#many thoughts... 🤔

[sanchoyo]

general life update bc I realize I haven't been on a ton: yesterday started really badly (tummy flareup problemz...the Usual...) but me and my sister watched what might be my new fav movie while I was sick and it made me feel so much better (fanart maybe incoming. will not be elaborating Yet but Believe Me It was Really Good)

and also have been playing the new zelda game (its good so far!! yipee!! after totk disappointing me i was Worried but no. it checks a ton of my boxes already!!)

AND i'm also vaguely planning some irl crafts (been rly into toy customization vids so I might..try that ?? unsure if I wanna do a doll or something Else. might just need to hit up a thrift store and see what needs TLC and Grab It. I NEED to do something with my hands) so thats whats going on beside the Usual.

artwise ive still been working on the botw ocs and a random sailor moon fanart along with the usual comic stuff!! wips are on kofi but I rly dont have the urge to rush either of those...just having fun with it. I rly enjoy working on illustration stuff alongside the comic bc working on only b&w stuff makes my color-loving heart sad. I am...Multitasker Man 💪

[b0nkedmehead]

I always see people make certain dp characters [ie: Danny's parents, val, giw] wanna get rid of phantom from danny like an exorcism

Even tho they're the same person right

But I always think of that ep where danny went through that ghost spliter, and you see Phantom and danny as two separate beings [this would've been so cool to explore btw]

Before they quickly went back lol

But what if the giw or someone actually succeeded in splitting them up. I wanna see the ramifications that would have.

Would Danny's "human form" slowly deteriorate from the injuries he sustained from the portal? Would it be instant or would it happen slowly.

Everyone thinks yay! No more halfa hes cured yippee 🕺until Danny looks more and more worn down, has phantom pains, can't sleep, nightmares, and slowly slowly his injuries start killing him and everyone starts noticing.

And then they realize danny can't live without phantom. That the people trying to save him from phantom inevitably ended up killing him again.

Also on the flip side how would this affect phantom like would he just fade away since his body technically isn't dead yet. Would he be caught up in some weird in-between 🤔

Many thoughts many thoughts

I'd also love to hear anyone else's thoughts on this

[hobbithoes]

gith girly 4 my new run 🐸

[winterrbluess]

Spoilers

Ok now that the initial shock has faded and I'm much more grounded. This chapter is good actually. Everyone knew Sukuna was going to die and to some extent I knew his death was going to be anything but glorious. It's jjk people rarely get good and respectful death let alone a grand and glorious one but yeah Gege took me out again with how he closed Sukuna's arc. Was it underwhelming? Yes. In jjk if you don't adapt, don't change you're doomed to fail and Sukuna no matter how much physically strong he was always emotionally fragile and in the end his own lack of self awareness became his cause of demise. Kenjaku the biggest villian of the series (for me, the heinous acts he has done is way more than mass murder) got a pretty satisfying end for him because he was open to see and connect with Takaba. Sukuna never did that and died a lump of flesh. And honestly it's not humiliating or pathetic. At first glance it did seem like with him becoming a slime but he didn't die begging for his life rather still being the no 1 hater and his pride mostly intact (he did looked overwhelmed but when after 1000 years you actually lose it's given) also as hypocritcal as ever (mocking Yuji and others for fearing death but he himself felt that too) His death was neither like a glorious warrior nor truly pathetic like Mahito's. For me he just...had a simple and quick death. Though Yuji holding his remains and finally telling him something that he always unconsciously craved for was very bittersweet maybe this is what Yuji had told him on their stroll time things could've been...better? His 'you're me' moved me honestly. They both are the different sides of a coin. It was sad how Sukuna (the man who never cared for any identification or title) for the first time out of everything chose to identify as a...curse really showed how hollow his sense of self was actually. But no matter how much Sukuna denied it he was still...a human not a god not a curse and he died as such and with the only family he ever had at that (maybe if you see he died in the hands of the only family he ever had) and though a direct parallel to Mahito it wasn't hate that Yuji felt and I think neither pity but empathy genuine empathy. Wishing a place where Sukuna could get someone like he had his grandfather, Gojo had Geto and Megumi had Him....

Rip Ryomen Sukuna very few other characters had me itch my brain with their duality.

[wyervan]

Hiya! Osha Anon here!

I tried to send this ask before but I fear Tumblr may have eaten it so I'll try again.

We all know Sunta's workshop ain't passing an Osha inspection, but what about the Slasher AU boy's arcade?

Everything up to code? 📋🤔

-Osha Anon 👷

Sun: Ah! Osha Anon!! 😬😬 I wasn’t expecting you today… oh no! It’s perfectly fine, fine, fine! Go ahead…. have a look around! 👀 We keep everything in TIP-TOP shape for our patrons and staff alike, I assure you! 👍 No exposed wiring, no skeletons in the closet—at least not in that closest. Ah ha ha…. ha… ehem. Have you seen the vintage carpet? 🤩 Marvelous isn’t it? Hyponotic even.

You want to talk to our employees 😅 oh suuuure… yes, I suppose you have to, don’t you. They say the… quirkiest things sometimes, just so you know 😬 LOVE to joke about my colleague Mr. Moon and me. Have this running silly fantasy that we’re murderer clowns that go out hunting at night! Hee hee—such creativity! We play along sometimes 🤭 chase them around the arcade—UH—VERY SAFELY, that is, very safely… only got stuck in the play tunnels ONE TIME ☝️.

[twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat]

Thinking about how Suguru would propose…. I can’t imagine he’d make it a spectacle, I think he’d prefer something intimate. The idea of you proposing to him first is sort of funny. I think he’d be touched that you want to spend forever with him but I think he’d be a bit miffed that he couldn’t spoil you by proposing first.

rem 😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫 you want me dead . ohhhhhhhh soon-to-be husband sugu ..… how lovely you are………..

HE TAKES IT SOOOO SERIOUSLY. THIS CANNOT BE OVERSTATED . it’s literally life or death. he’s planning his speech, he’s making reservations at all your favorite places, he’s buying you the prettiest ring he can find. he needs everything to be perfect. and he’d 100% prefer something intimate!!!! probably wants to end the night with a walk under the moon :’)

but then … you propose. and all his plans fly out the window . he’s absolutely touched (definitely cries, i don’t make the rules this man is a closeted sap), overcome with love, but he’s also deeply offended. probably lets out a teary, slightly reprimanding laugh of ’you beat me to it!’ he could never be angry at you, especially not like this, but he really wanted to be the one to get down on one knee first…..

makes up for it by spoiling you relentlessly on your honeymoon <3 (he would’ve done that anyway.)

[vixvigil]

using this post to respond to tags on a reblogged post that themselves were a response to my tags, because my rambling was far too long for that format and i don't want to be a menace in op's notes

unless you want to read circular rambling about the elusive nature of body horror, ignore this

the post:

my tags:

#i don’t want to obfuscate the very real and important point here#about both the societal and individual perceptions of disability and illness#but at the same time. imo you could say this about pretty much all body horror#because fundamentally you can’t really draw a line between something purely conceptual#and something starkly real when it comes to horror. bodily or otherwise#the reality is grossly fantastical and the fantasy is morbidly grounded#it’s the interplay between the two that makes horror effective#the boundary is removed. there is no difference#the reality of the body is frequently horrific. so any fantastical exploration is automatically grounded in something#someone will always have a connecting lived experience#one persons body horror will always be another persons mundanity#there’s undoubtedly an examination to make of the everyday experiences of disabled people being broadly and carelessly labelled body horror#and of the very real damage that that does#but at the same time. there will always be overlap because you cannot separate body horror as a genre from the reality of the body#body horror and mundanity are not mutually exclusive#horror at large is a genre reliant on framing and perception#the horror is in the eye of the beholder#and reality. mundanity. is much the same#i think i'm losing the thread of what i'm saying#and that's without even touching on the relationship between the individual perception of horror and the cultural perception of horror#god. horror is so crazy#whatever. maybe i’ll come back to it sometime#my perspective of this is undoubtedly skewed somewhat by my own lived experiences of 'body horror'#but yeah. great post op 👍#hope its clear that all this is intended as a continuation and not as a contradiction#text

@nakiteers tags:

#< prev#not really a refute of what you said but more an alternative reading of OPs text and societal issues#i hear you and thats valid#but imo. it feels like OP was more talking about when people TW body horror on like... people with prosthetics#ive seen TW body horror comments on that one tiktok perso with a glass eye prosthetic#if your really unlucky you can even see them on educational vids on periods#endometriosis isnt body horror its just a treatable condition that causes pain and problems#i feel the line /has/ to be “is incredibly grotesque and unnatural” bc otherwise you get people with bad acne being tagged as bodyhorror#there has to be a line somewhere. its not grey on both ends#my worse body horror experience was an improper IV saline drip into my muscle which caused a bump that stuck around for a day#and it was so viscerally disturbing that i still struggle with IVs because i have this sneaking suspicion that#my skin will warp around the liquid and stay there. its not logical but its in my brain now#but i dont think things like that should be labeled as horror#personal feelings and societal/ community labels are worlds apart#that guy who died from radiation slowly? thats body horror to pretty much everyone#pregnancy? thats body horror to me but i will fight on the side that that shouldnt be labeled horror publicly#if its a thing that happens on the daily it needs education and care; not stigma and avoidance bc its “horror”#cancer sucks but calling it “body horror” is going to make educational content come across very differently.#and some people might just say “i dont like horror/i cant handle horror” and then purposely avoid learning about others#vent in tags

i agree! honestly i was more-so revelling in the spiral of thought that the post sent me into, than directly and specifically exploring the post itself and the point it makes, because when i tried to draw that all important line in my head, i was unable to do so without contradicting the premise of the original post, the premise that I absolutely agree with, and i found that fascinating.

especially when i then tried to use my own experiences to rationalise and ground things in a concrete situation and found that that only complicated things more.

i’ve lived through gradually losing 80% of my skin; for over a year more of my body was open wound than not. i've had full body radiation burns on top of those open wounds when a treatment to help regrow my skin went wrong. i’ve experienced itching so profound that it lead me to partially skin my own hand twice before the age 18. i’ve lived with nerve endings so fucked by longstanding wounds that water felt like acid. i’ve spent months, feverish, wrapped in a blood-soaked sheet finding comfort in imagining being burned alive, because that was the only way i could imagine an end to the pain and the itching—at the very least it would’ve been over quicker.

it lasted for so long, and i grew so accustomed to looking at my body and seeing only wounds, that even now seeing skin on my body feels unfamiliar to me. i’d forgotten what i looked like with skin. to this day it surprises me sometimes when i catch a glimpse of myself in a mirror and see skin in place of wound.

is that body horror? to someone, probably. to many? maybe, who's to say. to me? i’m not sure.

it was certainly horrific, but it was also mundane. it was my everyday life for a period. i was used to it. following the original post to the letter, is calling that scenario body horror therefore wrong? after all, it was just how i was living. that's where my initial tags were coming from in regards to horror and mundanity not being mutually exclusive.

if we abstract it, ignore the perspective mundanity of the situation, could the state of my body at the time be considered ‘body horror’? I'm not sure there’s necessarily a concise or constant answer to that either.

my body was almost entirely open wounds; warnings are often out on pictures of alarming injuries, does it become wrong to do that if the wound is longstanding? or, if not dictated, perhaps by context?

of course, context always matters, but is the line we’re talking about here more dependent on the context than content? because in my mind that’s an entirely separate line. in this situation if the line is contextual it is no longer concrete, and thus ceases to function.

to continue we must find another Known factor within the situation. so it goes:

i know that, when i could wear clothes again, i was careful about how i dressed for a long time, how much of myself I covered. i was almost permanently bandaged, i wore turtlenecks, long sleeves, gloves through summer etc, both for my own mental comfort and for the comfort of others. i knew i had the potential to make people uncomfortable, that the state of my body was unusual, alarming, and, to some, potentially horrific. should i have had to worry about the perception of others? maybe, maybe not. regardless, most people do not enjoy seeing open wounds, the response is visceral, and i don’t think that’s ever going to change.

for years after i was still careful, and remain so, to a degree, because of the scarring i’m left with. i'm lucky, a lot of my scarring isn’t hugely visible. in most larger areas it’s more of a textural shift, a change in the way the hair grows, a shadow, etc—nothing that would be particularly alarming to most people—and most of the scarring that was once more starkly visible has faded significantly over time, but i'm still mindful of them situationally.

is it odd that i consider myself, and am considered by others, ‘lucky’ because my scarring is less immediately visible than it could’ve been? certainly it says something about the way we view scars. so is scarring horrific? does it depend on the severity? can scars be considered body horror?

i don’t think my scarring is body horror, nor do i think scarring in general is, nevertheless i can understand being disturbed by what it represents.

so, still using my situation as an example, if a body more wound than skin can, depending on context, be considered body horror, but that same body healed, covered in the resulting scars cannot, does that mean the line between ‘potentially body horror’ and ‘definitely not body horror’ is dependent on how healed the wound is? because that presents its own issue, as the healing process obviously isn't binary. so what is it dependent on? must the wound still be wet?

the more you try to draw a line the less you're able to. i don't have a good answer. i just find it interesting to think about.

in my initial tags i did definitely lean-in to considering fictional and fantastical body horror and how that connects to reality, as opposed to remaining exclusively within the realm how people view and interact with others, but i think the dilemma remains whether or not art and fiction are considered at all.

while, again, i agree with both the original post and your tags, the subject can't escape the underlying central conflict: that 'body horror' cannot really be explicitly defined.

the defining factor you mention of being 'incredibly grotesque and unnatural', while seemingly straightforward and sensible, renders all real situations and states of the body as incapable of being considered body horror, as everything in reality is part of nature, and thus natural. but of course, plenty of things in life can be considered body horror; you mention dying of radiation poisoning – certainly a classic example of something pretty much universally considered 'body horror' – but it's still natural phenomenon, so while undeniably grotesque, it would still be excluded by that definition.

so, if we cannot use 'unnatural' as a defining factor, what do we use in it's place? anomalous? abnormal? twisted? odd? warped? peculiar? brutal? bizarre? each possible substitute comes with it's own issues, its own contradictions.

body horror escapes definition. we know it, we feel it, but we can't really put any meaningful constraints on it without excluding things that we think are body horror, or including things that we think are not. hence my original, very simplistic, 'anti-conclusion' of sorts, that the horror is in the eye of the beholder. which admittedly is less of an answer to the underlying philosophical quandary of where and how to draw the line, than an acceptance of the impossibility of doing so.

the original post is true and the point it makes is correct and worth learning from and acting upon. extrapolating from its premise, to action it we must draw a line, but by it's very nature (and even the conceit of the post) the line cannot be drawn. yet this contradiction does not negate the reality of the original sentiment.

the real coherent, useful takeaway is simply what remains at the heart of it: oh my god can everyone please just be normal about disabled people and their bodies please i'm begging

[kindahoping4forever]

Cal with friends yesterday

[violetmuses]

If Roman pulled another vacation card! 👀 ✈️

@episodes-ff @expert-texpert @persethegawd @adriennegabriella @fearlesschimera @secretlifeoofmarpessa @mytribalnightmare @adoresmiles @blackgurlnhermoods @babybratzmaraj 🏷

[cementcornfield]

[Jerry Rice] said if he could have he would have dated you...

Joe will tell you, sometimes a receiver comes along that just... there's something easy about him...

[akkivee]

this is kinda a continuation of this post talking about how well kuukou knows his loved ones that he’s able to find them wherever they are, but one of kuukou’s arcs comes to an end here and in the movie where it’s not just how well kuukou knows them, it’s jyushi and hitoya taking comfort in kuukou staying who he is as they know him and it’s also ichiro in the movie giving his brothers an entire monologue about the kuukou he knows lol

still???? it’s interesting that rarely anyone looks for kuukou, it’s always shakku looking for kuukou (and always finds him, an indicator for how well he knows his own son) so when we got that jyushi hitoya dt, circular labyrinth, it’s jyushi looking for kuukou and jyushi was unable find him, indicating he doesn’t know kuukou as well as he might think 🤔

[sukugo]

why's satoru always looking his most whorish when training his students 🤔🧐🤨

[spooky-kakashi]

wait if jeff is bad at sex thn why the fuck does britta keep hooking up with him😭😭😭😭

[samuelroukin]

got injured yesterday and remembered that whole thing about orgasms working as pain relief. so now i'm thinking about soap getting injured and joking about it and ghost very seriously offering to take him up on it. OR ghost getting injured and soap bringing it up out of nowhere mostly joking except he's not. (this may be something you wrote already that i internalized in which case thank you for your service).

lfhfjhgst i don't think i wrote anything like that, but both very nice scenarios 👀 dying at ghost being like [kneeling knight emoji that doesn't exist] I Will Do This, it's my duty

[beevean]

"Don't get close, you're bothering the lady." "It's fine, I'm used to it. Maybe you could have become a good shepherd..."

Having thoughts about Hector's affinity with animals - the dark, creepy, unwanted animals that humans chase away.

Having thoughts about Rosaly commenting that he'd be a good shepherd.

Having thoughts about Hector being meant to be a general "good" Dracula.

Having thoughts about Dracula welcoming two young boys in his castle - dark, creepy, unwanted boys that humans chased away.

Having thoughts about Dracula being, before humanity's enemy, God's enemy.

Having thoughts about Dracula being a christic figure to Hector and Isaac: the generous, all-powerful savior who forgave them the sin of being born and gave them new life. Or is he? Can Christ be selfish in his kindness? Is it kindness if you are turned into a weapon as the price for the right to live and the right to be loved? For how long can one cling on to?

(Hector's affinity for animals has been honed into affinity for Devils. A warped, blasphemous kind of life and love. Hector is kinder to his creations than Dracula is to his own: he refuses to force them to sin.)

Having thoughts about Hector turning away from both Gods, knowing that he will die but wanting to die in complete freedom. Refusing to bow to anyone.

Having thoughts about Hector using his blasphemous powers for good - despite his fears, he can be accepted as himself among humans.

Having thoughts about how this happiness doesn't last. Hector is constantly forbidden from finding happiness, because he gets dragged towards the darkness, the blasphemy, the sin, until he's no longer himself, but Dracula, the Devil, his God.

But, at least, Hector goes to reject his former Christ and mirror with new resolve, having had proof that everything he used to know was all a lie. They are not the same. He's stronger than his God. Because he's kinder, and more forgiving, and knows who he is, and he refuses to spread his misery.

Hector would be a good shepherd to his lambs, and no one can take that from him.

There is an untold story here, and I so desperately want to put the pieces together.

[padfootastic]

If Remus was spying on the werewolves I imagine he took it very seriously - out of contact months at a time, never telling Sirius and James what he had been up to etc. We also know Remus is both capable and competent when he wants to be.

If then they had narrowed it down to a spy amongst the four of them, from Sirius perspective the spy is either Remus or Peter. We know Sirius thinks no one would ever suspect Peter of being the secret keeper. In the same way Sirus probably didn't think Peter was cunning enough to be the spy.

Remus wasn't suspected because he was a werewolf. He was suspected because Sirius respected him more and believed him capable of successfully spying. Especially when you combine that with Remus likely being out of contact a lot.

At least that was my reading of it?

hahaha yes i find that likely too. remus being sus bc hes competent i’d just funny. but it brings me right back to,,i don’t believe the others would think hr was the spy and not do anything about it 😭 at most, he’s just generally a little Off bc of those periods of non-contact. but i think i’m still leaning towards them not telling him for like. practicality. a combination of ‘we don’t think he’s 100% w us rn’ and ‘let’s keep this to the least possible no of people’ w a dash of ‘remus is anyway not here for it to make a big difference so no point in telling him’