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Requiem For Vixen

Part 1 ⢠Part 2 ⢠Part 3
Mal's Note: Y'all are gonna be mad at me for this one... but I'll remind you that some of you asked for more parts, and this was the only way I felt the story could move forward and still be interesting. However, I regret nothing.
Love,
Malâ¤ď¸
I LOVE MY BETA READERS MORE THAN LIFE ITSELF! @theghostofcosmichorrorpast @cringeiknow @snailsinamarchingband
Warnings: MDNI 18+ beyond this point! semipublic sex, p in v sex, oral sex fem!receiving, mentions of death, mentions of Haley Hotchner and her death, vaginal fingering, angst, fluff, oh I almost forgot reader bites Hotch, cliffhanger ending (kinda)
Additional Note: If you're tagged its because you asked me to tag you in the previous installation, if you wish to be untagged or for me not to tag you in the next chapter please message me and I will take care of it. <3
Pairing: Hotch x BAU!Reader (NO Y/N)
WC: 14.8k
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Your eyes refused to open, your head felt so heavy and your brain seemed to be made of cotton. Not only were you unsure where you were, you didnât know what day it was, or what year.Â
You did know, however, that there was a second body in this bed with you. Strong arms held you close, and warm breath stirred your hair.Â
You forced your eyelids to cooperate, and peeked down at the dark head of hair nestled into your neck. From this angle it looked likeâŚ
Hotch.Â
Everything came rushing back to you at once and what you remembered⌠was the best morning of your life. Â
He had absolutely rocked your world. You had known it would be good⌠but that was⌠Wow.
He was sleeping peacefully so you didnât want to wake him, but you wanted to know what time it was. There was no sunlight coming through the windows, only the dim glow coming from the street lamps on the sidewalk. It was night. Youâd slept all day.Â
Wait.Â
When had you fallen asleep?
The last thing you remembered wasâŚÂ
Oh God.
You felt heat rush to your cheeks and suddenly you were very glad that you had woken up first.Â
You had fallen asleep with his dick still inside you.Â
Which was mortifying. However, to be completely fair, the man had completely exhausted you and youâd already been over tired to begin with.Â
You wondered again what time it was.Â
Your phone should have been laying on the nightstand closest to you, so you carefully untangled your arm from Aaronâs and reached blindly for it. Patting around the table top until you found it.Â
Powering it on, you had to wait nearly five minutes for it to stop buzzing with six weeks worth of notifications.Â
It was nearly nine oâclock.Â
You didnât know what time youâd fallen asleep, but you knew youâd been asleep for over ten hours.Â
You were starting to go through your messages and respond to emails and such, when the phone began to ring.Â
You panic-answered it, not wanting the noise to wake Aaron. You didnât even check to see who it was.
That was a mistake.Â
âHello?â You rasped into the phone.Â
âOmg, did we wake you?â Youâd recognize Penelopeâs voice anywhere.Â
âNo, I was awake. Whoâs we?â You murmured.Â
âMornân sleeping beauty.â Emily drawled.Â
âHow are you feeling?â JJ chimed in with concern, which you appreciated.Â
âWho me? Iâm fantastic.â You replied quietly, smirking to yourself as you glanced down at the sleeping man whose head was still buried in the crook of your neck.
âOh, I bet you are.â Emily said, teasingly and your brows drew together.Â
Your confusion only grew when the others giggled quietly in the background.Â
âAm I missing something here?â You queried.Â
Aaron groaned softly in his sleep and you coughed to cover it, running your fingers through his hair soothingly.Â
JJ cleared her throat.Â
âHowâs Hotch?â She asked, a bit mischievously.Â
You almost panicked, but you knew there was almost no way they could have heard him, and an even slimmer chance that they recognized his voice from one sleepy groan.Â
âLast I saw him was this morning around five. He was headed home, so I havenât the slightest. Why?â You tried not to sound guilty.Â
âReally? Cause we thought he mustâve just crashed at your place.â Emily pushed.Â
What the hell was going on?
âNope. I offered, the poor guy was beat. You know him though, he politelyâbut firmlyâdeclined and then went home.â You lied, whispering softly, and then to make yourself feel a little better, told one truth. âWouldnât even accept a cup of coffee for the ride home.âÂ
âYeah, that sounds like Hotch.â JJ agreed.Â
You relaxed slightly.Â
âWeâre a little confused though.â Garcia piped up.Â
âOh?âÂ
âMmm hmm.â She hummed. âHotch hasnât been answering his phone all day and the SUV never made it back to Quantico. So we just assumedâŚâÂ
Shit. You hadnât thought about that.
âOh, well he was probably too tired to make that drive so he must have just gone straight home.â You murmured dismissively. âItâs not like him not to answer the phone though. Heâs probably still sleeping, I wouldnât bother him.â
âIs that why youâre whispering?â Emilyâs tone was full of glee. Â
âNoâŚâ You hissed. âI told you, heâs not here, he left this morning. My cat is sleeping on my lap, if you must know why Iâm whispering. And even if Hotch was here, why is that such a big deal? He was exhausted.â
You didnât know where the hell you came up with the idea of a cat⌠you didnât even have a cat. But it was the first thing that popped into your mind, and it was better than the alternative.
Aaron stirred again, his arms tightening around you. You pressed a soft kiss to the top of his head.
âWell, we tracked the SUV and his phone.â Penelope admitted. Fuck. Think fast, think fast, think fast. âTheyâre both at your apartment.â
The jacket!
âJust a second let me check something.â You murmured, then waited thirty seconds. âOh my God, his phone was in the pocket of his suit jacket. I wore it home, remember? Cause I was⌠underdressed. Yeah I have it. Iâll bring it to him in the morning.âÂ
âAnd the SUV?â JJ prompted.Â
âI have no idea, maybe he called a cab. Or slept downstairs inside it like the stubborn mule he is.â You joked, and suddenly there was a hand moving slowly down your bare stomach.
Was he awake?
The girls laughed, but you were no longer focused on them.Â
 âWait, you have a cat?â Penelope asked excitedly. âSince when?!â
âUh, yeahâŚâ You said distractedly, because that hand was now between your legs gripping the thigh closest to him and pulling it up over his legs. Effectively giving himself access to what he seemed to be after. âI got it a couple months ago.âÂ
You gasped involuntarily as a finger found your clit. Circling it lightly.Â
âYou okay?â Emily asked.Â
You cleared your throat.
âYeah, I just remembered that I need to pay my neighbor, Marge, for taking care of the cat while I was gone.â You lied, through your teeth, which you were now clenching tightly to keep from making any obvious sounds.Â
The finger started to roam again, from your clit, down to your entrance. Teasing at it playfully.Â
âI want pictures!â Penelope demanded.Â
âPictures?â You choked out as the finger slipped inside you.Â
âOf the kitty!â She exclaimed. âJesus, are you alright? You sound⌠distracted.âÂ
You should have seen that coming, honestly. Of course she wanted pictures of the nonexistent cat!
âYeah, Iâm fine.â You lied.Â
You were not fine.Â
Aaronâs finger was pumping in and out of you at an agonizingly slow pace, doing nothing but tormenting you with the barest tease of what you now knew he was capable of doing to you.
âI donât have any pictures of the cat, I got him right before I went undercover, I never even decided on a name.â You bluffed.Â
âThat poor baby!â She cooed, as if the âcatâ could hear her. âTake a picture and send it to us! Weâll help you name him!âÂ
Shit.
âI canât right now Pen.â You said, biting back a whine as he curled that finger just so. âHeâs all curled up in my lap and I canât see his face. If I move him heâll wake up and you know the rules.â
âYeah, yeah, you donât move until the cat doesâŚâ She grumbles.
âExactLYY!!â You yelped involuntarily as Aaron slid a second finger into your pussy.Â
That made him finally look up at you with a smirk on his face, propping himself up on his elbow.Â
âWhat are you doing?!?â You mouthed, and he had the audacity to shush you silently.Â
âAre you alright?â JJ asked suspiciously.Â
âYeah, Iâm fine.â You hissed, then looked pointedly at Aaron and said, âThe little fucker just dug his claws into me in his sleep and it caught me off guard.âÂ
The smirk on his face and the mischief in his eyes only grew, as he continued pumping his fingers in and out of you. Leisurely, as though this was the most normal thing in the world and three of your coworkersâand best friendsâwerenât on the phone.Â
âUh huhâŚâ JJ muttered, and she didnât sound convinced. âWell we were actually wondering if you wanted to join us? We were having a little girlâs night, we tried to call you but your phone kept going to voicemail.â
âOh, yeah, I just turned it back on⌠but ya know, Iâm still really tired, so I think Iâm just gonna stay in.â You feigned a yawn to sound convincing. Then made direct eye contact with Aaron. âIt was a rough night and then a long morning. When I got home, the cat was really excited to see me. So I knew I would have to play with him before I could get any rest, and let me tell you, he has stamina for his age.â
Aaron scowled down at you playfully, and then he started to move. Pulling his fingers out of you so slowly you could hardly contain yourself. You bit your lip to keep from moaning.Â
âOh is he old?â Penelope asked.Â
âHeâs practically geriatric.â You quipped.
Aaronâs eyebrows shot up on his forehead, as though he were saying âoh really?â and then, he simply disappeared beneath the covers.Â
Oh fuck.
âAwww I wanna see himâŚâ Penelope whined.Â
You could feel Aaronâs breath on your pussy.Â
âThey say cats get tamer and less playful with age⌠less gullible⌠not this one though. Dangle a toy in front of him and heâll chase it everytime.â You said, and you knew that Aaron knew you were teasing him because he chose that moment to lick a stripe up your pussy.Â
You let out a strangled laugh.Â
âWell we hate to leave you out.â JJ tried again. âWhat if we came over there instead?â
Your eyes shot wide.Â
âYeah we could bring dinner! And wine!â Emily supplied.
âOh, no. Guys really, Iâm exhausted, I wouldnât be any fun, I just want to lay here in bed and cuddle the cat.â You protested.Â
The cat seemed to like that response, and hummed contentedly from between your thighs, before lapping at your clit.Â
âWhat was that?â Emily asked.Â
âHmm?â You hummed in question.Â
âI heard something in the background.â She clarified.Â
âUh, my stomach growled, maybe that was it?â You suggested. âYou mentioning dinner reminded me that Iâm hungry.â
âWhen was the last time you ate something, sweetie?â JJ asked, sounding concerned and motherly again.Â
âUm⌠I had some sausage for breakfast while I was playing with the cat.â You smirked to yourself.
Aaron snorted a laugh from under the covers.
âThere it was again!â Emily exclaimed.
âI heard it too!â Penelope agreed.Â
âThat was not your stomach either!â Emily continued. âSo donât give me that again!âÂ
âThe cat snored?â You tried weakly, swatting the back of Aaronâs head.Â
âOw?â He protested softly.Â
âShh.â You hushed him, covering the phone mic with your hand.Â
His response was to latch his lips onto your clit and suck.Â
Which pulled a very startled, very loud, very non explainable sound from your throat in the form of, âFuck!âÂ
âWoah.â JJ said.
âThat was a moan.â Emily stated, with no room for dispute.
âThat was definitely a moan.â Penelope agreed, excited amusement dripping from her voice.Â
âIt was not a moan!â You protested. âIt was-âÂ
âI swear to God, if you give me some bullshit about a cat again I am coming over there and catching you in the lie! There is no cat!â Emily was adamant.
âI- I- itâs- umm-â You stuttered and fumbled for words, but your brain was not currently online.Â
Because Aaron had reinserted those twoâthickâfingers and was pumping them in and out while sucking on your clit.Â
âOh my God.â Emily muttered, then shouted. âIs Hotch still there?!?!â
âNo!â You blurted without thinking it through.Â
âSo he was there at some point.â Â JJ called it out immediately.Â
âWhat? I- no- he-â you stuttered again. âHotch was never here!âÂ
Hotch was most definitely there, and he was making his presence felt more and more every second. He had started to devour you, eating your pussy like a gourmet meal. You could not focus and you were about to cum on his face, for the second time that day.
âOh she is lying!â Penelope said excitedly.Â
âI- I am notâŚlying!â You struggled to make the words come out of your mouth. âI donât know where he is, the last time I saw him was this morning, and there is nothing going on between me and HOTCH!âÂ
Aaron chose the exact moment you said his name to curl his fingers up against your g-spot and flick your clit with his tongue. So it came out in the most pornographic moan you thought youâd ever heard.Â
Especially from yourself.
Aaron hummed around your clit, sounding very pleased with himself. Unfortunately for you, that was all it took to throw you over the edge youâd been riding. You dropped the phone, and it went tumbling off the bed with a thud as you grabbed onto the blanket, clutching it for all you were worth. Biting your lip through what wouldâve been a scream, but came out a strangled yelp.Â
You could hear Emily calling your name from the floor, and the chaos of Penelope and JJ in the background. But you were more than a little busy riding out the intense orgasm that was pounding through you.Â
Aaron licked you through it, lapping at your pussy until it stopped pulsing and your thighs stopped shaking. Then he crawled up and rested his head on your stomach, pulling back the covers so you could see his face. Smirking up at you so smugly you could only lay there and think of ways to make his life hell for this.Â
âAre you okay!?!â You could just barely hear Emily from the phone speaker as it was now laying on the floor in the middle of the room. There was nothing you could do about that currently, you were fairly certain your legs werenât going to work for the next several minutes, and you had no words. You didnât even know what words were, actually, he had simply tongue fucked you stupid.
Aaron kissed your stomach and then got up and retrieved your phone, putting it on speaker so you could hear Emily and the others. Then he grinned at you.
âSorry Prentiss, she canât seem to talk right nowâŚâ He said. âThe cat must have her tongue.âÂ
âI FUCKING KNEW-â and then he hung up the call, interrupting her mid sentence.Â
You stared up at him in panicked shock.Â
âOh my God, are you cra-â you started and he just laughed shaking his head, so you trailed off, dumbfounded at his lack of concern.
âSo Iâm a stubborn mule, huh?â He asked with a teasing grin.Â
You scowled at him.Â
âAs if you didnât already know that about yourselfâŚâ You grumbled. âAnd in my defense, I didnât know how you would feel about them⌠knowing⌠about whatever this is. Apparently, it's not an issueâŚâ
He huffed a laugh.Â
âThey already knew, Sweetheart.â He knelt down on the edge of the bed and crawled toward you.
âHow?â You asked. âWe werenât that obvious last night⌠were we? I mean you couldâve been a little less handsyânot that it bothered me, cause it didnâtâbut other than thatâŚâÂ
He hovered over you for a minute.Â
âI slipped up on the phone with Morgan. He backed me into a corner this morning, just like they did with you. They have known all day.â He murmured, then dropped a kiss to your lips. âSo thereâs no point in hiding it from them any further.â
You hummed against his lips contentedly. Kissing him twice.Â
âThe exhibitionism may have been a little much though, donât you think?â You asked, then looked up at him seriously. âIâm never going to be able to look them in the eyes⌠ever again. And if they tell Morgan what they heard⌠The jokes will be unending.âÂ
He smirked, then kissed your jaw, your neck, your chest⌠and then came back up to your lips for one more kiss, before he rolled to the side and laid on his back next to you.Â
âThe jokes were coming regardless, baby. Morgan may not have heard that, but he definitely knows something happened.â He sighed. âThereâs nothing I can do about it now. I can tell you, that even though heâll tease, he wonât tattle. Which, in our situation, is more than we could ask for.â
âThe othersââÂ
âWill be discreet⌠well⌠I donât know if theyâre capable of being discreet⌠But they wonât tell anyone.â He joked.Â
You laughed quietly and then you just laid next to him in comfortable silence for a few minutes.Â
Until you had a thought.Â
âOh my GodâŚâ You muttered. âDo you think they told Rossi?âÂ
He snorted.Â
âOh definitely, Dave is the biggest gossip on the team.â He laughed quietly as you groaned, then kissed your cheek. âHe should be the last of your worries though⌠He wonât say a word to anyone.â
You rolled over so that you were nose to nose with him, resting your hands on his bare chest.Â
âYou just said he was the biggest gossip on the team, and now you want me to believe he wonât say anything?â You asked incredulously. âHow could you possibly know that?â
He brushed his nose against yours three timesâmaking your stomach do backflipsâand then kissed you with a smile.Â
âBecause, first of all, Dave is my closest friend. He wouldnât say anything that would get me into trouble, unless he thought there was the slightest possibility that I was hurting you; physically or emotionally.â He explained, kissing you again. âWhich I wouldnât ever do intentionally.â
âMmm this is starting to sound like that talk that you really wanted to have earlier.â You hummed, burrowing in closer.Â
âWhich we really should still haveâŚâ He murmured, his arm wrapping around your waist, hand sliding slowly down your back. âMaybe over dinner?âÂ
You giggled as he nuzzled into your neck, leaving soft kisses everywhere.
âAre you asking me on a date, Aaron?â You teased, making him pull back and look you in the eyes.Â
âConventionally, I would have done this before I took you to bed, but yes, I am.â He admitted softly.Â
âWell something tells me, nothing about this is going to be conventional. Which I happen to love, so yes, I will go on a date with you.â You smiled at him, watching as his eyes lit up.Â
He closed the small distance between you and kissed you thoroughly. Your lips parted with ease and his tongue tangled with yours. That hand finding your ass and giving it a firm squeeze, making you moan into his mouth.
Then you realized something.Â
âAaron?â You questioned, pulling back just enough to speak.Â
âYeah baby?â He asked, nipping at your lips gently.Â
âYou said, âfirst of all.â That implies thereâs more than one reason.â You brought the conversation back to Rossiâs gossiping habits.Â
He chuckled softly and kissed the tip of your nose.
âThe other reason is because it benefits him if no one comes snooping about our relationship.â He said cryptically.Â
âHow does that possibly affect him one way or another? We both know that the worst that would happen is they transfer me to another unit, or section. Which would suck for me, but the rest of you would be fineâŚâ You muttered in confusion, scrunching your face up at him.Â
His eyes were twinkling with mischief again as he leaned in closer.Â
âI happen to know that heâs sleeping with Strauss, and if anyone came snooping into the interpersonal relationships of the BAUâŚâ He whispered conspiratorially, as though it were the juiciest gossip heâd ever heard and you began to wonder if maybe Dave wasnât truly the biggest gossip after all.Â
It was pretty juicy though.Â
âWow, so both our Unit and Section Chiefs are sleeping with subordinates. How scandalous, Agent Hotchner.â You teased, leaning back in and putting your forehead against his.Â
âIt happens more than you might think, the Bureau just keeps a lid on it.â He admits. âI can think of a few more inappropriate workplace relationships off the top of my headâŚâÂ
âHmmm⌠well, while you do thatâŚâ You murmured, making your voice drip with seduction, running your hands down his chest and stomach until you found the waistband of his boxersâwhich you were slightly irritated had found their way back onto his bodyâand slipped one inside. He was already hard as you wrapped your fingers around him. âI think Iâll give you some head, seeing as Iâve received four mind blowing, earth shattering, life altering orgasms from you⌠and you have still only gotten one in return.âÂ
You saw his pupils dilate, felt his cock twitch and grow impossibly harder, and his breath stuttered as you started kissing your way down his chest.Â
But then your stomach growledâloudlyâand you remembered that you actually were hungry. You weighed your options in your head⌠Get out of bed and eat, or stay in bed and fuck the delicious hunk of a man infront of you for the second time in twenty four hoursâŚÂ
There was a very clear winner in your mind.Â
However, Aaron also heard your stomach call out for sustenance, and he was nothing if not practical.Â
âAs much as I would love to feel those pretty little lips wrapped around me againâŚâ He murmured, his voice suddenly two octaves lower and oh so raspy. âYou did lie to JJ about having breakfast this morning. Which means you havenât eaten since before you went into the club last night. That's been over twenty four hours now, Sweetheart. You need to eat.â
You groaned and let him pull you back up so that your faces were even, and gave him a pitiful little pout.Â
âTechnically, I didnât lie. I said that I had sausage this morning, I did not say that I ate it, or what kind it was. Simply that I had some, and I did. SooâŚâ You joked, earning an amused chuckle as he shook his head.Â
âWhat am I gonna do with you?â He murmured, almost to himself, though you knew he meant for you to hear it.Â
âFuck me again, preferably, but I also would not mind being fedâŚâ You mused, getting a sexy little smirk for your efforts.Â
He kissed you slowly, as though he had all the time in the world and intended to use every second of it to memorize the taste of you.Â
When he finally pulled away, you whined pathetically, and he laughed, kissing the tip of your nose.Â
âGo hop in the shower, honey. Iâll order something and have it delivered so you can eat.â He instructed.Â
You looked at him skeptically for a moment.Â
âWill you still be here when I get out? Or are you Irish goodbying me?â You interrogated him.Â
âIâm yours all night babyâŚâ He murmured, kissing you once more. âPromise.âÂ
You wished he were yours foreverâŚ

The next morning Aaron woke up early, his limbs still tangled with yours, your soft breaths moving his chest hairs as you lay sprawled across his upper body, your head laying just above his heart, and your hands resting on his shoulders.Â
There was sunlight, just barely starting to trickle through the blinds. If the sun was coming up, it was around six in the morning. His bodyâs internal clock was a well oiled machine. Up at six, no matter the previous nightâs activities.Â
And last night there were plenty.Â
You were sleeping so peacefully⌠and he truly didnât want to wake you.Â
But he also didnât want you to wake up alone, wondering where he went, what time he snuck out, and why he didnât say goodbye.Â
And he did have to go, if it was six, then he only had three hours to drive the twenty five minutes from your place to his. Take a five minute shower, iron a shirt and press his slacks, tie a tie, have breakfast with Jackâwho he hadnât seen since the day before the raid (Jessica was a saint)âthen drive the thirty minutes to Quantico. Which only added up to an hour and fifty minutes, but if he factored in the morning rush traffic and construction on the beltway⌠heâd be cutting it close.Â
His arms were wrapped around your waist and he tightened them, wanting you even closer for just a moment. Just to savor the weight and heat of your body on his.Â
He really hoped he got the chance to get used to it. Â
âSweetheart.â He murmured in your ear, stroking the side of your face with the backs of his fingers.
You moaned softly in your sleep and nuzzled in closer. He smiled and ran his fingers through your hair, massaging your scalp.Â
âBaby, wake up for me pleaseâŚâ He said just a little louder, kissing your forehead and stroking your back.Â
âMmm mmâŚâ You mumbled sleepily. âItâs not time yet.âÂ
âI know, baby⌠You can go right back to sleep, but I donât want you to wake up alone later and be sad that I didnât say goodbye.â He tilted your face up just enough to give himself access to your lips, which he kissed. Once, twice, three timesâŚÂ
And there⌠a smile was forming on your beautiful face now.Â
âThere you areâŚâ He whispered. âCome on pretty girl, open your eyesâŚâ
Your lashes started to flutter and he was breathlessâspeechlessâas you looked up at him with those gorgeous eyes. You looked slightly dazed and a little confused, but as your eyes grew more alert, they flooded with pure adoration that made his heart pound in his chest.Â
âGood morningâŚâ You yawned, your voice raspy and sleepy
âMorningâŚâ He hummed, kissing the tip of your nose, then your lips.Â
âWhat time is it?â You asked, nuzzling in closer to him.Â
He held you tighter and kissed your forehead again.Â
âAround six.â He told you.Â
âWork doesnât start until nine. Why are we awake?â You pouted sleepily.Â
âBecause I have to go baby, and I wanted you to know that I was leaving instead of sneaking out.â He explained softly.Â
âOhâŚâ You murmured. âWhere are you going?âÂ
âHome, I need clean clothes for work, and I want to have breakfast with Jack. I havenât seen him in three days.â He explained softly, running his fingers through your hair. Taking every opportunity to touch you while he could.Â
Your eyes shot wide and you sat up straight.Â
âOh my God, Aaron! You havenât seen Jack in three days?!â You exclaimed. âWhat are you still doing here? I mean, I like having you here but Jack is more important, you shouldâve gone home last night! He is probably worried or at least missing you!âÂ
Your concern for Jackâs emotional state was so endearing, he could help himself and pulled you back down with him. Peppering kisses all over your cheeks.Â
âYouâre so sweet, pretty girl.â He murmured. âIt was already Jackâs bedtime when we woke up last night, and I wouldnât have made it home before he fell asleep. There was no sense in it, when I knew I would make it home before he woke up this morning. So I stayed.âÂ
You relaxed slightly and he smiled.Â
âIâll be dressed and ready for work before he opens his eyes. I promise.â Aaron assured you, stroking your cheek. âAnd yes Iâm sure he misses me but heâs used to me being gone for longer stretches of time than this. Heâs okay I promise, heâll just be excited to see me when he wakes up.âÂ
âOkayâŚâ You murmured, âI feel less guilty for keeping you from him now.âÂ
He chuckled softly and kissed you thoroughly.Â
âIâll see you in a few hours, Sweetheart.â
It took him five more minutes to get out your door, and the whole drive home all he could think about was you.
He made it home by six forty and tried to be as quiet as possible coming in. Heâd already pulled his phone out to send Jess a text, letting her know it was just him and not to be scared.
âWhere have you been?âÂ
He looked up and found Jess sitting on the couch with a steaming cup of coffee in her hand. She nodded her head toward the kitchen where a second mug waited next to the coffee pot.Â
âI stayed at a co-workerâs place, weâd been up for forty eight hours and once I dropped them off, I was too tired to make it back to the bureau and then home.â He explained on his way through the living room, walking over to grab the second mug and pour his own cup. âIâm sorry I should have called and let you know, I was just exhausted and it slipped my mind.â
âOh?â Jess called softly, so he could hear her, but she wouldnât wake Jack. âWho? Was it Dave, or Spencer? Maybe Derek?â
He wasnât sure why that detail mattered, but he was happy to make small talk with her if it made her happy. She did so much for him and Jack, that Aaron sometimes felt like he owed her a debt he could never fully repay.
âUh, yeah I stayed with Dave.â He said, choosing the one he felt was most likely to cover for him if asked later.Â
Silence.
He glanced over his shoulder at her as he picked up the now full mug.Â
She was squinting at him and in that moment she looked so much like Haley that his heart clenched with pain for a brief moment, and had to take a deep breath to shake it off.Â
âWanna try that again?â She murmured, then took a sip of her coffee, watching him over the rim.Â
âWho are you, my mother?â He joked, going to sit in the chair adjacent to the couch and shooting her a teasing grin on his way by.Â
âNo, just the closest thing you have to a big sister, and youâre my little brother⌠Iâm allowed to worry. Especially with your jobâŚâ She shrugged, as if that wasnât a guilt trip. He knew she was just fishing for answers though and wasnât actually trying to upset him. âAlso, Dave called me yesterday morning, looking for you. Then called me back to let me know that they found you and you were more than alright.â
God, fucking damn it, Dave.
âI was alright.â He shrugged simply, taking a sip of his coffee. Knowing good and well he was caught in a lie, but not really caring to come clean yet. Jess wouldnât know exactly what he was lying about.
He wasnât sure he was ready to talk about it, not with Jess. He didnât want to taint thisâwhatever this wasâwith all the emotions that would come with that conversation.Â
Not yet.Â
âSoâŚâ She drawled innocently, too innocently. âWho's the girl?â
 Aaron choked on his coffee.Â
âI have no idea what youâre talking about.â He gasped through the coughing fit that overtook him.Â
But he could feel his cheeks burning.Â
âThat is the exact look you had on your face that time I caught you sneaking out of Haley's bedroom window twenty years ago.â Jess accused, a look of pure glee on her face. âAaron Hotchner, you have a girlfriend and you didnât tell me?! Spill!âÂ
He was busted⌠there was no getting out of it now. Not with Jess. When she put her mind to something, she got her way⌠come hell or high water.Â
â I- itâs- I donât-â He stuttered, trying to come up with an acceptable answer, and sighing when the best he could do was, âItâs complicated, and very, very new. But I really like her, and I did ask her outââ
â I would hope so,â Jess interrupted with a shit eating grin, âyou spent the last twenty four hours at her place!â
Aaron thought he might just melt into the floor and die. Jess was the last person he wanted to be having this conversation with right now. He just knew his face was blazing red, he was sure because it definitely felt like it was on fire.Â
âJess! Iâm not doing this with you right now, I have to get ready for work before Jack wakes up so I can eat breakfast with him before I go.â He started to get up and walk to his room, intent on following through with his planâand promise to youâto be ready for work before Jack woke so he could give the boy his full attention.
Jess just laughed.Â
âFine⌠Keep your secrets! But AaronâŚâ She called after him, and the softer tone had him pausing in the hall.Â
âYes?â He looked back at her.Â
âIâm happy for you⌠Itâs about time.â She murmured, and the smile on her face was open and genuine⌠She meant it.Â
Aaron was sure that if he opened his mouth to respond, he would tear up instead.Â
He was happy too, in a way that he hadnât been⌠in a very long time.Â
So he smiled back at her and then continued on to take his shower.Â
Jack had been over the moon to see him.Â
Heâd had a million questions and a thousand stories to tell Aaron when heâd come into the kitchen and found him sitting at the table with his Aunt Jess.Â
Aaron answered every question and listened intently to every tale the boy told, and when it was time for him to head to work heâd gotten the biggest hug with a whispered, âI love you Daddy!âÂ
He couldnât imagine a better start to the day than the one heâd had this morning.Â
Traffic was light on the way to work, he didnât get stopped at a single light and the closer he got to Quantico the more suspicious he got. He was never this lucky.Â
Usually, mornings felt like the universe was conspiring against him.Â
So he was bracing himself for the other shoe to drop as he walked into the bullpen and started the coffee machine as he did every morning. Then he walked to his office, flipping on lights as he went.
He was the first one in, as per usual, and so he sat down to catch up on his emails from the last two days. Then his phone dinged twice.Â
The first message made him grin ear to ear.
Pretty Girl: Omg I fell asleep after you left and just woke up about 15 minutes ago, Iâm gonna haul ass to the office as quickly as I can.Â
He shook his head with a soft chuckle and sent back a response.Â
Drive safely please, no one else is here yet either and Morgan is late at least twice a week. Youâre fine. - A.H.Â
He looked at the message and thought it looked too formal, too stiff, and considering the fact that he knew what it felt like to be buried inside you⌠that seemed a little cold. So he sent a second message.Â
I think I left my suit jacket at your apartment this morning, I was a little preoccupied. I'll have to come back by and get it soon. -Aaron
He didnât even have time to check the other message before you responded.Â
Pretty Girl: Iâll grab it on my way out, but uh⌠You donât need a reason to stop by, Iâll always be happy to see you. ;) Also, why do you sign your messages to us? You know your contact information is saved in our phones, right? I have always wanted to ask you that and now that youâve literally seen my pussy⌠I think I have enough good will to get a pass.
He snorted to himself.Â
Maybe because Iâm geriatric and just donât know how to use technology⌠And Iâve done a lot more to your pussy than just look at it, or do you need your memory refreshed? I would be very glad to help in that endeavor. âThe man who made you come four times yesterday
Pretty Girl: Do you want me to be late? Because if you keep talking to me like that Iâm going to have to pull over on the way there and take care of the throbbing sensation Iâve now got between my thighs.
Donât text and drive⌠Come to my office when you get here and Iâll take care of it for you.
He didnât get a response, so he assumed you were doing as he asked, and refraining from texting while driving. So he checked the other message heâd gotten just after yours.Â
Strauss: I need to see you in my office at 9:15
Aaron checked his watch. Nine oâ five. He had ten minutes to chug a cup of coffee, maybe prep with some ibuprofen (in anticipation of the headache he got anytime he had to deal with her), and then walk up to her office.Â
There was a knock on the doorframe.Â
âMorninâ lover boyâŚâÂ
Aaron groaned inwardly, then looked up at Morgan standing in the doorway.Â
âWhereâs Foxy Loxy?â Morgan teased.Â
âShe sent me a text telling me sheâd overslept and was going to be late.â He tried to brush it off, walking toward the door to go start the coffee pot.Â
âWe figured you two wouldâve just ridden in together this morning, ya know, since you were still at her house at Nine oâclock last night.â Morgan teased, following him down the stairs and through the bullpen.Â
âI went home to see my son.â Aaron muttered, not specifying when heâd gone home.
âJackâs bedtime is at like eight thirtyâŚâ Morgan quipped.Â
He couldnât help the small smile that he had to bite back at the fact that Morgan knew Jackâs bedtime. He was a great friend.Â
No matter how annoying he was being at the moment.
âI didnât say I saw him last nightâŚâ Aaron smirked, throwing Derek a bone, just to get him off his back.Â
He let out a bark of laughter and clapped Aaron on the shoulder.Â
âMy man!â He crowed.Â
Aaron just rolled his eyes, shaking his head.Â
âI have a meeting with Straus inâŚâ Aaron checked his watch. âEight minutes. I would appreciate it if youâd get the team going on the morning briefing if Iâm not back by ten.âÂ
Morganâs teasing expression dropped immediately as Aaron started pouring himself a mug of coffee, then silently offered to pour one for the other man as well.Â
âIâm good⌠What does Strauss want? Early meetings with her are never good⌠sheâs cranky in the morning.â Morgan warned, as if Aaron didnât already know.
âShe didnât say.â He answered. âJust told me to be in her office at nine fifteen.â
âI donât like that, Hotch⌠I donât like that at all.â Derek muttered.Â
Aaron just sighed and shook his head.
âIâm sure everything is fine⌠We havenât had any major discrepancies recently, we executed that raid with precision and we knew going in there would be casualties, but we didnât lose any agents or officers, we even got our UC out clean.â Hotch shrugged. âUnless one of you has something to confess⌠then she probably just wants an update on this investigation, since weâre partnered with the Organized Crime division, we made a huge bust but itâs not over.â
âWhat if she knows about you and Miss Vixen doing things together that are not so cleanâŚâ Morgan teased, but there was a hint of concern in his eyes.Â
âI donât see how she could, unless they called her about the SUV, but even then thatâs easily explainable.â Hotch assured him. âEverything is fine Morgan, if there is something to worry about, I will let you know.âÂ
âOkayâŚâ Derek muttered. âBut I still donât like it.â
With that, Aaron sat his mug in the sink, patted Derek on the shoulder and made his way up to the lair of the dragon.
âWe need to talk.â
Those were the first words Erin Strauss said to him when he entered her office.Â
They did not inspire much confidence.Â
âWell, I didnât assume you ordered me up here for coffee.â He smarted off⌠then kicked himselfâŚWhy couldnât he just sit down and be quiet? Now she was gonna be pissy.Â
âAaron, this is serious.â She said, âThe Organized Crime Section Chief called me this morning.â
Hotch stiffened.Â
âYour UC was compromised.âÂ
Everything was not fine.

You were forty five minutes late.Â
Youâd made it down stairs and then youâd realized that you couldnât text him and drive at the same time if youâd wanted to.Â
Your car was still at Quantico.
Youâd have to call a cab. Or an uber⌠but either way⌠you were gonna be much later than youâd originally expected.Â
You picked up your phone again to call Aaron and let him know⌠and then you had another horrible realization.Â
Youâd forgotten to put your phone on the charger the night before.
Youâd been a little preoccupied, as Aaron had put it.Â
Your phone only had ten percent, and you figured itâd be better to use it to hail a cab, than to call Aaron, because what could he do?Â
Besides, call a cab for you from his phone.Â
You didnât want to bother him with it, so you called the cab and then turned your phone off to spare your battery until you made it to work, running back upstairs quickly to grab a charger.
The cab took another fifteen minutes to get there.Â
By that point you knew youâd be lucky if you made it in time for the briefing.Â
The cabbie mustâve been like eighty five years old.Â
Thatâs how he drove anyway⌠five under the speed limit, the whole way and he got stuck at every single light.Â
Youâd been ready to scream.Â
When youâd finally arrived at the office, the entire unit was in an uproar. People were scattering like roaches in every direction. Morgan was standing on top of his deskâshouting ordersâJJ and Emily were both at their desk phones, nearly screaming to be heard over the commotion. Penelope was in the conference room, a laptop in front of her on the table. She was in a state of panic and Reid was doing his best to console her.Â
You looked around for Aaron. There. In his office with Rossi, he was on his cell phone, it looked like he was calling someone, and then every time they didnât answer, the furrow in his brow would deepen. His usual suit jacket had been discarded somewhere, his tie was missing, he had two buttons undone on his shirt and his sleeves were rolled up halfway to his elbows.Â
Something was seriously wrong.
You picked your way through the crowd, trying to get to someone so they could tell you what was going on. You reached Morgan first, and tugged on the leg of his pants, just to get his attention.Â
âWhat is happening?!?!â You shouted up at him.Â
When he looked down and saw you, his eyes widened with⌠relief? Then he grabbed you by the arm and hauled you up onto the desk with him.Â
âMorgan!â You protested, but he wasnât listening to you.Â
âEverybody quiet! QUIET!â He shouted, and the bull pen fell still. JJ and Emily gasped and then Morgan shouted one last thing as he turned you to face Aaronâs office, âHOTCH!âÂ
Aaron turned and looked out his window. When he made eye contact with you, he dropped his phone and came running out of his office, Rossi hot on his trail.Â
âWhat is happening?â You asked again as the crowd parted for him like the red sea.Â
Nobody answered you. Not as Aaron reached the desk, grasped both your hips and unceremoniously transferred your feet to the floor. Not as he took you by the elbow and pulled you, gently but firmly up to his office. Not as he slammed the door and closed the blinds.
They just stared until they could no longer see you, in wide eyed relief.Â
âAaron, what in the world?! What isââÂ
He backed you up against the door and kissed you.Â
His hands were everywhere; your face, your shoulders, your arms, your waist, your hair⌠It was like he was checking to make sure you were still in one piece.Â
You didnât know what had frightened him so badlyâterrified him, it seemedâbut you were happy to console him if you could. So you let him kiss you, until he was satisfied.Â
He finally pulled away, just enough so that he could speakâagainst your lips with his forehead pressed to yoursâbut he did not let go. His hands cupping both sides of your head.Â
âWhere have you been?â He breathed.Â
âI- I told you I was going to be lateâŚâ You murmured, confusion wasnât a strong enough word to describe what you were feeling.
âYou werenât answering your phone, your car was in the parking lot but you were nowhere to be found, none of your neighbors would pick up their phonesâŚâ He started listing things like they were explanation enough, but they werenât.
âMy phone was almost dead, I forgot to charge it last night. I turned it off to save the battery just in case I needed it. I also forgot my car was here so I had to catch a cab, and he was the slowest driver in history I swear and thenâ Aaron whatâs wrong?â You pulled back farther to look at him.Â
He was shaking.Â
âAre you angry at me?â You whispered. âIâm sorry I was so late, I didnât mean to beâŚâÂ
He shook his head and just pulled you into his arms. Holding your head against his chest tightly and pressed a kiss into your hair.Â
âNo baby, Iâm not mad at you.â He murmured. âI thought Iâd lost youâŚâÂ
âLost me??â You asked him incredulously. âAaron what is going on!?âÂ
He pulled you over to the couch and sat down beside you, unwilling to be separated by a desk.Â
âSweatheart⌠you were compromised⌠Organized Crime called Strauss this morning to tell her they suspected your cover was blown.â He explained. âAnd then we couldnât find you.âÂ
No. That wasnât possibleâŚ
âWhat?â You asked, your heart pounding in your chest as fear took hold. âNo, I got out clean. Thereâs no way.âÂ
âIâm sorry, honey, but you didnât⌠We thought you did⌠but apparently one of the bouncers recognizedââ He paused and clenched his fist in his lap. âHe recognized me.âÂ
âYou? Howââ You knew the answer before you finished asking the question. âThe private room⌠He remembered you from the night weâŚâ
âYeah⌠He did.â Aaron nodded. âApparently Organized Crime also has a UC in the ring⌠he sent in a warning at his last check in. They know about you. Iâm so sorry, babyâŚâ
You were shocked⌠you knewâof courseâwhen you signed up for this, that something like this could happen⌠but you never imagined that it would.
âWhat do I do?â You finally had the wherewithal to ask.Â
âWe, will keep you safeââÂ
There was a knock at the door.Â
Aaron nodded you over toward the desk and you moved to sit in one of the two chairs as Aaron sat in his desk chair.Â
âCome in.â He called out.Â
You shot Aaron a nervous glance, as Chief Strauss entered the office.Â
âI heard you found her.â She said immediately and then her eyes fell on you. âAh good youâre already here. Weâre glad to see you safe and sound. Letâs talk about next steps.â
Aaron cleared his throat.Â
âI was just getting to that.â He said, glancing back at you. âI think this team is more than capable of protecting her, we can work out a schedule and sheâll stay with one of us every week. Sheâll never be alone and once we take the ring down, everything will go back to normal.â
Strauss frowned at him and shook her head.Â
âI know you can be brash, Aaron, but let's not be so shortsighted. How is your team supposed to focus on the rest of your case load if theyâre so busy protecting her. Taking down this ring could take years, and our entire case rests on her testimony. Without it you have no probable cause and no reason for raiding that night club.â Strauss reasoned. âSo of course she must be protected at all costs, but your team doesnât have the time or the resources. Correct me if Iâm wrong Agent, but youâre unattached, no spouse, no children, no close family?âÂ
You blinked at her, in shock for a moment. She spoke as though your life was only as valuable as your testimony.Â
âErin.â Hotch muttered, giving her a look that you didnât quite understand. âShe is invaluable to this unit, and I would be hard pressed to find a replacement.âÂ
âI asked you a question.â Strauss said to you, ignoring him.Â
You snapped out of it.Â
âYes maâam, thatâs correct.â You murmured softly, warily.Â
You didnât like the way Aaron was looking at her, you didnât like the way she was looking at you.Â
âWhatâs going on?â You asked.Â
âIt would be in the best interest of the caseâand your safety of courseâif you went into the program.â She said bluntly.Â
You felt your brow furrow.Â
âWhat program?â You whispered⌠because speaking any louder seemed unwise at that momentâŚ
âWitness Protection.â They said it at the exact same time. Strauss sounded determined, Aaron sounded defeated.Â
âWhat?â You felt your chest caving in, your breaths starting to accelerate, tears welling in your eyes and you could only look at Aaron. âSir. I- I donât need that kind of protection, I can stay. I don't want to uproot my life for this.â
You knew that only he heard the unspoken, I donât want to leave you for this.
The look he gave you wouldâve broken your heart if it wasnât shattering already.Â
âCan you give us a week? If we canât function as a unit and protect her at the same time, then weâll send her into the program.â He bargained.Â
âAaronâŚâ She sighed. âI didnât want to tell her this, but if you two are going to be stubborn⌠The other UC made contact again. He was calling for an extraction, he thought they suspected him too⌠His unit didnât get there in time.â
The panic that bubbled up in your chest was sickening, your heart rate skyrocketed, your body began to shake uncontrollably, you broke out in a cold sweat and you couldnât breathe.Â
âShit.â You vaguely heard Aaron say, everything sounded like you were underwater. âGive me till the end of the day, she wonât leave the building, and Iâll have her ready to go by five.âÂ
âIâll let the Marshalls know.â Strauss murmured, then laid her hand on your shoulder. You looked up at her on instinct alone and her face softened slightly. âYou did good work⌠The Marshalls know what theyâre doing, youâll be in good hands.â
Then she left the room.Â
Aaron had you in his arms as soon as the door clicked shut.Â
âYouâre okay, Iâve got you.â He murmured.Â
One of his hands stroked your hair as he pressed your head to his chest, the other on your back. You could hear his heart beatâstrong and steadyâit was the only thing tethering you to solid ground. The only thing keeping you from spiraling.Â
You didnât cry, you were too shocked to cry.Â
You just sat thereâshakingâin stunned silence.Â
âTalk to me sweetheartâŚâ He murmured after⌠you didnât even know how long. âWhatâs going on in there?âÂ
He tapped the side of your head with the tip of his finger.
âI donât knowâŚâ You murmured, shaking your head as you pulled away, just enough to look up at him, making eye contact. âI- I know that itâs safer for the team⌠if I go⌠but I donât wanna leave the BAU⌠I donât wanna leave you.âÂ
âYouâre not leaving to protect us, baby, itâs you thatâs in danger here.â He murmured, you nodded that you knew⌠and he took your chin between his thumb and forefinger, tipping your head up. âAnd you are not leaving. Not for good, it will be a leave of absence, just a sabbatical. I wonât replace you, the position will still be waiting for you when all this is over. I promise.â
You nodded, biting your lip, hesitant to ask what you really wanted to know.Â
âAnd so will I.â He whispered. âWhatever is between us⌠itâs worth waiting for.â
That was when the tears started to fall down your cheeks.Â
âI could be gone for years, Aaron, I canât ask that of youâŚâ You whimpered.Â
âI would wait decades to feel how I feel when Iâm with you.â He confessed, wiping away tears with his thumbs as they rolled down your cheeks.Â
You didnât care that you were in the office, you didnât care that the door was unlocked, you didnât care about anything in that moment⌠You just knew that you needed to kiss himâŚÂ
At least one more time.Â
So you surged forward and melded your lips to his.Â
He met you half way, with a tender sort of passion that told you this wasnât going to end with a kiss. When he buried his hands in your hair, you whimpered against his lipsâŚÂ
âI need youâŚâ You sighed, barely breaking the kiss.Â
He hauled you up out of your chair, picking you up by the backs of your thighs, and you wrapped your legs around his waist as he carried you across the room. He locked the door, pressing your back into it as he parted your lips with his tongue.Â
You let him in easily, your hands going to the nape of his neck and tangling in his hair.Â
He tasted of coffee and salt.
You realized then, that the saltâŚwas from your tears⌠Still steadily rolling down your cheeks.Â
He didnât seem to mind.Â
Leaning back slightly, and stroking them with his thumbs as he looked at you. Then, as if compelled to do it, he leaned forward and kissed the tears away, so tenderly you thought you might die from the sweetness.Â
He turned with you still in his armsâwrapped around him so tightly nothing could have pried you awayâand laid you onto your back on the couch, lowering himself over the top of you.Â
He started to kiss his way down your throat and when he found the collar of your shirt he started to unbutton it slowly, continuing his trail of kisses with every button he freed.Â
You ran your fingers through his hair and down to his shoulders, clinging to him as if he might disappear if you let go⌠Because you knew, this could be the last time you ever felt him this close.Â
It wasnât fair.Â
Youâd only just found your way to each other. You shouldâve had so much more time.
Two days would never be enough.Â
His mouth trailed down your stomach and he found the button of your pants with his fingers, undoing it with barely a thought. He knelt at your feet beside the couch and gently removed your shoes. Looking up at you with so many emotions swirling around in his eyes that you couldnât pinpoint what they were.Â
Then he hooked his thumbs into your pants and slipped them down over your hips, pressing a kiss to the point of each hip bone as he did. The warmth of his mouth on your skin had you arching up off the couch.Â
When he pressed a soft, lingering kiss to the front of your panties, just below the little black bow on the waist band, you moaned.Â
He made his way back up your torso to your mouth, trailing kisses until he reached your lips. Kissing you deeply, so that any sounds you made would be caught by his mouth. Then his hand slipped beneath the lace of your panties, finding your clit and circling it with gentle precision.Â
You slid your hands down his back and tugged the tail of his shirt out of his slacks, reaching beneath the fabric, desperate to feel his skin beneath your finger tips instead.Â
He shuddered at your touch, leaning further into it and deepening the kiss, his teeth nipping at your lips gently.Â
You whimpered softly and pressed up into his hand with your hips, his fingers dipped down from your clit and found you already wet for him.Â
âAaron, please.â You whispered against his lips. âI need you.â
You knew you didnât have a lot of time. Not here.Â
He sat up, dragging your panties down your legs slowly.Â
The sound of his belt buckle jingling, the rasp of his zipper, and your mingled panting breaths filled the silence.Â
Your eyes never left his, and his never left yours.Â
As he lined himself up with your entrance, he lowered himself back over you. His lips met yours again as he slowly pushed into you, catching the low groan that escaped you.Â
You felt every inch of him as he stilled inside of you.Â
He kept kissing you through it, one hand on the sofa next to your head, the other cupping your cheek.Â
When he started to move, his strokes were long and slow, like he was memorizing the way it felt to be inside of you. To be kissing you. He pulled away from your lips, and his eyes roved your face, the hand on your cheek threading through your hair instead. Pushing it away from your eyes. Taking in every little detail of you and committing it to his memory.Â
Committing you to memory.
The realization that he also knew that this could be itâthat you could be gone for years or end up deadâwas too much for you to bear and you began to cry again.Â
Tears slipped down your cheeks no matter how hard you tried to blink them away.Â
âBaby?â He didnât even have to voice the question, just stopped moving and looked at you with concerned eyes.Â
âYouâre looking at me like youâre never gonna see me again and I⌠it just feels like this is it. This is all we get.â You explained, wiping at your own tears. Trying to get rid of them.Â
He grasped your wrist, gently moving it away from your face as your tears fell freely.Â
âThis is not the last time.â He murmured, wiping them away with his thumb. âThis will not be the last time I hold you, it will not be the last time I kiss your lips, or the last time I fuck you until you think youâve seen God.â Â
You knew the last line was supposed to make you laugh⌠but you only sobbed harder at the memory. The last two days had been so perfect.Â
âHey⌠sweetheart listen to me.â He whispered. âWe will get that first date, we will get to experience the relentless teasing of Morgan and Prentiss, we will have so many firsts together that itâll be like this never happened.âÂ
You both knew that those were pretty words⌠but it was a promise he couldnât make. You let him have that hope though, because you wanted to believe just as badly.Â
So you nodded and pulled him down by the back of his neck to kiss him. He started to move inside you again, his thrusts a little more urgent now, like he needed you so desperately he could hardly contain himself.Â
And you felt that urgency too⌠growing in the pit of your stomach.Â
âDonât hold back.â You murmured against his lips on a gasp for air.Â
It was like he only needed to know you wanted him just as badly in that moment as he needed you, because as soon as the words left your mouth he let all restraint fly out the window.Â
Your head tipped back on a strangled moan as he fucked you deeper and harder than he had been before. He muffled the sound with his own mouth, kissing you with bruising passion.Â
âShh, I know it feels good baby, but I need you to stay quiet, unless you want the whole bullpen to know what Iâm doing to you.â He murmured against your lips when you quieted.Â
Just like that, your brain left the building, as it tended to do when this man touched you and spoke to you like that.Â
The force of his thrusts were moving your body⌠and the couch, which had started to make a scraping sound against the floor.Â
 Aaron wasted no time, scooping you up off the couch, wrapping your legs around his waist and pinning you to the closest wall. Where he fucked you like his life depended on it, slipping one hand between your head and the wall so you wouldnât bump against it, and holding you aloft with the other under your thigh.Â
He kissed you like you were water in the desert and he hadnât had a drop in days. The strength of his lower body had you secured against the wall as he pounded into you.Â
His hand moved from your thigh and slipped down between your bodies. His fingers located your clit with practiced ease that had you biting your lipâwait, no, that was his lipâto keep quiet. He groaned softly at the sting of your teeth and tangled his fingers into your hair, tugging on it just hard enough for you to feel it.Â
His lips moved from yours as he kissed his way across your cheek and down your neck, nipping and sucking lightly at the skin there.Â
It made you tighten around him and he moaned quietly.Â
âIâm gonna think about this every night until I have you in my arms again, I wonât be able to help it.â He whispered, biting your earlobe gently. âWhen I close my eyes Iâll see the face you make when you come, Iâll hear the sounds I drag from you with my mouth, feel the way you clench around my cock⌠nothingâno oneâcould ever compare. Not to you.âÂ
You felt that tell tale tension rising in your core⌠the way he spoke to youâŚÂ
The way his fingers worked your clit in tandem with the thrusts of his hipsâhis cock hitting that perfect spot inside you⌠Every. Single. Time.Â
All that combined with his mouth on your neckâlips, tongue and teeth finding every sensitive patch of skinâwas almost too much to bear.Â
âAaron!â You whimpered as he drove you closer and closer to that edge, clutching at him desperately for anything to hold on to.Â
âI know, Sweetheart, I know⌠I can feel you. Youâre so close arenât you? Just need a little more, huh?â He murmured against your neck.
âYes!â You whined, your nails sinking into his biceps, the only place you could find purchase. âAaron, please!âÂ
âOkay baby, youâre gonna have to be quiet. Can you do that for me?â His voice rolled over you like a caress, making the knot in your core tighten even further and you could only whimper in response. He kissed your jaw and your eyes fluttered closed. âItâs okay baby, bite my shoulder if you need to.âÂ
The very thought of biting himâŚÂ
So you did.
You reached up and pulled his collar to the side, and sank your teeth into the muscle where his neck met his shoulder.Â
âFuck, sweetheartâŚâ He groaned in your ear, it was the most obscene sound youâd ever heard, the rasp in his voice knocking the little breath you had from your lungs.Â
The ball of tension in your core exploded.Â
You bit down harder on Aaronâs shoulder just to keep from screaming and he held you close as your whole body tensed so tightly you werenât even sure you were breathing.Â
âBaby I- Iâm-â He started trying to pull out of you, but you held on tightly with your arms and legs.Â
âDonât pull out!â You pleaded, through the euphoric bliss flooding your body.Â
âFuck!â He gasped, and you felt the warmth of his cum filling you up as he thrusted through it.Â
Your body went limp, your vision fuzzy, your breathing staggered.Â
You let your head fall to his shoulder as you panted.Â
His chest was heaving as he leaned into you, using his body weight to hold you up and not much else.Â
âWeâre making a habit of thatâŚâ He murmured after a moment. âAs adults we really should know better.âÂ
âA habit of what?â You mumbled, your brain too sex-adled to put it together on your own.Â
âMe coming inside youâŚâ He responded quietly. âDonât get me wrong, itâs amazing and Iâll never get enough of it, but a pregnancy is the last thing you need right now.â
You scoffed.Â
âThatâs what pills are for.â You joked. âBut can you imagine trying to explain that to the team⌠Christ⌠I can practically hear Morgan and Garcia calling us mommy and daddy nowâŚâÂ
He groans in exasperated amusement.Â
âIâll give you the money for one, though you do know those arenât one hundred percent effective, right?â He murmurs, leaning his head over and kissing your forehead.Â
âMm hmm.â You hummed, nodding. âThat wasnât the pill I was referring to though. Iâm on birth control, but I guess the added protection wouldnât hurt. Since birth control isnât always fool proof either.âÂ
He just pressed another kiss to your forehead and then carried you back to the couch. Laying you down on your back as he slowly pulled out of you, making you both moan softly.Â
âLetâs get you cleaned upâŚâ He murmured. âWe need to tell the others what the plan is.â

Aaron had a million things on his mind as he helped you get cleaned up.Â
He had found some baby wipes in his filing cabinetâthat he kept around because they were handy to have everywhere when you had a young childâand brought them back over to the couch.Â
âLay back for me, sweetheart.â He murmured as he knelt by your hips.Â
âYou donât have to do that.â You whispered, biting your bottom lip and blushing probably the prettiest shade of pink heâd ever seen.Â
âI made the mess. Iâll clean it up.â He smirked at you, as your face went from pink to red. âBaby, thereâs no need to be embarrassed. I enjoy taking care of you.âÂ
âOkayâŚâ You whispered.Â
And he was getting a weird read on your body language⌠he couldnât quite put a finger on it.Â
âUnless thatâs going to make you uncomfortable?â He asked, fishing for an explanation for your sudden loss of confidence.Â
âNot at all!â You shook your head almost violently as you tried to assure him that wasnât the case.Â
Okay⌠that wasnât itâŚÂ
So he went about gently cleaning you up, knowing that you would tell him what was bothering you eventually. You couldnât handle the silenceâheâd noticedâyou always felt the need to fill it, and that was fine with him. He loved to hear your voice.Â
It wasnât until he was helping you slip back into your panties that you spoke up.Â
âAaron?â You murmured softly, hesitantly.Â
âHmm?â He hummed, biting back his smile.Â
âI uh- I donât want you to thinkâŚâ You bit your lip again and looked away.Â
âThatâs gonna be a bit of a problem in our line of work sweetheart.â He teased softly.Â
âAaronâŚâ You groaned, but he could hear the amusement in your tone.Â
âWhat is it baby?â He asked, pressing a kiss to your knee before turning to grab your pants off the floor.Â
âI just⌠I need you to know that I donât just⌠do that⌠with just anyone. Iâm not usually irresponsible like thatâŚâ You explainedâvery vaguely, he might addâand yet he only felt more confused.Â
âDo what, sweetheart?â He asked for clarification as he gathered your pant legs up so theyâd be easy for you to step into, then pulled your legs over the side of the couch so that your feet landed in the holes.Â
And you just let him, not making a single move on your own to help. Which he found both amusing and endearing, especially being an expert in body language. This screamed complete and total trust.Â
At least on the physical level, you knew heâd never hurt you.Â
âI donât let guys⌠finish like that⌠inside me, I mean.â You seemed to struggle getting the words out. âI- Iâm not like that, I know thatâs incredibly risky for so many reasons. I- Iâm not easy⌠Itâs just⌠itâs different with you. I donât think when it comes to you, I justâŚâÂ
Aaronâs brain short circuited.Â
He didnât hear the rest of your sentence, he was too busy processing the first few fragmented phrases. It seemed that you were in the process of trying to convince him that you were not promiscuous.Â
Which he already knew.Â
So this confused him. He was unsure of what he might have said or done to imply that you were. He was, however, very sure that he hated the very implication that heâd made you feel that way.Â
âHoneyâŚâ He murmured, reaching up to cup your face in his palm.Â
You just kept talking. Prattling on about how he was the first person youâd ever allowed to take such a liberty with youâwhich made his toes curl and gave him butterflies, (he would examine those phenomena later) âand how it wasnât like you to sleep with someone before youâd even been on a date.Â
Ah⌠There it was.Â
Last night heâd said, conventionally heâd take you on a date before sleeping with you. Then just a minute ago heâd pointed out that he probably shouldnât make a habit of finishing inside you because it wasnât safe⌠and heâd told you that contraceptives werenât completely effective.Â
Yeah, he could see where you might have taken that the wrong way.Â
He took your face in both hands and kissed you. Thoroughly.
It shocked you enough to quiet you.Â
âHoney, I never thought you were any of those things.â He assured you. âItâs not exactly a normal situation weâre in right now⌠the way I feel about you is⌠intense. It makes sense that we would get carried away and, clearly, that's something we both seem to⌠enjoy⌠and thatâs all that matters, as long as weâre safe about it.âÂ
You blinked at him for a second and there were a million different thoughts running across your face. Most of them seemed to be filthy.Â
âI really wish we had time to do whatever just went through your head.â He teased as he pulled you to your feet and then pulled your pants up over your thighs and hips. âUnfortunatelyâŚâ
You grinned up at him.Â
âWe should probably make an appearance soon, or people might wonder.â You finished his thought.Â
Then, together you made sure your clothes were straightened and hair was neat. Aaron put his jacket and tieâwhich you straighten for himâback on and then he watched you fix your make up. Thinking to himself how beautiful you were the entire time.Â
âReady?â He asked when you turned back toward him.Â
You nodded your head and he held his hand out to you from where he now sat behind his desk. You came around the corner of it and took his outstretched hand and he pulled you down into his lap.Â
The little giggle that bubbled out of you made his heart clench, he didnât know when heâd next hear that sound⌠and heâd started to get used to it.
âAaron!â You hummed happily. âYou said we had to go!âÂ
âI knowâŚâ He murmured, looking up at you and tucking a stray lock of hair behind your ear. âI just want you all to myself⌠for at least one more minute.âÂ
Sadness flooded your eyes and he immediately regretted bringing that up.Â
âDo I really have to go?â You whispered, holding back tears again.Â
Aaron took a deep, in through his noseâhold 1, 2, 3, 4âŚâout through his mouth. His face tipping up to the ceiling, his eyes closing. He knew he had to say that you did have to goâŚÂ
It was the safest thing for you⌠even if it broke both your hearts. Â
âYes.â He sighed. âBecause staying puts you in twice the danger. Staying and working on this case puts you in direct contact with people who have orders to kill you. But in WITSEC, youâll get a whole new identity, you can alter your appearance, and they will get you far away from here. Youâll be safe.âÂ
And yet⌠he had that little nagging feeling in the back of his mind⌠a little voice that whispered: âAre you sure sheâll be safe? The last time you put the woman you loved in WITSEC⌠you never saw her alive again.âÂ
He recognized that voice, it haunted him in every decision he made. The voice belonged to a dead man⌠he shoved that voice into a deep dark hole in the back of his mind.Â
WITSEC was safer than staying here, and last time the situation had been much different.Â
âI donât think Iâve ever been safer than I am right now.â You murmured.Â
He smiled softly at you, at the implication that his arms were the safest place you could think of.
âIâm glad you think soâŚâ he murmured, kissing the tip of your nose. âWe should go, we have prepping to do before I send you with the Marshals.âÂ
âPrepping?â You asked.Â
âYouâll see.â He answered.Â
A few minutes later, when you walked together into the conference room to find the others⌠they were making a plan.Â
âHotch!â Morgan said upon seeing the two of you. âWeâve got a plan, we wanna run it by you, but weâve got a schedule all worked out and we think we can manage the case load and this case, all while protecting Foxy. Hereâs what weâve got-âÂ
Aaron held up a hand.Â
âStop.â He said softly, glancing down at you to find tears in your eyes again. He hated seeing you cry. He laid a hand on the small of your back before he continued. âThereâs already a plan, itâs already being put into motion. I appreciate this effort from you all, truly I do⌠but the circumstances are more complicated than we thought. We canât handle this on our own and keeping her here with us only puts her in more danger, because we have to keep working the case.âÂ
The room was silent for a second, confusion thick in the air.Â
âOkayâŚâ Morgan said. âThen whatâs the plan, fill us in so we can help.âÂ
Aaron pressed his lips together in a tight line⌠he knew the reaction this was going to get. He knew that the others would hate this just as much as he did and if anything happened to youâŚ
Theyâd blame him just as much as heâd blame himself.Â
A small sniffle drew everyoneâs eyes over to you. You were crying again.Â
âSheâs crying.â Penelope whispered. âWhy is she crying?âÂ
âIâm sorry, Iâm trying not to.â You whimpered, and Aaron couldnât take it.Â
He pulled you into his arms and hugged you tight, in front of the whole team.Â
He didnât care to hide it from them, not when they already knew.Â
âYou cry if you need to, sweetheart, itâs okay.â He murmured into your hair and held you tighter.Â
âHotch?â Emily, questioned. âWhat is going on?âÂ
Aaron swallowed hard, stroking your hair soothingly.Â
âStrauss is sending her into the programâŚâ He murmured. âAnd for once⌠I agree with Strauss. This is whatâs best for her.âÂ
âThe program!?â Spencer exclaimed. âW-what- like witness protection??âÂ
Aaron nodded.Â
All hell broke loose.
Heâd been expecting it⌠heâd known they wouldnât take it well. Hell they were taking it worse than you were, just like heâd known they would. It was still hard to be patient with themâŚÂ
He let them get it all outâŚÂ
The surprise, the anger, the fear, the hurt and the sadness.Â
But when he told them about the other UCâthe dead oneâthey changed their tune. If the ring was gonna go scorched earth on anyone they were suspicious of⌠the team couldnât imagine what the ring would do to you, a woman they knew was a material witness against them.Â
Well they didnât have to imagine, because they knew⌠so they just tried not to think about it.Â
One by one theyâd all come to the realization that this was the only safe course of action.Â
Even if it wasnât a sure fire guarantee.Â
âYou wanted to know what you can do to help.â He reminded them when they all settled down of their own accord. Resigned to the reality of the situation. They all nodded sorrowfully. âEach of you has a skill that I need, to give her the best shot at surviving this until trial. Until itâs safe for us to protect her ourselves.âÂ
Heâd been holding you against his chest the entire time, and you finally looked up at him curiously.Â
âMorgan, I want you to put her on the sparring mat. Find every weakness she has and tell her what they are so she can fix them.â He said to Derek who nodded seriously. Then he looked at you. âYou write down everything he says and when you get wherever youâre going you find a gym or an mma class and you practice everyday, do you understand me?âÂ
You nodded at him with wide fearful eyes, and he hated scaring you but he would not let you be vulnerable⌠you werenât Haley, you were already capable of defending yourself⌠but heâd made a mistake in sending her away when she was defenseless on her own.Â
He would allow you to go unprepared.Â
âPrentiss, youâre gonna teach her everything you can about spotting a tail and losing it. Youâre gonna teach her how to disappear.â He instructed Emily.
âOf courseâŚâ She murmured, she was biting her nails⌠she only did that when she was stressed and scared.Â
âJJ youâre gonna get her back up identities. Not the one sheâll be using, because we donât need to know that name⌠but others⌠just in case it goes belly up and they find her. So she can get out on her own and call us if she needs help.â He made eye contact with JJ, who was watching him with scrutinizing eyes⌠she was checking in on him.Â
âIâm on it Hotch.âÂ
âSpencer and Penelope, I need you monitoring chatter. If you pick up anything that sounds remotely like theyâve found her you alert me and the Marshals immediately.âÂ
They both nodded.Â
âWhat about me Aaron?â Dave asked, and Aaron took a deep breath.
âI need you to remain objective. Keep your focus on the case and not on her⌠because I canât⌠Iâm emotionally compromised, and I wonât let this happen again. So I need you to keep things above board, the whole case hinges on her testimony. Every bit of evidence we gather is a step closer to bringing her home. But we have to get it right.â He explained, hoping the urgency he felt was being conveyed. âIf we donât, and they walk, they might target her out of spite.âÂ
He felt you flinch in his arms and he looked down at you.Â
âI wonât let that happen.â He murmured into your hair.Â
âWhen does she leave?â Penelope asked, tears slipping down her cheeks now too.Â
âEnd of day⌠today.â He answered. âSo we have to work fast. Itâs nearly eleven, we have until five. Letâs get started.âÂ
The rest of the day seemed to go by in a blur and the whole time, Aaron couldnât bring himself to leave your side.Â
He watched you spar with Morgan. Helped to spot out your weaknesses and even wrote them down for you.Â
He sat with you as Emily lectured you on spotting and losing a tail, he made you take notes and made you promise to study them.Â
No one stopped for lunch.Â
When Emily was done with you they sat you down because Spencer and Penelope had compiled a power point of every single known member of the ring. Pictures, aliases, identifying marks, and last known addresses. They put it on a flash drive for you to take with you when you left so you could go over it every chance you got.Â
After that, he took you down to the shooting range himself.Â
He worked with you on your concealed carrying techniques and your draw to fire speed with each carry style. As a federal agent you didnât need a permit to carry. You just had to pass your weapons qualifications, and you did more than pass. You were nearly perfect.Â
Rossi finally made you all pause to eat an early dinner since youâd had no lunch. Heâd run home, and heâd made your favorite Italian dish. He even gave you the recipe with specific instructions so you could have it while you were gone.Â
JJ had come back just in time for dinner. A manila envelope in handâŚ
It was thick.
She didnât give it to you, not yet. You were laughing with Reid and Garcia over something and he could see by the look in her eyes that she did not want to interrupt that moment of peace.
He was sitting right next to you at the round table, but it didnât feel close enough.Â
He tugged your chair a little closer and rested his hand on your thigh.Â
One by one the others fell silent, he could see them out of the corner of his eye, elbowing each other and grinning conspiratorially.
He didnât care, he was too busy absorbing every detail of youâŚÂ
âWe still want answers about this, by the wayâŚâ Emily droned, gesturing between the two of you.
He didnât bother looking at her, he watched you.Â
You blushed bright pink⌠God you were beautiful.Â
âOh?â You feigned innocence.Â
He wasnât going to hide from them though, this was his family⌠your family. He may not like their prying, but they did it because they cared.Â
âI would think you got more answers than you were looking for last night, Prentiss.â Aaron drawled in return.Â
Your face turned beet red at that, and Emily opened her mouth to give a retort, but Garcia beat her to the punch, grinning smugly from ear to ear.
âReally? Then uh, howâs that geriatric cat of hers feeling today? Still pretty energetic?â She asked teasingly, âOr did all the playtime from the last few days wear him out? Heâs not as young as he used to be, ya knowâŚâÂ
âWoah, woah, woah, easy on the geriatric!â Dave protested. âYou all are getting a little loose with that word around here.â Â
Everyone laughed and Aaron couldnât help himself.Â
âI mean, in cat years heâs only a little over forty, thatâs not considered geriatric is it?â He joked.
âWell Iâm a little over forty and if I were to get knocked up right now theyâd consider it a geriatric pregnancy so it think itâs only fair to label the boys that too.â Prentiss finally got her jab in.Â
âNow wait a minute, cut the old fella some slackâŚâ JJ chimed, a sly smirk on her face. âShe said he had stamina for his age.âÂ
Derek finally opened his mouth to chime in but Spencer cleared his throat loudly and nodded toward the bullpen, everyone turned to look.Â
Strauss was headed toward the cat walk with two men and a woman Aaron didnât know.Â
He checked his watch.Â
Four fifty five⌠theyâd be the marshals then.Â
The room went completely still, the silence heavy and thick.Â
Then Emily was on your case again.
âWITSEC cannot save you from me, maâam! You have to come home eventually and when you doâŚâ she waved her fork at you menacingly. âWe will be having a discussion about what we heard last night!â
Her attempt to ease the tensionâthe sadnessâin the room did not go unnoticed.Â
Sad smiles were offered up around the room, and next to him, Aaron heard you sniffle.Â
He was so tired of seeing you cry, knowing there was nothing he could do to make it better.Â
So he didnât look.Â
âI love you guysâŚâ You murmured, your voice quiet and strangled. âAnd Iâm gonna miss you all so much.âÂ
Strauss rapped on the door frame as she stepped inside.Â
âI donât want to interrupt but the Marshals are here, and they already have a placement ready for her. They would like to get on the road as soon as possible.â She announced.Â
It seemed like everyone forgot how to breathe for a moment.Â
âThank you, Maâam.â Was all Aaron could manage to say.Â
She took in the silence, the mood of the room, andâfor onceâdid the right thing.Â
âIâll give you all a moment to say your goodbyes.â She murmured and then turned to you and said, âWeâll wait for you at the elevator.âÂ
âThank you, Maâam.â You whispered, your voice barely a breath, almost inaudible.Â
Strauss nodded and walked out.Â
âDid she just⌠do something mildly considerate?â JJ asked as soon as Strauss was out of ear shot.Â
Derek scoffed, Emily groaned and Dave winced.Â
âIs that what she was going for?â Spencer asked.Â
âYou should have seen her this morning when she told us about WITSEC. She was almost motherly.â Aaron joked, just trying to do anything to make you smileÂ
âIs that what she was going for?â You quipped with a smile, but it was a weak one at best.Â
No one really laughed.Â
Penelope was the first to move, rushing out of her chair and pulling you out of yours.Â
âCome here you!â She murmured as she squeezed you so tightly, that Aaron wasnât sure you could breathe.Â
After that the others all took turns embracing you, squeezing you nearly lifeless. JJ gave you the manila envelope, and told you what was in it.
And then he was the only one left, and he knew the others had made it so on purpose, because they had all embraced you⌠So could he.Â
He took you into his arms and held you tightly to his chest.Â
âYou are going to be just fine. Youâll be home before you know it and we can have that first date.â He murmured into your hair, sealing the promise withâwhat he hoped wasâan almost imperceptible kiss to the top of your head.Â
Your arms around his waist tightened and for several moments neither of you moved.Â
He soaked up every second of it, memorizing the way your body felt against his own, the warmth of it, the smell of your hair, the rise and fall of your chest against his own.Â
âIâll write to you, if theyâll let meâŚâ You murmured into his chest, he squeezed you tighter.Â
âOnly if you send it directly through the Marshals, not the mail.â He warned you.Â
âOf course.â You murmured, and then you were pulling away⌠and as desperately as he wanted to hold onto you for dear lifeâŚ
He had to let you go.Â
âIâll write to all of you.â You murmured to the team as a whole. âEvery week.â
They all nodded, no one seemed inclined to speak.Â
âLet me walk you out?â He offered softly.Â
But you turned with tears in your eyes and shook your head no.Â
âIf you walk out there with me I wonât be able to keep it together in front of Strauss, and I wonât be able to make myself get in that car.â You whispered. âI have to go alone.â
âI understandâŚâ He choked out against his own tears. âGoââÂ
âDonât.â You pleaded with him. âDonât say that, if you donât say it⌠it feels less final.â
He nodded, wiping away a tear that rolled down your cheek.Â
âIâll see you soon.â He murmured instead.Â
You nodded at that.Â
âIâll see you soon.â You repeated.Â
Then you turned and fled the room.Â
They watched you go together. He made eye contact with you one final time as the elevator doors slid closed in front of you, blocking you from sight, and carrying you away.

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Posting a day late because I had an exam yesterday. Inspiration (aka the Narilamb demons) struck and I immediately locked in on making these
Also I changed Lambâs outfit a little
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ik have so many half baked fics floating around im so sorry but I've been brain rotting tma lately so have some non proof read thoughts. as always i tried to keep it gn. this is deeply horny so nsfw under the cut
-elias using his powers for evil but in a horny way, him making you keep a vibrator in while you go about work in the archives, him turning it off and on sporadically and very much enjoying the show from the comfort of his office, no matter where you are. unfortunately for you he will Know if youre about to cum so he always gets you riiiiiggghhtttt to the edge before turring it off, laughing at how you get more and more frustrated throughout the day. if youre amab, he would Very much love watching you try to hide your hard on from the others all day, making sure to turn the vibe up when you try to discreetly readjust yourself. if youre afab, he likes to see how soaked he can make you, aiming to try and get you to soak through your pants or have slick all over your thighs under your skirt that you need to keep cleaning away. he is an absolute MENACE, if you come to his office begging him to let you cum, he will, But, he wont stop aftee just one orgasm, he is going to keep turning the vibe on and off, up and down, no matter how many times you may have cum. either way, whether hes edged or overstimulated you, you will be a shaking, crying, begging mess in his office by the end of the day </3
-you guys know how he put the truth of melanies fathers death into her mind? and how he said he could make her see it? not to be a degenerate whore but imagine him putting scenes of like you two fucking or what he wants to do with/to you into your head while you try to work or go about your day. always waiting for the worst possible moment before bam you are now imagining yourself tied up in the prettiest shibari while elias fucks your brains out. couple that with the remote control sex toys he has you wear and its a miracle you havnt just keeled over by lunch.
-oughhh also imagine him bringing you to his office 'for your performance review' where he instead has you on your knees under his desk, keeping his cock warm in your mouth while he talks about how youve been doing work wise, sounding completely composed and normal as if he isnt throbbing in your throat. if youve been good, he will finish off the review by taking you over his desk and letting you cum as many times as youd like. but if youve been bratty or slacking off? hes face fucking you and sending you off with no underwear, not allowed to even get yourself off for a couple days either. god he would be soooo mean about it too, hand tangled almost too harshly in your hair and using your mouth like a simple toy, doesnt matter if your face is an absolute mess of tears and drool, that only makes him harder. he just looovvessss the way you feel choking on him, your own hands gripping his pant legs for dear life and trying desperatly to breath through your nose as your eyes roll back, makes him feel so powerful.
ofc he isnt shutting up the entire time either, making fun of you with that stupidly sexy voice of his for how messy you are and how he can tell that you feel like you can almost cum just from getting your throat used. i know that man is great at dirty talk i just know it.
afterwards, he would continue to relentlessly tease you, cooing about how despite not being the best archives worker, you are still such a perfect little whore for him. maybe he should promote you to just being his cockwarmer while he works. he isnt totally cruel tho, while hes bullying you he would sit you on his lap or desk and gently clean your face and brushing any knots he left in your hair out, leaving you almost completely free of amy evidence of his harsh treatment. before you go, hes placing one single soft kiss to the corner of your lips(you havnt earned a full on kiss yet) before sending you on your way. he does still make sure you leave your underwear behind unfortunately, just for that extra humiliation :3
-hhhrgrhegeggrgrrgg or him bending you over his lap and spanking you for each little transgression, making you count them and apologize for each thing you did. yes he overreacts some stuff too, just so he can draw out the punishment. that time you accidently spilled a little coffee on his desk? one strike for each paper you 'ruined', no it doesnt matter it was just a receipt for his breakfast and a couple of scrapped letters. yes he is using his tie to keep your hands in front of you and his belt to really get some good hits in. oh how he relishes in your voice, how pathetic you sound begging for his forgiveness and choking out each number between cries. thank god his office is soundproof (i dont think it actually is but idc this isnt about canon)
-him making you hump his freshly cleaned and polished shoe if you want to get off, if youre gonna act like a bitch in heat may as well go all the way. he wants to see you wrap your arms around his leg and lay your head on his thigh, desperately rutting yourself against him as he uses one hand to pet your hair like one would an animal, still just writing or typing away like normal with the other.
-lord imagining him still mostly dressed besides his suit jacket off, tie gone (its shoved in your mouth), and a couple of his shirt buttons undone. GUARDSđŁâźď¸ NUKE THIS MANđŁâźď¸
-i wanna tease him by touching myself knowing hes watching from wherever he is atm, making sure im all spread out so he can see clearly.
(slight cnc and condubcon in next part, its all enthusiasticly consentual but skip to the đ if you dont wanna read it)
-sometimes, if hes really feeling mean or having a shit day, he will take it out on you via even more rough scenes. instead of just spanking your ass, hes including your chest, thighs, cheek and crotch. nothing helps him destress like coming home to tie you to the bed, breaking out the toy chest and absolutely ruining you. the louder you moan and plead for him to be gentle or slow down, the rougher he gets. sigh i need that man squeezing my throat with one hand and slapping me around with the other
-i know in my heart he is a masochist as well as a sadist, like just look at him. he would love it when you leave scratch and bite marks all over (non visable spots ofc,he still has a reputation to uphold) and how sore they feel the morning after. he just adores the bruises that show up from when you fight back, trying to get away from the overwhelming pleasure he was giving you. one of his fave things is finding all the little works of art you two left all over eachothers bodies. him rubbing cream onto the spots he struck a little too hard while you softly kissed the bite on his shoulder from when you ended up cumming for the 4th time in a row.
i hate him sm hes the absolute worst i need him to fucking explode
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-if you are an avatar or heavily influenced by one of the entities too, he will absolutely incorporate it into the play as well. the hunt? hes chasing you down and fucking you(or vise versa). the desolation? fire play. the slaughter? the roughest kink scenes you could dream of. the flesh? there will be blood drawn from how hard yall bite eachother. and so on and so forth.
-that being said, he also absolutely loves to be pegged/fucked in return, i dont make the rules. sometimes he just needs someone else to take control for a bit so he can shut his brain off some and just Do. put him in his placeâźď¸
#elias bouchard x reader#tma x reader#im only on 107 so far but i need that rat bastard unfortunately#gerry is my fave but my thoughts on him are so feral i would just end up screaming and keysmashing incoherently#so elias it is#this got out of hand ngl it was supposed to be a quick couple ideas but here we are lmao#girls when they disappear for months only to show up and drop nasty shit then dip again#im so sorry yall i swear im not ignoring the asks and stuff you sent my brain is just ass and wont cooperate#i have more thoughts on tma charas but this is all for now#if i can get my shit together i will post something for gerry trust
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Tango fits quite nicely in recon squad gladius despite hating the bos as a whole, and I think its because They have similarities to all three!
Like Rhys, Tango is very distrustful of outsiders, though their definition of 'outsider' differs. Rhys would define outsiders as anyone not bos and to a lesser extent anyone not in his squad, where as Tango would define it as anyone they don't trust (so nearly everyone).
Rhys and Tango are both also assholes by nature and no amount of time in the minutemen will fix either of them of this.. Part of why Tango and Rhys are so prickly is that they are so very protective of those in their (very small) circles.
They're also both violence as a first solution to many problems kinda people. [I would kill for you, please let me kill for you]. (Them đ¤ X6)
They also argue frequently and for the sake of it, it often ends with [Tango liked that][Rhys liked that] much to the annoyance or confusion of the others.. Both are also incredibly stubborn.
Rhys also rejects Haylen because he is so dedicated to the bos (how they say it anyway) so possibly Rhys đ¤ Tango aspec!
Haylen and Tango are both willing to break the rules for what they believe when it comes down to it, like in Blind Betrayal and its aftermath, though their beliefs differ wildly with Haylen having far stronger morals than Tango, though I think even she is somewhat biased by her years in the bos, you can't willingly live among them and remain unscathed by their ideals.
And like Haylen, Tango joins the bos somewhat blind to what they really are, and they later help each other escape together. While Haylen concludes that the bos are misguided, violent and not in line with their ideals (as presented to her) after years. Tango comes to the conclusion of 'raiders and with more firepower and brainwashing' after 1 (one) conversation with Tegan that gets them a misdemeanor within minutes of boarding the prydwen, to be clear Tango was making a observation that they probably would have kept to themselves if they had more than 2 charisma, they don't hate raiders, they've run with some in the past after all.
Danse and Tango both basically live in their armour, feeling extremely exposed out of it. both are skilled mechanically, though I picture Danse as more of a 'by the book' mechanic compared to Tangos 'its not stupid if it works', and 'learn the rules so you know how to break them safely'
Both Danse and Tango have a terrible time trying to talk about feelings, and they (headcanon) find it easier if they are doing something while they talk, for example traveling, repairing something, or in Tango's case, cooking.
Both have identity crises about not / no longer being human, just on opposite sides of the revelation. Danse feels like his whole identity has been torn from him in that moment, where as Tango abandons their old identity, embracing their new robotic status with relief..
They've both built up so many emotional walls to protect themselves after the traumatic deaths of close friends by their hands. Danse killed Cutler because it was right, he was suffering, it didn't matter how he felt about it; where as Tango kills Bones out of selfish false perceived self-preservation born of their deeply rooted expectation to be betrayed. Both are irreparably changed by these events, and often wonder what could have been different..
intentional or not Danse is so relatable autism coded to me so Tango đ¤ Danse
#secondhand your post about being oc-pilled when I've got important things to do is SO relevant to this aaaa#there is very extremely likely a lot of headcanon influencing how I am seeing them all so#for context Tango accidentally recruits all three to the mm at varying points- Rhys is less than cooperative though#I'm also sure I'm forgetting some of Tango and Haylen's similarities#This tweaked cannon / au has been firmly lodged in my brain for ages now so expect more! and actual writing! also a new tag ->#Typos! tangoverse#<- at least until I acquire a more suitable title#typos! tango tag#typos! is posting again#not putting in tags cause there's so much headcannon in this
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Romanceable - Quest Giver - Final Boss
#ffxiv#gpose#npc meme#oc#tsukiko date#camilla lunae#i didnt have any pics really that fit the meme beforehand but it was fun making gposes that fit them anyways#it also gave me an excuse and some inspiration to actually work more on Tsu's enshroud so thats also a bonus#I simply hold up a picture of my gal like a kid holds up a picture to their parents#I promise I can make content of her when my brain isnt being rattled by Zenos brainrot lmao#--dont mind atticus being dumb in the background and regent being exasperated in the background--#this is a normal occurance between them#I also --totally-- didnt almost nuke myself out of my game trying to get nightbloom to cooperate with the boss photo#nope#it was nice and friendly trying to work with the vfx
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Space
RJ couldn't believe Richard had finally agreed to come with him. For someone who used to float everywhere- still did, sometimes- he sure seemed to like to keep his feet on the ground. But now he was finally letting his partner take him to see the Rexcelsior.
RJ had to take a few minutes to collect himself again. As excited as he was to FINALLY get to share this with Richard, he was bound to make mistakes. Space was amazing, but could be deadly for those who failed to properly prepare to visit it.
So he forced himself to slow down as he made his pre-flight check on the Rex-wing. He inspected the small ship thoroughly. She had to be in absolutely tip-top shape to ensure Richard's safety. He would settle for nothing less. Finally satisfied that she was as sound as ever, he gave her wing a fond pat and went to go find Richard.
He grinned when he spotted Richard already suited up and ready to go. "You have to promise not to peek." He insisted. "Don't open your eyes until I say to!"
Richard rolled his eyes, but he was smiling too. "I promise." He vowed. He let RJ help him into the passenger seat of the Rex-wing, then closed his eyes. The small ship rocked a bit as RJ climbed in on the other side. Soon after she hummed to life. Richard drew in a sharp breath and clenched his fists as he felt the ship lift off the ground. "Easy, babe." He heard RJ chuckle. "Just relax. You're perfectly safe with me." Richard huffed softly, but did as asked.
The wait seemed to drag on forever. Richard had no idea how much time had passed since RJ had first started the engine. He kept his eyes shut and refrained from asking though.
RJ finally decided the time was right. "Okay, you can open your eyes now."
Richard did. He could see the Rexcelsior, though it seemed no bigger than a quarter from this distance. His field of view was otherwise taken up by the starry expanse around him. "I think I can see why you like it so much up here, now." He spoke softly. "The stars really are even more beautiful up close."
RJ puffed up with pride, clearly pleased that he had impressed Richard. "Hey, if you think this is impressive, just wait til you see the Rexcelsior up close!" Richard only smiled in response.
@askthechronoverse
#I was about halfway through writing this when I realized I have no idea whether Richard's already been to space or not. Oh well.#I wanted to do another drawing but this was all I could get my brain to cooperate on.#Glad I managed to fill one more prompt though at least.#raptorclip week 2024#fiction
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trying to not crash out over my meal plans for the rest of the month being ruined. the autism is testing me today.
#yesterday my groceries came and my bread was already past its best-before#so i decided to freeze it (this is big for me because its the first time i was able to get my brain to cooperate with it being 'safe' to do#and then today. i go to have a sandwich. and the was mold in my fucking butter............. i really hope it was only there today#because i did have sandwiches yesterday#but its really frustrating because i had meals!! planned!! that need butter!!!!!!!#and i cannot get to the shops because my legs are really bad at the moment#like i think i probably have enough food to be fine for the rest of the month.#and i have money to order more groceries if i don't. BUT. MY FUCKING MEAL PLANNINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG#this is why i never meal plan because it goes to shit too easily#like i do it when i'm ordering groceries like. oh i'll buy xyz for these meals.#and then it'll be like ohhhh sorry that core ingredience you ordered? yeah we didn't have it. out of stock.#even though you ordered it LESS THAN 24 HOURS AGO.#i just. its so frustrating. this is why i so rarely actually plan or schedule stuff. if never goes right and then i get more upset#whereas if i am winging it then. there's no plan to mess up :/#anyway this has stressed me out enough that i now have a severe headache and i want to cry. i still havent eaten yet :')
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I suddenly remember That you never told us how a meeting between Prime/Archie! Sonic and Fleetway (Amnesiac/Good) Super Sonic would go.
Also I want to read Fleetway Sonic and scourge reactions if They somehow end Up dating (I like Fleetonic and I need something to draw lol)
I imagine any meeting between Prime and Super would likely come after Prime has already had the misfortune of meeting Sonic, and subsequently had at least one (1) argument about Super. If the argument hasn't already happened by the time Prime and Super meet, it's definitely imminent. I imagine Prime would be a lot more forgiving of Super than Sonic is (partly because he just doesn't have the same baggage Sonic does and partly because he's just overall less of a dick) so he'd be sympathetic to his plight. He'd be much quicker to believe Super when he says he doesn't want to be that evil person who hurts and kills people for fun. Sonic would scoff and call him a trusting idiot, but it's not that Prime is oblivious to or ignoring the danger that Super can cause, he just doesn't believe dogpiling the guy about it will actually help his situation
Sonic's reaction to finding out they're dating would just be more "I think you're fucking stupid" or, depending on how not-awful his relationship with Super is, just a quiet scoff. He probably tells Prime that if he's soooo fond of Super, then he can take Super with him back to his dimension, but he's probably also secretly worried about Prime actually following through, because if anything goes wrong, Sonic isn't there to help stop it. Chaos energy in the fleetway dimension is fucky and corrupted; for all his bitching and "don't come crying to me if he tries to kill all your friends", Sonic doesn't actually want another universe to suffer from that corrupted energy. He definitely doesn't want the chaos energy in the prime zone to become corrupted the same way his was, either
I can't imagine Scourge has much emotional attachment to Super to care too much. Like, he sees a part of himself in Super, specifically in how both of their identities used to be tied to Sonic, but he doesn't like that he can relate to Super. He doesn't hate or dislike him, but he definitely doesn't like him, either. He just often ends up being the one Ebony calls for out of everyone else in the freedom fighters because he's the one with the least amount of history with Super, so Super doesn't put him on edge the same way he does everyone else. So if Super started dating Prime, he'd probably just make some snarky comment about weak-hearted goody-two-shoes flocking together
Ultimately, the two of them together will probably mock the relationship. They probably only find out because one of them comes home and immediately starts bitching about how "did you HEAR Super and Prime are dating now???" and then they spend an hour talking shit about them. After all, even if Sonic has warmed up to Super a little, he probably still doesn't trust him or is comfortable being around him, and Scourge is a stubborn fucker who won't change his mind about disliking Prime out of sheer spite, so neither Prime nor Super have much of Sonic and Scourge's respect
#sonic the hedgehog#scourge the hedgehog#fleetway sonic#stc sonic#asks#headcanon#fleetway super sonic#prime sonic#they would not be polite about it because they're fucking rude#prime and super are missing nothing tbh let them live in bliss away from these two assholes (affectionate)#i'd elaborate more on sonic and super's relationship but 1 i'm sadly not that familiar with sonic's characterisation in the archie comics#(yes i could fix this by reading the comics properly no i won't do that. SO many issues of that comic and i am. so lazy)#and 2 i feel like that would probably be a little too off topic for this blog#probably shouldn't spam the ship blog with posts talking about a different ship lol#the amount of times i have to remind myself to stay on topic instead of replying with unrelated shit when i'm answering an ask is unreal lo#i'm so sorry i couldn't make the 'scourge and sonic finding out' part a fic btw#i WANTED to but the writing part of my brain was Not Cooperating#i hope writing what few thoughts i could scrape up as headcanons will suffice instead#either way thank you for the question
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He's awfully interested in our [[HeartShapedObject]], is he not?
#that day when your hands dont want to cooperate with you to practice piano so you force them to do art instead#i think you can tell what side i put more effort into#ough spamton on the brain#deltarune teacups kicked my ass#deltarune chapter 2#spamton#spamton g spamton#spamton neo#kris#kris dreemur#traditional art#fanart#deltarune fanart#tbh my hands still were not working for art either but FUCK IT WE BALL
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i told y'all i'm a terrible multitasker asdf but tomorrow i'll keep on chatting <3 for now, i'm heading to mobile while i get ready for bed. pls have a lovely night and a lovelier tomorrow <3
#i might shoot another message or two but i gotta get to bed soon or i'm gonna feel like a lil zombie in the morning#so it's low priority until tomorrow when i've got some more time -- and hopefully i can actually write some proper replies too!#i dunno what was going on today but my brain was not cooperating at all despite having so much inspiration#anyway!! good night friends <3 mwah mwah!!#get ready to ramble | ooc
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okay listen. (proceeds to say nothing else)
#ray squeaks#mine#idk i'm#eepy#i wannaa sleep so bad but i just noticed it's 3 am just now#bc i was busy drawing a thing#and other stuff#but i went an checked ao3 an there's a new fic with the momlet in it that i haven't read#so my sleep schedule might suffereth more#cake in front ofme btw#in case anyone wants any#<- unfiltered thought that i decided to type out anyway#can you tell im tire#yea sure#super mario 64 file select screen plays#also i may want to actually get tested for adhd at some point maybe idk#just got reminded in teh middle of writing this bc#mind makes connections to other things to other things to other things#you know#holding your head so you look at my beautiful eyes#anyway what's this post about#scrolls up#ah yea#conflicting thoughts here. wannaa say i'm too tiredd to explin but i'll explain anyway#it's like#the post is bout when i'm#lost my train of thought in the middle of that#but yea it's. i'm tired so i can't think well rn it's not a common thing i think just#well i mean i do blank sometimes when my brain đ§ decides to not cooperate with me bc a thought is too scary or when there's#multiple conflicting thoughts at once that all cause a car crash bc they all drove without waiting for their turn in the crossroads
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i think i genuinely need to be medicated LMFAO
#el.doc#nurse gaslighted me into thinking that its jus me being sleep deprived#but the sleep deprivation feels so much more like the result of me being impulsive or self-destructive or also jus my brain refusing to#cooperate with me when i need it to rather than it being the cause#i . have an excuse to seek more help bc the nirse moved somewhere else anyway but im back in square one pretty much LMAO#at the end of the day i really jus wanna pass my classes and live without wanting to like smash my head against a wall or smth#hdlw
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#godd frrrr tho i almost forgot how much more smoothly my braincells cooperate when i smoke#it's still a dangerous balancing act to avoid severe hours-long panic and i def felt it coming on for a min#until anxiety brain decided it'd be worse to freak out in public lol. but once that got bypassed i am so vibing rn fr#i wish i could trust it more regularly again#it may wreck like the intellectual part of my braincells but it's not like alcing hol doesn't too and at least with this it mitigates rathe#than fuels the trauma rumination y'know#+ even if it doesn't make my art 'better' per se it still drastically lowers my mental barriers to actually doing any at All
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