#maybe review the draft for 18 that I have started...

[arvandus]

Thinking about Dabi and Touch again this fine evening...

[girlfriendsofthegalaxy]

tuesday again 2/18/2025

much like phil, i feel like i cannot quite ever get physically comfy this week. something is always not quite right.

listening: god save the queens by vienna vienna

reading: love's harvest by peggy j herring

watching: cinderella

playing: pokemon

making: return of the baby blanket

listening

im going to start out a little bit mean and say that this self-described glimmer rock song, God Save The Queens by Vienna Vienna, really shone in the ten-second social media clips i saw of its live version. the actual studio version sucks so much. and even the full version of the live version, i want it to me slightly different but in a way i cannot articulate. i am excited to see if other people start covering this in fun ways and maybe it'll be the rare song where i like the cover much more than the original.

I saw a man out in Hollywood He carried a sign that said he hated me I said, "Please, get in line" He stopped to ask me a question He said, "Do you know Christ?" I told him, "Maybe I do, does she work the nights?" He said, "No, I mean Jesus" I said, "That guy was tight But I'm not living in a city built upon your lies" He tried to save me, but somebody already did last night They said their name was Alex, baby, and they showed me the light

like here's the studio version. give us nothing i guess??? i think if you are going to sell merch with GOD SAVE THE F*GS censored out maybe you should say that in the studio version of your song. this is probably a label decision but i want this song to be about 15% less corporate sponsor of a pride parade than it is. i feel like this song got heavily edited from a first draft and i would have liked to hear that probably much angrier first draft. hell of a hook though.

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reading

this gay and/or lesbian romance and/or erotica project is turning into a little bit of a slog, so with the gentle encouragement of @sybilius going "what if you read good books you enjoyed?" going forward we are going to try a novel of dubious quality from my shelf and an acclaimed queer novel from history in the hopes that one of them will be tolerable. so next week we have the dubious pairing of a mob girlfriend in WITSEC romantic thriller from my shelf, and Fried Green Tomatoes At The Whistle Stop Cafe has just come off hold.

last week's assigned book was Heart on Fire, which was supposed to be even!! better!!! than Naiad Press's previous bestseller Curious Wine by Katherine V Forrest. so of course we had to detour to Curious Wine, which had a very short hold time.

reader, i did not finish this book. seven (7!) different women are introduced in the first chapter with almost no physical or clothing descriptions. they are all extremely mean to each other in the way older women who are dissatisfied with their life often sabotage all their relationships. i didn't have it in me to make a cheat card for myself with who the fuck each woman was, bc i expected somewhat lighter going in a contemporary romance with no extra genres tacked on top.

i am glad i did not continue bc while reading reviews everyone mentioned the Graphic On-Page Sexual Assault??? and this is still somehow every older lesbian's favorite book??? truly the times have changed.

Deep in the heart of France's majestic wine country, the sun drenched hills and lush vineyards of the Jeton family estate seem like the perfect setting for a passionate affaire de Coeur. But the life of workaholic winemaster, Nicole Jeton, is anything but romantic. From one harvest to the next, she runs the world-renowned winery, cares for her invalid father, and bails her no-good brother out of trouble—never stopping long enough to consider her own needs and desires. Until she meets the lovely Camille Cartier...

thank you girls. Love's Harvest by Peggy J Herring is one of the books acquired by Bella when they bought out part of Naiad Press. originally published in 1997, this 156p book was reprinted in 2007 with no additional changes or author's notes. it is the same quality as all the Bella reprints: a kind of terrible to hold perfect-bound softcover. i am beginning to suspect i simply do not vibe with the naiad and/or bella publishing market. i may not be their intended reader. im not really sure who their intended reader is, except maybe the 1997/2007 version of people who patiently comb through self-published kindle ebooks? what is the point of having a physical press and an editor if you can't make the line breaks and the quotation marks correct?

i couldn't find out much about Herring except that she died last summer and was part of her own tuesdaypost endeavor:

To further enhance communication within the women's community, [WomanSpace San Antonio] newsletter staff initiated a regular event known as Tuesday Night for discussing topics affecting women's lives. Topics ranging from real estate law to rape/incest were prepared for each Tuesday session. As ties to related community resources and events increased, the Tuesday Night events were superseded in 1995 by other events and meetings for the lesbian and gay community.

i did not like this book. such a wild amount of somewhat disjointed events take place during this novel and i really wish it was good. there is a for-real ghost, her great aunt killed by her grandfather and everyone just kind of shrugged about it??? that can dramatically interact with physical objects and STOPS A MURDER??? people are so calm about this ghost as a daily fact of life when there is exorcist level shit going on in the foreground. nicole has to cancel one of their weekend getaways bc the ghost is simply too on one and she can't figure out how to explain the ghost to camille, a presumably more normal outsider who presumably did not grow up with a ghost. the ghost is not the focal point of this book but it is by far the most interesting thing in the book.

this book felt like a barely fleshed outline. they go here. they do this. they see that. here is a great example of a section where i would have loved more elaboration in literally every sentence. the build up to this call and the call itself could have been a full chapter instead of half a page.

the least amount of dialogue i have maybe ever read in a book, and even fewer thoughts or feelings or interiority. the sex scenes read like stage direction. which is crazy bc they start fucking on page 42 and keep fucking every time they meet. they do NOT waste any time which was really refreshing. if only it was hot.

things mostly seem to happen to vineyard owner nicole— taking care of her dad (who dies quite early in the book) and the vineyard, her brother randomly shows up instead of her summoning him back to get some emotional closure (he doesn’t even show up for their father’s funeral), her gay bestie summons camille back after the third act breakup instead of nicole doing any emotional work and reaching out herself. everyone has at maximum one thing going on at a time that is neatly wrapped up before the next thing happens.

i think the 3.3 on goodreads is overly kind, but people seem to really love her other books so what do i know. maybe all these books ended up at the thrift bc their original owner was unlucky enough to somehow pick the worst book from each author and had to unload them.

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watching

Cinderella (1950, dir. Geronimi, Jackson, and Luske) was on in the background while i was wrangling my bestie's children. probably the least scary (if you are not quite six or not quite two) disney princess movie. the bubble sequence makes me insane in a good way. i think this sort of thing is so easily replicated digitally that it looks unimpressive in 2025 but this shit is 75 years old!!! we were nineteen years away from landing on the fucking moon with a computer outpaced by my current microwave!!!

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playing

having a real brain time with pokemon. i was gently bullied into playing the app two weeks ago by my best friend's husband after trying and failing multiple times to get into the actual video games, but after getting the 45 wins i needed to get the fanciest current event emblem i went ok great! i won pokemon! i am done with pokemon! and have sort of mentally checked it off in my head. anyway i loved my murkrow/toxicroak combo. loved to flip a coin. loved my darkness deck apparently.

the deck autobuild feature is really great bc i am able to basically hold my own while knowing nothing about pokemon other that what ive culturally osmosed. im assuming this is a pretty fun app if you like this sort of thing and your brain chemicals are balanced without outside assistance.

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making

the baby i started this mint green baby blanket for is about to turn two in a couple weeks. better late than absolutely never i guess. my original notes called for 10 repeats but i think we're going to up that to 12, just finished the ninth repeat.

[lovelymessybubbly]

helloooo my amazing tamadachi !!!! ☆*:.｡.o(≧▽≦)o.｡.:*☆ it has been a while hasn’t it ??? i hope everyone is doing well. i am refreshed and eager to get back to sharing my art with you all as well as creating content for you !!! ˚‧*♡ॢ˃̶̤̀◡˂̶̤́♡ॢ*‧˚

there are a couple changes that i would like to make apparent to everyone; some of these are just for while i am getting back into things, and others are for the foreseeable future.

first off… i know i have always labelled my blog as a sfw place. i am revoking that title but i am NOT planning to release any nsfw content. i just do not want anyone getting the wrong ideas (ෆ ͒•∘̬• ͒)◞ i like tickling in a variety of ways and i kind of want to steer away from policing what i create. obviously some of my art is quite intimately-driven so i do not want to have to water down any of that stuff, since, well, it is what i like lol (∗ᵕ̴᷄◡ᵕ̴᷅∗)՞ not to mention, i am an adult. i curse, talk about sex and drugs sometimes. so i do not want anyone getting surprised by that thinking “sfw” meant it would be completely clean. but i also frequently get in the mood for light and fluffy tickling too, so… i just do not want to put any walls around my blog. if you enjoy tickling in any way shape or form, i want to welcome you here (*˙︶˙*)☆*°

i have a pretty strong grasp on my ability to maintain parasocial relationships with a good level of distance, so i am not adding any interaction limits or dni. if i am uncomfortable speaking with you i will let you know ┐(´∇｀)┌ otherwise, if you wanna chat and you are under 18, that is fine. just please be aware of the underlying circumstances and exercise caution. like i said before, i am an adult. i have no qualms interacting with the younger ones here because i have no interest in engaging with inappropriate topics or activities with them, so i know i am not gonna be a danger. but if my age makes YOU uncomfortable, then you are gonna have to make that call.

tags are also already pretty well divided and filtered at this point but i may make a couple changes and update them on my pinned post.

basically, tags are going to be your way of safely interaction with my blog. if you want to keep the more sensual or intense stuff out of your feed, please make sure you have reviewed my list of tags and have applicable ones blocked ♫꒰･‿･๑꒱

secondly !!

i will be a little less interactive as i ease back into it; so prob answering less asks, dms may be responded to at a slow rate (๑ˊȫॢˋ)॰∘☼ as well, content will not be pumped out like maybe it was before lol. but just give me some time to get back into the swing of things, kay ???

i have a bunch of drafts saved and i cannot wait to start reblogging all the amazing art and fics you all have been makingヽ(o^―^o)ﾉ requests and commissions are still closed for now but please feel free to drop in and say hi.

to the ticklish times ahead !!! ｀;:゛;｀;･(゜ε゜ )

[titleleaf]

17, 18, and 29 for the fic asks pls 😘

17: talk about your writing and editing process

I write out of order, which causes me no end of trouble but I can't seem to shake it. (Like, if I'm writing five scenes, A-B-C-D-E, I'll write D first, then keep going to E, then look back and write C, then go further back and fill in A and B.) It feels almost redundant to say I'm a pantser and not a plotter given how short my works tend to be, but when I'm working on something that's looking to be upwards of 5k (or longer than a single scene) I do generally work with an outline to make sure all the right parts end up on the page. I edit while I write, then go through and review all instances of placeholder marks (for me, left-hand square brackets, like [this) to confirm/replace/investigate whatever they flag, then do a final pass or two or three before posting. I sometimes work with a beta, but I have a hard time overcoming my anxiety around that kind of pre-publication feedback, so it's something I want to work on doing more often in 2025.

18: if you keep them, share a deleted sentence or paragraph from a published fic

I very seldom keep deleted stuff unless it's a large chunk of text that's getting in the way for editing/flow reasons. I usually extract it and set it aside to figure out if it can fit in someplace else, or if I'm just being precious about an image or a phrase or something and need to cut it entirely. (When I went looking for old fic drafts where I cut sections I just ended up finding a bunch of mostly-finished fics I haven't even posted yet, which, oops, I am going to remedy as soon as I can.)

I did just find this for "like wolves and little girls" (AMC IWTV, Santiago/Claudia noncon, heed the tags):

It still feels creepy, talking to somebody without moving your lips, never knowing exactly when they're going to answer. Her diary only listens; a vampire can talk back.

Not sure why I cut it or where it was cut from in the fic, but it was there. I originally started writing the whole fic from Santiago's POV before scrapping it, so there's a bunch of cut lines from his POV in here too, mostly descriptions but I guess some dialogue.

"Do you remember, Claudia?" Pitching his voice to a sonorous growl, an evocation of the orator: "The Dark Gifts must never be given to the crippled… the maimed…or to children." "Is that what I am? Is that it? Back when Armand got made, I'd have been married with two kids. I'm not a baby." "What are you, Claudia? A girl, a woman, both, neither? Nothing at all."

29 how easy is it for you to come up with titles?

Not very. I used to have a junk-drawer document full of snippets of stuff I wanted to use for titles, or picked out as potential title material in the future, but I haven't done that in a long time, maybe I should get back on that.

[ghostofasecretary]

[placeholder, to be filled with more goals later] list

Monday plots:

- (Mon) call that one guy and see if you can become a New Patient (i hate everything) (i don't WANNA) (i do want reliable access to meds 2k25 so. UGH. FINE. GOD) (find office phone number, that's step number 1)

- (Mon) update finances spreadsheet

- (Mon) write cards MONDAY? correspondence, something like "Dear [Name], Happy New Year! I hope you had a peaceful and restful holiday season, and I hope 2025 brings you exciting opportunities and joy. All best, Ghost" is fine

- (Mon) walk cards to post office; also check in re: the fucking "locker" (9400 140 2023 71 001 476 469) (got follow up step for later)

- (Mon) rinse off, shampoo hair

- okay. well. The Guy does not exist (or at least i could not find them) so i'm back to finding a new guy. have a list. gotta decide if i want a psych or pcp; if i trusted the pcp i could theoretically knock out my pap smear with them but this would require me to trust the pcp, so. that seems. unlikely. i trust psychs more than normal doctors for whatever reason. so maybe go with the psychs? but also my last visit with my pcp was March so i WILL run out of refills from that guy in the next three months and DO need a pcp. uuuuuuuuugh. let's...call that pcp office and check c 1pm. next available isn't till mid July! try another guy

- (Mon) make pumpkin bread to share with fremb

- (Mon) sort out Polluted Yarn

- (Mon) hang with J Monday afternoon (2ish) <- solidify plans, send text (done Sat night, Sun morning)

- (Mon) get that jump ring measurement to J for 3d printing so you can fix that cami

- (Mon) what am i gonna make Monday to eat Tues/maybe Wends for work lunch. tofu curry! yum! nice

- (Mon) eat leftover dal + broccoli

- do limited amount of lesson planning. like. more than zero not more than two

- nutrition spreadsheet

food:

- (1/13? 1/14?) use up last two bananas

- make pumpkin seed granola to give yourself more snacky foods

- (try granola bars with dates????)

- (Sun 19) wash blue shirt

(Sun 19) wash clothes:

- (Sun 19) wash misc clothing

- (Sun 19) wash gold sweater

- (Sun 19) wash another sweater

med quest:

- call hospital pharmacies re: med availability

- see about dental etc care here

- call lgbt friendly pcp providers

""Ghost's academic life:""

- poetry (1) type edits to t1, 2) type edits to t2, 3) type draft of M, 4) work on M and/or R (1/10/25), 5) do new smooth English translation (your fav song, that one) + send, 6) set + confirm meeting time)

- new poems! yay!!

- uh. class on Friday??? fuck my lifeeeeeeeeee (or let me rework my priorities)

- i really need to like. do a general Arabic grammar review

- and get back into Anki for Persian

mending:

- coral house skirt mending

- pj pant hem maintenance (coral hole, grey hem)

- preventative-ish darning/reinforcement of every canvas bag you own

- (Sun 19) repair main slip

- hem blue pants so you can actually wear them

- sew strap covers onto green dress

dreams:

- haircut nice for Ghost brain good of long Ghost neck

- could i grow herbs in my room? cilantro (and maybe mint, if controllable, which. it's mint) would be ideal

(Sat 18) plant green onion sprouts

- any free performances in my area? try to go See More Live Art

- give yourself more knitting time

list items 1/2/24 in blue

outfits 2024

outfit spreadsheet?? meh

meal plan for Being Cheap

free grocery store

make list of food banks to explore

1/7/25 list leftovers in purple

"contact" "people" for your ""career""

sort papers for real and not just for fake

make a scarf for A with the other yarn?

bonus Arabic reading practice (prolly not gonna happen)

list items 1/12/25 in black

done list (min. 1 day ago):

- (Fri) change sheets + wash sheets & apron

- (Sat) game with friends

- (Sat) 2025 Calendar

- (Sat) start yogurt making (finish tomorrow (Sun) 7:45am)

- (Sat) roast squash seeds

- (Sat) make banana bread with 3/5 bananas

- (Sat) turn mint skein into a yarn ball

- (Sat) call M

- (Sat) refill meds for the week

- (Sun) job paperwork

- (Sun) request anticonvulsants from doc

- (Sun) clean toilet, bathtub

- (Sun) attempt once again to destain/deep clean bathroom walls and floor boards

- (Sun) repair coat pockets

- (Sun) repair coat lining hem

- (Sun) groceries (stay under $30! thoughts: i would love peanuts and dried apricots but. strugglier items for budget, so select produce (+ milk?) first. sweet potato!! more broccoli/leafy greens. carrots and onions in bags if available. tomatoes, obvs. good on ginger for the next week. could buy an onion bag to cut up + freeze some extras for future use, which could save on future bills. also remember food pantries Are An Option To Explore) (well. got apricots and peanuts AND paper towels which took me over $30 but once my roommates pay me back for their share it should only be over by, like, 4 cents)

- (Sun) help roommate out a minimal amount. or for. two hours, of course i took two hours, fuck me

- (Sun) TIMECARD

- (Sun) MAINTENANCE REQUEST FOR BEEPING. GAH. text housemate for advice (Sat) it's on the rent portal, cool, you can do this

- (Sun) CANCEL OBGYN APPT (call tomorrow even tho closed b/c insurance bs)

- (Sun) make tofu + broccoli with peanut sauce. or spiced broccoli + tofu curry? need to use broccoli first and also eat spinach soon. or just cook broccoli! fine!

- (Sun) see what MS texted (re: med advice?)

- (Sun) ask group chat for rubbing alcohol/hairspray/acetone to try on coral skirt marker stains!! (also J + A) (can you borrow from someone)

- (Sun) wash another slip

- (Sun) leisure items: knit, drink tea, finish Jenny Nicholson video, new Cult Flav, check out some cookbooks to browse

[transformers-bold-bright-brisk]

[INTRODUCTION]

WELCOME TO TRANSFORMERS: BOLD BRIGHT BRISK!

So, since I was super indecisive about which side-plot I wanted to focus on the most, I just made two extra. Yes, all three sideplot story stuff will be posted on this blog.

They all coincide with each other in some way, some events will happen before one sideplot’s events, and others will happen after one other sideplot’s events, so on and so forth.

[TF Media Referenced]

- Rescue Bots Academy

- Rescue Bots

- Transformers Prime

- Robots In Disguise

- Cyberverse

- Last Bot Standing

- More Than Meets The Eye

- Lost Light

- Literally any other miscellaneous information I find on TF Wiki that I insert to fill a couple plot-holes, but aren’t significant enough for me to completely take inspiration from that specific medium

[Overview]

- The war was over between Autobots and Decepticons, and afterwards it was a big celebration while the rebuilding of Cybertron took place. Years after the reconstruction of Cybertron, and it’s newly revised government, there are now many more individual situations that have arisen from the aftermath.

[Asks]

1) Can Accept ✅

- Asks about the lore and characters are very much appreciated!

- I’m also open to do some small sketch requests that pertain to the characters in my Fan Continuity, and characters that are in it but aren’t explicitly mentioned.

- I might answer a few questions with a doodle if I really feel like it, but rest assured I won’t be able to do all of them.

- Oh, don’t worry if your ask sounds a bit “spoilery” I’ll let you know.

2) Won’t Accept ❌

- Sorry, this blog isn’t for role playing with the characters.

- Also any asks that have links to anything without a description or just look sketchy in general, your ask will get deleted.

- Absolutely under no circumstances will I answer any creepy asks like NSFW or anything 18+, it’s just gross to me.

- No bigotry, racism, sexism, or any kind of LGBTQIA+phobia at all in my ask box.

[Tagging]

#sphny speaks (𖦹<𖦹)•*°⊹

- Any and all rambles, reviews, drabbles, or small updates to keep people informed of any “delays” or just small brain farts that happen throughout my day.

#sphny alternates universe (𖦹ㅁ𖦹)•*°⊹

- Whenever I just start to ramble and just start grabbing random info from other TF franchise continuities and alternate them into my universe without a second thought(or many thoughts, depending…)

#sphny arts (𖦹w𖦹)•*°⊹

- Any and all art I make and post, whether it’d be just a draft, concept art, or art dumps that I draw to support my stories.

#sphny reblogs (𖦹Q𖦹)•*°⊹

- On this blog especially, I would usually reblog something from my main, or just self-reblog from my early works, and maybe occasionally something neat I would to add to my blog later on so I don’t forget.

#sphny answers (𖦹0 𖦹)•*°⊹

- Along with asks, I’ll be tagging anything I’ve answered under this tag, just for consistency’s sake.

#sphny originates character (𖦹▿𖦹)•*°⊹

- This rarely ever happens, but on occasion if I were to make an original character I’d make sure to tag it under this so I can be able to track it down easier.

[aurorawest]

✨ Fic Writing Review 2023 ✨

@lowkeyed1 tagged me - thank you!!

Words and Fics

156,927 published words on AO3

3 fandoms represented (MCU, The Watchmaker of Filigree Street, Some Desperate Glory)

most recent drop: chapter 18 of The General Mess and Imprecision of Feeling

4 published one-shots

1 ongoing WIP on AO3 (The General Mess and Imprecision of Feeling)

5 original works: 2 novels (first drafts at 130k and 89k), 2 novellas (18k and 15k), 1 short story (6k)

1 original novel WIP (currently 16.5k) and notes for several others

Top Fics by Kudos

The General Mess and Imprecision of Feeling

Life on Earth

Unready

Set in Motion

far away from here and closer to somewhere else

My fandom fic events in 2023

nada, though I did post a very late fic for the 2022 @lokirarepairbigbang

Upcoming Events and Projects for 2024

Complete posting for The General Mess and Imprecision of Feeling

Post the myriad other unposted MCU fics sitting around on my computer (including A Professional Arrangement)

Maybe finish that Captive Prince fic I started?

Finish current novel WIP

Probably finish another novel from my ideas board. tbd which one. 'Zach and the Pharaoh Who Boned Men' is a strong contender.

Write sequel to When We Finally Kiss Good Night and hopefully get it published

Write my other MTH 2021 fic (very aspirational)

Rules & Tags below the cut!

Rules: Feel free to show whatever stats you have. Only want to show Ao3 stats? Rock on. Want to include some quantitative info instead of stats? Please do this. Want to change how yours is presented? Absolutely do that. Would rather eat glass than do this? Please don’t eat glass but don’t feel like you have to do this either.

Tags: @mareebird @bereft-of-frogs @nostalgia-tblr @ankeschoenle @rosieposiepuddingnpie @bedlamsbard @thegirlwholied @thot-son-of-odin @franniebanana @thelightofthingshopedfor

[paulmescalsnose]

thank you for tagging me, @onehelluvamarine 🩵

A band you don’t like that many others do: I cannot think of any bands right now but there are so many solo artists like the entirety of the current Top 20 Billboard Hot 100, I do not keep up with new music in any way.

A childhood memory that you remember vividly: riding a scooter down the front steps at my grandmother’s house for some reason.

Least favorite animal and why: gonna say it and be honest and take the hate, dogs. I think there are some nice individual dogs but overall I find them loud, annoying, messy, too needy, too disruptive. I refuse to ever live with one. I do have a phobia of another animal I won’t say because I don’t want people to send me pictures of it lol so I probably hate them more but I encounter dogs more so they’re on my nerves more often.

Hot fandom take: Aragorn is not THAT hot. there were hotter guys in those movies.

Do you wear any jewelry, if so, what’s your favorite piece: I don’t. I wish I did! I have a nice ring and a nice necklace but I don’t really wear them. I wish I had a like, a signature piece or something.

A movie others liked but you didn’t: recently, which I know I’ve mentioned, Past Lives is so well-reviewed and god I just really hated it, I’m sorry but I did.

Three things you love about yourself: I was once bold enough to sing Let No Man Steal Your Thyme a cappella in front of a group of strangers at a hostel. I once took an 18-hour bus ride just to see a movie (and then another 18-hours back). I’ve read all the Hercule Poirot books.

A place you hope to visit in the future and why: Wales. I think it just looks lovely. I was supposed to do a semester abroad there once but couldn’t swing it financially. I’ve been to England, Scotland, and Northern Ireland so I’ve got to go to Wales. I wrote a story that is set so much there! I need to see it for myself.

An actor that gets on your nerves and why: RDJ because he made terrible comments about Alejandro González Iñárritu, he defends the worst Chris, and he’s going to win an undeserved Oscar this year.

Things you’re excited for in the nearby future? I’m almost done the first draft of a novel/story I’m working on, so I am excited so have a first draft and then I’m excited to start the second draft.

Least favorite ship in a fandom you’re in: I never shipped Ted/Rebecca from Ted Lasso, never once even for a second.

What’s the most toxic fandom you’ve been in? I never wrote in it, just read and observed, but The Old Guard by far by faaaaaaaaar.

List three things you find beautiful about life: my nephew’s wavy red hair, when a cat comes over to you for pets, and watching someone hit a home run.

Any dreams for the future? I’d like to see my favourite football club, Man City, play live someday. I doubt I’ll get to Manchester maybe ever, but they’ll be playing in the US soon-ish so it will probably be a lot easier to see them there.

How are you really feeling today? I genuinely struggle with life every day. I wish it was in a cool way that made me stronger on the other side but it’s not. today was okay because I got to talk to a coworker I like (I WFH so I don’t talk to people a lot) and I went to the cinema that has the best popcorn in the world but I also am never actually happy and am always lonely which is a tiring existence.

[crimson-amarone]

Hiiii! For the fic asks, 1, 11, 12, and 30! :3

1) I’ll give you two from The Ticket to Tomorrow. Last sentence for the most recent chapter posted: (Chapter 18) If Vash wasn’t mistaken, it sounded like the hero merely said, “I'm Superman.”

And last sentence from the draft of the chapter I’m up to now: (Chapter 28) “Anyway, what’d we miss?” Lois asked, specifically looking toward Luida and not Jimmy.

11) I’m hoping one day if I get the DCMK (Detective Conan/Magic Kaito) bug biting again, I’ll finish The Mystery of the Meitantei. https://m.fanfiction.net/s/9460809/1/Mystery-of-the-Meitantei

It follows Shinichi after the downfall of the Black Organization and his rebuilding relationships with family and friends, especially the Detective Boys. Will he tell the DBs his secret or will the kids uncover the mystery all on their own?

I posted 5 chapters, totally just under 50k words. I of course left it on a cliffhanger and I still get a couple reviews and followers every year, so I have some motivation to finish it.

12) This one, I think you’ll like Squid. ;)

It’s obviously an oversimplification but the “small but strong woman” trope.

I love both Meryl Stryfe and Lois Lane. While Meryl only has the 3 adaptations, Lois’s evolution since 1938 has paved the path for complex female characters.

Lois has always had a ton of flaws, but damn if she isn’t powerful in her own right in a universes full of superhero’s. In MAWS we see her struggle with insecurities but is oozing with ambition and an insatiable desire to uncover any and all injustices throughout the city. She is determined to become a star reporter and has already had growth in such a short timeframe. She’s only going up from here. Plus, we’ll be seeing her (and Clark and Jimmy AND maybe Kara) in exactly a week!!!

There’s no doubt in my mind that the newest versions of Meryl and Lois were inspired by each other. Nightow is a huge western comics fan and it’s no coincidence Meryl is now a newspaper reporter. But of course, Meryl is still her own person. In TriStamp, she is still very young and naive but she similar plows in stating her passion is in humanitarianism and isn’t afraid to head out into the frontier, chasing outlaws. She’s not dumb though, she is quick to learn and knows there’s a bigger picture to the story than just a puff piece. There is a contrast between TriMax and TriStamp Meryl, but we are still only seeing her potential. By the second half of the season, she stands her ground, refusing to back down and run away. Just the small clip after ep 12 title card, we get a sneak peak of the iconic Derringer Meryl. I can’t wait to see her again in S2.

30) TBH, I only have the two fics!! 😅😅😅 So I’ll have to plug The Ticket to Tomorrow. It’s my Trigun Stampede x My Adventures with Superman crossover. It’s a longfic/epic with Multi-POV. Think of it almost as an epic fantasy or sci-fic. There’s action, adventure, humor, angst, fluff and more.

The idea for a crossover was rolling around in my head for a few months before I finally typed out my outline. I’ve started getting back into fandom and writing groups to keep me motivated. Definitely recommend both series!

[blazehedgehog]

Hey Blaze! I am curious to know, is that Sonic Forces video still in the cards, or did it sort of roll over as the "general criticism" of Sonic that you mentioned it being into the Frontiers video?

Hm. A little of both.

I think I mentioned this on patreon a few times, but the general roadmap of what happened was:

Sonic Forces and Sonic Mania came out in 2017 while I was moving 1000+ miles and two states to where I currently live. I was unable to do videos about either game until April of 2018.

I did the Sonic Mania video first, and as I was finishing up, Sonic Mania Plus was announced.

So I did a video about Sonic Mania Plus, too.

This put me 1+ year out from making a timely Sonic Forces review. I started writing a script, but did not finish it, and as time went on, it started to feel weird.

I rolled some of that Sonic Forces review into another essay I had started before I moved. This was a written essay I'd planned on pitching to Waypoint back when they were taking open submissions, but I started to second guess whether I should let my freak flag fly like that.

Rolling Sonic Forces into that essay, I tried to restructure it into a video that would serve as something on the scale of "How Do We Fix Sonic?" It wasn't necessarily about Sonic Forces, but Forces would be a specific point I'd come back to, interwoven talking about other Sonic games along the way.

The other reason I never finished it for Waypoint is I kind of lost the thread while writing. Restructuring it into a video, it happened again.

And again. And again. I re-started writing the script 2 or 3 times, because I'd get lost deep in tangents and would feel like nobody'd understand where I was coming from anymore. The scope of the video was starting to feel a little too big.

Out of the blue I got an idea to restructure the video, which was to break it down into chapters. I could treat each individual chapter like it's own self-contained idea, and it helped me make sense of it a lot more. I wrote an outline for each chapter and started to feel a lot more confident.

While taking care of my Mom when she was in her last few months, I wrote a good 70-80% of the script, maybe more. All that was left was to write the final chapter. During this process, it had grown to become the biggest, longest script I'd ever written (almost 18 pages, and I expected easily 20+ by the time I was done).

I never finished it. The final chapter needed some work to clarify a unifying message, stress peaked with my Mom, and then eventually Sonic Frontiers got announced. Seemed moot to put Sonic Forces at the heart of an essay like that.

The essay now needs rewrites to recontextualize some of what was written almost two years ago.

The Sonic Frontiers video also ended up taking the title of the longest script I'd ever written (23 pages).

It's still on the table as something I want to do, but it feels sort of like wrestling with a mountain at this point. The plan was, once the video was done, Patreon would get a gigantic PDF with every draft, since they were all kind of different. Even before adding the final script, I think the PDF of all the older drafts combined is close to 40 pages. Depending on how things go, it may be over 70 pages by the time all the separate drafts are archived together. The making of that script/video will basically be it's whole own book, for better or worse.

All that being said, there's another video series I've been considering that would allow me to revisit Sonic Forces on its own and have more of a traditional review of it. So that'll still happen... eventually.

[magicmumu2]

✍️ more fic writer asks!

11, 24, 30

11. a WIP you’d like to finish someday

-I have a story in the Birds of Prey (TV show) fandom that haunts me. It started as a one shot and I had more ideas for it so this and peer pressure got me to continue on with the story. I got super far into it, and I had always known about halfway through how I would have ended it. I even have one or two of the next chapter written out and I know where that notebook is! I just got caught up in the action scene at the end, trying to figure out how to write it out. I was also fighting with my Yahoo email and the story is on ff.net so I didn't know if I wanted to keep it there. Also so many superhero shows had come out since and I think I felt saturated with it and wasn't sure my idea was unique anymore. It had been almost three or four years updating the fic and had sat abandoned for a decade now. It has been long enough that I am sure I will not have the same reviewers who were loyal to it but I always think I am going to get back to it and knock it out in a couple of weeks of work on it. The story was called As History Repeats.

24. how do you recharge when you’re not feeling creative

- I like to recharge by rereading stories that I really am proud of and I'm going to that a little bit in a minute because of the next question. I would read the reviews from those stories and read the stories themselves, and it would tend to make me feel better about my abilities as a writer. Then I would sometimes go back over my notes. I used to keep my notes on a voice recorder but not anymore. I have them on a draft on my Gmail so I would go over those again to see if it gives me more ideas to add to the notes or just give me ideas to think about the next scene to write.

30. share a fic you’re especially proud of

-the most recent story I'm really proud of is A Mean Girls Christmas Carol. That story came to me in about 20 minutes thinking time for the overall story, and then it was one of the longer stories I've written in about 3 years, which ended up being about 20,000 words. The story before that that was longer it was 45,000 words and I think that was capped at the longest story I've ever written, but I spent over 6 months writing that story out before slowly updating it over the month of December that year. This one came to me in like early November, and I was in the middle of another story at the time, so I was working on that story and then planning out this one at the same time. I was surprised that I was able to get it all written out and updated buy or on Christmas day since it's a Christmas story. Most other stories that I write are somewhere between 2000 and maybe 8,000 words at best, with the exception of some of the longer stories being between 18 and 45,000 words. There are a few stories I'm proud of but that's the most recent one.

Thank you Anon for speaking to me.

[talesfromasnarkylisa]

Lacey: Chapter 18

James: August 20, 2023

Yale was going to start back up in precisely 8 days. The year of 2023-2024 was my final undergrad year. There’s no way I’d fail, after all.

Darian’s third year at SCSU was also set to start in about a week. As a result, we both spent more time studying and less time socializing. At least, he did for the second part. While I definitely ramped up my material reviewing, I also had to juggle beta reading for Music Refined, my two jobs, and talking to Lacey as well. Fun.

My thing with Lacey was going to be a long con instead of the short viewer engagement advice scheme I initially planned on doing. 

I looked back to the Guardian article on John and Brigid for inspiration again. This time, I wasn’t just going to toy with Lacey’s crush on me a little. No. I’d have to make her fall head over heels and be convinced I was her protector. As disgusted as the prospect of Lacey devolving into an UWU girl around me made me feel, I needed her to be in that state to make my plan work. Otherwise, there’d be no scammer-like swooning coming from her.

On the bright side, both of us had already laid some of the groundwork. Lacey was lowkey flirting with me and I did it back. If any grudge against me for nearly getting her kicked out of Music Refined was still there, it was virtually gone save for the fact she wanted nothing to do with my advice or advising me. She also commented more on my videos. Positively, which was great. 

After finishing up studying for the day, I logged into my Discord. Lacey was the first notification in my DMs.

Lacey Hannah (08/20/23, 7:01 PM): Heya, wanna VC some time this evening?

I obviously said yes.

“Hi Archie!” Lacey giddily greeted.

“Hello,” I responded.

I was surprised to hear how flat Lacey’s speaking voice sounded. Her videos were all music, so only her variable-as-ever singing would be found there. She’d always sound either sultry, raspy, or both when she’d sing. Not generic and un-operatic like how she’d talk.

“How’s it going, Archie-buns?” she teased.

Archie-buns. What a dumb name.

“I’m fine, thanks,” I did my damndest to hide my loathing. “How about you?”

“Surprisingly good, actually,” Lacey told me. “I got my first article published in Writer’s Delight.”

“That’s great!” I fibbed. 

I turned down the audio on my end, as I found it a tad too loud.

“I haven’t joined their Discord or Slack, though,” Lacey admitted. “Do you think I should?”

I paused for a moment. This would be an opportunity to make connections which help her reputation. It also seemed like a place where she’d piss off people easily by daring to call bullshit out. Regardless, it wasn’t the end of the world either way. I could make a longer story work for a book.

“Well,” I hesitated, “it’s up to you. Are you in a bunch of servers already?”

“I’m in 9 to 11 servers,” Lacey answered, “give or take. It’s all subjective if you consider that many or not.”

9 to 11, I thought. Not a specific number, but just a rough estimate. Clever.

“I honestly don't really care,” I said in one of the few truths I told Lacey. “That seems like a pretty average number of Discord servers to be in. But do you have a Slack account?”

“I had one for school a couple years ago,” responded Lacey. “I find it overrated.”

“Maybe don’t join Slack, then,” I adjusted my microphone.

I checked my emails and Medium notifications for incoming Music Refined drafts. After that, I thought about asking how Lacey was doing in the other publications and with Corianna.

“Archer?” Lacey unmuted. “Have you ever gotten absolutely no work to do from Music Refined a few days in a row?”

“No…” I stated. “Why?”

“I was curious,” Lacey told me. 

Man, I really did wish for even one day off. 

“Anyways, Lace-girl - if I can call you that - how’s it going with your other online endeavors?” I asked Lacey.

“Hehe,” Lacey chuckled, “You’re too good at nicknames. I’ve also been doing quite well at Medium lately. I finally got an article published in Writer’s Delight. I also have a few new friends.”

Her descriptions piqued my curiosity, eager to find more strings to pull on this mysterious blonde girl.

“Care to elaborate?” I wondered.

Lacey sent a message in the chat.

Lacey Hannah (08/20/23, 7:25 PM): You’ll just have to find out ;).

The call ended shortly after that. After responding to one of Oscar’s messages, it was time for me to get to work again. Both on my Photoshop and my drafts.

Wonderful, I thought to myself. Just oh-so amazing.

(Wattpad version: https://www.wattpad.com/1506034371-lacey-chapter-18)

[neysastudies]

30 days of productivity challenge

18/11 -17/12 2024

Day 2/30: Productivity Challenge

I started this challenge yesterday because I’m working on a review article and aiming to have a draft ready by mid-December. At the same time, I need to wrap up my behavioral experiments by then. It’s a busy period, but I’m committed to improving my focus and productivity.

On an average day, I spend about 10 hours in the lab—6 of those on experiments and the rest split between reading, coding, immunohistochemistry, and writing. It’s a lot to juggle, but with the right planning and scheduling, I’m determined to make it work over the next 30 days.

I know this might sound intense, but for PhD students in experimental neuroscience, this kind of routine is pretty normal if you’re aiming for a successful career in research (and maybe even running your own lab someday). That said, I’m also trying not to put too much pressure on myself—it’s all about balance.

Today is Day 2 (19/11), and so far, I’m on track! Experiments are going well, I’m catching up on reading, and I just wrapped up a 1.5-hour meeting with my supervisor. Here’s to keeping up the momentum! 💪✨

[tkvkfanfics]

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ᴡʜɪꜱᴘᴇʀɪɴɢ ᴡɪʟʟᴏᴡ requested by ᴇꜱᴛᴀʀ ɢᴇɴʀᴇ ᴛʜᴇᴍᴇ ʀᴀᴛɪɴɢ Mystery friendships, bonds Teen and Up Adventure mystery, secrets Nothing Explicit Slice of Life Humour ᴘʟᴏᴛ Jungkook arrives in the Village of the Whispering Willow for a summer assignment. Interested in the village's mysterious history. He meets Yoongi. Yoongi helps Jungkook uncover the tales of the Whispering Willow and its secrets. During his explorationJungkook stumbles upon Taehyung's open-air studio. Taehyung's artwork often features that willow, it lures Jungkook in. Their relationship grows as Jungkook becomes fascinated not only with the village's history but also with Taehyung's ability to capture the willow's magic on canvas. Taehyung in turn finds inspiration in Jungkook's passion for uncovering the mysteries of the village.  Bittersweet, open but hopeful ending: Despite a strong connection, circumstances (Jungkook is from another city and Taehyung can’t see himself leaving the village) force Jungkook and Taehyung to part ways.  ᴅᴀᴛᴇ ᴏꜰ ᴀᴄᴄᴇᴘᴛᴀɴᴄᴇ: 3rd January 24 ᴇꜱᴛɪᴍᴀᴛᴇᴅ ᴅᴀᴛᴇ ᴏꜰ ᴅᴇʟɪᴠᴇʀʏ: 10th January 24 ꜱᴛᴀᴛᴜꜱ: uploaded 🌐 AO3 TUMBLR

2. ᴘʀᴏᴊᴇᴄᴛ ꜱᴛᴜʙʙᴏʀɴ requested by ɴᴏᴏɴᴀᴛᴀ ɢᴇɴʀᴇ ᴛʜᴇᴍᴇ ʀᴀᴛɪɴɢ Romance Societal pressure Mature 18+ Drama Jealousy F/M Family dynamics M/M Self-discovery Rejection ᴘʟᴏᴛ Jungkook is happily married with children who are his whole world, but when Taehyung unexpectedly appears in his life, and keeps trying to make him fall love in with him no matter what, despite his own stubborn love and mind he can't help but start catching feelings for the boy. As Jungkook's feelings for Taehyung deepen and he can't longer pretend, real problems arise; his own homophobic parents, society, his children... ᴅᴀᴛᴇ ᴏꜰ ᴀᴄᴄᴇᴘᴛᴀɴᴄᴇ: 8th January 2024 ꜱᴛᴀᴛᴜꜱ: idea planning ⌨️

3. BLINDED BY LOVE requested on AO3 ɢᴇɴʀᴇ ᴛʜᴇᴍᴇ ʀᴀᴛɪɴɢ Angst Loneliness M/M Friendships Isolation Teen and Up Self-growth Regret ᴘʟᴏᴛ Plot can explore the close relationship between taekook in early years and when jungkook starts getting closer to Jimin, V starts feeling sad and left out. Maybe can have Yoongi as a confidant character & reaches out to V to make him feel better. Jungkook slowly realizes he misses V but V no longer feels he can just be his close friend & always feels like a third wheel between him & jimin. So he pulls himself away from them and the story can then explore how V overcomes being depressed over jungkook, finds confidence/comfort in his own self, his art and Wooga squad. Maybe have V find someone else, and jungkook realize that what he felt for v was much more than close friendship but there's nothing he can do about it now.

ᴅᴀᴛᴇ ᴏꜰ ᴀᴄᴄᴇᴘᴛᴀɴᴄᴇ: 18th January 2024 ᴇꜱᴛɪᴍᴀᴛᴇᴅ ᴅᴀᴛᴇ ᴏꜰ ᴅᴇʟɪᴠᴇʀʏ: 26th January 2024 4th February 2024 UPLOADED - 30th January 2024 (the first chapter), 15th February 2024 (the second chapter) ꜱᴛᴀᴛᴜꜱ: uploaded 2/2 🌐 AO3 TUMBLR

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[beforeiread-studies2]

It's February 28th! Let's review what I've accomplished this month. I've also decided that I won't mention some goals anymore because I can't really act on them during this quarter.

Write and publish my novel. Almost finished my first draft. We are at the final stretch. Maybe 3 chapters and then it will be done! Goals for March: Finish writing first draft by March 9th + read Book + reread first draft + start editing on March 24th [that's funny]

Complete my writing channel. I am mostly on track. I need to do another bit by tomorrow to be completely on track. Goals for March: Keep going! Try to write during the first half of the week, not the second. [abandoned]

Graduate in July. Did nothing. Goals for March: Get and read philosophy book for dissertation + contact ppl about registering my grades if not done by March 7th.

Do yoga every day. Did yoga but only sometimes. Goal for March: do every video in the Yoga With Kassandra Evening Yoga Challenge series (18/32) (out of convenience I'm counting all the videos in the playlist not just the actual yoga workouts)

Be ready to take TOPIK II level 5 in 2026. I finished my graded reader! Goals for March: finish the series of podcasts I'm watching (15/16) + read 30 episodes of Marry My Husband (webtoon) (24/30)

Pass a B2 Goethe-Zertifikat. Attended Sprachcafe and finished A2.1 on Babbel, won't be doing grammar exercises because the book I have is too difficult for me. Goals for March: watch 2 season of Um Himmels Willen (15/26) + finish reading first 2 volumes of An Incurable Case of Love (manga) in German (10/10) + complete A2.2 & B1 & B2 courses on Babbel.

Watch 12 Italian films. We are at 8/12! Goal for March: watch Lo chiamavano Trinità [27.03.2025]

Train to do at least 10 classic push-ups. We are at 30x3 sets of wall push-ups!!! Goal for February: get to 50x3 wall push-ups (50/50)

And a couple of extra things for March:

Try new recipes with 3 new vegetables (0/3) [i didn't even try]

Try Bavarian cuisine at a Bavarian restaurant

Create a habit tracker on my journal and use it obv

Finish knitting body of cardigan [I tried]

2025-Q1 Goals

Since I can't trust Tumblr not to eat this blog too (yes, I'm still bitter about it), this year I wrote my long list of goals somewhere else and will post just the short version on here.

The theme for this year will be "I might as well try". I have big ambitions, but always try to moderate myself because what if I exhaust myself, what if I can't do everything. But the other day I stumbled upon this video, The Wonyoung Mindset and the message is basically: "yes, working towards your goals is hard, but isn't it even harder not reach your goals at the end of the day? Might as well try hard." Which to me makes sense. Also, I'm old enough to know how much I can take on my plate so it will be fine.

So this year I'm maximizing my goals! I'll go for it and get it!

Write a novel and publish it on Amazon. Even if it's terrible and a total flop, who cares. Let's start my author career!

Complete my writing challenge to show myself how committed I am to writing

Graduate cum laude in July from my master's! + find a job

Do yoga every day

Have 10k on my savings account by the end of the year (level impossible unless I find a job immediately or the novel becomes a smashing success)

Visit my friend D in her home country

Be ready to start preparing for TOPIK II level 5 by the end of the year.

Pass a Goethe-Zertifikat B2 during the second half of the year

Read 5 books from my physical TBR list so I can give them away and make some space in my library (0/5)

Watch 12 Italian films, because how is it possible that I know nothing about my own country's pop culture? (5/12)

By the end of the year, I will be able to do at least 10 classic push ups. Right now I can barely do 10 wall pushups to it's a long way to go but I will make it!!!!

I've already set up a habit tracker to help me with all this. I'm sure the enthusiasm will vanish soon, so I plan on checking in every month and re-evaluating my goals every quarter. Hopefully I'll reach some of them sooner than expected and be able to add more (for example, it wouldn't be a bad idea to publish more than one novel).

[illicitlimerence-writes]

champion | m. schumacher

pairing: mick schumacher x driver!reader word count: 2.2k request: yes/no. by an anon: "Hi there. Do you write smut? If not my apologies, just ignore this. If you do I have a prompt. Mick dating fellow driver (a female) and winning his first GP, then having sex with her for the first time as a form of celebration?" okay so i don't usually write smut (so please don't take it bad if you request smut and i decline). i had zero inspiration to write anything else so i just went for this. warnings: smut. 18+ only. if you're under 18 you will be blocked. oral (fem receiving), fingering (fem receiving). it's one of the first times i've written smut so please be kind. swear words, mick being cheeky. (please let me know if i've missed anything, like i said i'm not very used to writing smut and maybe some things went over my head as i reviewed it. but be kind, please.) a/n: yeah. i've written smut like two or three times a looong time ago. and since then i've felt terrified to try again, which is why i didn't go too in-depth during the actual sex. let me know what you think! i can't believe i've written and posted one fic a day for four days in a row. wow. funny story, me and my dumb ass misread this request as well and i was writing something else and i was so inspired when i realized my mistake lmao. i'm definitely saving that draft for later.

my masterlist

"the gap to mick is 0.5, and to hamilton is 1.3. give it your all."

your eyebrows were furrowed in concentration, you could feel the sweat dripping down your body from anticipation.

there were just two laps left, mick had never been this close to a win. you watched as your boyfriend in the car in front of you sped up, catching up with hamilton and you did the same. you kept your distance at first when mick tried to overtake him, he went on the inside of a curb and you went full throttle. hamilton went wide, and that gave you the advantage to overtake him as well.

on the last lap you could taste victory, you were so close to mick, but you knew what this would mean for him, so you didn't try to fight him for the position.

a 1-2 for your team was the best result possible, no matter who ended up on the top spot. the checkered flag was being waved, and mick schumacher had just won his first grand prix in formula one.

as your race engineer congratulated you on the amazing work the entire race, starting p11 and finishing p2 was quite the hard work, you and mick did a final lap together, trying to keep the cars side by side as you lift your fist in the air, trying to stop yourself from jumping up and down in the car.

you parked the car in front of a board with a large '2' on it. and right next to you, your boyfriend parked his in the long-awaited first place spot. you got out of the car, rushing to his side. he hugged you, laughing as he twirled you around. you made your way to where your team waited for the both of you.

as you stood on the podium, mick placed an arm around you, buzzing with excitement. he pulled you to his side, and you climbed on the top spot. he grasped your hand in his and lifted them, stretching your arms up high as you held your trophies with your free hands.

mick couldn't keep his hands off you the entire night. you'd gone for drinks at the bar of the hotel you were staying at, but neither of you drank anything because your diets didn't allow it, not that you needed the alcohol to enjoy the night. you let him have his way with you, he was a champion after all.

and champions deserved their prize.

the entire day your mind kept looking forward to the night. you and mick hadn't been intimate yet. you'd been together for two months, the best months of your life, and you were taking your time getting to know each other's likes and dislikes, plus, you didn't have that much experience, but this was the best way to end a perfect day, and you felt ready.

as you stumbled to your room you closed the door behind you, mick's grip on your waist tight. you fell back on your bed, and mick climbed on top of you, kissing your cheek.

you still had adrenaline running in your veins, and you waited until you both calmed down to let him know your decision. you thought he'd fallen asleep until you felt his lips nipping at your neck. you continued to let him decorate your neck with lovebites and bruises, occasionally dragging his lips up to yours. you could spend the entire night like this, but you had other plans.

"mick, mick," you said as his lips met the side of your neck. he hummed in reply, nipping and biting. "i think i'm ready," he froze for a moment, unsure if he'd heard you right.

"what?" he asked, leaning his weight on his arms, his face so close to yours, you couldn't stop yourself as you leaned forward and captured his lips in a short embrace.

"i want to be yours, completely. i'm ready," you said, he smiled at you, kissed your cheek before he flipped you two over, so you were on top of him. his hands snaked around your waist, pushing you until your chest laid flat against him.

"baby, please don't feel pressured to do it. you don't own me anything, i just want to spend one of the best nights of my life with you, we don't have to do anything." he said and he looked at you with those big blue eyes of his, his stare so soft and hypnotizing it made you dizzy.

"i know, but i want to. you've done so much for me, and you've said it yourself. i'd like to end one of the best nights of my life, as well, with you."

"fuck, i love you." he couldn't contain himself.

"me too," you said for the first time, grabbing his face and colliding your lips with his as he flipped you over again.

the kiss started slow, you were taking your time exploring him in a new light, you couldn't help but feel extremely nervous, you didn't have that much experience. his hands sliding down the sides of your body brought you back from your thoughts, making you gasp. you dragged your hands down his back, slipping under his shirt, feeling his skin, scratching it with your nails.

you took your time as the kiss grew heated, your heartbeat speeding almost as fast as the cars you drove. you sighed deeply as his lips met your neck again, he bit and sucked and licked, making you feel a pleasure you hadn't before.

the clothes came off, you stared at each other with pure adoration in your eyes.

"are you sure?" he asked, making you feel warm inside. your fingers were in his hair, so you pulled him towards your face and joined your lips, hoping that would answer his question. "okay, but you have to tell me the moment you start feeling uncomfortable. this isn't just about me."

"i promise," you said.

his lips descended down your neck, to your breasts, where he took his time giving attention to each peak. he continued his journey, kissing all over your stomach, his breath and soft lips tickling you. once he reached your aching core he locked eyes with you. he sat on his knees, pulled your legs apart, on each side of him.

tentatively, his thumb touched your sensitive skin, making you flinch. his eyes instantly flew to your face, "is this okay?" he whispered as his fingers stilled.

"yes. don't stop," you gasped, he nodded, his eyes flying back to where his digits played with you. two of his fingers held you open for him as another circled your opening, his breath hitching. you heard a soft 'fuck' leaving his lips as he plopped down on his stomach, his warm breath hitting your tender core.

"i'm gonna use my mouth, okay?" he said, as he grabbed one of your thighs and left soft kisses.

"please," you almost moaned, the anticipation too much. you felt as if you were buzzing, electricity ran through your veins as you waited for him to do something.

the first lick caught you off guard, the air left your lungs as your head shot up to look at him between your legs. his eyes silently asked for permission, and you nodded, whispering a soft 'don't stop'. and he dived in.

your back arched off the bed, hands curled around the white sheet beneath you as he kissed and licked you in your most intimate spot. his fingers found your hypersensitive button, and the pleasure intensified by a thousand. you felt like you were burning up inside, your head dizzy with ecstasy as soft gasps left your throat.

one of his fingers circled your opening, "i have to stretch you, first." he said, and you nodded. "okay, this might hurt, so tell me and i'll stop."

"please never stop. i've never felt like this in my whole life," you admitted, too drunk on his touch to think straight.

"we're just starting, my love." he said. his pinky finger began stretching you as it made its way inside you. you closed your eyes, biting your lip and throwing your head back against the pillows.

"fuck, keep going," you creaked out. once he was fully inside, he remained still for a moment before he began pulling out slowly, then pushing back in. once you were used to his pinky, he pulled out completely, taking his finger to his mouth and cleaning it from your wetness.

he worked you out, using two and three fingers, and once you'd found a pace you were comfortable with, his lips surrounded your clit, hollowing his cheeks as he sucked and licked.

"oh my god," you whispered. your hands moved on their own accord, tangling your fingers in his blonde hair, pushing him deeper into you.

your orgasm came crashing down, you felt fireworks exploding inside your skin, a pressure that had formed in your stomach now disappearing as he continued to kiss your clit and fuck you with his fingers until you felt that same pressure start to build again.

"fuck, mick, i can't-" you choked on air, your chest was heaving as you breathed rapidly. his intense gaze made you shiver.

"let go, baby. i got you, you're almost there. you're doing so good." he praised you, connecting his lips with your bundle of nerves, and you clenched around his fingers, inner walls fluttering as you came for a second time. your legs were numb as he pulled away from you, climbing his way up your body to kiss you, making you taste yourself in his mouth.

"that was wonderful," you whispered against his lips, noses brushing.

"you did so good for me, baby. my best girl." he connected your lips again, pouring all the love and passion into it.

"i want to make you feel good," you said as you pulled away to breathe. he shook his head.

"another time, liebe. tonight is about you,"

"no, tonight is about you," you said, holding his face.

"and i want to please you tonight. please," he pleaded, and looked at you with those eyes that made it impossible for you to put up a fight. you nodded, "do you want to keep going?" he asked,

"please,"

his fingers traveled down, touching your wet core. he took off his boxers, throwing them to the side. he wrapped his hand around his cock, stroking it once, twice. you couldn't tear your eyes away from him, he looked... sublime.

you bit your lip as his thick head touched your folds, slipping between them. you gasped when he pressed it against your clit, shivering in pleasure.

"you ready?"

"yes," you nodded and he slipped home.

you spent the rest of the night in his arms, he whispered how much he loved you. he was gentle and soft and showed so much devotion and commitment to make sure you received as much pleasure as he did.

you woke up feeling sore. the sun slipping through the curtains hit your eyes, so you turned your back, being careful to not wake up mick. you tried to get up to use the restroom, but your legs trembled as you tried to stand. you fell on the floor, and let out a yelp before you could stop yourself.

that woke him up

mick sat up, looking from side to side until he found you on the floor.

"what happened?" he asked as he got up and ran to you. he helped you up and sat you on the bed. you couldn't stop the soft giggles that left your mouth.

"you broke me," you said, pointing to your crotch area. "i tried to stand up and my legs gave up on me." you laughed at the absurd situation you were in.

"wow, that is a confidence boost," he smirked, kneeling on the floor in front of you. you slapped his arm playfully, which only made him laugh harder. "sorry, sorry."

"guess you'll have to be my slave for the day," you said, kissing his cheek.

"if this is the price i have to pay every time we're together i'll take it," he said. throwing himself on top of you, making you squeal as you fell backwards against the bed.

"shut up, i need to use the bathroom," you pouted.

"should i get you a wheelchair?" he said, raising his eyebrows and you rolled your eyes. he leaned back and stood up.

"i got fucked hard, not hit by a train," you replied, and made grabby hands at him. he held your hands and placed one arm under your knees and the other circled your back. he left you in the bathroom whilst you did your business, he waited behind the closed door.

"i don't think there's a difference," he continued his playful banter and you scoffed.

"get over yourself, schumacher. i'm the one in charge here," you said and slowly got up to wash your hands. once he heard you were done he knocked on the door and opened it once you gave him the all-clear. your fingers gripped the sink to keep you in place, and he quickly put his arm around your waist to steady you.

"you wish," he laughed. you looked at him through the mirror, and you raised an eyebrow wickedly.

"fine. then i won't let you have me tonight," you said and his face fell.

"nooo, please," he dragged out the 'o', pouting. "i need you." he complained.

"then behave," you said as you turned around, he lifted you up and you wrapped your legs around him as he walked you to the bed, setting you down softly.

"i've created a monster," he mumbled against your neck. where the bruises and love bites from yesterday painted your skin.

"only for you, champion."