#itll be fun i. do like fun slides and stuff.

[autism-corner]

autism-corner nation i need autism advice. help.

im going to an indoor waterpark. how tf can i avoid overstimulation? please suggest

[livelaughlovekny]

Texting him for homework help

a/n: going to try out a new format + wrote this fic when i was meant to be revising a test but got sidetracked. anyways, you can see how bad i am at science and math HAHA

Summary: You text Muichirou for homework help and he helps you a little

  You flip through the pages furiously, nearly ripping them. You should have revised earlier but the fanfiction you were reading was just too good. Your brain is officially a blank slate. Giving up, you opened up WhatsApp on your laptop. His name was at the top of your recently contacted. Tapping into your chats, you quickly sent him a SOS message.

You help, i cant do this anymore

mint ice creamok

You ☹️ science isnt sciencing

mint ice creamok

You how the frickity frack does a fuse work like does it just like stops current????

mint ice cream are you serious 💀 it lets current flow through but if theres too much then the wire inside the fuse will melt and like current can flow through cos its an open circuit do you get it

You ty bbg YES ok and so explain what earth wire does pls its so stupid ☹️

mint ice cream 🤡

You plsplspls i dont get anything 😢 the slides sucks

  Muichirou rolled his eyes but opened up a new tab in which he searched for the chapter’s slides. Screenshotting it, he sent it to you, knowing full well what your response would be. Waiting for you to reply, he formed his response to you in his head, figuring out how to explain it in simpler terms for you.

You [Image]

idiot wow so helpful 🥺

You it literally just like conducts electricity to the ground like if theres a leakage then it will prevent the user from getting a shock yk 

idiot still a little iffy about it but ok

You its a test, you cant be “iffy” about anything

idiot ☹️ tbf its just a revision

You ok 💀

  Rolling his eyes, Muichirou contemplated explaining the concept to you again or just letting you ask him other questions. He patiently waited for you to send your message when he noticed you typing.

You i think ill revise science tmr can you help me with math

mint ice cream the test is tmr wdym 💀

You ik but im too tired of it ☹️

mint ice creamalright, what is it

You soo whats like the four congruency tests

mint ice cream shit are you serious

You yeah 🙁

mint ice cream 💀ok wait

mint ice cream SSS = Side-Side-Side = All sides are the same SAS = Side-Angle-Side = 2 sides + 1 angle are the same AAS = Angle-Angle-Side= 2 angles + 1 side are the same RHS = Right angle-Hypotenuse-Side = Hypotenuse + 1 side is the same

mint ice creamdo you get it 🤓

You lol ass and idk 🙁

mint ice cream i dont deserve the torture of tutoring you

You 🖕 ok but fr i actually appreciate your help 🥺

  Twirling around in your spinning chair, you waited for his response. You glanced at the messy pile of worksheets and textbooks on your desk. No matter how hard you tried, his explanations were the only things that you could somewhat get.

You you know what congruent means right

idiotyeah

You impressive. so basically after you prove that theyre congruent youll write “[] is congruent to []” right

idiot yeah

You ok then at the back you write one of the congruent tests like which kind of congruency it is

idiot ok

You 🤡

idiot shut up im tired idw to do this anymore oml

  Muichirou’s fingers hovered above his keyboard as he thought about how to respond. He deleted his original message and sent another one.

mint ice cream L

Bonus: <Original message: itll be alright, im here for you>  He knew how hard these stuff were for you and was honestly extremely glad that his explanations could help you, even if it was just a little.

a/n: im so bad at this oml i feel like im horrible at explaining math and science :( tbf i do suck at them and i wrote this for fun (comforting myself) HAHA

[cognitosclowns]

Hey hey! I dunno if you’re taking requests right now but if you are, I am in NEED of just some soft things with Jr and Andre. I am just so, so gay for them. There isn’t a specific scenario I have in mind, I’m just craving something generally soft, cute and giggly <3

YOU'RE GETTIN SOME,, EXTRA FLUFFY SHIT OUT OF ME TONIGHT <3

ALL SFW !! tw for illness n medication!!

OKIE BUT <333 BOTH OF THEM WOULD BE THE MOST CHAOTIC BUT LOVING CARETAKERS IF YOU'RE SICK

JR

HHHHH how do people do things again?

LISTEN HE'S RICH HE'S NOT USED TO DOING STUFF. YOU THINK HE CAN COOK? NO! DARLING HE HASN'T COOKED IN YEARS.

This means you will be ordered some,, Very Yummy Expensive Meals <3. They might be a touch cold by the time they get there but,, mmm it's ok <3

He gets Super Worried even if it's just,, a cold. He rarely gets sick so seeing you all sniffy and mopey in bed makes him Fret (tm).

also he puts on his slippers for The First Time In Weeks (bc he's,, stayin home to take care of you <3) and ends up Slip N Sliding himself directly into the doorframe. At least it got a laugh outta you <3

HE DOESN'T CARE IF HE GETS SICK, FUCK IT, HE'S CUDDLING YOU.

Specifically, you laying back-to-his-chest while he make His Little Worried face and smooches your cheek. Lots of head rubs too <33

He does this thing,, where he runs his thumbs along your ears n jaw?? Just one clean motion, then he raises his thumbs and puts them back in the Start Position at where your Ear Meets Face? IDK IF I EXPLAINED IT RIGHT, BUT,, HE GETS QUITE MUSHY <3

whenever you sneeze he Instinctively goes,, ‘oh dear </3′ and rubs your shoulders.

Little murmurs asking if you're okay?? He'll INSIST on making you a tea, bc his 'trick' for when he's sick is!! Ginger Tea!! Or mint, but Ginger is his favorite. Settles stomach aches!! And the steam helps your nose hurt less smdnsmd

'hows my favorite angel?'

'do you have other angels?'

mm.. no, but you're still my favorite <3' whenever you wake up. He secretly loves feeling you lay on his chest - besides, hearing his heartbeat is very soothing??

ANDREEEEE

MASSIVE HYPOCHONDRIAC WITH A SHIT IMMUNE SYSTEM.

and,,, somehow this all of this goes out the window the Second he sees you curled up in bed, sniffling your face off.

some sort of Instinct kicks in and his ass is MOVING HE IS LIKE LIGHTNING GETTIN U SOME TISSUES AND FIXING THE COVERS <333

HES LIKE,, yknow when you're nervous about smth, but then your friend gets nervous and suddenly,, You Are Calm? LIKE,, THE MOM FRIEND INSTINCT KICKS IN SO HARD WHEN HE SEES YOU SICK. He might freak out about it later, but,,, rn he doesn't even think to worry about gettin sick <3 babe is sick he's gotta make himself useful

HE CAN'T COOK SO <333 CHEAP RAMEN BABEY. Maybe some microwaved meals - smth easy!! It's a little rubbery but,, it's the thought that counts.

HE LIKES SPICE SO,, if it's too much he'll Purposefully go out and grab smth a little less,,

When he was little and he had The Sniffles, his mum would gently rub his cheeks with a warm cloth bc,, his Sinuses would hurt. He'll absolutely utilize this technique while you cuddle up in his arms.

'i hear feet'

'i'm thirsty'

'sit your ass back down >:(' he always warms it a little w/ kettle water, so it hurts less to drink!!

you only get to stand to use the bathroom. No moving <3 only cuddles and drinks and you passing out at random times while you two spoon in bed.

MOVIE MARATHON TIMEEEE. So many jokes to take your mind off things <3 he already has Jokes Set Up for all of your favorites. Making ppl laugh is,, his way of trying to make stuff better. Hes The Funny Guy!

OH HE'LL ALSO,, PROBABLY WHIP YOU UP SMTH THAT'S JUST,, SLIGHTLY STRONGER COUGH SYRUP MSNDMS. IT WONT ENTIRELY KNOCK YOUR COLD, BUT ITLL MAKE EVERYTHING HURT A BIT LESS SO,, NOT TOO BAD? TASTES LIKE PINK LEMONADE TOO SO,, THAT ROCKS

SMNDSM THIS TURNED OUT MORE SAPPY THAN I EXPECTED BUT I HOPE YOU DONT MIND!!

eee this was very fun <333 TYSM FOR THE LOVELY ASSSSK

[bigdanteague3]

Halls’ Cough Drops

So....I had this friend.  His name isn’t important.  He lived in an apartment complex across town.  There were always good parties, wild shit all the time over there in that complex.  Fights, people passed out, it was just more interesting over there.  He lived with 2 other guys and we used to hang out there a good bit just to people watch and see what would happen.

There were 3 girls that had graduated from big inner-city schools in another state that lived across the hall.  Jimelle, Destiny and Kimmy. They liked to joke around with us because we grew up so different than them.  They’d talk about life in the big city, things they saw in school and on the streets.  Very outgoing girls.  They liked to smoke and drink Boones farm.  They liked to listen to loud music and dance.  And they’d ask us about tractors and Little House on the Prarie.  Stuff like that.  It was fun, cool, whatever.  Just having a good time.  They’d usually leave and go to a club and we’d just hang out until it was time to go home.  They weren’t 21 so they always needed somebody to take them to a store for Boones farm or whatever cheap alcohol they wanted for the evening.  One night I drove Kimmy to the store and bought them like 4 bottles of Boones.  I don’t remember what we talked about but I remember her laughing and us both completely cracking up the whole way there and on the return.  When we got back they started getting ready for their night out.  It was warm...spring time.  Still daylight.  And they all had on like...tiny tight skirts.  Asses barely covered.  Cleavage spilling out of their tops.  They would come and go out of their apartment....loud music, yelling, practicing dance moves.  They had gotten into the Boones Farm pretty deep and would come across the hall and we’d pass a joint.  Then they’d disappear, one would come back while the others finished getting ready, etc.  It was like they were taking turns, making sure that at least one of them was with us at all times.  Which was fine.  Its not like I had anything else to do.

It was just Destiny and us guys in my friend’s apartment and they were about to leave for the night.  She motioned for me to come to the back.  We walked down the hallway and she told me that Kimmy liked me but she had a boyfriend.  Made me promise not to say anything.  I promised I would keep it a secret, cross my heart.  Said Kimmy was over there talking about how she would hook up with me but she’d dated the same dude for over a year.  I didn’t know exactly how to reply...just told Destiny that I thought Kimmy was hot and I really liked when they got dressed up to go out. 

It wasn’t long after that that Kimmy and Jimelle came over and told Destiny it was time to go.  They were all club ready as usual.  I made sure to check Kimmy out a little longer than usual.  Wanted her to ‘catch’ me checking out her legs.  Her stomach.  Her titties spilling out the top.  She wasn’t a 10.  But she wasn’t a 5 either.  Curves, cute in the face, funny.  She saw me looking and smiled.  We all said good night, have fun, etc. And that was that.

Until the next week.  We were out on the balcony and the girls came out on theirs.  We started talking across the way and eventually they told us to all come over and party with them.  We were all hanging out in their apartment, smoke everywhere.  Music so loud, everybody laughing and just a normal hangout.  At one point one of the girls said that she had read somewhere that if you gave a guy a blowjob with a cough drop in your mouth the guy would cum twice as hard.  We all laughed but agreed it would probably feel pretty good.  They were always saying shit like that.  At some point they decided not to go out that night and just party here.  Which was quite all right with me.  There was more smoking, I don’t think there was any alcohol, but there was dancing.  They were showing us different dance moves.  How they could drop it low, grind, stuff like that.  I was wearing khaki shorts and Jimelle knocked a supersize McDonald’s cup in my lap.  Soaked.  I didn’t care, but I also had very wet pants and I was dripping water everywhere. 

Kimmy tells me she can give me some sweatpants to wear and she will throw them in the dryer.  She doesn’t tell me to go with her so I just stand there in the kitchen and wait for dry pants.  She never comes back.  I’m still dripping.  So I go back and look in her room.  She’s holding an ordinary pair of pants and apparently waiting for me to come back there.  Tells me to hand her the shorts and she’ll take them to laundry room.  I smile....slide them down and hand them to her.  She takes them and leaves the room.  Also leaves with the sweatpants.  So I’m just standing in her room with no pants.  Just tee shirt and boxers and hoping she comes back. 

She does.  Holding the sweatpants she shuts and locks the door behind her.  Throws the pants past me onto the bed and laughs.  Now I know where this is headed.  She walks toward me and we meet.  She puts her hands on my chest.  She’s a good bit shorter than me and tells me she’s got a boyfriend.  I tell her its ok because I have a girlfriend.  She opens her hand and she’s got 3 or 4 cough drops there still wrapped up.  Says she wants to see if it works.  Pulls my shirt off so I’m just there in boxers.  She kisses my chest and drops to her knees.  Says she loves sucking cock.  Says she loves having her mouth full of cock.  Says she loves looking at cocks and everything about cocks.  She pulls my boxers down and smiles and says she loves mine.  I was so hard.  It was all very flattering.  She grabs it gently and just runs her tongue everywhere.  Not taking me in her mouth.  Just licking.  Under the head, from the bottom of shaft back up.  Holding me with one hand as she licks.  I remember her saying she didn’t want me to cum fast.  She wanted dick in her throat as long as possible.  She unwraps 2 cough drops and puts them on her tongue and then takes me into her mouth.  I was still kinda taken aback and not saying much.  I could feel the cough drops...that tingle up and down my dick.  And she was going slow.  With a purpose.  Asks me if it feels good.  I said yes.  She told me not to be shy...to tell me if she’s doing a good job.  I told her she was fucking amazing.  She liked that.  She started going a little faster.  Still not sucking hard.  More teasing than sucking.  I told her she should take off her fucking shirt so I could see her.  Smiling she took it off....and those titties just fell out.  I told her she was a good girl and she told me she was a very very good girl.  She gets back to sucking....taking it all in.  Her nose was pressed up against my stomach.  She had my balls in one hand and she kept her head there until she gagged a little.  Pulling her head back there’s so much spit and drool running down me.  Its even on my thighs.  She keeps looking at me and smiling.  Eventually she starts making this slurping noise.  Loudest blowjob ever.  Between the gagging and the slurping.  She is totally focused.  Her hands stroking me now she’s sucking a little harder, a little tighter, a little more suction.  Tells me she still doesn’t want me to cum yet.  Don’t even think about cumming.  Takes her mouth and her hands off me and starts licking my balls.  Rubbing her tongue underneath and all around.  Puts them in her mouth one at a time, sucking one then the other.  I tell her to keep fucking doing that.  Good girl.

By now I’m feeling even less shy so I tell her to take off her pants so I can see her ass.  She stands up and tell me to sit on the bed.  I do.  She unbuttons and turns around and pulls them down really slowly.  Had on yellow lacy panties.  She looks over her shoulder and asks if I like it.  I nod.  She says they have to stay on since she has a boyfriend.  I tell her that’s ok.....just come over here and finish this like a good girl should.  She puts fresh cough drop in, gets on her knees again....and fucking devours me.  She has every inch of me inside her mouth.  She’s slurping and moaning.  I’m squeezing her nipples and telling her to go faster.  Keep sucking.  I’m rubbing her titties and she takes my hand and puts it on the back of her head.  I assume she wants me to force her head down all the way so I do.  She moans so loud.  I can’t last much longer.  I tell her I’m cumming soon...she says to hold her head down when I’m ready to bust so itll go down her throat.  Hearing that...I know I’m done for.  She takes her head off...my dick and balls and ass is soaking wet.  She starts stroking me with one hand...so slippery...spits right on my head and puts her mouth and hands on me.  Working together...pumping me deep into her mouth.  That, the cough drops, knowing she really wants me to cum in her mouth...all too much to last any longer.  I take both hands off her titties and put on top of her head.  I start bucking my hips as I force her face down into my lap.  Her lower lip was on my balls and her upper lip was near my stomach...I fucking groaned as I exploded.  She didn’t try to raise her head as I came....So I kept it held down hard on me.  I’m thrusting and the cough drop trick is apparently true. I eventually stop cumming but my dick still tingles...like its ready to cum more.  Extends the orgasm I guess.  She took me out of mouth slowly and started licking the head.  Asking me if it was still sensitive.  It was.  I assumed it was over so I was telling her how much I enjoyed it.  She told me she’d suck it again if I wanted her to.  I thought she meant on another day.  She meant before we left the room. 

So we laid on the bed for a minute to catch our breath.  She explained it didn’t feel as much like cheating if she kept her panties on and we didn’t fuck.  I told her I was good with whatever she wanted.  She asked me if I liked it.  I promised her I did.  I told her I liked the blowjob and I liked her body.  She told me that she had magic down there.  That when she rode guys during sex they couldn’t hang.  I asked her what she meant and she just said she can grip a dick so tight by squeezing that people cum automatic.  She’s on her back and I’m propped up on one arm looking at her.  My free hand rubbing her leg and I’m hard again about 5 minutes later.  I know I’m not going to fuck her....but I was interested to see if I could at least touch the pussy.  I start sucking her nipple....she arches her back and moans.  So yeah, she’s into that.  My fingers on top of her thigh...testing the waters by moving toward inside thigh.  No resistance.  I’m sucking and flicking my tongue and she’s rubbing her other nipple.  Loud moans.  I just fucking grab her pussy and her panties are soaked.  I’m rubbing her through the fabric.  Back and forth over her clit.  I trace her panties to her inner thigh and get my fingers inside.  I’m fingering her slowly.  One finger, then 2.  She starts squeezing those muscles tight around my fingers.  Almost so tight I couldn’t pull back.  I rub her clit with my thumb as best I can while leaving my finger inside.  When she cums...she’s basically screaming. 

She gets up and sucks me again.  Much quicker than the first time.  She’s talking really dirty now.  Put that cock in my mouth.  I’d take it out and tap it on her lips and let her kiss it.  You got some more cum for me?  Give it to me.  She was cupping my balls and gently pulling when I came that time. 

We decided we needed to do this again.  We agreed that Wednesday afternoons would work best.  It became a once a week thing.  I’d look forward to it all week and by Wednesday morning I could barely think about anything else.  Always in her apartment.  Always with her panties on.  Always wanting it to last a long time.  She just loved having a dick in her mouth.  Told me she had only been with 3 guys but that sucking dick was something she needed.  Craved it, dreamed about it and that she had never cheated on her man before. She loved to fuck but felt like things would get too complicated. She’d strip for me and then get to business.  One time she had the back of her head against the wall and she was grabbing my ass pulling it toward her.  Like trying to force her head through the wall.  I remember her laying on her stomach on the bed facing me so I’m looking down her back at her ass.  Sometimes she’d want me to cum twice.  Sometimes once was enough.  Once she had me titty fuck her until I came.  Sometimes I’d sit on the bed.  Sometimes I’d stand.  One time she danced for me.  I’d play with her titties and finger her but that’s all.  One time her boyfriend called (he went to a different school and could only visit a couple of times a week) and she answered and kept stroking me while she talked to him.  As soon as they hung up she went right back to sucking. We might have met 8 weeks in a row.  Then she moved out and disappeared.  I think she transferred to a school closer to home.  I don’t know. 

I don’t know if you like reading stories that involve others.  You asked one time, so I thought I’d share one that involved no real feelings other than 2 people just getting what they needed at the time.  I think what made it hot at the time was just being pursued.  It was flattering.  That I didn’t have to do anything extra to make a girl interested.  That she came after me.  That she came after me because she wanted my dick in her mouth.  Maybe I’m easily flattered.  But it was a turn on.  I may tell stories about others later...this just seemed like a good place to start.

[marshmallowprotection]

If you have time, could I get a matchup? I'm fine with anyone, I love them all (even though I'm a lesbian) I doubt this matters, but my name is willow. I'm 5'4" and a gryffindor. I love drawing and playing guitar. I tend to stress over dumb stuff, such as how long itll take in line at the grocery store. I'm very (and I mean VERY) paranoid, if the smallest thing moves, I'm gonna jump. Surprises are not fun for me. I have OCD, but looking at me and my room you'd never tell. Brushed hair? We don't know her. I'm introverted, but once you get to know me, I'm pretty fun and outgoing. (I think) I'm an aquarius, and I fit basically all of the stereotypes. I tend to apologize a lot, especially for things I didn't do.

I hope this isnt too much!! Thank you!!

I match you with... 

Jaehee!

You tend to overthink even when you feel like you can take a break for once. It’s not hard to get out of your comfort zone or your own thoughts. It can be a tunnel or a labyrinth that you’re still trying to figure out the layout for at certain times. 

But, it’s something you’re aware of and that you’re likely to work on when you feel like you can be more at ease with yourself. You’re looking for someone that will not judge you for being more withdrawn and overwhelmed by the little things. Any person that knows what it feels like to be drawn away from the center of attention and is totally fine with being out of sight and out of mind when it comes to slowing down. With that in mind, anyone too loud and wild about showing their face isn’t all that great for you. You need a grounding force. 

I sincerely think Jaehee is a good choice, and in second place would be Jihyun for sure. They’re both methodical and enjoy quiet time. With Jaehee, you don’t have to worry about putting yourself into things that don’t make you happy. She understands how overwhelming things can be and she’ll help coach you to get through you unease, sliding a drink into your hand with a smile. She’s always happy to listen to you because you were willing to do the same for her. That’s why you both work together, you’re happy to lean on each other when things get tough. When you feel jittery and unsure, she’s ready to listen and remind you that you can do things. 

Lucky for you, she’s good at kicking ass so there’s no ghost in the night that can harm you. Jaehee also loves to listen to you play and hum along to the melody, it catches her attention more than Zen. If you and he ever do something like that together, she’ll die. 

[shiro-0197]

God no I'm sorry 😭😭😭 the way Tumblr eats all my drafts, and now your replies. (Someday I'm gonna eat Tumblr grrrr) that must've been so frustrating tho, I'm sorry love.

someday we could go to a country with Highlands together. It'll be super cold and nice. And the views would be really really pretty too!! WE COULD EVEN BE AMONGST THE CLOUDS >//< aww yes I hope you'll be able to try them soon in the future!! I died and had to stay in bed for an hour, (because my spice tolerance is nonexistent <3) but yeah I'm better now! Name is: "대박 ghost pepper noodles" the Korean word 대박 literally translates to "awesome" but— 😭😭

oh I see!! I hope school goes well, it's good that you're excused for a part of the day :D and aww I understand. Replying can be lengthy sometimes, so please please only do it when you're free and comfortable >:(( we're in no rush, after all :D

I was studying earlier too. and I texted my principal about the exams ( because apparently none of my teachers know anything about it, and I was so frustrated with everyone being so clueless ) she just replied with a : "hi Ariana, will let you know on Friday" like excuse me, ma'am. GRRRRR >:( STOP BEING CLUELESS.

awww that's okay!! I'm sure those prep slides were really pretty too :D aww that's sweet of you. some of my online friends sometimes sit in on my Leo events (if it's open to everyone) and it's pretty fun when they do (once, one of them had to talk for like, an activity and my club mates were like "SHE HAS AN ACCENT??". It was hilarious hehe) zoom is great for that reason, and only that. they're just ready-made slides tbh, I use canva :D

Shiro, love, you won't disappoint anyone, I promise you that. I'm sure your mom is more proud than you know, and from the way you talk about her, I can tell that she truly adores you. tho I also understand your worries. If you want to rant or anything, you know I'm here. And I'll just continuously reassure you of how amazing you are :)

that's my boy 🥺🥺 grr, you're so feisty, please imagine me holding a "you go, Shiro" sign everytime you tell someone to fuck themselves :D Laurent is indeed amazing. He's my favourite character for that exact reason >//< there's another character, from a book I read, just like that. His name was uhh, Kieran. And he knew so many different languages, and was just in general; super smart. I remember being so in love with him when I first read it (The title of the book is "genius")

HAHA. ikr. They're all hot, and most importantly; smart. nevermind, when I meet you someday we can cry over them together 😭🤚 pffft no offense, but being evil is hot sometimes 😾 (I mean, Kieran was evil. So's Moriarty :] and I am: a simp for them all)

aww bae that's okay 🥺🥺 your feelings are valid, and it's not wrong to express them whenever you feel like it. Grrr if I ever see your dad, he might be missing a limb >:( sorry, that was violent, but I get especially mad if anyone upsets someone i love )

exactly?? It's been a year?? Where's that blink meme where someone blinks and it's suddenly 2021. Oooh that sounds really nice!! Adding it on my list of things to try in March >.< Honey is really delicious. especially all those desserts which have a lot of them.

glad I made you laugh >////< grr my sense of humour is just so weird tho, so I'm glad you aren't freaked out by it.

KAJDKSJSKS SIR WAIT. There was an explanation for that u but I guess it got cut off in my notes 😾😾 IT WAS MEANT TO BE A Ü (smiley) but I was using my computer and I couldn't add the two dots above, so I typed "imagine the eyes" (but apparently that part got cut off and now it just looks like a random alphabet SKJSKSK IM SORRY 😭😭😭

I understand, the lack of opportunities can really get on one's nerves. But oh yes, Japan and Norway are beautiful countries. Apart from Japan, I've been really into Korea and Switzerland. The Alps 😻

grrr y'all have tough exteriors. But it's so rewarding when you finally get them down, tho I think, you guys have tons of other layers to yourselves. I guess that's just the charm, I find it endearing, because it just means there's a lot more than meets the eye :)

MY FRIEND MAKES FUN OF ME FOR LIKING PINK. HE TEASES ME MERCILESSLY SKSJSKSK (so I published a poem line in the school magazine to get back at him for it, because I'm petty like that)

that's so funny >.< There are two girls, and a girl and a guy, who share the exact same names in my class, and it's so funny because they're opposites of each other xD

he really is precious. The best leader, I would literally die for him, he's wonderful. yeah the book actually started out different, with them just being best friends. Best plot twist 😭😭 AWW

NOOO I'm sure it's cute, in it own way? :P tho that meme tho. LDJCJSBSKS. Don't worry, hehe, the character may be .... Unpleasant to look at?? , but you're not the least bit at all :)

how was your day btw? My day sucked ass and was literally the worst day in the history of uh, days. Yeah. sad. tomorrow will be better.

God, you're so adorable wtf. Marry me rn. AKDJSKSJS I didn't find it lame at all, (tho were you flustered? Because that was cute as hell xD) I love you too 🥺🥺

—☃️

It's okay, it's not your fault. We could storm the Tumblr building together or something..:3

Oh I really hope we can!!! I love cold weather. You can wear sweaters and hoodies and all that💞 and you have an excuse to cancel everything and cuddle up with a blanket or someone else😝

Im so glad you're better now!! Spice sickness or whatever is the worst😔 WBHDJWKX that's hilarious I hope I come across those soon! Let's see who wins😼

Yeah, about that, they started making us do after-class activities, which now leaves less time for the stuff I have to do .... which sucks . But I'm managing, I think, so it's cool xD yeah, I've always been kind of cautious about the timing, it's nice to have a little freedom now, thank you so much <3

Wow😭😭 our teachers usually have the dates set two weeks before the exams, we always recieve a message. Though I've been there, where the teacher have no clue, it's so annoying😭😭

Ohh, that's so cool! I hope I will be able to visit one someday. Though I dont think itll be too soon, but I'm looking forward to when I can😝 also that's funny, whenever I speak people go "he doesnt have an accent???" Even though I so obviously do. They just have no idea 😭

Okay..... that's the best words of encouragement I've ever received, I'm so touched- thank you🥺💘

Bwahah, that's gonna make my day every time 😭 Yeah, hes my favorite too!! He seems like a simple himbo at first, but the more we see of him the better he gets. (That sounds cool!!! I'm gonna check it out when I can!)

Thank you🥺 also, dont worry, I wouldn't mind that. I'd love that, actually, wanna go rip off guys arms together?

MZJXKGJJAKXKAKX IT'S ALRIGHT HAHAH, ITS REALLY FUNNY SO DONT WORRY😭😭

JSNFNMWMDMS IM GONNA MAKE FUN OF HIM FOR MAKING FUN OF YOU how could he . I will eat his eyeballs. Also I 100% agree with the poem and I'm glad you posted it. I hope some people thought about it.

Wow😭😭 its honestly so funny, because they're all so different and yet their names fit them so well either way.

Also, wow I feel so bad it's been almost a week since I responded😐 I'm really sorry. I've been writing snips of this message any time I could and yet it still took me days xD I'm getting free, though, so I'll try to respond faster now. I missed talking to you so much😭 thank you for your patience🤍🤍🤍

How've you been? I'm pretty good, tired but feeling good because I can finally respond😩 I hope your day went well. Love you!♡

[k-urokonobasket]

kurotsuki headcanons bc im weak for like. the housekeeping stuff.

third gym all xchanged numbers at training camp, kept in touch. it wasn't super active, but once someone sends smth it just keeps blowing up. (kuroo bokuto akaashi lev hinata and tsukishima are all in it!) its active like once a weekish probably, mostly . not tsukishima! hes in it but has it muted but sometimes hell humor them and react to the messages and stuff - this kid loves to have fun. akaashi is even less active then him though, bless his heart. but sometimes when kuroo or bokuto come up north to visit family, theyll ask if they can play at the gym or meet up and sometimes. kuroo will text him directly which makes tsukishima Raise His Hackles but he doesnt say no, and the first time they meet up, its at Ukais shop (albeit when someone else is at the counter.) tsuki voice you arent getting me to any secondary location sister. its also the first thing he addresses - youre a cradle robber? chasing firsties? cant land anyone your own age? kuroo laughs but says hes not really interested in anyone but he wanted to properly apologize for his comment over the summer, and in return he'll allow tsuki to lend his ear - for anything. tsukishima is like. w h a t ? ¿ he accepts the apology for the hinata thing but then chdbzhsbj he gets this Glint In His Eye when he says "he might be creeping up on me and inevitably over come me, but im not kind enough to make it easy for him" and like not to be dramatic but kuroo gets goosebumps and is like Ah Hah. he commends tsukishima on the change in perspective, and asks if they wanna go to the karasuno gym - hell help in his endeavors, and after sitting on a train for a few hours hes restless. the . offer to talk kind of slides to the wayside, but neither particularly mind because theyre not Really The Talking Type and tsukishima enjoys being around someone with the same sort of cunning edge he has, and they make slight jabs during the walk and its . light. easy! when they show up its free practice, so some of the people from the girls team are there, as well as the third years. suga notices them first, and gets daichis and asahis attention and hes like. Hello ? tsukishima is like. Now We Dont Have Time To Unpack All Of That, so he lets kuroo explain. daichi raises an eyebrow but leaves it alone, at least until right before they leave and he talks to him and is like. i know youre not so despicable to go after a kid but . be kind. and kuroo nods and smiles and says his "im always this kind" line and daichi rolls his eyes but he trusts him and wishes him well. kuroo is kind of surprised everyone things hes trying to flirt with tsuki, but. people will just be like that.

anyway, they meet up sometimes, joking and talking about teammates and school and kuroo helps tsuki with chemistry and they find out kuroos going to school for molecular bio and tsuki is thinking about lit, or maybe compsci, but he's not too pressed about it yet. kuroo is like Ah, The Wiles Of Youth and that earns him a soft smack on the back of his head.

tsukishima doesnt go to see him graduate high school, but he does send a text, which is nice.

as kuroo settles in at his university (north or tokyo but not by much, hes a city boy!) they visit less but tsukishima has a lot to do because the new first years have a lot of work they need and now that hinata and kageyama are less incorrigible spending time with them can actually be fun, but they still try for once a month, splitting the difference. kuroo got recruited to his team and still plays volleyball and its exciting to watch him get better - tsukishima says hes not going to watch until kuroo muscles his way onto the starting lineup because otherwise whats the point.

third year for tsukishima and hes vice to yamaguchi and he is proud proud proud and theyve got to wrangle these untidy underclassman and now that theyve got multiple national titles under their belt, they can now start to reestablish as a powerhouse snd get the fundng and managers and scouts they need so the captains have a lot of responsibilities, so it sometimes gets harder to get away. kuroo is settling well at school and did well in terms of grades and even if he isnt a starter, hes on the bench and thats Something. when he does start a game, tsukishima comes down to watch, and its. incredible? breathtaking? hes really good and hes connecting with the team and yeah its not nekoma but he looks just as home on this court as any other and hes made a family all his own right here. after the game he waits outside the locker room, and like not to be ridiculous but watching that game made tsukishima graduate from crush to like. being in love with kuroo. and he hopes people cant see. some of kuroos other teammates leave first, and most pay him no mind but theres a few who catch his eye, have a moment of recognition, and start snickering to their friends. it puts tsukishima on edge, a little, but even if these are college kids tsukishima has mastered his intimidation technique from the best (tanaka) (even if hes WHOLLY UNSUBTLE!) and then when kuroo exits at long last, tsukishima launches himself at him, wrapping him in a huge hug and kuroo freezes before hugging back just as hard.

tsukishima doesnt know if itll be worth much but he still whispers that hes so proud into kuroos ear and like. peak tenderness.

when they go apart, kuroo has fucking flowers and tsukishima is like. hello? hello? and kuroo asks him on a dste and tsukishima calls him an idiot and kisses him st its Cute.

before heading back home he visits suga and daichi who are sharing an apt in tokyo while they go to school and like. decompresses and loses his mind and they both give their blessing.

and when tsukishima comes back he keeps it quiet for a few months from the other two but yachi and yamaguchi both know pretty soon and when hinata finds out he absolutely drags out the groupchat and SHOVEL TALKS KUROO!! kageyama doesnt say much but they do need to, he and tsukishima have a quiet companionship now and hes fine with that. yamaguchi meets w kuroo seperately and its not a shovel talk but it is very much. be kind be nice be prepared and kuroo is happy someone he l*ves is loved but hes still properly scared of the murder of karasuno crows. and obviously bokuto and kenma and yaku reach out to do the same but its pretty sweet all around

kuroo watches him graduate. he helps him apply to college- theyre an hour or so apart but its a vast improvement and they make it work.

and they make it work!

[ts-akhmim]

Episode 12 | “Beauty got problems and Brawn got problems”- Autumn

wow. just wow. i sure did just do that and im so proud. i proved to myself im a deserving winner tonight. i will fight to the death to get my allies to the end because lets be real i sure am not making it KJSDFLASFLA.

i was going to start this confessional out in a celebratory tone but YOU KNOW WHAT I STILL AM BECAUSE WE JUST DID THAT. I typically like to be my own biggest hater and drag myself in my confessionals a lot just as a way to clock myself and try to see the other perspective, but BITCH I KNOW I SNAPPED THIS ROUND AND IF YOU DONT THINK I DID LEMME HIT YOU WITH SOME FACTS; FACT: I CORRECTLY USED MY ADVANTAGE AND WON IMMUNITY DURING WHAT WAS A PERTINENT ROUND https://media.tenor.com/images/6c2f88af1bd5a24853849df11a566947/tenor.gif FACT: UPON FINDING OUT I HAD IMMUNITY I KNOW DEVON WAS COMING TO ME TRYING TO KEEP ME UNDER HIS WING, OH YEAH ADAM, JUST VOTE IN THE MINORITY, AND GO ALONG WITH BEING AT THE BOTTOM, AND IT WAS M E DECIDING I DIDNT WANT TO DO THAT AND SPILLING THE TEA THAT LED TO GETTING AN OUTCOME I WANTED https://media.tenor.com/images/6c2f88af1bd5a24853849df11a566947/tenor.gif FACT: it was ME who also went to autumn/ali and started planting seeds of doubt in their minds about jake and it's turning out it's helped me solidify my position with them better https://media.tenor.com/images/6c2f88af1bd5a24853849df11a566947/tenor.gif FACT: It's also still me who's aligned with 2 or 3, if you include jake, of the biggest targets left in the game and i already have augusto and amir sliding in my pms trying to play pity me boo hoo hoo like gorl plea im not buying it but yall wanna keep singing kumbaya? well ill sing the encore and be twice as fake as yall (i DO love them both as people just as a disclaimer but from a game perspective? they're beasts!) https://media.tenor.com/images/6c2f88af1bd5a24853849df11a566947/tenor.gif ok, boasting over, time to hop off cloud nine and get back to reality because FACT: we all just made a big move, so the target on all of us, including myself, just went up, FACT: i could easily be delusional and maybe i had NOTHING to do with this blindside SJDFA but lemme bask in my fake glory anyway itll be funny to read after at least... FACT: The war has truly only just begun, that was a great victory but if me/ali/autumn are really in it like we're saying, we may still have another idol on our side, but we're gonna need more than that, it's kinda funny we're one brain, one brawn, one beauty and i think that speaks volumes i truly love these gals and think this is a good game route for me. some people might think it's foolish of me to align with the big threats and go deep with them, but who's to say im not worthy of being in their company? if it wasnt for my social connection with devon he wouldve never told me the plan, and then autumn is the smart one so she kept us composed and together, and then ali was the brawn he had the idol and got the job done. So im gonna just try and stick with this for now, hopefully they feel the same and dont try to oust me right away because then ill look like a whole fool and a half OOP, and ill plaster my fake smiles on for everyone else and kiki it up we can haha hehe all day long but i wont hesitate to vote them out because trust and believe. 

Last Day 30 was my last day playing TS: Guyana, so this is a nice feeling to still be here. But now the fun kicks in. Jakey helped orchestrate the Devon blindside with the Ali idol, so I guess we're even. And now, assuming Jakey is still actually with me, which I think he is, I think we can run this game for the longrun. He has access to Ali, Autumn, and Adam and I have access to the three Beauties. I truly see this being beneficial for the both of us in terms of keeping one another safe and allowing us to get to the final six unharmed. Final six is important for me. I'm not sure if I've admitted this in an earlier confessional or not, but I have the Legacy Advantage (thank you Jordan Pines!) that I can use at six. So I just need to survive two more tribals. If I can do that, I have a seat in the final five, probably two more rounds to survive before getting to FTC, and then I have a shot. I really need to start building a resume if I want to win this game, but I think I have a chance. I really need to get Ali and Autumn out in these next three rounds. If I can do that, I see myself being able to make the end with the likes of Jakey, Kendall, Augusto, and maybe Adam (Amir will become a threat at five or six I think) and then I have at least a shot at the win, but I really need to keep my head down, keep the social game going, and make a move or two here.

so. i think i have some explaining to do JKLASDFA huh? i was on calls for the like three hours before tribal so i didn't really confess at all.. in fact i think in my last confessional i said that we were voting 4-3-3 which did not happen at all so i think i need to fill in some gaps huh? so... i have known since like 11pm EST yesterday that i was getting votes tonight. devon told, adam told me and then told autumn, but then autumn didn't want to tell me until later in the day which i honestly do think was fair so we weren't spiralling for hours. we were all sus of jake all day (and lowkey i still am?)... like i dont know when his energy because so shady, plus devon may have told adam that jake was in on the plan? plus he kept saying stuff like the vote has gone "back to kendall" and kept pushing me not to play the idol... something does not add up right with that. anyway so that demonic group of five voted for me, and lied SO much to make me leave with my idol? like why not just make me paranoid, leak the vote to adam or jake then vote autumn get me to waste an idol and then autumn leaves? now that would've been a good move hello?! but that group does not know how to blindside, idols have sabotaged their plans twice and amir/augusto should consider themselves lucky that they are still in the game. also kendall fought me at tribal because i was being cocky... but she literally tried to blindside me into leaving with an idol hello?! i appreciate that she thought she was going, but she is zero to too much way too quick. augusto can literally suck my ass our call was him and his bad excuse for jury management, like can he at least be like amir and pretend to want to work with me? anyway so moving forwards, i wanna vote out kendall or augusto this round. amir can stick around because he at least pretends to wanna work with me plus he is a threat too. idek i just want all the fake people in this tribe gone. i will not vote for adam, autumn or jake. i will vote for any of the others, im not fussed about the order in which i do so. im living on borrowed time in this game and im going to make it count

Sorry this is two parts I thought my friend was gonna die lol but she's fine. Remember kids, there's no dick worth dying over and a straight guy rejecting you is a blessing in disguise these days (considering the alternatives). 

Now on with the show hahaha 

https://drive.google.com/open?id=1-AkqQGDYzlccP1VFwpPNo-aCQPFmoj9Z https://drive.google.com/open?id=1bVcBqq0JL2-ybgTiS2vOrYURbCG0kIxh

thots on final 8: augusto: would cut me to win, literal love of my life, super kind and empathetic and genuinely good person, i think his social game is fire and i think he has a way with people, and downplays how smart and cutthroat he really is constantly, but i love the kid so much ali: the brit has to die ali again: okay im kidding i like him a lot but tbh hes a smart fucking guy, i think hes super cool and and also a badass with that idol play, hes a force but he has to go soon autumn: lana stan, coolest girl around, queen of the social game, queen of likability, queen of controlling rounds and letting others take the hit, a damn threat, she could win this game   tj: sweetheart, we need each other in the game rn, i need need need to secure his loyalty adam: hes kinda crazy but he has a good heart, kinda just following ali and autumn rn, not gonna win in the end kendall: i have a soft spot for this crackhead, she deserves the world, probably cant win at the end but im happy i met her, shes on my side and a vote i can use moving forward jakey: love him to death would die 4 him, would beat me in the end and at immunities also the fact that kendall augusto and i are all still here is so fucking funny, like bitch how kejwnfkewjnfkejnwfkjnewkfnewk cockroaches

So numbers on surface Jakey - adam - autumn - Ali Kendall - Amir - Augusto - tj Round 5: Adam - Ali - autumn Amir - kendall - Augusto In the middle: jakey - tj So I just have to work on them 

when i tell you ive been hooting and hollering what the fuck is going on in the survivor on this day, who the hell would've thought id win my third individual immunity in one season, gorl that is probably the most 2020 thing to happen in this game. although two of them pretty much were dumb luck afdjks either that or maybe im doing a little better than i think i truly dont know, and the touchy subjects clocked me on THAT as; what was it they said, 'the person they forget is in the game' and also 'least aware of their place' okay well yes im AWARE ive BEEN lost and asking for help this whole game gorl! But that's great, that's how i want people to view me, because uh... i just won 3 of these things now and that alone is reason to target me, granted im doing my best to play it up like dont worry! im just a dumb dumb! and clearly theyre eating that up like crazy, because it's both just the truth but also strategy if i keep playing it up, so watch out meryl, adam's in town! also LOVE that i knew i was gonna get most likely to have the idol i dont know how many times i have to say it IM INNOCENT AND BEING FRAMED FOR A FOOL and ooh dont even get me started on all the other tea it spilled, i actually got the LEAST of the bad things, i guess i kinda exposed myself because i made most of my chops at amir, augusto, and tj oop, so they probably didnt like that but they really left me no choice strategically, screw with me, i screw back, simple as that. As far as the vote too ummm.....it's been quiet tonight on my end so hope that doesnt make me a fool because this time last vote was a disaster, at this point im still thinking i need to stick with ali and autumn because this vote is so pertinent, after this a solid 4  can take it, or get as far as we can because im always keeping my options open OOP, but for the most part i do want to stay true to my good judys for now, but i know someone between amir/augusto/kendall has an idol and if they were smart theyd use it this round, so i need to convince the others of this because im sure its gonna happen since they dont think ali has one anymore hopefully but who knows, if it were up to me we'd vote augusto or tj this vote. I think amir has the idol and i think he's going to play it for himself this round or i could see augusto playing it for him, so if i can make anyone belive that very realistic scenario, we can get one of the ones theyd least expect just to ensure us the numbers for next round, but what do i know, they just forget im in the game anyway! so hopefully tomorrow someone tries to give me the tea and we get a plan together or else i spilled all the tea last round for nothing which is worst case scenerio 

yesterday was a lot. I went an apology tour to everyone involved in my blindside and honestly it was annoying. the fact that augusto basically got me to apologise to him on our call when he blindsided me was irritating, like he just let me sit there and take fault when the point of the call was for him to take accountability. talking to him is like talking to 2018 me, he has such social ability, but he just takes zero accountability and is just so infuriatingly wishy-washy. he is all of my worst attributes as a player rolled into one. i also... almost won immunity? which is crazy, but I just found yesterday and the way immunity played out so frustrating, but I've spoken about it enough in my host chat enough. just know i feel robbed, slighted and if I get rocked out this round when i should have immunity. i will throw a fuss again SAJDKFLAS. anyway so this vote is gonna be a mess. tj and autumn now have a blood feud, Kendall and jake came to a head this round. so that's four people whose name i hopefully am not their number #1 target, plus i don't think adam is targetting me? but this vote is going to be a mess, because it very very easily could be 4-4, where there is an idol on both sides of the trench. i have a gut feeling amir and his sock puppets are going to vote autumn. it makes sense, tj wants her gone and the beauties need him reeled in. so i think im going to have to idol autumn, but that is risky because if the 4 vote jake... im going to rocks, and if they vote me, im reliant on jake going to rocks. but i just wanna send all these people backing, especially augusto. amir i'm trying to shake him that me and him have to stick together, but i also could vote for him. i literally just want to make F7 and to vote someone who just voted me out. that is literally all i want. if i go home i will be literally devastated

So like… there’s the dream and there’s the harsh reality which is something this round really talk me. The dream is obviously me winning, making all these big moves, and doing THAT. However, my reality? Could very well be that people don’t see me as a winner at all and it makes me a little disappointed but I gotta prove them all wrong. The vote last round being Ali was honestly mostly my doing and I’m proud of that. My ideal boot order is Autumn/Ali then Jakey then Autumn/Ali and that is GOING to happen because I’m putting that into the universe. When it comes to Autumn and Ali, I would rather Ali go but I think the safest bet while still having a target leave would be Autumn. In a way too, I do know Amir wants Ali out moreso alongside Jakey but I wanna separate my game from Amir so yeah. Also Adam calling me a fake ass bitch even tho my drunk ass was telling him I liked him was a gag… but oh well.. Nothing grinds my gears more than people thinking I’m not being genuine with how I feel towards them but if that’s what he thinks, maybe that’s what he’ll get idk… i feel petty and mad for some reason over it… BUT ANYWAY, I just want to survive this vote. I hope Kendall doesn’t go but she also said she wants me to win over Amir so yay?

If I die, I just wanna say I regret nothing and I have full confidence that the right person will win this season. So not TJ, Augusto, or Amir lmaaaaooo. Amir entering the two time winner chat??? Over my dead fucking body. If there's one thing Imma do it's poison a jury

Ali or Autumn... who shall we vote? Stay tuned!

Is Jess really Canadian... stay tuned!

god. today is gonna be another nailbiter and i want to confess first. so the plan is to idol autumn and vote out kendall, which sucks because i do now like kendall. i just think its the safest way of avoiding them playing an idol i guess, i don't even know. i just am sick of fighting in this game every single round me and autumn have had to fight to make it past. the fact jake is throwing a fit in my pms becuase im not idoling him is infuriating because... i'd love to idol myself? like? anyway im over it. if i go home, i hope tj can finally stop his blind fixation on autumn and i, that augusto can actually be accountable for one entire thing, amir can stop his pity party and show awareness for his threat level and that kendall... well actually kendall is fine. i just feel like im a mum trying to get all my kids to fit in a minivan and to put their seatbelts on, like can they get it together.

I don’t think anyone is ready for this round or at least what’ll come of it... I’m expecting an explosion or a mess given Jakey thinks he’s staying, TJ has been lied to, and hopefully Autumn or Adam leave next... its all a mess. If Jakey goes, I’m planning a 2-2-2 split between Autumn and Adam where we maybe get Autumn out but Adam leaving doesn’t hurt either. 

me with biggest villian, biggest backstabber, thinks they are running the game, is running the game, and is gonna win at the end http://prntscr.com/ss4h5q

literally god demolished and brutalized worse than anyone in this game tonight in that touchy subjects yet I’m also the one comforting like half the tribe over their answers even tho I ADKWNWQJN WAS ATTACKT LIKE this cast literally thinks im a psychopath fjebwfjenkn but im not gonna play victim over my superlatives i just have to use this target on my back strategically 

I want destruction AHHHHHHHHHHhhHhHhHhHhHhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Okay so, they think me or Augusto have the idol, so they can vote kendall, to ensure our idol isn’t played and that me and Augusto and tj are forced into rocks, and im just like trying to get everyone to stop replying to ali cuz hes smart and he will psychoanalyze and figure out who to play the idol on and like he has to play it on autumn and not himself so pls pls pls kkjnkjenfs let this work

[chickenfetus]

HI!!! i like to request ALL of the flowery asks! btw i LOVE ur blog and maybe u????? idk 🌸🌸 (jk i love u alot)

who is this????????/ under cut bc i get rambly 

azalea: what’s one word that describes you?

lame lmao

baby’s breath: what did you want to be when you were a kid?

honestly? my answer’s like yours jen because i wanted to be an astronaut but also a vet and then a few years later i wanted to be something else of a whole different profession but now i know what reality is like and i have no clue what i wanna be whoops

begonia: are you a messy or clean person?

i hate seeing my desk/workspace be messy but i cant bring myself to clean it up either???? bc im lazy 

bleeding heart: has your heart ever been broken?

hMMMMm mmm idk i dont think so

bluebell: do you drink tea or coffee?

i drink tea more than i drink coffee but i drink water more than i drink tea i drink water like. everyday lmao obviously but i drink a lot of water its my brand now

buttercup: what are five things that make you apologetically happy?

what does this mean why is the word apologetically there i cancelled it lmao no negativity in this house

my favorite people (u know who + my friends)

when people answer my anon asks and . they respond with a long reply/seem really happy responding thats my fav fam

this is getting real anime but when i get an UR/4* from scouting 

finding an anime/manga/book that perfectly suits my taste

im very tempted to just say water bc idk what else 2 say 

calla: what’s your favorite book?

ive only read 3 whole books this year but i recommend all of them 

challenger deep - neal shusterman (i could go on about this book for days honestly its so interesting and even though its told by the same person it has two kind of perspectives because there are two settings, that didnt make sense but this book is my new favorite)

see you in the cosmos - jack cheng (i love this one too because its just so warm? made me a little emo but its really good and i love how unique it is, text type wise)

a monster calls - patrick ness (this was something i heard from my school first so i didnt know if i really wanted to get it but its actually pretty good?) 

carnation: what are your five most played songs?

i cant really check using the music app bc i added the songs at different timings so itll be inaccurate ill just do most played song from each band/group

again - astro (this is their best song dont @ me)

letting go - day6

all in/stuck - monsta x

death by a strawberry - dance gavin dance

check yes juliet - we the kings

chrysanthemum: what are you afraid of?

i may not b a child but im still afraid of the dark bc my imagination is wild im also afraid of bugs and disappointing others nice oh shit im also afraid of asking for things

daffodil: what’s your astrological sign?

capricorn 

dahlia: what’s your favorite band?

this question was made for me its day6

daisy: which ‘friends’ character do you relate to the most?

ive never watched friends 

dandelion: are you an extrovert or an introvert?

in between!!!!!

geranium: how has your day been?

its been good!!! i managed to ask my mum 2 take me to hair place so i can get it cut finally and im working on updating my tumblr pages and doing all my tags

hydrangea: what’s your dream job?

pass

iris: who’s your celebrity crush?

pass

lavender: what’s one of the best gifts you’ve ever received?

oH FUCK FAM my friends got me a kermit toy for my birthday i lvoe it 2 dEATH

lily: what’s something you’ve achieved that you’re really proud of?

i got first in my class once wow amazing that was 2 years ago i wish i was as good as the me from 2 years ago 

marigold: what would you like to do more of, but don’t ?

well i want 2 b more hardworking but guess thats too late

morning glory: are you an early bird or a night owl?

now that school is over and i have no reason to wake up early ive become neither which is saddening because... i like waking up at 7am on weekends and doing things early but now i wake up at like 9-10am and i still sleep at 11pm  

orchid: what’s the last movie you saw?

i really dont remember?? maybe uh guardians of the galaxy?? i dont remember who i watched it with and when but it was good actually i remember who i watched it with nvm 

pansy: do you believe in love at first sight?

i dont really believe in romantic love anymore 

peony: what does your url mean?

chicken fetus means an egg

periwinkle: what are you thankful for?

god get ready folks im gonna go on my biggest boxy rant ever...

so boxy is my friend who ive been mutuals for over a year and our first common interest is love live and haikyuu so we had that to talk about but im bad at keeping conversations with ppl on tumblr so that ended quickly but earlier this year or late last year i made a twitter and told people on here about it and she followed me and i didnt really mind/pay attention to the stuff she posted/rted uNTIL. until that fateful day... june 25th... at like 8pm? she rted a pic of mister brian kang with dumb minion glasses on and ok maybe i do believe in love at first sight? bc wow!!!!! whos this dumbass with minion glasses and the fluffiest hair ??? so i slide into boxy’s dm.. expecting an explanation and she gives me a good one saying how brians from a band (i would later find out), day6 and im not a fan of kpop, never have been.. ive only watched like some kpop mvs bc i love my friends so i expect myself to listen to them and get over them as soon as im done. boxy my friend, bless HER she sends me all of their mvs from congratulations to i smile and i watch the first one - i smile and me? i start smiling and i can feel myself getting excited because holy fuck theyre a band! they play fucking instruments??? and at this point im already whipped then i move onto how can i say and that shit blew my mind let me tell you.. so because of boxy... i get to where i am now, proudly stanning 3 groups and if it were not for her i wouldve never gotten into mx as well... boxy is just?? really important to me her impact is just that great?? so im super!! sUPER thankful for her and i dont think she’ll ever see this but boxy i love u thank u so much!! boxy gave me more than one reason to live, and not just exist?? without her i wouldve never been able to make so many (like 2 but hEY) new friends and this probably got so long idk im just really thankful for boxy thank u lord for blessing us with boxy (@/youngkwhom on twitter) (kittenma on tumblr) i hope shes happy forever and i also hope she has good days for the rest of her life?? boxy deserves it i lvoe u boxy

petunia: where were you ten years ago?

10 years ago i was like 6 probably watching pokemon or some shit and getting glasses

poinsettia: where would you like to be in ten years?

dead thanks

poppy: what’s your online persona?

i dont understad the meaning of persona but an egg?????? 

rose: who’s the last person you spent quality time with?

all my classmates in an exam hall for 2 hours, quality time indeed

snapdragon: what are your goals?

pass

sunflower: what’s your favorite quote?

i think i had one before but i forgot so maybe it wasnt my favourite lol idk i dont have one now

tulip: if you had three wishes, what would you wish for?

for all of my favourite people to be happy forever

a good future

i want astro, mx and day6 to get an award for all of their hardwork thanks

violet: what’s one thing most people don’t know about you?

i was gonna say smth negative but lets not hm m m i? ?? ill put smth irl ppl probably dont know either uh hhh i guess?? that i eat a lot?? but also get full really quickly but then really hungry right after that idk thanks digestion

zinnia: do you believe in magic?

no ????/ idk is there any evidence that magic exists 

JEN !!! thank u so much for asking even tho u probably asked just to get back at me but this was still fun ask memes will never get boring bro,. i love u and i hope u have a good evening also i love ur blog too moon anon probably already told u

to anyone who actually bothered reading through this mess - thank you and i hope you have a good day/night too!!

[satyr-syd]

Sero isn’t bothered when Kayama-sensei assigns Bakugou as his partner for a project. Actually, he’s kind of glad. Bakugou is one of his friends, and it doesn’t hurt that in terms of academics, Bakugou is third in their class - definitely the kind of person he wants on his team.

Bakugou doesn’t seem the feel the same. In fact, Sero’s pretty sure he hates group projects. The way he furiously muttered, “I hate group projects,” when Kayama-sensei announced the project kind of gave it away.

They had met at the library after school to talk about the project. Sero already had ideas for topics - the project was a five minute presentation on the societal changes between the second and third quirk generations - but Bakugou shut him down before he could offer a suggestion.

“I’ll have this done by the deadline,” Bakugou says. “So you can leave now.”

Sero pauses from pulling his notebook out of his backpack. “Wait. What?”

Bakugou rolls his eyes. “What the fuck do you think? I’m going to do it myself, obviously.”

Sero is suddenly having second thoughts about having Bakugou as a partner. He knows Bakugou doesn't work well with others, but this seems excessive. “Dude. Hero work is all about collaboration.”

“This isn’t fucking hero work, is it? I can do this better all myself,” Bakugou says. “I’ll put together the presentation. And present it. You can stand there and...change the slides or something.”

Sero isn’t one to get in the way. When the top students like Bakugou or Todoroki or Midoriya went head on in a fight, Sero was more than happy to let them take the lead. He couldn't do anything when villains attacked during the school trip. He hadn't done anything to help Bakugou when he was captured. Even at the sports festival, Sero had let Bakugou make all their decisions, only chipping in when he was needed to pull Bakugou back onto their shoulders.

But in the end, everything had worked itself out, without Sero's active participation. He wasn't needed.

Hero work was one thing - unpredictable, dangerous, and best left to the strongest players. But this was classwork. And Sero felt guilty putting this whole project on Bakugou.

“I can’t just do nothing, man, I want to contribute something,” he says.

Bakugou slams his hands on the table. “I told you, I’ll do it.”

Sero doesn’t even flinch. He’s not intimidated by Bakugou’s aggressive tendencies. “I feel kind of useless, though,” he complains.

“I don’t give a shit,” Bakugou says. “I will do this and I will get us a perfect score, can’t you be satisfied with that?”

Sero bets this was how group projects were for Bakugou in middle school. He would be the super bossy one who took control of the project, and the everyone else would just be happy they could slack off. And hey, Sero was man enough to admit he was sometimes that guy. But that was before - now he’s at U.A. He has to get serious and earn his own grades. “Not if I don’t deserve it,” Sero tells him.

Bakugou groans, reaching into his backpack. “If I give you something to do, will you shut up?”

Sero smirks. “For 8000 dollars, I will stop.”

“The shit does that mean?”

“Just...give me something to do.”

He waits patiently while Bakugou pulls a paper out and shoves it at him. It’s the list of sample topics Kayama gave them. “Pick one.”

Sero glances at the list. Most of the topics seemed pretty boring, and Sero doesn’t even know what most of them are. But he notices that some of them are circled - maybe the ones Bakugou was considering? He picks the most interesting one of those. “How about Quirk Marriages?”

“Fine.” Bakugou snatches the paper back, and starts packing it into his bag. “There. You contributed.”

Just like that, his satisfaction disappears. Poof. Like Thirteen sucked it up and it disappeared into nothing. “Wait - that’s it?”

“Duh, that’s it,” Bakugou says, throwing on his backpack. “I can handle the rest, Soy Sauce Face.”

Sero rolls his eyes at the nickname. “Look, I know you think I’m stupid - and hey, I might be, in comparison to you - but that doesn’t mean I can’t be useful.” Even as the words leave Sero's mouth, he doesn't quite believe them. Was he useful during the end of term exam? Was he useful during the USJ attack?

“How many times do I have to say it to get it through your thick fucking skull?” Bakugou says at a near shout. “I. Don’t. Need. Your. Help!”

By the time the librarian comes to quiet them down with her voice silencing quirk, Bakugou’s long gone, leaving Sero alone, no closer to being useful than before.

To group: bakugou’s harem

snape (snail tape) do u guys ever feel useless

reeeeeed riot. *yum* Yes Wait bro are you feeling useless Because even though youre entitled to your feelings And I get how easy it is to feel like that

its always wednesday did someone call you useless????

reeeeeed riot. *yum* But i think youre really valuable!!!

its always wednesday tell me who ill fite them

reeeeeed riot. *yum* Ashido why must we resort to violence

lightnin mcmeme bro ur lyin if u thikn u wouldnt fight an army for seros honor

reeeeeed riot. *yum* … True

snape (snail tape) i have...the graetest frends

lightnin mcmeme we kno

its always wednesday obvi

reeeeeed riot. *yum* But hey bro are you doing okay?

snape (snail tape) yeah its just u guys have done so much cool shit this year and i have not and i kinda feel like guilty about it? but also like...whatever bc u all can do anything w/o me  

lightnin mcmeme mkay 1st thing: u couldve sent that as 1 text

snape (snail tape) why? does this annoy you?

lightnin mcmeme bruh

reeeeeed riot. *yum* Sero Hanta listen to me right now you are a very valuable human and a great asset to this class. Just because you havent had the chance shown your strengths like everyone else doesnt mean you dont have them or arent useful

its always wednesday what he said! u did amaaaaaazing in the sports festival!

lightnin mcmeme and u passed the hero license exam which even splodey didnt pass

its always wednesday and ur definitely the best at mobility we wouldnt have stood a chance in the cavalry battle w/o u!

reeeeeed riot. *yum* Youre like the tape that holds us together

lightnin mcmeme ur *literaly* the tape that holds us together

its always wednesday plus u came up w all our screen names !! which are cool af!!!!

snape (snail tape) thenks guys that means a lot im feeling a lot better now

reeeeeed riot. *yum* Yay!

its always wednesday yay!!!!!!

lightnin mcmeme glad ur feelin better dude!! but also y did u write thanks like that

snape (snail tape) why did u just double text like that

lightnin mcmeme ....touche

Sero is used to taking the sidelines, but this time will be different. Energized by the support from his friends, Sero vows to prove to Bakugou - and himself - that he’s useful.

He tries to do a bit of research for the project on his own. There’s an article on some online magazine that gives a general history of quirk marriages, from the first quirk marriage to the protests against them. Proud of his find, and much more informed than before, Sero pulls out his phone.

snape (snail tape) hey. found a cool article bout qrk marriage [link]

The Boy Who Cussed I read that shit already

Shit. Of course he had. It was practically the first thing that popped up when he searched  “quirk marriage.”

Sero tries to think of something to say back that won’t make him seem stupid when he sees that Bakugou’s typing something else.

The Boy Who Cussed But if you actually want to be useful Find out the causes leading up to the first quirk marriage protest

Never before has Sero been so excited to do school work. (He probably never would be again.) But getting Bakugou to trust part of their workload to him feels like a victory.

snape (snail tape) yeah np!

When Sero explains to their friends how their project is coming, Ashido claps him on the back. “You like, out-stubborned Bakuboy, which is basically unheard of,” she says. “You’re a force to be reckoned with, Cellophane!”

Sero preens at her praise. He didn’t think of himself as a stubborn guy, but he was persistent when he needed to be.

That wasn’t entirely true, though. Ever since he told his friends how he was feeling on the group chat, he’d been thinking about his place at U.A. Mostly, how he wasn’t persistent about pursuing a spot in the spotlight next to U.A.’s strongest. He had shrugged off his loss at the sports festival. He was the only one who failed the end of term test whose team had beat their hero opponent. He was content to sit back while his friends stormed on ahead of him, blaming his poor results on his less-powerful quirk rather than his relaxed attitude.

That wasn’t any different than sitting back and letting Bakugou do all this work on their project. Ashido called him stubborn, but a truly stubborn person wouldn’t be content with second place. Sure, he felt useless, but he wasn’t doing anything about it. If he really wanted to do better for himself, he’d have to make a bigger effort. Ashido called him stubborn, but a truly stubborn person wouldn’t be content with second place.

snape (snail tape) dude u should come to my dorm we can work on the project together

From The Boy Who Cussed no

snape (snail tape) come on man itll be fun

The Boy Who Cussed This isn’t supposed to be fun, assfuck

snape (snail tape) we can MAKE it fun

The Boy Who Cussed NO

snape (snail tape) what do you have against fun bakugou do u even know what fun is

The Boy Who Cussed OF COURSE I KNOW WHAT FUN IS FUCKTRUCK STOP TEXTING ME IM WORKING

snape (snail tape) r u allergic to fun ill stop if u come over

Bakugou doesn’t reply. Sero hears stomping. Suddenly his door slams open.

Bakugou is absolutely fuming. Smoke is literally coming from his palms. Sero silently counts this as another victory.

He storms into Sero’s room, slamming the door behind him and dropping his stuff on the ground. “I hope you’re fucking happy,” he growls.

“I’m positively joyous.”

Sero looks over the back of his chair, watching Bakugou work.

“So. How’s it coming?” Sero asks. “Were the sources I found useful?”

Without looking up, Bakugou lists off his evaluation. “The first source wasn’t credible. You can’t just cite some rando’s blog.” Sero’s heart plummets. “The second one would have been good - but it was the wrong time period. The third was beyond biased.” He pauses before continuing on. “The last one was...suitable.”

Sero gulps. Next to his past few victories, this is definitely a loss. He’s only proven Bakugou right by giving him these shitty sources.

This is why he usually let the others take the spotlight - they knew what they were doing. They were smart, they were reliable. Maybe Bakugou was right. Maybe he could do this better alone. Maybe Sero really was useless.

“Why the fuck do you want to help so bad anyway?” Bakugou speaks so quietly, Sero almost doesn’t hear him. He’s not even sure if he was supposed to hear him.

Sero decides to answer his question anyway.

“I don’t want to mooch off your work. I want to earn my own grade - it’s not fair to either of us if I don’t do any work,” he explains. “It’s like when you’re fighting, and someone doesn’t even try to fight against you. Even if you win, it doesn’t feel like a win, you know?”

Bakugou looks back at him with a near unreadable expression on his face. Sero isn’t sure whether he’s hit a nerve or struck a chord in him. Maybe both.

Suddenly Bakugou gets up and shoves his papers into his bag. Sero leans back in his chair and holds back a sigh. Fuck. I went to far. Now he’d be back at square one.

“I’m going to send you a list of sources.”

Sero looks up. Bakugou’s still standing by the open door.

“Take notes on them, then give them to me,” he demands.

Sero lights up. “Yeah, sure!”

Bakugou leaves, but Sero’s feeling more confident than before. He just needs to be stubborn like Bakugou. He’ll kept trying until he gets this right.

They meet in the library next week.

Bakugou is, to put it lightly, frustrated.

Sero thought the project was going well. Bakugou actually read over his notes and constructed a summary from it. They had the slides planned out and everything - but Bakugou still wasn’t satisfied.

“This isn’t good enough!” Bakugou says, throwing down his notes. “This is just generic, dumb facts. If we want to beat everyone else we need to do more.”

“I don’t think this is about beating the others.” Sero didn’t miss how he said “we” this time, instead of “I.” Another victory.

Bakugou ignores him. “We need to make a claim. Show how quirk marriage had a lasting effect.”

“It’s not like quirk marriage is dead,” Sero comments. Bakugou looks at him weird, so he tries to explain himself. “You say it like it’s a thing of the past, but people still do it, even if it’s not super common. My neighbor is the result of a quirk marriage. And she’s not even like, thirty.”

Bakugou’s eyes go wide, and his lips twitch. “That’s perfect,” Bakugou says, nearly jumping out of his seat. “Get an interview with her. We can put a video on the slides.”

Sero grins. “I can ask, sure!”

Bakugou leans back in his chair, kicking his legs up on the desk. “Top that, Ponytail girl.”

snape (snail tape) is this u? [link]

The Boy Who Cussed THE FUCK IS THAT SUPPOESD TO MEAN FUCKFACE??!!!

A few days later, they sit in front of Bakugou’s laptop, looking at the draft of their final presentation.

At the moment, the slides have a black backdrop with bright orange text in some hardcore font that’s incredibly hard to read. Sero notes that the colors match his costume. Each slide looks the same - blocks of information in bullet points, too hard to read.  

“Hey, Bakugou do you take constructive criticism?” Sero asks.

"No."

"It fucking sucks."

Bakugou swivels around in his seat, snarling. “The fuck do mean? It looks fucking cool.”

Considering Bakugou’s parents worked in the fashion industry, Sero would have thought Bakugou would have an eye for design. These slides proved that assumption wrong. “Yeah, maybe, but like...could we make it readable?”

Bakugou narrows his eyes. “You don’t think it’s readable?” he asks accusingly.

Sero throws up his arms. “I’m just calling it as I see it, dude.” Knowing that this is an area where Bakugou falls short, Sero makes this an opportunity for himself. He’s not an artist by any means, but he’s sure he can do better than this. “How about you can write the presentation, and I’ll design the slides.”

Bakugou glares at him for a moment, no doubt questioning whether he can trust Sero with this task.

“Relax. It’ll be fine,” Sero reassures him. “I promise I’ll put a lot of effort into it - and you can look over it when I’m done, so you can make sure it’s up to your standards.”

“Fucking fine,” Bakugou relents.

Sero is more than satisfied with the end result. One - because it was a bombass presentation, two - because Bakugou couldn’t have done this without Sero’s help, and three - because they got full marks from Kayama-sensei. She even complimented them on the sleek design of their presentation.

“Put it here, Bakugou!” Sero holds up his hand.

With a grin closer to a smirk, Bakugou slams his palm against Sero’s. His high five is just as explosive as his...well, explosions. That’s going to leave a mark.

Shaking out his wrist, Sero says, “That wasn’t so bad, was it?”

Bakugou rolls his eyes. But Sero's silently proud of Bakugou for giving up some of his agency. He knows Bakugou likes to do things himself, and he bets Bakugou had just as hard a time sharing group work as Sero had trying to feel useful.

“You should have shown what you’re capable of earlier, Soy Sauce Face,” Bakugou says. “What the fuck have you been holding back for?”

Sero can hear Kirishima’s voice in his head saying So manly!

Bakugou’s words hit Sero like a punch. In middle school, Sero was described as plain. Plain face, plain clothes, plain personality. He thought going to U.A. would change all of that, and it did, at first. But Sero saw himself quickly falling behind ever since the sports festival. Against Bakugou and Kaminari’s flashy quirks or Ashido’s magnetic personality or Kirishima’s sheer resilience, Sero was once again the plain person in the pack. The useless one.

Sero is beginning to realize that this is his own fault. He can see how hard his classmates work - he just needs to up his game.

Bakugou’s right - what is he holding back for? He’s capable of so much more if he doesn’t play follower to the leaders of the pack. Sero can keep up with them - this project proved it.

“I’m not holding back,” Sero tells him. “I’m just warming up!”

Bakugou smirks. “Better catch up quick.”

“Trust me, I’m just getting started.”

ao3 | based on this hc | more like this

pst there’s a tiny deleted scene on ao3 in the notes if youre interested

[pbandjesse]

I've been writing my posts on my phone a lot lately. And so I haven’t been backing up any of those posts and now with Tumblr getting sold I'm nervous about that. So I've been trying to find a website or something to back the whole thing up but I could only find wordpress and it only had enough space to back up a 1/3 of it so if anyone knows a good one could you let me know?

Today has really been nice but it didn’t start the way. I didn’t sleep well. My back ached all night and nothing I did helped. I tend to sleep sort of bent but I cant seem to lay on my back flat and feel tired and its just a circle of unhappiness.

So when my alarm went off at 7 I was like I am just going to sleep for another half hour. I took a shower last night so no rush. But then like 2 minutes later sweetP knocked over my apple tree. Which was in a coffee can of dirt. And it went everywhere. I was furious. I yelled at him and smacked him on the butt and nose and cleaned it up and just was so mad. I chased him around the apartment and he was so scared. He hid under the tub while I cleaned. It took me almost that whole half hour I had wanted to sleep. I calmed down though and felt terrible for scaring sweetP so bad. I tried to get him out with treats but he was keeping his tail under him and he was upset and I was upset. I sat on the floor and cuddled him and told him he messed up but so did I. We had breakfast and then played fetch for a little and he seemed less freaked out. I still felt like the worst mom though.

Work was good. I got there and found some good stuff on the free shelf. Got the room set up. Kathrine and me and mixed up some paints and got ready for the day. We had most of our kids today. And we really are having a lucky week. They are the most respectful and sweet group of kids. We got to learn how to use a new type of epipen! Its like a flat rectangle. Which was really cool. And it had a voice to walk you through it. Very neat. If I get a new epipen I hope I get that kind.

We did a whole lot of painting. I washed a whole lot of brushes. Anne thought I was doing it begrudgingly but I actually really like doing it. I think its soothing. But we needed a better way to dry the brushes. And I found these weird metal combs in the trash. Me and Kathrine looked at them and figured out if you sort of V shaped them together they could kind of stand up into a drying rack. So I glued that together and it actually worked really well. Go team!

I stayed in during break to help Anne and told her some crazy stories about when I worked at PCAT. What I want to improve as a teacher, my goals for the future. She's really great so I really love working during her weeks. I wish she had more of them.

I helped kids paint and ran around cleaning up and making sure we were on task. But really this group was great and I'm not worried about them finishing their projects at all. Because out group is a little older this year they are much more on task and get done much faster. So we can do more fun things. I'm having a great time.

I found a whole lot of paper on the free shelf we could use in the class. And I got a box of glass slides that I am just so excited about. Lots of pictures from the 1930s. I also got a cute little blue bomber jacket. I had some eye ball patches comes in the mail and I think I will put a few of them on that. Be super on trend.

I headed home after that. Forgot to go to the bank but that’s okay. I got a card from Jess with 2 old post cards in it. I love them so much. She knows me well. I changed and had lunch. Chilled. Worked on adding the ribbons to my new pointe shoes. I think I'm going to pick up some elastic though because the ribbon doesn’t feel super secure. Still excited. Still feel like a weirdo for having red but its okay.

I chilled and laid down for a bit. Started uploading my thesis photos to my website because I'm the worst and hadn’t done that. I just finished that actually right now which is why my post has been taking me forever tonight.

I slept for a little while. Woke up at 5 and got dressed and packed my bag the go to ballet. I biked downtown and went to chipotle.

But they were a bit of a mess. I don’t know what the hell was going on but there was no line, just one guy in front of me. But we were still standing there for over 5 minutes with no one helping us. We talked for a minute. Then the girl who made his burrito screwed it up so bad he just left. I felt bad. She screwed mine up a little too, forgot stuff. But I caught it and had the cashier fix it for me. Then when I went to find a seat every table and the food was filthy. I cleared a table myself. Then this worker came in and started sweeping but also just smashing the broom on the pan every time he pulled it back and honestly just doing a terrible job. I don’t want to make a complaint but I just might, it was that bad.

I had some time to waste so I walked around marshells. Then wet to stretch at the studio. I showed the other girl who does pointe my shoes and she gave me some tips. I also showed them to Marsha, our teacher, and she gave me some good feedback and said they are funny cause theyre red but totally acceptable.

Class was great. I felt strong. I stayed up on one foot for 15 full seconds, which would be about 5 turns. And I was so so proud. Marsha made a big deal about it. So my practice at home is really helping a lot.

I was a bit distracted after class and forgot my ballet bag on the bench but then the door was locked. And then when I did get inside the elevator was locked. But then Marsha and a few of my classmates came down and let me up and came with me to let me in the studio itself. But we got my bag and it was all good.

I got home and cuddled with sweetP. I think there is a mosiquto in here because I now have a bite. But its okay. Tomorrow I have work and then I'm going to attempt to bleach my hair to dye it. Havent done that for a while. Hopefully it wont take multible bleaches to get it really light but I have no other plans besides laundry tomorrow so you know! itll be fun.

I hope you all sleep well tonight. Be safe.

[steffulitis]

Amour

Its begun. My feelings for you are rushing in like a hurricane. Drowning me in these feelings of love. Breaking down all the walls ive built in this world. Making me vulnerable to get hurt. But theres always a chance that i wont be hurt this time... you captivated my thoughts. You are always on my mind. You mean so much to me, and to think, i wanted to be single when i first met you. But there was something different about you. Something that made me want to know you on a deeper level. And i am so glad i allowed myself to spend time with you and see through your past. Because now, there's so many things i adore about you. 1. Your hair. How the waves and length is so perfect. How healthy it is. 2. Your eyes. And how they look at me with such affection. 3. Your handsome smile. Which stops my heart everytime i see it. 4. The way you hold my hand. As if it's 100% necessary to hold my hand all the time. In public, as we talk, as we walk around, as my hand is on my shift knob, and even when we sleep. 5. Your laugh. Its cute. Even though its a weak laugh, since strong laughs make you cough because you smoke too much. 6. The way you can act silly. Nibble on my cheeks as if youre cookie monster. Or play fight with me when im acting hyper. Or tickle me because you want to annoy me. 7. The way you kiss me. Passionately. I love the feeling of your hand sliding past my cheek to the back of my head. 8. The way you kiss my cheeks. Over and over. And especially when i hint to you to kiss them. 9. Thats another thing. The way you respond to my small hints of what i want. Point to my cheek, youll kiss it. Kiss the air, youll kiss my lips. Stick my finger out, youll put your nose under it so i can tap your nose. But then you playfully try to prove that im not training you, so you refuse sometimes. But then you give in. 10. The way you like taking pictures with me. (And of me while im sleeping, smh). You were so disappointed that fun factory got rid of their photo booth. 11. The way you comfort me when im stressed, sad, or mad. 12. The way you listen to me talk about random things, or about my day, or about medical stuff. And you sit there, fully paying attention to me, asking questions because youre actually interested in what i say. 13. The way you remember small things i mention, that arent even important. 14. You like art. And history. You admire such beautiful things in the world, and even tear up by it sometimes. For someone who tries to act tough and like a bad ass, you appreciate the small, amazing things in this world the way i do. And i really like that. I really do. 15. The way youll do anything i want to do. Go anywhere i wanna go. Even on a mountain! But you get nervous watching me calmly walk along a cliff, while you look down and get a little scared. But i think its cute that you watch me and admire my courage and craziness. And the way you share it to your cousin as if im such an amazing girl. 16. The way you show me affection. Goodmorning and goodnight texts everyday. Always telling me you miss me. How im the best girl youve ever been with. How youre lucky to be mine. Its weird because you dont compliment me much. But then theres the random times that you call me beautiful or pretty, and thats when im reassured that you think im pretty enough. 17. the way you stare into my eyes. You hold my gaze for such a long time, sometimes i get uncomfortable. But your eyes are so warm and comforting, and i love that you just love looking at me. 18. The way you watch everything i do. When i working, when im studying, when im on my phone, when im driving, even when im sleeping. You just sit there and watch me without saying a word. I wonder whats on your mind. 19. The way you are such a gentleman. Opening doors for me, paying for things, walking on a certain side of the sidewalk, always making me walk in front of you when we go somewhere, always showing that im yours. 20. The way you share everything with me. Drink some beer, make me drink some. Take a bite from food, fit the rest in my mouth. Smoke some weed, ask me to smoke too. Buy some weed, save some so that i can try it. Buy blunts, give me half the pack. Go out to dinner, always offer if i want to try your steak. Youre always trying to make me experience what youre doing. 21. Youre so supportive. You get really sad and paranoid when you miss me, since we dont see each other often at all. We're lucky if we see each other once a week. But you still stay with me. You are as understanding as you can be. You tell me itll be ok, and to focus on my studies. You show me you care. 22. You saying "<3xinfinity" What would life have been like if i didnt have you by my side?

[magalamantle]

mister-march-hare replied to your post: #negative #health problems #negative body image so...

i got a hump from leaning over too for like, depression and fear reasons, and doing some poses in yoga can help straighten it back out. cobra, pigeon, and some others, stuff that like, makes you move in a way that unbends your stuff and makes it re-flex itself in a diff direction

(are we talking about the same thing, im talking about like.. a specific, like, brand of fatty deposit at the back of your neck like, palm thickness?? im gonna assume that we ARE talking about the same thing though because its all, spinal, posture-based, and honestly if a yoga pose helps improve posture over time then itd probably work even if it wasnt the EXACT same thing)

((i did find lots of exercises online for it - itll just take me a while to get on it because like... its hard enough for me to remember to lift my little weight every day, plus most of the specific exercises for fixing a dowagers hump include like... lol... shifting back into your own neck... and it makes me feel really, just, instinctively terrible when i do that because i know how it makes me look??

like im!!! still going to try to do them, its just... stressful when part of the whole reason i have a bump there is because i didnt want to look like im making a goofy face and then to fix it i have to.. make a goofy face))

ill look into those yoga poses in particular though!!! maybe itll be more fun if i do it with my girlfriend in the mornings or something, instead of sliding back into my own neck alone in my room?? thanks ken..!!!