#mun ranting

[blackbirdffxiv]

Look imma rant a second: this is why I hate queueing up with random people (but I also don't like using NPCs as a DPS because it sucks).

For further context, MY NAME is blocked out in the blue block, but I blurred everyone elses, while leaving the numbers showing to indicate who is speaking. Other DPS is marked with the (4), the healer a (3)

I just ran a quick dungeon so I could get arcanist to 30 so I could finally just unlock SCH and make my leveling journey on my alt easier. I had a queue for Thousand Maws.

We got a newbie tank, never tanked before, an astro, and a dragoon. Tank was not even level 30 yet, dragoon was dragooning, and the astro from another DC. Tank and dragoon? Wonderful, did their job; run was a bit slow but I was expecting it the second they said "hey there new to tanking".

I was fully prepared to be a minute or two longer.

The astro though? Kept running ahead, and not even pulling mobs, were just STANDING THERE. Not DPSing, not healing, legit just running ahead to stand there, as if they were waiting for the rest of us to hurry up and get to them.

And then when called out on their laziness, whined about me "pointlessly healing for them" when they weren't even healing to begin with.

If you queue as a healer? Then heal. Do your job. If you want fast dungeon runs? Queue with friends next time.

Don't make your impatience everyone else's problem.

[messymoonmad]

Sheer panic ( and voice reveal kinda ? )

MINOTAUR'S LABYRINTHE BE LIKE :

It's midnight and idk wtf im doing help 💀

[terraterrafunki]

Hey… It’s Doni/Nurigru again I just heard recently about this new drama that is happening and I’m just curious if you’re going to be Okay and holy shit what is happening

But yeah, I hope you’re doing Okay and I hope some the stuff will stop soon

But for now, I hope you and people who are involved with the situation are Okay

(by the way, can you pls recap what happened?)

Doni/Nurigru-

Okay so I was involved marginally only because I was harassed by the person being mocked here

So simon-the-star is a user who likes to beg for free art of his Sprunki OC. he did this to me a few months ago, going through the motions of guilt tripping, then getting aggressive, then making threats with no follow through. I ended up just blocking him and his alts

To my knowledge he is apparently 11 and too young to be on tumblr. Despite this he has harassed countless people, fetish farmed, tried to send his followers to mob people who didn't give him free art, and even deactivated his tumblr, just to make an identical one with the same username so he'd no longer be blocked by everyone.

It's pretty clear that he's a very disturbed individual who SHOULD NOT be on tumblr especially unsupervised given his appalling behavior.

Now as far as I was involved i had my one encounter that was highlighted and notified everyone that he secretly just re-made his tumblrs after deactivating and that was it (I also made a short parody fanfic but that was meant to be a harmless jab)

Today I get tagged by someone who has been tagging this blog basically any time Simon does something stupid to... actually I don't know why I kept getting tagged, probably to spread the word?

Except this time it was because one person, who is far more involved in pressing Simon-the-Star's buttons than the one who tagged me, drew hate art of Simon's sona being LYNCHED. (Link is the definition of the word, not the image). It depicts the artist pulling a lever which causes Simon's humanized sona to be hung. They're also bloodied. This is WAY too extreme for what this dude is doing for a number of reasons, mainly historical ones for what this is depicting. Though namely that lynching is tied heavily to racial descrimination.

It's gotten to the point where I can't tolerate what's being done by neither the victims nor Simon-the-star so I had to put my foot down and just outright say "This is wrong, you aren't helping him nor anyone else by doing this" and block everyone involved.

As someone who got suicidal hate art of my OCs as a teenager for "being an annoying mary sue" on Deviantart this hit home as something that I could not in good faith let continue, nor be a part of.

The best way to help simon is to get his tumblrs terminated so he can stop being fed into the cycle of being an underage "lolcow" because clearly this is not helping. Which means reporting his blogs for being too young to use tumblr, and BLOCKING AND LEAVING HIM BE.

Yes it made sense to blow a whistle on his behavior at the start because he had harassed so many people it was worth pointing out, though now some of the victims have taken this SO far they've done a 180 and become just as bad if not worse for publicizing his torment for everyone to point and laugh at. Not to mention using art to wish death upon him, WHICH YEAH THAT'S WHAT DRAWING SOMEONE BEING LYNCHED IS.

Long story short, Someone on tumblr is underaged and an art request pest, but victims took it too far by drawing them being violently hung and I finally put my foot down, said my peace, and am wiping my hands clean of the situation.

Yes, it sucks he's on here it sucks he's not getting help, but stalking every little thing he does, publicly admonishing him every day, and making violent hate art is fucking worse and does nothing to help anyone.

Do better

-Terra

[surrogate-fawn]

Just a little baby fever . . .

Ever since my mom died, that anxiety-inducing baby fever hasn't reared its ugly head. It's a major relief -- my life is filled with a lot less violent envy towards pregnant people these days, and it feels like I can breathe again. I guess a lot of my sense of urgency came from knowing deep-down that my mom was dying and I was clinging to the futile hope I could give her the grandchild she wanted so badly.

I guess that's just another thing I failed at in life.

But, gradually, the baby fever is creeping back now that the worst of the grief has worn off. Having more of a "life plan" with Buck helps, but it creeps back in.

I don't treat the prospect of parenthood lightly. I don't see it as getting a puppy or a new toy. I know I will hate myself for ever wanting to be a parent sometimes because I won't feel "good enough", like *EVERY* caring parent does.

But I still want a baby. I want a baby so badly it hurts. And it hurts seeing people who don't want or deserve children getting pregnant without even trying. Just another reminder that there is no true fairness in the world.

Having a baby is truly the only thing I feel like I'm working toward in life -- along with building a life together with Buck. But I still get impatient. I still want to hold a little bundle in my arms when they feel too empty.

[coeur-de-fruk]

Replies are now strictly limited.

Hey all, I didn’t want to have to make this post. However, I’ve been noticing a lot of people that don’t follow me start to be really weird and lowkey disrespectful in my replies. So because of this replies are now disabled (and some reblogs might be too.)

Ie: the previous post, I politely ask not to tag as ship and some people went against that. (She’s a minor ffs.)

Im gonna try and be nice here and I say PLEASE either block me or scroll past if you don’t like what I post, you have the free will instead of being a weird dick about it. Or filter tags! The function is there for a reason, I do it and so can you.

Anyway, that’s all I need to throw out there. I’ve got some pride posts planned so, take care of yourselves and I’ll see you all soon!

[wonderfultheatre]

Spicy RPC Opinion: Morality

I think there is something to be said when someone takes a canon character and completely gets rid of the awful aspects of said character.

I do not understand why people feel the need to feel morally superior that their version of Valentino isn't an abusive pimp that committed sexual assault. I've seen people feel holier than thou for their version of a character not being as terrible as the canon-compliant versions of those characters. It baffles me and while I have had moments I thought that way, I really see how erroneous that way of thinking is.

I also think it's extremely strange and odd to take a character like Abel and completely woobify and infantilize him. While he most likely died young, it's still weird to immediately act like he's a sweet baby boy who could do no wrong just because he was murdered by his brother. Just because he was killed doesn't immediately mean Cain is this all-evil bastard and Abel was just a sweet infantile baby man.

We are in a community where the characters are in hell or are from hell and even the characters in heaven aren't 100% good. If you can't look at a character with a nuanced lense, and write their flaws, why are you writing this character? Characters are going to be homophobic, sexist, and even possibly racist (of course don't actually spew hateful racist rhetoric in the RPC there are like 5 POC in this entire community we get enough shit), you do not have to play a good guy. You are not morally superior for writing Mr. Pimps-a-lot, the moth pimp guy, as not abusive. He is, he's evil. You don't have to write Vox as a not-capitalist white guy, he is. You don't have to write Velvette as a sweet influencer, she's not.

If you are uncomfortable delving into dark topics, that's fine but being judgemental of others who do, or freely write them is incredibly crass behavior and honestly not welcome on my blog.

Discussing dark topics in a completely fictional space where you have the power is healthy, a lot of people cope with RP, you don't know what life the other human behind the screen has had, and you act like you're better than them because your version of a character isn't evil? That isn't the flex you think it is.

Have fun in a community where it takes place in hell and we can talk about these topics, we're not 12, we're all in our 20s to 30s or older. Dark topics have a place here but your negative attitude towards those who write them doesn't.

[damian-al-ghul-wayne]

What do you think about Damian possibly developing DID/OSDD-1 later in life? What he's lived through is most definitely traumatic, even if he loves him mom and doesn't think of it as such. He's killed people, and most likely died himself, by ages 4-11 which is commonly when DID can develop, even if it shows later in life. I just think its such a cool concept that nobody acknowledges but honestly I doubt he would either for a while.😭 He looks up to Richard and we know he copes by hallucinating pretty often so maybe Damian just assumes that's what happens when you get older and those voices he hears have no other, possibly worrying, explanations :)

Sorry that was a dumb little rant

I GIGGLED AND KICKED MY FEET AT THIS ASK BECAUSE IVE BEEN WAITING TO TALK ABOUT IT!!

I do believe that Damian would possibly start developing DID later in the future due to his trauma! I think he looks at it as a way to cope, for sure, and now... I know I may make people a bit weirded out by this, but I can also see Damian using age regression as a form of coping. His childhood was shit. He never got to experience a good childhood, so I believe he'd have moments where he felt safe enough to be able to regress... for example, he'd regress when it came to like doing something for the first time that is usually meant for a child / entertainment. IF that makes sense. Regression can also easily come hand in hand with DID (at least, that's what I know of. I'm not a 100% expert on this, so please correct me if I'm wrong in anyway. Mun is also struggling with themselves because mun is like 50% sure that they have DID as well, but is struggling with it if that makes sense.)

I think it's a wonderful concept to look at. I'm always open to talking about it because nobody ever talks about Damian's mental health.

Since we're on the topic of Damian's mental health and its effects! I'd like to talk about how I think Damian would develop a personality disorder.

There's three clusters, and I think he'd fall into either cluster b or c. I've always played my Damian to have BPD (cluster b), along with a mood disorder (which is bipolar) because I think it really fits with how Damian reacts to situations in the comics. His mood changes really fast, and sometimes, he reacts out of anger. He's a very complex and complicated character, and I truly think the way he handles his emotions would be very unstable or explosive. Maybe I'm just overthinking it personally or looking TOO much into it, but I can definitely see him falling into that category or even NPD.

Damian Wayne really interests me because he has so many symptoms for things, yet I know DC will never mention it nor acknowledge it. That's also why I like exploring his mental health a lot on my blog because it's overlooked a lot. People tend not to care for it, which kinda frustrates me, I guess. Like compared to Tim Drake, for instance, people know he's struggling / struggled with mental health because they've shown that in the comics. With Damian, though, it's only implied. Heavily implied yet so overlooked. 💔

Sorry this turned into a big rant over Damian's mental health rather than what this actual ask was about.

But yes. I do think it would be really interesting to see Damian develop DID in the future. Or at least a personality disorder.

[eyesofcuriosity]

/ I wish to cease to exist everytime kid starts talking or refrencing dumb shit like Skibidi Toilet....Sprunki or Italian brainrot...............ik kids are dumb, hell I was a dumb kid!

But come on mates.........

[syst3merr0r]

Missing BanBan Ending Spoilers

So like

Are we not gonna talk about how at Bittergiggle's boss fight, he full ass relied on TOADSTER laughing to complete his evil plan?? Like come ON Giggle!! That man don't laugh for SHIT-

Plus once he got Banbaleena to laugh and they ascended, all I imagined was Toadster just standing there before looking to BG like "THAT WAS GONNA BE ME?!"

Anyway, secret Flumbo ended basically confirmed he's chapter 8's villain, and I'm not ready for it-

[blackbirdffxiv]

(non-XIV, kinda personal venting below I apologize, nothing serious)

So I have a love-hate relationship with social media; I don't mind using it, but I hate how some arbitrary posts that I find come across my feed somehow, whether its tumblr or twitter, but there's one in particular that has bugged me since I saw it.

So I use Ao3 to post my fics from other fandoms, I don't show it on tumblr because I'm not confident enough in my writing to post it in a way where people can put a "face" (digital or otherwise) to my writing because it makes it easier for trolls and rude people to find me. Not the point.

I use Ao3 a lot these days; I read a lot on there. I always give kudos to things I like cuz I like it when someone leaves one on my writings. It gives the happy brain chemicals, and makes all the headaches I had while writing worth it, and makes me happy that despite my lackluster style, people enjoy it.

But a few months ago, I saw this arbitrary tweet about how someone believed that a fic is only considered "adequate" (not their words from the best of my memory, this is based on what I remember) or good to them if there was at least 1 kudos for every 10 views. And for a lot of my more recent works, especially the SFW things, I'm lucky to get double digits with 300 views on the fic.

And now I can't help but think my writing may be bad because its not getting the reception I thought it would. I know, "write for you not for others" but you can't deny it sucks when people don't enjoy your work, or the ones who do don't show they liked it in some way shape or form.

[malusrecord]

[lightning-will-bovino]

[[So anybody who has a page blocker, aka "View Blog" button, is now having their icons blur and posts being tagged in "Mature" despite not having too graphic. So I got these on me.

I'm not a total NS FW blog but I guess this irked a certain "someone". Which ironic because I'm not here as much and only few have told me they are being harassed by this unknown all because they interacted with my muse.

Anybody being harassed by interacting with me or my muse, I'm completely sorry this is happening to you. You can block the Anons in the options (in the corner "•••"). Sadly this much one can do since I've heard they do this through Anonymous.

This won't stop me from continuing to Rp, NS FW or Not. Just a slow pace because I'm still moving and health issues (nothing serious, I just became a caretaker for more members in the family).

Thanks for hearing my...rant I guess?

Hope you have nice rping or browsing in tumblr!

[vxmpirehunterd]

UPDATE: A REASON FOR MY ABSENCE, A BRIEF SUMMARY Normally I don't make posts about my life but I think I need to give an update to all the peeps out there about my random absences. I don't talk about my life a lot due to the amount of dysfunction and heartache that goes on behind the scenes that drain my will to be creative, to interact with everyone, to even live. It's like every year that goes on, there was something in the background that disrupted my life and mental state further.

First and foremost I've grown up a parentified child taking on responsibilities not mine to bear with no say in the matter. Being forced to give up my own childhood for my own parent's selfish decisions. Then I moved away from my mother's to my father's. Which wasn't even better from 2014-2019 living with him was very terrifying due to his anger issues and violence whenever I didn't do things his way. He had this expectation for me to go to college full time while working full time and expected me to pay for my own college and pay him rent. When I stopped going to school to focus on working, he would verbally and sometimes physically hurt me. I had lost a severe amount of weight due to the stress and decided to move back in with my mother in 2019.

Fast forward 2021 my father died of cancer and my mom is in a custody battle with one of her many baby daddies and looked to me for financial support since she hadn't worked in nearly a decade. I had started a new job around that time but my mental health was drained at that point.

Now in 2024 my mother has decided to bring my elderly and sick grandmother into the household where we don't have a lot of resources and we really aren't equipped to give her proper care. But now the table has turned where she has finally got a new job a month ago and I am not working currently. She decided to dump the task of taking care of a confused, incontinent, elderly grandmother onto. Even though my own mother never had anything good to say about her own mother and I don't have great experiences with my grandma either. But we have to take care of her because "we're family." Gimme a break.

So right now I'm a bit pissed, sad, tired, and a myriad of other unpleasant emotions. If you ever want to know why Koji is gone all the time. Here is your answer. Family life bullshit.

But not to worry, I've been working on trying to get myself out of this hole I've seemed to find myself in again. Because I do want to interact with all my new followers and old ones. It's just that I've been recovering from deep wounds.

[wonderfultheatre]

A pet peeve I have...

A pet peeve i have that's purely just something that happened a lot in the last year while being in a server.

Don't let your character hate bias rule how you interact with someone else's muse. Not only is it usually blatantly obvious it makes it not fun to interact with you, especially if we know that each time you interact you're going to get super aggro at our character for no reason.

Like sorry just because YOU hate Valentino, doesn't mean your muse is aware of what he does behind the scenes and closed doors. The instant aggro is annoying as fuck. It makes writing with some people insufferable.

Like it's one thing to react to what a character does IN CHARACTER, but if I'm chillin' and you attack my muse, I ain't fuckin' wit you. ESPECIALLY by all means if my muse has no idea who yours is and or your muse is an oc.

It's annoooooying. It also like often times proves to me you didn't read someones rules or character bio because often times if someone hasn't explicitly stated canon compliance, they're canon divergent and as someone who writes canon divergent muses for fun because I have lots of ideas for certain character personality types or dynamics I think would be fun.

It's annoying to get your muse just suddenly hating on my muse who wouldn't by any means apply to canon or even know who your muse is.

Like my Angel Valentino got an odd amount of hate even though none of the canon events occurred (because there aint no way his ass getting redeemed otherwise), even sometimes the OOC response has me like "Bruh"

Respectfully don't interact if you can't read anything I took the time of making for you to reference if we are to write together.

[cynthiaandsamus]

(While reading Olympus I've been thinking about the philosophy of Part 2 and part of it has always kind of bugged me, like each Lostbelt seems more perfect than the last and we just happen to find some wrinkle to justify it being bad even though I'm sure a lot of people suffering in this world would take that tradeoff for some of these places, like regardless of how bad some of them are underneath it would be better for people to live like that even if we see it as 'unearned' from the outside perspective and it felt like the bad stuff was just tacked on as an afterthought to be like "Oh yeah blow it up, it's okay, it doesn't have the suffering of the real world so it's not REAL. And that bothered me, it read to me like the point of living in the real world IS the suffering, like if we somehow managed to cure world hunger we'd be the next on the chopping block because the unanswering weird force that decides what good history is wants us to keep suffering. And I get the whole "Kingdom Hearts is Light" thing they're going for with the best in humanity and all that but it just seemed so weird on a humanitarian level to be like "yeah this is fine" to all the abject suffering in the (Fate version of the) world.

And then something kinda clicked for me, I remember watching Apocrypha and that anime is very weird because I dunno about the novel but the anime makes it seem like they're not really sure why Shirou Amakusa is bad until they get to his place, like they don't know what his fucking plan is and just kinda assume it's bad and will kill as many people as possible based on that baseless accusation, but when they finally hear his plan for the Salvation of humanity there's no Human Instrumentality darkness behind it, like it would fundamentally just be good for everyone but they still reject it based on the idea that "If you hand salvation to humanity they'll never know if they could've done it themselves." now in Apocrypha because this kinda comes out of nowhere late in the game it just sounds like Sieg's butthurt about Shirou killing his waifu and basically committed to stopping the 'evil' plan they all sacrificed so many people for and makes it sound like people have to "earn" the right to not suffer and die for nothing which again I get the idea it's going for but you're still saying "Hey the world is on fire but I'm not gonna fix it because Shirou Amakusa's not a present-day dude, sorry Haiti, keep starving".

But I think FGO does this a lot better because if you apply the "If you hand salvation to humanity they'll never know if they could've done it themselves" moral to the Lostbelts something becomes a lot clearer, the salvation humanity receives in every Lostbelt is flawed BECAUSE it's not something humanity earned for itself, because it was something gifted by divine force and powers beyond the peoples' control and also because if they wrote actualy good places for us to blow up it'd be too dark to sell to horny teenagers but shhh. It's not saying that if we stop suffering humanity will stagnate, it's saying that the only end to suffering that will be worth it is one that humanity creates itself. Something that isn't human can't create a truly perfect ending for humanity. This also kinda bugged me in Apocrypha because they start talking about how human magic can reach the point of being soulblobs on its own if people believe in themselves or whatever and that's just not something applicable to real life since that power system doesn't exist and the idea that we can create anything like that in any sort of realistic world is hopelessly naive, but as far-flung as the FGO version of it is, even if it'll probably never happen, it emphasizes it's the only thing worth doing.

[nebulousmedic]

Generally I think DNIs are kinda useless and they dont stop anyone from interacting with you. But sometimes I see a blog that makes my yuck levels go so high that it makes me wanna make a DNI list.