dream .. BUT ANYWAY

next is PUZZLE PIECE and 7 DAYS!!

the camera catches her and jisung doing their little handshake . so cute

she then hugs chenle so he wouldnt feel left out

end posing of puzzle piece, she's in between chenle and jisung AGAIN SLDJDJL

they form a heart with her doing the bottom and chenle and jisung doing the top/sides

when they read the comments after performing jeno reads one that says "rory is so talented, her vocals are so good"

and then hyuck read "rory's parts in best friends was so cute"

she blushes so cute

when they talk abt the album

rory says in english, "thank you for supporting us and we hope you guys enjoyed listening to the album as much as we enjoyed making it .. think of it as our gift to you for always loving us!!" cute baby. and then gives a little finger heart

special guest is mark, jungwoo, and doyoung!!

she expected mark but was surprised about jungwoo and doyoung

she couldnt stop smiling the whole time because literally all she had to do was see 127 and smile immediately like they dont even got to do anything

the technical difficulties .. rory said in english again "i think you need to get your wifi checked, mark"

"no mark-oppa?" he teased and she laughed

when they were complimenting them, jungwoo said that mark really enjoyed rory's parts in best friends and she full out giggled from nervousness, blushing from embarrassment

doyoung complimented her vocals and rap and shes never been so proud of herself

compliments from 127? her greatest achievement

jungwoo then said she was so cute wow more blushing

she found the challenge boring and wouldve preferred if 127 picked the damn challenge themselves bc then it wouldve been funnier and more fun but alas .. sm >:(

she picked puzzle piece tho

THE FUCKING NEXT VCR .. so emotional when she watched over it

she literally just watched her and her friends grow up in literal seconds

there's a clip of her from chewing gum on mark's back while he's riding the hoverboard

.. also somehow they got a clip of her hugging jaemin when he came back sigh

emotional manipulation!! she was kinda pissed that was in there bc it was supposed to be private but what can she do .. it's sm

there's a video of her chasing jeno during we young era while on the mv set

and another one of renjun literally dragging her on the ground because she wouldnt let go of his legs in mfal era

in mfal era she's seen running over chenle when he's out of their little cars

its funny he almost fell if jeno didnt catch him LMAO

but its ok dont fret he was in the grass

mfal era where hyuck tries to make a basket but fails and she steals the ball from him and makes it in .. he pouted FOREVER after that

the video of them in chewing gum era and then goes to ridin' era ..

her clip is her smiling shyly at the camera WITH HER CUTE PIGTAILS OH MYGODDD SO SOFT SO BABY

and then it goes to her in ridin' era with her leaning against the car and a lollipop in her mouth, staring dead straight at the camera somehow intimidatingly

n then ofc the music changes and the videos go more recent

theres clips of her behind the scenes in we young, go, dnyl, and boom

also some of her at that dream show concert

the ridin' stage was prerecorded but anyway she's wearing the same outfit she does in the mv

she saw a clip of the car cg and she yelled at the members jokingly saying it almost ran her over

wearing same outfit for quiet down which was live

they had one more song after :( she was really sad and she made sure nctzens knew that

"i wish we could perform more songs for you guys but .. only one more :(" and then sighed really loudly

"i wish you guys were here in person as well but your health is way more important and until then .. well, hopefully we can see each other again in the future! i miss seeing all your pretty faces" she then pouted as the other members oohed loudly and she laughed

after the other members continue she then reminds them all to "wash their hands and wear their masks over their noses if they have to go out"

when renjun says bonjour her eyes widen and she says "wow, so you stole my english and now my french?" she jokingly raises her hand to hit him but all he does is laughs and grabs her hand to 'stop her'

last is boom!

they shouldve performed dear dream or mfal but i guess booms good too not like they havent had to hear that song for 9 months

anyways

at the end she sneakily gives the camera a finger heart