#messaging disruption

[nights-at-crystarium]

Your WoL's invisible and inaudible for a day! How do they choose to spend it? Pull pranks? Spy on someone or sneak in somewhere forbidden? Simply rest?

[ramshacklerumble]

what? me?? having soft unagi shrimp thoughts??? *snrk.* *pfft!* never.

[glowcowboy]

the one downside of consuming your current hyperfixation on an endless loop is that you walk around your apartment mumbling random movie quotes to yourself while washing dishes or something and u look insane

[thirteenemeraldcats]

okay this was uncalled for !! i was having a perfectly lovely sunday then you made me think about jamie and broke my heart again. pls stop (don’t, i love your tags)

ASJKHLSHFLJ-

I'M SORRY 😭

[jayjamjary]

Getting sick and having a snow day and having new people that keep wanting to talk and hang out dropped on me all at once has made me realize huh. Maybe I'm not as good at schedule changes as I thought I was. This blows. Instant mental illness beam.

[rorywritesjunk]

i have tried to write some serious angst into these two stories right now but then i back pedal because no, no no no, I don't want the level of angst that has me upset because that's just not okay so it's back to fluff and softness.

[einstetic]

i opened my thesis document this morning

"last edit made on June 3rd, 2023"

i feel like word is intentionally trying to make me avoid this whole thing bc that message does not make me motivated lmao

[lepidxpterxphxbia]

Mmng I'm so tired of being anxious

[wild-at-mind]

I get why people like the whole queer existence is resistance thing. I don't personally, because I think it puts a tonne of intracommunity pressure to exist in the 'right' way, I.e. the way that is 'radical' to the person currently scrutinising you. As a person with OCD that manifests in self scrutiny that I have to constantly concentrate on to avoid it becoming self hatred, I'm never going to be a fan of that. I kind of feel this way about any kind of assimilation conversation with regards to queerness really. I think it's an important conversation within irl communities who already care for each other- who shows up for others outside of their own interests and who doesn't, etc. But the internet makes things so impersonal and cold. It encourages people to make very serious snap judgements about others who they don't even know, and to encourage others to believe that about them. None of these people are in community together in any meaningful sense, or they wouldn't treat each other so ungenerously.

Anyway I had a bit of a realisation earlier- I think we have to tell ourselves our existence is inherently radical all the time because we're always getting the subtle message from our community and the wider activism community that having a good time or enjoying yourself is somehow bad, or insulting to people in dire straits. But instead of challenging that idea we say no it's OK because I'm doing activism simply by being here. I think it's fine to feel that way and in many ways existing as a marginalised person really is radical. I just want to make sure we aren't internalising the idea that we can't ever be happy or having a fun frivolous time without justifying it, and passing that idea along to others without meaning to.

[cinematicbookworm]

I find it highly ironic that both my former undergrad which is now cal poly Humboldt and my current Graduate universities have both been sending out messages saying they support free speech while also calling the cops on student protesters and also trying to deflect responsibility like I’ve been part of protests at Humboldt in the past the admin then barely tolerated what was also a peaceful protest like the professors for the most part usually support the students but the higher admin have never supported the students rights they just wanted to line their pockets then and I doubt things have changed now

[ugartecoco]

[hermeswol]

ok i made the caster krile summoning circle

[thedreadvampy]

Kinda pissy bc in my return to work interview (my line manager is on leave so my senior manager did it) she said oooh you've had 7 absences this year that's kind of a lot

but I just looked back through my calendar and I would say actually it's 5 1/2. Cause one I had a PTSD episode at lunchtime and called my boss in tears from my kitchen floor and I was gonna take the remaining 2.5 hours of my day off and work them back later and she was like nah man shut up you're off sick you don't owe anyone that time back. so that was not even a whole day it was like. A longish meeting's worth of time.

but also one illness is recorded as two absences because. and this'll teach me. I had flu but we had a tight deadline so I was off for a day, then came on to work for a day to meet that deadline, then I was off the next day, still with flu. so that's two separate absences. because I came into work when I should have been resting.

so like. Fuck me for trying I guess.

(it's not super relevant cause there's no real unifying condition that needs action. MH episode, migraine, flu, food poisoning, migraine, COVID. and we know about the migraines and have stuff in place to minimise them. It just seems fucked up to me that it counts more against me that I came in in the middle of 2 days of sick leave than that I've been off for a solid week.)

[wildeviolets]

Truly sick and twisted that certain people from your past can just contact you out of the blue 😵‍💫

[flatstarcarcosa]

the problem with at least half my boys is that if i was in a situation where, like right now, the downstairs neighbors TV is still obscenely FUCKING LOUD and i angrily said "i genuinely hope they die at this point this is fucking ridiculous" they'd be like

bet