#its probably the ADHD isnt it...

[prophet-writes]

I don't know which mental illness it is that causes this but every now and then I'll get the urge to be so incredibly productive and proactive in my life,

then I'll go to do one of the things that feel productive and my brain will go "no, not like that, I'm not feeling that one right now"

So I'm like "okay, cool... Out of this huge list of stuff I've been meaning to get done, half of which are hobbies, what are you feeling like doing right now?"

And my brain will be like "mmmmm, I don't know man, it's just not the right vibe. None of these are the right flavor, ya know? But also the fact you haven't decided on anything yet means you're being unproductive so I'm gonna make you feel like you're missing something fundamental in your life until you fulfill the need to be productive"

[spitblaze]

you guys GOTTA stop making incredible fandom art that captures my attention so well with its themes and color and composition and implications it makes me go 'woah, that's cool, I wonder what show/book/game this is for?' and then I go to check the source tags and it's for a minecraft youtuber

[hypogryffin]

Haru with the blue colour contacts is so threatening ngl. Love that for her, she’s doing it on purpose isn’t she

Also, how does ryuji get away with his terrible eyesight and none of the thieves even notice? I get that the metaverse is nice to people with eye troubles (points at your akechi and joker eyesight headcanons) but like in the real world surely someone knows/figures out he’s being stubborn about glasses to some degree

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[oemorrow]

holy CARP, dude !!!

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Shoutout to this diagram of human muscle specifically. Reminded me I need to do an actual study soon.

(Tag is different because I changed my pseud. Thank you!)

[the-pea-and-the-sun]

i keep starting posts abt death note and then stopping to start a new post about some other death note opinion like fuck i have so much to say. i need to relax genuinely. jts just a vaguely misogynist yaoi anime like i need to remind myself that in a year or even probably a few months something else will feel like its encompassing my entire life an dn literally will not matter to me. i know this to be true because this is how i do everything all the time always but its so unbelievable like. autistic obsession rly does make me a little bit delusional every single time. im always like "well THIS art/story/subject is DIFFERENT and clearly of unique importance and significance compared to that last thing i was obsessed with (an every thing ive been obsessed w ever)" like no matter how much i understand that logically to not be the case i genuinely cant convince myself to actually believe it. like ik this time last year i was just as much if not more obsessed with moomin valley but it just. doesnt feel true like it feels unique and special every time its so strange. death note is a story its pretty good its silly its fun its camp its suspenseful like i can acknowledge these things to be true in a normal way but it is also the most important thing on earth to me right now and i need everyone else to know all of the time. its enormous in my mind its radius expands to so many other Important Things to the extent that whether its actually objectively good or significant i could not tell you right now because it is eclipsing my entire mind. i can talk abt its objective value and significance all day but it does not matter bcz i will not stop being able to think about it regardless. fuck man. being autistic is crazy. my most consistent hobby is being in the throws of obsession. also the way im phrasing this sounds like its distressing me but i love it i love being in the throws of obsession i love it every single time it happens i just love it so intensely that the idea of it having less significance to me or to others than it has right now seems incredibly strange. what do other ppl even get out of watching tv shows and reading books if not this. i need to relax i need some coffee

[lunar-fey]

its normal to fall asleep and start dreaming in what literally could not have been more than 9 minutes!

[sl33pyperson]

insert obligatory Go Listen To Media Club Plus joke here

[spitblaze]

Gold and Silver are good kids and Gold likes to show up unannounced to Lance's house post-game to bother Silver and Silver is like 'ugh great just what I need a loud annoying weirdo' but they are neither loud nor annoying while they hang out they just quietly sit on the floor reading magazines abt pokemon or playing video games and sometimes Gold will shove something in Silver's face like 'WHOA CHECK THIS OUT' and Silver will be like 'can you quiet down. What stupid thing could possibly get you that excited' as if he wouldn't also be equally excited about the very cool article about Sharpedo Gold just found

[horsegirlrehab]

very fun of my brain to always just get temporarily consumed by a new art form, hey babe ik u just discovered you can paint on fabric but what about any of the other art you're supposed to do <3

[dinopant]

Gonna watch doctor sleep, jerk off and forget im lonely

[jackalsraised]

see the reality is i post on my rps usually when nobodys been there a bit and nobody is probably online, but the mental illness in me keeps saying its bc everyone secretly hates me and i dont deserve love, and when i tell a gov doctor that, they basically just say ‘take your antidepressant’s and shut up’ which is also funny when said gov doctor wont refill my fucking antidepressants in the first place

[platinum-horizons]

4

edit: 4 was NOT supposed to be there i dont know how it happened

Like I know we all love making ADHD seem cool but like, don't forget it's actually a disability? My ADHD is bad enough I've nearly been evicted for forgetting to mail the rent check to the property manager, I've forgotten to pay the utility bills and had my water or power get turned off or had to pay fines bcs I missed a credit card payment. Once I was supposed to cat sit for a friend and I lost the house key she gave me but didn't realize until she was already out of town, and she had to call the apartment office to get someone to give me the spare so her cats would have food for the week. When I'm unmedicated I can't even get myself to shower half the time, forget eating or cleaning. Before I started living with my fiance I'd just like, not eat for days because I didn't have anyone to remind me to eat or go buy me food. I've forgotten to turn the stove off so many times and ruined kettles and tbh been DAMN fucking lucky the house didn't burn down. I've done stupid, impulsive shit that's nearly gotten me KILLED. I can't remember to close the shower curtain reliably even through my fiance points out every single time I forget, and he's almost out of soap rn bcs for the last MONTH neither of us have been able to remember to order more once we get out of the shower.

I've had such bad memory my entire life that to this day someone suggesting I forgot something because I simply didn't care enough is a legitimate trigger that, in the worst cases, makes me have a breakdown.

I get that for some of you this is just something that makes studying hard or you forget to take a pee break when you're playing Minecraft or whatever, that's still a valid struggle and you do deserve help and understanding, but like, ADHD is a disability. It's disabling. It's not impossible to improve and learn coping skills, meds help a lot, there are great accommodations out there(LIKE CLEANING SERVICES), but not every case of ADHD is the same, and a lot of them are pretty ugly ngl, and just because you managed to do something doesn't mean someone else is gonna be able to manage it too, or that they're being lazy for struggling. And that obviously doesn't mean ADHD people have a free pass to never work on themselves and make everyone cater to their every need or whatever, but we do deserve some understanding when we explain that our disability is actually disabling in ways that aren't palatable to you. So like, idk, maybe don't immediately recoil in horror when you find out that someone with ADHD can't keep their house clean. And for fucks sake don't ridicule them for it.

[lillyshroom]

hi. soup here. anyway i follow you because raspberry, lilac, sapphire, lemon 🥺i hope i used the right colo rs

Hope you know the notif I got only showed raspberry so I checked it and when I saw that that was the "kill god" one I audible said "Oh starting it off strong huh!"

I know you don't post THAT often but seeing your art gives like a +60% buff to all actions I think

Rambling in tags is one of the collective joys of the world so I'm glad you enjoy them!!

wait What Do You Mean Study

[pmrin]

the power of writing a really angry post and taking a deep breath and deleting it

[rebellum]

Yesterday evening i joked about how I skipped almost every single math class of grade 12 (I probably went to like 3 a month?) And then last night I . I forget where I was going with this because I wrote the side note below. Something about a bad math dream.

Side note that I'm writing before I forget it's kinda weird how we can say "last night" or "last wednesday" but not "last day." Or "yesternight". I think that should be a thing.