#maybe it's just a sensory thing
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nostalgiaclown · 10 months ago
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Okay this is maybe a bit silly but I've always been a little insecure about my height and yes it's a fictional character don't @ me but I like knowing Emmrich is tall...
Proceeds to make my two Emmrich romance Rooks - one super short and one super tall
Anyway, I love my bean pole wife
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damienshaas · 3 months ago
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damien if you can hear me bring back the rings. please bring back the rings i know you don’t owe it to anyone but one crumb is all i ask. king your slay. you dropped your slay king
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lunnefisk · 4 months ago
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its hard being trans and liking going bark but having nothing to do with puppygirls. im not one of those its a convergent evolution thing put the collar down
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irradiatedpiratebooty · 3 days ago
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I never understood how 'liminal spaces' are scary to some folks
Because for me, those spaces are always so comforting and calm
I suppose when you're overwhelmed by visual and auditory noise, a space thats void of all of that while still being familiar is a breath of fresh air
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cornerstars · 20 days ago
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Teacher: *gives instructions*
Neurodivergent kid: *follows instructions in the way that they assumed teacher wanted*
Teacher: “that’s not what I meant. You should know better.”
Kid: “but I didn’t know”
Teacher: “if you didn’t understand the instructions you should’ve asked for help”
Teacher, later: *gives instructions*
Neurodivergent kid: *asks clarifying question to make sure they understand*
Teacher: “Why weren’t you paying attention the first time I explained it?” Or “Don’t argue with me.” Or “Stop being snarky. You know what I meant.” Or even “I’m done answering your questions. Go ask your friends for help instead.”
Kid: *asks friends for help*
Teacher: “stop talking during class!! That is so disrespectful.”
Kid: *stops asking for help and tries to just figure it out themselves*
Teacher: “you’re doing it wrong!! Why don’t you ever listen to my instructions? You are such a disrespectful child”
Moral of the story is please stop assuming disrespect when it comes the behavior of neurodivergent children. Most of the time we genuinely just Don’t Understand.
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gudakdalee · 2 months ago
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wait, does anyone know why mel is the only one ( i think) who doesn't wear scrubs?
i just realized she's wearing her grey tee and no scrub over it? (did i miss the reason in a behinds or interview?
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cetoddle · 1 month ago
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sometimes i watch other people interact and they’re just throwing insults back and forth at each other or constantly bickering and seem to be happy about it but i just can’t understand. i’ve done that before and it really didn’t feel great at least for me. i’d rather be friends with someone who makes me feel genuinely cared about and wanted. so i go out of my way to be genuine and do nice things for people. but somehow that’s wrong. and i just don’t understand
#and of course there is a difference between banter and just being mean#my coworker im becoming friends with i like#cause ive gotten comfortable enough with her that we kinda tease each other and banter#but if either of us says something that might possible be out of line we’re both able to step back and be like wait sorry maybe that was#too far#and if it is we respect that and if it’s not then like. now we know for the future!#it’s great!#and she has no problem pointing out the things she actually likes about me or telling me she likes getting to spend time with me#even if it’s at work#she called me pretty and tells me how smart she thinks i am all the time#and that she appreciates that she can confide in me about things and knows that i won’t go around telling everyone her business#and i tell her how pretty i think she is! and that she’s funny and i appreciate her patience with me when im cranky cause sensory issues#ive never had that kind of connection with anyone before so it is really nice#so i can’t imagine how other people are okay with being friends with people who constantly insult them#or who refuse to be genuine and tell them that they actually like them#i think my tolerance for that kind of thing has become very low over time#i’m really not interested in anyone who won’t be direct and communicate with me#if i do something to piss you off just tell me so i can make sure not to do it again#if i do something you really like then tell me so i know to keep doing it#it’s that easy! and very few people seem to think that way it’s exhausting#maybe it’s the autism i don’t know anymore#snow.txt
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icewindandboringhorror · 1 year ago
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sometimes looking at like Self Help Strategies lists for the symptoms I'm having is always just like:
thing that I already do
thing I have tried 10 times
thing I already do
thing that I don't have the money to do
thing I already do
thing I've been doing since I was 10yrs old to no avail
thing that is impossible given my situation
thing that doesn't apply to me
thing that I already do
thing I have already tried
hrmm, oh wait, maybe finally- OH, yeah.. okay. thing that I already do but it was just phrased slightly differently
thing I have already done
#I think maybe productivity tips help less if the reason you're unproductive is partially like.. physcial health and other extenral things#out of your control. rather than just like having trouble paying attention or spending too much time on tiktok or whatever#all the strategic to do lists in the world are not going to somehow prevent me from waking up with a debilitating migraine or whatever#or having external stressors or lacking resources and connections or other Productivity Essentials etc.#especially many tips involve stuff like 'cut off from social media' since thats the modern day time waster for so many poeple#and it's like.. lol.. i can hardly even maintain a blog even thuogh i actively WANT TO DO SO. 'shut off your smart phone!' already#done babey i fucking hate smart phones i shall never use an app unless i am forced to. 'delete tiktok' yep. already covered. tiktok and#all of those thinsg are my enemies. 'save money by cancelling some of your services' cool. already ahead of you.#who the fuck is out here paying for like 10 different subscription services. pirated videos uploaded to google drive and youtube to mp3#my beloved. etc. etc. and so on. 'socialize less' .........LOL.. if only you knew.. mr.writer of the article. i can barely muster#talking to friends more than once a month and even less if I'm actively sick (often occurence) etc. etc. ... hewoo#I think maybe instead of generic productivity tips I need more like.. how to refocus and be productive anyway even if you have a headache#or are nauseous or etc. Not that those are always things to ignore. and of course you should let your body rest and etc. But plenty of peop#e have mild physical symptoms and just work through them. Ithink something about the way my body/mind is SOO hyper attuned to all#sensory information just makes it like... constantly 'GRR well I cant focus on WRITING right now because my lef#t ear feels weird and my socks are too itchy and my back has a strange pressure and I'm vaguely warm and my eye feels some ssort of#way it doesnt normally feel and I'm hyperaware of my breathing and also nauseous for no reason' and like half of those things I#think '''normal''' people wouldnt even notice or at least would be able to just live through. but for me it's like.. nealry impossible to i#gnore and soooo distracting always. like 'wahh.. nooo we can't draw or get anything done.. my legs feel slightly heavy or something!!'#like............. ok......... who cares. thats not even a PAIN sensation it's just something weird. but it's just like.. NO. constant#mental alerts about the 'heaviness' of your legs be upon ye. Though Imean like.. yes.. 70% of the time I am in genuine pain#or having some sort of actual ailment with trackable physical symptoms. but sometimes it's just like... we could totally be working right#now and ignoring this silly thing but my brain is fixated on it for no reason uncontrollably. etc. etc. I guess it's the same way that like#most people can go to a grocery store without the whole experience being so overwhelming and so much stuff going on at once#that they have to rest afterwards but like.. in my own HOME doing NOTHING i feel like I should be able to not get overwhelmed lol. ANYWAY#Rolling my bastard little rock up a dumbass hill and so on and so forth
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steampunkhobo · 26 days ago
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I’m so confident that in “O Brother, Where Art Thou?” Everett has ADHD (impulsivity and lack of foresight/very “flying by the seat of his pants attitude”, rejection sensitivity- “so you’re against me now, too”-, easily caught up in novelty and excitement even when more pressing matters are at play, somewhat more “socially competent” and effective at masking than his other neurodivergent peers, but not enough to fit into neurotypical society, etc) and Pete is autistic (naturally behaves and communicates in a way that often comes off as cold or standoffish, unwilling to follow plans and instructions without understanding the reason behind it which often gets him labeled as stubborn- “who elected you leader of this outfit” is a valid question!-, very strong and personal-but perhaps arbitrary- sense of justice, has 1.5 total facial expressions, etc) which is part of what leads to them clashing as much as they do- it’s Delmar, who is AuDHD (extreme difficulty understanding social cues, unclear instructions, and sarcasm, limited awareness/understanding of what’s going on around him, hyper-empathetic- literally gets fixated on the feelings of a violent bank robber-, easily excitable- which is why he gets involved with the robbery-, often attracts ire and/or mockery just by existing, etc) who is able to bridge the divide between Pete and Everett…and keep them from strangling each other.
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wackywatchdotcom · 4 months ago
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woke up like 40 mins ago at like 4:30 unable to fall back alseep so im once again thinking about ragatha and pomni as The Ocd Havers. its everything to me. oh whoops i ran out of tags on this post
#i also saw a good post abt moral ocd followed by a wildly bad resoonse to it#like 10 mins after waking up#so im esp thinking abt ragatha moral ocd#i like giving them versions of ocd that are unpleasant and not cute and that people have a hard time even acknowledging as real forms of ocd#its probably me giving myself too much credit or holding myself to very silly idras but like#i wanna be able to depict the two or even just characters in general having ocd#in a way that could potentially help someone get a better idea of the different ways that ocd presents...#the amnt of ppl who responded to my ragatha ocd posts w 'wait i do this' is like its not necessarily GOOD to relate but also#i dont think all facets of ocd are well represented so its hard for people to figure that sorta thing out...#so in my heart im like maybe it could help to depict characters in a way i find cathartic and important bc then some ppl will Find Out#esp as someone who only even got diagnosed w ocd once it got bad enough that my therapist was concerned for my safety when i was like 18 ish#(true story... if youre thinking 'how could someone having ocd put their safety at risk'#research magical thinking ocd. andalso responsibility ocd and try connecting random dots and you might find it 👍#but also i think id need to add like 400 tws to this post if i actually elaborated)#point being. ragatha ocd and pomni ocd are dear concepts to me as someone with a very unfun version of ocd#ragathas themes to me are like. moral and responsibility. and yknow what maybe aprinkle in magical thinking too#pomnis themes to me are existential and sensory motor and a little bit of magical thinking too and harm ocd#i think they both would have other themes. after all ocd usually doesnt manifest as Just having a few themes and thats it#ppl usually have a Little Bit of most possible themes and then have some more prominently#and even then themes can shift over time...#i also think both of them have early onset ocd is good because i do too and i like it#ocd thats characterized by it worsening over time!!!!! thats them...#to me human younger pomni spent so much time with just right ocd compulsions#i also generally interpret pomni as having Some Sort Of Issues with anxiety or panic pre entering the circus already#so it relates to that . in my mind#and i do think the circus has made ragathas obsessions so much worse...#bit i think they did exist before the circus. just peobably got more extreme w trauma :(#bc the evil thing abt ocd is that it teams up w trauma. ypu WILL get obsessions related to trauma#ptsd already has unwelcome thoughts abt ur trauma as a component so ocd compounds it and gives you#fake new ways you come up with to ease the fear that if you dont do a compulsion itll Happen Again
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telesodalite · 7 months ago
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Woe, unfinished, mildly edited, fulfire fic tid-bits be upon you
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Like a magnet, his optics kept drifting back to Misfire's face. His stupid, strangely charming face.
For a short while, after Clemency, it had been that face that haunted some of his nightmares. His recalls blurring the lines between the strange reality of Misfire's hands reaching into him to lock his fuel pump back into the very spot he'd pulled it from, and the fear that just as easily he could pull it out again. They had been bloody dreams. Dreams that had him startling awake, gripping his chest in the vain attempt to close what wasn't open, before spending the rest of the day avoiding Misfire's optics.
But now things were different. Not Misfire's face. No, that hadn't changed much. But Fulcrum's dreams had definitely changed. To say the least of what all rolled around in his processor as he slept nowadays.
Some of those newer dreams had crept to the forefront of his mind as he sat there on the couch, staring as the lights of the screen reflected dully across Misfire's plating in hazy blues and greys.
The lighting made his colors seem muddy and faded, but Fulcrum didn't really care, nor did he care to think what it made himself look like. He was too busy bringing an empty engex can to his lips while he watched the crinkle of Misfire's nose as he barked a laugh at something Fulcrum didn't catch onscreen.
He'd started noticing it months ago, all the ways the silvery mesh of Misfire's face would scrunch up with his emotions. Those little crinkles along his optics and nose when he laughed or glared. The creases indented along his cheeks when he grinned. Fulcrum found himself quietly logging away these little details. Idle notes and observations that had suddenly started piling up in the corners of his processer.
He… He'd never really done that before? He'd never really noticed those sorts of things in other mechs.
The faces and expressions of his past colleagues never seemed terribly important. All the details of every smile and frown were never worth filing away, outside of few notable moments where those expressions reflected his work performance. But besides the smile that meant promotion, and the frown that meant he'd screwed up, nothing else was noticeable. Nothing was worth remembering.
But now the memory of every genuine laugh that bubbled out of Misfire sat comfortably besides memories of warm joyful optics that Fulcrum found himself collecting every time Crankcase cracked a rare half-smile for him, or when Krok placed a reassuring hand against his back, or the times Spinister spontaneously pointed out something odd but ultimately nice about his stupid frame.
He didn't really know why he was doing it, memorizing all these mundane little things, just to have them flit through his processer randomly. Maybe it was because those expressions, those details, felt… comforting? Comforting in such a strange and unfamiliar way. But, a good way. A good sort of strange, much like the mechs themselves.
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He had stared for a long moment, the credits and their rolling tune playing somewhere in the background as Fulcrum stared back. But Misfire was never one for personable silence, even as the sound of some likely long dead Iaconian orchestra filled the room.
"What is it?" He asked, a small chuckle escaping him as he brought a hand to his face, "Don't tell me I've poured it all over myself again."
It had taken Fulcrum longer than usual to unstick his glossa from the roof of his mouth as he watched Misfire run a thumb over his lips, but eventually he had coughed out a small, choked, "No."
That had earned him an odd look at first, but with their fields loose and open, Fulcrum could almost feel the exact moment something clicked in Misfire's mind, as the idle comfortable static he projected in pulsing waves evened out into something openly curious and almost subdued.
It wasn't often Fulcrum felt him that clearly.
Misfire tended to keep his field fairly close, though, maybe not as close as the others did, what with how Crankcase kept an iron grip on his, and how Krok's always held an air of strained control, even when it slipped from him. But still, Misfire's was always hard to read, no matter the reach or depth of his field.
Even then and there, with it loose and unfiltered and buzzing with the engex running through his system, there was an ever present undertone of something indescribably jumbled about him, like too many feelings at once, each too vast and hurried for Fulcrum to really feel or understand.
It always seemed to stir the passive anxiety Fulcrum must've been forged with when Misfire's field brushed against his own. As facing the indescribable vague mess of Misfire felt like trying to untangle a pile of live-wires he couldn't even see.
It was almost frustrating in a sense, the need to try and sort and understand what wasn't even his to begin with. But at the same time it was almost exciting as well. It was like a game, like a puzzle he had yet to solve.
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Finally letting his own can go tumbling to the floor to join Misfire's, Fulcrum had brought a hand to cover his face as he drew his legs up and leaned back against the arm of the couch, trying to suppress the fit as the sly look slipped from Misfire's face at the sounds.
While Fulcrum had laughed, and… snorted, embarrassingly, he had felt Misfire's field change again, brushing something fizzy and almost warm against his plating as Misfire's features softened.
"I'm looking at you," Fulcrum had said then between gulps of air, letting his hand fall from his face as he reached out to poke at Misfire's chest, "Dumbaft."
His finger had lingered over the thick plating there for maybe a little longer than necessary, drawing Misfire's attention as it slid down a little before pulling away.
Looking back up again with his helm angled slightly, Misfire had followed the sight of his hand leaving his plating to where Fulcrum let it fall between them.
"Wow…" Misfire had chuckled a little dryly, "I was gonna make it real easy for you. I was going to say something like, ''Do you like what you see?'' or-… or something like that. But now you've ruined it. Good job."
Meeting Fulcrum's optics again as he pulled his own hand back from Fulcrum's shoulder, he brought it to rest between them as well.
"And you're laughing at me," He said next, faking a small pout as his hand drifted closer to Fulcrum's, "Which totally ruins the whole vibe I was going for really. I mean, it's sort of hard to be all nice and suave-like when you're being laughed at. Total vibe killer. Bit of an ego killer too if I'm being honest. So thanks for that loser, thanks for saying I have a funny face."
With Misfire's fingers brushing distractingly past his own, Fulcrum didn't think before the words stumbled out of him.
"I like your face."
It came out almost matter of fact sounding, Fulcrum's laughter having died down while Misfire complained about it. But at the same time the words felt so simple, they came out so easily, and in a weird way they felt nice to say. But Misfire's optics had widened in surprise, his frame frozen and his field suddenly struck quiet, and despite the engex numbing his usual nerves, Fulcrum felt a sudden pang of anxiety because of it.
The silence in Misfire's field was terribly alien. It felt wrong, and something in Fulcrum spiraled to think he had caused it. But slowly, almost as if it were creeping forward, an odd almost scrutinizing uncertainty fanned outward in a careful wave. Misfire moved with it, leaning closer as he searched Fulcrum's expression for something.
"Oh yeah?" He'd said lowly then, and that sly look returned. But that vague uncertainty didn't fade with it, if anything, Fulcrum felt it strengthen. Caught between what he saw, in Misfire's easy smile and dimmed optics, and what he felt, in the growing hollow distance within their fields, Fulcrum found himself frowning and pulling back.
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Growing frustrated with himself, and wanting that feeling back, he had pushed forward, shifting onto his knees as he reached for Misfire's face before the other could pull away from him entirely.
"I like your face." He said firmly, maybe too firmly. His expression still drawn into a frown as he pressed his fingers into Misfire's helm, brushing his thumbs across the silver mesh he'd been staring so intently at before. "I like your optics, and your nose. I- I like the way you smile. When you really smile, and when you laugh. I do. I'm not lying."
And oh there it was again, that little curl of warmth in Misfire's field. Almost a tangible thing, like a brush of ventilation, but Misfire wasn't venting. His mouth hung open ever so slightly, but no breath left him as he stared at Fulcrum with widening optics.
Spurred on by that tiny bloom of warmth, Fulcrum chased after it with slightly slurred words and clumsy hands as he tried to fix whatever he'd done wrong, hoping with each word that Misfire might soften and smile again.
"I like your expressions, and- and I like your voice," He said, glancing down at Misfire's parted lips, and laughing softly, nervously, as he continued, "Even when you say something so stupid. I like- I like the way it sounds. I like your accent, I like the way it makes your words sound. I- I like your- your mouth?"
Once more that weird but nice feeling settled in Fulcrum's chest. Those simple words felt good to say. It felt like a weight off his shoulders, like an admission he'd been waiting to say. About what and why? He wasn't really sure. But the warmth grew, and Misfire took a sharp vent inwards, and that felt right, so Fulcrum kept on.
"I like your helm," He said with a smile, reaching up to brush his fingers over the jutting finials there, before dropping his hands to settle lightly over Misfire's chest. "I like your frame, the colors of it. I like your-"
Before he could finish, Misfire was surging forward, knocking their helms together and nearly bruising the mesh of their noses as he tried for, and just barely missed, Fulcrum's lips.
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#just gonna go ahead and share this before i think too hard about it and chicken out lol#idk. this has been sitting unfinished for a while now. but i'm fond of it and keep going back to re-read it. so?? yeah. idk#maybe i'll get around to finishing it. i like writing out all the like. sensory stuff with this. lots of neat stuff to try with em fields#also fulc being a very earnest drunk lol. and mis trying to be all casual and smooth despite balking in the face of it bcs he's a hot mess#i dunno. i think the og idea behind this was kinda turning the reassurance around to mis. just sorta breaking him down with nice words#fulc is usually on the receiving end of comfort and reassurance. not always. but enough so that it had me thinking bout it other ways round#idk. ultimately its like. just slapping mis with a mild praise kink and seeing what happens when fulc just says nice things to him#the bar is so low for them. fulc is like 'i like your face' with conviction and mis is half-way to keeling over bcs. damn. he needed that#my fav flavor of this is just them approaching romance from two drastically different angles. not on the same page. different books lol#mis plays it all like a surface level game. he's just trying to keep things light and airy. but fulc is going right for the kill#also hitting fulc with the demi romantic/sexual beam adds another fun layer to it all-#-this isnt his playing field. but he's sure as hell winning without really knowing why#ok. i've been up for way too long. was on sick dog duty overnight. its like 8am now and i haven't slept a wink lol#so if there's errors or smth sounds off. idk. pretend you didn't see it. ill fix it later. or i wont. idk. toodles <333#(also this is barely the tip of the iceberg fic wise. depending on how i feel bout this after a nap? might share bits of the big ghost fic-#(-cause that ones at like. 24k-ish now??? and thats only the 1st chap and half of the 2nd. its the fulc sees ghosts concept on steroids)#fulfire#my writing
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stimboardboy · 1 year ago
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nerd-aleart · 2 years ago
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My second favorite thing about the Netflix Daredevil series brand of fan fiction is that he has the saddest wettest eyes. Pathetic touch-starved wounded duck.
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yellow-yarrow · 4 months ago
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Sometimes I'm like I might be autistic but I don't want to get a diagnosis anyway so idc about that right now
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conanssummerchild · 1 year ago
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genuine question here, why do ppl headcannon morty as autistic? like idk if its just bcs i cant relate personally to him in that way but like i just dont see it and im genuinely curious, im always open to more autistic characters lmao
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i-have-no-braincells · 10 months ago
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i feel like a lot of people don’t understand that there’s a time and place for your opinions. anyone can have opinions, it’s part of being human, but that doesn’t mean you get to voice those opinions whenever you want. one example i can think of is people publicly voicing their opinions about certain foods. sure you might think that overly sweet coffees are gross, or plain food isn’t good (etc etc), but there are people who like those things. just because you have an opinion about something, or a preference, does not give you the right to be an asshole and make people feel bad about their own opinions and preferences.
going out of your way to point out that you don’t like something to someone who does just reads as asshole behavior. and i’m talking about instances where someone will go above and beyond to make sure that you know that they absolutely dislike and hate the thing that you mentioned liking. even in situations where you don’t necessarily know if someone you’re speaking to is a fan of something or not, i really don’t see a reason to immediately start hating on something unless you’re close to a person and know what they like and dislike.
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